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#i honest to god dont think i ever will. i honestly dont know how people move on and get other pets and just. keep on living like i
apathyfairy · 10 months
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#tonight or tomorrow morning actually is the 4 year anniversary of my dog dying and like surprise surprise lol im still not over it like.#i honest to god dont think i ever will. i honestly dont know how people move on and get other pets and just. keep on living like i#understand it like for some people it's part of the healing process but i just could never do it. like i just cant even fathom#i dont know that's not the point. the point is im having such a hard time because everytime i do anything tonight i keep thinking#4 years ago i still had my dog or 4 years ago in 5 hours i didnt know id be going to the vet at 1am and going home without my dog at 5am#and i just keep reliving it no matter how hard i try to not. and on one hand i want it hurt like i want to remember it just to punish myself#i just i just cant move on like it's just. i went 24 years of my life without ever experiencing death and then 4 years ago today my dog dies#in the most tragic possible way ever and then 11 months later my other dog who i had for 17 years since i was 8 dies and yeah still#not over that one either because i never let myself process that or truly grieve her because i had to shut that up real tight#or i would have lost it for real. and i have the most fucked up miserable tragic dreams about her so many nights a week#because she was old and had been u know. like old dogs do they just decline and that was impossibly hard to watch but at least i kind of#knew it was coming u know but like with my other dog. there was just absolutely no warning it was so sudden and it just ripped me apart and#i honest to god will never be okay again and then 6 months after all that i find out my ex died and only because after 6 years i finally#Finally decide to have the guts to talk to him again and apologize and explain and try to be friends and then nope he's dead#then in between all those deaths a super close family friend died and my grandpa my dad's dad died and like it's just#i had never even experienced death before and then all of a sudden i was engulfed in it and i just dont know how to come back from it.#but tonight is just. painful. like i havent even said his name out loud since it happened. i cant talk about him at all just writing this i#want to cry like  it just fucking hurts forever. and it should i guess.#and i feel so stupid because so many times i wonder if my cat even remembers them and i wonder if she misses them too and idk#that makes me feel stupid and emotional and im just a wreck but i should be.
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whyse7vn · 8 months
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KAWAII -
[ ot7 x reader ]
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SLUT CENTRAL 🤮
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8 participants - 8 online
jin: so i just raised a slut like???
namjoon: ??
y/n: RIGHT ITS INSANE
jk: ur a father?
tae: where the sluts at lol
yoongi: honestly i could throw up
jimin: if i raised jungkook i would not be taking credit for that shit just saying
hobi: you raised me up
jk: i’m the slut? ☹️
jin: YES YOU ARE WHY
ARE YOU HALF NAKED ON WEVERSE
WHAT IS UR ISSUE???
jk: jimin did it first
jimin: UMM EXUSE ME????
IT WAS FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY MIGHT I ADD
DONT DRAG ME INTO UR MESS
hobi: wasn’t namjoon half naked the other day too?
namjoon: this isn’t about me
y/n: whores the lot of you!
tae: namjoon the biggest whore
namjoon: again this isn’t about me
tae: ok mr automatic dick
hobi: who was the automatic bitch?
y/n: what does that even mean
namjoon: yoongi was the one talking about his tongue technology
yoongi: ??????
leave me alone wtf
tae: ur all nasty
hobi: be honest are you a virgin
tae: ME????
ARE YOU SILLY LOOK AT ME
hobi: looking
i see a virgin
tae: if anyone is a virgin it’s jin
jin: okay wtf not true at all
jimin: he’s lived for like 79 years there’s no way he’s a virgin lmao
y/n: i mean think about that one photo
with the comdoms in the back
jin BEEN fucking!!
hobi: #kingsize
jin: i mean what can i say
jimin: you picked up the wrong size?
jin: kill yourself?
namjoon: could we not talk about the size of jin’s dick please and thank you
tae: right pls stop guy me and namjoon are getting turned on
jk: it’s ok me 3
jin: what
y/n: what
namjoon: what????
yoongi: strangling jungkook gotta feel better than opiates i just know it in my heart
jimin: retweet
tae: bro said retweet 😭😭😭😭
his ass is NOT on twitter 🤣🤣
y/n: you are so unfunny it makes me want to punch things
tae: i’m so into that
y/n: burn
tae: ummmm?
y/n: alive
tae: don’t hate me cuz you want to passionately kiss me on the mouth
y/n: would rather get shot 450 times
tae: fuck you never speak to me again
y/n: finally
tae: guys i miss her 😕💔
WRONG CHAT
WRONG CHAT FUCK YOU BYE
hobi: wow
jk: guys let’s start using tone indicators!
yoongi: ur ugly /srs
jk: ok nvm!
jimin: and she said she said she’s from hawaii /srs
namjoon: …
hobi: do you know how to say cute in japanese? /srs
jk: i do i do i do
namjoon: please stop
tae: did someone say japan lol???
jin: when you said bye i had hope you would be gone for more that 2 seconds
y/n: he said japanese
jimin: idiot
tae: they call me senpai down under
yoongi: ?
jk: in australia??
tae: tf is an australia??
yoongi: what the actual fuck is wrong with you?
tae: did you mean astronaut?
jk: maybe…
y/n: you didn’t
jk: i didn’t
hobi: naur
jin: pls don’t do this again
hobi: naur i have to mate
tae: somone call me senpai rn see what happens
y/n: no
jin: is he’s gonna do something weird?
i feel like he’s gonna do something weird
pls don’t do something weird
jk: let’s find out!!!
namjoon: let’s not!
jk: senpai~
tae: nnnuugghhhhhhhhh 😫
jin: told u
tae: what’s up baby 😉
yoongi removed tae from “SLUT CENTRAL 🤮”
jimin: i HATE jungkook
jk: /srs ?
jimin: /srs
jk: FUCK
hobi: personally if i was to ever get hit by a car i would just get up and walk away
like thats so embarrassing
am i a pussy?
absolutely NOT
jk: hobi btw i do know how to say cute in japanese
namjoon: what if your legs were badly hurt?
hobi: namjoon idk about YOU but hoseok is definitely gonna walk it off
namjoon: why are you talking in 3rd person?
jk: do you want to know how to say cute in japanese??
i can tell you
yoongi: no
jk: k y ee
y/n: oh my god
yoongi removed jk from “SLUT CENTRAL 🤮”
jimin: did he just say that
like fr
k y ee?
as in kawaii
im not hallucinating right
jin: unfortunately not
hobi: i need a car
it’s time to hit a couple people
yoongi: talking to them kills me inside
jin: i’m here for u yoongi
yoongi: and you
jin: hobi make sure you hit him too
jin added tae to “SLUT CENTRAL 🤮”
jin added jk to “SLUT CENTRAL 🤮”
jin: karma
tae: sometimes i call the number on missing dog posters and just bark
jk: hi guys i’m back thx for adding me back jin hi guys i’m back did you miss me cuz i’m back now so it’s ok
namjoon: you bark?
tae: so they think it’s their dog trying to contact them
but it’s not
cuz it’s me
jimin: why would they think it’s their dog?
how tf a dog gonna use a phone
tae: dogs don’t normally use phones?
guess yeontan just built different 🤷🏻‍♂️
i mean what do you expect from a son of mine
hobi: he’s built different cuz you don’t feed him
y/n: LAMSOSOKSKD THAT IS NOT FUNNY AT ALL YOU CANT SAY THAT OH MY GODJDJDJDJJFJFN
jimin: HELP THATS CRAZY
yoongi: wow
namjoon: guys please
jin: INSANE HOSEOK INSANE
tae: ok that was not funny at all
i look after him
really well actually
..
i swear
i feed him
i do
jk: i believe you tae
tae: you do? 🥺
jk: yeah
tae: thanks jungkook i love you
jk: ok
tae: ok?
jk: ok?
tae: okay
jk: okay
tae: fucking whore whose the other woman then??
jk: guys help i’m really scared rn
jimin: omg speaking of that fucking mutt
tae: MUTT???
jimin: bro has NO stage presence at ALL
expressions lame as hell and all he did was run around trying to get camera time he looked a fool
hobi: dozen core
y/n: was his first performance pls don’t make fun of him he’s trying his best :(((
jimin: his best wasn’t good enough
tae: HE WORKED VERY HARD FOR THAT STAGE
jimin: it did not show
jk: bam could of done it better
yoongi: would of shit on stage
jimin: still would of been better than whatever yeontan was doing
tae: can you leave him alone omg
he was nervous
jimin: i’ll cook him
hobi: do you know how to say cute in japanese?
jk: yes
i do
namjoon: stop
jk: i can give you a hint if you don’t know namjoon
namjoon: jungkook please don’t talk to me
jimin: he’s losing it guys
y/n: lowkey hot
i love a man on the edge
tae: just say ur a slut
y/n: ??
yoongi: tae shut the fuck up
jimin: that so screams i have never felt the touch of a woman before
tae: how tf u think i made yeontan?
jk: you fucked a dog??????
tae: wait no wtf
jk: oh MH GOD GUYS TAE FUCKED A DOG
that’s illegal
i hope
OHMY GOD CALL TBE POLICE
hobi: that’s gross i’m gonna throw up
tae: THATS NOT TRUE HES LYING I DIDNT STOP PLS
jin: where is namjoon when you need him change the the subject i’m begging you
namjoon: i think i'm having a psychotic break rn
y/n: holds you and whispers it's gonna be okay
jimin: kill your neighbor kill your neighbor kill your neighbor
tae: GUYSBPLS BELIEVE ME
IM CRYING
SOBBING PLS
IM GONNA THROW UP EVERYWHERE
IVE HAD SEX
WITH A WOMAN BEFORE NEVER A DOG
PLS IM TELLINV THE TRUTH PLS
GIYS
PLS HWLLO
GIUSYSSSJSJJDD
PLEASE
y/n: can’t wait for the day it’s gc gets leaked
we will all be locked up
jimin: severing 10 years not even that bad if you think about it
yoongi: tae severing at least 25
tae: NOT TRUE
namjoon serving life
little drug abuser
y/n: be fr the worst drug joon has done is take 4 paracetamols at one time
jk: 4?????
WOW JOON U CRAZY
namjoon: no
hobi: caught namjoon sipping lean on august 13th 2023 10:45 pm
namjoon: no you didn’t
hobi: u right i didn’t
sorry guys i like to lie
jin: that’s a problem actually
hobi: i’m working on it
tae: work harder
jimin: tell ur dog that
tae: CAN YOU LEAVE HIM ALONE
yoongi: can you come over
tae: yeah
yoongi: wrong chat mb
and why tf would i be taking to you
tae: i’m gonna shoot myself
jin: who you inviting over yoongi omg 🙈
should i bring you a nda??
jk: nine dead animals?
y/n: no jungkook
jk: oh
namjoon: breathe in breathe out
jk: personally i’m worried if i give good head or not because no one has ever willingly asked me to give them head so is my head that bad you don’t even want me to try
jin: invest in a diary pls
jk: cant i’m lacktoes intolerant :(
jimin: lactose?
y/n: and the way thats not even true
hobi: the head or the lactose part?
tae: trust me bro ur head crazy good
jk: fr?
tae: fr
it’s so good girls afraid to ask
jk: girls?
tae: boys?
jk: boys???
tae: people????
jk: what people??
tae: you have like people ur fucking right?
jk: no?
tae: what?
jk: no people
jimin: are you expecting a rando to just to ask you to given them head?
jk: no?
jin: i’m so confused
jk: y/n
y/n: yes?
yoongi: no
y/n: ?
namjoon: moving on
hobi: you think tae’s dog can learn black swan?
tae: he has a name yk?
hobi: say my name say my name
jk: jung hoseok
hobi: thx
jk: yes
k y ee
namjoon left “yeontan ugly”
tae: THE GC NAME??????
WHO DID THAT
y/n: poor joonie see what you guys do to him?
jimin: bet he’s gone to see his automatic bitch
hobi: robot sex
yoongi: what??
hobi: cyber sex doja cat
jin: illuminati
jk: when did he become poor thats so sad i’m here for him if he ever needs ¥
yoongi: why would he need yen?
jk: who is yen?
tae: NO IM SO FR WHO CHANGED THE GC NAME TO THAT
ITS NOT TRUE BTW
MY BABY TAKES AFTER ME
jimin: oh no i’m praying for him ❤️
tae: IT WAS U WASNT IT
ALWAYS KNEW U WERE A JELOUS LOSER
jk: guys ur not being very k y ee rn
yoongi: i’m going to skin you alive
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ivy-diaries · 1 month
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‎ ⁎ ‎ ‎ 𓍼 ‎ ‎ ๋ ‎ ◜ &.&. THE IVY INCIDENT ep 1. ◞ ‎ ... ‎ ‎
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The intro plays, and Ivy appears on the screen smiling and leaning into the mic to speak. “Hello guys, welcome to my new podcast, 'The Ivy Incident!!’ This has been in the works ever since I stepped into the dive podcast studio when I came here to film the kpop daebak show with Eric so it's soo exciting to finally show you guys this project!” she laughs as the other staff there are heard clapping.
Laughing, she continues "so in this podcast, I invite my friends from the industry and we just you know, talk and share stories! It's a lot similar to Eric's but mine is more personal if you will because all these people are very very close to me and I've known them for a pretty long time! This episode is just gonna be me cuz this is like an introduction for all the first-time listeners who don't know who I am!" “So I heard Diane has some questions prepared for me, so let's get into it!” 
“let's start with the basics, yeah? Who is Ivy Jennifer James?” Diane asks her. 
“Oh we’re going back to the beginning okay! So as you’ve already mentioned, my name is ivy jennifer james. I was born in New Castle, Australia where I lived till I was five and then I moved to the US where again I lived for five years before moving to Korea when I was eleven. And in korea, i signed with bighit entertainment and when i was asked if i was ready to debut when i was 14 i think? I was like imma do it. So i debuted at 14 under both jype and bighit and the rest is history! And i'm here today hehe”
“What motivated you to pursue a career as a solo artist?”
“Hmm i think ever since i got into bighit, i've always wanted to be a soloist? I'm not really sure why but I always saw myself as a soloist for some reason. Even till now, if you ask my dad he’d say that i was born to do this” ivy laughs and continues “i think ever since i was little ive wanted to something in the field of music and performance”
“Was being a kpop idol your first choice?”
“It was actually! I mean keeping in mind that i started this since i was a literal child, it actually was my first choice. The kids at school did tease me for this but look at me now” ivy chuckles
“Who are your music inspirations?”
“That's a great question and I was literally talking to Jun about this this morning! I dont have one specific inspiration but i think i draw inspiration from any and all artists! I've been pretty inspired by the Beatles and Rolling Stone pretty recently and obviously, Taylor Swift is one of my biggest inspirations out there.” 
“Are you a sweet or savory type of person?”
“It honestly depends on my mood if i'm being honest” she laughs hard “now, im craving something savory! I'd kill for some fries right now oh man you’ve perked up my cravings now diane!!”
“What's the last song you listened to?”
Ivy laughs hard and almost tears up laughing “this is actually so funny oh my god the last song i listened to is actually a helium ingested cover of let me love you by justin bieber which yeonjun sung for me yesterday after a party we went to and let me tell you, it was soo funny!!”
“According to you, tell me 3 flaws and 3 qualities about yourself”
“Ooh, three qualities of mine would be, one, I think I'm kind I guess? Second, I'm somewhat responsible, and third and finally, I think I'm a human sized golden retriever because I'm very bubbly and very smiley smiley most of the time! And three flaws of mine are, one, i’m a big overthinker, i just rethink about every single choice or word of mine a little too much. Second, my moods are based on the weather…”
Ivy laughs at the look on Diane's face “yea.. My mood everyday kinda depends on how good the weather is.. That's why I'm not as fond of the rain because it makes me kind of depressed and I just shut myself off most of the time. Third, im a bit of a perfectionist so i expect any and all things to be a little too perfect.. If its not what i expect it to be, i just leave that and will not ever touch on it again and i know i should change these things and i am trying so.. yeah “
“okay, something similar but three things you like and three things you dislike”
 “I don't like these types of questions!!” she laughs “it makes me think too much to give an answer!! But anyways… hmm three things i like are, one, my husband” she giggles as a small blush is seen on her cheek “well it's true!! I wouldn't have married him if I didn't like him would I?” she giggles “second, i really love what i do so, my career and third, my loved ones! I love my friends and family because they've stuck with me through thick and thin and I'm really grateful for that!” she smiles and gives the camera a little hand heart
“three things i hate are.. Hmm lets see… one, people who do not value privacy. I've said this multiple times and i'll say this again but I do love my fans.. I love them a lot and I wouldn't be here without them. But there are some people who claim that they are fans but do unhinged stuff to get close to me. And like that's why I've sued some people for not valuing my privacy. I got hate for it but honestly I don't care when the privacy and the lives of the people i love are at stake."
"Second, coming back to a slightly normal side, I absolutely hate the smell of fish. I don't know if it's cuz im vegetarian but I always throw up whenever I smell it and third, coming back to a more serious side, I hate the fact that most people on the internet feel like it's their right to comment on us as celebrities or idols or as performers. It's so irritating that they don't even feel sorry for what they say. They don't know how much we over think it and it slowly becomes an insecurity that takes years to wear off.”
“Okay this is your second to last question and the question is, For listeners who may not have heard your music before, can you recommend a few songs that best represent your sound and artistic vision?”
“That is a really good question, oh my god! So I think my discography is quite diverse and I have a lot of songs for different kinds of people who like different things. So the top three songs that i’d recommend to people are, one, vengeance as its called. There's no explanation for that song but I loved making it and loved singing it so that's the first song and second, I have a song called lovers in the night  that i co wrote with seori which I absolutely loved and we had a great time writing the song. And third I think is, my whole album called “for us.”  which i wrote with yeonjun and its songs dedicated for each other and hence called for us!”
“Okay… last question, can you give us any hints of the upcoming guests you have here?” Diane asks, smiling knowingly. Ivy giggles and wiggles her fingers across the camera
“Well I guess I can.. But most of my friends have not given me exact dates of their free schedule so even i’m not really sure on whos coming” she laughs at herself “so that's all i can tell you now because that's just all i know so” she just shrugs as she smiles.
“That's it for this episode and I hope you guys enjoyed this. I'm so excited for all the things we have in store for you guys and I hope you look forward to it!! So this has been ivy so far and thank you for listening to the ivy incident! Have a good day or good night bye!!”
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⋆ priya says ˒ so this is not proofread so read at ur own risk lol <33 but if you've come this far,, please reblog with the bow emoji (🎀) so I know that readers are interactive and writers get the credit they deserve!! so lmk who you want to see on ivys podcast and any feedback tbh!! Happy reading!!
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this is an absolutely, shamelessly feral idea- but i hope you’re up for writing submissive, bound farkas in sexual denial 😇
+ no pressure to write it ofc if u don’t like writing for submissive guys!
i saw another fic by someone else with the trope of farkas gone feral from his wolf blood, and asked to be bound down to his bed to try and calm himself, he wears a muzzle that muffles his speech and secretly wears a chastity belt underneath 👀 And so i thought up this continuation of the trope and was hoping you’d write it for me (istg ur work is so good i have like it all archived) Btw the fic is called Wolfs Blood I'm pretty sure.
maybe it would be his wolf blood acting up that made him not realize his internal desires, how he actually wanted to be in this situation for sexual pleasure rather than to calm himself, but he slipped up. being bound to his bed, unable to tell anyone to release him, muzzled and strained by his chastity belt? It would be so unlucky for him to be especially horny and turned on that night. such a pitiful sight for him to be effortlessly struggling in his binds, hot breath escaping his muzzle, demeanor cracking. DESPERATELY trying to release his core from its prison; but just simply can’t. And so effortlessly turned on from the fact that he can't. maybe the reader (who farkas def has a wild crush on at the time) would be the only one awake at that time, only one hearing the grunts and near silent wails from the other room, the only one to investigate it, opening the door to such a sight 😳
being so clouded by desperation and denial, embarrassment and self control completely subsided him as an affect of his heightened wolfs blood making him so honest; he would beg the reader to help him through muffled words. He would have meant for them to release him, to take off his muzzle even- but the reader would have other (consensual) plans, determined not to lose this opportunity to make the oh so strong farkas SOB.
( I honestly didn't plan on making the trope so descriptive but I think I had a little too much fun- still dont really know how you're supposed to request things here.. Nevertheless id b so happy if u could use it 2 make a smut or something. If u don't want to, that's completely okay!!!!!)
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` 𖤓 . . . FARKAS.
First of all, thank you so very much for the compliment! I love seeing you guys tell me you like my writing, like fr makes me so happy.
(18+) I did do a semi sub! farkas fic not long back, but it just didn't involve kink, so maybe you'd also like to read that if you haven't. But as I said, it wasn't sub sub, ya get me? Idk. ANYWAY! Yes, submissive men >>>. Gotta love em, I just don't write it out a lot due to the fact most people like them dom (tell me if I'm wrong). So hell, yeah. I love this idea, and the idea from the fic you told me about (I haven't ever read it though). But I have once read a few anime character fics that work along the same lines so I am familiar with the whole 'in a rut and can't control self' thing, and I love it. :D
So credits to the op who wrote that fic, I don't want to steal that person's idea, of course.
I will try and make this as gender neutral as possible, but there may be mentions of a female bodied reader, I'm sorry if I do and that makes you feel uncomfortable, I adore you all. And enjoy!
18+ only! Sexual content ahead, minors dni!!
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Hours. That's what it felt like. Fingertips burning as he tugs at the restrains, trying to find some release. It's not working. Eyes glazed over with frustration and desire, his blood is burning through his skin, he's counting down the hours until this...curse...wares off. Hoping the ache in his body subsides, so he can feel normal again. The ceiling grows misty from his lack of vision as he pushes his hips up, feeling the metal of the chastity belt rub against his needy flesh.
Gods, he needed release.
Whining and grunting as he aims to gain as much friction as possible yet it isn't enough. Feeling the hardness of his cock strain against the solid metal stings as it grows tighter against his skin, fuck it hurts.
Asking to be restrained but a few hours ago he didn't expect to feel this worked up already, he knew it'd be bad but not this fast. He feels his body changing each rut he falls into and since meeting... someone. He's noticed his desires increase until it hurts, now he's completely feral as he attempts to grind his restrained cock against the belt, all while thinking of you.
He wants you so fucking bad its driving him crazy.
You walk back in from a night's work, shaking the adrenaline off your limbs; wiping blood from your face with your hand, which is smeared in just as much blood. Cringing at the taste of the blood you make you way into the sleeping quarters, it's silent. Not wanting to make noise you creep around, hearing noise from Farkas' room you freeze slightly, hoping maybe he could help you with some clothes as you didn't want to wake anyone up making a ruckus to get a change of clean clothing.
This had became a routine, as Farkas stayed up late at night he became the person you'd go to if you needed anything after a late night job. In reality the night time was the only time you had Farkas to yourself, enjoying his company uninterrupted and without eyes watching, where you could be yourselves. You found Farkas more comfortable in speaking around this time.
Slowly opening the door the heat hits you, taking your breath slightly at the sheer temperature in the room, Farkas felt you by the door. He could smell you and the blood that coated your form, biting down onto his bottom lip as he pulls on the restraints until it burned at his skin.
"Y/n.." By Dibella. His deep voice broke out into a cry of desperation, the sight took you by complete surprise yet something in the air compelled you to shut the door behind you, watching him closely as he moves his body on the bed, in an attempt to try and get you.
Walking closer you take in the details, feeling the arousal seep through your veins, it was intoxicating as the heat from his body radiated through the entire room. "S-Stop..." "Stop what?" You reply as you watch the sweat on his heaving chest, the way his stomach sucks in as you grow closer, how his back arches, his thighs cling together, tight and muscular. "You're making it worse." He barely growls out, whines passing his mouth as he falls back, watching you with dozy eyes. "Do you need help, puppy?" "Don't tease me." Inside he was begging, pleading and the way his hips push up tells you exactly just that.
Smirking, you begin to realise the power you hold in this situation. He's ready, hot and looking at you with needy eyes, all for you to play with. He notices your smirk, the way you snake your way onto the bed, watching his body as he shakes from not only the rut but now you too. He's always wanted this.
He just didn't realise how badly.
Slowly taking off your armour, he watches with bated breath. "Tell me, do you need help?" You ask again, he watches the blood drip across your naked form as you take ahold of his legs, parting them between you as he lifts himself up, he could cum alone at the sight and smell of you.
"Y/n-" "Farkas. Yes or no. Do you need help?" You cut him off, eyes sharp as he gulps with a nod, "Use your voice, puppy." You smile gently, almost innocently as you rub your hands up his muscular thighs, tugging at the straps of the belt he wiggles his hips up, wanting to be freed.
"Yes. Please. F-Fuck." He hums out, his lip almost bloody from biting down. "I need you-" Farkas whimpers out as you lean up, running your hands across his body, squeezing at his muscles and his neck as he pushes his head back, "Fuck. Me ... Please." He chokes out between breaths as you giggle while licking and kissing against his abs and v-line. "Patience, puppy." He had none. He had been wanting, needing and waiting for too long. He needed release.
You knew this. You decided to take advantage of it instead. So cruel.
"I can't-" "Ah-Ah." You smack his thigh, Farkas mutters a shy sorry, causing you to smile against his skin, "Good boy." Fuck. He felt whatever blood left up shoot right down, his cock pressing against the belt and he swore it felt as if it were bleeding from the pain. Whimpering as he attempts to close his legs, you slap his thigh again, grabbing at the hot flesh as he takes a deep breath in.
Biting and licking against his neck, bruises litter across the skin, you lick up his neck as he moans out, your fingers tangled through the raven locks of his hair as Farkas hangs his head back, like putty in your hand he follows each movement and each motion you make. Hot and sweaty under you, his body laid out ready to be fucked as he whines each time you make eye contact in a desperate attempt for more.
"You're so impatient." You hum out. He only whines more. "Do you want me to suck your cock?" You ask, he moans out, feeling his dick twitch against the metal desperately for your mouth. You laugh out, looking at him as if he were weak and pathetic and fuck, he loved it.
Slowly taking the chastity belt off you pepper kisses along his torso, releasing his cock as it slaps against his stomach, hot and heavy, tip leaking and angrily red.
You couldn't help but laugh, leaning back and simply watch him as his hips jolt, his cock twitching with need. "Please." "Patience." You shush him, running your finger across his thigh, until it reaches to his ballsack, using your hands you tug and gently massage, he grits his teeth, his cock bobbing with anticipation and all you do is watch, eyes low and glued to his face as he watches with a helpless expression, panting for more. Rubbing your hand up to his cock, feeling each vein and the wetness that formed a string from the tip to his stomach, you form a fist around him, slowly pumping, watching his dick swallow your hand as he let's out groans and whines. Fuck, he sounds hot.
You wish to stay there longer, but your mouth waters at the sight and the sounds before you, but it didn't matter how fast leaned down to move your mouth because to poor Farkas it felt hours before he noticed you slowly lean down to lick the tip, gathering the precum on your tongue before you slowly take him I'm your mouth, your jaw expanding until it hurt due to the thickness he bared. "Ohhhhhh ..... Fuck yeah." He breathed out, louder than he expected. Biting down on his bottom lip to mask his moans and to mirror the pain you were causing in his thighs as you dig your fingernails into them, gripping tightly while trying to fit more of him inside your mouth.
It almost felt impossible, too big. Poor puppy is too large for his own good yet he shakes and moans just as well while you lick and press your tongue against him, sucking and licking while making all sorts of ungodly sounds, Farkas listens and forces his own sounds to quieten as he rolls his eyes back, leaning back onto the bed. Arching his head back as you wrap your hands around him, pumping him while focusing your sweet mouth on his weeping tip. Farkas moans like the good boy he is, "Please... I need to come.." He begs, as you rub and fist the saliva that oozed out your mouth and down his shaft.
Tears roll down your cheeks from the sheer size of the man, yet his tears where from pure frustration as you fuck his cock with your pretty mouth and skilled hands. "Cum for me, puppy. Be a good boy." You say lowly, he whimpers and arches his back as he pulls on the restraints. "Fuck - fuck." He grunts as you bob your head up and down, hands rub and please his cock and his balls as your mouth licks and sucks until you feel him pulsating, squirting cum onto your tongue as you groan, you mouth rumbling against him as you tilts your head, licking and sucking down the edges on him, licking at the oozing cum as he continues to moan out like the whore he is, thighs clenched into stone until he gives way, limp and sweaty, whimpering breathlessly as you clean him up with your tongue.
"Gods. I'm not finished." Tonight was going to be a long night. Good job you haven't fucked yourself on him yet.
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so yeah, heres the clarinette and lime story: (long post, its a short enough story that i can talk about it in one post i think)
about a year into lime working with the m34th, after a bunch of failed investigations and dead-ends when it came to finding mochi, he started thinking "God it would be nice if I could just get over her."
not in a bad vibes never-talk-to-her-again way, obviously would still be happy to see her again, but just to not have it at the forefront of his mind ALL THE TIME. so he falls back into his previous highschool mindset of "Maybe I just liked her because she gave me attention? Maybe I should just go out with someone to see if I can get over her that way. I never tried that yet, maybe that's the answer."
right around the same time, clarinette approached him and asked him (politely) if he wanted to get coffee with her sometime. they weren't especially close, theyd done a few missions together, but lime didnt know her very well. shed already been there a few years when he was recruited, and she (obviously) noticed him pretty quickly since he was so handsome and rose up through the ranks VERY fast. very impressive.
he knew OF her. and didnt have any strong feelings about her either way. she seemed nice enough, she asked him out in a very nice and casual way (gave him an easy out to say no, something like "I was wondering if you'd be free to get coffee sometime? Though I know work here can be tiring so I understand if you'd rather rest on your days off!", which he appreciated)
so when she asked him, he stood there for a while in silence, before going. "...sure, why not." and the whole room fell silent. she was NOT the first girl to ask him out there, and the whole times hes been there everyone had only ever seen him reject people. men going "Dude for real?!?!?" and women going "Clarinette how did you do it?!! How did you get him to say yes??!?"
anyway, when they actually go to get coffee, lime decides "Okay you're gonna give this your all. GENUINELY try to like her. Don't be an asshole." she tells him shed treat him since she invited him, but he rejects that and pays for her anyway. In his mind, its what he would do for mochi so hes gonna try and do everything the same. try to like her, he tells himself.
though the whole time she can tell he has a bit of a distant look in his eyes when he looks at her, so she eventually goes "...so tell me about her!" with a smile. and when he questions what shes talking about, she says something like "The girl in your wallet. She's special to you, right?" (very sweet vibes, not in a hostile tone.) lime says "Oh...I didn't realize you could tell." and after a long pause she goes "It's okay! I can tell you still love her, but...can we date anyway?"
and lime also appreciates this. honestly he didnt plan on telling her about mochi at all. dont really want to be talking about the girl you ACTUALLY love to the girl your dating, but clarinette lets him do that. she asks about mochi, and lime kinda rambles about her for a while, his eyes light up and he has a very soft look in his eyes (which honestly hurt when she sees this, but figures its a better strategy than trying to make him forget her entirely)
anyway, after a short bit of dating (maybe like 2 months?), clarinette likes him more and more and lime honestly....feels worse and worse. shes not a bad person, shes sweet and cute, but shes not mochi. and the more he hangs out with her, the more this eats away at him, and he finds himself missing mochi more. everytime he goes on a date with clarinette, the whole time hes wishing it was mochi there instead.
after one of their dates clarinette decides its time to (gently) confront him about mochi. he brings her up again in conversation, and clarinette goes "Lime...to be honest, I know you really liked her but...she's not here now. I am. So...I think that," and after pausing for a LONG time, says "...Y...you should focus on me more if we're going to keep dating!" (risky, she knows, but at the same time she wanted to TRY to move them forward. since she doesnt want him to be talking about his ex(???) the whole time theyre together)
and lime stands there in silence for a bit before saying "I know. You're right...I don't think I can do this anymore. I'm sorry." and clarinette is SHOOK. she didn't think hed choose his lost exgirlfriend (???) (shes still confused about what the relationship was) over her.
lime continues: "To be honest...I only dated you because I thought it would help get over her, but it didn't. I know you probably thought I'd pick you, but....honestly, anytime I'm with you, I'm constantly wishing it was her instead. And it's wrong, and not fair to you-- you deserve someone who actually wants you, so...I'm sorry."
"I hope this doesn't make things too weird at work, (mumbling to himself: I should've picked someone outside the workplace)..." and the whole time hes talking shes lowkey panicking. eventually interrupts him with something like "W-wait, you're not serious right? I-I was just kidding! Let's go back to how things were before!! I was being hasty!! Hey, they sell some good smoothies just down the road, you wanna get some??" desperately trying to backtrack, but lime is already set in his decision.
he tells her maybe 2 or 3 more times that hes serious, that he genuinely doesnt want to date her anymore as she keeps pushing, and every time he has to reiterate he gets a little more mean about it (partly to convince her hes not worth the trouble, partly because hes getting annoyed).
up until now he didnt realize she was the persistent type, who is his least favorite type of person (he likes the type of person who respects when he says no and he doesnt have to be mean to them). he didnt reject her off the bat, so in the moment he now realizes that he didnt know whether she was the type to take no for an answer (she isnt).
anyway, after this she keeps trying to get him to like her again. he STRAIGHT UP tells her he doesnt like persistent women, but she figures that if she doesnt try at all, she'll never have a chance period.
continues to bring him cookies and hand-knit scarves, invites him to amusement parks, etc, and he rejects every single one. next time hes talking to oscar, coco and taffy goes "See this is why I don't date people, I hate having to deal with this shit. Why doesn't she just leave me alone?! I already said no a THOUSAND times."
eventually he gets desensitized to rejecting her and it becomes a normal daily occurrence. not even a gentle rejection, he is actually mean about it (to try to get her to stop), but shes the happy nothing-gets-me-down type, so is immune to the mean-ness.
side note: after theyre not going out anymore, sometimes people refer to clarinette as his "ex-girlfriend", which lime is quick to correct because she was never his girlfriend, they never got that far. they just went on a few dates
side note (2): they never kissed or did anything physical. lime didnt have it in him. he couldnt do it. the most theyve ever done is she held his hand during one of their dates.
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What do you think of Fallen Leaves (as in, canon Fallen Leaves)? I'm pretty neutral towards him, but I'm curious to know what you think of him and why you decided to merge him with Hollyleaf. Also, does Hollyleaf ever regain a better understanding of Clanmew again since you mentioned she only half remembered it? Does she ever teach anyone the ancient language or nah? I can imagine kits begging to know ancient swear words.
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i dont like jhim
BANGER idea, wasted. Ancient ghost in the tunnels??!? He drowned to death in an ancient ritual?!!? He has been unable to move on for a thousand moons ??!?!?!?!?!?!
Idk make him a lonely sadboy or something. No he doesn't try to drag people down. No there's no ghostly powers or anything. No he's not like a folklore ghost.
He just lives in the tunnels and Is Sad. Lame.
Erin Hunter LOVES coming up with cool ideas for characters and then doing nothing with those ideas, slowly turning them into boring ship material and cardboard background cats.
"We can't just do nothing with the ghost, idk. Hollyleaf is the closest female character. Ship it"
Do they have chemistry? No
but holly is a Girl and fallen is a Boy so that's good enough. Have him (ghost) nurse her back to health ig, people eat that trope up, no effort required.
It also frustrates me that this random ancient Softpaw's death made the entire Lake Society consider leaving their very bountiful home. "Oo it's been a hard year or something. Let's leave everything we've ever known."
Broken Shadow being dramatic about his death is also... fuck it I'm gonna be honest, it's annoying. I hate how women in this series are always more torn up than their husbands over dead kits, I hate how they needed to make Broken Shadow "insane with grief" and completely hysterical to drive home how sad this one, random, singular loss is
Honestly, I don't think there's a single part about Jay's Time Travel Adventure that I like. I'm seriously trying to think of one thing I enjoyed and I'm coming up with a blank. I like the vague idea of the cats leaving the lake I guess fgsdfgf
So, personally, I think there's 2 things you can really do here with Fallen. You replace/merge him with someone for a stable timeloop, or you replace/merge Rock with Jayfeather for a stable timeloop. Without that, being in the tunnels for so long doesn't matter.
Fallen could have been in there for 2 years or 200, nothing about him is legitimately old to contrast modern cats. He was waiting for someone who no one has any actual attachment to because her entire personality is being a crazy-with-grief mother.
Hell, you could replace Fallen with a weirdo who hates sunlight and it would fill the exact same role as Love Interest Who Doesn't Leave Tunnel.
He has the bland honor of not being as bad as Moth Flight but I'm sorry. I would squarely place Fallen Leaves in F tier. You can definitely make an argument that the idea of him is cool, but somehow that feels worse because he could have been GREAT and he wasn't.
SO INSTEAD I merged him with Holly! Because making this unnerving connection between Hollypaw and the tunnels, catching glimpses of a strange ghost, and interacting with her mother when she was young and wreckless is FUN imo and accomplishes a lot more about her whole arc coming to terms with the lie.
Naughty god goes into the timeout tunnel to be adequately wiggled, indeed
And YES she does eventually get a better handle on Clanmew again, it just takes a couple years. And 100% she teaches some kittens how to swear in ancient Lakemew.
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im-657-mv · 2 years
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yandere alphabet mike wheeler
[requested]
-[A]ffection-
How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?
it can be hard for him to express his emotions sometimes
but trust me, he would do anything for you
he can be distant at times but he hates when you talk to other people
-[B]lood-
How messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?
honestly i can't see him doing anything remotely harmful to others
he plays more with emotions
so no i don;t think he would kill another human
-[C]ruelty-
How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?
he wouldn't know what to do
plus you're probably a crying mess and he's just standing there
just watching you
he would try his best though to make you "comfortable" by his own definition
-[D]arling-
Aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling’s will?
yes but i dont think he could if he wanted
he is an awkward person and i think he would rather just watch
and lets be honest here this man is clueless
-[E]xposed-
How much of their heart do they bare to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?
none
he just wants to hear about you
you and only you
-[F]ight-
How would they feel if their darling fought back?
pissed
not really like fuming angry just more of disappointed
why? why would you leave his safe presence?
-[G]ame-
Is this a game to them? How much would they enjoy watching their darling try to escape?
no
he just genuinely loves you
he wants your everything
and he wants you safe, from other people
and things
-[H]ell-
What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?
him kidnapping you
he would be physically dominating and would probably accidentally hurt you in some way or another
and he would definitely knock you out with a frying pan or something
-[I]deals-
What kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?
you safe in his arms, away from all the chaos in both of your lives
somewhere warm and cozy
-[J]ealousy-
Do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope?
oh definitely
this man sees you with another person and immediately his nostrils start flaring
and he would definitely pull you away from whatever conversation you were having just so he can be with you
-[K]isses-
How do they act around or with their darling?
surprisingly sweet
but quiet...
-[L]ove letters-
How would they go about courting or approaching their darling?
stalking lol
very protective and jealous
and kinda forceful when you actually go into a "relationship"
loves holding your hand too
-[M]ask-
Are their true colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else?
no
he's cold, jealous, protective, and easily aggravated
-[N]aughty-
How would they punish their darling?
isolation
he would probably lock you in his basement until you behaved properly
-[O]ppression-
How many rights would they take away from their darling?
the right to have friends
why would you want to talk to anyone other than him?
-[P]atience-
How patient are they with their darling?
surprisingly patient
-[Q]uit-
If their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on?
god no
he would hunt you down until you're by his side
-[R]egret-
Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let their darling go?
no
-[S]tigma-
What brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)?
the feeling of needing someone there
and also because of everything
he has to protect you
even if you hate him for it
-[T]ears-
How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?
as cold as he may seem
he hates seeing you in pain
-[U]nique-
Would they do anything different from the classic yandere?
no, just a classic yandere
-[V]ice-
What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?
you can definitely play up into being in love and gaining his trust
-[W]it’s end-
Would they ever hurt their darling?
no
he crosses many lines
but hurting you is not one of them
-[X]oanon-
How much would they revere or worship their darling? To what length would they go to win their darling over?
i dont think he would necessarily worship you
but he would try to pull you away from your friends
slowly but surely
-[Y]earn-
How long do they pine after their darling before they snap?
years
he loves you but he would hate to go to extreme lengths
-[Z]enith-
Would they ever break their darling?
yes but not on purpose
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ilydottie · 4 months
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happy new years friends and followers! i remember doing one of these when i first joined fanfic tumblr and i’m feeling nostalgic so i thought i’d make one since it’s been awhile and i have some (positive) things to say!!
okay here goes!! putting everything under a readmore to not clog the dash <3
@tighnarly — hi baby. my princess, cupcake, gum drop, bunny baby <3 i’m so happy and grateful to have you as my future wife and i can’t wait for the day we get married. i know i mostly post about my fictional fav (albedo :p) but you’re truly all i want and need 🫶🏻 everytime i write a fanfic i’m thinking of you and me. every word i write is a love letter to you from me. i know i’m not the best with words but i hope one day you’ll be able to see you the way i see you. trust me when i say you are the most beautiful and kind human i have ever met in my life, and i’m gonna personally fight everyone and anyone who hurts you 😗 anywaysss hehe i love you sunshine 💖🫶🏻
@neuvillettes — bestieeeeeee my bestie from the westie 🫶🏻 i’m so glad we met and connected online bc now we legit our roommates and it’s so fun 😭🤚🏻 like i legit dont know how to tell you how much our friendship means to me. ur fr that one person that just GETS me. you’re so kind and funny and fun to be around, but i also love that ur not afraid to be honest with me, especially when i need that tough love approach. i love you oh so much bestie 💖 oh and thank you for the art tablet i literally am still screaming over it hehe.
@suyacho — my beloved bestie 🫶🏻 there is no one i love rambling about my selfship thots about more than you. i love how i can talk to you about anything and everything 🥹🫶🏻 i especially love how patient and supportive you’ve been of me this year, because it meant the entire world to me. i’m so glad we’re besties and i can’t wait for the day i meet you irl 🫶🏻💖mwah ily bestie hehe me, kaeya, and albedo are smoochin u rn 💖 (platonic)
@auphelia — mootie sweet sweet mootie. it always makes me happy seeing you on the dash, and i especially smile whenever i see u in my tags whether it’s a fic or just a regular old post. i get so giddy whenever i talk to u bc u are fr one cool pal!! i’m so glad we’re mooties! and i have to say i can’t wait to see what more you write because you are very talented 💖
@fleur-de-leap — leap!! i know i am very sporadic with my messages but i legit get so happy to interact with you and even more so when i see/read ur art/writing! you’re so fucking talented in so many ways and every day it truly impresses me! when we made the server together that day it made me SO happy and i get so happy seeing i get messages from you 💖 thank you for being my friend through all these years, truly it’s been a blessing.
@shig-a-shig-ah — bestie!!!!! my BESTIEEEE 🥹🫶🏻 i hope u know u mean the entire world to me. i can’t believe we’ve been friends since the beginning of my writing journey, it’s wild! istg ONE DAY BESTIE, ONE DAY we will meet and it will be the best day ever 🥹🫶🏻 ily bestie mwah
@blkladyelle — elle!! my beloved!! it’s so nice whenever i see you on the dash, and i’m always especially happy whenever i get a dm from you! i hope you feel loved and happy this upcoming year and that it holds so much positivity for you. because fuck i need you to have a good year!!! i love you sm and wanted to let you know my dm’s are always open for you 🫶🏻💖
@nc-vb — mootie aka my fellow albedo lover i get so happy whenever i see u interact with me, and i want you to know i’m always rooting for you! you’re writing is so good and honestly you’ve been such a joy to talk to in dm’s, and you’re so easy to talk to. i hope this year good things happen to you, because you truly deserve the world bub 🫶🏻
@4izawas — bestie cas!! i know we just became mutuals but u are legit one of the coolest people on this app! ur writing is fucking god tier and you are legit one of the funniest fuckers i know 😭💖 can’t count the amount of times u’ve made me giggle from something u said 🤭 i’m manifesting that aizawa confesses his love to u this year!!! 💖
if you’re not listed here it’s purely either because i forgot or we didn’t talk too much this year. so, please don’t take it personally if i didn’t include you!! i love all me mooties 🫶🏻💖
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Sorrel imma listen to each song and the playlist and give my take! I wanna see how close or off or just any feedback tbh! For funzies! LMAO The first song is JUST THE VIIIBE FOR THE SHOW OVERALL <33
YOU ACTUALLY WENT THROUGH EVERYTHING honestly im so giddy over this. I'LL PUT MORE SPECIFIC THOUGHTS under the readmore, BUT U WERE PRETTY SPOT ON DUDE!!!
arrival - totally for the vibe. Just sounds like them to me daydream in blue - originally this was more so about rick/diane and how rick (badly)copes with her loss. BUT HONESTLY your interpretations centering morty's disillusionment ARE ALSO REALLY NEAT and i cant believe i didnt think of that sooner hehe i think it might be hell - YUP!!! mostly rick song but also has some lines that work for morty them changes - ALSO WORKS FOR BOTH OF THEM!! but personally i think of it more as a rick song snake eyes - I'LL ADMIT THAT THIS is half here for the vibe, BUT ALSO yeah definitely morty at a breaking point toy plane - YESSS EXACTLY!!!! i've been plugging this as a morty song basically since i found it. Very much about the dynamic between him and rick. TO BE HONEST i've never even thought about the "though this house is unchanged" LINES BUT YOU'RE SO RIGHT. RICK POTION #9. found god in a tomato - YUPPP very much their vibe. also makes me think very much about rick and just The way he is. his whole "i'm better than everyone" shtick just - YESSS EXACTLY THIS IS LITERALLY JUST rick being an asshole 180db_[130] - YUP just here for the vibe B) everything hurts - YEAH YEAH YEAH just completely rick's angsty sad miserable life no need for a leader - actually this for me is very much an evil morty song. specifically s3e7's whole plot starstruck - YUP MORTY SONG!!! for all his hurt feelings and protests, morty still obviously looks up to rick A Lot, so while he may be mad about something, he'll still go along with whatever rick wants fifteen minutes - THEM BOTH YEAH. here for the vibe cadence - this one is just kind of Rick and Morty to me. i dont even know how to explain it, just has their vibe. BUT I LIKE your interpretation a lot!! about how morty is aware of rick's self loathing and trying to kind of help him in his own way i'm your dog - YEAH. this is the most morty song ever to me. he really wants to act like he doesnt need rick, but he's also disgustingly codependent so the moment rick needs him, he comes running back. in the yard - YES!!! huge morty song. kind of has rick potion #9 vibes again, BUT I REALLY like the idea that there's some pressure to never mess up around rick, and feeling like his family prefers each other over him who is she ? - YEAH kind of here for the vibes, but also a bit for rick and diane! i don't know, i just feel like after searching for her killer for a couple of decades she might morph into less of a person and more of just an idea running on a treadmill - HEHE YESSSS morty doing everything for ricks approval to the point he sacrifices his own comfrot barbarism begins at home - YES about rick and morty's weird abusive relationship. morty not being "good enough", rick being a terrible role model/adult presence and not knowing how to be Nice call this # now - JUST FOR THE VIBES!!!! money - THIS ONE to me is about rick wanting to be better for morty, but having a really hard time stepping out of his nihilistic-asshole comfort zone. he knows he sucks, he acknowledges it, and he really wants to be better kiss me, son of god - very much a rick song hehe. specifically im imagining him in the era where he's contributing to the citadel's creation, but there's a line here that also make me think a bit about his relationship with prime (i destroyed the bond of friendship and respect between the only people left who'd even look me in the eye) birdhouse in your soul - just Rick and Morty and their relationship dungen - another Just for The Vibe song, BUT YEAH works well as a "throwback to the "good" ol' days" interpretation too drunk to come - YEPPPP RICK SONG ALL THE WAY BABY nugget killer - i'll be honest i also have no idea what this song says or means But it just Feels like rick and morty to me. i can feel it in my bones glue - YUHHHH MORTY ABOUT RICK YEOP YEP YEP YEOP oulala - YEP rick and his whole attachment and substance abuse issues two weeks - YEAH. their whole relationship
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Hi I dont really remember your ocs but I really want to meet them! Who is right now on the radar? or maybe who is your fave? can you tell me something about them in a few sentences?
hiii! so there's a couple groups of them:
saints for girls: my fake little emo band, they have the most information publicly available about them: if you check out the blog and take the "which character are you" quiz, they have little descriptions at the end :)
my muses' muse: this is the story of two of my characters, aster blake and lilah medina. aster is a horror-obsessed painter in their late 20s. they're generally pretty anxious, not very talkative, and they don't trust very easily. most of their paintings stem from dreams, most of which are about their own death (very cute, very fun). lilah is a 35* year old multidisciplinary artist, she does a fair amount of painting + printmaking + drawing. she's much more charismatic than aster, but she's EXTREMELY guarded around people, particularly about her past. both of them are very stubborn and nosy about the people around them (though aster hates to admit it; lilah has come to terms with this lol). the two of them meet through an artist residency at the fischer house, named after lewis fischer, a beloved maritime printmaker who disappeared very suddenly one night before his final exhibition, and is presumed dead at this point. also lilah's a vampire <3
signals: jeanne, my beloved <3 she's the main character, very imaginative and sensitive, desperately wants love and affection but doesn't know how to actually get it from the people in her life, so she goes inside her own head instead. she wears headphones constantly for this reason (+ also i think she has pretty bad misophonia), which is how she initially hears God trying to talk to her
nimo, the techxorcist: i haven't actually finished a drawing of them, which is sick and twisted honestly, but they're in an alternate reality sci-fi future where generally society has gone really futuristic, but because of how much companies and governments use the new stuff to monitor and control people, there's a growing population that's gone back to using early internet era tech...which is now super haunted. for whatever reason, nimo can see and commune with the tech ghosts/spirits/demons, and so they travel around doing that! personality wise though theyre pretty standoffish, honestly they don't like people that much generally which is why they're so gravitated toward the tech LOL. they're also very imaginative though, they're able to problemsolve their way out of almost everything. almost nocturnal. very pale because they don't go outside a lot.
it ends with august: this story has been like assembled and taken apart like four times now so i don''t wanna commit to anything super concrete just yet 😭 but, right now, the titular august is an anxious mess to be honest (kind of a theme among my people i guess sldfslfk). he comes from a family of grifters (mainly his dad and grandfather) who fake spiritual and psychic powers and make their money by selling like, self help books and counseling sessions and that sort of thing. august, however, DOES actually have some sort of psychic powers, growing stronger by the day without him doing anything or wanting them (its almost like a parasitic thing, it becomes unclear as to who is actually controlling who). right nowww the actual story "it ends with august" takes place when august is 27, he went to college majoring in english + is now a librarian in a moderately big city, but has to go back to his small coastal home town because of some psychic shenanigans. lucky's also a pretty big part of the story, he reads as a sterotypical jock-y guy on first meeting, but he has a lot more going on. he went to college through a football scholarship, but had a career-ending injury in his senior year, and had to go back to the small town ever since. lucky + august went to school together, and were pretty good friends until Something Happened, after which they became really estranged...but because they both end up back home, they start being in each others orbits again and well...yknow
those are the main ones! i'm working on some others, too, mainly for the graveyard shift, but it's so not concrete at the moment that i can't even rly talk about them yet LOL. my favorites tend to change from month to month, although typing all these descriptions out made me realize how much i miss august and the techxorcist, so i might need to make art for both of them and their stories soon 😭
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Deity SoapGhost AU 🌬️ ( Heavily based on the tales from india my mother used to tell me 🫡 )
[ WARNING: Im not basing this off any gods, (like greek gods, roman gods, or anything) these deities are purely made by my autistic, imaginative brain so dont take them for real/serious! 😭 ]
[ 🫵 ALSO ANOTHER TW: Major Character Death (?), Suicide (please, give it a chance i promise 🥲) )
The Law.
A god can not walk in the world of man. In order for one to do so, the one must also take the form of man. The rules were set by the O’ Great One eons and eons ago, before even the first gods came to exist.
There was only one slight problem with this proposal, the god will not be able to return back to his or her place in the cosmos until his human life journey comes to a end. Without godly powers, or any memory of being one- they are left alone to face the impurities of man kind. Unless, someone can awaken them which is highly, HIGHLY, unlikely. It has only happened one other time. Since that was the case, many gods and goddesses tend to avoid any journeys down to earth unless it’s really necessary...
Yet.. two gods find themselves walking the face of this earth. And there would be no turning back until their human bodies perish.
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Ghost was the God of Souls, War, and the Darkness Deep. He basically keeps track of all the dead people- to put it bluntly. Yknow.. eat the bad souls, let the good ones go to “heaven”. Souls were his source of food, and because of that, he was despised among the gods. But what could he do? He wont die from hunger of course, he was a god, but still.. the pain of hunger- nobody liked it.
That was actually the exact reason he was walking the earth, eating too many souls, reaped them too early, the others had said. This was his punishment. He had to suffer the weakness of man. And he hated it. He fucking hated it.
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Soap.. (ridiculous name, but it was a nickname given by the other gods so he took it) was the God of Light, Fertility, and Healing. All the gods liked Soap in some way, he was ever so gentle, and made all minds at ease- so many gods were sad to see Soap go when Soap told them he had to travel the path of humankind.
He was on a mission though, to redeem a certain someone. He didn’t know who, but he knew he could count on Lady Fate, one of the highest goddesses. She promised she’d guide him to his person.
Lady Fate was kind to him. She places him in a small, sleepy little town in Scotland. With a pair of honest parents, who were blessed with a sweet, sweet, baby boy.
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PRESENT DAY.
WEEK 1:
Ghost was a feared soldier in the 141, always respected- so when some idiot put the most urghh.. SUNSHINY sergeant under his command, he almost explodes. Ghost seriously couldn’t physically look at the man, or else he’d get blinded by those rays of light emitting from the sergeant’s big goofy smile. He hated him. He hated Soap.
WEEK 2:
Soap was kinda endearing in his own way. Ghost started to feel funny, and by funny, it was just another word for, “How the fuck am I letting this guy talk to me.”
Honestly, Soap was annoyingly chattery.. Ghost thinks. (Is he?)
WEEK 3:
Nevermind. Soap’s constant talking actually kinda puts Ghost at ease. Ghost wants to hear Soap’s voice more. He’s comfortable with Soap giving him light touches, he likes Soap’s warmth. Wait- what the fuck?
WEEK 4:
Ghost is trying not to fold in any way. He wont. He cant-
WEEK 5:
Oh boy. He fucking folded.
That was it. Around a month and Ghost already was falling for Soap’s charm. It was like hunger- it couldn’t be helped. Every day it became harder to deny those feelings. He started feeling worried for Soap when Soap had to go on solo missions, he missed Soap when Soap was away for several days, he felt safe around Soap.
Ghost couldn’t fathom what kind of fucking hex Soap had casted over him, but Ghost’ll have to do something about it. Soon.
Ghost finally did something about his little situation when he saw one of the men on base hand Soap flowers. Of course, Soap accepted them with no clue what that did to Ghost. It made Ghost feel jealousy, the kind that felt worse than hunger, because the next day the man that offered the flowers were nowhere to be seen.
Soap had wormed his way into Ghost’s life, and now Ghost can’t fathom a way to live without Soap. It’s not fair, Ghost didn’t ask for anyone else- and quickly he learned that kind of mindset was called “love”. Something foreign and insignificant to him before.
Before all of this- before Soap.
However Ghost feared that feeling, that emotion that left him so vulnerable. So he hides it, even when Soap finally confesses he loved Ghost- Ghost stayed silent. It wasn’t he didn’t want to be loved by Soap.. its his own body, his own body telling him he won’t be able to control that hunger for more- Ghost has no clue why. There was one option he was down for though; waiting. Waiting until he was ready, that was the only option left for him, so he’d take it.
He took it too late. He took it too late. Soap was a lucky man, having many close calls on the field but always eventually returning somewhat unscathed. So when Soap actually crawls to Ghost with his own guts in his hands, it terrified Ghost. Ghost hadn’t felt what true fear was until that moment. A bloodied and battered up Soap, slowly making his way to Ghost, his eyes a silent plead for Ghost to help in any possible way to make everything stop hurting.
When Ghost saw Soap he had let out a blood curdling scream.
He found himself immediately beside Soap, begging Soap not to die. Because life was so unfair to him- the gods were so mean. Ghost tries to stop fate, that Soap was destined to die. He told Soap he loved him too. That he was sorry, sorry for every hurtful word he’s ever said to Soap because of his own selfishness. Sorry for thinking Soap was annoying or loud. Sorry, sorry, sorry.
But you know how fate is, you’ll never get your way. Soap tried to stay awake for Ghost, he really did but his eyes had never felt so heavy before. Most concerningly though, he heard a voice. A voice congratulating him- a voice telling him it’s done. It’s time to come home again.
Home.
Home?
Home.. hm. Home.. a home in the cosmos. As a deity.. of.. Light, Fertility, and Healing? He had friends back there- he was pretty sure.. no, he was sure.
Memories flood in. His mission was finished, his life as a human on earth has come to a end. He’d broken down the pride and stubbornness Ghost had within himself. But he’d broken Ghost’s heart too.
Finally Soap shuts his eyes as Ghost screams for Soap to hang in there, he knows he’s going home again. He wished so badly he could bring Ghost with him. But he knows its not possible.
Ghost holds Soap’s lifeless body in his hands. The warmth he was so used to was gone. The very reason to indulge this cruel world was gone too. And for the first time Ghost had cried, not because he was sad something he valued was gone, like a child’s toy broken. But because he’d never felt so useless before, so guilty before, he’d never felt so much self-loathing before.
He was ready to die right here, right in the rain plastered mud with Soap. He was so, so, ready. He didn’t care if he would go to hell, fuck just anywhere but here. Anywhere.. anywhere.
He wanted to go home.
Home? What. This isn’t right.
He hears the voice of someone scolding him like he was a child who’d done something wrong, but that voice was gentle.. familiar.. something was happening. Something was happening to his body- his mind- his-
For a moment he wasn’t afraid of death. Because death sounded familiar, like a old friend. Were the voices telling him to let go of this body? To “die”? Well there was only one way to find out.
Either he was just absolutely mental, or he was really not just hearing things- he places the handgun to his head. No need to be scared now. He’d be alright. It was a feeling. That feeling was telling himself to set himself free from the shackles of the human body. To become something more than just walking flesh. To be a god again.
Ghost pulls the trigger, and all goes black.
There was no pain or afterlife. Ghost wakes up on the floor feeling different, and with those same worried eyes staring at him. Huh? Same eyes.
“Soap?” Ghost blurts out.
The figure smiles, “Welcome home Ghost, thought you’d come for a visit.”
“The fuck-? I live here, what in the blazes do you-“ Oh.
Soap looks different as a god, but radiates the same soothing aura as he did on earth. Well that was comforting… and awkward, considering how dramatically Ghost announces his love for mortal Soap.
Soap must’ve felt the same way because he just makes a strange face at Ghost. Nothing ill-intended though. “So..” Soap was first to break the silence, “Are we like.. a thing now..? Or..”
“Hm.” Ghost hums, giving some thought into it.
“I don’t wanna be forcing anything on you!” Soap quickly adds, hands waving, trying to backpedal, “Just.. I think I still like you..” Soap mumbles.
“What if I thought the same?” Ghost tries, brushing himself off as he stands up. “Would you give someone like me a chance?” He scoffs. No way someone like him would be worthy with probably one of the most friendly gods in the cosmos.
“Then I say we’re together.” Soap declares happily as he takes a step closer, “Back on earth I didn’t even get to kiss you.” Soap complains as he lets out a huff of annoyance, “I waited YEARS, I think I deserve one now.”
“I.. don’t know.. Im not really a-“ Ghost starts before Soap pulls him in for a kiss.
“You wait too much.” Soap says after the kiss. Grinning dopily, the exact same smile that captivated Ghost.
“I know I do. You’ll just have to wait for me, yeah?”
“Yeah, you know I will. For centuries and centuries.” Soap says as he peppers Ghost with kisses again.
And Ghost takes it, he takes the love Soap offers to him because he deserved it. After going through all that fuckery- he thought. He deserved it, it was the one thing he deserved.
And he did deserve it.
END. ❤️
(Haahah dont mind me and my silly brain. I dont know if I like this one or hated it, but hopefully you enjoyed it. Feel like I rushed it bc I was feeling so eepy. Too tired to edit so ignore the typos or mistakes ok ok gn yall 🥱)
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ryantryinx · 5 months
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Tag Game Wednesday! ( OMFG AND ITS STILL WEDNESDAY ) Tagged by @mickeysgaymom and @juliakayyy - You both are the best, I've been so AFK i'm surprised people remember I exist. Holidays got me stressed and depressed -
which character from any media would you like to have as a father?: Joel Miller from The Last Of Us. That man would burn the world to the ground to see you safe.
if money, laws, time, and effort were no object, what animal would you want to have?: A duck, I've wanted a house duck for a long time. Once I actually have a house to keep it in. I will have.
what is your Chinese takeout order?: BBQ short ribs, Crab rangoons
what's your favourite emoji?: Ugh.....I dont use them often, probably <3
would you rather have a library, greenhouse, or home theater in your house?: GREENHOUSE, literally is my only home goal is I must have room for a greenhouse. I am plant dad.
what childhood tv show do you think of the most fondly?: Blues Clues, I may or may not have Mr.Salt, Mrs.Pepper, and Paprika shakers on my oven......and yes Im almost 30. Fuck you don't judge me.
what was your tumblr like when you first joined?: Honestly the same as it is now? Tumblr hasn't really changed. People always been pretty chill.
what clothing style do you love but don't feel compelled to replicate yourself?: Lolita, I've always been fascinated with how cute it is. Just not on me......
if you were plopped into a fictional world, which one would you know the layout of the best?: Middle Earth and the MCU.
what is your favourite piece of art?: Um....Probably this lord of the rings poster my friend made me for my birthday that has a misspelling in it. 6 people looked at it before printing and no one caught it. I love it 1000% more because now its funny as well. it says ' Breafast ' instead of breakfast
do you have a water bottle? what does it look like?: Um....kinda? Do I have a bottle I carry around daily? YES. Is there ever water in it? Fuck no. Usually some sort of tea or energy drink.
what fanfic trope is a quiet fav?: God this one is hard.... Probably enemies to lovers. Mostly anything ' taboo '
do you carry a daily bag? what does it look like? what's the weirdest thing in it?: I carry a sage green canvas bag. It has a trans/pride pin and my pronoun pin on the outside. The weirdest thing in it atm? Probably a half eaten bag of beef jerky? I'm a teacher and I keep a snack in my bag at all times. ATM its jerky. Just incase lunch sucks one day.
If you had to ship Mickey with another Gallagher, who would it be?: Um.....no. The real answer is Mickey wouldn't be with any other Gallagher. Only Ian. The end
what is a fanfic trope you didn't expect to like and then very much did?: Fluff, its the cute cringe sometimes. Like thats not fucking realistic, but some do it right.
Do you think s11 Mickey can still carry s11 Ian?: Absolutely, Mick may be short but have you seen his arms? Man's bustin'. While Ian would pitch a fit about being ' too heavy ' and wouldn't let Mickey do it unless it was needed. Mickey knows he can easily.
who got custody of the killing bat when they sold the house?: Carl; totally takes it to the ' new alibi ' and threatens people with it. I want my answer to be Mickey. Though let's be honest our boy don't need a bat. He's got a glock in the drawer. Tagging anyone who is interested? I haven't been consistently on tumblr lately that I wanna bug people by tagging them randomly. But if you see this and you want to please do!~
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please tell me about jod and the people he pisses off, I have to know why that post was so relatable for him - @pretend-pretend-vampire
Okay so the first thing you need to know about Jod is he actually spells his name/psuedonym God, you know, like Christian Capital G God, I just tag and spell his name the way he has decided it is phonetically pronounced (Jod) because that is a lot less confusing The second thing you need to know about Jod is he just doesn't know when to stop committing to the bit. Ever. Its a defense mechanism so other kindred dont find out about the actual things he cares about. Such bits include -talking about the coterie ventrue's very real wife who is for sure alive and a woman and is also for sure cheating on him (for context said ventrue is a gay man who as far as Jod knows has never had a wife) -some fucking how convincing the whole ass fucking prince that the moon turning green is a sign of gehenna. This is based on literally nothing and gonna be honest Jod didnt think he would be taken seriously about that one. Hopefully the moon never turns green or shit is gonna Get Bad! -consistently changing his story about who he is or who he used to be in increasingly unbelievable detail -keeps attempting to steal library books, not for any nefarious purposes he just thinks its funny that literally everyone will try to explain that he really does not need to do that and thats not how libraries work -confidently declaring that the coterie tremere really really wants to find mothman and that he is going to Help. She does Not want to find mothman. Not Even A Little Bit -speaking of said tremere he also keeps trying to watch ancient aliens in her haven. She Does Not Approve -keeps implying that theres something super dangerous or secret in his haven and thus no one else is allowed to go in there, there honestly isn't but also one of the other players follows me on here so dm me for more info on that one -Vriska Serket Is A Real Kindred Who Is Real And Exists And Is A Threat And You Should Tell The Sheriff About Her Because He Would Never Believe Me, A Clearly Intoxicated Malkavian -Extremely inappropriate outfits Always. The only thing between this man and wearing assless chaps and booty shorts that say "this is not a place of honor" on the ass to elysium is the rest of his coterie still trying to keep a shred of dignity oh also he has an alcohol problem. Gonna be honest I dont think that would piss anyone off by itself necessarily but it also means that he's generally not considering the conses that could quence in very high pressure social situations so even if he is not committed to a bit in a specific moment and is actually trying to Be Serious For Real he is not exactly eloquent or polite about it!!! This is Very Bad when dealing with the camarilla!! Like he gets some leeway on account of the divine madness but not quite enough to make up the difference. But He Hasnt Met The Final Death Over It yet So Its Fine Do Not Worry About It
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chompskysssalad · 15 days
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i think mental illness is not talked about nearly enough in this niche subset of the undertale community.
and i mean about a few folks! specifically rurik, goth, palette, and lotus.
rurik first cos hes my babygirl 💙 rurik has been confirmed to have ptsd. thats a life altering disorder. one cannot just take some pills and be rid of it like you can with some ear infection.
ptsd is a serious disease, and i think instead of it being swept under the rug, it should become a forefront of his character. i want to see him recover. genuinely recover and not just some "he just got over it " bs ykno? i want to know how it makes him feel, i want to see the decisions he makes because of the disorder. how does this illness change him as a person. we do not see much of that regarding his character.
lotus next bc hes my second babygirl 😋. i cant speak on his "cannon" disorder partly because nekophy rarely talked about him as a character (often resulting in folks having to interpret him on their own, and often being... wrong. looking at all the fellpoth folks from the years of 2017 to 2019) and partly becaue she deleted her original account with 95% of her lotus asks. but what i can dig up is he was abused growing up by f!geno and f!reaper. i can dig up that canonically him and rurik had a rough relationship that often ended in physical violence from both parties.
how does this change him as a person? he is such a bland character if im honest. we were given a character ref and told to do what we gotta do. i want to see him fleshed out (although that will probably never happen!) i want to see what illnesses or disorders he has obtained throughout his life, wether it be from childhood or abusive relationships. how does this affect him as a person and how does this affect his relationships with people? that is a question i think we will never know unless you create your own headcannon for it.
goth next cos hes chillin... goth has always been seen as a shy, awkward, man-child who cant do much for himself. i think thats wrong and i dont mind saying that because i personally cannot stand his creator lolol. goth has so much... potential. he is the son of the god of death, he is no baby that needs his hand held throughout life.
now there is one thing i do like about his original character, and that is the effect he has on relationships. in both a poth and duelette universe, he is smitten and doesnt quite know what to do with himself around the people he has crushes on. i can work with that. i suspect he has some sort of personality disorder just from being in this part of the fandom for so long yknow? this is perhaps getting into headcannon territory which i will get into later (maybe)
palette my beloved, he was the first sans i ever laid my little 9 year old eyes on.... he is much more fleshed out as a character than goth or lotus for SURE. however i suspect that there is one thing that is merely. glossed over. and another folk has talked about it.
he's so autistic dude. not a doubt in my mind. i dont even need to put this in the headcannon section because its so hinted at (even if thats not what the creator was aiming towards)
his emotions, him being so "oblivious", just the way he carries himself... autism dude. and i crave it !! i want it !! i want to see this fully implemented into his character and his personality and his relationships. i want to see how this affects him and the others around him. how does due respond to it? what about goth? hell, even rurik? i crave this. i want more
i would talk about dante and due, but im 99% sure dante has already been fully fleshed out (psychopathy and whatnot) and im honestly.. not sure about due. they're great characters and all but my autism laser pointer is directly on the four i just spoke about (sorry pookies i love yall)
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Class 1A vs Deku arc literally undermined Deku's valid and noble reasons for leaving UA. Deku had trauma due to the war and had regrets about not being able to stop an incomplete Shigaraki. His fear of putting the people and his loved ones in danger after remembering what happened to Shoto, Bakutrash, Aizawa, GT, Nejire, Ryukyuu during the war was all the reasons he left UA. He already has lack of self worth due to being told worthless and useless and abused for 11yrs and when he became desperate to find Shigaraki it started to become worse with him not taking any breaks and all of this was before the encounter with Nagant . Watching Nagant explode and AFO's declaration only reinforced his fear and trauma and it's why he left all might. His state of mind became worse and he stopped caring about himself anymore.
However when class A arc started, all of his trauma, fear were thrown away. The arc painted Bakugou as innocent and an angel while blaming all might for Deku's lack of self worth when the person to really be blamed was Bakugou due to years of bullying, calling Deku useless and worthless, telling him to kill himself. The whole arc was a disgusting with Ochako and Iida agreeing with the trash when he mocked Deku. He also had the audacity to project himself on to Deku. Even Bakugou's apology was trash and Class A were just watching again. The most saddest part is that none of class A knows exactly what Bakugou did to Deku. They don't know that Deku's lack of not taking himself into account, his lack of self worth was a result of Bakugou's bullying, calling him useless and worthless. In the end the arc Undermined Deku's reason, his trauma and glorified his chief abuser.
The worst of it for me is what happened after Bakugou's apology which was narrative having Deku putting himself down and saying Class A were way ahead of him as Hero when they didn't do shit compared what Deku has done since the start. Then Deku Apologizes which was not necessary considering Deku was right to say they can't keep up. So what is Hori saying now? that Uraraka due her speech is a way better Hero than Deku? Bakugou is a better Hero than Deku ? Iida is a better Hero than Deku? Does Deku have to now learn on how to be a hero from class A when said class A didn't do anything compared what Deku has done?
Sorry for venting it's just i had High Hopes for the solo arc but am utterly disappointed with the story now. I understand Deku needs to share his burden with his friends but it should have been organic by making him realise that he Izuku (not Deku) matters and how much he means to them and that he can rely on them. Not by undermining his choices and reasons and especially not by putting him down.
Yeah the izuku solo/vigilantes arc had so much potential and hori did throw it out of the window! But honestly I think that was mostly his ex editors fault! Thanks god, that guy got replaced!
I agree with you and I understand why you feel so dissapointed and angry! I get why class a did what they did. They love izuku and wanted him back, but in my honest opinion they used - at least at first - the wrong methods. The 2 things that pissed me off the most, were first iida and ochako being SO FUCKING COLD to izuku at first and siding with bakugou, whos first action was to mock izuku again, when it was absolutely clear he wasnt in the right state and second, momo creating a fucking "asylum chair" they wanted to use to drug izuku and drag him back to ua against his will - she lost A LOT of my respect for her in that moment and I dont think she will ever win it back! I will not go into detail again, about everything wrong with bakugous apology! That whole abnormination of an apology was nothing more then the biggest insult to human intelligence and 95% of the fandom did eat that shit up!
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