#sometimes I really hate my brain

[tal-yadin]

Ok so, i haven't written anything for ep 11 yet cause i'm still proscessing ALL OF IT. But i have some thoughts about the ep 12 preview that i absolutely have to get out:

The dude that sits down with kinn? That's the fucking debt collector that beat up Porsche's uncle in ep 1.

Him being in the house, sitting with kinn when we know that he and porsche are never far apart is a clusterfuck of epic proportions waiting to to happen.

And of course you gotta wonder why he's there in the first place.

The chain of event that led to porsche taking the bodyguard job, had always been a little weird to me, because in the end it's just bad luck that puts porsche in a tight enough corner (seemingly). And that's after all the effort kinn (korn) put into getting him to take it.

So what if it wasn't bad luck at all? What if korn did take steps to ensure that porsche would take the job? Porsche has gambler for an uncle who's in a bunch of debt already, it wouldn't be hard to make it seem like a bad turn of a gambler's luck. And it would give porsche less of a reason to resent the main family than using force.

That definitely sounds like something korn would do. Only -

Oh god here i go

Only it's kinn sitting with him in the trailer. So... what if it wasn't korn at all? What if it was kinn?

I'm so scared y'all TAT

#kinnporsche #sometimes i really hate my brain #why would i do this to myself #oh god #please no #ep 12 preview

[laughinglynx]

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#sometimes I really hate my brain #I lost a tape measure which means I can't work on a project I was really looking forward to #(and yes to make this a better situation in the future I've now ordered 9 tape measures. can't lose 9 of the fuckers) #this happens all the time though #I will put something down #and suddenly it's just gone #I don't have a clue where I put it #It's not in any of the places I've set up to put my tape measure #(because I lose it so often I have Designated Places where I almost always put it) #anyways #the issue here is that I cannot find it #and my brain is going into full self destruct mode over this #I can't think. I can't focus on where I maybe put it #even if I did find it I couldn't work on anything at this point #because I'm too upset #and it just #are you serious chaos brain? #we have to have a full meltdown over this? #(and part of it is frustration and part of it is that I feel like I'm going nuts. because I can't even think when I last saw it) #and now chaos brain is just going to be on fire for the rest of today #I don't have time for this #I don't want to do this #uuuuuuugh #and it makes it really fun to text my mom about it and she turns it into a joke #like honey I'm really really upset right now have you considered Not laughing about it

[mountainmaven]

I have two thoughts in my head tonight, polar opposites:

I just don't want to be in this world anymore...I want to run away.

I wonder if anyone knows any good books out there about Elizabeth Howard Boleyn??? (Anne, and Mary's mother).

#personal #sometimes I really hate my brain #seriously though if you know any books about Elizabeth I'd appreciate the recommendations

[thatfreckledenby]

Nothing is more overwhelming than having a panic attack and your crush helps you down from it.

#sometimes i really hate my brain #tw panic attack

[greywake]

Ugh! I hate paying the ADHD tax 😥

#adhd problems #adult adhd #adhdlife #adhd sucks #so frustrating #how is it so hard to remember to do stuff?!? #sometimes I really hate my brain

[alevens]

zolu is maybe one of the easiest ships i've ever liked. they're dating, except when they're not, they're best friends even when they're kissing and they're still captain and first mate when they aren't. they hold hands, they hug. they have sex. they don't.

Luffy can hold Zoro's katanas and Zoro can hold Luffy's strawhat and no one bats an eye. one says "You're so cool!" and the other says "You're strong" and it's just another way to say "I see you, this is why I follow you/this is why I trust you". it's not seeing each other for a long time and still knowing how the other's steps sound like against wood and sand. the captain runs and the first mate follows. it's always "Zoro and the others" and "Where's Luffy?"

if they're just friends, if they're something more, if they don't have a label for it, at its core, it's just about how they get each other. they understand how the other's mind works. however you view them, it doesn't erase they fact that they love each other in a way they don't love other people.

#zolu #on why i love zolu #seeing the hate its gotten on its own tag #i figured i'd put it on my two cents #i am aroace and i do hc Luffy as aroace #the same for Zoro if i'm honest #but the thing about this hc is that not only it isn't canon #but is an actual spectrum #what really made me pause was that the argument was that zolu was an “icky” ship bc of how they viewed Luffy as aroace #i would have prefered they just said they hate the ship #it makes sense as i do too hate ships without reason sometimes #but it was how they seemed to view aromatic/asexual people that fucked me up #both orientations are spectrums #the way i see it and experience it isn't the same other people do #giving this label and then saying it only woks on one way is disrespectful to the many people that fall under this umbrella #it isn't as simple as saying “aromantic folks can't experience love” and “yeah ace folks all find sex disgusting” #everyone is different everyone has different views and it's about finding what fits *you* personally! #sorry for the rant on tags i just wanted to get it off my chest #i've seen more people explain it better and break it down more coherently #and i'm so so glad to see so many big brained people ready to communicate on why that take just wasn't it #one piece

[revvethasmythh]

I don't really understand the idea some people have that being a hater somehow precludes you from thinking a character is complex. like, yes, absolutely, [insert character here] is complex, but I am a hater first and foremost and if I can write a post that dresses them head to toe in clown gear, that is my gods given right. *bangs gavel* you are sentenced to life at the circus, motherfucker. go juggle while i point and laugh. this is what true joy looks like

#liliana they could never make me like you #but no really did you know you don't have to discuss EVERY facet of a character in EVERY post to prove you understand them? #sometimes you can just write simple hate posts about villains and enjoy your life #this is about all of the vanguard leaders btw not just liliana #if they're going to act like clowns i'm going to talk about them like they're at the circus! #this does not mean I think they're (all) flatly villainous with nothing going on in their brains #in my posts they are clowns dancing for my entertainment because this is fandom and that is FUN

[violeteyedkiller]

honestly thinking of changing my approach to RP. I mostly find I have attention span for quick one-offs with asks or quick threads related to dash events/commentary or what not. I'm still holding onto my drafts for if I get muse to really crack into them again but

Yeah idk just felt like rambling on my lunch break

#out of screams #I hate to admit it because I know it's on me #But really..after a while...things just die in my drafts #Though there's always the off chance I'll just pick it up out of nowhere (sometimes years later) #But...that's just the thing when having ADHD I guess #I don't get to choose what the brain worms want

[greenko]

It took too long to decide to post this because my dumb brain is...well, just dumb..AND MY “MANAGER” SUCKS-

#lifesteal smp #mcyt #spokeishere #parrotx2 #i hate my brain #and my feelings sometimes #and my manager DOES NOT HELP #fuck you #next time i'll post gay bitches #and no it won't be me #maybe #maybe my oc's but i'm really a shitty mother

[vinnigami]

god i love how you draw the nahobino’s hair i love the water aesthetic you do with it you need so many kudos

THANK YOUU his hair is so very fun to draw

I’ve been entranced by his hair flowing like water and it compels me to do a great many things (attempt animation when I do not animate in the slightest)

#smt v #stale cheeze #he wont leave my MIND I HATE HIM (affectionate) #The post I did about the menorahs? major excuse to draw his hair vaguely flowing like it does in my brain #i’m happy when people notice it because this silly headcanon to how i draw him is very dear to me #thank you :3 #I want to draw his hair like ribbons sometime #but i really like drawing it like water. artist’s dilemma #vinnigami doodles #shio’s mailbox

[awakefor48hours]

I just had a horrible image of the destiel "I love you" meme but with Lumity and now I'm forcing you guys to think about it.

#and it works a bit too #at least luz didn't really go to hell #but she did die #and there is that moment when we see amity crying #sometimes i hate my brain #toh #the owl house #lumity

[satorugojoswiife]

in light of the previous anon's ask, are there any confirmed/canon ships in jjk? i just got into the series this year and i've seen a lot of people claiming satosugu is canon, as well as yutamaki.

Kenjaku x yujis dad.

There aren't really many, if any canon ships in jjk now that I think about it??? There seems to be something between hakari and kirara but nothing has ever been officially confirmed.

They are both very popular ships, but neither satosugu or yutamaki are canon. I understand why lots of people ship them though.

I'm not 100% sure but I think a big reason for lots of people saying stsg canon is due to the 'my one and only' line in jjk0, but that is actually exclusive to the viz translation.

The direct jp to eng translation is 僕の親友だ。たった一人のね -> "It was my best friend. The only one I have"

Viz's version, 'my one and only', still technically works but tbh I kind of feel like they worded it like that on purpose, almost borderline queerbaiting, but yeah.

Aside from that the ship does have lots of other things going for it tho! Definitely an important relationship in the series and whether people would like to interpret it romantically or plantonically is up to them. As far as 'canon' goes I'd say it'd be platonic (as of right now with the information we have).

While love is a very prominent theme in the series (the most twisted curse of them all, 'teaching' sukuna about love, ect.) I feel its mostly explored in otherways than romantic. Whether it be familial, platonic, or whatever. jjk is definitely not a romance focused series, so I'm not sure if we ever will see any canon ships explored. I guess mechamaru was heavily implied to have a thing for miwa, but.. . well, we know how that ended 💀

omg so sorry I went off on a tangent there !! I feel like people focus too much on what is and isn't canon. But idk who cares about canon, just ship what you like 💖 I hope everyone enjoys shipping their fave ships and has a good day 👍💖

Also ily satosugu and yutamaki shippers I don't mean for this post to come off as dismissive of your ships I was just trying to be as factual as possible. Ignore me tho and continue loving your ships!!

#ur faves will always be canon in ur heart and thats all that matters #dont care about what that one eye cat says #satofie canon (real) #yes im delusional #okay but like i dont ship anyone in jjk really but .....sometimes i think abt the potential nobamai had..... #like perfect enemies to lovers...... #and nobara and mai share so many interests i feel like they could have gotten along so well and idk in my brain its cute okay LOL #we only do rarepairs here #but like.....open ur brain to nobamai #theyd be so powerful together #I KNOW EVERYONE LIKES NOBAMAKI INSTEAD BUT IM STUCK IN RAREPAIR HELL #thats like the one jjk ship i like LOL #im sure there r others???? #idk i dont hate any im just neutral on most ??????? #platonic relationships r so important to me that i focus on those alot more idk #romance is overrated tbh #love doesnt have to be romantic for it to mean alot #oh god i even went in a tangent in my tags help

[im-smart-i-swear]

i always assumed he cut his hair with a pair of shitty scissors in front of his bathroom mirror at like 2am

#my art #kuron vld #vld #kurons design is really fucking funny to me for some reson #he looks so goofy???? boy why do you dress like that #he looks like a dog in a medical cone......... WHY #cant take his ass seriously #shiros s1&2 design made him look serious and reliable #but somehow his clone has the dumbest fucking outfit #i dont hate it or anything btw but it IS very funny to me. not in a bad way hes just silly #love this guy hes a fucking idiot<3 my silly guy<333 #he caught one glance at himself in the mirror while idk brushing his teeth and had a breakdown #bc he didnt look enough like shiro and thats Not Good and he had to fix it so he doesnt feel Wrong anymore #having long hair was weird for him bc his brain was screaming at him that he doesnt look Right #but maybe there was a tiny part of him that didnt mind the hair. a part of him that wanted to be diffrent and try new things #but he couldnt do that bc Shiro Wouldnt Do That and he IS shiro(hes not). dumbass. #i love making clone characters trans allegories #or sometimes i just make literally them trans. its good for the soul:] #i am So Normal about this guy. i prommy.

[muttsandmustelidae]

i feel like the way ‘dogtok’/‘dogstagram’ talks about reactivity makes reactive dog owners feel a lot more ashamed than they ought to

#idk i just.. don’t really see anything to be ashamed about? and i hate the ‘your dog is reactive because you FAILED’ mindset #sometimes you do absolutely everything right and the universe still throws some shit at you that leads to reactivity #and it’s just a thing that happens sometimes #dogs are animals with teeth and claws and fur and tails #they shit outside and roll in dead things and sniff each others butts #and sometimes have big feelings about things #and that’s just part of being a little critter #it’s not a moral failing on anyone’s part that your dog is a dog instead of a cardboard cutout of a dog #not everything goes smoothly 100% of the time and sometimes you end up with an extra Thing that needs to be worked on #and yeah of course Working On It can be stressful. no one wants to see their dog having a hard time. which is exactly why we don’t need to #-be pushing the added stress of GUILT #it’s not helpful to anyone. it doesn’t prevent reactivity in the future. it just makes someone who’s already having a hard time have a- #-worse one #this is not a situation that needs blame #idk if any of this makes sense #my meds are making me a lil weird lmao #@ everyone who has a reactive dog: you’re doing a great job and if anyone tries to make you feel guilty #eat them #keep Workin On It and remember that Dogs Is Dogs #kill the goblin in your brain that tells you you’re the worst guy to have ever done it #you’re normal your dog is normal. give both of you a cookie rn

[crabussy]

everyone in my school loves to scream as louyd as they can on purpose to hurt me just because they can

#I'm lying if it isn't clear #but god fuck does it feel like this sometimes #my heart is beating so fast and I feel so sick some girl decided to just start screaming as loud as possible for some reason #it was. excited screams but it was so loud it was so so loud and I immediately flinched and grabbed my head and started breathing hard #its so Painful its like someone is scratching me or scaring me withreally frightening stuff #I fucking hate being autistic sometimes man #OKAY TO REBLOG BY THE WAY. if you have felt like this #listen to my gibberish boy #they all turned to look at me too I saw out of the corner of my eye #its so upsetting here they changed the rules so that the only quiet classroom is now the designated eating spot #for 25+ people #its a small classroom #its really really bad and the school isn't fixing it or doing anything about it and every day is hell because #lunch and break are the only times I can recover from class #and now I Don't Have That #I am on the edge of breaking the fuck down I hate this #my brain is WEVIL #<- meant to say evil but wevil is funnier. my brain is WEEVIL you guys. bug

[daily-whistlepaw]

daily whistlepaw until ah becomes PoV day 1167

I think I finally understand how people feel when around a crush, can't say I enjoy it

#warrior cats #whistlepaw #windclan #medicine cat apprentice #this isn't my first crush lol but this one has had me feel the strongest of feelings (and might be my first genuine crush lol) #the fact I have been building up A Lot of stress for the entire week probably didn't help. #and the fact my stomach hurt is also probably at least partially to explain by the fact I barely ate last night #but MAN seeing my (latest) crush in such a pretty dress and then go on stage and play (a goddess!!!!!!! she's a goddess) #(I already bought tickets to go see the full thing; I will die but I will die happy (I hope)) #but yeah I struggled for a good 2 hours to fall asleep and also had stomach weirdness happening the next morning #man it was not fun #(and then she came to sit next to me during class and I had to play it cool (I was too deranged on sleep deprivation to really care about #being my typical brand of weird but I do sometimes feel like an idiot around her and feel guilty because then I fear that she finds me #annoying and will hate me and I will fail this again (losing a friendship over a crush once was not that fun lol) and Traumas don't help #either at all so uh I'm just trying to spend time with her I just always feel a bit worried that I'm annoying her and it's consuming my bra #I do also still feel a little guilty about having this crush; internalized homophobia/issues around sexuality are hard to shake off #and while it's very normal and stuff I never dare to go the entire way when my brain conjures fantasies that are a little too risqué #I just feel guilty man I know I shouldn't but still it fucking sucks in my brain #and god talking about this in therapy would be a mess #I might have to eventually but I don't wanna #anyways; wild vent in the tags aside; yay a whis!