#speaking from the depths

[whale-fallin]

i'll just say it but i don't think you're doing a good job as an ecologist if you truly genuinely believe that a species "deserves" to go extinct because of the circumstances they're in or the behaviors they exhibit

#speaking from the depths #i was about to go “no true scotsman” but that felt like a bad faith argument to make #thinking about that one post with the ecologist major complaining about pandas and cheetahs

[inconveniently-discorporated]

Today it's time for me to be heartbroken about Crowley and HIS version of events, because of course HIS version makes sense to him too.

The thing about Crowley is, he acts so nonchalant about everything.

Like, at first, he's simply just a demon. Sauntered vaguely downward and such, it's barely even really a thing, honestly -- it's just sort of his job title, y'know? Aziraphale's in one department, he's in another, that's just how it is. Like satanists, right?

But then the more the story progresses, the more we get the sense that there's something deeper than that. It becomes especially apparent with his plants, and how he puts the fear of God (then corrected by the narrator: the fear of Crowley) in them.

And these scenes, as many of you well know, have been theorized to be Crowley working through the circumstances of his fall. Projecting his emotions onto the plants, inflicting on them what was done to him. Processing what it was like to be on the other side of the curtain, maybe -- possibly try to figure out what could drive a creator to harm their own creations.

The details of the fall and what Crowley did, exactly, are unclear. The details of what Crowley knows about his own fall are unclear, because evidence could suggest that maybe he doesn't remember. But his perception seems to be that it didn't take much to be a demon.

What he does know, is that nothing lasts forever -- not even the grace of God.

But Aziraphale is different.

Aziraphale is an angel with very black-and-white ideas of what it means to be an angel, and what it means to be a demon.

But Crowley sees through it. From giving away the sword alone, he sees the cracks in Aziraphale's rigid thinking that allows the light to shine through. And he chips and he chips at that thinking -- he asks the kind of questions that probably made him fall in the first place -- until finally we get here.

God saw Crowley at his most innocent. God saw Crowley at his most joyful state of being. God saw him at his holiest.

God heard his questions, likely knowing that Crowley was expressing love in the way that he would want to receive it. Crowley says, "Well, if I was the one running it all, I would like it if someone asked questions. Fresh point of view."

God knew all of this, and then cast him out anyway. Unforgivable, that's what he is. Not to be forgiven, ever. Not to be loved -- not by God.

Then here comes along this angel (who he may or may not remember). This angel knows he's a demon, and talks to him anyway. This angel knows he's a demon, and listens to what he has to say. This angel knows he's a demon, and still looks him in the eye, sees the good in him, and forcefully tells him that HE still sees the good in him, even when God refuses to.

Aziraphale sees everything in Crowley that God could not, and that is something Crowley thought was lost forever.

So it only makes sense that when Aziraphale first burst in with his words all aflutter at the idea that they were going to go back to Heaven and change everything, Crowley felt this was something they couldn't do. Because he understands better than anyone, Heaven has the power to change the angel, the angel does not have the power to change Heaven.

It makes sense that Crowley gave him a chance. Crowley didn't exactly erupt with rage at Aziraphale. Yes, he was loudly against the idea and very disappointed, but then he goes, "Oh. Oh God. Right. Okay. I didn't get a chance to say what I was going to say, I better say it now."

He still thinks there's a chance. He's still giving Aziraphale a chance to back out.

He gives Aziraphale multiple chances. And every time Aziraphale will not back down. Every time, he thinks he hears the same message. The one he's always heard, the one he should know by now but somehow still hopes it isn't true.

Nothing lasts forever.

Not the universal star machine.

Not the grace of God.

Not the bookshop.

Not my acceptance of who you are.

Not us.

He doesn't hear the way Aziraphale remembers his joy and wants him to be happy. He doesn't hear how Aziraphale wants him and needs him and begs for him to be on his side. He doesn't hear the hope and the desire to be safe and together and in control -- forever.

He doesn't hear the way Aziraphale is lying to himself because we all know damn well he would live in a state of comfortable happiness if he could.

Instead, he hears this.

He hears that he is in need of forgiveness. He hears that he has done something to warrant it.

Only, he is unforgivable. Nothing lasts forever, but maybe that part does. Out of everything that never lasted, the one that did is that he is unforgivable the way that he is.

"Don't bother," he says.

Don't bother, because he doesn't hear Aziraphale, he hears God.

Don't bother, because maybe God was right.

#good omens #gos2spoilers #good omens meta #Crowley #the DEPTH of this scene #two characters speaking in entirely different planes of existence #two entirely different messages from opposite sides

[imviotrash]

I honestly think that Joanne had it the worst (psychologically) during the midnight tea party.

Imagine being bullied and isolated for a year, because someone fabricated an entire web of lies about you due to you getting a tiny bit of positive attention. The truth about the situation finally comes to light, you get your (very demanding) dream job, are well liked among your peers and are finally included within the schools society.

And then within one night you:

-discover your comfort teacher and your first friend are not real and are actually private investigators

-find out your boss who is supposed to be your role model and protector is a murderer

-realize that the principal has been on vacation for a year and was replaced by THE FUCKING GRIM REAPER

-learn that the vice principal is DEAD (and was subjected to human experimentation)

-learn that you're the second replacement for a guy who got brutally murdered and ALSO subjected to human experimentation (which you are witnessing right Infront of your eyes in real time)

-literally hear why and how these humans have been experimented on

-see how someone gets turned into dinner

-almost get turned into dinner yourself and can't escape on time because your body shut down out of shock.

-see how your "friend" is hunted for sport by the grim reaper.

-also see your "comfort teacher" crush someone's head right Infront of you.

-become unconscious out of shock.

-loose not only your boss, two friends (Soma and Ciel )and comfort teacher after this whole fiasco, but also your entire network of coworkers because they got a promotion you're too young to have.

-on top of that YOU CANNOT talk about what happened to you to anyone because you were sworn to secrecy and you can't really talk about it privately to your former colleagues either, since they're now a completely different rank than you.

Like- the guy didn't get physically injured, but he was the only real student to witness the entire Midnight tea party, because he couldn't escape on time. (And let's also not forget that he's the youngest of the real students present at the party and definitely the most sensitive one).

Since the Midnight tea party will happen again, Joanne and his former coworkers are probably forced to attend again since they can't really publicly share the reason as to why they don't want to go.

#when your comfort character didn't have a day of comfort in his life #i love how Joanne was supposed to be a oneshot character but the editors ended up liking him so much that he became a regular character #but instead of treating him like a normal character they just decide to make the worst things happen to him #He needs to be rescued from this manga #im looking WAAAAAY too deep into this but its been on my mind for a while #this is definitely me pretending that this character is of more relevance than he actually is #definitely very self indulgent post #but I honestly think he deserves more in depth writing! #especially since hes interested in philosophy and witnessed the extremes of his schools code of ethics #kuroshitsuji #black butler #kuroshitsuji season 4 #vio speaks #joanne harcourt #kuroshitsuji spoilers

[canisalbus]

hey i was listening to take me to church my hozier and youre probably already aware but . that song fits vasco and machete so fucking well i think. im so. hnrjrgjfhkndhfjkf these gayass dogs have invaded my head

.

#oh yes #it's become one of their key theme songs #been one of my personal favorites for ages as well #in fact even though this specific song is clearly from Machete's pov #I've sort of unofficially decided that Vasco would sound somewhat like Hozier #especially his speaking voice which to me has the same depth warmth and calm unassuming friendliness that I can imagine Vasco having #if I had the theoretical chance to pick absolutely anyone I wanted as their voice actors I'd go with him #answered #wolfboyvirus

[tartppola]

( Reblogs appreciated! )

ouhhh manifesting chapter 6 on en ( this is joke im actually not prepared for ch.6 🤓 )

#twisted wonderland #twst #ignihyde #ortho shroud #mc/yuu #yuulis crowley #from the depths #do i…use fanfiction tags for my comics #technically speaking comics are just fanfics but you draw them instead #uhhhh…canon divergent?? light angst?? #someone help 🤡 #chapter 5 spoilers #twst oc #comic #twst fanart

[carefulfears]

one thing that stands out to me about the IVF arc is the way that, for as much as i make fun of her for asking her coworker if she can have his babies, scully asking mulder to be involved in the biggest process of her life (and the most important thing in the rest of her life) is such a healing and reverent experience. like he says “i’m absolutely flattered,” but it’s so much more than that. it’s like…spending your whole life feeling like you should’ve died at age twelve and then being told someone just wants more of you, more and more and more, in everything.

#it reminds me of 'sixth extinction' / 'amor fati' #when he quite literally was tied down and couldn't speak #and the way we hear him try to SCREAM when his mother just leaves him there #but his mind is Silent from the moment he hears scully in the hall begging to see him #and he couldn't crack a joke or run out the door #he literally just had to lie there and feel it #feel it on his Skin #her hand holding onto him #her tears falling onto his face #listening to the overwhelming depth of her fear that she is failing him and her devotion and her dedication to finding a way to help him #her Pleas for him to just 'hold on' #'i think that...if you know...if you could just find a way to hold on...i need you to hold on...please...' #everybody go listen to the civil wars' cover of 'talking in your sleep' #i don't think it can be overestimated how much of an impact that had on them and the lightness and healing in s7. that he Had to hear it #and then with the baby thing it's like...he CAN'T deny her that. he HAS to say 'yes' #there's no part of him that's capable of denying her something that she desires this badly. enough to ask for outright #and so he HAS to let himself be wanted and be invited into this unimaginably important and personal thing #let himself be a part of something bigger. be SEEN as someone who is valuable in a way that's bigger #and again he can't run from it and he can't deflect it and he can't hide from it. he has to just accept it #txf.txt #per manum

[liittlecrow]

sigh. i just want to make someone’s son rich. watch him count endless bills until he is physically r o l l i n g in money from selling my body & my holes to other depraved men.

just happily doing as im told… posing exactly how daddy encourages me to… in front of the camera that is constantly flashing & recording me from every angle possible… the line of strangers just continuing to grow larger & longer… all waiting for their turn to put some cash into daddy’s hand so that they can have their every which way with the cute little fleshlight… over & over & over again…. nothing but a piece of property, a mindless atm machine with a useless heartbeat, a set of 3 wet sloppy holes, designed only to pleasure & entertain men…. anything & everything they want is all completely theirs to take… because i’m not even a person anymore… no… i solely live & breathe to serve them… they will forever be superior….. god. what a lucky girl i am to have such a fulfilling purpose on this earth <3

#i can’t believe i actually typed this out #i can’t believe im really going to press post #sick nasty hrs!!!!! #from the deepest darkest depths of my #quote unquote #brain #👩🏼‍🦯👩🏼‍🦯 #little crow speaks

[traitorsinsalem]

the bg3 fanbase is funny as fuck in a bad way for primarily shipping gale, who is the most garrulous man you can imagine, with astarion, whom gale goes "uh 😐 not really looking to talk with you man" at when prompted for conversation, and not with wyll, whose party admission gets a "gale approves" and then they proceed to compliment each other 24/7.

#succ speaks #gale also gets approval for demanding more than apologies from astarion when meeting him. and for saying bringing him was a mistake #also disapproval for accepting astarion's apologies. and for saying you trust him. like he HATES this cunt. #whereas wyll just BEING there gets gale a 'hehe <3 yay let's help the tieflings for him' #you also get gale approval for recruiting lae'zel and karlach! literally for just doing that!! astarion is the only one who DOESN'T #the baldur's gate 3 fanbase has such the fandom first-two-whiteboys shipping brain rot spell on them plus an ignore wyll at all costs curse #get well soon like honestly this is so sad and hasn't let up since ea #which is obvious in the way the writers treated astarion with notable favor and ignored will in story development since ea #anyways. gale is super funny about being annoying so i love him for it. he's like me in that way i think. his dumbass resurrection ritual. #idk the way wyll has clear story parallels with EVERY origin character (+ halsin!) and isn't even on the ship podium is a bit hashtag irkin #i've gone into depth about that with some real life besties but that'd be like. another post or a long addition to this one. #ugh. #balding gay tree

[wizardlocation]

Someone remind me to finish this from memory scribble some other time. M poking around an original continuity thing in my brain a lot recently with some encouragement from my partner LOL. uh some pre-beast mode pieces thrown in over my bits of redesign for these two but I didn't wanna put a ton of effort into this just yet I just needed to get it out of my brain.

[Music for this here]

#kass speaks #rampage #depth charge #beast wars #rampage bw #depth charge bw #maccadam #transformers #fanart #this is centered around notttt canon beast wars this is from an original continuity thing so like love and light

[whale-fallin]

how many times do we have to say that nobody gets to "decide" what species of animal "deserves" to exist because it's frankly very pretentious to act like you're the arbiter of what evolution has created

#if it exists it has survived millions of years of evolution to exist!!!! isn't that enough!!!!!!!!!! #speaking from the depths #marine biology #biology #discourse #<- tagging jic

[rollercoasterwords]

hey rae! you said you haven’t been reading many fics lately and i was wondering what were your favorite books you read this year :))

LOVE this question omg thank u 4 giving me an excuse 2 talk abt books <3 i'm gonna split this into fiction + nonfiction + poetry...will try 2 keep it somewhat concise but. fear it may get long...

fiction

the archive of alternate endings, by lindsey drager [favorite book i've read all year]

how to live safely in a science fictional universe, by charles yu

giovanni's room, by james baldwin

stone butch blues, by leslie feinberg

i'll give you the sun, by jandy nelson

and then i woke up, by malcolm devlin

on earth we're briefly gorgeous, by ocean vuong

cursed bunny, by bora chung

i have the right to destroy myself, by young-ha kim

infect your friends and loved ones, by torrey peters

the bloody chamber and other stories, by angela carter

at least we can apologize, by lee ki-ho

nonfiction

playing the whore: the work of sex work, by melissa gira grant

cistem failure: essays on blackness and cisgender, by marquis bey

gender trouble: feminism and the subversion of identity, by judith butler

essays against publishing, by jamie berrout

trans liberation: beyond pink or blue, by leslie feinberg

females, by andrea long chu

socialism: utopian and scientific, by friedrich engels

capitalist realism: is there no alternative? by mark fisher

whipping girl: a transsexual woman on sexism and the scapegoating of femininity, by julia serrano

poetry

soft science, by franny choi

grit, by silas denver melvin

in the pines, by alice notley

#would be happy 2 go more in depth on any of these re: what they're abt #what i liked etc...but just the list by itself is long enough lol #also wrt nonfic even tho it's my list of faves from the year...don't necessarily agree w all frameworks used in every text #esp. in capitalist realism + whipping girl but. still found them v informative + enjoyable #just generally speaking calling something a fave doesn't mean it shouldn't be read w a critical lens etc etc #ask #book recs

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Would you recommend getting “Wings of Fire “ cuz I can’t really make my mind up whether or not to get it…

honestly? yeah! the first arc is pretty damn solid and a ton of fun, so even if the first five are the only ones you read, it'll be a good time. fun characters, cool concepts, Dragons As People... it's just neat. the first arc - Dragonet Prophecy through The Brightest Night - is the best of the three

the second one is fun too, with awesome new characters and concepts, but honestly? i'd recommend reading it just so that you understand the solo book Darkstalker, bc imo that is the BEST book in the series. it fucks so severely, im not even exaggerating. it. goes. Hard. but yeah arc two - Moon Rising through Darkness of Dragons - while not as good as the first one, is a fun read, and the characters are (with a few exceptions) bangers. shit gets crazy

arc three... eh. its mid compared to arc two, let alone the first. Sutherland's writing slowly starts to lose quality and the plot is... uh. interesting. some of the characters are fun, but it's just! it could be better! but there is another standalone that's a fun read, which would be Dragonslayer - if memory serves, you don't need to read the arc to understand it, since its new characters + takes place in the past (but i'd rec reading that after at least the first arc). it's not Darkstalker levels of good, but i could compare its quality to the second arc

that was a whole Guide lmao oops. hope this helps! i really do think its worth it!

tl;dr: yea <3

#i couldnt speak for the fandom since ive never really been a big part of it? #the most i was involved was when i was mainly on instagram and posted mostly wings of fire #but my community was small and curated and i never really explored the fandom at large #as with all things im sure it has the good. the bad. the curated. and the downright heinous #but yes the books are neat #rambles from the bog #personally sutherland's worldbuilding leaves things to be desired #BUT! im a worldbuilder so im biased. i think her building is enough to be engaging and interesting #even if it lacks the layers & depth that i personally prefer to see in fantasy worlds i see/read #honestly ive been holding back w/ rereading #because id probably be stopping every five pages to write in depth headcanons and fill in the many many gaps in the #- say it with me! worldbuilding #and/or id get a shovel to make what she's written deeper #but i simply do not have the space for that. i have my own dragons to think of!

[damn-the-dark]

I have to drag myself back online Markiplier just made another smash or pass pokemon video and has now proudly said smash to the furriest of fakemon ever - I will stand to answer the call uwu

#hello I am Alive ;w; #The power of markiplier smashable furry pokemon is real and apparently has enough power to pull me from the depths of Depression(tm) SDFGH #taking my time getting back to art hopefully qwq #missed being on this hellsite and holy absolute Fuck has desktop changed fghjkjhgf #volt speaks #also this is old news but i have been simmering in work hell but No More I will be free of the shackles of capitalism to draw funny imges :

[gay-artificer]

I've seen people be like downpour ruined how people see five pebbles and im gonna be honest if you were here for any number of years pre-downpour the fandom was always god-awful with the nuance in his character. thats not a downpour thing thats a fandom thing

#niche comparison but if any of you know angela from lobotomy corporation/library of ruina #in the years prior to LOR angela was probably one of the most demonized characters ive ever seen in my goddamn LIFE #NO ONE was going to bat for this girl as anything other than a absolute villain and bitch #i was and im sure some others were too but the vast vast majority fucking hated her #because she spends most of the game being mean to you and then betrays you at the end #and you had to read between the lines to get to “wait a minute whats happening to her is kinda immensely fucked up” #and this is someone betraying you at the end of a very /very/ hard game to 100% and beat proper #then LOR came out and fully explored the depths of her trauma and anger at the situation she was put into #how desperate she was too take something for herself and how little she cared about how the effected others because she was not given that #and suddenly it clicked for everyone! #suddenly she wasnt a heartless bitch anymore! but of course now you had the #'literal infant' crowd because it also explored some ideas of parental trauma/lack of experience with the world #but god it was way more refreshing to see people actually move on from 'theyre an evil bitch' even if it came with 'so shes like a kid?' #and i feel that way about pebbles tbh #i dont get super super into the iterator lore so i cant speak much for the quality across downpour #and its higher focus on them and their stuff #im sure it carries plenty of issues as many things will #but god people sucking at reading the room on the iterators is not new lmao #actually five pebbles and angela are shockingly similar.... #huh?

[elflikesfrogs]

irks me when people say daredevil is the batman of marvel because there's one fundamental difference between them, and it's that daredevil is dirt poor and batman is a billionaire. their wealth gaps are absolutely integral to each of their characters. daredevil would not be who he is if he was a rich man and i will die on this hill

#daredevil #i know this at LEAST applies to netflix daredevil #but it may also apply to comic daredevil #from what ive read so far it doesnt really go in depth what his financial status is? #like from the scenes with his father its implied that he grew up in some semblance of poverty #also his interactions with foggy in annual 1 #(him basically automatically calling foggy a rich snob) #imply that he was poor as well #anyways his social class/wealth is absolutely integral to his character #he is not batman because he is not rich #and thats a major fundamental difference #idk much about batman canon so i cant speak to that #but daredevil is absolutely influenced by his poverty #especially in the show #where they do a ton of work pro bono because they know the people need help and cant afford it #(the difference is that foggy is also poor in the show. so theres that) #elf rants

[bylertruther]

kind of crazy how mike said in a moment of vulnerability and weakness that he wants to be needed and to be of use and good at something, and then a large chunk of the fandom just decided to validate all of his worst thoughts & fears and suddenly reduce him to a weak, incapable, mindless, unloved wastoid wimp that's everything his low self-esteem tells him he is and nothing like how the people in his life see him (or what the narrative itself has shown us since the very first episode). even crazier when the people that do that call themselves mike fans lol but i'm 😴😴😴

#mike wheeler #mine #like. i don't think that some of you actually like him. you weren't supposed to agree with him when he was self-deprecating. #mike has been loyal brave kind compassionate courageous many many times. he's been strong for others when they couldn't be. he #grabs whatever he can use as a weapon because he isn't going down with a fight. he attacks and does do damage. people listen to him #when he speaks. they look to him to lead them and help them with both big things and small things. he IS their inspiring leader and he #IS will's knight in shining armor. like... i just don't get it. mike isn't a bad character. he has depth. good sides and bad sides. he's #always involved in the plot. why would you want to take that away? he's always been like that. if you take it away- then what the hell are #you left with? who is mike when you take away everything that he is? just. what? #i would expect that from someone that doesn't pay super close attention to the show or militantly believes him to be a homophobic #straight guy but. but but but.... i just will never get it lol. why did it come NOW after another character LITERALLY TELLS HIM #THAT ISN'T TRUE? it seems almost spiteful. as if the next thing you're going to tell me is that eleven's number is actually nine or smth.