#that seems like a good system to me

[mynameis-a]

slep time

#im just gonna start posting pictures of sleepy kittens to signalize that i am also sleeping #that seems like a good system to me #♡⊱a talks

[cor-lapis]

Maybe I'm just a sucker for mystery/detective stories in general but Fontaine's archon quest was GOOD

#It was so good. It felt well structured and well paced to me and I got endeared to the characters #I liked how it cut down a LOT on the random fetch quest etc sections they tend to add to bulk up the runtime #And instead we got the very excellent trial system. Which is just AA but it worked because AA slaps #And I'm glad the whole crime case angle seemed to force them to tell a whole story in the two quests we got. #It was a good choice to end it there imo #Anyway Fontaine made me happy. #genshin impact #OH edit I also super liked it when tartaglia spent the whole quest vibing in the bg and then [REDACTED]

[oh-wow-im-still-here]

Vaguely thinking about an Ace Attorney-esque bingqiu au where shen yuan is a tired but talented prosecutor feeling down on his life, questioning his hopes and dreams, and maybe considering a career change so he can spend his time reading webnovels all day. Followed by a young, up and coming defense attorney luo binghe who became a lawyer in the first place to meet shen yuan again and maybe, possibly, sorta get to know him after shen yuan left a lasting impression on him by helping him out somehow during his childhood. They meet again in court with shang qinghua as the defendant, who is definitely the larry butz-like character of the au. Hijinks, court drama, and not exactly mid-life crises ensue.

#sy and sqh def have history and knew each other before this case but sy has elected to ignore that and do his dang job. #sqh is. cryignf. #i know sy seems more like a pheonix wright but like edgeworth's freak out moments of him sprawled on his desk and slamming his fist is #peak sy to me #and lbh is having his elle woods moment good for him❤❤✨ #can you tell ive been replaying ace attorney? lol #svsss #bingqiu #scum villain's self saving system #shen yuan #shen qingqiu #luo binghe

[a-court-of-moonlight-and-ire]

I was thinking about the illyrian war camps again and its like. okay so, iirc Rhysand was sent there when he was 9, so Im gonna assume thats like, the standard age which is pretty horrifying and also feels kinda unecessary considering the fact that illyrians are immortal so its not like youre not gonna have time to fully train them later or anything. but whatever, thats just how it is. So these kids are trained to become soldiers or, sorry, Warriors, which involves teaching them how to be violent in the most efficent way possible while also teaching them to effectively shut down their compassion, because thats what you need to do in order to make people okay with killing other people, at an incredibly formative age. And then they presumably only see women when theyre doing chores around the camp or, since we're told pretty much all non-batboy illyrian men are horrible misogynistic rapists, when theyre being assaulted by the men who run the camp that the boys are presumably taught to admire and respect unquestionably until theyve grown up. so. do you think those things might perhaps have something to do with all that domestic violence in illyria

#it drives me insane because the more i think about it the more illyria seems like a genuinely good portrayal of how systemic sexism #gets perpetuated but the narrative is just like 'no they just suck. its just in their nature to be misogynists' #ughhhhhh im gonna pull my fucking hair out man #anti acotar #anti rhysand #anti ic

[shiikiyun]

my honest opinion about the "futa was guilt tripping es and only regrets what he did because hes in pain now" crowd, and by proxy, any criticism on the other prisoners' display of remorse or general attitude around their actions

Didnt feel like copypasting this as a post the screenshots will have to do

#milgram #fuuta kajiyama #fuuta milgram #not a theory more like a rant #i have such a strong disdain against milgram as a system #you will never catch me not defending the prisoners #if i ever critisize them its for their own good #i will never deny their flaws #but i will support their “flawed” behaviour towards milgram as long as they dont hurt others now #i mean even kotoko now... i cant come to fully hate her. because shes just another tool for milgram to play torture games on these people #a tool that will soon be discarded and granted the same torture she perhaps avoided til now #i dont care how much it seems like they lack empathy or remorse for what they did. i will never demand this from them in milgram #milgram doesnt deserve to demand any attitude or reaction from them #and i consider anyone that puts the prisoners under this microscope in fvaor of milgram to be part of it #so i will be against it too. i dont care if im wrong about my readings on the characters

[mulletmitsuya]

random tokrev rant ahead !!

when i first started this blog it was going to be for random shitposts, groupchats once in a while, and mostly tokrev analysis but i was so scared of discourse that i just chose to do the funnier stuff 😭. when tokrev was at it's peak i'd be reading 20k+ words of analysis and it was so fun!! but i felt like i couldn't word what i wanted to say properly so that discouraged me but i wish i'd ignored that because there would have been at least one person who understood what i was saying yk?

#anyway #i used to have a tagging system but i forgot so that's my bad #and the thing about discourse is that you could give a person all the canonical facts of the story and they'll still find a way to pretend #that they're right and i personally cannot handle that #i take things very seriously and someone thinking they won a argument when they didn't would make me rip my hair out #so maybe my blog not going into that direction was good for my metal health #i feel like fandom interactions always end up as fights for some reason #why can't two opinions co-exist #let's discuss and have fun why we gotta tell each other to kill ourselves😭 #like i saw a very well thought out and written theory about sanzu having autism or something along those lines #and a comment was like “stop trying to give him excuses he's a terrible villain and he's just crazy blah blah blah” #whole time this person's an izana apologist #like😐 #i love both these characters but a lot of characters in tokrev are more complicated than just a “crazy villain” #and it seems like they understand that about izana so???? #ok i'm done now i hope you guys get what i mean #tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers manga #tokrev

[idliketobeatree]

okay. listen. whatever you do, don't think about how nothing about Heaven feels loved.

certainly not in the way Aziraphale's used to, a sunshine warm unexpected delight. there are no flashes of love from places or people falling and grieving and caring too much. it took him a while, but ever since he can tell the difference it's like forgetting how to breathe, can't stop the wheeze. within the air occupied by the angels (their chests don't move, do their hearts have a rhythm?) a wrong-shaped, lost cabin pressure meets him halfway, only they don't hang masks from that ceiling, he's looking down at the aeroplanes. he could always breathe easier with - red and black at the periphery - yellow too, if he's lucky. (he's not anymore)

put a hand to it, and he can pretend that the burning too high in his throat glows steady and low inside the chest; pray, so it matches someone, anyone, way Down below.

#supreme archangel aziraphale #aziraphale #good omens #good omens fanfic #ineffable husbands #aziraphale x crowley #aziracrow #ineffable divorce #good omens ficlet #good omens heaven #okay so. writing seems very personal to me and i don't normally do this for various reasons (it's terrifying) #but. aziraphale in heaven posesses me like no other concept. i'm literally scraping at the walls and i need those snippets out of my system #btw feel free to ignore this tag for any reason > #marcela writes #marcela talks #also if you wanna scream with me about this please DO I swear I have so many thoughts spinning around

[mossy-rot]

reading about autistic meltdowns is crazy. in retrospect maybe that time i ended up sobbing self isolating and lashing out at people because I couldn't figure out how to set up my laptop the same way it had been before might've been because of The Autism

#i cannot deal with changes to things I deal with regularly #i need to have my phone and comp exactly the same lest I Suffer bc i use them every day #also perhaps i would get so upset over my mom cleaning my room (although being a nice gesture) is because she would move shit to places- #i didn't know and messed up the system i had #also fuckin. executive dysfunction. that's some shit isn't it #i had to move to a new desk early in my job to run a different room and the desk setup was different and I Was Struggling A Bit #also people trying to calm me down during meltdowns is significantly worse and i read a bit that was like. #'trying to interject into the meltdown may cause additional sensory overload. it's most safe to let the person self-regulate.' well shit #that's about right huh #autistic burnout also seemed very familiar and its a little disturbing just how close everything hits #anyways im probably autistic. good night #mossy's rambles #text post #luci's rambles #autism #neurodivergent #autistic things #autistic adult #autistic experiences #if anyone would like to add to the pile and tell me im autistic feel free ig. ive already been peer reviewed

[uncanny-tranny]

Some stats about my large crochet project:

I've gone through 264 yards (241 meters, 0.15 miles) of yarn. The pattern calls for 1,261 yards for a completed project (1,153 meters, 0.716 miles) in the size I am making now.

It would take 29,565.6 Dinoponera gigantea ants to equal the length of a completed project, and I am at 6,189.78 currently.

Without further delay, this is what 6,189.78 Dinoponera gigantea ants look like. If you even care.

#art #fiber art #corchet #my first project tag #my crochet projects #described images #image description in alt #yes americans will use anything but the metric system and i frankly love that about us <3 #also it helps illustrate just how much labour and resources go into projects that don't seem all that massive i think #and the 'if you even care' part is a joke <3 #my math might be less than stellar because i'm not totally sure if i have counted my switches in skeins right 😭 #thankfully i haven't woven in my ends yet (i actually don't mind end weaving so far) #also the 'my forst project tag' might seem like a misnomer at first but this was my very first started project #so even though i already completed a project that was my second one - this one is just going to take forever #if anything isn't right let me know - i'm not keen on math all the time. i LIKE math but i've never been good at it<3 #math ily but why don't you love me..........

[sysig]

It started with a whisper ♥ (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Crackship #Xigbar #Of all the crackships that I didn't expect I probably wouldn't have expected these two the most lol #I super wasn't expecting to feel So strongly about them this is like multi-tier Big Feelings in varying directions #One - ZEX - obvious (lol) | Two - Xigbar (hehe II hehehe) - I think I mentioned it like maaaybe once over here but I was Huge into KH #Specifically Org XIII specifically-specifically 358/2 it is the only game in the Kingdom Hearts line that I've beaten and probably ever will #Oh no wait that's not true I did play through all of the DS release of Re:Coded but like......does that count lol I think no #I played the intro of Kingdom Hearts II and shut it off after the bit with Roxas and Sora like - the egg scene how do I non-spoilers this #I own it and I will never beat it I am too sad I want only my Nobodies lol <3 #Kingdom Hearts had a big influence on me - that and Magic Knight Rayearth are a big explanation as to Why I'm Like This lol #Cough cough casting away the dark parts of your heart only for it to come back and bite you later and also The Gay™ lol #But AnyWay lol - Xigbar! #He wasn't my favourite-favourite - aside from Main Characters that'd probably go to Marluxia - but I still hold him very fondly!! #Definitely doodled him a good bit he's very handsome ♪ #And just - ah ♥ An old fave and a new(er) fave interacting and making each other happy and feel nice and play well I just fsalkfdf #As well as that being Max's body! There's something heightening about all these different aspects that was just overwhelming to me haha <3 #If it's not already obvious - yes this was the happy cries lol this is the only explanation I have haha #I feel very strongly about Them and Interactions and Feeling Nice and fjdslafsdf #Anyway! This isn't Just them! Just a lot haha ♪ #I have started a playlist lol - so far it's just this song - Everybody Talks - but some of the others from SCII playlist fit well too :) #The rest is just ZEX being cute hehe <3 ZEX not understanding what crying is is very interesting to me :3c No VUX equivalent? #Seems like they don't have the same kinds of chemicals like adrenaline et al so I guess a flushing system isn't as necessary! Interesting :D #ZEX fumbliness leading to him being a bit on the back foot is so cute hehe <3 He wants so loudly and openly but actually accomplishing it- #I also really like how he holds himself - all the tension through him to fight against new muscles and bone everything too alien! #I imagine his hands as being very rigid and all the fingers pulled together straight but that could just be how he describes bones hehe #Alien in there <3 Plenty to read into :3c

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

Lord of the Empty Isles

sci-fi/fantasy

set on a supposedly utopian planet recovering from a climate crisis, where bonds between people are able to be seen and manipulated (by some people)

follows a young man whose brother was cursed and killed by an infamous outlaw 5 years ago, and he’s finally able to curse him back - but it rebounds, as he’s somehow fatebound to the outlaw

to find a cure and save them both they have to team up, and he quickly finds out that the resources the outlaw is stealing go to the thousands of people neglected on prison planets, and he has to go against what he thought was right to help them

no romance, aroace MC, focus on platonic relationships

arc from netgalley, out june 6

#Lord of the Empty Isles #aroaessidhe 2024 reads #I enjoyed this quite a bit! But I think it could have gone a bit further in places. #It has some interesting concepts and a great cast of characters and yay no romance #I do have a lot of thoughts and little critiques... #it's p obvious where the plot is going and what's going to happen #There’s clearly a lot gone into developing this bond system but to be honest I still don’t entirely get it? #It seems to emphasise that the bonds just reflect connections between people rather than predetermine anything; but also the plot kind of #hinges on Remy and Idrian having a predetermined bond? There are a lot of explanations of intricacies but a lot of it didn’t sink in idk #It’s promoted as QP but to me it reads as a general platonic relationship. I generally expect a depiction of a QPR to have like.. #some form of acknowledgement/depiction of the form of their relationship being a particular (undefinable?) kind #with some specific level of commitment? I’m being picky maybe they mean queerplatonic themes/vibes rather than saying it’s a qpr #specifically. the centred platonic relationship is good! it doesn't seem like a qpr to me; at most what could one day be that #also things are solved quite quickly and easily in the end - both the curse and the downfall of the bad guy. #I feared it would go down the route of blaming things on the person in charge rather than emphasising systemic issues which it kinda does…. #It’s impossible to ignore right now just how deeply people are willing to believe dehumanising propaganda - and how 'telling the truth' #and exposing the person in power as bad doesn’t actually do anything so that happening here made me go…… oh okay. well. #there is room for a sequel that maybe will explore this tho. idk #complaints aside - I do recommend this! It was fun and pretty unique. #aroace books #no romance

[opens-up-4-nobody]

It's so weird watching fullmetal alchemist in contrast to naruto. Because both are set in fucked up worlds where everyone has committed war crimes, has had war crimes committed upon them, or is a war crime. But I trust that fma fundamentally understands how fucked up everything is, including the sinister qualities of the institutions that allowed this to happen. Naruto understands its fucked up on a surface level, but also glorifies the institution and never changes.

#like the idea is similar at the root bc atrosities have been committed in both worlds on both sides and someone needs to come in #and say. thats enough. enough of this. further violence isnt helping make anything better #and fma does a better job bc it unites all the warring parties agaisnt one monster villian #but i think naruto is more interesting bc the same thing happens but the betrayals feel much more huge and the pain feels more visceral #bc the familial love is so tortured under the shinobi system and all the pain arrises from that system but it never fucking changes #bc the author still feels the need to glorify the village system despite the clear cursed god tree metaphor #idk its just interesting to me where theyre similar and where they differ #in fma the characters r more insane to me bc the fucking ego and hubris is so crazy #idk in naruto it feels more like everyone is so fucked up they think they have to accomplish their goals or die but in fma thry just seem #like they have a right to do the things they do and it unnerves me more #but hey i mostly passively watched fma over 3 days so maybe i missed some stuff lol #naruto ramblings #fma rambling #unrelated #i do think i understand now how naruto never changes. they think: weve been saved. were in a time of peace. everythings good now #and then they never fucking talk abt how fucked up everything was. they just move forward without catharsis #and thats why everything is still fucking awful. they never truely reflect

[perenlop]

i'm gonna try not to bring up madoka too much while watching utena because i know there's like... a rep there. but like im 6 episodes into utena and i understand i don't have the full picture yet but how on earth do people think these shows are similar enough to warrant "madoka is misogynistic garbage, go watch utena, it's basically the same but better"

#like ive rambled abt ppl calling madoka problematic before i wont rehash that rn #but like........ what exactly do these shows have in common besides purple/pink uncanny valley toxic yuri #its not even the same flavor of toxic yuri #from what im seeing utena is a story about agency and power imbalances #like. i guess they both have broken systems? but those systems also seem to work differently #the end of the world seems more cultish while kyubeys magical girls can be more closely compared to military recruiting #like... idk im getting the vibe that these ppl claiming that madoka is god awful and utena is The Good Show havent really processed either #and just dumbed both of them down to general tropes like. oh pink/purple yuri! oh horror tropes! #theyre not even from the same genre. rgu is a shoujo anime while pmmm is a magical girl anime #like. i know theres some rgu influence in pmmm but from what i know that seems to be the extent of it. influence #like. are you telling me every single deconstructive show containing yuri is similar to one another... #who's participating in fandom misogyny again? #echoed voice

[dyketubbo]

ik normally we talk about situations like what shubble opened up about, we wanted to take time to think through everything especially because of how upsetting the topic is to us personally. as of now, we do agree that signs point to wilbur so we wont support him and we encourage others to not support him during this time and especially not actively defend him.

but we dont want to make a big deal out of not supporting him so focus can be on shubble and people learning how to see signs of abuse. we're already not very active due to our own recent experience with a traumatizing friendship (we hesitate to really call it abuse yet) but regarding that experience and others weve had we can focus on another big part of shubbles stream: educating others about the signs of abuse. so we want to use the rest of this post to talk about that

abusers will be everywhere and anywhere. yes there will be more in this community, but youll find them no matter where you go and there will be abusers in your personal life as well, whether you end up being abused or someone you know does. theres abusers who are "obvious", who scream and yell and hit. and theres abusers who are charismatic, who will be supportive and funny and yet passive aggressive and backstabbing. and theres abusers who will be quiet and cold and manipulative. and theres abusers who fall into multiple "categories" because theyre complex people just like anyone else and thats why abuse can happen to everyone. because abusers can be anyone.

dont get yourself caught up in how "theyre such a good person", dont get yourself caught up in thinking abuse could never happen to you. if you find yourself in a situation where communication doesnt work, where the other person hurts you over and over and doesnt show signs of getting better, where you keep finding ways to blame yourself and defend them (especially if you find yourself thinking that you deserve how they treat you), where youre scared of them and how theyd react if you told them so, where when you tell them you dont like how they treat you they dismiss you and start treating you worse, look into how to get out of there.

and know that it will take a while. that abuse is hard to get away from. that sometimes youll be trapped for a long time and sometimes youll relapse and defend them even after youve realized theyre abusive. and there will be people who support your abuser over you and people who will hate you and believe your abuser over you. and there will be people who support you but will still support your abuser too for whatever reason. and there will be people who support you fullheartedly and care for you and help you even if it takes you a long time to find them.

abuse is complex. "good people" can be abusive. no matter the fandom, no matter the community, no matter the when who where how why there will always be abusers around. no matter where you go or who you talk to there will always be some case of abuse. the important thing is to educate yourself.

learn about tactics like DARVO (deny, attack, reverse [the roles of] victim and offender), keep notes of the hotlines and organizations about abuse. keep the discussion of how to spot abuse and support the victims open. and always, always, keep more affection in your heart for victims than you do hate for abusers. make yourself someone who can be confided in and trusted to not take advantage of that trust.

and remember: if youre a victim yourself, its okay if you didnt do everything "right". its okay if your feelings keep changing, its okay if you were an asshole victim, its okay if you didnt see the signs even when others pointed them out to you, its okay if you did things "wrong". abuse is hard to sort through and what matters is not whether you "provoked" them, its that they had the power to hurt you and get away with it and they used it, over and over. and thats horrible and what you deserve is to get out and to be able to speak about it without getting hurt for it.

if shubble's story and others like hers resonate with you, tell people. it doesnt have to be public. in most cases it shouldnt be. tell people who you can trust in private and get the support you need so that when youre able and ready to you can get out. and know that there are people like you and even if you feel alone right now you wont be forever

#all the peace and care to shubble. we saw the vod seems to be deleted and we hope shes doing okay right now #critter calls #mostly pres but not just me sooo overall system tag #would say sorry for the long post but we arent really sorry. its an important topic #for the record we dont support how far some people have gone with speculation #we saw people on twt making full fucking timelines and sharing screenshots of shubbles deleted reddit post #dont fucking do that. all the information shubble could share on the matter was in the stream #dont pry any more into their life more than they shared #we have the information we need to know that it was likely wilbur but thats all. and if shubble says that she isnt saying names for- #-reasons outside of just not wanting to then.. i dont think its good or safe for her for people to keep prying #we dont even like the speculation that brought us to believing its wilbur #not because we believe wilbur couldnt do something like this (anyone could) but because #we know we would hate people prying into our life to find out the details about our abuse

[amelikos]

Sango felt kind of sad to me in the new ep. In a way, it reminded me of Amethio who had no one to protect him against Rayquaza in HZ033 (compared to Liko and Roy who had adults looking out for them).

Similarly here, Sango wasn't taught anything about cooking or baking at all, in comparison to Liko who was taught how to make sweets by Murdock (and knowing him, he was probably really patient when teaching her). Sango had no one to cheer on her and she seemed confused about kitchen tools so she probably was never taught by anyone about things like this. Still, I felt like she actually had an idea in mind when she tried to make her cake because the ice sculpture she made out of it resembled the Pokemon she has on her school bag? (Namakobushi, I think) So she was trying to do something specific but she failed and she was just frustrated about not knowing how to do it. I really wonder if that's the first time something like this happened for her..

#i feel like they keep highlighting how liko and the others have a good support system vs the explorers who don't seem to #the contrast between liko who had people watching her and supporting her when she made the cake #vs sango who was alone and didn't have help but still tried to do something #the situation and her outburst didn't come off as a gag to me but felt pretty serious #she was still upset when she left and she blamed her pkmn for not helping but she still called onigohri back in the pokeball etc #i really wonder why sango is like that and if there are underlying reasons for her behavior #feels like she can't regulate her emotions and easily gets worked up until they hit a boiling point #she gives me the feel of being categorized as a 'problem' so maybe no one wanted to deal with her bc of her explosive personality? #hope we learn more about her this chapter #hz047 #sango #character notes #episode notes

[denizenhardwick]

the thing with milgram is that i don't actually know how good the writing is. i haven't seen any payoff yet, and i don't even know what that payoff will look like, so i can't know how much you can analyze and at what point you start digging into things that were never intended. and for most of the prisoners, that's fine, there's no harm in waiting.

but i'm now being asked to trust that something that looks like harmful DID misrepresentation will actually turn out to be clever and subversive. and i can't really bring myself to do that when i have no evidence that the writers know what they're talking about and aren't just misrepresenting DID. right now, after years of hinting at an explanation, it is presenting us with a character who was stressed at work and so developed an alter who kills people that annoy him.

sure, i could give it the benefit of the doubt. maybe mikoto's alter is lying about his motive. maybe the writers do know that DID develops as a result of childhood trauma in the vast majority of cases and plan to reveal more in the third trial. sure. but the simplest explanation is that the writers are just misrepresenting DID and playing into the "evil/murderous alter" trope, and i have no reason to have faith that that's not the case. especially since, even if there is more going on, they're still willing to leave it like this for at least another year before subverting it, and that's extremely irresponsible imo.

yeah. so. musically, double was great. but everything else just leaves me feeling really, really bad.

#milgram #i've been reading what systems in the fandom have to say and opinions seem pretty mixed #but i don't like the idea of me as a singlet trying to justify this through analysis. and i don't even want to tbh #i was hoping that the trial 2 mv would flesh out his alter and give his crime the depth nuance and sympathy afforded to the other prisoners #but that didn't happen and i'm disappointed and upset #we got a little bit. but nowhere near enough #and tbh it was never a good idea even if they subverted it they would still be writing another character with DID who kills people #and there isn't enough non-murdery rep to make that subversion worth it