#that something is sadness and nostalgia

[icewindandboringhorror]

There's always a slight yearning in the back of my mind wishing I had been born in the right place, time, family situation, income level, etc. to have just lived in one single house for my entire life. Imagine being born in a place that still suits you, even through all of your personal evolutions and etc. The idea of deep familiarity with an area because you've lived and explored it for 40+ years, being encased in a web of memories and connections. Being able to clean out your old childhood bedroom and find personal artifacts, to dig in the yard and remember. I know those lives can still be plenty imperfect, but there's just something so seemingly solid and stable and Grounding about it that I sometimes wish I could have.. (At least from my outside perspective as someone who's moved around a bit geographically and even within the same area, never lives in the same house/ apartment /etc. for more than a few years usually.) Like... having a place that is printed upon, fully your own, rather than chronically a visitor, every thought of a space always tempered with the notion that one day soon you'll have to pack it all up again, etc. There's something peaceful about the permanence.

#I think also because I'm a very nostalgic person - THOUGH not in the way that somep poeple mean when they say nostalgia because I've realiz #ed that to some people apparently it means like.. more of a sad emotional thing? Or when I talk about being nostalgic they say 'me too' and #then describe how they're always depressed dwelling on the past wishing they could revisit it and replaying it and feeling sad and etc. #Whereas for me - it's not in a deep or emotional way at all. It's very detached - kind of like someone who is doing like a scientific #cataloguing of something? I don't feel any remorse or sadness or longing or sitting there sobbing for hours over people/pets I've lost or #etc. It's more like a fun contemplative excercise and extension of self analysis plus just documentation. Like I know your memory fades as #you get older OR even as stuff is actively ongoing humans have terrible recall - even the ones who are less emotional/more focused on #accuracy our minds still twist things or etc. SO I looove to have documentations of everything possible so that in the future I will have #as full and complete of a view of myself as I possibly can. sure the image will undoubtedly be a little distorted but having real evidence #of how something was at a time is very valuable. You look through old messages or letters or something and you always find other alternate #versions of yourself. Not in a worse way like inherently inferior Previous Models Of You who haven't yet been perfected but even just in a #neutral way like 'what they're saying is not a BAd thing but also is not how I would say that today.' etc. ANYWAY I find it really interest #ing to document and remember things and love revisiting the past - not in a sad way - but just like. curiosity. reminiscing and recalling #and filling in gaps. or trying to have the same feeling I felt at a previous time so I can remember what it was. Collecting information for #documentation purposes. Like for example - I would love to go back and tour all of my old childhood houses/apartments. Not to like #sit in the middleof them and cry and go 'ohhh my childhood waughhh' - but literally because I want to take detailed photographs so I #can remeber exatly what they looked like and recreate them in sims or some other digital way. Why? idk. just to gather the information. If #I ever live to like 80 years old and I'm still reflecting on my life curious about the dteails of it. I want to be able to fire up my #ancient windows 10 laptop I've kept all these years and open up the sims 4 and tour my old home with accuracy etc. ?? #Not sure why really. Maybe an extension of how I generally care a lot about having an 'accurate' view of things? Like I would rather be #accurate than be happy. I don't understand 'ignorance is bliss' because I would always rather know. I always always in any situation am mor #focused on 'what is the well researched practical truth' than about 'how does this make me feel' or etc. Truth above ALL else even if it #were to make me miserable. Aka why I'm a 'boring' 'annoying' 'UM actually..' type of killjoy lol because it's very hard for me to understan #that some people can enjoy something or have a good time even not knowing the full facts of a situation or etc. BUT anyway. since that is #some core driver of my personality for whatever reason (just the plague of ennegram type 5 perhaps lol) maybe that also drives me to my #kind of minor obsession with like 'I must have a complete view and calatoguing of my life that is as accurate as possible within the means #i have' . Is it REALLY important for me to know the exact layout of on of my first childhood bedrooms? no. materially it does nothing for m #in life. BUT hey. it would make a great addition to the Accurate Life Story Catalogue lol. ANYWAY.. But I think a lot of wanting to live in #one place forever is not just the ease of documentation. but the sense of having a constant. Much of what i crave most in life is stability #& familiarity &routine bc of how my brain works. And it just would feel so good to be Settled. Never uproot again. One little place FOREVER

[allonepiece]

there's something about finally seeing roger and his crew in the past that really wounds me

#one piece #op #volume 96 #maybe it's like sadness and nostalgia? for something that is entirely new to me (the reader) and yet it doesn't feel foreign at all #seeing him embracing his sickness and accepting his little time left is so bittersweet as well #and his crew having his back!! supporting him till the end! #the friend he has in whitebeard and his crew! even if they treat each other as enemies! #so wholesome to see but so sad at the same time #what has this series done to me. #buggy #shanks #gol d roger #rayleigh #don't even get me started with the treasure and the one piece itself. I'm gonna cry #the rat posts #the rat rambles

[thenationofzaun]

Sevika is like. You and I are likeminded people and I share your deepest desire more than anyone else and you gave me a renewed sense of hope during a hopeless time and for that I sacrificed a piece of myself to keep you safe. I also understand you better than anyone but with that understanding comes the acute knowledge that I will never be your number one person which is fine. I don't have to be to do my duty to you and I am incredibly secure in myself and my position but. It does sting a bit. You also lowkey trigger my daddy issues from the way I watch you cherish this kid in your life when I had a complicated relationship with my own father and I fucking hate that kid but I feel for YOU and I'm torn between wanting to kill her and wanting to help you but sometimes I'm tempted to kill you too because of all the BS you let her get away with. But I can't kill you because you're the only mf I respect around here and the only one I can actually say I believe in. And I also know that the loving father in you that I feel for and respect is a gaping weakness on the path we both walk, and I'm willing you with every fibre of my being to see sense and be the cutthroat monster I know you can be, the one I need, or else neither of us is getting what we always dreamed of. And I try to tell you this in a way I know you'd understand and I can only hope you listen because while I'm always there to save you I don't know if I always will be or if I'll even want to be because how long can I stand to put up with this shit? But you never do. And then you die. At the hands of that kid you loved so beautifully, so stupidly. And I wasn't there to protect you. And our dream is lost.

#spreading the sevilco agenda #it's actually crazy how conflicted sevika feels for silco's love for jinx #she despises jinx and hates how damaging that relationship has been for the cause. #but she also deeply feels for silco because she remembers what it was like with her own father and witnessing silco's devotion to jinx #causes a twinge of sad nostalgia in her. that she hates. because how dare she feel anything but searing hatred for something jinx-related #anyway i firmly believe if jinx was more disciplined and responsible and wasn't such a detriment to their goals #sevika would be extremely tolerant of her. but jinx is gonna jinx and i love her bitchass for it. sorry sevika <3 #silco x sevika #sevilco #arcane #silco #sevika #jinx #arcane netflix

[chirpsythismorning]

The ST5 time jump is rumored to be set in 1988. Listen To Your Heart by Roxette came out in 1988. I don't think that is a coincidence.

#byler #/j #no but like #mike wheeler being called out by listen to your heart by roxette can be something so personal #like... #it wouldn't even need to be in the show for me #if they ever were in 1988 for s5 #i would be thinking about how this song exists in their world #and how it's just mike all day #the lyrics? the feeling you get near the end of the song is like a big beam of light? #it's too much honestly #i think it would make sense for the epilogue to be 1989 with them going to college...? #so let me imagine the time jump is in 88 #but i'd be okay with 87 honestly #and then an 89 epilogue bc i feel like that would tie the end of this 80s nostalgia show off nicely #no way they're taking the show into the 90s tho #not happening #will and mike going to college together out of state mayhaps... to a big city mayhaps? #then we'd get a parallel to will looking out of the car happy this time after 4 seasons of him looking out of the car sad #and then we'd get a shot of mike driving and like smiling at peace #and that would be homage to the smalltown boy music video ending... #or that's what i imagine

[sweetandglovelyart]

Might be showing my age a little bit here, but did any of you guys also play Super Princess Peach on the DS when you were kids? It was one of my favorite DS games when I was younger, and the impending release of Princess Peach Showtime has gotten me thinking about it again. I still have my cartridge for it, and I also still have the original case and instruction booklet that came with it.

Even after all these years it still works too! Can’t believe that this game is almost twenty years old!

#text post #not Kirby #I’m going to be really sad if Princess Peach Showtime ends up being bad #I don’t want to have waited almost two decades for another Peach game only for it to be terrible #I loved Super Princess Peach when I was a kid it was one of my favorite DS games #I think it was also one of my first DS games #the very first ones I remember playing on my DS are this Nintendogs New Super Mario Bros DS and Sonic Rush #I also played Kirby Squeak Squad and Super Star Ultra a lot as a kid Squeak Squad was my first Kirby game #I know people tend to not like Squeak Squad that much in the fandom but I like it even if the whole cake storyline is kind of silly #I played it so much as a kid that I think the soundtrack is permanently embedded into my brain lmao #I have a lot of nostalgia for the DS as a console and also for the Wii #those were like the two main consoles I played games on as a kid they were a big part of my childhood #I have a lot of happy memories of playing games on these consoles they both had a really good selection of games #not sure if anyone else gets this feeling when they revisit games from their childhood #but for me playing through my old childhood games again feels a little like visiting an old friend you haven’t seen in a while #there’s something comforting about it like it’s familiar and it brings back happy memories #I’m glad that I still have all of my old DS games it’s nice to revisit them now and then

[non-fantasy]

Hello!! I saw your post about the game you're making - it sounded fascinating, and out of curiousity about a genre I don't know much about I got into a visual novel/dating sim related rabbit hole.

If you don't mind my asking, do you have any recommendations? VN or datesims or both! or any adjacents too.

(thank you, and good luck with the game!!)

YIPPEE!!!

i'm a huge fan of it gets so lonely here because it does a lot of cool things with the narration and multiple playthroughs. her tears were my light does similar things with the multiple playthrough thing and it was the first visual novel to really open my eyes to what the genre could be like! and because apparently today is horror yuri day i will add liar liar and liar liar 2. the artstyle is very cute! and there's blood!

for less horror yuri and more dating sim, i am currently completely obsessed with tokimeki memorial girls side 1-3, the dating sim/visual novel/stat-raising hybrid that inspired a lot of otome games—— and for good reason, too, because it's JUST THAT GOOD. i almost exploded something trying to play the fourth game but i will not let that stop me

in pure visual novel, i have to recommend heartbaked, it was one of those games i played in my free visual novel frenzy when i was younger and it really stuck with me! i still think about the radley ending.

i adore adore adore pacthesis games and i would love to direct you to my number one favourite and inspiration, number days sim date, because the intertwining of plot and romance and friendship was wonderful. xolga and mr toko is more point and click but check those out too

i love you was REALLY GOOD and i adored it. if you want proactive women and blushing boys this is the game for you! kill them with blushing right now

senpai please look at me was good!!! i love it! absolutely worth sticking around for all the bonuses! very short and sweet and you will love it

sweetest valentine is a game. in a genre called :). if you don't know what :) means don't worry about it!

play yuki 4p for lesbians and its sequel, scheme, for even more dumb lesbians. i am absolutely begging you to click those links because the names are too long for me to type out and i don't know if googling lesbians scheme will bring you to the masterpiece properly

hermes and gry is REALLY FUNNY but also one of those games that opened my mind to how complex the ren'py system could be. you made a map, a constantly-updated journal, an inventory, and the best damn ending ever? i was screaming when all my evil schemes came together. absolutely 10/10 worth it if the creator wants my liver i'd hand it over

hot coffee is SO SO SO good that i ended up reaching out to the creator just to praise it so much please play it please i'm on my knees please

speaking of games i am begging you to play

absolutely play i want to pursue the mean side character and my sweet zombie!!!! tsun is a great artist and the stories are good and you have to have to have to have to play okay!!! tsun is also making i just want to be single which is so so so cool the game of the year every year and it hasn't been released yet and you need to become. a fan okay because aro pride is right now

#thank you anon it really was delightful to hear that you liked my game even before it was released! #i wanted to recommend no-good noelle but. apparently the creator just went offline?? sad #there was also our life beginnings and always which is very acclaimed and i loved the demo #but i haven't finished the full game so i don't want to recommend something i didn't finish #xoxo droplets is also good but it's half free half paid and i was focusing more on free stuff that is underrated #(p)lanets and heartstring bugs are also games i played years ago that i'm fond of #but like in a nostalgia kind of way. #it was absolutely wild to play tokimeki memorial girls side and realize that heartstring bugs was so heavily based off it tho #like it wasn't copying characters or settings but the stat raising and events and clothing system were all drawn from it #special shout out to corrine cross' dead and breakfast which isn't a visual novel or a dating sim #i just like it #i also need to clarify that her tears were my light is not like HORROR horror but like. existential gay nightmare kinda deal

[kithj]

Hey, hope you're doing well! Had a couple questions for you if they're not too personal:

1. Whats your favourite story you've written so far? Is it something public? Is it finished?

2. Do you have any long form non-interactive fiction you've written that's available to read? I would genuinely kill to read something like that from you

hi :-) ohh these are fun...

my favorite story is probably My NovelTM which isn't finished yet, i've written a first draft and now it's just been languishing until i can find the motivation to start a second draft. i finished the first draft in august i think, and started editing it pretty heavily before i realized i was just going to have to rewrite the whole thing again. i'm mostly having trouble with the ending, which always seems to be my problem lmfao... anyways it follows the relationship of Angel and Valerie, after Valerie has been missing for a few months and suddenly returns as a vampire with no memory of Angel or what happened over the months while she was away. it alternates between both their povs in both present day and through flashbacks.

so unfortunately for your second question, no, but i do hope to publish Angel and Valerie's story one day, either traditionally through a small press (lol here's hoping) or by self-publishing it. otherwise my only published work is what's available on my itch.io (siren's call, one day hike, etc)

i am working on a short story for vampire jam, which i'll hopefully be sharing next month. it's still in the form of interactive fiction, published in twine, but it's more of a short story than anything like blood choke or tnp. i also have a butch cowboys and zombies story i've been working on for a while, but i'm not sure when i'll get around to finishing it since it's not a priority project.

i do want to write another novel as well, a very old story i've been kicking around for years, but as usual i haven't been able to come up with an ending for it... but maybe one day.

#one thing that amazes me abt published authors is just. the way they churn out books #how do they have so many ideas.... esp when their stories are so varied #i feel like my work is very one note lmfao one day hike & blood choke & hell's holler& even my vampjamp story& the cowboy story #are all very similar. it makes me feel self conscious tbh like im just writing the same thing over and over #but whatever it's what i need to write rn to keep myself sane even if it's all jsut sad lesbians LOL #i tell myself it's helping me refine the narrative i want to perfect in hell's holler (the novel) #idk i would like to write something more happy eventually #like i want to write a YA book. everyone brace yourselves but i want to write a historical fiction during the early 2000s/2010s #it sounds silly to call it historical fiction but like. it would be #around when gay marriage was legalized in the US & the lead up to it #as well as political/cultural attitudes in the US during that time post 9/11. through a high schooler's perspective #think something like the old american girl doll stories when they were actually historical and educational rather than nostalgia bait #yes i AM bitter about the 90s twins why do you ask #anyways. yeah 👍 #ask #sproongoose

[entangledsongbird]

Show me that you’re human

Make me feel something…

#feel something #jaymes young #song lyrics #masoch!st #2014 revival #2012 tumblr #messy girl #sad girls club #bpd girlies #2013 nostalgia #2016 tumblr #2014 grunge #pale grunge #soft grunge #grunge #aesthetic #night aesthetic #tumblr aesthetic #Spotify

[chiropteracupola]

for the first time in a long time I am procrastinating drawing by doing externally necessitated tasks

#news from the cupola #gave myself a nostalgia-induced sadness by looking at the art instagrams of some old friends #we're certainly all in a different place than we were years ago (for example I found some old photos of Me there ...yipes) #anyway just like in high school I still can't figure out character design for christopher paolini characters #big deep sigh. going to do something mildly productive instead unless I have a sudden brainwave (unlikely)

[sarahwor1d]

an ode to my family

#mine #all mine #photographers on tumblr #artists on tumblr #collage #collage art #collage artist #book artist #book art #suburban gothic #nostalgia #nostalgia is a constant thorn in my side #there's something sad about new hampshire

[nostalgicfun]

Baby Mickey! 💛

#so fun fact about me literally no one would guess: #I have the trait that when something is TOO cute it actually makes me uncomfortable #it doesn't happen often but with me #this is extremely rare and is almost always limited to cute things that are portrayed as sad #(like Sad Sam and Honey for example) #but baby-ified things will do it too. this mickey borders on that line #monchiichis activate it too! #anyway. normal tags now! #mickey #disney #80s #toycore #kidcore #toys #mine #original #nostalgia #nostalgic

[lasdelaintuicion]

i am a grown woman re-watching one of her favorite animated series of childhood to feel joy

#its young justice yeah #i woke up too early and wanted to be less sad while drinking my coffee #it's kind of working ngl #kids were right. something soothing about watching cartoons before/while getting ready in the cold early morning #plus nostalgia can be very comforting

[sylvainjosegaytier]

The wrong song came up on shuffle while I was trying to write about Dedue’s childhood right after coming to Faerghus and I had to stop working bc I was crying so hard I couldn’t see

#the dangers of this instrumental playlist. I love me a good Sad Violin. #these emotional outbursts are so funny bc like they’re super cathartic and help me get the tone of the writing right #but I always look back at what I wrote later and it’s like ‘he did not know how to work a forge himself’ #which is perhaps not inherently sob-inducing lmao #my favorite incongruous one was where I was weeping so hard I had to call my partner to talk me down from it #and what I had written was something like ‘the horse nuzzled into Sylvain’s jacket looking for more carrots’ #it’s about the intimacy of loss. the pain of nostalgia. the relentless reminder that time only ever goes forward #and we cannot go back

[ronanlynchdefender]

Playing Seven by Taylor Swift while all the kids are experiencing so much joy and fun together like the found family they are after Darcy opens up to Tara about her parents was so devastating. Absolutely eviscerated me.

#seven is probably my favorite taylor song #it holds so much nostalgia and sadness and innocence #it makes me heart feel something #heartstopper #heartstopper season 2

[enter-the-performapals]

I like to imagine that, while a little sad, Yuzu can't hear the voices of her interdimensional counterparts like Yuya can. She'll be like "I read a book in the moonlight last night and I could feel Serena with me," while Yuya would be like "Joeri said that if I don't get a perfect score in every subject this semester he's going to kick my ass into next Sunday. I don't even know how he could do that but I'm scared,"

#yuzu would probably be hit with something like a wave of nostalgia when doing something the bracelet girls would enjoy tbh #i think theyd kibd of just fade into facets of their personalities over time sadly #like they were never seperate people in the first place #makes me a lil sad #ygo arc v #yugioh arc v #sakaki yuya #hiiragi yuzu #serena (arc v) #joeri #soliliqueue

[planetxiao]

the depression of finishing a show is getting to me </3

#ᥫ᭡ °. ⊹ thinking out loud #hearing avatar’s love makes me sad #hearing any naruto song makes me sad #i watched these shows in my adulthood #and yet the nostalgia i feel from them feels like they were part of my childhood #maybe it comes from my inner child or something #idk #all i know is that i want to cry everytime i hear avartar’s love lol #edit: add the first naruto ending to that as well