#the low self esteem and self sacrifing takes piss me off too but not as much as takes like these

[factsilike]

JC: does one decent thing after a whole book of extremely crappy behaviour

His Stans and the whole MDZS fandom: OMG BEST CHARACTER IN THE NOVEL! SUCH AN AMAZING AND AWE INSPIRING SECT LEADER LIKE HE PIKED UP LITERAL BRICKS TO REBUILD HIS WHOLE ENTIRE SECT FROM THE GROUND! TOTALLY DID NOT REGAIN NEW SECT MEMBERS JUST CAUSE OF WWX'S REPUTATION! SOB SOB SO TRAGIC SOB SO MISUNDERSTOOD OUR POOR BABY OUR POOR MISUNDERSTOOD ANGRY GRAPE 🥺 HE JUST NEEDS A HUG 🥺 BEST JIUJIU AND BROTHER EVER🥹 OH YUNMENG BROS 😫SNIFF 😩 SNIFF WHAT A SAD SOAP OPERA STORY🥺 THEY JUST NEEDED TO ✨ COMMUNICATE ✨

Meanwhile WWX: undergoes tragedy after tragedy and loses home after home; loses his parents at 5, roams the streets as a child for four years, suffers verbal and physical abuse from Madam Yu his entire time in the Jiang sect, has to fight for his life in the Xuanwu cave while injured and weak, gets a beating again by Madam Yu for no real reason other her pettiness, witnesses his sect siblings get murdered, has to look after and and rescue an emotionally numb JC while again injured from the lashings he received from his mother, undergoes a surgery without anaesthesia for two days to give JC his literal golden core, and immediately after gets thrown into literal hell on earth without a core and still recovering from said surgery, survives said hell on earth to immediately fight as a one man army in a war, takes incentive to rescue a group of war prisoners and innocents (two of which JC owed a huge debt to, which he spat upon), again takes incentive to withdraw from his sect so they wouldn't have to suffer any consequences and only he would, and eventually sees his Shijie (literally the only person to his knowledge who ever unconditionally loved him and treated him as family) die in front of his eyes, and finally gives his own life to protect the innocent Wen remnants.

His Stans and the whole MDZS fandom: WOW WHAT AN ARROGANT AND SELF-DELUSIONAL 🫠IDIOT🙄 JC WAS SO MUCH BETTER THAN HIM LIKE ALL WWX DID WAS MESS THINGS UP. OBVIOUSLY HE SHOULD'VE TOLD JC HIS PLAN SO THAT JC COULD DO IT ✨ BETTER ✨ ALSO WWX WAS TOTALLY MORALLY GREY AND WAS EXACTLY THE SAME AS JGY AND XY AND I KNOW THIS CAUSE I HAVE THE ABSOLUTE BEST READING COMPREHENSION AND CLEARLY I UNDERSTAND THE STORY BETTER THAN ANYONE

#the low self esteem and self sacrifing takes piss me off too but not as much as takes like these #jc stans you're all brain dead idiots to come with takes like these #mdzs #wei wuxian #wangxian #canon jiang cheng #lan wangji #mo dao zu shi #cql #the untamed #anyone who sends hate come at me all you want I'm really pissed off rn #would love to vent

[itbe-jess]

Rayman The Animated Series: Headcanons

-Character ages: Rayman is 15. Flips is 5. Betina is 21. Cookie is 44. LacMac is 700, since I presume he's an ageless fauna.

-Rayman has been living independently since he was 7. He is the last of his species, which means he also lost his entire family in the calamity that killed them all. I like to think of the entire series' premise being about Rayman accepting the circus fugitives as his new family. He's the middle child, Betina's the older sister, Flips is the baby sister, Cookie being the dad, and LacMac as the fun awkward uncle.

-Rigatoni gets arrested at the end of the series after Grub found out he illegally abducted a minor (Rayman, I mean). However, he never got arrested for kiddnapping in general, cuz you know our law system is fucked. Ravorbeard runs the circus now.

-After no longer having to worry about running from the police, the gang all moved in together in a big comfy home, rather than going their separate ways.

-Rayman does a lot of standard, early 2000s teen stuff. Eat and sleep all day, spend hours on his video games, read inappropriate magazines, and listen to his CD player at full volume.

-Rayman is usually put up with babysitting Flips. He'll just throw in toys, or turn on an obnoxious preschool show, just to keep her distracted. Sometimes, this doesn't work, and Flips ends up blackmailing him to play with her. Her favorite games with Ray are playing with dolls, pretending to be princesses, and having a tea party with imaginary tea. Rayman doesn't really mind wearing dresses.

-Betina is the independent, hard-working sister who makes a lot of money to provide for herself, and Rayman is always sucking up to have some of that money. She's also the responsible sibling who gets him out of trouble, whether it be with bullies, or just some senior citizens he pissed off. Most of the time, she doesn't rat him out to Cookie.

-Cookie is a very strict and overbearing father. He'll take Rayman's CDs and edit out all the dirty lyrics. Not to mention he would scold Ray and Flips for a whole hour just for eating one piece of candy before dinner. Ever since he found out Rayman was only a teenager, he started treating him more like a child, even sending him to high school.

-LacMac is the favorite family member, letting Ray and Flips do whatever they want. Stay up late, eat ice cream for dinner, drive to the arcade, etc. LacMac plays along with them, too. Even when he refuses, Ray takes advantage of his stupidity by begging. Whenever Rayman gets grounded, LacMac is the one to spoil him a lot, despite Cookie's orders.

-In high school, Rayman befriends a fat nerdy exchange student named Globox Jr. (And I bet you know who the father is), and he's basically Glo's only friend. Rayman is the one to stand up against bullies for him, and they share an empty lunchroom table together. Rayman is also consider's Glo's comfort buddy, since he does hold a lot of low self-esteem, but Ray makes sure to remind him that he's always valid.

-Ly is in this series, but instead of being Rayman's mentor, she's actually Betina's girlfriend whom she fell in love with at work. They're also currently engaged. (The idea came to me from this awesome drawing I found on Tumblr)

-Rayman is an aromantic pansexual. He has normal perverted thoughts as any other teen, but he seeks no romantic relationship. Whenever students make fun of him for having no date to the dance, he replies "Good luck sacrificing a blissful Friday night."

-Cookie is gay, of course. However, he never manages to land a successful date, because men find his personality a big turn off.

#Rayman #Rayman The Animated Series #headcanons

[makeste]

I like Bakuguo but his attitude is starting to really piss me off. He's talking about Daku as if he's just ~crazy~ and as if he isn't partly to blame for Deku's toxic self-worth issues. It's infuriating to watch. If Bakuguo doesn’t admit out loud and in front of his friends that his bullying of Deku played a part in Deku's current destructive state and if he doesn’t verbally apologize and reaffirm Deku's worth then I can no longer like Bakuguo's character or Hori's writing.

tbh I don't really know why this is the discourse of choice for people all of a sudden, but this is already the second ask I've gotten about it, so I might as well address it lol.

I think fandom is conflating fanon!Deku and canon!Deku here again. fanon Deku is of course much more sensitive and woobified and has much shakier self-esteem. fanon Deku is the one that turns evil in so many AUs because of Kacchan's bullying. fanon Deku is the one that actually jumps off the roof in so many fics, as opposed to fishing his notebook back out of the pond a few minutes later grumbling about how Kacchan needs to think before he speaks or else he could land himself in serious shit one day if god forbid anyone actually does take his cruel words to heart.

and just to clarify before I get any further, I am not saying this to excuse Kacchan's actions in any way, because what he did was still completely terrible and unacceptable and WAY over the line, and what's more he knew it, too. the bullying was still shitty and horrible and awful, and definitely impacted Deku and made him miserable. I fully acknowledge that, and that Kacchan has a lot of atoning to do for it. this is not a "Kacchan did nothing wrong" post.

but that being said, I don't think canon Deku's reckless self-sacrificing nature actually has anything to do with the bullying. I think they're two completely separate things. canon Deku actually has pretty decent self-esteem in spite of everything Kacchan did to him. canon Deku doesn't think he is useless. canon Deku had a wholeass fight with Kacchan less than 10 chapters into the series in which he explicitly spelled it out for Kacchan that he had a lot of worth, and was going to prove it to him. canon Deku was persistent in wanting to become a hero and hoping and believing that he could find some way in spite of being quirkless. canon Deku never let go of that dream even when no one else supported it. I don't think he would have even given up on it after being told no by All Might, tbh -- we just never got to see how it would have played out because of everything that happened with the sludge monster shortly afterward. but he's not the type to ever give up on something that easily, and we've seen that. canon Deku never thought he was useless, but rather wanted to prove to everyone else that he wasn't.

the drive that Deku has to save and protect others even at the expense of his own safety is something entirely separate from that. he doesn't break his body for others simply because he has no self-esteem and thinks that his own life isn't important. he does it because he can't stand the thought of someone else getting hurt, and knowing that he could have done something to prevent it. it's as simple as that. like, Spider-Man has the whole "with great power comes great responsibility" thing, right? and he doesn't have low self-esteem; he simply believes that if he has the ability to help someone else, then he has a responsibility to help them. it's a personal creed. and Deku is based on Spider-Man. his philosophy is based on that philosophy, which was one of Horikoshi's core influences and is one of the core creeds in superhero fiction.

Deku is self-destructive not because he doesn't value himself, but because he is literally physically incapable of standing back and doing nothing if he knows that he can do something. he's the type of person who sees a car speeding towards someone and leaps in to push them out of the way. NOT because he wants to get himself fucking pancaked by a speeding car, but simply because he can't sit back and watch the other person get hurt without taking action. his body moves before he can think. and that's where the whole "doesn't take himself into account" thing comes in -- the fact that his thought process simply stops at "get them out of the way of the car", and never extends beyond that to "hey, and maybe I should try to find a way to do this that doesn't involve me getting hit in their place." to him, that's simply less important than the first priority, which is getting the other person out of the way.

and regarding that last part, while that may seem like a self-worth issue if he's prioritizing everyone else above himself, I think what it actually is just selflessness taken to extremes. like for instance, when a parent sacrifices themselves to save their child, them placing the child's life above their own isn't necessarily because they don't see themselves as having value. rather, it's that they love the child so much that they place their well-being even above their own. and that's what Deku is like as well. except that in his case he cares about EVERYONE, and so is willing to sacrifice himself for anyone. and that selflessness is his defining character trait, and simultaneously the most admirable and the most terrifying thing about him. it's both his greatest strength and his greatest weakness, which I think is fascinating to explore.

but anyway, so that's also why we never really see anyone thoroughly chewing him out for this behavior either. because the thing is, it is admirable how selfless he is. it's just that there's also a reason why most people are at least a little bit selfish. and that's because too much selflessness will ultimately and inevitably wind up getting you killed. at some point you either have to learn when to put the oxygen mask on yourself first, or else find yourself a loyal group of friends (or classmates) to watch your back, and make sure that mask gets on you when you need it. and maybe help you land the plane too while they're at it.

anyway so that was a lot of rambling, but basically it all boils down to three things:

when Deku berates himself for being useless (for instance at the end of the War arc), he's doing it out of frustration for not being able to push the others out of the way of the metaphorical car. that's the kind of uselessness he can't stand. the sitting-back-and-doing-nothing uselessness.

Kacchan's bullying was terrible, and it might have indeed played a part in Deku's choice of the word "useless" as a way of berating himself in these instances, but he is not the one who gave Deku this mindset of taking himself out of the equation. that's something that was already inherent to Deku from day one. (but that said, Kacchan has a lot of things to apologize to Deku for anyway, so if he wants to add this to the list I certainly won't stop him. he gets mad about Deku's suicidal attitude because it worries him, but that doesn't necessarily mean that he doesn't feel responsible for it. people underestimated his feelings of atonement before 284/285, and I think they're still underestimating him now.)

and lastly, one last important note, which is that Deku's current "saving" mindset isn't wrong, just as Kacchan's "winning" mindset was not wrong either. the lesson to be learned here is NOT that being selfless and wanting to save other people is bad. rather, it's the fact that he's trying to do it alone that's got him all fucked up right now. basically when you think about it, selflessness is really just selfishness on someone else's behalf. which means that in order for Deku to be saved, it isn't necessary for him to change his outlook or his selfless attitude, even if it is pretty crazy lol. rather, all he really needs is a good group of friends who are willing to act selfishly on his behalf in return. protecting each other through mutual selflessness lol. teamwork as self-preservation. hence why the U.A. kids are here now.

anyway so yeah, I think that's everything. sorry this got so long and out of control lol. this is just a very specific nuanced thing that's hard for me to express, but which I feel is very important when it comes to Deku's character. Kacchan didn't unleash Depressed Nomad Deku on the world (or at least not in this respect). but that being said, he and the others will hopefully be the ones to nudge him back on the right course again.

#bnha 319 #midoriya izuku #bakugou katsuki #bnha meta #deku meta #bnha #boku no hero academia #bnha spoilers #mha spoilers #bnha manga spoilers #makeste reads bnha #asks #anon asks #long post

[acoolemocucumber]

s6 relationship analysis (lance's character, angst, and faith in lgbt rep)

okay, so here's my take on s6.

i feel really odd? after watching it, i felt unbelievably sad and heartbroken, but not in a satisfying way. usually i love dramatic seasons that make me feel, but this was more of a... unfinished, prolonged grief that i felt.

i can say that this season was alright. it definitely has a lot of things i disliked and wish would improve, but overall animation and plot was... good/okay...

i'm going to skip over plot details and nitpicky little problems. i'm going to talk about relationships, because i'm definitely smarter in that area than analyzing the plot.

okay, first, allura and lotor.

in the first episode, you really can tell that they've gotten closer.

as the season progresses, they really find solace in each other and honestly, i think lotor really did love allura. but... not in the right way, not the way anybody should if they want to do it correctly. he didn't love her and put her over his morals and plan. he put his ambition over her. and as you know, he tried to kill her and the rest of her team.

but you can tell that she was dear to him for a while. unless i'm wrong and it was all an act.

i feel bad for allura. but i also feel bad for lotor. he had a rough childhood which made it tragic to see him follow his father's footsteps. that's all i have to say about it.

keith and shiro.

their relationship was a main part of this season and it'd be silly to ignore it. the fight scene between them almost got me crying. when keith said "you're my brother, i love you," it really made me feel for him. all of the flashbacks for keith were well-done.

although, i didn't expect there to be so many fake shiros in those cloning pods. it almost felt like it was too much of a fantasy, too much of a reach? it's a kids' show, i get it, but it seemed too unrealistic.

and just like pidge in s4, keith went by himself and after his long battle there weren't any questions about what happened. it felt,, unseen. it felt like it should've been touched on at least a little bit.

it was quite a big point for the plot, so to not even talk about it?

that was probably one of the biggest issues this season.

there were so many dramatic moments in this season, but once they were over, they weren't brought up again by the characters. not just this season, but really the whole show

let me give some examples:

lance sacrificing himself for coran. pidge finding matt's grave. shiro and sendak; shiro's ptsd (rarely spoken about to anyone). keith and shiro at the bom base.

now this season:

keith's battle between him and shiro. lance sacrificing himself for allura. lance being upset over allura. lance being made fun of by hunk and pidge. lance crying over shiro.

okay, you see why i'm centering around lance?

well, that's who i'm talking about next. and honestly, i'm not just going to choose a relationship between him and another character, for one reason.

whenever he's with another character, their problems are always put first. (there are exceptions, which only go back to s3, with lance seeking out keith.)

whenever he's with another character, their emotional distress is almost always put above his own.

this might be so for two reasons.

one, lazy writing. could be true.

two, that's just who lance is. we all know he's a very empathetic person, he naturally puts others' lives above his own. this is shown when he sacrifices himself to save coran and allura.

or, it's a mix of both, which is what i'm expecting honestly.

okay, well, establishing that...

lance this season was heartbroken.

if the voltron directors wanted to make me feel utterly sad and hopeless, then they did it.

not in a good way though. normally i love when characters are put through hardships, and they grow from it, but this... this was so much different.

for the ENTIRE SHOW, lance's self esteem has been lowering. i went back to watch some of the earlier episodes, and you can go back to season 2 to see where it really begins, but you can see how it keeps getting worse as time goes on.

it was so hard to watch as i continued on with each season. since lance is my favorite character, it made it even harder.

he loses a bit of his enthusiasm, and although he doesn't become a lifeless shell of a human, he is not the same.

the hardest thing about this isn't that his self esteem is low and he's depressed, it's the lack of concern from most of the team. it's the lack of addressing his issues in a healthy way.

as we watch the show, we are the only ones who know the extent of lance's insecurities. he always deals with it when he's away from the team, and i assume this is so because he's afraid the team will dislike him, and he will break his shell of bravado and confidence he's made.

EVEN SO, when the team IS around him, they never say anything. this fucking pisses me off.

as someone who has experienced similar things, being ignored and feelings made out to be less important than others, i really, really sympathize with lance. he's had signs that the team didn't pick up on, unlike other characters.

allura feeling sad? SOMEBODY is going to comfort her. pidge feeling sad? count on someone comforting her. shiro? keith?

they all had somebody to go to.

and even when lance is obviously hurting, right in front of the team, nobody goes to him. this is mostly after keith leaves.

hunk, his BEST FRIEND, and pidge, a close friend as well, only made him feel worse by mocking and making light of his pain.

his feelings are thrown under a rug, and then stepped on.

hell, even the mice made him sad by not listening to him. what the fuck?

and then there's allura and lotor.

i'm really not one to get super emotional during romances, but when lance was in the picture, or rather, excluded from the picture, i started to lose it.

he called himself a third wheel, and that he's "just a boy from cuba," and jesus christ, guys, he called himself PATHETIC.

and after all of the heartache he was put through, HE COMFORTS ALLURA.

after being essentially ignored by lotor and allura, sacrificing himself for allura and it never being brought up again, he comforts the person who was giving him the most sadness. lance literally DIED and was brought back to life.

i'm not bashing allura, but i wish she'd go to lance about his problems, rather than focusing on her own and hoping lance would reassure her.

lance didn't deserve that. he didn't fucking deserve that. he'd been heartbroken, ignored, depressed, and excluded and yet...

christ, after allura went to lance, the exact thought i had when watching her hug him and seeing his sad expression was "he's her second choice." he was made to feel like he was below lotor, like if lotor was still there, allura wouldn't have ever given him a chance. that must really fucking hurt to realize.

allura knew, after 6 seasons. finally SOMEONE knew about his low self-worth issues, and yet she ran into his arms crying about her insecurities. she knew but still ended up being the one comforted.

she should've at least talked about it to him, mentioned it, gotten it into the air that she wasn't in love with him, instead of giving him this... hope, only to be disappointed and heartbroken in the end. that's a really distressing situation, that i've also experienced, to keep getting your hopes up and having someone do it over and over until you're really tired.

i'm positive allura only sees lance as a close friend. the writers, if they aren't pulling our legs, set up their relationship so that it wouldn't make sense to put them together romantically. and right after lotor's betrayl, allura wouldn't naturally want another lover. that doesn't happen unless someone wants to distract themselves from an emotional issue, and usually it just,, doesn't happen at all. it doesn't make any sense to choose that in the story.

most of yall probably know what i'm leading up to.

yeah, lance and keith's relationship.

keith has gotten so much development, and lance has,, much less. they both have grown so much, but i really just want an episode with lance as the "main character." like keith. like keith and shiro battling, and keith and krolia having flashbacks.

this isn't to say lance hasn't gotten a lot of screentime, it's more noting that every time he really has a serious episode, he's sad and depressed. it's not healthy, it's just him being isolated and lonely. it's not as much of him growing, it's more of him becoming more and more insecure and excluded.

i just want him to be happy.

hopefully when they go back to earth, lance will be the one to step into the spotlight for a much longer time. i want him to resolve his issues, and i really just,, want lance to fall in love. i think he deserves to fall in love, after everything.

if you think lance and keith are endgame, i agree with you. there's so much evidence for it, which is a totally different post for a different time.

i really just want somebody to treat lance right for once? i want keith to give him a break, let him relax, reassure him, HUG HIM, let him talk about his feelings so he doesn't bottle them up, and just love him,,?

maybe i'm being dramatic but i see so much realism in lance as a character, his emotions, his distress; he's so realistic in that his feelings really seem the most relatable out of all of the characters in the show.

i just feel so bad for him,,? he said, while allura hugged him, that he was a person who "made a million mistakes." he is way harder on himself than most of the paladins, i think. lance isn't a bad person, but he thinks he could do better, when he's already kind to others. he cried over shiro because he BLAMED HIMSELF. imagine having someone's death on your shoulders, and just breaking down.

if yall know korra, then you know that this show is most likely going to do something similar to how korra's relationships in the love triangle went. although it is way more different because allura doesn't reciprocate lance's feelings unlike korra and her first boyfriend. i think lance is going to find something he loves more in keith than in allura. i think they're going to keep progressing in that keith really listens to lance, unlike the other members of the team.

i think in the last season of voltron, lance and keith are going to be together. seriously, there's wayyy too much evidence for it not to happen. if they say no queerbait, then klance is the only slowburn romance we can count on. lance is going to fall in love, that is confirmed, but if you look at allura... she doesn't see him romantically, although they do share a very close bond now. allura and lance's relationship is not slowburn. it's a crush that was already established at the beginning of the series. that isn't how slowburns normally start. lance and keith went from rivals, to friends, to... a rather hard to determine admiration. lance was visibly happy when keith was on screen. it was also hinted that lance's sexuality arc is an undertone to s6, and it might be a reach but, the scene with hunk saying something about lance and allura... lance blushed when he mixed up hunk and allura. he seems very distraught about it, and has been repressing it for a while. after moving on from allura, he's going to realize his feelings.

as a bi person, my experiences have been similar. i dated the opposite sex, and it took me a long time to get over, but afterwards i realized my sexuality. it's almost like the person i dated, since they were straight, was blocking out my growth as a person and me realizing my orientation.

i'm sure this is what is happening for lance. i was in denial for a while when thinking about the same sex, and was trying to repress it by being defensive when anything "gay" was rolled my way. it's common to try to hide it, and to be unsure when you're crushing on the opposite sex. normally, you'd think you're straight until you have a chance to look around and realize who you are.

i have hope that klance is going to happen.

just,, remember that thing lauren montgomery drew with lance holding a lgbt sign. don't doubt it. have faith, guys. i'm positive we're going to get representation. that's like, the one thing i'm sure about this show. yeah, it has a lot of problems that make me upset, but next season is an odd number so if i rely on the theory that all odd seasons are better then I'VE GOT HOPE.

so, this thing is almost over, and the only way to ease my pain is to write it out. if you disagree with some things, cool. just don't attack me. if you agree, cool, suffer and hope along with me.

tl;dr - this season was okay, i have a lot of issues that revolve around lance's mental health. i want him to be happy. lgbt rep is going to happen.

if u read all this, DAMN. good for u.

✌️

#this took SO DAMN LONG #i feel a lot better after writing all this out.. woo anxiety #i was so nervous watching this season #bleh #no matter how shitty vld gets im still going to watch it because it has a deathgrip on me and wont let go #im addicted lmao #poor lance though damn #im so sad for him #i just want to give him a big hug #klance #voltron #mine #langst #lance #analysis #s6 #vld #review