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daffodilsonaprettystring · 1 year

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I just saw someone on SOC twitter say that Matthias is worse than the Darkling

That same person also said Wylan was illiterate and gay and that’s all he has going for him and that he and Jesper were the token side gays

………….TELL ME YOU DONT UNDERSTAND COMPLEX CHARACTERS WITHOUT TELLING ME YOU DONT UNDERSTAND COMPLEX CHARACTERS

LIKE GENUINELY

Wtf,?????

Matthias was raised and manipulated in under severe religious views and when he realized that they were wrong he did EVERYTHING in his power to change it.

THE DARKLING COMMITED MASS GENOCIDE AND SOLD INNOCENT GIRLS TO ABUSERS AND MANIPULATED A YOUNG GIRL THEN PROCEEDED TO TREAT HER LIKE HIS PROPERTY AND DIDNT GIVE A FUCK WHO HE HURT IN THE PROCESS INCLUDING THE GIRL DARKLINAS CLAIM HE LOVES???

Listen even going I to the show KNOWING Darkles was bad, I still fell for Darklina. Ben Barnes is extremely charismatic and yeah Darkles was a good actor and it was hard not to fall for his charm. But that’s exactly what it was: charm, and acting. We got to see so much more of his manipulation and true dark side this season, yet people still try to say he’s misunderstood and just fighting for the Grisha. No?? He’s tryna take over the damn country and keep Alina under his thumb in the process??

Do not ever compare Matthias, who died doing what was right, to Darkles who died because his ass got hit with some well earned karma. They are nothing alike.

(This is not to say Darkles isn’t also a complex character; I really enjoyed the show giving him that backstory with the Heartrender girl he loved dying and the scene where Baghra died in his arms had me feeling very bad for him, even knowing what he’s done. But that’s the thing; you can see Darkles as a complex character and still acknowledge that he is an AWFUL human being. There is no redemption for him, and he deserved the ending he got. Darkling stans take the “complex character” term and run far past the finish line with it to the point where they idolize this guy to insane levels. Just—try to remember what you’re saying when you say Darklina should have been endgame. You’re saying Alina’s and Zoya’s manipulator and the reason Genya was abused for YEARS should end up with the girl he claimed to love even though he literally used her as a tool for his own gain and didn’t give a fuck about her own wishes? Please guys.no. )

AND WYLAN?? How dare you reduce him to the stereotypical side gay. My man spent this entire season proving his worth, and he and Jesper, while admittedly moved fast, were the most stable ship in the show for a goddamn reason. Wylan has been through hell, fuck all of the crows have, and yet they all still manage to hold some good inside them.

(Yes, even Kaz. I don’t care what anyone says, that man still wants to be good for those he cares about (Yes Inej but also the other Crows) along with being a crime lord. I did a whole presentation on it for my seminar last semester. Fight me.)

The reason SOC fans love those books is because Leigh Bardugo blessed us with these incredibly dynamic characters who are flawed and human and make mistakes but at the end of the day are just kids trying to make it through life the best way they can, and doing it as a FAMILY. Shadow and Bone, while still very good books, is missing that vital piece somehwere in the Malina Darklina ship war.

This was such a long rant I’m sorry

TLDR: Darkles sucks Matthias deserves better and Wylan is still my favorite Grishaverse character ever don’t dump on him or I’m coming for your eyeballs Kazzle Dazzle style

#shadow and bone #wylan hendriks #wylan van eck #jesper fahey #matthias helvar #darkling slander #six of crows #leigh bardugo #shadow and bone netflix #shadow and bone season 2 #shadow and bone rant #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #nina zenik #crooked kingdom

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caitlinincolour · 1 year

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mmm time to infodump/rant my feeling about shadow and bone season two because ive just finished it!!!

why THE FUCK are Crooked Kingdom plot points happening this early in the show?? it makes no sense and it feels like they're not expecting to be renewed so they're rushing all the big character development and plot point things early

im just so upset and confused about the timeline it hurts my head ;-;

Alina's hair didn't turn white and also she's got shadow powers? tf?? i don't remember the ending of the shadow and bone series very well but doesn't she and Mal go live on a farm together quietly? when did Alina get so power hungry??

dont get me wrong I do love the mashup of the sab characters and the soc characters but they easily could have done that better without screwing up the soc and ck plots so badly

THEY KILLED OFF DAVID??? WHAT HAPPENED TO HIM BEING IN THE TRIUMVIRATE!?? poor genya doesn't get a break istg

I love Tolya and Tamar 1000/10 but if they start the Toyla x Inej bullshit I'm canceling my netflix subscription

I saw someone else make a meme about how Inej and Jesper's trauma gets 0 attention compared to Kaz's and it makes me sad because it doesn't give them the same amount of depth Kaz has been given

I LOVED getting to see more of the world with Shu Han and Novyi Zem this season!!

WE GOT ALL THE WESPER THAT WE COULD HAVE EVER WANTED THAT THE BOOKS LACKED (probably the only thing I'd want to change about the books)

also because they rushed all the crooked kingdom plot things AND the crows got paid so so much by Nikolai (who's country is supposed to be broke right?) that means the stakes for the ice court heist are not going to be as high or as meaningful- you're telling me Kaz is going to risk his life and crew to better the world and get rid of jurda parem? this man is only motivated by money and he got so much of it from Nikolai why would he risk so much for more?

I wish we got more of Zoya being badass but she felt more like a side character this season :/ they better give her the spotlight in season three

I want to be clear im not pro or anti Darkling bc he's a complex character with a lot of faults but also many good points especially with saving Grisha for years- which everyone seems to look over and just paint him as a bad guys when there are worse powers: jurda parem and the druskelle

INEJ WAS ABSOLUTELY INCREDIBLE AND FLAWLESS NO NOTES (other than what was the purpose of the weird taxidermy guy fight?)

I was never a big fan of Mal x Alina when reading the books but the ending they got in season two even made me disappointed like? they spend the whole damn show obsessed with finding each other and doing everything for each other just to walk away???

also in the books Nina is Ravkan and loves her country and the grisha so i thought there would be more of a big deal made when Nina finally gets to return to her home country in s2 but its not even addressed??

I know this sounds like a lot of complaining but overall I absolutely LOVE the show!! Especially the casting! everyone is perfect and bring the characters to life excellently! I think they've overall done a wonderful job (especially with my beloved crows)

if I think of any more I'll add them! tell me your thoughts too!

#shadow and bone #shadow and bone season 2 #shadow and bone spoilers #sab season 2 #sab spoilers #sab show #six of crows

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miopet · 2 years

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i am so sickened from seeing sick women having their sickness glamorized in media. if you've suffered from an eating disorder for a long time, or were raised by a person who visibly sttuggled with one, you see the signs of people with EDs everywhere, because they ARE everywhere in our media.

You can see it in their eyes, in the hollows that form on their faces where their skin sags from exhaustion and starvation. And I have observed that FAR fewer men look this way, though many do, and of course men with EDs need help too. But this post is specifically abt the issue of female oppression through diet culture.

& this is not just about thin people, or about people with restrictive EDs. All EDs contribute to a visible decline in health over time, but this specific post is that I'm sick of seeing women who look like they need to be hospitalized & put on an IV drip Yesterday in media constantly and no one bats and eye, and the men almost all appear healthier & more energetic in comparison.

#i want to watch the office but i dont want to see in HD that even phyllis' actress looks exhausted and ill #this is abt current media too but the 90s and 2000s were tje worst offenders #disordered eating #misogyny #talk tag #this is rly just a vent not like a POST #my mom looks like a skeleton in my childhood photos its scary idk why im.thinking abt this todsy #ask to tag if anything gets missed i hope this doesnt accidentally trigger any1 #im just so tired of beinbeing triggered by it lol i want these people to get help not be given acting roles #like #take arianya granday. she is straight up dangerous for her fans. i dont keep up w her but she has #young girl fans commenting on her soc posts worrying abt her weight that shit is scary

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serpenteve · 3 years

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Bro, firstly that leigh interview clip pissed me the fuck off because you wrote the character and obsessed over him for years and literally used him as a cash cow till SOC where she realised tgt was filled with problematic tropes and then tried to dismiss them like she was possessed when she wrote it??? Ok anyways that's not the main critique

My main issue is that both jessie and ben have expressed that they want more out of their characters. Jessie in many interviews said she doesnt see Alina as a virginal heroine because she served in the army, was the first to initiate the kiss, wants a corruption arc, calls out alinas toxic dependency on mal whereas ben doesnt see darkling as the bad guy but rather a necessary grey figure needed in the grishaverse. Despite all this, I hate how involved lb is in the show (apparently she wrote or heavily influenced s2 script) bc we all know she doesnt want that to happen even she got a second chance to change alot of her mistakes even when the actors are showing concern that they hate canon. Like what is the deal with that women is my question?? (Also alot of ppl hate on eric but I dont think hes the problem)

Based on her het canon ships (m*lina, helnik, kanej), I honestly think Leigh has a thing for slightly toxic ships with a bit of a power imbalance that favors the man over the woman. Even in the original trilogy, Mal had a ton of influence over Alina's emotional state and she frequently feels personally responsible for his negative moods, insecurities, sob stories, and outbursts 😬

And while I love kanej and helnik, they are far from picture perfect. Kaz has a lot of trauma and he holds Inej's indenture and future in his hands. She's not in a position to piss him off. Meanwhile, Matthias spent his entire backstory trying to kill Nina and his character establishing moment in Six of Crows is nearly strangling her 😬

Personally, I think she was a little pissed that fans pointed out Mal's nonsense in the original trilogy and instead of acknowledging that in the text and having Alina call him out on it (like she does with Nina), she just doubles down and tries to misdirect by pointing to Darklina fans and being like "they're the REAL abuse apologists!11" when literally every Darklina shipper knows the ship is toxic. It's like Leigh can't stand anyone thinking m*lina is anything but a gold standard and she's just projecting onto her own fans. She's the one that can't admit no one in their right mind would want to be with someone as toxic as Mal and she's embarrassed her own teenage fans could see that from a mile away.

I would have loved to be a fly on the wall in that writer's room when they started scrubbing all those garbage book!m*l scenes and reworking his character because clearly someone on that team is able to acknowledge he needed to be a better man for Alina.

#viv answers #anti leigh bardugo #anti mal #cw: abuse

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plusultrcs · 3 years

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Okay so now that i’m done crying about shadow and bone to my friends i want to make a controversial statement. Don’t bite my head off for my opinion bc 1. idc i said what i said and 2. it aint that serious these are fictional characters moving on though. I don’t think the show is bad AT ALL i really enjoyed it and seeing the inclusion of leigh and her books was so fucking cute but i will say i think combining both series into one did a huge disservice to the character development of most, if not ever, character. and i’ll explain why so (obviously) sab spoilers ahead. this also obnoxiously long so if you dont read it thats fine <3 lmao

I know going into it everyone, including leigh pretty much, was saying not to expect it to be like the books. That it was going stray away and be more like a fanfiction than the original works. Which was true, but only for the six of crows characters. The show leaned heavily and relied heavily on the plot of shadow and bone. Which, of course, makes sense but because of the inclusion of a heavy heavy re-worked six of crows plot that didnt fit the plot of shadow and bone at all it left them feeling incredibly displaced. Like on shadow and bones part every single major and sometimes even the minor plot points were followed to the number, but on the six of crows front the only thing closely followed was the nina and matthias backstory. I wont talk about every single character because i anticipate this to already be long, but the ones i noticed the most were done a disservice.

For instance Alina. Despite shadow and bone being followed so closely you dont really get to see the natural progression of alina’s character the way i was hoping we would. And that’s definitely because of the time restraints. They had to find a way to somehow balance the screen time for both separate plots so that they could hold the audiences attention for both. Like when nina and matthias plot wasnt on the screen for i think 2 episodes i almost forgot about them and what they were up to so i understand why they timing had to be so split, especially when you only have 8 hours to cover the characters of 2 over 300 page long books yknow? But that means important moments alina had to herself in the books were completely cut, and so a lot of that growth we got went with it. The the biggest thing i was disappointed to see go was the defeat she felt when she was first captured and collared by the darkling. She was feeling absolutely helpless, mal was in their hold, she had no power to do anything but sit there and let him use her. All the training she did felt pointless to her and she really was at the point of giving up. She went quiet, wouldnt speak,was basically a zombie until that moment in the fold when she saw innocent people suffering when she knew she could stop. And she found a way to break free. There were other moments like this in the book, like moments at the little palace where shelt herself getting further and further from mal and feeling like an outside on her own all over again. They tried to show it in the show but without the time to develop her life on her own at the little palace it definitely fell short.

Speaking of mal: THANK YOU WRITERS FOR FIXING HIS WHINY ASS. And while he was annoyingly whiny in the books, he is not a boring character. Not to me at least, honestly he never was. While i do appreciate them not making him so whiny, I would have appreciated seeing that same dissonance realizing alina was grisha brought about in the books. Its just like alina said, grisha were people they scoffed at and talked about in a joking way. Their lives felt miles and miles away from their own, and then to learn that she had been one the entire time. I know i know, it has nothing to do with, and alina didnt know either. BUT THAT IS STILL HIS BEST FRIEND. And obviously girl he’s in love with even if he wasnt aware of it at the time. it made him question everything he thought about grisha, and more importantly brought both of their biggest fears to light: being torn apart. In the book he doesnt deal with this well at ALL and while leigh bardugo does a great job throughout the series showing him growing to me he never got where he should have been, and the show did place him there but i think they do so prematurely. I definitely wanted him to be as understanding as he was, to take notice of how much healthier and stronger she looks since she’s not withholding her power anymore, but i did still want the tension of him wondering what it means for them, how their lives would change, because just based on laws alone she is a grisha and would typically never be someone he would have the chance to befriend but neither of them would be okay with that.

AND ON THE TOPIC OF MALINA. THEY ARE NOT A BORING SHIP. I think the only person other who would work for alina is nikolai (dont fight me on this im right), and that is who i wanted her to end up with. However, I understand why Mal was the choice. Alina has always been someone who just wanted to belong, to fit in somewhere, AND THAT IS OKAY. IT’S NOT A CRIME TO WANT TO BE ORDINARY. I know shes the main character, and has the prophecy of being the ~chosen one~ but that doesnt mean she suddenly has to alter change and rearrange herself entirely. she never wanted to be a saint, and even by the end of the series she still doesnt. Choosing to let the world believed she died so she could live a quiet life. tHAT’S ALL SHE’S EVER WANTED. And Mal is the perfect person to give her that. People who claim she gave up her life for mal, to me, didn’t understand her character. She bounced around from needing mal by her side, and when she couldnt have him there she still sought acceptance in the only other person willing to give it to her, i.e. the darkling. and then when she couldnt have it from him she’s forced to find it in herself and while she learns she doesnt need him or mal she doesnt need anyone, she still chooses mal bc she wants to be with him. she doesnt feel obligated and even later on in the books makes plenty stands on her own without him but she loves him and they honestly make perfect sense. a softer ship doesnt make it a boring one js.

NOW THE SIX OF CROWS GANG. I hate to say it, i do but they felt reduced to a form comedic relief. they had their serious moments ofc but for the most part whenever they popped up on the screen i knew a joke or gag was soon to follow. i will say kit as jesper? best decision that could have possibly been made he fucking did what he had to DO. Kaz’s development for me felt really really rushed and forced. Like he was saying things to inej he wouldnt have said so quickly and especially not while he wasnt under stress??? it honestly felt like fan service??? which im not mad at because again i dont think the show was bad at all the actors brought really great life to the crows, but it just makes me sad to see all that development and build up go out the window. i think if they were that set on combining the crows story with the shadow and bone story it would have been so much nicer to get a sort of prequel on the crows. like they should have given them the same treatment they gave nina and matthias. so that we could see their backstories as explained in the book happening in real time like how they all came to ketterdam. i know theres no point in wishing that now since whats done is done and again I DONT THINK ITS BAD. Im just sad about all the character development and strong subtle points lost because leigh bardugo always does such a great job in dropping subtle hints and always bringing them back in the end, and that was sadly lost. STILL A GOOD SHOW STILL LOVE THE BABIES. STILL PRAYING FOR A SEASON TWO.

EDIT: IT ALSO MADE ME SAD TO SEE THEM LOSE SO MANY TIMES??? ESPECIALLY AFTER SOC WHERE THEY ALWAYS MANAGED TO WIN?? Like ofc it made perfect sense for them to be unable to capture the damn sun summoner !!! but kaz and all of the crows are meant to be the best of the best when it comes to criminals top tier and they were bested by a ball of light and a jog???? and them going home basically empty handed was kinda :// like i got it but also where did alina get that necklace lmao so yeah once again still great still love it questions had to be asked

#sab #sab spoilers #shadow and bone

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starfoxrry · 4 years

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am i late to the niall drama? i love him, really, but the fact that he only responds to people who talk about having tickets for his shows makes me feel like he only cares about the money/reputation and not about his fans. i, as a fan from latam, can’t afford to go to his shows or buy his merch, does that mean that my support is not enough? no. he needs advice from his team, i think

youre right. me too tbh im from asia and he doesnt even hv dates for anywhere near me so whenever hes like tweeting abt the tour i cant remember the exact tweet/post but i remember the feeling it made me feel i think it was something along the lines of youre only a real fan if youve bought tix to my show (im heavily paraphrasing here bc i cant remember what it actually said) but i remember i was like oh..... first of all u.... dont even hv dates here.... is it.. not enough that im already... streaming ur shit or that i even bother abt ur music skjdnfkf. i disagree that the fans he interacts with are ONLY the ones that talk abt buying his stuff bc thats not true he talks to fans who are just being silly with him too but there IS a heavy push on the tour/streaming every other post or so. i wanna make it clear that this all comes from a place of love. i said it on one of the tags of my post that im annoyed bc i want to adore him and his work organically but hes being snarky about it so its :/. if i genuinely didnt care abt him at all or if hated him i wouldnt even be following him on soc media to even see his stuff in the first place

#anonymous #answered

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thisisbookland · 5 years

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Some more thoughts on Six of Crows (spoilers ahead but like, I haven’t finished the book yet so pls dont spoil it) - btw for anyone who likes the book.. please dont read anymore if you can’t handle criticism of your favorites.

I really don’t like Matthias at all. I have zero sympathy for him, and after reading the little sequence about how he helped lock Nina and other Grisha in a ship (that sounds... a lot like hmm... some huge things that happened in the past... but dont know if i want to level that accusation at this book) where they’re treated horrendously and repeatedly likened to less than animals, and supposedly going to be brought back to “stand trial” for existing and then killed. (Which also can be... compared to history)

I don’t think anyone should cancel SoC or Leigh Bardugo over what I’ve said, please don’t take it that way because I also haven’t finished the series so I can’t say anything with any finality. These are just my current thoughts about what I just read. (Which I just reached part 3, fyi)

But I think its kind of awful that it seems like I’ll have to read about a “romance” that erupted between these two because “ohh noo the ship broke and we need to work together to survive!” I’m just not a fan of that idea because... Matthias sucks and there are exactly 0 redeeming qualities about him besides the fact that he oooh still has some feelings for Nina despite trying to literally choke her the minute he saw her again. I just... have no sympathy for him. I have more sympathy for Nina regardless of what she might have done to Matthias.

Anyway I’m gonna keep going and hope that I’m wrong, (but i dont think i am). I still hate that these teens read as if they’re 40 and have seen a lot of shit. But I absolutely love this world that Leigh has been building and I’m so curious to see how this ends!

#six of crows #soc #spoilers #emma rambles

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laracastrowrites · 6 years

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I don`t think the darkling should have been the main antagonist of the series. It should have been the apparat. Like seriously, in a world where grisha are enslaved, burned alive, cut into pieces, that is already a villain present in your story. He should have been written as a morally grey character, who actually did something for the grisha being burned, enslaved, cut into pieces, etc. The only thing that makes me feel better is knowing most people hate the original series.

I think that would’ve been great too ??? And like, what hurts me the most is that the darkling DID great things for the grishas, he achieved part of his good goal; there was a time when he probably was a godamn hero, i mean, ravka isnt that awful for grishas bc of the second army, and who created the second army ??? Deadass empowered his people in a whole damn country, he gave them a home, and what hurts even more is that maybe he shouldnt even want to fight for grishas considering the way he was treated even inside the grisha community, like ??? he wasnt truly accepted even there, other grishas treated him as something to be feared or used (i mean, his trust issues didnt come out of nowhere) just like the otkazatsya and he still made a vow to make a safe place for them, to fight for them ??? like, HOW, WHY ????!!!!??!?! YOU SHOULD HATE EVERYBODY YOU HAD THE RIGHT TO HATE EVERYBODY DAMN IT😭😭😭 AND other thing that hurts me is that no one got him or his goal or stop to consider that he got a point! Like, what’s the point to create a sympathetic villain with a good point if no one in the story is going to get it and consider it ?!?!?!?! In soc we see a “gun” of mass grisha destruction been made and used, basically seeing something that he was trying to avoid to happen HAPPENING, and if it wasnt for destiny and convenience (called God Leigh Bardugo) nothing would’ve been done. Like, there was no counterpoint for him in the story, there was no t'challa for his killmonger, no professor xavier for his magneto, ykwim ??? Alina wasnt that person, she COULD have been, but she wasnt, which is frustrating, cause leigh could’ve made her get his point, consider it, maybe could’ve make them have the same goal, but alina would have shown better ways to achieve it, and she still could have made alina struggle with her humanity while doing it, feeling attracted to his “darkness” and all, it was completely managable! Like, you dont wanna give him redemption? Fine, but give me a fucking counterpoint at least, dont let his good intentions die with him you hoe! His tragedy hurts me deeply cause in that story it seemed he was the only one that gave two fucks about grisha oppression and fought actively to change the game (and he had already done tons at the time we meet him), and i mean, when the villain of your story is the only one to care about something so important, i think we might have a big problem… And I’m feeling that she is trying to make this counterpoint rn with nikolai in kos, but for now, that doesnt appeal to me neither pleases me, i dont think it’s a good idea considering that nikolai isnt a grisha; like, i’m not saying a non grisha cant fight and beside grishas in their fights, but i'd preferred that grishas were the protagonists of their fights and positive changes for them yk, i dont feel comfortable with this idea at all, specially considering how much i’m seeing she’s going to demonize the darkling even more (i’m not a big fan of that whole group worshipping the darkling either, idk if that’s even realistic, all things considered), so honestly… i’m not that excited for kos and her whole “long plan” for the grishaverse, i dont trust her and idk if i ever will :(

#ask #anon #tgt #kos #the darkling

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0000waowaowaowaowaowa · 6 years

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lang prof tip (charot)

hello nakwento ko na ba’to parang ndi pa so eto nga around august last year, o ediba kasagsagan ng buwan ng wika and ganyan tas people know naman na super against talaga ako sa sep na’to like kahit nasa lipazay pa ako kulang na lang ipa-audit ko englic0m ganon so anyways basta i dont see the point. kung para lang naman pala sa funds talaga, my point was, is, will always be edi ndi kayo effective na org?? like why trump student’s freedom on speaking the vernacular???? worst part of it was, mismong mga officers di sumusunod???? like hello??????????? it’s a fact na as a how&why/yes-o officer kelangan kong magtapon sa tamang basurahan yeps pero hello??? general rule naman’to??? di mo kelangang maging how&why officer 2 du this bruh. pero as an english club officer, kung san ur enforcing a rule na napaka-waley and discriminatory, aba naman. sumunod naman kayo sana diba??? like drink ur own poison ganern

ayan done na tayo sa back story. marami pang factors/reasons as to why i vehemently oppose pero ETO NA NGA mumsh may pa-talumpating PT sa fil subj namin & i chose to deliver smthing na may kinalaman sa mga wikang meron ang pilipinas. the development of the speech lead toward me ranting abt SEP in general. around this time din, nag-tweet ako abt sep & omg this is where sht hits the fan

may nagsumbong!!!! hala sobrang oldsch. napatawag ako and ndi lang 1 admin kundi 2 silang kumausap saken! yes naman. most ambitious crossover ganern. and as some1 who wanted to olivia pope my way thru, my best exit out of it was to remain passive-aggressive. i let them talk. i let them rebut kasi omg sobrang out of context nila & my brain cells cudnt find the time to argue with theirs. ofc i talked naman ano pero WHAT FUCKING MADE ME LIVID THE MOST WAS THE FACT NA THEY READ A COPY OF MY SPEECH!!!!! putaena?????? like that was meant 2 be within our room lang pero ganon???? dito na ako nagwala inside and nagpaka-bitch in front of them. i asked kung san ba napupunta ang funds ganyan. and same bs lang naman sagot nila. i remember telling them n (nv), “i think the sch should opt for other means of getting funds po. bc marami po sameng di po talaga kayang magbayad.” but hello???? their reason was “e kung susunod ka naman, d mo kelangang magayad” victim blaming at its finest!!! in the end, i made them look like they win. lumabas pa naman ako ng buhay pero para na rin akong nilibing ng sch ko.

best revenge????????????? i didnt delete my tweets. i let them stand. kahit na public ang twitter acc ko, i felt how my free space was invaded. ganun pala feeling. bihira na nga lang ako mag-construct ng tweets on my own bc of my soc-anx tas ganon pa???? i never had the chance to verify kung sino nagsumbong pero i hope the btch rots in hell. i told this nga pala abt my mum and being the wonder woman she is, tinanong nya’to abt sa pinsan naming abogado and hello btch, wala akong kasalanan. so as long as daw kasi na di ko minention ang sch, they cannot blatantly crucify me for expressing my opinions. boo yah!!!!!

in the end, sana matigil na’tong assumption na if ur better in english ay mas marami kang opportunities sa buhay. itigil na rin ang pagiging prescriptive sa grammar esp kung the usual banter lang din naman. the general rule now is kung nagets mo message, keri na. wag mo nang patulan ano?

pero kung formal and business context, dito tayo dapat sadyang mag-exert ng effort. sa dami ng youpeeji na nalaman ko from my frendz, langprof and rc ang pinakababa kasi nga there’s this underlying assumption na “ay language lang naman.” oh edi ayan napala nyo (no offense mga brad) pero this doesnt mean SEP is a helpful tool. mas makakatulong pa panonood ng subtitled movies, tv shows ganyan. gawa kayong index cards of vocab words kung may time kayo ganon. lagay nyo rin sa msngr nyo yung wordsworth na bot para everyday may-kachat kayo abt new words!! intindihin nyo rin lyrics ng mga kanta para pak esp rap songs bc dito talaga mae-enrich vocab nyo ((although grammar doesnt play well here kasi may hanash minsan na “he dont” ang mga songwriters just 2 be able to match the rhythm)). magbasa rin kayo ano. ang lalaki nyo na tamad pa rin kayong magbasa. kaht porn magazine basahin nyo kung ayaw nyo novels. aarte pa ba. babasa lang e.

as for our own language, wag sana tayong mahiyang gamitin ito. isa ito sa mga pinaka-makagandang wika sa mundo bc filipinos are able to coalesce emotions and meaning, e.g. the words “kilig” “charot” “keribels” to a degree that cant be translated into english. for us filipinos, iba ang degree ng malandi, maharot, makire, ahas (char) pero in english, u cant quite translate it 100% without losing the context diba?? “silya” and “upuan” ay magkaiba pa raw acc to our constitution pero wag kayo maniwala. parehas lang yan. aarte pa.

ayun lang!!!! THANK U FOR LISTENING TO MY TED TALK. WAG ELITISTA PAGDATING SA WIKA!!!!

#l #cguro naman may karapatan akong ishare 'to bilang rank 1 naman ako sa langprof sa lahat ng nagdiliman access #charot #buhatin ko na sarili kong bangko kasi baka di nyo ako pagkatiwalaan #although di naman valid proof yung mock test na un i think it hints na rin on how much i love learning abt language

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ghiblicottage · 7 years

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grishaverse fan art network??

ok im gonna make a little more elaborate post about the grishaverse fan art network idea ?? if people think its a good idea ill create the whole thing this week end probably but please answer me and dont hesitate to share ur ideas!!

so coming from the pjo fandom which has thousands of fan art and maybe hundreds of fan artists?? ive noticed how little fan art there is in the soc fandom (probably because the fandom is smaller but that doesnt mean we cant do something about it) (even tho the ones ive seen are AMAZING WOW)

and i really wish to encourage people to make more art?? because a thing i LOVE DEARLY is fan art in literature fandoms because we are all illustrating our interpretations of things and idk i just find that books are a wonderful source of inspirations and i just love love love seeing other peoples interpretations of the characters and such so

i thought maybe we could create somewhat of a network to encourage people to create and share fan art (im talking art as in drawings and such, dont get me wrong I LOVE EDITS and gifs but i think theres already enough appreciation for those and many people more qualified than me to share them on other wonderful blogs)

a blog that would reunite all the artists who want part of it, and maybe take requests from other fans which would be taken by the artists inspired by them? a blog that would reblog each and every fan art dedicated to the soc/tgt fandoms?? (we could track a tag for exemple)

this blog could also be a place for artists to give each other tips and tricks and help each other learn and progress? where we could have a tag or a place to share resources and such??

we could also organize “events”, like weeks with prompts to be filled by all the fan artists who want to in the fandom that would be shared on this blog??

and maybe even one day create a fanzine or something idk???

and any other ideas you guys have???

so idk tell me what you think please??

ps: im super new to the fandom and have only read the soc duology but i love it dearly and i intend to read the grisha trylogy soon

ps 2 : i have never actually created anything like that so idrk what im doing lol if someone more experimented with this kinda stuff wants to help id gladly accept their offer <33

#soc #six of crows #the grisha trilogy #tgt #the grisha series #the grishaverse #crooked kingdom #lbardugo #leigh bardugo #this post is a mess lmao im sorry #stfu chloe #artofcrows

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undyinghappinessblog · 5 years

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Oh Hi!

Oh hey. Haha fuck I sound like my 6 year old self...”Oh hey diary! How are you? Sorry I havent written in a while..” But....yeah. I haven’t. So I think I have quite a few things to catch myself up on.

I am not really sure if the reason I have’nt been writing. It think its a combination of being really busy (I moved, my cousin got married, my grandma Betty passed away, Ive been working two jobs pretty consistently, I’m still in acting classes, I’m trying to find a new agent) mixed with the fact that I am seeing a therapist once a week, so I guess a lot of the things that I would find myself writing about on here are being worked out with a professional in the real world.

The trouble with being so busy, is everything kind of tends to feel like its coming at you at a warped hyper speed, you know? Like I feel like a lot of the time I dont have the luxury or the time to really process anything or be in the present moment because I’m too busy worrying about what needs to be done, or I am working....Its something that I have been trying to work on in therapy. I am also meditating before I go to sleep at night-trying to be present and also boost my self confidence. And when I finally DO have a minute to process things, I find myself being really tired and needing to lie down and close my eyes. Its really hard to find that time for me, and I am learning more and more that that time is something that I really need to find a way to prioritize. Finding time to just be with myself and not be distracted by thoughts of what I ‘should’ be doing or what I need to do in the next couple of days, you know?

I also find myself getting a little sad and scared that I am too busy worrying and stressing and working myself so hard that I am missing out on moments that are more important...Like genuine time with myself or my friends. Really enjoying time in the moment with little things like the sun, blue skies, leaves blowing in the wind, reading a book, painting, writing, etc.

Anyway..I guess that was just a really long winded way of me saying ‘I have been really busy’.

So...I’ll just give a quick recap of the past couple of months.

Okay, so I thiiiiiink I wrote about working on ‘Sacred Lies’ on my last post? But just in case, I will give a quick little refresher. So I got cast as an SOC principle character on a TV show about a cult...and my roommate Daniel actually got cast too, so it was really nice to have a carpool buddy and someone that I could talk to on set. But it turned out that I was actually okay on my own too. The cast was really nice and I ended up making some pretty cool friends with a couple of them.

Its been prettttyyyy much dead for me since then though. So in terms of acting, I have been unemployed since April. And I knooowwww that I should feel liucky for the opportunity-AND I DO!!!. Its just, I am starting to feel a little antsy...and wanting to get back on something...anything!! I’ve said it many times before, but its really hard for a woman to navigate through this industry. And I’m not even a fuckin minority- I know I have white privelage, and I feel shitty saying this, but....Its been really tough for me as a woman in this industry in the past few months, man.

Like. I am just going to rant here for a sec. Since Sacred Lies, Daniel has booked 3 more shows and has gone down to LA twice to see casting directors and shit. And I have had....maaayybe 3 auditions? I wanna say 2 of them were one liners. What reaaallllyyyy bothers me is that I can guarantee that these booking have NOTHING to do with his talent, or his resume (think I have spoken about his weird act-y voice and his horrible, narcissistic attitude). It all has to do with the fact that he is a tall, young looking white guy. THATS IT.

The thing I dont understand about hollywood is this. They FINALLY make these HUGE blockbuster films starring women and people of colour like ‘Wonder Woman’ and ‘Black Panther’ and ‘Crazy Rich Asians’ and they all make MAAAADDD bank. They are so well received that they break box office records. Which absolutely makes sense because there are people who are FINALLY feeling represented and like they ACTUALLY see themselves in the characters on screen. But they still make so many films that have a 1. pro-dominantly white cast and 2. Most of the main characters are played by WHITE MEN. Like...How many Hollywood Rom-Coms have cast someone who identifies as First Nations as a lead? Someone who identifies as Middle Eastern? Muslim? Asian? Lesbian? Trans? Non-Binary? Truthfully, there are maaannny things about the injustices in this industry that I am not even aware of, and I could be overstepping my boundaries by saying all of this, but man. If I am feeling unrepresented and angry as a white woman, I cannot even IMAGINE how angry many of the minorities feel. Fuck it makes me so angry man. Honestly, I could talk about this for hours until my head blows up or I throw my fucking computer across the room, so I am just going to stop there by saying this. More people of colour need to be cast (especially First Nations actors!!), more women need to be given larger roles and more women need to write, direct, produce, AD, edit, sound design-every single role in film needs more women. Period.

Okay moving on. My cousin Alex got married this summer! Fuck that was emotional. The whole experience was just so lovely and happy and so much fun. She was married on the lake that we grew up spending our summers on. There was a lot of smoke from forest fires, but it was still so beautiful. Our family was there and it was amazing. I was Maid of Honour (My sister was supposed to be there as Co-maid of honour with me, but she was at school already, down in the states, so she couldn't be there.) and I was also the MC. I was really stressed about it at first, but once I had a few drinks in me, I felt better and had alot of fun (I think the guests had fun too...unless they were all just pretending to laugh at all of my jokes...). I gotta say though, I am not a huge fan of her husband. He’s not friendly, very needy and relies on her too much and their relationship reminded me a lot of what my parent’s looked like when I was growing up. Plus his family is fuckin trash (His bother and his brother’s girlfriend ended up getting in a huuggeee fight the night before the wedding and the cops were called, so Alex’s husband ended up calling her and asking her to come get her...) Anyway. Their relationship isn't any of my business...and as hard as it is to see someone I love be married to someone I dont particularly like or respect, I gotta let it be and hope for the best for her.

My grandma Betty also recently passed. Which was very sad. I’ve experienced death and loss before, but it was when I was younger. This was the first time that I experienced death as an adult. When I think about how my sister and I got through what we did when we were kids, I just...I dont know how in the hell we did it. Becuase my grandma had dementia, and was very unwell and not herself, when I got the call, I was almost relieved. Obviously I was very sad. But I also felt strangely grateful for the time that I had with her and I also felt very lucky to have someone like her watching out over me. Like I FINALLY had someone in my corner. I still cant believe that she's gone. Saying that she ‘passed away’ is still so strange to say.

Anyway...thats pretty much it. Lots of life happened in the past couple of months. Lots of crying, anxiety, laughs, reminiscing, hoping, meditating, painting, more crying, more anxiety...just lots of life man.

I gotta say though, instead of ending this on a note of desperately hoping for ‘something good to happen’ by masking it with “manifesting”, I think I’m going to end it by saying this instead.

I am going to take better care of myself. And be kinder to myself. I think that something good will come out of that regardless. Whether it be through acting or just my relationship with myself. For once in my life, I am going to take care of myself. Everything else comes secondary (at least for now) and will happen as its supposed to, according to the universe.

And by saying that, by putting myself first, I think everything I have ever wanted for myself will come when its ready and in a healthier and more welcomed way.

Okay. Thanks.

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