#they need content to be relevant

[quibbs126]

Can we please get a Cookies of Darkness update soon?

Because from what I know, we haven’t seen them since Odyssey in 2022, and we’re now on our fourth plot relevant update since then and all we’ve gotten is Dark Enchantress stealing Pitaya’s power, which wasn’t even an onscreen appearance

And yes, they could show up in the next part of the update, but the current episode has had no allusion that they’ll show up. It seems more like the antagonist is going to be Shadow Milk, so they’ll probably get a cameo at best

Not to mention at this point, I feel like the Cookies of Darkness have become significantly less of a seeming threat, at least in the eyes of the audience. Like when you have the villains of your story make a boy band, even if it is (I think) non canon and the song and outfits go hard, I feel like it can be harder to make them seem like an actual threat after that. Like at least give us something about them and what they’re doing so it can at least seem like there’s a threat looming and they have some actual intimidation

#I think that last point kind of got off track and didn’t help my point #but you get what I’m saying #they need content to be relevant #and they haven’t shown up in a while #even though we have stories about the main plot #I was going to say more but I forgot #cookie run #cookie run kingdom #cookies of darkness

[witchspeka]

It's always "Shou and Ritsu need to blow stuff up with their minds for mental health reasons" or Ritsu and Teru or even Shou and Teru!

But what about Mob? When does he get to blow stuff up with his mind for funsies? For shits and giggles? He didn't go through all of those meltdowns and character development for nothing, let him go ham on a junkyard car or something smh

I believe in Mob's narrative given right to fuck shit up sometimes

#im hungry i should do homework i should also finish all of my other drafted posts BUT I AM LAZY #ive been starting to write fic tho at least thats productive. fic thats kind of relevant to this actually hm #listen i just want more Mob content where he does smth reckless or stupid with his powers he deserves it #or just in general tbh i need more content of mob being kinda mean or having arguments with ppl like to a healthy degree ok #but i still want him to. yanno. lash out and stuff. experience emotion. have him get angry over petty stuff #the first mp100 fic ive ever started writing/drafting had mob and ritsu having a proper fight post canon #i just need it for my OWN mental health. let them have dumb sibling fights and have mob express his annoyances #itd be funny and cathartic. for me at least. ill finish that shit one day its been assembled and disassembled but ill figure it out #eventually #let mob feel and express all of the ugly emotions he didnt allow himself to acknowledge for years pls #its my favourite thing #anyway. #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #shigeo kageyama #cine te a intrebat

[gunpowdercarousel]

It's weird that Larian seems to show Astarion a lot of favoritism in terms of content and yet his companion storyline is such a side quest compared to all the others. As far as I'm aware he has no real connection to the mindflayers/Absolute other than the initial kidnapping/parasite insertion, which is - like - the bare minimum needed to have a connection at all.

His conflict with Cazador is such a random aside when you're in Baldur's Gate. It's like yeah I need to stop the other two Chosen, I need to solve this murder conspiracy, locate the Elder Brain, deal with Raphael, figure out what to do with the Crown of Karsus, and... oh yeah, I guess there's Astarion's thing to deal with, too.

It's hilarious, really, because it means while this one huge, world-ending event was going on there was also - by complete coincidence - an entire OTHER world-ending event happening just down the street that wasn't connected in any way. Not only is the Absolute's army on the march, but Cazador is trying to become the Vampire Ascendant at the same time and only ASTARION knows about it. Cazador is literally just some OTHER bbeg whose centuries-old plan happens to be coming to fruition the same week as the Chosen's.

I literally almost forgot to do his plotline because it had so little to do with the overarching conflict of the story. The only connection he ever really makes is with Raphael, who he needs ONCE for ONE minor thing and that's it. And Raphael isn't even that important to the Absolute plot, himself.

Astarion doesn't really have any connections with the Chosen, any other characters, any other antagonists, he's just kind of his own thing. Once you deal with Cazador he's just kind of along for the ride. Meanwhile, Wyll's father is integral to the Chosen's plan, Shadowheart has the plot McGuffin that can foil the Absolute, Lae'zel's people are sworn enemies of the mindflayers, and Gale wants the Crown of Karsus for himself, not to mention his Goddess is literally tasking him to deal with the Absolute.

Everyone else has a good reason to be there EXCEPT ASTARION. Like he's just there because he has a worm.

Anyway, rant over.

#baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate iii #bg3 memes #astarion #anyway just read about how astarion got a bunch of extra content written for him that other characters didn't get #so i'm a little salty #and needed to rant #i'm sure astarion stans will find some way to interpret his lack of plot relevance as tragically beautiful and poignant #also i'm sure karlach has some connection but i haven't gotten her story far enough to see what it is #if nothing else she cares a lot about wyll so that's something

[thequeenofsarcaasm]

Chapter 9 of Love is in the hands

Thanks again to @bearhaviour for inspiring 50% of the nastiness of this chapter and to @fah-keet for always encouraging me to take artistic decisions that will lead me to hell.

Summary

After getting kicked out of his home for being queer, Suguru comes across his childhood sweetheart in a strange gay bar that is owned by his new “family”: a bunch of queer social rejects who were taken in by Yuki, an eccentric matriarch. He finds a new home (and his lost love) there.

Glimpse

“I don’t think I ever made someone cum that hard and that says a lot for coming from an ex professional piece of ass as myself. Are you okay?” Satoru asks.

“Still a bit overwhelmed. I’m sorry,” Suguru says, feeling gross over the mix of cum and sweat covering his body. 

“It’s okay. I think I should be the one apologizing,” Satoru says with a laugh. Gently, he rubs a warm, humid towel over his partner’s bare abdomen to get rid of any trace of their previous activities.

“You were great. I just-yeah. You were great. Too great even. My skirt- Shoot.” Suguru covers his forehead with his hands and shakes his head. Suddenly his voice is tangled up again and his cheeks are wet, “I’m sorry. I don’t know what’s going on with me,” he sniffles. 

“Did my dick break my boyfriend? Did these people even pay me what I was worth?” Satoru asks himself aloud. But his attempt at humor is fruitless. Suguru can’t stop sobbing.

“Suguru,” Satoru discards the towel and pulls him in a tight embrace.”What’s wrong? Is it because of your parents?” he asks against his hair while gently petting it. 

“I’m fine. I just need a few minutes,” Suguru reassures in ragged breaths. What an embarrassing day for him. 

“Do you think tea would help calm you down?” Satoru asks. “Lavender maybe?” he suggests. His voice is so kind, so loving and his gaze so tender that the tears threaten to flow again.

“Maybe,” Suguru says.

Satoru collects his cum stained t-shirt and shorts from the floor and slips into them. Hopefully, he won’t meet anyone on his way. “Just give me two minutes. Okay? I’ll go fetch you some. Cuddle with my Kuromi while I’m gone. She smells just like me.” He leans down for a quick forehead kiss and walks out urgently. 

Indeed, Kuromi proves herself to be a great placeholder while Satoru is gone. Suguru fights against the cold by holding on tight to her, cradling her head like a human child. A few minutes later, Satoru comes back with his favorite mug, the one not even Suguru is allowed to touch, in normal circumstances at least. 

“Are you sure you’re alright?” he asks as he hands it to Suguru and sits on the edge of the bed..

“Yes. I-That pounding was for the books. Are you mad at me or something?” Suguru jokes. The mug is warm against his palms.

“I just got carried away,” Satoru laughs shyly. 

“Well, you might be a brute but you sure are great at aftercare. Thank you, Satoru,” Suguru says with a smile. The tears are gone.

“It’s the least I could do after making you cry. You were hot though. Super hot,” Satoru comments shamelessly.

His partner can’t help but chuckle. “I heard you the first time. You’re a sadist,” he says. 

“Can’t help it.” Satoru shrugs. “I’m not really normal about you,” he admits. “Besides, you’re not especially kind to my body either.”

“Can you remove your t-shirt and turn around for me?” Suguru asks as he places the mug on the bedside table and scrawls closer to examine Satoru’s back. He traces the red stripes with the tip of his fingers, earning a slight shudder from Satoru. “Does it hurt?”

Satoru turns his head to look at him. “Nah. It’s fine. I deserved it anyways,” he reassures. “You better trim those nails though. An accident could happen.”

“Do it for me later?” Suguru asks.

“Sure.” Satoru says.

The raven scoots even closer to him, pressing his chest against his back. “I love you, Satoru. With all my heart.” he whispers against Satoru’s shoulder, nuzzling him closely.

“Why so sentimental suddenly? Are you going to cry again?” Satoru taunts.

“I'm still dick drunk. Don’t mind me,” Suguru says. “Wait,” he perks up. “ Maybe I really am a cock slut.”.

Satoru claps his hands proudly. “Congratulations, you just unlocked the skill of self awareness,” he jokes.

‘Stop teasing,” Suguru giggles, more at the memories awakened by the clapping sounds than anything else. He rubs his cheek against Satoru’s freshly shaved undercut and leaves a little kiss just underneath. “ Hey Satoru,” he calls softly. “Do you think I should try something new with my hair?”

#my apologies to Mimiko and Nanako for what I just did to their dad but I stand by it #he needed to be slutted out #this edit is relevant to the chapter’s content #they all are but as a Drake hater I had to make it clear that I had no other option #geto suguru #gojo satoru #goge #satosugu #gego #jjk fanfic #jjk fanworks #satosugu fanfic #jujutsu kaisen #jjk

[muthaz-rapapa]

This finale was WILD

Bunbee went OFF, Nagisa and Honoka are literally throwing fists with global warming (and they will win, woohoo~! ✌️), NozoCoco got 💖MARRIED💖

And Milk abolished royalty 👏😂

#got a review coming up but this spin-off really proved something here #it's not that a series like Precure can't talk about relevant issues or be progressive in its themes or content #but the main series is just too limited by its target audience which is why they seldom leave the formula they're so used to #once you get rid of that tho you get an amazing spin-off like this #this is the 'MORE PRECURE' we actually need #otona precure

[mindstriker]

controversial post but i think i'm just too much of an actual adult to be into hlvrai shipping. none of them are kissing on the mouth. none of em.

especially not gordon and benrey. they are however the world's worst roommate. worsties, if you will. gordon gets a notification every time he looks at that uncanny shitass gamer and it says "newsflash: the worst person you know is hysterically funny sometimes" and the funny aspect is just endearing enough that it prevents him from going entirely looney tunes insane

likewise benrey looks at him through the lens of like "man my new friend I found at the end of the world alien event is fucking mean to me sometimes for no reason. this surely has nothing to do with me, benrey, because I am normal and excellent at making friends on PSN." but also he mutually just finds him fun enough that he's genuinely distraught when it turns out gordon actually fucking hates him and isn't picking up on any of his (incomprehensible) bullshit about not wanting to be an antagonist

literally tldr: why would you ever want to make their relationship into anything else when the "wow everyone else here is so strange (mildly lovingly and also with a fair amount of dread and frustration). glad I'm the only normal person here" dynamic is there and 10x funnier than any possible outcome in which neurotic gordon freeman makes out with low res security guard

and also there are literally 3 other deranged individuals ripe for you people's enjoyment. go get them.

#listen i do genuinely like the idea that benrey is nowhere near as antagonistic in his own mind as he comes across #its one of my favourite possible ways of looking at the canon because it's hysterical #i also have a chronic case of “need this to be deeper than it is” disease #i too am guilty of looking at a comedy series and trying to pull Lore and Development out of it in swathes #but goddamn. if we're gonna make a compelling narrative out of half life funny can we explore other options #im not going to like hit you with a sledgehammer for objectively harmless fandom content but i want to see other shit #hlvrai #benrey #tagging him too the bitch is relevant to this #gordon hlvrai

[anderstrevelyan]

Hi tumblr, I'm back!

Spent the past month glaring at people in bg3 and it was glorious

#time to do a scroll and fill up my queue again! #I'm also on vacation for a bit and feel the writing bug starting to return which is nice #This has been the longest break I've taken from that in two years and I uh needed it #I guess this is also a “there's going to be a lot of bg3 here from now on too” notice #still not sure what to do about the branding of my fandom accounts #but I like it when people are the entire contents of their brain online so I guess that's me now too hi I have two fandoms now #(and I'll get better at tagging for each/will continue to use the bg3 spoilers tag when relevant) #in that vein: #bg3 #valas devir

[conchfritters]

i need to get less ashamed of talking about my interests on my 0 follower tumblr blog because if i don't point out that despite having one of the most interesting concepts ever presented in a genshin event, shadows amidst snowstorms was not actually well written, and was in fact pretty Poorly written, then who else will. Who else will.

#seashell resonance #Anyway amber hasn't shown up in any content since 1.0 where she wasn't optional or thrown out entirely in favor of standing as an #advertisement for euIa. case in point in the scene in shadows amidst snowstorms where you're waiting outside the cave for albedo the last #person joel was left with was amber. when euIa confronts albedo about the fake trying to lead joel away...there's no mention ever of the #fact that amber...was With Joel. Amber who is an Outrider trained to Notice Danger. Either left joel with fakebedo without noticing anythin #or the actual explanation: hoyo didn't care enough to write her because. well. Amber Bad #the next time we see her is when she shows up with bennett #amber used to have a lot of fire to her and this sort of unique not quite cockiness but like. easy way to tell she used to be the difficult #kid we hear about in her character stories and teapot dialogue #she serves no purpose in shadows amidst snowstorms #an event that easily could've capitalized on the Horror aspect of being trapped with a doppelganger of one of your coworkers and shown off #ALL the characters (because get this. You can make people wanna spend on characters who aren't meta by making them Like Them.) #but amber? no value in any event she's ever been in. she talks about good hunter and sticky honey roast. she gets flustered. euIa pays for #her meal. Remember how she was in Almost All of razor's story quest and then when they needed a knight to give him a gift in weinlessefest #they chose...SUCROSE AND NOELLE? #remember how collei has had more on screen interactions with fucking euIa and sucrose than AMBER #how amber and collei's reunion was what people wanted to see and instead it happens off screen and amber simply isn't relevant during #windblume? how amber didn't get a skin with lisa and kaeya? how amber has no appearance in kaeya's hangout event despite their dynamic in #the webtoon and her being suspicious of him presenting so much room to work with? #her tcg dialogue has a meta joke in it. Because amber bad and amber doesn't exist outside of euIa and connecting collei to euIa #and i could go on. about the writing for cyno. about collei. about the way they write kokomi or any genius character. about albedo even. #about all my Other gripes with euIa because they go to about every single aspect of her character except her Basic personality #which is to say the personality we see in most of her voicelines. she could've literally been a saving grace for the cast if she weren't on #of the like top 3 worst written characters #i could talk about like almost any character's decay but that's not the point. Not the point. Nobody look atme. #i tried to replace the L in euIa's name with a capital i to make this post not show up in front of her enjoyers somehow but if it does #sorry about that! no problems with you it's hoyoverse who has my ire #i have so much more to say even just about amber specifically since she is. Unfortunately my fav and unfortunately almost the only characte #i care about whenever my enjoyment of genshin even Slightly wanes #but nobody will ever see it because that essay i write in my head seven times a day is for Me. I'll die before i crack open google docs

[marcmorrigan]

i have decided this year is His Year so i guess i have to learn to draw water and also finalise his outfit designs. smh. the things i do for love.

OC: shaide (he/him)

#my art #my ocs #KatH #dailies #shaide #hes sooo fun to draw ngl... i never draw his arms big enough in these tho. gotta work on that #he is TOO DAMN TALL btw. not the tallest KatH character by a long shot (thats isaya) but shaide is Up There #i think hes thirrrd tallest in the main cast? isa and letei definitely beat him but i think everyone else is 5'10 or shorter #idk if he or letei wears taller shoes tho lmao. but even in their platforms neither of them is as tall as isaya #anyway the year of shaide is off to a good start bc i connected SEVERAL dots about him today... for instance #relevant to the shoe talk #he got the idea for his boots from looking at rauel! and rauel doesnt know that. which is so Chefs Kiss to me considering rauels complexes #and! i had an idea for how to narrow down shaides ending... ive known where his arc leaves him at the end of the story for a while but #i think ive come up with a way to make it even better AND tie it in more to other plot stuff >:o) #and it maintains the kind of bittersweet vibe i wanted + gives him a little more content With Rauel which i think is Needed tbh #anyway yayyy i said i was gonna draw my daily and i did!!! now my mutuals dont have to beat me to death with sticks <3

[ojirocardigansniper]

ouguhhh just read the summary and article from this post about alexandre baril's work on suicidism (oppression of the suicidal) and the opening paragraph of the conclusion in the full article. thoughts. rotating

i was thinking about the. thick white gloves. while reading. remembered that one post about how csa being horrifically taboo to talk about compounds survivors' trauma and shame and went Maybe something similar re: suicidality and suicide... the suffering multiplied by the silence, the risk of dismissal or instant change in perception in anyone you tell... and even in 'mental health' spaces the perception that suicide as a topic is dangerous to talk about- that it could be triggering instantly and automatically- is like. i think there's some paternalism there and there's some shamefear and there's some oversimplification and there's the fact that it plays well into the existing well-taught impulse to avoid the discomforting. but like. this post also about how getting through suicidality is maybe only possible by considering the option thoroughly. i am just thinking. idk. yall know me yall know i think about this topic a lot

#chat #as someone who HAS mostly recovered from passive suicidality- mostly recognizes its suicidal intrusive thoughts as demands for life change- #im def one of the people who can be susceptible to recovery-only mindsets when like assisting or relating to suicidal people. so i need thi #me and one of our stranger sysmates (maze-body) were reading the article together and it kept standing against my reflexive questions + #discomforts because it understands suicidality as both an experiencer (in a weird way) and an already-dead thing; it could confidently- #dismiss my concerns as both fixable and less relevant than the experience and autonomy of the suicidal party. #its whole thing is being- not anti-recovery but like. unrecovered and incurable. which is a perspective we need to remember and have spoken #no matter how much harm reduction + barrier lowering + healing we go through. it as a frank eternality will still remain+need recognition. #its a weirdass way of coping with the inevitability of pain and suffering while not giving up on our locus of control but we're doing it ig #and i think theres a lot there you can relate 2 chronic/passive suicidality- just a companion no matter how much you make life worth living #whatever. anyway #suicide / #in case anyone has. tag blocking but not content blocking fsr

[holocene-sims]

next // previous

july 17, 2021 12:00 a.m. somewhere over the ocean

#ts4 #the sims 4 #sims 4 #sims 4 story #sims 4 storytelling #simblr #hlcn: everything the stars promised #disclaimer that you don't really need to know that much about the writers or history mentioned #really the only necessary things to note is the stuff relevant to the aoife's backstory because it's uhhh eventually going to connect to #grant himself skfkdsf #if YOU do know any of this stuff then there's bonus relevancy but it's not that deep #also this is very much one of those things where you're telling a story because of the person and context and not the content #the exciting part is definitely NOT the eye for them LMAO #and they are certainly not glorifying it either #just one of those “wow remember when so and so used to talk about such and such” moments #holocene.docx #holocene.png #hlcn: grant #hlcn: aoife

[the-modern-typewriter]

May I suggest promoting your book on tiktok? I say this because I always love your writing and want more people to enjoy it as well..

I don't have tiktok, And I don't honestly know what I'd post on tiktok because videos aren't my natural forte.

I would love for more people to know about and enjoy my writing too, and obviously I want to more people to read/buy my book...but also. I'm a person. You guys are people. Sure, writing is a business, especially when you get into publishing, but I also know how annoying it is to be constantly spammed with 'pay me' 'buy this' in the modern world. We're all more than that. It's not just about that.

So I wouldn't get tiktok just to promote my book. I would only get it if I thought I would a) enjoy having it and b) be able to post other stuff that I have an interest in posting that I think others might enjoy. And given my thing is writing, I don't know how to do writing in video format.

#please free to talk about my book and stories wherever you like btw! #very much encourage #I just don't feel I would need to offer more and other relevant content

[rosenfey]

I'm actually excited to play bg3 casually. since it's the next big thing I feel like there's pressure to get on the hype and create content for it asap and while I love making gifsets I think I just want to be able to enjoy something without feeling im behind because I'm not racing to post gifsets before anyone else

#ambie.txt #it's silly but I feel like a fake fan when I'm not posting gifsets for the Current Big Thing like every day #because like.. once I finally do it it's not gonna be the current popular thing and my content will flop #but also it makes me so anxious feeling like I need to constantly compete?? to stay relevant in the fandom #I'm actually not as much excited for the game because I'm stressed I will feel bad when everyone will be giffing it left and right #and I would feel the pressure to do the same but I'd rather take my time #anyway lmao.

[damazcuz]

Do you mind if people share old posts from your blog, even from a year or older? I don't want to be weird.😰

saying this as genuinely and non-judgmentally/non-patronizingly as possible, I assume based on this ask that you are probably coming from a social media where it is difficult and/or considered stalkerish (twitter, instagram) or causes an actual detriment to the op's account (tiktok) to go back through and like/share someone's old posts:

tumblr is not those apps and in order for it to stay as it is, it is vital that you share the things you like on your blog. there are lots of posts out there about the tiktokification/twitterification of tumblr and how hard they've tried to push algorithms and other formats on us; this site only continues in its current format if you share posts you like so that people can continue to see them, and the creators of those posts can see that they're receiving support and continue to create.

i do not mind if you go back to my very first posts on this blog and like or reblog them, that's fine. you don't even have to go back to the source to reblog it. i don't care how far back you go on my blog. chances are I'll go and reblog it from myself too if it's something funny! ultimately no one who spends any significant amount of time on this site is going to care that you're a day/week/month/year/decade back in their archive, if they do they're in the very small minority there. i find posts from blogs that haven't posted in a decade and I reblog them because they are good. and you should too!

#i have more to say on social media turning people into content factories where they need to continuously produce more posts at all hours #to stay on top of relevance. but again this is Not that site. it's normal and good to reblog old things.

[blushouyo]

told astarion that he could help himself to the tadpoles and I really hope this doesn't come back to bite me but I didnt want to upset him....

#might reload #because they said that you should challenge ur love interest #and val is very much against using them unless absolutely necessary #....... SIGH #need to redo like 2 hours worth of content #bc i quicksave to often and lost the relevant save that i made during that encounter #bg3 spoilers #<< just in case #personal

[thefirstknife]

Is the Witness cutscene viewable to people who did not pay for access to the season (or will it be post-year)? Like people who only bought the expansion and not the season pass? I know they shove important story and lore info behind timegated paywalls constantly (reason I hate the season model), but that seems like a really especially vital scene I would hope would be viewable in-game by everyone

Right now, it's only a part of the season. Obviously it's available for free online on their official and non-official channels, but in-game it's only for those that have Season of the Deep, for now, since it's a part of this season.

As for the future, honestly no clue. I will assume yes because of one simple fact: you will no longer be able to buy the past seasons when Lightfall year ends. That would mean that only people who bought the season during this year would continue to have access to the cutscene going forward, but no new players would have the same access, which kinda defeats the purpose of having it accessible in the game later.

So I can assume that they might be working on some universally accessible cutscene viewer that will allow all players to see cutscenes from content no longer in the game, regardless of whether they've previously purchased it or not. That's the best scenario because it would mean we'd get all other cutscenes in the game too. The middle scenario is that only the Witness cutscene will be viewable somewhere as part of another mission or some quest, also without having to have purchased Season of the Deep (since you won't be able to once TFS starts: technically you'll be able to purchase Lightfall so maybe it will require you to at least have purchased that, but the season itself will no longer exist).

We'll have to wait for more info on that. As of now, I would assume that once this year is done and the season is no longer purchasable, the cutscene will be a part of content that is available to everyone. While it's still purchasable, it's only in-game for those that bought it, but can be viewed with no problem on their official channel (and elsewhere).

#destiny 2 #ask #season of the deep #i completely understand the frustration of it if you decided to skip this season #i still think that this isn't too big of a deal and would 100% still advise people to skip any content when they're not into it #all of the content will be online #obviously it feels better to play it yourself but at this point we go into a more complex issue of seasons and vaulting #you'd have to pay for this content either way. delivering this whole story in an expansion would've made the expansion too long #which means it would've probably had to have split into even more pieces. putting it into a season relevant to this year makes sense #there's also the longstanding complaint about how seasons used to not really be relevant to the plot that much #especially not relevant to the expansion. people were fairly mad about that. it was a frequent point of critique in the past #but now that they are relevant people are mad again. it's an unwinnable scenario #i don't think anyone will ever be satisfied until destiny is a singleplayer rpg with a book series and an audiodrama #but hey. even then people would have to buy all that stuff. so i really don't know what the solution here is outside of just... #... 'put everything in the same spot and release it all at once for a smaller price'. balancing that is nearly impossible #as it stands destiny is still the live service game with the lowest monthly cost. even with all of the outrage. #the effective monthly sub for an annual pass of the expansion is less than you pay netflix. #that being said. never spend more than you can or more than you need to. seeing content online will always be better than feeling ... #... like you're wasting money. or worse. actually wasting money. nothing in the story really changes if you see it on youtube #i'm a big proponent of not spending money if you're 100% sure you are into something. even if it means missing out #it's an incredibly complex situation that people boil down to somethinig simple and it's just not the case