#thinking deeply about this again

[kavaleyre]

“After 200 years, you can forget how much color there is in the world.”

#my art #astarion #astarion and halsin #halsin #halstarion #<- gift for my lovely friend #Astarion deeply has my heart though #I have caught the BG3 bug BAD #i just want him to be happy #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 #bg3 fanart #I just can’t stop thinking about how beautiful the world must be to him now that he can see it again #it’s almost like a second chance #at loving the world around him #and halsin could show him so much #also the flower is a white amaryllis #which is supposed to represent new beginnings. #anyway i love them

[maybebi47]

anyone else ever think about that scene in episode 7 of sophomore year when ragh found out his mom is dead but she isnt really dead her consciousness was in another body, and he started saying "do all our hugs count? it wasnt her real body but they count right?" and then fig hugs the gem her dad is trapped in and goes "IS THIS NOT A HUG?" and ragh hugs HER and they all start crying and adaine says my "parents never hugged me" and kristen just goes "i hold trackers hand quietly"

anyways i miss fantasy high sophomore year gang

#couldn't stop thinking about this so i had to find that clip #thinking about figs gentle heart again #and her inability to not deeply care for everyone she loves #anyways im normal #fantasy high #dimension 20 #sophomore year #d20

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Bonus 8: How met your mother (CSSR design by @qourmet!)

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #cangse sanren #wei changze #jiang fengmian #It was important to me that WCZ had the hereditary mole. I will die on this hill. #I have been *waiting* for the day to finally arrive when I could finally make this comic. It's been marinating for months. #My mission is to redraw all of qour's character designs one day. They are just *that* good. #CSSR has the vibes of a wandering menace who shows up in towns like a stray cat arriving at a new doorstep for treats. 10/10. #While YZY strongly leads us to believe that JFM was in love with CSSR and that's his whole motivation behind taking wwx in- #-I do think this is (once again) rumour being presented as reality. It's the juicer story to tell after all. #It is still possible that he did love her! But I think that story undercuts the relationship he also had with WCZ. #Yall ever think about how JC and WWX parallel their fathers? How Wei Changze also left the Jiang Leader's side? I do. #Unlike JC though It is far more hilarious and plausible to imagine JFM begging to be CSSR and WCZ's third. You know he would. #My wild headcanon is that JFM and YZY are in a mlm and wlw arranged marriage situation. Deeply unhappy as partners. Better as friends. #they care for each other and I'll admit that there is a beautiful tragedy in them having romantic feelings for each other the whole time. #But I am also here for the gaffs. Let them be unfulfilled homosexuals together. #Meanwhile cssr and wcz are having incredible hetrosexual sex in a bisexual way that WILL leave him pregnant by the end of it.

[communistkenobi]

this episode literally ends with kirk reading the US declaration of independence to the aliens lmfao

#star trek lb #again. really good show very honest about its propaganda #and a bunch of deeply silly people think this is progressive

[lumamintz]

summertime

#persona #persona 4 #p4 #p4g #yu narukami #souji seta #yosuke hanamura #souyo #myart #Thinking Very Deeply about them again .

[aq2003]

like the important thing you must keep in mind about ten when you see him do literally anything is that he's soooooooooo so so so bad at actually isolating himself from other people. so TERMINALLY bad at it. he thinks to himself "i don't need human connection because everything i do causes pain and destruction to those around me :(" but then he experiences a crumb of human connection and his heart starts to spill out of his chest

#tenth doctor #dr who #doctor who #yeah i say heart singular cuz he said 'i suppose they break my heart' in the next doctor and i have perma brain damage over it #btw. this is why him and martha in the first half of series 3 are Like That. he trusts her deeply but he also doesn't want to form #another deep emotional connection bc look what happened with rose! right! i think partially the reason why he #has his moments of opening up about his past is because he thinks 'well she isn't going to see me again after this' #'i might as well tell her if she asks. it may even scare her off'. this is INSANE. he is INSANE. and he is so fucking STUPID #fool! you are developing a connection with someone!!!!!!! not pushing them away!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #look at what you are doing to martha's self esteem bro!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #10 era

[taiistired]

i need you more than anything

#taevi.png #life series #scott smajor #jimmy solidarity #solidarity gaming #flower husbands #dangthatsalongname #trafficshipping #so guess who watched scott's and jimmy's 3rd life and is now insane about jimmy's death and the impact it had on scott #it's so interesting about scott's grief in 3l especially in the moments when he learns jimmy is dead and how he chooses to express it #i'm still thinking about that afterlife scene and how it's so deeply intergal to scott's character #everyone say thank you to bree for getting me into fh i will never view them the same again #taevi have a consistent scott design challenge instant fail #blood tw #blood cw

[thronealigned]

no it's fine this mind flayer is totally my friend and 100% honest with me all the time it's ok it likes me everything's so normal

#bg3 spoilers #baldurs gate 3 #baldur's gate 3 #i love how raphael directly calls you out on this. 'if id have known you were so gullible i wouldve tricked you into selling your soul for #a bowl of beans when we first met' #and then just keeps insulting you more if you keep insisting emp's really your ally #oc: impulse #sure this'll go in their tag #everything about impulse's Thing with the emperor is so funny to me. and then deeply fucked up if you think about it long enough. and then #really funny again if you think about it even longer #one day i'll do their 2.0 playthrough so i can fully form all my thoughts. and get better screenshots and the ceremorphosis ending #i mean there's nothing stopping me from loading an impulse 1.0 save and going ceremorphosis from there but idk it'd feel wrong #impulse has more tadpoles in their brain than synapses by act 3 and it does really fundamentally change them as a person #tfw your chaotic neutral act-first-ask-questions-never no-impulse-control 17 CHA bestie becomes one of the most detached calculating people #you've ever met. all their old casual wit and humor is still there but they think before they speak now and that really shouldnt feel as #sinister as it does. they have this look in their eye and it feels like they view everyone around them as lesser beings #not because they view other people as subhuman or worse than they are but because they view themself as something *more* #if they have any raw unfiltered emotion left you haven't seen it in weeks. there's one person(?) who gets Unrestrained Feelings privileges #and it's the fucking illithid that lives in their mind and not any of their actual non-monster normal-ish-person friends. that human #connection is fading so fast now. when did they change so much? it happened so slowly in the moment but suddenly now they seem like they #were never the person you became friends with at all #and like impulse is a pretty selfish person from the start but they *did* genuinely like and care about the rest of the party. they were #friends. and by the end of act 3 that friendship should be the deepest and most meaningful it's ever been. but. it just isn't. #so on and so forth etc etc like that. All That Bullshit makes their relationship with lae'zel so interesting (and upsetting) too #they encourage her to side against vlaakith and then they never even try to free orpheus for her and her people's sake. they never even #think about it. they never consider it as an option. they just don't care. and then they EAT HIS BRAIN. #very possibly RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER. #and she's just left adrift. a rebel with no rebellion to lead and very little hope #i'm unwell. #ok i'm done this is a silly meme post. but god i have so many thoughts i have barely been keeping contained

[skrunksthatwunk]

learning some new things in mordhaus tonight

#do you think they ever explored each other's bodies.png #coughing wheezing idk. have whatever this is #i started this over a month ago skull emoji #mtl #metalocalypse #pickles the drummer #nathan explosion #nickles #omgg nickles content nickles content #skrunkart #metalocalypse fanart #mtl fanart #yk how it is #sorry i love putting blorbos in the exact same flavor of situation (accidental gay self-incrimination?) and i will do it again. lol. also #this comic is actually deeply improbable because the use of mommy suggests it takes place after aotd and thus after they'd learned to value #like. the lives of others. so they wouldnt be so flippant about the dead klokateers. BUT I DIDN'T REALIZE THAT TIL TODAY SO FUCK IT.WHATEVE

[fruitdaze]

still consumed by the cam and pal and paul emotions. thinking about how this wasn’t the ending that camilla and palamedes would have chosen for themselves at the start of things, but it was the kindest ending for them in those circumstances and it was an ending that they both chose willingly and wholeheartedly. thinking about codependency through multiple lenses and the degrees to which they did not, physically or emotionally, know how to survive without the other. thinking about how they never moved more than an arm’s length apart for the longest time after palamedes got a body back. thinking about camilla crying before the grand lysis just because she was so relieved. they loved each other so much that they fused their souls forever and now they’re never going to be apart again but they’re also never going to be together again. paul is a rebirth but also a death, a triumph that still can’t be separated from deep loss and grief

#their story is my favorite thing to come out of these books and it reached right into my sternum and touched me deeply but. #if i think about how they are never going to have another conversation or be able to hug each other again. i feel so unwell #i love paul as a narrative choice but on a personal level! i feel like pure shit i just want them back #tlt #the locked tomb #camilla hect #palamedes sextus #rtxt

[burgycreeper405-blog]

wrinkled characters- 💥

and mp4 is just there djfhsj

#my fav little blue characters #if you deeply think about it like i do_ they're all kinda the same mdhfjdk #burg art #inanimate insanity #inanimate insanity knife #inanimate insanity mephone4 #ii knife #ii mephone4 #the lego movie #the lego movie 2 #rex dangervest #trolls #dreamworks trolls #branch trolls #edit: #rex is actually 37 and not 36-- i fnckin math horribly bruvs⚰️⚰️ #edit again: i edited it/fixed it ⚰️

[twinstxrs]

there’s something so personal about the scene in fantasy high s1e7 where gorgug calls himself stupid & fabian, who up to that point had basically entirely been acting like the bad kids (especially gorgug) were beneath him & had also been the one calling ragh stupid two lines ago, instantly says “okay, do not put yourself down like that. don’t you dare do that to yourself.” like it was obvious he liked the bad kids at that point but the instinct to protect his friends manifesting as an immediate strong refusal of gorgug’s self-deprecating talk kills me. that boy loves his friends so bad oh my god i feel sick.

#fabian seacaster #fantasy high #gorgug thistlespring #these two specifically are so dear to me #top 5 most underrated fh dynamic the girls that get it get it #acts of service (gorgug) meets words of affirmation (fabian) #spring break i believe in you. i hand you an orange. you never hug me / shut up. #THE TENDERNESSSS #it’s about gorgug fixing the hangman & fabian having no idea how to repay him other than saying ‘i’m gonna buy you an orange.’ #when fabian a year ago had an insecurity about buying other people things bc he thought they’d just use him for that. #it’s about gorgug’s tin flower that’s tattooed on his arm being both symbolic of his roots & deeply tied to his relationship with fabian #it’s about ​fabian being the reason gorgug was in that fateful detention in the first place. #& gorgug being the first person to see fabian again in the nightmare forest. #all the bad kids are tied by destiny but god. fabian & gorgug you are so tied by destiny. #anyways i will not lie this far into my tags i expect nothing but in another universe they would be the slow burn of all time. to me. #it is so subtle & casual but there is so much love there it makes me kinda crazy. #but either way my beloveds who i think have helped bring out the best parts of one another but who r also both soooo lame (affectionate). #also i think it’d be funny if a) gorgug was the final bad kid to join the giant family tree via dating fabian #and b) telemaine was eventually gorgug’s grandather in law. can u imagine. #thistlecaster #fabigug #whichever one it is idk idc #they r just so gentle :( #UPDATE sorry i stopped right when this happened to write this whole post & literally like 5 minutes later gorgug has that idea to look at- #zayne’s pearl & his hunch isn’t right but fabian IMMEDIATELY jumps back in with ‘it’s moments like these that prove you’re smart’ GODSDD #when the fabian & gorgug dynamic hits it truly hits. besties/bfs ever i can’t decide they r simply so great

[cockringhoratio]

i know everyone sees him as second fiddle to knives bullshit but legato is Everything he is the reason the manga Works do you understand. wolfwood alone is not an adequate foil to vash bc he wants to be saved. he sees himself as guilty and recognizes the “wrong” in himself and wants to overcome it (nightmare of the orphans, eyes screaming in pain). his arc is more How can someone be better and still survive, not Should someone be better bc wolfwood ultimately does believe what vash is selling. by comparison, legato asks vash what if i dont want to be saved what if im happy here in the death and misery and cruelty what if i want this and vash’s answer is To Kill Him. he is the only person vash intentionally kills. he doesnt even kill knives bc knives’s plant bullshit is not actually vash’s ideological opposite. legato is. knives is kinda incidental to vash’s ultimate struggle against humanity’s ~dark side~ and how to reconcile that with their ability to grow and be better. i am shaking you by the shoulders do you understand do you fucking get it he is load bearing he is EVERYTHING DO YOU GET IT!!!!!!

#smashy the cache #sorry but every time i think too much about the humanism of it all i start tearing my hair out #like it is so deeply important that legato is HUMAN but that he has CHOSEN destruction #so much of vash’s ideology reads as leading the lost sheep of humanity towards the light #but legato is like actually fuck that i will not be led i am going to be evil on purpose old man #ANYWAY. anyway. im normal again i promise #trigun

[milfygerard]

but fr outside of my contracted madness i absolutely refuse to give joe alwyn gold rush like how is that song at all related to their relationship the lyrics clearly spell out a relationship that either never existed or only existed in implication and fantasies and maybe-maybe nots and its so bitter and yet desperately soft in the bridge where it almost projects a sense of envy, of wanting to be them as much as you want them. It continues an interesting oft ignored lyrical trend of taylor wanting just as much to be her lover as to have them, envying their easy charisma (you were flush with the currency of cool/i was always turning out my pockets) or quiet dignity (your integrity makes me seem small) dating back to her earliest songs (the kind of flawless i wish i could be). Theres a projected self hatred and yearning to be better that twists itself into both romantic and sexual lust for her partners thats so fascinating and speaks to how all of her songs regardless of who theyre about are also an act of self reflection on who she is and who she wishes to be.

#barry.txt #taylor swift #putting this in the tags as a form of self protection but make no mistake this is a gay thing to do especially in gold rush #which through simple context clues is Obviously About A Woman or maybe even women in general #whivh is a totally seperate post on how taylor constructs and uses gender identity in her music #her girlhood and femininity are earnest but also so carefully constructed and so high effort and kind of desperate #shes a deeply self concious and obsessive person who never looks comfortable in anything ever unless shes #onstage or like. by herself in loose jeans and a tshirt #i think thats one of the things that subconsciously irritate ppl when it comes to her shes constantly and clearly putting in effort #to appear As The Celebrity Taylor Swift and struggles not to self censor or overperform in interviews (when she gives them) #especially present in pre 1989 interviews where the interviewers really didnt have to respect her or worry abt how they frame her #if they didnt want to. Like the fearless era rolling stone interview where she almost has a meltdown over her mom buying eggnog instead of #milk. That whole interview is strange looking back not just bc of the weird misogyny but also because of what it does share #taylor is....weird. She has a strange and desperate vibe and always reacts slightly too much and uses slang poorly #shes media trained and has learned how to socialize but you can feel her discomfort whenever she doesnt have a guitar in her hand #idk these tags have once again gotten so unweildy. i just find it interesting that she finally feels some level of comfortable #in sharing that construction w us in songs like mirrorball and mastermind and imo gold rush #and scene #should i write this up and put it in the swiftieism zine #i should write something and put it in the swiftieism zine

[nanatsuyu]

kandrew // longing for things within reach

Georges Bataille, The Dead Man / Richard Siken, Little Beast / Chen Chen, “Nature Poem,” When I Grow Up I Want to Be a List of Further Possibilities / Edmund White, The Beautiful Room is Empty / Richard Siken, Wishbone / Girl in Red, i wanna be your girlfriend / Euripedes, Orestes / Noah Kahan, Anyways / Yves Olade, Bloodsport / Jack Veasey, "Loving," Handful of Hair / Dorothy Parker, Love Song / The Third Round, You Go Your Way (I'll Go Your Way Too)

#been thinking about Them again #Deeply and Emotionally #aftg #kandrew #kevin day #andrew minyard #if you saw this before the formatting change no you didnt #word weaving

[zer0point5ive]

it’s literally all about the gentleness, the utter tenderness with which lawrence and adam hold one another even with all that chaos in their wake. it’s about lawrence’s hands, the same hands that picked up the gun, the same hands that sent a bullet into adam’s shoulder, wrapping around adam’s arm to pull him down to lawrence’s level, cupping adam’s face. it’s about adam’s hands, covered in the blood of the man he just killed, gripping lawrence’s shirt, pulling him closer by his shoulder and pressing their foreheads together. it’s about this moment being framed with said body between them as the whole world seems to narrow down to just the two of them. it’s about the contrast, the violence offset by the way they cling to each other and the tenderness offset by the visual evidence of death and destruction around them. it’s about hands that can cause so much damage being used to comfort, to hold. an embrace saturated with blood but an embrace either way. and maybe the blood makes it mean more. maybe

#got insane about that scene again ohh it will happen again. so deeply unwell about them what the hell #starts shaking nd bearing my teeth every time i think about this #this is what my thoughts sound like this is. how it feels to be my therapist #chainshipping #📹 #need to be taken out old yeller style. <- me every time i watch saw 2004 #sometimes i wonder what its like to be a casual saw enjoyer imagine being normal about saw what is that like