Dear diary...
All of this feels so pointless...
I feel like I'm wasting my time here.
There's no point in me being here if all I ever do is suffer...
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HEY HI i finally moved to a new apartment that doesn't make me want to kill myself but the move was VERY EXPENSIVE and man i'd love to be slightly less destitute so i finally made an INPRNT account which will fuck me over slightly less than redbubble does.
i uploaded like 90 of my favorite drawings that didn't include other people's intellectual property and i set the prices as cheap as they can get and there's also a %15 off thing going on right now so uhhh idk should be a pretty good deal??
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experiencing a weird thing where im trying to go to sleep earlier (because im tired and sleepy) but i take so long to fall asleep its the exact same thing as just going to bed late...feel so hopeless and i always end up tired either way... im very big on "i can always try again tomorrow" mentality in any way it can be interpreted (interactions with others, mood, the amount of work i do etc) but its so hard to Try Again when you're always too tired to do anything...
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Every time Ryder as a protagonist is criticised for not immediately being respected by other people a part of me dies.
How do you acknowledge Andromeda as a story of growth and rise of a hero... but throw rocks at the game for doing exactly what is expected of this kind of story?
Why do you go to a bakery and ask for elbow grease?
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everytime i’m faced with wild overt misogyny that’s just platformed like it’s nothing i remind myself that people don’t actually have to feel this way about women. men are fully capable of treating women like human beings and viewing them as such. “but socialization but male fantasies but patriatchy speaks through us even when we don’t recognize it” sure but actually regardless there exist men who are fundamentally not raging misogynists and they generally seem happier and better adjusted. misogyny to me isn’t disappointing because “oh i can’t believe Men, as an essentialized category of person, are like this” it’s disappointing because people make the choice to be like this. “it’s my biological imperative as a man to dominate you” okay well it’s my biological imperative as a freaky bitch to dominate you so what now. what biological imperative is making you comment “onlyfans detected opinion rejected” on every picture of any attractive woman. i think i will always be understood by most people as a woman and i’m learning to accept that and trying to like it but misogyny makes me feel very trapped of course. but misogyny is a choice. which means some people make the choice to be misogynistic which is profoundly frustrating. but many other people choose not to be actively misogynistic and i believe anyone could choose not to be actively misogynistic if they wanted. so it’s a whole thing
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I honestly don't know if or when I'll watch the end of AOT because man, literally nothing about the ending makes me feel particularly good. On one hand I kind of wanna see the actiony stuff and hear the music and all, but I still think the ending sucked. I don't think it's 'bad writing' or whatever - it's Isayama's story and he told it the way he felt it, which authors should do. I just find it pretty cynical and miserable and tbh I just... totally hate it.
I'm getting to a (possibly weird?) point in life where I very rarely find it worthwhile to put time and emotional energy into downer endings, especially long series. Maybe it sounds immature, but I think I feel down enough about the real world and my part in it that need additional stuff to feel bummed out about, you know? There aren't many series with depressing endings that I end up feeling were time well spent.
No, I'm not asking for sappy hearts and rainbows endings, but there's a massive range of emotions to explore between saccharine and desolate. I wish I wanted to watch it. I really do and I hate that I just... don't. I think it's because the series meant so much to me that the ending irks me even more.
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