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yugiohz · 16 hours

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i've been there (and still am sometimes) so i'm saying this out of love, but i feel like once you've reached your late 20s, you HAVE to come to the realization that you have to actively strive to make yourself happy / your life livable! i know it's extremely difficult to deal with the disillusion + depression + isolation combination that befalls a lot of people in their 20s, but you have to actively fight to maintain and expand your comfort zone so you don't sinkeven deeper, because all those corny quotes are right, no one's gonna come and save you, not your mommy not your partner not your baby not your blorbo, this is an inner process that you have to go through, because if you don't you will rot in your comfort zone and rn life rlly rlly rlly doesn't have enough to offer tomost of us that we should or could be okay with that kind of mundane life

#like i am fundamentally unhappy rn and grieving so many things but i try not to let that dictate my day to day IM FIGHTING DEMONS EVERYDAY!!#you have to cling to your humour and small interactions and not reject people's attempts to be nice to you life is literally not bearable #when you don't allow yourself to be silly #don't take life too seriously there are no rewards for doing everthing the right way and correct the first try #empahsis on trying you have to keep going cuz you will rot in your comfort zone #but yeah ... be kind to yourself and let yourself have fun despite everything #what else is left #and no matter how much someone loves you #it is not easy to be with amiserable person #and im obviously not talking aobut factors out of your control #but you have to change the things you can change #im still deep in my comfort zone but this post is about realization being the first step #like how arewe almost 30 and we're just whining like if this goes on we might as well just kill ourselves #like life can't just be obstacle after obstacle

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devastatinglygreen · 2 days

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If im being completely honest there’s a big part of me that is afraid that the fallout from LW reveal will damage them to a place I won’t find myself rooting for them anymore. I mean what if he goes back to fake take Colin and there’s a whole Friends-esque ‘we were on a break!’ situation of him being with someone else? What if they call off the engagement entirely and all we end up with at the end of episode 8 is reunited Polin but nothing more? No wedding or babies or anything? I know it’ll be real bad and hurt and I know it needs to happen, I’m concerned about the journey they’ll take from the reveal to reconciliation. How bad do you see it getting? Broken engagement? Estranged until the last bit of episode 8 as other seasons have done? Would love to hear your thoughts!

i spent a while trying to figure out how to answer this without a bunch of spoilers and truthfully, the only thing i have is do you trust the story you're watching? what about the first part of season 3 made you think that's going to happen?

or did a bunch of the sky is falling blogs/twitter users/reddit threads give you anxiety?

and i mean that sincerely. even if they do something you don't particularly like, is your idea of the story stronger than the story itself and it hinders your overall enjoyment? those people are the ones who seem to be the most unhappy with season 3 so far.

also, i am pretty sure i know where the original freak out of the ross and rachel thing came about but luke newton said this:

i don't think he was talking about being on a break.

also they're following the book pretty well, or at least adding a good amount of it in there, and there's a whole plot/character growth for them happens after the wedding. a pretty important one at that.

i meant what i said in that i think the LW fight is going to be painful but i actually don't think the conflict will last all that long, tbh. not to bring up the book like it's gospel but seriously, colin is very aware of how society treats her and it colors the way he thinks of society because of it. he knows he's privileged and well liked and life is easier for him because of it.

eloise is still convinced that her every thought is the right one and overlooks penelope in a lot of ways which gives her sense of betrayal almost a prideful feel to it. colin is both in love with penelope and aware of her in a way that eloise isn't. i'm sure their fight will hurt and be angsty but love isn't a black and white proposition, it's got a lot more layers than that and colin's understanding and love of penelope would play into that i assume.

i suppose i'm just not worried about it. i don't have to like every part of a story to love the end result. i also don't think, after seeing how badly people reacted to every overblown spoiler/rumor, that people should take someone online on their word over the show itself and the people who worked on it.

#asks #anon #polin #did i put any spoilers in there #i do not think i did #spoilers #tho #just in case #well there's spoilers in the comments now #so #bridgerton spoilers

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kogakio · 3 months

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spine tattoo keith final because i finally gave up

can you tell that i cant draw backgrounds

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1gramofquinn · 10 months

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im just like if a dude was kind of also a chick.

#.talk #i dont mind the whole “man trapped in a woman's body” thing for myself but i dont really see it negatively necessarily. not that i dont hav #dysphoria. but i dont find myself having a lot of dysphoria about like. my curves or typically feminine features. its other thinfs. and a #lot of it just has to do with societal standards of maleness. i like being known as male and being called by traditionally male terms. and #find myself unhappy when people regard me as female. but i've been trying to just see my body as my body lately. im trying to keep my #happiness in check! and tbh i like my body. even if most would see it as female i see it as male becaue. well. im male. and it's my body.

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hoarder-of-dragons · 2 months

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HAVE Y'ALL HEARD THE NEWS!!!

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 6 months

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helloooo my dearest darling listeners, i am back on my soapbox to regale you all with the marvelous things i witnessed/experienced on my Whimsical As Fuck™️ three hour drive today. not necessarily in order <3

some cute does with bigass floppy ears / very sweet waitress who called me "hon" and put the most tasty looking crepes on my table / a pair of hawks divebombing a golden eagle / a kite (the bird) / a flock of magpies / some GORGEOUS scenery / a rainbow / lovely rain sprinklings / MORE gorgeous scenery, i mean what the fuck / fields of purple/orange/red tipped bushes / a meadow of buttercup-yellow very tall grass, in which many picturesque trees stood / lots of fluffy, adorable, tasty cows / a large herd of likely-feral horses with a wonderful variety of patterns & colors / the fluffiest husky ever / the juxtaposition of cold wind through an open window + warm sunlight / the most stunning snow-coated mountain of whites and blues in the sun, wreathed in clouds / no seriously some really fucking Gorgeous scenery, i was near tears with some of it

#i am feeling. Better Than I Have In A While #you know! last night i was very unhappy that i would have to do this drive!#but after my 2 hour doze in the ihop parking lot #and a nice breakfast of crepes and tea w/ my book #i was feeling better and decided Fuck It. im gonna make myself enjoy this drive #im gonna take my goddamn time and really absorb my surroundings #by fuck i will stop at a rest stop and take a walk! and i did all of it!#life is actually worth it! glad to have continuous confirmation of that #its so nice to drive and actually see things #beautiful landscapes... wildlife... Geography...#instead of just Flat. Scrub. Brown. More Scrub. Dirt. Dead Scrub aka Tumbleweed. Boring Brown Hills. No Weather.#i can go outside the clouds are Full and the air is Fresh and birds are Singing and i am Alive #absolutely unprompted #i expect the feeling of realness to fade soon but i will enjoy it while it lasts!#and maybe if i feel it often enough it will outlast the disconnect!#now i think i am going to treat myself to a pork bun i just bought & get one of the nice beers from the garage #ive Earned It!#you all treat yourself to something you like as well. we have all earned it simply by existing!#you're here today! Yippee! indulge!#im feeling so fucking whimsical today... ill go work on setting up my extra monitor and figuring out how the fuck that works!#my mic has already arrived! i have hope that i will do a test stream Soon!

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fairywinds · 1 year

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i will be a hero!

#precure #mew.jpg #sora harewataru #cure sky #spent the whole day on this #there's some things im unhappy about but i think its still okay!!#im never going to be 100% satisfied anyway so might as well post it now #anyway #ive actually started this drawing months ago traditionally #but i didn't like the way it looked so i digitalized it #im glad i did cause it would've been a shame to just. abandon it #so yeah!#hiropre is awesome go watch it now

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nanowired-lover · 7 months

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fucking. autistic goemon is turning so much in my head. I wonder if the team was like "okay he's weird but that's bc he was hella isolated all his life and forced to be emotionally stunted in his samurai life style, and that's why he have shit ass social skills and a general poker face" and then they suddenly catch him infodumping about samurai history and legendes, cringing about and fleeing sensory icky textures, unconventionally stimming, being very picky with his food or some mundane autistics traits. And they are like "oh okay it's something else actually".

#lupin iii #i don't wanna go into angst but im also projecting some unhappy traits ?#the fucking. meltdowns. and explosions of feelings because he's been repressing so hard #the black and white thinking. the mental plasticity #change of plans ? he learned to accept it with Lupin. he pushes through it #but it doesn't mean he takes it well. if too much things goes wrong ? he's leaving the premises

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daily-crabbys · 10 months

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mmg,, i might hiatus again,,,

I'd hate to do it, but there's no joy in crab posts as of right now, and also as of a long while ago.

Managing messages and responding to people in replies and being tagged and all the stuff in inbox is. a lot.

I never intended or expected crab blog to get this big, and it feels like such a chore to do at this point. Not that I dont like it, and not that I dont enjoy the fellow crab lovers, but it's certainly overwhelming.

That plus other socials and such that I manage and real life stuff is just. IDK, it's a lot. Usually, if I get to this point, I just drop off, maybe delete the account if I really can't stand it, but I'm definitely not going to do that here.

At the very least, I'm going to empty out the submissions that have been piling up, but after that, I'm not sure. I may not even get through all of those, I've already been relying on those for a long time at this point, and I think that's pretty obvious.

It feels like a hassle to deal with those anyways since most people don't even identify what type of crab it is that they submit, so I have to take the time to find it, which is usually not at all easy. There are so many posts that I've just had to guess what to tag it as because I just don't know, and there's no solid answer that I can find, at least not usually.

Which is also partially my fault, I've never said anything about it before, and I never specified it at an earlier time to make incoming ones less stressful to deal with, but even so I just. I don't know, I don't.

I don't know exactly when it'll happen, but it's the most likely thing to happen from here. I think I'll modify some stuff about how I handle the daily-crabbys blog to make it easier on me when I come back, but I'm not entirely sure what that'll be. I've never managed a successful daily posting account before, I haven't the slightest clue how to make it all easier on me.

Sorry that this has gotten so long, I didn't mean to rant. There's just so much that I feel like I need to say.

This isn't something coming out of nowhere, and it isn't going to be immediate. I've thought about wanting to do this for a while, and I know I did this already not too long ago, but I didn't really change anything for myself, so I'm just burnt out a lot faster.

Sorry again, both for the length of this and the fact that it's going to happen, but I've just got to make things better for myself before I carry on long term. I really just fucked myself over by not doing this the first time, but if I don't do something about it eventually then I'll just end up hating this blog too much to continue.

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#not crab posting #heads up that this is quite a long post so in case you may not want to read it all(dont blame you) theres just a few things to know #firstly this isnt a random decision i made. ive thought about it for a while and dont think i was ready to come back in the first place #second is that it will not take place immediately! i dont want submissions to sit for too long so ill empty those out before i disappear #this includes a few that i wouldnt ordinarily post or have never found the right time to post. theyve just gotta go #third is that it is no ones fault. well thats not true. its mine. i didnt make changes i should have the first time i went on hiatus #im suffering severely from that now and have burnt out wayyy too fast. which is again no ones fault but mine #im going to change things to make it easier to handle. i need to if i want to keep this going for a long time which i very much do #i just cant when the thought of posting on here every day makes me so unhappy. im just too overwhelmed #im not sure what the changes will be just yet but they're going to be beneficial to me greatly

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britneyshakespeare · 5 months

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My toxic trait is that I like how my incomplete drawings look better than the finished things

#im sorry i cant be her (my searching lines)#i cant stop thinking about this drawing i have a sinking feeling that im gonna be very unhappy when its done #or. not unhappy. but not as excited as i feel about it now!#i only worked in two short chunks on it but both were pretty productive #i have a feeling that when i take the time to really dedicate myself to it im gonna fuck something up #like i can see areas i need to/can improve already but the glaring flaws are ok! bc it's not finished!#it OVERALL looks cool and LOOKS like it has the potential to turn out well #but will it... WILL IT??? WILL IT EVER?#i have never been so totally completely satisfied w any finished drawing ive dedicated myself to fully.#tales from diana #this is also only the second time ive done a really deliberate self-portrait that wasnt in some for or another. practice #like of course ive drawn my face before. not that often actually. but since yes i do draw. i have drawn myself #i probably should've drawn myself more times for how often i think id like a nice picture of myself #but then again its not gonna be so 'nice' if i make it and am not totally happy w it?#see one of the ppl who inspired me to learn to draw is ned @sneez my dearest. he's spoiled me before #and drawn me very beautifully on several occasions and it's very much a thing to move one's heart #to see someone dedicate their talent to depicting YOU.#and i might say HE has made me look more beautiful in art than i think i'll ever look in the flesh #which is not to say he drew me inaccurately. but he's so talented that his art is more beautiful than life.#and i dont compare myself in skill to him bc he's been doing it for YEARS and way more trained than me in the visual arts.#like it simply wouldn't be fair so i only compare myself to myself. naturally #but i used to think. very VAINLY i might say. that if i could draw like him id draw beautiful pictures of myself all the time #well ce n'est pas ca mon ami. since learning to draw i've found im much more interested in drawing ppl i find beautiful #rather than myself. im not art. not through my own eyes at least.#i should really draw ned sometime. i really should.#actually somewhat embarrasingly i tried to draw him like 5 or 6 years ago. and i NEVER tried to draw then #i did show him tho and he thought it was very impressive but that's probably just bc he loves me. xoxox #maybe ill post that someday as a throwback just for the hell of it. lol. thatd be cute

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widevibratobitch · 4 months

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fitzier hatesex save me. fitzier hatesex. save me fitzier hatesex.

#either give me these two hatefucking like stray cats in heat or give me a gutwrenching tragedy #in this house we dont believe in post-rescue AU happy endings #im happy for people who do you guys are swell keep it up 👍💯🔥#but i just want my bitches toxic and deeply unhappy <33 #the only post-rescue AUs that i truly care for are the ones where they just. dont work together as well as they thought they would <33 #because i hate fun and happiness and all things true and beautiful <3

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halogalopaghost · 3 months

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#IM SO STRESSED IM SO STRESSED #I feel like I'm not handling ANYTHING well rn #so many people have symptoms that are WAAAAAAY fucking worse and they're like. working full time jobs and being a parent and shit and #I'm like waaah oh no I have body aches and chronic fatigue looks like I'll have to be unemployed and never do anything ever 💀#how am I gonna live?? like. my parents are taking care of me and I'm so fucking glad but #SOMEDAY THEY WONT BE AROUND and that stresses me out so bad #I'm 25 years old and I NEED my mom every day if not physically then emotionally because I'm a little bitch baby that can't do anything for #herself. im having a hard time feeding myself I'm having a hard time keeping my living space clean #I'm not taking care of anything except the dogs sometimes and my lizard and she's not getting as much attention as she used to #I need a job and I need to be able to suck it up and DO THINGS but I feel like I'm not the person u was anymore #I was strong and I could push thru things and make myself do things and now I can't???? I just lay on the fucking couch!! and feel bad abtit #is it the tism. is it the ADHD. what about the chronic depression. how bout the fibromyalgia?#and the thing is that ALL OF THOSE THINGS ARE MILD #I don't have severe pain (yet).#I just can't handle it I don't WANT to handle it #so. shoutout to my mom I guess because if it wasn't for her I simply wouldn't be alive #I feel like I've never been happy!! why can't I just be content and be happy!!!!#I have no fucking reason to be unhappy!!!!!!

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soldier-poet-king · 10 months

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Tattoo session officially booked for Sept 2!!! Had the hour long in person consult this morning, artist was super sweet and seemed genuinely really excited to do the project. It's a full day (8 hr) session so it's not the cheapest, but not unreasonable given artist experience, selected style, HEALTH AND SAFETY STUFF, time spent on design, etc

Like I am so fuckin nervous and almost threw up this morning but the artist was SO kind and lovely and non judgemental, of this goes well I'll want her to do my whole half sleeve tbh

#franposting #also like. it's a lot of money but ive been saving for eons and its only a tiny fraction of what i have saved #and when you compare it to like. rent prices. its like. oh. well in the grand scheme of things this isnt even half a months rent so #if i have to live with my parents im at least spending SOME of the money ive saved #esp worth paying well for health/safety and also smthn that will yknow. be on my body forever #its at the same studio a friend had work done at recently and she had a fantastic experience #so im comfortable going there #im just!!!!!#parents will be unhappy but oh fuckin well! i know i can never be good enough for them anyway #also like. go big or go home. this is a significantly sized upper arm piece to anchor my eventual half sleeve #upper arm tho so its easy coverage with a rolled sleeve cardigan during the warmer months #bc yknow. workplaces. all that bullshit #after my consult my friends came over we drank and watch part of s2 sab and bitched about terrible fantasy novels #and how from blood and ash is basically just sjm tropes but worse so ofc we have to read it for trashy bookclub #ive already been warned about all the nsff (not safe for fran) scenes im gonna have to skip lmao #but we love sitting around tipsy garbage talking mediocre books #anyway off to play bg3. tmrw is church. nonnas. grocery store(?). pathfinder #still havent meal planned whoops

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courfee · 10 months

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“For fuck’s sake, Reg, please, just talk to me!” Benjy steps forward then, gently but still firmly pushing James a step back. “Take a hint and stop bothering him,” he says, “he obviously doesn’t want to talk to you.” James wants to scream. He very nearly does, but manages to turn it into a choked off groan of frustration instead. “I’m not bothering him! You’re bothering me right now! He’s my boyfriend and I need to talk to him!” “Are you, James?” Regulus asks coldly. “What?” James asks, the sudden regained attention from Regulus taking him off guard. Regulus slowly turns to him, Benjy forgotten, and regards James with a smile, sharp and cold and not reaching his eyes. “Are you my boyfriend, James?”

there's a new chapter :)

#operation wanker #jegulus #jegulus fanfiction #marauders #marauders fanfiction #the marauders #james x regulus #starchaser #sunseeker #regulus x james #my writing #mine #hp #insanely nervous about this one because people are already too unhappy about james #with amtc people told me reg should never forgive james and im experiencing the same thing now and.#well it makes me vaguely anxious #so i really hope i can fix things enough in the coming chapter to make everyone happy again #anyway these are hidden tags so im less nervous about people judging me

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trentcrimminallybeautiful · 1 year

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i have this silly little undeveloped au in my brain that's just like. tedependent but it's the sarah jane adventures. sort of. not literally in the doctor who universe necessarily but like. local intrepid reporter trent crimm investigating weird shit except the local neighborhood kids will not leave him alone.

i have so many thoughts about this but none of them are coherent enough for a proper fic i think:

i just think trent being good with kids, generally. go mentor figure trent! (what this has nothing to do with my thesis what do you mean)

trent, like sarah jane pre-series, having a sort of reputation in the neighborhood (or in general, since i'm also incorporating his actual canon vibes/story) as to being standoffish, aloof, cold, etc., and generally anti-social, keeping to himself. and as the kids keep dragging him into things kicking and screaming he might also be dragged kicking and screaming into a community <3

if his daughter is essentially luke does that mean he adopted her under Strange Alien-Related Circumstances? absolutely it does, yes.

see i've got two great ideas for ted/tedependent. on one hand, although in the context of SJA/nuwho i'm not so much one for sarah jane and the doctor as a Thing, ted playing the role of like. someone from trent's Mysterious Past who he won't talk about who set him on this path? someone who was kind and wonderful and changed his life but then--at least it feels like to him--abandoned him? someone who made him a better person--from doing whatever journalism he used to do to this--someone who he's still kinda in love with... but trent can no longer even really talk to......until he shows up again? that's some good shit, not gonna lie. although i'm jimmying that into a happy ending somehow, goddamn it.

ALTERNATIVELY. henry being one of the Neighborhood Kids (as if we're using "canon" kids, we've got limited options) and ted being an oblivious parent. trent is trying to get these kids to STOP POKING INTO DANGEROUS ALIEN NONSENSE PLEASE THIS IS HIS JOB PLEASE STOP BREAKING INTO HIS HOUSE but they're stubborn and smart and they may or may not have saved his life once or twice and oh GOD THIS IS SO IRRESPONSIBLE but he can't just TELL THESE RANDOM NEIGHBORS about ALIENS. but like anyway this just painful secret identity-esque nonsense where ted knows henry's taken a shine to that nice journalist down the street and his daughter but does NOT know that henry is getting into Shenanigans(TM). this could lead into all sorts of drama about, you know, his kid being in danger... or, alternatively, ted has worked with some unit/torchwood-esque place before and is like OHH you know what? this explains that time i thought i heard you speaking an alien language. cool, cool. and trents like. .....WHAT

etc. i'm not wording this well but i think you get the idea.

if you really really wanted to make it complicated you could do both, considering the doctor's whole thing--either a fob watch or a regeneration--but honestly, i don't want to do that, so i won't

some of the adults do definitely get involved though. keeley either clocks that shit right away or thinks she's clocked it but she's actually clocked something entirely different. she's like i know you're mi6 babe ;) and he. is not. meanwhile roy having ten freakouts in a row and then being like nvm i'm fine with this. (is not fine with this, but will be eventually). jamies like yeah aliens. everyone knows about those. and they're like what?? no they dont?? and so on.

is beard an alien? genuinely no one's sure. he's not telling.

HOLD ON can i give trent k-9???? can trent crimm get a robot dog?????? yes please i think he deserves a robot dog

also see the trickster episodes? bet you could do something real fucked up with those.

i feel like i had more when i started this post but i don't remember

this not well thought out at all and i have no idea where everyone would fit in

anyway my point is. trent crimm, intrepid journalist, running around trying to stop alien shenanigans while Those Meddling Kids keep following him around. trent crimm doin a little Breaking And Entering. scooby doo shit. and he has such an interesting mix of seeming suave and badass and then immediately doing something embarrassing. trent crimm--via shenanigans and also Those Meddling Kids dragging him into their lives (aka he tries to keep his distance SO badly and only is involved when dangerous shit is going down but like then it's all. child knocking on his door like IT'S AN EMERGENCY OPEN UP and hes like WHAT WHAT IS IT and theyre like can you help me with my homework :( and hes like. fuck. yeah fine what do you want help with. (some subjects he's very helpful on others he's VERY not) until they're like okay but you're coming to this bbq right. and he's like? no? and they're like you're coming to this bbq right. and so on) ANYWAY the point is they keep dragging him into their lives and now oops! trent actually knows his neighbors and has to go through the mortifying ordeal of being known. but that also means that when he gets badly hurt or sick he's used to the empty hospital room but now he actually gets people showing up and forcing baked goods on him and shit and i'm just feeling a lot of things about this extremely hypothetical au based on my already existing feelings about trent gaining a community in s3/post-canon,

wait does this mean trent gets sonic lipstick? HELL YEAH IT DOES

#well actually i have a LOT of silly little underdeveloped aus in my brain but #anyway. crack edition: the football players are still football players.#trent crimm wondering why he's trying to stop an alien spaceship from blowing up the block #with the help of a team of famous football players. roy kent just punched a raxicoricofallapatorian.#trent on the couch with a black eye bc they had a run in with a sontaron or some shit: [holding up peas to his face] okay.#so jamie tartt is here for some reason. and also the neighbor i have a crush on. and also his son. and also colin. this is fine #that's all a joke obviously but the imagery has me cackling #anyway this also made me think of trent as river song which doesnt work at first glance but then when i think about some PARTICULAR things #makes me cry. like. just. meeting him in reverse.#it's s3 trent--dorky and open and softer but sadder--that he meets first #and by the time he reaches the end he sees how far he's come out of his shell and how unhappy he was #but then they have their moment...#sorry that's also barely coherent and definitely wouldn't make a cohesive au without a lot more work im just spinning thoughts in my brain #trent crimm #tedependent #tedtrent #ted x trent #sja au #tvtcau #the first one before i even had that lol

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insert-neologism · 3 months

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just for once by lauren lopez in nerdy prudes must die

#yellowjackets #jackie taylor #shauna shipman #also #jeff sadecki #look this is what *I* call 'bonus content'.#a glimpse into my psyche if you will #mine art tag #?#ig sorta??#anyways i made this AGES ago no idea why i didnt post it. maybe i did post it OMG I THINK I DID?? well anyways.#anywayss watch yj and npmd of you havent seen it (npmd is the last part of a triology but you dont have to have seen the first part just #if you are inzerested in watching it. dm me and I will tell you many many things #npmd #actually now im pretty sure i did post it but idc (i was not unhappy. abt the attention. I ens sted) JUDGE ME

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