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yandereloversblog · 2 years

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Hey hey hey! How u doing today, well I hope ur doing great , anyway ik ur not rlly taking any request rn but I'm just gonna send u this request and leave it on ur inbox cuz I might forget abt this 💀 anyway and I'm sorry in advance if this is confusing cuz English isn't rlly my first language 😔

Can I request a introverted darling with goldie and lefty? Yk the shy, quiet type, the one who hates crowds, timid, doesn't rlly have that much friends maybe about 1-3, and the one who easily gets flustered. But when u get to know them or be their s/o, they'll be more open and sweet type ykwim

Anyway ur free to do this if u want ^^ have a nice day 😋

𝐘𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐄!𝐆𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐞𝐧 𝐅𝐫𝐞𝐝𝐝𝐲, 𝐋𝐞𝐟𝐭𝐲

╰┈➤ . . . 𝐑𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭: 𝙸𝚗𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝙳𝚊𝚛𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚘𝚙𝚎𝚗𝚜 𝚞𝚙 𝚐𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚖

╰┈➤ . . . 𝐅𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐦: 𝙵𝙽𝙰𝙵 1, 𝙵𝙽𝙰𝙵 6: 𝙿𝚒𝚣𝚣𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚊 𝚂𝚒𝚖𝚞𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚘𝚛

╰┈➤ . . . 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫: 𝙶𝚘𝚕𝚍𝚎𝚗 𝙵𝚛𝚎𝚍𝚍𝚢, 𝙻𝚎𝚏𝚝𝚢

╰┈➤ . . . 𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: 𝚈𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝙱𝚎𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚒𝚘𝚛, 𝚄𝚗𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚝𝚑𝚢 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚃𝚘𝚡𝚒𝚌 𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚜𝚎𝚝, 𝙼𝚊𝚗𝚒𝚙𝚞𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝙱𝚎𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚒𝚘𝚛, 𝙼𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚖𝚞𝚛𝚍𝚎𝚛, 𝙾𝚋𝚜𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚘𝚗

╰┈➤ . . . 𝐓𝐲𝐩𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭: 𝙷𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚘𝚗𝚜

I feel indebted to you because of the memes you've sent me XD- Also these will kinda be short- I'm still not used to Lefty but Goldie sir-

Also do you like my new set up? Yes I had to make new borders and everything during a dinner out with my family

-> 𝐆𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐞𝐧 𝐅𝐫𝐞𝐝𝐝𝐲

He doesn't either!

This man is silently celebrating in his mind when he finds out you don't like big crowds.

But unlike you he just hates everyone-

You both took a while to approach each other but Goldie did it first because he knew you wouldn't try it first.

"They're annoying, and they never stop talking either, get on my nerve..."

A lot of quiet, comfortable sessions where neither of you say anything but it usually happens if you cuddle, Goldie just let's you mess with his hair/fur.

I can say you're lucky Goldie let's you have the friends you have, they're just about the right amount -though he'd prefer if you only had him-

If one of them messes up and hurts you in any way he's killing them.

When you finally open up to him and act so sweetly Goldie falls for you all over again.

"Are they really that important?... I know you don't like them hun, they kept forcing you to go out."

His hugs are tighter, more kisses, -more overwhelming presence, no alone time; just Goldie time- gonna cling to you.

In return Goldie might get a bit more overwhelming than before because you're being so sweet to him.

Gonna start to seriously stalk you, keep an eye on the friends you have to make sure they're not doing anything he disapproves of.

Please don't deny Goldie any affection, he'll get angry instead of upset because he's starting to think he has a claim over you.

The more time you spend with Goldie = Goldie going more delusional that you're his possession.

"You don't need anybody else but me Darling, I'm the only person that should matter to you."

Lefty's really happy how you talk to him in a more timid and lower tone of voice because loud sounds might make him act out.

-> 𝐋𝐞𝐟𝐭𝐲

He's an introvert too, will probably go to you because you'll stay quiet and let him rest.

It's gonna be a routine of him visiting your spot and just resting there until he finally talks to you.

Lefty likes spending time with you because you don't offer anyone else to join you.

Even after he glitches out and starts acting out during a show he just might calm down when he remembers he's suppose to meet you again today.

"Again at the same time today, right? Remembr to be alone."

Immediately gets jealous when someone talks to you. Why are they there?

Lefty's so used to being alone with you that even the sight of other people near you makes him annoyed and jealous.

The first time it happened, Lefty killed that person once you were gone.

The second time it happens, your friend was left in a coma.

He would've killed more if you didn't open up to him because you acted so sweet to him.

"They keep disappearing? So what... You should only like me..."

Actually made him feel a little guilty for the victim but he got over it when you gave him a hug and maybe some kisses.

You have no idea what's going on and Lefty will make sure it continues like that.

"How about we go somewhere else? I don't want anybody to see and bother us okay? I want to stay alone with you..."

#yandere #yandere fnaf #yandere x reader #yandere headcanons #yandere fnaf x reader #yandere fnaf 1 #yandere fnaf 6 #yandere pizzeria simulator #yandere golden freddy #yandere lefty

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thisdreamplace · 1 year

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i feel like people don't truly practice what they preach? i went to someone, someone having a mental breakdown, all these terrible feelings of anxiety, worried about the future and they tell me to affirm and persist, or that circumstances don't matter. i tried the whole affirm and persist route, and it made my mental health worse. i tried living in the end, and it made me feel delusional and not present in the moment. but when i was present and not in -- that's when i felt the best.

im ngl to you anon i so agree. i truly dont think a lot of people practice what they preach at all, moreso what they preach they parrot. its so much more appealing to say "circumstances dont matter, just persist !! ur a bad bitch !!" and get everyone hyping up ur post as opposed to.... admitting that there is actually no god state that will ever override the human experience. cuz if there was we quite literally wouldnt be here in these human bodies having a... human experience. lol

i think that what u said at the end is v important. u did something different from the norm and it actually felt better !! this is good !! this is a start, a way for you to begin branching out and listening to urself and not seeking this feel-good, ego high advice that is extremely popular. even if no one else agrees, whatever feels truly good and safe for you is the right path for u. its so ignored how personal this journey is.... how its all about coming HOME to YOURSELF. and although we all come home to love, how that looks like or feels to each of us as individuals can be so different and opposite ! so please, please feel free to keep following yourself ! <3

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berryunho · 1 year

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HONGJOONGISM JHRSEH I LOVE THAT NAME it sounds better than something like ateezism tbh cromerism mmmmmm no mmm halazism LMFAOOOOOOO no that sounds like a disease

to the anon that said they'd fold for san and joong.. ME TOO ITS OKAY (this is why san should NOT be killed off, i'll make a ppt for u with all the reasons why)

and abt korea, i'm sure u'll be fine!! i bet when it's over u won't even want to leave bc u had so much fun, fr. also, i hope ur week has been really good <3

-san anon

i took this ask as an excuse to tell a very random story that got super long SORRY BUT HI KDJLFAKDJFLASDF

HONGJOONGISMDLKF;JSADFJ ITS SO FUNNY LIKE PLS IMAGINE IF SCIENTOLOGY WAS CALLED LAYFAYETTISM OR IF BRANCH DAVIDIAN 7TH DAY ADVENTISM sheesh WAS BENJAMINISM OR THE PEOPLES TEMPLE WAS JIMISM LSKDFJL;ASDJFL;KS no cult leaders cant make it that obvious that they're just power-hungry maniacs (as i type this i realize the religion i was raised in [lutheranism] follows this and im . ANYWAYS)

anyways i dont even know what it was in this ask that originally made me have to tell the story that i just typed idk my brain does things sometimes but take this story:

on january 31 2022 i saw ateez in la and i was barricade and as part of my outfit i made a little captains patch out of an old pair of jeans and ~200 swarovski crystals i got on clearance at a craft store and pinned it on my che-- hold on here's a picture

i dont ... precisely remember why i made it but it took hours (distinctly remember watching the entire original star wars trilogy) and i had to use tweezers and there was super glue everywhere but as you can see it was EXTREMELY shiny like i wasnt planning on it but it mustve been eye catching af bc hj ........ im delusional this is delusion never mind BUT yall see this too or ?

that look has inspired so much inside of me its unnatural like if i hadnt already been writing him as a cult leader the idea wouldve been born in that moment bc i literally wouldve got on my knees for him instantly

ANYWASY I LITERALLY DO NOT REMEMBER WHY I STARTED THIS STORYROEASFKDJ UM ? yeah hongjoong <3

anyways yes please feel free to make me a ppt i would very much like to see the pleading and begging im just like hj that way <3333 which isnt to say san is or isnt going to die or not die of course i merely would giggle ;AKSJSDFLSJDAFL

BUT YEAH YOU'RE RIGHT my parents are convinced that im never coming back already LKSJDFLSKFJDSKDLF but i will . im gonna miss cheese itz and smiling at strangers too much . but korea also has yunho like 75% of the time so ... hmmmmmmmm wait . JLASKDFJ;SDJF jk

ANYWAYS SORRY FOR RAMBLING %(#)$*(*)(#*$ THANK YOUUU my week was mostly just me working but it was okay hehehe i hope you're welllll <3333

#san anon #answered #author torso reveal above AKJ;LFKASJDFLKSJDF #also for the record #I DID HAVE YUNHOS NAME PINNED ON MY CHEST AS WELL #and he saw it .#and yes my hair was blue and i miss it so much it was so good #LKJSLKFJASKDFJ #ANWYALSIDFLAKSJDF #also a video screenshot i took of hj above ohohoho #ANYWAYS BYE

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transfemlogan · 1 year

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(Trying to keep it low) 1, 2, 9, 16 for the fan sides ask game. (No pressure and feel free to answer a diff one if you really want to)

Fan Sides Ask Game

1. How many sides do you have?

I have 6 sides! I have debated adding another one, for the sake of having them fit all the colours in the rainbow, but I don't know if I need anymore. They all mesh together really well & I don't think I have any other large traits in my personality.

REST UNDER CUT BCUZ THIS GOT SO LONG HEHEHE

2. What are your sides traits? Are they the same or different from the Sanders Sides?

Egotism, Impulse, Paranoia, Compassion, Creativity, Fatigue

They USED to be the same as the sides, back when I only had like 3 (Logic, Anxiety, & Morality) in middle school, but I changed them to fit me better!

Logan became Fatigue, Anxiety became Paranoia, Morality became Compassion.

I used to have a bunch of other side ideas, like having 2 twins 2 represent my aroflucuality (1 being romantic attraction, the other being lack of romantic attraction), but I don't (personally) like the idea of having a side represent my sexuality. It was mostly 4 silly fun.

(Fun fact: Creativity is one of my newest sides!)

9. Do your sides interact with the Sanders Sides? If so, who gets along with who? Who hates each other?

YES THEY DO!! They interact with the sides in my swapped self-insert AU (near the end, when I meet up w/ c!Thomas & now we're like "ok. How do we... switch back.")

I would like to make an AU where they interact regularly, but I can't think any plot ideas that would need us to Meet in any sort of way.

Wentz (creativity) 100% gets along with Remus. He'd get along with Roman for like 2 seconds, bcuz "hey it's another creativity!!", before Roman realises this freak is just like his brother. Wentz & Remus r both running around & making dead bodies & going "LOOK ITS ART!!"

Patton like, has a weird relationship with Melvin (compassion). He assumes that they'd be very similar in personality and opinions, and they kind of are, but Mel speaks his mind & is very blunt & straightforward & it makes Patton feel Odd. Mel is not afraid to point out anyone's mistakes & I feel like Patton would take this as Mel not liking him, when Mel holds no negative feelings 4 Pat (Mel just think he's a little misguided).

(+ I feel like Patton would find out that Mel + the rest of the undead sides have no empathy, since I don't have any empathy, & . He's def not ableist, but his upbringing & the way he thinks makes him immediately react negative & hold like... a grudge? Against them, esp Mel? IDK NOT IN A "UNSYMP PATTON" WAY, OBVS, HE'S JUST u know. He has a lot 2 learn & mel is willing 2 lend a hand)

Mel & Logan also get along. Like, being compassion, Mel cares so much for everyone around him & will drop everything to help anyone. Mel probably says some nerdy thing abt something & Logan is like :O ur smart wtf. (I also think Mel would 100% be like. "HEY! CAN WE FUCKING LISTEN 2 LOGAN RN HES TRYING 2 TALK" & its both uncomfortable & euphoric 4 Logan.)

Mercury (Paranoia) wouldn't really get along with anyone, though xe might find comfort in Roman. I don't have any reason why. I just feel like no one would be able to comfort him good during a delusional episode (minus Logan) & Roman is this loud man being like "THERES A MAN IN THR CLOSET?" (PULLS OUT SWORD & STARTS FIGHTING CLOTHES IN THE CLOSET) LIKE FJWHFK Roman's willing 2 be a hero 4 this little man whos terrified to step in front of mirrors & mercs couldn't be happier.

MERCURY WOULD NEVER GET ALONG WITH VIRGIL. Not 4 any reason, mercs is just holding a rlly lame grudge against him.

Memphis (egotism) & Janus might get along bcuz of their similar opinions on self care & selfishness, though ... I don't want to say Memphis is "more extreme", but she isn't doing things out of Self Care. Like, in SVS, Janus is trying to get Thomas to go to the callback to show that it's okay to be selfish and care about yourself. While Memphis would also want Thomas (or me, in this situation) to go to the callback, Memphis is doing it out of "you're inherently better than the people around you."

& that line of thinking is... Very Much against what Janus is trying to show Thomas. Janus (& Remus) are trying to show that no one is inherently good & no one is inherently bad, but Memphis believes that she (& I) are inherently better & that everyone is "below us"

They'd get along, but have very differing opinions.

Patton fucking hates Memphis. Memphis is what Patton does not want Thomas to become. I also think it'll throw him for a loop seeing Compassion & Egotism in one person.

Maven (fatigue) doesnt like making friends or getting 2 know ppl & would much rather be alone 4ever. The concept of interavting w/ others is like. So annoying 2 them.

(Id type more but im running out of spoons & this cant stay in my drafts anymore)

The "dark" sides & my sides have a good relationship automatically. Like the concept of sides that r excluded is something all my sides do not like & would immediately support them. They'd have like a... idk the word. Just, like, when u see someone & u nod 2 them & they nod back but u dont rlly know anything its just like... were in the same community.

Maddox (impulse) hates every1 & is like actively trying 2 murder them all /J

16. FREE SPOT FOR ANSWERERS! Ramble about anything you want!

I just went on a 13 paragraph long rant abt my sides & the sanders sides. I am not rambling anymore i am so tired

#ask #TJANK U4. THE ASK THIS WAS SO SILLY & FUN :)#revys sides!

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zushimart · 8 months

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hi idk if this is a weird ask or not bc im half asleep but i just wanted to say that i started following u on my old blog in late 2022 like maybe december and your posts about bpd scara made me feel so seen. i wasn't diagnosed then but it was recently on the table as a diagnosis for me all of a sudden and it was terrifying because i feel like pwbpd are demonized and hated everywhere i look. and just like scrolling thru ur bpd scara tag was like looking at a diary of my own mind or smth. so it was really new to me to see someone talk about borderline as something that brings love and pain into our lives and not just as some scary evil-people diagnosis. like ur definitely my fav writer on this app by far but also u make me feel really validated in my emotions i guess? wow idk sorry like i actually have no idea how to describe it but hopefully u can read minds ‼️ 🤞 i have since been diagnosed with bpd with a criteria score of 9/9 so 😳 idk where id be rn in september 2023 if i hadn't sort of started to learn to love myself from your writings exploring a character. so yea this is probably a strange ask so feel free to ignore it. also im going on anon bc im scared of interacting w ppl. ALSO U R SO FUNNY ND YOUR HUMOR/RANDOM FUNNY TAGS FEEL SO SIMILAR TO MY INTERNAL MONOLOGUE

this is such an open & genuine thing to say to me . i like had to sit with it for a second because it was so .. idk like how to communicate it . my devaluation of ths blog is pretty frequent, treating it sort of like a big boy version of the 2000s children’s diaries with locks.. my thoughts tossed in here nd piled nd piled nd piled, endlessly messy. nd it objectively is a writing blog , like yeah, on a surface level, i own& maintain a writing blog, but i would never tell people that. when people ask my hobbies i always say writing & ill show them my poetry pieces but i never tell them i have a blog because im kind of embarrassed by the very seriously delusional self indulgence i pour into this thing . but then i hear about.. like, for ex. we learned ab and have to maintain our own commonplace book in class, which is essentially where people collected anything and everything they felt needed to be archived from their day and tucked it into the pages of a journal . like how thomas jefferson’s commonplace book will have his serious philosophical & political ramblings side by side a recipe for cornbread because it was just a place to put everything big & small . the practical & the theoretical. just, whatever Means something to u. and leisure, indulgence, pleasure r concepts just as important as virtues imo. anyway i say all this to say that what u said to me makes me want to treat everything better, even this place. it like, makes me feel really proud of my writing& analyses that i might normally b quick to label as inconsequential or childlike because im scared people will think i care too much about something so culturally insignificant. but i do care!! obviously!! a lot. i was like kind of bummed today for a number of reasons frm feeling a bit isolated to feeling like living out my principles& ideals (connecting w community, peer centered thinking etc etc) is almost impossible because im sooo freaking shitty at social convention. so when u sent this in & i read it, it was almost like when ur spacing out nd someone snaps 🫰🫰 in front of ur face to get ur attn. so busy trying 2 b significant to someone to realize that u Already are significant in a myriad of little ways. that it’s not something u search for or insert urself into but rather an inevitable outcome of existing. Anyway . not to b sentimental but i wanted 2 b as candid with u because i really did think it was sweet of u to share & im really happy that i was able 2 positively shape & support a little space of ur life because really thats all i ever want to do. Soooooooooo if ur ask was weird then my response is even weirder. Handwritten thank u:

#And what kind of boyfriend would i be if i didnt support my girlfriend with beautiful princess disorder #i think its just a fact of loving someone that even the most frustrating things ab them can b beautiful #or that for every weakness there’s an equally intense strength like sides of a coin #My response to this ask would b so much more impactful if i didnt constantly make dick and ball and sex jokes on this damn blawwg #happy tag

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venusdear · 10 months

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YEAH BUT I SHOW RESPECT TO MY PROJECTS BC I WORKED ON THEM LMFAOOOO HE JUST WENT LIKE AIGHT IM GONNA KILL THIS KID

yeah i looked it up, and then i got sent down a wikipedia rabbit hole lol

so basically dongwoon announced that he was getting married and then some "fans" started HATING on him, which is even worse bc highlight stans's average age is like idk 25. U PEOPLE ARE TOO FUCKING OLD TO BE ACTING LIKE THIS. and then he had to GO ON IG LIVE and APOLOGIZE TO THEM FOR GETTING MARRIED. he looked so fucking sad :( he's too good for this world, if i were him i woulda been like "sending me hate wont make ur parents love u" and then stuck both my middle fingers up lmao. heres a picture of dongwoon btw:

his fiance is lucky af bc daaaaaaaaaaaamn imagine getting to see that pretty face every fucking day. FOR FREE.

LITERALLY LMFAO HE SHOULD. i made a few friends on twitter bc of my screaming and crying over highlight all day lolololol.

also this picture

is my first time seeing gikwang with his whole ass forehead out and its so weird. a picture of lisa from blackpink w/o bangs was on my twitter feed and i was like who tf are u and what did u do with lisa! so its kinda the same vibe lol.

also i love how he has one eye bigger than the other lol. also THE EARRINGS. I NEED.

currently making a lyrics video of how would your co-ed group sing troublemaker by to1. it just looks like this:

my ass putting kyungho (2nd from right) in there when hes already in to1 lmfao.

ive been looping in bloom by zb1 FOR 2 DAYS MY GOD HELP ME. why do i feel like gikwang and dongwoons voices would fit it so well (runs away)

my ass is imagining gikwang in EVERYTHING i read and idk if thats a blessing or curse.

LMAOOO "i'm gonna go kill my kid real quick"

WHATTT YOU ARE TOO OLD FOR THAT 25 AVERAGE??? that's so weird. AND DELUSIONAL DONGWOON DESERVES HAPPINESS!!! COME ON GUYS

wake up, look at dongwoon, wake up look at dongwoon

HIS FOREHEAD LMAOOO lisa and her bangs

ZB1 DEBUT SONG IS SOOOOOO GOOD

#emmie 🎼

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tinandabin · 2 years

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Yandere Uzui + his hot wives. ;)

join my discord!!

Warning: triggering topics like suicide and stuff.

a/n: I had gotten a request and thought it meant reader killing themselves but it meant that reader is trying to kill the yanderes and if u are the anon who requested that, DW, I will be getting to ur request soon!! Same to the others.

At first when you would like threaten them that you are gonna kill yourself if they don't let you go right this second, but Makio and Uzui don't take it very seriously.

Suma has more of a emotional reaction saying that now she won't leave you for even more than 2 seconds!!

Hinatsuru is the one who would actually take this seriously and talk to you about it, worried as to what is bothering you and ignoring you saying you want to leave.

All of them refuse to believe that you want to leave them. I mean, they treat you so good!! If you don't count the staying locked up in the house and their possessiveness.

I have no doubts they would be the worst yanderes, like 4 yanderes and they are ready to team up? Dang, you better run.

Like ugh, Uzui wants to control everything you wear. Even your bras and underwear. There has not been a single day where he hasn't ordered you to wear what he says.

And damn it, it is so annoying when someone tells you to wear something you don't want. I hate it when they do that, like hello?? This is not your body, go fuck yourself.

Hinatsuru wants to baby you. A lot. Like no, love, go sit down and let your favourite wife do the cooking while you just sit there and watch her. Let her feed you her cooking and praise her or she is going to get a bit angry. Let her bath you, let her make you wear the clothes Uzui choose. I mean, you can't do much without your favourite wife, can you?

Though, never, and I mean, NEVER go to her for personal issues. She may look like motherly and stuff and yes, she is, but she is snitching if you tell her your escape plan.

Makio, Makio, Makio, all she wants is for you to stay happy. Sometimes she does wonder if it is better to just let you go because let's be honest whether they all want to admit it or not, it is really damaging your mental health. Uzui also thinks this sometimes but then he thinks it's better if you stay with them, it's okay you will learn to live them and love them.

Suma. She is like a koala. And not the one you find cute as a yandere. She literally wants to cuddle you 24/7 and if you even think about trying to escape her cuddles, oh boy, oh damn, she is gonna get aggressive real quick and start guilt-tripping you.

Don't let her fool you with her innocent looks. She is really, REALLY smart. She knows that she is cute and being emotional is in her personality. So you won't find it much weird that she would start crying and saying stuff like, "do you not love me?" Like no, you never loved her to begin with. But to be honest, I don't know about you but I would feel kind of bad if someone were to start crying and saying stuff like that. But this ain't about me.

Makio would be a bit weirded out when you say that stuff and worried but she won't show it. She would just scoff at you and look away while Uzui would just glance at you and glare a bit. A small warning to not take action on it.

Hinatsuru, as I said before, is the one who would take this seriously, she could be the best yandere because she is very understanding but sadly, she is a bit delusional.

Suma. Please, I beg of you, don't say that in front of her. She won't fucking leave you alone any time. Even following you in the bathroom, even would start breathing the same pattern as you.

But then when you do take action.

They would all be like so confused and sad and worried like, love why are you doing this? Are they not paying enough attention to you? Is there something in particular you want?

They seriously think it's about that and not the fact you want to be free.

They would also be really surprised like the whole home is baby-proofed how did you do that?

Simple, you had hands. Very soft hands according to them.

You were just....trying to choke yourself.

Suma is the one who caught you in the act and just screamed really loudly that even the neighbours came.

Hinatsuru was the one telling the neighbours that no, nothing is wrong, she swears no one is being kept captive, and no one is getting murdered.

Suma would straight-up tackle you. And if choking yourself didn't take enough oxygen out of you, this tackle sure as hell did.

And from then on, you were never. NEVER left alone again.

Now, you can die instantly if you bit your tongue right?

I feel like Makio would be the one who is more educated on this stuff, (she studied on this after your suicide attempt. )

All of them did I guess.

And when Makio told them about that biting your tongue leads to instant death and with no doubt did she announce that you know it and are maybe gonna perform it.

Which Uzui agreed on.

As a hashira, I won't be surprised if he is good at reading people.

And so what do they do?

Regretfully cut your tongue. ( im sorry I have got like no idea how this shit can be stopped like I only know if there is no tongue no one bites tongue and no one dies. If this is wrong then tell me)

They had a very serious and long discussion on it while you are knocked out unconscious, resting on Uzui's lap.

They will miss hearing your voice but it's better than you dying.

I don't think you can try to commit another suicide attempt after you did one.

MASTERLIST

Also thank u all so much for 200+ followers shiaiajajs take this as a 200+ special 🥰🥰💝💖

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mishkakagehishka · 2 years

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repost from my old blog

No, you’re so right! For regular Deuce, I see him as the sweetest, kindest guy who drinks so much women respect juice because he wants to. Like, to compare to Leona or Ruggie, those two have fear-respect for women (is it called awe in English?), whereas I think Deuce just has a bunch of regular respect for them. I adore him, I wanna make him tea and help him study. He doesn’t deserve the slander I’ve been writing about him.

As for yandere, I agree with you, in that he’d be really manipulative and clingy, like, when he tells Yuu about the time he made his mother cry and how that was a wake-up call to him. He’d totally go “You know, my mum was so happy to hear I have a nice partner like you… I think she actually believes I’ve changed for the better now! I think she’d disown me if I ever lost you :)” in a jokey way, but def mean it as “my mother’s heartbreak will be your fault” if he started thinking he was gonna get the boot. I see him as the type to be a bit delusional and seriously overprotective, but not particularly jealous. That said, I see him as that kind of yandere in a world where his object of affection is either dating him, or is just indifferent to everyone equally. My nice guy (bleugh) Deuce theory comes in because he’s a bit dumb (affectionate), and I feel like if he thinks he has a rival in someone who’s usually openly a mean person, he would, unfortunately, be in danger of adopting the nice guy rhetoric. I don’t think he’d go full Nice GuyTM and use the b-word or slutshame, because he still respects women, but I feel like he would feel entitled to his darling’s feelings purely because he “treats them well” (despite being a manipulative bastard, actually, but when have nice guys ever been self aware?) because he’s kinda daft.

“[…] I wanna hear more of ur vers of deuce and mb u can write somehting for him?” we all read this part of the ask, okay? The following is technically not my fault. I’m sorry.

Word count: 3103 Summary: Ace decides he wants to tease Deuce by not telling him why he was alone with the Prefect of Ramshackle, and Deuce decides he needed to claim her ASAP. Warnings: yandere (toxic, abusive behaviour), implied stalking, a kiss that wasn’t consented to, cussing, entitlement to a person, nice guy rhetoric with the misogyny it carries, threats and manipulation. As always, let me know if I missed anything that should get a warning Note: Yuu/Prefect is refered to with feminine terms and she/her pronouns. I warned for misogyny, but it’s not as severe, I think, though there’s a few “girls like you” type of lines.

It was a peaceful day in the Heartslabyul dorm, for once. With no exams nor projects to prepare for in the coming week, the students of Night Raven College had ample free time that weekend, and in Heartslabyul, that meant rest and sophisticated socialisation, all in the borders of the Queen of Hearts’ rules, of course. With the sun not yet at the mid-point of the sky, a group of four first years were spending their morning playing cards in their shared room, circling from one game to another, mixing and matching rules for different ones until they were playing a completely new game, before returning to a classic once more. Ace, the cheater and trickster of the four, seemed to have been on a winning streak. Though his companions had their doubts, he was as skilled with his hands as he was with his words, able to absolve himself of any accusations that flew his way. “What can I say? You guys just suck,” he grinned, a Seven of Hearts poking out of his sleeve.

It was moments before Deuce, his closest frenemy, was about to point out the card that Ace abruptly got up, bringing a quick end to the game. “Oh, well, since I’ve been winnin’ all this time, this has gotten boring,” he said. “Anyway, I gotta run, promised Prefect I was gonna be at hers ten minutes ago.” He shot a wink to his buddies, a wave of heckling and comparisons to various animals ringing through the room as response. The frown on Deuce’s face either went unnoticed or ignored. “Prefect? Of Ramshackle? What does she want you for?” He inquired. “Wouldn’t you like to know? … hey, don’t look at me like that, you’re makin’ a scary face. Ya jealous or something?” With every word, Ace seemed to have been riling Deuce up more and more, who clenched and unclenched his jaw a couple of times, his glare not easing up. “I’m not jealous, just curious,” he said, finally turning his eyes away from the other. “Have fun… or whatever.” The cards were shuffled and dealt once more; a three-player game was starting.

Deuce wanted to say it didn’t bother him, he really did, but it has been a week since that day, and he just couldn’t stop himself imagining the worst. It’s already been two years since the Prefect had come to Twisted Wonderland, since Ace and he started attending Night Raven College - and since the three of them became inseparable friends. And Grim. Deuce could even say Ace was his best friend, or that’s what he could have said. He had told him he had feelings for the Prefect, he told him he was planning on wooing her… When he mustered the courage to do so. And here Ace was, going round to her dorm, which was still populated only by her and Grim, to spend time there, just the two of them. Just the two of them! It was basically a date! Truthfully, Deuce felt betrayed by them both. By Ace, in whom he confided. He trusted Ace not to break the bro-code, not to try and get into the Prefect’s pants when he’d already claimed her - not outright, but by being the first to show interest in her. And he felt betrayed by the Prefect for no reason that she would know, something Deuce was aware of, but he couldn’t help it. She was to be his, so why was she inviting Ace over, alone? Why was he accepting? It all just made Deuce sick.

So, there he was, seething and steaming while staring up at the ceiling from his bed at two in the morning, the culprit for his bad mood sleeping soundly and snoring away on the opposite end of the room. Picking at his fingers nervously, teeth gritting together, the thoughts that swam through Deuce’s mind ranged from furious to disappointed to just sad. Ace refused to give him the details of their meet-up that day, so what else could it be? It was just the two of them, in Prefect’s dorm - no - in the Prefect’s room more likely! It might as well have been a date. He slapped his hands over his face, stifling a groan. It was supposed to be him. It should have been him. And so, it spun, the desperation and sadness of it not being him, soon to be replaced with anger directed at Ace, at his friend who betrayed him by taking advantage of Prefect’s stupidity, who saw nothing wrong with inviting a man over, alone. And so the feelings progressed to disappointment at the Prefect. She was- is his dream girl. He hasn’t given up, despite all. Deuce truly and honestly believed he loved her. Convinced of it, his heart hurt even more. And she went and chose Ace. Ace, the bully. Over him, who was always so kind, so full of respect, so patient and gentle with her. How could she not choose him, when he was so good to her, when Ace was always the one making her frown, even cry? She might have tried to wave off the teasing insults, and she did do her best to not cry in front of them, but of course Deuce knew when she’d run off suddenly, of course he always followed her. Out of worry. Out of love.

And then it was back to fury, and as the thoughts spun in his head, he spent the rest of the night without much sleep.

He knew he had to confront her; he wouldn’t be able to get closure any other way. It was for closure, is what he told himself, but, deep inside, he’d hoped it was still early in her relationship with Ace (Ace refused to answer any question related to the situation, which Deuce took as an answer of its own), early enough that his own confession would be able to sway her. Make her question her feelings, at least. Give him a chance. He fidgeted with his pen, Trein was droning on as always, but Deuce’s eyes were glued to Prefect’s back. She was writing down everything the teacher was saying, so diligently. She was always such a hard worker, always giving it her all. Ace would be a horrible match for her. Didn’t she know this? As if sensing his eyes on her, the Prefect turned around. She shot him a smile, but Deuce couldn’t even hold eye contact, averting his gaze to his own notes, a deep blush coating his cheeks. He scribbled absentmindedly, trying to make it seem as if he wasn’t just staring at her the entire time.

“So, seriously, are you two… a thing now?” Deuce whispered, not wanting the other students in the cafeteria to overhear. Ace, who was moments away from destroying a plate of macaroni, just shrugged in response. “The hell do you care?” “Well, if my two best friends start dating, I’d like to be the first to know,” he lied. “Would you, now?” “It's… you’re doing this on purpose, aren’t you? Come on, just tell me why Prefect only asked you to come to Ramshackle that day.” “It’s none of your business. Stop being a baby and ask her yourself if you’re so curious.” “I can’t just do that! She’s, I told you how I feel about her. Just tell me if I even still have a shot, or if you’ve already-” “A loser like you ne~ver had a shot. Oh, speak of the devil! Prefect, Grim! Get your asses over here!” Ace waved over the discussed-about person and her companion, pulling out a chair next to him. Deuce glared at him, but Prefect chose to sit opposite them both instead, with Grim taking the seat next to Ace.

For a moment Deuce found himself at a loss for words. Every time he saw her, it was as if he was back at the entrance ceremony as a first year again, in the moment when he saw her for the first time. She was the last of that generation’s first years to awaken, and he remembered it all clearly. Of course he did, the memory of first love is not one many forget. He was just standing around with the other Heartslabyul students, listening to his dorm leader’s words so attentively, until he saw the Prefect. They hadn’t even locked eyes, hell, she didn’t even realise his existence until she asked him to help catch Ace the next day, but it only took a glance in her way for him to fall head over heels in love. And then he watched her, the way her face morphed from confusion, to shock at being told she didn’t belong here, to dread at being told her home didn’t even exist. It was intriguing, yes, but for Deuce, seeing tears welling up in her eyes, the way she looked at headmaster Crowley, eyes wide and scared, so vulnerable, he knew he had to always be by her side. It was a riddling feeling, he couldn’t decide if he liked seeing her in such a state of despair, or if he wanted to protect her from it all, from the entire world if need be. When he looked at Prefect now, that was all he could remember. How sweet, how unguarded she was, how much he could protect her. How good he could be to her.

“Deuce? Hey, are you listening?” She waved a hand in front of his face, and he blinked rapidly, the hand he was leaning on falling to the table. He’d barely eaten, and students were already filing out of the cafeteria. “You didn’t even touch your food. Are you feeling okay?” She was worried. What a darling. “Uh, yeah, I’m fine,” he stuttered out, “just, not really hungry.” “Oooh!” Grim piped up, grabbing a piece of bread from his plate. “Then, you won’t mind if I eat this? And this, too… actually, henchman! Open your pockets, put all this in there.” “My pockets? Are you insane? Just eat on the way to class.” “Speaking of,” Ace interjected, “it’s about time we get going. Crewel’s next period, I don’t wanna get called a bad dog again. Shit’s weird.” “Uh, actually!” Deuce piped up, reaching across the table to grasp at the Prefect’s wrist, keeping her seated. “I need to talk to you; it’ll just be a moment. In private.” He emphasised, more so for Ace’s ears. Ace took a glance at the Prefect, noting how she started shifting in her seat. “Dude, we need to get to class,” he said. “Stay out of it. I just… need to ask her something. It’ll take a moment.”

Ace shrugged, patting the Prefect’s back with a short “Hang in there!” and mouthing “Don’t say anything dumb” to Deuce before he left the cafeteria. Grim, much to his chagrin, stayed, citing how he had to stay at his henchman’s side at all times lest she gets herself in more danger. “It’s nothing, you don’t need to worry.” Deuce noticed how tense she seemed, but still refused to let go of her wrist. Instead, his grip tightened as he stumbled over his words. “Look, I just, I really need to talk to you about something and I, you know, I didn’t want to say anything in front of that guy, but, um, can you… can we meet up in the courtyard after classes end? By the well? I want to talk to you, just the two of us. If you’re- if you’re free.” “Hehe! You gonna ask her out or somethin’?” “NO! I mean, I’m not- stay out of this, Grim! Ugh… that’s all I wanted to say. Sorry for keeping you, let’s just go to class already… you don’t have to say anything right now, just think about it, I’ll be waiting by the well. Just… don’t tell Ace. Please.”

It’s not that Deuce was a smooth-talker, but even the awkwardness of his first year paled in comparison to how tongue-twisted he was around the Prefect. Just her presence was enough to suck all the confidence from him, and make him doubt everything about himself. How his hair looked, whether he smelled nice, if his clothes looked tidy, even how his voice sounded. He still hasn’t lived down the time his voice cracked in front of the entire group – not that Ace would ever let him – but it was still so mortifying to him. It was more than possible to live with Ace’s teasing, especially if he decided to rough him up a bit for it, but why did it have to happen in front of her? And that’s why he was still fixing his hair, using the reflection of the water in the well as his mirror. Not a single hair was allowed to be out of place, it just wouldn’t do. He sighed, shaking his hands and patting down his trousers while trying to cool himself off, and his nerves. He left the class first, the moment it ended, merely glancing in the Prefect’s way, hoping she would be there. It was perfect; nobody was in the courtyard at that moment. Just Deuce and his thoughts. “Hey!” He was startled by the Prefect’s voice once more, quickly spinning around to face her. “I’m here, so…” It seemed as if she felt just as awkward as he did, shifting her balance from one leg to the other rapidly.

With a sharp inhale, Deuce steeled his nerves and looked her straight in the eyes, despite how hard it was to keep eye contact at that moment. "Pref- Y/N. I want you to be mine. I want you to be my girlfriend.” He didn’t see a point in beating around the bush. He’s been waiting for the perfect moment to confess to her for years, and now, with the vibrant orange hue of the sunset providing a romantic background, surrounded by the silence of the school’s courtyard now that all classes have finished and knowing he’s the only man in her eyes at that moment, it would be hard to find a better moment. Besides, the way the fading Sun’s light fell on the Prefect’s features, making her look even more beautiful, would have made it hard for him to keep his feelings inside for longer than a minute, anyway. “Huh?” “I’ve had a crush on you for ages, ever since I first saw you and-” “Deuce, I’m sorry…” she trailed off, hoping she wouldn’t have to outright reject him. After all, “You’re a really good friend to me, but…” He paused. Rejection? “Is it because… are you already, with Ace? Is that why you two have been hanging out alone so often?” “Come on, don’t be like that.” “Like what?” Deuce’s voice was growing in volume with each word, and the shyness of before seemed to have vanished, replaced by an angry tone, sharp and accusatory. “Wait, are you seriously dating Ace? You’re rejecting me because of that punk? Are you fuckin’ with me? Have you forgotten the shit he did to you – the shit he keeps doing to you – or are you really dumb enough to go for a guy like that?” “Deuce!” The Prefect reprimanded him, appalled at his poisonous words. “No, don’t fuckin’ scold me like you’re my damn mother, are ya actually being serious? He was practically bullying you! He still constantly makes fun of you and embarrasses you in front of others, he hasn’t matured a fuckin’ day since we were first years and he’s the one you chose? You know I could- I would treat you better than him. Than anyone! I’m your best damn choice, and you picked the worst instead. I know he made you cry, multiple fuckin’ times. What are you, a masochist?” “Who gave you any right to tell me who I should and shouldn’t choose?! You know, you’re acting like a real ass. I’m leaving.” “No, you fucking ain’t, you’ll listen to me to the end.” Deuce grabbed her bicep, nails digging into her flesh through the blazer and shirt of the uniform. His grip was painfully tight, keeping her from leaving, but still with her back turned to him. “What the- let go of me!” She craned her neck to look at him, trying to pull her arm away, but his grip only tightened, causing her to yelp in response. “No! Obviously, since you picked Ace, you’re the type of girl who likes being treated like this by guys. I’ve been nothing but nice to you all this time and you barely even look at me, so I guess it’s time for a strategy change. I can be just as much of a fuckin’ disrespectful prick as Ace, there’s no reason why you shouldn’t choose me.” “Don’t be an idiot!” “Fuck you, Prefect. You’ll be mine, not Ace’s, not anybody else’s.”

With one more sharp pull to the Prefect’s arm, he turned her around to face him before pushing her against the well. Pinned between him and the well, she had little choice other than to lean against him, fearful of falling into the well. Not that Deuce’s ever-present grip would allow it. His stare was piercing, as if he was gauging her reaction, which was fearful if her uneven breathing and wide eyes was anything to go by. Just like that day at the entrance ceremony. From her bicep, his right hand travelled upwards, holding the back of her head as he leaned in to kiss her. It was an inexperienced, almost sloppy, kiss. The Prefect’s hands shot up, pushing at Deuce’s chest to try and get him to step away, but he used his free hand to take hold of her hip, only bringing her closer to him, leaving her hands crumpled up against his chest awkwardly, unable to do much. The kiss lasted for seconds, but felt like hours to both of them for vastly different reasons.

“I didn’t want to do this.” Deuce said as they separated, heat radiating from his face, coated by a blush that made his words seem almost innocent. “But since girls like you seem to like guys who treat them with no respect, I hope this was good enough. I can do worse, if you’d still rather be with Ace.” The Prefect yelped as his grip on her hip momentarily tightened. “If I must, I can kill him, too. I will kill anyone for you. But I don’t have to, right? Tell me, Prefect.”

“Tell me you only want me.”

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miraclemagnet · 2 years

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hey love :(

I feel a little delusional when I think of manifesting my desired face. I know it's possible, I know that the 3D is jus a reflection and I know that if I just change my assumptions my 3D will change but I just idk I can't manifest it into the 3D? I know I tried affirming that my 3D conforms easily but what is that point where when u change Ur 4D, Ur reality changes instantly

... thanks babe.. 💕

Yo wassup?

Babe, you're just doubting yourself. You're either thinking you're doing something wrong or you're thinking that manifesting is sorta impossible.

"I just idk I can't manifest it into the 3D-" HERE YOU ARE. LIMITING BELIEF ALERT PEOPLE.

BITCH WHAT THE HELL?

Why you even THINKING that you can't manifest your desired face?

REMEMBER YOU CONTROL THIS FUCKING WORLD?

Lemme simplify this for you-

YOUR SELF-CONCEPT IS THE BASE ALRIGHT? YOUR MANIFESTATION TOTALLY DEPENDS ON YOUR SELF-CONCEPT.

First of all, PUT YOUR FULL FAITH IN THE LAW OF ASSUMPTION. PUT YOUR FULL FAITH IN YOURSELF. BELIEVE IN YOUR FUCKING SELF. JUST FOCUS ON SELF-CONCEPT FOR SOMETIME.

Start THINKING:

Everyday I get better and better at manifesting.

I am free of doubts and limiting beliefs.

Its SO DAMN easy to persist in my desires.

I ALWAYS GET I WHAT I WANT BECAUSE I SAID SO BRUH.

BITCH, KEEP ON REPEATING THESE. REPEAT, REPEAT, REPEAT AND KEEP ON FUCKING REPEATING UNTIL YOU BECOME A FUCKING YOUTUBE VIDEO ON LOOP.

STOP THINKING YOU CAN'T MANIFEST FOR FUCK'S SAKE. STOP THIS.

Alright. The second you read this I want you to compliment yourself. DO THIS. SAY "I'M FUCKING AMAZING BECAUSE I SAID SO." DO IT NOW.

HOW HARD WAS IT TO COMPLIMENT YOURSELF? EASY RIGHT?

NOW SAY "I'M THE GOD OF THIS WORLD." SAY IT. JUST SAY IT.

THIS WAS ALSO EASY RIGHT?

THIS. IS. MANIFESTATION. SEE? MANIFESTING IS THIS EASY.

JUST PERSIST. PERSIST. AND PERSIST.

Actually, the most essential part in order to manifest is:

NOT TO LET A SINGLE NEGATIVE THOUGHT IN YOUR MIND.

"I just feel a little delusional-" WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU FUCKING SAY THAT?

Alright. Alright.

YOU. ARE. GOD. THE FUCKING GOD OF THIS WORLD.

FUCKING THINK LIKE THE GODDESS YOU ARE.

YOU CAN. YOU CAN MANIFEST YOUR DESIRED FACE BABE, YOU CAN. YOU DEFINITELY CAN, HELL, YOU'VE ALREADY MANIFESTED YOUR DESIRED FACE.

STOP THINKING "how it will happen" OR "this is impossible". THERE IS NO POINT FINDING THE LOGIC BEHIND MANIFESTING BECAUSE MANIFESTING HAS NO LOGIC.

After focusing on your self-concept, start affirming or visualizing your desired face. REMEMBER YOU ALREADY HAVE IT.

YOU CAN MANIFEST. JUST ERADICATE THOSE STUPID NEGATIVE THOUGHTS AND LIMITING BELIEFS.

YOU CAN MANIFEST EVERY. SINGLE. FUCKING THING YOU WANT YOU INSANELY POWERFUL BITCH.

C'MON BITCH, I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS.

BABE, YOU'VE FREAKING GOT THIS.

GET YOUR DESIRE NOW.

LET'S GOOOO!

Love, Moon.

#anon ask #law of assumption #loa

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what is utahime’s role in the future? — a prediction (manga spoilers)

part 1 (unedited)

I WAS ABOUT TO POST IT BUT I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED IT AND I WAS SO HURT FR!!!!! I HAD REWRITE THIS ENTIRE THING </33

part 2 is here!

in this post, i will be analyzing the information we’ve been given about utahime so far to form a prediction about her future role in the jujutsu kaisen series. if you’re as interested in utahime’s character as i am, please feel free to keep reading :3 (i’ll also be talking about her relationship with gojo a bit too)

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kaikaikitan on twt!

utahime iori is a semi-grade 1 sorcerer working as a student supervisor/teacher at kyoto jujutsu high school. she loves drinking beer and going to karaoke. she’s also close friends with shoko and she’s not particularly fond of gojo most of the time. what else do we know about her?

hates sweets (funny she’s the complete opposite of gojo)

she’s great at singing and it’s a huge part of her technique

squabbling with gojo became a reflex :3

everyone absolutely adores utahime

loves watching soccer and baseball

a terrible drunk (worse than naobito zenin)

gojo is her main source of stress

let’s dive into her personality and abilities!

chapter 65

before i get into it, i think it’d be best if i were to explain the timeline because a lot of people seem to be confused about this one particular thing. utahime is born on february 18th, 1987. contrary to popular belief, she is not 3 years older than gojo. it is november 2018 in the story because gojo was sealed on halloween. if gojo was born on december 7th, 1989, that would mean that right now, he is only 28 years old. he has yet to turn 29.

the year is 2007. gojo satoru is a second year at tokyo jujutsu high school. the japanese school year begins in april which suggests that gojo is only 17 at the time (even if it’s not april, it doesn’t look like winter yet so it’s unlikely that he’s already 18). utahime is 20 because it is past february. she is a 2nd grade sorcerer at the age of 20. that’s not bad at all!

chapter 65 introduces young utahime and mei on a mission together within a cursed site. in real time, they’ve been gone for two days which is a cause of concern for gojo, shoko, and geto because the two haven’t contacted anyone since the beginning of their mission. the two begin to suspect something is wrong because the hallway markers they’ve set in place disappeared, and no matter how far they travel within the halls, the end is nowhere in sight. mei theorizes that the cursed spirit is overlapping the space as they travel forward. utahime agrees with this speculation and proposes a plan to escape the cursed spirit’s grasp by moving erratically. notice how she says that if one of them should escape, they can try to attack from the outside or call for help. if utahime was not capable of inflicting damage on anything then she would have told mei to escape and attack if she can while she waited to be rescued. however, she didn’t. she included herself in the sentence which leads me to believe that she is capable of going on the offense if needed.

keep in mind that at this point in time, mei is a grade 1 sorcerer. she is knowledgeable about all things involving jujutsu because she is experienced and skillful. we can see this aspect of her character illustrated when she theorizes that the cursed spirit is messing with the space they’re in. she chooses to go with utahime’s plan because she agrees that it’s the best action moving forward. this verifies that utahime is an intelligent girl that’s able to get along with pretty much anyone.

her intellect is demonstrated once again in chapter 79. she was able to deduce the possibility of there being more than one traitor and the fact that one is probably a higher up. she also narrowed down the mechamaru as the mole of kyoto not because he was acting suspicious but by process of elimination. she thought thoroughly of his technique and how easy it would be for him to manipulate devices small enough to be undetectable.

sure you can argue that she should already know all her students’ abilities and whatnot but you have to admit that it’s hard trying to sniff out the traitor when no one is acting suspicious. in addition to that, how did she know that there was a traitor in the top brass? i would have never guessed that tbh LOL (maybe bc im an idiot).

okay, now that we have established that she’s intelligent, let’s answer a more important question. is utahime weak?

chapter 33

if gojo calls utahime weak, does that mean there is some truth to it? well it is true that she is weaker than him because he’s the strongest and all. in my opinion, he’s just teasing her. he probably found that calling her weak is what really riles her up. maybe i’ll talk about why he loves teasing her so much in a later post. but anyway, gojo calls everybody and their mom weak. he even said jogo was weak and we know how powerful that guy is. gojo’s words alone do not indicate much about utahime’s power. in fact, i don’t even think he has seen her use her technique yet. he’s probably only ever heard of how it works. this is what i think their conversation about her technique was like:

gojo: hm? ur cursed technique is singing? can u show me?

utahime: what! no way!

gojo: why not?

*one of the classmates tells him that she can only use her CT once in a while because it consumes a lot of energy*

gojo: hahaha! u have to conserve cursed energy to use ur CT? why are u so weak, utahime?

utahime: i! am! your! senpai! respect! me!

what i’m trying to say is that gojo loves poking fun of people. we should not believe him when he calls someone weak because compared to him, everyone is weak.

this is a little off topic but let’s examine him telling her, “and you don’t have the nerves, utahime.” i think he’s trying to say that there’s no way she’ll ever do something like that because she’s not the type to put her students in danger. remember the soft expression and relieved smile on her lips when she said that she was glad the students were safe after the kyoto incident? gojo was directly in front of her so not only did he hear her say that, but he could have seen the look on her face too. even if he told her that she didn’t have the guts to betray the school to get on her nerves, he knew that utahime simply cared too much about the students so he ruled her out as a suspect right away. this is why he ultimately decided to confide in her and ask her to help him.

i’m a person who loves over-analyzing things. i really enjoy the dynamic between gojo and utahime. they’ve known each other for more than 11 years and although they always bicker, there is an unspoken feeling of trust between the two. gojo can do anything and everything by himself because he is truly the strongest person alive, but he still knows when to rely on others. him deciding to entrust utahime with such a job implies that he believes in utahime’s abilities.

chapter 52

she’s not using any cursed energy here--not to our knowledge at least. this is just pure skill. she was able to swiftly evade the swing from haruta. he was surprised himself considering the fact that he was right behind her. how do we know her CT isn’t speed? after haruta swung at her, we can see that some of her hair got cut off. if she was using her CT then speed should be her specialty. she should have been able to completely avoid the attack altogether but she didn’t. of course this isn’t a wow moment because jujutsu sorcerers should know how to dodge attacks, however, i’m just trying to get the point across that she’s not a defenseless person without her technique or others. let’s not forget that semi-grade 1 isn’t a weak rank either. you can’t simply be recommended to be a grade 1 sorcerer if you only can support others.

chapter 48

i want to bring up this panel. it suggests that utahime and takuma are sorcerers who have not experienced black flash and therefore, do not understand the essence of cursed energy as well as those who have like gojo and nanami. i find it strange how takuma and utahime were used to represent sorcerers who haven’t experienced it yet. is the purpose to demonstrate that there is a clear difference in skill between adult sorcerers like utahime and takuma compared to gojo and nanami? i could be nitpicking but the order of todo’s statement doesn’t line up with the sorcerers being shown. let me explain in depth. todo starts off by saying, “for those who have experienced black flash as compared to those who have not...” wouldn’t it make more sense to show gojo and nanami on the right side to represent sorcerers who have experienced black flash? that was mentioned first, after all. gojo and nanami should appear when todo says “for those who have experience black flash” while utahime and takuma should be shown right after to personify the second part, “as compared to those who have not.” i’m just making it more complicated than it actually is LOLOL i’m sure it really just means they haven’t experienced black flash yet, which is completely fine. i also find it fascinating how they used utahime to contrast gojo. with nanami and takuma it makes sense. nanami is someone takuma looks up to, he wants to gain nanami’s approval before he deems himself worthy of a promotion. what about utahime and gojo? what’s the purpose of comparing those two together when it’s obvious that gojo knows more about the essence of cursed energy more than anyone else? i might be delusional whoops

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let me know what you guys think? this is only a part 1 so i haven’t gotten around to answering the question. i’m pretty much done with the second part, i just need to revise it a little. i think after i post part 2, i’ll try to interpret all the gojo and utahime moments in the manga >.<

#gojohime #gouta #gojo x utahime

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