#who am I to you

[serene-cha0s]

They lay beside each other on the roof for an hour, accompanied only by the sounds of the college campus emptied of students.

“You didn’t ask me.” Andrew’s voice melts together with the night.

“You don’t owe me that.”

“Everyone wants to know.”

Neil shares his smile with the stars, “I thought you didn’t like the term want.”

“They did not agree with my theory of ‘wanting’ being synonymous with uselessness.”

“I’ll remember that when you drag us out for ice cream.”

“Wanting is only pointless if it’s out of reach.”

“Is that a short joke?”

Andrew gives a heavy sigh, “You are useless.”

Neil turns his head to look at him. “Thank you,” he smiles.

Andrew hovers a finger over his cheek until he turns his head back to the sky.

chap 9: Who Am I to You?

#my writing #who am i #who am i to you #andreil #aftg #neil josten #aftg trilogy #andreil snippet #aftg fic #neil abram josten #andrew joseph minyard #andrew x neil #nathaniel wesninski #kevin day

[2am2pmandeverythinginbetween]

13:37 - Who Do You See?

when you look at me,

what do you see?

do you see the five year old child, with a big grin and not a care in the world;

or perhaps you see the seven year old, scared to let you out of sight;

do you catch a glimpse of the teary ten year old me, who told you what was happening through heaving sobs, with my head hung in shame.

when you look at me,

do you see the twelve year old that fakes a smile for your photos;

am i thirteen again, in the hospital after my first attempt;

maybe i'm fifteen, after you told me that if i go through with the police report, i'd be tearing apart the family you spent so many years perfecting through fear of imperfection.

am i sixteen, just skin and bones - a skeleton of my former self, spending my nights carving the pain you caused into my arms;

seventeen; when you broke apart the family you silenced me for.

do you see eighteen year old me, after another attempt at my own life - in the hospital, sobbing at the idea that even death doesn't want me.

do you see the nineteen year old celebrating his birthday, and christmas without you;

the twenty year old breaking down, not knowing where to go or what to do,

or maybe,

you see a grave and a tombstone,

with my name etched into the surface,

and all hurt you left me with.

#writing #spilled thoughts #poetry #writers on tumblr #who am I to you #mental health #depressing poem #poems on tumblr

[fluffydancer618]

Cool, have fun awake Springsy-💤

I- Wh- Huh- S p r i n g s y.

#freaking springsy #who am i to you #a serial killer who was shoved into a golden bunny costume by six dead kids? #/nm /hj #i need a tag for ask #sleep control anon

[leafcabbage]

every so often im compelled to post a selfie so people can go "that's what you look like??"

#i used to poast fit checks... and i stream but.... its difrent #who am i to you #cabbage thoughts

[vellichorom]

dia here, why do i have to see narrator ass twice

because baby you told me you liked bakery goods so i got 'chu some extra cake

#anonymous #staticlake #inbox #twinkie talks #YOU'RE SUBSCRIBED TO ME- YOU'VE BEEN FOR YEARS #& YOU'RE STILL NOT ANTICIPATING SOME ASS ?????? #WHO AM I TO YOU

[tiredfoxtf]

Why out of the two people who live in this fucking flat I'm the one who gets terrorised by mosquitoes.

#> tired shitpost #why #why me #who am I to you #the tastiest blood bank in the town

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Knowledge Revenge.

#dungeon meshi #chilchuk tims #senshi #Somewhat of an unofficial sequel to the Dragon Comic. I promise I have more versatility in my jokes. I just had to take this opportunity. #Senshi is pretty much a recluse. I think he would know a few of these 'gottems' but not all. #Chilchuck would know gottems that are nearly lost to time. The deep cuts. The ones that you fall for because they are that obscure. #I would also like to take a moment to confess that after the last comic in which I posed a gottem - #I fell victim to a Mind Goblin Attack. I was thoroughly got. I will be on higher alert this time. #So NOBODY be funny in the tags. I am gullible and I like to share things with my friends. Who are *ruthless*. #I have a mild resistance to Vicious Mockery at this point but I can only take so much. #Happy Thistle Thursday Everyone! See you next week!

[lazylittledragon]

can't believe we're all adults being forced into the club penguin level of censorship in 2024

#ramble #if you say unalive in front of me i will personally kill you with my hands #you just can't muffle and censor and hold someone's hand through some things #some things are horrible. and they should be spoken aloud and they should upset you. because they are horrible #the second we started kidzbopifying the world was the end of taking anything seriously i think #i'm not even joking i've spoken to people older than me who won't even say the world sex #this isn't the playground you're not going to get in trouble just let us say the word!!!!!! #how am i supposed to listen to you when you won't even say the thing you're supposed to be talking about #yes this is the fault of the platforms with their censorship rules but the fact that we all just go along with it like it's not dystopian #you do know it doesn't stop with cursing right. people are already having to censor queer terms because they get flagged as inappropriate

[serene-cha0s]

“Will I be recovered by tomorrow?”

Nathan looks up from his plate. “Yes my boy. You will be back to 100% by tomorrow. You should’ve been today, but Lola has always been too eager.”

That’s one word for it.

The maid arrives at that moment to place a steaming plate of eggs, toast, bacon, and fruit in front of Nathaniel, dropping off a cup of tea on her return to the kitchen.

Nathaniel takes a careful sip. “You remembered how I take my tea.” He drapes the cloth napkin across his lap.

“I am your father Malutki. I know you.”

Who Am I to You?

Chapter 10: Malutki, My Light

#aftg #neil josten #aftg fic #my writing #nathaniel wesninski #nathan wesninski #aftg trilogy #kevin day #who am i to you #who am i #andrew x neil

[feluka]

oh god shut up. you didn't even know the damn kid.

"The children are always ours, every single one of them, all over the globe, and I am beginning to suspect that whoever is incapable of recognizing this may be incapable of morality." — James Baldwin

#i am honestly not even sure who you're referring to #the most recent child deaths i've reblogged are #nex benedict (the nonbinary kid murdered at school) and hind rajab #if you can't see why either of these should shatter your heart without personally knowing them #then you're entirely beyond any hope #asks #edit: this was about hind.

[phantomrose96]

I think we should have a turn of phrase for "I'm not in the right, but I AM annoyed with this situation, so I just need to go bitch to a friend about this before I suck it up and go do the right thing" because more and more I'm finding this is a critical element of functional adulthood.

#the person who's re-emailed me asking for help with something: yes I should get back to you. yes I will get back to you #but in the meantime I will look at the email like 'I am busy right now! I have deadlines! do not bother me about this unrelated thing!' #and like in 15 minutes when I'm ready to be an adult again I'll get back to them

[excavatinglizard]

Shoutout to my dad for being the funniest person I know

#mitski #dumb shit i do #lesbian #I'm turning reblogs back on but you all have to be nice to each other or you're losing Lesbian Dad privileges #would like to add that mitski is an incredible writer and lyricist and so much more than sad lesbian music. #I am. however. a sad lesbian who is haunted by said lyrics and writing

[midnight-coffee94]

No single line has ever wrecked me as hard as this one from the Good Place and I think about it constantly

#the good place #i'm binge watching it again and it just takes me out so hard #i get lost in the sauce thinking about this quote #the idea that those who hurt you are capable of being better people and then seeing them change and grow just hits me right between the rib #who am i kidding it stabs me like the senators stabbed Caesar #anyway #icy does a tag ramble

[demadogs]

nothing can break the bond between a friend who loves spoilers and a friend who just watched an amazing show and needs to tell someone the entire plot from start to finish

#respectfully i think youre a bit crazy if you love spoilers but ill allow it bc it means i get to yell about one of my favorite shows #i did this with st to my friend #it was very fun #1k #10k #post 10k tag: i am shocked theres more people in the tags saying theyre the ones that likes spoilers #im the one who tells someone everything

[mamawasatesttube]

BTW... PSA.... even if we arent mutuals if youre in my notes regularly theres a Very high chance i am still fond of you. yes im vaguing someones tags on the compliment the person u rbed this from post. but like. positive vaguing? THE POINT IS im weird abt following ppl but IM STILL SENDING U FOND VIBES...

#i have to acclimate myself into following people. first i have to spend a few days to weeks checking someones blog manually #and i cant follow too many new people in the same burst or else theres TOO MUCH new unfamiliarity on my dash #and i become a small and easily frightened beast alarmed by change #also im just....................... incredibly picky kjhsdkjjkdsj sometimes ppl i generally am :)! towards do occasionally rb #from someone who i want to throw bricks at. and then i cant follow them but im still :)! when i see them in notifs #and sometimes its just that im going AAAA!!! AAAA!!! and cant put more new things on my dash #or in some cases its someone im fond of seeing/chatting w whenever we have talked BUT they simply are also into stuff im not rly into #and i dont want it on my dash despite liking them as a person. etc. you know how it is #ALL OF WHICH TO SAY................... :)! #rimi talks