#who would be down for this /j

[stedrika]

they should make a sitcom of me and like 5 of my mutuals and it shows all of us going about our irl lives, while also having a secret double life on tumblr. and each episode can focus on one person's life. so there should be a solid 25 episodes, so we each get four episodes. and then in the season finale (episode 25) we all meet.

#drew talks... #i would be such a good sitcom writer actually #who would be down for this /j #i need a new drew talks tag #i should not be allowed to have thoughts #fav posts of mine

[vellichorsdesire]

announcing you got into a relationship with romantic/queerplatonic f/o to your platonic f/os and they all look at each other before one (or more) sighs, pulls their wallet out of their pocket, and passes the money to another platonic f/o who is either trying so hard not to laugh or absolutely losing it

you just stare at them, dumbfounded.

“…did you just bet on my love life.”

#possible continuation : well YEAH because you guys were being stupid and it was taking too long and betting it would take more than 2 months #-was more than reasonable okay. platonic f/o just won BECAUSE theyre lucky. #(they say all of that while you just stare them down/j) #like okay we got a gossiper and the rest are the LISTENERS. every single one of them #i know exactly who would do this. i just know. i just know already so bad #but at the same time i feel like they’d piece it together before we even get the chance to announce it #we’re all hanging out in the living room and i say something abt qpp f/o and everyone just side eyes each other so bad #self ship #self shipping #self ship prompts #self ship imagine

[quarks-pussy]

So I know we here at Startrekfandom love that "came back wrong but from the pov of the wrong" thing and apply it to many different characters and canon situations and I am far from trying to complain about it (I'm "came out wrong" trope myself so I was always gonna obsess over it) but having recently watched a very important episode (you'll know which one) for the first time I think there's a character who hits both tropes mentioned but llike, intertwined, opposite and subverted, and whom I wanna talk about.

Julian Bashir.

From his parents' pov he's "came out wrong but we got him help and he came back better" while from his own pov it's "came out 'insufficient', was destroyed for it, came back wrong and only later slowly came to terms with his new self tho never the process (justifiably so)" and it's heartbreaking because in a way, he's right! Jules Bashir died! His parents had an intellectually disabled child and decided to eugenics him! Julian is not the person he used to be and while I do love the person he is now, that doesn't bring back who he was! Part of me wishes we could've gotten to see Jules at least once and part of me hopes we never do because my heart would shatter.

This isn't a good comparison but nonetheless one I can't help drawing: it's giving similar vibes to anti-vaxxers. "I'd rather risk having a child who is dead than one who's autistic". Obviously this doesn't map over since Julian is still autistic and the procedure his parents subjected him to specifically targeted his intellectual disability and if any folks with id wanna comment on this I definitely recommend you listen to them over me, but it's a similarity I, as an autistic who has encountered anti-vaxxers again and again, can't help but point out. "Give me a normal child or give them death."

This may have been written about already but there needs to be stories about teenage Julian (after finding out and rediscovering who he was) practicing some good ol' recognition of the self through media. I need to hear about how he would encounter a story about someone who came back wrong (I'm gonna assume there's plenty of "wrong" pov stories floating around by the 24th century) and absolutely weep. I need to see Julian mourning Jules, taking years and years to process his feelings, experiencing guilt about how he, the imposter, didn't deserve to live Jules' life.

Came back wrong from the returned's pov but it wasn't an accident. It was done to you deliberately by the people who claim to love you. And now you are here, piloting the corpse of your predecessor.

Jules Bashir is dead. Long live Julian Bashir.

#i've called julian jules before simply as a normal nickname but i don't think i ever will again. not after this #and knowing that if it had been possible i would have probably gone the way jules did. knowing that at his age i would have gone willingly. #fuck dude i am literally actually crying literal tears irl right now this is not a joke #fuck!!!!! #julian bashir #jules bashir #doctor bashir i presume #came back wrong #star trek deep space nine #HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD!! HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD AND THEY KILLED HIM!!!! #i cannot stop crying i am literally crying and like not even just a little #i cannot... poor julian how the FUCK do you ever come to terms with something like that #and like... julian remembers. he has most if not all of jules' memories and also knows he was murdered simply for not being julian #like how did he cope #(im about to go off on a tangent that will contain censored names for the sake of not clogging those tags if you dont know who i mean hmu) #like this is literally the thing that fucked up j*ran so bad he went on a murder spree isn't it #he remembers the one who came before who was killed. very different circumstances of course esp since tr*ll are expected to replace one ano #another but he remembers this person he remembers BEING this person who was young and simply enjoying life and who died a sudden death and #he remembers the experience of that death as well and how it lead to his own creation. it's not remotely similar ofc but considering that #the only time we see t*rias in alpha canon is in julian's body... i need to lie down for a moment. #and jor*n couldn't cope! he couldn't! it was far too much and the weird thing is right now in this moment i GET it y'know?? like that's #so horrific. and i haven't watched any jo*an episode besides facets yet but do you think. do you think j*dzia told julian about all this an #he nodded along and kept composure and then when he was alone he broke down crying? like julian you're doing SO well ily you're coping and #you shouldn't have to obviously but you do nonetheless!! do you think julian still has something from jules? like i've heard there's a tedd #but i mean jules prolly didn't keep a diary he was a six year old with an intellectual disability it's pretty unlikely he could write but #does julian have drawings made by jules? i'd like to think so but honestly his parents probably threw them out. like they also moved so #sorry i'm just. many thoughts head full. ive stopped crying now but who knows for how long. also i'll have to tag this with my original tag #maybe i should've picked something less silly for when i make serious posts but like what am i gonna change my url as well? don't think so #original posts fresh from quark's pussy #and thats the tag limit folks it's been fun. i had to delete two other tags but my god. anyway. thinking about jules bashir forever & cryin

[grinnoire]

the way that kevin chu was SINGLEHANDEDLY fighting a battle to make alex mercer dress well and look handsome and was confounded at every turn

#rip well-dressed alex gone but not forgotten #prototype 2009 #alex mercer #alexander j mercer #kevin's notes are consistently like #'he would dress well' 'this would be fashionable' 'he would wear this' #and you can see his really cool trench/three-fourths trench concepts get slowly whittled down into Generic Cool Toughguy #i could feel his soul dying with every pass #when he was finally forced to pop those collars . i cried #expensive fabrics and high-class styles and skinny pants and snatched waist showing off his fantastic ass #to a man who if we saw him on the street we would point and laugh. this is so tragic #kevin tried to make him a skinny little twink so hard #[prototype]

[oogleboogleoogle]

Foggy winter nights~

#fog #night photography #street photography #pretending deep down inside that everything is okay when really this is a fucking JPEG #A JPEG #WHEN DID I SWITCH TO J FUCKING PEG FROM RAW?! #WHY WOULD I DO THAT #NOBODY WHO KNOWS ANYTHING ABOUT PHOTOGRAPHY DOES THAT #dying on the inside

[disabled-dragoon]

In a cruel twist of irony, I genuinely think I might have temporarily "walked" my back pain off

#all it took was two days on my feet for extensive periods of time in ridiculous alternating levels of bad pain /j #who would have thought #I can sort of feel it slowly creeping back #but this is the first time in about 3 or 4 weeks that I've been able to bend down with only my normal amount of stiffness #I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop #chronic pain #disability #hereditary spastic paraplegia

[byghostface]

I need whoever thinks Nika is loveless from Batman 666 to be public stone actually💥🪨

(it's an alternate universe, it's a fanfic… I need to chill… BUT NOT WHEN NIKA IS INVOLVED LIKE THIS!??💥 I can't have anything when Damian shipper keeps pulling her leg relentlessly I swear)

#rant #flatline #nika #you guess it #dam*j*n shipper strikes on ao3 again #and is that one who claim to like nika #put the pen down honestly #also screenrant when I fucking catch you #sorry im a hater whenever ppl invalidate/misread nika #she's not even a solid villain now #she's not doing good things voluntary and the same with bad things #but she would doing things if that can keeps the ppl she cares about away from great harm #ppl like damian and mila #dc comics

[infinitelystrangemachinex]

Mel for the unhinged character bingo!

yessss YEEEESSSSSSSSS

#ask me #so Mel is in the unenviable position of being a very strong character whose rights I support and whose wrongs I also fully support #BUT the way she's treated broadly in the fandom is so pervasive and so consistent and so frustrating to me that #I am in full -must protect my blorbo- mode with her at all times #-Mel's story is over so the only thing left for her to do is die- #-if Mel dies then J can get together with V and they will appreciate her for her sacrifice bc she died a hero who rejected Ambessa- #enough! enough I say! #what about proving to ambessa that she can take the throne for herself? what about the angst of defying her mother and her home country #and opposing those in Piltover who DO want war and want to raze the undercity #what about the magic that she's heavily foreshadowed to have and how it's different from hextech #and how it directly opposes but also parallels what is happening to Viktor #what about her -friends- abroad and the plot Mel was cooking through all of season 1 that has not been revealed yet #there's so much potential for her to have to confront the fact that J was slowly becoming a monster through season 1 #and that she can't ignore the undercity forever #also what if whoever Ambessa says killed her brother comes after Mel too! #it is very frustrating to see Mel get dismissed as dead or evil or irredeemable or whatever when she is consistently #the most interesting person in the room in every single scene she's in and the character who shows the most conviction and change #so yeah i will take a bullet for her she is my blorbo I will despise any character who hurts her #and I would cradle her in my arms if she gave me a chance - which she would never! - but a girl can dream #however I also enjoy leaning into the idea that Mel is perceived as being a devil from the outside - Mel leans into it too when it serves #but it's in direct opposition to her ironclad values and the personality that she keeps hidden a layer down #I genuinely think that Mel will have a happy ending - or at least as happy an ending that an Arcane character can get lol #like I fully believe she will take the throne (Piltover) in the end but I can only guess at this point what that will cost her #I love putting Mel in situations but mainly to play with both how creative she can get and also how fucking far she will go to win #which is ANOTHER thing we know is probably true about Mel but has not been put on display yet #also Mel has already done a great job at separating what she wants for herself as a person from just being Ambessa's daughter #but Mel still deserves to get plenty of great therapy for that situation because OH GOD THAT CHILDHOOD FLASHBACK #also Kino is dead? maybe dead?? at least Mel fully believes he's dead so she needs therapy and hugs for that too #I am super normal about her can you tell

[pallanophblargh]

Tomorrow I embark on a most boring journey that will culminate in the first in-person holiday with family since pre-plague times.

I’ll likely step on eggshells for a good portion of my visit, but I’m medicated this time around, so I hope that will make a difference for me.

*deep breath* Fingers crossed.

#text post #april rambles #mental health #family stuff #I think I've come a long way since then #for instance realizing I'm NOT the problem there #even though I've got the scapegoat role more or less nailed down #J is my emotional support every year and for some reason I never really believed him when he told me that it WASN'T me #still wish I had closer ties with my siblings but that's tricky when none of you are social and you're the one who lives out of state #everyone in the fam likely needs therapy but they would never #every year I'm worried I will turn into my father #at least at the end of the day I'm taking steps to manage my anger and can admit my hypocracies #if nothing else that's some sort of progress #ANXIETY #I think I'm doing this to prove I can shoulder this garden variety bullshit #at least I get to see how my wee nephews are doing

[sugarepoxy]

calling all camp here and there fans to say we need better ship names. Sydidiah is so stupid im sorry. It needs to be SILLY. Take fish n chips for example. Very silly. Not just two of thier names squished together. Its a pun because one of them is a fish and the other is named chip. I need ideas people we cannot have this tomfoolery

#This poast is incomprehensible #Im sorry #i just. OUAGH i HATE shipping names #Call them like worms or smtn. #Smtn to do with how they are both nurses #Co nurses? Fuck #I have no idea #but we need something BETTER. We do we cannot have this #Its just like everyone else #WE ARE BETTER THAN THIS SYDIDIAH NATION #and the fandom is small enough im hopeful that this will change the tides #WE NEED SILLY PUNS!!!!! #Can't believe this fandom would let me down smh/j #😔 #chnt #ch&t #sorey to all my followers who folow me for jrwi. This is important #camp here and there

[egipci]

thank you for bringing awareness to this grievous issue. how is there possibly not more huntercorp content out there?? the overlap between the succession freaks and spn freaks on here is practically a circle. then supernatural does a literal canon succession au and… crickets. i don’t understand. cmon ladies we can do better

Thank you for your solidarity! I agree: we CAN do better!

To be fair, I totally understand the paucity of content in the field, simply because those guys are just not really recognizable as Sam and Dean. They're vacuous spoiled dudes for us to laugh at for the five minutes they're on screen, unlike our very serious special Winchesters Prime, God's favorites, etc. We don’t really even know anything about them, other than they still live with their dad into their late thirties? And Sam is like "haha Dad is the best guy I wanna live with him in the same house forever cheers," which makes me think the CTE finally caught up with him. So fanon interest doesn't really extend beyond heehee silly wincest-twincest foursome business, or maybe there's some cracky Daddycestuous harem going on that I haven't heard about--- which is great if you're into that sort of thing.

What I think is more interesting though is to use that world as a springboard to construct a more canon-feeling AU that retains the character's personalities and dynamics. Like, just take all the deeply traumatizing shit that comes with hunting from a young age and add to it all the fucked-up-ness of excessive wealth and access.

Say, John at some point when Dean and Sam are much younger decides it would be better to work with other people for resources and efficiency (lol), and doesn’t burn quite as many bridges as he could, and whenever someone offers to pay a little something to show their gratitude he agrees. Along the way that turns into a hunting business, recruiting hunters, etc, and it picks up, and it's lucrative enough obviously because monsters are plentiful, and so the kids grow up with money, comfortable. There's the old "I want you to go to school and I want Dean to have a home," so he probably did buy a home base, extra fortified, and there were babysitters to watch after Sam, a little less pressure on Dean with the co-parenting. More creature comforts and safety and stability available, but maybe even more emotional distance between John and Sam than in canon. Dad's trips last for months and months, Sam is fine, he goes to the same nice private school for most of his life, gets with Jessica in high school or something, whatever, you can fill in the blanks here. Maybe he goes to a military school or something, in this strange world where people know about monsters, but his dad is still very much distant and mysterious.

Depending on when the transition towards more financial stability happens, Dean would have more vivid memories of serious poverty that he shares with his dad that Sam might not fully remember/appreciate, and as he gets older Dean’s off with Dad more and more, staying away longer and longer, etc, and that in itself is an interesting question, I think: if Dean doesn't have to parent Sam as much, what does that mean for their relationship? There's always the baseline of the older brother duty/younger brother admiration going on, but maybe it's more they're more like 2x20 than canon--- or not, maybe it translates into more closeness than the canon pre-canon! A good writer can convince you of anything, but it's essential that their relationship only flourishes in the absence of their dad, not only physical absence/death, but also his absence in Dean's emotional life, and all of that is deferred for as long as you keep the old man around. the idea of 60's John/40's Dean makes me....

Anyway, the Succession comparison in particular is really compelling here because 1. in a world where people know about monsters, and monster-hunting is a lucrative empire-building business, the Winchesters (assuming they are actually as good as they are in the main timeline) would hold huge influence. Like, serious political influence. Depending on the size and boundaries of his operation John Winchester could be the owner of an extremely powerful militia trained to kill both people and monsters? And that's... kind of insane! (And with that power and influence, did Sam and Dean grow up in the public eye to some degree, like president’s kids and various d-listers? What sort of rich people vices were they exposed to? Are hunters seen as celebrities or as soldiers, or something in between like in, eg, The Boys?”)

Therefore 2. the stakes of succession are extremely important, and also 3. as an au-explorer, that's how you get to keep some semblance of the John-Dean-Sam dynamic from canon. Say, Sam goes to Stanford on Dad's dime, no need for a scholarship, he fits in with the other kids fine, at least along socioeconomic lines. But obviously he's still very well trained as a hunter, and he may or may not be dealing with demon blood-induced uncleanliness. And let's say Dean is groomed into both hunting but also the business side of things, slated to run the family business when the time comes, maybe he goes to college too and studies something soul-sucking he thinks would be useful for the business and would make dad proud, but probably not, I don't see John suddenly becoming an elitist type, specially when they're in the world they're in. Plus, Dean already has charm and looks in spades, no need for a fancy degree.

But what if at some point John changes his mind? It's not Dean, but Sam who should be king. Or Sam and Dean together as partners. Sam of course doesn't want it. He wants to be a lawyer, or whatever it is the Lebanon alt!Sam does. Adam doesn't want it, he doesn't know anything about hunting, he's probably only seen his dad a total of five times since college, and no one showed up to his engagement party. Who knows, maybe he's already been eaten by the ghoul and no one has noticed yet. Obviously Dean doesn't want to run anything, either, but no one cares about that. He'll do it if he has to, because he's a good son, and in that way this is the weird inverse world of Succession where no one actually wants the inheritance. They do want the elusive kiss from daddy, they're just not under any illusions that the family business is an adequate substitute.

So, like, you can take those two weirdo throwaways and make them infinitely more interesting. You can kill John, you can throw in the Azazel hunt, or introduce the Heaven mega-bureaucrats, or whatever. Maybe Sam gets on the demon blood in his fancy private school and is surrounded by demons for years and it’s John’s fault because he send him there, thinking he'd be safe. Or maybe none of that other mytharc stuff comes in and at the heart of the story is just the family drama. Sprinkle in some more sex, drugs, and rock n roll, etc.— so many little choices to make for people who like the work of intricate world building and crossover! Good for them, whenever they get their hands on this.

Of course the thing that matters to me most is the J/D of it all and Dean's feelings about it--- like he is daddy's golden boy in pretty panties and a cock cage, but what I've been thinking about (like, actually thinking about, for fic writing purposes) is why is he in the cock cage? What if he likes it? What if he wants it and likes it and hates that he likes it? Succession is part of a huge tradition of works preoccupied with wealth and moral decadence and corruption, and those things can only be compounded by the reality of not only wide-spread knowledge of monsters, but also the existence of an industry dedicated to the sanctioned extrajudicial killing of "creatures" that look and live just like normal people 99% of the time. It's extremely fucking bleak, more so in some ways than canon, and it's the kind of world where dad/son incest is possible, where alcoholism/addiction would be much closer to the surface, where Dean is rewarded for Dad’s parasitic dependence in different, slightly more complicated ways than canon, where Dean's baitboy duties probably extend to various unsavory human actors, men and women, starting when he was way too young. And it's not necessarily always the sort of seduction/manipulation/self-objectification that ends with Dean on his back, and John is not a mustache-twirling villain who's looking it in the face and ambivalently sending his kid to the slaughter, but shit happens and it's part of life and it's for the greater good and it's for the family business and Dean's a man and he can handle it and when he comes back tongue-tied and flushed, wearing his cute little panties under his slacks and holding a matching cage in his hand John will tease him first, always, and then he will put his hands on him and make it better.

#thank you dear anon-- thinking and writing this through reminded me of the scene with bela in s3 with the tux #and i don't really think she's that evil in the larger scheme of things #but she's someone who would be more vicious in this world #and now I'm thinking about a story where Dean *has to* have maybe traumatizing sex with her for whatever dad-related reason #and whatever she did to our little guy he doesn't want to think about his dick for a while :( #and obviously because it's dad's fault only dad can fix it #i mean--- if j/d can be distilled down to any single trope it would be hurt/comfort and john is always always the source of both </3 #asks

[dbphantom]

you know if you guys voted for stretch armstrong i probably would have shut up a lot sooner tonight

#so really this is all your fault /lh /j #i love thinking about h2o tho so im happy #VERY FUCKING TIRED THO WISH I COULD SLEEP #i think my brain is kicking into overdrive after being filled with cotton the past 3 days which. hey im glad ur back bud #CAN YOU SHUT UP NOW I NEED REST #i was just thinking because im probably not posting that essay i will summarize here (i saw #that privating it made it lose like 4 recently edited paragraphs and i don't want to type all that out again my memory isn't good enough) #it just boiled down to the pods basically making a self fulfilling prophecy by orphaning their sons and making them increasingly #desperate for connections to other people like them which is why i think erik behaves the way he does esp when ondina is around #like i am not excusing his actions in the slightest dont get me wrong here he really fucked up BUT #his last conversation with ondina before he goes to the chamber kind of sold that idea to me #how he scoffs at her saying rita says it's dangerous because she's 'old school' and of COURSE old school mermaids think all mermen are evil #and then starts adding on how he wants to do this for HER and get her home back for her by controlling it #like a bit of an add-on at the end to try and convince her #i think what he really wants is to be hailed as a hero. you know. validation and acceptance from the ppl who originally abandoned him #the OGs who made him feel like an outsider. the ppl who ripped everything away from him just bc of the way he was born (which is prob why #when he's trying to convince zac to help him he keeps bringing up their ancestors bc that's what unifies them) #i don't think he's an evil dude per se i think he thought stealing the trident stone from rita's grotto would be small peanuts in the past #once he finally got the pod to come home bc he genuinely (mistakenly) believed he COULD control the power of the chamber #i also think that's why the camera keeps focusing on his face when he's watching the others panic over #zac's sacrifice and i think he is feeling jealousy bc they are paying attention to him and not Erik #like that's not the face of someone who deeply regrets what they just did. my guy is just sitting there like 'that should be me rn' #i think that is why he also sounds so desperate to make things right with ondina afterwards. iirc he's just like 'wait no we can start ove #RIGHT?' and she's like 'uhhhh... no??????' (valid). my dude is lonely as fuck and he finally found a group of ppl like him and he messed up #big time just trying to get their attention and affection bc he couldn't just be normal abt it he had to go big or go home #like i kind of feel bad for him in a way #but i feel bad for everyone #i felt bad for denman the other day! that's how bad this is getting!! #i mean come on imagine making the scientific discovery of a LIFETIME only for all that shit to happen in a row #especially after you get your comeback. they just go right back to fucking you over again

[sochilll]

J tells H 👁️? what does he tell her,,,,,

Oh possibly my saddest wip. this was a recent one I randomly sat down and wrote a bunch of it (tw for discussions of suicide but nothing graphic/specific)

Basically Jared realizes Evan either tried/is going to try to kill himself (I haven’t decided if the canon arm break happened) and freaks out and tells Heidi because he doesn’t know what to do. And Evan is like furious with him because his mom is obviously devastated and he feels like Jared overstepped.

So just a lot of like Evan being angry and feeling betrayed and now guilty because his mom is worrying more than before. So he doesn’t want to talk to Jared but at the same time he does because he’s reckoning with the fact that Jared cared enough to freak out and to actually talk to Heidi about it because that is obviously not a Jared thing to do. And Jared feels guilty but also sure he did the right thing so he’s digging his heels in and being stubborn about it. ​So it’s a lot of them just fighting but underneath it’s just “I love you I love you I love you” you know?

Just like the whole plot of deh is about suicide and mental health but it’s all after the fact. And I was simply interested in what they would do if they knew before. If they had a chance to stop it. Because it’s hard! When you’re like 17 and you know your friend is thinking about that like what do you do? And when you’re the one dealing with it it can feel like such a huge betrayal for your friend to tell an adult. Just lots of thoughts and emotions about this situation.

Snip:

His mom took a slow breath. “Jared came to talk to me today. He told me some things.”

Evan’s heart rate spiked, mind immediately racing with everything Jared could have possibly ratted him out for. The time they snuck some of Jared’s parent’s alcohol at their Fourth of July party sophomore year? Or maybe the time they snuck out in middle school to go to a high school party that Jared’s cousin invited them to? Oh god what if it was about that test Jared had helped him cheat on? He knew he shouldn’t have done it. And now he was going to have to admit it and flunk out of high school so close to graduation.

The part of his brain that wasn’t worried about dropping out of high school was wondering what the hell he did to piss Jared off enough for this.

Send a title from my wip list that interests you and I’ll talk about it/post a snippet

#thanks Zoe ❤️ #i was wondering how immediately obvious it would be who was in the title but I guess there’s only one J and H in deh anyway #this one is very much in the *sat down and entered a trance and wrote 3k words in one setting* stage #she needs editing and some scene transitions #but many thoughts… #deh #my writing #kleinsen

[barredandromeda]

imsoo normal about guys byw

#sprry this is the start of my downfall im actually going to theow up and vomit and die #fronting daily actually sucks!and i have no restraint on my curiiusity and i have to figure shit out and i literally want to die #cause like i found out shit i didnt want to and its entirely my fault too bro i cant even be upset cause i went looking for it ughhh #i should be allowed to die afterschool so i dont have to feel anything else tbh thatd be a pleasure great thing whwatever #this is genuinelky the repeat of my downfall again literally september all over again and its just march jesus fucking fhrist bro need todi #the nervous system is so dumb what is ooottfvgvsh or whagevr i hate that dumbass acronym i hate healrhcare #serenity save me 🙏 save me serenity 🙏 come home #everyone keeps sayng that but qith donald trump #anyway back to me i need to scream and not just to serenity cause i feel bad🤭 no emojis are tood enougu anymore bro im going to kms #killing myself so fucking hard like a vampire driving a stake through his heart sort of shit ykwim like a siren drowning ro sokething poeti #save me sid 🙏 sid save me actually hed laugh at me for hthis lowkey which is soo deserved cause real bro why am i breaking down at midnight #on a dchool day too bro again and again i dont want to go to mf schooll and be obsessed w k. hes fine but i genuinely cant do my work #lowkey would iet be weird to talk to my ex ab my relationship with him cause like yea i miss him ykwim and i need closure but i got a crush #cause like on one hand its like i was the one who brokenup ykwim like even if the circumstances werewei4d whatever its like why would i hav #the right to even bring it up and i alr crushed on a new guy and like ignoring the uguult i do like him ughh broni want to kms #i love love i just dont love lvoe for myself cause ugh bro i hare one guy idc ab his crushes but he made me hear ab them lke idc idek him #sorry u had a bad experience w bi girls like idk what u want me to say ??? surprise me too ??? tff ugh i hate love girls #i need a gf but the thoigjt of liking a girl genuinely deeply scares me to my core cause i like girls but ppl dont like that i do ykwim #all mu friends are fucking gay bro idek why im so worried ab liking girls like who is there to disappoint but myself and my entire family #noo pressure qt all being oldest and queerest like ok yeah its midnight happy new years. i need this blanket tobsuffocste me #sleep wrappedup alr like a borito burito i dek and its not enoughh i need a soul crushing embrafe to sleep #ok im done i got post vent clarity i need to sleep #post #erics tag #delete later #serenity needs this as a ref in the morning #i beed my mom to cry to but j cant tell her any of this id rather be eaten alive by bugsbro and if i just cry to her without a reason #shell fs go througj my phone and fimd out why anyway so wjats the pointtt my god i tqlk too much and vent too much #gota flair forbthe dramatics ivguess mb

[pedroscurls]

(sorry for my bad English, I don't speak English very well)

Hi!! I just wanna say I'm looking forward your Marcus Pike series. He's my favorite character and I'm a kindergarten teacher just like Reader so imagine how happy I was when I was reading the first chapter. Thank you so much for writing! I will turn your notifications on so I won't miss a thing ❤

Omg hi there!!!

I’m so happy to hear that you’re excited about this story as much as I am🥹

AND you’re also a kindergarten teacher (which, go you!!!) makes it all the more special🫶

Marcus deserves a happy ending… especially after Lisbon👀👀👀

#anonymous #ask j. #second chances q’s #i mean seriously who would turn him down????!

[dyketennant]

being a crowley kinnie is harder than being a u.s. marine

#“it's a relationship that's up to interpretation” There Better Be Mad NDAs In Place Right Now #good omens 2 #anthony j crowley #frustrated dyke ranting in the tags do not eat #(dont get it twisted i do not blame any of the cast/crew playing into the 'bromance' narrative) #(bc i get theyre under contract and things are sticky rn) #(just so fucking sick of queer love and relationships being boiled down to “up to interpretation” and erased) #not saying good omens is intentionally doing that it's more my outrage towards articles and season 2 promo that baits fans #while simultaneously belittling and gaslighting (bold word ik) said fans #and honestly? would just feel really nice to shove it in the face of everyone who insulted good omens fans for liking a ship #that's selfish and mean i know but it would be satisfying to have like an ofmd moment where i can point and say “look! i'm not delusional!” #especially bc neil has stated multiple times that it *is* a love story. even if they're not making out on screen or whatever #and i hate that queer representation has to always be an argument like this #wow i did not mean to go off for this long in the tags i've really been holding that in for a while