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pinkmoondoll9shihtzu · 1 month

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this girl one time wanted to have sex with me and when i asked to use a condom she laughed it off and said it wasnt cool, and began to chip away at my boundary until i gave her what she wanted. she kept trying to get me to do things and i would say no, and she would continue asking anyway. in bed she said something like “you said you would” and that legitimately scared me, because it seemed like she was just blatantly lying to my face, or just forgot. then she called herself a succubus (A DEMON) and my gut screamed at me to be careful around her. sorry this may be TMI, but im anon so whatever, she said i could nut in her, which is the complete opposite of my original boundary. she was so sweet otherwise and communicated really good. except for when i texted her my concerns about being manipulated. she just became really defensive. im really happy im not “under her spell” anymore. i dont know what she was trying to do, but she could have hurt me really bad

its not tmi, its ok, you know me :p <3.. im sorry your boundaries were disrespected :( ill put my answer under read more cus its probly gona be long , this message had me contemplating some things..

IMO : sex is so tricky its been a struggle my whole life to understand how i feel about it & where my boundaries lie + allowing myself to express them so i understand the struggle u present here altho it's a different perspective.. some people use sex as a vehicle to gain power over others, by way of luring their partner into a state of vulnerability, i dont think that's something demonic necessarily i think it's usually more surface level than that. however

you do see a huge rise in the amount of ppl kind of, trying to personify the succubus nowadays? ppl have always wanted to be sexy but it's like different than the way ppl wanted to be sexy when i was younger. it got rly mainstream to have kind of a demon aesthetic if that makes sense? when i was younger this stuff was reserved for the relentlessly bullied & punished Goth and Emo kids.

but ok when i worked at spencers gifts in 2021/22 they had all these shirts of anime succubus girls getting choked and in bondage n shit, and these shirts were their best sellers they were outselling most the band tees and franchises like naruto.. and im telling youuu it was like, the youngest girls always buying these shirts, it made me so uncomfortable!! sometimes i would walk away and get my coworker to ring them up cus i was like nah im not selling a child that shit...but it really made me think like wow if i was in 7th grade and wore this shit to school it wou;dve been like wearing a giant KICK MY ASS!!!! target on my back but it's like, a popular thing rn.

and im not saying the bullying should return ofc, not the point. but it lead me down the string of thought wondering why this stuff is being pushed into the mainstream so heavily. sex sells i guess $$$ but yeah i think right now it's especially common to refer to yourself as a succubus if you're trying to feel a sense of power as a woman. because as a woman there are very few ways to gain power other than using sex. and many people want power! but i dont think most of them are demonic. just lost..

still its good u followed ur instinct to stay away from that girl because it is really cruel to manipulate someone in a moment where they've trusted you enough to be close to them like that.

yeah i think its rly rare for someone to be in some true demonic possession shit but i feel there can be dark things that linger *around* people who have weak spiritual armor and sort of, feast off their energy & create misfortunes around the person that generate bad energy for it to feed off of. but i dont think they have too much control over your actions like i would imagine for someone who's truly possessed. i feel a lot of ppl have these sort of ambient malignant attachments especially if they keep a lot of dark imagery & symbols around thinking it's just an aesthetic.

thas just my thoughts....really bored tonite so im typing a lot.... i love sex i think it can be so beautiful and restoring, it helps me feel so much happier in life to have good sex regularly i dont think sex or sexiness is evil. i just think its easy for ppl w bad intentions to turn it into this whole twisted ass mind game when it shld rly b so simple and natural and a loving connection that sets u free......be safe out there anon be discerning! protect you heart..<3

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dilf-enthusiast420 · 2 years

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[dealer!eddie]

eddies pov

“I would never put a knife in your back, the love i give her is kinda creepy but fuck it she orders and i deliver”

Eddie was absolutely positively living right now. here you were in all you gorgeous, gorgeous, glory. Sitting criss-crossed in his room. on his fucking bed.

And he was just standing front of you like an idiot.

“You just gonna stand there? I can leave if you want..” no, no, no ,no

“no no i'm fine, i’ve just,” never had a girl in my room? thats pathetic eddie. “had a lot of caffeine? i’m just a bit wired..” real fuckin smooth eddie. You idiot.

“oh.” you stare at him “so.. you gonna stand there or start rolling?”

“right! I'll start, uh, doing that.” Eddie fumbles around his room for a bit before finding the box he keeps his stash in and gets out the necessities.

Meanwhile, you uncross your legs and lean back on his bed and start looking at your surroundings. Eddie can't stand the silence but would rather die than speak in fear of him accidentally making a fool out of himself.

so, of course, you’re the one to break the silence. “I wanted to smoke with you to get to know you better.. If you were uh, wondering.” eddie stills. He wants to cry. Or die. Both sound like a solid option at the moment. “Me?”

“uh, yeah. You deal to me yet I know nothing about you, other than what other people have to say. But if you ask me, they seem a bit biased.” you take a breath. “I wanna know eddie. Not Eddie “the freak” just good ‘ol Eddie munson” Eddie looks up at his ceiling.

God? is that you?

He looks back at you, “ well uh. What do you wanna know? I'm weird and do drugs.” he shrugs.

you look at him for a second, eyebrows furrowed in a way that eddie cant help but think is absolutely adorable “What’s your favorite color?” he looks at you to see what color shirt you have on. “Green.” he grabs the two neatly rolled joints and grabs his lighter then hands you one.

you put the joint in your mouth and eddie is completely transfixed onthe way you hold it between your fingers and place it between those perfectly kissable lips. you grab the lighter from his hand, and eddie cant help but notice had soft your hand is even if he only felt the pads of your fingertips, and light the joint between your lips.

eddie feels like he cant breath.

you take a puff and resume talking. “good to know. but you and i both not thats not what i meant. ask me something, to start?” you take another drag and give him the lighter.

he grabs the light from your (significantly) smaller hands and subtly tries to flex just how much bigger his hands are. girls like that right? she probably didnt even notice. (you did)

he lights his own joint while thinking of what to ask but the space between you was kind of suffocating. he doesn't know when but you were sitting against his head board with one leg hanging off the side while he sits just a little bit above the middle of the bed with his legs criss crossed.

he takes a long drag to stall some more.

“tell me about your first friend?” god eddie. would it kill you to be somewhat original?

“well, her name was jaden and we were friends from 1st grade up until i moved here” you shrug and take another hit. “we were pretty close but when i moved she practically ghosted me and i found out from a mutual friend she started dating my ex.” you say it with such a casuality that eddie can’t tell if your hurt or just dont care anymore.

well now i feel like an asshole.. “oh wow. that sucks. sorry.” he looks down at his hands feeling bad for asking you such a question, as if he could have could have known.

“im over it. she was a kind of a bitch” you chuckled and finished your joint. “so eddie, why do you let me smoke for free?” you look at him with your lips curling into a coy smile.

“well uh. you see, i just uh, your new. and well, new people should uh. well- you’re nice and pretty. so you should smoke for free.” eddie stops speaking and feels like his brain just exploded. why did i think smoking with the person i would like to have my children would be a good idea?

the room feels like its getting warmer with each minute (second) eddie waits for you to say something.

you laugh. “thanks eds. i think you’re pretty too.”

what.

eddie is staring wide eyed, mouth slightly agape. you stare at him in return, though it feels like you’re staring through him rather than at him.

“oh.”

“oh?” you question.

“oh.” he confirms.

you eye him skeptically, then lean your head back against his headboard, exposing the unmarked column of your throat.

eddie’s mouth gets dry and its not because of cotton mouth.

“hey y/n”

“hm?” you hum

“can i.. try something?” this is such a stupid idea.

“yeah go ‘head” you tilt your head to look at him

now or fucking never

eddie leans forward and places his lips against yours.

it’s nothing but inexperience on eddie’s part. but he couldn’t have imagined anything even close enough to the euphoria he’s feeling right now.

and he’s done shrooms before.

you both kind of just, sit there. lips placed on each others. unmoving.

eddie pulls back fearing that he fucked everything up because his stupid brain thought maybe, maybe, you could have wanted something more.

“was that your first kiss?”

ouch.

“that obvious? im sorry. i shouldnt have- you can just- you can uh, you can leave im really sorry-” .” he starts to get up just before you grab him by the the collar of his infamous hellfire shirt and place your lips against his, moving them with such experience that eddie cant even be bothered to feel jealous when it feels so damn good.

but just like that. you pull your lips off his stand, stand up, grab your bag, and say “its getting late, see ya later.” and walk out leaving eddie with one thought only.

what the fuck.

hope you liked? this is gonna be a mini series so stick around if you’re interested :)

#eddie munson #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson fanfic #eddie munson x you #stranger things #stranger things fanfiction #x reader #x y/n #x you #song fic

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prettyboykatsuki · 1 year

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short ver: you r very good at what you do and im glad u do what u do and that i found ur acc and if u ever deactivate i might seriously cry

long ver: ive been meaning to tell you this for a while but something i’ve noticed in your writing is that your insanely good at writing dialogue. most of the time when i read fanfic the dialogue makes me cringe (derogatory) or is really corny to me. but i never feel that way when i read ur work. everything is natural and its flows and u dont try hard to be funny or sentimental. there were moments when i was reading where i just went “wow that was a good ass conversation” or “they’re so talented, you are so talented” like most fanfic dont move me like that cuz ive just read so many that they dont standout anymore but you do and ik u might not read this since it’s incredibly long and shit but i just had to tell u so u know how talented u r and how good u r writing is like if u were to write a whole novel and release it and i would genuinely believe u were deserving of that new york time bestsellers medal and u aint just bought it and put it on ur cover to make it look pretty

and you funny too i have to add that like the ppl on this app be so corny sometimes and i’d being feeling bad about finding them corny but u seriously be having me tickled u just so nasty and silly i love it

again. was scrolling looking for some porn inspo and stumbled upon this in a haze.

i get a lot of kind asks and do not always get a chance to reply so i try and stop and do so as soon as i can!! sorry for being a few days late but this one made me </3 </3 </3

i am actually very insecure about the way i write dialogue DJSSDK because i always try to narrate fics like they're like real conversations and sometimes i find that not as creative as i want it to be so reading this felt like a gut-punch in the best way!!

ALSO. saying that my fics specifically moved you??? like ill throw up rn thats the nicest thing ever in the history of ever?? thank you for that im overwhelmed completely. saying im novel worthy like idk thats huge!!

IM GLAD IM NOT CORNY SJHSDK and that i can bring u some laughs. this whole is just so genuinely thoughtful. like hell yeah im so happy about that

#return to sender #hall of fame #im corny in different ways but i try to be like Chill in general #THIS MADE ME REAL STUPID HAPPY MAN THANK YOU SO MUCH #thank you everyone who says nice stuff to me #i have a lot of Reply anxiety in general for a lot of reasons #so i am always nervous to say anything back but im so so so genuinely grateful always #the fact that even one person can read my stuff and enjoy it and be moved by it is simply a gift to me

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x3kristax3 · 2 years

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Part 7

After some time and lots of journaling and songs later Jessy and Dan come walking in.

"Hey Jake isn't back yet. Everything okay with you two?" Jessy says

"He's not back yet?" I say going to grab my phone and realized it was still on silent and he called me. "Guys i have a bad feeling" i say as i grab my phone and call him back but it goes to voicemail "please tell me someone knows where he goes" i say on the verge of tears

"I have some ideas" says Dan

"Then lets go" I threw my notebook and grab my phone as I turn up the volume and keep calling him as we get out to the driveway he pulls in.

As he puts it in park I run up to the door tears rolling down my face he opens the door and I don't even let him get out before i wrap my arms around his neck.

"Everything okay?" Jake asks

Dan comes walking up "she got scared when she realized she missed your call and you didn't answer"

"Sorry I was driving I needed some time to take all that in" he says

"I know it's a lot to take in… I'm sorry" I whisper

Jake wipes the tears away. "All I know right now is I don't want you to leave Krista"

"Well I'm glad cause even though everyone else wanted me to stay you were the final factor." I say backing away letting him get out. He looks down at me and hugs me tight

"We will figure this all out" he says

I hear Jessy in the background "wait even though we all wanted you to stay if Jake didn't you wouldn't have?"

I turn to her to say something and i hear Richy say "Jessy give them some time"

"No I dont think thats right we all accepted what she told us but Jake almost didn't so no I'm not gonna give them time. If anything Jake needs to explain why he almost let her leave."

As im facing her "he was the most wanted hacker…. Honestly a few cold cases his name came across my desk but it wasn't needed for information so i left it out. If i was still a detective during that i should have arrested him but i didn't even turn him in."

"Wait, you're that Krista?" Jake says, looking at me. "You're the same Krista I helped with on some cold cases years ago?"

"Yeah…. Ugh my mouth needs a filter today i swear" as i say that jake kisses me. I'm taken by total shock.

"I tried finding you over these 3 years since you told me you didn't need my help anymore. I had no idea why or what had happen to you" says Jake

"Wait so let me get this straight. Krista was a cold case detective and had help from Jake on some of them." Says Thomas

"Well I didn't just do cold cases but they were my specialty I guess you can say. Jake or as I knew him back them as namos… would help on ones similar to hannah where there was phones and stuff to hack into that I couldn't get into. This was part of another reason I can't officially work on cases but my caption at the time was nice enough and let it out of the report but he found out I was getting help from a highly wanted hacker but couldn't follow the trail him and I left as we worked together." I say

"Wow so all of this is finally adding up with how you guys found me" Hannah says

"Yeah and why until I faked my death you thought it was me even though I thought I fooled you." Says richy

'Krista when did you piece it together who I was?" Says Jake

"These last 2 months I still had access to those trails that I hid from everyone and crossing them with everything with Hannah it clicked. I thought you figured that out and it's why you ghosted me."

"Man I think need to go to Aurora and have some drinks" says Dan

"I'm up for it" I say as my phone goes off and I look at it " but sadly it has to wait I need to go to the police station again to get the files to look over then the rest is text and phone calls" I say not thrilled he opened it already

"So 2 weeks we have to close this cold case" says Dan

"Yep thats my guess before the FBI finds out" i say

"Then here we go again" says jessy

"Guys I hate to say this but I don't think i can have you help me on this one" I say

"Nonsense you helped us find me when you obviously shouldn't have so we will help you with this" says Hannah

"You guys realize we won't get any credit, it will be all Alan right?" I say

"Yeah anything to help a friend stay out of the big house" says Dan

I laugh 'okay so who's taking me?"

This time Jessy jumps in "I am no questions allowed boys"

We get in her car and off we go.

*************

We pull up to the police station and I walk through the doors. Alan is in the front office waiting for me.

"Lets go chat in my office" he says as I follow

"What can you tell me about this cold case?" I ask once in his office

"This is what I can give you to look through" as he hands me a folder and i look through the paperwork

"Okay I'm guessing I'll have about 2 weeks before the FBI shows up." As i see a paperwork….. "Alan I'm not sure this is a good idea"

"Why you say that?"

"This is almost the same case as Hannahs expect she didn't get found soon enough"

"That's why I want you to help. You found Hannah and all of that info so you should be able to handle this"

I take big gulp of water "okay any information I find I'll get in touch incase the FBI shows up you have the trail" i say as I get up

"Thank you, this person has been walking around for 20 years without justice and they family keeps asking"

"I'll see what I can find '' as I walk out with the file in my purse so it's not in camera.

I get into Jessy car "yeah I'm gonna need those drinks"

She calls Dan "get everyone over to Aurora" . I hear him in the background say okay.

She looks at me "you okay you look like you saw a ghost?"

"Well this case is almost similar to Hannah's and i only have 2 weeks"

"We got this" she says as she drives off to the bar.

We pull into the parking lot and wait for everyone. Once everyone pulls up we get out of the car.

"So what can you tell us about it?" Says Jake

"It's super similar to Hannah's but the girl wasn't found until it was too late. But I'm gonna need this drink" i say

We all walk into the bar and get some drinks and just have some fun

#Duskwood #fanfiction #duskwoodfanfic #duskwoodlover

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lord-penguin1024 · 2 months

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idfk

im im sad for no reason i should be studying chemistry i have physical chemistry left to complete tonight but i just…..cant do it its like…… ive been trying to complete it from 8 in the morning now its 10 in the night i just cant sounds like an excuse dosent it yeah, i feel lke that too but i just cant i take my pen up and just feel burnt out im being hit by random waves of sadness for reasons that im making in my head as we apeak im drowning in a self created pool of anxiety even though i can just study, and it wont be a reason to feel anxious about anymore im not sad im making myself sad its all excuses everything feels like an excuse i feel filthy for no reason i just i dont know im probably writting this just so that i can pass time and not study pathetic isnt it i know i feel it too im just sad for no reason i feel bad for a lot of shit a lot of random shit i feel bad for my parents, whom i told not to talk to me because im 'studying' i feel bad for i dont even know what to write in there its just its just an act im putting up so that i dont need to study but like im uh ……… i dont know i should get back to chemistry im fucked, i did this entire thing thrice over, but i still dont feel like ive done it even once maybe its just in my head? maybe but ………… i dont even know what to write anymore my brain cant make anymore excuses on the fly man man…….how i wish someone told me to just study and id just study how easy would that be wont it ……………….. i dont know i uh i dont know im gonna go back to chemistry i dodnt know i want to kill myself for no apparent reason i want to ride my bike at full speed down the empty roads at nighttime and crash somewhere and die die away in a blaze of glory huh its so easily said and im im i dont know i dont know what to write im just writing by now because i dont know what to write but im still wrtingn why am i writing anyways, i dont even use tumblr much, if at all, aymore thats a spelling error, i dont want to repair that there're probably many other typos up there ……………….. im just lazy yeah thats it im just lazy ive already completed this thing, i just need to revise yeah should i even post this why not fuck it not like someones gonna spend time n effort reading this bullshit im writting lmfao ill probably regret this later yeah who cares fuck everyone …………………………… im crying why the fuck this is pathetic …….what a great disgrace i am to the person that said guys dont cry man ive been crying alot pathetic isnt it who am i even asking …. …………. ………………………… im literally venting on a dead tumblr account page wow thats another level of brainfuckery ………………. there i go with the abuses again why did i start to abuse anymore……i looked down on those people acceptance huh lmfao who am i kidding people like me arent accepted anywhere we're the filth people avoid ………… yeah fuck this shit ill rather program a game or something atleast that shit fetches money

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foursdarkdays · 7 months

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i like a girl lol

Sooooooooooooo ummm the title of this rant? would be "i like a girl" lmaooo Soooooo yeah theres a girl i kinda like?? its nothing serious tho but yeah i like her ig, she's not really my type tho but idk . She treats me so well i cant help it. i feel things lol. I keep checking my phone every second of the day (just did again) and it sucksssss. She kinda likes me back? atleast thats what she says . but idk i dont think so. The possibility is too narrow but yeah.

She has a boyfriend lol and its not like i care tbh cause its not like i wanna make her cheat on him something i mean she wouldnt and i wouldnt want her to. Also i know this isjust a phase for her and itll go away soon. for her or for me. Yk know i cant like someone for long especially if i dont see a possibilty of us dating. so yeah im gonna go with the flow rn. She told me that she had a crush on me since months tho but again ahh i dont think so. maybe shes overthinking . maybe she just wants to be my friend.

anywayyy soo im just going with the flow. we flirt a lot. we blush a lot. Thta bitch flirts with othets and makes me jealous lmao dumb fuck and i do the same bwahaah. sooooo yeahhhh i know after whatever this thing is ends im gonna be sad af for 2 weeks i think? cause we talk so much and its gonna be lonely. but again im a pro at moving on soooooooooo

7/10/23 (1:51am)

(im gonna keep adding the rants)

and the best thing about this is that i'm very well prepared for the heartbreak so im sure it wont hurt much lol im actually very sure about that. I always expect the worst in these things so its going to be chill. I'm sure shell come out of this phase soon and it will only be a memory for both of us. mostly in a good away tho. I'm not gonna take this too seriously and just have fun. you're flirting? okay ill flirt back. you're treating me well? ill do the same yeah thats it lol

i have a strong gut feeling that this is gonna end soon like 3-4 days? i dont know. lets see

7/10/23 (18:25)

Oh wow soooo it almost ended that day lollll but then yeah we kinda talked it out? Anyways i feel like something changed after that. I think in a good way? The obsession feelings decreased and maybe the good friendship feelings increased? I honestly have no idea and i should probably stop trying to figure it out lol. Anyway now I'm back and i think she doesn't like me anymore. Maybe I'm just over thinking? But lol nvm let's see how it goes

11/10/23 (2:05am)

Lmao bitch read this post. anyways im gonna act like no one knows about this account. Its soooooo scary i know i've told this before but its just really scary. See i have trust in myself that if IF something goes wrong ill move on fast, OKAY WHY AM I OVERTHINKING AGAIN. lets fuck this. SHES SO CUTE IM SO OBSESSED I HATE HER SO MUCH. ITS SO MUCH FUN TALKING TO HER. even though sometimes i really wanna push her off a cliff but its okay. I wanna write so much but im blank again wtf

14/10/23 (01:48am)

Why do i feel like she hates me now. Maybe she'll finally lose feelings. i mean yeah thats okay and understandable but it'll be too sudden so idk. I'm ready for anything at this point . I wanna text her but i guess ill give her space. I'll just distract myself and sleep. She has nooooooo idea about the amount of over thinking im doing rn. im so sure shes done with me and will never see my face again. lemme prepare myself. Thankfully im veryyy tired so ill fall asleep easily.

14/10/23 (9:22 pm)

i randomly have such sudden outbursts of love for this baby. i want to cup her face and kiss her whole face , i want to hug her to my chest and kiss her head and baby the fuck out of her. She's gonna cringe reading this (please dont). I want to like put our foreheads together and close my eyes and feel it yk??? i sound soooooo weird. Please dont be creeped out

15/10/23 (10;02pm)

I like her so much like so so so so so so much. Its very scary and i know for a fact that i will be hurt later but ugh its sooooo worth it. I'm sooooo happy with her. The feelings keep growing and i dont think im gonna let it stop. its okay ill let it grow. yoloooo sooo ahhhhh. We just had a pubg date sksksksk shes soooooooo ahhhhh. She flirts so confidently , i was panicking behind the pubg call sksknjiuck. anywaysssss ugh I want to kiss her sooooooooooooooooo bad like fuckkkkkkkkkk i wanttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!.

20/10/23 (01:13am)

Hiii so idk bro she says she's more obsessed with me but obviously i disagree. I think i really fell harder lol I mean it's scary af but anyways. Idk she can go for hoursssss without talking to me and be fine and me ? Lolllllll I try to text back whenever I can but she doesn't do that. Maybe I'm asking too much. Okay i should chill out fr. I don't wanna depend on anyone lol. I only want fun stuff here even though i know I'm kinda in deep but anyways it'll be okay. I know she's putting a lot of effort i shouldn't complain. I'm getting more than i deserve anyway. And I AM happy af. I just miss her i guess. I sound sooooo stupid. Ugh I hope she doesn't read this

21/10/23 (17:12)

(23/10/23) 1:40am

She didn't text me back today. But I'm gonna be understanding. I don't want to overthink. Not today . There are so many possibilities and i wanna listen to her . I really want to be understanding. Because i genuinely care . I didn't text her back till 2pm due to some valid reasons tho but anyway I feel calm now. I texted in our gc and she seen zoned but maybe she has her reasons . Let's see . I don't want to think about anything. I really hope she's alright .

It's like i want her to text me about her day and all but then I don't want to expect much i don't want her to do zyada also idk she's already treating me nicely and it makes me happy. Its honestly more than enough and I don't want to be greedy.

23/10/23 (19:12)

okay sooo ummm the reality is hitting me these days. I was okay being the side chick but its really hitting me lol. Its not like she makes me feel that way nahhh she shows that she cares. Its just that idk maybe im only stupid. she flirts with others and sends me screenshots and everytime she does that i lose little feelings. Even though she does that for fun idk. If she keeps doing this, i might actually lose feelings lol idk how to tell her that. I dont wanna bicker or anything i dont have the strenght and anyway she'll be like nooo i do it for fun only because im cool. **heavy sigh** nvm . but should i let her know? communication is good yk. i guess ill try tonight. if she doesnt fall asleep. Okay ill tell her that, rest is her wish lol .

oh yeah btw todays our 1 month anniversary???? ehehehehe

okay she fell asleep, shes really sick so i hope she feels better soon.

but anyway i keep feeling stupid lmaoooooo i need to stop feeling this way and accept it. Thats the only way lol

21:23 (30/10/23)

Wah its been long, soooo umm idk we kinda had a disagreement? i honestly dont know what that was but yeah im 1000% sure that it wasnt my fault. i took my time to write and explain everything but nah i guess shes mad at me? ofcourse she is. we didnt talk the whole day and its kinda driving me crazy but im trying to look normal. I wont text her first , not because i have ego or anything but because im not at fault here. She took things a little too far and i got triggered. But again i did explain her everything like why it triggered me and all because i didnt want any misunderstanding. But yeah shes mad at me for that? i honestly dont know what to do. is this the end of us? i dont want it to end like this. I'm not ready but i also wont text first. She needs to own up to her mistakes. I miss her. I miss her so much . please text me ughh .

its okay i guess. this is like a break for us i think i dont know how this will end up

22:56(7/11/23)

lmao i got on with a lot of thoughts in my head but as usual im black again. sooo i cant stop thinking about her and its scaring the shit out of me. Atp im pushing myself to go out with friends and family just to divert myself from thinking about her lmaooo yeah its that bad. The worst part is even k-pop idols are not helping me this time. Its always her on my mind. But ill try my best to distract myself because i feel very one sided. Its prolly not but kinda is . idk. But i'm also behaving the same way with her ig? i talk about idols and behave like they're the only ones on my mind when its absolutely false. I'm sure its not the same for her tho. she really isnt that whipped for me lol. and thats okay. ill keep trying to calm myself down . BUTTT the more i try the more i think. What do i do?

05:36am (17/11/2023)

we had a talk yesterday and it hit a nerve, It hit a wrong spot and now idk what i feel anymore. It was hurting. My heart felt like it would explode. I felt too much that i dont feel it now. No i'm not over her. It'll take time for sure but something snapped for sure. I'm taking a break today, from her. I need to analyze my feelings and emotions and think. I need to be ready for whatever is about to come. and i will be, Im strong and i can do it.

I never spoke about this or wrote it here but i think i should now. I need to analyze my feelings and write it out. I like her. i like her a lot. It was all happy happy at first, just us flirting. It wasnt that serious. But it did get serious later. A lot of feelings got involved. I know i know that she has a boyfriend and that i am a second option. I know its genuine and she really likes me. But i sometimes i wish the other way around. Everytime she mentions her boyfriend, its like a stab in my heart and reality hits me. I get distant for a bit. idk if she notices. its not her fault tho, I cant talk to people about this because i know what they're gonna say. "its all your fault, you knew she was taken but you still chased her. its all on you. you"re stupid for even hoping or wanting something from a straight taken woman" oh dont even get me started on how much it hurts when she tells me shes straight. Its gives me mixed signals. she says she wants to kiss me, hold me and do things with me and then she says shes straight. see i know sexuality is not an easy thing, it takes a lot of time and courage and thinking to come to a conclusion and tbh its okay even if she doesnt, but i cant stop my feelings and my overthinking. what if she doesnt really like me and its really just a phase shes going through. because im confident about the way i feel. i like women, i like her, romantically , emotionally and sexually.

i want her. i want her so bad even if its for a month, i want to experience how it feels like to be in a real relationship with her but i know its impossible. Like that equation doesnt even exist.

yesterday night, when she told me she loved me. i couldnt say it back. I didnt have enough energy to feel things because my heart was already hurting. Thats why im taking a break from her today, Her calling me baby , princess and whatever cute things she does , its making me feel guilty. She shouldnt do those things for me, but i want it . i dont know what im typing honeslty. i just want her so bad but i know i shouldnt. i NEED to tone down now . from my side, ill take the love shes giving me, also reciprocate. but not more than that because even i feel guilty and shes going through things because of me, she says its worth it but is it? i know that one day both of us will move on from this. I'm pretty sure we're gonna think about this and laugh but right now i want her, But i also dont , But i do. lol.

14:04 (21/11/23)

Hi, lol. I feel so much for her. like so so so so much. what we have is so precious and important to me. i dont want to let her go. As a girlfriend, yeah i guess one day we'll have to part, but as a friend? i dont want to lose her. I may sound greedy but along with her girlfriend(idk what we are but lets pretend im her girlfriend) right now, i also want to be her second best friend. Is it too much to ask ? i mean i guess it is. It hasnt been that long but our emotional bond is too strong and idk if ill ever find it anywhere else. Even if i dooo ugh idk i just want her for a long time. Even after we break up and take our time off, i want her to talk to me. This may sound selfish but yeah. I still want her to come nag to me, complain about things and share her problems, emotions etc. Relationship issues, marital issues, friendship issues, work related issues, family issues, financial issue etc like literally anyyything. I want her to feel comfy with me, I will never force her tho. I just hope things turn out this way instead of us completely falling apart. Because if it breaks , im sure itll take more than 2 years for me to open up tp anyone again. After my last ex best friend , i really shut myself off and it was lonely. I do have friends and i know they are always there for me but i cant open up to them. emotionally. But with her i can. So i want her , need her for a long time. We may drift . life is unpredictable and people change so its okay but i hope both of us try our best. I know she said she ignores and ghosts her close friends when she feels something is off and then they drift apart but i want her to really try for us. Idk if it will be worth it for her but i want her to try because i know i will. unless she wants otherwise. lol why am i having such emotions today? this is the first time im feeling this way. with us i mean. okay ill stop now.

26/11/23 22:30

I think I'm in love lol idk I tried so much to not be 'in' love and to just love her but I think I failed at it. I'm even scared to admit it to myself because I'm a coward. I still don't want to admit it to myself. I love her so much . I feel so stupid for loving someone who loves someone else. I was never like this. What is wrong with me? Idk but can it be helped? No. I know I'll move on in the future and everything will fall into place but right now ugh i love her and I feel stupid af. Like really really stupid. I'm never telling this to anyone tho. They'll make fun of me lol. They won't understand. I myself don't understand anything. I'm giving away so much of myself and it's going to take a lot of time for me to get it back like after we break up. Anyways I hope she gets well soon. She must be in a lot of pain. It hurts to even think that she might be in pain ughhhh stupid**inserts my name* get it together.

Come back soon . I feel like a zombie without you

Lol I just looked at my instgram activity and was wondering why I had spent 4 hours on Instagram yesterday when we didn't even talk. Then I realised that we did. It has only been a day but it feels like weeks? Wtf? What is going on with me. I'm scared I'm so so scared.

28/11/23 (23:43)

Happy 2 months to us lol sksksk anyways I didn't miss her yesterday. Probably because I was dealing with my own shit . Doesn't mean I like her any less. I still care . I hope she feels better soon

30/11/23 (00:19)

I googled the recovery rate and the death rate of dengue and I'm more paranoid now. Maybe I'm crying too much because I'm sick . I cry a lot when I fever like it heightens whatever I feel and now I'm worried about everything. Myself , her ahhh.

This is way too scary. New fear unlocked. I don't wanna say it but ugh just the thought of your loved one not being there hurts lol. I think I'll never move on from it. Never. So dear universe or whoever is listening to me , you've been mean to me these days , there are only 2 things that I want the most right now. The most. And I'll do anything for it. 1. Her getting well soon. 2. I need freedom from my life . Which means moving away to another country. I need these so bad. I don't care if I don't die anymore. I know I've always wanted to die and that was the only prayer in my head but now no. I want these 2 . Please please please. I won't be able to take it please ahh I'm crying again. I'm never getting attached to anyone again.

It's December already, please please please I promise that if these two things happen, I WILL NEVER NEVER EVER think about killing myself again. I promise this. I really really really promise you. But , if not , then that's it. You know I've always wanted to die , ever since 2011, so I'm giving up on this if I get the things I want. Atleast the 1st one. I won't be able to live at all.

Why am I crying so much. It's too much to handle. I feel like the nerves in my head will tear open with the strain. Its been long since I cried so much . I know I'm over thinking but why can't I fucking stop. STOP. Okay I'll just sleep .

1/12/23 (00:05)

I didnt miss her at all these last 3 days but i think i miss her a little today. I suddenly think about her and feel like crying. This is not because i miss her but idk. I feel like every bad thing happened to me at once and my mental health is at stake. 1. her being extremely sick with that deadly virus? whatever it is. 2. My uni thing. 3 me falling sick as well. i cant control my emotions when im sick. especiallllyyyy fever. i feel so weak and that stupid fever aftertaste on my tongue is making me wanna puke. i think im sleeping a lot these days. like 16 hours a day or something, maybe physcial and mental exhaustion is catching up to me. fuck this life . anygays idk i hope something good happens please. i wanna cry again lol. crying feels nice all of a sudden . its all because im sick lol. i guess ugh idk fuck this

i slept on the couch yesterday night, i think ill do the same tonight lol. i always sleep on the couch when im sick i guess??? ah im sleepy again. prolly med effect. ill eat and sleep now. i hope my baby feels almost better tomorrow. wow im sleepy af all of a sudden . no energy i think ill fall off byee

01/11/23 (20:16)

Lol i haven't written in so long ahhh yeah idk it's going okay I guess. We were having a call on gmeet with another friend of mine and she spoke about her boyfriend today. Idk what happened to me and why it happened but I cried wtf? Like wtf?????? Idk what to do anymore. It's reality I know but it's hurting. I know I'm just a ummm what am I again? No one omg fuck this

03:20 (18/11/23)

i love you

22:36(uk time zone) 11/02/24

Ah i need you so bad but i yeah i should be understanding. I’ll be. But know that i need you so bad like emotionally but im not brave enough to text you .

15/02/24 1:14pm

I love you . It feels sad now . When i think about her, my brain makes me sad lol. Whenever i imagine fake scenarios with her my brain keeps constantly reminding me that im just delulu and nothing will ever happen. I already know that but lemme be happy? i keep thinking about the break up that will happen soon when she gets engaged. I know there’s time, there’s a lot of time but i can’t stop thinking about it. It’s like it’s always there at the back of my mind. I just wanna be delulu , carefree and happy. I don’t wanna think much okay bye

29/02/24(2:30am)

I hope you dont see this but I’m so sorry. There are so many thoughts running in my head rn. I feel like im ruining something perfect. i mean you and him. I know nothing will change , yall are the end game and i dont want that to change. But the guilt is hittinf me these days. Am i that bad? Am i that selfish? What am i supposed to do? Shouldi stop? I dont want to stop but i dont want to be so selfish. Am i really a homewrecker? fuck

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andromedasummer · 1 year

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is there seriously nowhere to buy textbooks in person anymore for vic uni?? wow that really is horrible. fuck all the "protestors" and their lingering sentiment. what's your opinion on vic uni as it stands now? i've heard from a lot of people that in recent years it has changed (in a negative way), and even tho the uni wasn't responsible for the protestors, i heard from some people that they weren't so keen on the uni in the aftermath. whether it was due to the proximity to parliament or i also heard the uni's response towards students was basically "tough luck" when their finances and studies were impacted due to the "protestors"

yeah we got emails and the response was straight up "nothing we can do, avoid coming in if you feel threatened" which was like. yeah?? we feel threatened? 12-18 yr old girls at the local high school had to add like 20/30 mins to their commute because if they went past the protests they would be harassed. my 19 yr old coworker was reduced to tears by a man screaming at her at the train station about her mask. she had to come into work using uber to avoid it happening again. she lived over an hour away, it was NOT cheap.

i walked past or through the protestors a lot because i had to go in that way to study, home was too busy and our internet was spotty. i had to get very used to ignoring the shouting. but the public were at boiling point by the end assaults/harassment of the general public had gone up, local businesses being invaded happened more and suddenly people were driving past the protestors throwing milkshakes or yelling at them, which only made them more aggressive.

as for whats up at vic im not sure im the best person to ask. i dont pay attention to too many of the changes and rarely participate in clubs (i did help with classical theater and uniq in my first 2 years)

what i can say is the million dollars spent on the new science centre was useless, as the reason the science department needed a new building was because their lecture halls and labs were too small. the buildings rooms are the exact same size as they were in the other building. so the science faculty are fucked if they want anything for the next decade because "oh well you just got a new building." i dont know why theyve bought that massive bloody abandoned building down the hill and dont see how paying for its destruction is going to help with costs, god knows what they plan on putting there. at least first years will stop breaking in and cutting themselves on broken glass and nails/falling through broken flooring.

i adore pretty much all but one or two lecturers ive had at vic, the good ones are exceptionally good and make attending class a joy. and because nz is so small they know everyone in their subject worth knowing and are happy to make connections with them possible which is a lifesaver. also as someone who restarted their degree cos health problems + changed subjects ive had a LOT of lecturers from psych to classics to media studies to polsci. my main problem is the problem is the treatment of lecturers.

a close friend of mine from high school works as a tutor there and as much as he adores it, every time hes ever gotten his paycheck its because his union pressed vic to send it on time. recently theres been protests by staff for better pay, which i fully support, i even attended some protests because quite frankly for the experience, knowledge and ties these people have they are paid a pittance.

as for the book stores, we have multiple bookstores here but most are secondhand. the ones that arent dont stock textbooks, because the dedicated textbook place for 50+ years has been vicbooks. i dont know who it will fall to. unitybooks maybe? or we'll just have to order online like i said before.

but with the protests, people likely got turned off heading to vic because, ultimately, parliaments down the hill from from it. literally you just gotta walk up the terrace, turn right and then walk another 5 minutes. takes 20 minutes if youre fit enough. getting into uni was near impossible for most people because you had to go through or past the protest camp to get there (unless you were lucky enough to live on the other side of the city and go up the terrace the other side). also, because the main city train station and main city bus station are/were on the other side of the camp, it made confrontation if you used those modes of transport unavoidable.

ultimately the protest is not vics fault, not by a mile. if i were to blame anyone it would be 1. the protestors themselves 2. the police, who, when i walked past on day one, had only sent a cop car and 3 cops to watch over the situation, which is how they managed to pitch all the tents/blockade the traffic/take as much ground as they did. police were woefully, woefully unprepared. 3rd blame goes to the tow companies who all refused to remove the vehicles blocking the street because they were sympathetic to the group that were spraying nazi symbols on the war monument and calling for execution of our politicians. fuck them.

honestly im just glad that its over, even a year on. my dad was coming home when the fighting broke out and he could see them throwing bricks and starting fires a street away and the riot police bearing down on them and using hose. it was incredibly unnerving to watch, esp as i had friends and family working in the buildings around there.

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placidsloth · 1 year

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things customers have said to me

im actually done collecting pokemon cards, shoes are kinda like my passion now. plus id rather drive my car down to florida full of shoes rather than my pokemon cards (its two binders dude its literally smaller than one shoebox)

get anything new in? (greg you were here yesterday, nothing has changed)

do you have this comic book store specific cover variant of this comic that came out today? i know its not this comic book shop, but i figured you might still have it (we're a very small store ha ha... that means no)

could you get me this 20 year old comic? your distributor should have it right?

yeah this comic has an important first appearance in it, i'm surprised you guys have any copies left. (yes because avengers #58 or whatever that came out 3 weeks before is such an important issue, thats why we only ordered one and sold none)

do you even know who damian wayne is? you know dick grayson isn't robin anymore, right?

do you sell manga? (sir this is a comic book store, any manga we have is entirely an accident)

you know, they use anti-depressants to keep sexual deviants and sociopaths like ted bundy from wanting to have sex while in jail, i dont understand why they dont just give everyone anti-depressants because literally every person is a little bit of a sociopath. i think putting anti-depressants in the water supply would probably reduce the number of jackasses in the world (terrifying thanks)

i thought that guy was gonna come at you when you said your boss was going to come talk to him about his order lol. i work with cops a lot and he reminded me of a junky looking to score a hit. but you handled that really well! good job! (way to make me feel safe dude)

no but the bionicle comic was one of the top selling comics of the year when it came out (somehow im not so sure about that.)

i wish there was a comic with like the members of the batfam you don't get to see usually (well actually there's an ongoing batgirls title, and tim drake has a mini-series-) no but like a good one, you know? (-.-)

how am i supposed to know what comic this is? (did you try looking at the back? it should have the name there) yeah it wasnt there (are you sure? flip it over for me?) okay i swear that wasnt there before

oh wow why is this comic so expensive? why would anyone pay $500 for a comic they cant even read? (i ask myself that every day)

damn i thought that guy was gonna lose it at you when you said you didn't have that item haha

nah man i just want venom stuff. i like to think of myself as the anti-hero of my life (i had to drop my stapler and lean down to pick it up so they wouldnt see me laugh at them)

wow, in the time ive been here, youve gotten hit on by three different guys! does that happen a lot? (i do not remember being hit on, i remember helping customers and chatting with them?)

so you're like 16 right? how long have you been working here? (4 years... i'm 23...)

oh i wasnt expecting to see a girl working here! are you the owners daughter/girlfriend/wife? (no thank god)

man if only my mom/wife/girlfriend/mother-in-law didnt give away/get rid of/lose/burn/throw out my comics/pokemon cards/magic cards i could be a millionaire right now (x to doubt)

#i love my job sometimes #other times i could burn it down and feel no remorse #comics #customer service #my boss also says the damndest things #i texted him a three sentence question and his only response for 2 hours was “long.”#all lowercase and everything #sometimes i really wonder what goes on in his head

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chelleztjs18 · 1 year

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Hello you Mrs. Christmas loving jambalaya making archer in training medium rare steak eating eyebag 😅

Sorry I fell asleep on you, I know it takes awhile to get back, there's so many topics in one. And I am okay to making friends with someone weird, at least it makes me not the weird one anymore hahahaha just kidding and it goes both ways, you can also back out and stop answering my questions 🥲

I love the fireplace! And the tree is so pretty. The lighting feels so homey and cozy. It's like I can actually feel Christmas just by looking at the photo. But where are the presents lol I'm surprised that you didn't put the train set under the tree like a lot of people do.

My favorite colors are black, gray, and royal blue.

Same, I mean I love burgers too but if I make it myself. But I love making sandwiches more. I really like roast beef and smoked turkey, and honey ham. I don't have a favorite cheese but I like the taste of provolone cheese with my sandwiches. How about you? What are your favorites?

Mm I love spaghetti and lasagna. I think I can eat spaghetti everyday, I just need the perfect sauce. I remember making risotto before, it was good but you are right, it can be hard to make haha

That's interesting, cashews and raisins in rice? I want to try that. I want to try new foods! I want to try Indian curry but I am scared because of the spice. So I always just make my own curry at home where it is just mild or 0 spicy 😅 they do have really good rice though, I ordered biryani one time, and the rice was amazing..spicy but amazing.

Yes I love bread! I really like fresh french bread. But I can't make bread at all. I get to scared messing with yeast. I like eating it though hahaha i like making banana bread, and zucchini bread. Do you like bread?

How do you start a space party? You planet. 🤣🤣

Would you rather be able to fly anywhere you want, or be able to swim and breathe under water?

-CuriousGeorge

Good morning.. hahhaa.. wow i bet u had to take a deep breath after u sayin my nickname, or u hv to crack ur knuckles after u typed it. Now i gotta create u some. Lol.

It's okay! I figured u fell asleep. Yeah we have lots of topic in one which is great! N i love it! Hahahha. Oh trust me, u wont be the weird one if u r friends with me. 🤣 nope, i wont back up n i will keep replying to ur asks.haha. in fact u r too late to back out now from making friends with me, u know too much now. So u r stuck being my friend, FOREVER! *laugh maniacally* 😈 hahahahaha. Jk. Dont worry, im not a maniac.🤭

Aaaw thank you!!! I love fireplace too! I love decorating it even if it's not christmas! Hahaha. Our previous house in CA has 2 fireplace (formal livin room and other living room/tv room) so i had fun decorating it.😆

Oh n guess what, few days ago was my first time have a lit up fireplace n i love it! I love the crackling sound n the smell of it when u walk into the house.. smell smokey but different smokey. When i was a kid i always dreaming to have a house with fireplace and i will get warm from the fire in it on winter, so i was so happy when it was on.lol. like i said, im easy to please person 😅

Aaw thank u.. i usually like the tree with the whitelights, but for my daughter, i picked the color ones so she will be amazed n more excited for christmas. N if u see the pictures of the decorations with the lights (carousels n the others), we started collecting it for our daughter. We try to buy one every year, so she can keep it n have it when she is older or have her own place. We also like to collect christmas ornaments from places we went to or things that we like.

Haha the christmas present, we have them all in our tornado shelters in the garage,, with her stuborness, she wont want to wait to open it n will keep asking to open it. Plus we r going to CA anyway on the 20th, so we will put it the night before we leave so when we get back it will be there n we'll tell her santa came when we were at grandma's 😅 pluuuuus she will get A LOT from her grandma's n uncle, they already put them under the tree. We just dont want to take the excitements from it with the one we got them. And mostly presents from us are big ones (art easle with table n chair, frozen themed vanity, bike, cinderella carriage toy and a mini drum set) it wont be fit under the tree 🤣🤣🤣🤣 n yes, she is one spoiled sassy princess. Lol. Mostly is my husband's doing though. I reminded him that we have to slow down on the gift, just to teach her n keep her humble.. again, i'm the no fun parent.lol

Ah yeah, bout the train, we always put it under the tree but this house is smaller n it will be on our way to the room if we put it under the tree, so we put it over there just so she can see it.

These are the picts from last year's christmas on the formal living room. N u can also see the 9ft tree we had last year. I asked them to flock it because thats how i love it.😅 n the train is under the tree.lol.

Oh those are nice colors.. mine are burgundy red, navy blue, dark green, black. Is royal blue like the dodger blue?

Ouh i love roast beef sandwich! When i was in new orleans, there is this place called parkway, they are famous with their roast beef sandwich n they put their famous gravy in it n u can also add fried shrimp to it.. it is soooo good. I love ham, roast beed, prosciutto, and spicy capicola. 😁 im not a big fan of cheese but my favorite is mozzarella, sharp white cheddar and provolone. Harvatti cheese are yummy too.

I think when u order indian curry or briyani u can ask them not spicy.. i always order them spicy hahah. Try tikka massala chicken, they r creamy curry. They usually make it either with coconut milk or yogurt it's my favorite.

I love bread. My top three favorite are naan bread, flat bread, and pita bread. Other favorite are sourdough and plain bagel.😁

Ough i love french bread with creamy soup! 🤤

Yeah the cashew nut n raisin really make the briyani rice interesting n give a lot more flavor.

Lol it took a second for me to get the joke because i just woke up when i read it..lol. thats a good one. More joke please! *clapping*

I would rather be able to fly. Deep ocean scares me.haha. what about u?

Next question if u dare..😆😅

Cheerio!

#chellez answers #ask answered #anon answered #curious george anon

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seawherethesunsets · 2 years

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[re: cheer up]

I thought Yoomin was dead. I loved her scenes before she actually showed up. The scene where she gets hit by the light and the scene where (in ep1 or ep2) Jung Woo goes to his office, sees her, the sound of squeaky door and boom she gets hit again... I loved the edit of these two. In terms of suspense, these two and the ending of ep1 were great to me (sound effects and video editing were good👍) and made me excited about the potential death issue. But not anymore. Now I'm unexcitedly waiting for immature/jealous villain(s) to be revealed so that we can move on. :D

Romance is a bit rushed, too. I wasn't comfortable with the captain taking her out to for a drink as an apology (I loved how she was staring at him on the bus stop tho~~~). I'd be totally okay if there was no romance. I think he is fine as a captain and being so already inspires Dae Yi a lot. Crush is cute, too. Finally she has something that flutters her heart-- other than food and money. Mutual feelings would follow a bit later. But now they're at it, I want to see Jung Woo to fully accept and have feelings, I'm curious~~

I'm also curious about how he will handle the policy issue. Please, writers, don't make it boring.

About Dae Yi's brother... Wow, he is a hidden gem :D Hope to see him more! My guess is that she had a call from her mother about his brother and she rushed outside for him (though she didn't look much stressed when Jung Woo finally found her). We'll see tomorrow.

There are too many jealous and immature people in this drama, it gets boring. Especially, Min Jae. The character doesn't have to be made this annoying. I feel upset about it. He probably will a have ~redemption~ through socializing and receiving love etc. But yeah, still boring.

The twins! I like So Yoon, her random comments and English! :D She also looks like she needs a bit more socializing like Min Jae (but doesn't throw tantrums -_-). I can't wait to see more about her story.

See, there is a lot to discuss!

Buddyyyyyyyyy 🌻😘

look at you going off with all the details. obviously you pay more attention and use more brains than me and I love that for you! I'm just watching it, head empty lolol. First off , thank you for all these cos it does reminded me of scenes that I put behind the back of my head.

That first 2 eps of showing yoomin and the spooky vibes got me but then they keep saying she never contacted so I was like oh she's not dead yet and knew she was gonna appear somehow to either be added for suspense or the boring route would be to be a love rectangle now (?) lmao.

I think the romance part is okay for me, pace wise haha. We know jungwoo doesnt like her in that way yet, he cares and worries for her a lot. So yes! curious to see how he'll embrace it when he's sure he likes her likes her hehehe. generally im not that fond of the drinking culture there, but it is their culture and seems like drinking solves all issues in dramas hahha.

Same! I think she received a call from her mom about her brother injured, nothing too serious since she was calm when jungwoo found her. but i wanna know her brother's story! hope they showed more. we have 16 eps more than ample time lol.

Minjae is a petty child, sunbae is annoying hahahha i am curious to know who is the suspicious person tho. But I hope it's not dragged half heartedly till the very end. i dont have high hopes, i just wish it would stay fun until then.

The twins are cute! very rare for a drama to make sure every character they introduced to have a nice coverage of their arcs :\ so we'll see~~

#ask #anon #cheer up #❤️❤️❤️

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me-uglypretty · 2 years

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NONONONO THANK YOU but also like how dare you cause i haven’t been able to watch anymore until now and it’s all i’ve legit been able to think about

but yeah no the suspense is for real and i totally get what you’re saying! there’s definitely not been a superhero based type of show (that comes to my mind atm) with this type of suspense! it’s always about the suspense of if the hero will make it or who finds out about the hero type of vibe, but the suspense of this show is more thriller like vibes for sure. the quality of the show is so good too! i’m very confused as to why this show didn’t have more hype when it aired!?!?

(omg wait major throwback- but runaways is giving me the same vibes as a nickelodeon show called house of anubis! it was a small silly little show that barely anyone knew of but i ate that shit up and the suspense vibes from that kids show was insanely good)

ANYWAYS, yes! molly needs to be protected at all costs!! if anyone messes with her they’ll have to go through me first! ! ! !

((is it ever truly a friends to lovers arc if there isn’t anything problematic happening though? especially if it’s happening in the marvel universe ? ex: fitzsimmons from agents of shield))

(((OMG I WILL GLADLY GIVE ALL THE INPUTS IM SO FREAKING EXCITED NOW AND THAT’D BE COOL IF YOU REWATCHED IT TOO BUT YOU ALSO DON’T HAVE TOO IF YOU DONT WANT TO, NO PRESSURE ik rewatching shows takes up a lot of time cause i tend to do that)))

((((lol thanks! nicknames are a forte of mine if i do say so myself, if you don’t believe me just ask my pets and their million names))))

(((((wow, sorry that was very long)))))

((((((also be prepared for more in of the put from yours truly))))))

(((((((okay one last thing i promise, how are we feeling about the parentheses? is it annoying? should i do bullet points instead?)))))))

~ input runaway anon

THE SHOW WAS SLEPT ON! IT DIDN’T GET ENOUGH PROMO OR ACKNOWLEDGEMENT EVEN WHEN THE LEAD IS LITERALLY A GLOWING LESBIAN??? All my fav show ends up being underrated or cancelled. Am I cursed with loving shows like that or characters who ends up d wording??? Maybe.

(HOUSE OF ANUBIS??? YOU MEAN *COVERS ONE EYE WITH HAND*??? i used to watch that show every night like I NEEDED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS and did that sign like it was normal. I get what you’re saying, but the difference between the two…like I know I would be cracking my head if I ever rewatch house of anubis, and just complain about all the things that didn’t make sense but still eat it up)

((For me, it all started with Jade and Tori from Victorious like they were the founding mothers of the lgbtq+ to me, or just mostly the writers who wrote fan fictions about them. marvel are cowards is all I say to the amount of things they ignore))

(((I’VE JUST STARTED REWATCHING AGENT OF CARTER CAUSE I’M MISSING HER HOURS but I’m gonna go rewatch runaways soon cause I’ve been missing smol Nico and tall glowing Karolina and the best part of the show that I'm not sure you've seen yet??)))

((((YOUR INPUTS ARE IMPORTANT, INPUT RUNAWAY ANON! And I have lots of nicknames for my pets too. Give all your emotions in any way easy for you!! I’m just here to go cap locks with you and scream about runaways or anything else like why does the good show and character always end))))

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indigo474 · 2 years

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everytime i type here it disappears. i wonder how long he would have tried to keep the fact he was paying child support to another woman fromme- forever- i cant imagine being there now or for the past few years. i made the right decision for me. it is horrible about my kids and what has happened between us. i lost my family but gained myself. I would have self destructed. i would have stopped working which was my only form of sanity - he wanted me to quit my job at the deli right before i went to the lawyer- every once in a while i get the thought of hey WOW you dont want to die anymore. - i felt so trapped and helpless- i believed all the things hetoldme about myself and he told me a lot about myself. it makes me mad that he got away with what he did. he's a monster and i truly feel bad for michael and meghan- he will use my name to be mean and abuse the people around him- making me out to be the monster and it is all so twisted and sick and deep and dark. i know now he was fucking a woman but the funny thing is i read something that said a lot of narcissistic mean are closeted gays- yeah me saying that just made me look crazy but i believe it to be true about him. and the big huge question is why the fuck did i stay for so long and how to i forgive myself. well i forgive myself everyday- why i stayed a complex answer. so complex. the first thing someone would ask-- if it was so bad why did you stay.. I am healing everyday- stronger and stronger. I still struggle with my past- it will always be there..

I finally received my raise. I received more than i was told i was getting. the whole thing with Drew really did a job on me-mentally. I had some thoughts in regards to him back in March as i watched him teach a workshop on empathy. i could see why people did not like him. I could see why- clearly. he struts around work like a peacock. it is what it is.. the person that put me in for my raise likes me- that is all that matters at this point. i needed that raise. soon i am going to have to pay for my benefits and well-- so yeah i need all the money can get. tomorrow we leave for a week and i am looking forward to time away- no alarm. my groin injury feels better today- another disappointment- my last run before realising i was injured was a good one-my breathing was really good and i felt strong.. i thought i was finally making progress.. i think i need to start strength training once i recover from whatever happened. gonna walk a lot this coming week. i want to rent a bike too but dont want to make sure im not going to aggravate anything..

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chnsfairy · 4 years

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#gosh .... i have the biggest fattest crush on u #there are so many things i need to say abt the live so TT #first did u guys see 😭😭 his little dance in the beginning when they sat down #I WANTED TO SOBBB HES SO CUTE GOSH I LOVE HIM SO MUCH HES SO ADORABLE IM AMKFMAMFMSM #:'((( and this fit .... this blue ... the sweater 😭😭 its anything i could have ever hoped for #thank u stylists for putting him in literally my favorite shade of blue 🥺🖤 im straight up crying right now and i dont know why #plus !!! 🙇🏼🏹 his little interactions with jimin make my heart go all smdjamdksks !!! i love her so much !!! and their friendship is so cute #my heart is just bursting with so much love im crying !!! love that !!!!!! but also !!!! his fucking laughs !!! 😭🖤#I COULD HEAR THEM WHEN HE WASNT USING HIS MIC AND GOSH IT SOUNDS LIKE HEAVEN HOW AM I SO WHIPPED FOR THIS BOY ITS NOT OK 😭😭#his giggles ... and just ... his laughs whenever his members said something funny .... wow i guess i just love u a whole whole lot huh .....#he named his team 'dadadada' ARE U KIDDING ME 😭😭 WHAT A DUMMYY BUT U KNOW ITS OK 😭😭 CAUSE HES MY DUMMY AND I LOVE HIM SO MUCH #HES SO ADORABLE AND PRECIOUS WHY DID THAT WHOLE THING MAKE MY HEART BEAT SO MUCH I HAVE NO WORDS ANYMORE 😭😭#ok thats a lie because u know when 😭😭 he had to sing the song thing 😭😭 and all the members put their mics to his face 🙇🏼🌨#YEAH THAT WOULD BE ME EVERYDAY 😭😭 I WANNA LISTEN TO HIS VOICE FOR HOURS IS THAT DUMB AMDKMAMDMS PROBABLY AMJDMD #its just so soothing ... and soft ... ive fallen asleep to his lives before ... gosh can he sing me to sleep please 🥺🖤 with that pretty #pretty blue on him 🥺 and just that soft loving look on his face ..... wow wonder boy .... guess im really in this shit deep huh 😭😭#wait also 😭😭 when the girl from australia came on and his accent got so much thicker and he went 'oh wow i love that accent' WHEN I TELL U #I FELT SOMETHING WITHIN ME I DIDNT KNOW I COULD !!!! 😭😭 GOSH THAT HURT SO MUCH IDK WHY IT SOUNDED SO GOOD SMFJMS I LOVE IT WHEN HIS ACCENT #GETS HEAVY LIKE THAT OK 😭 ITS *** NSMADKKAMD ITS OK MINE DOES THAT TOO WHEN I GOT TO AUSTRALIA #gosh wow ... hes just .... so soft ... and his voice just makes me feel so safe everytime i hear it .... im still anger that we never got a #solo 3racha song out of him bc u know i would have that on repeat TT #and during the relay dance .... to the cute song ..... oh wow oh wow .... thats what the centre pic is TT my heart is just !!! bursting with #so much love for him !!!!! this sounds so dumb though !!!! im a dummy in love with another dummy !!! what is this 😭😭#GOSH 😭😭✊ WHAT ON EARTH IS THIS IM SO SORRY IF U TOOK THE TIME TO READ THIS I JUST NEED TO WRITE OUT MY FEELINGS 😭😭#OKE IM GONNA GO TO SLEEP LISTENING TO SUNSHINE ON REPEAT AND DREAM ABOUT THE ONLY BOY IN THE WORLD 😭😭 GOSH I COULD TALK FOR HOURS BUT IM #RUNNING OUT OF TAGS FUCK OKE BYEEEEE IM SO SORRY BUT UHH I LOVE CHAN SO MUCH OKE BYE 😭😭✊#.ily #.icons

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atsumiye · 3 years

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the next time you see miya atsumu you are going to kill him.

he had asked you 18 times.

he had asked 18 times to take you on a date and when you finally agree, he leaves you alone at the meeting point for over 3 hours.

you hate that you finally gave in to his relentless begging. each time he asked, you gave the same answer, "no miya. we dont work together." but he came back again a few days later with yet another speech about how he thinks you are in fact perfect for each other.

you were hesistant to accept, you had known him for a while and truly cherised his friendship. and not that he knows, but you did like him. for quite a long time too. but you never wanted to even entertain the thought that something in the relationship goes arwy and now you’ve lost both a boyfriend and a friend.

but with the way he speaks to you, holds your hand as he tells you another thing he likes about you, the way he pouts when you call him miya, hearing him beg to just "call me tsumu! just once!" you couldn’t resist finally saying yes.

and look where that got you.

you swear when you see him today, you are so ready to give him a piece of your mind. chew him out for putting you through all that. ask him if your friendship really meant nothing. and maybe even add-

"hey y/n." your head snaps up at osamu's voice, "tsumu asked me to give ya this." he hands you a terribly folded and crumpled piece of paper. you take it from his hands, and read it.

dear y/n,

im sorry i missed our date. i REALLY (triple underlined) didnt mean to. i was really excited too but i found out im allergic to flowers and then i lost my phone. please go out with me again?

you bite your lip to hold back your laughter and look back up at osamu, "this is all true?"

"yup. he was truly really excited for the date. he wanted to get you flowers, couldn’t decide so he bought 3 bouquets." you smile as osamu nods towards a bench for you both to sit on.

"he even sent me a picture" osamu pulls out his text conversation with atsumu, showing you the selfie atsumu took of him holding the flowers with a giant grin on his face, "turns out he is slightly allergic to some flower, i think." he points back at the photo, "this little white one here. he touched it and it gave him a little rash. lost his phone while running back home." he laughs.

you giggle along with him, "is he alright though?"

"yeah he’s fine, just not allowed to touch anymore of those flowers." you smile at him, "ya can go visit him at home. i think he would be happy."

and you do.

knocking on the door to his room, you slowly open it seeing him playing a game on his computer. at the sound of the door opening, he looks to the door to see you and slams his computer shut, slouching into the bed.

"wow, you’re faking allergies now?" you giggle

"no, 'm not! it really does itch y/n." he pouts up at you and you sit down next to him on his bed.

"'m sorry i left ya hanging last night. i really didnt mean ta!" he shouts, grabbing onto your hands to slowly intertwine your fingers, keeping an eye on your expressions.

"its alright, tsumu." he flashes a big grin and squeezes your hand, "we can just reschedule. i will admit i was a bit mad when i didnt hear anything, but im just glad to know you are okay." you rub your thumb against his hand. you both sit in silence for a while, his head on your shoulder, reveling in the comfort of being near one another.

"ya know," he whsipers, "i heard that kisses make people with allergies feel a lot better."

you look down at him, "ive never heard of that before."

"yup, saw it on the internet once. maybe we should try it out?”

you scoff before you cup both of his cheeks, "yeah, maybe let’s test it out.”

and if it was even possible, his smile grows wider.

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