#yeah i’m using their fucked up names

[aeorisforlovers]

Umbrella Academy but Klaus watched Julie and The Phantoms one too many times and starts a ghost band.

Ben is on bass. 🎸

#the umbrella academy #TUA #klaus hargreeves #julie and the phantoms #ben hargreeves #four hargreeves #six hargreeves #yeah i’m using their fucked up names #netflix tua #gerard way #um #the seance #the horror #the horrors #ok i’m done

[pepperpixel]

“Can't remember when we walked past the O.R. sign!

(sur-ger-y!)

Can't remember passing out with her hand in mine!

(my-my-mind!!!!)

I remember waking up with my mind repaired.

(A-OK! ^^)

I remember when I realized, she wasn't there...”

Amnesia was her name….. is. so. horrifically. sadly fitting for these two in literally every single line. And I’m gonna NEED ALL OF U GUYS TO GO LISTEN TO IT NOW OK… THIS ISNT A DRILL GO GO GO GO!!!

Anyway… uhh. the fact Betty “blessed” this guy to like. An eternally long lifespan w THIS FUCKED UP OF A MENTAL STATE IS SO SCREWED UP GHGH- Like poor Simon god damn…! u kno he’d rather just keep on not sorting out his baggage and trauma forever too cuz it’d be too complicated… too much… force him to admit things about himself and about BETTY that he really really doesn’t want to… better to just leave it all unexamined.. pack it all into lil boxes so he can just try to ignore it and pretend it doesn’t exist… HE GOTTA LIVE FOREVER W IT THO… *ME BANGING ON SIMONS DOOR AT 3 IN THE MORNING*: “SIMON U GOTTA ACCEPT URSELF!!!! LOVE URSELF!!!! ACKNOWLEDGE N ACCEPT EVEN THE “BAD” PARTS OF URSELF!!!! SIMON PLEASE!!!!! SIMON EVEN PPL WHO LOVE YOU AND WHO YOU LOVE CAN HURT YOU!!!! ACKNOWLEDGE IT!!! ACKNOWLEDGE THE HURT AND ACKNOWLEDGE UR FEELINGS!!!! AND URSELF!!!!! SIMON!!!!” anyway… gGHGH YEA, SRRY. SIMON PETRIKOVS MENTAL ILLNESSES MAKE ME FEEL LIKE IM GONNA EXPLODE. ANYWAY HAVE SOME ART. W a bunch of diff versions cuz I’m indecisive!

#adventure time #simon petrikov #betty grof #petrigrof #doodles #lol at tagging this petrigroff but nah I stand by it man!!!! #being a petrigroff shipper is understanding that I’m actually canon these two need som fuckin COUPLES COUNSELING. OR TO JUST BREAKUP. #like….. gGHG I LOVE BETTY BUT ALSO. ALSO… also…. these 2 have some issues… seperate and together issues. lmao #ANYWAY THO. ANYWAY THO. IM SO FUCKING EXCITED. I SAW THE NEW TRAILER. IM GONNA DIE. MY WIFE I GOT TO SEE MY WIFE #AND WERE ACTUSLLY GONNA GET SIMON MENTAL STATE SHIT YEAHHHHH!!!! #HELL FUCKING YEAH!!!!!!!!! #FIONNA AND CAKE DO NOT LET THIS NERD KEEP RUNNING AWAY FROM HIS FEELINGS FUCKING GET HIS ASS!!! MAKE HIM FACE IT AND WORK THRU IT!!! #pls!!!! if even Simon Petrikovs can start working thru his mental traumas there might be hope for all of us ghghg #uh but anyway yeah. AMBESIA IS HER NAME IS SO THEM.. STRAIGHT UP I FELT THE URGE TO EVEN LIKE. make an animatic for it!! it was so fitting! #im not gonna make an animatic cuz I don’t feel like it but!!! I saw it… I saw the animatic in my brain ghghg- #there’s a lot of typos in these tags but. just do me a favor… and pretend like there aren’t lol #fionna and cake #am I…. possibly…. projecting more mental trauma and issues on Simon. then he ACTUALLY has… #probably. yes. but!!!! he def still DOES have issues. I feel like I’m probably exaggerating the Betty ones cuz he #never really outright expresses feeling hurt by her. but also I feel like!!!! he’s the sorta guy!!! WHO WOULDNT EXPRESS THAT! #cuz he loves her!!!!! sO MUCH!! and she did so much and pushed herself so far and was trying so hard… and also she’s fucking basically d #dead now!!!! it’d be like. disrespectful of her memory…. to feel that. also what’s even the point of expressing that pain she’s gone!!!!! #she did all of that.. for him… how could he…. just. spit in the face of that #im writing those last few tags in the he perspective of simons mind btw… the things he tells himself…. #anyway gGHG MAYBE I AM PROBABLY PROJECTING MORE ISSUES ON HIM THEN HE ACTUALLY HAS BUT WHO CARES MAN #I’m allowed ghghgh- #I wanna draw art of Simon having a traumatic flashback to the ‘Dont worry ull be obliterated soon!’ line and hating himself for it #ice king isn’t him!!! it isn’t him! it’s not him!!! why does that hurt it shouldn’t hurt she wasn’t talking to HIM #BUT SHE WAS #SHE WAS… she didn’t think of the ice king as Simon but he IS… HE IS AND JUST. URGHGH

[quietwingsinthesky]

what if. Amy “fix-it” because hallucifer makes sam so paranoid about dean leaving for no reason that sam gives in and follows him and is witness to the whole thing

#hallucifer: wow. big brother really trusts us. (beat) so something’s up right? we know it’s never this easy. #sam: (visibly restraining himself from saying shut up. about to grab his scar.) #hallucifer: (aware he’s about to be banished) don’t listen to me if you want but. I’m just trying to help. #don’t blame me if you look in the papers tomorrow and find a obit for your brain-eating girlfriend. and… what was her kid’s name again? #sam: (touching the scar. not pressing down. face all screwed up.) || hallucifer: :3 it’s not like it’ll hurt anyone #if he really does trust you he doesn’t even have to know we’re following him. *and* you’ll know your brother still trusts you. #even when I’m here. maybe he won’t even punch you again. that still hurting? #sam: (grimace. because yeah. it does.) || hallucifer: door number two - he thinks you’ve lost it and he’s going to stab that woman to death. #so what’s it gonna be Sam? ready to gamble your friend’s life on if Dean gives a shit about your opinion? #[and that’s the point where sam goes to follow dean. still doesn’t talk to Lucifer. not there yet. but oh hallucifer is sooo pleased with #himself about this. because he’s Sam. and he picks up on what Sam doesn’t. and he could see all of Dean’s little giveaways that Sam was #turning a blind eye to. and now here’s the perfect opportunity to put a wedge between them and get sam to trust him more <3) #GOD. FUCK. IM UPSET NOW. WHY WASNT HALLUCIFER IN THAT EPISODE. MOST OF THE EPISODES? #such a good fucking concept. squandered. #anyway. idk if sam saves Amy but he DEFINITELY here’s Dean’s little speech to her about how she can’t change. #hallucifer with faux sympathy like (sigh) damn. well. i always told you what he was like. Michael. Michael-sword. no difference. #both of them want us dead the moment we step out of line. #and Sam just frozen there in horror with Lucifer’s voice sinking in. and he believes him. how can he not. with dean proving him right #hallucifer #spn #sam winchester #amy pond

[laniidae-passerine]

Honestly I think Dean Highbottom has some shit to answer to as well. The mockery, the derision, the outright admittance that he was hoping Coriolanus would fail and the Snow family would continue to suffer. How someone who loathed the Games still treated a young man with cruelty because of the past, because of social divides that would be so easy to tear down. In the end, it wasn’t just Gaul who shaped Snow into the man he became. So bitter and hateful. So incapable of compassion and forgiveness. Just like his father. Just like his Dean.

#like yeah there were a lot of things questionable about Snow even before he was chosen as a mentor in the games #but like. damn. you didn’t even consider the idea he could be better than his father did you? #the way kindness could have unravelled some of the hate in Snow’s heart #listen to me tell you the horrible things your father did. listen to me tell you that you can be different. you are not the past. #the divides between us do not truly exist. look at the weapon in your hand. it is real. and it can do real damage #but if you never hate someone - if they never fool you into letting violence into your heart - they can never make you use it #it breaks my heart. how could you hate a ghost so much that you’d kill a child. I don’t know. but the Dean does. and so does Snow. #the cycles run and run until somebody stops. and burns some bread. and shares berries. and takes an arrow. and says no more. I love you #it is difficult. it could hurt me. it could be the very last thing I do. it may not even serve me well. but I love you. I love. always. #how pathetic hate makes you. how strong love makes you. like staring at the Dean and staring at characters like Haymitch #like two substance abusing men who know the system inside out. who are complicit. who are victims. both embittered and angry. #but one saw a child and decided to punish him for the past #and the other saw a child and decided - okay. it’s been 23 years. my heart hurts. I want to give in. I want to hate you. I want to not care. #I’m going to care anyway. I’m in so much pain. It’s killing me. I’m going to care anyway. about you both. it won’t be perfect. but I care. #and I’ll be here through hell. and I will fuck up. so fucking badly. because I’m still addicted and angry and god knows I have suffered. #god knows these hands are bloody and they always will be. but I will keep coming back. I will keep trying. I will still love. #and in the end I will write names in a book that belongs to you and I will find a little bit of peace in a house where the sun shines #and the geese make ridiculous noises in the yard. and love will have seen me through. #HAYMITCH YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS I LOVE YOU MY IMPERFECT DARLING #dean highbottom #coriolanus snow #the hunger games #a ballad of songbirds and snakes #haymitch abernathy #thg #abosas #suzanne collins #SHE WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS

[dykeredhood]

Love how my choosing to see a therapist coincides with the 10 year anniversary commemorative Stucky mass hysteria event, that’s fun

#every time I bring up this unofficial tumblr celebration I’m gonna add more words to the name #ASIDE from my wanting to fuck the arm (which I’m not gonna bring up to my counselor lmao it’s irrelevant) #she was telling me: oh wow yeah that’s actually brave to strike out on your own and end up with your very own apartment & stable job etc. #I don’t see it that way??????? I don’t consider it particularly brave or tenacious it’s an obligation and I did what I needed to 💁🏻‍♀️ #and I brought up how I don’t consider myself a person more just a useful tool/someone else’s means to an end #it feels weird to do anything solely for me that’s more significant than getting something tasty to eat #also after our session I felt physically drained and emotionally wrecked for the rest of the day (a good 6 ish hours) #not even weirdly calm and empty just kind of lost and wrecked #I’ll have to tell her next time I don’t enjoy others pointing out when I’m crying #that didn’t really help my overall state #so in case there were any doubts about why I cleave to the Winter Soldier character like a limpet #oh I also said the word ‘nascent’ a bunch because I speak very precisely #no designated tag for all this just yet; we might get there so I have a chronicle #of my assorted feelings to look back on #rant in tags #personal

[be-gay-do-crime-ahaha]

Holy fucking shit the dysphoria is dysphoria-ing right now. I feel physically nauseous oh my fucking god. I’m gonna fucking kill someone maybe myself rn I’m gonna lose my shit holy hell.

Doesn’t help that I’ve been incredibly overstimulated the past few days every sound is like a fucking cheese grater in my ears oh my god.

#dysphoria #gender dysphoria #sensory processing disorder #tw emetophobia #for the nausea mention #idk if that’s needed or not #but yeah I’m about to tear off my fucking skin and jump off a building I am losing my fucking mind #it’s so over #lmao my brain is fucked i genuinely wanna off myself over this shit #and my mother keeps refusing to even entertain the idea of getting my name changed on the school role #even though all my teachers and friends call me Alex and that’s what I’ve been going by for a few years now #and it would make things significantly easier for everyone because it would fix my email name as well #so that’s not helping #and she was talking about my period and being all “it’s okay all WOMEN get these ❤️ you’re just becoming a beautiful woman #and now she keep being rude to my sister because she uses men’s deodorant (because it works better) and doesn’t really wear dresses #(because she finds them annoying and inconvenient) #and is being all “hurr durr you’re copying your SISTER stop being so masculine” #like fucking hell #shit talking me and harassing my sister all at once #man I want to fucking kill myself im so done with this shit #and I’m so overdue on school work and I feel so overwhelmed and stressed this fucking sucks #and I know the school work and stuff is fully my fault for forgetting and slacking off but I can’t bring myself to do them because the #stress of fucking up and just how much of it I have to do is pushing me to my damn limit #I can’t even bring myself to start on my film and media assignment that’s a week overdue because I’m so fucking stressed just thinking about #it and I’m so overwhelmed I can’t fucking do this. I just can’t. and I know I’m at fault for procrastinating and being too lazy and stressed #to bring myself to start working on it #and things are just gonna get more and more difficult #so yeah. rant over I guess. sorry guys #did not mean to rant in the tags this much dysphoria is just killing me and so is general stress #tw suicidal thoughts

[designernishiki]

i seriously wonder if we’re ever going to learn about majima’s childhood/pre-saejima background. like. it’s fucking wild that after literal decades we still don’t know anything about him prior to age 20ish. for gods sake rgg devs release the majima tapes

#it bothers me as a guy who likes to psychoanalyze the shit out of characters that I can’t take into account his fundamental developmental #years and whatnot like seriously it BOTHERS me #PLEASE like was he an orphan?? if so why??? did he have siblings???? where the hell is he actually legitimately FROM? this guy is a fucking #ENIGMA he’s almost 60 and we still don’t know SHIT #it’s gonna HAUNT me PL E A SE JUST GIVE US. SOMETHING #is there another majima out there???? does this man have ANY family????? IS HIS NAME EVEN MAJIMA OR DID HE MAKE IT UP. WHO KNOWS #I hope there isn’t something I’m missing and this makes me look stupid but. yeah #majima #yakuza #rgg #rambling #I need to sleep it is almost 5:30am

[sobecomesomethingelse]

maybe paige’s god’s name should be vaughan, since one could make the argument that vaughan was the seed of the wound tree

#or maybe more like paige’s losing vaughan Like That #was the seed #the silt verses spoilers #silt verses spoilers #i have a lot of feelings about vaughan #do you ever think about the fact that they were so important to both paige and carpenter #but they’ve never talked about them like as far as we know never even spoken their name since they died #vaughan who was so kind so invested in the people around them #so SMART like they got the fuck out of that hogie stand and left the damn country #and then the foreshadowed jaws snapped shut #i’m sure it was all in the contract #i say through clenched teeth #it’s definitely not the same as being fucking burned alive at a work function but i do live in a right to work state #and i used to work at a law firm this so i yeah i read my contract #and if you do you know there could in fact come a day when they decide to make use of you #targeted layoffs to make the numbers go up are like. again preferable to being BURNED ALIVE #but given the choice i would prefer to not face the threat of either of these things actually

[ace-culture-is]

I’m alive btw just having no energy, stuff on my situation in the notes ig

#not ace culture #sascha speaks up #tw from here mentions of emotional abuse ig??? #anyway I didn’t clean the house and my dad said the day before he’d drive me to see if I could get a job interview #he said he wouldn’t take me #and that I wouldn’t be allowed to use his name #if I wanted a job I’d need to find my own transportation #I have no money to my name except money that is in Eli’s home state and j can’t access that without downloading cash app and risking having #him find it #I have no driver’s license because technically my dad isn’t my legal guard it’s my grandpa and he lives in a different city #so I’m #screwed #I’m 17 with no job and I feel like a failure #because what kind of person fucks up right before getting a job interview #not to mention my dad said I would get fired in a few months anyway and that I’d ruin his reputation but it’s nothing personal #and now I’m being pressured to run away from home because oh yeah leaving my siblings behind when I’m eighteen isn’t damaging enough #I don’t know #I’ll figure it out #if I don’t snap and #ya know #*slicing motion against throat* #if I live that long I’ll cross that bridge ig #if you read this far down I’m sorry #it’s night for me so gn

[jaeheewillalwaysbemyfav]

…and I thought the issue I’d run into with my theory posts was that someone would get mad that I lowkey called god an abuser lmao

#mine #honestly there’s a genuine interesting debate to be had about how we should refer to the big monotheistic three #and I am well aware of issues that occur when (mostly) gentiles use stuff like Judeo-Christian and abrahamic #but if you’re gonna come onto my post where I specifically asked for no religious discourse #(bc i warned that I’d be referring to biblical lore in a glib way to analyse a silly otome game) #and call me names #instead of blocking me like a goddamn adult #do you really expect me to take you in good faith? #i didn’t even use the fucking word judeo-christian or imply any kind of universality to the lore bits I was discussing #sure i guess I could’ve added a disclaimer about how the big three’s mythologies get mixed up a lot #but it had nothing to do with what I was talking about #because again. I Did Not Fucking Say Anything Was Universal #i just needed a quick and easy to understand shorthand that wasn’t specific to any one religion #bc oh yeah I’m also juggling not calling any one specific practice out #bc that wouldn’t be fair either #anyway this is why context and picking your battles matters #trust me if I ever info dump specifically about Jewish mythology you’ll know #there will be no room for ambiguity #hashed-tag jewish-prosecutor-Satan is best Satan

[scottishstoner]

This new “relationship” with my coworker guy is pissing me off he’s totally bizarre sending mixed signals sometimes but being so sweet in real life and when we go out or are at his flat…. At work he’s a different person and he likes to pick fights about stupid shit and he’s scared of commitment so we weren’t labelling things taking it slow (which I prefer to go with it not label it until I’m ready and he is) but we both don’t want to see other people, he’s a gentleman and we have messed around but nothing all the way but now I feel like he isn’t with it with the upset he’s causing me even if he says he feels strongly for me and it isn’t even like he’s using me either….he’s just confused as he’s never been with anyone before (he’s 26 I’m 28) and it’s all new to him and he’s going through a lot in life but so am I and he says some rude things sometimes and I just don’t know if he’s worth this shit but I hate that I still have feelings for him but I might have to forget him because of everything and it just hurts so much

#I also am moving jobs when I find another coz the people at that workplace hotel restaurant are toxic as fuck man #sn staff recently have been weird to me coz apparently one girl liked him first like sorry should’ve made ur move then or told me #work #personal #my ​love life #at work he gets so weird coz people say things about us and I said it’s like ur ashamed (waiting on replt he’s working rn I called in sick) #only coz I legit couldn’t sleep and worked until 11:30pm last night and wanted me in at 8am #but they had me work 2am before and was in at 6am that’s ILLEGAL here🤌🏻 #then staff make up shit to make me look bad and I got into shit when it wasn’t me!!! fuck sake #the gm he’s the only one who knows I’m great at my job but I cannot work with people or under managers like this who are toxic anyway #and unorganised #long story #I also got told I never done my job right oh yeah ? is that why u praise me? and u get great trip advisor reviews naming ME ?? #I have never been so insulted honestly coz I know for a fat I am great at waitressing … and I forgot to put ONE order though when it was #a lunch rush and I was THE ONLY waitress on the floor like?? I also fixed it 15 mins later like #also lying saying I don’t take payment oh that’s BULLSHIT #GONLOOK AT RHE RECIPTS HSLF OF THEM HAVE MT NAME SS RHE SEEVER AT THE BOTTOM FUCK OFF

[hobisexually]

x

#You know what’s weird? #in a way I am more steady in myself than I have ever been. I see my worth rather than pretend I see my worth but actually don’t #I see where all my shit stems from in a way I never used to. I talk about it in a communicative way I was never able to before #like all of it is lining Up and somehow? I also feel worse? #I don’t know if it’s because I’m just more aware now and also more capable of changing my habits or whatever or if it’s just less repressed #but like. been having seasonal affective disorder since I was eight probably and even before but then you didn’t know #and I didn’t put the pieces together until. what. 2014? 2015? I didn’t know it had a name #and id always count it a good winter if I hadn’t disassociated at all. that was the goal. #now 2022 is over and the months where id disassociate are also over (it always gets easier for me come January) #and I made it through without disassociating! that’s a huge win right! right? but ….. #and somehow it felt like? SUCH a rough winter? and I handled it well but everything feels so heavy #and I know it’s not worse than prior years. I do. but it doesn’t FEEL like that #perhaps that’s because of everhthing that happened in December and my falling out with my dad and my owning up to how deep my trauma runs #instead of passing it off as ‘haha yeah some things were rough and winter sucks BUT I AM SO CHIPPER AND GOOD AND UPBEAT HA!’ #but honestly looking at it just. is a lot. and logistically I know I genuinely am the best version of myself currently #but 2014 me was funner thinner and wilder and she was also COMPLETELY unhinged and I know I shouldn’t want that version of me back #but I’m constantly comparing current me to her?????? as if she was the ultimate goal #I know when March comes and we’re back at the summer clock I’ll have forgotten how heavy I felt now #but whew…………….. whew it’s a lot #also completely being honest with yourself about jn how many areas your anxiety is Fucking debilitating sometimes #really sucks. it sucks. I feel so raw and vulnerable and I want to stop fixing things and just live #OH THAT TOO my roommate is Living It Up and I used to be able to keep up with her when we were in uni and now I can’t and that just #makes it feel even more like i regressed. I hate it. and again I Know myself now in a way I didn’t then and that’s worth so much #but ugh!!! ugh. and also I HATE that it feels like all I’ve done since November is complain but it’s been. Well. extraordinarily rough #I haven’t even told the internet any of it and even my friends know the minimum but. sigh. SIGH. #just sucks to see where your everything comes from. you know?

[ultraviolencced]

things are very very very bad ! :)

#like i’m literally in shock i don’t know how to live right now #get ready this is gonna be a whole ass book in the tags #*people that aren’t blood related but family bc my grandpa had someone working for him they became pals his wife and my grandma became pals #when they had kids my grandma would babysit and my mom would babysit and then i would be babysat by the girls my mom did she lived with us #for a while so yeah that’s the back story #she got pregnant while my mom was pregnant with my brother so mom had bro then a few months later i’ll call her m had her baby their name #was james and he became the newest member of the fam i visited them in the hospital when they were born and james and my bro became good pal #fast forward august 31st 2022 j passed away they did it themselves #friday was the service it was more of a celebration of life they already had the physical funeral and it was just immediate relatives #it was hard hearing their parents and their sister talk broke my heart #right after their sister spoke the music came back on and it was pilots it was the run and go and i broke down my sister had to go outside #it was really really fucking horrible to know that a queer kid i knew and loved died killed me #rewind to a few months ago my brother od’d on oxy he was in the hospital for 2 days it caused some physical damage to his heart enzymes #he got on antidepressants and a psychiatrist and seemed to be doing better #fast forward to saturday night he overdosed on street fentanyl he again went to the er and is now at a mental health center for a 72 hour #hold and after that we’re trying to find a rehab and mental health center #i grew up seeing what addiction does my uncle was a heroin addict from the time i was born until i was 16 or 17 so i saw some shit #and a lot of it fucked me up and i can’t see my brother go through that #my brother is the smartest mother fucker i know and fucking mental fucking illness fucking everything up like he earned 13 college credits #in 1 fucking day his japanese studies professor said my brother knew more than he did and fucking opiates fuck #and the sheriffs who searched his room found street fentanyl that they all had to have gloves bc it’s killing people in my town everyday #they said they literally get calls everyday because of this shit like i’m about to go find the piece of shit who sold it to him #and put my fucking 9 in his mouth and pull the trigger i’ll gladly go to prison for that tbfh #so that’s what happened with my brother and my non blood brother/cousin #now my fucking mom so she never goes to the doctor and me and my sister yell at her about it so she finally went to address her fucked up #neck and back well turns out she has degenerative disc disease same shit my grandma had basically her spine is crumbling #she also might have skin cancer and it could affect her throat and thyroid :) bc they saw something in her throat during her mri :) so fuck #and then there’s me and my crumbling jaw no joints without arthritis and brain tumor #and my sisters mental health is Not Good it hasn’t been for months and this is killing her and im so concerned for her #now all three siblings have been put on a 72 hour hold at some point :) sister at 12 or 13 me at 22(in there for my bday) now bro at 19

[wormsdyke]

not going to a catholic church for several years now allowed me to forget the way people can be so comfortable saying the most intensely guilt tripping things without a second thought

#it occurred to me that i might like to have some of my dads ashes in a small urn #and hoooooo boy #the reaction was unpleasant #ppl responded like oh. interesting. i mean if you think you want that then you can #it’s a sin. you’re denying the church if you do that but whatever #your poor grandparents will be so disappointed but you do you #ok. #i guess the idea is all of his ashes are kept in the columbarium at the church so anyone can visit any time #great lovely but he’s my fucking dad. why do i have to give him up so a bunch of people who don’t know him can theoretically stand by #a box with his name. why do i have to prioritize them #it wouldn’t even be all his ashes! but fine whatever yeah i’m tarnishing his eternal memory #anyways. where does one buy an urn #also i’ve been thinking about what to wear to his catholic funeral #the last time i saw most of these people i dressed feminine in a cishet way still cause u know. catholic #gotta call my old youth minister who told us to wear neck high blouses so when we bowed at communion the priest wouldn’t be tempted to look #down our shirts and ask her if i need to be concerned about that if i’m wearing a binder now #been thinking a lot about femininity lately #the things i miss but not because they made me feel good or affirmed #but because they made me feel less othered #i have got to find queer community irl #ok ok i’m done for now #tw: religion #tw: catholicism #orating!