#yes I’m mainly talking about 1D and what

[captaindanvers89]

Saw the 5H renaissance on Twitter and just gotta say, like Lauren tweeted, “the timeline’s triggering af”.

I grew up listening to those girls. I grew up supporting them. I remember watching their X Factor performances, their interviews even clips of their mall performances. And even though there were many upsides, there were a lot of downsides too.

I’m not going to touch on the messiness of Camila leaving the band because it’s too much to cover.

This is gonna be long cause I’m still mad at Syco for what they did to 5H.

I am a massive Lauren stan and I love her voice so much. I found it super annoying that she didn’t get enough solos (you guys if you’re 5H fans, know which ones) and I noticed how much Lauren changed over the course of 5H’s run.

I’m gonna start with the downsides first:

From 2012 to 2018, you could see how 5H changed for the better and for the worse. And the worse part was their contract.

According to their lawyer; she said that that contract was one of the worst she’d ever seen. And if you followed 5H throughout their run, you would’ve seen it.

I’m gonna start by mentioning Lauren cause I love that woman.

2012 Lauren had a spark in her and you could slowly see the light dim from her and it got especially bad in 2015-16. In the interviews, she always looked tired and wasn’t just her, the other girls too. It was clear that all of them were overworked and as Lauren said “literal slaves” and “they see nothing”. She’s also called out their label for exploiting the band and telling fans to “read their contracts” which should tell you how bad the situation was.

And it also applied to the other girls. For example; 2013 Camila was more joyful and more goofy then you move to 2016 Camila and she became more quiet.

I know you could say that she matured. And yes I agree; she did. But you could see how exhausted she was half the time. I’ll bring up another point as to why Camila became more quiet later in this post.

This just didn’t apply to 5H, it also applied to 1D and Little Mix. Below is a link of how Syco exploited them and just knowing all that made me so sad for them. These were teenagers, 5H especially (Dinah and Camila were 15, Lauren and Normani were 16) and their management worked them to the bone. Some highlights this person in the video talked about included how Dinah had to watch her great grandmother’s funeral over face time because management wouldn’t let her attend the funeral. And another point is that Lauren said in a very recent interview that from 2013-2018, she only went home for 2 weeks a year.

Now that’s insane. I’m mainly bringing up 5H cause like I said, I grew up with them. I was there when things started to go south. As much as I loved seeing clips of the girls goofing around esp when Dinah poured water over Camila and then Camila slipped on stage, it hurts knowing that they were exploited. I know people say 5H had no chemistry etc. But you have to remember that they auditioned as solo artists and were put together in a band. Plus it didn’t help that Camila was singled out, I feel that started the rift between her and the girls.

Anyways, like I said, I am a massive Lauren fan because she’s outspoken about her beliefs and she’s so underrated. If you see videos of her covering for the girls when they couldn’t perform, you know she has the range and the voice. One example I would quote is when she covered for Dinah in Who Are You. Now, I know that was Dinah’s song but hearing Lauren sing her parts gave me goosebumps. The fact that she had to least amount of lines in the Reflection album still pisses me off till this day.

Another point that I would like to make is that Dinah also pointed out that she had to tweak her vocals to make herself sound more pop because the producers told her that her voice was too soulful and didn’t suit the songs such as Sledgehammer or Boss. That’s crazy cause if you watched Dinah perform live, you know that woman has the range and the vocals. She impressed me so much with her X Factor audition and it was such a waste that she was sidelined because she didn’t suit the pop songs.

And another thing that Camila did point out is as that the girls were oversexualized in their songs. Camila and Dinah were 17 when they filmed and recorded the vocals for Worth It. Camila had to sing and I quote “I like it a little rough” when she was a minor. And didn’t help that for the music video; they dolled up the girls to make them look way older than they actually were. I mean look at Dinah, she looked to be 30 when she was 17.

I know some people are gonna debate that Camila could’ve easily turned down that line or spoken up. But you have to remember that their management controlled them. Like Lauren said, if you tried to go against management, they would brand you as a difficult and probably blacklist you. So, the girls couldn’t exactly say no while they were under contract.

Another downside that I would like to point out is that 5H had no creative control over their music. I mean YouTube has some of their unreleased songs such as Voicemail which is a bop and should’ve been on 7/27 and the fans love it. That’s why Camila left the band.

Again, some people might say “if 5H was gonna break up anyways, why didn’t she just pull through?”

And I raise you this, did you see how burnt out Camila was? That poor woman suffered an anxiety attack so bad that she couldn’t perform for half the show. The other girls also couldn’t deal with the exhaustion. Lauren broke down during No Way and Dinah started crying during Brave Honest Beautiful. It was just a huge mess and you expect Camila to suffer another year? Even Ally said in her book that she didn’t enjoy her time in 5H and it was because of the overworking, the fact that people were saying she wasn’t as good as the other girls. Yes, I’ve seen the tweets and the comments which are just awful.

You can’t compare Ally’s vocals to Camila’s or Normani’s, they all have different ranges and voices. You can’t compare Camila’s dancing to Normani’s, they have different backgrounds in dancing and Camila was a little bit less coordinated. You literally cannot compare the girls to each other because they were so different.

And now another point that I would say is a downside would be the shipping. And yes, the ship I’m talking about is Camren. Ngl, I used to ship them only because of the fanfics (you guys know which ones). But as I got older, I realized what Lauren said about the fans being super invasive and you could see how it affected her friendship with Camila. Lauren said it herself on Becky G’s podcast that she felt like a predator and she would hyper analyze her actions. And you could see it, you could see how she distanced herself from Camila because of the shippers (I still IHQ is about Lauren and somewhat about Dinah).

So yeah, when I saw the 5H renaissance trending, that brought me all those memories. But now, time for the upsides.

I said earlier that people say 5H didn’t have chemistry but have you seen their earlier interviews or their twitcams? They were goofing around with each other and just being teenagers because that’s what they were. I know people say 5H weren’t coordinated during rehearsals etc but you have to remember that their rehearsals were rushed. Lauren also mentioned that in her very recent interview so you can’t blame the girls for messing up (Well except Normani cause that woman is the goddess of dancing). Ally still doing a cartwheel while Camila and Dinah do the hammer dance still cracks me up but that was 5H. They were teenagers having fun on stage and it worked. The audience loved it.

So yes, while I did enjoy watching 5H (attended their Reflection tour , 7/27 tour and their self titled album tour) and watched their tour bus videos and interviews, just noticing the changes throughout the years, hurt and it was hard as a fan to see the spark dim from their eyes.

But ever since the group went on hiatus, you can slowly see them healing from the trauma. And I can’t blame Lauren for not wanting to rejoin the band for a comeback. I know she’s grateful for her time in the band and yeah, it helped her grow as an artist and helped her find her path in the industry. The same goes for the other girls too.

I just wish that these artists have a union like SAG-AFTRA to back them up because they are so exploited. This needs to be highlighted more, now that Syco is out of the picture.

The link for the video about how Syco exploited these artists: https://youtu.be/RrG8vqJOZms?si=Kn2ZgxvFM8wsaHyc

The link for Lauren’s very recent interview where she talked about the industry: https://www.youtube.com/live/5SH_2SKoD7Y?si=IF8KUUmb0nEuk6L5

#fifth harmony #5h #lauren jauregui #camila cabello #ally brooke #normani #dinah jane #little mix #one direction #Youtube

[dogsliampaynedoesntinstagram]

Do you have any podcasts or episodes on Larry that you'd recommend? I have basically listened to that one and the Reply All episode. I'd welcome any others that you thought were good.

Well, yes i have many that I could recommend. I didn’t hesitate to list them all so here you go. It’s not necessarily a list of recommendations bc I mainly listen to them for taking in different perspectives but I barley if ever agree with them. It depends on what your looking for I guess. i did comment the ones that I found the most interesting/ entertaining (yes I have a lot of time bc I’m stuck in quarantine rn🤧😷)

Who is Larry Stylinson- Pop Unmuted (seems like it’s not available anymore now but this was always my absolute fave so if anyone finds a way to still listen to it pls share! This is the academic kind of take I was talking about, Ralph, you would like it, I’m sure)

Larry Stylinson: When fandom goes too far - Name 3 Songs (they work in the media themselves, discussing boundaries and toxic fandom, discussing gay stereotypes, tend to be against the idea of it but break it down and also have their weak, sus moments in it, very very good!)

One direction Babygate - Lizard People (my fave, they aren’t in fandom at all, they spill some tea about Briana, it’s a pod about conspiracy theories, they have a lot of fun, no bad feelings, one of them fully believes it, most entertaining episode ever, I don’t take it seriously but I loved it!! listened to it so many times already just bc I’m so entertained by these two!)

The Larridox Part 1 - What I will say (more of an anti, mod is a gaylor, they are convinced of gryles and Taylor’s gay relationships, it’s an interesting take but not necessarily my cup of tea, they have some very good older episodes about the industry and closeting with someone who’s experienced it themselves)

Larry - Bait: queerbaiting podcast (they aren’t in fandom, they don’t like shipping people in general but were having a blast talking about Larry, very fun but also kinda superficial)

Larry Stylinson (Episode #7) - Callsheet! (Not in fandom, breaking it down, keeping it real, it’s fun and light, they joke around the whole time, it’s like talking about Larry with your besties in school, I found it very endearing, nice to listen to if you have to clean up your room)

Shit larries say Podcast (not a recommendation at all but I find it too fascinating to not mention it here, you gotta have some nerves for this one, an anti conspiracist, she hates larries/ Larry, has great knowledge about the workings behind conspiracy theories tho, seems a little narrow minded to me, it can be entertaining but it’s an eye roll to me for the most part, you might get frustrated)

Other ones that aren’t that good but still kinda fun:

1. Red Herrings with Sh*t larries say - I met you in LJ, 2. Larry Deep Dive - Not to be a bitch but, 3. Larry - Big Bitch Engergy, 4. Looking back at Babygate - 2 Girls 1D, 5. Larry Stylinson : We’ll just wait it out - You know what I’ve been wondering —> some of them have more than one episode! Almost all of them just discuss Larry and the timeline.

Ralph, Im not sure that you would like most of them bc personally I just really enjoy listening to different perspectives. The first one is a true gem so I’m really frustrated that it’s not available anymore. it was until a few weeks ago. The second one is very good imo although they are really biased and lean more into the anti side of fandom but I recommend it! I’d be very interested to hear what you think about that one. And you really have to listen to the bbg episode by lizard people in case you wanna have a great time. All of them are available on either Spotify or apple podcast (apart from the first one, someone send me an audio of that episode, I need it! 🙄😪I still had to mention it here just in case). The reply all episode was also on my list, originally. I haven’t listen to it in a while. I only remember that they had larries as their guests and that I was a little irritated by them. But their approach to it by having someone invited who got confused by fans as Eleanor’s brother was very interesting to me. That’s it. Sorry this is way too long. I’m just a podcast kind of person.

Thanks so much for sharing anon - this is a great list.

I've found the Pop Unmuted episode and listened to it. What a moment in time to have captured - April 2016 was such a key moment of transition. The idea that fans believed that Louis' wasn't Freddie's father had gone mainstream and suddenly everything was being talked about much wider, but in a way that ended up making these conversations much more difficult to have.

Thanks so much for the recommendation. I really enjoyed it and thought it was really interesting, although I do get very annoyed when people suggest Larrie ideas that I see as completely unsubstantial alongside ones that I think are important. (The bears are interesting enough! There's no need to shoehorn the September 28 nonsense in!)

I'm really looking forward to some of these - I'll probably stay away from the hard antis. I listen to Cam from What I Will Say quite regularly, but find her take on Larry infuriating. I do want at least some curiosity.

I've just started listening to the Lizard People episode and that seems super fun as well (and recorded around the same time).

#Hope other people enjoy these as well #I've found them super interesting so far

[justascrollingghost]

wild that singers record themselves singing and don’t delete that shit immediately like the rest of us

#honestly though #just imagine being good at singing? #it’s an injustice that I’m not #yes I’m mainly talking about 1D and what #just gonny list my faves now merry Christmas #harry styles #niall horan #louis tomlinson #dua lipa #taylor swift #billie eilish #tom grennan #imagine dragons #arctic monkeys #right am bored #musicians

[stormblessed95]

Hello 👋🏼. I’ve been an ARMY for two years now and recently I became a Kookmin supporter. It took me a while to believe and accept KM were a couple because I had previous “shipping” experience. A little bit of backstory, I used to be a One Direction fan. I left the fandom when they split up in 2015. I was 16 years old at that time.

And yes, I was a Larry shipper (Please don’t judge, I was young, dumb and naive). Larry shippers had this belief that Modest! (aka 1D’s management) was this big evil homophobic company that censored Larry. They were close but their interactions became less and less as the years went by. Larry shippers believed that Modest! was forcing Larry to stop interacting. That Larry was being forced to stay closeted. When I became an ARMY, I quickly learned about all the ships. However, I told myself I wouldn’t ship anything ever again. I just didn’t want to get too emotionally invested on a relationship that involved real people.

As it turns out, Larry was never real. I didn’t want to go through the same thing. Another reason as to why it took me so long to believe KM was the real deal: skinship and Korean culture. I’ve never seen two men be so close before (I’m American) but I quickly learned that it’s normal for Korean men to be touchy and affectionate with each other. The K-Pop industry encourages skinship and fan service so it made sense to dismiss KM’s closeness. Finally, the last reason is how KM are never censored or forced to cease all interaction. I came into this knowing that management companies and record labels are homophobic. I thought if KM are real, why are they still interacting and acting like a couple? Shouldn’t they stop doing that in order to ward off suspicion? They are so loud that it’s impossible for them to be real, no? Aren’t they closeted? Wouldn’t BigHit essentially be Modest! 2.0?

Fortunately, I realized that I was being silly since it’s two different cultures, countries and industries. It seems like BigHit is supportive of them, which warms my heart. I’m glad they’re not forced to censor themselves. I’m glad that BH doesn’t mind putting out KM content, even if that content shows them as a couple. Just look at Memories 2019. BH could’ve cut many of those moments but they didn’t. If KM are indeed a couple then they hit the jackpot. I’ve heard how some K-Pop companies are extremely homophobic (mainly the big three) so I’m happy that they found a company that’s supportive.

Sorry for the long message/ask.

Anon, I am not that old. You telling me you were 16 in 2015 though, made me feel old 😂

I'm not sure if there is even really an ask in here, but I do appreciate your story! I was a very causal listener of 1D. Didn't really keep up with the drama at all. Didn't know the Larry drama until years later when other friends were talking about it. The only name I knew of those boys were Harry and I think Zane? But anyways, it's very understandable to not want to deal with any of that again and to be very against shipping in general after that experience. It's honestly insane how similar your story about Larry shippers is to what I've seen with Tkkrs. Blows my mind a little actually.

KM and BH seem to keep things very unclear. Won't confirm, won't deny. Besides, shipping culture is very much so a thing, and even encouraged at times in Kpop. It's nothing new. But yes, KM very much so enjoy their glass closet and BH let's them for the most part, its nice to see and I enjoy everything they give us. In the end, the difference between how I see KM and the Larry fiasco is that even if KM end up with other people or I turn out to have been wrong about all this... as long as the boys are happy, I will be happy and support them in whatever they do and whoever they do it with!

Thanks again for sharing your story with me! I'm glad you see what we all see with KM here too. Hopefully your experience will go a little better this time. Remember it's always okay okay simply take some steps back if it ever gets too crazy or overwhelming again! 💜

#jikook #kookmin #tkkrs are larries #finding kookmin #anon #ask

[whatladybird]

can you tell us about you and your fiance like how did you meet how did you start dating and when etc? 💛

oh my goodness this is so sweet 🥺 anon thank you for giving me the opportunity to talk about the person I love!! their name is evan and we actually met on okcupid lol I was getting real sick of the dating pool so I searched ‘one direction’ in my area and their profile popped up but I knew (since they present masculine) that they were probably getting hit up by 1d girls all the time so I was like how do I Stand Out. but THEN I saw that their favorite movie was space jam and I was holy shit. space jam is MY favorite movie!! so I messaged them about that, we talked about movies and lemony snicket and yes, eventually one direction. they asked me out on a date, we went out five times, and on the fifth date I was like do u want to date anyone else? and they were like nah do u? and then we were boyfriend girlfriend :)

there was a lot of drama when we first got together because they and my best friend at the time, who was also my roommate, HATED each other. it was mainly centered around how my best friend and I were very codependent and our mental illnesses totally enabled each other and we were NOT healthy. we treated each other very badly. and evan was like you absolutely deserve better than this and really helped me in what was eventually a very traumatic friend breakup. you know that john mulaney bit where he’s like “I didn’t know that relationships were supposed to make you feel better about yourself” like that was me. and what I love so much about evan is not that they like, came along and loved me and therefore my problems were solved, but that they really encouraged my journey to loving myself and wanting better for myself and standing up for myself. and that has continued to be a tenet of our relationship!

they proposed to me last may after we cooked a big brunch and watched an episode of seinfeld. their mother gave us her engagement ring but evan took the diamond and designed a new ring just for me based on conversations we’ve had and I love it so much. it’s literally what my little 13-year old lord of the rings obsessed ass would have wanted which makes me emo!!

we’ve now been together six years, we live together, we have dog together, and they’re still like my best friend and I just love hanging out with them every day. we both love movies, especially horror movies, so we have a podcast and always throw a big oscar’s party and watch movies together all the time, but it’s also really easy to just be like hey, I’m doing my own thing tonight. I love you. see you later. they read all my poems before I publish them, they eat everything I bake even though they don’t have a sweet tooth, they’ve been DMing our D&D group for four years and they’re amazing at it! I love them so much!! can’t wait to get married!! can’t wait to spend my life with them :)

#sorry anon you really opened a can of worms there #SORRY THIS IS SO LONG #I JUST LOVE EVAN SO MUCH!!!!!! #sweet riesling

[maylacute]

thanks for tagging me @parsleybabe

🌼 what do you prefer to be called name-wise?

Maya 

🌼 when is your birthday?

I was born in July

🌼 where do you live?

New York

🌼 three things you’re doing right now?

Eating, watching TV and just basically lazing around

🌼 four fandoms that have piqued your interest right now?

I wouldn’t really say I’m in any current fandoms right not. Just kinda have a lot of interests but what is on my dash is mainly 1D, Kpop or 9-1-1 with a mixture of random other things I enjoy.

🌼 how is the pandemic treating you?

All things considered pretty well. My family and friends are well because they take precautions and are vaccinated which I am thankful for. Mainly the sucky part was that I had to finish out my last semester in university online and the pandemic kinda put a dent in the plans for my future that I had going for when I graduated. I will be starting graduate school soon though which is good even if it is later than anticipated. I’m just kinda scared of going back in person given the current situation even me being vaccinated with.

🌼 song you can’t stop listening to right now?

Have Mercy by Chole

🌼 recommend a movie

I just finished the Fear Street trilogy on Netflix and that was really good.

🌼 how old are you?

 23

🌼 school, university, occupation, other?

I will be going to graduate school

🌼 do you prefer hot or cold?

Cold. Always cold.

🌼 name one fact others may not know about you.

Honestly not a big fan of chocolate. I have hated it since I was little

🌼 are you shy?

Yes very.

🌼 do you have any preferred pronouns?

She/her is good

🌼 any pet peeves?

Just rude people mostly. A lot of of my pet peeves focus around people though.

🌼 what’s your favourite “dere” type?

Had to actually look up what dere was but if the research I did was correct than I would go with Tsundere, Kuudere and Dandere

🌼 rate your life 1-10. 1 being really crappy and 10 being the best you could ever be.

6.5 or 7 Really feel like I’m working my way through this whole adult life thing.

🌼 what’s your main blog?

this one

🌼 list your side blogs and what they’re used for.

I have none.

🌼 is there anything you think people need to know about you before becoming friends with you?

I really am shy and heavily introverted both online and in real life. But once i get comfortable around you that goes away and I can be the most talkative person you will ever meet. 

Idk who to tag so up for anyone really.

#ask

[louisinmadrid]

WE MADE IT LISTENING PARTY

Keep in mind that I’m paraphrasing and not quoting directly because I obviously couldn’t record anything, and I think most of what I’m saying here has already been talked about during the day, so it’s not like I’m leaking anything 🙃 I just want to remember it with my own words.

There were about 15 of us, everyone was so nice and chill, the updates accounts were there and had gotten a few invites and the others were just random people like me who had gotten a call from Sony around noon today.

We were put in a room with a big spread of food and drinks with cups with our names on it, and a big kakemono of Louis. They told us that we would listen to the song either one by one or with a friend if we wanted and they would record our reactions. They took our phones.

My friend and I went second and together, we signed a form stating that we consented to our image being used but no NDAs. They put a mic on us too. We listened to the song and I tried to contain myself because I didn’t want to burst into tears on camera fjfjjfkd I snapped my neck faster than Niall did when I heard the line about being kids trying to figure things out and also the part when he says that they knew they would make it right from the start and also the whole thing about wondering what “they would say if they could see us now” I was just biting my lips so bad ahhhhhh the chorus is about being underestimated and saying goodbyes, waving away the hard times. My heart was bursting istg. Then the girl from Sony asked us our thoughts about the song and to make it seem like we were talking together with my friend, kinda casual, what we thought it meant, and if we could summarize the song with one word. The only thing that came to my mind was “victory” I’m fjjfjfffjxjd

anyway after that we got back to the room and while others were listening to the song, another girl asked if we could think of questions for Louis, we should write them down on a sheet of paper and they would pass them along for an interview at a later date. LITTLE DID WE KNOW. We listened to all of Louis’s songs and a few 1D ones, everyone singing along. We then listened to We Made It 3 more times all together and by the end, everyone was singing along. It’s so catchy and those hey-hey-hey live are gonna be ICONIC!!! Then one of the girls from Sony kept checking her phone and trying to keep us busy, so there was like a pop quizz about Louis. His full name, his birth name, where’s from, when was he put in 1D, what musical was he in, everyone was answering with one voice it was funny. There was one (1) dad who’d come with his daughter, he was so impressed lmao. They asked if we’d ever been abroad to see him (MADRIIIID) and if we were a fan of the boys too and everyone said yes :’)

then the girl told us to sit facing the TV and that’s when we heard the dot dot dot sound from a skype call and we all froze, and we saw « Louis Tomlinson HQ » calling or something like that on the big TV screen so obviously half of us started crying djjfjdjdkf he was so fucking cute, first thing he did was say fank you for being here and for the support 😭😭 then he launched right into how long it had been since first starting writing the song 2 years and a half ago and how happy he was that it was out, that it felt so right and like he had found his sound then he kinda stopped and looked at us and said something like “ I feel like I’m a teacher having a lecture and you’re all listening to me this is a bit weird so did you like the song??” and everyone was laughing and saying YES OF COURSE!! then the girl from Sony gave us back the sheet of paper on which we’d written the questions so we could ask directly!!

There was a question about why releasing it now if he’d had it for over two years and he said it felt like now was the right time because after releasing Kill My Mind and performing it live, it gave him a confidence boost, comforting him into the idea that he was ready.

There was a question about whether the album would be linear, if there would be a storyline. He said that he didn’t want to sound too self indulgent but that the constant was him. “Me, I’m the storyline”. He said the album was kind of autobiographical so his life was the storyline.

Someone asked what his favorite line that he had ever written was and he got all cute “fucking hell I’ve been asked that question before, I should be able to answer”. He quoted the opening line of Walls, but the call cut and I didn’t catch it, something about love and waking up alone?? Or thinking you’re in love until you wake up alone? I think??? Please dont hate me for this and definitely don’t quote me on this because the sound was so bad I just couldn’t catch it :( the call jumped a few times and he would be like “hello??? you guys still here?? are we good?”

There was another question about where he would see himself in 10 years and he said “ehhhh, you know me, too much of a bad planner to think that far ahead” haha but hopefully still making music

Somebody asked why did he choose We Made It as a single out of all the songs he must have written and he said something like “well first, We Made It, the title in itself is kind of a concept, you know what I mean?” He then talked about wanting to put that one out now because lyrically “you all know the way I write, right, I say what I mean” or something like that, and musically, it just felt like the most honest he could be at the moment.

At some point, a girl was wearing a blue tracksuit and he said “before you ask your question, I love the tracksuit, love” :’) there was a lull in the questions so a girl showed him her smiley tattoo and he was very excited about it! Then before ending the call we took a picture with the TV, that was awkward but 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

We also recorded a few messages on camera at some point, silly things like « hi Louis », « We Made It in France », blowing kisses etc

Then the girl from Sony asked that we don’t talk about what had happened before the next morning so fans all over the world having listening parties later than us wouldn’t be spoiled. We told her a few things had leaked already, like lyrics, and she was disappointed but said she was mainly talking about the call with Louis. A girl asked if we should wait until the song was out to talk about it at all but she said no, just wait until tomorrow morning out of respect for the fans in different time zones - we hadn’t gotten our phones back then so we didn’t know it had already been leaked. She said “just be cool guys, you got the surprise so let other fans have it too”, which is fair, but too late... they are going to make compilation videos from the best reactions from the listening parties all over the world, apparently. Then it was over, we got our phones back and we left 💙

#gaelle parle #louis tomlinson #mary ​i listened tonthe audio i made just after itbwas over #in case i forgot anthing #hdbdbdjd #im sorry it was all so over the place

[pop-punklouis]

hi hope! i hope (lol forgive me) this isnt too invasive to ask, i was just wondering about your etsy business. is it going well, was it easy to start up and have you yet reached a place where what you invest in materials etc gets covered by your sells? and have you actually earned anything yet? if you dont feel like talking about this is totally fine! im just constantly wondering about small businesses of this kind, cause I would love to try out something like this but it seems like they're not really an option unless you have a really solid income that allows you to invest a lot without earning anything for months at the very least if not years and it's such a bummer.. not to mention the fact that it might just never really work and you'd end up losing everything. ugh why is everything so complicated :(

hi bb!

you actually caught me right after i finished fulfilling some orders haha. i know my etsy journey has been different than others (as they all are), so this is my personal experience!

I’ll answer your questions in the order you asked 🤍

• Is it going well?

it is! i haven’t even hit 12 months— that coming up in september— and I’ve already sold 1.3K products (but i don’t really talk about it much publicly as i feel weird about talking products sold & $$ idk!)

• Was it easy to start up and have you yet reached a place where what you invest in materials gets covered by your sells?

i wouldn’t say it was necessarily easy to start up. the lead up to actually selling on etsy was pretty stressful for me but that was mainly because i wanted to make sure my product was the best it could be, and i spent quite a bit of money out of pocket to get supplies (but i knew i had to spend money to make money and be successful in my business). but, i trusted the process and my work to keep going. i’ve been at a place since…. at least January, i believe where the costs in materials are covered by my sells. i have a week about every 5 where most of my deposit is spent on refilling supplies, but that’s only when i have to stock up on everything. i’m fortunate to be pretty steady in sells right now to make $$ weekly.

• Have you actually earned anything yet?

yes! i kinda answered this for your last question. i have a separate business account set up, so i can see exactly how much i’ve made and keep. when you deduct investments of supplies (and me using some of it for fun expenses), i still have quite a nice nest egg in there that i’m proud of.

I get the worry and doubt! i had the same. i truly think i lucked out for two reasons: 1) my products are based around 1D which has a very active fanbase and shops a lot on etsy to support other fans and 2) my product was niche— something that no one had really done before in the fandom (vintage handwritten songs/letters in the boys handwriting), so it instantly set my shop apart. this was when i first began, before i started selling my bookmarks where now i sell both interchangeably. but, i do think the theme of 1D/Solos helped a lot in the beginning because it gave it a boost in sells that other shops who just begin selling their products on etsy, without a vessel like that, really don’t have. i’ve read about many shops who have had a hard time with their shop until it began getting traction and daily sells which i also dealt with but on a much lower scale. having the elevation of a fandom does help, even though it isn’t necessary to have a thriving etsy shop/small business of course. i think opening a store in the fall too encourages sells as many people buy for the holidays and that’s where i saw the first big wave of sells.

imo, i would say to at least dip your toes in. feel it out and just trust yourself. i was afraid of failure for a long time which caused me to hold back on opening a shop for months before i took the plunge. i never would’ve thought i’d be where i am now (i never thought i’d sell over 100 truth be told haha). so, it’s been a weird yet endlessly fulfilling journey that i don’t regret doing. at the very least, i’d say to open a shop and see where it goes. regardless of how it turns out, at least you won’t have any “what-ifs” that can eat your brain. i believe in you. give it a shot, at the very least. who knows what could happen. just be mindful and aware of your finances x

#grey

[clumsyclifford]

hi my love i’m hope not too late but i would like you to tell me about my loves jewish cake, anything you want to but specifically baker calum 🥰 thank you i love you

of course you aren’t too late!!! ESPECIALLY to talk about jewish cake oh my goodness meg i shall die for you i love you. alright let’s see what i can dig up

ha’ahava hazot shelanu + it’s so simple

a cut, per usual

so let’s start WITH:

ha’ahava hazot shelanu

jewish cake was a labor of love for myself. little known fact about me is that i am in fact jewish! :) and around christmas time i always get a little prickly about the surplus of christmas spirit and in this case the amount of fic for it. and i’d sort of had this hesitant idea to write a jewish fic in the back of my mind for a long time, but it felt like a really big divergence from the Cast of Characters that was for some reason a lot more dramatic than any other circumstances into which i could place them, so i’d basically been hesitating for several months. in november we had a brief conversation about it in the club which looked like this

but the idea still made me a little nervous and so i kind of talked myself out of writing it, as always. and THEN, middle of december, iba sent me this 1d fic out of nowhere with this accompanying message:

and i kinda lowkey almost cried!! it was such a jewish fic. i read the word kvetch and i almost lost it. the fic was just so unabashedly jewish. and i was like...well. that’s what ive been wanting to do. so now i have no reason not to do it.

in the ao3 notes i talked a little bit about my internal debate over How Jewish To Go with the fic because on the one hand i really do understand that it can feel alienating going into a fic with zero understanding of the culture but on the other hand since it was MY fic i wanted to make it jewish the way i’m jewish. which is like...............very. i don’t think i ended up striking a balance so much as just deciding to say fuck it and write it the way i would want to read it, but i definitely think that was the right decision for me.

there was actually one more motivator for writing this fic, especially the WAY i wrote it, in eight chapters, and that motivator was that i wanted to break 400k on ao3 before the year ended. i just wanted to have an even number and 400k was a good goal. which i did achieve thanks to jewish cake fic being the 13.6k beast that she is! so that was also part of it

NOW! as for the PROCESS. i created the doc on december 22 and i originally kind of thought it was a little bitchy to write a hanukkah fic after hanukkah had already ended but was reminded that most christmas fic is neither written nor posted on actual christmas which reassured me well enough. i had already had the idea to divide it into eight chapters for the eight nights of hanukkah and i thought that would be a nice way to showcase different aspects of the holiday (seeing family, playing dreidel, opening presents etc) and also in certain cases (like the third chapter where they do some baking) some days that weren’t necessarily hanukkah-driven but just a nice natural consequence of being on break for hanukkah. i wanted it to feel like hanukkah feels to me!! normally i don’t like people seeing the way my outlines look but this one i don’t mind sharing so here’s what i had at the top of the doc for reference while i was writing. not everything in that first list got included but most of it did !!! 

i’m not really sure how this fic ended up being cake. i never used to default to cake but for some reason as i was diving into this one it just felt right. that’s all i can say about that. meg you have genuinely shifted my approach to fic i DO default to cake sometimes now and that’s on YOU. 

the very first thing i ever wrote down for this fic was this part that ended up going in the summary:

“Happy Hanukkah,” Calum says, smiling at Luke as their fingers intertwine.

Luke murmurs, “Chag sameach, ahovi,” and Calum’s face is aglow in the candlelight.

that was The Moment for me. i didn’t even write the rest of that scene until later but i had those two lines written down straight out the gate and i knew they were gonna close out the first scene because it just Felt Right. and i was right! very cool and fun for me

now the nice convenient thing about having this fic separated into eight discrete scenes/nights/chapters was that i didn’t have to write it in order, and i didn’t. i DID write the first night/chapter first, but then over the course of maybe a week, i wrote (deep breath get ready): the first half of chapter 2 (hemmings family) > the beginning of chapter 5 (the dreidel game) > most of the scene in chapter 7 > the beginning of chapter 3 (where they bake) > finished writing chapters 2 & 3 > started chapter 4 and finished chapter 5 > finished chapter 4 and wrote the rest of chapter 7 > all of chapter 6 > all of chapter 8 aka the proposal. i deliberately saved the proposal for last because i don’t think i could have written it exactly right without knowing the events that came before it but everything else was all over the place as you can see. 

a problem i ran into a lot, and i talked to my sounding board and fellow jew sam about this among many other things, was that i had a lot of trouble characterizing very obviously Not Jewish people in a way that made them Very Jewish. not even like, Jewish But You Can Ignore It. i wanted them to be front-and-center jewish like i am and that was hard for me to navigate because obviously my speech patterns and vocabulary as an american jew are extremely different from 5sos’s as australian goyim (non-jews) like i do use hebrew words in my day-to-day communication all the time and i somehow had to keep their mannerisms but also insert mine BUT not insert so many of mine that the fic became incomprehensible and it was just. a Challenge. here’s some insight into THAT crisis

and then again writing the other characters in other chapters

i sent sam the doc when i was mostly done writing it, mainly just to be reminded that at least one person was going to appreciate this fic, which worked out nicely because she very very much did. genuinely i cannot stress enough how insecure i was to write and share this fic. like i’m gonna be really straight up with you meg, i think part of the reason i had calum and luke baking sufganiyot was because to me that felt like a sort of bribe? i basically wrote what felt to me like the least appealing fic ever and then my mission from there was to add stuff in that would convince people to give it a shot anyway. i was trying to make it worth everyone’s while. the baking was my trade-off, i was like “well yeah it’s a jewish fic but maybe she’ll be happy enough that it’s cake and they’re baking that she’ll forgive it for being a jewish fic” yes i realize how kind of hilariously tragic this sounds but !!! you never get jewish fics!!! and you especially don’t get them in fanfiction for obviously non-jewish bands!!! anyway. we’re not gonna get into this whole thing but like. even though objectively i knew that i had been told again and again people would appreciate the fic i still had doubts and knowing something and feeling secure in it are very different things.

also, i didn’t remember this, but apparently i had a lot of problems with writing the proposal! here’s a sneak peek into that mental breakdown

don’t actually think the fic specifies (making life easier for myself) but they have already had dinner in that scene. so now you know. 

i could choose to not get this elbows-deep in the details of Crises I Had While Writing This Fic but instead i am choosing to go all out. here’s another thing i had trouble with:

(i did end up using transliteration obviously but i DO think actual hebrew would have been a cool flex)

and as for the title, ha’ahava hazot shelanu is the name of an ivri lider song that i love, and it translates to “this love of ours” and i realize titling the fic in hebrew was a Choice but i did talk to sam about this as well and that went roughly like this

by the way here is the song, i absolutely love it and i cannot recommend it enough. also i’m not sure how glaringly obvious this is but the chapter titles on ao3 are just hebrew numbers. like the first chapter is echad which literally means one. and so on. are they the correct genders? i don’t know ! fuck gendered language.

one more thing and then ill move on but an unfortunate natural consequence of writing a hanukkah fic (at least the way i wrote this one) is that it necessitates presents. so i had to come up with presents for these dumb boys to give each other. and to be completely honest with you i don’t remember how i did!!! the ones calum got for luke were trickier because they were actual things. for some reason this luke was always a version of luke that just kinda like, wore makeup, so that was just a question of figuring out an eyeshadow palette that would be Nice but not obscenely schmancy (i did ask the club for help since i know nothing about makeup but as usual i ignored their replies). but that by itself didn’t feel like enough of a gift, and so i tried to think of something that would be more than just the gift of an object. like, something that would maybe enable luke to spend more time on something he loves. piano music made sense to me because it wasn’t just a thing by itself it was a thing that encouraged luke to play piano and even to improve at it and to learn songs that he could be excited about. so! that was that

the trip to israel gift was a little bit of a retcon situation i really liked the idea that luke had been planning to give that “gift” to calum for a hot sec that he’d have had it ready, but i’d already written the scene where he and mali talk about israel, so i went back to it and edited it a little to hint at the idea (luke plays it off very casually because he is a clever boy) but i thought there was something very romantic in the idea of the israel trip, of luke planning a future with calum and a trip to a place that means so much to him (to me yes maybe luke and i are the same blah blah) and getting to drag calum around to falafel places and teach him words in hebrew and it just seemed like the appropriate trip for these two cute jewish boys to plan so i rolled with it.

okay moving on slightly!! to baker calum <3 baker calum was more of a cameo in the hanukkah fic, in the chapter i wrote with you in mind, but i can talk about it’s so simple here as well because i fucking adore that fic.

it’s so simple

so the inspiration behind the fic came from the “kitchens are for lovers” rhetoric and the realization that that would be the perfect...sort of thesis to build on for a fic for you in specific, because you are, in my mind, a very kitchen-based person, given your baking habit. it actually just worked out pretty nicely for me honestly because i’ve been wanting to write a big Kitchen Romance type fic for a while and you just gave me the perfect opportunity. here’s what i had at the top of the doc for the fic for you

and then once i sort of landed on the idea for the fic, it just made a lot of sense to make it jewish cake because, well, im gonna be real w you, because i identify very strongly with jewish cake and the kitchen-romance aspect felt like a very bella thing in the same way that jewish cake felt like a bella thing. and so i wanted to be able to romanticize these kitchens to share the way that i, bella, feel about them, and that was easy to do when the characters were so similar to me. not to mention this cake already existed in my head as a very settled, domestic duo, and they had their own home and had already had a kitchen-romance scene in the hanukkah fic and the whole thing just fell together perfectly. i had this sentence in my head and it was: “Shabbat in Luke and Calum’s kitchen looks something like this.” the kind of thing you would read in a fic summary right? and especially having it take place on shabbat felt like an extra layer of domestic easy romance to me so that was kind of my guide

here was my "outline” for this:

Romance :)))

obviously calum was going to be the one doing most of the cooking/baking because he had been established as the Kitchen Boy between the two of them and maybe i realized in the course of writing it that while i was luke, you were very much calum. so the goal was then basically to romanticize (1) the kitchen and (2) luke as much as humanly possible for you (see: message sent to helen and ainslee)

unfortunately i was unable to do baker calum justice as much as i would have liked because i could not have him baking anything complex because i can’t bake anything complex and if i had tried to describe him baking something complex and then described it wrong i would have died of shame so that is why he is only baking brownies BUT they have chocolate chips which hopefully makes up for it. also i just stumbled across this which i think pretty well represents the crisis i had regarding baker calum

:)))

re: the soundtrack (so to speak), i wanted to include some songs that i associate with you meg but you see the situation is that some of those songs are 5sos/mali/atl songs and so i couldn’t include those, for obvious reasons, which did narrow down my choices somewhat. fortunately i think the mcfly worked pretty nicely i mean yeah it’s a little obvious that i was forcing mcfly into the story but they deserved to be there. i think i’ve mentioned this but i genuinely have a memory of listening to star girl on a loop in my kitchen at home and in my head the hood-hemmings kitchen looks like my kitchen because i have zero imagination so it felt to me like these songs just belonged in kitchens. and that they’d be inherently romantic. woah i think my brain is short-circuiting i’m not sure i’m making sense anymore. point being i hoped that you would appreciate it nonetheless.

a note about the short introduction, because it’s very unlike anything i’ve put in any other fic to my knowledge. i kind of wanted it to feel like the prologue to a fairytale, almost. i wanted it to feel like the beginning of a movie, when the camera is slowly, slowly zooming in from a Big Picture down to one house on one street and then through the window into the kitchen while the voiceover is very serenely describing the scene. i wanted it to feel like we were in the kitchen before even calum was and that we were standing against the fourth wall watching the fic unfold. and also, i wanted to make the fic romantic as fuck, from the get-go. there was to be no confusion: this fic was going to romanticize the living daylights out of the hood-hemmings kitchen.

(also you may have noticed that despite having “london” in the list of Meg Things at the top of the doc, the fic never actually specifies that they’re in london. that’s because this fic was really an exercise in “how much can i hint that they’re in london without outright saying it so i don’t establish a canon that i may later regret” which went as far as me asking helen what her kitchen floors and counters are made of. like. if you want it to be in london then hell yeah it’s in london but i didn’t wanna lock myself into that decision just in case so i never actually said it but i hope it kinda felt london-y anyway lmao)

so...............i THINK that’s all i have to say. “all” as if i havent just written an entire dissertation but at least it’s done now. i sure did say a lot! that was a lot!!! but also a very very fun and interesting dive into the ~process~ of writing these jewish cake fics. also, for what it’s worth, the way hanukkah fic was received basically calmed all my fears about writing jewish fic, which was a relief for me. so thank you for loving it, i don’t think you know how much that means to me!!!! i love YOU so very much

#kaleidoscopeminds #ask #answered #christ go off i guess???????? #i honestly have Nothing to say in the tags because i said so fucking much in this answer #fgldkhgsdflj #here are some other questions i asked helen the resident london expert: #'you guys don't have saturday morning cartoons do you' #'what do you call french toast' to which i was informed that you (brits) don't HAVE french toast #and then i decided to ignore that information and include it anyway because jewish tradition trumps british absence of food #and french toast is jewish CULTURE #'do you guys say suck-up or is there a different thing you say' #i did NOT like the answer to that one #also 'do you guys have dishwashers' #'do you guys do april fools' #helen litearlly went and took a photograph of her counters so that i could see what they looked like. THATS love baby #the fact that i said i had nothign to say and then i continued to say things anyway #thats pretty on brand for me #meg #director's cut #okay im posting this now. FOR REAL #dunno what happened before that was very unsexy but this time for real

[writinglionqueen]

Twenty Questions

Tagged by: @cowboyshit thanks sweetie!! @superrezzy00 and @junglecassidy thanks guys!!

What do you prefer to be called name-wise? I like going by Bri or Brianna. Usually my family calls me Anna...or their own fun nicknames

When is your birthday? August 12th 

Where do you live? I live in the town just below the city of Omaha in Nebraska

Three things you are doing right now?  Doing this, worrying about life, and thinking about writing fics

Four fandoms that have peaked your interest Wrestling and that’s the most recent and......technically the only one....since I don’t interact with other fan bases like I do that one. Like....I’m a fan of small things like Youtubers and little niches of life

How has the pandemic been treating you? Well, I was in college when it first started back in March. And then my school had the fun idea of first, going online which....as someone who has a hard time focusing and retaining information through online things, it wasn’t easy. After that I had to move twice in one week because of the pandemic, I had to move from my apartment-like dorm to a small dorm by myself for 4 days then I had to move across campus into a dorm meant to house 4 people all alone and....that was a struggle. I didn’t like being alone. Then I had to move back home in August and I finished my degree....got a seasonal job at a pumpkin patch and now I’m looking to find a job now while I’m in my own place and.....gosh....a lot of things could’ve gone better this year but....it wasn’t the pandemic’s fault or anything. But a lot of stuff during the pandemic that’s happened has been such a struggle for my mental health and everything....

A song you can’t stop listening to right now? Umm....tbh WAP by Cardi B and Megan Thee Stallion...like.....idk it’s been on my mind a lot lol and I tend to have like a varying list of songs ranging from like ones in kids movies I grew up with to wrestling theme songs and even the early 2000′s songs I listen to....but WAP has been on my brain no thanks to the Drew video @jazzy-tzw made

How old are you? 22!

School, university, occupation, other? I just finished my degree in animal science now I’m currently trying to find a job to make ends meet but that’s been a little tough as of late....

Do you prefer heat or cold? Cold! Because at least I can add on layers if it’s cold. I hate the heat especially since my birthday is in August and it can get up to 103 to even a 110 degree index here. 

Name one fact others may not know about you Oooh....idk what people don’t know about me....but....let’s go with the fact I have a birthmark on my back that looks like a kiss mark. Is that interesting enough? lol

Are you shy? Yes! Irl, I am very shy, I won’t ask someone a question unless I know them. Once I start getting to know people though, I will be more relax and more bubbly. And mainly with my friends. But if I have to socialize with someone, I will do it. 

Preferred pronouns? She/Her/Hers

Biggest pet peeves? Someone beating around the bush when I’m directly talking to them. I had an art teacher in high school and she hated a painting I was doing and apparently had hinted she hated it until the day before it was due when she pulled me aside and told me I should change my piece (basically start over) and she gave me an extra week. It...was the worst feeling because she would’ve saved me time by being upfront (and she was the reason I never wanted to pursue art because her criticism wasn’t helpful) but I hate people who aren’t upfront, especially when I’m talking to them.  I also hate when....people lead me on. I’m very obvious about my feelings and I’m upfront about it when I get to it....so feeling as if someone was dragging me along for a ride only to dump me off a cliff (The feeling) isn’t fun and I hate it. And I’m annoyed by people who want to “messy” when that just entails them to be fucking petty ass people who make fun of others for trivial things but can’t stand when it’s done to them. It happens so much in this fandom and the reason I stick to the friends I have on here. The whole idea of being “messy” to them is to laugh at other people’s expense by stirring a pot and then laughing when people get rightfully upset. JS

What is your favorite “dere” type? Oh I’ve seen this before but it’s a niche thing that I don’t know much about so I can’t answer it

Rate your life from 1-10; 1 being crappy and 10 being the best it could be.  A solid.....6 or 7. Lately my life has been pretty fucking sucky in terms of luck and in terms of disappointment. I’ve had faced so much heartache this year and pain and just major disappointments that made me afraid of some things. But in general, my past wasn’t terrible but there are moments that have happened that I won’t forget and aren’t the best....a solid 10 would mean I lived a comfortable life and....I can’t say it’s been a 10. 

What’s your main blog? This one. I have 2 blogs (technically 3 since one is a backup in case I get the case of people reporting my blog for nothing again). The last one I had was basically when I used to be in the 1D fandom and this one is the only one I actually post from. 

Is there something people need to know about you before becoming friends?  Um....I kinda...like people who won’t flake on me....I’ve had a lot of people do that in the past which is why I’m particular to that sorta thing. I have a certain way of differentiating a “friend” vs “best friends” and that distinction means so much to me....so....to betray that level of connection or even.....be offput by it (meaning the feeling isn’t as mutual [and you say it to my face]) then you won’t be a part of my life....and that’s....just how I am. I’ve had a lot of fake friends (in the sense that my friendship to them meant nothing or not even mean to treat me with like kindness or whatever) so I’m not here for that anymore.

tagging: @jazzy-tzw @kalliravenne @thatnerdwriter @flawlessglamazon @gold--gucciempress

[kinghoranshit]

Tell Me a Lie (NH) Ch 3

Word Count: 2,065

Warnings: Swearing

I snapped a pretzel in half and munched on it. I dipped the other half into the small jar of peanut butter and popped it into my mouth before I flipped the piece of paper to the other side. I was deep in editing mode for Stone Cold. 

I had talked to my manager about the upcoming events since there were red carpet dates already locked down for later that year, and she approved them, along with congratulations on the romance. But I was not able to get any definitive days off to truly work on Stone Cold, so I was still back to my weird schedule to get it finished on time. 

Out of bad habit, I clicked my power button on my phone and looked at the screen for anything to distract me for a short second. There was a message from Niall. 

N: Yoo, it’s go time . 

L: Really? What about publicity photos?

N: This is gonna work better . I’m gonna use one of our old selfies . 

L: Haha You mean from backstage in Chicago? That was like 6 months ago... 

N: It’s the only recent once we’ve got , Kelly . 

It’ll work 

L: I guess you’re right.

N: I am (: 

Be ready for it . 

Now, an Instagram notification came up and I already knew who it was from. I pulled down my notifications bar to see it and tapped it. I swear my heart stopped at the caption. 

@NiallOfficial: You know I don���t like lying to you all, but I’ve kept this a secret . For the sake of wanting our first few months to be only us . Well , those few months turned into a full year . I couldn’t be happier with this woman ! She makes me feel like I’m on cloud 9 . She even makes the golf losses better haha

He’d also tagged me. It was another requirement for social media; all posts had to be tagged. I was suddenly super nervous. This was actually it. There were so many new follows, likes, and comments on my account, and people were commenting congrats underneath Niall’s; though it wasn’t hard to miss a few of the mean wishes. 

K: So…. this is really it?

N: Yup . You got this , Kelly !   

K: There weren’t that many restrictions to the socials, surprisingly…

Do I have to follow people back? 

N: Haha no ! Follow who ya want 

K: Cool

A Twitter notification popped up on my top bar. I pulled it down to see Niall had tagged me in a photo there as well, and it was similarly worded to Instagram. At least it wasn’t a total copy and paste, that wasn’t necessarily Niall’s style. The Twitter notifications also started to flow in and I knew there had to be some way to filter them or this was going to be overwhelming.

K: Please tell me there’s a way to filter the notifications 

N: Absolutely , under your settings there should be a way to just get ones of people you follow 

If you get verified , I’ll help you with those 

K: Who said anything about me getting verified? 

N: Kelly , don’t act so cavalier love . It’ll happen eventually . 

I’ll walk you through it , I had Modest to help me and you’ve got me to help you

K: Duh duh DUHHHH

N: Okay , if you don’t want it I won ‘t give it to ya 

K: You know you will anyway

You loooove me 

N: Augh

You’re right 

***

I finally gathered the courage to thoroughly go through my Twitter notifications. I figured that the most recent ones may not be necessarily nice since I had been MIA for a few days after Niall’s initial post. But could they really blame me? I didn’t think so. 

My Twitter followers went from literally 450 to 38K. Just cause I was Niall’s “girlfriend”? That’s just… I couldn’t lie, I never followed the boys’ girlfriends or PR girlfriends, whatever they were to them. I didn’t have much to say to this. 

I decided to make a tweet first before doing anything else. 

@kellygarden: Sorry I’ve been MIA y’all. About to get interactive though! How about a Q&A? Hashtag #AskKelly :) 

I used the time of people asking questions to go through some of those following me and follow a few. And when I say a few, I mean a few. I might do a follow spree at some point and do a hundred or a couple hundred people. 

I about shit my pants seeing some of those who were following me that I was already following. Like Tom Holland, all the 5SOS boys, the other lads from One Direction, and Selena Gomez. Holy shit. What? Why? I was having a hard time believing this, but I couldn’t stop a smile from crossing my lips. So unreal. 

I searched my hashtag now and looked at some of the questions, replying to some. 

@Fuckmeniall: @KellyGarden Was it love at first sight? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @Fuckmeniall First off, love your @ . It was more like love at first coffee - we met at a cafe in London :)

@DamagedQueen: @KellyGarden Hw old r u? Wt do u do? #AskKely PS luv ur layout<3

@KellyGarden: Aww thanks so much! I’m 24 and a novel editor for a publishing house in London. 

@Jocylnbitch: @KellyGarden I don’t really like you, but I have a question about Niall. What’s he like in bed? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @Jocylnbitch: Glad to hear your opinion about me. And I don’t think that’s any of your business. 

@Rylanroll: @KellyGarden R u a virgin? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @Rylanroll Are you old enough to be asking this question? But no, I’m not.

@Hannable: @KellyGarden If you could clone yourself, would you? Why? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @Hannable I would. As selfish as this is, I’d have my clone to do my work so I could go see the world and be with Nialler.

@Uplousass: @KellyGarden Have you met the other boys yet? Freddie? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @Uplousass Props for the @, I’m dying! *laugh crying face emoji* I haven’t... and I’m not going to force any of them to meet me if they choose not to. 

@NiallOfficial: @KellyGarden How far are you up my ass? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @NiallOfficial I would be Hella far up if you weren’t so far up mine already :P

@Michael5SOS: @KellyGarden CAN I MEET YOU?! ASDLFKAS #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @Michael5SOS DLKASLGA YEAH IF YA WANT 

@lukecummings: @KellyGarden Have you ever written fanfiction? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @lukecummings I have, but they’re cringy af. I’m not kidding on that. They will never resurface the web. 

@Astheticnolan: @KellyGarden What are you favorite smells on earth? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @Astheticnolan COFFEE, books, rain, You&I perfume, flowers, Niall’s cologne

@Haywire: @KellyGarden What’s your music taste? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @Haywire My music library is on crack. I could be listening to 1D, then it could go to Skillet, Ed, Counting Crows, M83, etc. It’s a wide range, except no Country.

@Luke5SOS: @KellyGarden Is that lame band 5SOS not in your music library? :(

@KellyGarden: @Luke5SOS Pft yes, yes they are in my music library. It’s full of lame bands lmfao

@Daylight5SOS: @KellyGarden Have you talked with the other boys? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @Daylight5SOS Yeah, Louis. 

@Louis_Tomlinson: @KellyGarden Do look forward to officially meeting you. Freddie son says hi.

@KellyGarden: @Louis_Tomlinson I look forward to it as well. Stay safe you two x.

@Penofhope: @KellyGarden Favorite genre to write? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @Penofhope Fiction. YA. Mainly Fantasy and Sci-fi. 

@Clotheswhore: @KellyGarden What's your aesthetic? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @Clotheswhore By your @ I’m going to assume you mean my clothes aesthetic? I’d say it’s a little bit of everything - I can’t stick to one thing lol

@Niallsride: @KellyGarden Do you drive? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @Niallsride I do. Both car and motorcycle/bikes.

@Monaymaker: @KellyGarden Do you drink? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @Monaymaker I do socially.

@Harry_Styles: @KellyGarden I look forward to meeting you. Niall is a lucky guy. All the love. H. #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @Harry_Styles Thank you so much, H! Soon I hope x.

@Horanyass: @KellyGarden How many kids do you want? Gender ? Would you like to have them with Niall? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @Horanyass 2 or 3, any gender, and if I happen to have my kids with Niall then I’d be happy about it :)

@Styleskid: @Kellyiebabes Fave bromances of 1D and 5SOS? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @Styleskid All the ones with Luke and Niall, Cashton, and Lilo. 

@5Saucelove: @KellyGarden Pancakes or waffles? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @5Saucelove Waffles all the way! X.

@Horanhasmyheart: @KellyGarden Have you heard any songs off Niall’s upcoming album? #AskKelly

@KellyGarden: @Horanhasmyheart Nope, he’s super secretive about it. I’m gonna be just as shook as all of you! Looking forward to it! 

I looked at all the ones I answered, smiling a bit at a few of them. I didn’t realize how many I answered or how much time had passed. I had to be on a work call soon, which could go until midnight because of the time difference. 

@KellyGarden: Gotta get back to work. Thank you all for the questions! I’ll be doing another one of these soon, yeah?

I didn’t wait for any of the replies before I locked my phone and set my laptop up for Zoom. 

***

I huffed, observing the cherry patterned and floral dresses in my hands, and the pile of other choices I thought about taking to LA. I was so indecisive right now. How many outfits did I really need? Five days worth, but on top of some clothes for clubbing possibly, and pjs. But if I packed something I didn’t want to wear, I didn’t really want to wear the same thing. Why was I like this?

I huffed once again and flopped down onto the mass. I leave tomorrow and need to get this sorted out. After another half hour of stalling, I willed myself to get back up and actually pack. I decided on six solid outfits, on top of one clubbing fit and pjs. It seemed like the safest route.

N: Get in loser , we’re going to see Paps 

K: Hah hah like oh my god they don’t even go here 

I finally just packed. How’s LA? 

N: Kelly, you’re such a procrastinator 

LA is ready for you 

K: But I don’t know if I’m ready for LA 

N: Ooo so cliche , you’re both ready. 

See you tomorrow x

K: See you tomorrow xo

***

As much as I’d love to say I could handle getting myself to my flight on my own, I couldn’t. I hadn’t flown in a few years and that had been with a group of others. I was flying by myself now, and I have to do all the checking in and such as well. 

I took a deep breath as I approached the security check line. I set my purse and backpack in one bin and my duffel in another before setting them on the metal rods that would take it through a detecting machine. I waited for the woman to wave me through the detecting machine, and I went through fine. I mean, I didn’t have anything that would set it off. 

Once my stuff came through the other end of the metal rods line, I grabbed it and put the bins in the pile that was started. When I started walking away to find my gate, I realized I was stupid to be so nervous about going through the line. 

Finding my gate wasn’t hard. It helped that the Cedar Rapids Airport was small. There’s like eight gates. I settled myself in a seat to wait until boarding was called. I took my phone out and busied myself with Instagram and Tumblr; I just scrolled through my feed, liking and reblogging stuff. 

“Gate B is now boarding. If you are first class, you have a separate line. If you are G1 for the coach cabin, you can now board.”

That was me. 

I took another deep breath, grabbing my three bags, and I walked over to the woman. She took my ticket, ripping off the part she needed, and then handed it back to me. “Enjoy your flight.”

“Thanks,” I replied. 

I walked through the terminal and onto the fairly small plane. It was more of a jet. I found my seat and settled everything. I followed the directions given by the fly attendant as I waited for the plane to actually take off, and finally, we moved to be on the runway and ascended into the air. 

Next: Ch 4

[Masterlist]

#Niall Horan #NH #Niall Horan fic #Niall Horan fanfiction #NH fic #NH fanfiction #fic #fanfiction #comedy #romance #drama #Tell Me a Lie

[knives-out20]

10 Years Of One Direction.

10 years. 

How can I ever possibly write down how much 10 years of this band has meant to me in the limited amount of characters that Instagram has to offer? How do I put it eloquently enough to talk about how much these five boys pictured above mean to me? I’ve been a fan of One Direction since the beginning, way back in 2010. I’m a veteran fan, I guess. 

I didn’t have social media back in the day, so any social media lore the fandom has, I wasn’t aware of until like 2016-2017. I remember how ecstatic I was that 1D was on an episode of iCarly. I remember all those times I sat in the computer room, memorizing as many songs as I could instead of doing my math homework. I remember all the times younger-me was crying, racing to YouTube to listen to their songs and watch videos of the boys being boys; being simple, weird, entertaining teenagers. I remember how these five boys lit up my childhood, and helped me through it. 

Growing up, I had mainly male friends so yes, they were prone to making fun of me for liking 1D from time to time, but I had enough confidence in me to to continue liking 1D despite the recurrent teasing. I remember how said I was when Zayn left, and I remember how my mental health wasn’t any better the day 1D announced their “18-month” break. I guess they can’t count, huh? 

Anyways- I want you all to know how much One Direction has meant to me throughout my life, and how much the band still means to me in this day. They broke records, produced so many bangers, and their solo careers are absolutely flourishing. I remember all the inside jokes I had about this band that I had with people I had never even met. I remember Kevin, I like girls who eat carrots, the fear of spoons, Nandos, vas happenin, hazza, and so much more universally known references that this band let its fans create. 

I love and respect and cherish every single member of this band, even if I only ever actively listen to Harry and keep up with him. I’ll do better to see what the others have been up to. This band had so much to offer, and it offered a lot, and never did it deserve a single drop of hate that it ever got. I’d take a bullet for these lads, there’s no doubt about that.

Even if I don’t actively go back and listen to 1D songs anymore, if any of them come on shuffle, I don’t skip them. I listen, and take it in, and by fuck I miss when they were together, I miss what used to be. Life was better back when they were together. I was young, as stupid and had no idea about the rollercoaster of life that the future would make me ride. Harry Edward Styles, Liam James Payne, Louis William Tomlinson, Niall James Horan and Zayn Javadd Malik built and formed my childhood in ways I can’t even begin to describe and in ways they’ll never be able to understand. They were a prime source of serotonin to me for years, and still weirdly are. 

I love these guys so, so much and I could never be thankful enough for being able to watch them all grow from hopeful young boys to the talented, extraordinary men that they are today. I can’t thank them all enough for how much they’ve done, how much they’ve created and the happiness they shot into hearts like mine. I grew up on these lads and I’m still growing up with them, everyday. 

Thank you, boys. I could never express just how much I love you, this band, and how much you five mean to me. We got a whole lot of history

~Beck

#one direction #1d #ten years of 1d #ten years of one direction #10 years of 1d #10 years of one direction #harry styles #niall horan #liam payne #zayn #zayn mailk #i will cry #crying rn #i love them

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July 27th-August 2nd, 2020 CTP Archive

The archive for the Comic Tea Party’s Farewell Party that occurred from July 27th, 2020 to August 2nd, 2020.

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Comic Tea Party Farewell Party

With great sadness, but also the desire to end things with a bang, welcome to Comic Tea Party’s Farewell Party! This week we’re going to have a casual hang-out with everyone in the server, ask some general questions about comics, and just try to have a good time that lets us all have one last hurrah before the server closes. So if that sounds good to you, we hope you join us.

Question Set 1 of 5 1. What has been your favorite comic to be featured by Comic Tea Party? (You can check the archives for a full list: https://comicteaparty.com/thursArchives & https://comicteaparty.com/weeklongarchives)? 2. What’s a new comic you found thanks to Comic Tea Party (or an old comic you learned to love again)?

Eightfish (Puppeteer)

1. Mine, obv. Jkjk, my actual favorite comics whose book clubs I paticipated in were Ingress, Phantomarine, and Hovergirls. And man I've found so many good comics through CTP. Phantomarine, Hovergirls. Millennium, Only in Your Dreams, Joe is Dead, Valerie... I am sure I'm forgetting some too

Wait I think I may have actually not participated in the Phantomarine one

boogeymadam

1) phantomarine and devil's tongue!! joined for phantomarine's even 2) court of roses , sunny x rain

Cronaj ~{Whispers of the Past}~

1) My favorite CTP feature hands down is Heart of Keol, but I unfortunately was not here for that. I have been a fan of that comic for many years. I also really enjoyed Only In Your Dreams. 2) I found a lot of fantastic comics here! KEYSPACE: A Winged Tale, Phantomarine (although I had heard of it previously), and SunnyxRain, to name a few. I also have a whole list of comics I still need to read! (Damn you my limited time! *waves fist). Princess Pop, Wayfinders, Puppeteer, Ghost Junk Sickness, Teasday, (probably some more I'm forgetting right now ). It's truly been a pleasure speaking with you all in this server! It's a crazy feeling finding a bunch of allies in this giant overwhelming comic-making world. Thanks to everyone who participated in my bookclub or has given me a word of encouragement or helped me with my work. Seriously, before I joined CTP, I felt like I was wading through an endless, abyssal sea all by myself.

carcarchu

1. My fave comic that was featured in the bookclub was Meet and Greet. I just found it incredibly darling, unique and memorable. The art was so lovely and I just became utterly enamoured by the whimsical atmosphere it produced. 2. i started reading yu + me dream bc it was mentioned in the server a few times and i actually ended up liking it a lot more than i thought i would. the art style obviously dates it but the artistry and writing of the comic really hold up and the artist clearly knew what she was doing. also it made me nostalgic for the early days of webcomics

Krispy §[Ghost Junk Sickness]§

1. I wasn't here for it, but O'Sarilho! I loved going back to read the answers, the comic has a special place in my heart! 2. There's so MANY comics and creators i found here who's works i truly admire. It'd start to be a long as heck list, so im going to be more general about it, but the CTP was definitely a good spot for me to pick up comics and have that chance to interact with creators and find out their process/inspo, and i cherish that so much!

Miranda (Into the Swell)

1. I haven't been in the server that long, but I'd probably say Phantomarine since I was actually here for that book club. 2. Ghost Junk SIckness, Phantomarine, Ingress Adventuring Co, Teasday, Whispers of the PAst, Joe is Dead, Magefront. So so many. And they're all amazing!

Eightfish (Puppeteer)

1. My fave comic that was featured in the bookclub was Meet and Greet. I just found it incredibly darling, unique and memorable. The art was so lovely and I just became utterly enamoured by the whimsical atmosphere it produced. 2. i started reading yu + me dream bc it was mentioned in the server a few times and i actually ended up liking it a lot more than i thought i would. the art style obviously dates it but the artistry and writing of the comic really hold up and the artist clearly knew what she was doing. also it made me nostalgic for the early days of webcomics

@carcarchu I think you may have seen me mention yu+me? Gosh, it's good, isn't it?? The art style may be dated in the beginning but the rest of the comic is timeless. The amount of creativity in all the art styles she used, wow. She definetly knew what she was doing. Also, brave to commit to such a plot twist. Never seen a story with this premise before!(edited)

Tuyetnhi (Only In Your Dreams!)

1. Oh boy, there's a lot I think heart of Keol is my main contender, since I was there for the book club.

2. the folks I interacted with here, I ended up reading their comics! sunny x rain, WotP, Valerie, Reading Days, and a lot more! I dunno if I would be able to find more comics without the help of this server but I'm very thankful to be a part of it and getting to know a bulk of you here

Deo101 [Millennium]

1: I think my favorite one featured was Phantomarine ^^ being here for the book club definitely helped that, but it's also just really incredible <3 2: I've definitely found a ton of new comics here... mostly from meeting all the lovely creators, and wanting to see what they're talking about when they're gushing about the comics they love so much!

carcarchu

@Eightfish (Puppeteer) yes good writing is timeless! and i haven't actually gotten to the plot twist yet but i know of it!

Eightfish (Puppeteer)

you haven't gotten to the plot twist yet?!

dude the art becomes so good

carcarchu

im still only on page 213

Eightfish (Puppeteer)

jeez no wonder you think the art style dates it!!

the author was intentionally drawing in a completely different style than her normal one the whole time

https://i.pinimg.com/originals/1e/1d/78/1e1d78ae54fa6be3d1076fbdcdcab84f.jpg https://64.media.tumblr.com/a87431cfb4e704d31c07eba9264ce979/tumblr_mve6g1D9y21qbtxv8o1_500.jpg

this is art she did before yu+me

carcarchu

oooh i totally thought that was her art style later!

Eightfish (Puppeteer)

i can't even imagine what it must've been like for her to keep the twist secret for so long

and all the crazyness she was going to do with her art later

this woman has truly impressive self control

eliushi [Keyspace]

A lot of my favs have been said!! I also really enjoyed Gender Slices (binged it all in two days), Desert Spell and Valerie! I love the diversity of the webcomics featured and how relatable they all are thank you again so much for running the book club!

Eightfish (Puppeteer)

Ohh I forgot about gender slices! Also forgot about sunnyxrain. And I did read whispers of the past and patent the sun , but i found out about both outside of ctp(edited)

did not finish (yet), but I've also read parts of teasday, hookteeth, and ghost junk sickness

OH and super galaxy knights

wow there are so many comics haha

Comic Tea Party

Question Set 2 of 5 1. What is your favorite thing about webcomics in general? 2. How did you get involved with webcomics?

Eightfish (Puppeteer)

Wow I literally do not remember how I got involved with webcomics

boogeymadam

1. Stories that feel more personal and heartfelt because the creator is usually just 1 or 2 people creating it mainly because they love it. Also getting to see protagonsits and stories, and even creators i relate to a lot more than those in more main media. 2. through manga as a young teen, searching up more stories like the ones i was interested in and couldnt get enough of and finding smackjeeves and hiveworks.

Eightfish (Puppeteer)

1. What is your favorite thing about webcomics in general? Creativity!! With the freedom of publishing for free, writers and artists can be so imaginative, unique, and weird! I love reading stuff that the author made with full knowledge it will only ever appeal to a small number of people

but those small number of people will adore it

carcarchu

1. I love the indie charm of webcomics. when i interact with media that passes through more hands before the audience gets to it i sometimes feel that it gets polished to the point where it loses some of its charm. though webcomics might have more flaws than works that go through stringent editing, i feel that the flaws can make it more appealing. there can be problems with the writing or the art but i find with webcomics those problems can often be overcome just by the degree of raw passion and heart on display in those works. 2. same as eight it's been so long that i don't really remember but i have to assume that i somehow ended up on smackjeeves through deviantart? a lot of the artists i liked growing up also drew comics which they either posted on dA or on smackjeeves and through there i discovered more

eliushi [Keyspace]

Totally agree about how individual and different indie webcomics read vs traditional/ mainstream. I love how each webcomic is a reflection of the creator and how many different styles and creative ways one can tell a story! I got into webcomics from reading s bunch of manga and comics back in high school and stumbled upon smackjeeves and Phoenix requiem and that was my gateway into indie works

varethane

I got involved with webcomics because some friends of my friends in high school were making one, and I thought it seemed like super cool fun and wanted to do one too. Once i started reading more webcomics, it became hard to stop; the passion and earnestness is unmatched, and the stories people can tell when not held to the guidelines of what's considered 'marketable' by some executive somewhere are so unique and engaging

LadyLazuli (Phantomarine)

1) My favorite thing about webcomics is their diversity. I know not every webcomic is a creator's magnum opus, or the work by which they define themselves wholeheartedly, but you see so SO much variety. No two styles are exactly the same (unless someone's trying to incite drama, I guess ) and with that fact alone, every webcomic is so, so different. 2) I got involved with making webcomics purely out of boredom at work I just wanted a project that I could call my own, so I started drawing. But I read a few back in the day, mostly by coming across them on deviantART. Most weren't super polished, but there were a few that really stood out. It was nice to see the beginnings of what would eventually explode.

Miranda (Into the Swell)

1. The variety. There’s something for everyone and there’s different styles and its fantastic. And the people that are behind them. All the creators I’ve encountered have been super chill and kind and just inspiring. 2. I’m not sure? I think I just started reading on webtoons and it was a downhill (uphill? Cuz it’s good?) spiral from there

Cronaj ~{Whispers of the Past}~

1. My favorite aspect of webcomics is that the genres and art styles are so diverse. And even beyond that, the types of characters represented are so unique! And this kind of bleeds into why I got into webcomics to begin with. I was so bored of superhero comics about white men fighting supernatural entities. Those stories have their place, and I also enjoy them on occasion, but after seeing them a million times, the content gets old. I love exploring webcomics by underrepresented people. POC, LGBT+ people, women, and genres that aren't typically shown in mainstream print comics. And that's what I love so much about webcomics: the diversity, the variety, the opportunity for people to tell their stories. 2. In regards to how I started reading webcomics, I originally read a lot of manga online that didn't have official English translations at the time, and then I found out about Korean webtoons, which sparked my interest in web-based content in general. I also found a few comics because of deviantART. Mostly because I followed a lot of skilled artists, and they would post about their webcomics. I found one of my favorite comics that way, Memorabilia, and I actually remember reading Where Tangents Meet before it got picked up as a Webtoon Original, and before the artist created Siren's Lament. I started drawing webcomics in 2014 because, for the first time since I had started writing, I couldn't imagine my story through solely words. I knew I needed to tell a visual story, and now I had an outlet: webcomics.

Comic Tea Party

Question Set 3 of 5 1. Why do you think more people should read webcomics? 2. What do you like the most about the webcomic community?

eliushi [Keyspace]

I think more people should read webcomics to see how different stories can be told and the different perspectives they share outside of mainstream media. There is also the privilege to be able to interact with the creators directly and be a part of the creative/ supportive process. I love how supportive everyone is! It’s amazing to see creators create fan art/fiction for one another, commiserate the difficulties in making things from our busy lives and celebrating every step of success. I also love the readers whose comments brighten my day and whose engagement motivates me to make the story inside my head Real.

Comic Tea Party

Question Set 4 of 5 1. How do you think webcomics will have changed 10 years from now? What about 20? 2. In the long-term, how will have webcomics changed the world?

RebelVampire

Set 1 1) As the host of CTP, I think I am obligated to say they were all my favorite. So I'm just gonna go with that. 2) As for new comics, honestly, most of them. Not to say many of them I hadn't heard of before, but hearing about them and finding time to read them are two different things. CTP really allowed me to make that time. Set 2 1) My favorite thing about webcomics is mostly just that anybody can do them. You don't need to have fantastic web skills. Don't need to hunt down a publisher and get rejected 1000 times. You just sit down, do it, and post it. Not to say the doing it part is easy, but there aren't the other sorts of barriers that wouldve stopped people when I was a kid. And I think this is great because it lets more and more ppl express their creativity and have avenues to potentially get their work seen. 2) Basically 90% of my life has been composed of knowing artists and having artists as friends. And most artists I know have had interest in webcomics at one point or another (even if they never pursued it or moved on from webcomics). So for me it was just a thing that was always there based on my particular social circles.

RebelVampire

Set 3 1) I think more people should read webcomics because of two reasons. One, the more people read indie stuff, the more it helps indie artists achieve whatever it is they're trying to achieve. With the internet, I think we need to move past the days of yore where artists were basically unknown until they were dead. Cause that's sad. So reading webcomics is a way to fight that and respect the inherent humanity, effort, and work that goes into creativity. Two, there's just more availability of stories. Whether you want to read some mainstream isekai like story or just want some super niche thing that is 100% tailored to your specific tastes, webcomics probably has it. And by reading webcomics, you can complain less about how the thing you want doesn't exist and spend more time being happy. 2) What I like most about the community is just being able to see lots of different people express themselves entirely differently from each other. That and the hard work everyone puts into their work. Set 4 1) 10 years from now I think someone will have come up with a way to auto format comics to better suit the medium they're on. So page format on desktop and print and vertical scroll on mobile. Thus reading experiences will be smoother. Not to say it won't be janky, but someone somewhere out there must be toying with something like this. Further, I think we will see a rise in some automations that make certain processes easier. Also, I think we'll see a rise in comics made with 3D instead of 2D, if only for the factor of accessibility. 20 years from now, that's hard to say. However, given the rapid pace of technology, one thing I think we might see is better computer vision and translation software so sites can auto generate multiple language versions of any comic.

2) In the long-term for changing the world, I will repeat what I said earlier to a degree. They'll create a world where people don't have wait to die to be noticed, and in so doing, they'll shape people's opinions since, by and large, that is one of the purposes of stories and the experience of stories.

Miranda (Into the Swell)

Set 4: 1. I think it will span out into a much more broad selection of art. I feel like a lot of the "most popoular" webcomics all have a similar anime art style and I feel like that will change more as time goes on. 2. I think they'll continue to bring people of different walks together and just give common ground. No one will feel alone because there will be something for everyone and a community behind all of it. I think they're going to be more accessible and less gated to devices/displays that your viewing them on. And I think there will be a lot more artists in the world because of them(edited)

mariah (rainy day dreams)

Your sets 3 and 4, Rebel just -oof- right in my heart I'm really excited about the possibilities of more and better automatic translation just on the internet in general, but definitely for webcomics that would be amazing if an AI could just translate mine and everyone else's into all the languages.

mathtans

Whelp, I'm behind again.

SET 1. With the caveat that I'm behind in all my reading. It's very sad. I'm still working on 2019 here.

1. My favourite might have to go to "The Cat, The Vine and The Victory". Just a really interesting concept, enjoyed the writing, there's a yuri couple (of sorts), a person who can't speak, it somehow updated really frequently... yeah.

https://tapas.io/series/The-Cat-The-Vine-and-The-Victory

mathtans

2. Here there's too many to mention. But I'll mention a bunch anyway and apologies to those I miss: CHAMPS, Centralia 2050, 7 inch Kara, Neon Rabbit, My Dad is a Magical Girl, Super Galaxy Knights Deluxe R, Nine Twilights... and the list goes on.

SET 2.

1. Favourite thing? This will sound weird, but I guess how they're always there. Like, I can't keep up even week to week, but suddenly there's some time to binge and you can see story and art evolve as you look at the last few months all at once. Actual comics hire different writers or artists a lot of the time, and if you miss an issue it can be a pain finding it. Though I also like the point that's been made about how there's access on the creation side too. And how communities can crop up based on them.

2. How did I get involved with webcomics. Sigh. Strap in. I'm one of those weird types who came in via writing, not art. In 2011 (oh no, I'm old) I had the idea of personifying mathematical equations, where the hairstyles would relate to the graphs. But not being an artist, I basically did short writing excerpts with character headshots. (Does anyone remember Elf Only Inn? Oh no, I'm still old.)

I didn't even know what to call it, I referred to it as a "webcomic thing". I've since learned that it was basically a serial, supplemented with some author art. The art got increasingly more complex to where I would design a one panel setting to complement the writing. Then, after 3 years of doing this, I stopped, because after all the social media (I joined mainly to promote the thing) and videos and the rest I had, like, 5 readers. But I kept kind of attached to webcomic groups and chats, even though I wasn't doing a webcomic.

(Like, wasn't doing and never had been doing.)

A year later, in 2015, I relaunched the whole project as an ACTUAL 4-panel webcomic with new character designs. I think it's around then that StArt Faire and CTP were brought to my attention by Angelic Emypress. Maybe it was the following year.

That's when I really hooked more into the community and made it a point to have CTP in my calendar. I then stopped doing my own webcomic in 2018 because, despite mirroring on Tapas and trying to do guest posts and continue to promote... I still only had, like, 6 readers. Also my daughter was born. So I didn't have as much free time to devote to something no one else was really into. I did manage to keep up with CTP until it went asynchronous, but I've been kind of a ghost since. So hello to people who wonder why I'm a Hibiscus Teacup when I'm almost never around these days.

TL;DR: I got involved in webcomics because I wanted to be doing one but didn't know how (and still don't have the art skills for it), but like to try to encourage other people. Because I know what it's like when less than a dozen people are aware your comic exists.

SET 3.

1. More should read because honestly seeing this stuff digitally is how this is all going these days... actual paper comics are becoming terribly overpriced. And this way you can pay what you're able (even if that's zero) to people who are just as amazing and creative. I'll also echo Rebel in that there's lots of variety out there.

2. The webcomic community... honestly, it's a lot like the serial community in terms of boosting each other up and offering moral support, which is great and necessary. Not just in the writing but in general. And without it, I would never have had any artwork of my characters that I didn't specifically commission. Whether it was a trade initiative or in one weird case a random post to me, these were people taking the time to let me see my vision in a new way. I always posted and credited that stuff. It meant a lot.

I'll do the last couple sets this weekend, hopefully. Nice to see everyone else's thoughts up there. ^^

carcarchu

1. Favourite thing? This will sound weird, but I guess how they're always there. Like, I can't keep up even week to week, but suddenly there's some time to binge and you can see story and art evolve as you look at the last few months all at once. Actual comics hire different writers or artists a lot of the time, and if you miss an issue it can be a pain finding it. Though I also like the point that's been made about how there's access on the creation side too. And how communities can crop up based on them.

@mathtans i don't think i can agree with this point. sadly there have been plenty of webcomics i loved but when the sites imploded (smackjeeves) or they stopped paying for their website host they were lost to time forever. also a lot of artists just straight up purge their work from the internet forever from embarrassment

Cronaj ~{Whispers of the Past}~

^ Me with the first several versions of my comic

mathtans

Carcarchu: That's a good point I hadn't considered. Guess I've been fortunate in that most of the ones I follow just go on indefinite hiatus at worst.

Hope the site with the CTP archives doesn't get bought out and shut down or something.

Comic Tea Party

Question Set 5 of 5 1. How can people reach you after this? 2. Final parting words?

carcarchu

1. You can usually catch me on twitter! https://twitter.com/kurumadraws 2. This is not farewell, just good-bye for now hope to see most of you again soon!

LadyLazuli (Phantomarine)

1. I’m always on Twitter! http://www.twitter.com/Phantomarine_ 2. Thank you so much for giving us this server. This has been such a fun place to make new friends and discuss comics. The book club for Phantomarine was one of my favorite things ever - I had an absolute blast. Thank you again for your hard work, and see you all around!

Tuyetnhi (Only In Your Dreams!)

1. I'm at twitter and other discord servers you can see me lurking in https://twitter.com/tuyetnhip

2. Thanks for everything for the server! I hope to see the rest of you somewhere near or far on internet land

mariah (rainy day dreams)

1. You can find me on Twitter and various other discords (including my own that just opened up last week!) https://twitter.com/RainyDayMariah https://discord.gg/6S6Zsw 2. I'm very sad to be saying goodbye for now, even though I know I'll still see most of you in various corners of the internet going forward. This discord had a really special energy that I'm going to miss a lot. Just saying thank you doesn't feel like enough, but truly, thank you so much for the time we've spent together. See you in cyberspace

Miranda (Into the Swell)

1. I'm on Twitter mostly https://twitter.com/MirandaDrawss 2. Thanks for providing this awesome server! I've gotten to know so many people and had my eyes opened so much more to the world of webcomics. Thanks for inspiring me! So long, farewell, until we meet again

Nutty (Court of Roses)

1. I too am on twitter! https://twitter.com/nintendonut1 The comic also has its own discord server! https://discord.gg/Rmwe9Hv 2. Thank you so much for bringing this kind community together. Here's to us creators, wherever he head to next!

Feather J. Fern

You can find me on Twitter! https://twitter.com/FeatheryFern Thank you so much for making CTP and thank you everyone for making up the community! I hope to see you all in other communities and servers and I made so many friends here!

BadSprite

1. Hi you can find me on twitter!! https://twitter.com/BadSprite 2. I know we'll probably see each other again. But I want to thank you all for doing what you love, it's really inspiring to see so many people from so many background creating their own unique stories. So much so it got me to start making mine! Thank you for being amazing people and I hope to see you guys again soon!

Holmeaa - working on WAYFINDERS

1. I am on twitter and Instagram https://twitter.com/heidiholmeaa Instagram @heidiholmeaa 2. Thank you so much for all the hard work put into this server! I know I have not been the most active on here, but thanks for good comics to read, a good network and fun convos. I hope many of us will keep seeing each other on other servers and let us all prosper and succeed!

varethane

I, too, am primarily on twitter! https://twitter.com/varethane And on instagram as varethane1, though I don't post there very often. Thank you for running a super cool server!! I was always impressed at the depth and thoroughness of the Comic of the Week questions

eliushi [Keyspace]

It’s been a great time and I look forward to new adventures with all of you! I live in the following internet spaces: https://instagram.com/eliushi.draws?igshid=1wz4f1o191fe1 https://twitter.com/eliushi https://eliushi.weebly.com/about.html

Cronaj ~{Whispers of the Past}~

Set 3 1. Why do you think more people should read webcomics? I basically already said this, but webcomics offer a diverse reading experience. 2. What do you like the most about the webcomic community? Readers can actually interact with creators! It's so cool to see the barrier between readers and creators dissipate most of the time. Set 4 1. How do you think webcomics will have changed 10 years from now? What about 20? The biggest change I think we'll be seeing within the decade is that more and more comics will be put behind a paywall like Lezhin or Tapas. In 20 years? I think the internet will be pretty different then. Perhaps there will be more censorship? 2. In the long-term, how will have webcomics changed the world? I think the most immediate thing is that webcomics open the world up to discussing more topics. As webcomics enter the mainstream, discussing these things in a public setting will become more normalized.

As for where you can find me, you can find me on Twitter: https://twitter.com/CronajArt Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/cronaj_art/ ArtStation: https://www.artstation.com/cronaj My webcomic server: https://discord.gg/ueWBfdp Or in a lot of other servers!

Deo101 [Millennium]

where can you find me? on twitter, mostly ^^ I think most of us are already mutuals there, but just in case it'd be nice to touch base https://twitter.com/deo_101 and I'm also on my comics discord server lots! https://discord.com/invite/jxcdKma Final parting words... this is hard. but, this has been a really wonderful community and it's been incredible to get to know you all and to learn from eachother how we have. it's truly been a blessing and I'm so grateful to rebel for this opportunity to share not only my work, but also myself with so many people! I hope that this isn't actually goodbye for us, and is just a "see you around!" As we all move forward, hopefully, side by side.

Eightfish (Puppeteer)

Here's my twitter!

https://twitter.com/ActuallyOctopi

Here's my comic!

https://www.webtoons.com/en/challenge/puppeteer/list?title_no=290620

I hope I can continue to talk to you all in a different place.

kayotics

you can also mostly find me on twitter! https://twitter.com/kayartics

shadowhood {SunnyxRain}

you can find me on twitter, instagram, or pillowfort! https://twitter.com/shadowhooddraws https://www.instagram.com/shadowhooddraws/ https://www.pillowfort.social/shadowhood

mathtans

SET 4.1: 10 years from now... I'm so bad at predictions. I can't even think properly about how different they were 10 years ago, though I suppose they are more mainstream. Perhaps there will be easier ways to archive or paper print a whole set. Hopefully also more representation from minority groups, and less concern with RL problems causing schedule hiccups. Which I guess just goes double for 20 years.

Though maybe there will be more animated webcomics, or holographic ones by then, or something.

SET 4.2: Long-term, hopefully it helps people feel more confident even if they're not the most amazing artist or anything. Also as was said by Miranda, bringing people together in terms of common ground.

SET 5.1: Reach me? I'm pretty much 'mathtans' everywhere (except on Facebook, where I'm mathstans because someone else got it there first). For social media, probably twitter's the best bet, as many others have led with. https://twitter.com/mathtans

I also have [email protected] (does anyone here remember OS-tans? ... Anyway)

SET 5.2: Parting words? Thank you. I really just stumbled my way in here, a writer who doesn't know much beyond the basics of art, and have tried to do my best to offer accolades and constructive criticism. Rebel, you have done an amazing job, don't let anyone ever tell you otherwise. There was a time when I would sometimes look at the archive of a chat just to see what the pull quote was at the top. To those who actually spent some time reading my comic, thank you too... some of the nonsense is forever immortalized in Feb 2018. https://mathtans.blogspot.com/2018/02/s9332-faire-game.html

And best of luck to everyone out there, whether you've been at this for a while like me (probably showing better results, serious) or whether you've just started out. I can only hope I've made something of a difference out there. Until the next time.

Tantz Aerine (Without Moonlight)

Oh Lord I am so behind all this, with my RL tackling me to the ground... but I'll quickly answer these too, pardon my complete lack of timing. SET 1 1. Phantomarine is the one comic I loved because I was so late to the party (pun not completely intended ) 2. Phantomarine. Gosh I feel like I missed so much of this community. SET 2 1. It's the sheer freedom to create. 2. I started making comics for my students to teach them English. Then one thing led to another... SET3 1. More people should read webcomics because they are where the hub of creation in visual arts is. Experimentation, pluralism, excitement, passion. Everything is there. People will and do benefit as well as get entertained. 2. The sheer inclusivity, diversity, and curiosity that fuels creation. Friendliness, too, when people get to know you. SET 4 1. For better or worse, webcomics are becoming responsive to the means through which they are being experienced. We will always have standard formats but new will emerge that take advantage of new technologies as they come. Vertical format is one such example. In 20 years, webcomics would have become an industry, very much like print comics did, I'd say. 2. Webcomics change the world the same way art generally does: by reflecting society back to itself, and exploring ideas. SET 5 1. You can totally find me on twitter https://twitter.com/TantzAerine and if you will be so awesome as to want to read my historical webcomic Without Moonlight, you can find it here http://www.withoutmoonlightwebcomic.com/ . I definitely hope to see you. 2. I have been of the newest members of the community and I feel like I missed a whole world of richness. Still, I am thankful for what I got, and for the care and passion of everyone who kept the Comic Tea Party going for as long as it did. Thank you, and all the best.

#ctparchive

[shookmira]

Color Ask

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ZeB_6uh-9k&t=289sc. - @toasty-brain-juice​

red: describe your favorite shirt

depends on the fit honestly but it’s getting close to fall so im becoming a pullover gal

orange: if you could, would you change your eye color? why? to what color, if so?

nah no change, brown eyes are everything 

yellow: name of an artist you think is underappreciated

Luke James

green: do you have a favourite flower?

Sunflower

blue: preferred type of weather?

Overcast with a little chill mainly but it depends on my mood just not BLISTERING HOT

purple: a poem you think describes your closest friend

not a poem but “Girl Almighty” by 1D reminds me of all my friends 

magenta: do you keep your fingernails long or short?

long and acrylic lmaooo

turquoise: favorite sea animal?

dolphin

fuchsia: favorite land animal?

elephant 

cyan: are you religious? spiritual?

religious - was raised Catholic 

sea green: can you fold a fitted sheet?

LMAOOOO not at all

violet: are you a part of the lgbt+ community?

I mean aren’t we all just a little - im more of an ally (I know its embarrassing to be attracted to straight men)

amber: what's saved as your phone's lockscreen?

its a gradient pic from Pinterest

aqua: do you thrift?

YES OF COURSE

pink: what's your natural hair color?

dark dark brown

beige: have any pets? what're their names?

no and it pains me

black: would you ever try going vegetarian or vegan?

sorry to this man but no

coral: an animal you wish hadn't gone extinct

I honestly don’t know which animals are extinct but I wish none except for dinosaurs 

grey: how many languages do you speak? do you want to learn any more?

1.5 bc im not the best with Spanish but I know it; yeah I would love to learn more 

maroon: do you care for clothing brands?

not really 

rose: favourite scent on a person?

something fresh like a nice fresh earthy smell

charcoal: have you ever been camping?

no

claret: do you play an instrument? do you want to learn to play any?

no but I wanna learn how to play piano 

copper: gold or silver jewelry?

gold

cream: any piercings or tattoos? do you want any?

yes and yes and I NEED more tattoos 

salmon: how many pairs of sunglasses do you own?

literally one 

ebony: would you ever want to play a game on television? (jeopardy, family fued, etc)

yes my family would absolutely kill family feud 

indigo: have you ever lived on a farm?

no

emerald: if you had the option, would you choose to move and live in another country? which one?

yes, Canada

lavender: relationship status?

single

erin: what was/is your best school subject?

anything English that wasn’t grammar or comp.

mauve: any unpopular opinions?

Tumblr is cool but sometimes its like a bunch of band kids and theater kids who talk about sex way too much lmaoooo relax Larry reblog the sex gif and go

fulvous: another name you think would suit you

idk I honestly can’t see one

coconut: a subject you enjoy learning about

art history

frost: a -core you enjoy

okay here’s the thing - I love clean core lmaooooo

porcelain: an tv show you used to love

too many to count - off the top of my head “Daria” bc I’m rewatching it

fawn: any interesting family stories?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ZeB_6uh-9k&t=289s some fun childhood stories for ya 

gold: do you wear your socks mismatched?

I try not too bc I can ~feel~ the difference

honey: your thoughts on magic- does it exist?

absolutely 

rust: form of art you enjoy doing?

videography

ginger: any sideblogs?

praisebetheaesthetics - my aesthetics blog

cherry: YouTubers you enjoy watching?

ME LMAOOO SUB TO ME 

wine: do you have a 'type'

yes and no, it just depends 

mahogany: your sun, moon, and rising signs

Capricorn sun, Scorpio moon, Taurus rising

blood: twin beds, queen, or king?

this question is full bed erasure 

hot pink: did you/do you had/have strong feelings against the color pink?

I LOVE PINK

plum: a food you've never tried

OLIVES...?

lilac: dogs, cats, or fish?

dogs 

amethyst: do you collect anything?

nah

mulberry: earbuds or headphones?

earbuds

azure: jean jackets?

of course 

teal: have a job?

yeppers 

denim: kill the spider or take it outside?

sorry yall imma kill it 

sapphire: do you think you can sing well?

lowkey

mint: favourite flavour of gum?

prefer sweeter but it doesn’t matter

pecan: shuffle your playlist, what's the first song that comes up?

change - arin ray tf. khelani 

penny: icecream or cake

both

ash: can you do your own makeup?

yuh

jade: ever written fanfiction?

yes 

grape: how many blogs do you follow?

640

umber: do you brush your teeth before you eat?

who brushes before???

chestnut: type of phone you have

iPhone XR

prussian blue: what's your first choice at the vending machine

dummies of some sort

aquamarine: beach or pool

both

brass: least favorite food condiment

mustard

mustard: how much sugar in your tea/coffee?

a lot 

silver: ever broken a bone?

yes, my arm

rose quartz: rings or necklaces

necklaces - rings are restrictive 

onyx: do you still play Minecraft?

never played it 

burgundy: ever ridden a motorcycle?

yes, I rode with my manager it was so scary

scarlet: favorite holiday

Christmas 

apricot: opinion on 3 in 1 body wash/hair wash

it’s not for me but if you use it - only use it as body wash PLEASE it’s not safe for your hair 

platinum: do you follow politics?

yes and I'm tired 

magnolia: your Instagram handle?

shamira.papii

#lmaoo these were cute #get to know me

[insomniaandicedlattes]

Hey there. Hi there. Hello there.

This is something I’ve been contemplating for quite some time. Another blog. One that isn’t a side blog and a place for me to write. 

My other writing blog is, unfortunately, a side blog and is all based on a single subject for one of the main characters. It’s all Harry Styles based and well, I’m bored with it. I think he seems like a great person and has been fun to write but I need to write about more than just him and the audience on my writing blog doesn’t seem like they’d all be interested in something about politics or a different celebrity being the feature. Some of them might but a lot of them love Harry, 1D, and a few other things but maybe not what I’m wanting to write going forward. So rather than try to transition that blog into what I want to be doing now I’ve created this one.

It’s hard to keep writing something you’re not 100% committed to because it feels more like a chore than a chance to truly enjoy your craft. So this is going to be a home for me to write just about anything else. I can’t even begin to explain how happy I am about that.

So first a little bit about me. Okay, it’s a lotta bit about me so click read more if you’re interested.

My name is Ann Marie, I’m in my mid-30s (writing that makes me feel old), and I live in Iowa. I’m a proud Italian-American who is in the beginning stages of doing some family history research which has been a lot of fun. If you’ve read my old writing, yes there’s a character with my name from Iowa in something I’ve written. Honestly, I didn’t feel like picking a name when I wrote it. Hell, most of the characters have a name that connects to my family and I’ve even used my Italian family’s surnames for the last names of characters before.

Yes, I did say I’m in my mid-30s. No, I’m not married or a mother. Neither is really something I’m planning on. If the right guy showed up someday I could be swayed on the marriage portion but not the kids portion. I have 2 cats, George and Gracie, and they are all the kids I need. I love kids, I just don’t want them for myself, at least biologically. My niece and nephew are my universe. Some of my writing may have characters with kids so please know that if you are a parent and it doesn’t seem accurate to your life I’m just trying to imagine it.

I own my own Social Media Consulting business and work as a contractor with nonprofits and small businesses. I love what I do and have been doing it for over 10 years but started doing it full-time almost three years ago. Working for myself is a dream come true. I make the rules. I set the hours. I decide whether or not I want to work with a client. It’s amazing.

Writing is my creative outlet despite my work being sort of creative. I’ve been writing basically my entire life. I’m not the greatest writer but I am also not terrible. It’s a form of escapism for me. A chance to create a fantasy world and dive into it often to avoid the realities of my own life. I’ve mainly written fan fiction and while it’s a lot of fun for me I am trying to write my very first 100% original novel.

I am very political. I often felt on my other writing blog that writing characters who were also political would alienate people. American politics is a shitshow but is something that I am unbelievably obsessed with. If I had a chance to redo my life I may have tried to go into politics. My original novel is based on politics. It’s my own little way of pretending that’s what I do. If you need to know, I’m a lifelong Democrat. I was about 8 months old the first time my Mom pushed me in the baby buggy she had for me and went door-to-door canvassing for political candidates. I watch way too much CNN and I often like to rant about my dislike for the current political administration. If you’re a Trump fan this blog will not likely be for you.

My AppleTV is my best friend. I watch way too many shows on streaming services and love snuggling under a blanket with a good movie or show. If you have suggestions send them my way. I’m often watching Harry Potter for the 472,000 time or in the middle of watching every Marvel movie ever made. When it comes to TV shows my top faves are The West Wing, Friday Night Lights, and probably something dumb like Gossip Girl. 

I suffer from several chronic health conditions including mental health issues. At one point I was agoraphobic and struggled to leave my house. I have chronic migraines, severe depression, panic attacks and an autoinflammatory skin condition. It’s not fun. So when I disappear for days on end I’m normally battling a migraine. 

I’m happy to talk about the issues I deal with or help other people that struggle with any issues. I’m a completely open book. Whether it’s about relationships and how terrible I am about them, mental health issues, sex, owning a business, facing your fears, literally anything I’ll talk about it. So feel free to ask me anything. You can do so anonymously or not. If you’d prefer to keep it private let me know or send me a message and we can chat. If you’d like to see me try writing something I’m happy to do that too. You’ll eventually learn the things I enjoy and I’m always up for a challenge if I at least know something about what I need to write.

I hope you enjoy my writing. 

xx. AM

#writer #writer problems #writing blog #fanfic writer #fan fiction writer #introduction #writer intro #fan fiction writer

[veryvirginvirgil]

From the ground up Z1

Welcome to the z chapters, featuring.... Remy!

Master post of chapters

Remy spread his wings, playing with his phone and sipping on his Starbucks frappe. He usually didn't have time to indulge in coffee, so this moment or rest was well appreciated. As one of a handful of guardians responsible for sleep he spent most of his time rushing about, making sure that the humans slept proper.

The number of rest guardians had risen suspiciously these past few years. He had been responsible for training two himself. The number of rest guardians had risen from ten to thirty, and the new recruits where certainly doing thier jobs. This is why Remy had the time to purchase a phone and develop a love of Starbucks.

Of course his moment of peace was soon ruined.

"Remy." Another guardian came to him, alighting softly on the cloud next to him as he folded his Gray wings behind him.

"Was up, girl?" Remy replied, barely glancing up.

"The assigners requested your presence," he said. Remy glanced up and the messenger. He looked serious.

"K, I'll be there," He said, putting his phone away and flapping to his feet with his soft white wings.

"I'm to escort you to the entrance," The messanger said.

"Clingy much? Whatever let's get out of here," he said taking flight to the assigners office. The messanger followed behind, stopping at the entrance when Remy went in.

Remy was nervous. The assigners assigned guardians to significant humans on occasion, but mostly they all chose who they protected. Only a few guardians had stable jobs, and Remy was one. But protecting a mortal paid well if you did it well enough.

"Emanuel," a hooded assigner stated as he entered a dark, scone light, circular chamber.

"That's me," he said, sitting in the only available chair.

"The Lord has spoken, listen to what he has to say," another stated, directing his attention to an assigner, hood down and eyes glowing a soft pale yellow.

"The rest giver, the youngest of the ten," the assigneer's mouth moved, speeking not with his voice, but a voice Remy distantly recognised as The Lord's. "Emanuel. Remy, I have an important assignment for you. There is one beyond my sight, whose well being I wish to ensure. I have reason to believe he is risen."

"Oh wow," Remy said, sipping quietly on the coffee afterwards.

"I know not what he looks like, nor where he is. I remember where he went. This assignment is a challenge, but one that I know you are the most prepared for. Do you accept?" The Lord spoke. Remy thought for a moment. Was this the cause of more rest givers? Why him? What made him the best guardian for the job?

"My Lord, if I may, why me? A rest giver? I've never been a protector, and freelance work isn't really my style..." He said, finishing up his Starbucks.

"This case, I know, is best to give a rest giver. You know sleep, and that is closely tied to the person. They must learn to dream before they can wake. They must learn to sleep before they may dream. You can help with that in ways others cannot. Do you accept?"

"I..." He paused. He would admit, being a rest giver got boring after he'd been doing it for so long. This was new, and exciting. "Yes My Lord, I accept."

"Good. My assigners have the details. You have time to get you affairs in order before you set off. There are people here to help you. Good luck, Emanuel." The Lord said fading slowly from the assigner.

"Thank you, My lord," Remy said.

"And Emanuel? Do not neglect to dream," The Lord said, fading from the assigner. There was a moment of silence before they where offered water, and drank greedily. The assigner coughed, before leaving the room, pulling the hood of the cloak up. Remy glanced at the assigners, putting his empty cup on the on the table. The assigners pulled papers onto the table, opening folders and pushing thing onto the table.

"Emanuel, you will venture to Pagan springs, and search the woods. You will look for the one whose name begins with a "v". This is the individual The Lord spoke of. You will guard him. Before that you will be training with Gaberial," one assigner spoke

"The morning star?" He asked.

"The current morning star, yes. Your underlings will take up your duties, while you work on the case. The pay, is hefty," another said.

"How much is it?"

"5 times your current net worth," said another.

"Gurl..." Remy said in disbelief. He was already very well off, this could easily make him as rich as Gaberial himself.

"You will be provided with the vast majority of what you will require in order to live as a human convincingly, and you will be taught everything you need to know," the first said.

"When do I leave out?" He asked.

"We have a month. You start training immediately. Go to the back entrance, there Gaberial awaits with a messenger. Tell them you have accepted, and follow Gaberial from there. These papers will be delivered to your apartment, you will review them later," said the second.

"Gaberial will guide you through much of the process," the third said.

"Only engage with those relevant to your assignment. You will most likely have little trouble with them. There is normally no point in socialising," said the last. One of them, Remy lost track of which, ushered him out. He left, heading to the back entrance. There stood Gaberial, handsome and ethereal with the largest and most silver wings Remy had ever seen. The messanger stood with him, both looking to him expectantly.

"I- I've accepted." He said. The messanger flew off, and Gaberial smirked.

"Come on then, youngling, you've got a lot to learn," he said, taking flight. Remy followed, following the guardian as best as he could. Gaberial was naturally very fast, and while Remy was too, Gaberial's wings where easily five times the size of his.

They alighted on large marble steps, leading to a building that Remy had previously no cause to enter.

"The equipment building for high rank missions. This place has basically anything and everything you could need or have want for." Gaberial said, walking to the entrance.

"Starbucks?" Remy said, following.

"I mean, yes? That's normally not the first thing people come up with, but there's all forms of currency so there's gift cards for that," Gabriel said. "But first things first, to the east wing, housing division."

"Sounds lit," Remy said.

"Welcome to the housing division, morning star Gaberial! What can I do for you?" Said a young, pepy gaurdian. She ignored Remy, focusing on Gaberial.

"Thank you, Mary. This is Emanuel, we need to select mobile housing for his upcoming mission," Gaberial said, motioning at Remy. The attendants face fell slightly before she pulled out some paperwork and pens.

"What rank of importance was he assigned? I can get him a rank 10, but any lower than that and you need another building." She said.

"Rank one, we're looking at rank one housing," Gaberial said. Remy, despite being surprised about the rank was smug with her disbelief.

"You almost had me there Gaberial! They don't give anyone but you the rank ones, everyone here knows that," she laughed. "But no, for real, what's his importance rank?" Gaberial said nothing, but pulled out a rank card, it had a photo of Remy, some information, and on the back and the front where both the number one, showing the rank.

"I see, my apologies, morning star Gaberial," she said, filling out some of her paperwork with the card. She hurridly picked up all her papers before leading them down a hall. Gaberial passed the card to Remy, who put it in his pocket to look at later.

"We have a somewhat narrow variety of Rank one apartments, but they are highly functional," she began. "They all have dimensional capacity, item summoning, storage for centuries! Will you be needing a filling cabinet?"

Gaberial raised an eyebrow at Remy.

"Uh... Yeah that'd be cool, or whatever," Remy said.

"We'll make sure you have that. All of out styles are fully stocked, and self cleaning. Let's take a look at modle 1A," she said. They went from apartment to appartment, the attendent giving a brief tour of each. Remy settled on 1D, a clean and creamy apartment that had lower lightning and the fluffiest furniture. It felt similar to the rest givers headquarters.

"Now that we've got that settled, onto the wardrobe department!" Gaberial said. They walked over to the west wing. They passed through large double doors, into a seemingly never-ending warehouse of clothing.

"Oh my gursh," Remy said.

"Hello, Hello!" Out came a young gaurdian, a measuring tape around his shoulders, and scraps of fabric pooring from his pockets. "Welcome to wardrobe! Do you know the duration of your earthy venture?"

"Lengthy, possibly eternal," Gaberial said. "Emanuel here's just been given a high rank assignment, and he'll need a bit of everything."

"Of course! Let me just get some measurements here, find your size, and we'll talk about style in a jiffy!" The gaurdian said, pulling off the tape measure and going to work. Remy's style as it turns out was "sleepy teenage rebellion" as the gaurdian put it. He chose comfortable clothes in mainly blacks, prefering fluffy jackets, soft skinny jeans, and thin shirts that where just as much nightwear as they where daywear.

"You'll definitely be getting a lot of these, but I'll also include a bit of everything! Until you file your final report we'll keep the wardrobe updated for you. Stop on by every once and a while so I can update your measurements."

"Dope," Remy said. still letting his eyes wander over the assortment of clothes. Gabriel pulled him to the next section, the kitchens. The gaurdian there was plump and joyous. He shoved bite sized sample after sample at Remy while another guardian, probably an intern, kept trying to handle paperwork. He found that all the food was delicious, but he definitely had a bit of a sweet tooth. Gabriel pulled him to another side of the building after he complained about getting fat for the fifth time.

"We're heading to the currency section. We don't know exactly where you'll be, so we're gonna fill your wallet when we get it from the dressing department. Right now, we're talking monetary systems and spending." He dragged Remy to a room.

The currency guardian was large and grayed. He was looking older than any guardian, but he tuaght Remy about money with all the youth and vigour of a teen. Remy knew that he was amounghts the 100 oldest guardians, and that this guardian wasn't, but the way he talked and carried himself planted doubt into thousands of years of certainty. He left there will more knowledge about human currency than he thought was possible and a minor exsitantal crisis.

"He was just, too old!" Remy said.

"He's barely even 4,000 years old," Gabriel replied, walking with purpose.

"I know but he's just, like. Really old."

"You're more than twice his age!"

"Girl, I wear it better."

"It doesn't matter. We're approaching the armory," Gabriel lead him in. The walls where glistening with the metallic light of thought of weapons. Wooden weapons and other unique weapons where on smaller racks throughout the room and sheilds hung from wooden rafters, filtering the outdoor light that served at the only source of light. In the center of it all, on a pile of sheilds sat a small guardian, half Remy's height, polishing a knife. Gabriel walked quietly towards her, stopping within her feild of vision, not speaking. Remy followed, eying up and down the shelves and walls.

There was a lot to take in.

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