#you are not your scale number

[runs-4-pinkcupcakes]

Hey bunnies! It’s been a minute. 🩷

I have spent the summer getting chubby. 😀 But it’s been worth every alcoholic beverage and vacation calorie.

I decided to spend as much of the 90 days of summer saying YES to new experiences. I had to not let my weight hold me back from all the things on my bucket list. It HAS for many many years. “So sorry, but I’m too fat to go and do this and that. Sorry! But I have nothing to wear, it’s all too tight and I’m too self conscious!” I’ve known this my whole like, but I’m trying to live it “people who love you do not see your weight as a barrier to loving you”. They invite you because they want to spend time with you. Stop saying NO. You DO want to go.

Summer 2023: It’s had some ups and downs.

I went to Lido Beach Sarasota FL. Beautiful beach. 2 days in I had COVID: took 13 days to recover. That birthday vacation ended quickly.

Tried to make it up in Vegas end of June with 108 F temperatures. So hot you couldn’t even sit by the pool. Stayed at the spa most days.

Went to my first Grateful Dead concert. Perks: I already had COVID so no mask. The Free Contact high was amazing!

I did archery for the first time! Love it .

I learned to play CRAPS.

I went white water rafting at the American River.

Camp and made s’mores.

Watched the fireworks! 🩷🩷

Taught my self to make my favorite drink: Paloma.

Went to a Fiesta party and a Disco party. YES! Dressed up: wig and all!! Salsa and 70’s music and dancing.

46 days left of SUMMA! Go get it!!! ☀️☀️☀️

BTW: I’m back on my exercise and diet plan. I Do have a threshold. 🏃🏼‍♀️🏃🏼‍♀️🏃🏼‍♀️🏃🏼‍♀️

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#personal #selfsun #selfie #exercise over 50 #california #weight loss after 50 #white water rafting #disco balls #bucket list #summer #2023 #learn new things #have courage #adventure #go get it #get it girl #say yes #you are not your scale number #don’t worry what other people think #they are too busy with their own worries #Grateful Dead #dead & company #dead & co

[captainkirkk]

When I started writing 'lessons in tea making', I set out to make it a longfic that following ATLA Book 2 and 3 in its entirety but now its been almost 5 years and I'm realising that I'm probably never going to get around to finishing this monster of a wip

HOWEVER, I do have around 15k of chapter 2 collecting dust in my google drive so.... what's everyone's opinion on authors uploading (signposted) unfinished chapters....

#i can admit that the plot at the end of book 2 spiraled entirely out of control #it's the wall i will never be able to scale and i need to admit defeat #i have some of chapter 2 written but i also don't want to ruin chapter 1 for everyone #so.. thoughts?? #my posts #ficblogging #i'm usually strictly a one-shot writer #for a REASON #every time i get the urge to write longfic i have to remind myself that that's the devil talking #because the attempt will likely fail and kill me in the process #authors who effortlessly write 100k fics..... who did you sell your soul to and can you give me their number

[aroaceleovaldez]

Dude I don’t know where you’re getting this information that 13-14 guys can’t be tall at all. Literally every guy in my freshman high school grade (13-15 year olds) were all 5’6-6’0 at the beginning of the school year and they were all actively growing taller as the year went by. Letting people think Nico is average height or tall is not hurting nobody and you are still entitled to your opinion that Nico can be short. I believe all of Nico’s of various heights can coexist peacefully.

I did say "average" height and was only referring to the fact that Nico's canon height is never explicitly stated. Anyways allow me to rephrase:

my grievances only lie with the wiki for being baselessly wrong. tall nico headcanoners i have no beef with you understand i am simply being silly goofy on my blog mwah mwah

#ask #Anonymous #i just think it's fun to acknowledge that people have gotten taller in recent generations #so Nico's generation is short by comparison #nico grumbling that he's average height by his standards #and like. idk in canon he's short. whatever. do whatever you want. i ignore canon all the time #quite frankly Rick wrote some lame-to-terrible stuff at times that i do not wish to acknowledge #some of it because it is blatantly offensive. some because he is simply Wrong. others because i just feel like it #that is the beauty of fandom and i will never tell anybody what they can or cannot do #except for people trying to insist something is canon to prove themself correct when it's not. cause that's rude #nico's height is canon is a vague ''shortish'' but also char heights are wildly all over the place anyways #theres no numbers it could mean anything. just scale Michael appropriately in comparison #so who fuckin knows. go wild. i'm not your boss #im just here. i just go here. #there's a reason i differentiate ''coded'' vs ''canon'' (heavy quotation marks) vs ''headcanon'' vs ''theory'' vs ''extrapolation'' #which is a whole fascinating literary analysis vs fandom thing you could get into but i am probably the only one who finds that interesting #short version: canon is simply a liminal state do whatever you want forever #and please never take anything from my blog as strict fandom law or something i'm just saying shit. i just do this for fun.

[lgbtiwtv]

lestat wake up your own personal shadow the hedgehog has your man in his clutches

#help him!!!!!!!!!!!!! #imagine waking up from your humbling nap reformed and ready to rock only to catch wind that your number 1 enemy on this earth is not only #fucking your ex who was the love of your life. but is also desperately attempting to mentally manipulate him specifically to make you look #even worse than you already did #this will not stand #rashidmand is about to be public enemy number 1 #Louis I’m gonna scale the walls of this penthouse under the cover of night and get you outta there #iwtv spoilers #amc iwtv spoilers #iwtv #interview with the vampire #the vampire armand #louis de pointe du lac #m watches iwtv

[weeb-polls-with-pip]

Did the heroacasorter for fun since I saw people on twitter passing it around lol. I'm not really surprised by my results, though there's more ties than I thought there'd be. If I redid it, I'd put Izuku above Bakugou, and Toga above Nejire. Ochako before Shinsou is fine though.

#somehow slidin' go ended up at the very bottom of the ranking which is endlessly funny to me #not poll related #okay i lied inasa making it into the top 20 is a bit surprising to me. it's because he scores well on the himbocity scale #bnha #boku no hero academia #nagant's placement... that was my sapphic hindbrain taking control i admit #y'know i think ochako should have been above neji-chan and eri too. not sure what happened there. i love all of them though #feel free to ask what number ranking any other character got if you want #also rb with your results too if u do it! it's always fun to see other ppl's favs :)

[mariposakitten]

Look yes I respect everyone's right to bodily autonomy. You have the right to do as you wish with your own body and no one is allowed to contradict you, you are the ultimate authority on you. But I'm ngl whenever i hear someone say they are on purpose trying to lose weight the urge to take them by the shoulders and shake them til their teeth rattle is STRONG.

WHYYYYYY would you do that??? We have the science! We KNOW how mind-breakingly unhealthy that is long-term! We know, we KNOW that it doesn't actually work and it DOES fuck you up permanently! If I could do anything in my life over again I would go back in time and slap myself in the face any time I tried to lose weight, before I could do that damage to myself!

Ppl be like "oh yeah i think this weekend I'll go try and break my legs for fun" and expect me to go "good for you! good luck, hope you break 'em good!" Noooooooo bby no.

#fat acceptance #fatphobia #diet culture #you can improve your health without tying it to the number on a scale i PROMISE you #diet culture is lying to you any benefit will be short-lived and the repercussions will be forever #please love yourselves more than this

[dreamlogic]

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#shit chat #disordered eating cw #how to. politely ask my housemate to stop fucking telling me about her diet progress #she's trying to lose weight cause she's a musician & her band is traveling to this big thing at the end of the month #by doing really strict by-weight portion control and it does NOT seem healthy #she's trying to get back to her 'italy weight' and like. girl. u went to italy in high school 10 years ago & biked everywhere for a month #if you are at that same weight a decade later without exercise by simply making yourself eat less food there is a problem! #that is not aspirational that's horrifying!!! no u don't look hot in your gig outfit from 2013 you look disproportionately skinny! #so i gotta sit her down at some point and be like listen. ur an adult ur gonna do what you do #& i know ur industry puts insane pressure on women to look a certain way on stage. #but as someone with a history of disordered eating i will not cheer you on and support your 'progress' #and quite honestly it makes me uncomfortable to even talk about it and see your stupid little diet scale on the kitchen counter every day!! #i strongly associate weight loss with poor health for a number of reasons #and firmly believe that weight gain is cool and sexy and that everyone should be less afraid of being actually!!! #it was a struggle w/ dysmorphia for a while but putting on some chub is one of the best things i've been able to do for my body as an adult #i love my squishy tummy and hearing you obsess about having a perfectly flat (ie concave) abdomen daily is deeply saddening!!! #bleh. it's hard. i feel like i should gently intervene but also i do not want to get involved bc it's more than i can handle rn #*less afraid of being fat actually

[why-the-fuck-am-i-crying]

Logic and reason save me. Logic and reason. Save me logic and reason.

#i know i did not lose *** in a week and then gain *** in a weekend that's not how bodies work. fluctuations just happen. #but if i know that then why do i care so much! #and genuinely. WHY do i care! my body looks fine. it feels fine. its JUST a numbers game #the logical answer would prob be stop stepping on a scale then but then i will fill in the blanks with guesses #and my guesses would be delusional #trying really really hard. WHY do i have to try so hard. i have no reason to cry or *** when i just look at food #like girl just eat your snack... it was free... appreciate what you have..... #sigh. I'll be ok !!! i will be ok i will i will #mine

[biblically-accurate-soup]

anyway yeah now that i’m thinking about it i have made a lot of improvements surrounding my own body image. proud of me lol look at me go

#talking about food and exercise stuff past this point #honestly it is a miracle my relationship with food isn’t weirder than it was all things considered #but i still remember paraphrased convo i had with a nutritionist a few years back when i talked about my weight #she straight up asked me if the number was the issue or if i would care less about the number on the scale if i knew i was being active #and like damn. literally so true #didn’t fix everything but it has changed that relationship with myself a bit #i have the body type that i will likely never fall into the ‘healthy’ bmi range #(fuck bmi but that’s a different rant and tangent’ #so definitely it would be sooo unsustainable and miserable if i focused on numbers #instead getting involved in sword club and fun sports classes has been much more beneficial #my weight is roughly the same but i don’t get as tired when swinging around a longsword #and that’s way cooler than trying to force my square body into a circle hole. you know #does this make sense is this coherent #anyway. hope this can maybe help others who are in similar spots #your body isn’t for other people it’s for you to do what you want with it #uriel posting

[widevibratobitch]

i need to dye my hair i need to cut my hair i need to bleach my eyebrows again i need to shave them off completely i need to DO something i need CHANGE or ill go insane

#sorry im panicking for no reason whatsoever and need to do THINGS to my mortal body but like. #something that will not cause any actual harm because we dont do that here sir na-ah not anymore #also swinging a bat at the part of my brain that keeps telling me i need to lose weight because i liked my face better X kg ago #and also i need to step on the scale and check how much i weigh now cause what if ive put on weight since spring (i most definitely did) #also my mom keeps nagging me about going to that super great endocrinologist again but last time i went i told him i had an ED and he went #'yes very sad. anyway' and weighed me and told me the number anyway. but hey! he also said #'i have fatter patients than you its ok dw your situation isnt that bad we can concentrate on losing that weight later' so its cool :)))))) #(its not. im never fucking going there again id rather rip my whole thyroid out of my throat with my bare hands) #also i really want that rhinoplasty but more than a failed surgery im afraid of betraying my ideals lol #its much easier to be anti make up or anti plastic surgery or preach about self love and acceptance when you're naturally pretty lol #anyway. fucked up mental state rn idk why it was fine an hour ago kms

[dravidious]

You're more amazing than sickness

Lost Caverns of Ixalan is coming out on Arena tomorrow and I've avoided looking up any spoilers, aside from a few individual cards I stumbled across that didn't have any reminder text, so I have no idea what the new mechanics are. I looked up a list of the NAMES of the mechanics on the mtg fandom wiki, and I decided to make mechanics based on those names to see how close I get and also because it's fun.

Also I made this card for the descend mechanic at first but I didn't like the mechanic. How dare WotC make such a parasitic mechanic, they should really hire better designers smh. Also I realized that craft would probably be more interesting with artifacts that have tap abilities.

#asks #custom cards #i picked up little bits and pieces about the mechanics #i know that maps are tokens and that discover comes with a number #and i also know that caves exist and transforming cards were listed as a mechanic so i made something with that #a neat inversion of the original ixalan block's nonlands that transform into lands #i also know that there's a graveyard theme so i built that into discover #but craft? all original baby #and i think i heard something about descend having variations? so my “ascend but graveyard” mechanic is definitely not accurate lol #also for context a “parasitic mechanic” is a mechanic that inherently works better the more of it you put in your deck #or that's really weak unless you have multiple of it #sometimes this is okay but my depth counter version of descend is just kinda really boring #it may as well say “this card is stronger the more cards with descend you have in your deck” #stuff like energy and dungeons are kinda parasitic but they're using that to do cool stuff not just to scale effects #also also putting craft on artifacts that have tap abilities IS weaker because now you have to choose what ability to use #but that also makes it fun because you have to choose so you can't just get everything #attachable lantern was actually the original craft card i made but i made Mortician's Toolkit because tap abilities were so bad with craft #little did i realize that having that anti-synergy makes the mechanic actually cool instead of just making your artifacts cheaper #craft+tap offers a tradeoff: you can get access to the effect for cheaper but you have to put it on another artifact #of course you can just use artifacts that don't need to tap. if you have one #the main reason why i don't think my craft mechanic is accurate is because “equipment that taps” is a terrible idea #even if the tap ability is being given by another card #when you tap an equipped creature it's easiest to just turn the whole pile of cards sideways #but if you have to track whether an equipment is tapped or untapped that becomes a pain #Reconfigure creatures are on thin ice #well actually there's cards Citanul Stalwart that tap artifacts as cost so maybe it's not that bad? #i'm most confident in the accuracy of my map tokens and transforming lands ideas #though idk whether the transforming lands and the cave lands would be the same thing #if they have transforming lands then probably because it'd be weird to have 2 separate land mechanics #spelled separate correctly first try fuck yeah

[brokendownhearse]

working in research definitely gives people this sense of mystique about what you do, until they overhear you whingeing about how your new field (psychology) has way more salami slicing than your old field (neuroscience) and you have to give them a horror deep-dive into how academia works.

#to massively cut down my rant #'salami slicing' is where you deliberately cut what should be one single paper into several #and essentially publish the smallest fucking fragments you possibly can #this is so that you can artificially inflate your publication count when executives decide whether you're actually a worthwhile scientist #or if you should be tossed out for not publishing enough #this is because we are ranked almost exclusively on number of publications #so your job depends on pumping out as many as possible #even if they're dogshit or miniscule in scale #writing my first paper for my new job post-phd quit #and holy fucking shit #one author managed to cut what should have been a single paper down to 8 different ones #it's driving me mad #psychology #research #academia #science #i miss neuro so much :(

[bookwyrminspiration]

if I see another number ever in my life I'm going. to cry

#shitpost #I am still figuring out the best way to approach all the raw data I have #and organize it #and I was making a table showing the association between shipping sophie and keefe and your ratings on a 1-6 scale #and I. have gone through three times #and I still. have fudged it up #and the numbers don't match up #only 28 people rated it a 5 why do I have 30 tallymarks there!! #and!! the first two times I tried to count! #I lost track in the /exact same place/ #everything's totally fine I am just gonna weep about it #anyway if you like sophie/keefe in any capacity that's correlating with higher ratings so. there's that

[suleskerry]

I get it I guess but like the worst part about having to inject immunosuppressants is how many phone calls you have to make all the time and how many words you have to listen to other humans who also don't want to be on the phone with you say

#my hatred of surveys is unparalleled #please rate your ability to open jars on this scale i will repeat #thirty times bc for some reason THAT is the script #even the pain scale is less annoying bc at least i csn just give you a number

[patrice-bergerons]

Continuing to shock medical professionals by not knowing my weight OR my height rip

#in my defence: i very intentionally don't owe a scale #and i cannot remember numbers when it comes to my height #the technician today was so confused though hshshsh #girl you gotta measure these things yourself if you reallt need them for your test

[indexcard]

so sad to google marilyn monroe's height and gradually realise by the nature of the links that most people do this for like, objectification reasons, whereas i just wanted to confirm my suspicion that she was my height (she was 🥲)

#blah blah blah #you can't pick your obsessions sometimes you stumble into like mainstream iconography sideways #becoming a marilyn girl because someone has to defend her image from mass production etc etc #anyway something so parasocial about needing to know a celebrity's height #but something so human about specifically needing to know how tall they are compared to you #sitting around the lunch table with colleagues comparing heights it really is the same thing on a different scale #we love knowing our lives in numbers