#you can hear the tears in my eyes

[markscherz]

In which my not-yet-two-year-old son catches a gecko for the first time, and I barely keep it together.

#personal #cute #animals #gecko #gookoo #lizard #about me #it is truly astonishing how gentle he is with animals #i have seen grown adults crush animals to death without meaning to #because they don’t have grip control #but Q is *so* gentle #just the right pressure #you can hear the tears in my eyes #the best part is that he spent the rest of the holiday turning over rocks looking for geckos #but he’s not even two so he has no concept of #(a) how big a rock is too big to turn over #and (b) how small a rock is too small to have a gecko under it #and (c) he has not yet realised there are no geckos in Denmark #*lifts tiny pebble* ‘no gookoo’ #*points at huge rock on our cycle to daycare* 'gookoo!' #Q #yes I am such a huge trekkie that I was excited my son's nickname would be Q #yes I've been on tumblr so long I even named my child Q

[definitelynotshouting]

“The universe sings,” Grian said.

He sounds vaguely distant- like he’s speaking from hundreds of blocks away rather than right next to Mumbo.

He turns on his bed, slow halting movements, to face him.

“Did you know?”

Mumbo can only stare.

“…Sings?” He asks. He shifts on his chair.

Grian seems to want to nod, but aborts the motion halfway, and hums instead.

“Yeah. The code. It sings, if you listen close enough,” Grian mumbles.

Mumbo opens his mouth, then closes it again.

Grian exhales a long breath, and his eyes drift close.

“Can you hear it?”

Mumbo watches the way Grian’s chest rises and falls, shallowly, slowly.

He closes his eyes, and strains to hear.

He hears- Tango out in another room of the house, pacing circles around the kitchen. Mumbo can tell it’s Tango by the shuffle in his walk.

He can hear birds outside, twittering. Wind rustling through branches. An animal- a pig, maybe, trotting along some grass.

It’s quite calming really- but he doesn’t hear singing. At least, he doesn’t think he does?

When he opens his eyes again, it’s to Grian staring right at him.

Mumbo exhales in one sharp breath- he didn’t realise he’d stopped breathing- and meets Grian’s gaze.

“Did you mean like, actual singing or- or was that metaphorical? Because I can’t hear anything other than trees, mate,” he says, only half-joking.

Grian huffs a small laugh, and shakes his head.

“Nah, it’s not really singing-singing. It’s music, though. You’ve definitely heard some of it- discs. That’s the easiest way to hear it. But that’s- so few of what’s out there. There’s more music, if you know how to listen for it,” he hums. His eyes close again, and he leans more into the mattress.

Mumbo pauses, and thinks on that for a moment. Music discs, huh? He supposes it seems plausible, that there’d be more music out there.

But then why has he never heard it? Mumbo doesn’t ever recall hearing ‘the code sing’. If it’s tied into music discs, then is it naturally generated? Is hearing it a ‘watcher thing’?

Mumbo glances down at his hands, traces lines of dirt under his fingernails.

He nods, though Grian can’t see it anyway. He makes some vague ‘see you later’ comment he can’t bother to think about, and carefully gets to his feet.

At the doorframe, he peers back.

Grian lies there, breathing steadily.

Mumbo turns and leaves, closing the door behind him.

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headcanon that the minecraft soundtrack can be heard in the code, but only if you're 'in harmony' with it. cue other headcanon of watchers being very aware of the code

HEY ANON. ANON. I ADORE THIS HOLY SHIT I FUCKING LOVE THIS HEADCANON???? The idea that the universe is constantly singing to itself, and you can hear that through the Greater Code if you really carefully listen, is something i lowkey want to canonize SO BADLY holy shit. And this is such a lovely snippet too, im always such a sucker for deeply layered conversations like this.... i adore how youve given so much depth to the sentence "the universe sings" and the implications of how and why Grian is hearing it so much right now. [THROWS UP BLOOD] IM OBSESSED.......

Also this Mumbo dialogue especially is on point youve done such a good job of capturing his little speech patterns :] STUNNING JOB ANON IM SO FLATTERED U WROTE THIS!!!!! I really think i might canonize this concept just for how absolutely amazing it is, im utterly obsessed with it

#shouting speaks #asks #hunger au #art for me #<- litcherally cannot remember if i have a specific fic for me tag or not IG I'LL FIND OUT ONCE I HIT POST... #THE IDEA THAT TJE SOUNDTRACK ARE SONGS THE UNIVERSE SINGS TO ITSELF.... IM GOING BUCKWILD #i mean its already canon the universe SINGS but u KNOW my ass is gonna be listening to the full soundtrack #tears in my eyes as i picture grian listening to it..... #i hope its okay to yoink this anon bc im enamoured with the concept truly #gods and the idea that the music discs are specifically fragments of the universe singing that you can ACTUALLY HEAR.... #i like to think that like. making music discs is p much like making custom ones the way theyre doing it #but sometimes. sometimes you find treasure discs #or you fashion it from the remains of a creeper.. and you get a little window into what the Greater Code sounds like #weeping forever and ever that u wrote this for me im saving this in my special little works inspired by hunger au folder rn #❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ #fic recs #long post #txt

[hammill-goes-fogwalking]

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#not dislike. its hate #it made me cry several times today #thinking of how my classmates manipulate our teachers #and chatgpt AIs can EVERYTHING #its so painful to think of it #today I broke down in the bus and cried #idc what people think. hiding my feelings any longer would destroy me from the inside #maybe youve also seen how people use freakin AIs in their exams #the thing is that: #we wrote an exam for which Ive studies for like 2 whole days #this week we finally got the exams back (w the grades ofc) #and ok Ive got a 3 (C in America syste #*m) #my friends who used chatgpt throughout the exam got way better grades (I didnt expect it otherwise) #PLUS #the most provocating messages from the teacher: #“10/10 POINTS :)” “YOURE ROCKING THIS” “YEAH” #💔 #seriously #this breaks my heart #dont the teacher see something suspect in the exam?! #why cant they open their eyes and get modernized to reality. #& they KNOW- the students Im talking of. they usally have bad results. #once our teacher came to a chatgpt student and said the most miserable thing: #“youve been using duolingo a lot lately hm? thats where your nice grades come from 😉🥰” #you get it? #no- this peoson didnt learn. #no- this person isnt even interested in the stuff we learn in lessons #AWFUL feeling to hear the praisings of da teachers when *I* gotta sit among the gpt-students and look like Im a worse student than *them* #[writing this at almost 1 at night] still have some tears. this topic really has the power to destroy someones day. 💔💔

[hide-in-imagination]

I, Ámbar Smith, take thee, Simón, to be my wedded husband, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, until death do us part.

I, Simón Álvarez, take thee, Ámbar, to be my wedded wife, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, until death do us part.

I now pronounce you husband and wife.

#simbar #soy luna #soy luna 2 #YOU CAN NOT FUCKING TELL ME THIS DOESN'T LOOK LIKE FOOTAGE FROM THEIR WEDDING #I made myself emotional making this post #like actual tears in my eyes I'm not kidding #pictures edited by me- steal and it's your ass #My Post #My Edit #I CAN HEAR THEIR VOICES- FUCK- HELP ME😭😭😭 #remember

[opikiquu]

im going to be so annoying all week

#agghagahah HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH HYYESAAHHHH #★ arin rambles #BRO BRO PLEASLE #PELASE #my apology for everyone. I have to make it now . Sorry. If youre following me destroy that notif button you dont wanna hear how worse i will #get #actually no just Unfollow entirely #ITS THE ADHD #PLEASE. HE IS SO . COOL. his trailer is so awesome IVE REWATECHED IT 3 TIME SNOW. #I LOVE HIMMMMMMM SO MUCHHHHH #I LOVE HIM SO BAD I JUST ADORE HIM PLEASE #HES SO PRETTY. JAW DROPPING. ICONIC. LIFE CHANGING. THE TEARS IN MY EYES. GENUINELY SOBBING RITHT NOW IT S SO OVER #aventurine likers hold me. Nobody understands. Everyone is scared of me im too crazy #actually its everything wrong with me . Hes ruining my life #i dont struggle as an aventurine liker i actually excel at this its my full rime job now #‘9 to 5’ no i work 9 to 9. Every hour is dedicated to him #im glad uguys agree with me thannk uou i was starting to think i was a freak #Well i am but im glad someone else agrees hes cool #Hes so pretty im so happy #I CAMT WAIT RILL WENDENSDAY PLEASE IM GONNA FREAKIFN BLOW UP #I LOVE AVENTURINE. I LOVE AVETURINE. #i get so happy when i see him i get a little violent its unsettling . #like im like shaking my hands and jumping around my room and then u blink and im bashing my head against the floor #its carpet. Im ok. But like not but i am #DUDE. I LOVE. THIS GUY. EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM #i needto. Just. Okay brb gonna watch ir like 20 more times ill see u guys next year im going into a Aventurine induced coma #this makes me realize people read my tags. Oh dear. Sorry everypony #i apologize for my behavior. I will get so much scarier. #HES SO COOL. HES ACTYALLU SO COOL. LIKE HOW CAN SOMEBODY BE SO COOL. #oh god OH LORERDRDRDDDDDDD WHEN I GET YOU BOY WHEN I FIND YOU. WATCH OUT. WATCH OUT I WILL GET YOU.

[felizusnavidad]

THAT'S ON ME WTF ED

#i have tears in my eyes #guys this album is so good 🥺 #but sincerely can you hear me?*

[cynicalmusings]

about to start bawling (half-serious)

and not to forget this one as well:

i am not fucking okay right now.

#LOOK AT HIM #WITH HIS LITTLE CLOAK AND BIG EYES AND SQUISHY CHEEKS #i fucking miss him #i need more manga cyno content #more cloak cyno content #please hoyoverse gods hear my desperate prayer #WE. NEED. MORE. INFO. ON. PRE. MAHAMATRA. CYNO. #p l e a s e #(can you see that i’m on the verge of a mental breakdown here) #he’s so adorable i actually can’t #look at that first picture #he’s perfect #and you lot know how i feel about that last one #WAAAHHAAHAHHHH #i kid you not when i say there are literal tears beading in my eyes right now what the actual hell is wrong with me #i want to kiss hiMMMMMMMMMMMM #r’s random thoughts #ok #i’m done #for now #maybe #i still have some old drafts from over a year ago which i might write #i miss old cyno so much what the fuck #yeah so you know how i said i was done #i lied. #HHHHRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAOWRNTOEJQBIDSJWJ

[guhhhhhhhhhhh]

I have to put fresh sheets on my bed and make it but I've just been sitting on my bare mattress for the last 20 mins ranting to myself about this damn show

#again rewatching this with a developed adult brain is CRAZY #and I'm catching so many things I didn't notice before #and it's making everything feel even more !!! than the first time I watched the show #like!!!!like!!! somehow I never caught onto how such a strong part of flint's grief comes from the fact that he didn't try and rescue Thomas #and how his actions led to all of this happening in the first place #he could have sided against Thomas with his father. and they never would've had any of the mess that came with angering Dad #but that just wasn't possible to him anymore #because of what he felt for Thomas he had to defend his ideals. the ones they shared #and after all that. KNOWING that HE was partly responsible for what happened to Thomas!! just how painful it is that he walked away. #and fled to Nassau. and didn't do anything to try and help Thomas #like!!! the GUILT that must cause!!! the ANGUISH!!! no WONDER he's Like That Jesus Christ #and like!!! oh my GOD Toby Stephen's acting is outstanding in this #the way you could feel the palpable shift right after flint hugs Miranda. while Ashe is telling them how he can wisk them away to someplace #else in Europe. and james steps back!! you could see it in his EYES that that is the moment when Captain Flint starts to form #and you can hear it in his voice. the barely perceptible shift. that he reached his breaking point #also I completely forgot about the surprise Vane attack at the end of that episode and I nearly screamed #black sails #ALSO!!!!!! going through all of this with the knowledge that Miranda dies T^T and that Thomas is actually alive and they get reunited #is tearing my soul apart I think #these sheets may not be going on my bed tonight.....

[whumpypepsigal]

Halo s01e06: “Chief, Can You Hear Me? Chief, Let Go!”

#whumpedit #whump #haloedit #halo the series #halo #john 117 #master chief #pablo schreiber #1x06 #alien #triggered #flashbacks #repressed memories #mind control #pain #tears #eyes #visions #can you hear me #my gifs #halo spoilers #forgot to post this last week #can’t wait to watch the new episode later 🥳

[9haharharley1]

🎧

😊

There were moments of gold

And there were flashes of light

There were things we'd never do again

But then they'd always seemed right

There were nights of endless pleasure

It was more than all your laws allow

~

It's All Coming Back to Me Now, Celine Dion

#can i just say that this song is serious blackice vibes? #cuz it is #its so good and brings a tear to my eye every time i hear it #and ive heard the other versions #Ms Dion's is the best #harley answers #asks #thank you for asking!!

[naisaa]

okay i. didnt expect you are so not invited to my bat mitzvah to actually make me cry real tears. ???? the adam sandler teen comedy movie??? was good???? and genuinely funny??? and made me so emotional?????

idk maybe im surprised bc the last time i watched an adam sandler movie was in like 2012 and i never rly liked any of them. and with this one Some of the humor and over-the-topness was a toned down version of the same type of not rly my thing... but i liked and felt for the characters and the overall tone was so. charming?

i feel like if i was a teen i'd've haaated this movie bc of how it portrays teens. like i assumed the 'ha ha look at the silly slang and behaviors of Kids These Days amiright' would start to annoy me v quickly at the start of the movie... and i do think there were a FEW moments of it being like that. but overall i was so surprised that it just felt very loving, more like lighthearted teasing. i'm sure it'll grate on actual teens anyways (and fair enough) but as an adult the more remarkable thing was rly the palpable empathy.

'look i dont understand all of this and think a lot of it is silly or even worrying and i will make fun of it a little bit, but i can see you're struggling and i care and feel for you regardless.' like. im not even a parent but that was the vibe of the whole movie and it was. genuinely rly touching. and i did not EXPECT THAT

#you are so not invited to my bat mitzvah #i just. did not expect this movie to be what it is or for this type of story to make me FEEL THINGS #it looks like a movie id roll my eyes at bc of the schmaltzy teen drama romcom-ish tropes but?? #it just felt earnest and that made it work for me #the no spoilers big thing at the end... #listen i dont normally cry during movies and when i do its like a singular tear. So When I Tell You I Was Sobbing #also sarah shermans character and entire wardrobe was a delight. bless. #N ALSO. im not jewish but currently trying to learn more abt it so idk how to put this but. i just rly liked? the jewishness of it all? :D #the setting just being like everyone here is jewish just roll w it but we do have one (1) model minority token christian kid was so funny #the fight between stacy and her dad sdkjfhfkjgdf #THATS WHY WE FOUGHT THE NAZIS?1 SO YOU COULD HAVE A MOJITO BAR?!! #pls i was on the floor #but also the only religion im personally familiar with is christianity and im so like. intrigued by how different the approach feels to me #idk why but i never feel particularly comfortable hearing christians talk about god and religious concepts #and to my surprise i dont have that at all hearing jewish ppl talk abt it? #like to bring it back to this movie. there was obv a LOT of talking abt that but instead of alienating me it feels more like #oh wow i can listen and engage with those topics without clenching my whole body for once? #and even discover that i LIKE a lot of the concepts and approaches #maybe its the absence of personal baggage? but also i just think its neat dot meme im INTERESTED i wanna know more #much to think about much to learn u__u anyway go watch it its on netflix

[the-cat-at-the-theatre-door]

Just thinking aloud, but I know "The Ad-dressing of Cats" is more often disliked over liked in the Fandom, which is fair, but I have to say that mix of nonsensical lyric that is otherwise straight forward suddenly developing this entirely *bigger* meaning, with that great swelling choir brings a tear to my eye like almost nothing else in this show does.

#okay i lied many things bring tears to my eyes #but there is something about the addressing - especially if you can hear deuteronomy's voice soaring underneath the choir #that sends a swell of emotion through my body #the lyrics are nonsense while the music is taken as seriously as anything else - it's about as perfect a representation of what Cats is #you can read it as complex and deep or you can enjoy it on the surface #you are correct both ways #also i just love hearing deuteronomy sing sue me #it's literally a representation of just *being* we are this we are not that - for all the complexity you just witnessed #at the end of the day we just *are* #extemporize back chat

[silverislander]

genuinely crying rn bc my shakespeare prof emailed me to say he thinks i could do grad studies in english and asked whether i've considered an honours degree 👍

#he said he forgot to tell me in person but thats good actually bc i probably wouldve burst into tears hfjdkljfgkd #like there are for real tears in my eyes currently #thats so fucking nice of him what #and like. hes got a point ive only gotten below an 85 twice out of any english course ive taken in university #and that was a 71 with a notoriously hard prof during the pandemic and an 80 my first semester #but fuck man i forget that im. actually really good at this #levi.txt #:) #my brother is so smart that hes all my parents ever talk about. hes aiming for a joint honours pure math/compsci degree #and he was handpicked for a grad level study group. and hes working on research with a prof this summer as an 18yo/freshman #so like. sometimes i forget that i even have achievements in comparison you know? and its really fucking nice to hear it 😭 #anyway. i dont know if ill do it. its like at least another semester to year of school and i was already feeling so sure about ece #its more so about the offer being there than wanting it desperately or anything #like fuck man. i guess i can actually write huh #gives me hope at least

[felizusnavidad]

IN THE HEIGHTS countdown: 22 DAYS!

song for today:

so how can i say that while i was away i had so much to hide? hey guys, it’s me the biggest disappointment you know the kid couldn’t hack it she’s back and she’s walkin’ real slow welcome home, just breathe

#song for today: breathe #meet nina #she is actually my favourite character and i think so many people would say she is the most relatable #fun fact: even lin said he is not usnavi #he's nina #but aren't we all? #OBC: played by mandy gonzalez #movie version: played by leslie grace #i actually love both but i usually listen to the obc version anyway so mandy's voice is what i hear pretty much everyday and i'm used to it #but leslie is also amazing tbh #(ani don't yell at me i know you prefer leslie's version) #a little note from me about our polish nina: played by marta bykowska #of course i had to check her out because nina is my favourite character like i said before so it was kinda important to me #and i can already tell you i am in love with her #she is a perfect choice tbh and i'm sure she will make me cry #also i'm writing this with tears in my eyes because i always cry on this song if you even care #it won't be long now* #Spotify

[trashcanalienist]

#you could never understand #born into the grave? i was torn from it #i want to return to safe darkness and silence and the gentle whisper of my friends beside me #if everyone is born from the past as i assume they have to be for why should i presume to be special...then it's just they all forget #and i remember. few others like me. most of those don't last very long before they return themselves to where we are supposed to still be #resting. no horrible disturbance. #the sun is so blue and sharp. it tears an unholy whine from the poor buzzing insect that i am #it is summer now and always summer makes me sleepy. warmth like i remember. but i cannot rest because like playful cat i want to watch the #dancing blue shadows spin and rustle across white concrete #i want to fill the glass hollows of my eyes with green leaves and blue sky and perfect cool water rush over my skin #my fevered hateful skin. #i cannot stand to hear all this noise #i don't want to see all this human filth #i want to feel the decency and calm and peace that i never have been able to feel in this horrible living existence #once i was a gentle creature. now i howl and cry #i could bear it once. i cannot bear it any more. there is nothing to keep me here any longer. #i want to be in the soft safety of where i used to be for centuries millennia dreaming and musing #i want to be gone from here this awful unbearable unlivable life #i want to be where joey is. wherever. #i am so tired catatonic animal. take this away from me. you can have it. i don't want it. #tear it all down #words i speak #nonsense