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mikakuna · 1 month
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my problem is that i always end up emotionally invested in the angry abuse victim character-- the character who is always the "wrong" kind of victim. the one who lashes out and is violent, a complete juxtaposition to their sunshine/lawful good counterparts in the media.
i end up resonating too hard with these characters that i always end up on the shitty side of the fandom where people will see you as a bad person for enjoying representation of an angry victim.
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leportraitducadavre · 6 months
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okay, I’m not a gatekeeper. I swear I’m not. But I genuinely cannot help but be irked when I see a hinata fan latch themselves onto characters like Neji or Sasuke. Pretending like they ~totally~ understand their characters while also horribly misrepresenting them and characterizing them like they’re from a fanfiction. Talking about how noo sasuke would love hinata if he really got to know her! He’s just so cold and unfeeling that a character like hinata could really bring out a nice side to him!1!1!1 Neji is a victim of this too but in a slightly lesser degree as most hinata fans don’t bother to ship them openly as they’re related. But that won’t stop them from characterizing Neji as someone completely and utterly obsessed with hinata to the point he grovels at her feet and is possessive of her like a “big brother.” Because if hinata called him her big brother when he died then that totally makes them siblings! Who cares if neji considers himself that! Hinata said so1!11!1!
god I dunno. Maybe I’m just being selfish in the idea I just want hinata Stans to stay tf away from Neji and Sasuke because if you like hinata and her character, there is absolutely zero chance you will be able to understand Neji or Sasuke.
Well, I don't see an issue with liking a character by itself and proclaiming yourself a fan of the rest (I'm a big fan of Ino Yamanaka and Sasuke Uchiha, two characters that stand in opposite corners thematically), yet this can be sustained as long as we respect their canonical characterizations and understand that not everything about a character is "good" or has to be justified. As for the core of your complaint, I agree, as many of these arguments are sustained on the premise of giving Hinata more relevance (romantically or politically); something that she canonically does not possess and that neither of the two previously mentioned male characters are interested in giving her.
Hinata's sole purpose as a character was based on being Neji's polar opposite during his arc (the Chünin exams are relevant to Neji, not Hinata, who is a supporting character to him) and being Naruto's admirer on certain occasions. That's it, at no point was she even mentioned or observed by Sasuke, and any narrative weight she might have carried disappeared when Neji himself was no longer necessary for Naruto's growth.
Neji's problem isn't just with Hinata (I'm surprised to have to clarify something specifically mentioned in the manga and anime), but with the entire main Hyüga family; which is why his arc doesn't close until Hiashi (not Hinata), apologizes.
As for Sasuke, I wouldn't spend any more time thinking about it since the sole reason for his involvement lies in a desire for romantic reciprocity from the most attractive and powerful character in the manga (at the thought of an offspring with both Byakugan and Sharingan, despite the fact that the Sharingan is infinitely superior to the Byakugan). If with Neji's arc, Hinata possessed almost zero thematic relevance, with Sasuke - with whom she not only never interacts but in his eyes, she's part of the caste he seeks to eradicate, then her incidence is extremely nil.
I've never written a post about SasuHina/HinaSasu, and in part, I refuse because their canonical possibility really is nil, so there's nothing more to analyze than headcanons and fanfictions that have their own rules, which have little to do with Kishimoto's material.
Perhaps in the future, I'll dedicate a post to that pairing discussing some of its more famous theories; like how Hinata, being a character considered by the fandom as "sensitive", could understand and help Sasuke despite the fact that she was never seen comforting or trying to understand any character other than Naruto; going as far as to dismiss her cousin's emotions in order to put herself as a victim of the system on the same level as her cousin, whom her father enslaved.
Hinata being shy is not the same as her being "good" or "sensitive", Sakura used to be shy during her childhood and was bullied for it, yet Hinata stans don't usually consider Sakura to be a good person...
Here are some posts about Hinata and Neji's relationship:
Hinata endorses slavery. A quick explanation of why.
NejiHina or the possibilities of the pairing.
The Hyuga clan. And the Caged Bird Seal. Plus:
Sorry, no, Hinata never hit Pain.
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mistress-of-vos · 1 year
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We as a fandom always forget about how Tim *is* Jean-Paul's Robin and that if we go in a New Earth and Rebirth mashup, it probably was hella shocking for Jean-Paul to come back to life and suddenly see Tim being this cold and lonely Red Robin who refused to work with the bats 🫣
Jean-Paul trying to adapt to be back to life and return to his life (going to therapy with Brian, either working again on WE or studying to be a nurse) and part of it it's fixing his messy relationship with the bats but he can't bring himself to ignore how awful they're being to Tim and he ends up screaming and asking what the hell happened and why is Tim refusing to talk to them and no one dares to answer that Robin was taken away from Tim when he needed it the most so JP decides to go and ask Tim himself...
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Tim isn't that shocked when he opens the door and sees Jean-Paul standing there. It's the first time they see each other properly ever since JP came back to life around two months ago, yet Tim acts as if nothing had happened in those two years JP was dead. Tim smiled and tells him to come in, making two cups of coffee and asking Jean-Paul how he's doing and if Azrael is truly back (Valley always wanted to leave that life behind, after all).
Jean-Paul answers all the questions Tim makes, drinking his coffee slowly and slightly uncomfortable at the view of Tim's rich and *sober* apartment. It looks like those penthouses rich girls have on movies and Jean-Paul starts to realize that he never really asked Tim about his life, his parents, his dreams. They knew each other for years, and Tim saw Jean-Paul at his worst and did all he could to help, yet Jean never quite returned that favor. He feels a bit sick at that thought, and he clings to the empty cup as he looks at Tim intensively.
"Why aren't you Robin anymore?" Jean gasps, the words barely making their way out of his throat. Tim loses his warm smile, and then he's looking at Jean-Paul coldly and sharp.
Tim's hurt.
"Some people thought there was someone who needed Robin more than me," Tim mutters, fingers taping the wooden table, "I was fired, can you believe that? Guess they never thought I deserved to be Robin. I was always the one who had it *easy*"
"That's not true!" Jean-Paul yells, "I have seen you in the field, Tim. You're a great Robin. No one of us ever understood Batman like you did... God knows you understand the mantle better than I did," he admits bitter but genuinely, looking worried at Tim, "I don't understand, how could they fire you?"
Tim shrugs, "I knew Bruce wasn't dead, and they assumed I was doing - badly. Mentally, I mean. It's fine," Tim laughs painfully, "I got help from other people anyway. And I'm Red Robin now, so I don't have to follow their annoying rules."
Except that Azrael also tried to be alone for a while, and no one understands how hard it is better than him. There's no way Tim is truly fine with this.
"Help? From who?"
"From the only person who believed me and saw me worthy," Tim whispers, ashamed, "Ra's al Ghul. He helped me find Bruce, and he - saved my life too.*
"Oh."
"Could you keep that a secret? I have enough with the bats saying I'm being childish, I don't need them calling me a traitor too."
"I won't tell, but..."
"But?"
"You're Robin," Jean-Paul insists, "I - I cannot accept that it was taken from you. I don't understand!"
Tim smiles, a bit condescending, "You're too sweet. No one of the bats wants me as Robin anymore. Not even Bruce."
"Even after you did for him?" For me?
"Even then. I told you, it's fine," Tim sighs, "Bruce never saw me as his son, anyway. Makes sense he would forget about me when his blood son appeared, don't you think?"
Jean-Paul isn't a fan of the weight people put on bloodlines. In fact, he hates it. He wishes he wasn't a Valley, and he wishes he wasn't Azrael.
"You're my Robin," Jean whimpers, shaking despite the fact that it's not him who has been pushed away from the bats nor is him who got his mantle taken away, "You're my Robin."
Cold, soft hands take Jean-Paul's between his.
"Look at me," Tim says with that firm voice he has always had. It's unsettling to hear in someone so young (small), and it was even weirder back when Tim was thirteen, patching an injured Jean-Paul at the middle of the night and reprimanding him for being so violent.
Tim has always had deep eyes, as if he has been alive for hundreds of years instead of eighteen.
"You were Batman, and I was Robin," Tim says softly, comforting him, "But we can't be that anymore, even if we want to."
"It's unfair," Jean yells, remembering the arrogance of Dick dressed as Batman and that - Damian using the Robin suit that should be Tim's, "It's not how it should be."
"There's no way things should be," Tim argues, tilting his head and looking awfully sad, "That's the worst part, that there aren't instructions to who or what we should be. We need to decide so ourselves."
"I don't want to be Azrael," Jean admits, letting Tim guide him away from the table so they can lay down on the couch, "Do you want to be Red Robin?"
"... No," Tim says like it's a secret, "I don't want to."
"And what do we do?"
Silence takes over the room for a while, and then Tim's typical click of the tongue echoes too loudly.
"We will be Jean-Paul and Tim, that's what we are going to do."
The kiss and touches that follow would have been inappropriate for Batman and Robin, and they would have been inconvenient for Azrael and Red Robin. But for Jean-Paul and Tim? For them, kissing and sex are a natural path to follow.
There are some things that never change, after all.
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artsyunderstudy · 1 year
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15 Questions | 15 People
Rules: Answer these 15 Questions, then Tag 15 People 
Thanks for tagging me @aristocratic-otter!
1. Are you named after anyone? My mom was working in a daycare and met a little girl named Ashton and thought "that's a pretty name" and here I am. I agree, I like my name. It's unisex and people call me sir a lot over email, which I don't mind. People also call me Ashley over the phone which I ... do mind. Don't call me Ashley.
2. When was the last time you cried? I can't remember exactly, though I know it was recent. It was a little cry, I was just lost in a thought spiral.
3. Do you have kids? Not yet :(
4. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Yes, but mostly just when I'm in a good mood. For laughs. I don't generally use it in arguments or when expressing anything negative. I'm very very straightforward in those situations.
5. What’s the first thing you notice about people?  I really don't know. Probably just their expressions, and clothes because I like clothes and I like to see how people choose to present themselves. Not in a judgey way, just a curious way.
6. What’s your eye color? Brown. Dark, dark brown.
7. Scary movies or happy ending? Happy endings, I don't love being scared.
8. Any special talents? I have been told I'm pretty good at art and writing. I can also sing but I hate getting ANY attention for it so usually I just sing at home, about things I'm cooking or if my husband says something weird.
9. Where were you born? Fort Worth, Texas
10. What are your hobbies? Outside of fandom?? I love travel planning. Like, travel too, but I'm particularly into the planning. I have trellos. They are magnificent.
11. Do you have any pets?  Yes! 2 cats and one dog.
Pumpkin (orange tabby, grumpy, chonky, great pillow, made of trouble, loves being squished so much we call him squash, likes it rough the little weirdo, has been with me since the beginning and we are very attached to each other),
Kira (a skinny grey patchy kitty with big paws and frog eyes, very sweet and polite, will tap you on the shoulder for attention, gets right up in your face when you're eating to beg for food she's not actually interested in, will not be put off, will not give up, and likes to sleep under the covers, weirdly obsessed with my husband)
Ember (cute as fuck cattle dog mutt, probably hates us because we're low energy and she is HIGH HIGH HIGH energy, loves head and chin scratches, dangerous because she cannot contain her excitement for any humans, doesn't understand personal boundaries AT ALL and has paid the price for it a few times, she will paw and lick and jump and bork and snurf, very afraid of loud noises and locks herself in the downstairs bathroom when there are fireworks, dabs a lot, sleeps a lot, loves going to grandma's house (grandma's house!!!!), my husban and i are completely fucking obsessed with her and she's tired of hugs)
12. What sports do you play/have you played? I am very bad at sports. Very uncoordinated and asthmatic and also bored by them. I did play soccer when I was little, and danced. Terrible at both. I like putting the basketball in the hoop, could do without the running and dribbling. Ugh, running.
13. How tall are you? 5'4"
14. Favorite subject at school? English, out of the core courses. But I wasn't a good student. Way too ADD. Art was my favorite class. Art and Chorus, but those are electives so I dunno if they count.
15. Dream job? I genuinely don't want to do the stuff I love for a job. I went to school for Art, I got a DEGREE, but I work in Ed Tech as a Success Manager meaning I just make people successful and happy all day, and I love it and I'm really good at it (im a good problem solver, let me solve your problems). I guess I would have liked to be a teacher, since that's my favorite part of my job currently, but teachers get the shit end of the stick and I couldn't do it. All my love to the teachers out there.
Anyway, I don't want to get paid for art or writing, even if they are the only things I want to do with my time, because the minute I'm doing it for money and not just because I'm excited about it, I hate it.
This was the opposite of an answer to that question, wasn't it?
Tags under the cut along with pictures of my pets.
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walkingdeadbitch · 2 years
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where did the dislike for self insert fanfics come from? I'm genuinely curious, cuz the only point i've seen made is the "it's cringy/unrealistic" one, and that's coming from folks who ship slasher x slasher pairings, or make long, drawn-out posts explaining why Michael Myers' original character wasn't built on ableism. so, automatically, their claim has no solid footing.
i understand it just not being your thing - cuz personally, self inserting also isn't my cup of tea, just can't comfortably put myself in those situations without feeling strange, and of course, the way some write the slashers may make me recoil just the tiniest bit - but the sheer vitriol stuffed into some of these posts is ASININE.
you'll have them spewing the most unnecessary hate for what's essentially just a harmless hobby/past time, pulling out every keyword they can remember from twitter and reddit, and when they're met with others saying "this is some misguided hostility friend" they'll use the "ur so sensitive lol" line. damn, you're telling me people don't like having their inoffensive interests shat on for no valid reason? wack.
idk, i just think it's a little dumb and completely unnecessary. no one's saying you have to like that part of the fandom, you can ignore and completely block it out to save your sanity, but i truly cannot find any reason to genuinely dislike it to that extent lol.
the x reader community may need a "how to be inclusive for dummies" book, and they lowkey don't know how to tag their stuff accordingly sometimes, but damn, some of the shit I've seen really just seems to come from people with nothing better to do with their lives. you're already on tumblr my guy, you are no better than the average fool. no matter how many rules you try to bend, or how well you leap through those loopholes, we're all cringe :((. get over yourself for once and maybe LIVE a little, jeez.
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You know what I find hilarious, is how all these gicky fans/ricky fans keep coming to your asks defending Ricky when they keep hating on EJ for all the things he did. Like if you want to go after EJ fine, but then look at your fave too. Stop being so biased. Very rarely I've seen gicky fans be more open to accepting that yes Sofia and Joshua have chemistry (and I was a rin@ myself in season 1 and I still like their chemistry although I don't ship them anymore) there is no denying that. But them being the best slow burn in the show and Ricky really upping his game and genuinely deserving a relationship with Gina imo is a far stretch when there have been others who have been there for her more than Ricky has ever been. Not saying this from a shipping POV, just as a friend.
Truth is Gina is a doormat for Ricky. She will forgive him for everything he puts her through as long as he picks her. That's all she wants (I'm saying this more from whatever ensued in S3) and unfortunately EJ was never "that guy" for her, the guy who she would keep trying for. She gave up on him, he didn't. He couldn't make time for her but he didn't want a break up. Even if all this happened at East High, she would always break up with EJ for Ricky because unfortunately she likes the guy who doesn't deserve her. I feel this from the Gina we saw in S3. But if we go by S2 Gina I feel she'd probably evaluate her relationship with EJ and not break up with him. She seemed to see him for who he was and genuinely felt like he tries his best even if he fails a lot. And that Gina was nowhere to be seen in S3. She felt different. And seemed to put herself first, which isn't very Gina 2.0 of her. And unfortunately the writers cannot keep the characters consistent and to get gicky to happen they imo changed Gina and made such contrived issues between PW, which S2 PW would've fixed. Even the part where EJ doesn't go as her date to the prom in S3 seemed ooc for him, S1 EJ would break the rules and go with her, maybe even S2 EJ, he always seemed to go the extra mile for Gina.
Another note, Ricky gets too many free passes from this fandom and I really dislike it. He's quite unlikeable as a character, especially after the way he seems to be so dependent on others, every season he "needs" a partner one way or another. Someone like Ricky needs therapy/counselling, not a relationship.
Sorry just had to rant somewhere. I'll always be upset how they handled the ships here with poor writing and seems that no relationship lasts longer than a season. And Gina was my favourite character, but with the way the writers have messed her up I don't think I even wish to follow upcoming seasons.
R*nas dni
Thank you so much for this ask!! I don't understand their need to argue with people who use the anti tag. Why can't we have our differing opinions? Especially if they're going to destroy one character with much more understandable actions and defend someone who has objectively done much worse.
Yeah, Gina and Ricky have great chemistry. But having great chemistry doesn't necessarily make a good relationship. It makes them interesting to watch for sure and chemistry is obviously necessary but the writers haven't matched that chemistry with anything compelling writing-wise.
"But them being the best slow burn in the show and Ricky really upping his game and genuinely deserving a relationship with Gina imo is a far stretch when there have been others who have been there for her more than Ricky has ever been."
This yes completely agree.
I think in season 2 Gina was good about eventually verbalizing to Ricky that his behaviour was not okay and was able to stand up for herself, which is why it's frustrating to see them getting together with little work in between on Ricky's part. also, them being the ultimate slow burn thing isn't really true because Ricky just suddenly decides he likes Gina and that's that and we don't have him slowly realise he's been an idiot this entire time and realise all he has done wrong and verbalise that, and we don't get to see Gina slowly warm back up to him. we don't see him understand the way he runs to relationships instead of dealing with his problems. he sings "finally free" and that's supposed to just be him dealing with everything in a three-minute song and that's not satisfying. because Gina gives the speech (which makes no sense for so many reasons), we don't know how Ricky actually feels. did he like her before this season? was he repressing his feelings? how is he going to prove he's going to show up and how is he going to prove she's not just a third choice to him?? I was thinking about this the other day, like how r*na could have been done well. the chemistry is there. they needed to fix some things and handle portwell in a respectful way but instead here we are.
i agree with you anon about all of this like the way the fandom excuses Ricky and the way gina and EJ should work (and it's more than their couch scene, as I've seen some r*nas say is our only excuse for everything. that whole season is a love letter to how well they work together. think about the camera scene when EJ is the first person to genuinely listen to her--especially in comparison to ricky in that season, who always ends up talking about his problems but not Gina's--or them working together to come up with a cover story on the fly or him showing up with a granola bar just when she needed it most; they're so in sync with each other and they understand each other so well and stars people don't have to like it but to pretend they have nothing?? i see people saying they would rather have had jack and gina get together than EJ and gina and I'm like you hate EJ with her that much?? considering all that EJ has done for her do you hate Gina?? yeah jack was sweet but that was one episode of them hanging out lol).
don't be sorry for the rant!! i welcome it and i completely understand. it's frustrating. I'm here for you friend <3
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shark-myths · 1 year
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tagged by the lovely @setting-in-a-honeymoon !
What is your absolute all-time favorite idea you’ve ever had?
if you didn't know already, my toxic trait is that i love my own writing and you're about to find out firsthand! the ideas that are my favorite tend to be the more magical ones--i love what i did with the boys time can't capture, i love the velveteen rabbit au, i am still obsessed with my coyote ugly/beauty and the beast mashup. on the other hand, making fall out boy into girls might be genuinely the greatest idea i've ever had--deceptively simple, enduringly brilliant!
What is your favorite part of being a writer? Which parts could you take or leave?
my favorite thing is getting to find out wherever my ideas go! i never know what's going to happen or how a story's going to end. it always takes me places that are so much more rich and rewarding and surprising than i expected when i first embarked. i also love being able to evoke the exact right feeling i'm aiming for! i am aphantasic so describing visual things well in writing is a struggle--i can't really check to see if it's effective?--so i tend to focus more on specific vibes and feelings. it is incredibly satisfying to want reading something to feel a certain way and make that happen.
the part i hate the most is that the energy i use to write is the same energy that my specific career uses. work taps me out and i often have nothing left to write with, and that's sad, because i love being creative much more than i love participating in capitalism! one of the great frustrations of my adult life is that my ideas come in slow and faint, and i so rarely have the emotional space to draw them out and grow them into stories. it feels honestly like a waste.
What is your greatest motivation to write/create?
mostly, because i'm excited about some concept and i want to explore it! sometimes there's something i need to heal, or sometimes i'm interested in an idea like loss & salvage (that one led to the recently completed fic, the house on rosewood lane), or a classic fairy tale trope, or something outrageous pete wentz has said that i simply cannot live with. like many of us, i often write out of the desire to fix something, because i think the source material has gotten it wrong or because i personally don't understand the decisions of a story (in college i fixed cinderella by making her a lesbian). other times, i just love a rom com and i want to do it myself, because farce is delightful. i think i am my most alive and motivated as a writer when there's something transformative i get to do! i love fanworks and writing in established universes because there's a given set of constraints and i have to create something interesting within them, without breaking the rules of the universe or the real history, or breaking them very deliberately and with a purpose. it's a specific type of almost conversational fun, a give and take with the established history and tradition and culture of a thing, that i don't often feel when i'm writing fully original works. (my favorite recent published version of this game is katherine addison's sherlock holmes with angels novel, the angel of the crows.)
What do you wish you knew when you first started out writing?
you know, i am incredibly happy with the way i developed from a tiny kiddo writing novels about kittens lost in airports to who i am as a writer today. i have watched myself identify weaknesses in my style and range and worked to grow and improve, and every step in that process is so valuable, i don't think you can skip ahead! i started posting my writing on the internet 20 years ago and i feel really good about that. i've learned so much and been a part of so many communities. writing is so joyful, and i'm glad i never lost that to the pressure turn it profitable. my work is profoundly un-sellable and i feel pride in that.
maybe something i could have learned sooner is that fanfic doesn't have to be embarrassing; fandom is one of my favorite parts about being who i am and has led to some of my coolest experiences and closest friendships.
What is your favorite story you’ve written to completion? Link it if you’d like and can!
it is so hard to choose, I have so many favorites for so many different reasons! girl out boy will be my most important work forever and the boys time can't capture is my FOB masterwork, but one that i think is really pretty and well done and more understated is the swantrick fairy tale, i'm a wing i'm a prayer. i revisit it often.
(pour one out for my gay pirate au, also! love that story, long may it live in the wayback machine. hope to write a sequel one day)
What is your favorite out of the box quote?
i'm too vain to choose / too wordy to remember. my favorite moments are when i sound enough like pete that i can't quite tell if i've quoted one of his ljs or invented a line.
Which of your characters would you say has the most controversial mindset? Why do you say so and how do you personally feel about their ideals?
hmm, maybe evil joe in don't want to be a footnote? he's wicked just for the fun of it. (i'm not, i swear!) i like to think i usually write complicated characters who have at least one shitty opinion / trait i don't endorse.
If you, when you first started writing, met you now, what would younger you think?
oh, i started writing stories before i knew the alphabet. that's a tiny kid! i think she'd be pretty jazzed in general, though the somewhat older version would be very surprised that she didn't publish a novel while in elementary school, become famous, and show everyone who was mean to her how wrong they were, because that was her real plan for many years. any age version would probably feel weird about the powerpoint, though.
i vague-tag whoever feels like doing this, and specifically @leyley09 !
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hbogirls · 1 year
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8, 23, 63 & 64? :)
8) Character you’re indifferent about? hmmm probably mike? i have absolutely nothing against him, and harry is obviously a very talented dancer. i just don't think they gave him enough to do as a character, so there was never a chance to totally fall in love with him
23) What ship is totally overrated? i just cannot understand the klaine of it all. the fact that it struck a chord with enough people that there are two full episodes in season 6 dedicated to getting them back together by way of sue sylvester serving as a mouthpiece for the beliefs of the fandom genuinely confounds me. i find them cute in season 2 when they first get together, but pretty much once blaine becomes pouty in the whitney houston tribute episode i'm like... okay it's curtains for them. they simply don't seem to like each other after that lol
63) Which character(s) do you relate to most and why? santana (i'm sort of impenetrable/intimidating until you get to know me, also i am judgmental and, if i do say so myself, funny. she is by far the fictional character that i project the most onto lol), rachel (i try so hard at everything, and i sometimes lose sight of the fact that my determination to do something a certain way has alienated those around me or made them concerned for me), and quinn (quiet, very smart, always unsure of where i fit in a group, afraid of the future). those are my big three! imo the thing all three of them share, which i do as well, is that they think very highly of themselves in the outward, qualitative sense, but, on the inside, they doubt themselves and their own desires constantly.
64) Be honest, which parts do you fast forward through when you rewatch the show? oh i have it down to a science. sometimes i do make myself watch everything with no skips because i like to make rules for myself that make my life worse for some reason, but when i do allow myself to fast forward, i skip every time bieste sings, the ten seconds in the break-up when santana looks at that girl in the library, any time demi lovato is flirting with santana, all of the acafellas episode, all of the dynamic duets episode, all of the klaine jigsaw elevator stuff, pretty much anytime marley or ryder sings, and all of the ryder catfish stuff. there is more, but that's a general overview.
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whaleofatjme1920 · 2 years
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I have no idea what time zone you're in so I hope I made it in time !
For the romance and nsfw tf2 match up:
I'm a virgo and even though if I know nothing about astrology I still find it interesting to listen to.
He/him.
I'm quite tall, taller than most. And I'm little bit of a manwhore (affectionate), I'm pansexual.
I'm Scandinavian, have freckles and am the deeper shade of ginger hair, more warm. Slim but lean and wide shoulders. I wear flannel a lot, tuck my t-shirts in my pants when I wear belts, and my favourite colour is amber.
I have adhd but I mask quite often, only a few close friends have seen me fully relaxed in that area. (I have a lot of obscure knowledge on biology, neuroscience, movies, music and sociology)
I love playing my bass!!
I always end up becoming some sort of uncle figure in groups? (Responsible when needed, the one people ask help from, but goofy and playful when I'm comfortable).
I'm quite emotionally scarred (trauma amirite), so it takes a while before I start to trust a person fully, but once that connection happens I'm willing to put my life down for them.
And with that connection I will put my heart on my sleeve, and shower people I care about with affection in my own ways. Like drawing them things or spending quality time. acts of service and touch. (Ohgod touch, I am so touch starved)
NSFW:
I'm a top, a service top to be exact; so I can either be dominant or be dominated depending on my partners need.
- choking is off the table, I would have a flashback
- I'm really into blowing my partners mind, like pass out amazed, I want the other person to feel as good as possible. (also like cockwarming)
- 100% oral fixation on either side
Your matchup is... Engineer
[Disclaimer, if you're coming from the tags, this is part of a special event I am holding from November 17th to the 21st where I am accepting matchups from all fandoms I currently write for. Feel free to check out my 1K celebration masterlist here for rules during the window this event is open! If it's past the 21st midnight USA central time, do NOT send me a matchup. I will have to politely turn you down. Sorry </3]
NSFW below
In General
It's the kinks. I saw cockwarming and immediately thought of Dell.
Things He Likes About You
He thinks that your ginger hair is absolutely gorgeous. You also mentioned that you love nature and that you grew up on a farm?? That fits Dell so well I cannot even BEGIN to tell you. Thinks you are literally so handsome. He loves that you're into biology neuroscience, and sociology!! He likes moves too and music so like please go off the rails with him on that front. And bass!!! Please!! He loves that you're affectionate too. It's so sweet like please.
You Two as a Couple & NSFW
I feel like the two of you NEED to play music together. He has an acoustic guitar. It's really sweet. The conversations the two of you would have would be absolutely incredible imo. Tell him all about your interests. I feel he'd give you his flannel from time to time. Like he'd love to see you wearing his clothes. I think he actually really likes that you're taller than him. I think you'd also grow to be really relaxed in his presence as Dell is the definition of a safe place. Also, he loves that you're like, the uncle figure. He's a mother hen it uh, it balances really well. People call you dad and him mom. It's sweet. Dell is really sweet when it comes to understanding your trauma, and he wants you to be safe, especially around him. He won't push you, and moves at the pace you set for him.
NSFW speaking the cockwarming was what made me go huh yeah this man is for you. Dell is HUGE into cockwarming, it's a powerthing. Both giving and receiving. Also, oral fixation??? He'd spend days between your legs taking care of you. Melts into your touch. He's a switch that leans more towards sub, so please dom him. He will dom you if that's what yuo want though, but genuinely, dom him. Use him to your pleasure he LOVES that. I don't think he's into choking tbh. He doesn't want to do anything that causes either of you harm.
Closing Thoughts/Other Things
Hi love bug, saw your other ask! Hope you enjoyed <3
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ouyangzizhensdad · 4 years
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Please please do write the post about wwx not being dumb/oblivious. Those posts were just funny at first but somehow it's now become accepted fact. Meanwhile whether cql or mdzs wwx is a very competent, savvy protagonist who's actually pretty observant! It's getting pretty tiring to see him reduced to genki oblivous magical girl (not that I don't like those, it's just wwx is not one).
Hey anon! 
I do plan on writing a more elaborate meta post exploring what arguments there are in the novel to support my wwx is not dumb/oblivious agenda.
But for now I just want to address one factor I think plays a big part in shaping the fandom’s perception of wwx as oblivious/dumb, regardless of how wwx was actually written in the novel. That is, the creative liberties taken by (or forced onto) the cql production team, which have had in my opinion two consequences: 1) cql does not manage to establish how quick-witted and savvy wwx is, which is compounded by the fact that it chose to play the troublemaker persona straight  2) the fact that wwx and lwj’s relationship is entirely subtext actually ends up making wwx look oblivious (at least to people applying a queer reading/bl-danmei reading to their interactions--people who are obvious to or choose to ignore the subtext certainly wouldn’t come to the same conclusions). 
So, the first issue. In the novel, wwx’s intelligence is more of a focal point in the narrative because it is a crucial part of the dramatic irony/tragedy of his death: as a result it cannot help being more important to the themes of the novel. After all, he is ultimately hunted down because of and killed by his inventions. The man created an entirely new field of cultivation! In cql, this is somewhat lost due to the fact that he does not invent modao nor does he create the yin hufu, and his death is more of a suicide than a sacrifice (i am still not over the fact that he throws the yin hufu at the crowd to let them wage war over it? that’s the complete thematic opposite of his death in the novel...). 
The novel, as well, is better at establishing that wwx’s antics are generally not because he’s just being a troublemaker, but that they are a way in which he garners information, gets people to act the way he needs them to or misdirect them. For instance, in cql, when lwj destroys wwx’s (well, nhs’s) spring book in the library, wwx looks genuinely pained and affronted--in the novel, it is clearly shown that, when wwx realized lwj intended to bring the spring book to lqr, he intentionally made him angry so that he would destroy the evidence himself. the point of the prank was also to not only get a reaction out of lwj, but also (reading btw the lines) wwx’s way of trying to leave a lasting impression on lwj now that his punishment was over. Differently put, while wwx can do directionless pranks,  more often than not, they have an underlying meaning/goal instead of just being for Attention(TM) in general. In contrast, the web series is full of missed opportunities in terms of characterisation, and is so from the very beginning (I find extremely disappointing how they decided to adapt the mo mansion and dafan mountain arcs because of how important they are to establishing wwx’s character for the readers/viewers. Through these arcs, we get acquainted with the way he thinks and deduces information, and how he uses people’s perceptions of him and others to his advantage. If you can only read English, @pumpkinpaix‘s translation of the first few chapters might help get a better sense of the nuances). 
I’m not saying that wwx is portrayed as dumb in cql: but that his characterization is a lot more fuzzy and inconsistent, and that his intelligence is utilized mostly when wwx goes into his detective mode. As a result, I do feel like it undermines how analytical wwx is in all aspects of his life, making it easy to see him as, you know, someone who’s, like, half-smart, half-super-dumb. 
As for issue #2, part of it boils down to the fact that most of the obstacles to wangxian’s relationship had to be erased due to censorship. There no longer is homophobia/internalized homophobia to motivate moments of denial or internal conflict; there is no longer the phoenix mountain kiss to explain lwj’s reluctance to respond to wwx’s flirting after his rebirth (as I explored in one of my other meta post); there is no longer lwj’s failed confession and lwj’s mistaken belief that wwx knows of his feelings, etc. These vectors of tension help contextualise and explain why it takes so long for wwx to realize lwj’s feelings towards him (but let’s not forget that he does: after jinlintai, he starts to realize that lwj treats him especially well, which becomes a certainty after the second siege). the cql production team had no choice but to take these elements away. 
that being said, by adding new or by changing moments to support the subtext and to please (bl-danmei) fans, the show actually takes away even more vectors of tension/misunderstanding between wwx and lwj, and makes wwx’s crush seem even more obvious and straight-forward. Take for instance the mo mansion arc. In the novel, wwx sees the Lan disciples’ white robes and has this moment of reflection that he recognizes the robes, and sees danger in the fact that the Lan sect is involved, thinking he should leave but knowing he can’t until he resolves the curse. in cql, we get a slow-pan flash-back of wwx’s first encounter with lwj, leaving him clearly emotional. The novel sets up the association as: white robes -> Lan Sect (subtext, Lan Zhan) -> orthodox/sticklers to rules/people i’ve met in my previous life who disapproved of modao -> danger! In cql, we have instead: whites robes -> Lan Zhan -> emotional reaction/I miss him. That fact is further driven home when wwx starts playing wuji on a blade of grass, ending with a soulfully whispered “lan zhan”. In terms of subtext, it sure lays it on thick: wwx does look like he has a big crush on lwj! But that destroys a big source of tension between them at the beginning: when wwx is summoned into mxy’s body, he thinks lwj hates him and disapproves of his methods and wants to bring him to gusu to punish him. That’s why he wants to run away at first, why he doesn’t disclose his identity to him and why it takes him a moment to understand lwj’s intentions. cql does not do a great job of setting that up. And the changes they make to the events of wwx’s first life, including changes to the timeline through which we are introduced to what happened in the past, makes it even more difficult to see how wwx could have misunderstood lwj’s intentions or his own feelings (again, in a queer or danmei-bl reading of the subtext). They go on a mission together! Spend a lot of time working together toward a similar goal!Lwj calls him his zhiji (”soulmate” as is often translated)! Lwj literally tries to save him from dying! The last thing wwx would remember when he wakes up in mxy’s body would be lwj holding onto his hand and screaming his name when he let go! Again, it does great for the subtext--but it makes it really difficult to understand why wwx would misunderstand lwj’s intentions and feelings, and it makes his own feelings toward lwj seem quite obvious. 
Overall, the changes in the themes, genre, events, narrative timeline, characterisation and much more in adapting mdzs into cql have been an important influence explaining why the fandom has this vision of wwx as dumb/oblivious. It reminds me of the way some people on tumblr like to talk about Mr. Darcy as “shy” and “awkward” based on the movie pride and prejudice 2005, which totally misses the point of Mr Darcy and his character as portrayed by Jane Austen--but, if people have only or mainly engaged with this specific adaptation, it is not necessarily surprising that they hold this frankly misguided interpretation due to the choices made by the film production team. 
In contrast, in the novel, we are shown a lot to help us understand why wwx comes to the wrong conclusions or might not understand his own feelings and reactions. But that’s for all for another post!
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thatmomentwhen345 · 3 years
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Ok ummmmmmmmmmmmmm
These last two weeks have been very emotionally exhausting because of finals and what I’m about to tell you and I don’t really know how to sum it up so I guess you’re getting the same treatment as my Facebook (this is copied directly from the post on there and was posted on December 12th for context)
(This is the beginning of the Facebook post)
You guys, I don’t know what to do.
You might have gathered from my last few posts, but I’m not okay. And it will sound like such a stupid reason to the majority of you. But I made an irreversible mistake back in 2019 that has been haunting me for the past week. This is the first time that I can remember regretting a decision this much. Was it my stubbornness, my closed-mindedness? Was it my see-it-to-believe-it tendencies? Was it my inability to learn from my mistakes?
For those who don’t know, on November 13th of this year, the YouTube channel Unus Annus was deleted from the platform forever. After one year of daily videos by Markiplier and CrankGameplays, it was all gone. The point of the channel was to remind us to use our time that we have alive wisely, because Memento Mori. Remember that you must die.
The channel started on November 15th of 2019, and, well, I don’t know anything about their beginnings. I just saw their introduction video in my recommended or on trending or something and thought, “Is that Markiplier? Shouldn’t he be focusing on his own channel? Who’s this other guy?” and moved on without a second thought. I occasionally saw their videos in the trending tab but ignored them. I didn’t even know they had such a big following. I thought it looked stupid and didn’t think about it until, well, the end.
A few weeks ago, my brother was watching the final livestream that would mark the day that the channel was deleted for good. I was in the room with the livestream on the TV, watching their final hours tick by, still not thinking about the channel at all. Just like, oh hey that thing that people were talking about, wasn’t it like, a cult? I didn’t think about it at all until... the fifth of December? Was it really only a week ago? That feels like a lifetime away now...
The YouTuber FootofaFerret released a video called “Pretending Unus Annus Isn’t Over” and I saw it in my reccomended. https://youtu.be/8SMpCbI9U00 I was like, hey, yeah, I remember that thing that ended. I trusted Foafy’s judgement because of his previous videos about saying goodbye to Steven Universe. So I watched it and don’t really remember how it made me feel. I just remember him saying that the Unus Annus fandom was in mourning and I was like “aw poor guys I’ve seen on TikTok some people are sad about it”. Foafy also suggested that people who were wanting more of the Unus Annus vibe to watch Mark’s Markiplier Makes playlist. I watched some of them and, again, moved on.
The timeline is fuzzy from here on. I’m still processing it, honestly. I think I might have looked up the Unus Annus theme (Turncoat by Michael Rothery) first? Then I think I found some compilations or clips from their videos and was like wow this stuff is funny. And then I realized that there are archived versions of all of their videos (that’s against the rules of Unus Annus for those who don’t know) and... don’t hate me... went looking for them. I watched two in full. I won’t say which two but just know that the second one I specifically searched out because I knew that they did a lot of random stuff on there and that there was a chance that they would do it too. And they did! It was a funny video. I realized how much of a fun dynamic that Ethan and Mark had and looked for more compilations. The more I watched, the more I realized that I had made a terrible mistake in 2019.
I had missed out on so much. And I couldn’t take it back without breaking the rules. The concept of Unus Annus intrigued me so much, all of the people involved on the channel worked so well together, they were all so funny, but now I could never experience it in full because I was stubborn and, well, thinking about other things this year. I could have jumped in at any point between then and November 13th of this year but I chose not to.
Monday was a rollercoaster. 1st stage: denial. I was like well this doesn’t matter, I’m not even in the UA fandom, it’s gone and I don’t care. But it wasn’t that simple of course. I kept watching the Markiplier Makes videos and the UA compilations and became particularly interested in Ethan. He seemed very genuine and sensitive and his on-camera chemistry with Mark was really entertaining. 2nd stage: anger. I was furious at myself for missing out. Those two videos I watched in full were just small teasers for what the entire channel was like. I hated that I couldn’t take it back. And I hated that if I did, I would’ve broken the rules and gone against Mark and Ethan’s wishes, which I also wouldn’t be able to take back. I was horribly conflicted. 3rd stage: bargaining. I desperately went after any content surrounding Unus Annus that I could without breaking the rules, and was still considering watching the illegal archives. I haven’t watched any more of them in full, but sometimes I watch parts of them in incognito mode when it becomes too much to bear.
Tuesday was... Tuesday had to have been the longest day I’ve had the entire year. 4th stage: depression. It was slowly sinking in, the gravity of my mistake. I was starting to realize how much of a phenomenon Unus Annus was and that it was so unique and had such a cool message and that it made so many peoples’ 2020 just a little bit better, but not mine. I then did what I always do and found my comfort in music. I put on a bunch of good songs that I hadn’t heard in a while and just... sat there painstakingly doing my math homework. I couldn’t concentrate on anything the whole day. Monday, either. The song Goodbye to a World by Porter Robinson came on and I was like hey, this song perfectly suits the way I’m feeling right now. I wondered if anyone else had made connections between this song and Unus Annus and looked to see if there had been any AMVs (animated music videos) about the idea and the end of UA. Lo and behold, this popped up and I watched it! https://youtu.be/-q-oByQWdlM It hit all the right spots and I just started bawling. What had I done? Why had I missed this opportunity to improve my 2020, just a little bit? Why had I missed this opportunity to get to know Mark and Ethan better? Everyone who had watched all of their videos could feel peace after the end, like Mark and Ethan. But I couldn’t. I could only forever regret my mistake. MY mistake.
Terrible things have happened this year, but all of them have been out of my control. This, however, was my fault. And I can never take it back. And I am having a very hard time handling that.
I don't know how many times I cried on Tuesday. The next song to come on after I watched the AMV was As the World Caves In by Matt Maltese which of course broke me even further. This song also perfectly encapsulated my dilemma. Later I finished my tribute drawing of the channel logo and felt the smallest bit better. The rest of the day is a blur.
Wednesday was better, I guess? I thought I had made it to the 5th stage: acceptance. I was still very sad and mad at myself but I was starting to realize that there was nothing I could do. I subscribed to Ethan’s channel and started getting to know him better. He’s so sweet and talented ☺️
But no, acceptance is still far away. Thursday and Friday were barely better than Tuesday. I painted my nails black and white as a way of coping. I went to a livestream on Ethan’s Twitch and it was really fun! I started watching more of his streams and on one of them he mentioned that his Twitch chat mods had TikToks. So I wondered if he also had a TikTok, which he does! I looked to see if he posted one on the day UA ended. The answer was no but he did post one the day after asking if someone with the skills required could make a mashup of the song Cancer by My Chemical Romance and As the World Caves In. https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMJqgyrkR/ I was like wowie this guys got taste! And so I looked up if there was a mashup. As a matter of fact, there was one by Clem Turner on YouTube that came out only three days after the end of Unus Annus. https://youtu.be/a5RTVoreSAY I cannot express how much I love this, what it made me feel, and how much it hurt/helped. So I commented on Ethan’s TikTok about it and only a few hours later a new comment appeared on Clem’s video. Ethan had seen it! So I’m just gonna assume I was responsible for that... not only that but half of the comments on the mashup were about Unus Annus as you can see below. I realized how big of a following UA had and felt bad (because of course the people who had actually been with UA the whole way would be grieving a lot more than me), but also, comforted by the fact we could all connect over the loss of something important to them, if in a lot of different ways.
I’m far from getting over this. I’m far from being okay. I’ve never really felt like this before. I feel like a different person than I was last week. But I wanted to write all this down to let it out, process it a little bit, and maybe get some comfort from you guys. It’s completely understandable if you didn’t read this all the way through so...
TLDR: Memento Mori.
(This is the end of the Facebook post)
What I just described really shifted a lot of things in my head in a way I didn’t expect and in a very short amount of time. So, long story short, my Steven Universe hyperfixation ended very suddenly because of an outside factor and I probably won’t be posting a lot about it anymore. Hope you understand.
(art by me but I used the official UA logo as a reference)
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seyaryminamoto · 7 years
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How sexist is the Fire Nation? It's interesting to see how they have female soldiers in the main islands, but don't have any on the invasion forces. This seems to be a reference to Total War, World-War-style societies, where women and old men held the Home Front, and these were pretty sexist societies... although much less sexist than even a few decades before.
Tbh I hadn’t quite thought about it that way. I had thought about the fact that I can’t name any high-ranked women in the army, though. You have a great point with that, though. I do reckon the Fire Nation was progressing in regards of equality for the sexes, but they’re not 100% there yet by ATLA’s time.
Goddammit, I know I’ve ranted about the softcore sexism in the Fire Nation before, but I can’t find the post. Linking you to it would have been a lot more useful than going on about it again, but what the heck. I guess I’ll have to do it again after all! :’D Brace yourself! Long post!
I agree completely, the Fire Nation isn’t sexist on Water Tribe levels, but either because of Bryke’s own understanding of the world or I don’t even know what, there’s a strange lack of relevant female characters in the Fire Nation outside of Azula, Mai and Ty Lee. You might think about Iroh’s prison guard, too, but she only shows up for one episode, just feeds Iroh, just gives Serena Williams her chance to be in the show xD but plot-wise, she’s not exactly a big deal.
There are also, as you said, other women in the Fire Nation defenses in Book 3, but what I’m wondering, always wondering, is why aren’t there any other named female firebenders in ATLA aside from Azula. There’s some in the background, some in the Boiling Rock, some in the main islands. But they are just as irrelevant as their nameless male counterparts. In that sense, sure they have perfect equality.
But that’s regarding low-ranked officials only.
High-ranked ones, on the other hand… just how equal are we here, I wonder? 
Let’s go through the Wikia’s pages on Fire Nation military leaders, shall we?
General Bujing, male.
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General Iroh, male.
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General Mak, male.
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Colonel Shinu male.
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Colonel Mongke, male.
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General Shu, unknown, but with that name it sounds like a guy to me.
General Mung, male.
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Mai’s Warden Uncle, obviously male.
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Constable Sung (from Smoke and Shadows), male.
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Warden Poon, male.
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Admiral Chan, never shown but known to be male and to be young Chan’s father.
Admiral Jeong Jeong, male.
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Admiral Zhao, male.
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Even Captain Li, male.
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And Captain Chey, male.
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In short, you’re not wrong, there are women in the Fire Nation Domestic Forces, as they’re called by the wikia: but even then they’re not commanding officers. I can’t name a single female Fire Nation official in a position of power. If they exist? We never saw them. Instead, we saw this:
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Zhao’s war meeting. All men.
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Ozai’s war meeting. These are the best shots I have of it, but still, they prove all the people gathered around the map are men. 
There’s one woman in a figure of power in these scenes, though! :’D Aaaaaaaaaaaaand…
It’s Azula. As usual. Our only female firebender with a name in the entire show.
And I’m not done yet @_@ can you believe it? xD
On with something I’ve heavily relied on for Gladiator’s worldbuilding: we don’t know of a single female Fire Lord in Fire Nation history until LOK’s Izumi. Before her?
There’s Zuko, no portrait, but no need to have one because we know he’s Fire Lord anyhow.
So, there’s Ozai:
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There’s Azulon:
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There’s Sozin:
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Sozin’s father:
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Sozin’s grandfather:
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SOOOOOOOOOOOO… is Zuko destroying sexist traditions by giving the crown to his daughter, making her the first official female Fire Lord in history? I’m very much inclined to think so. How likely is it for every single one of these men to ONLY have male firstborns? Isn’t it more likely that they passed over any potential female heirs in favor of males? Because that’s what I’m pretty sure happened. 
More, though! Education! A society where men and women are viewed as equal would not have different education for boys and girls. But the Royal Academy for Girls is where Azula, Mai and Ty Lee meet and become friends. Royal Academy FOR GIRLS. 
Of course, the argument can be made: The Headband shows a school where boys and girls are in attendance!
If anything, that argument proves that the Fire Nation upper class differentiates between male and female, while the middle-low class won’t do the same thing. Great for the middle-low classes! But… who are the ones who rule this nation, again? Who’re the ones who have the most power? That’s right, the upper class. The probably-traditionally sexist ones.
So this means, as I’ve proved with the evidence of the Fire Nation military, that the higher you go in the Fire Nation society, the less women you’ll see in positions of power and the more men you’ll see instead. Heck, the Headband is great proof of this: who was our teacher?
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Ms. Kwan right here.
Who’s our Headmaster? Who’s HER BOSS?
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Another man. Again.
This is really in no spirits to make the Fire Nation look as “bad” as the Water Tribe, because no doubt that’s NOT the case. But this is still part of the problem: if men and women were equal in this society it should be fairly obvious in every regard, in every level of society, and not just regarding the way that the Fire Nation allows women in their Domestic Forces while the Water Tribe never would.
Now, regarding that matter of comparing nations… I’m sure every case I’ve made about the Fire Nation’s underlying themes of sexism can also be seen in the Earth Kingdom. I cannot for the life of me remember any women with genuine power in their armies either, in fact I can’t remember any women in their fighting forces at all… so haha, they’re worse than the Fire Nation! :’D but alas, that the Fire Nation is better doesn’t mean it’s ideal either.
I’m not doing this to shoot down the Fire Nation’s one and only redeeming quality in the eyes of many, but I am saying that their equality isn’t all it’s made out to be by the fandom and even the wikia. It’s better than the other nations? Maybe. But it’s still not 100% equality by ATLA’s time (I’d like to think Izumi’s appointment as Fire Lord is actually proof of the Fire Nation becoming all the more progressive once the war ended… but that still doesn’t apply to the Fire Nation as we knew it in ATLA). 
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