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Lochnagar September 2020 💖

#Lochnagar #Glen Muick #Scotland #holiday #camping #nature #Aberdeenshire #deer #stag #kids #doe #adventure #scotlandtravel #scotlandshots #outdoorphotography #nature photography #original photographers #photography #travel

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A year ago

A year ago I found out how much your life can change in a blink of an eye

A year ago I had the most exciting time of my life only to have it ripped from me

A year ago I joined a club I didn’t know existed

A year ago I lost apart of my soul

A year ago I had an Angel 👼🏼

I say a year ago , but in reality it’s just living the same day over and over again . Life changes , it moves on , and so do people.

But I’m still there on That day

Living those days over .

Living it alone

People love you and leave you

They try their best , but they too have to move on

Not feeling the deep rooted sadness and fear

The lonely nights of nightmares and the waves of sadness and heartache that flows through you whenever it chooses

Of course you’d never wish it upon anyone but the fact that you know your going through it alone makes it so much harder to process

Being happy and overjoyed to witness miracles and rainbows. looking at these little miracles and so badly wanting to see your angels face just once .

Just once

But you love and give love to these miracles because you know they too have worked hard to be here .

Feeling guilty for looking at their sweet faces and feeling sad . Not sure what’s the right feeling to feel .

So you pour all your love you can to them and treat them as you would your own .

everyone has a different story to tell . This is mine a year on .

#love #sadness #life is strange #soul #angel baby #my story #quotes #writing #my blog

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Daisy’s are simply beautiful 💛

#daisy #simple #beautiful #summerdaisys #the #chicken #summer #sunshine #aberdeen #happyday #happyfriday #fridayfun

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When 4 almost

Became 5

“ Sometimes the littlest things take up the most room in your heart” ~ Winnie the Pooh

“For many years the question of motherhood had been a very unknown grey area for me . After years of sadness and loosing my faith in me ever becoming a Mom , I am beyond grateful and beyond happy to say I am finally expecting my very first little bundle of life .

It’s been a surprise and a very big shock but it’s a Miracel all the same .”

This little piece above was suposed to be me announcing my wee miracle but I never got to post it .

October 14th 2019 I found out I was going to be a Mom for the first time . Happy was an understatement as to how I was feeling, I felt like my whole life in that moment had come full circle and completed itself .

Little did I know that a short 10 weeks later I’d receive the worst news possible , My wee little gem had passed away .

My whole world had exploded , absolutely abliterated in to millions of tiny pieces .

It has never been the same since .

Everyday I wake up and relive the reality Of not having my baby with me .

For weeks after wards I’d have to wake up and full remind myself that my baby was no longer inside of me . That I no longer have to avoid certain foods or activities, that I had created these new habits to adjust to growing a human .

As life had changed when she entered my life story , it changed even more when she passed on .

I know I am not alone in this , I am 1 in 4 . As I’ve come into the journey of becoming an Angel Mom , I realised that there are a lot of women who suffer with losses and it’s incredibly tough journey Togo on if your alone . I absolutely admire every Angel Mom & Dad , it is a title of someone who fights everyday to keep going and to get to the end of their own Rainbows .

Just seen what I wrote for my Baby Annocumet sitting in my drafts box and realised that although I didn’t get to announce my sweet gem , I can let people know she exsisted and that I am her mom and she is my Baby .

She exsisted and always will forever in my heart.

Lillian S Cooper Peterson Walker

C x

#misscariage #babyloss #lifejourney #life is strange #hope for the future #love #mybabygirl #nevergivingup #keepthefaith #keepgettingbetter #miracles #havefaith #livelaughlove #openthedoor #breakthestigma #youarenotalone #youareenough #youarenotforgotten #youareworthy #youarepowerful #beachlife #aberdeen #balmeadiebeach #pastlife

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“A dog is loves ,

Purest Shadow”

- Angie Weiland-Crosby

Baby Boy Otis 💙💙

#dog pictures #blacklabrador #beauty #babyboy #dogsarethebest #cute dogs #dogs of tumblr #otis

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Life is funny isn’t it?

Just when you think you’ve figured it all out ,

Just when you finally begin to plan something ,

Get excited about it and feel like you know what direction your heading in ,

The paths change , the signs change ,

The wind blows the other way ,

North is suddenly south and East is west

And your

Lost

#life #life is strange #love #soul #quotes #feelinglost #life changes #loosingsenseofdirection

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“ In a sea of people,

My eyes

Will always search for you”

When someone has hurt you so badly and unforgivably , yet all you do is think about them.

Not because you want them back , but because that person was the only one who knew you inside and out . Understood you so clearly you knew you were always safe .

The question I ask myself is why after all that hurt and sadness would you give another second to think about that person .

When will you just let it go.

#letting go #saddness #needingtomoveon #heart break #unforgiven #hurt #lifechallenges #life is strange

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“No Matter How Bad Things Get In Life Just Keep Swimming, Never Stop Untill Everything You’ve Set Out To Do Is Achieved At Least Then You’ll Be Free In Knowing You Gave Your All x”

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Being haunted by the past , day & night lately.

I know things are turning out for the better but I can’t help but wonder why so much that went wrong , went wrong.

I blame myself and I shouldn’t because it’s equal blame . But when you put your life on the line for someone you trusted so much and expected the trust to protect you from hurt and in the end it didn’t , how do you release that and let go .

C x

#life #breakup #lifechallenges #past #letting go #moving on #lostsoul

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Autumn is on it’s way to Bavaria.

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I’ve had the pleasure of visiting this castle , absolutely beautiful!

Scotland - Sligichan Bridge/Skye, Eilean Donan Castle, Isle of Skye/The Quiraing, Perthshire, Glen Nevis, Urquhart Castle, Glen Coe, Mealt Falls/Skye, Loch Torridon. Eilean Donan Castle

-for more  of my UK shots and more travel:travel britain european travel world travel UK travelLondon travel

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Kitap okuyanlar ölmeden önce binlerce hayat yaşar, hiç okumayanların ise sadece bir hayatı olur.

George R.R. Martin

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Oh Deer 🦌