is a zine that showcases poetry written by h moon. the poetry ranges from romantic to serious to silly. poetry can be used as a kind of therapy for many people including me.
i was first encouraged to write poetry by a late professor so i would like to dedicate this collection to him. i thank him for all that he taught me and all the ways that he helped at a particularly bad time for me.
the poems included in this zine are
With You
fancy things
ribcage
story magic
bugs disturbed
off the shelf
a prayer to the god of knowledge
I can be the tragedy that you thought was a rainbow
when it’s pouring rain with thunderstorms.
I won’t be your worst nightmare
as I might dress up slightly to cover the flaws
that I didn’t want you to see it yet.
I am like the cold that won’t go away
built with the hope that you’ll warm me up with a coffee and a side of Tiramisu.
You are a dream, like a breath of fresh air
and you make me feel like I am on cloud nine just by hearing your voice.
Your smile lingers around as if it could snap me out of a bad dream
almost that, even if I lock myself in the darkest chamber of mine and wander in there
you would be there, still.
I can see the sun setting reflecting in your eyes
and I light up when I am with you.
I almost called it quit, but hey, we made it.
P/S: I meant to post it before the breakup, but I was too busy being in love then.
Love. Without condition. Without reason, without requirement, without demand.
To let go of condition is to let go of ego, of expectation, of pride.
My hands overflow with ego, my offerings weighted with expectation, my self offered only with the demand of appreciation. Self protection elevated to my heart's pinnacle, how can I love like that?
Unconditional foolishness, more like, for how can being torn apart make me whole? Let them hurt me? No no, I can protect myself, I am strong. The humble are taken advantage of. I am me. In me l put my trust.
Still.
Can me be enough? I am king of my walled in castle, god of my inner world, and it is so lonely. Full of condition, even in the recesses of my own heart. What if safety has been the foolishness all along?
Love is an easy word. A word to say without thought. But the multitudes it contains? To walk through those without condition? Mercy. Grace. Kindness. Selflessness. Compassion. Tenderness. Honesty. Generosity.
Foolishness. Foolishness! It will tear me apart, You will tear me apart! Do not ask, do not ask, lead me not outside of my lonely kingdom!
Lead me not into the storm with Your promise of green lands and laughing streams. Do not offer me a hope so wonderful as love without condition.
You would rob me of myself. Tear from me my walls of protection. Force me to care for those who would wrong me.
Traitor feet, leaping onto the waters, do not follow the albatross into the storm. He says, courage, but I am sore afraid.
Though the inner wall of the storm tears at every dead and unholy part of me, the peace in the eye is complete. I am still too dead, too unholy to stay here, but for a moment I can see. Strength without pride. Humility without cowardice. Identity without selfishness.
To be whole is to be poured out. To be strong is to be meek. To be great is to be least. To be safe is to offer everything.
To love unconditionally. Is to become nothing but Love Himself. And I am slowly learning.