beffudledfox

[beffudledfox]

I finally accept there's nothing between.

It was just all in my head, the sweetness, the feels.

Im now letting the thought of us go.

Still I thank you, for showing me how love goes.

#letting go #poemsforyou #love #unrequited #goodbye #thoughts #sad girl #sad #happy #new #fyp #the1 #taylor swift #itwouldhavebeenfun #Spotify

[beffudledfox]

Blinded by your rouge glow, i take it in

Silenced with denial, choir's louder now it seems

The little sunshine, made the river dry

Somehow also made the lake frozen and fish die

Kept in the shadows, the silence rings

Now every breath is acid, every dream ends in tears

#poemsforyou #love #heartbreak #fyp #original #unrequited #friendzone #somenights

[beffudledfox]

You were in my dreams last night.

You were mine for a while.

But even dreams cant keep us together.

You still left without a kiss.

Without a goodbye.

#love #unrequited #poemsforyou #dreams #missyou #loveme #im here

[beffudledfox]

“Please don’t go away, Please. No one’s over stuck with me for so long before.”

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[beffudledfox]

#japanese #ramen #food #foodie #yummy #hot

[beffudledfox]

It's a different feeling when you make your parents proud.

[beffudledfox]

Our converstions are getting too dry. I can feel his love for me slowly fading. Though there was never an us, he never made me feel that way. He always made me feel special, We had this special bond, and don't get me wrong, I am not imagining things. Or maybe I am. I dont know anymore. He is a bad habit I need to get over with. I need to stop thinking about him. I wish I know how.

#unrequitedlove #friends #badhabit

[beffudledfox]

#funny #police #honest

[beffudledfox]

If u cant pay for therapy. Haha

[beffudledfox]

Im surprised at the number of red hot chili peppers i know.

#Spotify #redhotchillipeppers #cantstop #millenial #rock

[beffudledfox]

I dont know what to say. I am confused. I feel weird. You know that feeling you get when is something wrong. I feel it. In my guts. Im not hungry. Not hungover. But I feel nauseous. I feel weak. Like im drowning. I can feel the tears coming. But it wont come out. Ive tried to let it out. But nada. Now im trying to blog about it. Hoping it might help. No one would probably read this. I dont even know what to write. I just know i need to tell someone. But i dont wanna talk to anyone i know. Theyll tell me im just over dramatic. But i dont even know what im feeling. Im confused. I need help. I study medicine. And im starting to diagnose myself with depression. Is this what depression feels like? Why am i depressed? Im not depressed. Just tired maybe? I need a drink. But i have no one to drink with. My only friend does not drink. She is allergic. I wanna sleep. But i cant sleep. I tried. movies aint fun no more. I only enjoy sad music now. What is wrong with me. Im not usually this down. This is all new to me. I wish letting my feels out here will help. GOD I hope it helps. I hate this feeling. This has gone too long. anyone else feeling this way?

#Spotify #confused #noah cyrus #lonely #1stpost