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They: Says something.

Me: Sorry, what was that you were talking about?

Them: Repeats half the sentence without the subject.

Me: No, dammit, the NOUN I need the noun.

{Happens on a weekly basis}

Okay, so, this is a thing I've dealt with all my life:

Someone will say something.

I will miss part of what they said.

I will ask them to repeat themselves.

They will almost invariably repeat only the part of the sentence that I heard clearly, sometimes multiple times, and not the part that I DIDN'T hear.

I've always assumed it's because they clearly enunciated the part of the sentence they thought was important, and when I asked them to repeat themselves, they repeat the "important" part.

After reading about other people's audio processing disorders, I'm now wondering: is this an audio processing disorder thing? Does this happen to other people?

#audio processing disorder #autism #autistic adult

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Coincidence, Satsuki was sleeping in mine this morning too.

Sunshine , sleeping in Pixies lap

#autistic adult #autistic community #autism community

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They used high resolution imaging to examine how neurones in autistic and neurotypical people behave. They found that there are clear structural and electrical differences between them. This may allow them to find a more definite way of identifying autistic people rather than the vaguely worded questionnaires reviewed by biased psychologists that is used now. Also it could lead to faster, easier diagnosis. On down the road they might be able to adapt these techniques for diagnosing things like Alzheimer’s and such.

#autistic adult #autistic community #autism community #neurodivergent #autism diagnosis #medicine #medical

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^^^THIS^^^

Plus I can look back over the conversation to make sure I didn’t forget something or am not drifting off subject.

Why I Prefer To Text Instead Of Talking

I don't have to think about body language

It allows for information processing time

If I'm confused by language, I can fact check

If I'm feeling overwhelmed, I don't have to reply

I feel less judged for how I communicate

I can organise my thoughts more easily

I feel more in control of what I am trying to say

Littlepuddins.ie

#autism #actually autistic #autistic adult #neurodivergant #autistic culture

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Satsuki looking very regal (and offering you a hand if you need one)

Hello friends, I've turned on asks with media because I'm feeling kinda bleurgh today and would really like to see some cute pictures of your pets or other things that bring you joy if you'd like to send them in :)

I may or may not respond because of said bleurgh but I would really appreciate it ❤️

#cat #cats of tumblr #my cat

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If I may add my two cents worth.

For me, it needs to be reciprocal. Would I want to have them over, and do they invite me. I’ve wasted a lot of time on trying to maintain what I thought of as ‘friendships’ when the other wasn’t interested in putting in the effort.

But what do I know, I’m not good at this friend thing.

Random ass question, but my blog name should explain why.

What the hell is the social definition of a friend??

Why are they so difficult to find? What is one?? Please... I don't understand this. Is it just someone you talk to? Is going out a requirement? I don't feel emotions due to alexithymia, so am I supposed to hold an emotion towards a person in order for them to be a friend???

What is this?!

#autistic adult #autistic community #autism community #neurodivergent #autistic experiences

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Guess who just had a sudden sneeze coming on, grabbed the napkin on my desk to cover my mouth, and so ended up smacking themselves in the face with the fidget spinner that was underneath the napkin?

Fortunately no harm done, it was just…dumb.

Still laughing about it.

#autistic adult #autistic community #autism community #autistic feels #funny #humor #lol

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I look at the so called “normal” standards.

I look at all the Autistic, ADHD, People with Depression, and all the other kinds of neurodivergent people. We are everywhere.

I look at the huge diversity of LGBTQIA+ people. We are everywhere.

How can you say something is “normal” when the great majority of people AREN’T?

There’s more of us than there are of them.

♥️♾️

I CAN Network Ltd

#neurodivergence #neurodiversity #lgbtqia+ #lgbtq+ #normal people #philosophy

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Dancing.

I can’t. I’m not coordinated enough, and my autistic brain tries to understand the THEORY of it, to plan what to do before I do it. It’s a multi-variant multi-body problem and my brain overloads, I just freeze up. I’ve managed to avoid it most of my life. But I always have this fear if we go to a wedding, or other social thing that it will happen and people will insist that I join in, when I literally can’t.

reblog this w your weirdest fear!!! mine’s balloons

#fears #dancing #weird fear

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Been there. It’s why when I was a kid I made a point of learning as big a vocabulary as possible. Can’t remember soup? Consommé, broth, stew, bisque, chowder…

#autistic adult #autistic community #autism community #autism #neurodivergent #autistic experiences

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There are predatory snails.

Are they fast? No they are a snail. Do they have claws and teeth like other predators? No they are just a snail. They do what they do and don’t give a damn what other people think. They don’t worry about other people’s standards or what a proper predator is ‘supposed’ to be like. They do their own thing.

So you be you, that’s all you need to be.

You don’t have to be good enough, it’s ok to just be, that's already good enought even if it doesn't feel like it.

#affirmations #mental health #healing

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So my partner is watching a police procedural show, doesn’t matter which one.

One cop who had finished questioning someone just said to another cop, “He’s telling the truth. He did not avoid eye contact and spoke in an active not passive voice.”

I found this exceedingly disturbing.

#police #I hope cops don’t really believe this #it could put a lot of us at risk #autistic adult #autistic community #autism community #neurodivergent #autistic experiences #autistic culture #actually autistic #autism #autistic #autistic feels

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This is for my fellow autistic people here. I think you may appreciate it.

The core of the way they try to derive what country, city, people, ethnic group, etc., is the happiest is the Cantrill Question.

"Please imagine a ladder with steps numbered from 0 at the bottom to 10 at the top. The top of the ladder represents the best possible life for you, and the bottom of the ladder represents the worst possible life for you. On which step of the ladder would you say you personally feel you stand at this time?"

I would have no idea how to answer that. It’s too vague, to unclear, too ambiguous. I literally could not answer the question. I read the question and it’s just NT bullshit. In my head I hear the wah-wah-wah noise they use for the teacher in the peanuts cartoons.

#autistic adult #autistic community #autism community #autism #neurodivergent #autistic experiences #actually autistic #autistic #autistic feels #autistic culture

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Me Strikes Again

I’m clumsy. I make no bones about it. Always have been and always will. Proprioception is not my friend.

Today I was in the kitchen. I had something in the microwave and was washing something in the sink. The microwave chirped that it was done. I turned to get what I was heating. Somehow, my ring finger snagged a two cup pyrex measuring cup and tipped it over. Not a big deal right? Well it flipped it over in just the right way that this indestructible, microwaveable, drop proof, super strong, high tech material shattered on impact like a cheap Christmas ornament. So rather than taking my tea and going back to work I spent the next five minutes finding the broom, and then carefully sweeping up the whole kitchen.

SIGH, I’ll just add it to the list.

EDIT: Oh and I forgot to mention that in cleaning it up I cut my finger. Not a huge wound but a decent nick. I only noticed this when I was back at my desk and wondered why I never noticed the red in the pattern on the side of my teacup. Never felt a thing.

#my life #autistic adult

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My cat likes playing with my small Fidget Spinner

My hand is there because in addition to spinning it, she pushes it off my desk. She is a CAT after all.

@autistic-af

#autistic adult #autistic community #autism community #cats of tumblr

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I get stuck in the red button green button loop. Is it green button answer, or red button stop the ringing? I am always so tempted to hit the red button to stop the ringing.

Getting a phone call can sometimes make me like a deer in headlights. Too terrified to do anything but stare as the phone rings.

#funny #lol #actuallyautistic #autistic adult

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Said January, which is odd because my birthday is in January. But between the dark and the rain and the post holiday season let down, it’s just awful.

#its been january #seasonal depressive disorder #january #january sucks