lost-in-space-69

[lost-in-space-69]

I feel like I'm in a bubble.

The bubble with just myself and no one else.

A bubble that no one cannot get in or out.

It's lonely yet comforting.

It's unhealthy yet safe.

I don't know when this habit will change.

#poem #poetry #actually mentally ill #mentally fucked #tehehe #poetry kinda? #original poem #idk what im trying to say

[lost-in-space-69]

It's so strange depression. No matter what I'll always feel alone and nothing feels enough anymore.

Will I always feel like this?

#mental health #depressing shit #actually mentally ill #tw depression #sorry for being depressing

[lost-in-space-69]

I don't think this life was meant for me

#mental health #depressing shit #mentally fucked #fuck this #life is shit

[lost-in-space-69]

Will I be saved or will someone save me?

I don't know if I should help myself up again or just let someone else do it for me.

I don't even know if I would want to be saved.

#mental health #actually mentally ill #mentally fucked #tw depression #illness tw #self help

[lost-in-space-69]

I don't think I'll ever be better.

#mental health #depressing shit #mentally fucked

[lost-in-space-69]

Am I still me when my trauma is healed?

#mental health #depressing shit #poetry kinda? #trauma #self healing #healing

[lost-in-space-69]

I'm too overwhelmed by everything and cry over pointless shit. It's horrible to have all this paranoid inside of me. It feels like I'm a feather touch away from getting shattered and becoming broken. Why can I be normal and handle things like an adult???

#depressing shit #mental health #anixety #sensitive #emotional #im a fucking mess #and a crybaby #too sensitive

[lost-in-space-69]

Every fucking time I believed I am getting better shit literally gets thrown in my face. It's honestly laughable how often I'm on the edge constantly. Whether it's my own life or from doing something I'd regret. Shit never goes right.

#mental health #depressing shit #actually mentally ill #mentally fucked #sorry for being depressing #im losing my mind

[lost-in-space-69]

I'm trying so hard to be positive but so much shit is happening and everything is too much. I wanna be better but I know I'm gonna be taking four steps forward and two steps back constantly.

I'm proud of my growth but at the same time I find comfort in my bad habits. I'm learning and coping in different ways then I once was and also reversing it when it becomes too much. I'm only human.

I'm only a perfectly flawed human.

#actually mentally ill #mental health #vent post #poetry kinda? #idk #mental growth

[lost-in-space-69]

Do you think I could be truly happy?

I don't think so cause I don't live in a fairy tale as much as I wish so.

#mental health #depressing shit

[lost-in-space-69]

I don't know if things really do get better.

I think I'm just lying to myself.

#mental health #depressing shit #mentally fucked #actually mentally ill #tw depression #depression #vent post #sad thoughts

[lost-in-space-69]

I feel like the emptiness won't go away. I just keep seeking it in anything just to feel something.

Smoking, drinking, fucking around with others aren't helping no more. What the fuck man.

#bpd #mental health #depressing shit #mentally fucked #tw depression #bpd vent #vent post #tw depressing stuff #mental illness #actually mentally ill

[lost-in-space-69]

I was doing well and now everything is hopeless once again.

My life is a fucking mess.

#mental health #depressing shit #actually mentally ill #vent post #tw vent #tw depression #tw depressing stuff #depression

[lost-in-space-69]

I don't think anyone is actually gonna ever care for me. I'm too disgusting to be around. I just make everything worse for everyone.

#mental health #depressing shit #mentally fucked #actually mentally ill #bpd vent #tw depression #sad thoughts #heartache #relationships #love is a lie

[lost-in-space-69]

Nobody will truly understand me. They probably never will. They only see the side of me that I show them. I'll never be on that deeper level with anyone, maybe that's why I feel so alone.

#bpd #mental health #depressing shit #mentally fucked #actually mentally ill #tw depression #sad thoughts

[lost-in-space-69]

Do the people hurt me ever pay? I want them to.

#bpd #mental health #depressing shit #bpd vent #bpd anger

[lost-in-space-69]

I wanna be fucking normal. Why couldn't I have been normal?

#bpd #actually mentally ill #actually bpd #bpd vent #bpd anger #depressing shit #bpd is a bitch #bpd issues #tw depression