#‘i’m not dying for you may’

[seths-rogens]

if joe keery doesn’t get to sob and cry and scream and break down in s5 then what’s the point

#like i need to see it #it’s not a want it’s a visceral need #joe plz i beg i need to see you CRY AND WHIMPER #tears running he’s sobbing he’s on his knees in the dirt #someone tries to comfort him but he just flinches away and doesn’t let them touch him #this may be inspired by that one post i saw about roving saving steve and dying in his place #FUCK i’m such a sucker for angst #she’s the only one who he would let hold him but she’s gone #or he’s dying and he’s crying as it happens #he doesn’t go out all majestic like #he’s actually scared #but there’s nothing they can do #yeah… i think that would fix me… #steve harrington #joe keery #stranger things #stevie #i know he can do it know he can

[sittinginsunflowers]

The absolutely real way my heart dropped when Brennan brought out those fucking scantron ass test questions and a timer is proof you never outrun high school and if one of them doesn’t curse him out for this truly cruel (and genius) premise next episode I will be shocked

#dimension 20 #d20 #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high junior year #I’m nearly 27 years old and I’m starting grad school in the fall #and yet the second he set the timer down and said “go” my mind went blank #my body already thinks it’s dying every time I do something even remotely close to stressful #being tested and knowing you’re about to die (when many of you have already died before) would push me over the fucking edge #anyway #my money is on Siobhan or Lou being the first to yell at him but it may be a group effort

[thresholdbb]

Can we talk about The Dying Swan moment in Coda? As someone who was once a very serious ballerina, I need to talk about the Dying Swan. Here's your context --

CHAKOTAY: Harry's clarinet solo was okay. I could have done without Tuvok's reading of Vulcan poetry. But the highlight of the evening was definitely Kathryn Janeway portraying the Dying Swan. JANEWAY: I learned that dance when I was six years old. I assure you, it was the hit of the Beginning Ballet class.

Have you seen The Dying Swan? It is dramatic.

Here, take a minute:

First of all, this dance is much too advanced for a six-year-old, even if they’re doing it in demi pointe. (Six-year-olds emphatically should not be in pointe shoes btw.) The dance is almost entirely bourees and arm movements done to very subtle musical cues, not the foundational ballet moves typically taught in Beginning Ballet.

This is a very vulnerable, dramatic dance that is effective because of its subtleties. The performer would need to embody that vulnerability in some way for a convincing performance. It's short, but it's a solo piece -- all eyes on you. I mean, it was choreographed for a prima ballerina, BUT THAT'S NOT MY POINT

Can you imagine our unflappable Captain Janeway willingly getting in front of her crew to do this ballet? I get that it’s thematically relevant to the plot of Coda, but since Janeway is only vulnerable in front of her crew when it means putting herself in harm’s way, it seems like a wild decision. She tends to hold herself apart from her crew, maintaining the professional distance of the captain. Further, when she does any creative pursuit, it is almost always in private, since her sister was the artist in the family and she was the scientist. As a captain, she commands Voyager in a much different way than she would as a dancer with this piece. I'm not saying she never shows vulnerability because she definitely does, but not necessarily in this way. Then when she talks about it with Chakotay, she just casually brushes it off with a laugh like no big deal.

There’s also the question of costume – would she have gone full tutu? Done it in her Starfleet uniform? An impeccable yet flow-y white suit? She does get into costume and command a performance in Bride of Chaotica!, but Coda is still kind of early days for our captain. Arachnia aligns more with what we know about Janeway's character.

Granted, it is Chakotay laying down these complements about her dancing ability and he is clearly biased. To be fair, Neelix does too before they leave in the shuttle. If she did this dance and performed it poorly or amazingly, I feel like the crew would look at her a bit differently afterwards.

Canonically she did The Dying Swan, but I certainly have trouble picturing it happening.

#does everyone let it slide because she gets mind killed a bunch of times and attends her own funeral? #this throw away line has been living rent free in my mind for months now #coda is also a ballet term fun fact #star trek voyager #coda #Captain Janeway #this death doesn't mean anything though because no one else is saved so not janeway self-sacrificing goals #yes yes they probably just picked the first artistic performance with death in the title cause it's thematically relevant #i've thought about it much more than a normal person probably should #No one said I was a good ballerina but I did it for a long time #may or may not have filmed a video about this in my cosplay for a different platform #maybe have been sitting on it cause of editing and weird dudes being into me like why no #also let tuvok read his poetry i bet it's great #alien grim reaper dad is a great concept very creepy bring him back for more angst #just a little insane about the dying swan don't mind me #also insane about coda and voyager and janeway in general ok you got me #meta #I was falling asleep on the couch but then I had to rant about coda I’m sorry

[mazzystar24]

Thinking a lot about wants vs needs and had some thoughts:

Eddie goes for what he needs (or thinks he needs) in his exes but not what he wants

Buck goes for what he wants in his exes but not what he needs

Am I making sense?

#yes I’m up to the Maslow’s hierarchy of needs part of my revision #SHUT UP RIGHT NOW I KNOW IM ANNOYING AND YOU GUYS CAN SEE HOW MANY TIMES I GET DISTRACTED WHILE STUDYING #exams are kicking my arse and it’s not even may yet #like I haven’t had a single one yet but I’m just DYING #fr tho #like think about it it makes sense like Eddie thinks he needs a wife and surrogate mother and goes for that #buck goes for who he wants but he doesn’t really consider things like if it’s what he needs with the issues he has #my version of the needs to be chosen needs to choose tbh #911 #buddie #evan buckley #eddie diaz #911 abc #911 fox #evan buck buckley #911onfox

[alexaatla]

me when i hear the references to terry jr in scarys apology to tony pepperoni

#scary marlowe why are you so relatable #scary marlowe #scary marlowe my daughter #dndads #dungeons and daddies #“i didn’t realize how much you mattered until you weren’t there #beth may why #i’m sobbing #i’m dying #i will never get over them #or this #i hate this podcast/lhj

[age-of-moonknight]

“Soldier,” Vengeance of the Moon Knight (Vol. 2/2024), #3.

Writer: Jed MacKay; Penciler and Inker: Alessandro Cappuccio; Colorist: Rachelle Rosenberg; Letterer: Cory Petit

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 616 #Vengeance of the Moon Knight #Vengeance of the Moon Knight vol. 2 #Vengeance of the Moon Knight 2024 #Moon Knight comics #latest release #Soldier #8-Ball #Jeff Hagees #I’m so proud of him #and not just because I think he looks great in the gloves #but because the discomfort is palpable #him having to grow beyond the «simply following orders» mentality his name implies and put himself out there #speaks to the sort of potential that others may see in him that he himself can’t #or would simply prefer to not have to develop and just stay in a valuable (comfortable?) support role #which you know what understandable #(also peek the blacked out tattoo/cover-up #every so often I’m reminded of how much I love the «reformed extremist/racist» archetype and I’m so glad Soldier seems resistant to dying #which seems to be the unfortunate fate for most such characters I’ve encountered recently)

[londonfoginacup]

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#sorry my mom follows my other tumblrs and I love her but right now I need to rant where she can’t see #my dad picks the long car road trip to argue with me #about who bombed the hospital in Palestine #as if that MATTERS #we are so past that mattering #when thousands of Palestinians are dead and more are dying and Israel is hunting them #I don’t care who you think bombed the hospital #you know who’s bombed Gaza #you know who is committing this genocide #what sort of moral #high ground #do you think you have #anyway I’m so sorry I’ve just gotten out of a 7 hour car trip and I’m so constantly devastated #may Palestine see freedom

[assigned-boyking-at-birth]

Supernatural ending after ahbl pt1 would have been iconic and sexy. Thank you for coming of my TedTalk.

#you may ask “ok if it ends with Sam dying then what about the surviving special child” #and my response would be that it doesn’t matter #the show is about two brothers against the world and when one dies the story ends and yeah a new story starts but it’s not THIS story #am I making sense *yelled into a void* #ahbl #ahbl pt.1 #i’m a ahbl truther #spn #supernatural

[labyrynth]

let’s be real for a sec: if rusong were still alive, nhs wouldn’t have hesitated in killing him

#mdzs #mdzs talk #jgy tag #nie huaisang #jin guangyao #it’s like jgy adjacent but you know #this little ramble is gonna be kinda dark jsyk #it was NOT a coincidence that jgy AND qin su AND mo xuanyu were all dead by the end #i’m convinced the only reason he didn’t kill sisi was bc he needed to use her against him #honestly part of me has this theory that nhs was actually involved in rising’s death to begin with #talking to the right people and planting suggestions here and there #there’s a solid part of me that thinks nhs may have been perfectly fine with lxc dying too #if it meant hurting jgy more #it certainly wasn’t something he could aim for because that would be a logistical nightmare #TWO dead sect leaders at once? LWJ??? as sect leader???? #but i think he would have been just fine if lxc had died in the middle #both mxy and qs committed suicide #i wonder if that would have been enough to push jgy over the edge #also btw ‘killing him’ here is shorthand for ‘getting him dead somehow’ #i don’t think he would do any dirty work himself

[silkjade]

it’s 3am so please enjoy my favorite painting in the world while i reflect introspectively in the tags thank u ♡

day and the dawnstar by herbert james draper

#— 𝓭𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓬𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓼 #/// #this is meant to be like elevator music for the dash while you scroll past #…………….. #i love selfshipping it's vry fun but sometimes when i think about it too much or rather when i think about any scenario at all #i'm always like i want so and so to do this and this and this but when asked what i'd do for them it's like hitting a blank ) : #and i can’t help but feel as if i’m being…. selfish…. #selfish in the sense that i can so easily accept the love i crave but i don’t know if i'd be able to give the same back? #and this bleeds into my real life becus i suppose i just don't know how to make someone feel loved like... #i’m not even half as affectionate irl as i may seem online & i don’t have a cute or particularly loving personality. #the words i say aren't warm ; ironically they make me sound disingenuous lmao no matter how much i practice my cadence #& idk why it’s so difficult for me to imagine myself doing like.. domestic things for anyone without cringing at the alien nature of it #not becus there's something wrong with that but i just can't see ME doing anything like that and i just think 'what is wrong with me' becus #it's one of the simplest and purest forms of love i think ; \ idk maybe i've just never loved anyone enough like that... #but then i feel so..bad...because the real me is so apathetic boring cold #& not to make things sound transactional but why would someone want to stay if what they invest produces lackluster results ? #like omg ! even i can tell that it's totally unfair i'd feel like a leech #even in the painting above draper the painter says: 'to faint in the light of the sun she loves / to faint in his light and to die' #iz so me yearning 'n then dying from yearning becus i don't know how to express it #like when mitski said '胸がはち切れそうで' 'my chest is about to burst' i felt that #anyways i suppose this was good to get out before chinese new year lolz #i hope u did not make it this far honestly anyways i m going to rb a bunch of random stuff to hide this

[bluelriczerny]

So I was thinking about Noah in trb I want you to know, I was more when I was alive and Blue in trk This cheerfully prattling version of Noah was surely closer to the living version of him, she was struck by the realization that she probably wouldn’t have ever become friends with this Noah and now I’m crying

#I’m SAD #id ask you out if i was alive id say yes #but not actually #idk but the realisation that she wouldn’t like him or be friends with him if he was alive just hit me hard #thinking and thinking and sad because thinking that dying is the best thing that happened to him because it allowed him to meet the gangsey #and found family you know? #but also its sad to think that because he deserved to live! he was murdered as a teen! he had so much to live #but if he lived he would never been friends with blue or the boys #also because of age #and that’s sad #and this may be the migraine talking. I’m gonna take my nap #HE QUIETLY SLID FROM TIME #I’ll never get over noah #the raven cycle #trc #the raven boys #noah czerny #trk #the raven king #my post

[tanjir0se]

Unironically another fantastic thing for my creative process has been making stupid little press releases for my stupid bullshit like it’s urgent news and everyone should care. I’m like a town crier ringing a bell and shouting on your dash like HEAR YE HEAR YE. THE GOODE LADY OF THE MANOR HATH GRACED US WITH YET ANOTHER GOOGLETH DOC FULL OF YON BULLSHIT. LOOK UPON IT AND WEEP.

#if you’re paying very close attention you might notice my Brian cells dying #typo but I’m keeping it in keep the struggle #am I Going Through something or am I just an idiot??? the world may never know…

[margumis]

protip do not sleep with your windows if you live in north east america right now

#i feel like i’m dying like my throat is gone #it gets hot at night :( i thought i would be fine #it’s okay you guys can call me stupid i am #but damn i may have just given myself smokers lung

[fandomfairyuniverse]

I did not have Lin Manuel Miranda playing Hermes on the bingo card but I must say. This is very funny

#like okay okay he may not have been anyone’s first choice BUT #you have to admit this is hilarious #like come on #I’m kind of in love with this #some people are so pressed and I’m like #dying of laughter #percy jackson #pjo #lin manuel miranda

[mostlykind]

should I watch the good detective s2 or start a new kdrama

#if so give me recs I’m DYING IN THIS DROUGHT #nothing is calling to me :( #i finished s1 of the good detective and I loved the characters but the plot dragged out by the end #but s2 plot seems interesting #but alsoooo I want a romance 😭😭 #I’ve been watching may I help you but I’m a bit behind now so #i want smth newwww I want the beautiful feeling of meeting new characters #rahma watches stuff