#1st try not bad

[feuerkindjana]

I did a thing ... for the Berlin Meet Up :)

Hopefully I get the prints done in time.

Kraken & Lighthouse: This is my very first wood engraving print endeavour! I still have a lot to learn but for now I am proud of how it turned out. The cutting and printing is very time consuming but also very calming. I completely zone out when I'm working on it.

Mermaids: This is my first try at lino cut in decades. The last time I did lino cut, I was in school and maybe 13. The material was unforgiving and the tools blunt. I hurt myself a lot back then. These days it's so much easier and the plate is much softer now. I love it! So, I'm still figuring it all out and look at how to improve the print quality but this is so much fun to do!

#ofmd #ofmd fanart #my art #our flag means death #printing #woodwork #kraken and lighthouse #mermaids #holzschnitt #Linolschnitt #wood engraving #linocut #linoprint #working with wood #linoldruck #Spreepiraten #spreepirates #1st try not bad #ofmd meet up

[abrahamvanhelsings]

listen i don't think edward little was actually a bad first lieutenant. when we see him in the first episode he's calm and confident. he does not say much but he's amiable enough. crozier likes him, and i don't think crozier would like anyone he doesn't think capable in some way. generally he's dependable and knows what he's doing. however unfortunately for edward he has these qualities because he has a major case of eldest daughter syndrome, which means he both wants to please his mum (crozier) and has an overdeveloped sense of responsibility for his younger siblings (crew), so when they get stuck in the ice and crozier starts going (more) alcoholic, he enables his mum bc he doesn't want to disappoint her even if he doesn't agree with her, and he has to pick up the tasks and care for his siblings she's not doing, but he can't let his siblings know about their mum's situation because they'll get worried and restless. and like a true eldest daughter he has to bear the brunt of mummy's anger for being a disappointment but he also doesn't want to seek refuge with the man she divorced (fitzjames) because that feels like a betrayal. also while this is going on there is a giant bear who hunts his siblings for sport so they're dying left and right and also a changeling master manipulator who's making his siblings mad at their mum and who wants to fuck said mum before eating her like some sort of praying mantis. anyway i think i would start being miserable and anxious too.

#joke post but i do feel like the whole 'edward little's bad lieutenanting' goes a little overboard sometimes #he's always in the worst position ever for a man whose sense of duty to captain and crew is at the core of his being #generally everything he does he does bc he thinks it's for the good of the crew. #but the crew is 24/7 in mortal peril so he's anxious 24/7 as well #under normal circumstances he'd know what to do. but these aren't normal 1st lieutenant circumstances. he's not equipped for it #and anyway i do need to point out. that edward is anxious abt everything and he makes wrong choices sometimes even with good intentions #but the first thing crozier did when he got miserable and anxious was stop trying and instead hope to drink himself to death. so. you know. #edward little #the terror #jopson is the favoured younger sibling in this scenario btw #inb4 someone comes into the tags like 'wouldn't jfj be the mum' not in this metaphor

[skunkes]

(trying to be) happy to be here

#a doodley #1st pic is from last yr #im an easy crier and lately its bc i hate the way my life is going but then i think abt how one day ill be dead and i wont be able to #draw anymore or look at birds anymore or eat things i like anymore and it also sends me into insane crying hysterics #i want to live so bad.... but idk... i shld make the best of what i have. and try to cope with what i have (hence the images) #bc like idk. i want to leave so bad but my parents will be gone someday too so why am i in a rush to not see em...idk. #i dont knowwwwwww chimp image #copium. i have to find anything to be excited about. trying. #sorry its those nefarious 3 am thots -_-

[calware]

Look I'm Like 5.5k pages into Homestuck. Reading your blog makes me think I've missed so much depth. I'd restart, were it not for the fact that I'd have to reread 5.5k pages

that's okay! my understanding of homestuck was COMPLETELY different from when i first read it vs my understanding today just by reading what other people had to say and discussing it. for me, a big part of enjoying homestuck was not just reading it, but reading people talk about it and learning from there (and talking about it myself). you can do that too, or go back and reread small parts of it, or do nothing and see what you want to do when you finish reading the comic. whichever is most enjoyable ^^ but you certainly aren't missing out on anything on your 1st read through

#ask #localowlhousefanatic #i hope this makes sense #im not trying to say you HAVE to engage in meta discourse and analysis or else you are a bad reader #that's just what i did because it's fun and now i feel i better understand the story #its not just from my 1st reading–i really think its so complex that you can't understand it all on just 1 reading (because i sure did not) #and im not saying you HAVE to reread it. it just might give you a deeper understanding if you do #i've never reread it completely. i've reread sections of it out of order

[earlgodwin]

"There are moments where [Juan] manipulates other people in a similar the way they’ve been manipulating him. The scene between Jeremy and myself with the dagger is a last ditch frantic attempt at trying to win [Rodrigo] over." Do you think Juan was genuine in the knife scene? Do you think he would have killed himself? "Yeah I think so. He always does what is true inside him...It wasn’t simply about the eventual confrontation, but all about the richness of this twisted family make-up."

#top 5 scenes that changed the trajectory of my life #it's also the 1st time we see juan vulnerable (2nd time is his final scene where he confesses to ces about how messed up he is all his life #“we were betrayed father!” maybe if ces put his jealousy aside and helped his lil bro by letting him know about ludovico's army #he's so broken and tired. trying so hard to prove he's useful but he has a shitty luck and a jealous megalomaniac big brother #like even from a military stand point ces could've helped juan with the forli mission but noooo he wants juan humilated! #anyway. look at rodrigo being soft to his baby boy!!! he loves him immensely and trying to comfort him :( #david and jeremy not getting their emmy nominations doesn't sit right with me ngl #“i defend this family with my heart and my soul” i was really rooting for juan so bad because he was just a kid and he was Trying #it's why the people who view juan as some sort of villain are hypocritical and need to fuck off the show btw <3 #like he knows he's a fuck-up and the circumstances made him a fuck-up. no one gave him a damn chance. just ganging up on him lol #juan borgia #david oakes #jeremy irons #rodrigo borgia #the borgias #theborgiasedit #perioddramaedit #about juan #juan and rodrigo #by jen

[minnarr]

WOOSEOK - Feelin' Like

#pentagon #wooseok #jung wooseok #ptg #ptgedit #my gifs #this started as trying to gif like 3 different versions of the move in the 1st gif #but this was the only coloring i liked so More Wooseok #never a bad thing

[hiemaldesirae]

actually i talked about this w a friend a while ago but i think the whole acotar series couldve been improved sm more if all the fae were evil and fucked up and it was a silly little romcom instead of wtv the fuck sjm was going for

like imagine tamlin who has flowers growing over corpses in his garden 😋😋😋😍😍😍😍 or a rhys who makes stars to put in the sky after every kill he makes in another court (to cont a family tradition !!!) as a way to taunt every other lord... 🤩🤩 and they fall for this muscled runt of a woman who adds more bodies to both their collections. I mean like. itd still be better if it was sapphic. but still. this would improve the acotar series by a landslide

(also ending like iron widow's love interests :3c)

#im trying to read thru it. because i dnfed it like literally one chapt into acomaf last time #but im trying to get thru it this time #and i have to say. the way sjm wrote feyre in the second book annoyed me so bad i literally started writing in 1st person #completely out of spite. all to write a character less annoying while speaking in 1st person #ran rambles #acotar #anti sjm #just so everyone knows i despise that mediocre white womans writing #need to kidnap mor amren nd nesta from her because lawd #also az nd cass should also be women. because i said so #anti acotar #does this count? i guess it does #pro tamlin #pro feyre #pro rhysand #just so everyones aware i think these characters would be so much better out of sjms hands 😭

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#man ive never seen an eating disorder kill someone else besides a parent infecting a child but my nana is really trying #shes like 1000% orthotexic. will not eat anything not filled with vegetables or fat. and my grandpa is 87yo with a heart condition currentl #in the hospital for covid bc thry went to Christmas church and dont believe in being vaccinated and my dad is so frustrated #bc he knows his mom is not gonna give his dad hearty foods. he needs to eat like protein shakes and meat and ice cream. anything thats not #her cooking which sucks on top of being extremely healthy. except its not healthy bc they dont eat a balanced diet #so its my nanas eating disorder killing her husband and shes so fucking frustrating. im like 99% sure she has obsessive compulsive #personally disorder bc she fits to a T and has zero insight. she may have full on 0cd bc talking to my dad he has more obvious 0cd #compulsions than i do. he used to say phrases before going to bed and would take 2 steps across the floor to prevent bad things from #happening. so like im pretty sure my nana is where i get my perfectionism and 0cd. god. i wish i could express how fucked up she is #like my dad said at least he had a stable home to grow up in but like she has zero sympathy for other people. cannot look past herself. wil #not wear a mask bc she doesnt care enough abt other ppl. my dad was like: u would not have survived in that house. which is fair bc i am #barely keeping it together coming from a stable home with two sympathetic parents who i know love me #and like its sad that they're suffering the effects of buying into the fox news bullshit and its killing them #but also. genuinely. i think theyre not very good ppl. theyre the type of people who think they're better bc they're religious. white. and #thin. and theyre not better thsn anyone. their grandchildren cant stand them. well cant stand her at least. papa is just quite so its hard #to say what hes thinking. apparently he was confused last night and saying something about eating dinner on the golf course. which sounds #nicer thsn being in the hospital lol. ugh. he seems not long for this world tbh. may he pass peacefully to b with his 1st wife who died of #brain cancer at age like 20 or something. so it goes. bleh. how many funerals are intended for me in the next 5 years? hopefully none but #that seems improbable with the unspoken drain circling that seems to b going on in this family. old age and like almost 10 years of cancer #defying the stats but for how much longer? #i dunno. its just so weird to watch these things happen and not talk about it directly to the other ppl who see it #i worry that ill come off as too callose or inappropriate bc i have that tendency when something bad is happening but thats everyone else #excuse? idk i just feel like its better to talk abt things #unrelated #ed mention #i tell u this so i can say these things to someone and also bc if i were u. i would like to hear the drama #bc im nosey and i assume other r too ;-]

[fisheito]

i swear i've played a game like that

#replies #oh the many dating sims i've played.... the animal coded boys.......they get me every time #this just means that yes. i will play this plotline all over again but with eiden as the protag. #i want him going thru all the tropes then promptly subverting them #oh NO my animal ward turned into a HANDSOME MAN well you're just as much a pain in my butt as a human actually so no special treatment 4 u #I LEGITIMATELY DO NOT REMEMBER ANY OF THESE BOYS' PERSONALITIES #i was trying to excavate them from my long term memory like.... uhhhh #there's the tsun. the jerk. the sweet one who's not actually sweet half the time? the quiet. the baby?? #BRO I DON'T KNOOOOOOW #wait is there a reason they all wear hats? #is it to hide their animal ears? #how very retro-kuya of them #fun fact: this game destroyed my laptop #on my 1st playthru i got the ending with the side character dude who raises chickens #it caught me so off guard that i physically yelled WHAT and knocked over a glass a water #onto my laptop. #the last screen i saw on that laptop was Chicken Boy's avatar proposing marriage to MC #surrounded by green glitch bars and graphic errors (like dmmd noiz bad end) #screen went black and i just sat there in horror. #it may have been one of the stupidest things i've done. i laugh thinkin about it #zookeeper au #eiden #edmond #kuya #garu #quincy #yakumo

[four-bastard-bustle]

Feel like being a bit of a hater

I honestly don't know if i hate edd being a Hot Yaoi Shipper or edd being homophobic more in tomatt art. Both suck ass. Can he just be normal about it

#talkin #To be fair this isn't AS widespread anymore #But for a while i couldn't scroll two posts without edd calling the other two faggots (derogatory) and i just think #1st off that's not funny. “ironic” homophobia wraps around to just being homophobia again #(trust me i have a lot of experience in writing bad satire like that) #2nd off. I forgot my second point. This rant just died it's own death #Anyways there's nothing wrong with drawing edd like. Annoyed at his overly PDA friends or something like that #But don't try too hard to be edgy about it #And Shipper edd is annoying too #He wouldn't give a shit what they do #I think i actually hate the homophobic one more. Mystery solved #Both are annoying tho

[faceofpoe]

Musings about next week's finale and trying to wrap my head around the wonky back half of the season pacing after my adoration for 1-7...

As fun as 'Omega is riding the zillo best outta here' and 'the Echo & Emerie team-up we never knew we needed' are...

And forgiving the big '???' that is Hunter & co's plan at this stage because like, sir, there are three of you (+ deadweight) trying to sneak up on a high-alert secure facility on foot (with no backup sound familiar??) (jfc Echo I hope you called for backup)...

(seriously I do not understand why they did not detach while they were still in orbit and send their coordinates out to Rex & co)

With the exceptions of episodes 2&9-10, this season has been about... Crosshair. Even when it doesn't quite seem like it's about Crosshair... it's about Crosshair.

(8 is very much about Crosshair if you watch it the way I watch it) (it is also very short if you watch it the way I watch it LOL)

(10 could arguably be made about Crosshair, from the perspective of seeing deeper into what Hemlock wanted him to become)

(fuck it, let's even make 2 a little bit about Crosshair, as Deke, Stak, and Mox give us a firsthand account of just how fucking twisted Hemlock is)

(reach with me friends lol)

To a certain extent, I think (I hope?) the pacing feels weird because we're really watching Crosshair's journey. And Crosshair was in something of a holding pattern from eps 5-10. He's home. He's traumatized. He wants nothing more than to put Tantiss behind him. Circumstances won't quite let him.

He plays ball with the datapad, he's as helpful as he's willing to be considering he wants nothing more than to never be obliged to return to Tantiss.

I never did quite sleuth the timing of his 'um actually' about the assassins with Rex; why in that specific moment he deems it worth mentioning besides dramatic irony lol oops there's one in the next room.

But the speed with which he used his ex-Imperial know-how to figure out the datapad was our clue as to how events would progress (with such limited screen time left) after he misses the shot in ep 11. It comes off rushed but only because he's had the tools. He just very much did not want.

So yeah, shoving it back and returning for Omega - who is probably the reason he never spoke up about Rampart in the first place, as her determination to rescue the other clones was the first thing out of her mouth on Lau - brings us nicely full circle with episode 3.

But this short-episode slow-build of eps 12-14 - the way he talks about never wanting to go back, reminding us twice about the hand - needs a dramatic tragic rewarding payoff specific to him. And, given the slow unraveling of information - a payoff specific to just what it is he is still not saying.

I actually do expect a mostly triumphant ending (some of you have extremely dark expectations for this show and these characters good lord) but there's gotta be one more big hit before we get it.

Omega riding the zillo beast out of here (lol) and the Echo & Emerie team-up we never knew we needed are fun, but I can't imagine a satisfying climactic drama to Tantiss that isn't centered around the question of: "Okay but just what has Crosshair fucked up so badly?"

(And being me, the answer of course is: CX-Tech but YMMV)

#watch Poe desperately trying to keep faith in the full season arc and payoff until May 1st it's fine we're all fine here #tbb #tbb spoilers #the bad batch #the bad batch spoilers

[driftingsprite]

I hate having Pluto 1st and it touching all my planets people can DEFINITELY tell when you can see through them. It makes them double down or go crazy.

#pluto 1st house #Plutonian #people will come up and word vomit you and scurry off #or try to make you feel bad and when they can’t it makes them crazy. #absolutely not

[emsylcatac]

she be playing with the bunny ears 🐰

Small birthday gift for @ladynoirist with some delay oops, I love you Lisa ♥︎

#it's the 1st time I'm trying to do chibi-like things so I hope it doesn't look too bad 😭 #i gave him a bunny nose on top of the cat nose because it amplifies the baby power #miraculous #ml fanart #myart #ladynoir #ml spoilers #evolution #evolution spoilers

[birdmenmanga]

I know other people are keeping their birdmas things under wraps but I think this goes rlly hard and everyone should be hyped for this. anyways how many times do you think I can draw the bus crash before I get sick of it

#just thinking thoughts... #this is the third time if I'm not mistaken #1st time was for the bodyswap AU. 2nd time was for snooze. this is the third #but yeah I was in a really bad funk yesterday and the day before #I was like. having [REDACTED] and also [REDACTED] and then [REDACTED] on top of that #but like genuinely drawing bird stuff instantly fixes me and idk why I seemed to have forgotten that lol #anyways. if I want this done by end of december I need to not be such a perfectionist. #you can see I'm trying super hard by only using rough artwork instead of clean artwork #we'll see if I can like. keep this going. you know. keep it going. #I don't know if the black bars should go away after 'kedo' or at the drop #I'll figure it out tomorrow #I should work on the trailer but like I need some short term stuff too

[anotherpapercut]

this dude got off the bus at the same time as me and was kind of following me so I like kept an eye on him but kept walking and bopping to fall out boy until I didn't see him anymore. then a minute later a car drove up beside me and asked if I needed a ride and I told him I was ok bc I'm like a half a block away and he said "oh ok I just wanted to make sure you were ok cause I saw that guy yelling at you" and I was like he was what???? bc I had my music up so loud I literally just couldn't hear a guy who was following me yelling. luckily he apparently got tired of me not responding and turned down a different street lmfao

#very nice of the man in the car #now viewers at home may be thinking why tf was ur music so loud if you knew you were being followed #my reasoning is 2 fold: #1st of all i find that not being able to hear someone trying to harass you makes it a lot easier to completely ignore them #and if you show no sign that youre paying attention they usually leave you alone #2nd. my toxic trait is that i dont think 1 person could successfully subdue me. even if they had a knife #and if they had a gun id say better make it a good shot #but genuinely im 5'2 and fat so people assume i will not be able to beat the shit out of them. bad assumption #im extremely strong when im angry amd would absolutely not hold back from scratching their fuckin eyes out and donkey kicking them

[actualsunflower]

job searching, despite the tons of applications I've put in and the stupid fancy new resume i made, has been going very badly My mental health has just been absolute garbage type bad, which is why I've been stuck in this slump of not doing anything other than suffering... I'm working on getting my medications sorted out, which is helping me with this problem, but it's taking time and I'm dealing with my insurance denying everything (bcs I'm also in the process of getting approved for a hysterectomy AND a dermatologist and insurance doesn't like that) and getting a new psychiatrist I'm always still gratefully accepting any tips/donations to help me out while I don't have a job :') Here's my Ko-Fi 💖 Art in return will be back as soon as I'm finished with my queue once I'm able to manage things (when I say my mh has been bad... I mean like bad bad. the kind of bad you dont talk about online usually) Today after buying some food and body wash I have $11.86 in my bank, and blood work coming up Friday the 28th, as well as a few bills that autopay at the beginning of each month and will overdraft my bank ($58 for one and $66 for another, $124 total) I've actually also been trying to look into getting help with SSI because I was fired due to mental disability, but that hasn't been going well either. I'm still trying to get legal help on my behalf 🫡 will update on that too if anything changes...

I'm feeling really awful about all of this. It weighs on me very heavily and makes trying to get out of this depression worse, and I've been putting this off for a while because of how embarrassed I am. But I'm struggling a whole lot and ignoring it is just making it worse :') I really appreciate any shares and help 💖 My gratitude to my amazing community is immeasurable 💖🥹

#i do actually have this group interview thing next Tuesday the 1st of aug. #so hopefully that goes well... #otherwise im still just stuck in this fucked up depression. trying to do what i can #my mh has been so bad. ive been having horrible manic episodes and multiple serious times of considering kms #shit has just. not been good #im sorry to just show up and make a stupid little post here #im doing my best 🫡 mybest is just pitiful right now #ko-fi #sunflower commissions #sunflower's art #any typos pls ignore my brain isnt working good 👍👍