#BUT HE WAS ONLINE. IDK IF HE STILL IS.

[cock-holliday]

While I do think the internet has the unique opportunity to amplify brain-poisoning, I wish discourse wasn’t so heavily split into “online vs irl” when it’s much more an issue of…exclusionary politics and idpol hierarchy brainrot.

“This doesn’t happen offline” the problem is, it does. Because people who captain themselves the arbiter of validity on tumblr dot org are possibly also going to be a self-righteous dorkass at your DEI training, or when organizing lesbian night at the bar, or being president of a queer org on campus, or running LGBT orgs people rely on for survival. Many of the most exclusionary queer spaces were made offline first. Offline spaces organized by young folks from online spaces with no grasp of offline history are going to be just as rife with “terminally online” takes as any website.

Your local steel mill line is both likely to be violently homophobic out of bigoted ignorance AND supremely immune to microidentity politics because it means absolutely nothing to Joe Factory, who will shrug and go “hey man whatever makes you happy.”

Your liberal arts college is both likely to be aware of the niche politics of queer identity and will have heard of and be welcoming to your set of neopronouns AND will find new and cruel ways to be bigoted while smiling in your face because their flavor of queer is celebrated by the city mayor and so LGBT-phobia (please don’t say q***r) ended with marriage equality.

LGBT community that refuses intersectional lenses will always be rife with bigotry, both directed at minorities within this space and indirectly hitting people they think belong (ie assigning masculinity to Black queer women due to racism but then also exhibiting butchphobia/antimasculism at all masculine women, man-hating directed at cis men to “punch up” being weaponized against trans folks, etc)

Cishet society is still not safe for LGBT people, but has gotten better in some areas and worse in others as visibility has increased. Which means micro-infighting potentially is a non-issue in a space that is tolerant to other (more visible) forms of queerness, AND if there is a problem there with family friendly gays and lesbians then they will absolutely take issue with polyam genderfluid aces.

“In real life” has near nothing to do with it. If your space, online or in real life, is neither radically intentionally inclusive or tolerantly indifferent it’s gonna be bigoted—intentionally or not, queer or not.

#LJsm #‘this doesn’t happen irl’ #elder trans woman at the potluck called herself transsexual and young trans guys pitched a fit #elder trans man at a picnic asked why bother with bottom surgeries that weren’t phallo since #‘everyone’s goal is to look cis’ #he got chewed out by younger trans guys #went to a lesbian night at a bar that flipped shit over bisexuals being there #know a trans woman who speaks at terf events shitting on trans people #also idk if people forgot but you can still very much get murdered irl #like online has so many issues but that doesn’t make offline easy either—especially for folks who cannot even be out as mainstream queers #and none of this is to say ‘oh online is way safer than offline’ #just that the split is misleading because it has less to do with where the space is and more what are the values/goals/tone of the space

[princelancey]

Lance is such a let bygones be bygones kind of a guy, we should embrace that energy more often in sports tbh, it's never that serious

#lance stroll #before gets on my back this is about sporting issues #just sporting issues #of course serious issues warrant grudges and distrust #idk man i think i'm just feeling like people are taking this all too seriously #the amount of death wishes made towards drivers in the time i've been watching f1 has ramped up so much #it's not normal to feel that way about a sports person #genuinely seek help #and over the most ridiculous mundane shit that happens every race or worse over people thinking rules have been broken that haven't actuall #anyways this was spured by watching lance's post sprint interview #he was asked about nico pushing him off and he was just like 'that happened? oh yeah i forgot about that nah it was chill' #like that's such a peaceful way to go about it #let what happens in a race stay in that race or in a match #this is easier when your memory sucks lmao #i'm just so tired of the massive fan wars the time and energy it takes isn't worth it #like not online anyways chat shit in dms but again if you're still chatting shit about a race from 4 years ago move on i beg

[fleouriarts]

feeling bad about my art lately. will probably not post for a while. but i wanted to at least dump some stuff here before i retreat into my hidey hole

#hivemind tv #riley savage #graydon weaver #hmfcu #quadeca #jane remover #eden burke #my art #2023 #fanart #doodles #its like. augh. longtime fleouriarts followers are familiar with my eternal tango with posting art online #doing this since i was 11 has like rotted my brain and made me rely wayyyy too much on external validation to motivate myself #and every year or so it gets bad enough that i take a break. but the break usually only lasts a month before i miss the feeling #and come back and then the cycle repeats #its probably worse now bc this is a fandom where getting seen by the creators is not really that hard #so there have been times where im like 'well idk if i wanna draw this. but if i do maybe hivemind will rt it :-)' #NO!!! THATS NOT WHAT ART IS ABOUT!!!!! i cant keep letting myself get addicted to the numbers going up man i gotta get out of here #and i was reading a quad interview from around when idmthy got released. cus hes also brain poisoned like this. but he managed to get out #and now just kinda comes online to release music and then leave #i need to be like that. i need to take a break from art posting thats so long that i come back as a changed man odysseus style #idk. its been so long since i drew stuff that no one gets to see but me. all the art i keep to myself is just out of embarrassment #i need to relearn how to draw stuff just for the love of creation and not “maybe people online will like this one” #or “this new thing came out i need to prove my love of it by drawing it” #sometimes it leads to good art but more often than not it just makes me feel worse #whatever. if any of yall are in the hivemind jane or quadeca discord i MIGHT still post stuff there. but otherwise ill keep to myself and m #friends for a while i think #woooooo this is queued to post while im in orgo lab everyone wish me luck with my thin layer chromatography

[celluzu]

I've been seeing a lot posts kind of joking kind of theorizing about the watcher person being Wilbur mostly on twitter but like. I'd be so disappointed tbh. Love the guy but I'd be like. sigh.

#nothing personal to people theorizing or joking abt that !!!!!!!! #idk twitters obsession with qWilbur kills me he's been online like #less than a dozen times 😭 #and if Im not wrogn he is still #on tour atm #discourse (?) #just incase

[mattodore]

there's something about the way you are that makes me… ♪

#river dipping #ts4 #ts4 edit #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #a burning house to live in #echthroi #i was going through old screenshots for something to post bc it's been a minute and saw this........ #i didn’t do much editing on this but those scratches were fun to make ☝️ #theo's old hair... weeps and sobs #anyway hi i keep doing this thing where i disappear for days at a time idk it's the changing of seasons or something #my bad seriously but tbf i'm not doing so hot like medically speaking rn so i can't really be online a lot atm... #or at least i can't really type that much #but i'm working on theo's birthday edit for the 28th :) my little libra baby <3 #i'll be honest... i only started working on it like three days ago bc i do love to put things off until the last minute #i'm actually still working on the poses themselves bc i have to work super fucking slow due to the State of my body lmao #i’m using vyx’s rig for them so they’re going by much faster than they would’ve before like thank god #also i remade theo’s teen sim for the edit (as well as finally making his child sim!!) and he definitely looks better now #icb i thought his eyes looked brown before… i was out of my mind for that one #um. anything else to say…….. idk my hands are starting to hurt so i’ll get out of these tags now. bye friends and lovers <3

[mildcicada]

Hehe

#tma #the Magnus archives #jonathan sims #aroace #aro #aromantic #asexual #aroace jon realness. its true he told me himself #his girlfriend who is gay is gerry btw. they're both queerplatonic married for real... wifegirlfriend gerry #jon sooo ergonomic keyboard and mouse (he got carpal tunnel at 16) #he does still drag a dining room chair to his deskt o use his computer though mayhaps not so ergonomic ... #kinda want to have a seperate blog for tma stuff now ...(thinking about it) #I've never really made seperate blogs for interests etc before but everything I've ever made being on one blog is irking me now idk #aroace flag kinda ugly i did not want to use it #this is less common to see today i think (do not peruse aro/ace online spaces much anymore so idk) #but i have seen this a few times in the past and it has irked me lool #im sorry for only ever using the airbrush tool to draw could you forgive me (dog begging face) #happy aro weeeek #hehe :3 #described in alt text #my art

[skunkes]

what they dont tell you about being incredibly introspective is that you'll think you're done making realizations and then you'll just make more realizations always all the time forever

#dude. guess who just found out the reason he's incapable of imagining himself in a good relationship #is bc he's never witnessed any growing up. #my parents dont have a relationship i would want #only one of my siblings is married and her husband sucks. other has never dated while ive been alive (im much younger) #+ my other sibling had. a strange relationship i wont mention details of but this was also like 5 yrs ago and he hasnt dated since #i have very few close friends and none of them dated as we grew up either #or even with some its like. i wldnt want your relationship lol... #the only Good relationships i see are online from ppl i follow. and then i cant trust em bc we only see the Good Parts #so like. do they even exist... i dont think so.... #if i wasnt starved for physical touch id consider throwing in the towel permanently #but idk maybe ill buy one of those pillows with the arms that wrap around you #and a few more **** and try and cope with it in kenland or al's farm forever #talkys #im still 100% serious about ppl who have good relationships being lucky bc i feel like #the chances of finding someone you mesh with and are attracted to and can communicate with. are so slim. #i can barely ever find someone meeting one of many requirements. i can barely make friends. etc

[mwagneto]

any time i remember time lord victorious arc i start shaking like a sick fucking dog

#having an extraordinarily hard time watching waters of mars rn literally episode of all fucking time #they dont make them like this anyMOOOOOOOOOORE OHHMY GODDDD #icould talk abt it for hours istg it's so. grips you shakes you shakes you shakes you shakes you sh #the WAYYDYDYDHDHDJDJDJDUJDJDHDJDUDJD THHHEEEE THE THE THE . HTHHEHEH #the way u can see glimpses of what's to come in all 4 seasons but especially in voyage of the #damned and then s4 onwards but u dont realise JUST how much he went insane until now #like there's echoes of this in votd but you might not even pick up on it if you dont Know #n here he's just fully gone it's sooo. IT'S SOOOOOOOOOOO. CHARACTER OF ALL TIME #man so profoundly tragic his entire story is abt speedrunning losing everything and #going insane and dying. and yet he still spends like 20 entire minutes crying and begging not to die. okay #i cant rank drs they're my best friends so idk who my fave dr is but 10's is easily my favourite story it's so. it's SOOO. #anyway sorry. stops shaking you and pats your arms down awkwardly. carry on #doctor who #dw lb #10th doctor #the waters of mars #time lord victorious #i was today years old when i learned there's apparently a whole audio series about it that #came out in the past few years. well i aint listenin to that. everything i need is on my screen already #also. the way most ppl havent even seen these specials coz they're impossible to find online.. #even tho waters of mars is like. not just extremely important but also yknow. extremely good

[opera-ghost]

me laughing at the same jokes i’ve heard 1000 times every time i listen to/watch a recording of phantom

#and i swear it gets funnier every time! #was dying while listening to an audio today #(it was specifically nehal joshi during the il muto ballet) #(i could not stop laughing and i couldn’t even SEE him it was just his delivery) #(ugh he’s so funny i love him) #poto shitpost #also side note im about to go on a tangent #but my phantom hyperfixation runs so deep and i have so many thoughts about it #i have at least 100 posts in my drafts about it and i’m not exaggerating #they’re mostly silly memes but it’s still like an overload of posts about phantom #and i’m like. insecure about how much i think about it???? and how much of my headspace i dedicate to it???? #so i keep the bulk of the memes/random posts in my drafts because i just feel weird about posting so much #i really could post about it 24/7 if i didn’t have to be a Person with Tasks #and idk i think im just hyper-aware of how i present my interests in daily life while offline #i am someone who hyperfixates and obsesses and while i could talk about phantom for years i am terrified of annoying people with my interest #i’m worried about being perceived as weird so i kind of flatten myself to make myself more palatable for others #which has me being insecure about the things i’m passionate about and how deep that passion runs #and these feelings have bled online to the specific space i have created as an outlet for my passion #like it’s my blog i shouldn’t be censoring my love for a thing that brings me joy #but my fear of being othered is like. overtaking me. because there are many things that i can’t change about myself #that categorize me as an ‘other’ (sexuality identity mental health etc) #and this is something i can control. i can control how i portray my personality #so i flatten my personality to compensate for the other (perceived) weird things that can’t be changed #idk i just shouldn’t feel the need to do that here bc pretty much everyone on here is super passionate about something #like obsessive about it #and that’s what i love about this site with all its faults. like this is a space for people to come and Be Weird and Act Strange #and everyone just accepts it #and also the phantom community in general #why should i water down my love for phantom in the one place where people can understand it and relate to it??? #hit the tag limit but i’ve come to multiple revelations while typing this lmao

[solradguy]

Package illustration and SEGA Aime card stickers promoting Guilty Gear XX Λ Core Plus R offered at Japan Amusement Expo 2013. Art by Daisuke Ishiwatari. Original art scan credits lost. Upscaling and editing by solradguy.

#order sol #sol badguy #guilty gear #from the archives #I was going to redraw the part behind the logo on the bottom image #Since this is apparently the ONLY instance of this specific HOS illustration online ANYWHERE #But it's too much work lol Too much information is missing and I'd have to guess for a lot of it #The text on the right above the ASW logo says 'Beggars Cannot Be Choosers' #Tumblr compression's gonna mulch the hell outta that #The top image here. the box art. is composed of two low res images I overlaid and then drew over to fill in the missing areas #There was a long shiny strip on the right on the higher resolution one because its paper was glossy. It had a large decorative border too #Probably from whatever book it was originally scanned from. Idk the sources for either of these images. They were in a 'misc art' folder #Then the other image was like idk 800px on the long end but it had parts of the illustration the bigger lost bc of the border #So I smashed them together and made it work #These look like they're from that weird era of Daisuke art post-Overture pre-Xrd #Where he was just starting to move into digital media for his art but still did marker stuf #But GG wasn't doing great so none of it ever got compiled into art books #Just loose illustrations in rare magazines....

[shittywriterbrain]

i've successfully made my mother despair over the ending of ofmd season 1

#she loves the show i knew it #and btw. this is the first time i got the izzys revenge joke bc she explained it to me #still finding new shit on my 9th rewatch #i cant tell her that ive already watched season 2 though because well. my parents are strictly against pirating shit #not because of moral reasons necessarily but my brother got into some legal trouble for something he didnt even do #but ever since then theyve been like “dont click on watch movie online shit!!” #maybe i can warm them up to the idea of google drive folders but. idk how to start that conversation #well. were wating for ofmd s2 to get to youtube movies now thats how i was able to show her season 1 #oversharing in the tags as usual #ofmd #our flag means death

[scoliosisgoblin]

Jay gta au feat. Bennie

#still gotta make Peter in gta.. why you may ask? #IDK BUT YOU CANT STOP ME #the baby's Jay's and Peter's for those who don't know #I don't wanna get into their story cause I don't even like it that much lmao #basically Jay works for Lester and has a kid with Peter idk #Peter's more of a househusband #BUT goes along with Jay on missions if he needed help :P #okay yeah gonna drop lore when I draw Peter #okay bye #my art #void #gta 5 #gta v #gta online #gta oc #grand theft auto #jay/jacob #jacob skelton #grand theft 5 #cw: blood #bennie

[girls-and-honey]

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#okay so random tag post even though it's been ages #me thinks the current place i work is actually decent a la accepting-queer-ppl so?? miiiiight. consider actually putting my #pronouns in my email signature (which hardly gets used but shh) but like. the actual ones not the society/people assume anyway ones #idk i attended a virtual tech focused event for trans dov (yes early but they didn't want to put the event on sun) and you know when #everyone is just sharing their stories and experiences and it's just like... an overwhelming sense of community? anyway that #and since it was hosted by a professional org the topics were all workplace focused and mayhaps that's something i'm thinking abt for #this year. at least within our pride group I might be ready? wild bc for a long time tumblr has been the only place I feel comfy being 100% #myself. but hearing real people's stories makes me feel like that kind of community would be nice to have elsewhere too #and the whole looking to others also turns around into the leading by example thing bc then we had some breakout groups at the end for #networking which is not my favorite but! i did my intro and said I use she/her for work but will use she/they for this group and #then the next person said he/him at work but for this group he/they so that made me wonder if it was bc of me saying so first? #which if it was is kind of like oh. the way I'm looking for those people for me.. I can also be that for someone else #anyway this sounds dumb typed out but irl/professional me has always separated out queer identity so it's new to me #i'm allowed to be giddy okay. just a little. as a treat (is tumblr still using 'as a treat' i really hope so) #oh shit is this what gender euphoria feels like #alright that's it for now i think #gah emotions and whatnot #missed you all btw i'll start actually being online again soon #personal

[oakskull]

heyyyy guess who finally did a dtiys that he's been trying to get around to for ages?? it's oak! the original was done by my beloved mutual @teamranchers go check out his art and also the @dailyteamrancher acc it's v cute and I love it

#jimmy solidarity #tango tek #team rancher #rancher duo #double life smp #double life #i tried to make it look like tango was In the wheat but it didnt turn out as planned #which makes sense because if never tried to paint something like this before sjdjjs #but! #i still really like how this turned out #one of the rare pieces that i think looks better online #idk i just think it captures more of the ethral afterlife vibe i was going for with the white dots #<- added too many in one place to be flowers like the original and went wild with a new plan #also did a clous sky for the furst time in water color #it was Super fun #also also i didnt make the um halo bit around jimmy white bc i didnt feel like it would pop enough in the lighter area of the sky #also i changed the colors of tangos outfit a bit to be more samey so he sort of blends into the wheat they stand out against the bg #how did i do 🥺🥺🥺 #if i had a critic of this though itd be that the color is too dark in the bottom of the drawing #it sort of draws the eye there when the focal point should be jimmy and tangos face #one of the things i have yet to do (surprisingly- considering my inspiration for using watercolors in the first place) is learn how to do #gradients in water color #which makes sense in the matter that i started w/ watercolor pencils and used the actual pencil part to get my gradient #but i feel like i should like #practice #bc thats like basic swtaching LMAO #ive rambled enough #implied character death #hindsight after writing most of these is that one downside of the digital photo vs the real life paintinf #is that some of my shading on the arm isnt visible

[kulliare]

yippeeee the dices

#this dice collection is so pretty but i’m giving most of it to my friends… #ive been playing dnd or pathfinder with this group for literal years and i’ve like spent so much time with them LOL #and i’m finally seeing some of them this summer #so this is the gift. i still have to get a set for the dm but like i think i’ve already spent ~200 on the dice here so im like oh my god #but im like fuck it lmao they have given me so much happiness lol 😭 #also since im already typing i was listening to one of the celebs from my hometown and sometimes it hits me how strange it is #tht i am vaguely interested in this man even though i literally like saw him for 5 seconds #he is like so incredibly famous #i know like 90% of people experience this but it does annoy me so much that i treat famous ppl diff in my brain differently even tho ik #they just want to be treated like normal people lmao 😭 #i think its bc my brain goes ‘oh theyre so loved i wish that were me!’ even tho theyre not really experiencing love #w the masses of ppl online #i have a headache from all the plum wine i drank but plum wine is soooo tasty guys #idk what they put in it #probably plum but wow it is so good. lol 😭 #i think i will let this headache go away for a little and then go to bed. gn everyone 🐈🐈

[butcharium]

@ US followers my father is going to Austin,Texas for a few weeks on a work trip is there anything I should ask him to bring back ??

#i am thinking about maybe some clothes from.old navy since it is so good for me as a stocky butch still thinking about my trip to SF in 2019 #where i saw the wonders of Old Navy but i am a few sizes bigger now so idk wht sized I'd wear and also my father is a bit hopeless #he needs very concrete orders rip cant leave much up to him #or if theres any cool bookstores there with good lesbian books f. ex where i could see their books online and maybe even reserve them #anyways #musings