#BUT NOW I DONT I HAVENT THOUGHT ABT THAT WORD IN YEARS

[mccall-me-maurice]

🥰🥰😍😘😍😘🌸💖🌸🌸🌸💖💖💖🌸😘🫡✨✨✨✨✨🌸💖😘💖😘🌸🌸🌸I LOVE TSUNDERE JALPHIEZ!!✨💖💖💖🌸🌸🌸🌸💖✨✨💖🌸🌸💖✨✨🌸🌸🥰🥰🥰RAAAAHHHHHHHHH

((gang i forgot which one tsundere is, help))

#I USED TO KNOW #BUT NOW I DONT I HAVENT THOUGHT ABT THAT WORD IN YEARS #also i like ur use of emojis it brings me immense joy #mail!! #anon #anonymous #IM SORRY I GENUINELY DONT REMEMBER THE TYPES #there were so many there’s probably more now

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

what's your take on odasaku and dazai's idealization of him?

also any takes you want to share about bsd/bsd in general?

(If you don't mind, I'm also interested in your thoughts about verlaine if thats ok 😭) tyty

who's your fave bsd character and whose the character from bsd you want to have more screen time?

i think its another case of projecting onto someone and it fucking things up. like notably how kouyou projects her own feelings abt light & dark onto kyouka. we just dont often see it that way because what oda does is like. stereotypically good? he uses his dying words to push a friend out of the dark. a death motivating others to act and furthering their character development is classic storytelling. you go into bsd knowing dazai is on the "good guys" side (not that the ada are "bad" but obviously reading bsd as a good guys vs bad guys story is. wrong), so clearly it worked out. so you kind of overlook the surrounding events yk? plus dazais own idolization of oda hammers that in. dazai tells atsushi that "He was a friend of mine (...) He’s the reason I quit the Port Mafia and joined the agency. I’d probably still be killing people for the mafia if it wasn’t for him" in dead apple (the lightnovel. im not going to go through pulling up the movie for this fhfhtndj). and so aside from previous bias people are going to take what dazai says at face value. hes thankful oda showed him the "side that saves people" and of course we're going to agree with that. the thing is. again. projection. now i havent actually finished dark era (i am working through it) but a lot of the time it feels like oda is just shoveling off all his feelings about being "someone meant for the darkness" onto dazai when thats something thats not going to be true for. well. anyone really? and his final conversation with dazai is very influenced by that. he says "You told me if you put yourself in a world of violence and bloodshed, you might be able to find a reason to live... (...) You won’t find it (...) You should know that. Whether you’re on the side that takes lives or the side that saves them, nothing beyond your own expectations will happen. Nothing in this world can fill the hole that is your loneliness. You will wander the darkness for eternity". now the thing is this is kind of a fucked up thing to say to an 18 year old with suicidal tendencies, but odas view of dazai makes it seem like a well needed wake up call. he obviously had good intentions. hes trying to "step into that solitude" but because of his flawed view of dazai he kind of. stumbles. dazai up to this point has been clinging onto the hope that he'd find a reason to live by observing the entire human experience. now oda comes along and dazai thinks hes found someone who understands him better than anyone, and oda tells him hes not going to find that. ever. so he should become a better person and make the world a good place. and also he's dying. so dazai, as we've seen, takes these words to heart. so hes not going to find a reason to live but he should also make the world a better place. good cool got that. so i think he gets a bit too comfortable being collateral for a good cause. and hes already convinced hes not going to find anything here, so of course hes not going to find anything. does that make sense.

i dont think ive phrased anything correctly here but like anyway i think with all his other friends around he'll be able to sort things out there. i cant see bsd ending without any sort of resolution for him in this regard yk.

#i cant say much on verlaine since ive read barely anything of stormbringer #like up to meeting shirase i think #flags death just fucked with me #from what i know hes also got projection issues. very common bsd theme #as for my favorite character... well you all dont know this but my favorite is actually Dazai #big shocker ik #as for screentime like..idk i miss everyone #i just want normal agency bullshit back #actually ykw i desperately want to see ranpo kyouka and atsushi as a trio #ranpos weird little siblings sweep gogogogogogo #aethers asks #swearing cw #longer post #anyway anyway anyway take this all with like 3 tablespoons of salt #i obviously havent read or watched as much bsd as i should have to be making these takes fhdhhsjs

[kaiserkisser]

mutuals appreciation post <333

hello, everyone. this is my end of year mutuals appreciation post to thank each and every one of you here, who has put up with me enough to be friends with me. I simply can't put it into words how much I love yall and how much im grateful to all of you for being here, but I'll still try. I wish all of you a very very happy new year ❤

@delusina kaz, thank you. thank u sm for everything. you were my first mutual and i love you sm for that. almost all the friends i have right now, they're thanks to you. i still remember sending you cat pics every week in the beginning (im sorry i forgot to continue that 😭) and you and vi are the reason ✿❀ anon exists <3 ilysmm <333

@floraldresvi VIVI. ILYSM. ik ive already sent you a new year ask but still i can never express my appreciation for you enough <3 thank you sm vi for literally always being there for me, and i hope i can return the favor whenever you need :) i lovelovelove seeing you in my notifs :)) also baivi rules <333

@chosokisser mai my bbg my love /p again, ive already mesaaged you, but still, im so glad i have you in my life. if you need absolutely anything, if you just wanna talk to smn, or anything, ill always be here. in fact, we can even commit arson together if you want :DD and remember that me and choso adore you to heaven and back <333

@haithamvoid again, thank you sm for being friends with me. <33 im literally so glad for the day i opened tumblr to find mai forcing us to socialize XD we seem to have a bunch of shared interests and i remember the times we sent each other a bunch of kaiser (and gojo??) pics ehehe (also if you play genshin then on which server-)

@damyoujackson uhm thank u sm for being my irl bestie. I mean it. honestly i dont think ive actually had a friend i clicked with as much as i did with you in a long time. ik its probably not easy putting up with someone weird like me so erm tysm.. in all seriousness im really glad we're friends <33 ( we do NOT talk abt this in school OKAY.) (<- me being awkward)

@noomon you are an absolutely amazing, warm and pleasant person to be around! (And i love your aesthetic too omg) anyways you're very caring and nice and i always perk up whenever i see you in my notifs or inbox <33

@mikacynth mikaaa its been agesss i hope you're doing alright and uni is treating you well </3 again, one of my first mutuals that i interacted with bc you were a 'mutual in law' of mine hehe :) you're also an awesome and fun person to be around, so remember that me and kaeya love u <333

@yinyinggie yingg! You're such a big blog, so thank you sm for interacting with me! you're totally wonderful, and im so glad i got to participate in the ebg hosted by you hehe that was SO much fun <333(and it hurt my heart too but nvm-) anyways ilysmm <33

@alexisomnias aaah alexisss we dont interact much these days but still, i love you so so much, you are someone i always love seeing on my dash or in my notifs <3 and i adore alekav too its so cutee <333

@kitorin omg yes soutaa you're another person who shows up on my dash often and i love that you do <3 i hope you dont mind all the times ive tagged you in smth ahshshdhb i also always smile whenever i see u in my notifs so thank u smm for being moots with me <33

also to @ilyuu @m1shapanda @supernova25 @chooodles @camvrin @meidnightrain we havent interacted much this year, but ive loved seeing you guys often on my dash so i hope we interact more this next year <333 please dont mind me tagging you dhshsh

Happy New Year to all of you!!!! I hope you all have all the joys of the world and that all your wishes get fulfilled, because you guys totally deserve it 💕

I found a little something too here that i wanted to share with all of you since i thought you guys might like it <333

#🔮rambles~ #🔮beloved-mutuals<333

[cliowo]

In this essay, i will explain the reasons why sky children of the light has become an increasingly unwelcoming game to new players and veterans alike-

Yeah yeah i usually only share my words here but tumblr feels like a really comfy place for me to share unfiltered thoughts and i needed somewhere to vent ig (skip if you have no idea what I'm talking about)

When I first started playing in prophecy, sky was a really fun game. We didn't have the request for a guide function then and I'm actually really grateful for it because the joy was in exploring each of the different realms and season areas on my own and randomly stumbling across spirits whose stories were waiting for me to discover. Maybe it was because I was a dumb moth - i didn't even know how to access seasonal spirits trees - but the pressure to cr just wasn't as intense as it is for moths today. The back to back seasons and "days of" events seem to have sucked the fun of exploring the world of sky for moths because they're so focused on grinding for candles/hearts/event currency that they just dont slow to smell the in-game roses anymore. And the thing is I get it because there's just so many new cosmetics as well as older ones from past seasons and events to farm for.

I mean sure you don't have to collect every cosmetic but 1 cape costs like 70 candles on average, same for a pair of pants iirc, a prop/acessory at 40-70 candles (70 if its an instrument??) , and hair at around 40-50 candles; and the best part is you can only earn 20-21 candles max in 1 reset 🤡 Add all of that plus the need to look for event currency in fear of facing such prices in the event rerun and you get stressed out moths facing existential crises every 2 weeks when ts arrives😀 Sorry moths, the economy is bad irl and just as bad in sky.

And what of the veterans? Yeah, well, we get no friends as everyone starts to quit the game and those that stay live off copium revisiting the places we once visited with friends- Or maybe that's just me

New friends, you say? *cue flashback to moths begging for help with cr* we exchanged like maybe 5 sentences max at chat benches🥲 i have nothing against helping out but it does make it difficult to form a bond when they disappear right after and you fade into their constellation of ubers

And then we have the seasons.

... Honestly the only season that made an impression with me after aurora was the recently concluded season of the 9 coloured deer, which was also another collab season💀

I actually had to check the sky wiki for this:

Remembrance - ironically very forgettable. What was the story again? Was it the one with the group of spirits living in one specific hole in vault like why- vault is bigger than that sad hole- OH THE PLUSHIES okay maybe this one was passable... im trying okay

Passage - ??? Havent finished this season's quests so uh- so far it seems like... a cult..? In isle...?

Moments - if they wanted a camera in-game, they could have just added it to like the days of sunlight event (the camping one) or smtg. They did not have to force a season for a camera💀 imho the camera was the only thing worth mentioning abt this season and i don't even take pictures

Revival - i suppose aviary is pretty and it's nice that the spirits have somewhere to stay now. Not particularly impressed. Don't really remember the story in this one.

...i heard rumours of a furniture season after the 9 coloured deer. Looking forward to hearing what they'll name this one lmao

The quality of "days of" events is still acceptable to me. Just maybe ignore the numerous iaps and the fact that we have multiple umbrellas but only 1 is f2p (don't understand whats up w that btw)

And also the recurring bugs💀 I've been playing for at least 3 years and I've faced these bugs/problems multiple times:

1. Unable to light frends constellations because the screen just yeets itself into oblivion or some random environment feature where i cant press the button

2. Game crashes (after every update istg-)

3. Splitting servers

4. Sky discrimination and gate keeping, aka refusing to let me open the game

5. Being unable to collect currency/dailies (it's not my internet i checked)

The lack of compensation is another matter entirely

I don't know man I'm tired. The only reason why I still have it installed is because it's my only link to the people I used to have fun and relax with. Not everyone has discord or insta or some other social media.

If you made it this far thank you for coming to my ted talk. Feel free to leave your thoughts- just remember to be respectful

Tldr:

The sky economy is bad. For everyone. Moths (and maybe even vets) are stressed out and vets are losing friends. The seasons are increasingly dull and the long-lived bugs are frustrating.

#rant post #rant #sky #skycotl #sky children of the light #skyblr #might delete this later idk

[dominic-sessa]

life update!!!!

hi hello friends good morning good afternoon good evening its that time of the month again! this isnt really a big life update like the last time bcs i just thought id list down a bunch of things ive had on my mind.

first of all, im very happy to announce that i was able to watch 16 movies last march !! exciting!! i know ive said the last time that i quit the bingewatching thing but HONESTLY im in a work from home setup and the only way to keep me inspired is by watching a movie ... i am yet to find other ways to stay inspired so watching movies will just do for now... ALSO im gonna try to update my newsletter for the first time this year and itll probably be about the movies that i saw this march that i liked ! im now comfortable with turning the newsletter to be more about movies bcs nothing major has been happening in my life lol . so pls stay tuned for that newsletter post if ur interested!

another thing is ive decided to make this blog more personal! for the past year ive made this blog to be more about movies and gifs and stuff, and as much as i love getting the notes and reading ppl's tags, im going to try and make this blog work for me this time :) hope it doesnt get annoying or something... im also in the process of fixing my about pages and tags and all. ive used tumblr since 2012 so im still struggling with the setup. LIKE yes i want to maximize the fact that you can edit html pages and its cute and lets me be creative but at the same time, im on my phone majority of the time . and i dont like being on my laptop after work because ive literally just been using a laptop the whole day. for work. im rly shy to post some stuff about me (bcs i havent done it before fr insert the tom hanks dialogue from joe vs the volcano abt doing some soul searching and coming to the conclusion that hes just boring so he stops doing it) so if u see me doing it as an attempt to fix the personal pages on my blog, im sorry! AAAND as for the gifs thing, im thinking of changing my film diary tag, one thing i really enjoy is taking note of dialogues i love from a movie so i might just do screenshots. i really miss making gifs even though most of the gifs i end up with are LQ , but it just really isnt feasible now . (also some movies are just so tempting to gif LIKEEE valley girl and everytime we say goodbye 😭😭 it physically hurts me that i cant gif josh whitehouse and tom hanks in those movies....)

ALSO im really very very happy that ive gained new followers recently. i enjoy chatting with you guys and get so happy whenever i get the notif that someone sent me an ask/message!! ive been idle on stan twt/fandoms in general so its been a really long time since ive actually... talked to people... it makes me really happy talking to u and im sorry if my happiness doesnt show in my replies/posts. as i said, its been a while since ive done this and i usually go on here as soon as im off work (when my brain is semi-fried and the words are not wording anymore) . i hope i dont come across as bored/uninterested :(

and it isnt just about fandoms too, im genuinely insterested what u guys are up to lately and all... (in a non stalker way). it just feels nice to have friends in general ^__^

SO YEA, i think thats about it :) if u've read this all until here ilysm! thanks for ur interest and lmk how ur day was! or just send me something u want to talk about !

have a nice day :)

#maybe i should start a formal tag for posts like this too heheh #*

[horatioo]

vent/long post, this is probably the most ive talked about mcyt in years wow

not to vaguepost abt random tumblr users in tags but maybe, just maybe-

the reason im so pressed about tommy, specifically, is because i am rightfully pretty fucking upset that this behavior got overlooked for years and it seems like all anyone fucking cares about is "emotional processing" and "gathering words".

everyone cares about how tommy hasnt said shit, ignoring the fact that hes had surgery recently, ignoring shubbles OWN WORDS about wilbur being physically abusive, ignoring actual video evidence, and all they care is they can make fun of a guy whos "too loud".

they care about looking good.

and not the actual physical safety of somebody who is literally the same fucking age as me.

if tommy doesnt speak out any time soon i will not blame him, because i believe shubble and niki and all the other people whove come forward and said wilburs an abusive piece of shit.

and i believe my own gut feelings from fucking 2020 when everyone was tagging this sort of behavior as "#goals" and "#omg so wholesome!!" and all i could do was feel sick.

and those gut feelings say that wilbur is dangerous to everyone hes hurt and especially dangerous to those in close proximity to him.

and no, tommy isnt my biggest priority, im just only making posts about him because i have not watched ANYONE in that circle since at least 2021. i have no idea who is who, i dont know any of these people.

my biggest priority right now IS shubble, but the thing is i kind of want shubbles tag to be KIND to them right now. because she probably desperately needs it, knowing twitter. i want there to be one place where she can go and its nice and kind.

she was incredibly brave, speaking out against him. i am so so fucking proud of her. i know how it feels to be the person on the other end. i know that they probably felt like they were wrong or no one would believe them. i know that they were fucking terrified.

she deserves nothing but kindness right now.

and unfortunately, i am not in the right headspace to be kind. so i havent been speaking on it. when i am in the right headspace to be kind, i will.

but not right now, because right now i just have angry words for wilbur and angry thoughts of how everyone laughed at the behavior of the man who verbally abused people on stream and said it was "just jokes".

its all fun and games until someone gets hurt. its all laughs until you cant laugh anymore because its "problematic" to.

idk. im incredibly fucking disappointed in a large portion of the community. im incredibly angry at wilbur but im not surprised at all because on reflection he has been showing this type of behavior for years, its just he was a hot pretty white man so nobody wanted to think about it.

im angry because i know nobody will give a shit after its all said and done.

and im angry because this shit thats happened to shubble and niki and tommy and god knows who else has happened to me, and its always, always a joke to people.

and god, was the whole world laughing at them.

#wilbur soot #wilbur situation #abuse

[shytastemakerthing]

hii!! U seem so cool- but anyway,, could i get a twisted wonderland match up? My grammar kinda sucks and my auto corrects off so😭

I would like for it to be more romantic, if thats ok! Also pls dont match me up with any of the 1st years since i would honestly just adopt them in twst😭

Sooo im an enfp 7w6, scorpio, green flag.. Yeahhh

But other than that,, (about to write a whole essay abt my personality) what abt my personality?

Soo im honestly kindaa uhm,, goldfish-like; i have a crap memory. and whenever in a serious situation, one where you need to stay on guard, i instantly calm down after someone cracks a joke and forget abt the whole situation.. So bcuz of that i get called "the goldfish of (gc name)" 🥲

But im really motherly and caring! I always take care of my loved ones like a nurse, so pretty much- im my friends personal nurse AND doctor (as someone who startes studying abt medical stuff when i was like 10,, young, ik) i also take care of stray animals whenever i get the chance. feeding them, taking care of their wounds, whatever! Im a good balance of childish and mature, though i fall more on the childish side! I honestly give out 'sad, wet cat' vibes at first, since i mostly spend time alone, sulking abt being alone, reading in the library alone.. but im the total opposite! Honestly kinda weird but in a good way? Super kind, and generous, and sympathetic, i always consider other peoples feelings first ofc! Honestly kind of a people pleaser🥲 softhearted person with anger issues huhu.. Also keyword 'with anger issues' because i can and will beat someone up who did one simple thing to make me mad, even if theyre like 6'2 IDGAF FIGHT ME IM 5'10 ITS NOT MUCH OF A DIFFERENCE🙄🙄 veryvery energetic or the opposite, depends. havent slept for like 2 weeks straight😇

Now I'll just say the exact words my friends said when i asked them what they thought of me-

"funny, cute, and she lavs astronomy ahhajaja" "ure the friend whos effortlessly funny but gay /j but srsly youre the friend whos funny but super girlboss whenever there are fights and uses emojis every sentence they send" "the fish i ate for dinner" "cute nmn, and fun too, but annoying sometimes😒" "youre literally just like your father but as a girl,, stubborn, charming, ignorant, brave.. And you even have the same facial feaures." "Soft girl vibes" "VOODOO DOLL SELLER IKAW"

And for my hobbies.. I have a lot tbh LEMME JUST-

Astronomy; stargazing.. IT GIVES ME SO MUCH PEACE OMG

Exploring; going to abandoned and apparently 'haunted' places brings me so much joy somehow

Dancing; practicing ballet but my friends drag me to learn the choreo of a kpop song😭

Singing; opera😻

Sports; BADMINTON, BASKETBALL, SOCCER, VOLLEYBALSLSMSJKAHSKXVJSDJ LOBVE THIS

Gaming; tbh i rarely do it anymore😭

Collecting; plushies, seashells, etc..

Art; SCULPTING, DIGITAL, TRADITIONAL, MUSIC, ETC. I CAN DO IT ALL OMGG

Thats all i think😔 I dont wanna waste ur time so thank you huhuu BYEE HAVE A GREAT YEAR MWAMWA

-lav hoshii

Hello and thank you for your request! Honestly I had a lot of fun reading over this and I believe I have just the guy for you so here we go!

I match you with.......

Floyd Leech

🦐 You two bounce off of each other so freaking much that it is insane. At this point, you're the most interesting person in his life and he isn't planning on letting you go ANY time soon and that's a fact.

🦐 Floyd is someone who butts heads with a lot of people, and I mean, a LOT of people. He's not one to shy away from a fight, even in those ones where he is clearly out numbered. It's more fun for him. But what he really loves is how you patch him up after each and every one. Sure, you badger him about all of these fights, but it's only because you care about him, and as you place a kiss to each wrap and bandaid, he can only hopelessly grin at you...... he is smitten.

🦐 Your memory isn't the best, and while Floyd seems like the aloof type, he is actually very smart, very perceptive, and has an excellent memory. He will remember anything you can't and it greatly comes in handy when needed.

🦐 Being with Floyd, also means you will be seeing a lot of Jade. Sorry, they're a two for one package deal (Azul's words). And while his twin was highly skeptical of you at first (when is he not skeptical of someone?), just seeing you with Floyd, and all the shenanigans you both get up too and how you always take care of him, you're basically family now at this point.

🦐 He is in the basketball club! Which is perfect for you! You love basketball and you two have player 1v1 quite a lot. Just be careful, because he can and WILL get competitive. Also, if you wear his jersey to his games, he has this derpy smile the entire time and will be showing off just for you. He turns into an absolute beast on the court. You're now the good luck charm of the NRC basketball team and Ace and Jamil always make sure you're there.

🦐 He finds out early on in the relationship about your habit of collecting sea shells. Now, because of him that collection has expanded a great amount. Look, you're dating a merman, he can and will be going under the water to gather the best and biggest shells thay he can find for your ccollection. But your personal favorite is a little cream colored chipped clam shell. He brought that one back after finding it randomly on a walk and it is now the most cherished one in the collection.

🦐 The way your mood fluctuates matches how his does, and while it annoyed him at first (like, is this how Jade and Azul feel when his does that?), he was able to quickly find out what can set you off or change your mood and is able to quickly adjust accordingly. Though he will admit that you look pretty hot when you get angry and tackle someone twice your size.

🦐 He would absolutely love to go exploring with you. It can be boring, it can be dangerous, so much could happen that you just don't know and that's what makes it exciting! If you ever get bored of looking at the supposedly haunted houses, he'll happily supply a breathing potion and he can show you some really cool shipwrecks!

🦐 Overall, a relationship with the reckless eel with legs is nothing short of an adventure. You know you'll never be bored, he loves how considerate you are with him and how you take care of him. And Azul and Jade are beyond thankful that you can actually get him to focus on his work, only if you're there, though 😅

#twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #twst x reader #twst #matchups #twst imagines #disney twisted wonderland #romantic #twisted wonderland floyd #floyd leech x reader #floyd leech #twst floyd #floyd x reader #jade leech #azul ashengrotto

[jellyaibo]

i want to hear ur thoughts abt object terror, you philosophor

so disclaimer i havent seen OT in fucking months so this insane ramble isnt gna be. the best but

object terror is one of the best worst fucking object shows ive ever seen, literally the PRIME example of some edgy kid trying to make an object show that isnt ur grandmas object show. no. this is the REAL shit and they say SLURS and theres BLOOD and GORE (yes im serious theres blood and gore and death but itsnot that bad, definitely a bit shocking if u didnt expect it to happen tho)

theres also shitty voice acting and terrible mic quality galore, EX: theres a fucking cup that had this dogshit mic for the longest fucking time and it deadass sounded like bro was talking into a washing machine ohmy god, i remember there was a clip of him going around on twitter a while ago cuz of this (i think that was my first time seeing anything from OT too so theres that)

OH and theres cactus, i barely remember anything abt him but he had this fucking emotionless voice that made me HYSTERICAL. there was a scene where someone got him pissed and he said "you take that back" with. absolutely no emotion at all and since then me and my friends keep fucking quoting that line cuz its the funniest fucking shit ever

btw that slur line i said earlier wasnt a joke, one of the characters straight up drops the R SLUR in the FIRST EPISODE (funnily enough, that character became the creators objectsona i think? ik they kinda used him as a mascot for a bit which is so fucking funny) tho i dont think they drop anymore slurs after that but dont take my word on it

anyways i gotta talk abt my favorite fucking part abt this fucking show before i get to. mint

THESE FUCKING CUNTS.

before i watched object terror i got fucking warned abt these two because there was a . homophobic scene w them or some shit and i had NO idea what it was for the longest time so i was really excited to see what object homophobia was gna be graced upon my faggotly eyes

and then theyjust. started making out randomly. LIKE OUTTA NOWHERE and there were other characters there that were gna try to attack/kill them? but then they saw them kissing and were like omg ewww boys (i think. the stuff that happens after this scene is kinda blurry tbh and im NOT gonna go back and watch the clip to see what happens ok. i REFUSE) and im sorry but thats the best fucking object show scene ever

AND LIKE? IDK? MAYBE ITS JUST ME BUT I DONT GET WHY I SAW PPL SAY THIS WAS HOMOPHOBIC???? i dunno maybe its just me but like these two just kissed while watching tv and eating chicken AND NOTHING BAD HAPPENED TO THEM!!! THEY LITERALLY WON IMMUNITY BY THE END OF THE EPISODE TOO. THEY WON. THE GAYS WON. and its so fucking funny to me bro object terror LOVES the gays

ok now i need to talk about mint im sorry i hate this fucking thing so much I NEED TO KILL HIM WITH A ROCK!!!! FFFUCK!!

hes literally just taco ii but 100x worse, i dont even like tacos evil arc or whatever cuz i always found her annoying BUT MINT IS SO MUCH WORSE

never in my. almost 2 years of watching object shows have i ever hated a character so fucking much LIKE GENUINELY THIS THING MAKES ME SO FRUSTRATED. hes just that. lol XD random character FOR THE WHOLE SERIES. just annoying and loud and does literally fucking nothing AND THE JOKES W HIM ARE SO FORCED I SWEAR THEY STOPPED . EVERYTHING THAT WAS GOING ON IN AN EPISODE JUST TO FOCUS ON THIS MOTHERFUCKER CUZ HE WAS GONNA DO SOMETHING FUNNY. im not mad that im missing out on some "juicy" object terror "lore" im just pissed that i have to see this fucking disgrace on my screen

oh and in the latest episode (as of now, the series isnt actually finished yet and i hope to god it never gets continued) SUDDENLY mint has a fucking arc THAT WAS NEVER FORESHADOWED AT ALL IN THE SERIES!! SO SUDDENLY HES A SMART GENIUS THAT COULD DO ANYTHING CUZ HE HAS MACHINES N SHIT AND A WHOLE ASS LABORATORY ??????? THEN HE FUCKING DIES

do you know how many fucking. mid and uninteresting characters we had to lose for him

DO YOU KNOW THE LOSSES I HAD TO DEAL WITH CUZ OF HIM

he lived for too fuckig long in this show dammit it pisses me off that he's even a character that exists . i blame him for being the reason why i hate joke characters (except david ily david bfdi)

i dont wanna talk abt him anymore im gonna

OK OK BUT. 1 more thing. smore

smore is this guy that they introduced later on in the series and hes a FUCKING. DEMON FROM HELL and i need him so bad actually

i think at some point he tries to . kill mint too so im literaly making out with him rn oh my god HES SO

im so mad hes in object terror IM GETTING YOU OUTTA THERE BABY ‼ ‼ 🗣🗣

honestly tho he was so cool im a little mad that they introduced him so late into the show CUZ WE ONLY SEE HIM FOR LIKE 2 EPISODES GRAHHHH RAAGHHHH babygirl

anyways thats it i feel like theres more but im not gonna wring out any more object terror knowledge from my brain i think that'll kill me

hope u enjoyed my insanity anon heres a loser . hope this heals you

#long post #seriously i mean it #dear god im not fucking normal #are u happy #ask

[iiudex]

Hallo I heard I can ask questions about your f/o's SO

I'm super interested in Neuvillette, tell me more!! How did you first meet? What's the relationship like? Any special headcanons about him/your ship? (I feel like I don't know anything bc I don't follow you for too long but I wanna know everything!)

~ anemoflower

@anemoflower EHHEHE HELLO HELLO (dont feel bad abt not knowing anything bc tbh i havent posted a coherent thought abt them ever but NOW I GET TO >:D) also i get really in the weeds of referring to myself directly so. i use lyam as my stand in (ik thats what they’re there for but whatever)

ANYWAYS. UNDER THE CUT BC ITS A LOT!

okay so small lyam backstory bc thats important to know for their first meeting!! they’re not actually fontainian (they were born there, sorta, but they’re not ethnically fontainian). & they were actually born underwater! their parents were explorers, so, they were exploring this place ↴

then they had a baby & forgot to bring said child with them when they eventually left (ik it sounds sad but dw lyam like. barely knew these people they dont gaf. ANYWAY); SO. LYAM GREW UP IN THAT PLACE YADA YADA. WELL ONE DAY. AFTER THEY’D BEEN THERE FOR UPWARDS OF 20 YEARS, ONE OF FONTAINE’S DIVERS NOTICED THEM AND WAS LIKE “erm??? i dont think this is legal hello are you supposed to be here????”

cue lyam being put on trial & boom technical first meeting with neuvillette. gotta be honest the entire thing was kinda boring bc it was all blown out of proportion just for lyam to be like “well i was born there, & none of you said anything till now” kinda thing. ANYWAY. since they were technically not guilty of a trespassing crime, they weren’t sent to meropide, but they were guilty of reading old documents that no one was supposed to see. (which wasnt what the trial was for so its not like anyone could do anything but whatever. anyways) instead of sending them to prison, neuvillette gave them a job :3 “work off your crimes” and all that. they’re technically a general investigator, bc they’re way too observant for they’re own good, but what they were really there for is to research this place ↴

which is within the former institute’s walls. only bc it might give them some hint to prevent fontaine’s prophecy & neuvi AND furina wanna be more safe than sorry.

ANYWAY THATS THEIR FIRST MEETING. BASICALLY A SILLY MISUNDERSTANDING TRIAL TURNS INTO A CONSENSUAL WORKPLACE RELATIONSHIP.

as for their dynamic, its so simple in retrospect but actually very hard to word. but it’s basically like?? rather than a relationship that was initially built on friendship or whatnot, its built solely on trust and understanding. both of them feel outcasted, despite technically having a place within fontaine’s borders. so its like “if you and i are outcasts together, its less lonely”

plus both of them have a stronger connection with hydro than other people. neuvillette because he’s literally the sovereign. & lyam bc they grew up in the water (probably too close to the primordial sea but they’re not from fontaine so its fine). so they also have that natural pull to one another.

they’re also very quiet individuals, but lyam also does have wriothesley’s exact sense of humour, but they just have this perpetual seriousness about them so everyone thinks they’re actually insane. (it makes neuvillette’s days a lot more interesting though so it’s okay :3)

ANYWAY. they’re a comfy couple. always got each other’s backs, even when the other doesn’t realise. always aware of each other. bc hey. they’re each other’s person. they gotta.

ALSO IF I CAN GIVE A HC ON THEIR WORK RELATIONSHIP REAL QUICK— lyam is kinda like neuvillette’s shadow :3 (im still working on their kit, but hypothetically speaking they’d be a buffer/support & a sub dps for him. & any other dps really). no one ever really sees them unless they have to, or unless lyam just feels like it. but they don’t want neuvi taking on cases himself, bc he’s too important for that 🤷 so they do it 🤷 (bro’s the grim reaper /j)

ANYWAY (x2) SPECIAL HC TIME

i hc neuvi to have VERY sensitive hands (sorta why he wears gloves, apart from just gen appearance). so he rarely lets people actually hold his hands, but lyam gets to have that privilege :’3. they give himb small hand kisses & cradle them so gently. plus, they just love holding hands in general, so they’re grateful that he trusts them sm T_T

THIS IS ALL FOR NOW BUT ALWAYS FEEL FREE TO ASK ME QUESTIONS IM ALWAYS THINKING ABT THEM

#— asks #— f/ovember 🩵 #{{ HEHEHHEHE THANK YOU FOR THE ASK }} #{{ this makes absolutely no sense to no one but me but i hope this gives you some insight SKSKS }}

[minglana]

also just to keep my train of thought abt catalan going

as i said in the other post i almost had a bcn accent shine through sometimes when i was a kid from hanging out a lot w my cousins. but i guess that after living for 6+ yrs with only my mom to speak catalan to daily (more or less) ive literally just retained the lleida accent (and i think thats beautiful). like in the US i genuinely did not speak to anyone else on the daily. and now i speak to my bcn friend like twice a year. and the rest of my family for a few weekends a yr too. i honestly dont know how my catalan has been able to stay so well in shape actually.

also like the fact that i dont watch tv or never received education in catalan also does things to my psyche because. i literally have the randomest words that i say in spanish instead of catalan? like idek how to explain it honestly. also i know that spanish in general (i havent seen it done by my friends) is used to sound 'more professional' or whatever but i personally only mix it into catalan to make something funnier. like some phrases are funnier if ur talking to someone in catalan but then randomly say a word/phrase in spanish. idk how to explain it tho but its almost like 'this is so stupid its not even worthy of saying in catalan' vibes to me yknow

idk idk i think about the way that i speak catalan a lot bc its obviously the biggest thing connecting me to my village (apart from my family of course) but i would be such a different person if i didnt speak catalan. but either way i feel like the way i grew up speaking catalan is the way that my mom grew up speaking catalan?? aka she spoke it at home and w her friends but not at school (the teachers were nice tho and shes never spoken of them punishing them tbh and never speaks bad abt them. thats why i say that its kinda similar to how ive grown up speaking it). except that i had. tv3 and super3 when i went to my grandparents house. like i could actually watch (GOOD) cartoons in catalan and had media of all types available in catalan.... so even in that aspect i feel kinda disconnected w catalan ppl my age.... ive grown up w half the culture there (the important part(s) imo) but theres always something thats missing

#theres nothing important under the read more its just my random thoughts on how (i think) ive acquired the accent #i give it too much thought btw. and then i post it here. what for? idk honestly #z xarre

[vriskasapotheosis]

-been an hour and havent stopped rotating funny ms paint comic in my head- so a few things

so ive thought abt it for awhile but. very gross and funny that john activating the reckoning that inadvertently made everyone related to eachother means that technically. the humans were born in the same way that the trolls are ie a huge dna splurge mix

johns status as an Heir is pretty sus to me given that while we dont know all the troll classes yet, they have shared a couple and they are shared with the humans, but john being an Heir and specifically the Heir of Breath and that at the end of the sburb game the prize is to make a new universe in your image i wonder if johns actual powers are not only wind but also controlling life/life and healing powers and that being the Heir means that what he inherits is the new universe

(rando word spew) vriskas decisions all initially based around an 8 ball and the obsession with the end of all things and also the 8/♾️ vs lord english having an 8 ball and being the dark being that will come to swallow the end of the universe and having an omniscient view of fate and all things vs terezi trying to save doomed dave with luck against his set in stone fate but saying beforehand that luck doesnt actually matter or exist

ABSOLUTELY NOTICED the fact that becoming a god tier means you have to give up either your waking life or your dream life to achieve the power for the other, and that jadesprite coming back the way she did revealed that doing so fundamentally changes something inside a person as also said by kanaya, jadesprite coming from the green sun (which im guessing is like. the cesspool afterlife where all the destroyed things go and thus what lord english will consume when the universe ends ((thus being the mass of 2 universes bc it's both the trolls and the humans universes)) and that jadesprite was there for years after the fact despite a shorter amount of time having passed in the real world). The green sun is also radioactive, given that the special troll john can kill in the minigame before ascending dropped uranium- the green sun isssss. probably what powers the sburb game to keep making universes, atm i think sburb was made by lord english to keep making universes to feed on But Now maybe its actually the opposite and its doing all this to try and stave off that inevitable end and because the humans are essentially sequence broken in the game within a game they might be able to destroy the narrative

#hmmm homestuck... is about growing up. #need to read more BUT i am in fact nearly 50% done

[rillils]

RILLLSSSSSSS OH MY GOD IM GOING FUCKING INSANE 😭 THIS IS GONNA BE LONG OH MY GOD 😭😭

OK SO MY SCHOOL HAS THESE FIELD TRIPS EVERY YEAR AND GOT CANCELED BC OF COVID (this is our first time back face to face, so weve had online classese for almost 3 years now) AND THEY STILL HAVENT BROUGHT IT BACK

SO HIM BEING PART OF THE STUDENT COUNCIL AND ALL, I ASKED HIM TO ASK THE PRINCIPAL IF THEY COULD BRING BACK FIELD TRIPS AND WERE STILL WAITING FOR THEIR REPLY AND OH MY GOD

FOR THE PAST 4 HOURS WE HAVE BEEN FANTASIZING ABT GOING ON AN AMUSEMENT PARK DATE

and rillssssss 😭😭😭

im gonna go insane oh my god 💞💞💞💞

SO HERES HOW WE THOUGHT ITLL GO:

-we meet at school bc thats where all the busses are to go to the amusement park (keep in mind that we dont even know if this idea will get accepted) and this time there wont be any supervisors with us just teachers (bc yay im a highschool student now 😗) anyways

-and wed sit at the back of the bus (each class has their own bus, so hed ask if he could stay at my bus instead, if they dont allow it then wed both go to the bus for the people who are late)

-wed watch movies and share earphones and id lean my head on his shoulder and hed cover me with his jacket (HE SAID THAT ID GET TO KEEP IT OH MY GOD 🥹🥹🥹) if i get cold because i said that ill wear a dress that looked similar but way shorter than the one i was wearing in that picture i sent him (when he called me an angel when i was wearing a wedding gown i wore for my aunt's wedding)

-wed hold hands the whole time and id pull him around to go ride all the rides (nobody knows abt us dating just that one friend, we dont care who'll see anymore, nows are only chance to go on an amusement park date, well if it gets accepted that is)

-and hed hug me from the back (weve never hugged yet nor have we held hands) while we wait in line for the ride

-HE SAID HED GIVE ME PRINCESS TREATMENT RILLSSSSS

LIKE FULL ON PRINCESS TREATMENT, THIS WAS WHAT HE SAID TO ME EXACTLY THIS AND RILLSSSSSSS YOU DONT UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH I LOVE PRINCESS TREATMENT OH MY GOD 💞💞💞💞

-he said hed follow me around everywhere

-he said hed tie my shoes if my shoelaces got untied

-he said hed carry my bag while he waits for me outside the bathroom

-and he said and insisted that he wants to pay for everything (except the ticket since the school would be paying for that) because he wanted to give me the full on princes treatment and im fucking melting rilllsssssss 😭😭😭😭😭

-and he has a polaroid camera and he said hes getting a lot of films for it and were gonna take two pictures each so we each have a piece

AND GUES WHAT HE FUCKING SAID RILLS

GUES WHAT HE SAID

HE SAID THAT HE LOVES ME AND OH MY GODDDDDDD 😭😭😭

HE SAID THAT IM PERFECT, THAT I MADE HIS WHOLE LIFE BETTER, THAT HES SO LUCKY TO HAVE ME, THAT HES OBSSESED WITH ME, THAT IM A VERY SPECIAL PERSON IN HIS LIFE, THAT IM BEAUTIFUL, THAT HE WANTS TO MARRY ME, HE SAID THAT HE COULDNT EVEN COMPREHEND WHATS HES FEELING RN AND RILLLLSSSSSS IM GONNA MELT 😭😭😭

ACTUALLY NO, I ALREADY DID 😭

rilllsssssss i love him oh my godddddddddd 😭😭😭💞💞💞

he just said that he wants to treat me like a fucking queen oh my godddd what do i doooooooo 😭😭😭

OMG ANGDKABFKGKFNSKHFK 💕💖💕💖💕💖💕💖💕💖💕💖💕💖 Holy shit bby!!!!! All right, so first things first, I really do hope with all my heart that you guys get to have a field trip again soon, even with all the necessary measures for your safety and health 💕💕💕🙏🙏💛💛💛 Second, OMG 😍😍😍 The date you lovebirds planned sounds absolutely perfect, and Lover Boy really really sounds like the sweetest boyfriend out there, it's all so so romantic 💕💕💕 Damn right he wants to treat you like a princess, you deserve nothing less than that 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 But wait wait wait, he actually said The Words????? HE DID???!!!!!! HONEYYYYYYYYY OMG THAT MUST HAVE FELT AMAZING, I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOUUUUUUUU!!!!!! 😍😍😍😍💕💕💕💕💕 HE LOVES YOU AND YOU LOVE HIM AND IT'S ALL SO PRECIOUS I'M GONNA FLY TO MARS AND BACK OUT OF SHEER HAPPINESS ALONE 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕 It really sounds like you're living your own personal fairytale and I absolutely freaking LOVE this for you 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 Ahhhhhh I'm sending you all the hugs in the world!!!!!!!!

#stucky just stucky #personal #my brain's just a series of 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕 right now

[creamsiclesunset]

3/11/2023

hi all 

i havent posted on this acc in so long. so quick update ig. my last post abt my relationship is completely irrelevant cause i broke up w him. but i literally got into another relationship like almost a year after and it was like...............oh my god....we dated for like two and a half years and i literally feel like i’ve been dragged to hell and back now that it’s over. i thought my first breakup was rough but i think i almost went insane. im vry proud of myself for keeping it together though :DDDDDDD i was really sad and upset until i realized he was like kinda ab*sive. i think thats why im writing this update. i havent told anyone because i still feel this weird surge of fear whenever i start trying to talk about it. ironically though the second we broke up i wanted to run to the closest stranger and tell them everything. i wanted to cry out of relief in a way when i finally was able to even insinuate that what he did to me as wrong. i spent a really long time being scared and insecure that no one would love me but, i dont really think that was my fault (to an extent idk). i feel selfish saying it but i dont see how i could’ve thrived being with someone who was so angry at the world. i thought it was a cute “i hate everyone but you” thing until he started hating me as much as he hated everything else. i dont get what i did and i’m still trying to wrap my head around it. it felt like i was dying when i first left him but now i kinda realize how nice it is to not constantly be clinging onto every one of his words. i realized that like a lot of people would love to have an opportunity to love me especially myself and i should probably stop denying them that. as much as i want to think about who he’s with and stalk his socials i kind of just like,,, dont care anymore. idk but i hope you are all well (or whomever found this)

[aurorapuppylover2002]

Aged Tieguanyin from 1986!

tried This around 2 weeks ago :), would have wrote abt it sooner but i got into a car crash like 3 hours later¹. SAD!

this is the first time i ever tried an oolong tea². While i dont have the packaging it came in anymore to give you more details. It was aged in a more traditional method that didnt involve re-roasting it every few years to keep a fresher flavor and to allow the aging process to come through in the taste. This tea was picked in Anxi county in Fujian, a province of southeast China that's directly across from Taiwan³.

The scent⁴ of the dry tea leaves prior to being steeped is really mellow and nice, its sort of a sweet fruity smell with deeper woodier, nuttier I'd even say notes that tie it together really well. Post steep the leaves open and the scent becomes much louder, relatively, and a lot of the bass notes of the tea came out more prominently, otherwise just about the same⁵.

The color of the liquor⁶ was a lovely golden yellow, and the light but glowing appearance is reflected in its taste. The tea again is reminiscent of its scent, light, fruity, with hints of walnuts and wood⁷. Tea had effectively no astringency and made for a very relaxed and cozy drinking experience.

I wouldn't put the taste as better than red teas ive tried, but the smell ive totally fallen for and is my favorite so far.

now if only i could get better teaware to increase the comfy vibes⁸. now that would be a treat :3c⁹

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Footnotes

1. Im perfectly ok, and the crash wasnt my fault :) but it wasnt really the reason i havent posted im just a wee bit lazy, it definitely was why i didnt post same day tho

2. Ive likely tried oolong before at a restaurant or from a teabag, but both of those are probably pretty cheap doodoo teas that arent gonna be very comparable to a nice loose leaf. so im not counting them, + i dont remember them.

3. that was a bit awkward in its wording but i think location matters so i always wanna try to mention it, i also just love geography!

4. I kind of imply this in other parts of the post but since i had this tea ive tried another oolong that i bought a larger bag of and have been enjoying, will post abt it in the upcoming days because it's not aged plus this account is basically my tea journal. the smell here i dont prefer to the not aged oolong ive tried but is still super nice.

5. they are more different than i have the ability to articulate yet, but not by a ton

6. For some reason when i bought this i thought it was a puerh, maybe because i saw aged and forgot the rest lol. so when i poured the tea into my little cup and it was so light in color i was surprised and had go reread the package to discover my goof

7. im bad at tasting notes too still lol.

8. my current set up is a thin mug to brew in and a little ceramic dish¹⁰ to use as a lid, like a sort of thrifted gaiwan lol

9. :3c

10. I got most of my stuff from goodwill i dont have nice porcelain money for rn. saving to get something simple and nice tho! id at least want a nice gaiwan, its probably the most important thing to worry about the quality of, besides the leaves of course.

#tea #oolong #gong fu cha #shitty teaware

[necro-hamster]

ranting abt some shit below

idk if other ppl experience this or not, i havent rlly looked into it, but like. i feel like ever since i realized how badly i'm treated i've just felt so much worse. it's hard to put into words but i almost wish i never caught on because now i'm just so angry. i'm so so so angry all the time over what i've been put through and how it's made me hate myself for years and years and years. literally almost two decades where i wanted to kms because i thought i was unlovable and was doing smth to earn the treatment i was getting. i STILL suffer with those thoughts! and i probably will for a long time! but now that i know why they're happening it almost makes things worse? like now i know what the problem is but i can't fix it and it's so frustrating. there's nothing i can do about it right now. it'll be years before i'm out of this situation. and idk what to do about that. like idk im just so frustrated and every time these ppl hurt me or do smth horrible, stuff that scared the shit outta me as a kid, i just get SO mad about it. like how dare you act that way. i cannot fathom being that type of person for nearly 50 years on end, constantly miserable and aggressive and hateful, and never realizing that maybe you're the problem and should change your behavior. i can't imagine hurting the ppl around you over and over and over again and when they tell you they're hurt you lose your fucking mind and blame them. like jesus christ ignorance sure is bliss huh ! idk im just going thru a lot and this is a lot to deal with mentally, and i feel like. BAD for making my friends hear abt it yk. because it's a draining subject matter and i dont want to just be going on abt it all the time. so im just kind of left to sit on these thoughts on my own. and im still struggling with what to make of them. i just rlly hope i can get thru this man bc at times i rlly doubt it. every other time ive gone thru smth like horrific and traumatizing it just kinda happened and i had to reflect on it once it was already over. but this isnt over and has been going on for years. im literally BEING traumatized. and idk what to do about it

#kris.txt #vent #cw for mentions of past suicidal thoughts under the cut ig

[innocencelives]

thinking a bit abt trauma tonight. in my last 6 months-year or so of being in a very healed stage, the last few weeks ive noticed myself having weird thoughts abt my trauma. feeling like i made it up, or that i feel bad for my parents. their pictures keep coming up in my phone. i dont ever want to see them again, but ive been plagued with this thoughts that i hurt them. i mean, i did. two things can be true. i think my parents did a lot of good things but it doesnt excuse the bad. i need to be able to hold two things true at once, that they hurt me irreperably, but that they also have their own demons and are a product of their childhood. i know they must think of me, i know me leaving the family caused them great hurt and pain. i know in their eyes, maybe their version of reality is really that true to them, they feel grief over losing me and they feel hurt at my accusations. and i feel a strange empathy at the- well if i did commit horrid abuses, and i could never admit them to myself, and then to see my beloved child i raised soo well accuse me of abuse and leave, i guess i feel empathy that that would hurt? its just been so so long. i do wonder what they think of me now. its sad but, i know nothing has changed. i know they still havent admitted any of it, the idea that they could have commited these abuses is so foreign to them its probably like it never happened. but it did, alas it did. it hurts to hear people talk about their parents. its almost like im living my life free and without burden until im constantly reminded i lack something everyone else has, a family.

its an indescribable feeling when i read about abuse, are reminded of it, or i see words that remind me of it. reading about a kid that experienced that, or reading about an adult who lives with that. i dont know how to describe it. i have described it before, its like someone reached through the layers of my psyche and poked a wound buried so deep. but it also is like, its so releiving. its so vulnerable in a way that makes me feel seen. its such a big part of me. ive moved so far away from it, but it remains a core part of me. its a part of my identity even. i am who i am, i am a survivor of abuse and im so, unbelievably proud of how far ive come.