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blueicequeen19 · 9 months

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Charter Ch. 6

Warnings: drama, angst, threats of violence, oral, protected sex, age gap, boss & employee

Chelsea is here and she brought friends from the rougher side of the Cut. Baseheads. Big, buff friends covered in tattoos that look like they’re here for a fight. JJ takes a deep, murderous breath and I find myself taking his hand.

“Stay here.” JJ doesn’t look at me as he moves to the door but I tug on his wrist.

“Call the police!” I plead, reaching up to capture his face between my hands. His blue eyes are ablaze, his chest heaving with every angry breath.

“The cops in this town don’t give a shit about a Maybank.” JJ bites back, trying to pull away from me but I shake my head.

“There’s four of them and one of you. Do not do this.” JJ pulls free of my hold and steps back, going to a shelf next to the tv and grabbing something off the top shelf. A gun.

“JJ, wait, let’s just—.”

“I’m done with these fucking clowns. Stay in here. I mean it.” JJ steps onto the enclosed porch with the gun in his hand as his ex and her friends yell profanities and threats. I’m frozen for a moment before I run back to his bedroom to find my phone.

I quickly dial the sheriffs department and on the sixth ring an annoyed sounding female dispatcher answered.

“I need the police to my location for a.. break in. I’m not sure the address but it’s out on the marsh, a fairly newer build.”

“Ma’am, is this not your residence?”

“No, it’s my.. friends.” There’s a pause and a lot of clicking of a keyboard.

“I have your location. Is Johnathon James Maybank the owner?” I pause, having never heard JJ’s real name before. No wonder he went by JJ if John B was practically his brother.

“Yes.”

“Okay ma’am, all our officers are currently busy on other calls but we’ll send someone out there as soon as we can.”

“Are you serious? They have guns! Someone could get shot!” I was only assuming but at this rate with all the craziness, I wouldn’t put it past these people who decided to trespass.

“Ma’am—.” I hang up and look up John B on social media before sending him an urgent message. I quickly throw my phone down and pull on a pair of his shorts before running back down the hallway to the front of the house. I stop to grab the wooden baseball bat next to the front door and step out onto the enclosed porch where JJ stands on the steps, gun in hand.

I try not to let my gaze linger too long on the marks I made all over his back and arms as I move next to him.

“I’m not going to tell you again—.”

“Look who it is! Your little employee putting in her overtime! Is she even legal, J?” Chelsea laughs, pushing her blonde hair off shoulder with a wicked grin. She looked worse than the last time I saw her.

“Looks like she wants some of this too.” One of her goons says, looking to the bat in my hand.

“The cops are on their way. Better leave while you still can.” I announce, swinging the bat up to rest on my shoulder. Their eyes widen in alarm and JJ’s head snaps towards mine.

“You know what happens to snitches?” Chelsea spats at me, her face scrunched up in a snarl.

“You know what happens to trespassers?” JJ counters, the click of the safety being released echoing between all of us.

“My child lives here. I have a right to be anywhere she is.”

“You have no rights so therefore you don’t. Crawl back into whatever hole you’ve been in and fuck off.”

“You gonna back that mouth up, Blondie? Your daddy still owes us money.” One of the guys calls, cracking his knuckles. His dad? But JJ only smirks.

“Come and get some. You wouldn’t be the first bitch I’ve put in their place.” The guys all stiffen, nostrils flaring as their hands ball into fists.

“J.” I whisper softly, wrapping my hand around his wrist. He was terrifying like this. Just then the bloop of a police siren startles us all and a cruiser turns into the yard since the driveway is blocked. Shoupe steps out, hand on his gun, as he faces the trespassers.

“There a problem here?” Shoupe asks, his voice and posture dripping with authority.

“No, officer. No problems here. Just having a friendly chat. We’ll be going now.” Chelsea shoots us both a deadly look before her and her goons pile back into the piece of shit truck they came in and back out of the driveway.

What were we going to do now that they know where he lives?

Shoupe turns back to us, his hand still on his gun as he looks from JJ to the piece in his hand.

“You got a permit for that, Maybank?” JJ’s body visibly relaxes after the taillights for Chelsea’s truck can no longer be seen and he smirks at Shoupe.

“For what?” JJ counters, clicking the safety on and tucking the gun into the waistband of his shorts.

“Wanna tell me what that was about?” Shoupe asks, finally taking his hand off his own gun and approaching. JJ shrugs.

“Hard telling.” I shoot a look at him. Why is he not saying anything?

“Uh huh. Word around town is your ex is causing trouble and asking about you and your daughter. Do you have a protective order in place?”

“A piece of paper doesn’t stop anything.”

“Maybe not but it’s a paper trail and if it gets violated, people end up in jail.” JJ stays silent for a moment, staring back at Shoupe.

“Just come down to the station and we can get the paperwork started.” Shoupe presses but JJ shows no sign of giving in.

“J.” I try to take his hand but he curls his fingers away, like a punch to the gut. I have to fight to keep my face neutral as Shoupe looks between us.

“I’ll think about it. See you later, Shoupe.” JJ dismisses Shoupe before turning and disappearing into the house. Shoupe gives me a look I can’t quiet pinpoint - like pity - and gets back into his cruiser. I watch him exit the driveway before heading back inside.

I hear the shower turn on but I know for some reason I’m not invited. I quickly redress into my own clothes and throw my hair up into a bun. Emotions choke me and my throat is tight. This was a lot to deal with. It’s no wonder he kept me at arms length. But why was he mad now? Because I called the cops? Did he really want to face them alone? I startle at a knock on the front door then I hear it open. I emerge into the hallway to see John B walking in, obviously comfortable enough to just walk in. His eyes lock on me and he gives me a nod of acknowledgment.

“Everything good here?” He asks, tucking his hands into his pockets.

“Yea. Shoupe came after all.” John B nods just as JJ enters the hallway in a towel. He looks from me to John B and shakes his head.

“It’s all good, Bree.” JJ sighs, going into the kitchen to get a beer.

“What did Shoupe do?” John B asks, taking a beer from JJ.

“Nothing but piss them off.” I scoff at JJ’s words. Why was he insisting on fighting this battle alone? His eyes narrow at me just as John B glances between us.

“He wants JJ to file a protective order against Chelsea so if she comes around Summer, she’ll be arrested. He’s also pissy that I called you and Shoupe.” I announce, crossing my arms and staring back at the heated blonde. I can feel John B look between us again.

“Yea, JJ don’t like cops or people helping him. He’s the only one allowed to be put at risk. Been that way since we were kids.” John B says, drawing JJ’s glare to him.

“I got shit to do. I’ll be there to get Summer in a bit.” John B chuckles at JJs dismissal.

“Whatever you want to do. Sarah says she can stay again if needed.” John B rounds the counter and they do some tacky handshake before John B makes his way to the door, only pausing to look back at me.

“Keep him out of trouble.” He says, before closing the door behind him. I nod, my heart racing a mile a minute as I turn to face JJ. His glaring at me, his wet hair dripping onto his shoulders and down his chest. Why was he so sexy when he was pissed off?

“You should probably head out. And watch your back now that there’s a target on it.” JJ says, tipping his beer up and draining the rest of it.

“I’ll just call the police again.” I shrug, crossing my arms as we glare back at each other.

“People on the Cut, especially Baseheads, don’t fuck around when it comes to snitches. It’s an unspoken rule not to talk to cops. That’s a Kook thing.” JJ snaps, drawing my attention to the Pogue tattoo across his knuckles.

“So, what? You were just going to take on all of them? Four vs one? End up in jail yourself? What happens to Summer if you go to jail?” I throw back and he growls, taking a dangerous step towards me. I crane my neck to look up at him, refusing to back down.

“If you wanted someone you can tell what to do and control, you picked the wrong girl.” I breathe, my body heating just being this close to him. JJ’s eyes trail over me, down the skimpy outfit I came in last night and back up to my face.

“I didn’t pick anyone.” His words have their desired effect and I try not to wince. “Now go. I’ll see you at work.” JJ nods to the door and for once I don’t have a single smart comment to make so I simply grab my things and leave.

I refuse to cry or show my wounded heart so I do the only thing I can.. fake it. The rest of the week slides by with ease and I pretend that JJ means absolutely nothing. I don’t stay until close like normal so I’m not tempted to let him bend me over the nearest flat surface. And I know id give in.

I manage to keep myself busy by picking up another job for the evenings on weekends, flirting with boys closer to my age, then masturbating until I’m weak. The only problem being that I get myself off to the memory of him. The way he feels. The sounds he makes when he cums. The way he tastes. The feel of his callused hands and rings on my body. I can make myself cum three times in a row and it still doesn’t dampen the fire that he’s lit in me.

I manage our shifts together just fine as long as I don’t look at him. When work needs to be discussed, I busy myself and keep my head down while giving one worded answers. I can feel the tension between us growing. I’m sure he’s just as pent up as I am. I’m surprised he hasn’t thrown me over his shoulder yet and hauled me to the back. But he would think that’s him giving in and he’s not one to lose.

I’m scrolling through my phone on my break, hiding in the tiny room with enough room for a fridge, microwave, and a sink, when I stumble across a video I took of him going down on me. Heat erupts all over my body and my clit throbs like the horny bitch she is at the memory. I can’t stop myself from lowering the volume and watching as he works my pussy with that skilled tongue, his heated blue eyes staying on mine. My own moans have me squeezing my thighs together. He sucks my clit into his mouth, making my hips jerk in the video and as I’m standing here watching. When he pulls back to reveal his arousal covered mouth and pushes two fingers inside me, I turn the video off, my body on the verge of combusting. I drop my phone on the table and grip the edges to try and ground myself. I squeeze my thighs tight but the ache doesn’t subside. I’m literally on the verge of slipping my hand into my shorts when a throat clears behind me. I snatch up my phone as I turn to face him, my heart in my throat and my pussy pulsing. Just by the look in his eyes, I can tell he knows what I was doing. Or about to do. I love and hate that cocky smirk of his and the way he tugs on his bottom lip with his teeth.

“I have a video similar to that.” JJ props his shoulder up against the door frame as he pulls out his phone, swipes a few times then turns it to face me. I remember this video too. My back was pinned against the wall as he fucked my face while keeping his hands on his phone. My throat had been so sore but it was worth it. I tear my gaze away from the sight of his cock jackhammering into my mouth, and glare at him.

“I think I have another one too. Ahh, yep.” JJ plays another of me riding him in reverse cowgirl, his free hand grabbing and slapping my ass as I bounce on him.

“Oh, this one is my favorite.” JJ changes the videos to one I instantly recognize from the last time we were together. My heart hurts because somehow this one felt more personal. He’s fucking me from behind, his body flat on top of mine as the phone rests against the headboard, capturing both our faces and his cock disappearing inside me. It was probably the most intense sex we’d ever had.

“Look into the camera.” JJ whispers in my ear in the video. I whimpered as he cupped my throat and forced me to look up, my eyes hooded and my lips parted.

“Watch yourself fall apart for me.” He’d whispered into my ear as he delivered rough, deep strokes. My entire body shivers and I turn away, goosebumps coating my skin as my panties soak further with my arousal. The fucking bastard.

JJ’s hands are suddenly on me and I don’t even fight him. I’m too weak. I miss him so much. I take it when he bends me over the table with a growl and enters me in one hard, deep thrust. His hand fists the back of my shirt as he fucks me hard and fast. I cum quicker than I ever have before, tears in my eyes, as I fight to keep from moaning loudly. His hands slide between us to stroke my clit before I’ve even come back down and my body clenches even harder around his.

“One more. Come on. I know you need it.” JJ urges in my ear. He’s right and I hate him. I shatter into a million pieces before going limp on top of the table as he releases in the condom. I can’t breathe or move as he pulls out, discards the condom and pulls my shorts back up. JJ pulls me to look at him but I don’t want to. It hurts too much.

“Your break is over.” JJ whispers, looking at my lips for a moment before walking away from me. Again.

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doctorprofessorsong · 2 years

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Destiel fic recs

Well, it looks like the brainrot is permanent and there is no cure. I can't seem to get enough of these dudes. Please enjoy the fruits of my unending obsession with another rec list.

Love Bites by @malmuses (Explicit, 34k)

I don't know why I love a tiny creature Dean, but this fic had my entire heart from the first chapter. Not since OctopusDean said bloop has a Dean been this adorable.

Dean, a vampire in bat form, gets injured by Cas' menace of a cat (affectionate). Cas nurses him back to health and, as Dean heals, he finds himself more and more enamored with his savior.

Cas is delightfully awkward and Dean is entirely smitten and it makes for an adorably soft dynamic. Plus I want to put bat!Dean in my pocket. He’s so cute.

Boyfriend of Thursday by mnwood @deancasheadcanons (Explicit, 40k)

Look all I'm saying is Dean deserved to be a little slutty (affectionate). This one is a romp and a delight. Dean Winchester doesn't do monogamy or commitment. Instead he has a regular hook-up every day of the week.

But when he and his Thursday call it quits, he's looking to fill the open position. It feels like he's in luck when he runs into a hot dude at Chipotle. But Dean discovers that maybe his Boyfriend of Thursday is worth breaking the rules for.

I love an openly bi, confident Dean and this Dean definitely fits the bill. This Dean is really fun and in some ways very vulnerable and he is deeply respectful of his hookups which makes it a great read. This one could have gone the other way, making him shallow and capricious, but despite his rules and his rigid system, Dean deeply cares and that makes it really fun to read.

The side characters are fantastic, plus there is positive representation of polyamory and some really interesting casting that makes this one super entertaining.

Passing Ships by quiettewandering (Mature, 78k)

Something about Dean and Cas going against fate to be with one another has always made me a little feral, so it's no surprise that a fic based on the concept that Cas, a cupid assigned to get Dean together with his soulmate Lisa, fails spectacularly when he falls in love with Dean himself would immediately draw me in.

The Cas in this fic wants so badly to do what's right, but he can't help but care about the humans. He hits all the right notes for me and i had at least ten breakdowns over him. And Dean is also just so enamored and such a disaster and you just wanna smoosh their faces.

I Can See Your Halo by redamber79 @imbiowaresbitch (series, 2 works, Explicit, 9.8k words)

This one is s-p-i-c-y and just a bit sacrilegious in the best way. Um, let's just say the author explores some novel uses for the angel blade and Cas' halo that will live inside my brain rent free for a very long time. Ahem

It also serves as a fairly delightful fix-it with a really fun resolution that will also have a condo in my mind.

It's scorching hot and a really fun read.

In It For The Long Haul by @ltleflrt (Explicit 25k)

This is the fluffiest, softest fic to soothe what ails you. Dean, a long-haul trucker, meets an intriguing waiter at a truck stop and starts reordering his life to find ways to see him again.

This fic is just pure sunshine. Cas keeps choosing meals to make Dean happy. Dean keeps blushing and flirting. The angst is low. It's really just a good time for everyone. A soft story about liminal spaces and finding someone to share your life with.

Racing Stripes by tiamatv (Mature, 37k)

I'm admittedly a sucker for a sci fi AU, but even if I wasn't I would still love this absolute gem of a story. Dean is one of the top racers in the world, finally about to live out his dream of racing in the difficult and high stakes Chicago Race. Unfortunately for him, revisiting Chicago also sets him on a crash course with the love of his life, Cas, who left him years ago for the promise of an education and a future, and even worse, Cas' dad who is dangling the same for Sammy in front of Dean’s nose.

The worldbuilding in this fic is immaculate. An abandoned and rotting Chicago is almost it's own character, and there is a quiet desperation in the story of people who have become beholden to corporations to survive. The action sequences are also gorgeous with the pivotal race being so cinematic I felt like I could see every twist and turn. And don't get me started on the gorgeous weaving of canon into the fic. It was so clever.

But the standout for me is the gentleness in Dean’s characterization. The way he wants so badly to do what's best. The way he longs for Cas. There is just something gorgeous about Racing Stripes Dean that made me want everything good for him.

Listen, I tell you a mystery by bathilda bagshot (wellthengameover) @the-lions-mouth (Teen, 25k)

Thee Dean and Mary parallel dissertation, this character study has everything. Mary trying to conform to cisheteronormative ideals while feeling the pull of hunting and a particular redheaded angel. Teenage and Stanford Era Dean to tear your heart out. Dean and Mary finding something of each other. And a happy ending for Dean and Cas.

It's told in snippets. Vignettes that delve into trauma and hope. They build an absolutely beautiful parallel story, gorgeous for their intersections and the places they diverge.

And there is a gentleness to it all. We see Mary and Dean in various states of distress and desperation. We see the effects of the cupids bow and poverty and loneliness and completely fuckery. But there is never any judgment, just kindness in the way they are written.

This one made me cry real human tears and it's definitely one that will haunt me.

A Judicious Application of Free Will by Annie D (scaramouche) @no-gorms (Explicit, 57k)

This is an older fic, but I swear Annie D has such a good grasp on Dean and Cas (or is possibly psychic) that there are elements that will make you swear it was written post canon. This one is hard to describe because it ends up with some gorgeous narrative twists that I don't want to give away. Suffice to say: Dean meets a handsome recluse, Cas, whose past threatens to engulf them.

It's twisty and ambitious, with so much heart. Canon is woven in to the story in unexpected ways and it's ultimately one of those fics that you don't want to put down.

Need more? Check out my other fic rec lists:

https://doctorprofessorsong.tumblr.com/post/671475610652164096/new-fic-rec-list-and-this-ones-a-banger

https://doctorprofessorsong.tumblr.com/post/660150754066169856/fic-recs-fic-recs-get-your-destiel-fic-recs

https://doctorprofessorsong.tumblr.com/post/657079735678042112/destiel-fic-recs

https://doctorprofessorsong.tumblr.com/post/653669811839270912/destiel-fic-recs

https://doctorprofessorsong.tumblr.com/post/648748102595051520/destiel-fic-recs

https://doctorprofessorsong.tumblr.com/post/649816680365752320/more-destiel-fic-recs-who-needs-sleep-when-you

https://doctorprofessorsong.tumblr.com/post/651158094530887681/more-destiel-fic-recs

https://doctorprofessorsong.tumblr.com/post/687709943505321984/destiel-fic-recs

https://doctorprofessorsong.tumblr.com/post/685445791339462656/destiel-fic-recs

https://doctorprofessorsong.tumblr.com/post/675858601000206336/destiel-fic-recs

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igotsnothing · 6 months

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—OCS as OBSCURE ASSOCIATIONS

I got tagged by the very cool @agena87, one of my original moots who I am so glad is still going strong! ❤️

We're going to do this with...Lawrence Saint-Germain

Lawrence: Look! We're doing this tag game thing!

Julian: YOU are. I am just here for moral support.

ANIMAL: Bat.

Julian: Sounds sus.

COLORS: I like a subdued, somber palette: blacks, greys...

Julian: Think funeral chic.

MONTH: October

SONGS: "Every Other Freckle" by alt-j

Julian: (Grins and looks away.)

NUMBER: 7

PLANTS: Camelias

SMELLS: Tuberoses

GEMSTONE: Onyx

TIME OF DAY: Sunset

SEASON: Fall

PLACES: A bookstore

FOOD: Rarely...But: creme brûlée.

DRINKS: Must you ask?

ELEMENT: Of surprise

ASTROLOGICAL SIGNS: Scorpio

SEASONINGS: Freckles?

(Julian snorts)

SKY: Moonlit

WEATHER: Stormy

MAGICAL POWER: Apparating

WEAPONS: My wit?

Julian: It's a blunt object.

(Some indignant huffing and wrestling ensues.)

SOCIAL MEDIA: (Looks confused) I have the...the Instant Messenger, right?

Julian: Yes, my love. (Nods head resignedly.)

MAKEUP PRODUCT: I am perfection and need no additives.

Julian: (Shrugs) But a perfect what?

(More wrestling.)

CANDY: JUJUbees.

Julian: HA! I SEE WHAT YOU DID THERE!

METHOD OF LONG DISTANCE TRAVEL: Carried by my vassals-

Julian: Nooo! Come on, Lawrence! That wasn't funny seven hundred years ago and it's not funny now.

Lawrence: (Sighing) Ship or train.

ART STYLE: Baroque.

FEAR: That's...too personal.

(Julian squeezes his hand reassuringly.)

MYTHOLOGICAL CREATURE: Jairo, on time for anything...

Julian: I am going to tell him you said that.

Lawrence: The irony is that he'll be so pleased.

PIECE OF STATIONARY: Fountain pen

THREE EMOJIS: Ok- these are fun: 👻🦇🧛‍♂️

Julian: The Elvis emoji?

Lawrence: Is it? Damn it! I thought it was a vampire! (Squints at phone screen). You're messing with me, aren't you?

Julian: Only since the night we met...

CELESTIAL BODY: Julian's...

Julian: (Kisses Lawrence on the nose) Time to stargaze.

Tagging: @damseljamsel, @alinelie, @lynzishell, @izayoichan and...wait for it... @greighish! (All optional, bleep bloop...)

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amhrosina · 1 year

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Frank isn’t sure he should be here. In fact, he knows he shouldn’t, has never allowed himself the pleasure of imagining it, and can’t remember making the decision to come. The latter was likely on account of the probable concussion he’d received earlier – having a piece of plywood swung at your head will do that to you – but either way, he’s here now, and his vision is beginning to double.

Matt swings the door open, startled out of his sleep by a familiar scent that he’s never dreamt of smelling in his home. At first, only for a moment, he thinks Frank may be on his doorstep to kill him, but the thought vanishes when Frank tumbles forward, directly into his open arms.

A hearty rattle rumbles through Frank’s chest as he sucks in a breath. Matt’s scent overwhelms him, makes the ache in his chest expand into an all-encompassing desire coursing throughout his body chanting more, more, more. Matt’s arms wrap around him, and the tentative press of his cheek against Frank’s head sends a warm tingle down Frank’s spine.

You shouldn’t be here.

Frank ignores the voice, his voice, screaming at him in his head.

Go home, Frank. He doesn’t want you.

“Fuck,” he heaves, gripping Matt with tight fingers, “you.”

Matt stiffens, and suddenly the warmth in the gentle press of his fingers, the heat in his cheeks, vanishes. Frank gets the urge to bash his head against the wall.

“Have you been drinking?” Matt asks, disappointment ringing clear in Frank’s ears. Frank is having a hard time standing straight, even with Matt’s arms holding him up.

“The fuck’s that supposed to mean?”

He can’t help it – the anger, the tone. He could’ve just as easily told Matt he hadn’t been drinking, and in fact, couldn’t think of any other person he’d want to be with at this point in time, but the probable (definite) concussion muddied his thoughts, making it impossible to offer Matt anything but his rage.

“Go home, Frank.”

Go home, Frank.

Frank wanted to. He knew it was a mistake coming here, knew Matt would never accept his foul, broken, and bloodied hands. He gives it a good effort at first, pushing away from Matt, only to end up flailing to the floor, groaning on impact.

“What the fuck is wrong with you, Frank?”

Matt is angry. This is better than nothing, Frank decides, even though his head is pounding, and he can’t seem to keep both eyes open at the same time. It meant Matt was still capable of feeling something for Frank.

“Thought your bat sonar worked better than this.” Frank manages, gasping like a fish at the crack in his ribs. The plywood, apparently, was much thicker than expected.

Matt stills, tilting his head to the side, then pounces. Warmth returns to Matt’s fingers, now sliding Frank’s shirt up his torso. Frank snorts at the idea of Matt lifting his shirt to assess the damage when he couldn’t physically see anything. Matt tries to ignore the muscled crevices that run in deep lines down Frank’s abdomen. Both men are silent as Matt does the only thing he remembers how to do: fix the people he loves.

When Frank’s shirt is finally lowered, Matt’s fingers linger on the bottom seam, toying with the fabric. Frank cups Matt’s hands, watching the curve of his lips tilt upwards. Frank loses his breath, and if he were standing, he probably would’ve lost his balance too. Matt’s smile hits him like a ton of bricks, and he feels the warmth of it rush through his body – an addictive, adrenaline-rush of a feeling.

Matt can sense it, too – can feel it in Frank’s heartbeat, can taste the electricity in the air. The feeling is not unwelcome.

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transingthoseformers · 28 days

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Soundshift with Shockwave hmm good idea fic

Something something them inviting themselves into the scientist lab cue him saying he's busy. Makeshift leans in after adjusting his voice and he whispers the most sensual sounding "Senator Shockwave" into Shock audial. And it escalates from there

I like to imagine aligned Shockwave as having been a senator just for funsies. No empurata, no shadowplay, just bloop the Shockwave we initially recognize right from the bat

But also YES

Even the most dutiful scientists deserve a break

#suggestive #tfp shockwave #tfp soundwave #tfp makeshift #wavewave #soundshift #shockshift

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gay--gh0st · 1 month

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Intro Post!!

Names: firefly/ghost/lemon/fizzy (feel free to call me anything unless I say otherwise)

Pronouns: they/he/it (any pronouns work tho)

I'm a minor (so don't be creepy)

I'm a boyflux, asexual, quoiromantic, panromantic, and ambiamorous

I'm a therian (my theriotypes are pastel calico cat, raven, and fruit bat)

I follow Hellenic polytheism which basically means I believe in Greek gods

I'm single

I'm currently writing a book! feel free to ask me about it.

Writing side blog: @gh0st-writing

I also run @asexual-everyday

Matching banners with @bleep-bloop-boo (go follow her she's the best :D <3)

Picrew I use here: https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/1473879#google_vignette

Fandoms:

Mushroom Oasis

Omori

Epic: the musical

riordanverse

hellaverse

the owl house

Avatar the last airbender

miraculous

osemanverse

Scott Pilgrim

Horizon Zero dawn/Forbidden West

Life is strange (true colors)

Untitled goose game

Kingdom hearts

She-ra

dni if:

homophobic racist transphobic ableist therian or furry hater (or a asshole in general) or if your blog is 18+ (people 18+ can interact if your content is 17 and under) or if for any reason you don't want me interacting with your content don't interact with mine

I will block people if needed

I'm always open to asks or being mutuals if anyone wants to!!!

#intro post

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bloop-the-art-bat · 1 year

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DANTE'S INFERNO GUARDIANS ON HELL TAROT CARDS

Dante's Inferno Guardians of Hell Tarot cards for my English teacher.

This is MY ART. I'm very proud of it 😌 please don't take credit for it.

Tap the image for better resolution.

Sorry for the poor lighting, I'm tired.

#bloop the art bat #bloop the bat #bloop art #dante's inferno #watercolor #color pencil #tarot cards #handmade #im so fucking tired #i have 2 more to make by Tuesday. its sunday now.#the furies card took so goddamn long #like 5 hours + planning the sketch on my computer #someone save my from this hellscape. buh dum ching #get it cause Dante's inferno is in hell?#ok ill stop now #i do really like these though. i wont be ready to give them to my teacher 😅#cool art i made!

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bearterritory · 3 months

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Seven Straight

Bears Defeat #21 Virginia Tech In Extras

Also Beat Illinois State, Continue Domination at Littlewood Classic

PHOENIX – The California softball team made it seven straight victories with a thrilling 6-5 extra innings win over No. 21 Virginia Tech and a 5-2 beat down of Illinois State on Saturday at the Littlewood Classic.

The Golden Bears (9-1) used a 4-hit day from Elon Butler and a 3-run homer from Kyndal Todd to record their best start to the season since winning the first 12 games in 2018.

Game 1: Cal 6, No. 21 Virginia Tech 5 (8) The Bears rallied with two down in the first to take the early lead. Tatum Anzaldo drew a leadoff walk and scored when Acacia Anders doubled to center with two strikes. Butler quickly made it 2-0 with a laser off the wall in left to plate Anders.

Virginia Tech rallied back in the third with four runs on two hits. Starter Haylei Archer battled through the first two Hokie innings, but a single and a walk put two on with one out as Cal went to Randi Roelling out of the bullpen. Another walk loaded the bases and Rachel Castine hit a grand slam to make it 4-2.

Cal quickly had an answer in the fourth to knot things right back up. Anders took a free pass to start the inning and Butler launched a 1-0 pitch off the netting in left field for her fourth homer of the season.

Roelling settled in after the home run, scattering a single and a pair of walks through the end of the fifth. Cal's offense fell silent after the Butler home run, drawing just a pair of walks and a hit by pitch off of starter Lyndsey Grein and reliever Emma Mazzarone through the top of the seventh.

Starting the eighth inning with the International Tiebreaker and Mika Lee on second base, the Bears manufactured a run. Kaylee Pond put down a sacrifice bunt to move Lee to third, and after a groundout Butler doubled down the right field line for her third hit of the game to score Lee. Cal added another run when Butler raced home on a dropped third strike.

Leading 6-4, Roelling got a groundout, RBI sacrifice fly and a pop out to end the game and secure her third win of the season. She went 5.2 innings while allowing just two earned runs.

Game 2: Cal 5, Illinois State 2 Scoreless until the fifth, Cal's bats finally broke out thanks to Tianna Bell. The sophomore crushed her first home run of the season, a blast to left field as Cal took a 1-0 lead.

Anna Reimers was effective for the Bears in the circle, allowing just one hit, a bloop single, until the sixth inning. The Redbirds got their own bats going in that frame using a pair of hits and a couple Cal errors to take a 2-1 advantage.

The lead was short-lived as Pond went opposite field to even the game right back up with a solo shot. Tied 2-2 heading to the seventh, Cal reliever Ashanti McDade set the Illinois State hitters down in order to give the Bears a chance to walk it off in the bottom half.

The Bears did just that when Todd launched a 2-2 pitch way over the fence in center for her first-career home run.

UP NEXT Cal finishes the Littlewood Classic on Sunday, February 18th with an 8 a.m. PT first pitch vs. Memphis at the GCU Softball Stadium.

STAY POSTED For coverage of Cal softball, please follow the Bears on Twitter (@CalSB), Instagram (@calsb) and Facebook (/CalSoftball/).

#Go Bears!#This is Bear Territory #Cal sports #Roll on you Bears #UC Berkeley #Go Bears

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factorialsotherfandoms · 5 months

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blip bloop bitching below. keeping this out of the tags as I need to scream but don't want it to travel.

I hate so much that I genuinely dread days when Philza and Tubbo interact. Because they're friends and should be able to just hang and stuff! And it can be fun to watch! But it seems every time they even go near each other the Philza tag becomes full of crap, then people kicking back, and its /worst/ now Sunny is here (I love her, mostly, but it makes it so much worse). The post about Sunny being scared of Philza with the screenshots was at the top of the Philza Tag (by how I access them at least) for 3 days. It always defaults to top before I flip it to most recent. It wasn't tagged as discourse or neg or anything - it was just screenshots after all - but the bitching which came out of that was so much, and every time I saw them it bought the bitching to mind, and half of that wasn't tagged either (on the original posts, in the tags, where I like looking for fic and meta and fanart and check my top 4 tags each morning).

And, yeah, a 30-off year old streamer probably not even on tumblr doesn't need defending online. BUT the shit and the way those posts talk and the things they shit on him for... a) its very much cc!Phil not q!Phil no matter what people say, because he talks in the same way even on the fucking pumpkin carving stream and more importantly b) mirrors very real bullying, discrimination and hate I and a lot of other English people have experienced. (yes of course its worse if you're an ethnic minority or have a Scottish accent or any number of other things, but just because other people have it worse doesn't mean it isn't a genuine axis of discrimination).

And sometimes I need to fucking defend not him but myself, because I feel like I'm going mad.

You might not see it, you might not even know about the north-south divide and English class politics, but its embedded into near every fantasy movie you've watched, accent wise at least!

Just personal shit... I have a southern parent and a northern parent. I grew up in the south-east. As a kid I could switch accents at will. Using my mother's northern accent (slightly more natural to me, as she was home more often) I would get marked down in class for being aggressive and argumentative and other kids would think I was angry with them. My father genuinely suggested I switch which I spoke with, and it was effort but doable, and guess what? My marks went up and I was seen as friendlier than the other children. It still wasn't the accent for the region - where I grew up has a very distinct one even for the south - and yet I was treated better for it.

Which. Could have seriously messed up my future if my grades kept being marked down and I kept getting into trouble for behaviour over stuff in another accent nobody bat an eyelid to.

[I had a section here too about different treatment while getting bra fittings, but given it involved members of staff literally hurting me as a literal child only when speaking one of the two accents, I removed it. Minor hurt, but hurt.]

And that was just personal experience! Of being read as aggressive or scary or like I didn't care for sounding northern.

And of fucking course this is only ever about fucking Tubbo, the southern who logs in regularly, this shit always starts. The southerner, whose accent is on the respectable side of this not-quite-a-class-divide.

And you know how deeply routed the north-south divide is? Sociologists generally date it back to /1066/ and the north being massacred for causing trouble for the new king. Economically and in terms of reputation, the north has never actually recovered from that. Even when it was major industry, even when major ports, its /always/ been behind the south.

Not just in terms of money going around, but things like life expectancy and education expectations. Rich northerners still have a harder time than their southern peers.

(Honestly, Sunny having 'verbalised' being scared of him for his tone of voice and not other adults who treat them older than they are [because yk its impossible to tell with an egg model] also kinda rubs me the wrong way, because of that sort of treatment of me as a kid. If I was aware of more fear towards other adults she doesn't know as well it'd be easier. Yeah he's a bit intense, and he should maybe be more delicate with a kid, but heaven knows he's not the only character that is. Maybe as more people drift back we'll see it more, I don't know, the admin probably isn't English either, but dear god. The daughter of a southerner telling her daddy that the northerner is scary is such a fucking classist trope. And a really offensive one at that. And shit which actually happens irl, which sometimes leads to the police getting involved.)

#fandom neg #discourse #keeping this out of the tags as I need to scream but don't want it to travel

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acaplaya-musings · 2 months

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Voiceplay Visuals: Seven Nation Army

This video debuted on the 13th of May, 2023, and is the second feature of Anthony Gargiula, who first collaborated with Voiceplay just a couple months prior for Golden Hour. Not much to say in my little intro here, let's just jump straight in!

No clue where this was filmed (the description doesn't say), I'm guessing an old abandoned shopping mall or something?

The necklace on full display once more!

One thing I do know about the filming of this is that Voiceplay had to use duct tape to cover up/censor some of the graffiti, such as on the column/post on the left of the shot here 😅 (vibes and aesthetic are great, but gotta keep it PG!)

This ain't the Eli from the Moana Medley and Daddy Sang Bass and Get Back Up Again and all that, this is a dude who I wouldn't wanna meet in a dark alley, and certainly wouldn't wanna pick a fight with!

(This Eli could definitely haul those hay bales no problem, I bet 😉😆)

Would've loved to have seen Geoff actually swinging that bat at something in this video, for uh, Reasons 👀 👉👈

(Pretty Boy)

Group shot!

I saw a comment somewhere that referred to Cesar as "looking like the centrefold model in Zombie Apocalypse Monthly" or something along those lines and it was brilliant and hilarious. Cesar never fails to be iconic!

And yes, Geoff is once more the only one with bare shoulders in a video! Good For Him! (kinda wish he was wearing fingerless gloves like Anthony and Eli though, but only a little tiny bit)

"c'mon" (in case you didn't know, this was Geoff's arrangement 😁😉)

"make the sweat-" *bloop* "-out of every pore!"

(Layne was freaking nuts during this cover, but when is he not honestly?)

GO OFF, ELI!! 🙌✊

Note to self: don't mess with Layne either! (actually don't mess with any of Voiceplay - be friends with them instead! (man I wish))

Blink and you miss it! (Though you hopefully don't miss the sound effects that go with it!)

Absolutely badass 👌

Shoutout to Geoff for the arrangement and video, and shoutout to all five of these dudes for being incredibly cool, and giving such an amazing performance! This song cover is one I have the lyrics memorised for, but not most of the arrangement, because this is a pretty dang complex one and there is so much going on! Very fun reactor material though (but really, so was practically everything else Voiceplay released in 2023!)

I have 4 more videos left to do from 2023, plus the two newest videos from this year, and then I'll be moving on to some of Geoff's stuff! So stay tuned!

#voiceplay #acapella #seven nation army #geoff castellucci #eli jacobson #layne stein #cesar de la rosa #anthony gargiula #acaplaya analysis #voiceplay visuals

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honeybeewhereartthee · 4 months

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MY DARLING DOLLS 51

PREVIOUS || PT 9 CH51 || NEXT

Kanata did calm down as well the rain did. He slept in your arms as mayoi was singing to calm him down.

Kuma really want to say something but decided he would say it when your not busy calming that big baby.

Honestly he have notice so many weird things about that Kanata. First was saying his journey outside this world is "seeing things" to him. Usually... People would react differently. Yet when he remembers why his here was because of the future-present of Kanata.

He heard that Kanata and Mayoi have an argument. Leading Kanata to take away the DD body and he already have your unconscious soul with him. Yet why does he need to force him to travel time to seek where you are???

Kuma felt headache when he think too much about it. It's all bloody complicated!

He takes a deep breath before he plan what he will do next if things come out of hand.

...

Kanata seems to only have the reaction to Mayoi since the next year after that you made two more DD with the two of them.

The doll Rei and Shu. Who's seems close with Kanata out of the bat. Kuma seems offended by the presence of Rei but through the link said otherwise.

"ah... Because rei and ritsu are brothers..." Kanata explain to you as the two of you takes a walk around the beach that his cult follower have brought for him.

It's been years already instead of those cult being nom hype to his so called godly image they all went more delulu instead.

"They are?" You tilt your head. "Hmm. At least... That's what's the usual [canon] event. Through the other ritsu is not the current ritsu..."

You were even more confuse by his statement. Not understanding what's canon and what's not.

"my dollmaker looks so silly when confuse." He bloop your nose with a chuckle. "I would tell you anything but your not the type that dwell in such matter."

[ ... ASK HIM ASK HIM! ] Kuma began to demand in your mind, he already feed up with Kanata stuff.

You thought of something you heard from him before. < Do you love Kanata or me > or something close to that. it's from years back yet it did stick around when you heard it.

"..." You look at Kanata. "Do you mean destiny by canon?" Your just guessing. "Hmm... I guess so, in some way it is. " He nodded his head.

"Other ritsu seems to want me to ask me so many things.... But I don't entertain question from other people but my dollmaker." He said in a sing a song while looking deep inside of you. Looking straight at ritsu red orbs.

"if Kuma is other ritsu. Are you perhaps someone else?" You stared at his green orbs "will you tell me your name so I can call you right... And what happened to Kanata?" You don't show aggression or hate to him.

He stared at you in silent. Before he smiles and hold your hands. "My dollmaker... " He seems to be in deep thought. You earnestly look at him waiting. Even Kuma is in the edge.

"I don't know..." He finally said as he sigh. "I don't think I can use my old one." He chuckle at your reaction. Far from distance he stared at the flowers, the sea and the sky.

MC: "Old one?"

"hmm... "

MC: " What's that?"

"I don't think you can understand it."

MC: "are you underestimating me?" You felt challenge. It's not that impossible --

"it's < ***** > ."

MC:"huh."(⁠⊙⁠_⁠◎⁠) who can only hear a BEEP BEEP

"it's < *****> ???? Can't you understand that?" He tilt his head in wonder.

MC: "........no?"

"ah it's probably cause it's a foreign word from another world. It's ok. If you can't understand it then that's fine too. I don't need to use that label now. Since Canon name is still Kanata Shinkai either way." He bloop your nose and think how cute and silly you are at the moment.

"I will understand your name one day! Hmmp!" You cross your arms. Taking this as a challenge. but then remember something. " Are you another Kanata if so... What happened to the one that supposed to be here?"

"oh. I eat his soul." He smiles as if he answer something about the weather while he pick up some shell in the sand.

".........." WTF. You and Kuma cannot help but want to back away even if it's a joke... which you hope it is.

#my darling dolls au #my darling dolls au main story #my darling doll au main story #my darling doll au #mdd main story part nine #mdd au #my darling dolls

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doctorprofessorsong · 1 year

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I posted 8,782 times in 2022

104 posts created (1%)

8,678 posts reblogged (99%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@wigglebox

@valleydean

@unlimiteddream90

@fellshish

@you-cant-spell-subtext-without

I tagged 2,128 of my posts in 2022

#destiel - 550 posts

#deancas - 447 posts

#the winchesters - 200 posts

#spnwin - 187 posts

#suptober22 - 175 posts

#castiel - 129 posts

#supernatural - 108 posts

#spn - 103 posts

#cas - 100 posts

#spnwin spoilers - 100 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#and your art is so unbelievably gorgeous it makes me want to scream into a pillow there aren’t enough laurels on earth to throw at your fee

My Top Posts in 2022:

Destiel fic recs

Well, it looks like the brainrot is permanent and there is no cure. I can't seem to get enough of these dudes. Please enjoy the fruits of my unending obsession with another rec list.

Love Bites by @malmuses (Explicit, 34k)

I don't know why I love a tiny creature Dean, but this fic had my entire heart from the first chapter. Not since OctopusDean said bloop has a Dean been this adorable.

Dean, a vampire in bat form, gets injured by Cas' menace of a cat (affectionate). Cas nurses him back to health and, as Dean heals, he finds himself more and more enamored with his savior.

Cas is delightfully awkward and Dean is entirely smitten and it makes for an adorably soft dynamic. Plus I want to put bat!Dean in my pocket. He’s so cute.

Boyfriend of Thursday by mnwood @deancasheadcanons (Explicit, 40k)

The side characters are fantastic, plus there is positive representation of polyamory and some really interesting casting that makes this one super entertaining.

Passing Ships by quiettewandering (Mature, 78k)

I Can See Your Halo by redamber79 @imbiowaresbitch (series, 2 works, Explicit, 9.8k words)

It also serves as a fairly delightful fix-it with a really fun resolution that will also have a condo in my mind.

It's scorching hot and a really fun read.

In It For The Long Haul by @ltleflrt (Explicit 25k)

This is the fluffiest, softest fic to soothe what ails you. Dean, a long-haul trucker, meets an intriguing waiter at a truck stop and starts reordering his life to find ways to see him again.

Racing Stripes by tiamatv (Mature, 37k)

Listen, I tell you a mystery by bathilda bagshot (wellthengameover) @the-lions-mouth (Teen, 25k)

It's told in snippets. Vignettes that delve into trauma and hope. They build an absolutely beautiful parallel story, gorgeous for their intersections and the places they diverge.

This one made me cry real human tears and it's definitely one that will haunt me.

See the full post

435 notes - Posted September 11, 2022

Destiel Fic Recs!

Congratulations or sorry, but here are some more Destiel fic recs to take over your life.

Penny & Pound by thalius @seasontwelvedean (Explicit, 67k WIP)

OK, I know some of you don't read works in progress, but this one is worth breaking that rule for, because it caused me approximately 25 internal breakdowns. Go read it yesterday.

Dean's in love with Cas. That's a given. And lately he's been thinking about doing something about it. Especially now that Eileen is becoming a fixture in their lives and Dean finds himself more achingly alone with Cas right beside him. All he has to do is work up the nerve to ask his best friend out. What's the worst that could happen? He says no? Leaves and never returns? They start dating and Cas realizes Dean is the worst and they break up and everything is terrible forever? He's fine. This is fine.

This canon/canon adjacent fic is a master class in the disaster4disaater, Dean and Cas are the last to know it's requited dynamic. It's amazing and sweet and I found myself unable to sleep until I read one more chapter. If that's not enough, there's also some incredible stuff about Dean and Mary trying to work on their relationship and Cas trying to figure out where he fits into Claire's life. This fic is everything.

Strandlines by aeli_kindara (Explicit, 40k) @gravelghosts

Speaking of fics that make me feral, Strandlines is one of those stories where you have to stop reading and think "holy shit this is so incredible" and then stare at the wall for a good 10 minutes.

Cas finds himself back in the year 2003 with his memory scrambled. All he knows for certain is that he has one directive: save Dean Winchester. It's Stanford Era Dean with all of his brash, charming bravado and his aching loneliness. And Cas at his BAMF angeliest but free from the interference of Heaven.

The fic will make you ache. It's gorgeous. It absolutely dismantled me. The way Cas sees the man who wants so desperately to know he can be loved. The way Dean wants Cas to stay and how he wants to share everything with him. It's breathtaking.

Plus there is a healthy dose of Fuck John Winchester as a treat.

the home we make together by vaudelin (Explicit, 48k) @vaudelin

A post-canon fix-it that is so soft and sweet. After losing Cas, Dean has exhausted almost all his options to try and bring him home. One more shot. And if it doesn't work, he'll have to stop. He needs to focus on Jack, now a toddler. Dean has built a life for them. A good one. But he has to try it one more time.

What follows is a sweet, consensual possession domestic Dad!Dean and Dadstiel fic that will heal your soul. Toddler Jack is adorable and Dean and Cas finally have time without the world ending to try and figure out what they want their life to look like. It's the soft epilogue they deserve.

Falling Inn Love by MalMuses (Explicit, 58k) @malmuses

Sometimes you need some hilarious, tropey rom-com goodness in your life, and this fic goes above and beyond. It had me laughing so hard I had tears rolling down my face as I tried not to wake my family (because I wouldn't put it down and go to bed). It also has a lot of heart.

Cas' comfortable if unsatisfying life gets turned upside down when he breaks up with his suffocatingly controlling boyfriend and then finds that the company he's devoted years to has gone belly up the next day .

Single and with no real plan, Cas is wallowing with his bestie (Meg, my beloved) when he gets an unexpected opportunity. His co-worker is willing to sell him a quaint little Inn in Kansas at a bargain price. Cas can finally pursue a dream he's had since college.

So off Cas goes, sight unseen, to start a new life. But he manages to make a complete fool of himself in front of the town's most eligible bachelor within minutes of arriving and the dream home he purchased turns out to be a bit of a nightmare. Cas may be a bit Inn (sorry, but you know I'm not) over his head.

More below the cut

The Closest Thing We Have To Magic by EllenOfOz and TrenchcoatBaby (Explicit, 221k) @ellen-of-oz

As I have said, I'm very picky about AU fics because I need Dean and Cas to feel like them. This one manages to hit all the Destiel feels for me and it is so so good.

Set in a world where magic exists but is regulated by elite learning institutions, Dean is a graduate student working on his thesis. This is made more difficult when he's assigned Dr. Novak, a drop dead gorgeous new professor as his advisor. An advisor he can’t stop thinking about.

Dean and Cas are absolutely messy disasters in the best way in this fic. Seriously, they are amazing. I'm a sucker for smart, competent Dean. And Cas is trying so hard to do the right thing.

But I can't rec this without also mentioning the absolutely stellar world building. The authors have created such great mythology. From the way magic works to the use of the profound bond to the societal inequities created by the regulation of magic. Seriously, you won't want it to end.

See the full post

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I'm gonna say something that is exceptionally hard to share because apparently some people need to hear it. The lgbtqia+ community is there to create a safe place for people who don't fit within cisheteronormative societal expectations, regardless of labels.

There have been a few hot takes about "pantomiming" or "performing" queerness and I want to say this is deeply hurtful to me personally.

I don't know where I fit when it comes to the gender fuckery that lives inside my brain. Straight spaces full of cis women often make me feel uncomfortable. Like I have to pretend I am someone I'm not. But I still (at this time) consider myself a cis woman. I enjoy and I am affirmed by my femme gender expression but hate being forced into feminine things. My brain often feels more like what society feels a guy should be like.

Nothing I have tried on feels quite right. Am I nonbinary? Gender nonconforming? Genderqueer? Mostly I describe myself as "a woman but in a way that makes most people distinctly uncomfortable." That makes me happy. That sentence feels right.

Talking about queerness as if it is one monolithic thing you can perform or pantomime makes me ache. Are my efforts for trans and GNC folks less meaningful if I am or am not part of the community? Can I joke about things being gender?

For me, queerness has always been looking at what society has to offer and saying: nope. I don't fit there. Queer spaces make me feel so much less alone.

And my openly bi status gives me a nice, clean place in those spaces, but it's my gender fuckery that makes me need them more.

The feeling that I could say: I'm not like other girls because I literally feel like I have to pretend around them, can I please come find shelter here? And that I might be told: nope, you are just performing queerness for clout. Or nope, you have to subscribe to certain external expressions to be considered queer. The idea that anyone could "perform" queerness because they acted outside of societal norms and that is somehow a violation? The idea that I might be expected to go from performing cis woman to performing queer woman where if I fail I am somehow not enough? Makes me feel invalid. It is physically affecting me.

So, I don’t know? Maybe think about that?

2,640 notes - Posted April 28, 2022

Which character from OFMD are you and who do you stan?

Let me tell you who you kin and who you stan in OFMD (or in SPNblr speak, what x coded, y girl (gn) alignment you have).

4,073 notes - Posted May 3, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

I'm gonna say it here too. Allow me to be crystal fucking clear.

It is not cowardly to stay in the closet. Full stop. You do not owe anyone any part of yourself you aren't ready to share

If you unable to come out because you fear for your safety or well-being or because you know it will cause you substantial discomfort, that is not a defect in you. It's a failure of the society in which you live and the community surrounding you.

If you just don't want to share that part of yourself, that is valid and I support you

47,179 notes - Posted April 26, 2022

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#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #false #i am so unwell

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optimistredsox · 11 months

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6 July, TEX @ BOS, 6-10, win

It’s the triumphant return of the Scrappy Rollercoasters! Down but not out with some unlikely and outrageous hitting that was one heck of a game to see the Rangers off. It had the drama of seeing old pal Nate Eovaldi again (miss that dude - my MVP from the 2018 post season by a long way), the tension of it looking like the Texas lineup was simply going to punish us when they took the lead in the fifth, the rollercoaster-i-ness of taking the lead first, then the other team coming back and then them taking the lead then us taking the lead back and then really taking the lead and keeping it and then, like Dirty Water all over the place. So, um, bright sides.

The bats in general came through when they needed to, when dudes were on base. Some of the hits were unlikely (Raffy’s scoop golf swing that turned into a wall-ball RBI double, Masa’s ridiculous hop blooper RBI that just looked like something out of a bad Major League sequel), none of the hits were dingers (weird for a 10-run game) but gosh they seemed to make them all count.

Connor Wong went 3-for-3 with a RBI. His average is always lower than I expect it to be. He does seem to get hits a lot.

Raffy Devers went 2-for-4 with 2 RBIs and a run scored.

Kiké knocked in two and scored two on one of the most unlikely hits in an evening of unlikely hits. A bloop single to short left that tied and took the lead back in the game as well as kicking off the rally

Justin Turner went 2-for-4 with a RBI and a run scored.

Dugie had no hits but scored two runs. He only walked once.

We won!

We had a super fun rally in the seventh!

We won the series and are two games above .500!

#Boston Red Sox #Red Sox #Boston

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student-in-nightraven · 1 year

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Hello!!! Is it possible your matchups are open? If so, could you match me up with the obey me cast? Or twisted wonderland, since I'm fine with both!

Idrk how to start this off since I'm an awkward person (at first), but I'll try describing my personality..

I'm an esfp(got enfp on different tests) people say I'm a fun person to be with, though I can be quite annoying.. People also say that I'm charming (only when I want to be), and a really nice person! The way I dress is quite the opposite from how I act. I dress in rokku gyaru clothing and Gothic lolita whenever I get the chance, and theyre often stereotyped to be someone mean, and really hardcore, but I'm not! I literally have like 30 plushies hiding in my closet😭😭 though apart from dressing like that, I also dress in himekaji, and sweet lolita clothing!

I'm really, really, REAAALLY energetic. It can be pretty hard to keep up with me. And I talk A LOT, I talk so much I pretty much just talk about EVERYTHING that happened to me.. I always regret it after. I'm chaotic and childish, though I can act calmer and more mature and sophisticated if others want me to.

I'm really great with children, though they can annoy me sometimes.. And I really love cats! I own like 16 cats, don't even ask abt it😭😭

I love learning about new stuff, and listening to others stories! It's always fun to learn something new.

I have hobbies that include: reading, writing, drawing, etc!

I mostly read stuff on the horror genre, and poetry! But I occasionally read romance.

I'm a female who's fine with any pronouns but prefers he/him or they/them pronouns

Here's a little more about me; I give almost everyone a silly nickname, it's usually from something silly/embarrassing they did or smth they remind me of and I tease them with it(if they're uncomfortable with it I stop calling them that immediately). I don't usually play games online,and I much prefer to go outside. I have a habit of typing in caps (im not mad or anything-just really excited to chat) People I'm close with say that they we're scared at me at first since I kinda have a rbf😞 I seem much more confident and bold than I really am, people think I'm brave when in reality; I'm not really that brave. People usually open up to me quick, and tell me that they think I'm kind, and caring! (I love those people with all my heart istg😭)

That's it! You must be tired of reading, and I'm tired of typing😢 thanks 4 reading all of this!!

16 cats?! That's impressive👀, but either way, I match you with..

... Lilia!

Lilia loves your clothing style, since his kinda into the gothic outfits too so he loves matching with you, once he found out you have 16 cats he immediately wanted to see them and memorise everyone's name(he actually did memorise them, can't remember his own birthday but he can remember 16 cats names😭)

Lilia loves going in adventures with you, and hearing you talk about your interests, it can be hours but he'll never get tired from hearing your own tales💞

You two are super chaotic and whenever about to cause trouble have that Cheshire cat grin on your faces and anyone who's around to witness that is preparing to survive.

You give him a nickname and he adores it, pouts anytime you don't use a special nickname on him, he obviously uses nicknames for you too! He calls you his little bat or bloop (idk I suck at nicknames 💔)

Lilia tells you his tales that includes horror since he found out you like the genre, also I hc that he's a writer so he shows you some of his poems he wrote, most of them are new which he wrote ab you

He's bubbly around you and you're bubbly around him, one of the most sunshine couple the entire nrc had ever seen!

In short you 2 are the sunshine/chaotic couple!<3

Thank you for the request dear annon! May you have a wonderful week♡

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