#CANT U SEE HE'S SAD

[wikitpowers]

i'm a mind reader and why is ty thinking of this...

honesty did i lie? boy is whipped as hell

#he thinks of kit's freckle and blue eyes every night #and he gets sad #(me too ty. me too.) #boyyo just wants to see kit again #(​and smooch him but that's besides the point) #LET HIM SEE KIT AGAIN #CANT U SEE HE'S SAD #ugh i just want their reunion #is that too much to ask for #I'VE WAUTED ENOUGH #ty blackthorn #kit herondale #kit x ty #kitty #the wicked powers #twp #tsc

[lotus-pear]

VERLAINEEEE as promised

#HE IS SO BEAUTIFUL WHAT THE FUCK😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #YALL SEE WHERE CHUUYA GETS THE GENES FROM???????? #BEAUTIFUL ELEGANT ETHEREAL TRAGIC SAD GAY FRENCHMAN #I CANT BELIEVE THERES PPL WHO DONT LIKE HIM WTF #PPL WHO DONT LIKE VERLAINE ARE EMBRASSING...........KEEP THAT TO URSELF😐 #im actually so insane im im im im #i actually found a new brush and i've been absuing yf out of it if u couldnt tell the colorings a little different #anyway yea #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #bsd verlaine #verlaine bsd #stormbringer #bsd stormbringer #lotus draws

[luck-of-the-drawings]

[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]

saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS #REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT #NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS #THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS. #ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of #another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY.. #i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her #idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had #when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them. #but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore. #but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think #i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow. #ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that #AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE #I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME #THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE #WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL #in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad #this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks- #-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl- #-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi #gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show #i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!! #anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM

[sillylittleguyinatrenchcoat]

geto meme batch bc i love one man <3 + this week’s episode broke me like a sad flimsy piñata

#SO HOW ABT EP5 HUH………… #my favorite ep this season for SURE but also……… dare i say it……. my fave jjk episode overall? I DARE #i saw some ppl say they didnt like the art direction and i dont get that at ALLLL but u do u ig. #every single scene was just insanely good i lost it every 5 seconds like. mappa. i would give u my everything #but WHEWWWW WHEN HE THREW THE MIC?????? obsessed. #yuki carried also <33333 they did her so good!! and SHOKOOOOO MY BELOVED #im a lil sad we didnt get the iconic lighter scene but i cant be disappointed when they made shoko and geto look THAT good #anyways <3 i love suguru geto. #i love his goofy silly emotionally repressed high school friend group #AND i love his goofy silly morally dubious clown family <3 wish we got to see more of em!! #but more than anything i love papa geto and his daughters. mappa made the headpat even cuter somehow i shed actual tears. THOSE R HIS KIDS #geto is so mommy coded im sorry. im sorry for telling the truth #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #suguru geto #geto #jujutsu kaisen memes #jjk memes #satoru gojo #shoko ieiri #haibara yu #mimiko hasaba #nanako hasaba #miguel #larue #manami suda #kenjaku #yuta okkutsu #sashisu #satosugu

[birdricks]

ok heres this. how i interpreted his fears at least

#rnm spoilers #most of them r said pretty plainly but whatever LOL i love lists #interesting how u can see mortys Main fear of relying on rick right from the start #not sure abt the ‘rick putting them in danger one’ #its in tbat little loop of Rick Fears #which im not quite sure what to make of. so thats the closest i can get #its definitely smth hes doen a lot. so theres that #SCARY IMPLICATIONS of morty having overcome his reliance on rick. or at least his fear of it #like in conquering the hole alone hes realised he doesnt really Need rick. #like maybe one day therell be a time he gets in trouble and rick Wont bail him out. or cant. but hes ok w that now? #hmmmm. intersting. very curious to see where that goes #themost painful one for me is being responsible for ricks sadness #liek thsts so fucking rough. #GETTING PERSONAL…. like i know how it feels to be a kid and feel responsible for the emotions of adults. it sucks balls #itd be interesting to see if All of these fesrs have been conquered or just the reliance one

[bsd-verse]

All the questions I got after the season finale

Who is the man Fyodor was talking about before the helicopter crash?

Is Fyodor really dead?

What's going to happen now?

Where have been Lucy, Yosano and Kyouka all this time?

Where is Kouyou? And Mori along with PM?

Will Sigma ever wake up?

What was Fyodor's ability?

What will Nikolai do after all these events?

What was Teruko's backstory?

Where was Jouno?

How about Tecchou's past?

What's going to happen to One Order? What really it is?

Will Dazai and Chuuya come back to Japan?

And probably many more....

#pardon me for my curios ass #if yall have answers to any of the questions written above pls enlighten me #u cant deny the fact that there are now so many plot holes and this was seriously not the way i imagined how this arc would finish #tbh im sad that fyodor died #(well maybe he is alive who knows) #i now hope to see more of order of the clocktower and european organisations #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd spoilers #bsd manga #bsd s5 #bsd season 5 #chuuya nakahara #dazai osamu #soukoku #fyodor dostoevsky #nikolai gogol #teruko ōkura #jouno saigiku #suehiro tecchou #lucy maud montgomery #yosano akiko #kyouka izumi #kouyou ozaki #mori ougai #bsd sigma #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #bsd fyodor

[martyrbat]

[ID: an uncoloured drawing for a panel next to the publicized version. They're both from the comic Batman: Legends of the Dark Knight #194. In them, Batman is shown from the waist up. He's looking at Jim Gordon, who's off panel, with a penitent expression after being accused of something he secretly did do. He has his palm pressed against his chest and is blocking the bat emblem as his other hand is clasped ontop of it. In the initial drawing, there's a halo floating above his head as well as several tiny hearts mixed in with the lights that surround him. In the publicized panel, the hearts and halo has been removed and two speech bubbles have been added. He's in front of a terra rose background and is starting to say, “Jim, I don't even know what you're...” But Jim cuts him off, saying, “Stop it. I'm tired of this.”

The third photo is a description of the drawing from the artist's (Seth Fisher) website. It reads: This is another page that the DC editors changed: no halos or hearts around Batman, no matter how (disingenuously) contrite he is. In the final edition, the halo and heart in the center bottom frame have been excised.]

#happy sad boy sunday !!! #this counts because he's getting broken up with and because im sad bc they removed the halo and hearts #included the link to the website on the word too :3 in case any of u wanted to see his unpublished work too #deleting a big ol rant that no one cares about but basically: #hate seeing how much creativity and personality gets edited and removed despite it being the artist's job & how you have rememberable #and remarkable art. i get the editors got an important job but at the same time at what point do you allow art and personality to exist #just to make comics more fun to read/look at instead of basing everything on a capitalistic stoic reputation that #youre responsible for creating?? turning batman into a symbol of unwavering compassion and empathy and the reminder theres always stars #even on the darkest night if you remember to look up. him going from being a symbol of hope and humanity to being a character #that cant fucking have a heart or visual compassion out of fear they cant market him more or ruin that fragile reputation. #they make editing decisions based on it as a product instead of it as a character/story or an artform and god does it show. #happy sad boy sunday bc shutting down artistic freedom and expressionism for capitalistic reasonings is making me want to shoot myself 🥰🥰 #c: batman: legends of the dark knight | i: 194 #crypt's panels #batman #posts from the crypt

[reel-fear]

MIKE BLOCKED ME ON TWITTER FOR ROASTING HIS DUMBASS RESPONSE TO THE GRAPHIC NOVEL STUFF!!

grown ass man scared of the 19-year-old queer being mean to him over his public meltdown more at 8.

#ramblez #little white boy sad? U sad bc nobody likes you? Bc u constantly make a fool of urself and show off ur distaste for ur fans? lmao #this is one of the greatest things to ever happen to me imagine how mad he'll be when he finds out the fangame Im making has queers in it #hes gonna have a whole other white boy meltdown on main KJSNFDGKJHFGKJHGKJHSDFGSD #hes so fucking sensitive maybe just get off of social media Mike this never ends well for you #batim #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #and look Im joking around about this but it really is sad that the bendy devs cant handle this kind of critique towards their decisions #it seems despite the backlash once again they are choosing to ignore their fans which is yknow upsetting #But hey ig if the devs being awful was a dealbreaker for this fandom I wouldve left a long time ago and I havent #dw Im not going anywhere <3 #also if anyone else here was also criticizing Mike maybe check his acct to make sure ur not blocked now since apparently #old habits die hard and this is certainly a pattern with him KJHDSFKGJHSDKFGJHDFGSD #also look before anyone asks yes I was kinda mean to him over this but to put bluntly if hes gonna be this dismissive to his fans concerns #he deserves it. Theres this persistent attitude esp in bendy fanspaces of being defensive of the devs #and I dont know why they have been extremely horrible people every single chance they get #and its very hurtful to see how many people would rather tell me to be kinder to the people who broke the heart of a child me when they #dismissed any ideas of putting queers like me in their stories than to realize Mike n Meatly bring this bad attention to themselves #to put bluntly I dont owe them kindness not until they at least apologize for the shit they did which they still havent #mike hasnt even addressed his vent poem in the code of BATDR let alone the other shit he said n did #so no I will not be kind to him ever hope this helps!

[rouge-the-bat]

"i need to know if this character is an adult or not so i know if i can selfship with them!" ...my dude you clearly are already attracted to them ??? like. gurl theyre FICTIONAL. do whatever the fuck you want god damn.

self ship with them with them aged up. or with an imaginary version of you aged down. or just hc whatever gd age you want for them whether or not it ends up being canon (or its already stated in canon but doesnt match ur view of them). or selfship yourself with them through a character in canon. you can literally just see your fictional other as aging with you. who fucking cares. its fiction. the specifics of the relationship is whatever the hell you make it.

its literally so sad to see people being afraid to just SELF SHIP because they dont know if its potentially ~problematic~ depending on stuff they can easily just rule out of their own view of canon 💀 canon is your sandbox you can tear down the castle and build it anew however to your liking

#im glad that shadow is canonically immortal and hiei has no stated age #bc if people tried to give me shit for being in love with either of them i would fucking kill someone #i fell in love with shadow years ago through shipping him with rouge and i still love him now. he ''ages'' with me #and hiei i technically hc him as nearly a hundred but hes a demon #and i selfship with him through kurama who has also lived for centuries so #i swear you dont have to drop off your fictional crushes from your teen years when you turn an adult. you can just see them as aging with u #just. man. OTL #seeing ppl being like this is so sad fr. this shipping discourse shit is making ppl walk on eggshells over the littlest shit #anti fanpol #like its different for real life bc yea sometimes u cant always tell someones age by looking at them #u can find someone attractive and talk to them and find out theyre too young for you. so you back off #but like. this is fiction. things arent set in stone. the creator can make a time skip for the characters and so can you #and plus. theyre NOT REAL. you wouldnt be harming a REAL PERSON. and its not at all comparable to the suffering and abuse of REAL PEOPLE

[nosfelixculpa]

[so mun voice]: hi dad mo tak i hope this email blows ur tits clean off

#creations #gifs #kdrama #kdramas #the uncanny counter #the uncanny counter 2 #netflix #so mun #ga mo tak #ive been meaning to gif this scene since the episode i lov it so much #theyre such goobers #hitting the brain cell to eachother like ping pong at all times #i may hav to make another set for the 2nd part of this scene #whole thing is 1000/10 #i saw some ppl saying they were sad they dont hav a father son relationship in s2 nd im like #what show r u watching do u not see them #i also wish there was a better way to translate ahjussi to english #i get that its like old man [affectionate] in terms of their relationship but i cant write that #it feels wrong to hav mo tak there when he doesnt call him that but it will hav to do

[silenthillbunni]

🐰🌧️

#so on my way home.. #i walked by a school and besides the fact that i felt so depressed bc just looking at these kids and adults i have NO hope for the future #i saw two boys on a bench as i walked by... and i just thought they were talking. and too late i realized that no one of the boys were #bullying the other boy. the bully walked away and the other boy just sat there looking so lifeless and dejected #a teacher came and sat down w that boy and i just kept walking. even if i wanted to say smth it's like what would i even do abt that situati #that made me so sad both bc that boy.. he looked so dejected and used to it. that anxiety going to school knowing you're bullied is awful #and like i imagined talking to him and saying heyyy if you're lucky you'll grow up to be 25yrs old #live like a parasite off your mom and be on wellfare and never have had a job :) #you'll have no education or highschool diploma :) you will still struggle to finish hs even at an easier level :) #you will also not have had friends in 10yrs and you'll be terrified of ppl and getting close to anyone and even going outside!! #you'll have no interests and hobbies and skills! you'll simply be a waste of space loser being a burden on everyone around u! #whoop whoop stay alive buddy it will only get worse ❤️ #god i just wanna cry. how did i let my life turn out this way??? i used to be full of dreams and life and passion and HOPE #i used to believe in things and in people. i had so many dreams and i wanted to try and do so many things #now all i can think is 'i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die'. im miserable wherever i go lmao #there's this bridge over the highway i have to cross when i walk to school and every time i look down at the trafic and when a truck drives #by i feel my entire body vibrate. i just wanna jump and get mauled by it. #or i dont *want* to but i feel so deeply and desperately that it's the only way for me #only way to make it stop hurting. and i am weak. i dont know how to just 'stop' or take control of my life. thats why i wanna die #bc i know that i wont be able to. that my life will never amount to anything #for fuck's sake my dream now is just to have my own 1bedroom apartment and have a shitty job - like in a grocery store or whatever!!!!! #not even that can i make happen! bc im so worthless i cant do anything. im also stupid so i wouldnt be able to do my job right #i dont know... i dont know... these feelings and thoughts are too much i just wanna relax #but i cant bc my ribs hurt and idk if it's heartburn or an ulcer 💀 why am i even alive???? what am i doing all this for? 😭 #my thoughts ran away but i meant like seeing that reminded me of how much of a failure i became #bc of my circumstances and all the shitty ppl around me thru out my life

[wikitpowers]

analysis of the kit (& ty) art literally no one asked for

• main and most important point: why does kit look so sad? we can't have sad. no being sad in this household. sadness in herondales usually means they are away to go and sacrifice themselves for their one true love and nope we are not doing that

• his shirt is very much giving faerie vibes or is it just me? so why are they in faerie? what are they doing there? i need answers ahhh, also i knew kit was gonna switch up his wardrobe and he looks so good

• HIS FRECKLE DON'T THINK I DON'T SEE U (i always see the freckle and it always messes me up)

• his hair looks so floofy and soft and bed head, he is so freaking precious and i hope he rests well in his boyfriend's arms

• that brings me to the fact that he looks so in love but also so heartbroken and it makes me so worried ugh just please just don't make him suffer i couldn't take it again

• um kit and ty are in a bed???? together???? what happened there???? tell me they were kissing and then fell asleep in each others arms (kit as little spoon ofc)

#can u tell i cant sleep #i just can't help thinking the worst #i know he will suffer and it's inevitable but i still can't stand to see him hurt :( #my precious baby :( #i love him so much :( #this analysis made me sad why #kit herondale #ty blackthorn #kit x ty #kitty #the wicked powers #twp #tsc

[biillys]

something about when el went into void and found billy, she saw him on the beach surrounded by sunshine and love and truly fucking actually happy. something about how when she turned around and saw the storm, she put her hands out and felt the ash falling from the sky, and then saw neil abusing billy and abusing his wife. something about how even in the monstrous world from another entire dimension, neil's still the fucking monster in the story

#idk how the upsidedown and the void and possession work and at this point i dont fucking care #actually something about how she said she saw a someone pretty and then saw a boy #and didnt even click it could be billy until she heard his name get called out #like i guess she wouldn't know what he looked like as a kid and all that #but like.... they knew billy was possessed by this stage like? #and when she was like 'im at the beach' and lucas was like '??? hawkins has no beaches???' #max was like 'tell us what else u see' so pretty sure she was picking up what was getting thrown down #whatever none if this matters!!! i was just clipping up that scene for gifs today and decided to not mute it for once #and was like oh this is actually like genuinely fucking sad #like????? the fact billys hiding out in his memories??? except he cant actually live in just his happiest memory #cos even in his happiest memory #he asks to stay at the beach just a little longer #and his mum hesitates before giving in but still says if they're late then neil'll be mad #also the fact even his happiest memory is still surrounded by some of his most heart wrenching memories #like he can't remember the good without the bad #like his mind physically cant think about the one day on the beach were he caught a 7 foot wave #without remembering the fact that his mum fucking left #cant do this rn sorry guys im fucking emo #m #text

[luck-of-the-drawings]

"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #jrwi the suckening #arthur bennett #HEY SO THE REALLY FUNNY THING THAT THE CHARACTER DID THAT SEEMED RLY SILLY N GOOFY IN THE MOMENT? #LIKE THE WHIPLASH BETWEEN SERIOUS N SILLY ALMOST PISSED YOU OFF? WHAT IF I FOUND A WAY TO MAKE YOU SAD ABOUT IT #this was meant to be a scribble that would be a bigger part of a bigger page.might leave it on that page. #but still. bc o that i nearly posted it onto my wacky side blog.BUT NAYY I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME N ENERGY N YOU GOTTA SEE IT #ARTHUR BENNETT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I FEEL LIKE ITS ODD FOR HIM TO BE SO TECHNOLOGICALLY OUT OF TOUCH #WHERE HAS HE BEEN. HAS HE BEEN IN WAR? IS THAT WHERE MAGNUS CAME FROM? WHERE WAS HE WHEN HE WAS WITH EDWARDS CREW? #ARTHURRR I HAVE QUESTIONS ARTTHUUURR!! HEY CAN I ALSO ASK; WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BECOME #DO YOU THINK HE HAD ANY IDEA HE WOULD VEER CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THE MONSTER HE DESPISES. ALL BC HE DESERVES IT. OR WATEVER #HE FASCINATES ME SO MUCH. TO LOOK AT THE STONE COLD STOIC FOOL FROM THE START OF THE SHOW #AND TO FIND OUT THAT HE USED TO BE A BAD BOY.. A DELINQUENT... A LIL PRANKSTER.... MY GODDD THATS ADORABLE #I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW MORE.... BUT I DOUBT THE LAST EPISODE IS GONNA ANSWER THOSE QUESTIONS..i love arthur bennett so much.... #AS FOR THE ART!! i mostly used the fire alpaca watercolor brush. tbh im not a brush guy. anti aliased default pen tends to be my main game #but LATELY IM SQQQUIRMIN OUT OF AN ARTBLOCK so expirimenting like this is helping #DONT LOOK TOO HARD AT IT!! im still proud tho. colors are fun :3 im also very proud of the backgrounds #I LOVE THE CARTOON THING where the background looks all fancy n painted but the characters are solid colors #what else can i ramble abt. OH YEAH. i looked up the bikes to make sure they were time accurate tehehehe. 1913 to 2012. #almost a century apart!! isnt that neat? ALSO FUUUCK CAN I JUST MAKE A QUICK CONFESSION. DOWN HERE IN MY TAGS. #only the strongest can read my tags anwyay. SO I REALIZED WHY I LOVE ARTHUR SO MUCH. TIME IS A FLAT CIRCLE #while arthur is a Stoic and Cool vampire w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORs #THERE HAPPENS TO BE A ROBOT FROM A BAND W A TITANIUM ALLOY SPINAL COLLUMN #WHOS A Stoic and Cool ROBOT w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORS #the fuckkkiiinnngggnn The Spine from steam powered giraffe. WHATEVER. i cant escape from my heart. i guess. #i think The Spine and Arthur could be friends. Arthur saw the band perform back when they were the Steam Man Band #EDIT: WOOPS I DIDNT REALIZE THIS WOULD END UP IN THE SPG TAG. HI GUYS DIDNT KNOW U WERE STILL ALIVE SORREE 4 THE CROSS CONTAMINATION

[boxwinebaddie]

does cd's management like raven and jersey dating? bc i just knowww that raven started taking care of himself and looking cleaner

oooooh.

okay, so i am going to answer this through the lens of ravenstan and jerseykyle secretly dating sort of in the middle of rm, after kyle finds out raven is his stan ( which is my second favorite chapter aaaaa!!!! ) because by the time they start actually officially dating/are out to the public, the original corrupt management line-up, namely fartman aka e.t. tenorman, are dissolved/dealt w.

but management...while they don't Know abt it,

…they do naught like it.

At All, tbh.

because, yes, while i do think that kyle be ironing stan's pants and fluffing up his hair...he do be equally fucking it like secretly violently making out with him before shows ahsdlkadsk so, like, as a result, i would proport that stan is cleaner...but his reputation gets Sloppier.

i say this because ravenstan is a 'yes man', lived under managements thumb ( by management i really just mean cartman -- i called him 'management' so as not to give too much away ), was basically a pretty boy rockstar marionette that cartman could get to do whatever he wanted bc he owns raven/all of the cd boys technically.

but when stan starts secretly dating kyle...jersey really bolsters his confidence and rae starts to get very bold and defiant/take his power back. bc kyle watching stan wither is like, you don't need to take that baby! you are in charge, this is your show. you don't have to do whatever they want! they're the ones who have to listen to YOU.

so when management starts ordering stan around, for like the first time since he started being raven, he puts his little combat boot down ( ravenstan having tiny ass feet is so funny to me ) and is like "no, i don't want to do that. i want to do this." literally my man is like "I. SAID. I. WANT. TO. GO. TO. TACO. BELL!" sdhkjsahd go awwhff!

but more than any of that...he just looks so much Happier. :') like he is drinking waaaaay less, he's smiling so much more and it's genuine, its not a shield for his sadness...him and kyle do play up hating each other to divert the suspicions of their friends and the world around them, which is so funny bc they're like "i hate you" and then texting each other hearts and smileys, kickin their feet and twirling their hair.

tldr: stan gets securer, happier and bouncier while secretly dating kyle, but that means his performance as gritty bad boy heartthrob raven of crimson dawn gets a lot weaker, faker and messier. he starts standing his ground and i'm not sure about whether cart knows or not, but i think the wheels are turnin in his head, watching stan and kyle sit closer and closer together, stan racing out of his dressing room with his clothes askew, at meetings on his phone w/ heart eyes.

cartman gets angry/jealous, feels like he's losing control,

ergo...

Enter Call Girl. ;)

-uncle nina, diabolically wringing her fingers together

#i hope this answers your question darling #but yeah jersey does clean ravenstan up #( he does look his best w his hair a lil messy tho ) #and he drinks a lot less so he is way less sad and tired #like u can just see the he is noticably healthier #mentally and physically all of a sudden #and kyle starts teaching stan to stand up for himself and stop taking all of carts shit and doing whatev everyone else wants #so stan starts being hella bold and being like no!! i don't want to!!!! which freeeeaks cartman/management out #jim marj n kenny are also shook bc holy shit did our stan just yell did our stan just argue yo im scared but this is awesome #but yeah cartman gets mad mad mad i think he starts having a pi follow ravenstan/jersey and starts lurking on em and #to put an end to things... #for a bad time cartman contacts call girl with an offer ( who as a rising star does need the clout of dating raven of cd ) #and the internet blows up w the news that punkrock prince raven of cd is dating the internets gf pop princess call girl #and ohhhhhh my god stan had no idea #and when kyle sees it??? ALLLL HELL BREAKS LOOSE #its such a mess he wont even let stan explaIN DUDE :( hes just like stay the hell away from me i cant believe u lied to me #AGAAAAAAAAAAAAIN #were in hell #but yeah daibolical am i right #also call girl did not know raven of crimson dawn was not down with it she was also confused bc she thought #raven was dating jersey askhdksd like everyone else!!! but cartman was like no :) just publicity stunt :) sign here <3 #hEEEEEEEEEEEEEELP MESSY AS HELL

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#its so weird. i feel like march 5th went on for more than a day somehow. i guess that's just bc we were awake for just abt all of it #my dad wanted to start doing things immediately so he was calling and scheduling all day. we went to the funeral home we went to the store #and it was weird bc as we were moving around it was like wow we r a 4 person family now. this is it. and theres so much to do after a person #dies. or at least there is when they were loved so much and jesus christ my mom was one of the best ppl a LOT of ppl knew. she did so much #for so so many ppl. and with her childhood she had every reason to b a fuck up but no she was kind and selfless and amazing. her mother is #trying to bask in the attention of her death when its like: truely go fuck urself. her being such a good person has nothing to do with u. u #treated her appallingly. fuck off. and fucking everyone knows it. god. she is a product of her grandparents kindness. and it sounds like her #dad was amazing like her. but he tragically died in a car wreck when she was 3. she was in the car. no one in my mums family believes in a #god now. too many bad things happened to the shining gems in a collection of wild alcoholics. but its not all bad. my family's staying close #my dad is taking it hard bc this means hes alone now and my mum took care of so many things bc she was so smart and he feels so dumb. he #feels he didnt deserve her. hes working on giving more hugs now. and hes using us to anxiously talk things out the way he did with mom #which is good. i cant imagine if this happened when we werent 3 adults and he was windowed with 3 kids to raise himself. and its funny. were #saying things we never would have told her. we looked thru pictures of her and she was so so beautiful. a total smoke show. my parents were #a cute couple who produced cute kids. and my mom had trouble communicating and being affectionate tho we knew she loved us there was #distance. theres a pic of my dad pulling her close and shes being tippef towarf her while standing away and thats indicitive of their #relationship. they were 2 partners who lived together independently and that worked but its sad bc my mum couldnt b vulnerable in her #expression. ppl r being so kind tho. ill be in ohio now for like 2.5 more weeks as the funeral stuff shakes out. we have to have 2 bc she #grew up away from her and so many ppl loved her in both locations. she was a popular lady. its so weird to b here on pause. but i feel clear #in my head. i think this will change a lot of my outlook on life. its nice to focus on the person she was and not the horrible 12hrs where i #saw her half dead. i cant imagine how awful it was for my sisters and dad to see her downslide into death. she didnt expect this to b The #Fever that killed her but it did and now she'll never finish a million things. and the house is full of pill bottles and all her junk and #unopened amazon packages and a truck with the fuel left on empty. bc she was an absent minded goofball. ay. well miss her so much #unrelated