#CLENCHING MY FISTS AND CRYING

[armysethos]

pretzels and noodles in love ♡♡♡

#ocs #fursona #ethos #cubia #sever #wire #furry #anthro #dragon #furry art #i am filled w homosexual desire i like to draw our guys being kissy and snergling OK !!!!! #I AM GAY !!!!!!!!!!! #CLENCHING MY FISTS AND CRYING #I LOVE THEM SO MUCH YOUR HONOR

[iizuumi]

I had to sketch this little scene form @asidian ‘s fic Someone to Rely On because it was not leaving my head!!! 

#fear and hunger #cahara #ragnvaldr #pls read the fic it's so good i want to eat it #it's all so good but this scene just -clenches fist- #HE FEEDS HIM THE STEWWW #loud crying noises #my art #i need practice drawing ragnvaldr what are you wearing sir

[shima-draws]

#SOMEONE put a GODDAMN H*talia post on my dash and OF COURSE. #My brain IMMEDIATELY jumps to one of the few good things to come out of the fandom #That being the game that makes me cry like a LITTLE BITCH #It's about the struggle. The knowledge that everything will be reset anyway. #The fact that Ita has to make friends with everyone #Again and again and again and AGAIN #And watch them die again and again and again and AGAIN #He's so numb to it that nobody even notices. He pretends to act normal but he's not NOTHING IS NORMAL #Clenches my fists #Fuck. #And Ludwig building a safety room over the course of a thousand resets. And Kiku getting visions. #And Gil hearing voices. And Lovi showing up for the FIRST TIME after so many loops #And Arthur going BLIND and Alfred being FRUSTRATED ABOUT IT AHGHGHGHHG #And the monster getting stronger and stronger and STRONGER #Lies down #I need to replay it actually. Probably. #HetaOni #Hetalia #Shima speaks

[ex0rin]

#me crying into my beer #i need to stop looking at him now #i'm losing my mind #jack quaid #hughie campbell #he's sooooo #[clenches fist]

[son1c]

i'm thinking about fibula's sister, femur... and the thing about her is that she WAS his YOUNGER sister, when he was still alive. but then he died, and she kept on living, and growing, and now, ~40 years later, she's older than him. and it just makes me feel some kind of way, you know? because life goes on. but he's stayed the same.

#imagining their reunion in my head and screaming crying #*clenches fist* family... #death tw #ask to tag #fibula the hedgehog #femur the hedgehog

[suckishima]

Chapter 158 vs. Chapter 298

“I am under no illusions that I could ever beat you on my own.”

(don’t mind me going insane under the cut)

ugh there’s two big things that make me crazy about this and 

1 is the surface level of just how yamaguchi’s individual growth keeps going even after the seijoh 2 match—when he gets those run of points and it becomes clear to us that his hard work has paid off—but it doesn’t just stop there! the first panels here are from the shiratorizawa match, the next match after seijoh 2, and i love this bc it’s another example of haikyuu saying “hey so that thing you wanted, you worked hard, you earned it, celebrate!” but then going on to ask “okay so what do we work for next?” and for yamaguchi he’s gone from ‘i just want to be on the court with them’ (deciding to learn jump floats) to ‘i wish i could get my body to listen to me the way theirs seem to’ (failing in siejoh 1 and doubling down during tokyo training camp) to the first panels here ‘i want to contribute/add value to the team’ to then finally the panels from the nekoma match where he can do more than just help, now it’s ‘i want all those things and more. i’m going to get these points with the team and for the team, all with my serve.’ and he DOES! like the GROWTH in his confidence!! aahh

and 2!! this is where i start to really lose it lmao, is his inspiration for all of that! why does yamaguchi play volleyball? because he thinks volleyball is cool. why is it cool? bc tsukki plays and tsukki is cool, and akiteru played and akiteru is cool, right? but is that enough?? by the time high school comes maybe it isn’t, bc of everything that’s happened and he’s a little disenchanted, but then he hears hinata and kageyama’s “as long as i’m here you’re invincible” and he thinks oh sHIT that’s cool! but he doesn’t have that kind of confidence, and he isn’t a setter or really a hitter, he’s barely even a server at this point—the only position on the court where you could gain points entirely alone—but THEN he also sees and understands the significance of a perfectly executed serve and block and he thinks not only is that ALSO super cool, but he realizes if he can get better he can do that super cool thing not just for himself, but for the team and more specifically, for tsukki. 

yamaguchi sees hinata and kageyamas totally insane, reciprocal declaration of making the other better and he starts to get mad at tsukki for not trying. because volleyball is cool, making each other stronger is cool, and tsukki is supposed to be cool too!! and instead of giving up, yamaguchi puts tsukki in his place and then yamaguchi just keeps trying even harder!! and his hard work and dedication is perplexing to tsukki. it’s frustrating bc he can’t understand it yet but he also can’t deny the fact that it certainly isn’t lame. yamaguchi’s passion has never been lame, and then tsukki starts to get inspired too. slowly it begins to cycle, and spiral upwards. yamaguchi took the first initiative to seek out shimada, tsukki joins his brothers practices and agrees to train with the gym 3 boys, yamaguchi has his ‘moment’ when he gets all those points in seijoh 2, tsukki has his when he stuffs ushijima (and neither of them is surprised by either of those moments!! of course they work they’ve been watching has paid off), and then by the time the nekoma match comes up yamaguchi’s confidence has grown tremendously, he gets an ace immediately after those panels and thennn he and tsukki execute their first successful serve and block. the volleyball equivalent of a perfect play. 

we never see yamaguchi and tsukki practice together, and yet separately they’ve been working toward this, silently inspiring each other over and over. individual work but not only individual growth. tsukki tells kuroo he never ever thought he could beat any of them on his own. in his own way, yamaguchi’s actions have made tsukki invincible too. and  kuroo and tsukki also both acknowledge that yamaguchi is already a step ahead once again, planning how he can do even more, starting the cycle another time. they keep passing the inspiration back and forth, connecting one volleyball moment to the next to drive the other to keep working, keep trying for even more!!!!! aaaaaahh

#hq!! #hq!! manga spoilers #tsukki #yamaguchi #hq #hq manga spoilers #one step ahead #oh look im crying over chapter 298 again lmaooo #actual tears in my eyes why am i like this #i was like 'oh i'm feeling good i'll just start up my long abandoned hq reread again' and two chapters in #im already finding growth moments i had forgotten about and i promptly lose my mind #its just *clenches fist* the way furudate does this connect thing about making characters integral to each others growth #solely through their own actions where one characters growth cant happen without the others #and its so perfectly intwined with the concepts of the literal rules of volleyball and aaaAAAAHHH #ive talked about it a lot with kageyama and hinata but tsukki and yamaguchi have aspects of it too okay!! it just works differently #and they both make me unstableee #2021 reread #x #connect #hq meta #tsukkiyama #what more do you need

[bummie4dummies]

okay but i can't stop thinking about the way that bobby — bobby who knows about eddie's will, knows that buck is chris' other dad, knows exactly what buck means to eddie and vice versa even though they haven't quite cracked it for themselves yet — told eddie, you don't seem to have a problem committing to certain things. the way he pointedly mentioned everybody but buck. the short pause before and long pause after he says shannon.

the way that eddie sits and thinks about how to best respond before talking about how, despite the religious trauma and catholic guilt, he loved being married to shannon... but not saying that he loved shannon (even though he did, in his own way). the way that bobby lets eddie know that he can't tell eddie how he feels about marisol, how that's for eddie to know, and how eddie makes a face and shakes his head in response.

part of me wants bobby to stop being such a dad and just give it to eddie straight, like eddie's begging him to. part of me wants him to tell eddie flat out that he knows he has feelings for buck, and that buck has feelings for him, and that it's been that way for a long time. but a way bigger part of me knows that eddie would not be able to hear or receive it anyway. he'd just recoil further into his denial and add another lock to his closet door.

#911 spoilers #i'm just having a lot of thoughts and feelings #this is fairly pointless and incoherent #but i will not apologize because it's my party (blog) and i'll cry (blab into the ether) if i want to #bobby nash #eddie diaz #the way that scene just...... clenches fist #bobby the omniscient #eddie the repressed #makes me want to scream

[dylanconrique]

i can’t wait for the angst that’s gonna hit when tim hears a call over his radio that there’s an officer down, immediately ditching his post behind that desk when they give out lucy’s name and badge number to find grey to give him keys to one of the shops so he can get to the scene as fast as possible.

#*and this is icarly! #the rookie #s5 wishlist #tim bradford #lucy chen #chenford #otp: you know me so well #grey doesn't even fight him at all #he knows there's nothing he can do to stop tim from getting to her #so instead he demands they'll ride there together #oh and the way grey will be grasping at straws trying to ease tim's mind.... #gosh anything to see more of that father/son kind of dynamic between tim and grey i really love it #also it's a good excuse to mark 'crying tim bradford' off my bucket list #and i don't just mean crying #i mean the puffy red eyed snot running hyperventilating kind of cry #i just... *clenches fist* i wanna see him emotionally crumble #as if this man hasn't been through enough already i want him to go through more 😅😅 #like i truly can't think of any other triggers that would make him break down like that #except with genny #if anything happened to either genny or lucy he'd lose himself

[akkivee]

i saw a suggestion that the alt outfits signify a timeskip and became possessed lmao

#this is vee speaking #if it is i think it'd be a year max but i only have one older kuukou face atm lmao #i'll get better at it i promise lmao #i mean it when i say possessed lol like i got to a decent place in a different piece of art and jumped on this INSTANTLY #but towards the end my hand was getting shaky lmao like the cheebs were a struggle actually😭😭😭 #but i persevered!!!!! with the power of kuukou thirst 😌 #anyway idk what to make of it actually???? but i think kuukou's new hairstyle has a braid in it???? #like a really tiny one since his hair is short lol but??? i think that's what that is???? #and you can't convince me otherwise that kuukou didn't steal one of ichiro's hoodies lmao like it's the one in his 2021 arb bday card LOL #and kuukou kinda treating jiro like a baby brother is making me cry a little lol like in the 3️⃣📿🥂 modelling event #kuukou starts teasing saburo to help with his performance anxiety and i can't remember what saburo said to kuukou #but kuukou cheerfully went 'man you sure are making me feel old!!' and it made me swoon lmao kuukou's going to age so gracefully lmao #but he's such a good big bro lol??? that maturity when he bothers to use it is so *clenches fist* its so good lol #i!!!!!!! cannot wait for jiro and kuukou interactions lol!!!!! #vee is arting

[nabaath-areng]

im gonna make it everybodys problem that im thinking about him

#ffxiv #hyur #midlander #ffxiv screenshot #ffxiv edit #ieeha de verral #ieeha #clenches fist. my son. #crying screaming and throwing up??? #(affectionate)

[kaeyaphile]

“of ballads and brews: act iii” – kaeya

#genshin impact #of ballads and brews #genshin impact spoilers #kaeya #kaeya alberich #💙 kaeya my beloved ❄️ #these gifs are horrendous quality but just #look at him and his genuine smile #i’m not crying it’s just raining on my face #help i love him (clenches fist) so much that it hurts

[cerealandchoccymilk]

Trigun Bookclub: Trigun Vol.1-2, Chapter #09

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I’m doing a deep-read of the Japanese original print (reread) and Overhaul 1.0 (first read) side-by-side, and writing down everything I notice from small details, version differences, translation differences, etc.

The volume numbers will be mismatched for most of the remainder of Trigun, since the Japanese first edition is 3 volumes while all later versions are 2 volumes.

As always, here are the non-analysis panels:

And the rest is under the cut.

[link for if the images aren’t in horizontal rows]

To start off, we have Meryl talking about buying designer handbags. This part was very confusing in Japanese because even though I could recognize Prada, the two other brands she named were completely bogus to me. What the hell are エピピ(Epipi) and NCM!?

So I asked my mom about it last night (she knows a decent amount about brands popular in the 90's, since she was still living in Japan back then). She was also stumped for a bit, but after a while she asked to see the way "Prada" looked. She noticed that it was written like プラーダ(purāda) rather than the correct プラダ(purada). I didn't notice because I don't know shit about fashion... but she suggested that maybe all of these were slight variations on real-life brands. She said that NCM is probably based on MCM Worldwide.

Epipi probably took a solid 20 minutes to figure out.... We were naming every brand on earth searching for anything that could even vaguely sound like "epipi." Right when we nearly ran out of ideas, she thought of googling just part of the name, like "epi brand," and voila, apparently there's a line of Louis Vuitton leather called Epi.

Epipi (and brain soup) is an inside joke between us now btw.

The chapter cover!! Everyone here is so damn cute... also I'm sitting almost exactly how Vash is right now.

This is the second appearance of Vash's shades. I can't see the details, but the design looks the same as the one before.

I'd completely forgotten how tiny Kaito is??? Literally half of Vash's height.

Vash's response to Kaito's insult(?) is「お前そりゃないだろ…」and is something more like "C'mon, man..." or "Seriously?"

big eyes vash big eyes vash i want to scoop him up and put him in a jar with holes in the lid

It's so cool how Vash immediately understands exactly what's going on through what he's overhearing, thanks to his childhood on the spaceship and his time at Home. How can this man not drive

I think the engineer is talking about the Plant here, so it should be "The shock could kill it." (although the Plant dying would also kill everyone else. ykwim)

Didn't know that guy was called a helmsman.... In Japanese, the word for helmsman, 操舵手 (the scan is super blurry and looked like 士 but the correct word is 手) was written as ライツ(raitsu) with 操舵手 written in the ruby. Maybe raitsu was the name of the helmsman? Or it might be something else boat-related that I don't know about.

Vash's silent reaction to Kaito's words say a lot. This behavior is nearly identical to Vash's (again, more so in Maximum, after Vash remembers the events of July and gets even more depressed). He understands Kaito's pain and guilt, and worries for him, but he also can't help but see himself in the boy... however he feels about that. This gets a bit more into theory territory, but I think Vash doesn't want Kaito to turn out like himself. Of course, he wants everyone to strive for peace; he wants people to be like that part of himself, in that regard. However, he doesn't want people to act self-destructive like he is. One obvious reason is that Vash genuinely doesn't want Kaito to be hurt, especially when he believes that people always deserve to start over and live a happy life.... But another underlying reason could be that he doesn't like percieving parts of himself in others, out of self-hatred.

One of my favorite lines ever!!!!! (has 50 favorites)(its not my fault trigun/trimax is so constantly banger) While humans views the Plant as a tool and an incomprehensible being, Vash simply views them as just a girl that needs calming down—"people" just like him and everyone else. He has a familial relationship with every Plant, which I absolutely adore. And!!! I will expand on this bit in the next(I think) arc and beyond, or maybe even make a separate post!!! I have so many thoughts surrounding this and it's a core theme to Trigun as a whole.

Noting some SFX since some non-Japanese readers may not have noticed - the plant is making a high-pitched scream from here on. Also, Kaito says that it's a "voice," not a "sound."

More Plant object-person dichotomy!! This unfortunately gets lost in translation, but it's a very neat storytelling trick. In Japanese, This is written in an interesting way:「プラント――　それは『造りだす』もの」 with もの(mono) having dots above them (in this context acting like italicization for emphasis in English). Usually, this もの would be more specific. There's 物(mono) which means "object" or "thing," and there's 者(mono) which means "person" or sometimes "being." The narrator intentionally leaves the identity of the Plant vague. Again, in humans' eyes, Plants are machines of production. In Vash's eyes, Plants are full-fledged people.

I would write that line closer to the original format, with quotes around "creates" and leaving it at that.

A longer translation correction—just going to transcribe it here:

水 紫外線 酸素 そして微電力を与える事によって物理法則を超えた『生産』活動を行う生体システムである They are organic systems that, when fed water, ultraviolet light, oxygen, and a bit of electricity, can "produce" things in a process that surpasses all physical law.

The sound effect here is loud footsteps on metal. I think it's neat that Nightow showed Vash running up the stairs with just onomatopoea and a shot of the stairs.

In Japanese, Vash says that he's counting on/leaving the rest up to the engineers/the others on the ship, after telling them to deal with it.

Again, Vash considers the Plant his family, a sister. He is talking directly to them and treating them with respect. The word used here is actually 兄弟(kyoudai), which means "brother(s)"/olderbrother-youngerbrother, where in this situation with a brother and sister of unspecified age/order it would usually just be きょうだい(kyoudai, spelled out)... it may be that back then, people didn't really specify or mix-and-match sibling gender (姉弟 兄妹 etc) in writing as much as we do now.

The first appearance of feathers on Vash!! During my first read, I was absolutely mesmerized by this page. Mannnnnnn the angel imagery....

Also bonus reaction from my dear friend from my Instagram liveposting back in April (yeah. my first read was only a bit over 2 months ago). booty CRACK

This is the "beeeeeeep" sound of a flatlining heart monitor. Until now I thought it was more of an imaginary thing to show that their hearts have stopped, but I just realized that it may also be a real sound of the Plant's vital monitors. Could be either, to be honest.

Apparently "yards" are normal? In Japanese it's written as ヤーズ(yādzu, yards) instead of what would regularly be just ヤード(yādo, yard), so that may be the subtle miles-iles change?

This line would be "The pipes are stuck! They won't even budge!"

And the SFX here is a distant chattering and cheering crowd.

And here is the last scene, with Kaito humming Rem's favorite song. Idk, this just gives me a raw emotional reaction... I can't really analyze it lol. Rejoicing that you've survived through hardship. That while things still aren't perfect, this imminent danger has passed. That you still get to enjoy being alive. The same song of humanity still sang. Something something....

Anyways that’s it for Chapter #09! As always, the Japanese annotations are in the reblogs.

#mother comes to the rescue once again #'how can this man not drive' i say...not having a drivers license #actually yknow its the passenger princess swag. chauffeur for me boy #also finally installed a browser extension to store my em dashes and macrons 💪 <-was googling it every time until now #ik alt codes exist but they dont work on my puter. probably bc its bootcamp (windows on a mac) #we should probably use the macos side more buttttttt all our files and games are on windows :/ #trigunbookclub #trigun annotation #trigun #trigun manga #hopeposting...(clenches fist) #ok time to cry myself to sleep now goodnight yall i hope the best for each and every one of yougjhfkhbm....(sobbing) #like actually im tearing up typign this at 1:30am #anyways anyways nighty night

[shima-draws]

Saw your tags and omg HARD AGREE. Dragon Cry is SO bad nfkanmdsa

ME AND YOU SHAKING HANDS

Actually yes thanks for giving me the excuse to rant. Hold on. I'm typing furiously rn.

-Okay first of all they gave us the most ridiculously confusing plot I've ever seen. The twist with Sonya being Animus was kinda cool but they never really. Explained why she had a bond with him? She mentioned he used to be kindhearted at some point but we never see that literally ever at any point in the movie?

-The storyline is so all over the place it's a HOT mess. Especially the scene right after Natsu escapes the weird bird cage thing he runs off to find the others and suddenly they're all there? For some reason? Where did they come from. Why didn't they have a little reuniting scene. I literally rewound the movie to make sure I didn't accidentally skip a scene but nope they just made the most awkward cut/story progression in history I guess!!!

-The fanservice was so. SO bad. Like yeah the majority of the time I can at least tolerate it but this time it just made me extremely uncomfortable. Why are Erza and Lucy's boobs SO fucking large. Why did they have to make Lucy dance in like two strips of cloth. I thought I woke up in an alternate universe where Fairy Tail was a hentai. I genuinely wanted to vomit lmao

-The animation style really threw me off like I can tell it was either animated by a different studio or they wanted to try a different art style for the movie? But it just felt wrong and the proportions and faces were weird and. Yeah idk.

-What was up with the Three Stars?? Iirc we never got to learn their names or what their motivations were they were literally just. There. And they were built up to be these super powerful wizards only to get their asses kicked by FT like two scenes later. I get that being a movie obviously the fights had to be shortened but they literally did the same thing in Phoenix Priestess but WAY better. They really were like yeah uh we need some enemies for Team Natsu to fight let's just go with these guys and not give them any personality or backstory or motivations. (Except for the doll dad he was okay I guess)

-WHY WAS LEVY THERE. LITERALLY. ACTUALLY. She literally did nothing she served NO purpose in the movie she was just there?? Did they just want to shove in as many cameos as possible??? I know generally Levy isn't much of a fighter which is fine, I was kinda expecting them to do a Gajevy scene where Gajeel rescues her from some soldiers or smth which would have been fine but they didn't even do that. She literally just stood there and had like 2 voice lines. GO GIRL GIVE US NOTHING

-SPEAKING OF CAMEOS this is more personal beef than anything but man WHYYY wasn't Loke in the movie,, my boy my beloved my stupid idiot lion I'm so mad he wasn't even onscreen for like, 5 seconds

-I'm sorry but Juvia was so unhinged this movie her possessive/stalker behavior over Gray was actually super fucking creepy lmao

-What did they do to Happy. What the FUCK did they do to Happy

THEY MASSACRED MY BOY. LOOK AT HIM. HE'S GOT ANXIETY

-ALSO the scene where Happy and Lucy were crying over Natsu and we got tons of flashbacks from his POV of people who are important to him? WHY THE FUCK WASN'T HAPPY THERE?? They literally showed everyone from Fairy Tail precious to Natsu except Happy and I'm just sitting here like. HELLO?? You are SO wrong for that

-I will say I DID enjoy the little Nalu teasers we got especially the scene where Natsu showed Lucy the stars 🤧

But yeah I was here for this and this only:

The Nalu + Happy family bonding moments made it OKAY

Anyway sorry rant over. Dragon Cry bad. Natsu's brief moment of looking half dragon was a super sexy character design choice but the buildup is not worth it imo

#God damn it I just *clenches fists* hate Fairy Tail. That's a lie I love Fairy Tail. #Which is why I'm so mad this movie did it dirty #Shima answers questions #Phoenix Priestess was so good especially in comparison to this...... #Ughhh this movie could have been FANTASTIC if they'd actually written it better #Anyway it wasn't AWFUL it was standard as far as anime films go. But I definitely wouldn't recommend #And I'm definitely not going to watch it a second time lmao #Long post #SORRY IDK WHAT TO TAG THIS. ASK TO TAG. I don't want to put my negative ramblings in the tags #Negative #I GUESS?? IDK #Fairy Tail #FT #Nalu #Fairy Tail Dragon Cry

[eebie]

holy shit this is goong to be so fucking fun Actually

#i need to think of a movie #i really want tto do spiderverse for this so bad. SO BADDDD IM CLENCHING MY FISTS #weeping crying etc Because it’s only disneypixar #Wall e could work #But spiderverse . ohhhhh #The isolation that is inherent in being spiderman #Yet growing through the fact that you can never truly be alone in exile . there will ALWAYS be someone who understands #Fuck

[jamieedlund]

Compass🧭

Sanity to my insanity Guide my heart Protect my soul Help me find my way in this world so full of horrible misfortunes

#I like them a normal amount #tdp #the dragon prince #aaravos #callum #listen to me #ONLY THEY CAN UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER #and you can fight me on that #i love cally so much #i just want my boy to smile #everything about him in canon so far is HIM CRYING #and crying #and crying like #CLENCHES FIST #he can and will be happier with this man i promise #JUST LET THEM HAVE IT #i slipped into an anger outburst but i really cannot #justice for callum #pls and thank you #like the fuck is staying in the light dude is literally an age old bias that ignores the racism committed by magical creatures #what the fuck #just run off and help people while being chaotic because you KNOW dark magic ain't good or bad #why need romance when can have the smexiest man in the world as your teacher #why cry when can be happy finding urself #i cannot #save me

[barrenceallence]

fletcher renn deserved so so so much better

#skulduggery pleasant #Fletcher renn #god I just *clenches fist* have so many feelings about characters who get put down by the narrative #ESPECIALLY if it’s for the LOLZ or they’re relegated as the buttmonkey or the Dumb One #SO WHAT #I think scapegrace got a better arc than him. SCAPE. GRACE. #ugh I miss him so much. dark days and mortal coil my beloved. #he’s the acceptable target bc he’s not as witty or shrewd or strong as the others #but he’s so so so good and he’s always trying so hard to be wanted and useful #he’s literally just an abandoned teenager ugh crying #*thinks about him saving everyone at the end of dark days* *how he just did it on instinct and no one expected it from him* #I’m actually glad he did get away from skul and Val and joined the monster hunters #but we didn’t see enough of his adventures with them I would so love to see the #see donegan and gracious and dai and Fletcher all care and support each other #anyway bear with me