#Dean said ALL THAT

[springdai]

Dean’s confession to cas in the trap is still so insane because like… he has NEVER been that open about his feelings in his LIFE. kneeling on the floor and crying and telling cas he doesn’t get why he is the way he is and he’s sorry and he forgives him and he hopes he can hear him. so much so that he says it twice. that WAS dean’s confession y’all. he bared his soul to him. and he was going to do it all over again in person in case cas hadn’t heard him? because he needed to say it, he needed cas to know? his face when cas says he heard his prayer, as if he had more to say? cas knowing that if he let dean say anything else, say the one thing they haven’t been saying, the empty might take him right then and there? im nauseous

#deancas #spn #Like im Never oVER IT #ITS NEVER OVER!!!!! #destiel #supernatural #Dean Winchester #castiel #purely from a Dean girl standpoint and soemone who stopped watching around s10 and then picked it back up I was so shocked at how #Dean said ALL THAT #WHILE CRYING #LIKE #A A A. A A

[kerryweaverlesbian]

Dean Winchester of Supernatural fame is NOT reading parenting books he is putting on Cheaper By The Dozen, Daddy Daycare and Honey I Shrunk The Kids taking notes.

#i woulda said full house but dean's more a movie guy than a tv guy #it doesn't help. btw. lol. #if dean read a gentle parenting guide he would scoff and roll his eyes and throw it across the room #and eventually start silently weeping if he was convinced to keep going bc HE was a kid and HE didn't get treated with respect or gentlenes #dean in an argument with those mommy bloggers he follows saying something like 'please. i was left in a motel room with my brother #from like age 7 upwards I think little Timmy will be okay in the car by himself for 3 minutes 🙄“ #and someone hits him with 'I'm so sorry that happened to you' and he tries to brush it off all day and complain about it to Sam #and Sam's like. yeah it was kinda fucked up though. and Dean's like WELL I KNOW THAT BUT HE WAS DOING HIS BEST #(not fully believing it bc he certainly can't picture leaving a 7 year old alone in the world they live in no matter what) #(and Dean's never fully actually agreed with their dad but he feels attacked by Sam's agreeing) #(but old habits run deep) #cawis creates

[aerialworms]

...would you fuck a clone of yourself?

Happy Birthday old man! Let me make fun of you!

I couldn’t decide which answer to give him in my last post so I gave him them all <3

+ Jackles bonus because that man is as deranged about Dean as I am:

(Image IDs (and episode IDs!) under cut)

[Image ID: Answers from the Buzzfeed quiz “Would you fuck a clone of yourself” meme edited over screenshots of Dean Winchester from various episodes of Supernatural.

1. 16 year old Dean from 9.07 Bad Boys looks confused and answers “I don't want to fuck my clone because it would be gay sex and I'm not gay.”

2. 18 year old Dean from 4.13 After School Special smirks and answers “I'm not gay, but I would actually totally fuck my clone”

3. 1.01 Pilot Dean stands in Sam’s apartment, smirking self-consciously, next to Sam, who looks disappointed with him. He continues the previous answer: “because I want to know if I'm good in bed.”

4.  Dean Smith, at his desk in 4.17 It’s a Terrible Life, looking concerned, answers “I'm gay, but I still don't want to fuck my clone, that's gross and weird.”

5. 8.17 Goodbye Stranger Dean sits at the map table in the Bunker and reads a porn magazine. He answers without looking up “It's basically the same as masturbating, right? So no big deal.”

6. Alternate Universe HunterCorp Dean from 15.13 Destiny’s Child sits on the other side of the map table in the Bunker. Looking bewildered, he answers “It’s not the same as masturbating; it'd be like having sex with your twin. Wrong and bad!

7. Dean, handcuffed on the floor in Endverse Dean’s cabin in 5.04 The End, tells his alternate self “I'd totally do all sorts of weird things to my clone I'd be embarrassed to ask someone else to do.”

8. In the same scene, Endverse Dean holds up his assault rifle and answers “I don’t want to fuck my clone because my self-loathing is THAT strong.”

9. Dean, completely under the memory curse in 12.11 Regarding Dean, says with wide eyes “I would not have sex with my clone because what if my clone is evil.”

10. Demon Dean in 10.01 Black, reclining naked in bed, makes a funny face and gestures cheekily as he answers “Not only would I have sex with my clone, I'd probably make a bunch of clones and just get it on with all of them at once because that's how pro-clone fucking I am.”

11. The bonus image. Dean, in Jensen Ackles’ trailer in 6.15 The French Mistake, holds up a fan magazine with Jensen and Jared on the front. He looks absolutely done. The box containing the quiz answer has been edited to look like a speech bubble coming from Jensen’s mouth on the magazine. It reads “To be honest, fucking my clone has always been my fantasy.”

All the images have been watermarked with the poster’s url “@aerialworms”. /End ID]

#spn #dean winchester #deansbirthdaybash #jensen ackles #demon dean #endverse #memes #mdni #suggestive #deannnnnn #deanmon #jensen #this took me like five hours wheeee #he's just so. i mean. just. he <3 #don't mind me reusing one from my other post with this meme #like i said. this took like five hours asjdgfksd #and the whole reason i made this was because it was so so hard to choose just one dean to answer the question #so here's my solution!!! #all the deans!!! #original poast

[samsrosary]

you only love me when we're all alone

#OKAY #this took me like 4 days #to finish #drowley #crowstiel #cram #something something crowley's constant desire for attention and love from everybody around him but he never gets it even in his final act #of love for the ppl who hate him <3 #my art #crowley #spn #supernatural #castiel #dean winchester #sam winchester #fanart #you could also extrapolate the meaning of tfw all love eachother too much to even NEED him. he's forever and always just a sidenote to them #song: a loving feeling - mitski #because thats crowleys anthem #and ive said so like 5 times before but im saying it again its HIS ANTHEM #NOW REBLOG

[quietwingsinthesky]

it ever hit you out of nowhere that castiel is living in a dead guy's body and the show just does not care. it does not care. jimmy novak might as well not exist the moment he or claire is out of sight. cas stole a guy's body and his face and his life, and we can't ever talk about it or discuss it in detail because of how fucking horrifying it is that sam and dean's best friend just walks around in a dead guy suit. there's not even a human soul in there anymore. it's just a corpse. stone-cold body snatcher indeed.

#castiel spn #spn #this is not like a Castiel Crime (tm) to be clear. this is more me being (un)surprised that the show is Like This. #castiel is a horror story he is so much a horror story in the rapture #and then they just uh. never bring up again how horrifying and fucked up this is for another like 7 seasons #and when they do its to briefly go :( claire lost her dad :) but its okay! she forgives cas for it! #which!! NO SHE SHOULD FUCKING NOT!!! #but we can't have that discussion. we can't talk about that. because to acknowledge that it's fucked up would mean making cas kind of. evil #in a way that would vastly improve his later character arcs btw. if we had to reckon with not only this massive transgression #but with the fact that cas himself STILL DOESN'T SEE IT AS ONE. #that on a lot of fundamental levels. he is still functioning as he did in s4. a lot of that base programming is still there. #something something how cas never changes out of his suit under his trenchcoat #but it's like. jimmy said yes. so it's fine. that's what it is to him. #anyway. i wish they hadn't been scared of making all three of the boys more fucked up in later seasons. #thank GOD for dean being interesting in how he becomes Worse <3 because they were not bringing that for castiel. #again. good version of spn where jimmy's bloodline is an off-shoot of the lucifer vessel bloodline. explaining a) how lucifer Got In There #and b) letting lucifer possess claire later so that the two of them can have daddy issues together. #something about cas being the monster-not monster that jimmy let in that destroyed his life. #something about lucifer being the monster-not monster that castiel lets in later. the cycles. they are cycling.

[monstermoviedean]

i'm not saying dean hasn't said or done some shitty things but for me. for me. i think if someone said "hey that hurt my feelings" or "that's fucked up man" he would immediately stop, apologize, and cease that behavior in the future. and that doesn't have to matter to other people but it does matter to me.

#this is why 'dean is a raging misogynist' never works for me #done and said some shitty misogynistic things sure no doubt #and i don't like that at all #and also i think he genuinely would change given a gentle prod in the right direction #i've dealt with actual genuine misogynists and it doesn't feel the same to me #courtney if you see this i'm sorry about your inbox but you're doing amazing #spn

[hauntedpearl]

s12 destiel from dean's perspective is explanation enough for why dean is sooooo insane after that season. like.

- first he almost kills himself for the greater good or whatever and has to come to terms with like. dying. on purpose. and then he is given the gift of life but before he can be like yay! i can go home! his mom is back from the dead??? and his brother is missing???

- then his mom leaves him bc she wants to figure out who she is and even tho he's like a 38 yo man it fucks w him a lot understandably.

-they get arrested and put in SOLITARY for a while and when they finally get out and meet cas again (at which point dean has once again come to terms with dying for the greater good but also mostly his mom and brother this time), he KILLS THE REAPER THEY MADE THE DEAL WITH AND GETS ALL EMOTIONAL??? after which he proceeds to fuck off bc he is Busy™ tracking lucifer etc.,

- then they get a lead and CAS ALMOST DIES IN FRONT OF HIS EYES and throws an I love you in his goodbye speech for the lolz. which. hahaha. anyway cas lives but turns out his mother — with whom he's trying to connect so badly so he can achieve full Normalcy — was like. lowkey responsible for his almost death. so they're fighting now.

- cas receives a divine voicemail from his close friend and colleague and then they go on that case with Lily sunder and ISHIM BEATS CAS UP AND THREATENS TO KILL HIM and even after they beat him Lily Sunder is like. I'm gonna go do some soul searching and if im in the mood I'll come back and KILL YOU. THREAT. and cas is like 😔 fair. so you know.

- there is also an instance of him losing his memories which is scary. and it's like. being intimately familiar with that experience is. something else. as a memory loss girlie let me tell you 👍🏽😄

- and then!!!!! lucifer's unborn child mind melds with his wifehusband — once more in front of his own two eyes — and "manipulates" him into running away with the pregnant lady instead of staying and Figuring Out A Solution. and when they finally do find cas, they are with them for all of 12 hours before HE DIES. FORREAL THIS TIME. AND LIKE THAT'S IT. NO COMING BACK FROM THAT ONE!

this is not an exhaustive list bc i don't remember everything but. like you know. he was primed to get worse and worse. all things that happen in s12 are out of his control but they are also things that happen in front of his eyes, and in ways that make him think that perhaps he did have control over them and he did fuck up some way and he *should* have done something to change the course of their lives so he's filled with guiltshame about it. and he decides that the solution to not losing anyone in the foreseeable future is to just. Control Every Possible Aspect Of Their Existence. which is impossible and that's why he gets mad all the time but YOU KNOW. YOU CAN SEE WHY HE'S CRAZY. poor s12 dean man.

#doe is talking again #just thinking thoughts #i MISS S12 BTW #EVERYTHING WAS SOOOO RIGHT #and then </3 #also this is my bias against s13 showing bc i think it's STUPID #thete i said it idc about narrative importance s13 commits the worst crime of all: its boring as shit #and yeah I've only watched it once but i hated having yo watch it and supernatural WAS my favourite show back then even!! #snd an excuse to spend time with my v close friend!!! SO !!! EVEN THAT couldn't make s13 worth the time 😔 #im also not a big fan of first half of s14 while we're at it. #i think it picks up in the second half thk when thsy start doinf family drama #anyway #ANYWAYSSSS #this is not meta or analysis im just thinking about s12 dean my baby #suicide ment

[castielsprostate]

jensen ackles sits in a dark dungeon, cold and staring ahead, his hands limply on both sides of his body. the cauldron in front of him bubbling with pink, purple and blue. then, the world rumbles, jensen is levitating, hovering over eric kripke's unconscious body. thunder strikes him. god calls out and says "what do you want," jensen ackles answers, devoid of emotion, "to be him,". god tsks and rolls her eyes, striking jackles again with their almighty thunder and says, "dont ever contact me ever again you fucking weirdo,".

and with that he falls to the ground, nearly hitting a barely breathing kripke, with a thud. the world is quiet, and he- he is hungry. hungry for pie. he pushes himself up, testing his fingers, his eyes, his feet. he stands and says, "i am dean winchester,". dean winchester grins.

then, misha collins runs in, screaming, "jensen get off the old set of supernatural you know you're not allowed here anymore after the last time when you tried to sacrifice jared. again." jensen doesn't respond, jensen is gone- and it's dean that breathes out, "hey cas,"

#sjonnie.text #so i saw. someone that said “jensen was just doing a ritual all along to become dean winchester” that's what inspired this #supernatural #dean winchester #spn #destiel #? #jensen ackles

[cthulhum]

and dean winchester thought he was unlovable and didnt deserve happiness he hated himself and thought eveyone would eventually leave him and then a literal fucking angel fell in love with him. like loved him more than anything else in the world.

#and yes people have pointed out that cas has always been fascinated with the world and humans and all of gods creation #but he started Caring about the world and everyone BECAUSE OF DEAN #dont u love it when two people only fall in love with each other in One universe they get no other chances #these r the only version of themselves that said No im gonna do my own thing and they didnt play by the rules they Rebelled #THEY REBELLED FOR EACH OTHERRRRRR ONLY ONCE JUST ONCE #cas literally put everything hed ever believed in on the line for dean #he questioned everything for the first time. he began to doubt #a warrior angel and a son raised as a weapon going against everything theyve ever known for each other #they r so similar theyre both weapons for the man in charge theyve always only followed orders until they mer each other #im aware all of this has been said a billion times by literally everyone i just love them and cant stop thinking or talking about them ever #ok bye <3 #supernatural #dean winchester #destiel #spn #castiel #deancas

[paellegere]

i watched 8.10 two days ago but i can't stop thinking about it. like breaking the B plot down:

sam meets with amelia for the first time since he left her, and she gives him an ultimatum: you're either in, or you're out. going halfway won't work. sam has to decide whether to return to her after they finish the job (rescuing samandriel)

benny, who previously started his relationship with dean by giving him the same ultimatum (you're either in, or you're out), calls dean in a crisis, struggling with his bloodlust which is by and large framed as an addiction. he asks dean to meet him after they finish the job (rescuing samandriel)

dean and sam discuss this after they finish the job, and dean reiterates the ultimatum: sam has to be either all in, or all out. he can't be a hunter and have relationships outside of them. whatever he decides, it has to be either-or

sam leaves to think it over, and it's revealed that dean was actually talking about himself. he calls benny and says he's out: he chooses sam over benny

sam returns to dean with food, implying that he's chosen dean over amelia, and this is confirmed when amelia shows up at the motel and sam isn't there

it's just insane to me that they paralleled sam breaking up (once and for all) with amelia with dean cutting off contact with benny. the implications of this are insane: benny was dean's "girl" who took sam's place while they were separated. benny and dean were in a relationship similar to the one sam and amelia were in. and sam and dean both "break up" with their previous partners and choose each other.

and then there's the fact that dean and benny both framed their relationship as being familial, as being brothers. and still this was paralleled with the romantic relationship between sam and amelia.

dean having a metaphorically romantic subplot with a guy is one thing. dean having a metaphorically romantic subplot with the guy who's supposed to be a replacement for his brother? sure. okay.

this is just such a deranged subplot to me. who gave the okay on this

#liveblogging: supernatural #wincest #they keep doing this. first it's the siren now it's this. dean winchester is not beating the brotherfucking allegations #it's so psychotic to me that benny did literally nothing wrong at all but sam didn't like him so dean was like yeah it's over. sorry #yeah you're a cool guy and all but sammy said no and i can't do anything to make him unhappy. you understand #this show makes me insane #.txt #the winchester gospel #spn posting

[shedontlovehuhself]

Remembering the time when Misha celebrated destiel fanfics reaching over 100K.

#Misha Collins #and he was called every name under the sun for posting about it. even be some destiel fans #was told he should've posted about more important issues #he's baiting and desperate to talk about a ship #all the things said in the replies and quotes #I love that he always uses Cas/Dean. number one Cas girl #misha #castiel #destiel #dean winchester #fanfic

[lonewolf638]

Mina Harker's Journal, Dracula & Sam Winchester, Supernatural

CHUCK You want to know if I know about the demon blood. I didn't even write it into the books. I was afraid it would make you look unsympathetic.

x

#sam winchester #chuck shurley #sam & god #supernatural #spn edits #web weaving #my edits #dracula by bram stoker #dracula n spn parallels if u even care.... #og text said my husband instead of brother changed it so it fit the canon context more #was gonna add sam saying “dean deserves a life” but if u follow me ur probs a samgirl n u probs know that scene by heart #n i didnt wanna make it all cluttered #ok bye

[thegoodthebadandtheart]

long time coming, kansas.

#supernatural #a #wincest #sam winchester #dean winchester #i don’t even care about the mistakes in this anymore enjoyy #i used the ruler a bunch even tho i don’t really like it because it looks inorganic. but even i’m not so insane as to freehand all this #skip the following tags it’s gonna be pointless but - #i like the finale and you have to appreciate what its goal was to get it i think #but i also enjoy drawing in a universe where. you see it's like starrett said: #here dwell together still two men of note / who never lived and so shall never die #etc etc #these two survive and it is always eighteen ninety-five. you know? #floofy hair and everything.

[angelsdean]

me, dean, and everyone else watching: ok sure, sammy

#vics spn rewatch #spn 1x10 #the apology is made worse by j*red's inability to actually sound sincere #he's doing his fake sympathy voice and it is so. grating #adds a fascinating unintentional layer to sam as we've talked abt before #and it's like not necessarily a Bad thing to perform rather than feel sympathy #but like. this is very much a non-apology and dean knows it and we all know it #sam DID mean those things on some level. maybe not as harshly as he said them bc his anger WAS being heightened by the ghost #but those feelings were real #and sam is allowed to feel them. but they are in many ways. a projection and also unfounded #sam literally could leave at any time and dean would let him go (as we'll see in thee very next episode!!) #just bc he feels those feelings doesn't mean they're inherently true #dean isn't keeping him trapped. dean isn't just blindly following orders. dean Does have a mind of his own #and in fact dean isn't being all that great of a dutiful son bc he actively is not all that interested in finding john!! not the way sam is #and you'd think for dean being the one to initially show up and ask sam's help that he'd be more invested in finding john #and making sure he's actually alive instead of following random coordinates to a case. and taking on every other case they find too #anyways. sam's feelings of anger are real bc he feels them and it's okay to feel things #but he's massively misinterpreting and projecting things onto dean #and then he feels guilty (like post-possession) and tries to swipe it all under the rug and claim he didn't mean any of it #but he Does. and dean knows it. everyone knows it. #his perceptions do not align w/ what's really happening. bc he doesn't have the full context. #bc he doesn't know just how complicated dean's relationship to john really is. bc he was sheltered from a lot of that. #he sees dean desperate for approval and a good little soldier #when in reality dean was playing peacekeeper and mediator and punching bag most of their childhood. #and rn dean doesn't really care that much abt finding john. he just wants to hang out with his brother #not samcr*t btw. we love all this abt him it's spicy it's crunchy it's tasty

[cannibalisam]

no honestly imagine someone who you were romantically involved with and lived with for a year in a nuclear-family situation saying that you have a "unhealthy, tangled up, crazy thing" with your brother and that they knew "the minute he walked through that door" it was over between the two of you. and then ALSO says "i'm close to my sister. but if she got killed? i wouldn't bring her back from the dead." like i would honestly just bury myself alive if i got read that hard.

#dean's just built different i guess. i seriously don't know how he lived through that without screaming crying throwing up etc #probably because it was all true and he knew it #but he should've felt a lot more shame i'm not gonna lie. your ROMANTIC PARTNER says she knew your relationship was over #as soon as you figured out YOUR BROTHER was alive. NO ONE SAYS THIS SHIT ABOUT SIBLINGS??? and especially the callout from someone who's #NORMAL ABOUT THEIR SIBLING... #like why do people act like we're insane and reading into it too much when this was literally said in the show. #by someone dean was essentially MARRIED TO no less #i just. phew.

[sunforgrace]

now why did they do all that

#as spockcoded once said Um quick quastion #and it is not like. well we are brushing right past that #props if you noticed she put her hand over. well. no. this is drawn out. with set camera shots and eye contact #they linger on it. why are you doing this #ALL IN THE SAME SEASON #and you cannot say julie didn’t eat it up look at her eyes. SAME ANGELIC FUCKING UH STAREDOWN #IN DEAN WINCHESTER CANONICAL SEX SCENE WITH CANONICAL ANGEL