#He also listens to suki suki daisuki too

[kierpyr]

this song is yandere finn fr

#yuurivoice #yuurivoice finn #He probs listens to rotten girl grotesque romance ON LOOP #He also listens to suki suki daisuki too #Gonna loop these songs forever and inject them in my blood 😩 #Spotify

[linawritestwst]

"it grew and burst into a love so bad that it feels good" (gn!reader)

YANDERE!READER IS BACK BABY!! i've been in a mood to write something yandere-themed, so.. yeah, this is a part 2 to these hcs! this time, however, it's just the characters that i wanted to write for and not really the "scariest" or "most weird" twst characters. you can consider this a halloween post too, if you want! (though i'm also working on the actual halloween special post >:3)

(also, this time yandere!reader won't really have a "defining" personality trait, but their yandere type will be mentioned)

(also [2], the title is a reference to this suki suki daisuki eng cover. i know that the original song isn't actually exactly "yanderecore", but the lyrics fit so well!)

characters: cater diamond, leona kingscholar, azul ashengrotto, vil schoenheit, idia shroud, sebek zigvolt, neige leblanche

genre: horror

warnings: general yandere content, toxic relationships, descriptions of manipulating and stalking, implication of murder and the reader character is.. a little bit delusional.

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character: cater diamond

yandere type: loneliness induction

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♡ oh, cater. someone who tries so hard to convince people that he's fine, that he's doing great, that his life is so perfect and fun and bright.. but you know what he's really like. you know what's going on in his head. you know what kind of person he is. you know how much cater is suffering. of course you know. you know everything about him after all! this is why you two are such good friends!.. but hey, why not become something more than this? why settle for something like friendship, when you can have more? come on, it's okay for you to be a little greedy, considering how much you've done for him!

♡ you are so nice to him. you are so kind to him. you make sure to listen to him. you like all of his posts and leave comments. he wants to take a picture with you? you're more than happy to do that! and if he feels like nobody cares about his problems and he can't be honest with anyone, well, he's wrong, because he has you. oh, but he doesn't need anyone else! you're the only person in this school who actually cares about him, he should know that. honestly, you're probably the only person in this whole world who cares about him.

♡ of course, he has someone to go to if he's not feeling so good! that person is you! you will always be there for him. you will listen. you will tell him that his feelings are valid. you will tell him how much you understand him. oh, but you also will tell him that nobody else in this school will get him. you will tell him to look at the other students and think: do they care? do they understand him? would they feel sorry for him? the answer to all those questions is no. so it's okay if the only person who can hold him while he cries is you. and it's okay if he's been crying a bit too often lately.

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character: leona kingscholar

yandere type: wrong idea

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♡ leona treats you the exact same way he treats all the other students.. or so other people say. some people say that he actually finds you more annoying than most students. but you know they're wrong. you know they are so, so wrong. because you know the truth: leona kingscholar is madly in love with you. hm? how do you know that? uh.. well, you can just feel it! you can feel it from the way he looks at you, you can feel it from the way he talks to you, you can even feel it from the way he breathes when he's asleep and you're right there next to him!.. w-was that too much?

♡ so, why he still hasn't confessed to you? you're not sure actually. you think that he's just a little shy. aww, wouldn't that be so cute? imagine someone like him secretly being too shy to confess his feelings! you can just feel yourself falling more and more in love with him. well, you have no choice but to wait for his confession.. probably. you want to believe that you have more options than that. you know that you have to be patient, but it's just so.. hard.. there must be a different way out, right?

♡ oh, why don't you just give him a little push? no, no, you don't want to confess first, that'd be so embarrassing, haha.. why don't you just leave a hint for him? why don't you try to tell him that he should be honest with his feelings and that if he wants to say something, he should say it with pride? yes, you will do exactly that!.. huh? i-it didn't work as planned.. haha, he's just saying that if you want him to be honest, he's gonna be honest with you and say that he hates you right to your face.. ahaha.. come on, he's just being a tsundere, right?

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character: azul ashengrotto

yandere type: manipulative

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♡ you know how weak and vulnerable azul really is. you know. but it's okay. he can always rely on you. he can always trust you. you promise that you will never leave him. seriously, even those twins who follow him around would leave him sooner than you. the moment they get bored, that's it, they won't spend another second with him. of course, azul assures you that jade and floyd really are loyal.. but your words still make him a little uncomfortable. haha, so he really doesn't want to be left alone.

♡ it's okay, you will always be here to tell him how smart and talented he is. you will praise him as much as he wants to be praised and you will comfort him as much as he wants to be comforted. he doesn't have to put on a mask when you're around. he doesn't have to make you sign any kind of contract, because you're definitely planning to keep your promise and you really will stay with him no matter what. he's just too fun to manipulate, why would you even think of leaving him?

♡ if he ends up breaking down and crying and showing you his true feelings, you will give him a gentle smile and wipe his tears away and softly kiss his cheeks. you repeat the same words again. it's okay. it's okay to cry. it's okay for him to be weak. it's okay for him to be slow. he doesn't have to pretend to be better when you're the only person who's around. actually, you like him much better in this state. so can he promise you to be more honest with himself?

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character: vil schoenheit

yandere type: monopoly

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♡ vil is.. beautiful. very beautiful. so beautiful that if you ever forgot your whole life, you would still remember his face. and of course, no matter how much you love him and no matter how well you know that you're going to be loyal to him and treat him better than anyone else can, you have so many rivals, you can't even count them. ugh, getting rid of them is gonna be so much work.. especially considering that a lot of them are from pomefiore and trying to poison them is probably not a good idea.

♡ it's okay, you can just outsmart them. you can manipulate them, you can convince them that they're just not good enough for him. come on, how can they even imagine themselves standing next to vil schoenheit himself? seriously, that's not even brave, that's just stupid. you can just make everyone's self-esteem become so low that they will never even think about trying to confess to vil or even looking at him. oh, but you also have to convince them that whoever vil chooses is the only person who will be worthy of him. i wonder who that person could be..

♡ but of course, some rivals are stronger than others. seriously, what is wrong with his vice dorm leader. this is the guy that spends the most time with vil and also compliments him the most. he's like, his biggest fan here. and.. uh.. trying to get rid of him physically is not a good idea. outsmarting him is also not an option, because this guy is probably not even worried about the possibility of being able to date vil. he just admires him a lot and wants to see him every day and that's all. well, here's the thing.. you want to do exactly that as well, so you need this guy dead.

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character: idia shroud

yandere type: protective

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♡ idia shroud is a quiet, introverted type. the things that he would do so that he didn't have to leave his room at all. idia shroud doesn't remember the last time he had ever touched grass. and he's exactly your type. and you will do anything to make his life easier. he doesn't have to socialize! he doesn't have to leave his room! you will do everything for him, all he has to do is ask! actually, no, he doesn't even have to ask, you always know what he needs. hm? and what does he need right now?.. well.. you, of course!

♡ people say that you spoil him too much, but you can't agree. this is how you express your love for him, what's so bad about that? and idia is just someone who needs a little bit more love than other people do. he's just so fragile, so weak, so.. haha, no, this guy won't survive without you. you know that better than anyone. idia shroud doesn't have to socialize and leave his room. you'll make sure he doesn't do that.

♡ this world is way too scary and dangerous for him! anime, manga, video games, they're so much better than real world! and whenever he has any doubts or wants to ask you a question, you can just say that you want to play with him or watch his favorite show with him and that's it, he won't remember anything that bothered him. he's like a puppet in a way. you don't even have to do much, idia would actually love to have someone that can make decisions for him so that he doesn't have to think about what's going on in his reality. just.. uh.. make sure he gets more attached to you instead of his faves.

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character: sebek zigvolt

yandere type: removal

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♡ you don't know what you did, but wow, you must be a very unlucky person to fall in love with a guy who only thinks about his young master. like you just know that if you ever went on a date, he'd still only talk about malleus. you just know that if you ever got married, he'd still be more loyal to malleus than you. you know how bad your situation is. you know that you deserve better. but you don't want better, you want sebek zigvolt and you will do anything to make him notice you.

♡ "but y/n, you know you can't do anything to malleus, right? he's malleus draconia, he's way too strong-" you don't care. your love for sebek is stronger than malleus's magic. also, who said that you have to use magic to fight him? you can just use your brains. malleus is actually very, extremely lonely and he needs affection. sebek is.. kind of an idiot, so you don't even have to try hard to manipulate him. you just have to ruin their relationship somehow. maybe convince malleus that sebek isn't actually that loyal to him? you know for sure that trying to convince sebek that malleus doesn't care about him isn't worth it: even if malleus really didn't care about him, he'd still walk into a burning house for him if he had to.

♡ you will still find a way to get rid of malleus somehow. you just know that even if this guy's magic is strong, he's actually more weak and vulnerable than he looks like. you just have to say the right word and hurt him so bad, he won't be able to look sebek in the eyes. or you can just try to completely ruin his image. he's already feared by most people, you don't have to do much to turn that fear into hatred. you will find a way to make sebek forget about him and give all his attention to you. you're sure of it.

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character: neige leblanche

yandere type: stalker

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♡ neige is so nice. so kind. so pure. so perfect. no, you are not his biggest fan. sure, you admire him, you love his work and you think he's extremely talented, but you're more than a fan. you're his soulmate. but sadly, he doesn't even know about it! what a shame.. you want to let him know that you're the one so bad.. but how should you do it? you don't want to be like those creepy fans who are obsessed with him after all.. ugh, you hate them so much..

♡ you don't want to scare him off, so you'll just send him some cute letters first! you know everything about him. you know where he lives, when he'll be able to read them, you know everything about his schedule.. nothing can go wrong. you're sure that he will answer. or that he'll at least read them. and if he doesn't answer, it's okay, you'll give him some time first! you understand that it can be shocking for him to find out that he actually has someone who was created specifically for him, his own special soulmate. you're so kind and patient, hehe~

♡ huh.. still no reply.. even though you've given him so much time.. guess you have no choice but to send more letters. maybe you should be more direct? you know, like, you should be more honest about your feelings! you should let him know that you'd like to go on a date or two, get married, start living together, maybe even start a family, just all normal things that all normal soulmates do!.. okay, you're done with this letter! hehe, you should thank your fellow neige fan for letting you borrow some red ink from them, you have no idea where your pen is.

#twisted wonderland #disney twisted wonderland #twst x reader #twisted wonderland imagines #twst imagines #twst headcanons #cater diamond #cater diamond x reader #leona kingscholar #leona kingscholar x reader #azul ashengrotto #azul ashengrotto x reader #vil schoenheit #vil schoenheit x reader #idia shroud #idia shroud x reader #sebek zigvolt #sebek zigvolt x reader #neige leblanche #neige leblanche x reader

[kogareteplanet]

Togawa Jun - Teinen Pushiganga

Allegedly the title comes from a phrase for sitting in a cirlce and drinking. So we're making merry over resigning yourself from personhood. Translation notes at the end and personal commentary too because fuck it, a blog's a blog.

English

Far beyond the sky float the clouds Oh, in the name of my love

Such acts of atrocity No more can I resign to forgiveness

You may kill me Like a cow Or like a pig It’s alright I am merely a piece of flesh

Lala lala la Lala lala lai I am merely a piece of flesh

Into the sky fades the midday canon Oh, for my love has ended

Both love and hatred Are no more, poured into nothing

In a single moment of disgust I begin to rot I am merely a piece of flesh

Lala lala la Lala lala lai I am merely a piece of flesh

Far beyond the sky float the clouds Oh, in the name of my love

Such acts of atrocity No more can I resign to forgiveness

You may kill me Like a cow Or like a pig It’s alright I am merely a piece of flesh

Lala lala la Lala lala lai I am merely a piece of flesh

Japanese

空の彼方に 浮かぶは雲 嗚々 我が恋愛の名において

その暴虐の 仕打ちさえ もはやただ 甘んじて許す

牛のように 豚のように 殺してもいい いいのよ 我 一塊の肉塊なり

ライラ ライラ ラ ライラ ライラ ライ 我 一塊の肉塊なり

空に消えゆく お昼のドン 嗚々 我が恋愛は終止せり

あの泥流の 恩讐が もはやただ あとかたもなしや

愕然とする間もなく 腐敗し始める 我 一塊の肉塊なり

ライラ ライラ ラ ライラ ライラ ライ 我 一塊の肉塊なり

ライラ ライラ ラ ライラ ライラ ライ 我 一塊の肉塊なり

空の彼方に 浮かぶは雲 嗚々 我が恋愛の名において

その暴虐の 仕打ちさえ もはやただ 甘んじて許す

牛のように 豚のように 殺してもいい いいのよ 我 一塊の肉塊なり

ライラ ライラ ラ ライラ ライラ ライ 我 一塊の肉塊なり

ライラ ライラ ラ ライラ ライラ ライ 我 一塊の肉塊なり

ライラ ライラ ラ ライラ ライラ ライ 我 一塊の肉塊なり

ライラ ライラ ラ ライラ ライラ ライ 我 一塊の肉塊なり

ライラ ライラ ラ ライラ ライラ ライ 我 一塊の肉塊なり

ライラ ライラ ラ ライラ ライラ ライ 我 一塊の肉塊なり

Translation Notes

泥流 is the flow of lahar/volcanic mud when a volcano erupts and 跡形もなしや (written in hiragana as あとかたもなしや) is like "without leaving a trace", I thought saying literally saying left without a trace was too basic for such a powerful song, so I went with "poured into nothing" to maintain the original imagery and meaning.

Personal Commentary Nobody Asked For

Many lifetimes ago I ran the Jun Togawa Forever fansite with my friend Pat, he translated all of the songs and I did the website... stuff. Because of it, Pat got to meet Jun's manager and it was basically the thing that set me off onto wanting to study Japanese to begin with. The sadness I was experiencing at the time couldn't be expressed in my own language because I was barely fresh off being a teenager, and I was treated poorly by almost everyone around me. Real "nobody understands me" type shit. So, i'd listen to this song on repeat a lot and read my friend's translation, because it felt like somebody understood me.

The reason I stopped running the website, posting throwbacks and setlist updates etc was because I actually hated most of the English fans. Pat was working very hard at a critical time to translate information and whenever I had a question, I would ask. But people kept jumping to assumptions about what Jun's art was trying to convey. It sounds almost cliche, but the perspective of dudes with no knowlege of Japanese language or culture was dominating the discussion about a Japanese woman's work, stripping it of time, place and it's author. One person's self expression through art became a talking point for being anti-pop culture - because it was antithetical to the norm, that's all it could be, or that became the main focus. I hated how our work was just being consumed by people who's reaction was just "cool" or "thanks", and the voice behind the lyrics was stifled for the sake of making hamfisted commentary about pop culture, from a society and culture that the authors themselves had sparse knowlege of.

It is extremely petty. This was also before Suki Suki Daisuki blew up on Tiktok too. But, the phrase "anti idol" just screamed fake deep to me lol. Once I actually started speaking Japanese and explaining the perspective of non-Japanese people about things to Japanese people, they were mostly confused. BiS' producer also called it "fucking stupid." I think about deleting all of the translations sometimes out of spite.

I wanted to come back and translate this song myself because... fuck it, why not. I'm not in the same mindset as when this was the one thing keeping my head above water, but I did have some poor experiences with people at university recently. I thought about this song because it feels like it's fine for terrible things to be said and done to me, but everyone else is seemingly allowed to do whatever they want. Be it emotionally or sexually as a friend or as a coercer. But i've resigned myself from caring because hey, life goes on.

#Youtube

[teeto-peteto]

Out of curiosity, what're the animatics in your head? No pressure to share.

oh bestie dont say that cause we can be here stuck forever you and i and my musical taste and my terrible obession with the bloodharbor ripper.

however, if you insist... longpost warning :) no particular order just as im doing a mental and a playlist check.

first animatic of my hellpit: Soul Fighter Gwen and Pyke doing the Lunchbox Friends handshake. Just because its iconic and they are best friends. Seems horrid to animate or to conceptualize in an understandable way to do an animatic, but they are iconic and they are besties and they do this. Convince me otherwise.

second animatic of the hellpit of my mind: Empire ants by Gorillaz. Originally was about my fave lol champions and my friend main champions (initially Pyke, Lulu, Thresh, Ahri and Varus) but yeah, i dont know. Im thinking about just Bilgewater champions, lyrics are very fitting to the feeling of living there, and also because i think Pyke would listen to gorillaz specially this album haha. Animatic like the videoclip with conceptual illustrations of the characters just doing stuff, dunno, would be cool.

I recently thought about an animatic with Sarah x Illaoi breakup with Woke Up from adventure time Obsidian, not polished idea but could be interesting if explored.

'I'll die anyway' by girl on red animatic for Ruined King AU Pyke. Whoopsie. Animatic with slow descend to horrible ending, isolation feelings, mm it reeks trauma baby. And i would add a small animatic or illustration with 'Sayo-Nara' from DDLC. Just to stab myself right on the heart.

Oooooohhh i always dreamed with doing an animatic with the Sailor Moon opening with the first 5 star guardians, keeping it that 90's anime style. Its so polished in my mind. I also love to imagine star guardian Lux in the place of Usagi in 'otome no policy'.

I also imagine an animatic with the Ahri (recent) team (Fortune, Syndra, Soraka, Ezreal) but with My Sweet Heart from Tokyo Mew Mew. Just to give them another opening. Its what a foxgirl leader makes me think about.

'Awoken' By wooden toaster was such a banger, it's been a while i imagine a whole animatic with Empyrean Pyke on it, seeing how he was before becoming an empyrean, his empyrean self, and how he haunts the other versions of himself, but always having some root to his old self, if that makes sense?

Any song by cascada. Not an animatic but it would be funny to make an mv circa 2012 of our beloved boogie man. Cause everytime we touch i get this feeling and everytime we kiss i swear i can fly. Rainbow effects and images rotating with rad 2010 video effects. My fever dream. Or with 'Monster'. I would throw up of happiness.

Althought i always wanted a 'Suki Suki Daisuki' by Jun Togawa animatic about Pyke. Expression of love through violence? Damn. I rotate him in my mind like a rotisserie chiken everytime i listen to it. Kinda like the videoclip where he would be stubborn but also a sucker for affection.

this fucking song hits too hard i dont know where to start. I thought about EVERYTHING. Ocs. Self Insert. Default Pyke. Ruined King in general. Other Star Guardians. It never fails. Most recent one is animatic of Soul Fighter Gwen and Pyke where she refuses to accept his death and to let him go but she reasures her that things are just the way they are, but you know Gwen wont accept it nonetheless and will always do everything to keep him alive.

Funnily enough i always thought about an animatic with Chip and Dale rescue rangers theme but with the Omega Squad. Its edgy and its cool in essence but what if they were actually goofy and corny? Episodic? No one dies dramatically and they are just silly? Tristmo undertone? Heck yeah.

#oooops rebbloging with the rest cause i put too many videos :) #omg sorry for the huge post #this also works for archive if i ever do anything #wich i wont #but you know #maybe one day i sit my ass and learn shit about animating or doing animatics

[pipipinyyy]

Explaining why I have added every song in my entire and very long Niragi playlist because I can and because over analyzing him is my passion (I usually update it from time to time but I'll do it with the current songs)

Completely self indulgent post, but I decided to share to feed my fellow Niragi stans (*˙︶˙*)☆*°

This is entirely based on my view of the songs and how I interpret them while thinking about Niragi. I'm aware that most of them have entirely different meanings, this is just for fun :) (Also sorry if my explanations don't make much sense, English is not my first language and I might make mistakes when trying to put my feelings and thoughts into words)

This may contain manga/s2 spoilers

Hayloft-Mother Mother: Vibes

Criminal-Britney Spears: The whole song describes him ("he is a sucker with a gun") and the fandom's obsession ("mama I'm in love with a criminal")

Daddy Issues-The Neighborhood: I feel like he would act like this, using the most vulnerable spots to pick on someone ("cry little girl, nobody does it like you do")

Psycho-Jin Dogg, OVER KILL: Vibes

Riot-Hollywood Undead: He'd definitely start a riot like he did in the 10 of hearts, burning and destroying anything that crosses his path

Bitches-Mindless Self Indulgence: He most likely thinks he's a total fuckboy and popular with girls since he can get almost anything he wants out of scarying people

Baby's on Fire-Die Antwoord: Vibes

Insane in the Brain-Cypress Hill: This man is being consumed by his own way of protecting himself

Wolf in Sheep's Clothing-Set It Off: Based on how he feels towards the people who hurt him in the past ("Listen, mark my words, one day, you will pay" "You've always been a huge piece of shit, if I could kill you, I would" "Karma is gonna come collect your debt")

Death no more-IC3PEAK: Vibes

Gasoline-I Prevail: Sort of similar to Riot, ("So burn it all down, burn it all down, I don't give a fuck")

Toxic-Britney Spears: The whole fandom knows how much of a piece of shit this dude can be, but we still find ourselves liking/enjoying his character (to an extent), a toxic addiction

Nice Guy-GRLwood: As much as I love this man, he'd use the "I'm a nice guy c'mon" card just to fuck. If he wants to, he'll get it, if he doesn't, he'll most likely get mad

Dernière danse-Indila: Vibes

TRRST-IC3PEAK: Mostly vibes, I kinda see this song as how he felt the first time he killed someone on purpose inside the borderlands ("mama they say I'm a terrorist, I did nothing wrong but I got on the blacklist")

Saint Bernard-Lincoln: Vibes

Nowhere To Run-Stegosaurus Rex: Being with him at the Beach would either be ignoring each other completely or a game of tag, no inbetween. If this man wants to kill you, he'll get his fun time out of it as well ("You're gonna die, I'm gonna kill you")

The House of Wolves-Bring Me The Horizon: Based on how he sees life after being consumed by his current mental state ("Show me a sign, show me a reason to give a solitary fuck about your god damn beliefs" "What you call faith, I call a sorry excuse")

Smells Blood-Kensuke Ushio: Vibes

SIU-Maretu: Similar to Daddy Issues, don't expect this man to be a therapist. If he sees anyone crying or panicking in or outside a game, he'd most likely tell them to suck it up, just like this song.

Judgement-Kensuke Ushio: Vibes

MONSTER ENERGY GUN!-KevinKempt: Vibes + He for sure has an energy drink addiction, specially pre-borderlands

HURT-1 800 PAIN: Vibes

Fear Is The Mind Killer-Zheani: Vibes

I Bet on Losing Dogs: Based on how I know Niragi is toxic, and most likely unsaveable of his deteriorating mental state, but I still have him as my biggest comfort character ("I bet on losing dogs, I know they're losing and I'll pay for my place")

Emo Boy-Ayesha Erotica: He's been in an emo phase (and maybe still is), the lyrics are pretty self explanatory, they describe us Niragi simps perfecrly ("come on fuck me emo boy")

Crybaby-Destroy Boys: Vibes

The Fox's Wedding-MASA Works DESIGEN: Vibes

You're a useless child-Kikuo: We don't know much about his past, but judging by the unstoppable bullying he's suffered, his parents didn't care about him, or were straight up absent. He's been insulted by pretty much everyone in his past to the point of believing it and telling those things to himself ("You're a useless child, the most useless child in this world" "Drool in snot, dandruff, shit and piss" "I'm a useless child" "Nobody will save me" "I'm a lonely kid")

Take A Slice-Glass Animals: Vibes

Fighting With The Melody-Jimmy Urine: Vibes

Comics-Caravan Palace: Vibes

Rhinestone Eyes-Gorillaz: Vibes

Butch 4 Butch-Rio Romero: Mostly vibes, sort of how I think the most "peacefull" moments in a relationship with him would feel like, kind of bittersweet feeling

Suki Suki Daisuki-Jun Togawa: Yandere Niragi. If he's interested in someone, he'd go through an obsessive phase, most likely forcing the other person to "love" him. This man is so confused about the feeling of love that he's unable to tell when he loves someone or when he's obsessed with them due to his lack of attention ("Like you, like you, I love you. Say you love me or I'll kill you")

:(-The Garden: Vibes

Kitty City-Cyriak Harris: Vibes

Blood-My Chemical Romance: If Niragi went to a therapist, he'd act like this song, with his signature cocky and sarcastic personality (at least before he gets better) ("I can't control myself because I don't know how" "They can fix me proper with a bit of luck" "I'm the kind of human wreckage that you love")

A Mask of My Own Face-Lemon Demon: He feels like he needs to protect himself or else he will get hurt inside the borderlands by others again. He uses another personality, a completely ruthless one, even if he doesn't like it and hates himself for it, he doesn't see another way to deal with his fear, allowing his "new self" to consume himself. ("I'd wear that mask of my own face" "I look into my eyeholes and what do I see? A handsome motherfucker motherfucking looking back at me")

I'm a Murderer-Freddie Dredd: Mostly vibes ("I'm a motherfucking murderer")

'Cause I'm a Liar-Mcki Robyns-P: He would lie just for fun even in serious situations. If he needs to manipulate someone to survive, he'll do it his way, after all, he doesn't care anymore, he just seeks for excitement. ("Without emotion, without devotion. It's much easier to fake something happy")

I Disagree-Poppy: I don't know exactly how to describe it, but I feel like this is how he sees and feels the world and those around him, feeling misunderstood and going his own way ("If only all of you could see the world I see, then maybe everyone could live in harmony")

Personal Jesus-Mindless Self Indulgence: He has a superiority complex, that's for sure. I don't think he sees himself as a god, but I see him joking about it

Rainbow Factory-GLAZE, WoodenToaster: Vibes

Frontier Psychiatrist-The Avalanches: I kinda see this as Aguni taking the role of Niragi's "father figure" inside the borderlands, realizing he's turning insane and is unable to control him ("That boy needs therapy")

Hate it. Hate it. "JIGAHIDAI!"-WADATAKEAKI Kurage P: Jealousy. I can see it either in a pre-borderland situation where he hates the popular students in school, or inside the borderlands hating both Chishiya and Arisu. Jealousy takes over him constructing a big ego, causing himself to develop his superiority complex ("You see, I hate that popular girl!" "Does she think I don't notice? How she looks at me as if I'm trash" "I want to be praised" "I'm different from you all, I have my own ego! I'm not a side character" "I have zero common sense. I'm special")

Villain-Stella Jang: He knows damn well he's a villain, that's his goal after all, but what if someone took his point of view? wouldn't the villains be all of those who hurted him in the first place? ("We all pretend to be the heroes on the good side, but what if we are the villains on the other")

Violent-carolesdaughter: This is how I view an argument inside a relationship with Niragi. He's used to violence, to cause fear, and getting what he wants, so being in a healthy relationship would require a lot of patience and strenght. While he's getting better and suppressing those violent actions, there will be times where he accidentally uses violence or threatens the other person unintentionally, mostly hurting himself and his partner psychologically. The lyrics change between both points of view ("Don't make me get violent, I want my ring back baby that's a diamond" "She knows I'm a wreck" "I gave you all my trust and I told you just don't break it")

Hey Bunny-Baby Bugs: Based on how I think it would feel to partner up with him inside the borderlands and catching feelings for him while knowing the huge mess he is ("Hey bunny, what's with those evil eyes?" "Hey bunny, what the hell is wrong with us?" "Hey bunny, what if I loose you too? If I become the monster, together we can always be blue")

Kokoronashi-majiko: I'm pretty sure Niragi isn't able to see himself as someone able to love, even if he doesn't want to be alone (just like when he confesses this feeling while fighting with Chishiya and Arisu). If someone truly loved him and was willing to not letting him go, it would hurt. He can't see himself as someone who can love or be loved, so he can't accept the love he's seeking for in case that turns him "weaker" making his true self confront with the protective mean personality he's created. He could learn how to accept it, so he might want the other person to stay in the end, but it wouldn't be easy for him to accept it ("It's awful, I'd rather you destroy my body, tear it to sheds, do as you please" "No matter how much I'm loved by you, my heart is just one" "I don't know this, don't leave me alone")

Nightmare Parade-FAKE TYPE.: Vibes

Slipping Through My Fingers-Meryl Streep, Amanda Seyfried: Niragi seeing himself loosing his young, gentle and caring personality due to his fear, being unable to control what's happening inside, nostalgia and sadness kicking in ("The feeling that I'm loosing her forever" "That funny little girl" "Sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture and save it from the funny tricks of time")

Kuroneko No Tango-Pink Martini, The Von Trapps: Vibes

YKWIM?-Yot Club: Him confroting his feelings of loneliness when he's left alone with his thoughts ("It feels like I care too much when I'm alone, oh no")

Romantic Lover-Eyedress: Just appreciating his physical appearance ("She's a killer, I love her features")

Wrecking Ball-Mother Mother: Based on how he sees himself as someone who needs to destroy everything in a way or another in order to be powerful + the fun he has with it ("Call me a reckless wrecking ball" "Let's break it just because we can")

Edge-Rezz: Vibes

Freaks-Surf Curse: Again, confronting feelings when loving someone, but not in such a painful as Kokoronashi ("I need a place to stay where I can cover up my face" "Don't cry, I'm just a freak")

Little Bit-Lykke Li: Vibes

6up 5oh Cop-Out (Pro/Con)-Will Wood and the Tapeworms: Vibes

PHONKY TOWN-PlayaPhonk: Vibes

I WANNA BE YOUR SLAVE-Måneskin: Freaky time. He would absolutely love this song, definitely his type of thing ("You could be the beauty and I could be the monster" "I wanna touch your body so fucking electric" "I wanna make you hungry, then I wanna feed you")

#BrooklynBloodPop!-SyKo: Vibes

A Cold Freezin' Night-The Books: Vibes

A Pearl-Mitski: My most favorite song to associate with Niragi. Represents his evolution as a character. Creating an scenario where he is loved by someone,he rejects it at first, acting tough ("I don't want your touch") and then proceeds to explain why ("It's just that I fell in love with a war, nobody told me it ended" "it left a pearl in my hand and I roll it around every night just to watch it glow") the war being the borderlands and his new personality, he loved it, but nobody drew a line and it's getting out of hand. The pearl is the feeling of power, the one he has to remember when feeling weak just to feel something. At the end of the song it changes to ("Sorry I can't take your touch"), realizing that he wants love, but he's not able to take it or else he'll become the Niragi from the past

Problematic-Bo Burnham: Him acknowledging his problematic actions but not wanting to apologize because he doesn't feel the need to. He knows he's done bad things but he is going to laugh at it and be a sarcastic mf about it

First Love/Late Spring-Mitski: Similar to Kokoronashi, he wouldn't be able to accept love and how it makes him feel. He would think that he prefers for everyone to hate him and be lonely instead of sacrificing his tougher side. Also talks about how he's grown way too quickly for him to understand feelings properly ("So please hurry leave me, I can't breathe, please don't say you love me" "One word from you and I would jump out of this ledge I'm on baby" "I was so young when I behaved 25, yet now I find I've grown into a tough child"

The Other Side Of Paradise-Glass Animals: Vibes

Bodybag-Chloe Moriondo: How I feel about liking his character, confronting feelings basically ("Don't know if I hate you or if I wanna date you" "I don't wanna like you, I just wanna tie you up, then keep you in a cage and watch you sleep for ages"

Get Into It (Yuh)-Doja Cat: Vibes

Psycho Killer-2005 Remaster- Talking Heads: Vibes

HOT DEMON B!TCHES NEAR U!!!-CORPSE, Night Lovell: Vibes

INFERNO-Sub Urban, Bella Poarch: Again, another song that describes him pretty well ("Baby I'm the reason why hell's so hot" "Terribly like terrible, she's a villain" "Think I'm getting butterflies but it's really something telling me to run away")

Bad Morning-Omori: Vibes

Trouble Brewing: Vibes

Dueles Tan Bien-Bruses: Another song about my confronting feelings with this man ("You know what? You taste better than alcohol to me. You know that and you've got control" "Because you hurt, and you hurt so good that I don't know what to do")

And that's it!! This took me the whole day to write but it makes me very happy to be able to share it :)

I've you've read the entire thing, hope you enjoyed the character analysis! ლ(◞‿◟ლ)

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[oumakokichi]

hello! could you talk a bit more about the original (as in jp, not localization) ouma's personality and speech patterns? you've mentioned that he tends to trail off or speak more softly when it is implied he is speaking the truth, etc. and how he is not so loud/intentionally obnoxious. //btw when does he call himself a fairy? that's so cute

I got a couple of questions asking about the fairy line Ouma has, so I don’t mind sort of rolling them both into one! And I’m more than happy to talk a little more in-depth about Ouma’s speech patterns and personality in the original game, too!

Since I’ll be covering some late-game spoilers, I’ll put the bulk of this under the cut, so be careful when reading!

First off, I cannot stress how much I recommed playing ndrv3 with the Japanese voices enabled. If you’ve already played through the English dub but never experiened the original voice acting cast, I promise you won’t be disappointed. The Japanese cast are all fantastic, incredibly talented VAs who, unlike the dub, were hired specifically for these roles and not just re-casted from previous DR games.

Hiro Shimono as Ouma gives an absolutely incredible performance. The localization might still have many flaws in its translation and omission of certain lines or punctuation, but you can still very much get a feel for how Ouma’s character was intended by listening to Shimono’s performance. Re-playing the game with the Japanese voices will definitely let you hear how soft and tonally different Shimono’s performance is in places from the English dub, and compare it to the way in which many lines are written and punctuated as if Ouma’s yelling at everyone.

That isn’t to say that Shimono’s Ouma is never loud or excited: Ouma is a character whose moods and façades are all over the place, and therefore his performance requires a voice actor who can similarly change moods and intonation on a dime. Ouma is very much loud and haughty and deliberately annoying when he’s supposed to be, but his voice is also low and ominous at other points when he’s trying to be scary. And again, it’s soft and hesitant in places where he’s considering divulging some of his information, or when he’s insisting that all the things he does are for everyone’s sake, because he cares about them and doesn’t want anyone to die.

These moments feel so much more genuine in the Japanese version of the game--because they’re meant to be. As fantastic of a liar as Ouma is, it’s much easier for us, the player, to tell when he’s lying on a re-play, knowing the information from chapters 5 and 6 that we do, and looking at cues like his sprites (often his blank-faced ones) and, yes, his delivery of certain lines.

This probably sounds like me just gushing about what a fantastic voice actor Hiro Shimono is, and in part that’s exactly what it is, but I want to stress that pretty much every single voice actor in the Japanese cast is just as fantastic and that they all do their jobs incredibly well. With all that gushing out of the way, I’ll move on to talking about some of Ouma’s actual speech tics and the way he refers to other characters.

Like most things about him, Ouma’s speech patterns are sort of an interesting mix and even seem a little contradictory at times. He uses the very masculine pronoun “ore” (オレ), but he also refers to nearly everyone (with only a handful of exceptions) by their surnames and the much more childish honorific “-chan” (i.e. “Saihara-chan,” “Akamatsu-chan,” “Amami-chan,” etc.)

The use of “-chan” is very interesting. Honorifics in Japan are extremely complicated and tend to mean different things depending on who is using them. Typically, “-chan” is seen as a very feminine way to refer to someone else, commonly used in close-knit friend groups among school girls.

There are, of course, a few notable exceptions to this however: often times, middle-aged or elderly people will call a child “-chan” regardless of gender, as a way of showing they find them cute and endearing. And sometimes, people will use “-chan” to refer to other things they find cute, such as pets, or even to refer to themselves in a sort of informal, tongue-in-cheek way.

The fact that Ouma uses “-chan” as an honorific to refer to nearly everyone in the game stands out quite a lot: by and large, boys don’t use this term to refer to other boys. Using “-chan” to refer to anyone you’ve just met or don’t know very well is already somewhat frowned upon, but a boy using it to refer to other boys is especially rare. This helps set Ouma’s character up as someone who is both incredibly casual and informal with others (not to mention, you know, quite coded). Considering childishness and lightheartedness are traits Ouma values, and how much emphasis is put on him having “a very innocent, childish streak that’s hard to hate,” it makes sense then that he would talk like this.

Not counting Monokuma and the Monokubs, the only characters who Ouma doesn’t refer to with “-chan” are Gonta and Kiibo, who he simply calls by name. This also says some interesting things about his character.

Gonta is easily the character who Ouma interacts with the most often, as well as the charater he hurts the most in the end. Ouma’s choice to exclude Gonta from his usual way of calling people is, I think, a testament to how much Gonta really wanted to be friends with him, even if their friendship was never exactly on equal footing.

Meanwhile with Kiibo, I feel the choice to exclude him from his usual way of addressing others is indicative of how much Ouma tried to remind himself that Kiibo “wasn’t human,” and therefore how suspicious he found his presence in the killing game. We know Ouma suspected Kiibo and likely even had an inkling of his role as the audience proxy/camera in the game, due to how Kiibo’s picture is one of the only others set aside on his whiteboard besides Saihara’s, with the word “weird” written next to it (he also clearly guessed about the cameras after Gonta’s line in chapter 2, as we see from how he commissioned Miu for the bug-vac).

Ouma clearly enjoys teasing Kiibo a lot, and their banter reads very much like a manzai comedy duo; I feel like Ouma often tried pushing himself to remember that Kiibo “wasn’t human” on purpose in order to not get too attached to him or too distracted from his goal of ending the killing game. I don’t think Ouma’s decision to exclude Kiibo from the way that he very particularly referred to most of the rest of the group was just an accident or a coincidence.

Honorifics aside, Ouma also refers to several characters in interesting ways. He often uses “daisuki na ___-chan” (大好きな) to refer to some of the other characters, a phrase which more or less equates to “my beloved.” He uses this phrase with Saihara more than any other character of the game, but there are a few other instances where he does use it with Amami, Momota, and (if I’m remembering correctly) Kaede. Pretty much every single instance where the localization put, “because I love you” or “because you’re my favorite” whenever Ouma was talking to Saihara was usually a point where he would specifically call him “my beloved Saihara-chan.”

In chapter 4 during the scene where Ouma is alone in the parlor of the VR world, he also specifically, exclusively refers to Saihara as “suki ni natta hito” (好きになった人), literally: “the person I fell in love with.” This line was changed in the localization to, “when there’s a person I like,” which is more or less literally correct--however, the phrase “suki ni natta” is much heavier and more loaded with explicitly romantic implications than “suki” would be on its own, as it’s often used in Japanese love songs and shoujo manga love confessions.

Worth noting in my opinion is the fact that this is the exact same phrasing Maki uses to describe her romantic feelings for Momota. Since Maki’s feelings for Momota are considered canonically confirmed because of this, Ouma’s feelings should be considered equally canon, but a lot of people don’t know this because, well, it’s sort of been lost in translation.

And now, on to the fairy line! Ouma calls himself a fairy in chapter 3, when he pops up in the middle of Saihara and Korekiyo’s discussion of the katana in Korekiyo’s lab. Full of enthusiasm, he decides to touch the sword and examine it for himself; Korekiyo starts to object, but Ouma interrupts and says:

“Come on, it’s not a big deal! I’m like a fairy, so it’ll be fine!”

I’ve always really loved this line and thought it was super adorable, both as a nod to how fairies aren’t supposed to be able to touch steel in most fae mythos, as well as the fact that fairies tend to also have a love for mischief and pranks and lies. The localization apparently didn’t like it so much though, because this line is simply changed to, “Come on, would I lie to you?” instead.

One final thing I can think of as far as Ouma’s speech tics go is that his laugh in Japanese is romanized as “nishishi” instead of “neeheehee,” as this is closer to the Japanese onomatopoeia for the sound horses make--but I actually don’t mind this localization change at all! “Neeheehee” definitely looks a lot closer to the word “neigh” and helps capture that horse joke in a way that I feel like western players can more easily understand.

All in all, while I still definitely feel people can like and enjoy Ouma’s character from playing the localization alone, I still stand by my opinion that listening to the original Japanese voices helps give a much better picture of how the character was intended to come across, and really shows how much depth Hiro Shimono put into his performance. He’s quoted in the official ndrv3 artbook as saying that he believes Ouma is someone who’s actually “really meek if you take away his strong wish to outwit everyone” (credit to @kaibutsushidousha for the art book translation), and I think this interpretation of Ouma really shows through in so many of his lines.

Thank you both for the really fun questions! I hope I could provide some more interesting information about Ouma and the translation!

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[koizumicchi]

LIP×LIP Docchi Kiss LIVE Report English Translation

LIP×LIP LIVE “First Kiss” ~ Docchi no Kiss Ka, Erabe yo ~ ~ Which Kiss Do You Want ~

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T/N: This WIP has been sitting untouched in my folder the moment it was tweeted ww, so like about 2 years now wwww. Since I decided to do the birthday countdown, I might as well include this and finish this at last. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, AIZOU AND YUUJIROU!!!!! 愛してるよ ~

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During the waiting time, after entering the venue, the performance version of the songs compiled in the album were playing. The introduction video of the album was also inserted midway.

Lines like “Thank you for spending the same time with us.”

Reflecting on the golden chandelier is a shining light in the shade of blue. This world view of the palace certainly represents LIPxLIP. I feel like I naturally transformed into being a Julietta even before I entered (the venue).

Inside, small petals are fluttering about splendidly. Yuujirou ---> Aizou, introduction in this order.

A thin film (curtain) rose. The band members entered. Oji-san wore a black hat and in his ‘black pace’, dressed in a classic outfit.

LIP×LIP entered, in their Romeo costume.

From the left (of the stage): Nakanishi-san, Kobayashi-san, Reonnu, Aizou, Yuujirou, Keiki-san, Oji-san. Overhead is a horizontal screen.

The songs started right away.

*Nonfantasy

In the screen are images of gorgeous flowers. Right before ‘suki da yo’, (image of) small petals were falling. At Yuujirou’s ‘kimi senyou da yo’, he made a space reserved only for you with his arms. With the dark lighting, the whole venue quieted down; and after a while, the two, preparing for something, said in a clear voice, “suki da yo.”

*Yappa Saikyou

A lively video, with vivid colors used fully to the heart’s content; at the part of the interlude, letters appeared. After “Ride on” is a choreography of profound rhythm. “Daisuki tte yappa saikyou” is brilliantly done with the guts pose.

Aizou and Yuujirou introduced themselves. With the band members’ hands (introduction), the two were sparkling.

*Rodeo

The neon-colored lights are the main image of the townscape.

Smoke came from both sides.

The choreography is dynamic and lively; there are many movements from left to right and they made use of the wide stage.

“Is it OK to meet in the usual place?”

“Yes~ from the very start~”

They seem like they were facing each other.

*Choco Kano

An image of pink-colored pastries. It changes completely from Rodeo; they begin to sway from left to right. A great number of cute dance steps that matched the lyrics. “Tsukue no naka” with a ‘taking a peek’ choreography. “Dare nandesuka?”, pointed to the direction of the audience.

*White Day Kiss

Images (on the screen) of white ribbon, kiss mark, heart chocolate in light blue. Mic stand appear from below. At the chorus, did the double peace sign, swinging both hands. The swaying is impressive. At “Hyakumankai no kisu” Aizou points at his cheeks. In both no. 1 and 2, before the chorus, Yuujirou’s facial expression can’t be seen and it brought more feeling of painfulness in the production. At “Honmei dakara” Aizou draws a big heart (in the air). At no.2, Yuujirou poses as if asleep.

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(MC Talk)

Aizou: It's Valentine's.

Yuujirou: How many chocolates did you receive?

Aizou: I received one from each Julietta present today.

Yuujirou: No, they gave it to me.

Aizou: What's your basis?

Yuujirou: None.

Aizou: Don't you hate those that don't have basis?

Yuujirou: ?

Aizou: I received them.

Yuujirou: And your basis is?

Aizou: None.

Yuujirou: Aizou, it is bad to lie.

Aizou: I have it somewhere!

Let's decide who is more suitable to receive them.

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*Judge☆

Red balance scales, a video of a courtroom. “Hitotsume, futatsume, mitsume” is denoted by fingers.

At “igiari”, lightly pushing each other away. “Boku ga (boku ga) kimi wo (kimi wo)” the two forcibly put one foot in front of the other. The appearance of raising the back of a hand towards this direction seems comical.

*Koi wo Shiyou

Pink hearts to hearts in varying colors. “Fuku wo narabete”, a choreography of similar to placing a hanger at an elevated place. “Datsumekko” Aizou with arms crossed and taking off clothes action. The chorus is the MV’s choreography. “Akai ito de”, you can see as if the red thread existed and they are synchronized.

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LIPxLIP leaving. There is a hidden microphone at the dressing room, leaking their conversation.

Aizou: Let’s fall in love ~fufufu~

Yuujirou: What are you pacing for? Are you nervous?

Aizou: Not at all

Yuujirou: During Nonfantasy, your hand holding the mic was trembling.

Aizou: I could say the same for you; you bought a can of coffee even if you don’t drink one.

Yuujirou: I bought that for you. I don’t always say this but thank you.

Aizou: ?!?!

Yuujirou: Be honest, what did you think when you partnered with me?

Aizou: Why with this guy? I thought we definitely wouldn’t match.

Yuujirou: You’re right. We didn’t align when it came to tuna mayo.

Aizou: Yuujirou would most likely be my rival so I thought I absolutely won’t lose to him.

Yuujirou: I thought an amazing guy is here when I look at Aizou

Aizou: Eh?

Yuujirou: Someone who goes to an audition with bed hair is amazing.

Aizou: It's not bed hair; I styled it! But, with him, I thought, I can fulfill the dream I've always dreamed of.

Yuujirou: .....

Aizou: Wait, Yuujirou being kind to me is suspicious. There's definitely a hidden camera somewhere.

Yuujirou: None of that sort.

Aizou: Is this revenge for the Osaka live? Everyone here, are you excited!?! I love you!

Yuujirou: Pardon us for only playing a video without sound.

Aizou: It's alright; though there's no sound, one could shout their love on their own, right?

Yuujirou: Yeah, everyone is thinking, "What are you doing, Aizou-kun? Hurry up changing your clothes!" (he imitated)

Aizou: Eh? Huh? How embarrassing. You're lying, right?

Yuujirou: It's a lie. They can only hear our voice. (meaning, no video)

Aizou: Oi! As I thought this whole thing was weird!

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LIPxLIP appeared wearing their Yume Fanfare outfit

*Yume Fanfare

Because they are together, their dance shine beautifully; a song that is conveyed because it is Aizou and Yuujirou. If one is missing, it won’t work at all. A song for two people. The last harmony sums it up and is beautiful as expected. The chorus is stable and similar in the MV.

*Tsuki no Hime

“Please listen carefully”

A picture of a moon. At the chorus, the moon is red and rising; it was mysterious. At the beginning and end, both looked up at the moon and danced.

Aizou is cool, widening his legs diagonally.

Yuujirou crossed his legs; silent dance steps at the beginning, and gentlemanly from “soto no sekai watashi kara” part. The chorus has great choreography and livened up (the crowd).

“Thank you for listening carefully.”

Band members’ introduction

*Romeo

Yuujirou, from the start to the end, did not make a mistake at all. He is honestly magnificent. Aizou in his part “Nayanderu no? Ojou-san” is even more gentlemanly than before. It gradually softened later on. Seemingly like the East Country, a huge feeling of exhilaration overflows in the choreography. At “eran de”, the pose is very-like Aizou and Yuujirou. They jumped the whole time and both of them looked like they enjoyed it more than anyone else.

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LIPxLIP and the band members leave.

Encore.

LIPxLIP and the band members enter.

They changed to the LIVE t-shirt: Aizou ---> black Yuujirou ---> white

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*Hitsuyou Fukkaketsu

At the end (of the song) is a clip/scene of a thin cloud on a blue sky. They held each other’s mics and sang. *Silver tape (similar to party streamers; on concerts these are a custom) falls from above. They left their Yume Fanfare shoes on: Aizou tucking his trousers inside his shoes and Yuujirou leaving his outside.

*Repaint

An image wherein you can feel the time of space from the pale bubbles in a light blue sky. Came out in different colors. Mic held in their hands, the two bent down at “seishun wa ima mo tsuzuiteru”. You’d be drawn in at the rush of excitement at the last chorus. They waved both hands left and right.

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Both: Thank you! (waving at different directions)

Yuujirou: I love you-! (suki da yo)

Julietta: Kyaa-!

Aizou: (I want to do it too) Okay, here goes!

Julietta:

Aizou: I love you-! (aishiteru yo)

Julietta: Kyaa-!

They bowed while their hands were connected. Aizou is always waving his hand and so Yuujirou pulled his arm so they could return back. Later on, Yuujirou comes out all of a sudden and waves goodbye. The fans were given permission to take photos of the venue for five minutes.

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T/N: Keep in mind that Japanese and English aren’t my first language so I apologize if there are some mistakes. As always, if you’re going to use/reference my translations, please do not claim it as your own and credit me.

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[tomoonine]

in every way.

[nakamoto yuta] — there are four ways to express your love in the japanese language. and thanks to you, yuta was able to learn how to say “i love you” in every way his mother tongue would let him. 

Pairing: yuta / reader (gender neutral) Genre: non-idol au, strangers to lovers au, friends to lovers au, sociology major!yuta, fluff, and a tinge of angst Warnings: none Word Count: 6.3k words

☽. yuta has a special place in my heart, and i’ve been meaning to write something like this for him. i studied nihongo and japanese culture for several years, though for good measure i used a japanese forum for reference.

happy reading! and if you liked this, please leave feedback and check out my other works!

「大好き」— daisuki; a daily word to confess love that is commonly used among friends and family. it is casual in nature, and can also be used to refer to things that people like, are interested in, or enjoy.

Yuta first met you during his second year in college in one of his classes, a subject you both shared despite being in different courses. You were taking this subject as an elective, although for Yuta, this was one of his major subjects. Contemporary Social Issues, a course under the Sociology department, where he majored in.

In his honest opinion, he never really imagined being drawn to you in any way. He was in university to study for his bachelor’s degree after all, along with making sure his athletic scholarship will be maximized efficiently. The only thing about you that he was intrigued by was the reason you took this exact subject, considering that you were the only person from your major who was taking it.

Everyone had their eyes on you when you introduced yourself, and they all marvelled at your rationale for taking the class. He could even recall your response word per word, just because it was so honest and sincere.

I enrolled in this class because it was something I was interested in. And I know that whatever I will learn here will help me understand what I need to do to help people in our community. I want to help people using my respective field, and I can only do that when I know what issues need to be solved in society.

He and his coursemates applauded at your response, and it really deserved the appraisal. You were determined to maximize your time in the subject, unlike others they’ve seen who have spent their time on their phone during lectures. You diligently took notes, and you listened well. Not only that, but you also made sure to contribute to the discussion by joining in the discourse. Your input was valued since it was from a perspective of someone in your field, and you were very helpful when it came to group works.

That was all Yuta could ever say whenever he had to formulate some sort of opinion about you. You were an acquaintance, a classmate from his sociology subject who took the subject seriously. You were articulate when it came to recitation, but you kept to yourself since you didn’t know anyone else in class.

Despite that, you were pretty much doing alright on your own, and during mini-group discussions you were ready to talk to him and his other friends. So he never felt the need to talk to you, nor to initiate a conversation with you outside of academic work. Not until this day, that is. On this particular school day, he was excused from his previous class because of an obligation he must meet with the football team. And since it ended relatively early, he figured that he should cool down in the classroom after taking a shower. Surely by this time, the air-conditioning would be turned on even if there isn’t a class before his.

When he arrives in front of the door to the room, Yuta’s hair is damp and he has changed out of his football uniform. The watch strapped on his left wrist reads 9:34 am; approximately 30 minutes before your shared class. He can feel the cold air seeping through the gaps of the door, and he beams at the thought of being able to sit down in silence. As he knocks on the door as courtesy, Yuta opens the door only to be taken aback at the sight of you alone at your desk.

Considering your dry hair and your neatly organized notebook, Yuta could only assume that you’ve been sitting there for quite a long time. Your gaze is set towards the windows, watching the birds perch on top of the trees outside the building. It appears that you haven’t noticed Yuta’s presence either, since your back is still turned while humming a tune to yourself. Initially, he didn’t want to bother you because you look so immersed and transfixed towards what’s outside. Though he can no longer keep to himself when he realizes how oddly familiar the song you’re humming is.

When he connects the dots, Yuta couldn’t control his excitement and speaks before he could process his own thoughts. “Is that One OK Rock?” He asks you, with a radiant smile across his face.

You jolt up in shock upon hearing Yuta’s voice by the door, turning your head towards his direction with embarrassment written all over your face. When you don’t immediately reply, Yuta simply walks toward you with an eager grin. “The song you were humming just now, it was Mr. Gendai Speaker right? One OK Rock, Zankyo Reference album, the chorus that starts with nobody can find me here?”

“Uh…” You gulp, eyes never leaving Yuta’s approaching figure, even as he plops down on the seat beside you. “Yes, actually.” There’s a sheepish smile that settles on your face when you admit it to him. “I’ve just started listening to their older songs. The ones that aren’t from their most recent albums, I mean. I really like them.”

“Me too!” Yuta replies, without a faltering smile. “I like One OK Rock. No, well-- I actually love them.” There’s a laugh that leaves his lips, and you can’t help but laugh along. Your body shifts from its original position to one that’s completely facing Yuta. “I’m surprised though,” Yuta says. “their songs from Eye of the Storm have a different vibe from those like Mr. Gendai Speaker.”

“That’s true.” You agree. “But more than the sound, I really admire them for their lyrics and message. Mr. Gendai Speaker talks about government incompetence, and Stand Out Fit In is very…” You struggle to find the right words, but Yuta’s gaze on you doesn’t falter. He watches you with genuine interest, eager to learn more. Your fingers snap and you point at him with a triumphant smile. “Empowering! Self-empowering, actually. Stuff along the lines of breaking away from society’s norms and being who you are.”

Once he’s certain that you’re finished speaking, he lets out a hum for acknowledgement. “You’d make a good socio major, (Y/N).” Yuta concludes, and you thank him timidly. “But you know what? I think we’d make good friends.” He adds as he brings his hand up in front of you. “Anyone who appreciates One OK Rock in the same way you do is a friend of mine.”

Your eyes dart toward his hand, and back at his face. After much thought, you smile at him and take his hand for a firm shake. “Anyone who can sing OOR with a wonderful voice like yours is a friend of mine too.”

Since that day, Yuta could finally say more about you. You were (Y/N), a classmate from his Contemporary Social Issues class every Tuesday and Friday at 10:00 am to 11:30 am. Despite your  major, you took the class because you genuinely wanted to know how to help people using your profession. But more than that, you were (Y/N), his new friend who liked One OK Rock as much as he did.

「好きだよ」— suki dayo; commonly used for confessions since it holds a special meaning in the context of love.

“I don’t understand you, Yuta.”

Yuta stares at you blankly and scoffs. “Even after one semester of being classmates and seatmates,  you still tell me that?” He fiddles with the hem of his jersey as he struggles to find more words to say. Given the awkward atmosphere in the university’s health center, he has nothing else to express aside from the guilt that builds up when he realizes that he must be bothering you right now. Frankly, the horrifying gash on his shin and the prickling pain from his twisted ankle isn’t even a nuisance to him. It’s not anything he’s new to, but what he can’t seem to handle is the worried expression you’re wearing while you’re seated across him.

“One semester isn’t enough to get to know someone.” You reply, as you watch a nurse tend to his wounds. You wince when Yuta flinches at the contact of the disinfectant to his gash. “But back to what I was saying, there’s a lot that I don’t understand about you.”

The nurse leaves and Yuta is left gaping at you with a curious look. You look away and sigh, contemplating for a while. “For one…” You take a glance at him, licking your lips as you struggle to explain. “I don’t even know why I’m here. Sicheng called me to watch over you, I asked if your roommate Taeil was available but he wasn’t. I even asked if Mark or Yuto could make it, yet he insisted I’d go here since you asked for me. “

Despite being apprehensive and hesitant, you continue on. “And you know… I’d expect her to be here instead.”

A bitter smile graces Yuta’s face. “Things didn’t work out with Soojin. We stopped dating weeks ago, we didn’t have the same interests and she said I was boring.”

You look at him blankly, unblinking even with his piercing eyes. “Okay, scratch my earlier statement. I don’t understand Soojin.” Yuta smiles as he braces himself for your speech. “You’ve been dating for a month, and she was the one who expressed interest over you. Why is she the one suddenly saying you’re boring?” You look at him incredulously, and Yuta can only offer a shrug in response.

“You’re on an athletic scholarship, you can sing, you can dance, AND you’re smart as hell.” You enumerate on your fingers, and as you continue to ponder, your expression suddenly freezes and you forcefully shove your four fingers toward his direction. “I haven’t even included the fact that you’re a feminist and human rights advocate! That’s five impressive and not boring things about you, and I haven’t even included the fact that you’re a weeb--”

“I’m Japanese, (Y/N).”

“Can’t help it, you have good anime recommendations.” You snicker. “Even so, you have a diverse cultural background. And if that isn’t interesting for Soojin, then she’s the boring one.” You cross your arms with a huff. “Plus, who else can score a goal despite having a wound on the shin and a twisted ankle…”

Yuta perks up at your off-handed remark. “How did you know about that?”

“What do you mean?”

“The point I scored. Didn’t you have class during our game?” Yuta asks you. “Or maybe Sicheng told you about the game before he left you with me?”

“Nah.” You tell him as you begin searching for your phone. Once you’ve retrieved it, you quickly unlock it and tap on the screen a few times. Yuta watches you fumble around with your device, and tilts his head when you turn your phone screen towards him. “I follow the football team’s twitter, they were live-tweeting the match. I scrolled through it while there was a presentation going on.” You lock your phone and put it away. You beam at him. “I heard you guys won and I was about to text you congratulations, but Sicheng called me telling me that you were here in the infirmary. Good thing my class ended early, so I was able to go here as quickly as I could.”

Yuta is about to respond, but the nurse arrives back in the room. Both of you remain silent as they resume working on Yuta’s injuries. As the nurse dresses his wounds and checks on his ankle, you continue to look after Yuta, ensuring that you pay attention to any reaction that could signify discomfort for the boy. Yuta, meanwhile, still can’t wrap his head around your explanation.

He can’t understand why you’d go out of your way to even keep yourself updated with the game. You were (Y/N), his friend from last semester who always focused in class, regardless of the activity being conducted. And looking back at your defense earlier, any friend would hype up another with encouraging words. Those types of words would flatter the individual and put them on a high pedestal. Though the way you pointed out every good thing about Yuta impacted him in a way that can’t be explained just by mere obligation.

Yuta can’t help but wonder if you truly saw a much better version of himself that even he himself couldn’t notice. You describe him with such tender words and he’s inclined to believe that you saw past his imperfections and appreciated him for all he is, more than Soojin ever did. More than she ever could. Regardless, you’re his friend. Is that not what you’re supposed to do?

He couldn’t understand you. Even after being close friends for one semester, he somehow can’t understand you.

“These injuries don’t look as severe as your previous ones.” The nurse suddenly speaks to Yuta, and it effectively takes his mind off of you. “Although I would still recommend that you rest for at least two weeks, just to prevent it from recurring. If the pain persists, don’t hesitate to visit the infirmary again.”

Yuta frowns. “Two weeks?”

“Yes, at least.” They reply with a straight face. “I know you’re stubborn, Mr. Nakamoto. So I’ve already advised your coach about it, so you have no excuse to give to him.”

You watch in amusement as Yuta continues to complain, wondering if Sicheng left him with you so he can avoid watching Yuta throw a tantrum. The nurse silences him by placing several tablets of painkillers in front of him. “As usual, take them only if the pain is unbearable. And I hope I don’t see you back in here any time soon with a new injury, we don’t want your significant other over there worrying about you again--”

The nurse is pointing at your direction as they talk to Yuta. Panic surges in his system as he tries to correct them. “We’re not--”

“Before you leave, please sign out in the logbook. Come back in a few weeks for another check up.” After a simple wish to recover well, the nurse takes their leave once more and Yuta looks at you awkwardly. Unbothered, you stand up and approach the male. “Do you need help walking, Yuta?”

With pursed lips, he tries to stand up on his own, albeit with difficulty brought about by the pain. You immediately rush to his side to support him, arms wrapped around him in aid. “If it’s alright with you, I may need help on the way to my dorm…” You nod in response, offering to take some of his other things in your hold, but Yuta denies your offer. He gently takes your hands off his body to trudge towards the front desk to sign as requested. Once he’s ready to leave, with you by his side, you help him out of the infirmary and walk back to Yuta’s dorm.

The trip is silent. Yuta can’t bring himself to say anything, especially since he’s sure that you heard the nurse’s remark. The last thing he’d ever want is to make you uncomfortable, and he’s worried that you might be a bit wary of being around him because of it. Yuta turns his head to look at you, whose eyes were trained forward.

Despite your position, you can feel Yuta’s eyes on you. Without much thought, you let yourself speak. “Don’t worry about anything, Yuta.”

“I’m not worried about anything.”

“Yes you are. I can practically feel you brooding, anyone could tell from a kilometer away.” You loosen your arm around his waist to give him a flick on his back. You ignore Yuta’s tiny “ow”, and continue without waiting for a reply. “I know you’re probably hung up on a broken relationship, and it definitely sucks that this injury had to happen. But you know, things will only be better if you let time pass.”

Yuta feels your hand patting the area you flicked earlier, and you finally turn your head to look at him. “Your feelings right now are valid. But there are things that are out of your control, and trying to fix those will stress you even more. Like I said, try not to worry too much and focus on healing. Everything will arrive in its own time, and the rest of the world will be waiting for you to recover.”

Unable to give a coherent reply, Yuta mumbles a word of gratitude to you and lets your words sink in. You take it as a signal to leave him in his own headspace, and you do your best to keep the atmosphere calm.

Yuta’s train of thought halts when he hears you humming again. It reminds him of the first time he’s initiated a friendly conversation with you, except this time you’re humming a song of love. He’s only heard All Mine by One OK Rock in passing, and normally he’d just skip it. Unlike most of the band’s music, this song is much slower. Yuta isn’t exactly fond of the soulful tone of the cello, and he can’t seem to relate to the words that Taka sings in the track. So simply put, the song isn’t to his taste. However, hearing you hum along to the music suddenly convinces Yuta that the song is worth listening to, especially with you recreating the melody for him.

As if he was listening to it by himself, Yuta follows you by citing the lyrics in his head. He can tell that you’re already at the pre-chorus, and he listens to you attentively. The words easily manifest in his mind, as smooth as the tune that reverberates from the back of your throat. It blends perfectly with rustling leaves; it’s a harmonious duet with the birds that chirp, accompanied by the distant chatter from the classrooms in the next building. It’s picturesque, it’s enough to let anyone unwind and forget their worries. Yuta is about to let himself relish in the feeling of contentment, but he’s shocked when he hears you singing the chorus instead.

It’s the first time he’s heard you sing, considering that it’s usually him singing for the both of you. Your voice is a little shaky since you’re singing just slightly above a whisper, but with the way you’re stuck together, he can hear it well.

Just wanna be with you, only you, always you…  You're so beautiful to me it's true, amazed by you, I think I'm falling...

Although you can’t hold a note as long as Taka could, Yuta finds your singing very endearing. If he weren’t in such a vulnerable state, he would be teasing you right now. All in light fun, he assures, considering that this is the first time you’ve ever felt comfortable singing around him. Yuta might even admit that your voice is beautiful, and that it’s enough to drive his worries away. In fact, just this tranquil moment with you has helped him feel better. Yuta’s mind is clearer, though he still can’t help but look back at your previous conversations. The flowery lyrics of the band’s song can’t seem to compare to those kind words of yours. You think so highly of him, and he can’t forget the way you looked at him when you told him that.

Eyes shining with conviction, it took him back to the times you would take your stand during class discourse in the previous semester. And even today, he couldn’t help but be amazed by you. All of a sudden, he wished that he could see you shine like that more often. Everything only seemed right when you were here to support him, and Yuta knew that things would definitely be better if he could be the one you would lean onto.

When he realizes where his thoughts are leading to, he’s suddenly hyper-aware of your proximity to him. The hands that support his arm and waist are bringing warmth at the points of contact, and he can no longer discern if this heavy feeling is from his beating heart or his labored breathing. Yuta feels the warmth blossoming across his cheeks, and he desperately finds a way to ensure you won’t see him vulnerable like this. More so when you’re practically attached to him right now.

He thinks he’s falling, and suddenly he understands that maybe the world was waiting for him to realize that it was you all along. All this time, he was just waiting to understand that he just wanted to be with you. Not just as a friend, but as something potentially more than that. Yuta honestly isn’t sure yet, but at this point, he can only hope that you were waiting for him too.

「愛してる」— aishiteru; you are likely to see this phrase used in various media platforms, but not everyone uses this to express love in japanese society. It’s not used for first-time confession either since it holds deeper affection compared to the previous examples.

Only today did Yuta learn that falling in love was different than being in love.

After being in a relationship with you for almost four years, it amazes him that he only realized that now. Yuta feels like it was just yesterday when he finally made his confession to you, and everything that followed happened so fast. Transitioning from being friends to lovers proved to be difficult, but Yuta couldn’t be any happier without you.

To him, it felt like being on a roller coaster ride. He was nervous at first; anything could go wrong at that point and he was afraid of making a mistake. Though as time passed, just as the roller coaster would slowly elevate to the peak, he felt the anxiety dissipate into a newfound feeling of exhilaration. When everything began to fall into place, every day became an adventure to Yuta and the adrenaline rush kept on following him wherever he went.

Just seeing a glimpse of you got his heart racing, and every late night date around the city was full of excitement. Without a care in the world, you ran around the empty streets and he would carry you up high in the middle of the solemn streets. Sneaking out to visit the nearest convenience store and talking all night; those were the exciting days during the earliest parts of your relationship.

However, all the excitement will eventually find its end. Similar to a roller coaster finally slowing down on the track, your relationship with Yuta started to transition to something calmer. The fast cadence of his heart mellowed down, and no longer can he hear his own heartbeat ringing in his ears. Instead of the late-night getaways, Yuta would start spending his time cuddling with you under the covers. Tranquil nights became the norm for the two of you, and he relished in the feeling of his heart beating in his chest while he held you tight. Coffee shop dates conducted in the silence of each others’ presence gave him a different type of indescribable joy, and he couldn’t even begin to explain how much he enjoyed domestic dates with you.

His relationship with you felt like a getaway to an unknown destination, yet at the same time it was like a calm, warm evening huddled together in each others’ presence. Falling in love felt like being trapped in a bustling metropolis, but being in love felt like being at home. However, he’s disappointed in himself that he only realized this now. He’s beginning to regret his decisions, especially when he’s outside the airport about to fly back to Japan and leave you here in South Korea.

“Hey, what did I tell you about worrying?” You frown when you notice how furrowed his eyebrows were. From your position beside him, you force him to stop moving by blocking his path ahead. Yuta’s eyes shift from the concrete to your unwavering gaze. “You can tell me anything, you know.”

Yuta doesn’t say anything, instead choosing to abandon his grip on his luggage to step forward and intertwine his hands with yours. He does his best to show you a comforting smile in an attempt to ease you from your worries. However, he knows that you can read him like an open book, so he humors you with the truth.

“I’m not so sure anymore about going back…”

“Why not?”

Yuta bites his lower lip in contemplation, and you can feel his thumb finding its way on top of your hand out of habit. “I’m a bit scared, to be honest.” He laughs, but you urge him to continue. “In hindsight, I could always take my higher studies here in South Korea. Communication and Gender studies as a graduate degree is available here too.”

At his remark, your confusion becomes evident to him. “Why not?” You ask Yuta. “Osaka University is a great school for your graduate studies AND it’s nearest to your hometown, is it not? I remember you told me how you wanted to study gender issues there, why would you do that here?”

“I’m not sure I’m ready to be apart from you.”

You take your time internalizing his words, and the atmosphere feels tense. You look pensive, even as you swing Yuta’s arms around to ease his nerves. With all the people around walking past you two, Yuta is beginning to feel uneasy. It feels like all eyes are on him, it’s a scene straight off from a movie and it’s so cliche to be honest. It’s cliche for him to suddenly spout this nonsense, especially when he’s by the gate, with about two hours or so before he flies from Incheon to Itami.

You clear your throat. “So… You’re not ready for a long-distance relationship? Are you scared of long distance?” He knows there isn’t any malice in your tone, and that you’re genuinely asking him out of curiosity. Yuta sighs. “Not exactly…”

“No, I’d understand if you think that way. Is it okay if you let me finish?” Yuta nods, and you try your best to smile at him. “More than being your lover, I’m your best friend Yuta. I want what’s best for you.” You look at him for confirmation, and he gives you a single nod. “And I’m sure you know that no matter what happens, I really, really want you to accomplish your graduate studies in Japan. Not only because that’s what I think is best for you, but because this is your dream. I don’t want to be the one to stop you from reaching it, so if…”

A shaky sigh escapes your lips, and you shut your eyes briefly. Before you speak up, your lips shut tight and you look at Yuta once more. “If it means having to let our relationship rest for a moment, it’s definitely alright with me. No matter what happens, I’ll always be supporting you right?”

At your inquiry, Yuta realizes that he’s been holding his breath all this time. His eyes drop down to look at the way his hands fit in yours, and he’s holding back his tears. Ever so gently, his hands untangle from yours so he can take one hand in his grasp. Yuta slowly brings your right hand close to his face, and he places a soft kiss on your knuckles. “Will-- Are you…” He hesitates for a moment, but he gathers his courage to look at you. “Are you breaking up with me?”

There’s a somber expression across your features as you watch him express his affection. “It’s your call, Yuta. Like I said, I want what is best for you. And that’s not my decision to make.”

Why did you have to make it harder for me… Yuta licks his lips as he tries to gather himself. His hands never leave yours, and his thumb continues to graze over the skin that his lips softly touched. The expanse of skin still feels warm from his kiss, and it brings him a bit of joy in this trying time. With his eyes still on the concrete, he speaks up after being silent for minutes.

“Will it be selfish of me to say that I’m not ready to let you go, (Y/N)? I don’t want to break up with you.” He raises his head up to look at you. “And… Even if I know I’ll be home in Japan, I think I’ll still be homesick thinking about you.” There’s a bitter aftertaste that lingers at the tip of his tongue as he whispers those words to you. It’s a bitter feeling that somehow compliments how cheesy his words truly were. It’s enough to elicit a laugh from you, and he smiles when he sees you closing the gap between the both of you.

You encase him in your arms for a hug, and you bury your head close to him. “Yuta…” You quietly whisper. “I’m always here for you, and I’ll continue to be even if we’re far apart from each other. I’m always a call away, okay? I love you so much.”

Yuta can no longer hold himself together, and he lets himself unravel in your hold. His arms snake around your waist and he buries his head at the crook of your neck, not before he presses one more kiss on the top of your head. “I’ll miss you, (Y/N). I love you. I really, really love you.”

“Me too, Yuta.” Your hands lovingly pat his back when you feel his breathing becoming uneven. “Two years will be long, but I’ll be waiting for you.”

It’s the last time he’ll ever feel at home in your embrace, Yuta realizes. This will be the last time in a few years that he’ll hold you tight like this. He relishes in the feeling of your warm embrace, and he lets a few tears drop down along his cheek as his eyes shut close. It’s a bittersweet farewell, one that’s quite terribly cliche. Yet just like any other cliche, he’ll be waiting for the day he could come back home to you once again.

「恋してる」— koishiteru; originating from the verb that refers to “want” and “longing”, this could be used to express a yearning heart. it is perhaps the strongest form of expression, and is best used for someone you want to spend the rest of your life with.

“Stop closing your eyes, Nakamoto Yuta.” You flick his arm. “Everyone is going to think you’re sleeping, it won’t look good in the pictures.”

Yuta smirks at your remark, and opens his eyes to look at you. “I can do whatever I want, Nakamoto (Y/N).” He grins at you. “I’m free to look back at our relationship and daydream about what will happen tonight--” He snickers when he feels your elbow jab at his side, especially when you scold him for being indecent and greasy.

“Oh my god, shut up Yuta.” You groan, burying your face into the bouquet of flowers in your hands. “You’re so disgusting, our families are right in front of us.”

“So are our friends.” He pouts. “You know that Ten is worse than me.”

“But I’m sure that he knows public decency more than you do.” You glare at each other, but Yuta cracks first and chuckles. He brings his hand up to poke at your nose, and you laugh at the endearing gesture. Both of you remain in your own world, basking in each others’ presence with gleeful expressions. There’s a mischievous glint in your eyes as you raise your own finger to poke at his nose, but with Yuta’s rapid movements you miscalculate your trajectory and end up bringing your finger up his nose.

And a flash of a camera stuns the both of you. You watch the wedding photographer walk away with a horrified expression, while Yuta’s eyes were wide in confusion.

“Hey Yuta, (Y/N)!” Sicheng calls you two with the microphone in his hand, and you’re quick to jerk your hand away from his nostril. “I was hoping you guys were going to listen to my best man’s speech, but knowing Yuta I think he’s too busy thinking about your honeymoon!”

“Well, you aren’t wrong...” Yuta trails off, and makes eye contact with you. He delivers a wink toward you, and you retaliate with a smack to his chest with your bouquet. You look absolutely scandalized and flustered, but his remark elicits a laugh from everyone in the reception hall. It’s only then that you realize that there’s something odd on the tip of your finger, and you desperately try to wipe off any remnant of Yuta’s snot on his sleeve.

“I can’t believe it, we’re going to have a copy of my finger up your nose in our wedding album…” You mumble to yourself. “Someone probably recorded what you said too! We’re so embarrassing, our children are going to look back at our pictures and think we’re weird--”

“Children?”

“Ah.” You cover your mouth in shock. Unable to handle reciprocating his gaze, your eyes focus on the table decorations instead. “Well, if you want kids that is. Or a child.”

Yuta lets a gentle smile unravel. “You want a family with me?” You feel his hand enveloping yours. Yuta has your hand in a firm grip, but his thumb grazes the top of your hand gently and lovingly. From the table top, your focus shifts toward Yuta’s hand on top of yours. Mirroring his own smile, you beam at him and put your bouquet aside to cage his hand in between yours. This time, you’re the one gently caressing his hand and you shine a radiant smile towards him. “Only if you want to. We could have a dog, a cat, a turtle-- honestly, any is fine. As long as you’re still around, that’s the best I can ever want and need.”

Yuta simply grins at you, and he shifts his attention back to his best man. You let go of his hand to give Sicheng your undivided attention, settling with fumbling around with your bouquet from time to time.

Looking at everyone in the venue, especially to his best man, Yuta can’t help but look back to how his journey came to be. From mere acquaintances, to close friends, and then to lovers. From having shared interests, to a moment of realization, to a confession, and a lifetime of expressed affection. Your relationship was rocky from that point onward, and he can vividly recall his struggles as he balanced his graduate studies and his relationship with you. It was the most difficult point of his life, but nothing could compare to the feeling of being with you once again. Especially now that you’re practically bound together by marriage.

The thought of being with you for the rest of his life brings a tender feeling in his heart, and he can’t resist smiling to himself. He loves you. He loves you so much that words can no longer explain it. Yuta may have a lot of languages he’s capable of speaking in, but none of them could truly encompass all the fondness and sentiment he has towards you.

In fact, there are four ways to express your love in the Japanese language, and these would vary depending on usage and to whom you’re addressing. Back then, Yuta didn’t understand why it was so necessary to have so many variants of it. However, meeting you has convinced him that expressing his love meant having to deal with the intricacies of his mother tongue. He's more than thankful that you gave him these opportunities to use every form of profession on you, even if mere words could never truly capture his love for you.

Yuta can’t hide his joy, even as Sicheng ends his speech smoothly. Everyone in the reception hall applauds him, including the both of you. He’s cheering for his best friend enthusiastically and coupled with the applause, what would seem to be like bell chimes begin to ring in his ears. And upon scanning the crowd, Yuta laughs at the sight of Johnny tapping the wine bottle with the bread knife along with his other close friends with their wine glasses. Everyone else begins to follow suit, starting with your own close friends and then to your families. Everyone is hollering for a kiss, and all he can do is grin cheekily at the people in front of him.

Yuta can hear you click your tongue, and he whips his head back to laugh at the situation. There’s yet another rush of adrenaline coursing through his veins, but his heart feels as calm as the water streaming on a riverbed. Yuta, with his head hanging off of the chair, turns to look at you. He snickers when he sees you frowning at the crowd, and he moves closer to you. Yuta fixes his posture and as he turns to face you, his vacant hand moving to grasp to your chin. Even with half-lidded eyes staring right at your lips, he asks you tenderly.

“... May I?”

It’s a hushed whisper, as if he didn’t want anyone else to hear the two of you. The world seems to have stopped revolving as you briefly locked your eyes with his. You can’t help but glance at his own lips, and as your eyelids drop down to close your eyes, you whisper back to him softly. “You may.”

Yuta can hear the cheers of his family and peers as he slowly closes the gap between the two of you. Just as he shuts his eyes, he mumbles a gentle profession of his love before he brings your lips together. Joined with a promise to be with you forever and to love you through every possible way, he molds his lips to the shape of yours, sharing blissful smiles as he gradually applies pressure.

“I love you, (Y/N).”

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[oatmealcrisp-freak]

So am I late to the party or does Langa have a legit crush on Reki?

Reason why I ask is the above dialogue. If you’re listening closely you can hear Langa’s mom use the word ‘suki’ as the ‘like’ in the first screencap - hence Langa’s initial reaction of alarm followed by, apparently??? Bashful agreement.

‘Suki’ (from ‘daisuki’) can be meant in the casual context but it’s also very often used in the doki doki aishteru context as well. Further, the context of the conversation IE the punchline (Langa’s mom thinks he’s pining over a girl he’s in love with when in reality Langa is pining over Reki) lends strength to the doki doki context. See fact check below.

(From http://www.yesjapan.com/YJ6/question/1003/does-suki-mean-like-or-love)

Now the BL overtones are obvious in this show, from Adam being a gropy piece of shit to Cherry and Joe’s relationship having pretty blatant tension (Joe flushing over Cherry’s legs much) of the exes variety but, back to the point.

Langa’s grasp on Japanese is fluent enough that he catches what his mom is putting down immediately

And he agrees with it. 

Gay skaters pt. 2 or queerbaiting the BL crowd for clicks? Might be too early to tell.

#furious skateboards #are we being queerbaited or are we gonna get canon gays #cus this seems pretty canon gay to me #quite likely i'm pointing out the obvious here but #hello?????????????????????????

[oumakokichi]

Would you mind explaining why you see Ouma as "definitely, undeniably confirmed gay"? The only evidence I know of is him saying he "likes" Saihara after he leaves the VR world, but that's in the context of strangling people to keep their eyes on him, which may be a dark joke about Miu's death. Additionally, I've been told the word he uses could also mean "interested in/fascinated with" as well as "like". Could you clarify? Thank you!

Ouma is confirmed gay because his line about Saihara is pretty undeniably romantically inclined, regardless of context. It’s also completely unskippable in the plot. Unlike bonus mode content such as the RPG or love hotel scenes, or even FTEs which are also optional, Ouma’s interest in Saihara comes up canonically in Chapter 4 no matter what the player does.

It’s also something he says on screen without anyone else around, even Saihara himself. Without any other characters around to listen in, there was no point of the scene other than to illuminate the fact that Ouma was clearly interested in Saihara beyond the point of just “casual” or “friendly” interest. 

The comment about strangulation requires a little more explanation, since it’s simultaneously a dark joke foreshadowing Miu as you said, but also Ouma himself noting that precisely because he was so interested, he wanted Saihara to stop allying himself with the others. He felt they were only tying him down and becoming too complacent by relying on Saihara’s skills as a detective and not thinking for themselves, and felt that precisely because Saihara was both competent and capable as a detective and interesting in that Ouma himself couldn’t figure him out, he wanted Saihara to ally with him.

His comment isn’t particularly a surprise considering Chapter 4 is where Ouma begins committing himself far too much for his villain role. His fixation and interest in Saihara was beginning to surprise even him because teaming up with someone or wanting them to ally themselves with him was not something he had planned or accounted for at the beginning of the game. Ergo, his comment is very much about wanting Saihara to “only have eyes for him,” not only in the romantic sense, but because he could not work with Saihara as long as Saihara was still trusting everyone else in the group too. Ouma refused to trust them all, because trust in a killing game was something he was incapable of–but Saihara he was beginning to be willing to make an exception for.

However, none of this changes the fact that while alone, and while thinking about Saihara, he specifically uses the words “suki ni natta hito,” or “a person I fell in love with.” These words are very much associated with love confessions. While “suki” certainly can mean to “like” something, the phrasing is very explicitly romantic in this context, and they do not carry any implications of a slight or casual interest with them.

“Suki” on its own can either serve as a confession of liking/loving someone, depending on how it’s being used. You can use it to say “I like [something]” as in an object, for instance. But among high school students, especially high school students to each other, it has a very particular romantic connotation. Pretty much any love confession in a stereotypical high school setting in typical manga or light novels is going to feature the protagonist saying either “suki” or “daisuki” in order to confess. What’s more, “suki ni natta” implies to have gradually fallen in love with someone over a period of time. It’s considerably more loaded with meaning than “suki” would be on its own.

The fact that this was left in an unskippable, extremely plot-relevant scene means it’s clearly being presented to the players as a fact about Ouma, and something that should be considered relevant and important to his character. Even though Saihara himself wasn’t around to hear these words, the player got to hear them. Which means that this was an important enough fact about Ouma that the game felt the need to showcase it even without any other characters, even the protagonist, around.

Not only that, but considering FTEs and bonus mode content are meant to supplement additional information about the characters, and considering in Ouma’s FTEs especially he makes even more explicitly romantic remarks about having “stolen Saihara’s heart” and “being someone who Saihara will never forget for his entire life,” it’s very clear that he does not want to be “just friends” with Saihara, since all of his one-on-one interactions with Saihara in-game lead to these kinds of remarks and comments.

People can interpret Ouma to be lying if they would like, but again, we’re given plenty of indications in canon that Ouma doesn’t lie to himself when he’s alone. It doesn’t make sense to interpret any scene where he’s by himself, speaking to absolutely no one and not even putting on an act for anyone, as a lie--because there’s no one for him to lie to.

Interpreting his words as a lie also doesn’t add up with his actions or fixation on Saihara. Saihara alone is singled out on his whiteboard in Chapter 6 too, as I’ve discussed. Where the rest of the group was divided into culprits and victims, or else a pool of suspects who he believe were possibly the ringleader, only Saihara was moved to the side and marked as “someone he couldn’t figure out.” And it’s always when Saihara acts in unpredictable ways which he finds interesting that he particularly becomes happy about being around him, whether it’s in plot-relevant scenes such as investigations or trials, or in his FTEs or prison mode.

Saihara’s words in Chapter 4 were the only things that stopped Ouma in his tracks and actually impacted him when he was in the middle of playing the villain, too. Whereas Ouma didn’t really care what anyone else in the group had to say to him, he was very much surprised to find that he did care about what Saihara had to say–precisely because he had become far too invested in him and fixated to him to the point where he had gone too far in trying to force Saihara to stop teaming up with “people who were holding him back.”

Saihara calling Ouma out on his behavior and saying that he was acting pathetically and that he would always be alone actually, seriously impacted Ouma. He cared about Saihara precisely because Saihara had become someone he had fallen for, and that’s precisely why he was particularly disappointed at the end of Chapter 4 and throughout Chapter 5, because he had thought Saihara would be capable of seeing through his façade but ultimately wasn’t.

There’s no way to read into Ouma’s expectations and fixation on Saihara and his actual confession, as well as all the lines in his FTEs and bonus mode content and interpret anything Ouma says about Saihara as anything that’s meant in a casual way. Many, many of his lines are extremely romantic in context, to the point where it stops being something that’s just “accidental” or “a joke.”

In much the same way that Juzo’s feelings were constantly alluded to and many charged remarks loaded with meaning were included over the course of dr3, Ouma has similar lines about Saihara the whole way throughout ndrv3. There are plenty of ways to read into Ouma being interested in other characters besides Saihara, too: after all, he shows plenty of interesting interaction or even potential for interactions with characters like Momota, Amami, Kiibo, Himiko, etc. But his feelings about Saihara are explicitly, canonically stated, without being played as a lie or joke at any point in the entire game, and that’s pretty much the definition of confirmation that he’s gay.

I hope this did clear things up! Saihara’s feelings on Ouma are certainly not a confirmed matter and there are plenty of ways people can read into it how they’d like. But Ouma’s feelings about Saihara are much more explicitly confirmed, and I feel like that’s worth noting considering how important his interest with Saihara is towards understanding why he acts the way that he does.

I’m certainly not claiming that Ouma acts in the best way–he doesn’t, and he messes up quite a lot in being torn between wanting Saihara’s attention but also wanting to stick to his plans of not trusting absolutely anyone. There is potential for Ouma and Saihara as a dynamic, but in-game, Ouma certainly messes up beyond the point of taking back, and Saihara was never able to fully understand Ouma until much, much too late. Still, Ouma’s feelings are very much there and explicit, and I feel as though trying to brush them under the rug or say that they’re not intended romantically when they very clearly are is the same kind of misguided attempt at turning a blind eye to these things that happened with Juzo initially in dr3.

#ndrv3 #new danganronpa v3 #kokichi ouma #shuuichi saihara #saiouma #ndrv3 spoilers // #okay to reblog #saiouma certainly isn't a canon ship #ouma's feelings however are definitely confirmed and alluded to from chapter 2 and onward #anonymous