#He doesn't seem to want to truly learn what's wrong and that's what's frustrating. His understanding seems very surface level

[merakiui]

thinking about scaramouche who, after being defeated by the traveler and nahida, never regains consciousness in teyvat and instead wakes in another world entirely (a world from one of yae publishing house's light novels LOL). at first it seems fine because surely, even if he's reborn, he can still claw his way to the top and attain unfathomable power, yes?

wrong. very wrong.

scaramouche finds that in this particular world he is a nobody peasant working as a measly servant for an all-powerful monarch (you). given his position as a harbinger, he rarely had time to entertain such foolish pastimes as reading silly light novels, so he has no idea what sort of plot this world follows and whether you're a kind-hearted monarch or a tyrant. he supposes he should lie low for now until he learns more about this place and the people in it.

if only it were that easy.

some of the servants are rather cruel to him, and because scaramouche has never truly had to serve others before (rather it was the other way around) he's unaccustomed to the fast-paced lifestyle of a servant. the others like to tease and bully him, making him seem inept by slyly tripping him in the halls when important figures are around or by conveniently forgetting to notify him of his duties for the day so he's left to wander the palace aimlessly. he's scolded nearly every day and he hates feeling beneath everyone. scaramouche is one more "harmless mistake" away from committing the worst atrocity in all of history when he realizes that, if he really wants power, he shouldn't wait around like a fool! he's lord scaramouche, after all! how dare they make a mighty figure such as he get on his hands and knees and scrub mud from the floor tiles?!

his plan is rather simple: if he can work his way up through the ranks of servants and earn your trust, he will have his chance at assassinating you and taking the throne for himself. all he needs to do is become your personal butler and then he'll have far more access to you than he does now. currently, he's only caught glimpses of you or listened in on conversations in which you were the subject. your staff speak so highly of you. perhaps this will be easier than he thought.

but then, on the night of your birthday gala, someone tries to kill you. scaramouche, infuriated that there's someone else who might try to steal his spot at everlasting glory and kingship, is quick to defend you. he's only thinking of his own selfish goals when he does this, but everyone else sees his potential. tonight, he's proven to everyone that he is highly adept in combat. your would-be assassin flees and scaramouche attempts to pursue them, only to lose sight of them as they blend into the inky vastness of the night. he's so frustrated. if he had his power and strength from his original world, that person would have been dead the moment they stepped into his line of sight. he's silently fuming as he stands on the balcony overlooking the forest and town beyond the palace, assessing his next move.

he doesn't get too far into his thoughts before a cheerful round of applause is thundering through the ballroom, and he whirls on his heel, stupefied. they're...cheering for him. for him. because he's saved your life. because he's proven not only loyalty but strength.

scaramouche goes from a nobody servant to a hero in the span of one evening and you, so touched by his quickness to protect, appoint him as a knight. tomorrow morning, bright and early, he'll begin honing his skills alongside the rest of the royal military. this may not have been part of his original plan, but it's a solid start. even if he doesn't become your personal butler, he can work towards becoming one of your few most trusted personal attendants. and now that he has access to weaponry with this newfound position (and has memorized the layout of the palace) he will be unstoppable in his pursuits!

if scaramouche had read the light novel, he would know that it's a romance between monarch and knight. but with his murderous scheme, it's going to quickly become a different genre...

#meraki mumbles #yandere scaramouche #scaramouche from teyvat: i have ended bloodlines. i have brought ruin to all i have encountered. bow to me!!!! >:) #scaramouche in the light novel world: my weapon is a broom and some cleaning supplies. i will end the existence of every stain i see >:) #forgive all of my excessive scaraposting #he's so fine and i need him orz

[sciderman]

I love the Cable hate recently because honestly that’s my favourite thing about Cablepool, the fact that Nathan truly is the biggest prick (and has the biggest prick) and only Wade seems to realise that, especially during the Cable and Deadpool run: the world sees Cable as strong and intelligent and cool, and Deadpool is calling him out for being lame and a dick. Meanwhile everyone in the world only sees Wade’s flaws, while Cable has heart eyes every time he looks at Wade.

Spider-Man (at least early on): “I could fix him.”

Cable, holding a collar and leash: “Grow up. I think the atrocities he commits are funny.”

NATE IS SOOO... i'm obsessed with his ridiculous mind. he should not have that much power. he should not have that much power.

nate does want to fix wade, but nate is so deeply flawed and controlling and hardly the barometer for you know. moral good. and i'm obsessed and constantly thinking about nate's backwards logic in justifying that wade is a good boy by consequentialism alone. it doesn't matter what wade's intentions are and whether wade had any say in the matter over anything - if, in the end, wade "behaves" it doesn't matter how much nate had to interfere and force wade's hand to get that outcome.

nate: "he did the right thing." everyone around him: "you literally fucking rearranged all variables around him so that he had no other option than to do the right thing." nate: "he did the right thing and i'm proud of him."

i'm obsessed with you nathan. full offence what the fuck is wrong with you.

i always say that's kind of just... that's why nate and wade just couldn't ever be healthy, and why peter and wade are just... healthier. because nathan wants control over wade - basically, wants control over everything. wade's intentions don't matter as long as the outcome is desirable. wade can't - wade can't actually turn a new leaf in those circumstances. because he's a disobedient dog, and he will growl and bite and kick if someone tries to control him.

and wade is so aware - wade knows nate is constantly exerting his will over wade's actions.

lord mama they are so fucked up... they are so fucked up...

i think that's why 9319 peter (my beloved) is so good for wade - because he pointedly - pointedly does not want to exert power over wade. he doesn't want responsibility over wade. wade has to make his own decisions. peter is hands-off.

wade isn't a child - or an animal that needs to be tamed. and peter's been all about this since the beginning.

peter knows that a man is the product of the choices he makes. i think peter kind of embodies the power of choice - peter makes the conscious choice to do good, despite his own wants and desires. he could be bad. he could be just like wade. and he knows it.

he doesn't intend to rob wade of choice. he knows how important it is. he knows how important it is that wade makes the choice for himself, to be better.

he doesn't want to take credit for wade's positive change. it's his.

and it makes peter's pride in wade just, all the more sincere. because he knows it's all him. it's all wade.

is peter frustrated that he can't do more to help? endlessly, yeah. but i think he accepts it - that he's powerless.

nate wants so badly to be wade's saviour.

and peter - i think peter's accepted or is learning to accept that he can't be. and kind of never wanted to be, in the first place.

i think it's why wade is kind of scared of the term "hero" - because he's never felt like the hero in his story. he's always felt like a victim of the narrative, or his actions were somehow influenced by someone else or the desire to impress someone else. he has very little trust in his own power of will.

it's a sore spot.

once again, wade attacking peter parker for something he feels guilty of himself. letting outside forces influence his choices rather than taking ownership of his own decisions

the original.. FUN fact. the original draft of civil war was so much more overt about this, actually. and i can finally share the panel. i can finally share the panel from the original draft of that post. it's wild. i don't really remember writing it, and i don't even have the rest of it. but bex saved this one panel and i think about it a lot. out there in the cosmos is an alternative version of that civil war argument that i guess i didn't go for. i think the uncle ben thing worked better. but. still. i love the red art. red is so sexy.

i think wade's whole outrage in civil war with peter was the whole discredit to wade's change. the second that peter put the tracer on wade, PAIRED with the confession that morning, made wade feel all kinds of "oh. i finally qualify for his love." feelings. and it made him angry. because it made wade feel like all the positive change he made wasn't actually for him, but peter's will all along.

god. i got so carried away here. but yeah. wade is all furious about this because it's something nate would pull.

long story short, wade's tired of being controlled, but he's still in the mindset that he's being controlled. by whatever. by peter. by nate. by the author (me) (he's wrong, by the way).

yadda yadda yadda, wade learning he has power. he has free will. he is capable of change, and he's not at the mercy of nathan fucking summers or the narrative all the time.

i think it's fun actually that wade has this perception of powerlessness and an absence of free will in his relationship with nate,, and peter is (unintentionally) teaching wade how he has power over his own life and power over other people and with great power c

#sci speaks #of course nathaniel DID gently nudge wade wilson down a path in 9319... gently... sure. sure. gently. #we'll say gently.

[neptnszn]

Gojo Satoru isn't cut out for stable and long lasting relationships.

Intimacy is an even bigger stranger to him, yet one where he actively keeps his head down low each time he passes it on the street.

He despises intimacy’s hugs. its overgrown nails would dig into his skin each time they made contact, yet as soon as intimacy pulls away, he's back to square one again. it's both frustrating and pitiful.

It explains so much and yet that alone isn't enough.

It's not enough to fill the hole of loneliness that someone left behind.

No, that's not right. it was always there. Satoru was always alone. ever the anomaly, he was deemed the strongest for as long as he can remember. born into wealth and power—unmatched power—naturally meant that relating to others would propose a challenge if even possible.

he just couldn't relate to anyone who wasn't on par with him..which was practically everybody. even his fellow upper and underclassmen.

apart from one.

Satoru is positive that suguru was the best thing that happened to him so far, while being the worst all the same.

he felt seen without the emotional complications. he didn't need to utter a word to suguru in order to feel understood. getting away and simply being a kid with your best friend is one of the things his soul longs for. with him, Satoru truly got a taste of intimacy.

the sorcerer often questions whether what they had was true love when he's on his own. the unspoken trust, the times where suguru actually accepted satoru's clingy behaviour instead of shoving him away; moments where suguru looked out for him. his pale brows would furrow in deep thought when he noticed how blurred the line between friendship and love was. Upon hearing two girls gossiping in a café, however, his perspective on the thought quickly broadened.

he's often heard of the notion that twin flames really do exist, but he's always never paid any mind to it. rather difficult when the fate of Japan is on your shoulders at times.

when compared to the fact that literal manifestations of negative emotions exist to kill and harm people—the idea doesn't seem too far fetched.

he googles the term one night for a better understanding, wincing when the bright light blinds his eyes in the darkness.

he lazily scrolls through the intro of a magazine, crystalline eyes skimming each word until—

‘..also referred to as mirror souls. it promotes the idea of a powerful spiritual connection between two individuals thought to be two halves of the same whole.’

his eyebrows twitch upwards. of course. suguru being his twin flame made so much sense—he was like the yin to his yang.

it was almost scary. the two of them were the hottest flames of the bunch, it was no wonder master tengen selected them to carry out a high stakes mission.

..but then Satoru wonders if his flame burned a bit too bright.

in hindsight, everything went wrong from the moment they split up in the school courtyard. that dark haired brute messed everything up. the assimilation failed and kuroi didn't make it. poor woman—she just wanted to experience her final moments with amanai before leaving her for good. gojo satoru himself got a lick of defeat and found that he hated the taste.

after his awakening, he was separated from suguru. not out of spite, he's sure, but because it was around that time that jujitsu society saw him as the strongest alone. learning reversed cursed technique on your deathbed and defeating whoever the hell that ex-Zen'in clan member was is quite the feat after all.

his first mission on his own after that felt..different, already missing his voice of reason over his shoulder.

Satoru kicks himself for not pressing further about suguru's constant absence in his third year. he saw that he wasn't doing well, skinner, darker eye bags—he had the signs right in front of him, covered by some weak excuse that had something to do with the summer or something.

but he didn't follow up.

he didn't notice that something was terribly wrong with his best friend.

he didn't notice that his flame was dwindling until the candle sanctuary around him felt abnormally cold.

Satoru doesn’t think he ever really recovered from the bomb that Yaga dropped on him after Suguru went MIA.

How are you supposed to react when your best friend goes missing for days and find out that he murdered a whole damn village?

denial.

There was just no way. not with his ‘survival of the weakest’ mentality that Satoru grew to hate.

but even he wouldn't go out and murder a hundred people in cold blood.

The confrontation made satoru feel even worse. every word that came out of geto's mouth made his pulse quicken as he tried to reason with his best friend—his amber eyes suddenly so unfamiliar.

the moment was akin to satoru so desperately striking the matchbox to relight his best friend's candle.

except the match would not light.

suguru had already made his mind up, and he was literally going to kill all non-socerers. his arms dropped to his sides as he remembers watching his figure disappear in the crowd.

Are you the strongest because you're gojo satoru? or are you gojo satoru because you're the strongest?

He turns over in his bed. Damn it, Suguru.

Hearing those words after everything really warped the perspective he had on himself. Who even was he outside of his strength? Gojo Satoru.

But who even is that?

even after a decade he can't seem to win any of the arguments he has with his own mind.

he closes his eyes with a heavy heart and let's himself sink into the mattress as he massages his achy jaw. He probably outdid himself with the smiling work today, he needed to make an extra effort so that nobody would ask him—to avoid any complications.

But he's Gojo Satoru, evading difficult situations is basically his forte.

especially when it comes to his emotions.

ah well, he shrugs to himself. what can you do when you're born and raised in a society where feelings aren't considered. The cold and bitter ways of the higher-ups never failed to leave the bitterest taste in his mouth with every fuck-ass decision they made.

Yet each time the urge to slaughter ever sorcerer in societal power in cold blood itched at his skin, he had to slap it off. it wouldn't change a damn thing and would start at ground zero when they would get replaced. Worse, the heirs would probably have keen eyes on satoru.

Or maybe not. he had more than enough potential to make it look like an accident.

So at the moment it was up to him to teach the new age about cursed energy, without the barriers of cowardice instilled by those currently in power. Then, he'd be able to change jujitsu society for good, maybe even have somebody as strong as him to guide the new generations of sorcerers to yet another peak of jujtusu.

Maybe do all of his fallen allies justice.

Do Suguru justice.

Until then, he would just have to keep on burning on his own, and hope to whatever power above (if there is one) that the wax of his candle doesn't go out before that happens.

Because Satoru is tired.

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#jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk angst #gojo satoru #gojo angst #🪩 — diamond tears. #★—NEPTNSZN #gogo saturo ☆

[sylvaridreams]

Audden (The Silent)

A "Soundless" sylvari -- not truly Soundless in that he doesn't exercise any mental wards to disconnect from the Dream. Rather, he awoke without any connection to the Pale Tree or to his race as a whole. Though aware enough at the time he awoke to understand his own personhood, he entered life without any of the collective memories of the sylvari race, or any of the social or emotional bonds that a Dreamer would wake with.

He was incredibly naive a first, even for a sapling, having to learn each new concept for the first time like a child rather than knowing the basics when he woke. The Firstborn and other sylvari tried to study and understand him, to unravel what he could be and what his existence meant for their people. The end? A new beginning? Audden struggled to connect with anyone, being prodded and monitored like a rat in a cage. As kind and polite as they were, the other sylvari still treated him as an anomaly, an "other." He grew to view the Grove as nothing more than a beautiful prison, and quickly became frustrated with sylvari society, the Grove, and the Pale tree who claimed to care for him, despite there clearly being no bond between them at all. He felt no love for her, and no love from her. He knew he was wrong, out of place, too different from anyone to be happy-- like a cuckoo egg left in a sparrow nest to be raised by strangers, he grew to fear the idea that he wasn't sylvari at all, but something planted there. A parasite, left to feed on resources not meant for him and grow. He worried that he could belong to the Nightmare he'd heard about, that his true nature must be something twisted and evil. Or perhaps he was something even worse, something that would wipe out these kind, well-intentioned people who seemed to want so badly to help him connect with their world.

He wanted nothing more than to run from the Grove, but feared that doing so would allow the Court to find and take him. Eventually, too miserable to remain in one place any longer, having Ventari's teachings drilled into him and told his nature, he ran away, creeping out of the Grove and fleeing to the south. He managed to evade Courtiers for a time, but was ultimately too naive to make it far and stay out of trouble.

Lychen of the Pale Sentinels picked him up. Audden couldn't trust him at first, not as another sylvari, another of "their" mother's children, or perhaps a Courtier -- it is often hard, upon meeting Lychen, to tell if he's a good person to put your faith into or not. Lychen earned his trust through sheer disinterest, and Audden was eventually willing to travel with him to the Sentinels' headquarters and go before Lacrimosen. Lala saw in him an opportunity to further the reach of their organization, as well as something to strive for--but Lychen warned him that Audden had already spent his life being studied, and that such lab-rat treatment was the reason he'd run away; treating him as any kind of anomaly was certain to drive him off. He further suggested that since Audden was, in a big way, untouched by the Dream or the Nightmare, leaving him be and watching from afar would be a better course of action to see how an uninfluenced Sylvari might develop-- a sort of control experiment.

So, at this time, he resides in the Sentinels' HQ castle, training to become one of their snipers and devouring their vast library. As many of the Sentinels are Soundless, and as the castle has become a sort of refuge for Soundless sylvari specifically, he's managed to make a couple of friends naturally, just by virtue of studying the same topics or being naturally bad at the same drills. Lacrimosen is still watching him, but he also holds Audden in high regard, and Audden seems to recognize this.

#audden #gw2 #sylvari #loreposting #''so dama how many hair and makeover kits did you use on audden today' never. ask me that. #ONE OF EACH! ONE OF EACH!!!!!!!!!! falls down crying

[etincelleart]

"The more I think about it, the more I feel like Pietro still being around in Vacuo means that they're definitely not done with Penny-"

Might eleberete on this?

I wrote a post about this subject already if you're curious, but I can try to sum up most of the reasons here !

Pietro always has been important in the series because of Penny. Like sure, of course, he's a genius and an incredibly talented scientist from Atlas, and he's important as his own character and also for the plot in Volume 7 and 8. But we can't deny the fact that when we think about Pietro, most of the time we talk about "Penny's dad", or "Penny's creator", or "Penny's father". He's always been important and considered as linked to Penny, because uh obviously without him she wouldn't be here.

That's why I think that if they wanted to kill Penny definitely, then they should also kill Pietro. Pietro without Penny could still have some meaning, but I'm not really convinced about him just grieving and moving forward. Like I explained in my post, he's the kind of man who seems to not be able to let go when it comes to Penny. When he created her, he already gave her parts of his soul, and didn't mourn her when she died in V3. Instead, he used her core again and made her another time, using more parts of his soul. In V7 he's so distraught to learn about people wanting to desactivate her because she was framed, and in V8 he was really angry and frustrated because he "doesn't care about the big picture", but he cares "about his daughter". Like, he thinks more about Penny's life and safety than the world's fate, this speaks a lot and explain how he loves Penny so so much.

Pietro's still reasonable tho, he let it go once Penny tries to tell him gently that she's trying to live her life. He listens and accepts to let her try to lift Amity up. But he still loses her in the end because of the virus, and he might not know what happened after that (at least not until he arrives in Vacuo and talks to Winter).

We saw it at the end of Volume 9, but Amity Collosseum is up in the sky in Vacuo, and last time we saw Pietro he was in Amity with Maria in V8. So it implies that he made it to Vacuo as well with everyone else. They most likely needed someone to increase Vacuo's protection and improve their technology, so I imagine that's the role he plays there. But I really don't see him just leaving Penny behind like that, he will definitely have a hard time to mourn her.

That's why I wouldn't be surprised at all if we learned that he was trying to remake her. Maybe not succeeding, or Maria trying to stop him... But that's a possibility.

There's also the fact that in V8, Ambrosius said "I'd love to meet whoever did this !" (talking about Penny). I truly would love Ambrosius to meet and talk with Pietro about Penny and their creations, only the future can tell us but if Ambrosius and Pietro have something to do with Penny's potential revival.

So yeah my whole point here is that, why leave Pietro behind when his whole character is important mostly because of Penny ? With Penny being gone, it changes a lot of things. It's not like characters who could evolve or be impacted early by a loved one death, like Ruby in V3 or Jaune in V3 as well. Here it's about a father losing his daughter, TWICE, and I mean, Pietro's here because we needed to see Penny's father too. But again it's mostly about Penny. I don't want to say that she erases him, but between the two, Pietro's the one who gives context and background to Penny. He's kinda a "support" to her character (it's not said in a bad way, just in case !). So with Penny being gone, what for him now ? Will he just stand here and do scientist stuff to help Vacuo ? From a writing perspective, it seems odd to leave him behind without planning anything when he was directly related to one of the main characters in the show (because Penny really was the main character of Atlas arc). Maybe I'm wrong but I really see things happening for Penny, if he's here, and after all of the V9 hints about her too.

I might have other stuff in mind to tell about him but I think I already wrote everything in my other post if you're curious :)

#rwby #rwby discussion #discussion #theory #rwby theory #penny #penny polendina #pietro #pietro polendina #father #daughter #revival #penny revival #mourning #grieving #vacuo #rwby v10 #rwby volume 10

[legit9thlunaticwarrior]

THIS IS ALL CONSENSUAL! READER IS OF AGE! THIS DOES CONTAIN ELEMENTS OF SEXUAL INTIMIDATION i am fully aware of the actual meaning of this song but it was the only one i could pull from my brain for the theme. this installment will solely present sexual tension

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10/02/2022 Corruption+Age Gap ~ Christian Cage (Jay) Teacher's Pet - Melanie Martinez

✨ it started off innocently enough: you had asked jay to help you out with some moves in the ring

✨ he was way more experienced and well respected in the business, so you knew he'd be honest and point you in the right direction; only you had one slight issue

✨ you couldn't focus on a thing he was saying. not when he spoke with such authority. not when he started talking with his hands. not when he-

✨ "hey? Y/N? still with me?" he snapped you out of your lust filled trance

✨ "yes, yes. sorry." you tried to sound as normal as possible but how could you when he stared down at you with his natural dominance?

✨ "you seem, distracted. everything okay, sweetheart?" your skin lit up as soon as he put his hand on your shoulder, concern and curiosity in his eyes

✨ you gulped, "i'm f-fine." said your lips. liar, said your brain.

✨ "is there a reason you came to me? you could have gone to anyone else for help." he wasn't a fool. he knew there was more than one reason you came to him. and why you're so unfocused

✨ slightly rattled by the ask, "i uh, i've been watching you since i was a kid. i want to learn from the best. you clearly have years more experience than i do"

✨ he cocked his eyebrow in faux offense. you immediately regret your choice of words

✨ "not that you're old. i mean you are. older than me, i mean. age is just a number and you certainly don't look yours. you still look amazing, and i should stop talking." you felt the fire in your cheeks as they heat with embarrassment. way to go bozo

✨ he stared at you for one second, the next he was smirking and backing you against the turnbuckles. "i'm truly sorry if i offended you. i have a habit of rambling when i'm nerv-"

✨ "you know how adorable you are when you're flustered? i do that to you?" you tried to look down at your feet to avoid looking him in the eyes, but his hand tilted your head back up "answer me, sweetheart."

✨ you nodded as you didn't trust your voice. his thumb found its way to your lips, softly pulling your bottom lip down

✨ "you wanna be my little teacher's pet, don't you?"

✨ you couldn't believe the words spilling from his lips. you softly spoke up "jay, this doesn't feel, wrong, to you?" as soon as you finished, his eyes softened

✨ "if you want this to stop, say the word. my hands are off you and we don't speak of this."

✨ jay meant that. even though he's fantasized about you countless times. hand fisted around his cock with the thought of your pretty self ruined and begging for more. the thought of corrupting you, making your body crave him and only him; the thought of other men your age touching you a distant memory drove him nuts.

✨ "i want this." your voice just above a whisper.

✨ oh, jay heard you. he just wanted to toy with you. "what was that? speak up."

✨ "god, jay. i want this. i want you~" the sexual frustration clearly taking over

✨ "oh, you have no idea what you're getting yourself into, sweetheart."

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[vermillioncrown]

Christ. Our BFF ZYX gets to punch WWX and also gets to fuck off to somewhere else and instead of a good time it's a motherfucking business conference where instead of learning shit you have to pander to your CEO? and they didn't even get to enjoy the punch. Even Xania-hellscape has to have SOME good parts, lord. This is terrible. Give Yuxun hot cocoa, a blanket, and a panic room.

unfortunately zyx lives in a Society, and the only good parts of this society is the lack of student loans, very dodge-able taxes, and magic sword fighting. chocolate is not in asia yet (let's ignore the chili thing yeah? yeah. that's not my sin, soooo) and panic room = seclusion in a cave

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they couldn't even punch wwx, let alone have something to enjoy

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they'll get some stuff to use as coping mechanisms next ch. is it better? eh. but a salad will be involved, and nothing cleanses like a nice, simply dressed, vegetable going cronch.

=

in seriousness, all these things are related. here, we see zyx in compute-error mode, where their mind wants one thing (maybe?) and their habits and survival mindset isn't letting them have it.

another is the implicit discussion on obligation, and what that means to me (aka zyx, and other people of in-between cultures). it might seem... nonsensical how zyx basically makes life difficult for themself, like "motherfucker you have two legs and a sword and you don't need to eat, just walk away?!?"

it's weird, growing up between an individualistic culture and collective one. to an extreme, neither are good. one thing that i can honestly admit that stunted me (and as a result, zyx is clearly Demonstrating) is the fear/inability to ask for help or that they can't do a thing, or negotiate obligations. obligations aren't bad--in like, how you can reasonably expect people will give you right of way on the street, or you should be respectful in public spaces, parents should care for their kids, etc etc--it helps people coexist. however, in a collectivist culture, in one with as high-context of a language as chinese, directly negotiating what obligations you can or want to handle (even if that negotiation will net benefits for everyone) is like if someone peed in your coffee at the coffee shop. you'd be baffled because "did that really happen?" "i don't have the operating procedures for this edge case of a social interaction, of which this barely qualifies"

what makes it more frustrating, to both the reader and myself (and if it's frustrating, then good i'm conveying it), is that zyx clearly has the vocabulary to identify their problem. (contrast with jzx, in which there was a throwaway line in earlier chs + his current frustrations where he doesn't have that vocab, doesn't understand, and gets even more frustrated because it feels like everything is wrong but no one notices.) but what can't be completely done is me showing you guys how disjoint that vocabulary is in both of zyx's 'native' languages. one set of vocabulary developed with one type of interaction and culture, and the other with another type. and they don't have the excuse of childhood bluntness and naivete to allow them to bulldoze through social interactions because that's the whole everything of them being an adult and hyper-cognizant of how they don't belong, needing to navigate carefully rather than other flavors of SIs/OCs that are teens and kids and really do act like that.

things matter, in a very specific way, to zyx and that's why given where they are in this life, it's never gonna be a stress-free fun time.

... unless they become sect leader in the future after things are truly peaceful (for this generation, at least)

then they can justify telling people, "this one is taking paid leave" ✌

"... huzi we don't get paid?"

#on dbd #inquiry #Anonymous #ch 20 is in no way the climax of the fic but it is def the boiling point for a lot of points i've been poking at in earlier chapters #the little bits of seriousness that zyx tries to gloss over with humor or understatements or sarcasm #like i never want my writing to be an Angst Fest even when talking serious shit #but it's always been serious and a very honest what-if. and if i'm anything it's fucking pedantic and anal-retentive about details

[calypsolemon]

hey, what is the Transcendent AU? I've tried searching and found stuff from 5-ish years ago, and literally, all I know is in the AU, there are elemental gods or something. please, need help

ive explained before on this blog, but i understand stuff gets kind of buried, and also its a bit of a long one. Fair warning that there is some dark material in this au, though I wont go into heavy detail, and also this is Long because there's a lot of stuff to explain

Transcendent au is technically an au in two parts, which have seperate titles (Ruination and Rebirth).

The first part, Ruination, takes place in a universe that mixes movie and show elements. It mostly follows the plot of the movie up to when lloyd steals the ultimate weapon, at which point frustration with his situation boils over, and instead of following along with wu's plan, lloyd decides to steal back the ultimate weapon from his dad and take over the city himself. Unlike in the film, the ninja end up supportive of him (having their own frustrations with unaccepting parents, lack of support networks and friends, pressure to save a city that hates them and the trauma that entails, etc), and they succeed, essentially becoming villains.

At first, they use their new roles to simply fool around, enjoying some time off, breaking into stuff, etc. However, as time goes on, they notice their powers seem to be getting stronger, leading to unintended harm done. Lloyd uncovers previously hidden empathic abilities when he is confronted by his high school bully, but it results in Lloyd accidentally destroying his mind. Zane begins having problems with his element taking over his body, becoming more ice than robot. Nya intends to simply wash away her former masters with a wave from the ocean, but ends up washing away the entire city instead. Needless to say, they start having some concerns.

After A Lot Of Shit Goes Down, they eventually learn that their destructive behavior has kicked off a second prophecy, one that only wu knew the full truth of (though the serpentine seemed aware of part of it, in their myth of the golden master). They seek out their previous master, who at this point is hiding in an attempt to prevent what he knows will come, but they find him and get him to confess. That the true role of the green ninja and his protectors, was to inherit the role FSM left behind, and become the new gods of ninjago.

FSM had kept it secret, and applied rules to it (that one must know about the prophecy, and truly desire godhood and all it entails, in order to complete it) as a safety measure. However, he did not intend for the prophecy to be completed in such a destructive manner. Still, after finally knowing the truth, the ninja wish for nothing more than a way to redo everything wrong, and have a fresh start. This completes the prophecy, and they ascend to godhood, destroying and recreating ninjago in the process.

This is where Rebirth begins, though its a much shorter explaination than the above, simply because Rebirth doesn't really have a "plot" so much as its just "everything that happens after and all the lore we've developed for it." The ninja recreate the world, this time trying to be better gods to it than FSM was, and reincarnate everyone from the old world into it. This is including the other elemental masters, who the ninja mentor with each new incarnation, and the serpentine, who are given a much fairer shake this time around. They also learn there are gods in other realms, though all of them originated from the clash of Oni and Dragons. There is LOTS of other lore to this part, as I've developed ideas of how this new ninjago would develop culturally and how the gods work and all that jazz. But I wont get that in depth here since this ask is long enough.

At this point I do want to say that this au is the way it is because it was a rather collaborative project at the time. It started because my groupchat had gripes with the movie and show, and we asked ourselves what potential consequences could come if an entire city hated its teenage savior with god powers. This snowballed into an examination of the generational trauma that lloyd inherited from his father, uncle, and grandfather, manifesting into a literal prophecy in the story, and how the ninja might both meet and avoid the same harmful behaviors that plagued their predecessors. This is why, despite the road to Rebirth being rather dark, it doesn't take on the same somber tone as Ruination. There's joy in both the concept of taking the pieces of a broken world and still managing to create something new and better out of it, as well as a personal happiness I get from memories of collaborating with friends on this au, most of whom I am still very close to even after four years together.

annnd yeah thats it, obviously there's still More but more specific stuff has to be answered in asks bc this is a lot to read as is, thanks to anyone who read all of this lol

#transcendent au

[evansbby]

Girl I was literally one of your first likes but I couldn't respond right after I read it because I was running late for my lecture. But this is what I think of the latest POYT chapter

IT WAS AWESOME : 11/10

1) For the first time I did not hate Steve and was actually hurt when he hurt in the very end. It was as if I had the mark and I could literally visualize him being hurt seeing Omega being taken away just after she's aid yes to marrying him, after he told her he loved her and after she told him she was pregnant. That's absolutely devastating.

2) I STAN OMEGA. The way the girl finally let her real emotions out this time. For once her inner Omega was stiffened by her other feelings. Each time she hit him for each of his bs was so so so stress busting. Fr she was under so much pressure. I am so happy she finally put herself first and stood up for herself. The way Steve treated her was absolutely unacceptable.

3) FUCK OFF BUCKY. Tf is wrong with you?! What kind of sick person leaves a girl out in pouring rain and laughs? The audacity he had to think Omega would cheat. It doesn't only show how bad of a friend he is but also how low he thinks of Omega. You really think she would be unfaithful to Steve because he did that to her? And even if she was - trust me lad - not happening with you out of all the people. Fucking knob. I wish Steve threw him out of the house.

4) Even tho Sam was shitty throughout the series seeing him sincerely apologize was kinda nice and sweet. Made me break into a little smile between all the angst.

5) Peter, baby ik you're heart's in the right place, but respectfully ...... piss off. Not happening. Also hilarious that he's the one GRIPPING Omega and dragging her away. WHY CANT THESE BOYS LEARN A BIT ABOUT ✨️CONSENT✨️

6) Jensen getting to play was so sweet, now all he needs is some nice company who actually treats him well.

7) As a reader I want to feel like a part of the story, I DID. IT WAS FUCKING AWESOME. I felt as if I, myself was in that poytverse. I saw Omega cry and imagined Steve sketching her at night in the dim moonlight when her skin glows and she's so peaceful and finally looks like an angel cause she is one. I felt the love, I felt the rage and I felt the hurt. There was so much that I can't even begin to comment on everything. I bet I missed out a lot but I really wish I got to comment on each and every line.

It was everything I imagined and more. It was so well written, love. Honestly, it probably made my entire week and will get me through my hectic schedule. I also recommended it to my best friend and I Def think she'll love this too.

Btw, the I love you and I am pregnant at the football game after they won the game - straight out of a fairytale. It think Steve might truly deserve Omega now. And the one where he exposed his neck for her to mark - MADE ME SO WEAK.

Ok I should stop now or else I'll get carried on-

~A <3

ooof bestie so many opinions!!! firstly thank you so much for reading, ily😩💕 lemme answer them in order!

1. Poor Stevie😩 finally poured his heart out (as much as someone as heartless as him can) and it was all thrown back in his face when his omega left him. His perfect life — future wife, baby, everything — was ripped away from him and I wonder how sadistically he will react to that🤔

2. Yassss omega finally let Steve have it! I wanted to write this for all of us, bc all my readers have hated how she was treated — so i was hoping it would be super satisfying to see her voicing her frustrations!

3. Bucky is kind of delusional… I guess he just can’t seem to grasp that Steve got to omega first. He’s insulted that she’s not interested in him — bc he’s slowly becoming obsessed with her😮‍💨 her rejection insulted him so much that he not only locked her out in the rain, but he also twisted her arm painfully😭😭 the villain of poyt, and we haven’t seen the last of him!

4. Sam showing signs of maturity! But also… omega didn’t forgive him and she doesn’t have to hehe.

5. Unfff exactly!! All these boys need to chill and give omega some space to figure things out for herself!! 😤😤😤

6. Jensen played well!! I didn’t write it in the chapter, but he played well and even Steve was begrudgingly impressed. Not nearly as good as Bucky would’ve been tho.

7. Oh bestie, as a writer this is so lovely to hear!! All I wanna do is make sure my writing invokes some kind of emotion within the reader, so I’m so so so happy that you felt that when reading!! Thank you so much!💕💕😌

#a<3 anon #anon #poyt ask #poyt 4 ask

[xxxtherrcollectivexxx]

Genshin Muses and Their Mental Health (Headcanons)

Apologies for the extremely long post it took me a while to write. I just got a little thoughtful of what my Genshin Muses may possibly have troubles with mentally.

If you don't fancy reading, then quickly continue scrolling. :)

Alhaitham - Autism Look his autism has kind of stereotypical media driven signs of autism like the super intelligence, his hyperfixation on his scribe occupation, and his preference is isolation over social interactions. He can find it difficult to understand how others think and feel, and often impulsive to speak his mind regardless of how others will perceive it. He is exceptional in finding patterns and irregularities within a situation, and always manages to be multiple steps ahead. Also noise cancelling headphones?

Arataki Itto - Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD) You can't tell me otherwise. Listen to all that damn dialogue. Man is an utter himbo, and add in the ADHD to further his personality. Man is incredibly impulsive and unorganised in every sense of the word. He has one of the lowest frustration tolerances when it comes to his Kabuto fighting, can't concentrate on only one topic, but can be distracted by other stimuli. But in other situations he can be completely hyperfocused on a task like going to search for his friends and making sure they're safe. He also does not take kindly to stress and stressful situations.

Il Dottore - Anti Social Personality Disorder (Sociopathy) Man shows absolutely no regard when it comes to right and wrong, and blatantly ignores the feelings of others that are impacted by him. That doesn't mean to say that he doesn't have feelings. He can emote just like anyone else, but these emotions are very external emotions such as happiness, sadness, anger, jealousy, and so on. But more internal emotions like sympathy, guilt, etc, are definitely not understood by him. He will lie to take advantage of others, resorts to violence should the need arise, as well as being entirely opinionated and having a strong sense of superiority over others.

Lumine - Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) It was already bad enough that she has lost her brother in a world where she understood very little, with only Paimon to be her guide, but now she is thrust into so many dangerous situations and no one seems to really ask her how she is feeling. Everyone hears tales of her adventures and her heroics, but they never understand truly how traumatised and frustrated she is that she has managed to do so much and learn so little about her brother's whereabouts. As much as she has made friends over her time within the realm of Teyvat, it's not the same without her brother. Often she finds herself distracting her head with what she can do to help people, just to try and drown out that feeling of worthlessness and hopelessness she feels because she is missing her brother.

Neuvillette - Rejection Sensitivity / Emotional Disregulation (RSD) While RSD may be more of a factor within ADHD, Neuvillette definitely doesn't have ADHD. As a Water Dragon Sovereign, there's not doubt that he tries his best to learn how humans work and think and do things. Offering to help with the people of Fontaine through the judiciary system, and seeing all the awful things people can do to one another, as well as to him, it would start to weigh on his shoulders. It's easy to point out the rejection sensitivity because it's the idea of feeling physical pain and suffering when one is rejected. When Neuvillette feels these great burdens and feelings, the rain comes. The only sign that he allows to show that he is mourning and grieving the people he is trying to help.

Pantalone - Narcissistic Personality Disorder Man has a very high opinion of himself, going so far as to control the majority of the money of Teyvat. He can become very aggressive and controlling when he doesn't get what he wants, going so far as to hurting or even unaliving people who have disappointed him. He has a very hard time controlling his own emotions which is why he forces himself to smile all the time so no one can see that he is perturbed or irritated by their actions until it is too late.

Tartaglia - Bipolar Personality Disorder (BPD) Childe seems to display quite varying symptoms of bipolar, having elated and manic episodes when it comes to his favourite thing (fighting), but also dipping into low and disinterested moods when something doesn't fit his fancy. He is usually very upbeat and likes to talk constantly with the Traveler or Zhongli, and also has an exaggerated state of self and his abilities. On the other hand, he has been seen to be disinterested and feeling a lack of pleasure in this he enjoys, mostly when he has not been satisfied by someone else. He also shows a lot of restlessness and often has times where he is unable to rest or sleep.

Tighnari - Possible Asperger's Syndrome Honestly so many people believe him to have an additive personality due to consuming shrooms on the daily, but this has not hindered him in any way. He does not believe he needs to consume shrooms on the daily basis for any sort of fix. He does it to help figure out ide effects and write them down in his handbooks so others are aware of what can be safe to eat and what should be avoided. If anything, guy may have some form of Asperger's, but there's not enough to confidently say yes.

Zhongli - Depression This man just wants a really long nap. He's been through a lot and wants nothing more than to be rid of it all. He does not have any thoughts of unaliving or harm to himself, but he has become severely reclusive and unbothered by thriving as an Archon anymore. His encounters during his story quests have pretty much shown that he no longer feels he has any purpose or meaning to remain in Liyue, and the only reason he would most likely stay is because he wants to see how humans will thrive without him. When he knows that they will be fine on their own, perhaps he will finally give himself the rest he feels he deserves.

#collective thoughts :: ᴼᴼᶜ #genshin impact muses #lets talk about mental health #they are just headcanons #i dont think of them as canon #take that as you will

[ki-flor]

Hi I just wanted to say I have no connection to either side of this war and it’s awful what is happening to both sides and judging by your posts you do have a personal connection to this (? Correct me if I’m wrong pls!) I’ll be honest and say I’ve filtered tags and phrases to do with everything bc quite honestly I don’t understand all the fine, complicated details and also I come to tumblr to chill and not constantly see all this pain but I understand how that isn’t as easy to do for others who are more connected with this. I’m absolutely all for free Palestine what they’ve endured is awful and of course anyone with one brain cell can understand there’s a difference between the innocent civilians and the actual terrorists/government making this worse. Same for Israel. There’s tons of innocent civilians who have done nothing wrong but be part of a generation born in Israel and again the Israeli government is not its innocent people. To me personally, I read Noah’s post as one of frustration that what is being lost here is the innocent lives being taken. He has family and friends there and it’s people of his faith who are being murdered - ofc he’s going to be upset and worried. I also personally didn’t read it as him calling all Palestinians terrorists.. he differentiates between the innocent and the not. To me he wants peace on both sides and probably would express that more clearly if given another opportunity. I do agree what he said could have been more clear and I hope he does express himself clearer in future. Like I said to me it sounded like he was mad that ppl were being so cruel over an innocent woman who lost her life (who he possibly knew). I do feel like perhaps he should’ve stayed more silent or just thought about things more before just posting stories constantly but in that respect I can’t say I blame him for being upset that his people are being killed. Some of what he’s said to me does come across a little… brainwashy(?) though.. like he’s young and impressionable and maybe his trip to israel to learn about his culture (which he’s allowed to do!) right before this all happened hasn’t helped just how pro-israel no matter what he comes across.

It’s actually so interesting to see both sides being discussed on here bc I have mutuals who are against Noah and those who are for him bc they themselves are Jewish and seeing all the anti-Semitic things that are being said to him… it just goes to show (to me anyway) how complicated and tricky this is. And as someone who isn’t connected to this personally at all will never truly understand.

Anyway if you read this far thank you for reading my ramblings! This was never intended to be a dig at you and if it’s come across that way I truly apologise, I thought you just seemed like someone who would be mature enough to express this thought to!

I honestly don't believe he has bad intentions but it is the impact that matters most. A couple of contradicting statements in what he said. I do think it was worded poorly. You cannot truly support Palestinians if you stand with their terrorists(Israel). The very statement of him saying "stand with Israel or stand with terrorism" is offensively stupid. Perhaps he doesn't believe that all Palestinians are terrorists but you know who might? The Israeli government. That retorhic has been used in American history before such as the aftermath of pearl harbor and post 9/11. What do those things have common? They both led to people being racist to Japanese people and Muslims. To the point where Japanese people were put into internment camps and all Muslims were viewed as terrorists. You think Israel is going to clear up that when they say terrorists they mean hamas or Palestinians in general? When they don't even allow them to return to the land that belongs to them. They don't see Palestinians as human. So yeah people will interpret it as him saying "all Palestinians are terrorists"

I can try and sympathize with his stance on Israel as it's such a close subject to him but there's a lack of care and urgency that he and many celebrities who have spoken in support of Israel show to Palestinians. I do think it's brainwash because there's propaganda coming from Israel that gets played all over news/media. You got people claiming anyone who supports free Palestine is Anti-Semitic which is not the case. You have people believing all Palestinians are in support of hamas. Everyone gets to say their versions of events but Palestinians are struggling to even get their stories out with the cut off of their electricity. They are the ones who have been suffering for years under oppression but you didn't see celebrities chiming in by the masses like now. It's scary how easy they will turn a blind eye to the crimes and treatment Palestinians have faced. It's scary because they support the oppressor since they see stories of innocent people dying but where is that same empathy for all the thousands of Palestinians who die? It's all very selective.

People want to play like there's a way to end this peacefully when the reality is Palestinians have tried doing that to no avail. It's dangerous to take the side of pascifism when you look at the power imbalance between Israel and Hamas. At the end of the day Palestinians with no help from anyone will still be under the occupation of Israeli forces and they will continue to be dehumanized and killed. This to me isn't tricky even without a personal connection. No one should be complicit of this treatment of any human and that's something to be concise about.

#Thank you for the ask this subject has been something perturbing me for the past few days.

[liminal-storage]

Cold Rain

(A bit of writing just to get the juices flowing once again. Kuni, melancholy, and musing. Name a more iconic trio) ----------------- Ancient magics, along with those who wield them, are meant to be feared and respected. The leshy is no exception to this rule, even if the odd shift from winter's chill to the far-off hints of spring do make the fae cranky and impatient.

But instead of respect, Kuni feels that his words and lessons have given her too many things to ruminate on. Usually they leave her with a burning and insatiable need to know more, do more. Today, they've left her adrift in a detached sort of melancholy.

It's not a rare thing for the beast to question her, to prod and get under her skin when she's having troubles mastering a new sigil. Spite motivates her to press on, as if to prove him wrong. But it's not uncommon for him to stare at her as if he's staring through her, either, pondering some mystery he must've read in her face.

"What is it you want?" He'd asked of her.

Down was his glamour, and he appeared before her in his true bestial form. The vine tendrils hanging from his head brushed the cold, dry dirt, and from where she sat he seemed almost to melt into the earth.

"What is it you truly want?"

The query came after the end of a particularly long lesson, wherein the leshy attempted to guide her in honing a sigil meant for minor self-healing. So engrossed in the process of memorization was she that the woman didn't initially understand exactly what he meant.

"From these lessons," he spoke, as if he could hear the voice of her thoughts. He sounded annoyed, as he often did when she failed to notice the obvious. "From your time here, from all of the work that you do?"

It had been a taxing session, and the woman had difficulty in understanding how to adapt the sigils to something she could more comfortably use. As she tended to do when frustrations bubbled over, she'd become vocal and agitated, expressing a need to get it right. But for the sake of whom? She wondered that even before he posed the question.

A question which continues to echo in her head even now, long after the old stag's footfalls have faded. For her otherworldly tutor clucked his tongue and took his leave, remarking on how unbelievable it was that she could change so much and yet still falter so badly in other ways.

What is it all for? What does she want?

The dead, dry grass juts against her palm and prickles her skin. In the silence of Actaeon's departure, twilight has descended to kiss the brow of night. It grows cold, and Kuni sinks deeper into thought.

Who are her promises for? What purpose does her tireless workaholic effort serve? As the wind sighs over the treetops and rattles dry branches, so too does she sigh. The answer is there, etched shamefully into her weary bones and she knows it.

She makes promises every day. Swears she'll find things for people. Find the old bastard Vadeboncoeur. Find the wayward denizens of the Threshold. Help find the things plaguing those at the Rest. Help discover truths for strangers. Help clients find what they seek. Find reasons to keep people coming to her for assistance.

She wonders if kindness still counts as kindness if it has an ulterior motive, if it's to keep people needing you.

Her fingers curl against the sleeping earth. Doesn't she know better? Satiate her curiosity. Learn more, see more, feel and hear and taste the world for her own sake. That is what she should do.

But as she tips her head back to feel the icy touch of a cold evening rain, she must confess that the answer to Actaeon's question does not fill her with pride.

What does she truly want?

The rain stings, frigid needles running over her skin. Tomorrow the icy layer it leaves behind will crack and groan underfoot. Slices of razor-sharp frozen rain will shower from creaking branches as the world wakes itself up. Nature always does have an easier time of shaking off distress than she does.

I want someone to see me as I am, even should I have no service to offer, and tell me "I want you here."

Not need, but want. Such a hard thing to give voice to.

Frustration pulls her to stand, fury directed inward. Is she truly still thinking and acting as though her presence requires a transaction? She scoffs, thoroughly pissed off that it took the stag prodding her again to get her to see what she needs to see most. Even so, the road to getting there seems infinitely long and empty. She brushes rain from her shoulders and sets off, wondering what force in the world it will take to get her to say what she wants aloud.

#my writing #kuni muinvel #technically the first bit of writing of the year! #gotta shake off the rust somehow

[ticklish-n-stuff]

You can count on us

Is this fic self indulgent?...mAybe

Ok so the past few days I've been feeling like shit, I keep going from normal to sad constantly and it's...exhausting. I think it's no secret that tickling is a big comfort for me, and today I woke up with the itch to write somethin so I thought maybe reading/writing about a similar experience to mine would help me feel even if just a bit better.

Anyways sorry for the sad lil rant.

I originally was only gonna write RuiKasa but then I was like...make it poly WxS 'cause it's the only right answer SKAKSJAJS (im kidding obv.)

Well I hope you all like it, I am curious to know what you all think of this sadder fic lolol

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Rui x Tsukasa x Emu x Nene (poly WxS)

Lee: Rui

Lers: Tsukasa, Emu, Nene

Warnings: Tickles! A bit of angst??

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Rui is one of those people whom you can't tell what they're truly thinking or feeling. He always has that stupid teasy smirk plastered on his face so it's hard for anyone to read his facial expressions. After having a hard time making friends he kinda just learned to mask up his true emotions, but now it's different. Now he does have people in his life that he can rely on. His partners from the WonderlandsxShowtime cast have always been so supportive and understanding of him. But you know what they say, old habits die hard.

Even though he knew his partners were genuine, that empty feeling at the pit of his stomach tried to convince him otherwise. These past few days, Rui had been having multiple sad episodes where he just feels like curling up and wanting to disappear even for just a moment. It was very tiring and exhausting having to deal with that constant sadness. His partners had always reassured him that he could rely on them whenever he needed them, but for some reason he couldn't bring himself to open up to them. He thought that maybe he could ignore that feeling and carry on like nothing had happened, but as the days went on it became harder and harder to hold it in. It was so bad even his usual smirk was nowhere to be found. He couldn't bare the thought of facing his partners in this state, so he started to purposely avoid them, at school, at work, whenever he ran into one of them he quickly changed direction.

Of course his partners were no dumbasses (even if they looked like it) so they quickly caught onto his odd behaviour. One day at work while Rui was trying to occupy himself with one of his inventions, the other three talked about what could possibly be tormenting him.

"Okay so everyone agrees that Rui hasn't been himself these past few days?" they all nodded their heads.

"Nene you've known him longer than us, do you know why he's been acting this way?".

"I'm not sure, he's never been good at expressing his feelings..".

"And he doesn't seem to wanna tell us either..." Emu looked down to the ground with a sad look on her face. She hated seeing one of her partners struggling all alone.

"Okay clearly something is wrong, but he won't tell us. How are we supposed to help him if we don't know what's wrong in the first place...!" Tsukasa felt frustrated and angry with himself, he wanted to help Rui so badly, but he didn't even know where to start.

As an intense silence settled over the trio, Rui himself approached them, trying to muster up his best smile even if it hurt. He hated being so close and yet so distant from his partners, but what else could he do?

"Uhh so I'm done working on my bot, if that'll be all I'll be heading back home now".

Before any of them could even think of a reply Rui was already marching away. They definitely noticed the way his face instantly dropped as he walked away. The three of them sighed in defeat, until...

"Is that...Rui's drone?".

"Uhm yeah, I guess he must've forgotten it, why do you-... Tsukasa what are you planning?" The greenette questioned once the blonde quickly took hold of the drone.

"Well...I was sorta kinda thinking that MAYBE we could use it to follow him..." he trailed off as he figured out how to opperate it.

"That's kinda weird...".

"B-but he follows people with drones all the time! Even the day we met he had been following me with one. I think it's only fair I get to do it atleast once to him... What do you think Emu?!".

"I think...that yes! I really wanna know what's bothering him, pleaaaase Nene?" Emu got on her hands and knees in front of Nene, trying to convince her into stalking their boyfriend (it sounded much better in her head).

"Ugh...fine...".

Emu cheered and slapped a big kiss on Nene's cheek as they all got around to operate the drone. After some fiddling with it they managed to put it up into the sky.

"Do you see him yet?!".

"Uhm no I don't...- Wait! I think that's him!" cheered out Tsukasa as he watched the small screen on the remote.

"Yup that's him alright, looks like he's heading straight home".

They all watched attently as Rui made his way home, nothing out of the ordinary. That was until he made it into his room, his partners watched in sadness as they saw their boyfriend sitting down on the floor, in front of his bed, and hug his knees to his chest as he burried his face between them. They could all feel their hearts shatter at the scene, but what really sent them over the edge were the muffled sobs that came from their purple boyfriend. They all quickly reacted when hearing the noise without a second thought.

"Okay we have to go, NOW!".

They all ran to Rui's house, with Tsukasa and Nene breaking and entering through the front door while Emu crawled into his room through a window. Rui was so lost in thought he didn't even bother to look up when he heard feet scattering like mad in his room. Suddenly...he felt his braint shut off when he felt three pairs of arms wrapped securely around him as his partners gently reassured him and comforted him.

"It's okay, you're not alone anymore".

"We're here for you, and we always will".

"Let it all out, you're safe now".

And just like that, Rui started sobbing louder. Letting all those held up emotions out as he relaxed in the comforting touch of his parters. He cried and cried until there were no tears left in him. Once he managed to calm down, he slowly lifted his head up to look at his partners. They couldn't help but smile fondly at him once they saw his face. Tsukasa was the first to speak up.

"How are you feeling now?".

"Better...thank you, all of you...".

The three partners smiled, before Rui questioned something.

"By the way, how did you all know I was crying...?".

Tsukasa and Emu quickly looked at anything else that seemed remotely interesting all while Nene rolled her eyes.

"Tsukasa and Emu insisted on using your own drone to follow you around".

"N-Nene!" Tsukasa tried to shut her up but she only looked back at him with a teasy smirk.

They both bickered for a while until Rui let out some soft giggles at their sillyness. They all quickly forgot about the drone incident, instead focusing on the sound of their boyfriend's giggles.

"Haven't heard those in a while" Tsukasa brought up as Rui's cheeks softly flushed at the comment. They all quickly cooed at him, which made Rui burry his face between his knees again, except this time it was out of embarrassment. This action only made his partners coo at him more.

"Aww so cute!".

"Those giggles are like music to my ears~".

"Such a precious boyfriend we have~".

All the teasing only made Rui giggle louder. His shoulders gently shook as he let out flustered giggles. "Nohoho...!".

"Looks like someone caught the case of the giggles~".

They all giggled alongside their giggly boyfriend, until a mischevious yet fun idea blessed their brains. Tsukasa cleared his throat before speaking up.

"Since our amazing boyfriend seems to be in a giggly mood, I say that we help him out~" teased Tsukasa as he poked his side. Rui instantly squeaked at the tickly touch, hugging his knees tighter.

"Oooh? Does Rui want the coochi coos??" Emu asked in a teasy tone as she softly stroked his other side up and down.

"E-Emu plehehehease!" he tried to gently swat away her hand but his arms were suddenly being pulled above his head by Tsukasa. While Nene playfully sat on his legs to keep him from curling up. He smiled nervously, knowing what was to come.

"So...do you think you can keep your arms up?" Tsukasa asked with a teasy smirk. Rui's blush grew deeper.

"I-I can try...".

Tsukasa smiled at him as he wrapped his arms along his neck. Rui tensed up as he braced for impact, he took deep breaths trying to ignore the tickly feeling, but once he felt Tsukasa poke at his armpits it was over for him.

"AHH-! W-WAHAHAIT! TSUKASA NOHOHO!" Rui's shoulders shook as he struggled to keep his arms up.

"Oh alright, I'll spare you that spot...for now~" Tsukasa giggled evily as he gently tickled along Rui's neck and jaw.

"Eep! Hehehehehehe!" Rui giggled himself silly as he tried scrunching up his shoulders.

"Aww, coochi coochi coo~" Tsukasa whispered into his ear, which caused him to squeak.

"EEK! Nahahahaha! Not thahahat!".

"But Rui loves the coochi coos!" said Emu as she playfully poked his sides up and down.

"aHA-! Ehehemu nohoho!" silly Rui shook his head and squirmed from side to side. As flustered as he felt, he was having a lot of fun. Tickling was a big comfort for him and his partners were well aware of that, they were always happy to indulge him in such a fun and comforting activity.

Suddenly, he felt some evil fingers poking at his tummy. He jumped and jolted at each poke delivered by Nene. She only watched in amusement, no teasing or anything, as she poked away at the sensitive spot.

To make matters worse...or better in Rui's case, Tsukasa started to gently scratch behind his ears, earning the cutest giggles and squeaks from their ticklish boyfriend.

"Pffft! Ahahahaha! T-thahahat tickles!".

Rui's partners smiled fondly at him, they enjoyed watching him have some innocent fun.

Not long after, he felt his shirt being pulled up as an evil finger inserted itself into his bellybutton, softly tickling it.

"GAH! N-Nene nahahat thehehere!" poor Rui let out a squeal as he arched his back, surprisingly he managed to keep his arms up at all times.

"Tickle tickle tickle~" Nene softly teased, earning another squeal from the flustered male.

After a bit more of those soft tickles, Tsukasa decided to spice things up a bit.

"You've managed to keep your arms up pretty well till now, but now I wanna hear you really laughing!" without another warning, Tsukasa dug his fingers into Rui's armpits and as he expected, his arms came crashing down in an instant.

"BWAH! AHAHAHAHAHA! TSUKASA NOHOHO!" he tried to squirm away from Tsukasa's tickly fingers but it was pretty hard with Nene in his lap.

The three of them laughed at the goofy and silly sounds Rui made at the armpit tickles, he was so ticklish there how could you not wanna exploit that spot?!

Rui's face went bright red, from the tips of his ears all the way down his neck. His eyes were also pretty watery, but his smile was so big and his laughter so bubbly and bright, it was all worth it.

Once Rui started hiccuping from the more intense tickles did his partners relent their tickle attack. Tsukasa slipped his hands out from under his arms as he gave him a tight hug from behind, Nene remained cuddled up in his lap, and Emu was cozily snuggled into his side...which felt a bit tickly. Rui took big gulps of air as his giggles subsided...or atleast most of them.

"Hehehe! T-thahanks for thahat..!" he looked over at his partners with a genuine smile, the first one in a while.

"No problem! And remember, we're here for you. Next time you don't feel so well please come talk to us".

"Yeah...sorry for not bringing it up sooner...and for becoming so distant..." Rui couldn't help but frown at the tought.

"Don't feel bad! We know you didn't mean to!" said Emu as she playfully blew a raspberry on his side.

"GAH! AHAHA!" Rui did a violent jerk to the other side, but with Tsukasa's firm yet comforting grip on him he wasn't able to squirm much.

"A happy face did always suit you better, you look weird when you're all gloomy" spoke Nene softly, trying to light up the mood. Rui looked down at her with a soft smile and placed a gentle kiss on her forehead.

"I am feeling much happier compared to before thanks to you guys".

"Good!" cheered out Tsukasa as he peppered soft tickly kisses along the back of Rui's neck.

"Pfft! Ahahahahaha! T-Tsukasa thahat tickles!" poor Rui would try scrunching up his neck but Tsukasa would just kiss wherever it was exposed.

Nene couldn't help but roll her eyes fondly at her dorky partners, while nuzzling deeper into Rui's chest. The three of them kept on showering Rui with love and affection...and tickles for the rest of the day. He was glad he had wonderful partners he could rely on.

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As I was writing this it hit me, I think I've been feeling so sad because of...hormones SKAKSKAJS. 'Cause I've been feeling symptons these few days and this sadness basically showed up out of nowhere which has happened in previous months. Soo...yeah SKAJSKAJSJ

Idk about you, but whenever I feel sad for no reason I LOVE reading angst fics (especially from the haikyuu fandom for some reason LMAO, now I wonder if there are any prosekai ones...). 'Cause if I'm feeling sad, might as well get all them tears out once and for all SJAKSJAI

This was fun to write! It was quite the experience, and I'm actually feeling much better now!

#project sekai #colorful stage #tickle #colorful stage tickle #project sekai tickle #fic #tickle fic #colorful stage tickle fic #project sekai tickle fic #rui kamishiro #tsukasa tenma #emu otori #nene kusanagi #lee!rui #ler!tsukasa #ler!emu #ler!nene #a bit of angst??

[ipoddymouth]

Wait bestie I want to know your thots on the matty healy being problematic thing he’s said a lot of weird/offensive stuff for sure but apparently some of that stuff is supposed to be satirical/ he’s an edge lord or whatever like the n*zi salute thing he did and it’s not a good thing to do no matter the context but I feel like it’s probably more harmful to call him a n*zi when he isn’t actually one it’s probably better to call that action antisemitic than a whole n*zi no?

wait gjargigjag you just basically summarized my thoughts but imma ramble more under the cut

i dont think matty is actually, truly, deep in his core racist or a n*zi (i'm also p sure he's given enough interviews explaining himself and his political ideologies bc he's annoying and never shuts the fuck up) BUT he also does say a bunch of shit on the side that doesn't help his case.

i think intent is a big issue in society in general bc it's like 'are you saying this shit to be funny? or are you saying this shit to be mean?' and people don't ask that question anymore. i remember when ariana dated pete and he made that joke about manchester and people were like 'he's disrespecting the dead!!' and, like, i can defs see where people are coming from for sure, and i can also see why he was like ???? in response to the backlash because his attention clearly wasnt to offend.

i will not lie and will fully admit that i am SENSITIVE lmao and there are some jokes in standup sets that i will straight up 😐 during bc i cannot separate the words from intent sometimes but im not going to say bill burr is a rape apologist or whatever because i sit and watch my silly lil 'offensive' robot chicken episodes without batting an eye. the problem with humor is that there will always be a faction that makes certain people uncomfortable. and that's okay!!!! not all of us (me included) need to watch cumtown or red scare because we will not find it funny!!! there's one drag queen who's yt videos my boyfriend cant watch bc he thinks she comes across mean even though i think the jokes hit!!!!

and to your second point i agreeeee like im black and grew up in a p white area so obviously people have said some SHIT to me, but that means you have to learn how to distinguish between someone being intentionally racist or someone being ignorant. i think matty says shit he thinks is funny because he's trying to be funny but the jokes themselves don't hit and just come across as....bizarre? rude??? multiple -ists???? but then he tries to explain himself and people (strangers to him) are either like 'fuck u this isnt sincere' or are just like 'but youre still wrong and horrible' and he just gets frustrated and deletes his socials in a lil baby fit gjlragjaglgj. and not to be a white apologist lmao BUT i kinda do understand why people turn to that 'anti-woke ideology' bc if every time i said something with poor phrasing and someone i didn't know called me a racist n*zi i'd probs go ape shit too.

there are real, actual n*zis like in real life who are actually trying to hurt people and people are pulling out all of their big gun ultra-bad labels for some scrawny boy band dude???? like what are we supposed to call the actual n*zis???????? like i l i t e r a l l y have seen a neo-n*zi rally down the street from my HOUSE and thats fucking TERRIFYING and they're just snatching up more people because of all of the culture wars bullshit

[but like to note im not saying that people need to be forgiving and understanding every time someone says something that pisses them off. some people need to be yelled at!!! they need to know they are wrong!!!! people should just be aware of the impact their words have. matty's words have made A LOT of people straight up hate him, but at the same time, some people have probably seen matty get called a n*zi and are now like 👀 bc the bar to being considered h*tler seems kinda low.]

anyway tl;dr racism is a spectrum, words have meaning, and we don't know these people. but if matty really is a racist and im wrong then i hope he chokes!!!

ALSO i am an adult and am not in the business of defending other adults so like im not gonna argue with someone if they think matty is racist. i am not doing dirty hit pr for FREE

#didnt edit a single word of this so i hope it makes sense gjrlagjg #also if you tell me matty is racist im not gonna argue with you glajglge #like go ahead and think that! #i dont know that man!! im not gonna bend over backwards for him!! #anyway thank you for letting me hit you with a #poddyrants #matty healy #taylor swift

[einsteinsugly]

Why Education is the Perfect Career Path for Eric: Beyond Star Wars and Donna

"With great power, comes great responsibility." -Uncle Ben (and Spiderman)

To many, the concept of Eric being a teacher emerged suddenly at the tailend of season 7, without much explanation. But if the concept was built up throughout seasons 6 and 7, such a career path clearly fits him like a glove.

Therefore, as the narrator, here are the traits and general opportunities that perfectly illustrate why teaching would be the perfect career path for Eric, instead of materialistically indulging in his geeky hobbies in a myriad of ways (in a primary capacity, beyond a side gig and/or a later life venture);

1. His innate compassion.

The career day episode represents his compassion for others perfectly. He was worried about the welfare of his mother's patients, and how his mother coped with loss. In a broader sense, he's deeply worried about the welfare of his friends, particularly Hyde. Lending a helping hand, and insisting (along with his mother) to bring Hyde into the Forman fold. And give his best friend/de facto brother a place to stay, so he didn't end up in the gutter, like Bud and Edna.

Like his parents, all in all, his intention is for his home/basement (his parents' home, Red always reminds him) to be a safe haven for his friends. A place to crash when everything seems topsy turvy, and they don't fit in amongst the rest, forming their awkward little group.

Thus, his geeky hobbies don't really stratch that itch to help others. Whether it be his friends, his family, or total strangers. His classroom, like the basement, can be a safe haven. A place to figure things out, as long he and his students aren't consistently trapped within its mental confines. Exploring the world, leading the pack, and helping others. One step at a time.

2. His hero complex.

It's imperative to look into why Eric idolized Luke Skywalker and Peter Parker/Spiderman. They're heroes, fighting against the forces of evil. Fighting against what's wrong in the world, and making things right.

Owning a comic book store or something of the like, once again, doesn't scratch another innate itch of his. His geeky hobbies are an outlet for his desires, of what he wants to see from himself. He wants to make the world a better place, by not only talking the talk, but walking the walk. Lending a helping hand, and being a teacher is the perfect way to make a difference in the world. No matter how small, he makes a difference, for the sake of the next generation. It's frustrating when some don't want to listen, but he digs deep. And often, if he works hard, he gets results. They may not be invested in whatever subject he's teaching, but they're invested in giving themselves a chance in this crazy, crazy world. And that's all that matters.

3. It's an opportunity to explore and thoroughly invest in different hobbies and interests, beyond Star Wars and Donna.

Eric was clearly unsatisfied with just being interested in his geeky hobbies in season 7, knowing such hobbies wouldn't get him far in the world professionally and it wouldn't scratch his itch to help others and truly make a difference in the world. After all, he readily feared being a comic book fiend (and living with his mother), and desired something more. Beyond the material confines of Star Wars, Spiderman, and the like.

For example, he tried his hand at documentary filmmaking to test the waters, and he would totally test the waters in college. His interest in documentary filmmaking could open his horizons to photography and videography as a whole. His interest in Star Wars could blossom into an interest in astromony. He also showed a self-righteous interest in history in Who Wants It More, too; after all, learning from past mistakes is crucial, is it not? And he could teach all these subjects, if he's passionate about them, with general ease.

Also, a general urge to help others in the real world, like Spiderman without a cape, could not only lend itself to entering the field of education but to possibly entering the field of social work as well. Like his mother, but without the blood and guts.

Or maybe, he could even embark in counseling. Where he could help others who were in a similar boat, and struggled to find themselves in the world. Just like being a teacher or being in social work could possibly bring, too. It'd be hard work, but at the end of the day? He's helping others, like he helped Hyde (and wished he could help himself, as a kid). And that's all that matters.

#that 70s show #that 90s show #eric forman #eric and donna #my moodboards #my essays

[themculibrary]

Clint Barton Angst Masterlist

Dollhouse (ao3) - JinxQuickfoot clint/laura, wanda/vision M, 12k

Summary: The torture bingo card.

It was an old joke that had been passed around the SHIELD agents with a darker sense of humor. Phil had disapproved. Fury had pretended not to know. Clint had joined in right away, only to find he had been able to fill out half the squares before the game had even begun, courtesy of a life of bad cards, poor decisions, and worse luck.

No one was ever supposed to win. -------------------------------------- The Barton family gets an uninvited guest, and it has no intention of leaving.

Don't Be Afraid, Be Very Afraid (ao3) - samalander clint/natasha T, 8k

Summary: Even after Clint is freed, even after the battle is won and the villains vanquished, he can’t get warm. He can’t escape the little seed of Loki, and how it is killing him.

And his fingers are turning black and his chest is always numb.

Clint Barton is freezing to death from the inside out. And there is no one who can save him.

Evaluation (ao3) - CNWrites G, 3k

Summary: This time, Bucky looked up. He gave Clint a hard look. “In your own words, you took out three police cruisers and about half a block of the city. Care to explain things a bit further?”

Clint blinked, then blinked again. Bucky was still giving him that look, and it didn’t seem to be because he was playing a part. “Hey, wait a second. You don’t think I… wait, seriously, you’re not blaming this on me, right?”

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In which Clint Barton gets arrested in the middle of a mission. Bucky Barnes gets sent undercover as his psych evaluator in order to help... at least, that's what Clint thought the goal was. Turns out the evaluation is less of a cover than he expected.

hard love (ao3) - myglassesaredirty N/R, 1k

Summary: It's not right. It's not fair.

All she wants is love. A father figure, a mother figure, a friend, a mentor. Just to know that she's loved, truly loved for all that she is and that she is not.

And he turns her away. She can't make sense of it.

I am split in half, but that'll have to do (ao3) - MANIAvinyl clint/bucky N/R, 4k

Summary: Bucky sits there for a while, at the grave that Clint picked for Natasha, staring out into rippling water with something heavy tugging at his heart. Something helpless.

Because he can’t fix Clint. Some things you have to figure out in your own, no matter how much it hurts for the ones around you to watch.

Or; One year after Natasha’s death, Bucky finally gets Clint to admit that something is wrong.

I'll Write Your Memories Until You Live Again (ao3) - macie_the_hero T, 2k

Summary: Clint doesn't know if he'll be able to ever forgive himself. No matter how much he writes, no matter how many journals he fills out, they'll still be gone, and he can't do a damn thing to save them.

I Wanted To Feel Again, But Not Like This (ao3) - incogniteau clint/natasha T, 1k

Summary: Clint returns to living the farm life after the defeat of Thanos, but is it really living without his wife, Natasha, there?

like sick flowers need the sun (ao3) - hoosierbitch clint/phil M, 7k

Summary: Clint hasn't felt this alone in a long time. Coulson's gone, SHIELD isn't a home anymore, and no one on his new team seems to like him. After a lifetime of being ignored, Clint's gotten good at demanding attention. He'll annoy and frustrate and piss everyone off until they notice him. To him, any attention—even the negative kind—is good attention.

This poses a problem when they all finally learn to just ignore him.

Monsters & Magic (ao3) - Night_Hawk G, 10k

Summary: “Natasha…?” Barton's voice is filled with near-tangible concern.

Well, this is delightful. “How touching,” Loki taunts in his smoothest voice. “You will listen to her, of course, Agent Barton. You always have had a soft spot for Tasha, haven’t you?”

Clint and Natasha deal with the aftermath of Loki's mind control

The Aftermath (ao3) - crazyinfj (orpahn_account) G, 1k

Summary: After being a puppet to Loki, Clint faces his fellow agents. For the first time since he first joined SHIELD, he feels utterly alone and misunderstood.

Febuwhump Day #26 Prompt: Recovery 

This isn’t so much recovery as it is Clint Barton gets the hug he deserves

The Love You Deserve (ao3) - flawedamythyst bucky/clint T, 8k

Summary: Clint had been in his aunt’s house for less than an hour when it became clear that this hadn’t been his greatest idea.

Clint tries to reconnect with his blood family over Christmas. It doesn't go well, but luckily Bucky's there to pick up the pieces.

this world is not meant for you (ao3) - wheelsupsevenup minor clint/laura T, 4k

Summary: Clint kind of hates the circus.

It’s a little late in the game to be making this realization, almost five years of carnie-ing and assorted archer-related performances under his belt. He’s made a real name for himself in the big wide world of carnival companies in the American Midwest, and he’s not even legally allowed to drink yet.

Not that anyone has to know that.

or; four times clint barton doesn’t miss. (and one time he does, on purpose.)

Turing Test (ao3) - Harishe bucky/clint M, 45k

Summary: In the aftermath of successfully protecting his apartment building from the Russian Mafia, Clint struggles with the loss of a friend and tenant, as well as his hearing. It all seems to be going according to plan until Bucky Barnes shows up in his motel room in the middle of the night. Bucky showing up is only the start of this new, begrudging adventure of revenge and discovering the truth.

Where My Demons Hide (ao3) -TheLittleMermaidDJ T, 13k

Summary: After New York and Loki, Clint is dealing with everything by NOT dealing.

But a mission gone to shit and the appearance of a lost friend might end up being just the thing to pull him back from the edge. Assuming it doesn’t kill him first.

Post first Avengers film.

worth fighting for (worth dying for) (ao3) - bumblewyn M, 2k

Summary: Clint had thought that it would finally be over, that he could finally go home, only to find his messed up mind unable to believe the truth of what he fought so hard for.

Turns out it’s not that easy coming back to a life you’ve mourned for five years, no matter how badly you wanted it back.

You Can Sit Beside Me When The World Comes Down (ao3) - KC_Polar_Bear clint/laura, phil/melinda T, 20k

Summary: "She was looking at him the way she’d looked at him earlier, him standing there in the street surrounded by dead Yakuza, telling her he had a job to do as though anybody had told him to be there except his own impotent rage. When he’d told her not to give him hope, not to give him a ladder to climb out of the hole he’d dug himself into because it was so much easier down there in the dark, where he couldn’t see all the things in his world he hadn’t been able to protect.

In all the years they’d known each other she had never looked at him like that. He hated that he’d put that look on her face."

you’re climbing out of yourself (you’re going to smash into the sky) (ao3) - andibeth82 clint/laura G, 4k

Summary: He goes to New York, he sees a show, he thinks about Natasha, he meets Kate Bishop. He takes her home under the guise of needing his suit back and makes sure she’s safe and meets the pizza loving dog she swears isn’t hers and he tries not to be a bitch about it all or think about how his kids are sleeping alone in a big hotel room, unaware that their dad has abandoned them for the night.

(She asks him to sign his bow and as he stares down at the recurve that’s clearly modeled after his old SHIELD weapon, all he can think of is how he should tell her never meet your heroes.)

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