#I don’t want to deal with this anymore

[quins-makeshift-menagerie]

mmmmmMMMMMMM

#sigh #I wanted this break to be nice and relaxing #just allow myself to recharge maybe do some silly personal doodles #but we finally got the quote from the mechanic and it’s #it’s bad but it’s either get this repair or get an all new car we can’t afford #this whole month has been a terrible downward spiral and I’m #trying so hard #I’m not well #things aren’t letting up #I have no motivation to do anything enjoyable #nothing feels enjoyable #I just #I want to sleep forever #I don’t want to deal with this anymore #I still can’t seem to get a job #Q’s job is mentally destroying him because of the things he’s now being exposed to #but he’s been trying to get a new job since mid April #I #no longer feel any hope that things will get better #Christmas? #I feel no Christmas joy #I feel no joy #I picked a shit time to get off my meds but #I don’t know I’m tired of taking pills #there’s nothing wrong with needing them I get that but I just #I didn’t want that anymore #sorry I just needed to yell into the void before I lose my fucking mind #I’m fine things will be fine they’re always fine in the end they have to be

[reaper-the-jellyfish]

Having my first “I need to crash at my friend’s place for a few days because one of my roommates has been sending death threats to me and my other roommate” moment

#not having a good time #I’ve been on the verge of tears all day #please just…get this whole situation away from me #I don’t want to deal with this anymore #I’ve been developing ptsd too because of the last few months #honestly never be as bad a roommate as a person who sends you death threats #over what you may ask? #she assumed me and my other roommate ratted to management #because she has an unvaccinated untreated stray cat that is responsible for 3 different flea infestations #neither of us said anything either

[yellowsubiesdance]

i am in hell 🙃🙃🙃

#this situation is an actual nightmare #i don’t want to deal with this anymore #god please take this off my shoulders it’s too much to bear

[anthyies]

kind of a milf. reblog

#my brain can’t make metaphorical compositions anymore it’s out of juice but i still want to draw. so #lee sookyoung #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #esha.txt #mycreations #WHO’S EXCITED FOR KDJ LSK ISSUES TIME IN THE WEBTOON IN A FEW WEEKS #i think in about two episodes? we’ll get the kdj has died message? #oh i didn’t properly ref the webtoon so the mask is off a bit but it’s fine #i think she’s a fascinating character btw… like i always think about how her actions w/ kdj are reproduced by him. agh agh agh <- sounds of #me taking damage. also like the way she’s. not just a mother you know? the scene where it isn’t just kdj who can help reconstruct her storie #s. there’s a lot he doesn’t know or understand about her and a lot she’s kept hidden from him Including the big thing. Hehe. That’s soon #Can u believe webtoon onlies don’t even really know kdj’s deal yet…

[sentientsky]

here, have a wlw smulder wip that i’ll probably never finish lol

#i kind of hate this but whatever I don’t want to deal with it anymore lmao #wlw smulder #smulder #x files art #the x files #x files #smulder fanart #my art #artists on tumblr #wlw

[shouldprobablybereading]

Hot take of the day is that I think sanderson not letting adolin murdering sadeas have any real consequences killed like 95% of interesting debate on the morality of it

#it serves some narrative point on some character arcs #but it could have been so much more interesting than sanderson made it #like right now it’s just kinda pointless #to talk about #nobody cares about sadeas so it’s not emotional #and the closest we can get to a philosophical debate is adolin and dalinar being kinda awkward about it #which again would have been interesting if anything actually came out of it #but it didn’t #now it’s just a question of whether you should be allowed to take the law into your own hands like that #which I think could be very interesting if we took a look at the power position adolin holds #as highprince and heir etc. #should he be allowed to make that type of decisions #sadeas was an asshole but how does this play into how he solves other conflicts #if not for his dad and cousin being the ones in charge would someone else be treated differently #this type of thing was exactly why people didn’t want to work with the alethi to begin with #what are the political implications #blah blah #even if saying ‘yeah it was right it was necessary and sadeas sucked’ #it would have been more interesting if there was anything to compare it to rather than just #‘well now we don’t have to deal with sadeas anymore that’s convenient’

[roseofcards90]

Every time I go on Instagram I see my older friends who are already out of college and living their best lives with their own places and then I’m reminded of how much I’m fucking trapped here

#this is like a cycle I cannot get out of #I can literally graduate right now if I just changed my major to anthropology I’m not even kidding #I don’t even want to deal with this anymore I should be done by now #this is insane #my friend graduated in theater and she doesn’t even use her degree 😭 SHE WORKS FOR THE IRS #IS HAVING A DEGREE ENOUGH LIKE COME ON #my posts

[crabussy]

not feeling very whimsyful today guys kind of wishing that I could exist with a life changing disorder without also bearing the brunt of people who for some reason have decided it is their job to try and hurt me and my friends because they don’t like the way my disorder manifests

#I don’t often make posts like this anymore for various reasons but today I just . need to get it out there #ask to tag #I just . holy shit. I’m already trying to cope with the symptoms of the disorder and people decide they’d like to make things more difficult #out of anyone you could have bullied you chose to bully someone who’s permanently dealing with identity confusion and dissociation #caused by fucking childhood trauma mind you #Im just Tired #I just want to have fun and tell my friends I love them and make things I like #but instead I have to read peoples attempts to belittle and harass my headmates because they won’t even try to understand #rant #vent #ableism #<- for people who have these filtered

[humanveil]

is it really christmas if you don’t cry at least twice and spend the whole day wanting to kill yourself

#cannot believe im saying this but i cannot fucking wait to go back to work #don’t want to deal w my family anymore i think i have had enough actually

[honeypleasejustkillme]

we all broke our rules for someone

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #actually borderline #bpd shitposting #bpd #bpd favorite person #bpd problems #bpd vent #bpd mood #my friends constantly tell me how many red flags he has and i’m just like ‶red is a great color″ #like idc what ur guys opinions are about him.. i love him more than you anyways #like be fucking fr #and they know that.. they just try to make me ‶stop being dumb″ and know i ‶deserve better″ but idc i want him #like yea he’s done some fucked up things to me but so has everyone else so like it’s not a big deal to me anymore.. at the time i was very #upset but now it’s okay.. i don’t mind him hurting me as long as he’s here #beloved.txt

[ongsasuns]

guys this is going to sound really heavy? insane? but. first of all going on a hiatus. i’ll put the rest in the tags because idk. it feels really weird doing this but also unfortunately it is very very necessary at this point.

#nini’s nonsense #so i don’t really want to disappear on anyone and just to be clear. i am fine there’s nothing wrong with me personally but. life got fucked #real real fast and that’s why i’m leaving but. i’m doing a bi-weekly check in because the thing is. the moment those stop. you can all #unfortunately assume i’m not on this earth anymore #HA i feel insane typing that out but it is the truth of life atm so yeah uhm #this sounds so heavy and i mean. i guess it is. but yeah i also don’t want to just randomly disappear forever so this seems like the best #thing to do? sorry idrk how to deal with this yet so yeah. #maybe if everything turns to normal once more i’ll come back but i don’t see that happening anytime soon. #but yeah maybe. for now. i love you all dearly forever and always <3 #does this need a trigger warning? idk lmk #anyways let me pin this. #also pls don’t worry too much! my life is just being. well my life i guess this had to happen at some point. #also see you sept 1st!! hopefully!!

[fyorina]

there is nothing more heartbreaking as an older sister for your younger brother to call you at 3:30 am drunk and crying because there’s too much pressure on him and too many high expectations that he feels like he’s not living up to and not being able to do anything about it 🥲

#like i’ve been there 🥲 i’m STILL there tbh 🥲 and it makes me so sad that he’s dealing with all of the same stuff that i have to #our parents have always expected so much out of us it’s so suffocating sometimes #and i just feel so shitty bc i don’t know how to help because you know ?? no one ever helped me like #i can tell him the things i wished ppl told me back then but i know it won’t help #not really #and he was crying because he has no one to talk to about it because his friends & frat brothers don’t get it and just blow it off #and he was like ‘i just didn’t know who else to call i just can’t keep it all in anymore’ 🥲 #like how am i not supposed to cry bro #begged me not to tell my parents or our younger sibling because he doesn’t want to disappoint them #i’m just so 🥲

[first-son-of-finwe]

That moment when you fully understand Pippin when he said “I don’t want to be in a battle, but sitting on the edge of one I can’t escape is even worse”

#out of silmarils #i’m slowly stopping contact with a narcissist who has been in my life for 20+ years #and who has been extremely toxic to me in ways that I’m just wrapping my head around #and I know at some point the rage is going to come for me #when she realises I’m no longer giving her what she wants #I’m prepared for it #but god sitting on the edge of it sucks #i’ve dealt with her rage so many times it’s beyond count #I don’t care anymore but still…nobody wants to have to deal with that

[shapeofmetal]

Me: hmm I did not care for that interaction. “Blocks” ahh that feels better. Now I can go about my day.

The person I just blocked: on public social media “And then they BLOCKED ME. IT WAS SO RUDE. IM ENTITLED TO TALK TO OREO AND NOW THAT THEY HAVE BLOCKED ME HOW AM I GOING TO TALK TO THEM??? I’m deprived. Oreo is problematic actually! 🤬🤬🤬

Me: wow I’m so glad blocking people means I don’t have to see what they are saying. I’m living my life now and moving on.

The person I blocked: MOM SOMEONE ON TWITTER BLOCKED ME CALL THEIR MOM AND MAKE THEM TALK TO ME.

#the fact that multiple people are going to assume I’m talking about them specifically says a lot #I’ve had to deal with pushy or rude people over the years #I’ve always just blocked and moved on #if someone else blocks me I see that as them saying they don’t want to interact and I respect that #I’m not entitled to their time or energy #that goes both ways #if I block someone I’m not obliged to talk to them anymore #that’s why blocking is an option #so many people online treat me like I owe them something #wether it’s art or a conversation or a friendship #I don’t owe people anything #I just wanna draw weird robots #I’m not going to name any names or call anyone out for being obnoxious #if people want to make public callouts denouncing me for the crime of blocking them that’s their problem #I will say though that what I have been shown of those posts is so cringe #I do not regret a single person I have blocked #if you end up blocked on the internet build a bridge and get over it.

[deus-ex-mona]

series i’m gatekeeping from my family vs series i’m ✨ok✨ with my family knowing i’m into:

#‘why do you gatekeep hw from your irls?’ well. the thing is. i just ✨don’t want to✨ #and. like. i’ve already led my family to believe that i bought bl manga when i was buying idol sengen at animate #so i think im already past the point of no return in that regard. so. um. yeah. #thank you village vanguard for the unexpected μ’s content in 2k24 you truly are yappa saikyou #i s w e a r falling back into my ll phase almost 10 whole years after i first got into it is unexpected tbh #compounded with the fact that i can now actually afford whatever im looking for. so. like. my wallet is in crisis lol #i had just reached my savings goal last month but now i’ve overspent bc i saw great deals on resold honoka-chan hoodies and i couldn’t help— #so now i have 2 identical hoodies lol. but i’ll keep one of them safe in its packaging bc im unwell like that ig #my merch whaling is out of control i s w e a r but my oshis are just too cute aaaaaaaaa #i probably should open another savings account instead… maybe that’d keep my spending under control… #b u t for now honoka-chan jersey im looking for you #tfw ur oshi is decently unpopular amongst the fans so hardly anyone resells her merch lmao #so ig the relatively fewer fellow fans she has are more dedicated to her than fans of other more popular characters lol #but at least her stuff (when resold) isn’t as overpriced as the actually popular members (birb and tomato) #so my wallet isn’t crying as hard as it could’ve been? ig? hunting for almost 10 year old merch is a pain fr though #either way. the grip idol series have on my wallet is truly insane #i wonder how many bags of chips i could’ve bought with the amount i’ve spent on hw and ll merch to date… #at least a thousand… i think. maybe even 2 thousand if my past gacha game whaling is taken into consideration… #…this is probably why it’s important to have a decent paying job ig. #oh well. at least i may be making b a n k this month with how much ot i’ve had to do this week so far… #i hope i won’t have to work till 5am again over the next 2 days… that had been a horrible experience. #help what am i even talking about anymore why am i having a life crisis right here and now u m. #anyways. dni if you dislike honoka-chan. thanks for coming to my crisis rant. see you when the last stage mv drops ig ok byeeeee

[somegoodomens]

I think Aziraphale and Crowley should be put in charge of this time finding the reincarnation of Jesus and nudging him to the right path to complete his mission on Earth, because maybe that’s the only oportunity they’ve got to once and for all stop all attempts of Heaven and Hell destroying the world.

Except that Jesus’ reincarnation happens to be a she, not a he.

Jessie would be a struggling college student who found a part time job at Nina’s coffee shop, lip and ears pierced, a couple of tattoos, a bit moody, androgynous haircut, with a bunch of daddy and mommy issues ever since she found out she was adopted. Oh, yes, and she also happens to be an atheist LMAO.

Like, just imagine Aziraphale’s face when he finds out that of all people on Earth, the one that’s the reincarnation of Jesus himself happens to be an atheist? He would collapse right then and there. Meanwhile Crowley simply grins approvingly in a “fuck the system” way.

#obsessed with this headcanon i will hold it near my heart forever #aziraphale and crowley now having to deal with this ‘alternative’ kid to save the world #but then they grow fond of jessie and jessie of them and they turn into a very odd and dysfunctional found family #but just as it happened before jessie as the reincarnation of jesus has to give her life for humanity and now there’s a conflict and #it all goes to shit when jessie finds out that was the plan all along and that aziraphale and crowley aren’t her friends they are just #using her but it’s not like that anymore bc aziraphale and crowley don’t want to do the mission anymore but the world’s safety is at risk #and it’s all a huge mess #also jessie and adam meeting and bonding over how their parents dumped them onto the world with a so called mission but couldn’t be bothered #with a phone call for not even one birthday the assholes LMAO #good omens #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #crowley #aziracrow #good omens 2 #my headcanons