#I have my problems with fear state and future state but the art is not one of them

[daemonmage]

Help my default way of drawing Bruce is the wet cat version of him from fear state and future state.

I’ve tried to draw cleaned up versions of Bruce but they just never look right. What do I do?! Literally if I try to draw Bruce this is what comes to mind.

#batman #bruce wayne #dc comics #dc #dan mora #carmine di giandomenico #darick robertson #I believe these are the artists for these pages. #god these are beautiful #I have my problems with fear state and future state but the art is not one of them #absolutely gorgeous

[ktempestbradford]

I have been on a Willy Wonkified journey today and I need y'all to come with me

It started so innocently. Scrolling Google News I come across this article on Ars Technica:

At first glance I thought what happened was parents saw AI-generated images of an event their kids were at and became concerned, then realized it was fake. The reality? Oh so much better.

On Saturday, event organizers shut down a Glasgow-based "Willy's Chocolate Experience" after customers complained that the unofficial Wonka-inspired event, which took place in a sparsely decorated venue, did not match the lush AI-generated images listed on its official website.... According to Sky News, police were called to the event, and "advice was given."

Thing is, the people who paid to go were obviously not expecting exactly this:

But I can see how they'd be a bit pissed upon arriving to this:

It gets worse.

"Tempest, how could it possibly--"

source of this video that also includes this charming description:

Made up a villain called The Unknown — 'an evil chocolate maker who lives in the walls'

There is already a meme.

Oh yes, the Wish.com Oompa Loompa:

Who has already done an interview!

As bad (and hilarious) as this all is, I got curious about the company that put on this event. Did they somehow overreach? Did the actors they hired back out at the last minute? (Or after they saw the script...) Oddly enough, it doesn't seem so!

Given what I found when poking around I'm legit surprised there was an event at all. Cuz this outfit seems to be 100% a scam.

The website for this specific event is here and it has many AI generated images on it, as stated. I don't think anyone who bought tickets looked very closely at these images, otherwise they might have been concerned about how much Catgacating their children would be exposed to.

Yes, Catgacating. You know, CATgacating!

I personally don't think anyone should serve exarserdray flavored lollipops in public spaces given how many people are allergic to it. And the sweet teats might not have been age appropriate.

Though the Twilight Tunnel looks pretty cool:

I'm not sure that Dim Tight Twdrding is safe. I've also been warned that Vivue Sounds are in that weird frequency range that makes you poop your pants upon hearing them.

Yes, Virginia, these folks used an AI image generator for everything on the website and used Chat GPT for some of the text! From the FAQ:

Q: I cannot go on the available days. Will you have more dates in the future? A: Should there be capacity when you arrive, then you will be able to enter without any problems. In the event that this is not the case, we may ask you to wait a bit.

Fear not, for this question is asked again a few lines down and the answer makes more sense.

Curious about the events company behind this disaster, I took myself over to the homepage of House of Illuminati and I was not disappointed.

I would 100% trust these people to plan my wedding.

This abomination of a website is a badly edited WordPress blog filled with AI art and just enough blog posts to make the casual viewer think that it's a legit business for about 0.0004 seconds.

Their attention to detail is stunning, from how they left up the default first post every WP blog gets to how they didn't bother changing the name on several images, thus revealing where they came from. Like this one:

With the lovely and compact filename "DALL·E-2024-01-30-09.50.54-Imagine-a-scene-where-fantasy-and-reality-merge-seamlessly.-In-the-foreground-a-grand-interactive-gala-is-taking-place-filled-with-elegant-guests-i.png"

"Concept.png" came from the same AI generator that gets text almost, but not quiiiiiite right:

There are a suspicious number of .webp images in the uploads, which makes me think they either stole them from other sites where AI "art" was uploaded or they didn't want to pay for the hi-res versions of some and just grabbed the preview image.

The real fun came when I noticed this filename: Before-and-After-Eventologists-Transformation-Edgbaston-Cricket-Ground-1024x1024-1.jpg and decided to do a Google image search. Friends, you will be shocked to hear that the image in question, found on this post touting how they can transform a boring warehouse into a fun event space, was stolen from this actual event planner.

Even better, this weirdly grainy image?

From a post that claims to be about the preparations for a "Willy Wonka" experience (we'll get to this in a minute), is not only NOT an actual image of anyone preparing anything for Illuminati's event, it is stolen from a YouTube thumbnail that's been chopped to remove the name of the company that actually made this. Here's the video.

If you actually read the blog posts they're all copypasta or some AI generated crap. To the point where this seems like not a real business at all. There's very specific business information at the bottom, but nothing else seems real.

As I said, I'm kinda surprised they put on an event at all. This has, "And then they ran off with all our money!" written all over it. I'm perplexed.

And also wondering when the copyright lawyers are gonna start calling, because...

This post explicitly says they're putting together a "Willy Wonka’s Chocolate Factory Experience" complete with golden tickets.

Somewhere along the line someone must have wised up, because the actual event was called "Willys Chocolate Experience" (note the lack of apostrophe) and the script they handed to the actors about 10 minutes before they were supposed to "perform" was about a "Willy McDuff" and his chocolate factory.

As I was going through this madness with friends in a chat, one pointed out that it took very little prompting to get the free Chat GPT to spit out an event description and such very similar to all this while avoiding copyrighted phrases. But he couldn't figure out where the McDuff came from since it wasn't the type of thing GPT would usually spit out...

Until he altered the prompt to include it would be happening in Glasgow, Scotland.

You cannot make this stuff up.

But truly, honestly, I do not even understand why they didn't take the money and run. Clearly this was all set up to be a scam. A lazy, AI generated scam.

Everything from the website to the event images to the copy to the "script" to the names of things was either stolen or AI generated (aka stolen). Hell, I'd be looking for some poor Japanese visitor wandering the streets of Glasgow, confused, after being jacked for his mascot costume.

HE LIVES IN THE WALLS, Y'ALL.

#long post #Willy Wonka #Wonka #Willy Wonka Experience #Willy Wonka Experience disaster #Willy's Chocolate Experience #Willys Chocolate Experience #THE UNKNOWN #Wish.com Oompa Loompa #House of Illuminati #AI #ai generated

[commsroom]

do you have any ideas for what you want for eiffel and hera post-canon?

yes, i do! the answer to that really depends on whether we're talking short term or long term, and what i want vs. what i think will happen is... well, i think they'll be okay. eventually. they'll get there.

i'm firmly in the camp that eiffel gets his memories back (fairly short-term in my mental timeline; given the most likely ways that he could get his memories back, it doesn't make much sense for him to be without them for more than a few months) and that hera gets a body (more complicated, and somewhat more long term), but my reasoning for why i think those things work narratively would be a long post in itself (and i've made multiple posts about those topics already) so i won't get into the why here. just, i think it happens.

the note the finale ends on definitely implies eiffel, hera, and minkowski intend to stick together on earth, and i think minkowski feels a lot of responsibility for them, given everything. so i think they live with her, for the foreseeable future. eiffel's not good at holding down a job, and hera... i think it's important that she gets a chance to try things without fear of failure and to separate her self worth from productivity. eiffel and hera are meant to be minkowski's slacker roommates. hera should be creating unmarketable art.

and the issue of where they live will come up pretty quickly, i think - hera doesn't have any particular attachment to anywhere, except for a desire to see the ocean, but mobility might be a problem. minkowski is a career military woman who's moved around a lot, but her husband worked in DC, so presumably they lived in... probably maryland or virginia? before she accepted the job, and that's a complicating factor if she's choosing who to prioritize. i think eiffel would be pretty adamant about staying in texas so he's at least in the same state as his daughter, even if he can't see her. and as much as i would like for eiffel to be able to be a part of her life again, because i know how much he wants that... i don't think it's very likely. at least not any time soon. and he won't handle that well.

speaking about post-canon wolf 359, i don't tend to get that into potential legal / media circuit stuff because... frankly, i don't think it's that important to what the show is about. i'm sure it will be a scandal, but lots and lots of space-travel-related scandals are going on in that world, and cutter and pryce were very intentionally not the public faces of goddard futuristics. it'll pass. that said, the aspect of that i am interested in is legal personhood - that's going to be a hurdle for hera to be able to live her life, and i think eiffel will worry - even if it isn't totally rational - about whether he'll be able to stay out of prison once no longer legally dead, not knowing exactly what the terms of cutter's arrangement were. being an ex-convict is going to complicate some facets of his life regardless.

there's just a lot of stuff that being on earth is going to bring up for them. and i think they'll be there for each other, obviously - one of the things i like most about their relationship is how much they're able to be a refuge for each other in some objectively horrible situations - but they're both pretty insecure people who feel like everyone is bound to replace them, and earth is going to give hera some serious separation anxiety while she's bound to one location and the others aren't, and those are things they're going to have to work through.

as for what i want for them... well. i think eiffel will give hera a 'promise ring' with a kind of jokey but good natured promise that one day she'll be able to wear it. and she does! but neither of them are sure if that counts as a proposal in retrospect and they dance around it for a while. they get married eventually, and - against her better judgment - minkowski agrees to be both eiffel's best man and hera's maid of honor. and ends up taking on way too much of the wedding planning, even though she said she wouldn't, because they're both super lax about it and it starts stressing her out. she tries to delegate to lovelace, but lovelace just thinks it's all really funny. eiffel gets married in a novelty tuxedo tee and minkowski apologizes to hera, but hera knows the type of guy she's marrying (and isn't concerned about tradition anyway) so it doesn't bother her.

#i'm so sorry this took me literally a month to reply to #it's a great question thank you for asking me. i've just been really sad. #i might've had a better answer if i was less sad but i hope this is okay regardless. #asks

[cuppykin]

So my post before I left was vague, let me tell you guys what's up in more detail

This will be very long, and not very pleasant to read, so if you want some news related to how I'm going to post, it'll be here: I probably won't go back to regular posting for a long time and instead just post art/writing here that I think you guys would like to see, but for more details, read below

If you still want to reach me off social media, my Discord username is still Cuppykin. You're free to show me cool stuff you find on the internet in my DMs

I am currently seeking therapy at the moment, and the reason why I can't stay on social media much anymore is because I was at a breaking point, and with the elections coming around in the US, i have a lotta fears

Avoiding my fears by not looking at the internet is impossible, but I'm afraid of a lot of things. And seeing my fear shared by many I thought would be comforting, but instead its stopped me from enjoying anything I do in my day to day without thoughts of something bad happening to me because of the things I love. I'm a queer black artist who draws and writes nsfw content and has verbalized my distaste for the state of the US and the politicians who run it, so you can imagine why I'm scared the way I am

But even then, lately every time I look at social media I just scroll until I see something that upsets me, and then I continue and repeat. And that's extended into other stuff. Looking at things until I see something that upsets me, but it seems I reached a breaking point because when i DO see something thats a sensitive topic for me, I start to break down and cant function. Even as I type this I'm still having bad thoughts, most about things that COULD happen in the future but aren't here now and whether or not I should just end my life before things get too bad.

I've been extremely unhappy. At my worst, I couldn't do anything at all and would just. Sit, and think about dying or something to avoid any current or future problems. It's been so so hard, and I don't know when it's going to get better. I wanna be able to do the things I love again without fear and paranoia stopping me, but it's hard.

But the good news is I'm trying. I don't want to be like this for long, and that starts by actually taking steps to improve.

I'm so sorry that this came out of nowhere. I thought I could handle it, but at this current moment I'm at an all time low and I'm trying desperately to find hope in my life for a bright future. Not just for myself, but for most people on this rock we call Earth. I just want to be happy and healthy, and have the people i love AND the people I hate also be happy and healthy. I'm just very tired, and can only hope for better times

#update #is what ill tag this with

[amazeingartist]

ok art’s not working rn but I still wanna share ghostsoap in my zombie au here too after seeing a bunch of the cod zombies stuff on twitter (I’m very autistic about zombie and since tumblr doesn’t really have a limit y’all will get more info. depression works hard, but autism works harder /j)

anyway tags for any of y’all who don’t vibe with this type of content

CW: zombies, so cannibalism, body horror (mutation based zombies they’re not the rotting kind), gore mentions, a little bit of death (not proper mcd)

(Will update if I’ve missed a tag)

AU CONTEXT:

SO the timeline is set far into the future of the zombie apocalypse where anything zombie related is very normal and apart of everyday life with relics and stories to the old word. Humanity is kinda thriving, there’s technology, medicine, secure food sources, water, functional cities & towns, overall the quality of life is pretty good, it’s a lil sci-fiy but not overly so.

The specific zombie strain to is a mutation based one, so there’s different zombie types and it affects all living things; herbivores are the only type of infected that’s non-aggressive unless provoked, while all carnivorous/predatory animals and certain omnivores are always hostile. Regardless of aggression, the disease can be easily transmitted via blood, bites, scratches, ingestion of contaminated products, and saliva depending on the zombie type. (fun fact—zombie cows are a thing and are used to deter attacks on living/healthy livestock)

GHOAP TIME

Anyway, world building context done (for now), Ghost & Soap are partners in “community security”, meaning they are to deal with threats to the livelihood/safety of people. They mostly work with towns since towns have less means to protect themselves—cities have fences and walls which are patrolled whereas towns outside a city might only have a simple fence and a couple zombie cows—from the hordes, raiders or particularly bothersome zombie types, while occasionally doing specialised work in the cities.

Ghost is blight, a humanoid zombie that has retained their human consciousness despite turning, while Soap is a delayed, a immune human who’s blood can used to suppress the affects of infection for via regular prescribed shots. Both are incredibly rare btw, (for both human and zombie) and are literally an ideal working pair because blight’s are highly infectious to the point where their drool is a safety hazard (one of the reasons they’re muzzled), but since Soap’s immune there’s no risk. Blight’s are also susceptible to unexpectedly going feral which Soap prevents by keeping Ghost in touch with his humanity; literally Soap’s lack of fear of Ghost is what helps them be a perfect working pair (that and Ghost genuinely enjoying Soap’s company).

So yeah, they patrol for raiders and redirect any wandering corpses frequently, with the occasionally job from some regular folk that’s too dangerous to do themselves—just all things that genuinely help people keep and feel safe.

Unfortunately for Soap, when dealing with zombies he can’t hide or mask himself as easy a regular person, a problem Ghost, unless displaying aggression, doesn’t have on account of being an actual zombie. Soap does abuse his immunity though, throwing himself in front of others to act as a meat shield and protect them from infection. Cause of that though his body is littered in scars of bite and scratch marks (zombies that harm Soap usually don’t exist for much longer if Ghost’s around)

As a blight, Ghost’s mutated state is centred around his human base but has elements of other zombie types; from pale and dark veiny skin, his jaw and throat are split into mandibles which Ghost needs a custom compression mask to be able talk, his arms have exposed boney spines/blades that are both retractable and can be used as projectiles (throwing knife equivalent), his nails are basically claws + are also somewhat retractable, and over certain parts of Ghost’s body are have bone plating as armour. It’s unclear the exact limit of Ghost’s capabilities as it’s near impossible to test him as he hates doctors/labs, (the reason he’ll consistently stepping into a lab for is for a blood transfusion/feed).

[^^^may be updated as I think more about this au]

Little Ghoap moment, but Soap will help Ghost in his upkeep of himself by either filing down Ghost’s claws or brushing the rows and rows of sharp teeth for any bits of stuck flesh and to keep an excess buildup of bacteria from forming. It’s literally something only Soap can do, both cause he’s immune and because Ghost only feels comfortable letting Soap help. It’s not an process that should take very long, but Soap is meticulously and after holding Ghost’s mandibles awkwardly extended for some time, he’ll gently massage the muscles; despite the horror it’s actually a pretty sweet gesture. When they’re off duty Soap’ll unlock Ghost’s muzzle and massage his face after being compressed for a couple days too (Soap’s one of the few people with the authority to unlock Ghost’s muzzle)

and uh yeah. I think that the end of that for now, hope it’s enjoyable. I’m combing my current hyperfixation with an idea/project I’ve been working on for years and is quite dear to me so there’s a lot of information to share lmao. feel free to ask any questions if there are any, preferably via the asks but comments are fine too (just I can tag asks together)

#ghostsoap #soapghost #simon ghost riley #soap mactavish #ghost x soap #cod mw22 #zombie #zombie au #zombie apocolypse au #body horror #implied cannibalism #implied mcd #gore mention #ghoap

[viviennelamb]

"What will you do if you don't have friends, a relationship or a community when times get rough?"

The problem with this way of thinking is the amount of effort I have to pour into a black hole, for an undisclosed amount of time, out of fear. Not out of love or genuine connection. Today, almost every relationship is created out of fear or lack therefore it is a counterfeit connection. I have to invest hours per day/week talking to somebody about nothing so I have a HOPE that they will bail me out one day. I'd rather use that time to practice the art of remaining in a positive state of pure consciousness; commit to the Great Work of restructuring my mental patterns so I can create what I want at the moment I need it. To depend on somebody, who isn't even a real person but an amalgamation of identities that they think we share, is Soul-death. In other words, I don't plan on my life imploding nor will I use somebody else's life as an example of what could happen to me. If I must engage in useless pondering, I will always use constructive examples, not destructive ones. All I can do is remain in the present moment and take each minute at a time and I will always choose my happiness right now over a past trauma or future anxiety.

#ego death #sovereignty #spirituality #consciousness

[the12thnightproject]

@echoes-in-the-forest asked

I hope I'm not too late in sending this letter to you both. But I have a problem and I desperately need your advice. There's this boorish man that keeps coming around my town. He makes me so mad and always calls me names, and no - they're not pet names either. I wish he would stay away, but I also can't stop thinking about him. Sometimes he does things that are a little cute and surprisingly nice? And deep down, I think he might actually be caring and considerate (although in a roundabout confusing way). I once saw him sampling different desserts in order to decide which one was the best to purchase for someone. Maybe his dad or older brother? And to top it off, I discovered that he's my bestie's bestie. So I don't think I'll really be able to get away from him, but I also don't know how to act around him either. What should I do? Hope all is well. It's been pretty stormy lately. Yours truly, Frustrated Female

Dear F.F.

Angel, I will have a talk with him.

[Lord Shingen, how do you know who to have a long talk with? Do you know the letter writer? - Yuki]

A… very long talk with him.

Perhaps I am revealing a state secret here, but some men are not skilled in verbal communication. Let me amend that… so people are less able to speak with others, be it because they are shy, or because they are not able to put their inner life into words, or… yes, in some cases, they are too rude to care how they come across.

I very much suspect that your boorish man is in the second category. But fear not. When you run across people like this, rather than listen to what they say, watch what they do. It’s clear that you have already been watching, because you’ve pointed out that this man’s actions are “cute” and “nice” and that you believe that deep down he is caring and considerate. Furthermore, he’s attracted the friendship of someone that you like and respect, and I imagine your friend would not be friends with them if they were not a worthwhile person.

[Wait a minute. “Bestie” “Boorish” …? This sounds rather familiar. - ModeratelyAwesomeNinja]

[Keep up, Sasuke - Yoshimoto]

[Apparently, more than one long talk is in my future - Tiger of Kai]

Since you appear to have given him a lot of thought, I suspect that you like this man more than you’re willing to admit. How to act around him? This man will need a lot of patience. First he might not understand what is going on inside of him, and when he does understand, he might not know what to do. Your verbal interactions could potentially get worse before they get better. Just keep in mind that actions very much speak louder than words. 

Your actions will speak to him louder than words too. If you behave in a kind and considerate manner to those around you, if you champion those who need help, if you are a generous friend… all of that will be valued by this man, far more than what you say to him. 

As for the storm? Well, a little bit of teasing and a friendly argument is generally rather harmless as long as you avoid being purposefully hurtful. And, Angel, the best part of fighting… is making up later, as emotion, even anger and teasing, can bring people closer together.

[Lord Shingen, I have a bad feeling about this. - Yuki]

Meanwhile, I’ll begin a lecture series for an audience of young men who very much need to hear it.

Best of Luck,

Tiger of Kai

This is not all that Art of Love has to offer. Check out @lorei-writes for the God GOOD of War’s answer to your question.

#art of love #ikemen sengoku #fanfic #ikesen shingen #ikesen yukimura #ikesen sasuke #ikesen yoshimoto

[kai-anderson-whore]

He's a cult leader (part 8) (kai Anderson x fem reader)

Summary:y/n moved back to Michigan after her college degree in music where she reunites with an old lover kai Anderson

Warnings: murder, mass shooting, mentions of suicide

A/n: for the people who sent requests I apologise it's taken a while to write them I have been busy with college hopefully have one or two up tomorrow 😊

Part 7 here

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"Everyone got everything ready?" You asked shoving your black boots on your feet, "yes" everyone replied with their masks on, you shoved your clown mask under you arm as kai went over everything one last time.

"We take out Sally and if anyone else is in there they meet the same fate" he said winter and Meadow already doing their part of the plan, leaving the rest on their merry way.

The mask now over your head hopping into the van Harrison driving to Sally's house, you and kai sat together masks now off, you were humming a tune kai didn't recall, "what songs that?" He asked, he always loved your passion for music even if you never wanted to be famous it was an outlet for you something to teach the kids you worked with.

"It's something I'm sort of working on not quite finished yet" you chuckled lightly, you felt like charles manson when kai would have you sing your songs to the cult them now memorising all the words, you didn't necessarily hate it glad they actually liked the shitty songs you called them.

"It will be great your really talented" he said something you heard him say to Meadow when she showed him her art work, you gave him a small smile his hand on your thigh, "we're almost there" Harrison called everyone putting their masks on including you.

"Ready baby?" Kai asked his voice muffled from his mask, "Let's do this" you replied as the van came to a halt, one by one you all stepped out and invaded the home of kai's opponent.

Entering the home greeted with Sally holding a gun, watching us as she pointed the gun, "please one of you assholes make a move, I'm desperate to make an example of someone" she said before someone came up behind her taking the gun off her holding her mouth closed knocking her to the ground.

Kai stood above her removing his mask, you watched him as he talked "you know what the problem is with you over educated elites?".

"You overestimate your ability to control the world" "killing me isn't going to stop the march of progress" Sally stated on the ground she wasn't in fear well visibly anyway.

"Maybe but it still going to feel so fucking good" kai said looking down at her "this is a spazim in democracy your nothing but a passing fever" she yelled at kai he just grinned evilly at her.

"And your the last of the intellectuals"

"Knowing stuff has no value anymore not when the answer is sitting in my back pocket or sitting on my desk" he said walking away you held keffler down as he went over to her laptop.

"The youth has it figured out the future will be filled with beautiful idiots who just want to feel" he continues looking at the screen of Sally's laptop.

"Facebook?" He asked now his attention on the screen, "you are old" he stated clicking on god knows what, "can I please kill her" you said now annoyed at her wriggling under you, "no, no y/n too sloppy we have to send a message with Sally that the world she knows is dead" kai said now making a Facebook status on Sally's unwilling behalf.

He clicked on the keypad as he voiced what he was typing on Facebook "dear followers and friends, tonight after many long nights of careful thinking, I have come to realise something that the truths we have always held to be self evident, all men are created equal, knowledge is power, ask not what your country can do for you but what you can do for your country, they are all bullshit the future will be guided by self interest, self promotion and narcissism, and that is a future I can not stand and so this is my suicide note" kai said finishing off the status.

"NO, NO no please" Sally begged now in full fear of her life "already getting some likes" kai shrugged nonchalant taking a swig of whatever Sally had in her mug, "nobody going to believe that" Sally said trying to get out of yours and the others grasp, "mhmm of course they will" kai said turning around to us, "it's on Facebook".

"No, no" Sally tried to get out the grasp she was under kai walked over to her, gun in hand, he looked over to you as he placed the barrel of the gun on her chest, "wanna help?" He asked with a smirk you finger on top of his on the trigger as you pulled killing Sally keffler.

You felt nothing now used to doing this with kai, you knew you hated it but did nothing too lovesick to stop that was kai's disease making his followers that loyal it's like their lovesick ivy went off to search the house, you got off keffler kai pulling your mask off grabbing you smashing his lips onto yours infront of everyone, his tongue entering your mouth in the rough make out session.

Pulling away for air you were flustered as kai wiped down anything he touched just incase, you found the blunts that were laying on the table taking them for yourself, "no y/n no drugs" kai said, you let out a huff "it's just one kai won't hurt" you said taking one anyway not listening to him.

Putting your mask back on making sure you all were unseen as you hopped in the van going back home, again sat beside kai his eyes never left you as you talked with beverly hope, about something music related, he saw the passion in your eyes as you talked about something you loved, they same way they would light up in college when you got a chance to talk about music especially your favourite artists.

"You should play tonight y/n" Gary chimed in the conversation, "Yeah why not" you chuckled glancing over at kai who smiled down at you, you felt butterfly's in your stomach everytime kai looked at you like that with that glimmer in his eyes, you were so love sick it was unbelievable.

Kai felt the same he never wanted anything or anyone to hurt you, he wanted to spend the last of his days with you even all those years ago he felt like that and still does.

...

The day of Meadows attempt to shoot kai rolls along you dreaded it you couldn't bear to see kai in a hospital again, you stood in the crowd watching kai speak to the crowd the anxiety coursing through your body shaky hands trembling lip waiting on the dreaded moment.

You couldn't even hear what kai was talking about, you head spinning then, BANG, a gunshot fired hitting a woman close by you in the head, then straight at kai's thigh, you screamed in fear running up to kai as Meadow shot away.

Ally was screaming for Meadow to stop, on the ground you holding kai sobbing your eyes out you were scared for the first time in a long time you showed your fear not caring if you were weak, you didn't know what happened next all you saw was Meadow laying dead on the ground ally swarmed by police and an ambulance coming over to you and kai.

"Please get him to the hospital" you cried out the ambulance taking kai in the back of the vehicle, you stayed by his side panicking, you didn't Say anything on the ride to the hospital your eyes fixed on kai as the paramedics checked him over.

It all was happening too fast till it felt like it went on for years in the hospital, kai was in surgery you sat in the waiting room your leg bounced in anticipation waiting on the doctor giving you an update you had called winter telling her what happened even though she knew but giving her an update whenever you got one.

"Y/n y/l/n" a doctor said coming towards you, "how is he doctor will he be okay?" you asked standing up, "he'll be fine he'll need walking sticks for a while he's lucky he could have not been able to walk with that leg again" the doctor said "can i see him?" You asked the doctor sighed "not right now he's in rest once he wakes up and we do a few more checks on him then yes you can see him" you thanked the doctor leaving them to go back to what they were doing.

'Come on winter' you thought to yourself your leg bounced in anxiety you wanted to see kai even though you were told he's fine you still couldn't help but think he's not, how could you not a few hours ago he was shot in the leg.

The doors burst open revealing winter in panic, "y/n how is he is he okay" she asked frantically you placed your hands on her shoulders in attempt to calm winter down but it didn't help, "he's fine he'll need to use a walking stick for a while his leg will be in a cast he's lucky" you reported "I'll kill him with these bright ideas what was he playing at y/n what if she missed and killed him" winter broke down crying you hugged her letting all her emotions fall.

You were crying too, "I know win I wish he wasn't like this but the bittersweet part of it is that he's fine we can see him soon they want to do more checks on him once he's awake" you sighed wiping winters tears away, "you know y/n your like the sister I never had kai's really lucky to have you, you bring out the old him even for a second but I see it in his eyes when your around it's like I have my brother back" she smiled sadly.

"Maybe I just wish he was fully like the old kai but maybe one day if he isn't dead or in prison" you sobbed wiping your tears now, your head was going 100 miles an hour you felt dizzy needing to sit down.

"Hey we'll be okay hopefully there's no more crazy plan's he's nearly got what he wants" winter said as you looked blankly at the wall, with glassy eyes, "I don't think so winter" you sighed.

#american horror story #evan peters #james patrick march #kit walker #tate langdon #ahs asylum #evan peters x reader #jimmy darling #kai anderson x reader #kai anderson #kyle spencer #austin sommers #peter maximoff #evan peters x y/n #evan peters fanfic #evan peters smut #evan peters fanfiction #evan peters fluff #evan peters icons #evan peters imagine #ahs coven #ahs cult #ahs murder house #ahs hotel #ahs fandom #ahs 1984 #ahs #ahs apocalypse #ahs double feature #ahs freakshow

[sadruru]

Attention: blood !(as far as possible)

The hard fight is over. With great difficulty the faithful companions managed to reach the commander's consciousness.

Scarlet eyes demanded continuation. Now it was no longer clear whose blood colored the tiefling red - her or the enemies. There was a distinct metallic taste in her mouth. She smiled as if her own wounds and protruding arrows didn't bother her in the least. Such bloodthirstiness and fearlessness scared the people around her every time. How many times had it happened like this?

Taking a breath, the girl brought her thoughts to order, but the achingly familiar call of demon blood still rumbled in Melissa's head.

Kill. Destroy. More blood.

I was angry recently, so I drew this quite quickly. I often draw something depending on my mood. A little fact: In a state of rage (similar to berserk), Melissa feels no fear or pain. It's only after the battle that her wounds make themselves known as she calms down. She doesn't know who her ancestor was or why she was born this way, but she is definitely the Demon-Spawn.

... Maybe later I'll add a art of Melissa and Woljif sleeping sweetly. There's not much to translate, just normal everyday life in Drezen. But I really don't know… ///👀///👉👈

A little bit about myself: I'll be participating in a Pathfinder: Wrath of the Righteous board game in the near future (I was dragged in there, uh... ) If all goes well, I'll be drawing moments from the game. I wanted to try to play Melissa (and die from my cringe), but turned out to be impossible. Our Game-Master explained that the problem was in the backstory. This also prompted me to add something for her lore in the computer game. So... In a way, I'll be drawing an alternate ending for Melissa later. When I have more time. In the board game, she is officially DEAD. And in all other versions, for that matter. It's incredibly frustrating for me. I don't want to think about it. But that's the way it has to be.

Create an even more chaotic tiefling who likes to set things on fire: "LET'S BLOW UP DREZEN!... What do you mean when you say it should be left intact?🗿🗿🗿"

#pathfinder: wrath of the righteous #melissa #wotr commander #oc #pathfinder wotr

[wineaunt420]

Tw// loong ass Vent post

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hope none of my irls find any of my accounts god forbid my twitter because I use tumblr to be unforgivable adhd and I use twitter to talk about and connect with my mental health struggles. But it's so twisted how being online is the easiest way for me to talk about my interests because I don't feel the sinking feeling of dread that I would if I were to talk about my hyperfixations and not be reciprocated in my connection with these shows. Because I genuinely feel like I will explode sometimes because of my overwhelming thoughts and the only way I can stop that feeling is to share my thoughts whether they are are seen or not. I still get anxiety connecting with people online but it's significantly less because there isn't that full face to face connection

I have this burning desire to be seen and loved for my work and my ideas but this deep fear of being seen, noticed and perceived. I want to share my thoughts and feelings all the time to everyone but people usually end up taking advantage of it. And I'm scared that I won't make it in the future because of my struggles with depression and self harm and the fear of growing up. I'm afraid I won't make a significant impact to the world with my name, I feel the need to be seen but my struggles prevent that. That's why I want to br an actor.

But I'm afraid I won't make it

I'm afraid it will all go wrong and because I'm not a child anymore I will have to be the one to fix it instead of someone older than me. I'm never going to be a child again and it's weird for me now to have such a childish love for kids shows and games, it's weird for me to collect toys of all my favourite characters and feel such strong connections with them.

I used to hide all my toys whenever an argument would break out in the house because I would be afraid that they would be broken In order to hurt me. I've always feared people judging me for my interest but I find so much comfort in them and putting myself in their worlds and building myself an interesting life in those shows and games, which I've realised was just an escapism coping mechanism. But I want to share these worlds that I've built in my head and share how beautiful they are.

I've always felt out of place for not being normal but I've always felt comfortably abnormal on the Internet and that's why I choose to share my stories here so that I can be seen through them. It is fucking weird that I genuinely want connection with fictional characters but it stops me from falling back on my unhealthy coping mechanisms, so I do it. But I do it here so I can't be perceived. So my unusual state and problems can't be linked towards a face. Saying all this I'll probably still end up doing a face reveal lol.

My adhd is both a blessing and a curse that flourishes here and is soul crushing in real life

My depression and issues with self harm is just a fucking draining curse no matter where I am. I wish therapy wasn't so fucking expensive and I wish I could share my art and thoughts with more people

#putting this here because no one is probably gonna see it #but I have a burning desire to be seen #i should have done English instead of psychology lol

[dxmoness]

♡ · IF YOU THINK THAT YOU CAN HIDE · ♡

⁺ 　　 ﹒　 　warning ; may contain disturbing themes . viewer discretion may be advised . ♡　　 ﹒　 　 ⁺

☆◞ information about ﹕ death ⌕﹒c. tsuki ﹔the thorned mistress ?! ♡

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐏𝐇𝐘𝐒𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐔𝐊𝐄. in which, we speak about his physical appearance and etc.

★ THE DUKE'S KNOWN AS THE FOLLOWING;

⬦ CESARE AZAZEL TSUKI

⬦ DEATH

⬦ DUKE TSUKI

⬦ THE LEADER OF CLAN TSUKI

★ BASIC KNOWLEDGE;

⬦ AGE — 32

⬦ SEX — MALE.

⬦ BIRTHDAY — APRIL 6.

⬦ SEXUAL ORIENTATION — STRAIGHT.

⬦ NOBLE TITLE — DUKE.

⬦ LANGUAGE / ETHNICITY — JAPANESE , FRENCH.

⬦ RELATIONSHIP STATUS — TAKEN.

★ THE APPEARANCE;

✿ HAIR COLOUR, cesare has blonde hair inherited from his father's.

cesare has grey eyes that seem lifeless most times, EYE COLOUR ✿

✿ SKIN COLOUR, he has a pale colour as skin, due of course to the fact that he's born and killed after birth as a darkling.

cesare has a unnoticeably muscular body that he normally hides from everyone, BODY BUILD. ✿

✿ SCARS, cesare has three scars. one on his arm from, another on his neck, and lastly one that starts from his shoulder and moved across until his hip.

he isn't exactly fond of accessories, but if he were to wear any he'd have a ring or three on his fingers, ACCESSORIES. ✿

✿ CLOTHING STYLE, he is more into formal than casual. he doesn't understand the use of casual attire if you are noble, and the colour of his clothing would be the boring choices of grey and black.

cesare has a deep and husky voice, but one that may terrify you at first, VOICE. ✿

✿ HEIGHT, he is a 5'10. quite tall, but also on the short side when comparing to the other males of Dessécher.

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐋 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐆𝐆𝐋𝐄𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐔𝐊𝐄. . . the duke's struggles mentally as well as his backstory.

✿ BACKSTORY, cesare being born a firstborn and the future heir of the tsuki family, he was born with huge expectations. but when one thing leads to another and that family breaks. his father attempts to kill him and his siblings in hopes to save his mother and cesare ends up killing him. a murderer at 13. he likes to think himself fortunate to live, but even so he finds himself in a depression and blames it on others. he often fights with brothers and often leads away to controversial happenings. an example would be like sorana's impregnation.

✿ MENTAL HEALTH, his mental health is anything but good. In fact, it's deteriorating. He often shies away from it under the pretense of being ‘okay’, when in fact he's far from it.

✿ EMOTIONS OR LOGIC?, logic. he does not dwell in emotions.

✿ LIKES, nothing to be honest. perhaps torturous details and methods. as well as the idea of ruling over the empire, but anything out of the ‘ordinary’ spectrum he didn't have any interest. (sorana: shh don't say i told you, but he likes cookies and cuddle sessions hehe~)

✿ DISLIKES, everything and everyone.

✿ FEARS, cesare has multiple fears. demons, being brought to the hospital, the deities, and quite ironical, death itself.

if cesare was described in the art of music what would be his songs (warning; taylor swift lmao) , SONGS. ✿

⁺ 　　 ﹒　 　thank you for reading , until next time ♡　　 ﹒　 　 ⁺

☆◞ copyright﹕ dxmoness. do not copy or translate my work ! ⌕﹒disclaimer﹔i do not write for characters that i own (unless stated). the character ‘cesare tsuki’ is mine. do not use or claim as yours !

₊˚ taglist ⌗﹕@bertry3 × @lombxrdi × @histxricaldrama × @achy-boo × @thenomadicphoenix ×. . .

#• . the thorned mistress · info!

[snailvibes]

how is she when she reaches being an adult? she doesn't look very happy in the art

RAD I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH THANK YOU FOR THE EXCUSE TO TALK ABOUT ADULT MAYA OUTSIDE OF MY FRIEND’S DMS FOR ONCE LMAOO

Ended up being long cus I ended up just going into a sorta summarized detail about all of Maya’s “adult moving out” storyline so putting it in a cut

//TW for mention of suicide + mention of suicide attempt

So a lot of this has actually been being workshopped for a LONGGG time and still is subject to change but as of now here’s the adult Maya lore that’s lead to her looking like. That. In the undertale mirror quote trend art lol

So, in the future this kinda starts with Maya moving out of living with Marie a lot earlier than she wanted to/was ready for, which was for a handful of reasons, mainly being A) Lucky and Ashley were moving out and talked to Maya about joining them in the place they found together and Maya felt bad about the idea of saying no to that, and also she felt bad still relying on Marie so much even as an early adult now and didn’t want to get in the way of Marie having space to do her own things now and have room physically and emotionally for any new relationships or life choices she wanted to make.

(Which side note Maya very much should have communicated to her partners all this and that this wasn’t something she was ready for, especially since this stage in their relationship is built on a lot of trust, but it was a mix of the Marie stuff and feeling like she’d be left behind if everyone else in her life was ready to quote on quote start “acting like adults” and she wasn’t which kept her shoving her own feelings aside. Not an excuse just an explanation for clarification sake)

This was rough already, but then combined with the fact that (lore drop; Maya as an adult gets a job working with the table turf company to work on the art team fun fact!) Maya already had been taking a lot more days off from her job than what the company was comfortable with for her mental health and this situation was making that a bit worse, she gets fired which even more so decreases her mental stability. Which is not helped even even MORE so with how she’s isolating herself from her mom a bit in an attempt to be more independent and act like an adult and show she doesn’t need to keep relying on her.

It eventually gets so bad that she sorta just breaks one night and. This part is the reasoning for the trigger warning lol. Ashley and Lucky find her in the kitchen before she can go through with it though and in the morning talk to her and make her call Marie who convinces her to go home so she can get Maya some help and support, which leads to Maya getting some therapy sessions in (as of Splat3 she started attending therapy regularly but by this point in her early adult life only did sessions when needed instead), Marie watching over her, and eventually Maya being able to talk to her mom about her bottled up emotions and fears to which Marie reassures her that she’s allowed to still rely on her and not force herself through stuff like this until she’s ready and it’s okay to not “grow up” yet, to which then leads to the more permanent for a long time arrangement of Maya essentially moving back home but still staying at her partner’s place now and then as a sorta second home. (Plus, Marie missed her daughter and having her home as much as Maya missed her and wanted to stay home because Marie need’s Maya as much as Maya needs her and I could go into a full on essay about that I love them sm)

ANYWAYS the art is more so in that era of her mental state being god awful because of everything and before she’s able to go home and get help for her problems

#ty for the ask! #Maya is a heavily traumatized kid with lasting PTSD there ain’t no way she’s gonna be a functioning adult anytime soon LMAO #didn’t go into detail about it but Ashley and Lucky are both fine with the new arrangement cus they just want their girlfriend to be okay #plus they relate cus Ashley and esp Lucky have their own issues with missing living at home and needing their parents still #and Maya getting her and support for those feelings ends up giving them similar courage to face their own feelings too #agent 4

[unhappytimeleaper]

Hello, can I request Shu × reader from that yandere alphabet prompt, um, oh can you write it using Shu's name the letter S, H, U and have a great day.

Original request from anonymous

Word Count: 3,100+

Shu is awful. I love him. One of my top ten characters. Anyway yeah, I’m still taking request for the yandere alphabet [mainly for enstars but other fandoms are fine too]. Anyway, as a note, I won’t specify what job ‘mc’ for this is working but it’s meant to imply they are apart of staff in some way. If you want to imagine them in the place of Anzu, you can, but I don’t want to intend it to be that’s the only way. I personally prefer the idea that you work along side Anzu as a friend/co-worker for a few different reasons, but if you don’t want that just see it as you wish since it’s never clarified.

Also, I’m not sure if they are comfortable with me mentioning them by name but I wanna thank my friend for encouraging and reading this beforehand. You know who you are.

Itsuki Shu; unedited. Gender neutral reader.

Warnings; yandere content, isolation, stalking, and slight violence.

This blog is 17+ please have your age in your bio or tagged; any ageless blog and below the age asked for will be blocked at the end of the week.

Stigma: What brought about this side of them?

The general answer is childhood. Pretty much, all of his issues extend from being rooted in his childhood and the way he was treated by his parents, kids his age, and later on as a creator. It’s also deeply ingrained in his sense of superiority and creating the perfect image of art. More than that, it’s Shu’s way of filling the loneliness and fears he experiences, because despite his arrogant and harsh nature, Shu seems to be deeply haunted by his past. We also know by the way he speaks to Nito and sometimes Mika there is a comfortability in seeing people as possessions, it’s a way of securing the fantasy of how his life is in his mind into reality which eventually translates into his relationships.

Now more into specifics. What brought this onto you and not someone else. To start, it really is a piece of separating his life into different parts. After the downfall of Valkyrie and Shu having to pick up the pieces of his mental state, he learned to let go of those in the group to be human. To be their own people, but this also is what taught him how to be better in the sense of never having to feel this level of loss again. I explain it a little more below, but being with Shu doesn’t come fast, rather gaining the trust and friendship of Shu takes a long time. You chose to stick by Shu’s side and often by his terms the entire time. You seeked to understand him and often do things his way. This isn’t to say he controls you entirely during your friendship; it’s not like in the past with Valkyrie where you simply give in as it’s easier, but more often than not, you learn to understand his actions and approaches to life. This accumulates in when hanging/helping out with Shu, you try to do things in a way that suit his needs.

Furthermore, supporting him in general is something that greatly influences his attachment. Knowing he doesn’t understand technology so going out of the way to write letters to him while he’s in France, supporting his designs/hobbies, and extending kindness to what he continues to do in the future. It’s the little things of knowing that Shu truly has someone who stands up and cares for the things he does that draws him in. The problems would start when Shu manages to break from his bubbled view of the world he has with you and see that there is more. You don’t only treat him this way but everyone you work with. That there are other idols and people ready to take away the affection you directed to him– the attention you give to him. You let other people touch you and listen to their fashion advice. That when you aren’t in the craft room working on your own projects as he sews, you're off with god knows who doing god knows what. It’s hard to say that you won’t become like others– notice his flaws and eventually abandon him like the others.

That’s when everything comes back around, the emotions of loss and fear. That you’ll do what humans do and become corrupted, with Shu [+ Mademoiselle] left to pick up the pieces of his mind and heart. It does slowly make Shu more overbearing and possessive; if he’s around, he tends to constantly be popping up to drag you off with him for whatever task he can think of. He gets the help of Mika to ensure he knows where you were or who you were with, as well as Mika becoming a very unscary guard dog to keep strangers away. His comments, once threats to hurt you from intruding on his space or time turns into threats of others, that you need to be watched and kept away so they can’t ruin your opinions on him.

Eventually, things become a snowball effect– he finds it hard to even work on projects without you in mind. If it’s not about random aspects to you as inspiration its about who you are with, what you are doing, where you are, how you are. There never was a specific thing you said or did differently. You can spend all your time racking your brain at what you could have done differently to have kept Shu in a normal state of mind, but there will never be an answer. Guess the biggest hint you can find would be the days Shu sketch designs all focused on one person– although it will be hard to gain access to those sketchbooks.

Hell: What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?

I’d personally say the aftermath of when Shu first acts on a threat of physical violence, even more, how it plays out after. Part of this would come from a few angles as to why it’s one of the worst— although compared to many other yandere’s, it’s probably hard to label the worst as Shu would be decently unbearable the majority of the time. For one, I think even something like this would come as a shock to Shu partly as it’s known he’s quite weak, even he is aware of this and has to rely on other skills of his to keep you in check most of the time. Also, while often giving very horrendous threats of violence to you [far before Shu started his romantic exploitations], no one has taken him seriously as he mostly says these comments in passing frustration. Even you likely wouldn’t take him seriously, given that getting close to him in the first place would require becoming accustomed to his ‘colorful’ language. Beyond the pinch of an ear or dragging you somewhere by the wrist, nothing had ever caused harm past a few hours.

Finally, the last reason is due to the complex nature Shu likely holds. On one hand, he’s moved on from the people are dolls aspect he once held, but as a muse, you still have to be treated with the perfect care of an antique. Violence is something he often wouldn’t want to consider, never wanting to damage you. After all, it’s likely a huge factor as to why you’ve been locked up. But you already appeared so full of marks and scars… while he’s helped make them fade to match the beauty you should exhibit, he doesn’t want to leave anymore on you. Just like the treatment of Mademoiselle, Shu touches you often with the most delicate ways and often gets extremely worked up if someone goes to even brush some lint off your outfit. Yet he couldn’t help it! Perhaps you were going on about something after a few warnings or making some sort of escape attempt. He really didn’t mean to push you down so hard, but the frustration he usually keeps inside managed to boil over and your footing. It’s nothing extreme, a small twist of your ankle and your wrists hurt from the attempt to break the fall, but enough to bring tears to your eyes.

One of the biggest things that would have to become part of the routine is understanding how Mademoiselle functions between the two of you. Despite playing the role of a lover to Shu in this state, it’s rare that his softness will leak through, and he keeps himself quite guarded— something present throughout the entirety of the time you’ve known him. It’s not that he doesn’t have moments where he acts and treats you like a significant other, and over time he becomes much more comfortable. Still, overall it’s obvious Shu has always struggled to communicate more positive/caring things to those around him. Nevertheless, you often do understand Shu’s true feelings through the conversations you have with Mademoiselle. Unlike how many others portray Shu as not needing Mademoiselle as his obsession grows, I don’t think her presence ever disappears entirely because of how his connection with her is built. There will always be fluctuations of her around as Shu’s mental state shifts; you can often tell if it’s worse if Madem is around more (giving hints on when it’s better to not cause issues, less you want life to get a lot worse). Mademoiselle knows Shu better than anyone else, but for the sake of understanding, she isn’t Shu alone— her own personality who is kind to you and a mediator of his emotions. She lets you in on his feelings (wing-doll of the year), extends kindness, offers moments of advice, although most aren’t very helpful as most tend to just be giving into Shu’s whims, and if you’ve been under Shu’s lockdown information about the outside world.

Shu’s anger and fear would likely still be running high in the heat of the moment. He’d turn around and promptly leave the room, shutting the door behind him. In the aftermath of the shock, you’d be left to pick yourself up and hobble into the bathroom to wrap up the injury and, if lucky, perhaps see if you could find some pain killers [whether or not you find them is questionable]. It wouldn’t be for a few more hours that you’d hear the door open and Shu slinks into the apartment. Not in the mood to talk given that issues from earlier would likely still be extremely sensitive, and being hurt was something that came as a surprise. It wouldn’t be until you felt the bed sink a little more as Shu sits next to you. Mademoiselle stares at you; she apologizes for Shu, saying you might not forgive him right this minute but Shu really didn’t mean to hurt you. He just was startled, and you’ve seen how he can be with intense emotions and doesn’t like it when people overrun their mouths. Just give it time. You’ll come around and remember the person Shu genuinely is. The Shu who was your friend. While you understand what she is trying to do— what she represents— it twists the knife deeper into the memories of when you did consider Shu a friend; now, it feels mocking. Like a mother scolding two kids who got into a fight on the playground or over a toy, that the situation can just be fixed with a mutual apology.

It hurts more that Shu would just scoff; you deserved to be punished, didn’t you? It’s the only way you’ll learn! You should be lucky he did something so simple— he could have done something far worse. Mademoiselle has heard it all, the things he’s threatened, so she should know. Despite everything, you can see on his face the remorse if you look hard enough. It’s something the average person probably wouldn’t notice, but after so much time with Shu, you can tell deep down hurting you was never a part of the plan. The rest of the night is spent in silence from both of you, stuck wallowing in the misery of you trapped in this life and Shu not knowing how to make it back to how it was before while keeping you protected in his fantasy.

Unique: Would they do anything different from the classic yandere?

One of the main things would be how long it all takes for this to go down. See, you have some yandere’s who move too fast, or you have others where it feels like a sudden snap. Even with some, it feels like it’s progressing in a very normal way. With Shu, it takes an extremely long time for everything to reach its peak. In fact, this is what makes it so hard to avoid— so many of the warning signs would be brushed off as “that’s just his personality.” The fact is they aren’t wrong either; everyone would be semi-used to his creepy, threatening comments especially knowing how Nito was treated yet it’s never been something he’s acted on so it really feels like harmless Shu being his eccentric self. Eventually, you would get used to it as well because of how long it seemed to take for Shu to reach the point where he feels he needs the relationship. It takes months to even get Shu to really even acknowledge you, maybe having a few conversations with Mademoiselle in the time being while Shu himself spends most of those insulting you.

Progressing a ‘friendship’ with Mademoiselle actually would be the ticket to getting closer with Shu as well. And at the pace of a snail, that’s how it starts. It’d likely starts with passing conversations where he’s still quite hostile but enough to actually gather some information on him, to a more casual discussion, walking with him to the cafes to get a croissant, only to have him begin to seek you out. Reasons would be to have another set of eyes on his practice [a stopwatch is good timing down to the second, but nothing can combat the feedback from someone else], to want to eat his meals with you, even getting to enjoy your presence while he works on projects. Another consideration as to why this would take so long is because Shu constantly is going between Paris and Japan; until he’s decided you need to be kept from the world, Shu doesn’t necessarily bother with taking you with him. Once having what can only be seen as tsundere like friendship, you might hear from Shu more often with calls, something you never would expect given Shu’s rough relationship with technology. Or him seemingly coming to you for general information like how to work the computer, which leads to trying to get FaceTime to work and Shu seems to become obsessed with that form of communication. All of this ends up being an extremely long process where if Shu wasn’t as messed up as he is, it likely could have progressed into a normal relationship if he had just talked to you.

One of the biggest things would be how everything with Shu is a walking contradiction. You’d probably be let on early into a friendship that most things would be difficult with Shu given how he naturally is, but love only seems to make it worse. It goes from the basic hot and cold nature of his personality, from constantly showing praise on how you’re his muse, his inspiration– but still holds his sharp tongue in his remarks that come off as insulting. To how he throws himself into work for hours, barely giving you a hint of attention due to focus he has yet doesn’t want you gone from his sight for even a second. How he claims he knows you’re real, you aren’t a doll or item but treats you delicately enough in how you can't do anything without him, something for him to dress up, and will be dirtied by people if they get their hands on you.

Even to the little things. Shu doesn’t necessarily like to be touched, and if you often make the first move, might be startled; however, he always seems to want to have his hands on you in one way or another. Often just to fix something but also as a sign of possession-- something like cuddling late at night or having you sit on his lap while he’s working on more simple projects. Probably the most ironic and funniest to tease him about more simple concepts. Something like how Shu doesn’t understand the appeal of swimwear or fancy undergarments— yet he’s the one always trying to undress you and feel under your clothes for his designs. Or as high and mighty as Shu is, often being taken down by simple technology having to come to you for help despite not wanting you to have access to such. This is all just the start, listing out every other contradiction could take forever. Either way, if you’re not worried about making him upset and making your day worse with his mood, you’re stuck doing cartwheels to understand precisely what he wants now things are ‘furthering in a relationship.’ At some point you probably are mentally exhausted enough you don’t have energy to be physically resistant to his poking and prodding while working.

Lastly, there is one big difference, and that’s how freedom works. It’s very fast into this idea of Shu seeing you as more of a partner and muse that he needs to keep isolated, but also not something Shuu can do easily compared to many other yanderes. In general, being an idol makes it challenging but he moves around so much as it is Shu doesn’t want to just leave you in the apartment alone… or with Mika necessarily. It’s not even the lack of trust in Mika either, although it’s not like he’d be able to babysit you 24/7, giving you plenty of time of time to disappear if you tried. Mind that Shu knows you’re not quite the same as Mademoiselle, but you eventually become a sense of comfort in the same way. Inspiration, a muse for his craft but also a way to relax with the stress that comes from his daily life, we already know how intense Shu is, and he probably calms down a good 2% with you around. So lucky you! You’ll end up being stuck going with Shu wherever he goes.

Holed out in the crafting club making outfits for a performance, that’s your room for the next few days. Although, be aware you’re expected to not leave the room even if Shu has to leave for a few hours to pick something up for his work [or is hungry enough to need something to eat though he’ll make sure to bring something back for you]. Better get used to traveling as you’ll be going from France to Japan quite frequently. However, despite not being fully chained and locked up in a room, that doesn’t give you much freedom. If you aren’t playing ‘dress up’ for Shu, you’re often stuck in the corner or next to him holding Mademoiselle and left to your own tasks. Usually there won’t be much to do, perhaps reading or drawing, or some other hand-held craft, given that you aren’t allowed to have access to a phone/tv nor talk to anyone. Well, unless you want to face Shu’s anger which no one really wants, it seems everyone knows to simply avoid trying to start a conversation [if they even could get close enough]. It’s incredibly isolating, but somehow hurts even more given that you are left watching the world move past you without being a part of it anymore, given the tight leash Shu has. After all, he has had a lot of time to think about how to keep you from breaking or straying too far with the downfall of Valkyrie in the past. Guess one good did come from that experience.

#enstars.leaps #yandere #yandere x reader #yandere writing #yandere enstars #yandere ensemble stars #ensemble stars #enstars x reader #yandere shu #yandere shu itsuki #shu itsuki #tw; yandere #tw; isolation #tw; stalking

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🦇 Fatima Tate Takes the Cake Book Review 🦇

❝ Is it haram to follow your dreams? ❞

❓ #QOTD Did you turn your childhood dreams into a reality, and if not, what stopped you? ❓ 🦇 Growing up in a traditional Muslim household, seventeen-year-old Fatima Tate is used to living a life that adheres to her parents' wishes. They see her passion for baking as a hobby, even though Fatima hopes to win a state baking competition hosted by the Culinary Institute of America; the college she hopes to attend despite her mother's desire for her to major in nursing. Her parents would freak out if they knew she was flirting with college student Raheem, who also volunteers at the local soup kitchen with Fatima. Their secret flirting by text heats to a simmer until their parents are involved. Eager to give their daughter a happy, stable life, Fatima's parents encourage their engagement. It's not until the ring is on her finger that Fatima realizes the happily ever after Raheem is offering comes at a price.

💜 Growing up in a traditional Muslim household myself, I hoped Fatima's story would defy some of the stereotypes too often placed on the religion, traditions, and culture. Every coming-of-age / YA story positions readers at a pivotal turning point in a character's life. For Muslim characters, that turning point feels pre-defined by the expectations elders place on us. Fatima does, eventually, define her own path, but after trying to earn her parents' approval and understanding for the entire novel, it feels too instantaneous by the end (especially given her mother's consistent stance about Fatima's future from the start).

🍰 Many baking-focused books published in the last year—books like Rubi Ramos's Recipe for Success, Recipe for Persuasion, or Arsenic and Adobo with talented Cuban, Indian, and Filipino main characters—bring flare and flavor to their novels by focusing on culture through food. Reading these books, you can smell distinct spices fill the air, taste every kick of cinnamon, clove, or coriander against your tongue. Every food-focused page makes you salivate until you wish you had the very dishes and sweet treats mentioned before you. I was so eager to see familiar Middle Eastern flavors and dishes highlighted in this novel, to see Fatima complete the step-by-step process of making treats with orange blossom water, phyllo dough, cinnamon, or rose water, but none were mentioned. The beauty of the books I mentioned above was the chance to connect with someone else's culture through food, but I fear non-Middle Eastern readers missed that chance with this story. Instead, the cooking scenes sound clinical, like reading out the instructions of a recipe step-by-step. For a character who claims baking is her everything, she's not at all passionate about the art.

🎂 That's hardly the biggest problem. Growing up as a Muslim-American in a strict, traditional household, I understood everything that Fatima experienced; following rules and traditions, not wanting to "make trouble," not wanting to disappoint my parents, feeling the pressure to meet their standards. (Like Fatima's best friend, I'm also Muslim and queer, which comes with its own challenges.) Despite growing up in the same circumstances, I couldn't connect to Fatima beyond that surface level. The story starts with her crushing on a boy, but she's so instantly blinded by him—despite all the immediate red flags popping up—that we don't see a version of Fatima that's level-headed. Instead, we exist in her ongoing, anxious mindset—anxious about a boy, hiding her feelings for him, displeasing her parents, her family's financial situation, all of it. There's so much focus on those sources of anxiety and on Raheem's wrong-doings that we never get to see the beauty Islam has to offer. For the sake of non-Muslim readers, I also wish a few Arabic terms were explained at the story's start.

☪️ A book that could have proven the worst misconceptions about Islam wrong only made those misconceptions worse. Fatima views religious customs as "ancient" impositions that make it seem she's shackled to old ways, yet she made the choice to wear a hajib (a choice no one else can make for her). She prays alone in her room instead of with her family, doesn't seem to attend mosque, and notes how "patriarchal" the local masjid is. Readers are given two extremes of Islam: the overly traditional "haram police" or Fatima, who seems to wear her religion as an obligation or facade, rather than as a faith that unites her with a beloved community. There's no positive Muslim representation at all in this book—a book that aimed to give "a much-needed voice to young Black Muslim women." I agree; those voices need to be heard. Muslim voices need to be heard. But not like this. I'm not only disappointed. I'm hurt.

🦇 Recommended to anyone who loves a semi-food-focused YA coming-of-age story with an insta-love connection.

☪️ Muslim Representation / OWN Voices 🍰 Great British Bake Off Vibes 🎂 Contemporary/YA Fiction 🧁 Queer Minor Characters ☪️ A Junior Library Guild Gold Standard Selection

🦇 Major thanks to the author and publisher for providing an ARC of this book via Netgalley. 🥰 This does not affect my opinion regarding the book.

#book review #book blog #booklr #books #book thoughts #book: fatima tate takes the cake #author: khadijah vanbrakle #batty about books #battyaboutbooks

[alwanizolkifli]

Always remember these

1) The past can't be changed.

There are many people in the world who are suffering from their own past. They can't manage to escape from their past experiences and losses. All the time when we try to do something great, our past failures come in our mind and we think that again this time I will face failure, so this fear of failure doesn't allow us to move toward success. If you don't leave your past in the past, it will destroy your future. Live for what today has to offer, not for what yesterday has taken away. So, keep in mind "Your past was never a mistake, If you learned from it" always try to learn great lessons from your past.

2) Opinions don't define your reality.

We are human and we all live in this world with many other people. We all depend upon others directly or indirectly. It means we are social animals. We can't live separately from this world and in our lives we hear many people's opinions about ourselves. These people may be our family members, maybe our friends, maybe our teachers and maybe common people that are living around us. Many times their opinions hurt us badly. The result of all this comes in this sense, we stop doing what we were doing or we stop doing what we like and start doing what we don't like and indefinitely this leads us to our own destruction. So the matter is that, our life, our life, how someone else can mold our life. Don't let someone else's opinion of you become your reality. You're the one who has to choose what you're going to do and what is better for you because people don't matter at all.

3) Everyone's destination is different.

I still remember when my thinking was totally the same as other common people. I used to say, why many of my friends succeeded in their life and I am still getting education, but after some time I realized that "Everyone's destination is different". In this world, time for succession is different for everyone, not all people get the same thing at the same time. There are many chances for you. Maybe there is something better reserved for you. The point is that never get disappointed in your life, keep going high and high, your destination will come. Life is a journey. When we stop, things don't go right.

4) Judgments are not about you.

People will never stop judging you. Even your closet friends will judge you because it's the nature of humans to judge others, whether it's positive judgments or negative judgments. So, we need to remember that these judgments are not for us. We shouldn't care about people's judgments. People will always be there to discourage you. This will not care about your struggles and achievement. Thus, don't care about judgmental statements of people and shock them with your success. If you make decisions based upon people's reactions or judgments, then you make really boring choices.

5) Over thinking will lead to sadness.

One of the topmost problems of the people of today's world is over thinking. Over thinking is an art of creating problems that don't even exist. When something bad happens in our life, we start thinking about it. That is not bad, but after sometimes we get trapped in those problems and incidents and start thinking over and over. This disturbs the peace of our mind and life and further we fall in the state of depression that kills us slowly and slowly. So crux is that, in all these types of situations, we should keep our minds calm and try to focus on new things and work that we have to do.

6) Happiness is found within.

We are all searching for happiness here and there in this world, but we should realize that the key to happiness is being happy by yourself and for yourself. You're the only person who can make yourself happy, always remember no one is there for you, everyone is struggling to deal with their own problems, no one is free in this busy world. If you think that someone will come and make you happy, this means you're lying to yourself because it's your responsibility to work for yourself, not anyone else. So, always search for happiness within yourself.

7) Your thoughts affect your mood.

There are two types of thoughts that come in your mind: negative and positive. Thoughts can build you or destroy you. Your mood and your behavior are also closely related to your thoughts. No matter how bad the situation is, your mood depends on your thoughts. If you take all the things positively, you find a better result and ultimately it will make your mood fresh and happy. If you think negatively, you will never solve your problems and this will make your mood bad and sad. So we can say that being positive is a secret to your happy mood.

8) Smiles are contagious.

" Smiles are free that you can give to everyone". A smile is worth it because it can make some happy just in the second. We saw many people, who always remain in an angry state and they smile rarely. We can also claim that that those type of people don't attract others and usually people keep themselves away from angry people. As a result, people lose their own happiness and think no one likes them. So, what we can do, we can smile. Smile, it's free therapy, it can cure your as well as other people's sadness and depression. Once mother Teresa said, "Peace Begins with a smile."

9) Kindness is free.

Kindness is also free, like a smile. There are some people who are born with this quality, but there are many people who become kind because of some incidents that happen in their life or their circumstances make them kind. Kind people are a real gem in this world because they feel the pain of others and try to help them according to their capacity. We can judge that clean hearted people attract more kind heated people than hard-hearted people. So, your kindness is directly related to your happiness and peace of mind. If you want to have a happy and peaceful life, be kind to others.

10) It's okay to let go and move on.

There are many things that we had in the past, but now we don't have the same like this. There are many people that were with us, but now they are not here. I know it's not easy to forget someone, there are a lot of memoires and feelings related with others thats why I am not going to say, forget someone because I believe that we can forget someone completely from our mind but we can let them go, If someone has gone from your life or want to go let him go because you can't stop anyone and you also have to move on, don't allow anyone to stop you. Again, I would say " People don't matter, your life matters."

11) What goes around, comes around.

This means you will attract what you do. If you do bad with someone else, bad will happen to you and if you do good with someone else, good will happen to you. Always try to do something better for humanity, always take care of the poor and orphans around you, don't hurt anyone with your action or with your tongue. In this way, you can also live a peaceful and happy life.

12) Things always get better with time.

Nothing is fixed in this world. If you're feeling down today, keep patience because it will pass, don't let anything down you. Many times things are not getting okay and this makes us hopeless and we start thinking negatively about all the things, we start hating ourselves and our lives too. This is not the solution. We should do hard work and wait for the best time to come because things will get better with time.

Credits to Dr Fami

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*Warning: Brain hole + logic + speculation

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 *Warning: Brain hole + logic + speculation

I made this analysis in between my postgraduate studies, so pls understand that the analysis is very messy, irregular, broken, and the pictures don’t include it

At first look at Haibara Ai's character settings.

The following content is mainly developed from Haibara Ai’s perspective.

If Akai Shuichi is the most unpredictable character in the entire show, then Haibara Ai is the most complicated and contradictory character in the show.

At first, when I saw manga and animation, my focus was mainly on the storyline. When I really wanted to write a character analysis, went back to the summary and suddenly found that Haibara Ai's character value had almost skyrocketed. The words to describe her feelings were simply extraordinary.

At first, let's look at the main characteristics of this character.

In terms of language skills, she is fluent in at least four languages: Japanese, English, Spanish, and Russian. In terms of professional knowledge: pharmacy, chemistry, biology, physic, astronomy, mathematic, computer programming, literature, politic, history, art history (and many more). She can shoot, drive (even in Haibara Ai's body), ride a Harley, has strong observation and alertness, and is intelligent and reasoning.

Compared to the other main characters, Conan was poisoned by Gin, so his main goal is to transform back into Kudo Shinichi and destroy the organization that made him smaller. Akai Shuichi entered the FBI to investigate the reason for his father's disappearance, and he found the organization and regards the destruction of the organization as the ultimate goal, which is also clearly explained. Agasa is a tool man, providing technical support for Conan to become a superhuman. Ran's goal was simple and clear, just waiting for Kudo Shinichi to return. Gin's ultimate goal is to find and kill all traitors, and complete the tasks assigned by the organization. The fate of these characters seems clear.

How about Haibara Ai ?. Her parents died, and her sister also died, she became homeless. As of now, there has been no official CP in the plot that could make her pursue a happy ending like Mouri Ran. I haven't found any solid plot evidence to prove whether she wants to return to Shiho Miyano, but at least in her life goal, she doesn't want to destroy the organization's plans, because in the first place, the power of the organization is too strong, and she can't handle it, and secondly, she has no intention of destroying the organization. Her level of fear is greater than her level of hatred, and she is always in a state where she just wanted to hide. 

Then what is the fate of Haibara Ai ?. 

Under the contradiction between the character setting of such a strong attribute value and the meaning of existence it is logical to bring up the self-contradiction of Haibara's character at an early stage. On the one hand, she was afraid of being persecuted by the organization, wanted to hide and run away, she wanted to live, but on the other hand, because she thought she had no one in this world, she hoped to use her own life as a price for the safety of the people around her. (Little Red Riding Hood, Full Moon, Train, etc). All of them have related plots that can clearly prove this point. Therefore, this kind of complex character design related to active survival and pessimistic death, can be considered the biggest contradiction of Haibara Ai's character. I wish she can appreciate her life more.

If this character is HE, then this contradiction is a problem that must be resolved in the future development of the plot. From the perspective of the initial plot, it seems that there is a long way to go, but the main path has come to this point, and some clues and hopes can be seen equivocally.

First of all, Haibara Ai will most likely has HE. So, she will have to return to Miyano Shiho in the end, then the next question is, where should she go after she transforms back?

Watching Higo, cooking for kids, scolding Professor. Someone mentioned this stage, Haibara Ai is already a bit OOC, but I think it's an inevitable plot. Because if she always only becomes Haibara Ai who is always sad like in the early stages, then she will never be able to reach the real HE.

Let's take a look at Haibara Ai's Harem:

Conan Edogawa

Among all CP Haibara Ai, Co-Ai is undoubtedly the most popular CP. It didn't take long for Ai to appear on stage, and until now the usual CP fights are still seen everywhere. First of all, I personally don't like this kind of couple, because Conan is a character who can match Ai in terms of experience, intelligence, and ability.

I went to the analysis of Co-Ai side looking for in-depth analysis post from Co-Ai's side, but I was a little disappointed that I didn't find the content that really convinced me, maybe this also had something to do with me reading it with Shu-Ai's preconceived thoughts, but after rational analysis, I still feel that there were too many loopholes.

In addition to the evidence and clues provided by Co-Ai, let me talk about my perspective on Co-Ai. For Ai's partner, for me as long as it's not Mitsuhiko in the end, I can accept everyone. In all elections, Conan is nothing more than a good candidate, but the probability is zero.

First of all, Conan has a clear official heroine, and the plot has come a long way. If the picture of Aoyama suddenly turns into Co-Ai, it will create a lot of holes, and quite a lot of bugs, and it is a problem for the Shin-Ran party to leave holes and tear the book, and it is expected that this manga will be taken off the shelf directly.

Let's see how Ai feels towards Conan. 

They met when Haibara Ai ran away from the organization and had no relatives. At that time, Ai was very vulnerable, sensitive, and had low self-esteem. Even though Agasa gave Ai a good shelter, he's not the same age as her, and didn't share the same fate, it would be difficult to communicate. At this moment, when Conan appeared by her side, Ai couldn't help but feel dependent. Later in the process of getting along, Ai discovers Conan's extraordinary intelligent mind abilities, and his high sense of justice, and began to be attracted to him, and both of them became victims of drugs. The good feeling here was just a good feeling, it was a respect and sympathy, because they have a common enemy and a common secret.

If Ai has a male-female relationship with Conan, she shouldn't be so free and easy to tease him. Instead, she will be sad and even jealous. Compare to when Ai mistakenly thought that Yoko Okino and Higo was dating, Aoyama emphasized it was just liking idols, but when it came to Ran, she was nonchalant, and sometimes made jokes, and she was more sympathized to Ran than Conan.

In terms of emotional intelligence, Ai is much more mature than Conan. In terms of personality, Ai is the queen of the iceberg, and Conan is the straight human type. No matter from which point of view, they are not very harmonious. Most of the CPs in this comic, Heiji-Kazuha, Shin-Ran, Makoto-Sonoko, Takagi-Sato, Shiratori-Kobayashi, are a pair of one strong and one weak.

Even though Ai is strong, don't forget that Conan is also arrogant, and when the two of them face each other. What will happen from this CP?.

Mitsuhiko

It doesn’t need to explain.

Higo Ryusuke

This is a reasoning manga, the focus is on destroying the organization, Conan and Haibara will change back after defeating the organization (humans can't turn back time). Everyone can fall in love before the organization is destroyed. How many times did Haibara have to transform back into Shiho for a love story ?. It's very dangerous to change back every time just to make a love story with Higo. He has nothing to do with the main plot, and it is possible to fall in love with her when Haibara becomes her normal body, but will Aoyama write a love story like this after finishing the organization’s plot, after the main plot is completed??

 Amuro Toru & Hakuba Saguru

I'm going to cry writing this. At first lets talk about Amuro Toru.

According to the writer Amuro's character was originally black, but to be honest, when the plot got to this point, I still felt that Amuro was a little bit good and bad, unlike Gin or Shuichi, who were very clearly black and red. Then there are so many bugs. Although Aoyama said that if there was Char there must be Amuro, but why did the Gundam settings have to be copied like this. He's not enough to pay tribute by having Char ?. Why should he gave him another opponent to fight ? 

Amuro first joined Japanese public security to find out Miyano Elena, and Miyano Elena died 17 years ago. So, his investigation found that his first love was dead. Was Amuro pursued further investigations ?. He was trying so hard to disguise himself in the organization just because of orders from his superior ? ?

In addition, the first action of the Bourbon character, who had foreseen only to find the missing Sherry. This setting gave people a very far-fetched feeling. I don't know if this is my hunch, I have been always worried that there would be a major reversal of the plot one day, and Amuro will turn out to be two-faced. Because the reason why he joined the red faction really made his revolutionary position indecisive.

He clearly knew that Akai is a red faction, but he still wanted to capture him and hand him over to the organization for credit.

Compared to Akai's steady demeanor from start to finish, Amuro's appearance is somewhat less considered.

Moreover, after Amuro's appearance the target of the investigation changed again and again. First, Sherry then Shuichi Akai, then Conan and Sleeping Kogoro, and finally started checking on Sera.

So, what Amuro wants to do ?. Even though I have a feeling, he will join after being invited for tea, but it feels like something is wrong.

Although I found this character very shrewd, sometimes he did random things. Not many serious clues to be found, but the coffee just got better. Although he has many films, but in general so far, I personally felt that this character formation was quite a failure, although I have no opinion about him, after all he is also a character with all kinds of skills.

If it's purely to make money selling him, then I'm speechless.

Amuro's background is currently unknown, and the only information I can find that he is of mixed blood and has been bullied because of his hair color and skin color. It's similar to Ai, but other than that, the two have met a few times, and then no more. Unless Aoyama fills the hole for Amuro's background.

Next Hakuba Saguru. Ai-chan, how did your harem get to the next manga. He and Shiho had never met each other, even though both of them had similar appearances, the same temperament, and the same hair, but even if they were forced to match each other, they might just end up as long lost siblings in the end. (At this rate, then Miyano and his wife are suspended, and then they can draw 1000 episodes, and DC has become a series for life).

•        Moroboshi Dai

When I was a sweet niece, I didn't care much about CP, and I was just a passing reader, now that I've become an aunt. As I've gotten older, my perspective has changed a lot since I was young, and I have some new comprehensions about this character pair. If you have different opinions, you can discuss it together~

1. Judging from the setting of the entire story structure

First of all, in my opinion, Miyano Akemi only appears in one episode, the episode in which she is killed, of course this almost disproportionate role is the fate of all extra characters, but regardless of the main plot. Looking only at the story of Akai Shuichi, Miyano Akemi and Haibara Ai, we will find that everything started after Miyano Akemi was killed and Miyano Shiho escaped from the organization and became Haibara Ai.

In movies, dramas, or literature, almost all authors will design a backstory for their characters, which is an indispensable content to make the character's image deeply rooted in people's hearts. But in Detective Conan, the past of Akai Shuichi and Miyano Akemi, we can hardly dig up any useful information. My guess is that there are two possibilities here;

First, the author is too mean, deliberately leaving a large blank space to appeal to people's imagination and taste. Of course, this is Aoyama's usual trick, but I personally don't think it is the main goal, because this manga is called Detective 'Conan', not Detective 'Shuichi'. It is clear that Shuichi isn’t the protagonist. If the deliberate concealment of their past was to whet the audience's taste, it would be a little excessive, and for readers who focus on Shin-Ran, if they don't really like Shuichi or Akemi's role, hardly notice Aoyama's little trick, could it be that he wants to whet the audience's taste if he doesn't explain it, or explain it, they don't care.

The original plot was like this:

Moroboshi Dai's rebellion → Akemi is killed → Shiho refuses to continue developing the drugs → Shiho is locked up by Gin → Takes the drug and turns into Haibara Ai.

In my opinion, if Shuichi and Akemi were an official couple, it would be more logical to see the following situation:

Moroboshi Dai rebels and takes Akemi away → Shiho is suspected by Gin → locked up by Gin → takes a drug and becomes Haibara Ai.

Why should the author let Akemi die? The reason is cruel, but very realistic: because Haibara Ai is the heroine, and the heroine needs CP, so Akemi must die.

I want to talk about Akemi's death, and most people seem to be confused whether Shuichi should save Akemi or not. I would like to have an opinion.

First of all, let's think about what the FBI is. It's the FBI, not the police, let alone the rescuers. In many American crime movies, FBI investigators play annoying characters. They are discreet and cold-blooded, and often start from completing tasks given by superiors, and do whatever they can to achieve their goals, so many people feel that they are completely inhuman.

In the Conan series, I don't know why the FBI is meddling business in Japan (originally they wanted to catch the silver haired killer who ran to Japan, but now they are meddling in the business of Japanese organization) but their essence as the FBI will not change. Their goal is to investigate and destroy the organization. In their eyes, Akemi and the organization are the same thing. In their eyes, Akemi's robbery plan was probably just an internal dispute within the organization. They just needed to sit on the sidelines and reap the rewards.

Let's take another look at Akemi's role, I still don't know exactly what she does in the organization. She's simple, kind, not a scientist, not a computer technician, can't shoot, doesn't understand espionage.

So no matter what her specific position is, we can be sure that this is an unimportant role, so is her role valuable to the FBI??

The reason is the same, because she is just an extra.

Then go to the main topic. Regarding Miyano Shiho and Moroboshi Dai, at this stage I use the name Moroboshi Dai. So, we focus on the relationship between them in the organization. Some are just speculation, as there was too little related content in the original manga, I can only push back the relationship between Shuichi-Ai . Thinking back to when Ai complained that Conan didn't save Akemi and burst into tears, we can see that Ai would be very sensitive and irrational in matters related to her sister's death. For the parties involved in the robbery, Conan was just a passer-by. Who determined that a smart person should save the lives of everyone around the world ?. Who says a detective has an absolute duty to stop people from doing stupid things everywhere ?. Ai is a smart person, she was really angry at Conan who points out that this incident was really an indelible pain for her.

As I had analyzed earlier, in Akemi's case, although Moroboshi Dai wasn't the direct cause of her death, it was more or less related to him. The appearance of Moroboshi Dai gave Akemi illusory and unreal dreams for the future. So, Akemi has a plan to rob and threaten the organization to take her sister away to find Moroboshi Dai.

Ai scolded Conan which had nothing to do with it, why wasn't she angry at Moroboshi Dai?. In the manga and animation, Ai remembered Moroboshi Dai several times, and she never even feels angry. Animation team added clenching action, maybe they did it without permission.

Original text (File 231)

"I fell in love with you from the first time I met you"

Many Co-Ai parties believe that this is Ai who secretly confesses to Conan through dialogue in script rehearsals. Since the possibility of Co-Ai has been analyzed above, there is no need to dispute this perspective here.

Let's take a closer look at the content of the conversation,

"There's no mistaking it, she's starting to realize your true identity..."

"There's no point in tricking her anymore, it'll hurt her..."

"Why would you say such a thing to me?"

"Your eyes of justice can see the heart of evil, but you cannot see a woman’s heart"

"I fell in love with you the first time I saw you"

"Mr. Kamen Yaiba..."

*Brain Hole Warning :

Shiho: Exactly. She (Akemi) starting to realize your true (Moroboshi Dai) identity (in disguise).

Shiho: There's no point in tricking her... it’ll hurt her.

Moroboshi Dai: Why do you say such a things to me...

Shiho: Your eyes of justice can see through the heart of evil, but you can't see a woman’s heart ?

Shiho: I fell in love with you the first time I saw you, didn't you notice it?

Shiho: Moroboshi Dai?

This scene could also refer to Kudo Shinichi and Ran here, but doesn't everyone feel that the relationship between Moroboshi Dai and Akemi was even more similar ?.

From the original manga, we knew that Akemi was well aware of the fact that Moroboshi Dai was the FBI, so now think about it, Akemi as a simple person can figure it out, and Shiho who is very intelligent, won't she notice it?

Back to the content above, Akemi's death, Moroboshi Dai's big defection. Ai showed no anger or resentment towards him.

So my guess...

Could it be... Could it be...

Shiho was actually secretly in love with Moroboshi Dai back then ?. Shiho was 15-16 years old when her feelings of love began to develop. When she met a very good person, became her friend, said the promise of protection for her. Will she really... fall down?

In the plot proof provided by Co-Ai Parties, there was a lot of content in the early stages of animation (there are more than 100 episodes) At that time, Ai debuted not long ago. At this time, Aoyama added some suspicious Co-Ai plots, in my opinion there may be 2 purposes.

1. To test the market, because in the beginning Conan was a short story, Akai shuichi has not been made, and all CP was not fully formed, and maybe not many people are chasing Conan. The addition of Co-Ai was possible to test the audience to see which CP was more popular.

2. It might be a shadow for Shu-Ai.

So, because Aoyama still made at Ai suspected of falling in love with Conan even though Kudo Shinichi already has Ran, could it be that based on the story of Moroboshi Dai and Akemi what the writer wants to reveal is that Shiho was really in love with Moroboshi Dai at that time.

In the original it was known in the organization Shiho and Moroboshi Dai were friends, because some of Ai's memories were all good memories, but after watching various plots from Co-Ai, I suddenly found many doubts about the relationship between Moroboshi Dai and Shiho.

It was assumed that during the organization, Shiho secretly liked Moroboshi Dai, but Shiho didn’t know that Moroboshi Dai and Akemi were actually in a fake relationship. Since he was her sister's lover, she could only silently retreat backwards and suppress everything in her heart. Even though it's very sad, but that person is her sister, what can Shiho do ?

The picture above is another plot proof provided by Co-Ai Parties. They analyzed that the dolphin here refers to Ran, and the shark refers to Ai herself. There's no problem with this, but don't forget, there's another girl who is like a dolphin beside Ai. If Shiho really liked Moroboshi Dai at first, but she didn't know that Moroboshi Dai was in disguise, facing a sister like a dolphin, Shiho would also feel inferior. As I said above, if you love someone secretly, you will feel sad and jealous in your heart. These two plots are noteworthy.

I think the part about dolphin and shark that is worth noting is that a large part of Ai's affection for Ran was a projection of her feelings for Akemi. That's why I assumed, in the early stages Ai stayed away from Ran because she was still running away from Akemi's death.

Brain Hole Warning

The first guess is that Shiho probably knew that Moroboshi Dai liked her, based on his promise of protection, but because of her sister, Shiho could only avoid facing her feelings all the time, stressing to herself that he was her sister's lover.

The second guess is that from his promise of protection, Shiho might suspected that Moroboshi Dai wasn't black, but Ai didn't know that Moroboshi Dai has explained his identity to her sister, and she didn't know he broke up with her sister 2 years ago. So, her description about him is still "sister's lover", not "former lover".

The third guess is that Shiho might have tought that Moroboshi Dai's caring attitude towards her was because her sister, Shiho might have thought that only bridge between them was her sister. Combining with the shark and dolphin theory, everyone likes dolphin, Shiho probably thought Moroboshi Dai liked her sister, so Shiho suppressed all her feelings. Then after her sister died, there was no connection between them anymore, but suddenly Moroboshi Dai (Okiya Subaru) reappeared beside Haibara Ai, and maybe Ai thought, could it be this person is by her side just because her sister's death. Seeing Ai's expression was a little sad in the chapter bubble,smoke. 

To prevent Conan from involving Ran in a confrontation with the organization, Ai is willing to help Conan hide his identity.

File 503 In order to prevent Ran from getting hurt, she was willing to put aside her indifference and high-handed attitude and begged bitterly.

File 820 When she faces threats from the organization, she will rely on Ran.

Source : File 423

Therefore, file 251 and file 423 Ai deliberately avoided Ran, deliberately pretended to sleep, and said "Did I run away......" not because she liked Conan and was jealous of Ran, but because Ran was kind with her like Akemi, and when Ai saw Ran and her care for her, it was difficult for Ai to hide her sadness at losing her sister and accept that she lost her sister because of herself, and it was difficult for her to face Akemi's death.

"My sister did it for me..." In Ai's mind, Akemi lost her life because Shiho couldn't prevent her when Shiho had sniffed organization’s smell from her sister and knew her sister had committed a crime, and she held a strong sense of guilt towards her.

The author compares Akemi to Ran, who has a similar personality, bright and cheerful, implying Shiho's complicated feelings for Akemi.

This is also the first hint of the shark dolphin theory:

She is the dolphin that everyone loves, she is bathed in sunshine and warmth.

I was the shark that everyone hated, there was only cold and darkness around me.

Akemi is very bright and kind, everyone likes her, she lives a normal life.

Shiho loved Akemi, for Akemi she was willing to trade her freedom for Akemi's normal life, for Akemi she never mentioned the threat of the organization to her, she understood Akemi's feelings of losing her parents, she appreciated everything Akemi gave her, but Shiho also envied Akemi who had a bright life, could go to a normal university and make normal friends, get a lover, but Shiho could not have it all.

In addition, the attitude of inferiority that Haibara Ai faced in the early stages: "She is a dolphin, everyone likes dolphin." I don't think she's talking about Ran, but Ran's character reminds her of her sister and "that person". By the time that chapter Akai Shuichi had officially appeared, Aoyama must have made a Shu-Ai line and I think for Co-Ai arrangement, Aoyama might have had such an arrangement in the early days of manga, but after the Shu-Ai line gradually came out, Aoyama didn't play Co-Ai, and Aoyama never clearly answers, does Ai likes conan, he keeps the reader guessing.

Does Ai really like Conan?

In the original manga, Ai understood the unspeakable pain between Shin-Ran and never showed jealousy, and often supported Ran.

Faced with Ayumi and Mitsuhiko asking her if she likes Conan, she never blushes to cover up for being exposed by others. Taking a closer look at the chapter, what image did Haibara think of Conan? Those are all pictures of Conan saved her or promised to protect her. According to this, what Haibara liked about Conan is a sense of justice, pursuing the truth, bearing pressure alone, and promising to protect her. (Like someone in the past)

A little denial of the narrative trick, Yukiko said "Women will stare at a man if there is something on his face or they are in love with him"

In the photo taken by Akai's subordinates, Ai was looking back which means Ai already knew that someone was following them from the beginning, that's why Ai kept fidgeting and worrying, so she kept looking at Conan. So, Conan is not insensitive to Ai's feelings here, Conan can guess the emotional expressions of the suspects, Conan just can't guess Ran's emotional expressions, the girl he likes. So, Conan said "It's impossible for Haibara to fall in love" here it is true that Conan did not feel Ai seeing him because she was in love, but because she was worried about the people following them.

File 423

Ai's inner monologue "You still don't understand …... you don't understand anything...but I don't want you to understand..."

What do you understand? The author didn't write it out.

① If combined with the scene where Ai dreams of Conan protecting her, the meaning here is that I like you, but you don't know, and I don't want you to know.

② If combined with Ai deliberately pretending to be asleep to avoid worrying Ran, the meaning here can also be understood as “you” (referring to Conan) don't understand why I don't want to face Ran, you don't understand my feelings for my sister.

(Shiho is the character with the most complex emotions written by the author, with a variety of intertwined emotions, it is difficult to explain clearly from a single perspective.)

According to this, Ai projects her feelings for Akemi on Ran, and projects her past emotional experiences on Shin-Ran's feelings. She is unable to face Ran not only because of her guilt for not being able to save Akemi, but also because of guilt at her complicated feelings in the Dai-Shi-Ake emotional relationship, and Shiho chooses her own position in the emotional relationship with Moroboshi Dai, liked him secretly.

Combined with the shark and dolphin theory, the second layer of clues can be extended:

Moroboshi Dai is a good man, Akemi is kind, everyone likes Akemi, Moroboshi Dai must also liked Akemi, I won't tell anyone about my heart, I will secretly protect them with everything I have. (Similar to the emotional connection in Manga "Touch")

Combining the above details, it can be concluded that the author implies Shiho's past emotional experience in the same situation. In Shin-ran's emotional connection, Ai casts her own shadow, and in Conan, there are certain character traits where Shiho thinks of other person and projects her feelings.

What kind of person is that person?

Someone she fell in love with at first sight.

He is a person who has a sense of justice and bears too much pressure.

A man who promised to protect her.

It is one that she doesn’t want to say "goodbye" to.

A man who left beautiful memories but had left.

She could only hide her feelings for him and didn't want him to know.

Haibara thought that Conan would confess when he received chocolate from Ran, but Conan didn't do it.

"The annoying man she is waiting for never showed up, I don't want to see her tears again, even though I have to leave her heart."

"You two are so painful..."

Specifically refers to Ran because she missed Kudo, she was sad, but she has to pretend to be strong on the surface, because Conan didn't want to involve Ran, he wanted to express himself, but he was speechless. Emotionally they were in pain.

Looking at the case in chapter 379, Itakura's shogi playmate who has been friends for 20 years was the killer, this case explains that human feelings can change. Ran was worried about Shinichi who changed because she thought Shinichi was somewhere far away, then Akai Shuichi appeared, looking for Shiho, who had not met for 2 years. (So the girl Shuichi mentioned isn't closer to Shiho's situation than Akemi's?).

Seeing this case with Ai's monologue in flower language chapter 337, don't you have the same feeling?

Haibara gave an inner monologue about flower life. This passage is translated into connotation — flower refers to feeling.

The feeling is fragile and short-lived. If not properly cared for, it will not be able to withstand wind and rain. Throughout this chapter, Haibara bemoans emotional issues, but this kind of relationship clearly doesn't refer to a family relationship, and it's clear that the emotion here express the emotional states of both parties. The fact that Haibara could expresses such emotions, largely indicates that she, herself had a similar experience .

Therefore, the emotion here implies that Haibara and Conan have the same emotional psychology, and there is an emotional object, for some reason, she just like Conan, can only keep her feelings for 'that person' in her heart.

File 371. The title of this chapter is “Red Trap”, look at "The Red Woman” Chapter, and Sera is Akai's sister. This is may be a clue.

"No wonder you decided to give up, the memory of the person who doesn’t exist will remain forever, and the memory will remain in that person's heart forever... ".

The original text is "いなくなちゃった人" (The person who no longer exist). It doesn't just mean death. If following Conan's answer "I'm not dead ...", then the author can use the word “dead / passed away” (亡くなった／死亡). So, "The person who doesn't exist" here "The person who doesn't come back". It doesn't refer to the dead, nor refers to Conan.

This implies that there was someone in Ai's heart who left her with good memories, and that person has left.

"That must be something she wanted to say, but couldn't say... Goodbye is a sad word that pierces the feelings together..."

Haibara expressed her emotions again. According to the background of the story in which this sentence was spoken, there must be an object that has left without saying goodbye.

Ai remembered Moroboshi Dai. In fact, we all knew who Moroboshi Dai was. Why does Ai always have to add a "Sister's Lover" image on the left to emphasize.

My guess is that this might be an obstacle that Ai has never overcome, and this is also a place she was very worried about. It didn't matter whether Moroboshi Dai was a fake or real lover, he was the one her sister once liked.

Another point of the image on the left, since it is Ai's memory, it must be a sight she saw with her own eyes, since Moroboshi Dai had that expression in her memory, does that mean Shiho also knew at that time that Moroboshi Dai was not sincere? 

Even though Shiho was young, she was a very rational person. She worked in an organization, but in reality she had to keep her head down. I don't know if she ever thought about escaping from the organization, but if she found out that Moroboshi Dai wasn't black, it's possible.

I've written so much about this CP pair, and I'm going to summarize my brain hole that fat might beat.

If the guess above is my over-interpretation, and Shiho had no other feelings for Moroboshi Dai other than friends, then whether he is Subaru or Akai who appeared in front of Ai one day, they still had a long way to go. The key point is still Akemi, how Shuichi can make Ai cross Akemi's limits is the culmination of the relationship between the two.

If as I thought, even if there was a slight chance that Shiho had ever liked Moroboshi Dai, then the path would be easier for Shuichi in the future.

Next, let's look at the Miyano Akemi robbery case again.

Source 313 : Courage is a word of truth to raise one's spirit, it should not be used for the reason of killing someone.

Most people probably forget about Aoyama's values. He doesn't like crimes for love or anything. That's why he doesn't really like and care about Akemi's character. She's just like the perpetrator in Conan's daily episode. Therefore, Aoyama doesn't like to pair her with Akai Shuichi which he is based on his favorite hero. So, a 'fake lover' setting was formed. 

Source: 13-15

Even though she is Shiho's older sister, I personally don't really praise her much. Its three chapters in the manga when Miyano Akemi was alive, but as Shiho's older sister and (fake) Moroboshi Dai (Akai Shuichi) ex-girlfriend, her death still brings a big turning point for the plot, I personally feel that if the robbery act was done carefully- heart, there are many things that need to be explored. 

1. Judging from these few words alone, Miyano Akemi was about to commit a robbery, and the reason for the assassination as an accessory was because she wanted the two sisters to run away from the organization. 

2. As an extension of the first point: Although her deceased was very charitable, due to Shiho's good memory of her older sister and some plots in the memories of the FBI and Shuichi, everyone's comments about Miyano Akemi were mostly positive, but if Aoyama didn't mean to add additional reasons for her crimes (like the content on PS), I really don't understand the reason why Miyano Akemi committed the crimes, and I find it doesn’t make sense.

From multiple perspectives: She tried to get her younger sister who helps the organization’s research illegal drugs to leave the organization. This was the most normal explanation before Akai Shuichi came out. Prior to the robbery, Akemi Miyano obviously knew nothing about the organization. 

Personally, I felt that neither Shiho nor Moroboshi Dai would tell her anything about the organization. The strange question is, her younger sister was safely working as a researcher in an organization to develop drugs. Her life was not in danger. What was the reason for suddenly planning to leave the organization?. It is of course possible to fill this reasoning with other explanations. 

The first possibility is that her younger sister was forced to carry out human experiments by the organization and wanted to help her escape once she found out. This logic is basically nonsensical. Shiho obviously wouldn't tell her sister about this kind of thing, and her sister couldn't possibly be related to the organization. Everyone know this. 

The second possibility is that Miyano Akemi found out the truth about her parents' death. The truth may be that her parents didn't die, her parents were killed by someone in the organization, or her parents committed suicide for some reason. This also makes sense. She suddenly tried to escape from the organization, but it seemed impossible to explain without telling Shiho anything about her parents. (Besides, her older sister hid the tapes in the toilet in the designer's house which her younger sister couldn't find in a normal body state, and then Aoyama said her older sister just liked to hide things before she died) 

A third possibility, she was trying to avoid the organization from executing her and her younger sister as Moroboshi Dai's undercover accomplices. Of course, this is not the case in chapters 13-15. I personally think that this reason cannot be explained logically, because Shiho was an important scientist of the organization and Gin didn't say that he wanted to kill the younger sister when he killed the older sister. Can't Gin kill the traitor 2 years ago?. This is clearly impossible, unless Aoyama wants Akemi to be a black character (but according to his style, the probability is essentially zero). Akemi didn't always want to rob a bank to get rid of the black organization and clean herself up, and sees her accomplice kill the bank's security staff, watched A's accomplice killed B's accomplice, and gave B's accomplice a sleeping pill that was actually cyanide. Then the purpose of her running away was to request a reconnection with Moroboshi Dai who is an FBI agent (at least she knew he is a police officer from a certain country, right ?). Sorry, she's like the brain of love.

3. Sherry's position in the organization. Gin thought that Sherry was an important person and may have high status. However, to say that Sherry has an important position because of the main force in APTX drug research, and her limited contact with people outside the research institute is also fully explained. 

4. Miyano Akemi wasn't really dead. There seems to be no doubt that Miyano Akemi confirmed her death personally, however in Conan's presence her death was confirmed. Some people may make a fake death argument, but this is totally untenable. Conan lacks the ability to persuade the police and medical staff to play out scenes to protect her as a perpetrator (unless his identity was revealed). Either the APTX drug is a revival drug and can be used to revive Akemi, but this is pure nonsense. Akemi was long dead, and her body didn't know whether to be buried or cremated. 

Actually, when I review the time when Akemi robbed, I always complain about this character, because I really can't understand her. If there's no additional explanation, just for the purpose of releasing her younger sister from the organization, I really can't understand what people think of her? 

Although it's a bit twisted to say this: she didn't discuss the plan with Shiho, and Shiho didn't seem to cry to her older sister how difficult her life in the organization was, and the organization forced her to study dangerous drugs that she didn't want to learn (in fact, I always felt that Sherry was in the organization wanting to learn the drugs), Shiho was not in danger of life, etc. Miyano Akemi convinced herself and ran to rob the bank saying that she wanted to save her younger sister from the organization. I felt everyone was victimized because of her behavior. I’m touched. I don't really understand this character. However, since Shiho has always had a very positive perception of her older sister, I don't glorify Miyano Akemi, but I don't hate her either, but her fans are so annoying.

Looking at file 180, I have a little insight here:

Initially, reading this chapter explains why Sherry realized that Kudo has become Conan, and describes the scene where the sisters meet for the last time. When reading it again, I found something very interesting that can be used as an analogy for some Akemi's actions that suddenly want to take out her younger sister for no apparent reason, this concerns the reversal of PS. There was a theory like this a long time ago, I just added a little material.

This is just speculation

When reading chapter 1072, Akemi was very sensitive to other people's feelings, with a simple mind, she knew Moroboshi Dai didn’t love her, and Akai Shuichi is the obvious a double standard man. Therefore, how many percent chance that she knew about Shiho's feelings for Moroboshi Dai? 

From this I dared to guess that Akemi knew Shiho might like Moroboshi Dai.

Looking at the text message in Japanese, Akemi used the formal language 'ます', and didn't use the subject 'I' 

Then seeing from Akai and Akemi's conversation, Akemi used informal language. Isn't this a contradiction?. Did Akemi write this message to herself or for her sister happines? Or did Akemi write that message?

So, my brain hole about PS is that Akemi as an outsider who didn’t know anything about the organization or the drugs, suddenly with a self-confident determination of success wanted to get her younger sister out for no apparent reason, and Akemi might not be that stupid either, she must have known that when she robbed the bank, she would be imprisoned. So, why did she suddenly ask for a relationship with Moroboshi Dai, who is an FBI agent ?.

The chapter title when Akemi appeared was 悪魔の女' "The Devil Woman", looking at the case of Shiratori who thought the female killer was his first love saying "Women can turn from angel to devil", it has the same feeling, doesn't it?. So, my interpretation is that women can become a devil because of love, but the "love" here is meant for Shiho not Moroboshi Dai.

James said because Akemi can't forget Moroboshi Dai, she wanted to leave the organization. I personally think this is a narrative trick. Looking at James' dialogues in the red and black chapters, his dialogues was full of the bombs.

For example, James said Akai's relationship with the younger sister was 顔見知り(Not acquaintances, he only knew her face),

The difference between 顔見知りand 知り合い

顔見知り: they are not very close, only know each other's face

知り合い : he know her face and name, and have a certain degree of acquaintance with her.

The fact is Moroboshi Dai and Shiho were very close.

Next, James said "If the older sister doesn't succeed in the mission, the two sisters die". The fact is the organization never wanted to kill the younger sister. 

So, how much does the FBI know about Akai's past?

How much false information comes from the FBI?

How much truth can be trusted from the FBI?

How many narrative tricks are played on James and Jodie's dialogues?. 

Do you remember when she said she would return to the Dejima's house with her younger sister?. Looking at Akemi's attitude wasn't like a woman who hasn't moved on, she was very happy to prepare for her new life with her younger sister.

So, this hole in my brain about P.S is related to Shiho and Moroboshi Dai.

So, P.S can be in line with the content of the message and can be a reversal. The logic also can be in line with Akemi's "good sister" image and this logic can be in line with motivated Akai's decision to turn into Subaru and immediately come near to Ai. 

Jodie said the price of Akai's death was not comparable to Mizunashi Rena, and Bourbon also said Akai was a good hiding person, he could have hidden without wearing a mask.

Next..

Many readers think Shuichi confessed his FBI identity to Akemi because he fell in love. Personally, my guess is:

Seeing Scotch's death, Rye's promise of protection to Sherry, Elena's mirror that Akemi had but Shuichi didn't know about it, and the messages Akemi sent and he didn't respond it. That’s meant, Shuichi didn't pay much attention to Akemi, and has no emotional basis for her. So, it wasn't because he loved Akemi that he revealed his identity.

Remember, Shuichi was undercover in the organization for 5 years, he got the code name in 2 years. So, his contact with Shiho should be more often than spending his time dating Akemi. Akemi was just an outsider, how can she get Shuichi into the organization?, and the sisters rarely met. Maybe because of this, Akemi realized he was not like a real lover.

The most likely reasons are: Moroboshi Dai said the promise of protection for Shiho, based on Shuichi's morality as a red party, he must feel guilty, it's like 'I have used this person for three whole years', and he also wanted to protect Shiho, Akemi is her older sister. So, Moroboshi Dai had to explain to Akemi that he was just using her.

Moroboshi Dai broke up with Akemi, and the reason was an FBI undercover, which meant he was only pretending to be a couple because he was undercover. So, when it ended, Akemi had a hunch that Moroboshi Dai would go and separate from her, so Akemi burst into tears.

Seeing his attitude as Subaru, could tell Shuichi was a straight ball man, and the reason why Shuichi wanted to end it wasn't because he wanted to catch Gin. Seeing his dialogue he doesn't want to catch the members of the organization, Shuichi is smart, he must know that if he manages to catch Gin, Gin won't open his mouth. So, my guess is Moroboshi Dai did it to mislead the FBI, mainly because he wanted to protect Shiho. Moroboshi Dai dared to risk revealing his identity, not because he knew Akemi well, but because he trusted Shiho. So, Moroboshi Dai thought Akemi was not a threat.

The possibility that Moroboshi Dai never told information about Shiho to the FBI could be that he wanted to take Shiho out, so that Shiho would not be caught by the FBI. He wanted to hide Shiho from everyone.

In chapter 1072, many people speculated that Rum came to Teitan Elementary because Akemi revealed Shuichi's identity intentionally or unintentionally, it's possible that Aoyama is going to make a reversal of their separation 2 years ago, but I personally think the reason Shuichi's identity was revealed was due to Scotch’s death. After Scotch's death, it's possible that the organization was checked a lot of rats, and Rum was related 17 years ago case. How did she report Akai to the top members of the organization?. Her only contact was Shiho.

I personally prefer Akemi to have the setting of not knowing anything about the organization (not related to any important plot, she is only pulled when Aoyama wants to open a new plot like that drug introduction), her role is only as Haibara's older sister, just for Haibara, a naive woman.

So, the 1 billion Yen robbery was her first crime, then when she made a deal with Gin, she was sure she could fool Gin, but in fact she was the one who was fooled and didn't think she would be shot (That means she didn't know anything about Gin and how the organization works).

Therefore Akemi's mentality was not death, and PS is not a secret about the organization. If PS is the secret of the organization Akemi's mentality should have been prepared for her death by then. This has been explained before. I will explain it again.

A bit of denial from the perspective of many readers who think Akemi's mentality knew she is going to die. So, she wanted Akai to take care of her sister.

Camel : ️ ️だから赤井さんに電話で今回の作戦に適任な人材はいないかと聞かれた時、自ら運転手役に志願して日本やって来たんです、死ぬかもしれないと言われてましたが、結果的には赤井さんの彼女を死なせてしまったのは私のミスが原因ですから

赤井さんには彼女も覚悟していたことだから気にするなといわれていたんですがね

Camel : So, when Mr. Akai called me and asked if there was anyone suitable for this operation, I offered to be the driver and came to Japan. I was told that I might die , but in the end it was my fault that caused Akai's girlfriend to die.

Mr. Akai told me not to worry about that because she knew it (his identity).

彼女も覚悟していた: she also knew.

覚悟 is a polysemy, one of the meanings : to be aware (気がつく), to know (存知).

The translations in English is : "she had already made up her mind about Akai".

Based on the context of the previous sentence, its mean She already knew it about (his identity)

覚悟していた > "She prepared for danger...." it is correct, but "Danger" here refers to Akai's FBI identity.

So it didn't mean that Akai said Akemi was prepared for her death, but Akai told Camel that there was no need to feel guilty. 

Camel thought, because of his negligence Akai's FBI identity was exposed which caused Akemi's death. Before Camel's identity was revealed Akai had already told Akemi his identity and Akemi realized it.

So, Akemi's mentality before the robbery mission was that she was very confident with full intention of success. She will success in leaving the organization and bringing her sister. So, there was no need to entrust her sister to someone else. 

If Akemi had a death mentality back then, she should have told Shiho she hid the tapes at her father's old house, but Haibara had absolutely no idea about the hidden tapes. So, it means that when Akemi success from the robbery mission, she thought she could take Shiho to her father's old house and give the tapes. After all, didn't Akemi think that after her death, her sister will suicide?

Then, there are also some opinions saying PS regarding the Miyano couple's fire case, if the premise is like this, shouldn't Akemi told this to Shiho instead of Moroboshi Dai?, because it was related their parents, and Akemi's mentality must also be a death mentality. This would be a logical bug .

Let's look at the side ball analogy: Sato, Takagi & Yumi.

Then, what situations did Sato say this...

"Don't make fun of him, hurry up and find a good man"

A very similar dialog is as follows:

Brain hole:

In short, don't you think that the phrase "I’m fine" and keeps repeating it in Ai's memory, is rather meaningful ?. Then Akemi said "The only thing to worry about is you, Shiho". Could it be that Akemi saw Shiho's emotion change after Moroboshi Dai left ?. If my guess is correct then Ai's heart knot will be easier to open.

The Point is : Akemi is a normal girl without any plans or experience. She rarely met Shuichi at the level outside the organization, and had no chance to get to know Shuichi in depth (Akemi and Shiho rarely met). In this case, Akemi can clearly detect, the man didn't love her, he was just took advantage of their relationship, it can only show that Shuichi didn't make any effort to maintain their "relationship" from beginning till the end.

Akai Shuichi

Actually, whether Akai Shuuichi is Moroboshi Dai or Okiya Subaru, in their relationship with Miyano Shiho, they are just identities that can only exist at a certain stage. The name Akai Shuichi can represent the continuous entanglement of the characters' relationships from the past, to the organization, to the present, and even the future, thus becoming the highlight of Shiho CP's analysis.

Assuming that many people I've read before that the two did have a meeting in the United States, then based on the existing plot, I can make the following analysis.

In all Shiho CPs where Akai Shuichi's name is mentioned, it is inevitable to involve the so-called United States border. Currently, there is no sign of this in the plot, but I feel that most people, including me personally are likely to have this part among them, because I don't think Akai Shuichi knew the effects of the drug during the early days when he came to Japan, he only learned about the effects of Aptx when eavesdropping on Conan-Ai's conversation, he only knew Sharon was the ever-young Chris thanks to the disguise technique.

If the premise says Akai learned about Aptx from the Haneda Koji case, wasn't the effect of Aptx at that time killing not shrinking the body, the first case of Aptx was Kudo Shinichi and at that time Akai had betrayed and only Sherry knew Conan = Kudo. So when Akai caught a glimpse of Haibara on the street, he immediately recognized her and confirmed it in the full moon chapter when Vermouth called Haibara "Sherry", but if my guess isn't right, I'll get slapped.

The life trajectories of the two people seem to overlap on the timeline, and the overlapping period is the period of time when Shiho studied in the United States before returning to Japan, and Shuichi first arrived in the United States to join the FBI. Therefore, in terms of time, this conjecture is possible, since all assume Shiho's age when she returned to Japan was 13. Plus the clue from Elena's tape asking 11-year-old Shiho if she had a first love, and the clue was drawn in a large frame.

The first point is that Shuichi must have gotten to know Shiho unilaterally in the United States.

Shiho was sent to the United States before she could remember, but when the Akai family and the Kudo family met on the beach, Shuichi had not yet joined the FBI. At that time, Sera was about 6-7 years old, and Shiho was older than Sera. So when Shuichi met Shiho, Shiho had to be older than Sera's age, and she had to be able to remember things. In addition, Shiho's IQ is higher than normal people, and her mind is precocious.

If she knew Shuichi when she was in the United States, then when she met Moroboshi Dai for the first time, even if she didn't know his name, she should be able to recognize him immediately. However, based on the plot analysis, Haibara Ai remembers Moroboshi Dai several times, but does not connect with Akai Shuichi's character or American past, so if this conjecture is correct, then Shiho does not know the name Akai Shuichi.

Second point, I have two guesses about Shuichi Akai's acquaintance with Shiho.

The first guess is that when he joined the FBI, he started investigating the disappearance of Akai Tsutomu, and then quickly passed the Haneda Koji case, and followed the path to the Miyano couple and the black organization.

Regardless of whether he knew the relationship between the Miyano family and the Akai family at the time, as long as there were clues leading to the Miyano couple, it should not be difficult for the FBI to know the current situation of the Miyano couple. Shiho was just a little girl at the time, and had not officially joined the organization as a scientist. For the organization, there was no need to block the news, and the Miyano couple was dead at the time. Start with a living person. (In the episode when Subaru first appeared, he mentioned the case of checking the parents of the children)

So, after this conjecture, Shuichi should have investigated little Shiho when she was in the United States, since it was an investigation, of course he couldn't contact her directly. If the conjecture is true, then why his undercover target chose Akemi which can be interpreted as the fact that Shuichi's purpose of pursuing Shiho from beginning to end, but because of Shiho's age and her relationship with the organization. For reasons like closeness, he should start with Akemi.

But in fact, I personally prefer the second type of conjecture, which is that when Shuichi met Shiho in the United States, he didn't know her relationship with the Miyano couple and the Black Organization had any intersection at first, but for some reason, the genius little Shiho accidentally attracted Shuichi's attention, and since then has added a strong color to his memory just like the case of little Kudo meeting Shuichi on the beach. In the Ripple Chapter Shuichi has great respect for children.

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