#I hope this makes sense it’s 1 am and I gotta go to bed

[waitmyturtles]

I had a lot of fun with that episode 1. I don't know if I'll be able to muster weekly meta on Playboyy the Series, but I am a very devoted Cheewin Thanamin fan, especially for his work and acting on one of my fave and most honest shows of all time, Make It Right (1 and 2).

My personal ground rules about Cheewin's shows are: he likes a lot of stuff in his shows, whether it's trauma, chaos, sex, etc. Here, we have a lot of that stuff, AND a lot of actors, so writing about this is going to be a bit hard for me, because I AM going to mix up characters' names, I know it.

Personal accountability! I am definitely watching this to see what Cheewin will do with a Den Panuwat script -- Den Panuwat infamously (?) being one of the screenwriters for Only Friends, which, at least I feel, ended hugely disappointingly.

Den has not been shy about being shady towards the Only Friends ending vis à vis the different endings he wrote in the Only Friends novel. I cannot say if he had/has more "freedom," per se, in Playboyy to tell a story about sex and the Bangkok queer community that he tried to tell in Only Friends -- that's only fanon conjecture into territory I won't tread. In any case, will I feel, as a viewer, if I'm watching a more honest and authentic story about sex in Playboyy? That's a TALL order that I think my friend @lurkingshan would throw a newspaper at me for, but I admit I have my immature wishes -- especially out of spite towards Only Friends (again, accountability, I have OF PTSD and a huge OF hangover).

In any case, this episode was A LOT, and definitely through all the sex, there's a nibble of a story that's wiggling out. I look forward to getting to know Non/Nont more, and to learn about his twin (.... coincidence, huh), Nun/Nant. It's gotta be on Non to hold this story together, because the MDL description for this show is complicated and webby. Strong acting, homeboy, let's go. If I'm having the same feeling I had about Bed Friend after BF episodes 4/5, when I was like, damn, this trauma is A LOT A LOT, then yes, I'm concerned for Playboyy holding it together.

But: Cheewin is a chaos dude. YYY made NO sense, but it was SO MUCH FUN. Bed Friend ended up coming together beautifully. I'm gonna allow myself to hold a little hope.

But anyway, that was a hell of a romp, right? Whatever whatever, THAT WAS FUN, let's hope the story is loud enough to be heard over the chaos.

#playboyy #playboyy the series #cheewin thanamin #den panuwat

[nillial]

mutual 1: anyone ever think about bjork

mutual 2: Me and the bestie :) #selfie

mutual 3: does anyone hear that noise

mutual 4: Who want my recipe for grandma's chicken nuggets

mutual 5: I hope he can feel me schlermping his glermp from 10 million miles away

mutual 6: there's a really loud noise outside rn kind of spooky

mutual 7: feeling decidedly silly tonight might get a PhD in aerospace engineering

mutual 8: HELP TUMBLR ADDED A FEATURE WHERE AN ELDRITCH BEING REACHES OUT OF UR COMPUTER SCREEN AND TRIES TO GRAB YOU BY THE SKIN OF YOUR NECK HOW DO I TURN IT OFF

mutual 9: ummmm is anyone else hearing a really loud low humming sound?

mutual 10: for those asking how to turn off tumblrs new feature go into ur settings > dashboard preferences > turn off eldritch horror. hope this helps

mutual 11: oooooooh i cannot wait to see my best friend Bed and Blankie

mutual 12: i think i can tell where the noise is coming from

mutual 13: so are we all hearing the noise or

mutual 14: Has anyone asked nicely for the noise to stop

mutual 15: Im going to follow the noise

mutual 16: UGHHHH WHY IS MY DASH FULL OF THE NOISE............ well THATS another term to blacklist...................... literally shut up you guys I'm trying to look at destiel lenovo tech support/concerned customer AUs

mutual 17: GUYS IM SEEING A LOT OF POSTS ABOUT FOLLOWING THE NOISE. DO NOT FOLLOW THE NOISE. WE DO NOT KNOW WHAT IS IN THERE. STAY IN YOUR HOME

mutual 18: about to follow the noise LOL

mutual 19: i just asked my Twitter user friend what shes heard about the noise and she doesn't know what I'm talking about???? Does it only affect tumblr users?

mutual 20: I think I've reached the center of the noise

mutual 21: The noise sounds mad pleasant rn what if i followed it. Would you guys be mad at me

mutual 22: it's beautiful here

mutual 23: Guys please don't listen to anyone telling you to follow the noise it's dangerous

mutual 24: hey if you see me in the noise feel free to say hi :3

mutual 25: what if we entered the center of the noise.... and we were both girls

mutual 26: Guys you have to come see the noise it's legitimately the most gorgeous thing I've ever seen

mutual 28: i heard the noise has a ballpit

mutual 29: OKAY SO it turns out that the noise is another tumblr update thing. You've gotta go into settings > dashboard preferences > turn off The Beacon

mutual 30: this being a tumblr thing makes a lot of sense. first tumblr live then eldritch horror now big droning noise that compels you to follow it. tumblr live still sucks the worst tbh

mutual 31: Guys I just turned off the noise. Why am I in Idaho. I live in Germany

#hush lillian #can you guys tell im avoiding doing assignments #unreality tw

[smolwritingchick]

The Bangtan Gal Chapter 86- WINGS 8

Chapter Summary: After 3 years, Jennie finally dyes her hair for a BTS comeback and films her WINGS 8 Concept video.

Words: 9,000+

Author's Note: Some smol angst regarding Jimin's diet during the BST era. And mentions of anxiety. I apologize in advance :(

I'm going to create a smol chapter when it's around that time for the love yourself videos. I'd like to put my spin on it, not going too much into the crazy theories. I'm hoping to write more of Jen's story for it. And I wonder if I made it obvious who found Jennie for her WINGS video at the end of the chapter. I'll write about all that when it's around 2017 in the story. Some ideas sparked in my head when those videos were released years ago and I kept them in my old documents. I gotta revisit them and check out everything. 

 I had thought of this idea for her concept video and decided to just stick with it and have fun with it instead of stressing about making her fit "perfectly" in this comeback. Supernatural type of shiz. And I did some research on using a Damien quote from the book to add to it. I think it fits quite well imo.

I lost count of how many times I changed Jennie's WINGS song. It's getting ridiculous at this point. But for this, I decided to go a different route. Jennie has said that she wants to be a versatile artist, especially as she looked up to Rihanna as an inspiration for that, singing in different genres. 

I LOVE PVRIS! One of my favorite groups. I'm not too big on their new music and the direction they're going musically these days but am always vibing to their old stuff. I truly miss their old sound tbh.

I decided to choose a song called I Don't Wanna Do This Anymore from PVRIS' latest album, for Jen's song. I really like the vibe as it would showcase her skills on the launchpad and I love the lyrics. I'll probably switch it up a little bit. I wanted her song for WINGS to be blunt and a bit sad. Like literally she is telling people she does not want to do this anymore. She does not want to perform, she does not want to be famous, she wants out, which was how she felt during the situation of her sister's play and getting mobbed by all those people. So, she'll express those negative feelings in the song. And I thought of her changing the lyrics to be more optimistic as the song goes on. Maybe for the chorus. I even thought of the fan chant ARMY would do. She would sing negatively, and they'd respond positively. For instance, when RM sang "I wish I could love myself." for Reflection and ARMY shouted, "WE LOVE YOU!"

So yeah, I think that's it. I'm rambling but I'm not going to overthink it too much when it comes to her song for this album. I had a vision for her WINGS video and I kind of hope it makes sense. So I'm just going to go with the flow :) Happy reading!!

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Jennie made it back to America safely and Facetimed the boys to let them know. She was lying on her bed, feeling the jetlag as the boys expressed how much they were already missing her. After speaking to them, she finally had one on one time with Yoongi.

"And thanks again for the cookies. I tried to make them stretch but it was too good," he said. "Now I have to impatiently wait for you to return to make me some more,"

She giggled at that. "Sounds like a plan. I'm happy the mixtape is being well received,"

"Me too. So many streams on SoundCloud. Thank you again for your help,"

"Always. I knew it would do well,"

Once July 31/August 1 hit, How's This was finally released and Jennie got to watch the two Music Videos as well as the jacket shooting. She and Hyuna looked fun and the visuals were astounding. Now, of course, there were those kinds of fans that would complain that Jennie was acting 'too grown'. She already saw tweets about it with fans babying her and saying that she shouldn't act too sexy. But she chose to ignore it and just enjoy what she and Hyuna created.

She thought about the filming as she watched the jacket shooting video.

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Dressed in one of many outfits for the video, Jennie and Hyuna awaited instructions while they stood on the set that resembled a club different from the first music video.

"I'm getting more comfortable with this sexy vibe because of you. Doing this with you, I feel at ease. So, I am so stoked to be here with you today," Jennie told her with a smile.

Hyuna looked relieved. "I'm happy. I was a little nervous asking you if you wanted to do this. I sighed out of relief when I got confirmation that this collab was a go,"

When they saw that Cube wanted to film a documentary on this music video, they waved at the camera.

"Today Jennie is with me to film! I am so happy that she is a part of this fun song," Hyuna said, clapping her hands.

"Hi~!" Jennie hugged her from behind, waving to the camera. "We are ready to shoot~!"

"This is going to be fun! Stay tuned!"

Jennie let go of her and cheered, "Fighting!"

"Fighting!" she high fived her.

Jennie was filmed first and they started with shots of her being sexy and having fun inside the club while lip-syncing the song. Walking through the club, she met up with Hyuna who danced along with her. For How's This with the version with Jennie in it, the choreography was different and looked more fluid instead of all the body shaking. In Jen's opinion, this choreography fit better for the song after working on new moves with Hyuna. They performed the choreography in the crowd and then did some twerking shots.

As the crew prepared for the next take, the camera showed Jen and Hyuna talking again.

"How was the first music video shoot?" Jennie asked.

"It was fun! It went well. I kissed one of the guys on camera," Hyuna felt flustered about the mature kiss.

"OOP!" Jen covered her mouth, making her giggle and hold onto her. She turned to the camera and repeated herself, "OOP!"

For another shot, after an outfit change, Hyuna and Jennie danced together behind a background. It reminded them of a honeycomb as they lip-synced.

Before Jen knew it, she was in the area she wanted to film at the most. The DJ booth.

"My happy place. Look at it. I am in love," she pointed over to the DJ booth. "Errbody throw yo hands up, we getting' hot, hot, hot, hotter!" she sang her verse from fire cutely before giggling.

When filming commenced, she approached the DJ and asked if she could take over. Winking at him, she placed the headset on and began mixing for the party while dancing around. The party got more lively once she began to DJ while Hyuna joined her as they lip-synced the chorus.

eottae igeon eottae

eottae chumchuja

Up dwae igeon Up dwae

Up dwae chumchuja

Jen was filmed all over the place for her shots. Hyuna had a lot of shots already from the previous music video and Cube just needed more Jen and then her together with Hyuna. Shots consisted of her lying across a table while lip-syncing, dancing on the table, then filmed against the wall as she flipped her hair and swayed her hips around.

"Is this too much?" Jen giggled as she watched her shots with Hyuna.

'As if looks could kill. Her piercing gaze against the screen flusters Jennie'

"Oh no, I bit my lip," she laughed. "I didn't even notice. Pure instinct. We look good, though,"

The last shot consisted of a dance battle. Jennie had a group of black dancers with her against Hyuna and her dancers.

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Jennie smiled at the memory and was excited to perform it live near award season. After watching the videos, she scrolled through Twitter and saw what was going on. BlackPink had recently debuted and she loved their debut music videos. Although she was still hurt about 2NE1, she loved seeing new groups debut.

But because one of the BlackPink members was also named Jennie, it started some fan wars, which made no sense at all.

'Netizens compare BTS' Jennie to BlackPink's Jennie. Who is better?' read the latest controversial ALLKPOP article.

It didn't sit right with BlackPink and BTS fans as the comment section was filled with mixed reactions. It was drama waiting to explode.

'So we have a Black Jennie and a Korean Jennie'

'There can only be ONE Jennie and I choose BTS' Jennie'

'BP's Jennie is what BTS' Jennie wishes she was'

'Ugh STOP already'

'I think BTS' Jennie is better.'

'BP's Jennie has more charisma. BTS' Jennie still hasn't shown what she is all about. Her part in fire was cute but I wish she did more. I kinda gave up on her as my bias and moved on to Jimin'

'LOL I bet BTS' Jennie is threatened by BP's Jennie'

'BlackPink's Jennie showed more effort and energy in her debut than BTS' Jennie. Just stating facts. I'd take BlackPink's debut over BTS' any day'

'Jennie and Jennie. I love it. I hope they meet'

'Are you serious?!'

'Ew wtf is this article?'

'BlackPink's Jennie is still a rookie. She has a long way to go before getting up to BTS' Jennie's level'

'Can you not? This is disrespectful to both girls. They both are doing great'

'I'm tired of people comparing groups. Just love and support both'

'I hope they become friends'

'Eh...BP's Jennie is better and prettier. She wears better outfits too. BTS' Jennie has been looking rough for a while. She gained a few pounds too. I miss her debut look'

'Who cares? They both flop'

'BlackPink's Jennie ain't even all that.'

'The difference is BlackPink's Jennie knows how to rap. BTS' Jennie's little Full Moon cover wasn't that great. She annoying af'

'BTS' Jennie just doesn't have that IT factor like BP's Jennie does.'

'I like Blackpink's Jennie more'

''Stop pitting women against women. It's disgusting'

'Delete this article. They're both great'

Jennie frowned and rolled her eyes at the name of the article and scrolled past to look at something more positive. It seemed like they were trying to get her to reply and react but she refused. First, they did this with Alex Reid, and now BlackPink's Jennie. It needed to stop. She was not going to be the "mean girl" that the media wanted her to be and make people think that she hated or was jealous of other female idols like Alex and Jennie Kim.

The last thing she was going to do was let the media try to make her think negatively about someone whom she hadn't met. She refused to be sucked into this jealous and petty scenario with BlackPink's Jennie. She was excited about what BlackPink would be doing and wished the best for them.

Suddenly she received a notification from V-Live about Hobi going live and began to watch it.

"Oh, that's right. Bangtan is in Japan for their concerts," she murmured.

"We had our concert, tonight. It didn't feel the same without Munchkin with us. Jennie, if you are watching, I hope you are doing well," Hobi said on camera in his hotel room.

"Doing good, missing you guys," she sighed.

But then something weird happened on the live. The comments started bringing up other members. Fans then began to ask for Jungkook, V, Jimin, and Yoongi.

"No, they didn't..." Jennie looked on in disbelief at the comments.

All Hobi wanted was to spend time with Armies and now this happened. It made her upset and then she watched as he went to Jimin's room and then left abruptly after a few minutes. Jimin was also stunned because it was Hobi's phone on the live so what in the world?

Unable to keep her thoughts to herself, she went to Twitter to tweet about it.

'Are you KIDDING me? Did you REALLY just ask for other members while J-Hope was trying to talk to you? #Jen'

'No, like really the amount of disrespect is completely unacceptable. The hell is wrong with some of y'all? #Jen'

'You got me ALL the way f'ed up! Don't ever do that to Hobi #Jen'

'We take time out of our day to talk to you one on one but you ask for the others? You need to consider our feelings and how bad it makes us feel. #Jen'

Her tweets blew up and spread like wildfire as fans were commenting sorry and tweeted sad emojis. A lot agreed with her tweets while some others began to complain that she was overreacting.

'I know right!? Like how dare them?!'

'Ennie, we're sorry'

'These fans are so disrespectful. Please don't think all ARMY are like this.'

'I am so bothered by them doing that crap.'

'omg shut up,'

'You must be one of them asking for other members if you're telling her to shut up. YOU shut up! Jennie is speaking facts!'

'What are you so extra for? Calm down,'

'Here she goes always sticking her nose in everyone's business. All the way in America. Just stay in America and go away,'

'I cannot believe they did that. Ugh'

'GO OFF SIS! This infuriates me! Hobi don't deserve this'

'I'm so sad...'

'We don't deserve him'

'I cannot believe this. And they call themselves an Army?'

'Yeah...my heart is broken'

'IM SOOOOO MAD!'

'The sweetest sunshine ever and gets treated like this. I want to cry'

Jen then tweeted one final tweet before going on a social media break.

'ARMY, don't apologize to me. Apologize to Hobi...#Jen'

Later that evening after Jimin ended the live that was supposed to be him and Hobi, she facetimed him after he got his phone back.

"Hey, Jennie," J-Hope greeted with a fake smile but she saw right through it.

"Nah uh. Don't do that. Screw them for making you feel like that,"

"It's okay. Don't worry about it," he shook his head. "They just want to see the other members,"

"No. I will worry about it. You're upset and bummed out. I understand. I wish I was there to take you out and treat you to food or something. That was so rude of them and they are so ungrateful. Those aren't real fans. Don't let them get to you, okay? You have real fans who love and appreciate you. Love and respect you. Love and support you," she went on as he listened.

"Hobi, they can call me annoying or whatever for my tweets, I don't care. What just happened was wrong and unfair," she declared. "And if you don't want to be vocal about it, then I will because I refuse to sit here and let people do this to you. You don't deserve that. You should get just as much love and affection as the rest of us. I love and cherish you. Always. Don't ever forget that. I'm going to always have your back,"

Hobi broke out into a huge smile at her words and began to feel better. "Thank you, Jennie. I appreciate you cheering me up,"

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While being home, Jen spent the majority of her time in her room which was also her mini studio. Although she wasn't physically there with the group to work on their upcoming album, she still did her part and sent in her vocals and instrumentals.

For the WINGS album, she was going to be more involved in the music. For now, everyone is focused on their solo songs. She was first involved in working on Jungkook's song, Begin. Since she had been home, Jungkook had sent her his vocals and asked if he sounded OK. Every time was better than the last which boosted his confidence as he recorded. Jennie's role in his song was to play the guitar.

With her headphones on her ears, she played the guitar smoothly under his angelic vocals. Begin was about his journey to Seoul and meeting Bangtan. It was beautiful. The lyrics did not mention her but talked more about the rest of the boys. His brothers. Jungkook kept apologizing to her about it and said he had something planned for her in the future. She was not bothered by it at all and understood. If anything, her curiosity towards what he had planned for her rose as she thought about what he was going to do.

After sending the music back to Big Hit, she got confirmation that it was great and continued working on the rest of her assigned songs. Next up was Jimin's song called Lie. She worked on the background vocals and guitar for his song. Out of every solo song by the guys, this one was her favorite and she was so proud of him for his efforts. She couldn't help but smile as she listened to the demo track after putting her recorded guitar chords in it.

Closing her eyes, she began to focus on the emotion of the song and pondered on her background vocals. This song was about lying and the conflict due to lies and temptation. So, she wanted to try to have some emotion and desperation in her vocals to fit the tone. She recorded her light breathy 'yeahs' in the beginning and sang 'Naega malhae' under his voice.

Be smooth like a like a snake

beoseonago sipeunde

Hearing an opening instrumental part after his voice, she hummed but shook her head, stopping the song.

"Nah...maybe it should be better. Humming is too common. I should do something different," she pondered, taking off her headphones.

She spent the next hour working on what would fit during that part. Her notebook with crossed out words and random lyrics was all over her papers as she worked on thinking what would work for his song. She wanted something to pop and to be memorable.

"Ah...woo...woo." she wrote down. 

She began to sing it out several times in diverse ways until she found a tone that fit with the song. 

"I should make it a little haunting when I edit it. A tad bit of autotune or something..."

Putting her headphones back on, she stood by her microphone and pressed record as it played Jimin's song. The first opening notes were clear enough to give listeners one hell of an eargasm. The producers that put the violin and other string instruments were geniuses.

"Yeah," she said in a high, breathy tone while looking at her notebook in her hands.

As soon as Jimin's voice filled her ears, she sang softly under his vocals, "Naege malhae..."

Neoui dalkomhan misoro naege

"Naege malhae..."

soksagideut nae gwitgae malhae

"Yeah. Don't be like a prey, be smooth like a like a snake,"

beoseonago sipeunde

Finding that inner strength in her voice, she belted out, "Ah woo woo~"

naegeseo tteona tteona tteonajwo

naegeseo tteona tteonajwo

"Ah woo woo~"

mworado nareul nareul guhaejwo

nareul guhaejwo

This song was such a bop as she swayed around to the song, focused.

gyesokdwae domangchyeobwado

geojit soge ppajyeoisseo

Caught in a lie!

"I'm drowning, I'm losing myself. I can't disobey, I can't break away..." she sang emotionally under his vocals.

nae useumeul dollyeonwajwo

Caught in a lie!

"This torment gets worse every day."

i gotongeseo heeonal su eobseo

beolbanneun nareul guhaejwo

After recording everything multiple times, she went on to edit and made sure her vocals fit nicely under his. Things were coming together as that bright smile appeared on her face. She was so satisfied with this. She hoped he and the producers like it when they did their final touches.

Her phone buzzed and she sat back in her seat to read a text from Jimin.

Jimin: Ennie, I know you're awake! Don't stress over it too much. Get some sleep, okay? We can work on the song tomorrow.

Jen: Facetime me. I just sent you what I created :D

It didn't take long for them to be on Facetime together as Jimin was thrilled to see her face.

"Ennie! What time is it over there?"

"Late but it's okay," she said and yawned.

"You should really go to bed. You look so sleepy," he looked concerned for her when he noticed her tired eyes.

"I know, I know. I will."

"I miss you," he pouted.

"And I miss you, too. Don't worry, I'll be back in Korea before you know it,"

"Well, I hope it's soon! It's not the same without you here," the 95 Liner shook his head. "The guys...I...we're kind of all over the place without our Bangtan Girl to keep us in order. We're a bit of a mess. It's weird without you. We just want you to come home,"

His words made her heart leap as she felt emotional, yet again. But then the word 'home' struck her. She was already 'home' in America. But the fact that he said 'home' as in living with them in Korea made tears appear in her eyes.

"Jimin..." she smiled sadly. "It won't be much longer, I hope. Being away from you and everyone else in Korea is a struggle. As soon as I come back, I will nap this jetlag off and we can all go out to eat,"

"I would like that very much, Ennie. So, you wanted me to call you?"

"Yes. Check the email. I sent my work for your song. I hope it sounds okay."

"Wait, you finished it?! All of it? Your background vocals and all?"

"Yeah! I just gotta finish up Stigma and the others,"

"You worked on it so quickly."

"Well, you are a priority," she smiled softly, earning an adorable eye smile from him.

Him a priority? That made his heart leap.

"I played around with it and I like how it sounds. Play it. If you like it, I will send it to the producers to see if they give it the OK. And if you want me to change something, let me know."

Opening up the file, Jimin played it for both of them. The look in his eyes when he heard her guitar was priceless.

"Oh-my-God," he blurted out in English, causing her to laugh. "They have to accept this! This is-this is so good! Thank you for doing this for me. I hope this version makes it on the album after they do their final touches. And if they reject it, let us release it on SoundCloud. Army should hear this,"

"Sounds like a plan,"

After shutting down her computer and ending her call, Jen sat on her bed and tuned in to Jin's Eat Jin V-Live on her laptop. There he was with Jungkook and Jimin rambling about various things. And they had her cracking up with their bickering when they playfully fought over snacks.

But once fans brought up Jennie in the comments, her heart ached as she realized how much she missed the guys. Especially Jungkook. She missed his hugs. How he would hold her firmly and gaze down at her with that adorable smile of his. This visa needed to hurry up and go through. She wanted to wrap her arms around her man again.

"How is Jennie?" Jin read the comment. "My sweetie is doing fine. She has been working very hard. Please look forward to her return. Jennie, you are missed dearly,"

She let out a chuckle, "I miss you, too..."

"I miss your baking, too," he added, making her laugh at the screen. "Bake for me when you come back. Just don't tell the others,"

"We're sitting right here, Hyung!" Jimin called out. "Bake for me, not him!"

"Hush!" Jin playfully smacked him while Jungkook laughed. Turning back to the camera like he knew she was watching, he continued. "The dorm doesn't smell that great without your bath and body works items. You know, the ones you always buy for us. Please return soon and get the visa straightened out. I look at your picture in my wallet every day," he showed Armies the photo of him and her back in 2015.

"He still has that picture?" Jen murmured as she smiled.

"Jungkookie misses her the most," Jimin teased, making the Golden Maknae blush and look down shyly.

"Of course, she's my best friend. I bet she misses me more than you two," Jungkook added.

"Lies! I am Jennie's favorite," Jin stated.

Laughing, Jennie went on to text Jungkook.

Jen: Awwww this live is too cute. I miss you guys, more. I'll be back soon. P.S: I miss you the most, Kookie. I love you. Can't wait to hug and kiss you again

Ding!

The sound of bells was heard as Jungkook looked down at his phone. He read her text with a big smile and looked up at the camera like he felt her looking back at him. It made her heart flip and her face warm up with the way he stared at the camera. Meanwhile, Armies were gushing over the loving gaze Jungkook was showing out of nowhere.

'Why tf is he staring so hard like that?! He looks so hot!'

'Omg Jungkook is showing so much boyfriend material right now.'

'That stare! He's making me blush!'

'Jungkook a warning would have been nice!'

"Who was that?" Jin asked.

"Jennie. She's watching the live," Jungkook smiled brightly.

"She texted YOU and not me!?" he complained.

"Hey, that ringtone sounded familiar. Like a bell. Why a bell?" Jimin teased.

"No reason, Hyung. I thought it sounded nice," Jungkook shrugged.

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The next day, Jennie started to work on her solo song. Bangtan's solos were supposed to go by age. The plan was for her song to be the first but Big Hit switched it and made her song last. The boys had begun filming for their WINGS films while she hadn't yet. A lot of big things will be happening for this comeback. One of them was her hair was finally going to get dyed. She was nervous because everyone had anticipated her having a new hair color since debut and she wanted it to be worth the wait.

With her solo song, she thought the lyrics and instrumentals were fine. But every time she sent it to the producers, they told her something was missing and it frustrated her. How come everyone else's song was fine but her song was getting the most criticism? Her song was different. Experimental even. This wasn't a sound that is usually in BTS. She'd showcase her DJ skills on the launch pad and guitar.

"Do you feel like singing today?" Pdogg asked as she sat on a video call with him and Slow Rabbit.

Jennie furrowed her eyebrows. "Of course I do. Why wouldn't I?"

"Because to me, it seems like you don't feel like singing,"

She sighed sharply, trying to not let her annoyance get to her. "I'm doing the best I can,"

"It's missing something, Jennie. It's almost there but something is missing," Slow Rabbit added.

"Look, this is the best I can do," she exclaimed.

"No, it isn't," he shook his head. "I know you can do better to make this song even more enhanced. Shout it out. Scream it,"

"I'm trying to shout it,"

"Well, you aren't shouting it," Pdogg said. "You need to dig down deep and sing out what you're feeling for this song,"

"Here, take a break from working on your song, today. Work on the guitar for 2! 3! and Lost. Send it when you're finished," Slow Rabbit said.

"Fine," she nodded and ended the call. 

She sighed loudly out of annoyance and ran her hair back with her hands.

"Fuck my life..." she complained.

She didn't want to work on anything at this point, she was so bothered by what they told her. After a moment of getting herself together, she did what she was told, playing the guitar for Lost and 2! 3! 

After she sent it in, she was praised for her efforts and had the rest of the day off from working on music. But her song continued to be on her mind. How much better can she do for this song? What else did they want? What was missing? She did want to sing. She sang as passionately as she could.

"What do you want me to do...?" she complained softly.

She went back to the document for her song and stripped all her vocals to start over. She listened to the instrumental of her song and sighed, understanding what she had to do.

'You want me to go back to that dark place...' she thought.

She didn't want to. She didn't want to think about it. She even had second thoughts about picking this song for this album but it was way too late to change now. This song was to express how she felt the day she got mobbed during her sister's play. Sure, it happened last year but that anxiety she felt and the whole experience still traumatized her. All those hate comments, the pressure, the high expectations, and the growing fame, began to overwhelm her as she realized that she was not a normal teenager anymore.

She'd always appear to have a smile on her face but deep down she was scared and in the back of her mind would always wonder when this would all come crashing down. 

That dreaded day of Vienna's play made Jen want to stop performing entirely and just go back home and deal with school, no longer being in the spotlight. To try to grasp what normality she had left. But after the support from everyone after that incident, she wanted to try to face all that negativity and destroy it with positive thoughts once and for all. This would be a start to that. To sing about it and twist it to optimism.

As she sat by her desk, she put her headphones on.

"Okay...let's go back to that nightmare..."

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After crying, belting out high notes, and singing out her pain, she made the producers happy with her new and improved vocals and took a break from singing to dance.

Jen continued practicing the choreography for Blood, Sweat, and Tears, which will be BTS' comeback song in October. She was in the living room, performing a demo version of the song while Vienna and Alani were on their phones chilling nearby. Mr. Son and J-Hope sent her videos of where she will be and her choreography for the comeback.

It was...very sexy. This seemed like it was going to be a sexy comeback.

As she worked on perfecting her movements, she sent them recordings of her craft to get feedback.

After dancing for a few hours, she took a break and watched Family Guy with her sisters on the couch.

Buzz Buzz Buzz

A video from Jimin? What was he up to now? Since she left, the boys had sent her funny videos and photos. This was probably one of them.

"Ooo another video? Let's watch it! They crack me up!" Alani said.

"Yeah, why not?" Jennie pressed play while her sisters joined her in to watch.

The video showed Jimin, V, and Jungkook goofing around and practicing BST in the practice room.

"Jungkook! Imagine the floor is Jennie!" Jimin called out.

Out of nowhere, Jungkook did his signature handstand for the song, slowly lowering himself on the floor to grind against it.

"Jennie..." he said in a low voice, smirking at the camera.

"AHHHHHHH~!" her sisters screamed around her while Jen dropped her phone and shrieked.

"He did NOT just do that!" Alani shouted.

"And said your name like that! Are you two-"

"No!" Jen exclaimed, cutting Vienna off with her face flushed.

"You sure!?"

"Yes!"

"I dunno man, that sounded like that's not the first time he said your name like that~!" Alani added.

"Oh my God! Stop!" Jennie covered her face.

Vienna grabbed the phone and replayed it so they could watch the entire video. Her sisters continued to freak out around her from his floor grind.

Jennie was NOT expecting a video like this. She thought it would be meme faces. Not him grinding against the floor.

'Wow, I wish I was under him...' she thought before shaking the dirty thoughts away.

My gosh, what was he doing to her? Everything he was doing made her squirm.

After he finished grinding on the floor, Jin was heard yelling to stay professional while Jimin and V laughed.

Her sisters kept replaying the video, expressing how surprised they were.

"Is this really your boyfriend? Because whew, the duality...girl..." Vienna fanned herself.

"I'm a little nervous about how he can turn into such a cute boy to something like this," Alani added.

"Right? He is so adorable and then he ends up popping out like this. No wonder so many girls swoon over him. Jen, watch out for all them female idols after your man," she teased.

"You know, you were staring kind of hard at the screen," Alani called Jennie out.

"I was not!" Jennie exclaimed as she grabbed her phone.

"She's so flustered," Vienna laughed with Alani.

Alani snatched the phone from her hands and ran to their mom who walked out of the kitchen to see what the ruckus was about.

"Mom! Get a load of this!" Alani laughed.

"Stop it! Give it! Mom, it's not what it looks like! Get off me, V!" Jen shouted as Vienna held her down while Alani showed the video.

"Um...what is he doing to my youngest?" their mom asked, wondering what the heck was happening.

"Nothing! Nothing at all! He was just messing around!" Jen said and got let go.

"You think he was? He looked pretty serious," Vienna teased.

He was just joking...right?

Or perhaps he wasn't. Because her head began to go crazy with the way he said her name so low like that. It'll be something that wouldn't be out of her mind for a while as she plotted a way to get him back for making her so flustered in front of her family.

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With Jimin and V, they waited for her to reply. Curious as to why she had not responded yet, they looked back at the message and saw that she had read it. The two burst out into laughter.

"Jungkook, I think you killed your girlfriend," Jimin giggled.

"I did?" he asked, surprised. "What happened?"

"She hasn't responded to the video and left us on read this entire time," V laughed.

"I-I didn't make her uncomfortable, did I?" Jungkook asked with worry.

"Nah, don't worry, it's the other way around, Jungkookie! Hehe, you'll see. Just give her a moment to pull herself together. I'm sure she's quite flustered as we speak because of you," Jimin smiled confidently.

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Back with Jennie, she continued to pull herself together. This man may just be the death of her. She then thought about the time she and Jungkook performed the coming of age ceremony in the practice room and recorded themselves. Man, those lyrics...

Jen: Jimin wtf!?

Jen: Wtf is he grinding on the floor so hard for!?

Jimin: kekekeke it took you a while to reply. You liked it, didn't you!?

Yes. Yes, she did.

Very much actually. To the point, she wanted to be the floor.

Jen: Okay yes but he needs to calm tf down! He can't be doing stuff like that when I'm not there! I'm suffering here!

Jen: omfg wait don't tell him I said that!

Jimin: Tell Jungkook. Okay. Got it

Jen: Jimin! NO!

"She liked it," Jimin laughed and showed Jungkook the messages.

Jungkook laughed, feeling his cheeks warm up. A large part of him felt relieved that she liked it. 

Maybe they could make it a reality soon.

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As the days went by she continued to finish up working on the choreography, and went to Facetime with Jimin. Things were beginning to appear...off about him. And the sad part about it was that she knew.

She knew all too well what was going on.

She didn't want to believe it. She thought that her mind was playing tricks on her but his face was slimming down at a rapid rate and it began to worry her.

"Jimin?" she called out his name softly after he stopped laughing at his story about pranking Hobi.

"Yes, Ennie?"

"Did you eat today?"

Jimin's stomach dropped at her question. Of all days she had to be so observant. He would only eat once a day and tried not to eat a lot to lose as much weight as possible for their next comeback. It was an intense choice and he had already been feeling the side effects such as dizziness and fainting as he tried to work hard on his dancing.

"Yeah, why?" he lied, feeling his heart ache.

He hated lying to her. He knew she would do anything to get him to stop if she had known what he was doing in Korea.

Jennie narrowed her eyes slightly, watching his body language.

'You're lying to me...' she thought sadly.

"I dunno, to me you just look a little smaller in the face," she admitted.

"I'm eating, don't you worry, Ennie," he flashed her an eye smile

"I really hope you are..." she murmured. "Just take care of yourself, please. Promise me that?"

"...I promise."

"Okay...I have to go. I'll talk to you later,"

"A-all right. Bye Ennie,"

"Bye, Chim Chim," she ended the call and exhaled.

"I truly hope you're okay..." she murmured, fearing for the worst.

After her conversation with him, she scrolled on Twitter to check out what Armies had been saying about her while she was away. She was pleased to see how much she was missed.

'I'm so upset Jennie isn't in the ISAC this time because of her visa.'

That made her realize that today was the day everyone would be filming for ISAC. She was bummed she couldn't play volleyball this year. Instead, she would be cheering Bangtan on miles away whenever they sent her videos and photos.

'Whatever team she was supposed to be in volleyball would have won'

'ISAC probably made sure to schedule it when she couldn't attend since they know the other girl idols can't beat her in volleyball. Their loss'

'ISAC knows damn well Jennie will beat every single female idol in volleyball. They just don't want her to shine. They did that for The Boss Is Watching. We didn't forget!'

Snickering at the comment and agreeing, Jennie went on and liked it on BTS' Twitter which quickly got a reaction from fans.

'OMG I KNOW SHE WAS THE ONE THAT LIKED IT!'

'She liked!!'

'Who else would like it from their page? Jennie knows what's up!'

'Ooooo she's watching us'

'Lmaooooo she knows!'

'She soooo petty. The shade!'

'This confirms it!'

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With Jungkook, after filming for the show, he went to visit Namjoon in his studio. He had a lot on his mind regarding his relationship with Jennie. And he felt like Namjoon was the best person to talk to.

"Hyung," Jungkook spoke up.

"Jungkook," he greeted with a smile and gestured for him to come in. "What brings you here?"

"I uh...can I talk to you? I figured you were the best one to talk to about something like this,"

"Yeah, of course. Shut the door and take a seat,"

As soon as Jungkook plopped down on the seat next to him, he sighed. "It's about Jennie,"

"Is everything all right between you two? I know you've been feeling down because of the distance,"

"I'm fine. And yeah, things are great. It's just that...well she...she's just...on my mind a lot lately and I can't stop thinking about her in that way."

Namjoon immediately knew what he meant and nodded. 

So, it was about that time, huh? 

He had a feeling this was going to be happening sooner or later with how touchy he's been with her, lately. And with that floor grinding video, it didn't just look like a simple video to mess with her.

"I had a feeling this was going to happen sooner or later. Have you told her any of this?"

"No, I...I want to but part of me chickens out,"

"You two talk about everything. Why do you think this conversation will be different?"

"I just don't want to turn her off or scare her away, I guess. Or make things awkward if she's not ready like I am,"

"Communication is key and Nini is extremely understanding. You're overthinking it. She loves you and is not going to be scared away that easily. When you feel ready, speak to her about this. And make sure you two are alone for this conversation. Not when the boys are around and acting loud,"

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After spinning around in her seat, Jennie played what she had worked on for Taehyung's solo song, Stigma. She helped with the background vocals with jazzy oohs and ahs. She smiled at how his voice sounded. His high note was astonishing to hear and she couldn't wait to hear it live when they go on tour.

For Suga's solo, First Love, she played the guitar for it and noticed the hidden melody of So Far Away which had gotten her emotional.

"Take a break!" a loud voice startled her. Jennie turned her head to see Alani by her door, arms crossed. "You've been on that thing all day. A break won't hurt. The album ain't going nowhere. And you finished everything so just chill for once,"

"Nooooo, I feel like there is still work to be done," Jen complained.

Alani simply rolled her eyes and left.

"Well, that was easy to get her to leave me alone," she murmured.

While she continued working, she suddenly heard music blasting which happened to be Rihanna's Pon De Replay. Before she knew it, Vienna and Alani came in with a large speaker, dancing.

Come, Mr. DJ, song pon de replay

Come, Mr. DJ, won't you turn the music up?

"Oh my God..." Jennie covered her face with her hands, laughing softly. "Really?"

"Come on~! Living room, let's go!" Alani said over the music, holding the speaker.

"Rihanna dance party! Take a break! No more album work, today!" Vienna grabbed Jennie and dragged her downstairs with them.

After Alani set the speaker on the floor, she continued to dance around Jennie with Vienna.

"No more thinking about work today. Loosen up and dance with us. It's Rihanna! Come on~!" Alani exclaimed, earning a sigh from her youngest sister. "If you ready to move say,'"

"Yeah, yeah!" Jen sang with a smile.

"One time for your mind say it,"

"Yeah, yeah!" her smile got wider and she joined in to dance with them. "Well, I'm ready for ya, come let me show ya. You want to groove, I'ma show you how to move. Come, come,"

"There you go~!" Vienna cheered.

It was good to take a break and Jen was thankful for her sisters. She did feel overwhelmed with this album dropping in October. There were high expectations and she wanted to make sure she did everything she could to make the songs great with the small role she was given.

Where Have You Been came on as Vienna tried to remember the choreography.

Where have you been?

'Cause I never see you out

Are you hiding from me, yeah?

Somewhere in the crowd

"I learned it in a dance class a while back. Hold on," Vienna began to think as she stood in the middle of her sisters.

Once the beat dropped, she executed the dance break with no errors while her sisters followed her.

"Oh~! I remember! From the music video!" Alani added.

"When Rihanna and the dancers did that pose that looked like an eye? Top tier!" Jen praised.

"Yeah, that was the coolest thing," Vienna beamed.

As songs like What's My Name, Hard, and Umbrella came on, the trio sang their hearts out while bouncing around the living room and on the couch. Once Breakin' Dishes blasted on the speaker, they became excited since it was one of their favorite Rihanna songs.

"I was waiting for this one!" Vienna yelled happily.

"Are we singing it like we usually do?" Jennie asked with anticipation.

"Let's switch it up!" Alani suggested.

"All right, I'll go," Vienna offered.

He been gone since 3:30

"3:30!" Jen shouted.

Been coming home lately at 3:30

"3:30!"

As the chorus came on, the trio danced around, pretending to be angry while shouting out the lyrics.

I'm breakin' dishes up in here, all night

I ain't gon' stop until I see police lights

"I'm still waiting, come through the door. I'm killing time, you know, bleaching your clothes!" Jennie sang the second verse like she was tired of a man's BS. "I'm roasting marshmallows on the fire. And what I'm burning is your attire. I'm getting restless,"

"Uh!" Alani shouted.

"I'm getting tested!"

"Let him know!"

"And I can't believe he's always out every night and never checks in!"

"He cheating?"

"Is he cheating? Man, I don't know. I'm looking 'round for something else to throw!" Jennie grabbed a pillow and threw it.

After spending the next hour partying to Rihanna's songs, Jennie went to plug in her music and pressed shuffle. Fall Out Boy's Irresistible came on which made her smile.

"Hey, didn't you make a cover of this song recently?" Vienna asked.

"Uh huh!" she beamed, thinking about the series of covers she had done and posted on BTS' SoundCloud for ARMY.

"Did Fall Out Boy notice you, yet?"

"Yeah! I met them! They're so cool! I hope we can collaborate, soon!"

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With Matt Rife, he continued to search on social media about Jennie, getting to understand who she was and what she did. He even checked out some fan accounts about her and thought she was even cuter than he anticipated. What surprised him the most was that she was taking self-defense classes. Her teacher had posted a recent video of her throwing him over her hip for a quick takedown after grappling him. Matt was astonished by how strong she was.

What a beauty.

He scrolled through the comments as fans geeked out that she was doing fine in America and raved about how strong she was.

'Omg she really did that!'

'I feel bad for the members if they try to mess with her now, lol'

'RIP Jin! She's preparing for their wrestling match!'

'Can she throw me like that on the ground?'

'If she throws me like that, I would say thank you'

'She can punch me in the face anytime!'

'MOM!'

'Wow, she's so strong'

'I love that she's taking self-defense classes. I want to take them now.'

Soon after, he couldn't help himself and wrote a comment too.

'@JJennie_JW you can throw me like that anytime ;)'

And of course, he was told by Armies to back off.

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For a while, ARMY began to notice a shift in Jungkook's demeanor. He did not seem as happy as he usually was and his jokes weren't common like they used to be. Sure he'd smile and laugh whenever he was with the members but the truth was that this distance between him and Jennie was difficult to adjust to. It did make him ponder about this being a preview for when he goes off to the military.

Twitter noticed his attitude change and made threads about him being unhappy. Along with that, people were asking about Jennie and her future with BTS because it seemed like she wasn't doing anything or being involved anymore.

'Okay WHERE is Jennie? Thread'

'Guys Jennie has not been active with BTS in a while. She has not been with them for their recent concerts or V-Lives and I am worried something bad happened'

The thread went on to come up with various theories on the matter while armies were quick to put in their two cents.

'I hope she isn't leaving BTS.'

'Yeah, where tf is she? And she hasn't posted anything in a while! That's unusual! BTS stay posting but there is nothing about her these days'

'They talk about her on vlive so that's a good sign things are fine, right?'

'You think she fought with a member or something?'

'Come to think of it, maybe that's why Jungkook has been looking off these days. They may have fought and aren't on speaking terms'

'Like you see the body language of Jungkook lately? They had a bad argument and aren't friends anymore'

'What? What kind of mess is that? That's a dumb theory'

'You guys are dumb. It's her VISA'

'A visa doesn't take that long to go through. She should be back by now'

'Come to think of it, yeah, you may be right. I'm sure things are finished by now and she could come back to Korea'

'I think her visa is taking longer than usual and that's why. Relax,'

'Maybe Big Hit is just letting her spend more time with her family like the perfect company they are!'

'Nah, Big Hit is sabotaging her. She should be back with Bangtan'

'No, they're probably letting her spend more time in America before coming back. They're a great company and allowing her to spend time with her family. Calm down'

'No, they're not a great company! They are ruining her! She needs to get out of there. I hate seeing her inactive'

'All y'all need to just trust that things with Jennie are going to be fine. Stop making everyone anxious about this. Jennie is still with BTS'

Since Jennie still couldn't go back to Korea yet, the staff decided to fly to America to film her Wings 8 video. They rented a big space to make sure they had all they needed for the short film. The company decided to have her video and song be the last ones out of the group. The solo videos were going to begin getting released around September 4th and her video was scheduled for September 19th before they changed plans and made her show up last.

Despite working on the album, Big Hit still wanted her to remain off social media. It had been hard since she wanted to engage with fans and shout out other idol groups for their comebacks like Monsta X and Got7 but she did what she was told.

'Short Film Making Story'

'#Evermore'

With the camera filming her getting ready, she happily waved to it and began to speak.

"Hey, it's your girl Jennie and today I am here to film my Wings short film! And look! My hair is finally dyed! Frickin red! Ahhh~!" she cutely jumped up and down and showed it off before letting the stylist continue their work. "Now y'all can stop asking me every single comeback! I mean look at this! Look! This hair is amazing! I look so good! I'm glad I went through with it. Red looks great on me! Rihanna vibes!"

"She cried," the stylist put her on blast.

'Miss Bangtan Is Put On Blast'

Jennie stared at the stylist, astounded. "I-I didn't cry!"

"Yes, you did. You were like, 'Oh God please let my hair be okay. Please don't let it fall out or get damaged,'" the stylist teased.

"Shut it!"

Jen went over to the set that looked similar to an airport as she wore jeans and a black and white hoodie with a messy bun.

"I have no idea what the guys are doing for their short films," she added. "But since I'm here in America, the staff came here so we can film. Even though I'm having some visa issues, that doesn't mean I'm stopping my bag. We're making this work. I want you to see a different side of me for this comeback. I hope you look forward to it and keep cheering me on,"

She was given a bag to carry as the stylists did the finishing touches to her hair and makeup. 

"I'm supposed to be playing three people today," she announced to the camera with a nervous expression. "My regular self as you see now and then my dark and good personas. Kind of like an angel and a devil on your shoulders. It's going to be cool how the video is going to be created."

"Action!" the director announced.

Jen went on with the role, walking through the airport, clutching her bag. She looked around frantically before rushing into the women's bathroom. 

After recording her walking a couple of times to get all the right angles, she was then filmed in front of a bathroom sink. She placed her palms on it with a troubled facial expression as she stared at herself in the mirror. Before she knew it, she backed away, startled, and began to look confused.

For the scene with her back in the home she was in for the I Need U MV, she did a costume change, wearing a black suit with a black lace bodysuit under it. This time she was playing her evil persona with her hair down.

"I lowkey always wanted to play an evil person. I wonder how long it'll take for me to get into character. My sister helped me practice for the role. I hope she likes my acting and doesn't roast me for it. My acting lessons will pay off too!" she laughed. "I'm supposed to be speaking to myself. It'll be weird speaking to air but in the video, it'll have all three of me in the shot. So, you'll see how it all develops,"

Once she heard action, Jennie leaned her back against the counter and glanced over nonchalantly at her dead ex who was on the floor.

"Welp..." she murmured coldly and turned to where her other self would be leaning over the counter. "Hey. Pull yourself together."

'Jennie channels her inner evil self with charisma'

"Come on, let me take over. I'm tired of this 50/50 fight," she said smugly like she was looking at the good persona of herself.

For the last shot, Jennie sat in the waiting room of the airport, playing some notes from her solo song on the guitar. While she played, someone walked over to her which caused her to stop and acknowledge the person. The camera remained on her, only showing the person's footsteps to keep viewers guessing who had found her.

Once the director announced that the shot was finished, everyone cheered while Jennie happily jumped out of her seat and bowed politely.

"Thank you! Woo! I'm done~! Yay! I can't wait for the video to drop! Look forward to it ARMY!" she waved goodbye to the camera.

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Wings 8: Evermore

"I wanted only to live in accord with the promptings which came from my true self. Why was that so very difficult?" Jennie narrated from Demain before the screen faded in to reveal her feet running through the airport.

It panned up to her back as footsteps and her heavy breathing were heard. She had been running and slowed down the pace to speed walk. There was hardly anyone in the airport as she looked around, clutching her bag tightly with her guitar on her back. She appeared troubled as several thoughts went through her mind like she did something regretful and thought someone was going to find her.

All that was on her mind was that she had to leave. Asap. She could not stay here. Not after what happened.

Finding the women's bathroom, she rushed into it and set her bag and guitar down against the wall. Jen exhaled sharply, and approached a sink, placing her palms on it. Slowly, she looked up to meet her reflection in the mirror.

"You're okay..." she whispered to herself.

She looked fine but on the inside, she felt like hell. Upon looking at herself, she was startled when a woman that looked exactly like her, stared at her from behind. Only not in a bun but with her hair down and black clothing.

This dark figure she stared at smirked softly, which caused Jennie to look confused.

What was going on? Why was she staring at herself wearing different clothes and hair? The dark figure even had the same white butterfly necklace in contrast with the dark clothes.

Jen tilted her head to the side and watched as the figure copied her movements. She then tilted her head to the other side and watched as the figure did the same. Swiftly turning around, she was met with nothing. The woman was gone.

She took a few steps forward. Okay, maybe she was imagining things.

But little did she know, the dark figure was behind her. When Jennie turned around, her face was cupped into the dark figure's hands, and her forehead pressed against hers, ending the shot as the screen went black.

For the next shot, Jennie was back at home where she was in for the I Need U MV. She had on the same white dress from the MV with the messy bun still intact.

She stood against the kitchen counter with her forearms on it. Her face remained emotionless as she thought about what had just happened.

The camera panned over to the feet on the floor that belonged to her ex. To ease her nerves, she tapped her shaky fingers against the glass of water she had in her hands. Her mind began to fog up with negative thoughts about her fate.

Abruptly, the dark persona of hers leaned her back against the counter, crossing her arms. She glanced at the body nonchalantly.

"Welp..." her dark persona spoke coldly. She had no remorse for the man. She turned to Jennie and watched as she was still in a state of shock. "Hey. Pull yourself together..."

A loud sigh was heard as Jennie's good persona stood on the other side, facing the counter. She wore a white suit and her red hair was straightened. A black butterfly necklace was placed around her neck as she stared at the body sympathetically. She placed a hand on Jennie's shoulder.

"Are you all right?" her good persona asked.

"Of course, she is. He got what he deserved," her dark persona answered, earning a frown in return.

"It was an accident,"

"An accident? Please...if he's dead, he deserved it," her dark persona bluntly replied.

"She is not a bad person," her good persona denied and removed her hand from Jennie.

"That's where you're wrong. There's a bit of evil in all of us and you know it," her dark persona turned to Jennie who continued to look forward. A wicked smile crept on her lips. "I bet that felt good...tempting..."

"It was a scary situation she was put in. It didn't feel good at all. She's full of remorse,"

"To you. She's more like me now and soon she will become all of me,"

"She will never become what you are. Not while I'm here,"

"Look around you," the dark persona gestured, briefly looking around. "Look at what happened. This is her true self,"

"This is not her,"

"Yes, it is. She won't be needing you, anymore. Come on, let me take over, I'm tired of this 50/50 fight,"

"She'll atone. I'm not giving up on her," 

"Well, it certainly wasn't you that she channeled to do what she did. You're too soft. Enough was enough."

The good persona ignored her and leaned toward Jennie's ear. "You are still a good person. You defended yourself. It was self defense."

Having enough, the dark persona grabbed Jen by the chin and turned her head slightly, speaking in her ear as she glared at his body. "Look at what you've done. Look at him suffer! He deserved every bit of it! This was what you wanted to do for a very long time. This was building for weeks!" she began to shout angrily. "These men think they can do whatever they want to us, say whatever they want, disrespect us, and hurt us?! No. They did it to the wrong one this time,"

Jennie seemed to have slowly gotten out of her shocked state when she heard a loud groan from the floor.

So he was still alive...

That calmed her nerves a bit as Jennie managed to walk across the counter to stand and look at his weakened state. He faintly called out her name in anger, uttering out curses.

"Huh. So, the piece of shit is still alive," her dark persona said with a scowl as she stood next to Jennie with her arms crossed.

"Good. There's still time," her good persona said, standing on her other side.

"No..." her dark persona turned to Jennie. "You know exactly what to do...end it,"

"No. Don't throw it all away. You're better than this. You are not alone and you know which route to take," her good persona said as the trio looked at the man on the floor.

Back to reality, Jennie had awakened in the waiting area of her flight thanks to her phone notifications going off. She also noticed that it was getting close to her flight arrival and more people were showing up at the airport.

Curious about the messages, she went through them and noticed it was all about whether she was all right which made her tear up. Everyone was asking for her whereabouts. But she had to ignore it and keep moving forward. She needed to leave.

Before she could turn her phone off, the person she wanted to avoid the most began to call. She hesitated to answer as she stared at the caller ID while the camera didn't show who was calling. 

Placing her phone back into her bag, she grabbed her guitar out of the case and began to play the opening notes of her song to distract herself.

The camera panned to the floor to show footsteps approaching her and they stopped near the row she sat at. As Jen stopped playing, the instrumental of her song continued to play in the background.

Feeling a hand on her shoulder, she let out a breath and acknowledged the hand. She then slowly turned her head to look up in the direction of the individual she predicted to find her as the screen faded to black.

"Looks like you found me..."

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Kicho's Main Story Chapter 7 Part 1

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A few days later.

Mai: “Okay! I’m done!”

I snipped the thread and unfolded the garment I had just finished sewing.

(I didn’t have enough time, but it turned out pretty good.)

(All that’s left to do is to add some minor touches and do a final check. I think I can make it in time.)

Although the work is not yet complete, a sense of accomplishment and satisfaction fills my soul, bringing a smile to my lips.

(I hope he’ll be happy with the rest.)

The last time I spoke with Kicho was a few days ago when he told me about his past.

After that, he briefly summarized the story.

He met a professor at Honnoji Temple, where he learned about the wormhole and was finally able to return to the Sengoku era after three years.

The place he returned to was the same as mine on the night of the Honnoji Incident.

After telling me all that, he laid down on the bed, exhausted, and told me to get out of his room.

(Since then, we’ve been so busy that we haven’t seen each other.)

(Well, I’m sure we’ll see each other tomorrow.)

(Anyway, I gotta do what I gotta do now!)

I lightly slapped my cheeks with both hands and started working again.

Mai: “Ouch!”

I lost my focus for a moment as I pricked my finger with the needle.

(I’ve been doing this for at least two hours straight.)

(I feel like my eyes are starting to hurt from all the work I've been doing.)

Mai: "*sigh* I think I'll take a break."

I put the needle back and stretched as far as I could, when一

Subordinate's voice: "Excuse me."

Mai: "Yes, is something wrong?"

Subordinate's voice: "I heard there's a package addressed to you. Do you know anything about it?"

(Delivery?)

???: "Hello. Sarutobi Delivery at your service."

(Yes!)

Mai: "Yes, I asked for more fabric. Let him in."

Subordinate's voice: "I see. You can come in then."

With permission to enter, the door opened, and a familiar face appeared.

Sasuke: "Hi, Miss. Thank you for your patronage."

Mai: "No, not at all."

Mai: "Thank you for coming at just the right time. I really need it."

While talking casually, I listened for any noises on the other side of the door and signaled Sasuke with my fingers as soon as the footsteps moved away.

Sasuke: "Mai, it's been a few weeks."

Mai: "Yeah. How have you been?"

Sasuke: "As you can see. No matter what kind of mission I'm on, my health comes first, so I pay attention to that."

Sasuke: "Proper sleep, diet, exercise, and makibishi (metal spikes) are crucial."

Mai: "Does the last one have anything to do with health?"

Sasuke: "Of course, just having these things makes a huge difference in how I feel. How about you?"

Mai: "Hehe, I'm okay."

Mai: "By the way, the fact that you came like this today means..."

Sasuke: “Just as you expect. I have a message from Mitsuhide for you.”

Mai: “I see, so you got to meet him safely. Thank you for doing this.”

Sasuke: “You’re welcome.”

Sasuke: “This may sound personal, but I’m grateful I got to talk to Mitsuhide Akechi in person. So don’t worry about it.”

(His eyes are twinkling.)

(Sasuke is really tough in this way.)

Sasuke: “Let’s get down to business.”

Sasuke: “Mai, you need to get out of this place.”

Mai: “Huh?”

Fuku: “This way.”

Mai: “Yeah, thanks for showing me the way.”

I was on my way to Kicho’s room after catching Fuku as he tried to escape.

Fuku: “Kicho.”

Mai: “It’s gonna be okay. Let’s go back to your room first.”

(Her chirping is somewhat listless. Maybe it’s because she hasn’t been able to spend much time with Kicho.)

(Well, it’s normal to miss the person you love. I miss him too.)

(Wait, what the hell am I thinking?)

I need to concentrate and drive the feelings that keep popping up in my heart.

(I should never feel lonely.)

(After all, I will be his enemy soon.)

------------Flashback------------

Sasuke: “Mai, you need to get out of this place.”

Mai: “Huh?”

Sasuke: “Mitsuhide told me that things had changed while you were here.”

Sasuke: “I think it’s true because it was consistent with the information I had gotten from Kasugayama.”

Mai: “What do you mean by ‘things’?”

Sasuke: “Recently, the rebellions suddenly calmed down.”

Sasuke: “There are almost no skirmishes happening, and Japan is eerily quiet right now.”

Mai: “That can’t be a good thing, right?”

Mai: “Is someone else behind it?”

Sasuke: “Yeah. There must be something going on.”

Sasuke: “It looks like the Oda forces intend to capture Kicho before he can attack them.”

Mai: “Capture!?”

(Capturing Kicho?)

Sasuke: “Mai, are you okay?”

Mai: “Yes, of course.”

He looked at me worriedly, seeing my reaction, and I nodded, pretending that nothing was wrong.

Sasuke: “Anyway, you’ll be in danger if you stay here.”

Sasuke: “We don’t know what might happen, and he might take you as a hostage.”

Sasuke: "They'll execute the plan tomorrow night. You need to escape with Mitsuhide."

Mai: "Tomorrow? That's just too sudden."

Sasuke: "Yeah, but it's much better than taking our time to make a plan."

Sasuke: "You, of all people, should know better that we're dealing with the enemy here. It's better to move before he senses we're on to him."

Mai: "Okay."

---------Flashback Ends---------

(Midnight, huh?)

(Normally, I would be in my room after work, but tomorrow...)

Mai: "I hope the party will be a success."

The same day, time of the boar (9-11 p.m.)

Motonari: “So, everything is pretty much as planned.”

Kicho: “I see. No problems here, either. We’re moving forward with the plans I previously told you about.”

Kicho: “The first ship will arrive tomorrow morning to unload.”

Motonari: “Yeah, I know. If they leave right away, they can make it in time.”

Motonari: “But you’re right. We should have had that thing if we’re going to stock that many.”

Kicho: “What are you talking about?”

Motonari: “Air transportation. Well, I’m sure a ship can carry more than a bird (plane) can.”

Motonari: “Or is there some other way to get around in this world that I don’t know about?”

Kicho: “There is no point explaining it to you. In any case, it’s not possible in this era.”

Motonari: “This era, huh?”

Kicho: “Why are you suddenly saying this? You weren’t interested before.”

Motonari: “Yeah, not one bit.”

Motonari: “You’re always talking nonsense like you’ve really seen it with your own eyes, but...”

Motonari cut off his words and lit the cigar he had taken out. Then, as the tip of the cigar lit up with the same color as his eyes, a thin wisp of smoke rose.

Motonari: “Lately, you’ve stopped talking about this nonsense.”

Motonari: “You’re acting strange today, too.”

Kicho: “..............”

Kicho said nothing and pushed the ashtray quietly toward Motonari, who sighed and blew out the smoke.

Motonari: “I’m telling you, the only reason I’m working with you is that we have the same goals.”

Motonari: “If you ever start acting weird, you know what will happen, right?”

Kicho: “Of course. I’ve come this far. I have no intention of twisting the cause I’ve set forward.”

Kicho: “Besides, I’m no different from you. If you were in my way, I would have taken care of you long ago.”

Motonari: “Ha! Sure.”

With a satisfied grin, Motonari pushed his cigar into the ashtray and stood up.

Motonari: “That’s the end of this pain in the ass talk. I’ll still be your partner for now.”

Motonari: “Let’s watch the grand march in the same hell.”

Kicho: “Yeah.”

After Motonari left, Kicho remained alone in the room and stared at the ashtray.

The remaining cigar was no longer lit and only slightly charred at the tip, but when shaken by the slightest breeze, it started burning red again.

At the same time, in Sakai.

Messenger: "These are the instructions from Lord Nobunaga."

Mitsuhide: "I understand."

Messenger: "Well, I'll be going now."

As the messenger quickly left into the night, a man appeared in his place.

Sasuke: "Mitsuhide, good evening."

Sasuke: "I told Mai about what you said."

Mitsuhide: "I see. Sorry for the trouble."

Mitsuhide: "By the way, why are you dressed like a ninja?"

Sasuke: "Because I'm a ninja. I received an order from the top to return home, so I have to leave this town."

Mitsuhide: "I see. But still, I never thought she knew someone from Kasugayama."

Sasuke: "No matter where we are, we're still friends and from the same hometown."

Mitsuhide: "Same hometown, huh?"

Sasuke: "Yes. I can't go into details, though."

Mitsuhide: "Did you know you can get information using torture?"

Sasuke: "My apologies."

Mitsuhide: "I'm kidding. If anyone can make up for that girl's ambiguity, so be it."

Sasuke: "Mitsuhide. Please take care of Mai."

Mitsuhide: "Yeah, you don't have to tell me. That's what I'm here for."

The Next Day

I was cleaning the area around the entrance in the early afternoon.

Mai: "Hmm. What should I do?"

Sweeping over the cobblestones with my broom, I glanced at the upstairs window.

(I wonder if Kicho is in his room today.)

(I want to deliver it after cleaning this, but I might annoy him if I give it to him out of the blue.)

Last night, after much worrying, I managed to complete the outfit.

However, I still couldn’t decide how to give it to him.

(No, maybe I’m not worried about giving him the clothes. Maybe I’m afraid of meeting him.)

(Because today...)

Kicho’s subordinate: “Hey, Lady Mai!”

Mai: “Y-Yes!”

I turned around to see Kicho’s men beckoning me through the entrance of the trading post.

Kicho’s subordinate: “Lord Kicho wants to see you.”

Mai: “Ehh!?”

Mai: “E-Excuse me.”

Kicho: “You’re here.”

He was standing by the window when I entered the room.

He then looked at me and shifted his gaze to the package I was carrying.

Kicho: “What’s that?”

Mai: “Um, I made you this outfit.”

Kicho: “Outfit?”

Mai: “Yup. A foreign style outfit for today’s party.”

Mai: “Oh, but don't worry. I’m not forcing you to wear it.”

I quickly said this and put it on the desk.

(I don’t have much time to prepare myself for this, but I think it’s better than not giving it to him.)

Kicho: “I see. You beat me to it.”

Mai: “Beat you to it?”

He walked towards the corner of the room and removed the cloth, hanging on to something, revealing a magnificent dress.

Mai: “Wow! It’s beautiful.”

Kicho: “I called you here to give you this.”

Kicho: “Since it’s a party, you can dress up to your heart’s content tonight.”

Mai: “Are you sure you want me to join the party?”

Kicho: “I’m not forcing you to do this, but I need a companion tonight. That’s why I’m inviting you.”

(Is that?)

My heart beats faster as I get the meaning of his words.

(I’m not gonna change my mind now, but I want to be with him as much as possible.)

Mai: “Are you sure about this?”

Kicho: “Do you want me to say no?”

Mai: “No.”

Kicho: “Me neither. I don’t want you to say that to me.”

Kicho: “So much so that I cut off your escape route first with this dress.”

(Kicho...)

Mai: “Then, by all means, please.”

Kicho prepared not only the dress but also the shoes and hair accessories.

Just as I returned to my room and finished putting it all on, someone knocked on my door.

Kicho’s voice: “Mai, I’m coming in.”

Mai: “Sure.”

(Wow...)

I blinked a few times when I saw him enter the room.

Kicho: “How is it?”

Mai: “You look really cool.”

(I designed it myself, but it’s more powerful than I ever imagined.)

Mai: “The colors are perfect for you. It’s really nice.”

Kicho: “I was asking about your dress. It looks like I didn't say it properly.”

Mai: “What?”

Kicho: “First of all, let me thank you. I guess you went out of your way to prepare this for me, even though you have other work to do.”

Kicho: “I could tell how good you are when I put the sleeves on. You’re very meticulous in your work.”

Mai: “Thank you. I’m glad to hear you say so.”

(It’s been a while since I’ve had someone wear and be happy with the clothes I made.)

(I’m really happy.)

As I reflect on my feelings, I realize again that I love doing this.

(Even after coming to the Sengoku period, I’m still me.)

Mai: “Right. Let me thank you too.”

Mai: “Thank you for the beautiful dress. It fits me perfectly and is very comfortable.”

The dress, like those worn by fairytale princesses, was elegantly colored in white, and the hem was made of a generous layer of fabric that, even with the slightest movement, fluffed up.

The waistline was also tight, making me straighten up my back unconsciously.

Kicho: “I’m glad you like it. Now, let’s move on to the finishing touches.”

Mai: “Huh? Finishing touches?”

He placed a wooden box on the table he had brought from his room, opened the lid, and I saw some cosmetic kit inside.

(What on earth?)

Kicho: “Sit on the chair over there.”

Mai: “Okay.”

I sat down, and he stared at me while carefully taking out the makeup kit one at a time and placing it carefully on my skin.

Mai: “You know how to put on makeup?”

Kicho: “Yes, my sister taught me.”

Kicho: “Not only makeup but also how to dress, behave, and everything else so that I can live as a woman.”

Mai: “Your sister really cared about you.”

Kicho: “I wonder about that.”

Mai: “You’re very gentle with your hands. I can tell that you’re taking good care of me right now.”

Kicho: “I see. Well, it’s only natural.”

His long fingertips lifted my chin.

Kicho: “I cherish you. I can assure you that much.”

Mai: “............”

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[lurkingshan]

I gotta be honest, I am struggling with Absolute Zero right now, which frustrates me because I love the premise and the vibe and I really wanted to love it. @bengiyo noted that I am getting to the point where I’m actually kinda mad about this drama, and it’s true! For me it’s all down to the same core issue: the show needs to get a better handle on its main character.

Similar to last week, throughout most of this episode I had no sense of what adult Suansoon is thinking as he continues to functionally date teen Ongsa. Is he thinking about future Ongsa, his actual partner who he has abandoned in a dire health situation, at all when he touches teen Ongsa, hugs and gropes him, brings him to his apartment and cuddles on the bed with him? Does he actually realize he is an adult and Ongsa is a kid and this is all super inappropriate? I do not know, because there is zero indication on my screen to tell me what’s running through his mind as he continues dating Ongsa while also making vague gestures towards connecting with his own teen self.

We’ve now spent three entire episodes with Soon drifting around in the past with no clear sense of what he’s doing or why. It’s a lot of story time spent just to get back to where we started in episode 1. And it would feel worth it if I felt like I knew what Soon is thinking or planning or had any sense of his motives with teen Ongsa, but I don’t. Throughout this whole episode it felt like I was being kept at arms length from the main character and his thoughts while being forced to watch him do things I don’t understand.

And then, right at the end, we finally hear from Soon about what he wants to do, when he tells Ongsa he is from the future and he came back to “correct the past” so that teen Ongsa and teen Soon will never meet. And that was such a big record scratch for me, because it does not comport with his actual behavior. If his intention is to keep them apart in the hopes that not being together will prevent Ongsa from being in an accident, why did he approach and date Ongsa? He has already made Ongsa fall in love with him, and now he wants to say never mind actually, don’t meet me and I’m just gonna bounce back to the future and hope we’re both alive and not together in the new alternate reality I am creating. Does he know Ongsa at all? Of course he is not going to listen to him. This plan makes no sense. And he only finally told Ongsa anything at all because he was forced to; how was any of this going to work?

And even before I get to dissecting his nonsensical behavior toward teen Ongsa, I don’t have any sense of how or why Soon arrived at this plan in the first place, because the show has not let us into his mind at all. Future Ongsa is not dead, and Soon does not have any idea of how his recovery is going because he’s not there. What makes him think changing their future is necessary? Why is he so convinced it’s their relationship that is the important variable to prevent the accident rather than any number of other things? His motives here just were not set up properly.

This is getting very ranty so let me just cut to the point: I am open to a narrative about a Suansoon so overwhelmed and dazed by trauma that he goes back in time and starts mucking around doing foolish things with no real sensible plan, if this is in fact what the narrative is trying to accomplish here. This is the bread and butter of time travel narratives and can be very compelling when done well. But that requires giving the audience some insight into why he is making these choices, what is driving his decisions, and how he intends to make things happen. And we are just completely missing that insight in this show.

#shaking my fist at the sky and yelling NEW SIWAJ WHY #we were all rooting for you.gif #absolute zero #thai bl #shan shouts into the void

[blankat]

Hi! :D

I was wondering whether or not you could do

a sad/angst one with Larissa and reader from

your prompt list no. 1 and 11? Only of you're

comfortable with that!

Maybe smth along this:

They've been together already and when

Larissa dies, reader (possibly gn!reader?)

keeps seeing her due to either powers or

powers in connection with alcohol

consumption if that makes sense? Just some

sad and angst in general. Eventually them

being taken care of or found by someone if

you're up for comfort. Maybe not. You

decide :D

ldk how to describe it. I hope you get whatl

mean

Anyway, have a great day! <3

Oooookay, i gotta say, i LOVE this idea. also, i have never written a gn character, so i really hope i didn't mess up anywhere but i did not proofread it, so if i messed up, just tell me and i'll fix it.

11. You know I'm not real, don't you?

warnings: alcohol abuse, death, angst, hallucinations

pairing(s): Larissa Weems x gn!reader

words: 1.7k

You were sitting on the balcony, drinking once again, a habit that your girlfriend isn’t really fond of, always telling you to stop drinking so heavily, unless you want to die way sooner than her. Honestly, you didn’t really care because you didn’t see her as often as you’d like, only now and then, you would exchange a few words, she would tell you that she loves you and misses you to which you’d storm into the comfort of your once shared bedroom, under the thick layers of soft blankets, sobbing until dawn.

But today, you felt slightly better than other days, the weather was nice, the students weren’t as problematic as they are on any other day. You were feeling okay-ish.

You’ve been sitting out there for a while, when the faint clicking of heels disturbed your thoughts. You smiled to yourself before turning around, knowing that your girlfriend is finally coming back, just in time, because you were terribly missing her, already on your 3rd bottle of whisky. 

“Darling? What are you doing out here? It’s cold, come back inside.” Larissa stepped out to the balcony, her hands landing on your shoulder, glancing at the empty bottles on the floor she sighed, then took the one in your hands from you. “I’ll take this now. Come, sober up a bit.”

You walked back to the living room and sat down on the couch, looking at the now lit fireplace, zoning out a bit but still hearing Larissa swearing to herself while throwing you alcohol out to the trash. You felt a little guilty, you should’ve been a better girlfriend to her, maybe you can still fix it. 

Larissa came back to the living room with a bottle of water, and sat down next to you, caressing your face with her soft hands. You closed your eyes at the feeling, and sighed happily, leaning into her touch.

“Why didn’t you light the fire? How long have you been out there?” she asked, looking at you with a worried expression, her brows furrowed.

“Larissa, it’s not cold-” you slurred, looking at her.

“Not cold? Y/N it’s the middle of winter. I can’t believe you. I bet you’ve been sitting there since morning.” she scolded you and you raised an eyebrow on that.

“Hmm, I sat out not too long ago, just after 9. Anyways, what are you doing here in the middle of the day? I thought you’re busy running your wonder school.” you smiled at her but she didn’t return it.

“Y/N, it’s 11 in the evening. And I am not running the school anymore, but you know that. You were there.” she whispered, not once looking near or touching you.

“My bad, I forgot.” you tried grabbing her hand but she pulled away, standing up.

“Are you okay? You should sleep, we can talk tomorrow.” Larissa said, giving you a half smile, walking away.

“Lay with me?” you asked just as she was about to leave the apartment, to go God knows where.

“I don’t think it’s a good idea.” she whispered.

“Come on! No funny business, I promise.” you said, earning a chuckle from her that made your heart melt. It felt so long ago that you heard her laugh.

Eventually, she agreed and laid down on the bed next to you, careful not to touch you. You both turned at the same time, facing each other, smiling.

“I wish it’d happened differently.” she whispered, tears escaping her eyes.

“I miss you so much.” you swallowed a sob, trying to touch her but she shook her head gently.

“I know, Y/N, I know.”

The next morning you woke to an empty bed, as usual in the past months. No note from her, even her perfume wasn’t lingering in the air like it used to. You rubbed your eyes, feeling the damp skin on your cheek.

“Fucking hell” you cursed, waking up. You made your way to the kitchen to have a drink when you remembered she threw them out last night. You sighed, opening the fridge instead, picking up an apple, your eyes catching the food container with Larissa’s lunch in it from months ago. It broke your heart that she wasn’t even willing to take the food you made for her. It was looking rather disgusting so you decided to throw it out, but when the container landed in the empty trash can, you raised your eyebrows. Opening the food cabinet, you gasped at the sight of your liquors untouched.

“What the fuck?” you whispered to myself, grabbing one and opening it. 

Two hours later you were drunk again, sitting on the living room floor, staring at your phone. Earlier this morning, you texted Larissa, asking if she would come over today, but she hasn’t answered your texts. They haven’t even been delivered, just sent. You loved her more than anything, you should’ve just asked her when your relationship was still stable, maybe then all this wouldn’t have happened. You couldn’t help but overthink, which resulted in you sobbing on your floor, until you fell asleep.

When you awoke, you catched a glimpse of blond hair outside on the balcony and smiled. She came back. You hurried outside and looked at her, trying to find the right words but none came. She looked so peaceful, almost glowing, however the lack of her perfume invading your nostrils made you frown. Why did she stop wearing perfume? Perhaps her new lover didn’t like it. When she finally looked at you, you gulped opening your mouth.

“Larissa. I- I really need to tell you something.” you said, your voice betraying you, breaking quickly.

“Yes, darling?” she smiled standing up.

“Okay, um- I love you. But you know that. I am sorry, it’s my fault. All of it. I should’ve been there for you, but I wasn’t. And I can’t ever forgive myself for that.” you said, crying. Larissa just smiled, finally touching you, wiping your tears so gently, you didn’t even feel her hands.

“My love, it was not your fault. You couldn’t have prevented it from happening, and you shouldn’t be mad at yourself.” she smiled, her voice so quiet, it would’ve got lost with the most tender breeze.

“I want to fix it. Can I fix it?” with trembling hands, you reached towards Larissa. “Marry me, Larissa. I- I don’t have a ring. I wanted to ask you months ago but I didn’t have the courage. And when you first left, I was so mad, I threw the ring down the balcony. But I want to marry you, please.”

“Love,” she cupped your cheeks, still smiling down at you. “You don’t need to propose to me to prove how much you love me. I know it. And I love you too, Y/N.”

You sobbed. Like you’ve never done before. Not even under the covers in your bedroom.

“Can I hug you?” you asked and when you didn’t receive any answer from Larissa, just another smile, you hesitantly wrapped your arms around her. And when she reciprocated the hug, you desperately wanted to inhale her familiar scent but it was absent. And her movements were so tender that everytime you closed your eyes, it felt like she wasn’t even there. You tried to push your anxious thoughts away. “Don’t stop loving me. Please.”

“I won’t.” Larissa sighed happily. “Y/N?”

“Hmmm?” you muttered happily, eyes still closed. She loved you.

“You know I’m not real, don’t you?”

Falling. You felt like falling from the tallest building ever, knowing the tragic end is inevitable, crushing your bones, ripping you open, tearing your heart. Opening your eyes, your breath quickened at the realization that Larissa was in fact not there. But she was real. She has to be. 

Tears streaming down your face, you maniacally rummaged through your apartment, looking for your love, breaking and tearing apart furniture and anything in your way.

“Larissa?” you asked, hoping she’d answer from the bedroom, waiting for you. But nothing came and when you found your bedroom empty, a scream escaped your throat, probably waking up half of your floor in the school. “LARISSA!”

Your screaming and yelling, chanting your lover’s name was disturbed by frantic steps and a hand around your shoulders, lifting you up from the floor. 

“Mx. Y/L/N!” a familiar female voice called, looking up you saw your new colleague, Mrs. Evans trying to help you out of your misery. “Y/N!”

“I need to find Larissa, let me go.” you tried to free yourself from Evans’ grasp, failing. She held your face, looking into your eyes, whispering comforting words to calm you down at least a little.

“Y/N. Tell me what happened.” you sobbed, trying to gather your thoughts, realization hitting you.

“She’s dead, isn’t she?” you asked, voice hoarse but still calm.

“Yes, darling.” Mrs. Evans smiled sadly at you. “Maybe you should move out of campus. The memories are haunting you, making you suffer.”

“Please, don’t throw me out, this dorm is all I have of her. I look at any corner and all I see is her.” you cried. “I’ll stop drinking and I’ll find a doctor, go back to work, and teach the kids. Please, just don’t throw me out.”

“I would never throw you out, dear.” She kissed your forehead, looking at you with a worried expression.

“Principal Evans?” Enid appeared at your door, holding a little velvet box, handing it slowly to the older woman. “I found this ring just outside around this balcony.”

“Thank you, Miss Sinclair.” she smiled kindly at the girl, taking the box. You gasped, looking at it, tears welling in your eyes once again. Mrs. Evans noticed, giving you a warm smile along with the box. “I think this belongs to you, Y/N.”

“Thank you.” you said in a tiny voice.

“Will you be okay for the night?” she asked and you returned her smile, nodding. “Very well, I will be returning in the morning to talk, okay? Good night, Y/N.”

Closing the door behind Principal Evans, you walked into your bedroom, sitting down on your bed, putting the ring down on your nightstand. Your eyes caught a framed picture of you and Larissa, smiling widely, her hair down freely which rarely happened in her life. You smiled, picking up the picture, caressing Larissa on it with your fingers.

“I miss you, Pumpkin. I promise we’re gonna meet soon.”

#larissa weems x oc #larissa x oc #larissa x reader #larissa weems x reader #larissa weems #wednesday #gwendolineuniverse #gwendoline christie #gwendoline christie x reader

[strwbrrymnstrenrgy]

simply having a wonderful christmastime

waiting for steve to come home was always frustrating, it was just so boring without him. it was the last day before winter break though, so you were excited to have him around more.

you had painted your nails, fixed the lights, and decorated the tree. yet the time couldn't pass by slower.

when you finally hear the door open, you rush to greet him.

"good afternoon, stevie" you say, kissing all over his face and wrapping your arms around his neck.

he sighs and then gives you a tired smile which makes you frown.

"bad day?" you question and tilt your head

"the worst" he replies, heading to your shared room.

you sit beside him, twirling your hair with one of your fingers and looking at him, then up at the lights that he helped you put up not so long ago.

he senses that you wanna kiss him so he sits up and pulls your face toward him with one hand to kiss you, but he stays like that for a minute, not wanting to pull away yet.

eventually, you do have to pull away for air.

you mumble something under your breath but he can't exactly hear you.

"what was that, baby?"

"um... i wanted you to..."

steve thinks you're adorable like this, when you can't even admit what you want him to do to you.

so he pulls you into his lap, facing him.

he stays like that for a minute, letting you get comfortable.

absentmindedly, he kisses your neck a few times. he then sits you on one of his thighs, still not really paying attention.

you start to rock your hips along his thigh, thinking he wouldn't notice.

but he definitely does, he tilts his head at you then smirks.

"is there something you wanna tell me, princess"

after stopping to make a barely-audible 'mm mm', you continue on his thigh.

"baby, gotta use your words if you want something, you know that"

he then stops your hips with one of his hands, holding you in place. you try to escape his grip but he just holds on tighter. there's no way you're getting out of this.

"please, stevie" you make puppy eyes at him, hoping he'll show some sympathy. he doesn't.

"please what." he says, now more stern.

you look down at your hands in embarrassment.

"please, daddy"

he smirks, placing you down gently on the bed.

"see? that's all you had to say"

without warning, he slips two of his fingers in his mouth, wetting them before he shoves them into you.

he feels your thighs tremble from his sudden roughness.

"shh, i know, i know"

he leans down to kiss you a few times, probably in efforts to make you just a little quieter. it doesn't work though.

he decides to just let you be as loud as you want. then he continues, removing his fingers for a moment, licking them off and then using his tongue instead.

when your thighs close around his head, he knows he's doing the right thing.

he'll look up at you from time to time, trying to read your facial expressions and also just enjoying your reactions.

when he makes you cum, your thighs fall on either side of his shoulders and you try to catch your breath, eyes closed and your heart beating faster than normal.

steve's fine, well, except the aching of his boner pressing against his pants, making them feel way tighter than they actually are.

steve then looks down at you, still panting and trying to catch your breath. he chuckles, getting up to go get you some water.

until you grab onto his hand right as he's trying to go.

"wait- don't go yet"

he gives you a puzzled look but lies beside you until you fall asleep nonetheless.

9:59 am, dec 24

a/n: oh yeah this is owner 1 btw anyways bounce that ass it's christmas time and sorry this was so rushed

#steve harrington x you #steve harrington smut #steve harrington x reader #steve harrington #steve harrington x fem! reader smut #implied round 2 #but i was being lazy so i didn't write it #so just use ur imagination #owner 1 #stranger things smut #christmas #christmas day #christmas smut

[bakedbakermom]

Stained

Chapter 8: Safe // start at the beginning

tagging @today-in-fic @ao3feed-msr

safe adjective 1. free from hurt or injury 2. rendered harmless --- Miracles at Sunnydale General

Scully came back to herself slowly, unsure if or how she had a self to come back to. She blinked lazily against sunlight streaming through the window, warm and thick as honey, little flecks of dust dancing through it; then she saw Mulder, and woke all at once.

His head lay on her bed, on top of the thin blue blanket that seems to come standard in every hospital across the country. The sunlight shining in his rumpled hair set off highlights of red and gold. His hand, curled around hers and carefully avoiding the line of her IV, was beautifully warm. She stared at him, transfixed by the steady rise and fall of his shoulders with each breath.

He stirred as if sensing her stare, his hand tightening around hers before his eyes had even opened. A smile broke across his face when he saw she was awake. “Hey there, Scully.”

“Hi,” she managed through a throat tight with tears. Her mouth opened and closed, her mind spinning through too many questions. “Mulder, you—? You’re—?”

He smiled. “One-hundred percent, grade-A human. Accept no substitutes.” He pressed their joined hands to his chest; she felt the beat of his heart beneath his ribs, strong and steady as a drum. Scully closed her eyes and let it wash over her like music, tears spilling down her cheeks; it was a song she never thought she’d hear again, a song she could listen to forever. Eventually he lifted her hand to his lips, brushing a tender kiss across her knuckles. “You saved me, Scully.”

She reached her free hand to her chest, expecting swathes of bandages, broken ribs, maybe even a shattered sternum. But she felt nothing but a sore ache; when she peeked down the front of her hospital gown, she saw only a bruise, larger than her spread fingers but already shifting from purple to pink and yellow. “I’m okay. How am I okay?”

“Honestly, we have no idea; we were actually hoping you might have some insight,” he said as she looked at him in stunned confusion. “When the knife made contact, there was this burst of light—intense, blinding. By the time we’d all recovered from it, you were unconscious on the floor and I had a pulse again. The knife had shattered into a million pieces. Giles was pissed; I think the poor guy turned purple for a minute there.” He chuckled and squeezed her hand. “I gotta say, Scully, you’re not the first woman who would rather die than be with me, but you are the first who tried to make it happen.”

His words were flippant, but they tugged at Scully’s heart just the same. She smiled at him briefly, then looked down at their joined hands, overcome with an uncharacteristic vulnerability. How could she even begin to explain to him what she had seen, what she had done, how it had felt to cradle her own heart in her hands—to place it inside the hollow place where his heart had once been? She took a deep breath. “Mulder—”

He shook his head, already retreating, already prepared to go back to the familiar steps of their dance. Already anticipating the same rejection he had felt all his life, as if the idea of anyone loving him was just too ridiculous to contemplate. “It’s okay,” he said softly, his pain veiled to anyone who hadn’t learned to read him like she had. “Buffy told me everything while you were out. But if you’ve changed your mind, or she misinterpreted or—”

She huffed out a small laugh, as much at herself as at him. What a pair we make. The only woman on earth who found it easier to die for him than to say the words out loud; the only man who could be restored to life by the fire in her heart, and still wonder if she’d meant it in a “just friends” kind of way. 

“Mulder,” she said again, more firmly, the you idiot implied in the tilt of her chin, the lift of her eyebrow. He ducked his head, smiling bashfully; she tugged on his hand and he followed her unspoken request, climbing up onto the narrow hospital bed so she could curl herself against him; she lay her head on his chest and listened, letting the sound of his heart fill her.

“I’m not even sure where to begin,” she finally said. “I remember the church, the spell; I remember the knife coming towards me. There was a light, and then I—I think I died. I felt my heart go into you.” The memories were already softening around the edges, the way a dream dissolves in the first light of morning. She told him as much as she could remember: about the Morrígna who were a multitude, a trio, and a single being all at once; reliving her memories of that night in the cave, from within her body and without at the same time; the forgiveness and certainty that washed over her when she saw him again for all that he truly was.

Tears spilled down her cheeks and she stumbled over the words. Heartfelt confessions and revelations had always been Mulder’s domain—and, for some reason, usually in the hallway of his apartment building—but he held her, and he listened, and when his warm tears dripped into her hair, she turned her face up to meet his eyes.

“I held my own heart in my hand, Mulder, and when I looked into the empty place where yours should have been, I knew where I belonged. I tucked that brilliant light into your chest, put that most important piece of myself inside you, knowing that even though I would never get to tell you the words myself, you would carry me forward with you. I gave you my life, so you could live knowing that I—” She stopped, swallowed hard past the lump in her throat. Beneath her hand, Mulder’s heart was pounding; it matched her own. Of course it does. The synchronicity gave her the courage to speak, though her words were barely a whisper. “I love you, Mulder.”

His face lit up beneath the sheen of tears, and before he could say a word, Scully ran her fingers through his hair and pulled until his mouth met hers.

He froze for a moment, panic-faced, and then melted into the lush and hungry heat of her mouth. He kissed her like she was a wine to savor, a mystery to explore. She rubbed her thumb along the stubble of his jaw and sighed as his fingers twined gently through her hair to cup the base of her skull. She opened her mouth to him, and the first sweet slide of his tongue on hers felt like coming home. His heart danced under her palm, keeping rhythm with hers, point and counterpoint, and she felt in her blood the heat of the flame that now lived in them both.

A giggle from the doorway snapped them apart, Scully blushing so hot she thought she might combust, Mulder stammering something that may have been an apology as he scrubbed a nervous hand over his face. The Scooby Squad stood just inside the room, expressions of unabashed glee on their faces—though Giles was at least attempting to look embarrassed. The giggle must have come from Buffy, who was trying and failing to hold her laughter in with a hand clamped over her mouth; Willow and Tara were clinging to each other, making squeaking noises in the register normally reserved for bats and dolphins. 

Xander beamed like his face might burst. “That was even better than the movie!” 

Scully’s blush deepened and she hid her face against Mulder’s shoulder; somehow, knowing that they had seen The Lazarus Bowl was even more embarrassing than getting caught with Mulder’s tongue in her mouth.

“Oh my God,” laughed Willow, “remember the first time we saw it, at the midnight premiere?”

“And we cheered so loud at the kiss scene that they almost kicked us out?” Buffy choked out, nearly doubled over.

Anya was the only one who looked unhappy. “Yeah, but now I owe Spike twenty bucks,” she grumbled.

Scully stretched closer to Mulder’s ear and murmured, “I’m beginning to wish I hadn’t survived after all.”

He squeezed her hand—which, she realized, he hadn’t let go of since she’d woken, and probably not for hours before that—and smiled. He turned so that his warm lips brushed against her hair. “I’d host a citywide drive-in screening, and make all the snacks and drinks myself, if it meant I could get you alone in the back seat.”

Scully’s chest fluttered, her blood fizzed, and she was grateful when Mulder cleared his throat, loudly, pulling the group’s attention to himself while she regained her composure. “Hey guys. What brings the whole Scoobie gang by?”

Giles stepped awkwardly from the group, revealing a bouquet of flowers hidden behind his back, marigolds and lavender and chamomile: flowers of health and healing. He set them down on Scully’s bedside table, then stood a small card beside the vase, bearing an alien in an Elizabethan recovery cone, bidding her get well soon. “We just wanted to see if you were all right, Miss Scully. You gave us all quite a scare,” he said gently. He put a fatherly hand on Mulder’s shoulder, as if to say some more than others .

“That’s very kind of you,” Scully told him, touched by the gesture, the concern. Later Mulder would tell her of the barely-contained panic that had passed through the group in the church as the light of the spell faded, how his freshly restored heart had cracked upon seeing her so pale and still, how Giles had run seven red lights on the way to the hospital; but even without knowing that, she saw the pain in Giles’ eyes—and the relief that, just this once, they wouldn’t be burying anybody.

They chatted for almost an hour: Willow, Tara, and Giles wanted a full recounting of her experience with the Morrígna, and Scully did her best, promising a more thorough report upon her release; Xander and Buffy peppered Mulder with questions about the changes he underwent, while Anya tried to explain that he should pay half her bet to Spike. “It’s your fault, anyway, you know. You and your lips.”

The whole time, his thumb never stopped drawing small, slow circles across the back of her hand. She ran her fingers along the ridge of the tendon in his wrist until she found his pulse, sweet and strong under her touch. When the group finally left, extracting promises of visits and emails and snarky insinuations of wedding invitations, Mulder pulled Scully back into his arms. He pressed a long, slow kiss to her hairline, inhaling the scent of her as she curled against his chest. For everything else the spell had done, it had left her exhausted, and she was just sinking back into the warm, fuzzy embrace of sleep when she heard him murmur, “I love you, too, Scully. In case you were wondering.”

She smiled, nodding against the soft cotton of his shirt. “I know.” And she drifted into sleep with the soothing beat of his heart, alive, and hers to keep—miracles both—beneath her cheek.

Honestly my only notes for this chapter were, "Bitch thought she could just die for him without ever telling him how she felt. Get loved, idiot." I don't write unhappy endings. These two deserve happiness - but I couldn't resist a little Scoobie cockblock. For their own good. They BOTH just got done being dead, after all. I may (okay will, eventually) write some post-ep sex for them, but let me get through Kinktober (and actual October festivities) first. The Scoobies saw Lazarus Bowl at least a dozen times. Xander absolutely makes them autograph his commemorative themed popcorn bowl before they go.

#stained #my writing #my fanfic #crossover #txf #the x files #btvs #buffy the vampire slayer #fox mulder #dana scully #buffy summers #willow rosenberg #tara maclay #xander harris #rupert giles #spike btvs #anya jenkins

[toinfinitywinning]

What you see & hear- or even if you can. Just a cover.

Open it? There’s no tellin’ the worm. But you bought the ticket. It’s your Day 1.

They’re gonna try to break you.

Yk every Day I wake up. And I’m scared of it. Don’t want to. And not b/c im warm in my bed snuggling w/ my feather duvet and rain, with the weight of a horse on my legs play pretending he’s a 3 lb Show shhnowzaa but b/c I’ve already, already lived it. And having been in a constant State of fight or flight, normal or abnormal, sometimes u can’t tell —I still feel bad. W/e differentiation you had to separate the two both ended up at the North Pole but you’ve at least got Santa.

So this means I’m confused all Day but I still want some of Michael’s Secret Stuff Gatorade (haterade) from “welcome to the space jam—alright.” 🎵. To get me through. A safe energy drink. And your body doesn’t ☊ anymore so the more you talk to yourself the saner. It’s just I’ve never had to fake I’m physically okay to be present so much. Physical sickness affects ur mind Health and if you already struggle w/ that my condolences b/c your leg hurts too.

It’s a nightmare never 1-upping to a dream of being without. Then some days it’s will hear a song or remember a Good time or just Start crying-faucet not included. No acute-reason onset. (We gotta find another word for trigger no joke). I only subconsciously wonder will today be better…Will I get better? And I don’t know why I continue to continue being somewhere inbtw positive and negative. All the sudden my mind is taxed and so are your paychecks and I’ve been up for 15 minutes not even thinking I was thinking b/c Truth is, when something becomes your reality for such a Long time, everything just runs together. You’re afraid to feel anything yet know if you don’t it’s not just your body ready to atrophy. Not Good. And it’s a sneaky lil’ mf.

I can’t Imagine the omnipresent (best word for constant I got) Pain people feel having been with Illness their whole lives. How differently their world is shaped. Pain, prolonged cynicism, Illness prolonged, disability prolonged, w/e u used to think about things is gone unless you’re born one of these ways. Now to be clear I was born this Way but not THIS Way don’t get it twisted. Some days I wonder what it would be like to swap around. W/e it is—This presence does not belong to God— but maybe its mere existence really does b/c we won’t have anyone to thank if things get better? And there’s no joy in the things we’ve hoped for and overcome? And everything always has an End result of some kind…Right? If that’s my endgame I can only look at some things very matter of fact-ly. But. Here we are. Pending. Loading. Accept All Cookies. Your Health for potential healing is At the mercy of literally a button click away from quality or lifesaving or changing Medicine or therapy. CAN YOU AFFORD TO STAY ALIVE? Be fired? Bankrupt-ed? Evicted? No college, no trade School, but you work ur butt off to provide but you’re still paid $7.25/hr as I was as head intramural supervisor at Georgetown College. 15 years ago. Not just that, exist, like eating, clothes to wear, some sort of roof. So you’re choosing between crappy and crappier. Literally no difference. How in the is someone even going to try to stay healthy?!

Thankfully I don’t have to worry as much about the material, which, its Stress alone induces more trauma and Anxiety, but I’d bet how we feel physically isn’t too different. All the sudden again in the subconscious where I am all the time I’m figuring and not truly present you really think existentially like how in not God’s name clearly did I get here? I fixed everything. But Life isn’t played by a claw that has never won anybody a teddy bear. I wouldn’t pin karma to me in itself but it sure makes you think.

None of this is about to make sense but it’s where my mind took me.

Think about what was happening in your Life before things changed. Before literally waking up one Morning and knowing that very second things had to change or I was headed toward death a lot faster than I thought until that God moment. I don’t have many of them that are that dramatic but nothing was clearer to me in that moment. And then that Damn bat and conspiracy crap of government population control. If anthrax was sprinkled in Amazon boxes we’d be extinct. But Pretty sure we know how to get rid of people without breaking a beaker or test tube and then turning on a fan just gifting particles. And Unraveling ALL of the many ways of healing I’d finally lived into. I was so close. To every Fk up id invited. And so asking why anymore seems vacant. Echoing. And my ears hurt. ATP I’m More so saying well, I’m not sure that strategy is going to work anymore. Where’s the ღ in Health. It’s lost it. How much are you worth? No, like write down a monetary number on a piece of paper, fold it and slide it across the desk. Insurance companies be like: I see your offer and I’ll raise your offer: have you tried dying yet? B/c you could save a lot of money that way. The money it will take to bury you might even be more deadly.

So The most defeating part is beginning the Day as it ends. When I think about that it’s just like how did I get here? I’m still stubborn about it but maybe regardless of w/e someone accomplishes there’s the reality you’re still living in an imperfect world where you can only control so many things. Even if u gain that control back all those traps R still available. So you can Imagine my surprise when there’s not enough OCD to Go around to control THIS. regardless of what we can have control over, do that, b/c the smaller victories become magnified and walking to the kitchen to take your Meds that may or may not be helping is like an 8-ball w/ only 8 options. Eenie meenie miney. Mo.

I don’t set out to cry or tear up in the videos I share. I’ve always been a cryer. I’ve been told I feel things more intensely so it hits different, does different. The direct quote will remain anonymous but the sentimental pack rat in me wrote it down ASAP. Like, a handwritten letter. You took TIME for me. The quote—It was several years ago and I almost can’t stand it b/c it’s me in whatever kind of Shell is available at the time.

[“people perceive me as an individual who has the kindest of all hearts, but who struggles with the realities of life given that kindness…Like how the tenderhearted feel the pains of the earth more intensely.”]

It’s so true. But if I can’t be real what Good’s that gonna do? For me it further affirms what I already am living. In Edgar’s scary A** pit or with the company of not one canary in the coal mine.

C’ya in the AM. 🫡

[jrueships]

AHEM.

Why Jaren Jackson Jr. is a bottom: A List

1. The poor guy will do anything for attention from the team, ESPECIALLY from Ja.

2. Big guy that just wants to impress his tiny boyfriend (the same boyfriend that definitely tops him). He shows off just for the praise 😭

3. That one video of him doing that little tip-tap dance when Ja gave him the attention that he was practically begging for. IT WAS SO CUTE 😭😭😭

4. His outfits. He’s just showing off for his man (in hopes of something happening 🥰).

5. His legssssss. No way Ja doesn’t take advantage of his thighs. His thighs and ass are the main reasons why he’s the bottom. Always COVERED in h*ck*es.

6. Ja may be WAYYY shorter, but his personality is big. Jaren is WAYYY taller, but his personality is smaller (which is still quite big lol).

7. I almost view their relationship as a Kyle/DeMar type thing. If that makes sense?? Kyle and Ja are bossy and most people would assume they are both bottoms. But they aren’t. THEIR BIG GUYS ARE.

8. Jaren always looking at what Ja shows him on his phone. He’d do anything for that man to be happy (bottom behavior).

this was all off the top of my head, so it may not make total sense??? if i think of more reasons why i’ll tell you 😭😭😭

REAAAAAALLL!!!!!! IVE BEEN JUST READIN N READIN THIS AS A LITTLE DOG BISCUIT FOR ME... AN LITTLE TREAT <33 ... but i have decided to POP THIS BABY OUT N CELEBRATE WOOHOOO HAPPY DPOY JARENNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!! *posts ask containing listed statements on why you are a sheet clawer

happy dpoy ? confused and scared but still trying to act happy jasper the dolphin voice before tyler in a wig and heels evaporates his whole existence

FIOOORST of all,,, thank u for numbering these down bcs u KNOW I love love LOVEE tackling ALL my moots details this is so FUUUN!!!!!

1. The poor guy will do anything for attention from the team, ESPECIALLY from Ja.

LITERALLLYYYY!!! EXAAAACTLY!!!! YESSSSS!!!! made me whip out my 3 go to replies after listening to my friend hate on the same shit i hate or make THE REALEST points to ever point in the whole history of points, on the latter side FOSHURE!! youre literally so right tho like....

you can't look at him... at his ACTIONS!! and TELL me he is Not FOR THE TEAM!!! LIIIKE (i DONT listen to icespice i am NOT a munchI AM NO T A M U NCH‼️‼️)(I SAID LIKE BEFORE HER AND AFTER MEAN GIRLS OKAY!!!!!!) Everyone was lowkey getting a little jealous of the ABSOLUTE LEAASH brandon Clarke has had on jaren.... but like. Can You Blame Him. Clarke is GORGEOUS. He's like a 6'8 ja but more importantly without the mental problems. Ja acting out by being all 'alpha male whatever 🙄'.. he wanna be jarens man again soo bad. JA!! get this thru ur SKINNY BEAVIS N BUTTHEAD HEAD!!! jaren liked U bcs u were a LESBIAN!!! who is also bisexual. He will ALWAYS be YOUR LITTLE MEOW MEOW or whatever u guys roleplay in bed or discord lmfao WHEN URE AROUND!!! Jaren is just a very im gonna give up 110% of myself to whoever i happen to be around AND U GOTTA LEARN TO UNDERSTAND THAT!!!! like he literally opened his legs to u and ure like 5ft tall like. Let's not act like he has high standards now or something. He dreams of dill*n brooks. Daily. Not even nightmares. Full on straight up not straight wet dreams bro. Find your inner zen ja. Please. For the good of your baby mama (jaren.

2. Big guy that just wants to impress his tiny boyfriend (the same boyfriend that definitely tops him). He shows off just for the praise 😭

THE AMOUNT OF SHORT KING PROPAGANDA BEING PASSED RN!!! I AM TRULY LIVING Y E S !!! THIS THIS THIS!!!!

he said WHEN U FEELIN COCKY!! I M FEELIN COCKY!!!!!! .... u know... and if u feelin like... a certain COCKy.... just so happeningly around u know... someone submissive and breedable...ME then...you know... im still feelin kinda cocky too... namean 🥺👉🏿👈🏿..?

Ja pausing briefly in peace to read this 3:02 (minutes kept random to make it seem like jaren hasnt been agonizing & planning this text for over fifty days and nights) before he's about to tweet out another threat to yet another small child: ........ what 😑?

it's so cute... and a little sad 😭 like he wants him so bad. Walking all normal but suddenly prancing all giddy like a done up horse (unicorn) whenever ja even as much as LOOKS at him!! please jaren.... ure whining at this point. Salivating all over this little pebble of a man. This twig. i Love it, frankly. i Do. he needs this santas helpers d*ck and he needs it Bad .give it to him NOW, ja! RIGHT NOW.

TURDAE ‼️‼️

3. That one video of him doing that little tip-tap dance when Ja gave him the attention that he was practically begging for. IT WAS SO CUTE 😭😭😭

LIKE GET IT TOGETTHER JAREN!!! he is head over TIPPY TAPPY DANCEY H E E L S for that online thug it's SO funny 😭. Ja half assing to pretend hes a security guard like jaren started and jaren being so happy abt it 😭😭 when the bf agrees to be the rainbow pony to ur pink pony in ponyville. THEN WHEN DESMONDS TRYING TO JUST GET HIS INTERVIEW DONE JAREN PLOPS HIMSELF NEXT TO HIM MIMICKING HIS POSE?? STARING?? pulling out ALL the stupid little tactics to try and get him mr handsome to notice him.. then he scoots closer when he doesn't PLEASE babygirl!!! Daddy's working 😾. IMKIDDINGSORRYLMFAO i need to stop saying that ironically, people are gonna think imsrs.. Anyways. I took a screenshot but thanks to jarens long neck.. he looked like a roadside 4legged human-like creepypasta monster so. Nvm. BUT AFTER THAT HE TRIES LIKE? TAPPING DESMONDS giant hunk of an ARM! by God. I know what you are jaren! AND HE DOESNT EVEN GET NOTICED THERE??? like throughout that whole thing desmond didn't even look at him once 😭. AT LEAST JA SPARED THE POOR SOUL A SINGLE SECOND GLANCE FOR HIM TO GET ALL GIGGLY OVER!!!! Desmond is so cool guy who doesn't have a personality to him and only makes npc responses if any. I think jaren is kind of obsessed. He wants to suck his **** so bad. Maybe that's why ja spared him a crumb of attention. Like when u let the leash a lil long then suddenly keep it short. That's so mean. Do it Again, ja.

4. His outfits. He’s just showing off for his man (in hopes of something happening 🥰). 5. His legssssss. No way Ja doesn’t take advantage of his thighs. His thighs and ass are the main reasons why he’s the bottom. Always COVERED in h*ck*es.

combining because i am a GREAT THINKER 🗣!!!! but moving on YES!! TIMES A MILLION! The fact that jjj has admitted he has a habit of buying new clothes like everyday.... who do u have in mind when u buy those jarebear? Is it someone little that likes to hype up whatever cool new thing you've got interesting to him ? Hm? Suspicious.

H*CKIES ALONG HIS THIGHS PLEAAAAASEE PLE A SE!!! P L E ASE!!!! just ONE fic where someone tops him and leaves h*ckies ob those HUGEMONGO CHUN-LI thighs PLEASE anyone PLEASE!!!! IM TIRED OF US ONLY HAVING THE VISION!!@ WE NEED THIS IN PICTURE OR PAPER!!! N O W!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i KNOW ja **** him *** i just KNOW he does he probably BITES it im so. LISTEN. THIS IS COMIN STR8 FROM THE SOURCE. I AM JUST THE MESSENGER!!! we know. We KNOW. Jaren ALWAYS wears compression leggings... and for What. FROM what? FROM WH O M?

For WHOM???? Ja's playing around pretending to help the pt stretch jarens legs by coming from the side or behind and he kinda grabs his thigh-like and grips it a little teasingly cus he knows.. it's a little Sensitive. From last night. Well it better be anyways. And his fingers squeeze near that inner thick of the thigh and jaren let's out a jolt and a lil HEY :oO !!!! That makes the pt guy usher ja out (he just thinks they're playin.. has no idea.) (Jaren intends to PLEASE JA. KEEP IT THAT WAY!!!) And ja snorts n snickers n scampers off Knowing that Jaren Knows HE knows. And jarens trying not to giggle, trying to keep his frowny face or roll his eyes like that wasn't anything but annoying. Like his face isn't feeling like a forestfire right now. it's Sick. it's Sickening. . . M o r e.

6. Ja may be WAYYY shorter, but his personality is big. Jaren is WAYYY taller, but his personality is smaller (which is still quite big lol).

HE IS A S H O R T KING!!@@! MAMA AYE!! i belive in his SHORT KING SUPREMACY!!! okay!! Jaren is but a mouse compared to his giant ego. When jaren tries shoving someone it's like... ok little guy. Let's get you to bed. When someone shoves ja it's Uh Oh. For Real. Top girlboss bottom malewife relationship my Beloved. LOVE hearing other's thoughts n comments on players personalities !!!! it's so cool!!

7. I almost view their relationship as a Kyle/DeMar type thing. If that makes sense?? Kyle and Ja are bossy and most people would assume they are both bottoms. But they aren’t. THEIR BIG GUYS ARE.

THIS IS.... I DO NOT GURANTEE UR SAFETY FROM THE KYLE/DEMAR GIRLIES. but i LOVE the idea behind it. Just because a person in the relationship has the fatter ass doesn't mean they can't top ok!!!!! Im so big behind this FLAT ASSES NEED LOVE TOO!!! Shoutout sauce gardner for leading the 2 dimensional bttm booty charge. I believe in you an them bones, my bratty bttm king. anyways... ur mind may be too great for this world... cherish it. Always. Big guys bottomimg... ure so real for this. My sibling in stronghold.

8. Jaren always looking at what Ja shows him on his phone. He’d do anything for that man to be happy (bottom behavior).

YHE PHONE OBSERVATION PLEAAASEEE !!! YES!!!!

Ja just looking up: How Do I Play Papa's Pizzareea On My Phobe. 💯

And jarens smiling and laughing and staring at dreamy like he's watching ja write up their marriage vows. Jaren thumbs up jas memes physically when they don't get thumbed up digitally on reddit. He's his little 6'10 cheerleader and he will live and die by the pompom. Giggling and twirling his hair and kicking his feet and getting all happy to write in his fuzzy pink princess diary abt how ja gave him a Cool and Aloof😎 Signaturely Awesome Sauce 😎 ja head nod of approval when jaren helps him spell restaurant in the Google maps. (Jaren also got it wrong and they were 25 minutes late to the restaurant) (their table was taken but ja took care of it.) (Don't Ask How.) This 6'10 man rlly makes himself SO babygirl all for these little gremlins to ignore or sometimes nod at. It's like snow white and the seven dwarvOKAY IM KIDDING IM SORRY LOL. jarens just so. All of This. Yeah. You really read him like a book 😭😭 caught him spread eagle LMFAO! i YEARN to hear more I REALLY DO!!! DO NOT BE SHY IN REMEMBRANCE........ this is for History. this is for... Ted .

#a whole ask on how jaren is a massive simpering pitiful and pathetic little simp for ja and the grizzlies #i WANT TO EAT THIS AND KEEP IT IN MY BELLY 4EVER!!!! #im so. #i lobe this #THANK U for writing this #me and the tumblr community needed this DESPERATELY u are doing a FINE WORK #if liking tall bttms were a crime we would be in capital hill or whatever state penitentiary whatever #LOCK US UP FOR HAVING TASTE !!! #we speak only the truth nothing but the truth ur honor i SWEAR IT!!!!!! #i love this. truly. thank u #old man voice as he holds ur one hand with his two old man hands #tha secret to love is...... #*barely alive quakey tone #bttm jaren jackson.... jrrrrrrrr #passes away and rots #ted asks #ted longer #ted sus #jaren #ja #des #clarke

[nanigma]

I know it's been a while but if youre still up for answering some questions im curious what your answers to 14, 31 and 32 is.

How did I not see this ask before?? Sorry anon. Uh let me dig up that questionnaire..

14. Something you really don't like about this series?

Well more of the recent trend towards player pandering. It's definitely more pronounced with avatars, but Alm also showed traces of this treatment in SoV. I legitimately feel like the devs don't want you to feel bad anymore, because it would ruin the power fantasy. See: Being able to recruit almost every student in 3H even in the cases where it doesn't make sense.

As we have seen in Hopes now.. this can come at the cost of making the players feel bad in entirely different ways. By trying so hard to make people not be sad that "they" i.e. Byleth isn't the center of the world anymore, they made most of the plot and the "conclusions of the spin-off unrewarding and frustrating. Because nobody gets to be happy without Byleth us.

If we go by game mechanics, it's definitely weapon durability. It just leads to loads of annoying inventory micro-managing.

31. Some moments of Fire Emblem you keep thinking of?

Oh there is plenty, but I'll limit it to one from each game I played.

Sacred Stones: I'd have to say L'Arachel's entire introduction. She is such a memorable character and I love her to bits.

Path of Radiance: The cutscene at the start of the gathering of the Laguz Royals. It's just so epic and does a really awesome job of introducing the Laguz factions and showcasing their different backgrounds and stances towards each other. I love the laguz in general so of course this would be a favourite. haha

Radiant Dawn: Can I say the opening cinematic? Cause it's the best in the series imo. It really gets you pumping and teases a lot of the good stuff ahead of time. (cheating so I can have more moments up here) I won't be more specific, cause I have a mutual I gotta show it to first.

Awakening: Emmeryn's death. That cutscene really hit hard. I really like how it was animated too.

Fates: Oh gosh so many moments. If I really have to pick one, I'd say it's the reveal of possessed Takumi at the end of Conquest. It's a very chilling and creepy scene, especially once you know it's basically an animated corpse you are facing. Truly tragic fate for my fave, but it still sticks in my head.

3 Houses/Hopes: Just putting these together, uh... I'd have to say the scene at the start of AM's post timeskip where you find Dimitri. It's especially memorable for me, because I got to it after a 12 hour gaming marathon at 5 am. Let's just say it made an impression right before I zonked out in bed.

32. What direction you wish this series would take?

Honestly, I'll just be glad if they take something away from 3 Hopes and that is 1) Shez worked a lot better than Byleth simply due to being an actual character and not the center of the entire plot. 2) Radically diverting from an established characters personality is a bad idea. 3) Pandering towards a character to the point where you warp the plot around them to suit their needs is also a bad idea.

That would really help. I would also like it if they somehow recaptured Tellius sense of storytelling, but I am not holding out hope.

Anyway, sorry again for the very late answer. Hope you still liked it.

#ask thing

[waitmyturtles]

Welp. Absolute Zero, Double Savage, my hopeful babies. You two, my sweet little drama kiddo-widdos -- y'all got New Siwaj-ed this year.

Maybe I'm being hyperbolic about AZ (I am NOT being hyperbolic about Double Savage, my sweet intergenerational-trauma-show-that-got-derailed-by-flashbacks-and-everything-damn-it), but.... come awn, I had high hopes for Absolute Zero (I'm talking episode 4 in this post). @lurkingshan covered everything this morning, so I won't add too much.

By the time we get to an episode 4 -- we have to have some decisions made. Adult Suansoon is still piddling around with what decisions he'll need to make, and... he's asking himself, he's asking Na, he's asking teen Ongsa. Homeboy, you're the grown-up in the room. You gotta make a decision to not engage with Ongsa, and/or to keep your teen SELF from engaging with Ongsa! Episode 4! We only have eight episodes left, and there's a lot of time travelin' to do! MAKE UP YOUR MIND!

Episode 1 was SO sharp. Teen Ongsa was SO quick to the move with teen Suansoon. Teen Ongsa was like -- I LIKE YOU, BE MY BOYFRIEND, he flirted right, he timed it right, he was chef's kiss -- nailed it. Boom.

Adult Suansoon, man. When did Suansoon, in the course of 10 years, become this floppy, indecisive mess? I WILL ACKNOWLEDGE that he's grieving for adult Ongsa's accident -- and he time-traveled -- yes, homeslice is going through a lot.

But, but. He has now spent TWO EPISODES, essentially DATING TEEN ONGSA. You two are dating! Back-hugs! Heartbeats! I'm a mom, I see that age gap! Where's my chappal?! Hands off, more communication first!

And we're not given context, implicit or explicit, that tells us WHY adult Suansoon is going there with a teenager. We needed it the last episode, and we need it in today's episode. He's not deciding if he's gonna cut his love cord with Ongsa, and in the meantime, they're just dating, essentially.

We finally got the big news at the end of the episode, but once more -- we don't have a sense of the direction that adult Suansoon will take in his decisions to alter the past....EXCEPT?

That preview shows that they're basically still gonna date in episode 5! SHARING A BED?! ADULT SUANSOON?! COME TO MY OFFICE, NOW!

I also want to remind adult Suansoon.... we haven't lost adult Ongsa. Adult Ongsa is still alive! Yes, gravely injured -- but he's not gone, not yet.

So the match of the tone of indecisiveness, the insinuation that teen Ongsa and adult Suansoon are still going to be dating in the next episode, and that adult Suansoon is acting as if adult Ongsa is already gone.... the math is not mathing. The show needs to move. Mix Wanut is literally listed as the lead actor here, and he's the one we've seen the LEAST! (Along with adult Ongsa.)

I don't really know what this show is about anymore. That adult Suansoon can't make a damn decision? Cool! I really wanted more shows with adults, but I didn't sign up for age gap romances and indecisive messes. This is not a time-travel show, so much as it is a syllabus in examples of "needing to make up your damn mind already."

#absolute zero #absolute zero the series #THIS SHOW GOT NEW SIWAJ-ED!!!!! #y'all firstkhao girlies #be on alert if new siwaj goes near them #teng kanist #mix wanut #tor supakorn #suansoon x ongsa #ongsa x suansoon

[thecameronchronicles]

Okayyyy so since i know that you have made other fics about simular things i would like to request This again its totally okay if you dont but i just really want some trevor fics so

Basicly its like in the movie but Riley and trevor obvi arent together but i have the idea now i like the whole concept about being yealous and insicure since i am like 99% of the time so basicly When the whole cube thing starts happening trevor wont tell the reader whats happening obvi he Dosent want her wraped up in it and to yk get her killed and she starts Kinda thinking hes cheating on her with Riley and slowly becomes depressed and starts eating less because she thinks trevor likes Riley becauae Riley is a few pounds smaller Then the reader (if that makes sense basicly the reader isnt fat or chubby she just weighs more Then Riley and you Can only Kinda see it) and starts going to bed before trevor comes Home and never waking up Early so basicly she goes to bed Early and wakes up LATE and trevor notices and gets really worried and starts comming Home a little earlier but When he comes Home he sees a plate of food Half finished and Walks into the bathroom because he hears crying or smth and sees the reader on her knees infront of the toilet with two fingers Down her throat trying to throw up and hes feeling a hell lot of emotions When he sees This and grabs har worst take her fingers out her mouth and pucks her up (Kinda like a baby like her head on his shoulder and his arms under her Ass and the other suporting her head or like her legs Bent over one arm and head laying on the other idk how Yup describe it sorry) and like ofc i want smut but idk what really would lead up to it but basicly he like sets some rules where hes like 1. You have to eat breakfest lunch and dinner 2. You have to stay hidrated 3. You gotta tell me whats going on When you feel like that. And like its like he already had some rules like yk sexual ones but hes adding THESE and ofc before they fuck he gets her to eat the food left on her plate

Hey babes! I took a few creative liberties with this one. Hope you still enjoy it.

"Rules" Coming soon.

@steveharringtonswifey09

[transboysokka]

okay fuck it, twilight breaking dawn part 1 I guess

(for the first time ever)

ok fuck I’m really in it now here goes breaking dawn part 1 I guess

I HATE breaking up movies (especially book movies) into 2 parts like just bc Harry Potter did it for a 1000-page book doesn’t mean EVERYONE has to for money now…

Anyway starting strong w another corny quote from Bella

K Jacob couldn’t keep his shirt on gif one second

Bella and Alice girlfriends and comphet already yesss

Getting married SO young it makes so much sense now that I know the author is Mormon lol

Just bc this is normal where I grew up doesn’t mean I like it

Edward looks slightly less weird in this one I think

Omg what hasn’t he told her was he engaged before he turned into a vampire or something

Ohhhhhh juicy

Ok but he is waiting until the last possible moment to tell her this which DOES line up w the rest of his shady personality

Can’t believe this is the 4th movie and my opinion about him still hasn’t changed

So anyway does her dad know about any of this yet or

I’m SORRY I’m still HUNG UP ON getting married SO YOUNG like I know Tom of people who have done it but like these are children???

Tacky af of everyone to wear white to her wedding

Oh it’s a dream. Still. My point stands.

Are we gonna find out in this movie why she’s so special and vampire powers don’t work on her?

I’m starting to think her wild dreams mean something in the same way Alice sees stuff

Rosalie did her hair? Are we sure? Oh I see the back okay fair

I gotta know the budget of this wedding damn

Jessica is the GOAT of this whole series though she says everything exactly like it is

Anyway I just gotta say that I’m perpetually annoyed by the selfishness and stupidity of Bella wanting to throw her life away to be a vampire on purpose

Was that the author again

I hope this wedding scene isn’t too long I’ll be so bored

Oh you KNOW the 2011 fangirlies were losing their MINDS at this in theatres

More shitty soundtrack choices. Oh never mind this is the same song as the end of the first movie. Still sucks though

So are the werewolves and vampires like… good with each other now?

Does Jacobs dad have a problem with Charlie of something

Whoever this Irina is she needs to chill tf out

These speeches are sooo gd awkward. Very realistic

I do like how cool Edward is with Bella’s friendship with Jacob. Kind of ooc for him lol

I just KNOW Bella’s gonna talk to Edward like “ok I married you now make me a vampire” and he’s gonna be like “mmmm not yet”

Wtf why doesn’t he think they can have a honeymoon??

Is vampire dick like super dangerous for humans or something lol

They’re going to rio lol?? How fuckin random??

Wtf Carlisle just like. HAS Brazilian islands to give away??

Okay so they’re finally gonna fuck I guess but I HOPE I don’t have to see it, I CANNOT explain how much I am NOT invested in this straight couple…

I completely just dissociated for most of that but DID HE JUST BREAK THE BED LMFAO

Glad she’s having a good honeymoon but I’m bored af

Oh shit oh man lol he’s like “I bruised you I’m so sorry” but it’s apparently her kink what is going on???

Bro is she pregnant already lol

Wow it must grow like exponentially fast if something

I must be missing something bc I still don’t know why this is like a big deal?

Ohhhh what if they have to turn her so their creepy baby doesn’t kill her

Do they have a private jet or something wtf

Lol why would she call Rosalie of all people

What’s going onnnnn why’s Charlie at jacobs house???

I still don’t know if Charlie knows about the vampires??? I’m guess no??

Ok so Jacob thinks Bella is a vampire now?

Idk why this is all a bit confusing to me

I know he’s gonna see her and she’s gonna have the biggest baby bump

WHY is this a PROBLEM chill Jacob

Ok so is Bella carrying the vampire messiah or Antichrist or something

And now it’ll be hard to make her a vampire?? Bro I feel like I’ve skipped an entire movie

Edward is sooooo dramatic now if Bella dies he wants to die too??? CAN EVERYONE CALM DOWN??

And yeah what’s going on w bella and Rosalie

Teen mom Bella I’m so sorry ur going through this

So yeah doesn’t Jacob fall in love with this baby or something lol

Anyway this baby thing seems like something the valtori or whatever should be involved in

It grows so fast she’s probably gonna be giving birth next week

Jacob almost getting hit by a car lmao

Okayyyyy the werewolves are so extreme now too

This werewolf scene is soooo warrior cats coded (I know nothing about warrior cats maybe it isn’t)

Nice to see Jacob wearing so many more clothes this movie

I’ve had Seth for 5 minutes and I’d already die for him

The Cullens house is so…. Ugly…

We Stan Leah too

Werewolf civil war??

Leah deserves a gf I’m rooting for u girl

What a weird ass yahoo search for Edward

WAIT they name the baby renesmee right?? I’m JUST realizing it’s a combo of Edwards mom and Bella’s moms names that’s cool

I feel so bad Bella is gonna have this baby and Edward isn’t gonna want it at all

Did this book really need to be two movies bc the pacing of this one so far seems too slow

Also very fanficy

Does Charlie have a girlfriend now isn’t that random and sudden

So Edward says the baby is a human?? Then wtf is up with this wild ass pregnancy

Damn I really wish I could see anything in these dark scenes

That’s NOT how I thought renesmee was pronounced lol

Wtffffff did she just BREAK her BACK JESUS CHRIST

Did EDWARD JUST BITE THE BABY OUT WHAT IS HAPPENING

Lollll he was too happy about the baby and Bella just died lmfao

I’m way more okay with her being a vampire if she was gonna die anyway, not if she was gonna be a whiny ass baby about wanting to be special

But anyway yeah really not sure how she’s gonna come back from that one, or how they’ll explain it

Maybe the reason she’s still dead is bc Edwards compressions suck so bad

Stop just biting her everywhere eww

We really don’t need the like molecular animation of it all we get it

Idk why but I’m not completely trusting Rosalie with that baby

Do we know the baby is human btw

Why wouldn’t she have told her parents she was pregnant btw like she could have just pretended she had been for a while

Ohhhh jacobs gonna commit baby use but accidentally fall in love while doing it lmfao

Oh NOOOOOOOO that’s so fucked uppppppp they couldn’t have waited until she was like a little older at least?????

Oh NOW Edward calls for help lolol

Like she’s been dead a while stop being in denial

Is Edward bothered AT ALL that his enemy is in love with his infant daughter lololol

Ready for this bad CGI gauntness to go away though

Oh they really just added in some cgi airbrushing and PALENESS lol vampire skin

All three flashbacks are also unnecessary tbh

okay for some reason I knew about the shot of her opening her eyes all vampy as the very end of this movie

Yeah so that was partially very boring but mostly just a LOT of VERY INTERESTING developments

I still think splitting movies into two halves is very jarring and disorienting for plot and story reasons but at least for this one it KINDA works???

Thank god there’s only one of these left

#text #twilight liveblog

[lovestuckyhatemarvel]

Oh hello, episode 4. Let’s see if you have more memorable things than the first three episodes did.

1.) It’s hard for Max to see that Billy is wrong ‘cause he’s always a kind of a jerk.

2.) I love Max telling El about comic books, especially Wonder Woman.

3.) I forgot how crazy the old woman is acting when they take her away in an ambulance.

4.) I can’t remember if Heather survives this season, but she’s gonna need a lot of therapy if she does survive and does remember it, because leaving her begging, sobbing parents in a basement to be possessed isn’t something you really get over.

5.) Real shitty of the mindflayer for making people be awake for the possession. Like c’mon.

6.) Why is Hopper not in a hospital?

7.) The boys are terrible at communication.

8.) Robin has a plan and took all the tips.

9.) I had thought that Heather’s dad looked familiar and had already forgotten until I saw him again that he’s the douchebag head of the paper.

10.) Is Mrs. Driscoll actually a paranoid schizophrenic or were they just having this man be weird?

11.) Nancy and Jonathan got fired.

12.) We gotta get El on a roller coaster.

13.) Learning about hosts for the Mind Flayer.

14.) Larry is a terrible liar. You’d think a politician would be a better liar. Actually scratch that, that makes sense.

15.) It is very hard to blackmail someone who has blackmail on you too.

16.) “Don’t give me that dead daughter sob story, because I just don’t care.” Shocked Hopper only broke his nose and not killed him.

17.) Ohhhhh. I forgot Hopper threatens to chop the man’s finger off with a cigar cutter.

18.) “Oliver Twist routine” Nancy really is classist. Also if Ted Wheeler really did make 6 figures in the 1980s, they really really were well off.

19.) Dustin is like Gumbo.

20.) I didn’t know Billy even owned a shirt. Did the Mind Flayer have to go shopping?

21.) ‘Boys only’? You’re being dumb, Mike.

22.) Having Erica be a huge fan of capitalism sucks. Bare minimum I need someone to have her eventually grow out of this immature phase and be like, “yeah, no, that was stupid. Capitalism sucks.” Because kids, capitalism sucks. It hurts everyone but the ultra rich.

23.) I forgot the mayor keeps the papers in his ugly house.

24.) I really do like to see Hopper outside of his work uniform. I also like to see JOyce putting stuff together.

25.) Aw, Nancy actually went to her mom.

26.) Like this is really a surface level reading of feminism to think ‘I am a woman and therefore damn the fallout and consequences because I am woman, hear me roar’ is the end all to be all. Like I love Nancy and Karen talking and loving each other but she did still blow up Jonathan’s spot and refer to him talking about his economic circumstances as ‘Oliver twist routine’. Like that was fucked up.

27.) I forgot how genuinely worried Max was about Billy. She really really hoped it wasn’t Billy that was the new host.

28.) Operation Child Endangerment is a great name, don’t let anyone tell you otherwise, Erica.

29.) You’d think a guy like a mayor would have handcuff keys by his bed.

30.) Steve is so fucking worried up until Erica walks through those doors.

31.) The wild thing is I’ve thought Billy’s actor, Dacre, is attractive in other things, but I do not think he’s attractive at all as Billy. Like both because of the hair and the attitude. He’s just terminally unfuckable to me. And it’s one of the many reasons I hate Steve/Billy. I also hate Eddie/Billy.

32.) Billy hit the back wall hard enough to break tiles. Either that or they’re shitty tiles.

33.) Fun fact, HIPAA didn’t exist until the 90s so the only thing stopping Nancy from just being a concerned neighbor getting answers would be hospital policy and how willing to talk the front desk woman is.

34.) “If you die, I die.” “…Okay.”

35.) I forgot that the fucking elevator plummets like it’s a goddamn roller coaster ride.

36.) I had blocked out Billy sobbing in the sauna and saying ‘he made me do it’ entirely.

37.) Max is so sad and so worried about Max.

38.) if Will didn’t have Spidey senses, Max would have gotten stabbed with broken tile and sauna glass.

39.) I forgot Billy gets pinned to the wall with weights and it keeps cutting back to Mrs. Driscoll looking horrifying.

40.) I also forgot that Billy’s body is forced to choke El. Also that Mike is the one who takes a bat to possessed Billy to save her.

41.) And then Billy got thrown through a brick wall before getting up and walking off.

42.) There’s so many people in that abandoned factory.

#stranger things #stranger things rewatch #s3e4 #stranger things s3e4

[whenabluemoonfangirls]

A TRANSFORMERS FANFIC (oc insert)

GUARDIAN OF THE CODEX

CH 1 || IN THE STREETS OF NEW YORK

Tuesday. August 22, 1995

Noah had found himself on his bed, just thinking about how his life has run its course.

A lot---

A lot has happened, and a lot has changed. Things actually been better now. Kris has had his treatments which was easier for him and his mother. Mirage was back and he seemed to be spending more time with the family despite Optimus's instruction. Optimus, however, was getting all too familiar with the human ways. Bee, had been so relieved to have been revived that he had, discreetly, visited his favorite human-much to Optimus's bewilderment. Noah remembered how Bee got a huge scolding from the "Big Man."

The "Big Man" indeed. Yet, he was happy that he and Optimus could actually agree on things now---especially joining on telling them (Mirage and Bee) to not be reckless and not getting into trouble.

"Sonic, you got a call." Kris's voice was heard from the doorway. Noah got up as soon as he heard his little brother.

"What's up?"

"Girlfriend." Kris nonchalantly said.

Elena.

---It didn't work well with her. Yes, they dated for a bit and yet her expeditions and career had caused some misunderstandings. They decided to be good friends. And they were.

"Girl space friend. Kris." He stood up, walked to his brother and ruffled his hair. The little guy shook his head.

"Hey, focus on your homework."

Noah took hold of the phone. He heard Elena's voice from the other line.

"Hey." He heard her chuckle.

"How you doin'? Any new discoveries?" Noah asked with a smile of his own. Elena chuckled again as a reply.

"Getting there. Oh yeah, I was hoping that you pick up someone. She's a friend...a colleague. Actually, a friend-like colleague, if that makes sense?" Noah's brows furrow after hearing her.

"I guess. Kinda. I have to pick someone up?"

"Yeah. A diner---I told her to be at the diner. You will pick her up there." Elena then told him where it was. Noah nodded, not that she could see from the other line.

"Got it. She knows about the texts. If you know what I mean---also I gotta go. Tell your brother, I said hi. And the others too. " He knew what "others" she meant.

"Got it. See you around when you back."

Noah placed the phone down. He turned back to see Kris was listening, the whole time.

"Kris, really?"

"What did she say?" Kris shrugged. Noah just had to indulge him with their conversation. Kid was just too curious.

"Picking up someone. And no, you're staying." Noah replied even before Kris could say or at least demand to come along.

Yet- Noah was also curious who could Elena's friend be or colleague? Either way, he was fixated on one thing that she knew about the texts.

Ali arrived after a nonstop flight of about...16 hours more or less. It was inevitable that she arrived jet lagged. She also had a massive headache. The meal that was served earlier was not into her liking so now she had found herself removing what contents of what was left from her stomach while she had the briefcase, clenched in her arm. The briefcase holding the relief.

"Ugh...I am never having that again." She walked out of the airport, hungry and a bit wobbly. She had to get some food and the diner (she had asked the cab driver if it was close earlier) was very far.

"Is there uhm a food stall?" She asked the cab driver, who was pretty chill and friendly with her.

"Yeah. You okay with hotdogs?" The man asked. From what she had observed, he had tan skin and an accent that has proved to have her in awe. Oh, and the young man was dashing so she could not help but blush every time the man would look at her from the front view mirror.

"Oh yes, I am. Hotdogs would seem lovely." Ali then paused and sighed heavily.

"You alright? You ain't from here huh?"

"No. I'm from the Philippines."

"Philippines? That's a bit of a mouthful." The cab driver laughed.

"Originally it was called Filipinas." Ali began but she stopped. "Sorry, I uhm, I am an archaeologist and I just love history." She spoke. The cab driver only smiled.

"Nonsense. I loved to hear about that. Hey, we can talk more over hotdogs. It's just around this corner." The cab driver added.

"Alright, sure!" Ali sounded so excited and figured that she had to dial it down a bit.

"Really?"

"No, really." Ali was in the middle of explaining to the cab driver, which she had now known as Tyler, that her fellowmen absolutely adored the Black culture. All the while, admiring the beautiful city at night.

"We got rappers. We have a famous one named Francis Magalona. Even little kids try to rap like him. Our rap is somewhat nationalistic and its cool." She added, taking a bite from the hotdog. "This is really good!" She was just elated to have tasted this after a bad airline meal.

"Told ya. Best hotdogs in the city. Now tell me, what brings you to New York? You're a long, long way from home." Tyler chuckled, flashing that bright smile that could bring Ali to her knees. Ali had to feign being all flustered and act normal---explaining everything.

"I see. I still have to take you to the diner." Tyler sighed, looking up at the city lights. "And about that adoration, that was surprising,"

"Oh? Well, our ancestors were called "Negritos". They had black skinned too---they're called "Aetas " today. In my opinion, we like brothers yo!" Ali said, trying her best to sound cool. Tyler was just amused.

"Go on."

"And then---we were the first ones to indulge when rap was made. It was said that it became famous when US Troops was stationed in military bases there. It's truly fantastic." Ali continued and as she did so, Tyler just watched and was just fascinated with this here---young woman.

When they had eaten all of the hotdogs, Tyler had to say that it was time for them to go. Ali was saddened by this as she got inside the cab. The drive to the diner was all but silent. Ali didn't want to part but work was work.

"Hey."

She heard Tyler speak again.

"How long will you be staying here?" He asks. Ali bit her lip as she thought of a reply.

"It will depend on how long this will take." She said, pointing at the suitcase.

"I guess I can take you around the city and when you're back home...maybe we become pen pals?" Tyler added and this caused Ali's heart to skip a beat.

Pen pals---

They were to send each other letters and this could pave the way for them to call each other using their phones.

"International calls are expensive...but I can deal with that." Ali said.

"Alright me too." She heard him say and boy, was the girl in cloud nine. Ali was actually excited of the days to come.

Was this her love story, unfolding?

Was this something---

And then a bright light caught her attention. She looked back to see that there were black cars. It gave off the impression that they were being followed.

"Hey Tyler. I think we have company." She said, worriedly. Tyler noticed the black cars from his mirror.

"Hold on. " He pushed on the gas to evade the cars. Ali held on to the suitcase tight. A sudden car chase had started to develop, and Tyler was making sure they wouldn't get caught. By now they had passed the diner, but that wasn't important. Tyler must keep his passenger safe.

"Who are they?" Ali could hear the worry and fright in his voice.

"I don't know!" Ali watched as the cars continued to chase after them.

As Tyler tried to get away from them, a car had crashed into the cab causing it to swerve. The car then had spun round and round before it slid across the road and halted to a stop.

Ali was dizzy and tried to make out what was happening or what has happened-yet she got over to where Tyler was. She used all her strength to do this.

"Tyler? Tyler?!"

Tyler held her hand while groaning in pain. "Ali..." Blood trickling down his face. Ali gasped worriedly.

"Tyler-" Ali whimpered and then started to unbuckle his belt. "We need to get you out of here!" Tyler heard her say but then noticed that the men in coats had gotten out of their cars and was approaching the cab. He placed a hand on top of the belt.

"Ali, get away from here." Tyler said looking up at her. Ali froze.

"What...?"

Was she going to leave him there? Was he being serious?

"You-you're joking right?" Her voice quivered while she searched for a hint of jest in his eyes, that he was just joking but Tyler was dead serious.

"Ali, get out."

"No!" Ali refused despite Tyler trying to pry her hand off the belt. "You, need to get to safety!" Ali didn't say anything and shook her head. Tyler shook her, his grip strong on her shoulder. He did this in hopes to bring her back to reality or to stop her from panicking.

"You need to get away and I promise I will find you." Tyler said looking deep in her eyes. Ali tried to hold back her tears, but he could see that she was abou to cry.

"Alright." She nodded. Tyler chuckled and handed her the briefcase.

"Now go."

Ali had to get off the cab, but she didn't want to leave him behind. What choice did she have? Ali gave the man, a tight hug, then got out and ran for it. The men followed after her. They didn't want her to escape.

Tyler watched her ran as fast as she could.

They had come upon an empty alley save for an old car. Ali placed the briefcase on top of it. Then removed her coat before facing the men.

"I could literally kill you for destroying this magical night..." Ali seethed. She was angry at the men who just chuckled. The young woman already knew what they were thinking.

How could a small woman beat them?

For Ali, she had taken up martial arts to protect herself. Excavations can give opportunities to grave robbers or black-market dealers to take what they have discovered, had dug or unearthed. She wasn't going to let that happen.

This was also a time.

Ali then got up the old car and gestured the men to come forward while she tied up her hair before getting into a fighting stance. She could see the men getting cocky, yet this did not faze her.

"Come at me."

A man then charged at her, ready to hit the female with a club. And just as she was ready to fend herself, a sudden force sent her flying and then falling back to the ground---hard.

She could see the lights were fading into black while trying to stand. To no avail, her body felt heavy. Just before she lost consciousness, all she could make out was a vague outline of silver.

✨FOOTNOTES: hi there, [bmoon] here! And I posted the first chapter to the fanfic. Boi, i did some research for this part. we truly adore black culture----many of our filipino entertainment culture has been heavily influenced by it. i know--i see my young relatives try to rap and theyre really good. another is that Ali was the only oc that i should make but then ideas overflowed, and Tyler was conceived---err made. anyways I do hope you enjoy this post! I am open to comments and all.

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