#I’m just rambling. But yeah

[itspileofgoodthings]

see i have all these spicy takes in the drafts that i don’t post out of self-restraint but then i see a spicy take that i hate SO MUCH and then i want to post mine out of revenge. it’s a terrible cycle tbh.

#it is actually and fundamentally not good for my weaknesses to be here lol #but I also love it! And love the community and the support and don’t find a ready-made replacement for that in real life #so yeah. I wrestle with it #if I could always use it as an opportunity to practice charity and restraint and shutting up it would be a good thing #but I have to be careful with any known potential irritant because I have such a temper and get so genuinely pissed off so easily #while also having poor impulse control #and like. it isn’t fair of me to be out there baiting people with my opinions and being provoking with takes I know will be upsetting #to the circle in which I move on here #but I also love to say a thing I think is true or feel is true and talking my way into a more nuanced opinion is how I do it! #but also like. the simple truth is that it also isn’t kind or charitable or necessary most of the time #no matter how I try to dress it up with comments on my personality and how I learn/like to analyze things #I really wrestle with it. there was a part of me that so at peace when I was gone from tumblr (essentially) for half a year #but again. I missed it #teaching helps a lot. my personality can take the very age-appropriate obnoxiousness and idiocy that comes with talking about literature #to teenagers #but I’m kind of so over trying to have a nuanced conversation online #it’s just so hard. I need the body language and the one to one you can only have in person for certain conversations #and disagreements. tbh it’s better and kinder and just BETTER if i stay out of it online #but I never do it perfectly #I’m just rambling. But yeah #thanks for listening #this has been #3 text posts in a row with Maria

[anna-scribbles]

was told today by a child that i look like “adrien but if he was a girl” and i WILL be riding that high for the rest of my life

#it was so unexpected. also almost completely just because i am blonde i’m sure #but i was wearing green + my claws out converse so. warranted #have i told you guys about my claws out converse. my #they’re so sick. i love them #was also told by the children that every boy i draw looks like adrien. so. yeah #they were reading me for filth today #ml #anna rambles

[smilesrobotlover]

Heh

#posting this now before big name aus get the idea too #idk I was looking at the mangas and how they’re drawn is somewhat similar #like their tunics #link between links #lbl first #lbl fierce deity #I’ve been… having thoughts #I was gonna keep this a secret but I honestly got scared #that some big au was gonna have the same idea as me #and people would think that I was jumping a bandwagon #and like there’s nothing wrong with doing that #but idk #it’s my pride talkin #now I HAVE seen random artists playing with this idea so I’m def not the first one to think of this #but yeah #I want First to be bright and like the sun #while fierce is dark and like the moon #anyways I’m rambling #just take it

[turtleblogatlast]

[ cw: sacrifice / self sacrifice / slight suicidal themes / death mention / ]

I personally think that Leo took the wrong lessons from the movie. I definitely think he grew to understand the importance of teamwork and making sure he takes others into account so as to not harm them by proxy of whatever scheme he has cooked up, however based on the ending events I’m not quite certain he fully grasped two things.

The first thing is communication. Oh, he can communicate, and he does, when he deems it necessary. When he’s setting up a plan prior to the action. But this is where the second thing comes in.

The second thing I don’t think Leo truly grasped is “it’s not about you.” It’s so unbearably easy to take that the wrong way, especially when taking the rest of the series into account.

What I believe Leo took from this message is not “it’s not just you, everyone matters and can contribute, can help and be helped” but “put the whole of everyone above yourself” which can both be a good lesson…and a fatal one.

And it is fatal, we see as much in the movie.

Even after the big hope speech, when Leo is “fighting” Krang!Raph, he takes a huge risk. Sure, it worked, and Leo managed to get through to Raph through a well deserved apology, but it could have so easily ended in his death and yet he barely even hesitates to go for it.

And then again, to the big scene at the end, where Leo sacrifices himself not only for the sake of his family, but for the whole world.

To him, that’s the message to take from this. That the lives of everyone, of the greater good, matters…more than him. That the risk to himself is worth it if others can be saved.

Leo learned that gambling with his life as the betting chip is always the best move to make in the end.

And to make matters worse…this thinking is what works.

These risks are ultimately what is needed to save the day, so why would Leo look away from it now? Clearly it’s the right move and everything worked out!

Thing is, Leo did grow from the events of the movie. He learned to take things more seriously and be more mature, he learned to value his team’s input and capabilities enough to rely on them more, and he learned to be less self-centered and realize the turmoil others were going through (especially if that turmoil is a result of his actions.)

But still, he’s grown to accept the gamble of his life as a viable answer to their problems.

Personally, with how Leo has been shown to toy around with the idea of “it’s better me than them” I think this goes beyond sacrifice in the name of love or even sacrifice in the name of responsibility, and pushes over into sacrifice in the name of worth.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rottmnt headcanons #rise leo #death mention / #sacrifice / #self sacrifice / #suicidal tendencies implication / #I honestly could go on for hours but this is all a kinda messy ramble rn #but yeah like…I genuinely can’t see how Leo doesn’t take the wrong message from this all #sure he gets a lot of good growth but #he’s a gambler at heart #it’s just now he’s only willing to bet *himself* #ONCE AGAIN- #‘I’m nothing without them’ and ‘it’s not about you’ can and do mix into quite the dangerous cocktail huh #thing that gets me here too is that a lot of what Leo has to learn in the movie is things he already showed moments of knowing in the show #like Leo KNOWS what his family is capable of and can rely on them if necessary #the problem is when it’s necessary #and he grew to understand that it’s actually ALWAYS necessary…except at the very end #leo is also often the voice of reason throughout the series…but he also often folds and just goes with the flow #he’s goofy like that lol #and tbh he likes to RELAX #that’s a pretty subtle but pretty substantial part of his character #imo at the beginning of the movie Leo KNOWS he’s being immature and THATS THE POINT #they’re still kids man #they’re all just kids #but yeah #I keep rambling and rambling but Leo really is such a tragic character in the grand scheme of things #he’s so utterly fascinating to look at because of how many layers and complexities he has but I just want to give him a hug and let him rest

[doctorsiren]

thinking about anime child miles 😭

#doctorsiren #ace attorney #miles edgeworth #missile the dog #ace attorney fanart #art #digital art #my art #fanart #procreate #sketch page #ignore my ramblings in galactic #I was passing the time #kinda surprised I’m still ‘fluent’ in galactic haha #anyways yeah he’s just…very tragic and it makes my heart hurt #autistic miles edgeworth

[daisysmalia]

Reasons Tommy/Buck&Tommy aren’t going away (yet);

- The 911 insta followed Lou, and they only follow mains and people who are reoccurring (and reoccur a lot)

- They also have posted two BuckTommy posts recently, showcasing them as an official couple of the show

-Both the things above have happened in the past week, whilst they’re filming ep 8 and finishing writing 9&10 which to me suggests Tommy will be in at least one of those eps.

- Tim keeps calling it a love story and a romcom, I highly doubt he’d end that after three and a bit eps. Especially after how it’s been built up.

-Oliver said that Buck and Tommy have some getting to know each other but he also said him and Lou do too. That they need to build these relationships- doesn’t sound like it’s going anytime soon.

- Lou said he was pitched an initial arc, which is normally 4 eps, but that doesn’t mean the arc can’t be extended. Especially when the reception is as good as it has been- and also they needed the wiggle room incase it was received poorly.

- Oliver also said he’d like Tommy to stay around, regardless of what happens but also said he’d like to continue their story in a similar thread to Tarlos.

-Tim and Oliver talk a lot about getting Buck off the hamster wheel, and I think him staying in a LTR would be the final part of that. Otherwise he’s still kind of on it, where he gets in and out of relationships without settling for a bit.

-This one is half joking, but Lou keeps mentioning the fact 9-1-1 has a s8 totally unprovoked 😂

#BuckTommy #just to reassure those who think Tommy will be gone too soon #I mean personally I’m not fussed if he stays forver lol #but yeah I think he’s here for longer and so is there relationship #also stuff he says in the cameos if you read i between the lines #like it’s hard fo fully tell cuz he kinda contradicts himself but I’m pretty confident #and if I’m wrong? well I’m wrong lol #Leah rambles

[only-lonely-www]

So basically ATLA brain rot has hit me like a truck

#atla #avatar the last airbender #zuko #toph beifong #what happened was I was forced to watch the live action #which is actually pretty good if you get past the first few episodes #and if you don’t have someone in your ear telling you it’s awful the whole time #first episode is definitely the weakest and that’s 50% gran gran’s fault #aang and katara are also pretty flat but whatever #sokka’s good and zuko’s fantastic actually #they did goof on a few things but overall I think it’s a fun time #just don’t expect it to be as good as the cartoon and you’ll be okay #ANYWAY it got me missing toph #so i rewatched the blind bandit episode #and then wound up watching the entirety of books 2 & 3 in a few days #and now I’m brain rotted #which is especially weird considering when I first watched it I was like #yeah that was good! and then never thought about it again #i dunno what changed but i need help it’s taking over my life #wanted to draw Sokka too but he looks hard to draw #and i had enough trouble with these two #maybe someday #sorry for rambling in the tags goodbye

[i-am-a-fan]

I need more redson

#speck rambles #🐊 #yeah. okay. #i’m an artist. #i could just draw more redson #AND I WILL #but i want more of her in the SHOWWWWAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[bigfatbimbo]

too tired to write but i’m thinking about the vees and they’re collective boo thing! Can’t get silly little self care nights out of my head, because your too tired to fuck them but they still what your attention. So Velvette is painting your nails and Val is doing your skincare routine while Vox rests his head in your lap 😕😕

#ughhhhhh yeah val would try to get in your pants but shut up we’re fluffy rn #bimbo rambling #the vees x reader #i think i got this idea from rose a while ago idk i can’t remember i’m just here to spread the gospel #so good job rose 🙌😝 #inbox open

[ahalliance]

just finished Nimona… DAMN does it feel good to watch such an openly queer movie man

#i haven’t read the graphic novel (though now I plan to!) so these are just my observations from the movie but #nimona is fucking trans & nonbinary man #like so fucking openly. refusing to answer balistair’s small minded questions and simply replying ‘i’m Nimona!’ #chef’s kiss. absolutely fucking astounding. the nonbinary/genderqueer experience in a nutshell #you cannot and will not pin me down ! #and obviously the major themes of being the odd one out among a whole society of people perceived as ‘normal’. wow that hit close to home! #and if the aggressively queer themes weren’t enough we have ambrosius and balistair too <3 like fuck yeah give us that on screen couple ! #overall… enjoyed it so very much #a new comfort movie perhaps….. #oh and don’t think i missed that pride flag in the credits lmaooo absolutely iconic #jay rambles #nimona #nimona spoilers

[lesbiansanemi]

Chainsaw man is ridiculous because you’ll recommend it to people like “yeah it’s one of the best stories of all time, I can literally feel it in my fucking guts, it’s such a good commentary on the nature of humanity as a whole, it will change you as a person” but like,,, it’s called fucking chainsaw man. who let that happen.

#chainsaw man sounds like a bad slasher flic from the 80s #but tbh I think that’s part of the charm and I wouldn’t want it called anything else #it’s just funny because I feel like when I tell ppl to watch ‘chainsaw man’ they get a bit confused when I’m like #‘yeah actually it’s sooooooo deep’ lmao #chainsaw man #kaz rambles

[art-of-the-maiden]

i wasn’t super sold on royalteeth/kingleader/kingmaster until i discovered my partner kins kinger and i kin caine. therefore, i had to draw them being dumb gay old men

they r holding handz <3

#i drew them from memory pls be nice to me #so much potential #realistically #i’m not sure caine would actually love any of them beyond his programmed affection for his circus performers #but i’m such a sucker for an AI learning to be human #and i think he’d be somewhat secretly obsessed with trying to be human #even if only to better understand how to help them #bc he loves everyone. he does #he just doesn’t know what it means #anyways i’m rambling #look at the gay old men. yeah. yum #tadc #the amazing digital circus #tadc caine #tadc kinger #kingleader #kingmaster #royalteeth #tadc caine x kinger #tadc kinger x caine #tadc royalteeth #tadc kingleader #tadc kingmaster #traditional art #doodles #tadc doodles

[helloimtired]

never being anyone’s best friend or the most important person in anyone’s life, ever, can really fuck you up emotionally

#like throughout my life i’ve had people that i’d call my best friends #but I guess I was never theirs #like they always had more important friends that would always take precedence #and then now as an adult people’s partners always take precedence #which is fair and valid #I just can’t never find that for myself and always end up as an afterthought and it really really fucks you up #hence me sobbing rn #bc a friend and I were supposed to call tonight and had scheduled it a few days ago #aaaand they just told me they can’t because they’re still on a call with their partner who’ve they’ve called basically everyday this week #oh and this friend won’t be able to call anyone all summer so I just can’t talk to them on the phone again until fall #and yeah i’m sobbing rn #rants and rambles #friends #long distance friendship #lonliness #friendship #no friends #friend jealousy #never had a ​best friend #friendless #how to keep friends #i dont know how to make friends #friend yearning

[turtleblogatlast]

[ cw: death mention / family death mention / ]

Mhmm I sure love thinking of the reality where we did get more time to really know Karai and her dynamics with the bros. Losing her hit hard in the finale, but it would’ve hit much, much harder had we known Karai longer and really saw her relationships develop with everyone.

I especially would have been interested in her dynamic with Leo, as past iterations often have the two of them clash in ideals and the like while still sharing many characteristics. Two sides of the same coin, and all that. Her specifically being the bros’ Gram-Gram also adds a whole new dynamic as well.

Imagine how interesting it would be, to have Karai start off on Leo’s side for once, showing wholly just how alike the two are at their cores and bonding as family without the worry of betrayal or animosity that other iterations suffer through, only to have Karai die anyway. Their parting hug and the desperate look of horror Leo wears later on would have hit that much harder, I feel.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rise karai #rise leo #rottmnt karai #rottmnt leo #I think a lot about these two in particular #and how that dynamic could have flourished #the way it was depicted in the finale is so purposefully unique and painful like #that hug man #can you imagine how much more heartbreaking that would have been if we knew her longer #not that it wasn’t already sad but we just simply didn’t know her long enough to be completely attached #also imo having more episodes with her and in general would have presented something I’ve been thinking about since the finale #so like - I like to think each bro kinda immediately leans more toward certain family members #Mikey has Draxum #Donnie has April #Raph has Splinter because this is another one that would be SO GOOD and make the finale moment where Raph sees his memories hit harder #if they had an ep or two more of Splinter and Raph together bc I really do feel like Raph respects Splinter most of the four #and finally- Leo has Karai #and then he loses her #imo? this would align with the movie even more #because it was the act of heroism that kinda killed her in a way - makes sense that Leo would initially be leaning away from that #and yet he ends up exactly like her anyway #haha sorry for rambling I just really love the interesting dynamic these two tend to have #and it’s a shame we didn’t get to see it really explored in rise #but yeah make no mistake while I’m focusing on Leo here I wanted more for all the boys and karai #Mikey’s little moments with her were so sweet and we already know how much he yearns for more family #Karai being from an age long gone would mean she’d be super impressed by literally any invention Donnie has (adult validation!!) #and could you imagine her training with Raph - with this training being referenced in the finale?

[vinnyandthephenomena]

i like to think of jam as such a “would you love me in another universe” type of relationship. or what could’ve been? that’s what feels so tragic to me. like - jay could’ve been the only other somewhat close relationship tim had in his life other than brian. or if they had met under different circumstances, would it have been healthier? or even how jay felt? he said it himself he wasn’t exactly doing anything pre-mh. hmm. he felt less alone; but i can only wonder how else it could’ve gone if they were close in another scenario. or ; if they could’ve met in a less depressing part of their lives. they are like a book with the last pages ripped out!

#rambling #sharing my EMO thoughts #if that were me i’d never stop thinking about it #ohhh toxic … i want it .. #nobody asked for this i just like to yap #dumping my emo lil jam thoughts onto you guys #i’m cringe but i’m free. #they make me so :3 but also so ;-; #jam marble hornets #jam mh #i’m looking too far into this but no. i need to look further into it. #jay merrick #tim wright #i think about them alot #mh #HMM. #ship rambling #of me #“it’s not that deep #yes it is. #yeah just random basic rambles

[mymreaderlibrary]

Could always go for some old man yaoi between Price and an older veteran reader so here are some ramblings.

[Old friends, pre relationship, yearning, beard buddies, ramblings/ no coherency].

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The 141's mission calls for a specialization that they don't meet (at least not well enough to risk failure), but what would you know Price has an old buddy who can help. The thing is he's a veteran who's not all that interested in exiting his retirement especially considering he lost a limb. However he's not one to abandon those in need and with a little convincing he decides to assist, offering his expertise mostly off of the field.

In their downtime y/n and Price get to catch up and spend some time together over drinks. It's been a while since they've seen each other considering how differently they now lead their lives. Y/n is embarrassed to admit he's already getting grey hairs as Price questions his brutally short buzzcut. He never used to cut his hair like that even in his younger years. Price jokes that he's disappointed that y/n is trying to hide his new silver fox look. Y/n says he'll get to see it when it starts growing into his beard. Maybe it's the alcohol but the teasing lingers in both of their minds, feeling more sincere than joking.

Even if they've spent a lot of time apart there's still things they know about each other by heart. Particularly how apprehensive y/n is to being assisted with anything. There's no fragility allowed as he'd rather grin and bare it than accept help, especially with his new(ish) disability. Price doesn't speak on the matter, but he does get frustrated at the other man's stubbornness, a subtle crinkle to his eye as he watches his friend struggle.

Speaking of stubbornness, the 141 get to "enjoy" having two hardheaded older men on the same team. Double the scolding and double the exasperated sighing, somehow it's like being together has combined them into the ultimate grumpy old man. Laswell wouldn't admit it but once their voices start to layer over each other she tunes them out. They're gonna be going in circles for a while and it's near impossible to stop them. It would be almost comedic if it didn't happen all the damn time. ( Worst of all is that most of their arguments are them agreeing on something, but thinking the other misunderstood due to how they phrased their response).

Night times are often nostalgic, neither of them are heavy sleepers so if one wakes up so does the other. They try to get as much sleep in when they can, but if they feel like reminiscing over times long gone then who's to stop them. Stories about Price's younger years in training and y/n's experience with that one damn drill instructor who seemed to hate his guts. Stories about how shitty their first long range shots were and how they could barely even hit the target. Stories about all the times they found themselves in some form of trouble be it on the field or in base. Y/n remembers the time they had to share one shitty cot that they almost punched each other over. Price remembers when they were stuck in a tundra for over a month and were so excited to have a hot shower again they just went at the same time. Neither of them mention how much they actually enjoyed that closeness and how both of them were too cowardly to initiate anything. But they do mention the day they got split up, sent to entirely different countries. Y/n admits to being disappointed he hadn't gotten the chance to say goodbye... Price says he's glad they didn't, sometimes goodbye's like those are bad luck.

They take a moment to look at each other, see scars old and new, wrinkles forming in places that used to be so smooth. Price can't help but look at y/n's eyes, seeing that familiar color that never seemed to fade despite all its seen. He thinks back to that warm shower over a decade ago and how they looked then too. The steam that rose from y/n's chest, the subtle brush of skin they shared as they tried to dance around each other. He remembers that expectation of something more that never came.

They squeeze each other's hands, but the moment passes in silence and neither of them move. Eventually they break eye contact and drift back to sleep.

It seems even now they’re still too cowardly.

#I use the term yaoi ironically #I just fuckin love the sentence ‘old man yaoi’ like thats so funny hell yeah #my bf and I just be lookin at anything and calling it old man yaoi #anyways blurb I had to get out cause I’m playing modern warfare for the first time and getting into the other games #my gay ass goes weak at the knees for military men #captain price #john price #price cod #cod #male reader #cod x male reader #john price x male reader #x male reader #ramblings #my writing #mw #I LOVE YEARNING!!!!!! GRAAAAAAAA #old man yaoi