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knightofthesevenfandoms · 9 months

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Bee fell first, Gabe fell harder

I've seen it described the other way around, but I really believe this is how it happened.

Okay, so.

Bee fell first.

That first meeting, at the bar in Russia (?)

Gabe seems annoyed to be there. He's disinterested, doesn't know why he's there.

I don't think either is particularly interested in the other at this point. But it DOES start here. Well, it builds on something that happened at the airbase. Gabe realizes he has an equal who understands the frustration of being held accountable for all of Heaven, and so does Bee, with Hell. It's a strange feeling of camaraderie neither of them has felt before. Which is why Gabe gets flustered by the "Arma-bloody-gedon" and starts to joke about it. And Bee NOTICEABLY perks up when he's being a goofball about it.

Gabe then quickly shuts it down, with the "pity we'll never speak again." I think he's genuinely saying that. It's a shame he won't feel that camaraderie again, since obviously the war is still going to happen. Or so they both believe.

The next meeting. This was a HUGE jump. They went from "we're ready for Armageddon 2.0" to "how about no" in one meeting. Obviously we're given to assume that more meetings than we've seen have taken place. Gabe shows up at the bar and launches into his plan of no Armageddon. I think at this point he's intrigued by the way he feels when he's with them and if the war happens, he doesn't get to explore that more. Bee, on the other hand, is GONE for him at this point. The way they EAT UP his no-Armageddon plan immediately, and the way they're smiling at him?!

AND. The most important bit. When they explain the music to him. They do it SO GENTLY. Bee, the demon who's usually yelling, usually insulting everyone around them. They explain the music to help him understand. And he's receptive to it, maybe not necessarily enjoying the song itself, but enjoying it because Bee likes it. Bee's enjoyment makes him happy.

And the way they look at him when he says that. Head over heels.

I would still argue that at this point, Gabriel is still merely interested in exploring all these new feelings he gets when he's with Bee. He's taking this much slower than Bee. But then he invites them to go look at his statue. Does he understand how vain that is? Probably not, but the fact that he invited them to see something that makes him happy? He took a big step here. Maybe bigger than Bee realizes. This meeting has no pretense, no motive like the previous ones did. Those were "we need to talk about the war" meetings. This one is PURELY for the purpose of meeting up with each other.

And how sad Bee looks when Gabe is talking about how much he enjoys looking at the statue? They want so badly for him to look at them like that, but I don't think they realize that he's almost there.

How could they? They probably have feelings of doubt, of low self worth, because this is the Supreme Archangel Gabriel, they're a demon. He couldn't possibly reciprocate what they're feeling.

Could he?

But then they get their answer, at the pub, with the miracle. This is the angel who frowns upon frivolous miracles, thinks it's a waste of holy energy. He miracles the song to play for them. For no reason other than Bee. To make them happy, to see them smile. And smile they do.

Gabe fell harder

Beelzebub jumped in to their feelings with both feet, but Gabe was more hesitant. He did have a lot more to lose, I'd argue. Bee has already fallen, Gabe probably assumes he could fall for being involved with a demon. Especially since Heaven is probably intensely watching for that after, you know, that other angel and demon. Which is a terrifying prospect, I'd assume, for the angel in charge of everything. And he's vain, he loves himself, loves being righteous, loves the authority of Heaven. So of course he's more hesitant. But he leaves all that behind when he admits to himself that there's something worth more than choosing Heaven.

Y'all. Not only was he ready to fall, he welcomed it. He didn't want to spend another minute in Heaven without Bee. Look at his face when Metatron says he's going to remain an angel. He's SO DONE.

We're lead to believe that falling is the worst thing that can happen to an angel, and Gabriel is willing, no, insistent that he fall.

He wouldn't be falling because of Bee, he'd be falling for Bee.

#ineffable bureaucracy #beelzebub #gabriel #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens 2 spoilers #long post #analysis

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felice-jaganshi · 10 days

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Alastor's Leash

Chapter 3

Zariah was being princess carried by Alastor, pouting like an upset child with her arms crossed over her chest.

“Now, what did you say to set off Mimzy? I've never seen her get that angry without good reason. If not for our deal, I'd be more than half tempted to pretend I didn't notice and let you two fight it out.”

Zariah huffed out a fox whine. “She called you heartless! And I argued you had the biggest heart I've ever met, and made me feel loved everyday. I don't understand how or why she sees you as so ‘heartless’ specifically, but she got really pissed off, and then I used us cuddling in my bed as an example and she launched herself at me! Like, who reacts like that?!”

“Sinners, my dear. That's who.” He groaned, now understanding the situation she'd gotten into.

“The exact reason is, back when we were alive, she and I would party together. Early on in our friendship, she'd tried to make sexual advances, which I always turned down. And then, when she stated she'd fallen in love with me one day, and I still did not reciprocate, she called me heartless. Our relationship took a nosedive for a bit until she caught me hiding a body. It certainly improved after that, as she realized it wasn't ‘her’, I just had no interest in women in general. My work was just too important to me. So, your comment about us cuddling in bed , she might have misunderstood or more likely chose to misinterpret, as sex. So, now she feels insulted. And to be fair, she's not wrong about me being heartless, I am incapable of the type of love she always wanted from me.”

“Oh, well I didn't mean to hurt her… but you're not heartless, I can hear it beating right now.” She rest her head on his chest. “Bum bum, bum bum. Yep, it's still there. Just because you love differently, doesn't mean you don't love in your own way.” She smiled sweetly, and he returned the gesture, eyes half lidded.

“Such a wise pet I have.”

“Oh, idea! Charlie was able to visit heaven once with Lucifer's help right? Maybe we can get you a day pass to see our moms!”

Alastor groaned and set her on her feet, “I take back what I said about you being wise. That's the worst idea I've ever heard. Heaven is no place for a demon like me.”

“But why not? Especially if it's just for a day. She'd love it!” Zariah looked confused. She couldn't understand why heaven scared him so much.

“Zariah, we're dropping it there.” His tone was stern, “No more discussion of getting me to heaven, I'm quite happy here in hell, where I belong .” He paused to let his words sink in before continuing, “Now, we need to get ready for your broadcast. What are you going to read for our listeners today?”

“Hm… I'm thinking of hooking everyone in with one of my favorite book series. After book one, if they want the other books, they'll have to give me their souls to hear the rest! Does that sound like a plan that might work?”

He hummed, “Make it book 2 and I think it might.” He pet her head and she purred, wrapping one of her tails around his waist.

_______

Vox paced around his tower while Velvette worked on their social media posts for the day, scheduling a few for later.

“Argh! Fuck! I miss Val!” He yelled.

“Oh get over it you big baby! You two fought more than you fucked anyways!” She was being cold, because he needed it. Suddenly an alarm went off, letting Vox know a radio broadcast was about to begin.

“Oh fuck! Alastor's back on!” He ran to the radio to listen to his “hated rival's” broadcast. It was all he could think about these days.

“Hello sinners! It's time for our newest, and most popular weekly broadcast, the Radio Angel's story hour. Everyone get tucked in with your snacks and blankets, I've been told this one is a personal favorite of hers. How exciting!”

Vox growled, that damn angel had taken up all of Alastor's attention lately! He'd even given her credit for his latest attack on Vox's dignity!

“That's right Al! As our listeners will soon discover, the main character has a lot of parallels with Lucifer that are very exciting! And if they can make it to act four, they're in for a world of emotional pain and torment unlike anything they've ever felt. I will also change a few of the terms to make it easier for our listeners to understand the story.”

“Well isn't that exciting, and so generous. Let's get started then….”

“Among all the angels in heaven, there was one famous laughingstock of the three realms…”

Vox listened intently, her voice truly was suited for this sort of thing. She didn't sound like her usual energetic obnoxious self that he'd heard from the few interactions he'd had with her. It was soothing and calm when she read. He was jealous to the extreme! She was going to get so many followers from this shit!

After a bit, Alastor's voice cut back in, interrupting her with his own commentary on the story.

“Hah! What a fool he is, quite like our king indeed. Challenging heaven itself over a single child's life. I'm quite interested to see the pain and suffering of such a kind heart as he will go through.” He sounded so pleased with himself, and she couldn't help but giggle.

“Hey now! No spoilers!”

Once she finished reading the Prolog, Alastor put on a “commercial break”, to give her time to breath, collect herself, and drink water.

“Oh my god! This was so much more fun than I thought it'd be! It reminds me of when I was alive and I'd read to my friends over the headsets at work. Hah… that job was a literal nightmare worse than hell itself, but my coworkers made it worth every moment. I loved them all so much.” She smiled fondly with her eyes shut, picturing her old friends.

“After this, I want to help with Becca's wedding. You should too. She's like a sister to me, so that will make Luci your brother soon. So try to get along a little, yeah? No more plotting to kill him and take the throne of hell. It's Charlie's to own.” She kept her tone soft.

He whined a little, like a child. “But darling~.” He gave her a sweet, syrupy look.

“Nooo! Don't even, it won't work. You're cute, and I love you, but the throne of hell is a headache you don't need. Just trust me…”

#hazbin hotel #alastor x oc #ace alastor #alastor x reader #aroace alastor #alastor #platonic alastor x reader #Alastor's Leash

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thesherrinfordfacility · 9 months

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IMO Aziraphale immediately starts off on the wrong foot and that conversation never recovers: you're the bad guys. There's something so alienating and condescending in that statement that as soon as I heard it I KNEW this wasn't going to end happily. I love Aziraphale but you cannot hope to give an offer that opens with that and expect Crowley to not argue/refuse. It comes from a place of ignorance and wasn't meant to be hurtful, but its still damning.

The whole offer in the first place is unnerving to me, even though I know logically WHY Aziraphale thinks it's a good thing. I'd never ask my queer friends to try to make peace with their homophobic families that disowned them- and that's the first allegory that came to mind for me.

oh there is no doubt in my mind that aziraphale wasn't also a chump in this dialogue too, anon, quite the opposite!!!

"you're the bad guys" as you mentioned, is a careless and thoughtless statement, especially now it confers a sense of superiority that you'd think aziraphale would have lost the majority of by now... i do have my very loose, poorly constructed argument as to what i think aziraphale actually meant by that line, but it's difficult to defend (because it is in fact largely indefensible), and so all i'll say is that i truly don't think he intended it as it came across - i think by this point in the narrative he is for the most part able to separate crowley as a person and crowley as a demon, and it is the latter to which he's referring to here. but in any case, still a really shit thing to say.

i do think aziraphale thought, whilst naively and in that naivety with carelessness, very innocently in offering what he did to crowley. the crowley he loves, wants by his side, is a good person. and heaven is inherently meant to be the side of good; by aziraphale's account, whilst it's currently a shitshow, its fundamental intention is truth, and light, and good. so why wouldn't crowley want to help him change it back to this? he's already halfway there to being an angel, in being a good person, and he didn't deserve to fall - let heaven make its reparations to crowley and offer the chance to be back in the fold! to help aziraphale remove the corruption and rot, and ensure that they and everyone else never has to hide ever again...?

we know obviously this was never going to happen from crowley's perspective, but we appear to know way more about crowley's trauma and history than aziraphale does. that is a big bit of context missing, and if aziraphale had that too, i don't think he would have even entertained the idea. would have rejected it in the room (or at the table). crowley might not be ready or willing to tell aziraphale that, for many reasons, but that doesn't make it aziraphale's fault either.

i won't pretend to speak as if i have any authority on the queer allegory, and especially its relation to religious trauma; im not queer and im not religious/was raised secular, and i think it would be disingenuous for me to comment on this as if i truly understood it (hope that comes across as i meant it, anon!!!💕)

but i do agree with you; i too would never ask that of my friend, my lover, whoever. but i think - and this may be my failing because of the fact im not queer and have never had this awful kind of thing happen to me - i don't see heaven as being a family. to go into how i see heaven (aziraphale/crowley's allegorical relationship to it) however would make this a very long post, so if anyone is in fact interested id be happy to elaborate on this in a different ask!!!✨

#good omens #not a shitpost but its good omens babyyyy #ask #crowley meta #aziraphale meta #feral domestic/final fifteen meta #s2 meta

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marlowe1-blog · 1 year

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The Book of Job Chapters 1 & 2

I'm going to put the first two chapters together because they are the ones that everyone pretty much knows about. There are certain implications that one might not immediately get, like holy fuck these are some dark chapters. I just read The Magician King and I feel like Julia's story has a similar theme which is "DON'T GET GOD'S ATTENTION". Of course in the Magician King, the world is polytheist so they get the attention of a god, just not the one they wanted. And if you've seen the first season of The Magicians, you know what happens (I'd recommend the show over the books, but the books are not bad).

Ok. That's not the real theme of the opening. It feels like it when you read it fresh, because almost everything that happens to Job is because God is going "Isn't Job the best. He's so faithful and nice" and then you got Satan going "Well why don't we fuck with him and see how faithful he is" and this happens at least twice (maybe three times.) and every time Job gets fucked over even more.

Oh by the way, since I have the Jewish Publication Society translation, they go with "The Adversary" for Satan. A major part of this book and about the history of religion is that Satan seriously changed with the Christians getting ahold of him and putting him in the role of the enemy of all Christians. Zoroasterianism seriously influenced those guys.

In the Bible, Satan is a job description. There's a use of the word as a verb when the Angel is blocking Bilaam from going to curse the Israelites but the angel is not necessarily Satan. So this is where Satan gets a name, but it could be any angel. There are some very weird thoughts on angels in the Bible. Are they a holdover from paganism? Are they ways to have G-d talk to people without taking away the fact that Moses is considered the only one who is talking to G-d directly? There seems to be a general belief held up by the text that Angels are just agents with a job and that job is in their name. So Raphael is the healer and Gabriel gives strength. Most of the time the angels don't even get names in the text itself (although midrash comes in for certain things. LIke when three angels visit Abraham, Raphael stays to heal Abraham from his circumcision while the other two go off to destroy Sodom).

So JPS changing the name to Adversary is just translating the name outright so we know that the main thing about Satan is that he's a literary function. He's G-d's "devil's advocate" and the one who challenges everything.

This seems to be a movement away from monotheism, when monotheism really only took hold a few centuries before this book (it's written in Aramaic so it's definitely a later book in the canon). But also this is a philosophical novel without a necessity in believing it as anything more than a philosophical novel (Oh I'm sure there's an evangelist who will argue that literally Job existed and had a very stressful conversation with his friends and it was all recorded, but evangelicals are fucking idiots. The guy who stands outside my building smoking pot believes in every conspiracy theory available including one about how there is no outerspace because of the firmement of heaven line. Like the Bible says that we are under a bubble so there's no such thing as Mars. I actually still talk to this dumb fuck because he's so stupid that he's almost funny when he's not horrifying).

So here's the point you know about. God says "Hey isn't Job great" and Satan goes "hey let's fuck with him" and God goes "Ok!" So JOb loses his children, his money and his health. And his wife tells him to curse G-d and die which is advice to kill himself. Because really how can he live after losing everything?

Then come Eliphaz the Temanite, Bildad the Shuhite and Zophar the Naamathite who sit with him in silence for 7 days. So now we have the rules of Shiva (mourning) where the first seven days people accompany the mourner but they don't talk unless the mourner talks first. And they stay silent for seven days.

They are going to come off like assholes in the rest of the book, so that part should be remembered.

Note - I'm kind of happy that my mom died during Covid so I didn't have to host people for a Shiva. I don't think my creepy roommate would have liked that and sometimes it's just not worth it. I have people over for Shabbos but he can hide in his room for a few hours.

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incarnateirony · 4 years

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If we're looking to puzzles in past seasons, how about Zach's installation of false memories / fake selves in S+D in It's a Terrible Life? How much of it is Zach (or the show) just fucking around for fun? And how can anyone after watching it think Dean is heterosexual, or that the show thinks he is? I'd love to see analysis of all the parallel universes, false futures etc together that looks at what those eps are doing, from What Is and Should Never Be to French Mistake to The Trap

I imagine this is a followup to the time travel ask (x) which I will link here too, because it’s still important, even if this example itself is not time travel. I actually went into the OP and edited in a segment saying honestly, Time Travel takes more Universal Power than Created Spaces, from what I’ve witnessed in Supernatural.

I’m actually going to avoid the “Dean het/bi” argument here for once because, while I do espouse that Dean is now canonically bi via a series of low visibility text, the most textual nail being driven in during Last Call, I generally give that old era I just don’t see the same kind of genuine queer coding. The few episodes they crop up in tend to be Edlund’s and they were an entire universe away from modern Bobo+ episodes in delivery, and I’m just... going to go “nahhh, if you use that as part of what you see by all means, but I’m not about to dive into that with any kind of intent here.”

I did also during my edit point out some stuff in the Trap: That is to say though, that according to this model, there IS still a future out there written somewhere that Dean had to bury Cas in a Malak Box, got overwhelmed by depression, literally gave up, turned into a monster and killed everyone he loved with Sam until he too died. But Not This Sam, Not This Dean.

But to go into the one of false memories and fake selves, we actually go closer to my Thought Boxes experiment. (x)

Unlike The End and Edlund, we lack any kind of creative commentary or even text in the script itself to vaguely IMPLY this was an actual alternate timeline. But all timelines happen within Thought Boxes (see link) that have time installed (as opposed to many heavens being delineated/not having the Swiss Watch installed like Chuck’s worlds, but Chuck isn’t the only one that can perceive of an order.)

This is where things get a little warpy for people: stop thinking of angels as their vessels for a minute. Does Cas properly own his now, is it his own body, yes. But beyond Cas, or even before Cas had his living period(s) (which is actually a great deal of why he’s so thoroughly invested in the human perspective compared to his peers), I need people to realize that “wavelengths of intent” thing is important as fuck.

The faces we see are vessels to interact in a timeline with. They are functionaries, even if some proverbially hit a button like Anael. They are designed to pull out tasks within a universal structure, and also have lesser powers (by scale of their general grade/type) reflective of the divine that created that one. But just like Michael couldn’t actually snap his fingers and nuke them all in Dean’s Thought Box, I gesture at for example Dark Side Of The Moon where while Zachariah mocked them, he actually couldn’t pull out ubermoves on them, and couldn’t find them when they disappeared into Ash’s Thought Box. Because in here, we’re all just mental projections. And in here, we’re all the same. So you can’t. Don’t play God’s game, make him play yours.

We also find out that God had wiped Sam and Dean’s death memories in heaven before, not too unlike Castiel did Lisa and the kid later. Memory manipulation is nothing new.

This seems like a bizarre aside to approach little things like It’s A Terrible Life in, but it’s actually key to nail in. Also, I don’t know how many of you have watched Agents of Shield, but this may help people: When uploaded to the Framework from Aiva’s system rather than an independent one, people completely had their memories messed up. This all actually applies a similar idea. And yet really, think of this as uploading to different worlds. When the Immortal Human Soul, which is timeless, is Uploaded to Earth, they also don’t know anything about their Immortal Past. Now, put a Thought Box inside a Thought Box. Be that Dean thinking he really did own a bar, or Sam thinking he’s a phone center operator, the uploaded individual to the Thought Box does not necessarily retain all they should know, even if things eat at them as right or wrong in the scale of it all until they unlock their true nature.

It’s A Terrible Life is not too different: from MichaelDean’s headbar, from Castiel’s zoned out reality with Lucifer, or whatever else. It is an alternate created space the souls have been packed into, resetting what they know despite what they Know. It too is a venture--if less immediately visibly philosophical--about the (re)discovery of the self.

Now, in It’s A Terrible Life, respectively Zachariah was God (despite actually working on behalf of god Outside of the Terrible Life Thought Box). He designed the entire system and story and rules and regulations for them to play in, a thought box, and one he could directly intervene in, unlike in The End. Power flowed back to Zachariah in this box.

ADLER stands up and presses two fingers to DEAN's forehead. Everything goes from saturated color to dim. DEAN looks around at the office and himself.

DEAN What the hell? Why am I wearing a tie? My God, am I hungry.

And he directly influenced how their bodies reacted, such as the fact that Dean somehow felt fine eating rabbit food rofl.

DEAN Gross. No thank you. So, what? I'm just hallucinating all this? Is that it?

ZACHARIAH Not at all. Real place, real haunting. Just plunked you in the middle without the benefit of your memories.

One might argue this infers that it is a real place *on this earth*, on which neither side actually has receipts as much as “conclusion majority jumps to.” -- In the very least, Zachariah directly impacted the body-cage and its memories and function. But also for Sam and Dean to have been enrolled there, he would have had to do it to an infinite chain of people in their path that wouldn’t notice the new chief of marketing and everybody on the floor knowing Sam and all the weird influences in those people’s lives too. Which again is why I point up to how CENTRAL this Thought Box idea actually is to Supernatural, and how very much Zachariah’s “real place” is just as likely, with all other functions we’ve seen, just like any other Real Place that the characters call Not Real. It isn’t real to Them. Because it’s not their lives and their stories. It doesn’t have their people.

It’s somewhere in an infinite ocean of thought boxes, possibly one created by Zachariah himself since he is literally positioned as a CEO there. Which is... honestly, if you get past the mental hiccup of thinking outside the (thought) box, a far easier resolution to this entire scenario than Zachariah butterfly effecting half the planet just to troll Sam and Dean. And even if he DID do that, there Is the reminder of wavelengths of celestial intent, and how easily Chuck reset the planet’s state of knowing, but Zachariah as a general angel (kerubim by his description of himself) and not God Himself would have limits in that authority, so making a divergent box makes far more sense.

This was when use of Matrix and Baudrillard and whatever else was fairly young in the show, though, so while I can’t swear that was 100% the intent when it was *made* (and again, unlike The End, we have no creative commentary on this that I’ve found), as Dark Side of the Moon came a season later and evoked it, Carver deployed it a few times, and now Dabb Era quite centrally hovers around it, in the very least modern canon and all its evolutions would easily lead to this result.

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breathebangtan · 5 years

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Credulous

Ch. 7: Fallen

Genere: FallenGuardianAngel!Jimin, Supernatural

Members: Jimin

Pairings: Jimin x y/n

Synopsis: love is an uncontrollable feeling, even for those who were meant to protect, and only protect. Nothing more and nothing less. Yet somehow, there was always outliers.

Warnings: Slight violence

Word count: 2.5k

A/N: don’t forget to like and reblog if you enjoy!

Ch.1 | Ch.6

It's been a little over a week since the night Jimin and I argued in my bedroom, back at my parents house. The whole week was spent with my head running relentlessly, trying to figure him out. What his words and actions meant, the person he was turning into. The whole week he'd been stuck to my side like gum at the sole of my shoe on a hot summer day, saying he needed to make sure I was okay, and that I wasn't letting others dictate what I did. That I needed to listen to him, as he just wanted me to be safe. But the thing is, his voice wasn't like before when he spoke. The words he chose were different than before, darker in every aspect. Not just his words, but his appearance too. His hair, his eyes, the absence of his light, even his usually white clothes switched out for dark colors, mostly black. I didn't know why, and that was killing me, I was afraid for him. What was going on with him when he wasn't around, that caused him to go through this drastic change.

Which was why I was partially glad that he was always around, because that meant there was less of a chance of him leaving me and not coming back. I was getting so used to his company, and every time he walked away, the nightmare came back. I told myself that I needed to make the most of the time he spent with me, not realising what I was doing to myself.

“David said he saw you with some blonde guy? Who was he? He's the one that was with you, on the night of the ferris wheel. Isn't he?” Rae had asked, when we returned to school. I knew it would happen. Thanks to Jimin, David not only thought I was a cheater, but he told Rae the whole thing. That Jimin seemed over protective, the way he held me before kissing my temple. Which made everything harder to explain to Rae. I had to try and convince her that It was just a neighborhood friend from my hometown. After some convincing, she thankfully believed me and told David. Of course, I didn't keep contact with him. Jimin thought he was dangerous, and I didn't want to worry him any more than he already was.

Now I was sitting comfy on my couch, watching a random movie. Jimin was supposed to be here, but I figured he was running late. Even though my heart ached at the thought, because he wasn’t just a few minutes late, he was nearly late by half a day. Flashbacks of the nightmare surfacing. So, instead I took the time to go out and buy popcorn that I'd been craving for some time now, to get my mind off of things. Everything was going fine until on my way back I tripped on a rock, my ankle twisted slightly, but it was enough to shoot pain up my ankle. I prayed that I hadn’t sprained or broken it. “Hey, are you alright?” A familiar voice asked, but I had my eyes shut, trying to push the pain away. I wasn’t exactly sure who it could be.

“Yeah, I think so.” I nodded, but I didn’t want to look, feeling like it would look worse than it felt. “Here let me help you.” The voice said, but I shook my head as I looked up to see who it was. The familiar face, and my brain instantly knew where I’d recognized that voice. It was Leo, and the worriedness of that creep being around again came back. I know Leo didn’t do anything wrong, and I couldn’t account that jerks actions as Leo’s. Even then, I still felt a little uneasy. “I’m fine, I’ll get up myself.” I told him, getting to my feet, albeit with much trouble. Putting wait on my foot made a spike of pain shoot throughout my ankle again.

“You’re obviously struggling, it’ll only make it worse. Trust me, I’d know.” He spoke as he put an arm around me, and my own over his shoulder to support me. I knew what he meant, he played on the college football team. I remember going to a couple games with Rae, and seeing him hurt his ankle once. He guided me as we walked. “I’m fine, I swear. I can walk home by myself. You really don’t have to bother.” I tried, but it was useless, he was set on helping me walk.

“If you do that, you’ll make it worse. It might not be that bad now but if you push it, you’ll end up at the hospital.” I sighed letting him do as he pleased. Even though I felt kind of iffy about letting him walk me home, I was just so skeptical about any guy, especially ones who were friends with that creep. “Fine, you have a point. I live a block away from here.” I told him, giving him directions to my place. He walked as slowly as he could, making sure I wasn’t adding any unnecessary pressure on my ankle. His grip on me was gentle as well, so I relaxed as he lead the way. Thankfully, the walk to my apartment wasn’t long.

“Which one is yours?” He asked as we came up to the complex. He didn’t seem dangerous thus far, but I didn’t think telling him which apartment was mine was a good idea. “I’m fine here, you’ve already done so much.” I told him, lightly pushing him away in order to walk up the stairs myself. Of course, he didn’t let it be. “You live on the second floor? That’s so bad for you ankle.” He argued back, grabbing me again. I sighed slightly, not sure how I felt about his persistence.

“Seriously, I’ll be fine.” I tried again, he just shook his head. I gave up trying, we were nearly to my door anyway, what good would that accomplish now? So we continued up the steps. However, four steps left and a door away from my own, Jimin’s worried face mixed with panic was staring down at us. The darkness of the night couldn’t hide how his face contorted into one is disgust, and a hint of something I’d only seen in cliche movies with jealous boyfriends. An unsettling feeling was filling the pit of my stomach. Jimin was carrying on unfamiliar vibe, one that was too dark for a guardian angel like him to carry. He was supposed to be a ray of light from heaven, but that light was completely gone, vanished, and he was playing Into it. Like he wanted to be a shadow in the dark, or better yet darkness itself.

My body was frozen in place, afraid of him. Leo picked up on it and stared at me oddly. “Do you know him?” He asked me, as he looked to Jimin. I didn’t speak, as I watched him walk towards us, his strides quick, anger swarming in the darkness of his eyes. His hand pushed Leo off of me, and as if he’d known I’d hurt myself, he had me in his arms bridal style. “Don’t EVER touch her.” The low tone of his voice was like gray smoke, leaving your throat feeling the pain of the wood pieces, warning you of the fire that could attack at any second. I was scared in his arms, wanting to leave and run into my apartment, leaving them both alone. Leo’s face was confused and defensive. I think the look on my face made him think I didn’t know Jimin. Of course, that wasn’t the case.

“Me? Who the hell are you? Does she even know you?” Leo walked up the rest of the steps, getting closer to us. My throat was too dry to be able to push out the words on the tip of my tongue. I shook my head instead, to let him know he had it wrong. Should have known it could be easily misunderstood. “Let her go creep, she obviously doesn’t know you.” He tries to grab my arm and pull me off of Jimin’s grasp. I was afraid I’d fall if Leo was successful, and I didn't want to injure my ankle any further. My arms wrapped around Jimin’s neck, holding him tightly so that I wouldn’t fall. Leo’s face was confused, not sure what was going on, why I’d hold on to someone he thought I was unfamiliar with. Before I knew it, I was being sat down on the floor In front of my door. “Don’t move, I’ll be done soon.” Jimin says he walked away towards Leo.

All I could think about now was that if Jimin hurt Leo, the word would get around to Rae or even David. That could not happen, I was already struggling to explain to them that the blonde guy back home was just a childhood friend. I watched as Jimin walked closer to Leo, the way his muscles were all tense was so menacing, I wasn’t sure how to stop him, if he’d even listen to me. “I’m only going to say it once. Stay away from her.” The darkness in his voice pierced through my ears in such away that I wasn’t sure was possible. It filled my body with contrasting emptiness. This feeling was familiar to me, I’d felt it a few times before on different occasions, but never from him.

Leo didn’t seem to budge, his eyes gave him away though. Which left me confused as to why he didn’t walk away, maybe he was too shocked to do so? “Is that a threat?” Leo asked, taking a step closer, his chest puffed out. I wish he would have just left, it would have made everything easier. Jimin’s intense stare bore holes into Leo’s existence, but he didn’t care. He threw the first punch, but he missed. Of course Jimin took to the opportunity to do some damage on him, and I couldn’t manage to get up quick enough. Nearly tripping over myself to get in between them. “Stop! Stop… don’t hurt him.” I begged, my hands up afraid of getting hit accidentally.

“Malum. Step away.” His voice was demanding and I felt my body trying to switch into autopilot and listen to his words. It took everything in me to not do as he asked. “Please, I’m begging you. Let’s go inside and forget this happened. Please.” I slowly stepped closer to him, until I could pull him into my embrace. I hoped that I could calm him down, enough for Leo to leave. His arms wrapped around me as well, lips coming close to my ear. “Let’s get you inside.” He whispered, as he picked me up again. He walked us over to my apartment, and before we were inside, I caught a glimpse of Leo. Confusion all over his face, his lips stained with blood and a bruise on his cheek, I just knew this would come around to Rae. How was I to explain this to her.

The door shut, as Jimin walked me over the couch, sitting me down. His face was now expressing his anger again. I braced myself, as I knew he was going to lecture me about the situation. He started pacing up and down the living room. “Where were you? With him? Is that where you were this whole time? Do you have any idea of how worried I was looking for you? This was the third time I come back to your apartment to see if you’d come back home while I was out there worried sick looking for you. For what? So I could come back and see you with that piece of trash.” His voice just below a yell, but still loud and intimidating, which made me teary eyed. He’d given me lectures before, but none of them were this intense, a color that shouldn’t be in a guardians voice.

“A piece of trash? You don't even know him, why are you being so defensive over the guys I hang around? This isn't fair, do you know how worried I have been for you? Afraid that you'll fall apart under all this stress, I mean look at the tool it's taking on you!” I yell back, tears falling down my face now as I stand up. I had bottled up my worries and emotions on the topic for awhile now, letting them all out now at the pressure of his words. He shakes his head, looking away for a second. “You don't need to worry so much about me, I'll be fine.” He looks at me, a slight smile as if he's trying to reassure me. “No, you can't say that. When I did nothing wrong, you were late and I was afraid. All I did was go to the store to get my mind off things, to calm down, and what do you do? You threaten my friend and act like a maniac.” I sigh loudly as I remember his actions, he had no reason to act the way he did. I wanted to believe it was the stress but even that wasn't an excuse for the way he had acted.

“I just...” He takes a few steps closer to me, wiping my tears away. “I don't think you understand, my heart stops when you're not around. You're mine.” His eyes are looking directly at mine as he inclines his head, I feel his thumb gently caress my cheek. My body is frozen in place under his intense stare. His next move takes me by surprise, he does something I never expected him to do. His lips gently brush mine, and it feels like everything is moving in slow motion suddenly. My skin feels tender under his, as it burns slightly. His kiss was gentle and sweet at first, what caught me by surprise was how my body gave into him. My lips following his lead, as it all turned into something more intense. The burn kind of hurt, but I liked it. All at once that emptiness in my chest came back, the unpleasant yet very addictive feeling along with it. This sudden vacancy made me kiss him with more passion, hoping that he'd fill the space. Everything felt so unnaturally intense as I gripped the sides of his shirt to keep balance because I felt like my knees would give in, yet I enjoyed every second of it.

What was happening between us?

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My brain hates me and, as I try to write next Secret Weapon, Secret Family because I WILL finish this fic before 2025 so help me Jack. And Chuck! (I wanted to finish the chapter before 2022 but given that I overslept and have a family dinner, that's not happening), it gave me an outline for a fic with the WEIRDEST paring ever. And, because I know If I don't write the outline, I will not be able to get it out of my mind, and at the same time is a bit too similar to SW,SF... I am writing the outline here for you.

It is John/Michael, maybe Destiel in the future. (The maybe it's because it's ME, but to be fair, most of the idea is pre-series, and it's John/Michael as the focus, with Good!Father Jhon and Good!Michael because my brain will not stop wishing Dean had good parental figures)

It's a bit... unfair to Mary, I will admit. But also, knowing me, I'd hammer that into a better situation.

So, we know that John and Mary were TURNED into soulmates and forced together by the Cupids. And that, once she HAD the normal life that she had wanted for so long, Mary didn't really wanted that normal life since there was always one more hunt, one last thrill, and she kept leaving John, who at that point was NOT the drill sergeant from hell, so we can imagine that the magic was waning. So what if at some point, BEFORE Dean was conceived, Mary and John just... stopped having sex. Still living together, John still loving Mary, but Mary -tired from hunts, stressed over the secret, and so on- just isn't in the mood and John doesn't push it.

Michael sees this and realizes that, unless those two start sexing it up? His vessel is not getting born, and well, neither is Lucifer. He also figures out what Azazael plan is -since, at this point, he is still on "go Apocalypse" team- and so decides that, from a completely strategic point, it's better for him if Lucifer's vessel never gets psychic powers. And thus, he gets the MOTHER OF BAD IDEAS: He goes down to Mary in a dream, and offers her a new deal: He needs to use her body as a vessel for two years, where she can be in heaven with her family in the meantime, and in exchange, her deal with the Yellow Eyed Demon is null and void. John will still be alive, but Michael will keep the family home protected so that there's nothing coming there in 7 years time. Since Mary DOES miss her parents, and now that the Cupid magic is almost gone, she is wondering if she should've used her deal to save her mother or her father, AND canonically she always cared more for Sam and how her deal affected Sam, she accepts.

So Michael, in Mary's body, becomes THAT perfect Mary that John remembers in the series. The great wife who supports him, the woman who looks at him with love in his eyes, and, of course, their sex life gets back in track, even when Michael at first is doing this by the book and John DOES notice that Mary has changed so it takes a couple of months, which are more than enough for Michael to start getting attached because if Dean Winchester is Angel's catnip, it can be genetic (And hell, since in the series, ADAM is the one who ends up softening Michael a bit? IT's a Winchester trait, not a Campbell trait and yes, I am going to argue vessel genetics). And, roughly 3 months into this, Michael-in-Mary's body gets pregnant with Dean (Which means, that yes, I'd have to do some narrative gymnastics as that means that for Point of No Return, THAT Mary was Michael if I stay in canon). And once he has Dean in his arms? He's GONE. Like, no way he's going to let his baby boy (his and John's baby boy, because he's very attached to the man now to the point that nope, using him as a vessel is out of the cards either because then he couldn't kiss him!) go to hell.

Yes, Raphael is headdesking hard in this because how could Michael, the great strategist, not see this coming. But just as in my other fic, he ends up on team "Michel wants to be a daddy, guess that makes me an uncle".

But of course, Michael has to keep his word, and leave Mary once Dean turns one and he's sure that Dean is a normal little boy and not an accidental Nephelim (Spoiler alert, Dean is an accidental Nephelim but as this time is the ANGEL who gave birth, and not the human, Dean is completely normal at birth), so he leaves and Mary comes back.

Mary is, understandably, VERY WEIRDED OUT that now she has a one year old boy. It's not that she hates the kid, it's just that she doesn't feel Dean as her's because... well, he's not. And while she manages to hide her reactions well, and John chalks them to delayed post-partum depression, especially with Mary sudden shift to her OLD personality, but it does stretch their relationship thin and while John is still the loving father we saw for like, five seconds in the pilot, Mary is more like we saw her in Season 13, not really wanting to bond with Dean because she doesn't feel as if he's her kid.

She goes back to hunting in secret and during one of those hunts she hooks up with a stranger (Maybe Ketch?) and there's a bit of an accident and 9 months later, well, there's Sam. (And yes, this is important because if both Sam and Dean are born to the same set of parents, and Adam, being born of just John, is a suitable perma-vessel for Michael? Then it leds to reason that Sam could be a vessel for Michael and Dean a vessel for Lucifer and there's no reason why Lucifer wouldn't try the "If you say yes, I will leave your brother alone" card on Dean and succeed way back in season 5)

John doesn't suspect Sam is not his because at this point, Michael has been visiting him in dreams, as Mary, because he just can't stay away from John and their boy. So he has a bit of a confusion of when the love making is real and when it's a dream so... yeah.

Michael is ALSO very diligent in protecting the Winchester's home so that Azazael can't get in there to bleed on Sam. Think Raphael protecting Chuck as a prophet level of overprotection. And also starting to tell heaven that nope, Apocalypsis Now is not happening Now (Uriel in particular is not happy about it, but Zachariah, the booth licker that he is, pretends to fall in step with the new orders).

BUT, but, but... Unfortunately, he was too specific in his promise about protecting the WINCHESTER house, and Azazael is nothing if not resourceful, and so, he possesses Sam's pediatrician in order to bleed in his mouth, even if it's in the daylight. And when he's caught by Dean who sees his real face and screams scared, he, well, sets the whole pediatrician office on fire. John manages to save Dean, and Mary saves Sam, but she realizes Sam is in danger and thus, fakes her and Sam's death, leaving John and Dean alone to think they died in the fire.

Mary goes back to the Campbell's compound where, because of Uriel who wants the Apocalypse to happen, Samuel Cambpell is back from the dead. So Sam is going to be raised as a hunter, in the OLD style.

John, on the other hand, starts spiraling the same way he did in canon, and finds out about the Supernatural thanks to Missouri, who doesn't see Mary is alive because Mary is being heavily shielded by demons. Thus, he decides to look for the thing that killed his wife, and yadda yadda.

Dean is mute because of the shock of course, but at first John is not able to see that.

Michael comes to John in dreams, trying to get him to get some peace, but John, now aware of the Supernatural, quickly realizes that Michael is NOT Mary, and they fight in the dreamscape, until Michael admits that yes, he's not Mary, but he IS Dean's mother. At this point, he starts showing up male in John's dreams (Still undecided if he looks like Karl Urban because OMG, Karl Urban, or Tim Omundson because if Cain is the Winchester line, then it would make sense that Cain to be Michael's vessel but then I'd have to go and explain why so yeah), and that's the main meat of the fic, John realizing that the Mary he loved was Michael, and both of them raising Dean to be a happy child AND a hunter -especially when they realize, when Dean is about 15, that ooops, he IS a Nephelim and has powers -wings and all. Oh, and while John still wants revenge for Sam and Mary, once he realizes that his true love was Michael all along, he becomes less intense and thus the Family Business is more "Saving People" than "Hunting Things", and, once Michael realizes that nope, Mary is NOT in heaven -where she SHOULD be- it's more of a "where the hell is Sam who is my son, because well, if Mary wanted a divorce, she could have gotten it".

(Then there would be some extra angst when John, taught by Michael, realizes that not ALL supernatural creatures are evil way earlier, so while he STILL looks for hunts and still kills creatures, he's more like Dean post season 7 where he actually ASKS questions before shooting everything in sight, and gets some hunters like Bobby and Ellen -and Ellen's husband who would of course not die here- and Pastor Jim on the same page which doesn't sit well with the Campbells... who go and get the British men of letter so we have that Season 12 touched on. Oh, and of course, then Sam is raised as Sam Ketch. But that would be for a second part, the Destiel and conflict among the brothers. First part would be ALL about John/Michael's being good parents! And Raphael as a good uncle, re-organizing Heaven )

so yeah. My Muse gave me this gift for New Years. So... Happy New Year all!

#spn fic ideas #dean winchester deserved a childhood

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