#I'm definitely overthinking

[jacky-rubou]

I think they'd be more happy getting money than judge you for it. Unless they're absolute DOUCHE bags

Oh, no, this isn't an issue of being worried they'll judge my idea or whatever (I've even commissioned them before). It's just a blurry definition of one of the things their rules state they won't draw that's making me unsure. Like what does 'mecha' encompass? How broad is the definition in the context they're using it in? If it's too broad they might not draw my idea, but if it's a reasonably strict definition to them then maybe they would. Also they might not be comfy with the AU I'm wanting them to draw for, so any second idea without the possible 'mecha' element might not work either. I have nothing against them if they don't take the commission though. It's their right to refuse it. I'm just terrified of rejection and try to cope by preparing for every scenario I can think of that makes sense to happen so I know what to expect and what to say. Thanks for the reassurance though.

#AskJacky #honestly though #I'm definitely overthinking #i just write out my responses to any scenario to help calm my mind #once i start talking to them past my prepared starter I don't usually need the rest of it #but it's helpful to keep myself grounded and to not freak out if it doesn't go my way #because i prepared for it #if they don't wanna do it‚ it's okay #I'm just a scared bean #rambling in the tags

[qiankunnies]

Baekhyun — Madam Figaro China, February 2024

#bex.edits #baekhyun #byun baekhyun #exo #exosnet #*500 notes #*baekhyun #jadeblr #userzyx #useroro #awekslook #aleksbestie #eritual #alitracks #rhitag #melontrack #baekslight #foraddy #maddieblr #marekwan #oorieri #analook #long post #i've spent too much time staring at these trying to decide if i like the coloring enough or if i want to tweak it just the tiniest bit #that i think i should just post them bc i'm definitely overthinking this #but i will say i like the coloring more on desktop #ANYWAY #here's my most beloved

[coffee-bat]

thinking abt this statement but also

>jon is an ex-smoker

>he receives a lighter with a web pattern

>after meeting leitner he gets overwhelmed and goes out to smoke, presumably using the lighter

>him leaving in that moment results in leitner being murdered

>which causes like all of season 3 to happen

houghhhh

#normally i'd assume that i'm overthinking but this is literally from the avatar of the web. so i dont think im cringe for this /lh #i love you connections i love you connecting dots!!!!!!! #tma #the magnus archives #tma spoilers #jonathan sims #annabelle cane #addiction mention #smoking mention #sorry this is almost definitely well-known in the fandom. im just getting my thohghts out lol

[iamthecomet]

I would offer my firstborn to see mean!Dew out-mean Rain. Maybe Rain doesn't expect it. Getting a taste of his own medicine. He doesn't expect it to be so hot.

Mean!Dew. My favorite.

~~

"Kneel," Rain orders. Dew's barely in the door to his own room. Rain hot on his heels. Rain kicks the door closed hard enough that the window rattles. He glowers at Dew’s back. Persona sliding into place. Dew wants a firm hand—he’ll give it to him. He’ll give Dew exactly what he’s been hinting at all day—he’ll ruin him.

Dew looks over his shoulder, and Rain catches a glint in those copper eyes that makes his stomach twist. Apathy. Annoyance.

Oh.

Dew waves a hand, the embers in his fireplace roar to life. He shrugs his jacket off, tosses it over his desk chair. Busies himself with the buttons on his shirt. He doesn't look at Rain again. Rain says Dew's name, harsh. Another command. Dew ignores him.

Rain feels like the world tilts under his feet. Dew ignores him a lot. Turns his nose up at Rain's orders in an attempt to make punishments worse. He's used to disobedience, at least initially. But this isn't the same.

Dew's, loose, relaxed. Flippant when he shrugs his shirt off and finally turns to look at Rain. Shirtless, uniform pants slung low on his hips. Nipple rings swaying as he takes a step toward Rain. Dew cocks an eyebrow. He looks amused, like he's cat with a mouse between his paws. But then that makes Rain the--

"Dew--" "Shut up.” Rain’s words die on his tongue. There’s no argument in Dew’s voice. No desperation, no question. And Rain is grappling with what's happening. It’s unexpected. He doesn’t know what to do with the way his cock kicks in his pants at the tone of Dew’s words. At the way Dew looks through him. Past him. Like Rain is a nuisance, a burden. All he knows is he never wants Dew to stop. Rain doesn’t know what to do now. Knows if he opens his mouth he’s going to sound unsure, hesitant. And that isn’t going to work. Not if he wants to keep the upper hand. Though, he’s starting to realize that maybe he never had it. Dew's been playing this game all day. Lulling Rain into this comfortable place where he calls all the shots. But really, Rain's walked right into this. He's let Dew play him. He doesn't want to admit how much he loves it. From the minute Dew dragged his hand over Rain’s chest and up to his throat in rehearsal, Rain’s brain has been racing to catch up. And Dew’s been one step ahead of him. Making Rain chase him, making Rain do all the work just to get here. Where Dew is looking at him like he's an idiot and Rain's cock is twitching to life in his pants because of it. “Why don’t you kneel for once?” Dew says. Satanas, he sounds bored. Rain’s stomach twists again. Is this how Dew feels when Rain treats him like this?

No wonder he likes it so much. Dew gives him every opportunity to back out. Questions him with his gaze in a way only Dew has ever managed to do. Like telepathy. Never breaking character but Rain knows this is his chance to bow out. To go back to the old script or something different entirely. Instead, Rain nods, just a little, just enough. And Dew is on him. Long fingers curling in Rain's hair and pulling until Rain yelps. Dew drags him down to his level, so their noses almost touch. Copper eyes boring into Rain's. "Are you too stupid to follow simple instructions?" Dew spits. "Kneel." Rain does. Isn't sure if he actually decides to or if his legs just give out. His body following Dew's orders long before his brain catches up. He hits the floor hard, pain jolting up through his thighs. His hands fall to his thighs, palm down and useless. Rain won't move them again unless Dew tells him to. They might as well not exist. Rain's already dipping. Static crowding into the edges of his brain. He's never fallen so fast. God he wants to sink into it and never come out. Dew never lets go of him. Unclenching his fist in Rain's hair to shift his grip and curl around one of his seaglass horns. He drags a hot claw over the place they connect to his head, oversensitive all the time. Rain's eyes flutter closed, he whines. Leans into Dew's touch. It's a mistake. The sting of Dew's slap is sharp on his cheek, hot. Rain's eyes snap open. The pain goes straight to his cock. Fully hard now, tenting his uniform pants. He can feel himself dripping already--unable to hide what this does to him. How much he likes it. "Don't look away from me again," Dew demands, and Rain promises himself he won't. Doesn't want to. Rain doesn't want to disappoint him, but he knows that he will no matter what he does. It doesn't stop him from trying. Dew nudges Rain's clothed cock with his boot. Rain hisses, hips canting toward the pleasure-pain he knows that boot will provide. Too eager, he knows, he'll never get it if he acts this way. His cheeks burn, delicious shame flashing through him at his own desperation. He can't help it. Rain knows the game but can't catch up. He's falling into traps he knows how to set. Letting Dew bait him into them. It doesn't matter how good he is at this game from the other side--on this one, he's helpless. He loves it. Dew laughs at him. A low chuckle, dark. The promise in it makes goosebumps break out over Rain's skin. "Fucking pathetic," Dew sneers. He pulls back on Rain's horn, tipping his head back. Dew leans down and spits. It hits Rains' cheek in a thick glob. Burning hot and slick as it slides down Rain's face to his jaw. Rain wishes it had been in his mouth. He wants to taste it. Thinks about sticking out his tongue, trying to catch an errant drip of it. Anything to get a taste of Dew--a piece of him. "Please," Rain murmurs. He doesn't know what he's asking for. The word breaks from his mouth unbidden. He digs his teeth into his cheek to try to keep more from escaping. "You want something, water lily?" Dew says, too soft, a trap. There's something in his tone--dangerous--sing-song, that makes Rain throb. Rain knows better than to nod. He keeps his eyes on Dew's face, keeps his head and hands still. "I want whatever you want," he offers and hopes it's good enough. Dew grins down at him, predatory. Fangs sharp. Rain hopes Dew digs them into his throat. Hopes he draws blood. Rain hopes he wears the evidence of Dew's debauchery on his body for days. Dew reaches for his zipper, fingers tightening on Rain's horn. "Right answer. Open up." Rain does, sticks out his tongue for good measure. Eyes still fixed on Dew's face as Dew pulls his cock free and smacks the head on Rain's cheek. Smearing a trail of salty pre over his cheekbone. "You think you're so fucking pretty," Dew chuckles, mocking. It hits, hard. Rain's cheeks flush darker. He wants to look away, he forces himself not to. Dew strokes himself, tapping the sticky head on Rain's tongue. "You won't be when I'm done with you."

#comet writes #ficlet #raindrop #Dewdrop/Rain #Dew/Rain #Rain/Dew #Rain/dewdrop #my brain is barely functioning and definitely gave up at the end so #I hope this is legible #ghost fic #ghost fan fiction #the band ghost fan fic #the band ghost fan fiction #slapping #spitting #unedited #because my brain isn't working anymore #I'm overthinking it at this point so now it's yours

[herearedragons]

...okay this was supposed to be a tag rant on another post I was drafting, but this kind of makes a better point than what I was writing originally so let me try that again.

The thing about Edér Pillars Of Eternity and his theme of second chances is that not only that theme is everywhere for him (seriously. I did Not remember it being that present in his early dialogue but IT IS) but that his relationship with it changes over time.

At first, he's a worshipper of the god of second chances. Then, he is the one being offered a second chance, not by his god, but by a stranger who saves him from being hanged by literally just giving him something else to do with his life. Then, in Deadfire, he is the one delivering the Watcher's second chance, dragging them out of Caed Nua after it's been destroyed by Eothas. At that moment, he's closer to the embodiment of second chances than Eothas himself, which is kind of wild and exactly the kind of character arc I find fun, apparently.

#pillars of eternity #deadfire spoilers #edér teylecg #and like. I focus on him in particular because I'm making an active attempt to learn the character for Fanfiction Reasons #but I really hope that I find more stuff like this in other characters' dialogue/arcs #because I literally just found my first non-Gilded Vale party member in the new playthrough #and Aloth Does Not Talk Much at the beginning so I don't have a lot of dialogue to overthink yet #but it's definitely fun to come back to a game I just kinda played the first time and applying Analysis to it #pillars of eternity spoilers #herearedragons meta

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

questioning sexuality is so exhausting

#(edit: sorry for the rant in the tags and i just. i want someone to talk to me) #i keep on doing it for no apparent reason #someone was talking about lust yesterday and i realised today that. #even tho id thought i don't experience it. i possibly do. but exclusively towards women. #i hate it here! #for a multitude of reasons i will never have a relationship with a woman but! i may be incapable of having a relationship with a man! #at some point in the last few months i have abruptly pivoted from definitely wanting marriage and kids to being ambivalent on marriage #and not wanting kids. that's such an outlier in my life that it might just be a mental health thing tho idk #but at the same time i. want to be loved. #i don't know what i want anymore and im tired of questioning myself #i definitely overthink it but idk how to stop it #and i hate hate hate how the moral obsessions have bee lately #this isn't entirely related but it kind of is #like Am i a terrible morally bankrupt person for having certain thoughts or is it just religious ocd go brrrr?? am i overthinking it? #i don't know. i don't know! #for a while labelling myself as arospec ace kinda calmed that down but. i don't know #i do't want to be attracted to women. i don't want to have to look away so often. i don't want any of that. #but i don't know how to stop it. #i don't even know if i'm attracted to men at all. #this is a cry for help and encouragement and prayers no matter what your views on these matters are #queer stuff tag #i nearly fessed up to my friend yesterday about same sex attraction and i might've except that it would have probably outed me as #the person who anonymously sent in a question several months ago about the side b movement to a church thing #ive only told one person at church about any of that sort of stuff and it was very vaguely worded #also see: this friend is the mother of the boy i?? i don't even know how i feel about him #i increasingly think it wasn't romantic at all. but i don't know #i would love any encouragement you got. anything at all. #i don't know how much this stuff is affected by the fact that i consider myself unloveable and think it highly unlikely any boy will ever #care for me #now im rambling. sorry

[flammelikeshookdust]

The face of a man who didn't expect his gf to be into that sort of things, but who's trying to keep an open mind.

#i wanted this to be silly but honestly i think that #1. his first reaction would probably be to assume that she's asking that only because the sight of the bare scar grosses her out too much #(definitely not projecting my own insecurities onto this guy again haha) #and 2. even if she managed to convince him she's legit into this and they'd give it a try he'd be too afraid to actually hurt her #to really enjoy the experience #maybe some part of him would also be afraid that he might actually like this #i could say more about the suject but let's just keep it at 'this probably wouldn't work out very well' #idk why i'm overthinking this this was supposed to be just a silly comic about my blorbos 😓 #hookdust #my art #the pirate fairy #zarina #james hook #captain hook

[lettherebemonsters]

There are a few clues as to why I believe Adam IS coming back. And ironically, a big one is with Vaggie.

When Lute maims Vaggie, Adam takes her halo with him, leaving Vaggie behind to her fate. Now, Lute took Adam's halo.

It doesn't mean the angel is dead, however they are LET BEHIND. One intentionally, the other because she had absolutely no choice.

It looks like Adam's going to be facing the torment Vaggie faced, whether or not he's officially dead or healing off screen. But in the case for Vaggie, she found Charlie.

Adam has NOBODY down there waiting for him. The person who supports him had to flee. So he's going to face what Vaggie faced without someone to support him.

#hazbin hotel adam #hazbin adam #hazbin hotel #vaggie hazbin hotel #vaggie hazbin #call me dickmaster! (adam) #Remember Vivzie never puts details in for no reason #So either I'm overthinking this....again....or it's definitely going to be brought up in season 2/possibly season 3 #And once again I DO believe Adam's coming back #The fact that the crew is mum about Adam pretty much says it right there that something's in store for him

[drieddpetals]

just had the random thought of... what if people from certain spiderverse dimensions come to ones in the future (or vice versa) and get viruses from the future and accidentally bring them back to their dimension?? 😭😭 like what if spider noir went to gwen's dimension and he got covid?? is that even allowed???? now i'm thinking there's gotta be some kind of spider society disease control bc i feel like this is a serious issue

#obviously i'm just pointing this out for shits and giggles but like fr tho?? #like i feel like it's a genuine possibility #imagine some modern day spider going to like 1350 and getting the black plague 😭😭 #like #i feel like it could happen #maybe i'm overthinking #yeah i definitely am #spiderverse #into the spider verse #across the spider verse #gwen stacy #miles morales #spider noir

[thelassoway]

Jason Sudeikis as Ted Lasso » Ted Lasso 3.01 Smells Like Mean Spirit

#Ted Lasso #Theodore Lasso #Jason Sudeikis #*mine: gif #going to try not to overthinking how late this is or the fact a lot of these scenes have been giffed a lot/seen a lot #now to see if I can finish up ep. 2 today to maybe post tomorrow or Monday.... #something about the eye movements in a lot of these scenes #I definitely giffed the under the couch getting the yellow Lego brick scene for a reason but it just didn't fit here #but I'm thinking about that a lot too #it could've been any color and it was just the one missing piece. I'm reading too much into it. He was just being thorough #ugh you idiot with that face #stop staring at me swan #damn I had a feeling this would fail it looks like I need to pull a Roy and quit the giffing/I should not have started to take part in S3 #I'm too slow and my stuff as always been meh. #kind of want to delete this post and other stuff too....I'm in a mood today and this did not help #I thought posting this would help my mood but no #also definitely gave up on working on my ep 2 gifset so this is it. i guess....

[estinininininen]

FFIV liveblog: okay. misconception. i thought the paladin role was the big hot shot deal within mysidia with regards to the legend but it's the sword that kluya gives cecil that really shocks the elder. okay. daddy set up giving the sword to cecil one day in the far future, after hearing the mysidia legend? did kluya give the prophecy? have an inkling of what was going to happen? someone would need it someday?

theoretically could a paladin exist without the sword? doesn't seem like it - it's what changes cecil from dark knight. fun ideas! to me anyway, because this is my hyperfocus! is paladinny-ness, which the ffiv world knows about but hasn't ever seen, about just receiving the light, being "chosen," or is it about redemption, choosing your own en-lightening? aside from cecil's situation (a bit of cheeky spiritual nepotism), if someone else could be a paladin, can they be someone who hasn't been a dark knight/spiritually ill-defined official Bad Guy? or is that redemption a key definition of "paladin?"

see, it doesn't seem important (and it really isn't) but the christian reading of FFIV would necessarily lean towards redemption being in the definition - but it also breaks down cecil's parallel as the christ-figure, because he's the sinner.

#ffiv #ffiv ds liveblog #the slowest liveblog in the west #oh goodness did i just write a tiny essay on ffiv theology #cecil harvey #final fantasy iv #ff4 #final fantasy 4 #i'm overthinking this #i am definitely overthinking this

[garykingz]

If I think abt my gender too long I end up being like uhhhhh....🧠💥

#rambles #gender fluid......nonbine......actually just a fuckin trans dude who likes skirts too...... definitely not fucking cis..... #Like wotEVER #I'm just a spec in this universe. shouldn't overthink

[the--highlanders]

actually I am going to talk about jamie not being able to shoot the zombie in the age of ambition like. he's holding a gun. he's faced with something which is human-shaped but no longer a human, which is actively posing a threat to him and his friends. and he just freezes. he can't do anything.

and we never see jamie shying away from combat with non-human/non-humanoid enemies. he's happy enough to destroy the quarks, for instance. and he'll get into fights with humans/humanoid beings if it's non-lethal. but he actively turns down weapons when he gets into a fight with one of the gonds. the most we ever see him do is swordfight with trask at the end of the highlanders. and even there, he doesn't actively /kill/ - he pushes trask overboard. clearly that's not a death sentence, seeing as ben had already survived the same swim back to shore. and if trask does end up dying? jamie won't necessarily know about it. he's not directly responsible.

so I just think. jamie, who never killed anyone in the war. jamie, who's a piper, who's a musician rather than a soldier. he's not unable to fight, because he duels trask, and he's not afraid to threaten people, because he holds two and ben and polly at knifepoint. he's not naive, because he stands at the window and watches alexander die. but he's never killed anyone himself. jamie, who's consumed with survivor's guilt, always wondering if he should have done more, if his cowardice ever condemned someone else to death - but also always knowing that he could never have done it, being sickened by the part of him that feels guilty for having no blood on his hands.

jamie, who looks into the eyes of something that's not even human anymore, and can't look away, and can't pull the trigger.

and what does that do to him, then? months, maybe a year after he's left his war behind? he stands there with a weapon in his hands and he can't bring himself to defend two of the people he loves most in the world. victoria has to grab the gun out of his hands and do it for him. this young girl who he's fiercely protective of has to shoot someone, all because he can't. there's blood on her hands, now, and none on his. he wishes he could have been the one to take that shot, to carry that burden for her, and even then he can't help but hate himself for wishing. he's trapped there forever. the feeling goes round and round in circles and it never ever goes away.

#second doctor #hi i'm so normal about him <3 #you could definitely also swing it as jamie having killed people in the war & being unable to stomach doing it again! #this is just my interpretation #i'm also aware much of this is down to. this is a family show we can't kill humanoid characters ahfjshfjd #however. have you considered i love to overthink about james robert mccrimmon <3 #anyway i genuinely think jamie has a massive influence on the doctor's morality and desire to avoid killing #throughout all their lives really #because one and two are so much more. relaxed about that ig. than later doctors. #whereas jamie is. this. #like that whole bit in the novelisation of the abominable snowmen #where he talks the monks down from killing songsen by saying there's been enough bloodshed #that's something that the doctor could have done. will do so many times over. #i just think that every time a later doctor does something like that. there's a little bit of jamie in there. #a little bit of someone very traumatised who they loved very much #& like jamie's refusal to shoot in the age of ambition. the doctor's pacifism can sometimes veer into unhelpful extremes #especially later. maybe when their memory of jamie gets more warped and distant idk. #does this even make sense idk it's 1:30am and i don't have my glasses on

[misskattylashes]

Did anyone see Jay Forrester's story the other day, a picture of a Mod holding up a sign saying 'Jay you are required as a Best Man'?

#me overthinking #what if they're going to Greece to get married? #they love Greece #alex turner #miles kane #milex #i'm sure Jay has lots of friends #but Miles is soooo smiley these days #definitely me overthinking

[jessicas-pi]

I conducted a vote on which fic snippet to share, and you chose the shipfic I'm writing out of spite!

(Sooo, just for a little context: this is from a short fic set in the same setting as my main Medieval AU, but not in the same universe/continuity as my main Medieval AU. Kinda like what SW Legends is to canon, yknow?)

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“I’m the PRINCESSSSS!”

Ahsoka’s flailing arm nearly hit Rex in the face, but he dodged, and caught her around the middle, stopping her tipsy swaying. “Yes, Your Highness, we know.”

She threw an arm around his neck and squished her cheek against his pauldron. “I’m prettyyyyy.”

“If you insist, Princess.”

“Do you think I’m pretty?”

She swerved wildly, and he redirected her. “It would be unseemly for me to answer that, Princess.”

“Seemly. Seeeeeemly. Stupid Seemley Ress,” she said, slurring his name, then trying to correct herself. “Stupid Seemly Ress. Resss. Ressss! My tongue’sss not workin’, Ress!”

“So I hear.”

“I’m pretty. And I’m strong.”

“As everyone knows.”

“And I’m tall!”

“Acknowledged.”

“And I’m orange!”

“Correct.”

“AND I’m… I’mma walk on my own now!”

She shoved him away and took two wobbly steps forward before he had to catch her again.

“I can do it!” she whined. “I’m a lady. I’m twen’ny yearssss ol’. I can walk!”

She very clearly could not, so with a sigh, Rex bent over and lifted her completely, carrying her down the hallway. “All due respect, ladies do not get sloshed at formal dinners.”

“Isss no’ my fault,” she muttered. “Issstupid Korkie’s fault.”

“Right,” Rex said, ignoring her and the looks he was getting. Mostly sympathetic ones; everyone knew the Princess was trouble and was used to her getting into worse predicaments than this.

“Korkie says you liiiiike me,” she continued, singsongy. “He says you’re—you’re not sssaying an’thin ‘bout it cause of, uh. Uhhhhh. Clones! People don’t like you. Stupid people don’t. Good people do. Korkie says I like you.”

“That would be surprising, considering the amount of complaining you do whenever I’m around,” Rex deadpanned.

#korkie didn't even do anything poor guy #ahsoka's just throwing him under the bus like 'yep it is definitely korkie's fault that i got drunk.' #and rex doesn't buy it lol #soooo anyway. this is my very first foray into writing rexsoka and they're both firmly in the denial stage rn! #(I don't normally ship it due to the age gap but since they're only 3-4 years apart in this au and they met when she was 17 and not 14 #I figured if i was gonna spitewrite a rexsoka fic then the medieval setting would be the one to do it in!) #fun fact! i had contemplated actually having them be a couple in the ACTUAL medieval au and even came up with a few fun scenes! #but i scrapped it in favor of a funnier idea #but that meant i had to scrap the scenes too #BUT by writing a fic in the same setting but not the same universe i can still write those scenes! #fic snippet #fic sneak peek #spite writing #ahsoka tano #captain rex #rexsoka #annnyyyywaaaaaay posting now before i overthink and doubt myself uwu #cause writing semi-controversial ships that i know some of my tumblr buddies might not like makes me nervous lol #but hey i'm just turning it into a game. i'm calling it 'will i lose followers for posting about this ship and how many will i lose' #star wars medieval au

[sinni-ok-sessi]

this fic is really bringing to light how much I just kinda smile and let a story lead me by the hand, because it turns out I've watched this show six times and I don't actually know whose house we're in for this emotional scene

#anyway what *is* the deal with the family shrine at the end of nif? i have always interpreted that as being the prince jing estate #because it definitely doesn't look like the eastern palace and mcs and co seem to travel from elsewhere to get there so it's not su manor #*also* are we to take the fact that there's a plaque for lin shu that now needs to be covered as evidence that Jingyan has had #a Secret and Illegal shrine to the Lins all this time? because he surely wouldn't need to have one made specially for lin shu at this point #I can't work out if I'm overthinking this. underthinking this. forgetting something very obvious? #answers on a postcard please #lyb