#Miss Loathing

[spiralsublime]

what's up, im still spiralling during this rewatch and i have been considering how miss loathing and the house of wayward interests is INSANE.

what makes these children different? these aren't the grown distractions that the fix has to handle, these are beings that the fix cares about. liking magic, reptiles, the bass, all of these are hobbies or things that elias has likely Hyperfixated on.

(also do we think that Fix and Lance are related like Self Loathing and Self Doubt their first name is their family name?)

ANYWAY, when the fix said that there is a lot of life left, that these kids can be chosen. self loathing implies that he would be the one to adopt them. but that makes Sense. the fix is a concept that doesn't consider himself powerful outside of a physical sense but he, like A. Tension, is a representation of what the Big Guy cares about. And the fix is currently owned basically by Bition.

But even he gets distracted. He goes to Miss Loathing's and he sees these kids just like Elias has solid his soul to the company but still knows all these animal facts.

These kids aren't just in the city either. They are actively watched by Self-Loathing. Every kid that the Fix sees is also shadowed by Loathing, Elias hates himself when he loses focuses. When he goes down those paths, thinking about reptiles or has fun with a deck of cards, or even listens to a sick bassline.

But this also shows a change for Conrad. Conrad lived in Miss Loathing's home for a while. He, like all the other kids, were shadowed by Self-Loathing within Elias. UNTIL, he met and adopted JUSTIFICATION. Then he became a super weak voice in the back of his head. Just a bit more awareness still buried under Nothing, until one random impulse followed by an air of curiosity suddenly set everything off.

And Bition made his own downfall or saving grace by sending the Fix to Conrad. Miss Loathing said it, focusing on her only makes her stronger. Focusing on your conscience? You suddenly can't stop thinking about it. Makes it louder, bolder. God I love this season.

#d20 #d20 spoilers #mentopolis #mentopolis spoilers #The Fix #Miss Loathing #I am literally losing my mind of how many little things can build into Elias #i have so many thoughts about them especially on my rewatch for this finale

[dathen]

Know what absolutely kills me about Wyll is that his mantra is “it’s okay, the only person it’s hurting is me”

He’s forced into selling his soul to save the city: “I can’t regret it, it saved people and the only person it’s hurting is me”

Letting Karlach live knowing it will violate his contract: “The only person it will hurt is me”

Putting himself in danger endlessly so at least the powers he has will go to some use before he’s dragged to hell, knowing it risks him dying young and being trapped there early: “The only person it will hurt is me.”

I know for a fact that if he were given the power to make the decision re: selling his soul again to save his father in act 3, he would do exactly that. The only person it hurts is him, and over and over he’s marked himself an acceptable casualty in any situation.

#wyll ravengard #wyll #bg3 #bg3 spoilers #he has such a specific brand of self-loathing and self-destruction #that gets missed so easily bc it’s wrapped in fairy tales and said with a charming smile #it’s easier to see yourself as a heroic sacrifice than currency to spend on everyone but yourself

[ofswordsandpens]

I know Percy's desperately trying to escape the godly world but not only do I think the gods aren't going to leave percy alone once he's in New Rome, I also think Percy's in the situation now where he can't refuse at all because like, if he was in the mortal world at a mortal college he at least would be able to try and be like "sorry I can't do a quest right now I've already used up my three excused absences this semester try again in the spring :/" but in New Rome? They will be like "Percy! It is an honor to be hand-selected for a quest. And by the gods no less! Stars above, you should be grateful! I don't know what your little greek camp has taught you but here in Rome, we respect the gods' requests. Your absence will be excused. Now go."

#and any god that wants Percy Jackson for a quest just learns they have to file a request through the school and they've got him #¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #also the hilarious dichotomy of loathing your transfer classmate #because he's missing class every other week because the GODS keep giving him quests and the professors HAVE to excuse it #while you yourself have never ever even met a god #but also knowing that if you hang around percy it means your chance of meeting a god just skyrockets #pjo #percy jackson #mine #new rome

[ellydrawsstuff]

"Please just stay here with me"

#hazbin hotel #charlie morningstar #vaggie #chaggie #charlie x vaggie #hazbin hotel fanart #hazbin fanart #The inner demons can be brutal #Having a supportive partner doesn't magically make the yelling go away but they can be there to try and help comfort #Sometimes all you can do is be there #Fluffy art coming soon tm but not today #Little miss sunshine isn't immune to self loathing is my belief and it makes her a deeper character :) #tw self loathing #tw selfhate #angst #vent art #vent #Sorry if I missed a tw I tried to tag the ones I know

[yourbelgianthings]

the fix is one of the characters of all time. he’s played by hank green doing a vaguely southern accent. he literally cannot be stealthy. he uses the power of autism for both intimidation and flirting. he’s the biggest guy and made friends with the smallest guy as soon as he got the chance. he discovered choice and free will. he tried to say his boss’s hair looked nice and didn’t realize he had a hat on. him and his autistic wife adopted a whole orphanage of autistic children so they’re a giant autism family. really just everything

#dimension 20 #mentopolis #the fix #hank green #pasha n #miss loathing’s home for wayward interests

[fairycosmos]

my nana wants me to fear getting old so bad. “before you know it you’ll be 30!” and WHAT. and what. am i supposed to be sad about that. am i supposed to run from my life forever. so many people don’t even make it out of their fucking 20′s. and the expectation that i should be upset if i do, because my tits might sag a bit more or because i won’t exist in the enigmatic throes of youth anymore, is beyond ridiculous. the glory days are an entirely fickle made-up concept that never really served me anyway so excuse me for not constructing my entire self around them. i don’t care about the anti-aging agenda. it’s a good thing to live a long time

#i dont want to be like a slave to nostalgia the way i am about childhood forever . and i dont want to see aging as a bad thing if i get #there #missing childhood is one thing but i dont want to loathe getting old forever

[see-arcane]

Your speedy correspondent doctor has the following to report: it's fuckin wimdy

How is he meant to appreciate Quincey's manhood in these conditions, it's just unfair

#Jack: Dear Loathed Paper Diary I miss being able to feel my face and hands so much #jack seward #dracula #re: dracula #dracula daily

[laniidae-passerine]

I made my post about Dean Highbottom and then as I was writing my tags realised that his Hunger Games counterpart is Haymitch. and now my head is in my hands and I don’t think I’ll ever recover

#IM GOING TO CRY. I am part of the system I never wanted anything to do with it #I killed so many people without laying a hand on them. I never ever asked for this. I tried to say no. my hands are still bloody. #both turned to drugs to cope. both had a mentee who reminded them of someone they hated so much #(snow reminded the dean of his old friend. katniss reminded haymitch of himself) #both knew exactly how the games worked and all of its consequences because one made it and the other lived it #both lived in the shadows of the past and never really got out from it #but in the end one of them chose to be cruel to the children who they were asked to mentor #and the other loved even when it was killing him #god. twenty three years and they never managed to drown the fire out of him. his heart broke again and again #but he held onto those shards even as they made his hands bleed. and then one day two children appeared and pieced it back together #and some of it was missing and always would be. you can’t undo twenty three years of alcoholism and pain and grief and self loathing #but a lot of it was still there. far more than he ever even believed could have survived #Haymitch I love youuuuuuuuu I will always love you #and Dean Highbottom you were kinda cringe and lame. guynobody ass bitch. do better #haymitch abernathy #dean highbottom #thg #the hunger games #a ballad of songbirds and snakes #abosas

[dukeofqueers]

Patron Saint of Holding Onto Pain.

#illustration #artwork #sketch #artists on tumblr #original art #vent art #art #wolf #canine #teeth #bright colors #color palette #eyestrain #my art #this year has been absolute garbage on every level for me. my creativity is dead and buried in a ditch #i've reached the end of physical therapy so technically i can draw again but i just loathe every second of it ngl #i really miss 2022 i had such a good time drawing non stop for gk. man.... #anyway back to my roots i wanted to mess around with some textures and a brush i usually don't use much

[jamminvroomvroom]

ollie: will norris catch us?

ferrari pitwall:

#i missed ferrari in a weird self loathing way #f1

[sapphorror]

Y'know... A lot of ZaDr fics have them either gradually drifting into a less contentious status quo or establishing a deeply bizarre multilayered dynamic that is nonetheless very consistent and beholden to its own rules—which works, to be clear, because slavish adherence to the rhythm of their endless 'game' is already their canon baseline.

WITH THAT BEING SAID. I think it would be very funny to depict a ZaDr dynamic in which they're like, on-again off-again nemeses. As they get older theyre gradually forced to acknowledge the true depth of their mutual attachment, but instead of actually improving themselves in any lasting way or compromising the conflicting elements into an ill-definable state of contentious codependence, they just start oscillating wildly between periods of obscenely clingy allyship and devotedly murderous enmity. There's never an in between. They'll dedicate all their energy to trying to horrifically torture each other to death, until one of them gets uncomfortably close to actually dying or an external crisis pushes them together or they just get bored—at which point, they become obnoxiously glued at the hip until one of them relapses into anxiety about their ambitions or an argument escalates past the the point of no return or they just get bored. And every time they both Really Mean It, They're Not Gonna Do This Anymore, before naturally going ahead and doing it again

#invader zim #zadp #zadr #iz posting #natterings #there is so much good drama potential here actually #initially I just thought the idea was funny and it IS but also #there is something to be said about leveraging the full force of ones loathing #against someone you've been sincerely intimate with #and at the same time still being too attached to that person to fully commit #so that it just becomes this endless unresolved resentment that's never meaningfully addressed #also how this effects literally everyone around them #because they literally cannot be trusted to stick to anything #anything they do they HAVE to do as a team #until they get so sick of each other that they'd sooner die than share a cause #and they'll sign themselves onto wholeass war efforts just to have a sufficiently dramatic battleground #(because obviously it's not any fun if the stakes arent absurdly high #'apocalyptic' being the bare minimum here) #only to defect without a second thought the moment they decide they miss each other #at the end of the day there's only one kind of dedication and loyalty they care about #and they're making it everyone elses problem #im always saying steady pitch-pale vacillation is the ideal zadr endgame #and what is this if not that taken to its absolute practical and emotional extreme

[trash-can-sam]

What happens when your coworker kills your other coworker but both of you are in a relationship (kind of) with the same ethereal woman who had an admiration for said dead coworker.

+bonus Evandrey because it’s funny to me (I’m sorry Eva.)

#pathologic #pathologic 2 #andrey stamatin #yulia lyuricheva #eva yan #evandrey #yulieva #evaandrey #Eva yahn #Andrei Stamatin #see I think that Eva is very okay with Eva being how she is- promiscuous and spreading her love (Maybe a little jealous but more rooted in #self loathing and insecurities) #and she’s like look I’m okay with this whole open relationship (technically we aren’t in a relationship even though I really want to be) #thing BUT why HIM. I have to work with him and he’s by far the worst man I’ve ever worked with (besides maybe his brother because at least #Andrey actually talks but really they’re a package deal anyways) I need to have meetings with him often and it’s horrendous every time #like spread your love it’s noble really. #I wouldn’t expect anything else from you #but maybe give him less he’s annoying as hell #I also think that she’d figure out pretty quickly that Andrey and Peter killed Farkhad #just bcuz like. yk she’s there. she’s seen the already shaky relationship crumble beyond repair. she’s seen them argue in meetings. #she knows the stamatwins are not above murder. especially for art. and she’s clever. #And andrey knows that so he doesn’t try to hide it. she doesn’t have recourse anyways- #the kains (who I think helped cover up the murder) employ her too #and andrey respects her to a degree- he assumes she’ll see reason. #and honesty. Yulia might be upset that Andrey killed one of the only other architects but also she does not miss him that much. #she’s like I don’t agree with this whole murder thing but you are kind of right he had to go he was getting on my nerves #the meetings will be 10x more tolerable now that the twins can’t argue with him about things that aren’t even real #it’s awful but it did drive Eva further into my arms so necessary evils. #my art #sorry for the essay in the tags.

[cup-o-noodlez]

Pursuit of Perfection💉🪚🩸

Not nearly enough Ienaga fanart in this world. Alt version and stupid meme under the cut.

#usually loathe ambitious pieces like this but i actually didn’t hate the sketch this time so i continued with it and am pretty pleased #started reading gk from the start to read the read the last chapters i missed before i fell off #remembering just how much fun this goofy shit is #ienaga my beloved #gk #gk fanart #golden kamuy #golden kamuy fanart #ienaga kano #kano ienaga #needles #tw needles #cw needles #noodlez.art

[saffranin]

#yah i know beatrice's dress is missing shit i dont care i was getting so tilted drawing it #😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 #my art #umineko #when they cry #beatrice #shannon #frilly clothing MY BE-LOATHED!!!!!!!! #also didn't draw her hair piece because well. whatever

[i-loathelucy]

Eugenia-Louise “Lucy” Elbertson

Class Title: The Doll

Class Emblem(s):

Full Name: Eugenia-Louise Elsie Elbertson

Age: 16 as of 1969, 19 as of 1972

Female, She/Her pronouns

Lucy is the younger sister of Scout. She is seven years younger than him, and was born in early august, making her a Leo.

She works very closely with Miss Pauling and the Administrator, but is authorized to do “field work” with the mercs due to her combat history. Apart of her combat history is the ability to cause auditory and visual hallucinations via bringing the subconscious mind to the conscious mind.

Lucy sees Miss Pauling as her older sister. Sniper she considers to be one of her closest friends. Spy became a (reluctant) mentor to her.

lucy’s story is much more detailed in this doc. in it, several fics that i’m working on have been linked in that. i’ll be posting updates on any fics i may write on this blog, and like probably on my main @eld-red

my lucy pfp was drawn by @ homkamiro on instagram, and i have been losing my marbles ever since i saw her. i love lucy, if you will.

#team fortress 2 #tf2 #tf2 oc #the doll tf2 #i loathe lucy #tf2 scout #tf2 spy #tf2 sniper #miss pauling

[you-fuckers-are-asses]

I miss them

#Bam Margera #Johnny Knoxville #It devastates me knowing how much Bam loathes Johnny #They used to be so close #We miss you