#OBV THE CONCEPT OF 'I NEED YOU TO STAY'

[badasmuse]

“Wallflower”

Bada Lee x Reader

Warnings: 18+ (MDNI), language, penetration, bottom!reader, top!bada, idol!reader good girl gone bad type beat, reader is a lowkey slut?

Summary: you’ve always been such a cutesy person. you’re tired of it.

Short a/n: i used songs for y/n’s group that are from other artist (obv) and same for her solo career. also changed one lyric from this original song. this was a request and i had so much fun with it.

Based off “Wallflower” by Kimberly August

when you started your idol career, you always knew you’d have to go to events, parties, and have to socialize with other people. you weren’t really too keen on that idea. you’ve never been a party goer and when you did go you stayed in the corner or alone. your old high school friends used to call you ‘wallflower’ as a nickname because of it.

however, you being a wallflower helped you meet your current girlfriend, bada lee.

you were both at a party, specifically your group’s album release party. you, of course, we’re leaning against the wall, babysitting a cup of whatever alcohol your group member gave you when she approached.

“hey.. i’m bada. congrats on the album.” she said leaning against the wall next to you.

you looked up at her, “oh hi. y/n. thank you. um i know you, you’ve choreographed for my best friend’s group. aespa? ning is my best friend.” you whispered, feeling intimidated by her height.

“i love ning.” bada said smiling which put you at ease. “why aren’t you socializing with everyone? the party is for you.”

“i’m not much of a socializer. my high school friends used to call me wallflower.” you mumbled.

she leaned against the wall. “well if you don’t mind, i’d like to keep you company.”

and from that point on, she never left your side really.

eventually, your group disbanded, but you continued on with your career as a soloist. weeks after your solo debut, bada asked you to be her girlfriend.

your group has always done cutesy concepts. starting with their debut song, ‘bubble’ up until their last song, ‘dun dun dance.’ even after you continued, you kept the cute act. your first song, ‘bubble pop’ blew up. your most recent one, ‘smile’ ft. a popular soloist, bibi, just dropped and the fans were eating it up. after that, you decided to go on tour.

your first show was tonight. you were extremely excited because you had something up your sleeve for your fans (and your girlfriend.)

you’re currently in the back getting your makeup done. your girlfriend approaches you, a smile on her face.

“hey pretty,” she says softly, “are you excited?”

you nod when your mua moves to find a good lip shade, “very excited. i can’t wait to perform again.”

“i’ll be right by the barricade rooting for you. you’ll see me, i’ll be up front with ning.” she said kissing your cheek and running off when your mua swatted her.

“messing up my work.” she complained jokingly.

eventually you were ready to go. running out getting your fans excited. you immediately started with your first song, bubble pop of course.

time went on and right after the short intermission you came out in a new outfit. it’s not revealing but the skirt is pretty short. your fans and girlfriend are pretty shocked. not ning tho, she’s recording bada’s reaction. of course she knew what was going on.

you laugh at the surprised noises from fans. “i know, shocking right? i’ve always been one to do cutesy concepts, have pretty outfits, sing my little cute songs.. but sometimes you need a slight change. since it’s my first time back on tour since my solo debut, i have a treat for you guys. here’s my new, unreleased song called ‘wallflower’ i hope you like it.”

I hear you're quite the little odd ball

A little strange I hope it's true

I'm just an itty bitty wallflower

But I could be real good for you

taking the mic off the stand and crouching down right in front of where bada is standing, you sing the lyrics to her, a slight pout on your face.

Well maybe I could call you mommy

And you could teach me all the rules

Yes I'm a good girl it's true

But I want to be real bad with you.

you stand up smiling when you see the tips of bada’s ears go red even in the dark light. you walk right to the security guard and he helps you down from the stage so you can make your way to bada and ning.

See you could have me on the front porch

Or take me up in to your room

Yes I'm a good girl it's true

But I want to be real bad with you

one of your fingers slide down bada’s face and you keep walking, deciding to go interact with the crowd.

towards the end of the song, you make your way back to the stage, arching your back as you slide down onto your stomach singing the last line.

Go on let me be real bad bad bad bad

your fans cheer loudly and you damn near cry. you thought they’d hate this side of you. you stand up all giddy. you’d love to release more songs like this.

once the show ends, you’re backstage gathering your things. you felt large hands on your hips and they slide around to your stomach. “hi bada.” you say putting your chargers for your watch and phone in your bag.

“what was that?” she says quietly.

“what was what?”

“the outfit? the song? the lyrics? the dancing?” you turn and face her, hoping she wasn’t angry. you look in her eyes and they’re filled with lust.

“i wanted to try something new.” you wrapped your arms around her waist and looked up at her. “did you like it?”

bada doesn’t respond. instead her eye twitches slightly and she kisses your forehead, “let’s go back to my place. hurry up.”

you turn around and grabbed the rest of your stuff and made your way to her car. however, you’ll never make it as fast as you’d like cause your cockblock bestie stops you.

“y/n! i know you’re trying to go do your big one in bed with bada but, i need you to release more songs like that. and wear more outfits like these man you look amazing girly.” ning says quickly.

laughing at her words you hug her, “thank you ning. i’d talk more but bada’s eye twitched before she told me to hurry up i’m tryna see what that’s about.” you kiss her cheek and keep it moving to your girlfriends vehicle.

the ride back to her place was silent, a comfortable silence. your leg bounced in anticipation. you have no idea what bada’s going to do but you’re excited.

she parked in the parking structure of her building and before you could unbuckle your seatbelt, she grabbed your face pulling you in for a rough kiss. she bit down on your lip, making you gasp. taking the opportunity, her tongue slipped into your mouth immediately dominating as a hand wrapped around your throat.

“b-bada.” you stutter, pulling back for air.

“you play a risky game. turning me on in front of your best friend and all your fans.” she unbuckles both seatbelts and walks around to open your door for you, hand out helping you to the door. “wearing this short skirt,” her fingers dip under the little elastic, “arching your back like that. now i don’t have a porch cause i live in an apartment but we can definitely go into my room. or we can go on the balcony.” she says.

you’re stuck as you watch her pull out her keys to open the door to her apartment. once the door closes, her lips are on yours again. she spreads your legs apart with her knee and rubs you through your panties lightly.

you let out a moan pulling at her shirt, trying to take it off her but she smacks your hands away. “uh uh. you can be real good for me right? hands to yourself.” she backs away from you making you whimper at the loss of touch.

she disappears into her room and walks back out about six-ish minutes later, finally unclothed, strap in hand. “strip.”

don’t have to tell me twice. you think. immediately stepping out of the skit and pulling off your top. you go to take off the knee high socks and she stops you.

“leave them on. we’re going on the balcony i don’t want it to be too cold for you.” she grabs your hand pulling you outside.

“what if someone sees us..?” you whisper as she presses your back against the railing.

“you said front porch. is this really different?” she grabs you pulling you outside.

she eyes you and you feel intimidated. your expression goes from nervous to confused when she hands you her strap.

“put it on for me.”

you blushed and kneeled in front of her putting the strap on, occasionally making eye contact with her.

“did i do it right?” you whisper.

“you did it perfect, princess.” bada helps you off your knees and bends you over the balcony railing.

you hiss as the cold, metal rail hits your boobs, making your nipples hard. “bada-“

she cuts you off with a slap on your outer thigh, “uh uh. what was it you said? maybe you could call me mommy? now you’re only to address me as such.” she pushed into you slowly and you let out a whine.

“please…” you say quietly, holding onto the rail.

“please what? use your words.” she starts moving slowly in and out of you, hand making its way to your hair.

“f-faster mommy.” you stutter out. you could feel the blush creeping up your neck when you called her mommy.

she groans and speeds up her thrusts. covering your mouth as you got louder. “i have neighbors slut. keep quiet.”

well that didn’t help. it only made you moan louder, eyes rolling back.

she sticks two fingers in your mouth. “i thought my wallflower wanted to be real good for me?” she started thrusting harder, her other hand untangling from your hair and rubbing on your clit.

and you don’t know why, but the way she quotes your song back to you while she pounds into your gspot and rubs your clit all while her long fingers gag you a bit has you cumming all over her strap. drool running down your chin and her hand as you choke out a moan.

“that’s my girl. ride it out.” she whispers slowing her thrusts but keeping the pace on your clit.

about a minute later, she takes her fingers out of your mouth and pulls out. your legs buckle and you start to fall but she grabs you.

“i got you. come on.” she walks you back into the apartment, locking the balcony door.

she got you cleaned up and put one of her shirts on you, pecking your lips. “i’m so, incredibly proud of you, princess.” she whispered holding you close.

“thank you, mommy.” you respond, making your way to the bed still in each others arms.

you cuddle up to her drifting off then you frown realizing something. “bada you didn’t give me underwear.”

“you won’t need them. we’re going again in the morning.” she replies, pulling you on top of her rubbing your back. “now rest. you’ll need it.”

oh lord.

#bada lee #bada lee x reader #swf2 #swf2 x reader #bada lee smut #spotify

[alyszaen]

𝐑𝐞𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬

You were looking for my masterlist? Here you go.

Disclaimer: Nothing here is sorted in any particular order!

Cooperations

I take part in posts by @chiskz: check out the Masterlist, but my absolute favourites are the small Red Lights Series: Music Video, Reaction, Behind the Scenes Another fic of theirs I love: kawasaki once more

Things I requested

~Build Me Up Buttercup by @longingpurity~ I asked for a period comfort and JayJay DELIVERED ~Did you know? by @longingpurity~ Jay always makes me feel better whenever I ask for a fic ~Boyfriend texts with Han by @boydepartment~ Im so delulu i will cry :(

~Movie Night by @skz-jisoo~

~Changbin x bff!reader by @caseiloveu~ ~Felix x reader by @caseiloveu~

~Flower-ed Playlist for Han by @venusdailyblog~ ~Flower-ed Playlist for Changbin by @venusdailyblog~

~Stray Kids when they break your favourite mug by @minvho~

My absolute favourite reads ever

~Ignite | Lee Felix by @pettypuppy-jonghyun~ Y'all I don't like AUs and this shit made me tear up, read it rn ~Kiss me | Han by @pettypuppy-jonghyun~ KABEDON, HAND ON THROAT, BOYFRIEND ~Greaser Boy | Seo Changbin by @pettypuppy-jonghyun~ I literally love u so much for endulging in my thirst ~Cuddling with you | Hyunjin by @pettypuppy-jonghyun~ by now y'all can tell that her writing has a chokehold on me but this is SOFT ~Together Is Better | Jisung (skz) by @pettypuppy-jonghyun~ tysm for this, i am so soft for it nobody will ever understand ughhh ~Sweet Night Talks | Han Jisung by @pettypuppy-jonghyun~ just me being delulu for hanji and loving this bitches fics

~under the same sky by @almondespresso/@chiskz~ this made me feel so safe

~Pink Chamapgne - Lionel Newman by @longingpurity~ the fluffiest fluff

~Before We Go To Bed by @chachachannah~ this is about me and hanji obv ~last embrace by @chachachannah~ gut wrenching. i hate this. fucking painful

~Lee Know x reader by @lino-nyangi~ I am very soft for this Lee Know

~Han x reader by @bbyquokka~ Jisung soft hours best hours ~stay with me by @bbyquokka~ a realistic depiction of mental health, incredibly comforting ~my soul mate is my cat by @bbyquokka~ this one hurts so good

~boop, and there he glares by @byjeekies~ SOFT SOFT SOFT

~Lee know x reader by @rachalixie~ I need all of you to understand how obsessed with this I am ~sleepy seungmin. by @rachalixie~ I want to put him in my pocket

~Politely, Shut Up by @skzonthebrain~ soft lino >>>

~The moments.. by @taeminsung~ toothrottingly sweet

~dance practice (h.h) by @yxngbxkkie~ the concept alone already has my heart aching

~they call you clingy by @yangfleurs~ I come back to all four of these posts regularly for sad hours

~not recommended by @skzinka~ this broke my heart

~Better Than Ever by @thevampywolf~ this one actually made me cry, the emotions are portrayed perfectly ~Stars At Home by @thevampywolf~ this is just so soft in a way that it made me physically warm

~does she? ; lee felix by @loveliestfelix~ unrequieted love? or not?

~skz treating your skzoo plush by @strayedstars~ funny af

~anything for you by @binniecorre~ this is so damn good y'all it healed every heartbreak i ever felt

~the dating experiment by @caseiloveu~ i need everyone to read this, genuinely, this did things to my heart

~You like me too? (H.JS) by @mxnsxngie~ I am delulu

~purposely loved | hyunjin x reader by @svngcore~ comforting in a painful way

~What about us? by @skzhua~ a masterpiece

~Clean Teeth & Goodnight Kisses by @jae-bummer~ it's not a want it's a need

~Hand hug by @hwaightme~ an absolute masterpiece that feels like a hug you've needed for years

Favourite Series

~Pizza Parlor by @longingpurity~ My absolute favourite ongoing series ever, i need new chapters RN

~Heart Attack by @cupidsheqrts~ I get full on giggly when another chapter is out

#recommendations

[starpirateee]

For the drabbles, can I request Owen looking after Curt while he has a fever? (Pre-banana obv, and their in a safehouse)

I love you guys clarifying when something is pre-banana because, can you imagine Owen post fall feeling that instinct to look after Curt? He hates him, but he's got a fever, so what can you do?

And, on the record, I don't write actual fluff or domestic bliss that often, but I gave it an honest go? Honestly, though, I don't know how this reads

"Curt, I know you're incapable of understanding the concept of staying in one place, but for god's sake, you need to rest this off… That temperature isn't just going to blow over itself…"

For all it was worth, Owen was trying to keep his patience intact, but Curt had woken up shaking, claiming he felt needlessly hot when it was less than 10° outside. He had known Curt long enough to immediately know that something wasn't right, because Curt was one of those people who preferred to be warm, especially on a colder day… Normally, under circumstances like this, he would try and stay as long as possible in bed, and then he'd eventually resign and settle for a warm shower to keep him going for a little longer.

But, as it happened, Owen found that he was burning up, and when he spiked a temperature of almost 38.5, he put his foot down. He'd insisted in turn that Curt was to stay put and rest as much as he could, but he'd neglected to think about how the one thing everyone knew about Curt Mega was that he never stayed in one place for very long.

"How bad is it?"

"Almost thirty eight and a half."

"You make it sound like I should be dead from hypothermia," Curt complained. "And I can't be bothered to work it out… Just tell me plain, would ya?"

"That's what you get for using Fahrenheit..." Owen sighed, muttering something about stupid Yanks and their stupid measurement system, and then falling silent while he tried to work it out. Curt mustered a little focus from absolutely nowhere, and tried to watch him as he made an attempt to sound less like Curt was dying a violent death from being frozen. Eventually, his thoughtful expression passed, and his eyes met Curt's once again, as he registered just how expectant he looked. "A little over a hundred and one?"

Curt grimaced. "Where'd this come from?" Both he and Owen tried to work it out, but both of them came up blank. "God! I can't believe I got sick! This sucks!"

"It does mean you get a day off whatever it is Cynthia wants from you... What was it again?" He knew for a fact what it was. The two piles of reports on the dining room table was conclusive enough, even if Curt had never admitted outright what he had to do. Owen knew the system. Curt had to physically separate the work he had to do from that which he had already done, hence why one of the piles was significantly smaller than the other. So far, he'd been looking for any excuse not to do it, but this one was legitimate.

Curt shot him a look. "You know I'm a good month behind on the reports and shit I need to do from... uh, from France, I think. And then there was that one in Toronto, and... god, uh-"

"Copenhagen," Owen offered, helpfully.

"Yeah. Copenhagen. How the hell do you know that?"

"I saw the topmost file, that's all. You wrote the location on a slip of paper."

"... Huh. Wait wait wait, are you gonna be here today?"

"I have nothing better to be doing..." In truth, Owen wasn't going to let Curt try and handle himself, no matter how fine he tried to insist he was. It had been a little while since the last time he and Curt had been completely available like this, and thus he was grateful for every moment, no matter the context for it. This little life they'd built for themselves wasn't worth an awful lot if they were barely there to enjoy it, despite the fact that neither of them were really the domestic type.

"Besides," he added, as a little bit of an afterthought. "I don't want to be the one to just leave when you're like this."

Curt managed a small smile. "Never took you for a househusband..." He tried. The very idea of it was absurd. Owen wasn't the type for settling down and staying still as much as he wasn't, so to think of him like this was almost laughable, in it's own way. Thankfully, Owen found it amusing too, and chuckled softly.

"I dunno, Curt, I think I'd have the knack for it."

"Oh really?"

"You know fine well I know how to cook, and who knows," he leaned back on his hands and gave a wistful smile, "maybe I'd be willing to retire from our debonair old life and give in to the throws of... domestic bliss."

A wave of silence washed over them. Curt stared at Owen, but only because he'd reached a point where the response was that dramatically delivered that it was almost convincing. Owen— the most suave, capable man to ever have walked into his life— actually seemed for a moment to almost suit that idea of domesticity that he had brewed up.

The silence lasted only a moment before Owen started laughing, and Curt only had a second to cherish the sound of it before he was laughing too.

"No, you're quite right," he hummed, clearing his throat. "I don't suit it, but at least I'd suit the idea of it better than you would."

"I dunno, you've kinda convinced me... Maybe not in a traditional way, but god... Something about you being all blissful and-" he broke off with another chuckle when he tried to picture it again. "It's funny, but I dunno, you could probably make it work."

"But, to answer your question, yes. I'll be here all day."

And he stuck by that, too. For what it was worth, he was a little better at keeping himself busy than his companion could ever hope to be. He had about an hour's worth of documentation to catch up on, then there was the book he'd been meaning to finish for a while… And of course, there was always Curt. The first time he checked after as much productivity as he could muster on a busy mind, he was flat out. He seemed to have the whole temperature regulation sorted; or at least, he had it figured out for now.

Owen prepared a washcloth and a bowl of water that had started out as lukewarm, but was significantly less than that by the time Curt came around. He knelt by the bedside with the exact air of the drastic change in situationship they'd both imagined him in, and wrung out the towel before gently laying it across Curt's forehead. The latter took a sharp breath when the sudden cool hit his skin, and then managed a laugh. 

"What happened to not suiting it, huh?"

"I'm not saying I do, don't get used to it," Owen's tone was light, but he'd certainly thought about it enough in the last half hour. This was not up his alley by any means, and the idea of doing something like this constantly was somehow both something he could almost find himself doing, and the single most boring ending to his career that he could think of.

"I think it suits you..."

"Of course you do." Owen brushed the droplets from his fingertips onto the sleeve of his shirt, though smiling all the same. "You're the one of us being looked after. Speaking of, welcome back to the land of the living."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"You were asleep for over three hours."

Curt's eyes went wide. "Huh? Really?"

"I did tell you that you sleep like the best of them, and I wasn't joking! I suppose it only matters depending on how it made you feel, though."

"I dunno... Better, I guess?"

"Well, you're still-" he could feel the heat of the cloth from the other side, and it hadn't been in place for longer than a minute. He made quick work of turning it over, and then really getting the chance to feel just how warm it had become. One reason why he was glad that water was no longer slightly warm. At least that was something to keep Curt cool while he battles this inner heat. "Way too warm to be normal. I assume nothing has really changed?"

"... Not really, no. But, uh, this feels kinda good."

#spies are forever #saf #curtwen #agent curt mega #owen carvour #void offering #star mail #nova's tags → #this is a good day for curt being really dramatic huh? #oh god he's got that man flu so hard #but y'know owen's probably used to it by now #his fault for having such a dramatic boyfriend #sad: the term “man flu” wasnt coined till the 90s #know that owen would definitely use that phrase against curt

[gabessquishytum]

Do you know what i think the we the dreamling fandom are greatly missing out on? There's a lack of the. sacrifice trope i think.

So - Imagine Hob being you know, offered as a sacrifice to whatever god his village thinks they have angered - and he doesn't really expect to live or anything, he's just a peasant who was at the wrong place at the wrong time and they snatched him up - and the god, Dream obv, just. gets completely obsessed with him. Full on head over heels love at first sight omnipotent being falls for just some guy. They have an excellent time,hob is enjoying being fucked seven ways to Sunday and Dream is enjoying the undivided joy Hob brings to any new thing he encounters in Dream's realm. And if he completely forgets to mention the demands of the village to his god-now-husband? Well, that's on them for just plucking an unwilling peasant from the street. Hob is a saint in Dream's eyes, not in someone else's.

:))))

MMMM yes. There is an excellent sacrifice!Hob series on ao3 which very much recommend seeking out. And I agree that we need MORE of this trope!

I do really love the concept of Dream taking one look at lil dumbass human Hob and immediately falling in love. Especially when Hob is falling expecting to be disembowled and eaten by the eldritch horror in the woods.

Instead, he's seduced and fucked within an inch of his life. Dream is so accommodating, such a gentleman (despite being 8 ft tall with black holes for eyes). He lays Hob on a bed of moss and works him over until Hob declares that he'll never, ever leave, he'll stay forever as long as Dream keeps fucking him so deep and so well. He's no poet, but he tells Dream exactly how beautiful he is - compares him to the stars and the sparks in the blacksmith's forge. Dream marries him in the eyes of the universe literally right there, on the spot. He probably should have asked first, but Hob doesn't mind too much.

Next time the village send some poor soul into the woods, Hob is already waiting. Decked out in furr and silk, wreathed in flowers, he unties the intended sacrifice and politely sends them right back to where they came from. Dream accuses Hob of being jealous of anyone else taking his husband's attention away, and they laugh about it together as he carries Hob off to the bower where they first made love.

Dream already has exactly what he needs.

#the sandman #dreamling #nsft

[izicodes]

I’m a beginner w programming and I really need motivation :((( I feel kind of dumb because it takes me a while to understand basic concepts. What did you do when you felt like this? (when you were starting out )

Honestly, how I did it was I had a lot of people who were either depending on me to succeed with programming with my apprenticeship or wanted me to do well. I come from a fairly poor family and a lot of my family live back in Africa so I also have the privilege to be here to get free education. By constantly reminding myself (but not overdoing it) that I need to do well in the course, that kept me motivated.

Other things include the ability to create cool projects. I used to watch Frontend Web Development tutorials on YouTube way before I actually started coding and I wanted to make all those cool aesthetic websites! “One day I’ll make something like that but more amazing” and here I am learning programming to achieve that.

The other major motivation for me is I found learning about new languages or technologies fun. When I got the hang of HTML, I was super excited to learn CSS and then I learnt some Python and that was such a good feeling ticking the box of “Oh yeah I learnt that one, and built a couple projects”!

I think this is just a me thing, but I sign up to do courses that has a fancy certificate at the end solely because of two things: I learn the new language/technology and… I love seeing my name on a certificate! Sounds stupid but I really do! One day I’ll have a wall with all the certificates I’ve ever completed! THAT definitely motivates me!

When trying to stay motivated, you’ve also got to stop comparing yourself to others or feel like you have to know everything “right” way or go a certain path. Remember, everyone starts somewhere, everyone is different and programming is a lifelong learning process.

Find a project that you're passionate about or something that motivates you to learn programming. It could be a game, a website, or a tool that you need in your daily life.

Find the reason you wanted to learn programming. “Because I study it for university/school/online course/etc” does not count. WHY did you start the course? WHY did you pick programming and not knitting or law whatever? WHY do you think you’ll be good at programming? Find that inner passion for programming, write it on a sticky note and have it where you constantly be looking (study area) and keep reminding yourself

Example from me: I wanted to learn how to build websites about my interests (Hello Kitty, Anime, Lana Del Rey and music). Now I want to work towards create mini adventure games one day. Hope that one day I’ll get to work for The Sims/Electronic Arts in the Game Development team. I’m doing all of this to make my Dad proud and feel I was worth it after all the years of sacrifice he did to get me here where I am. I’m learning so I can live comfortably with my fiancé (husband in the future obvs) and spend money on buying him gifts and funding his little hobbies! (He’s super adorable) <- Write something like that

In terms of feeling dumb:

Accept that it’s normal to feel that way. No genius becomes a genius after 1 day of studying. Not even 1 month of studying. Programming is a freaking hard subject to handle. Accept that it’s normal to feel dumb sometimes. You’re not the only one.

Please don’t look at the whole picture when learning. By that I mean, yeah C# (for example) looks like a freaking hard language from the outside but when you start to break it down into topics like variables and data types etc and even break it further into subtopics, suddenly the language doesn’t look at scary! You just have to tackle the little guys and poof! You beat them all and now you know your target language/technology!

Don’t be too pride or too shy to ask for help. From teachers to the users in a programming discord server, ask for help please. Ask even the dumbest of questions “Does does HTML mean?” Do it. Learn from the answer. Keep it in your memory. Move on. Keep doing that throughout your learning!

Programming is a skill, and like any other skill, it requires practice. Try to write code on a regular basis, even if it's just a few lines a day. Don't push yourself too hard, take breaks, and come back to programming when you feel refreshed. Remember that learning programming is a journey, and it's okay to take your time to understand concepts. Don't give up, stay motivated, and keep practicing!

** I made other tips for beginners in another post - LINK

#my asks #programming #coding #studying #progblr #codeblr #studyblr #comp sci #coding advice #motivation #study motivation #study help #programmer #computer science

[altschmerzes]

Sooo I’ve been wanting to ask this but have also been too nervous to do so for fear of sounding too demanding or fishing for too many spoilers…but after seeing your recent post about being happy to talk about your fics, I’m just going to go for it 😂 I am very curious about how you plan to tackle episode 2x8 and the changes you’ll be making, and just…is there anything you’d be willing to share about all that?

AH YEAH ONE OF THE...... BIGGEST THINGS(TM) IN THIS ENTIRE CONCEPT AND FIC. from the BEGINNING this was gonna be Enormous no matter what and i am happy to talk about it!!! i love when people are invested in my projects tbh it makes it way more fun and engaging to work on them. you guys feed my energy to work on this thing, and thus it gets done faster, etc.

("is there anything you'd be willing to share?" [goes off on a whole big explanation that is probably WAY more than you asked for-])

so. 2x08. and all that. gonna put it under a cut again, in case 'gav explains in some degree of... detail exactly what they're gonna write in their fic' is gonna ruin the experience for you (gosh i hope not ljkdsf) but here we go (also cw for abuse here, which is probably obvious but. still.)-

2x08 is where things like... it marks the big Shift in the status quo of how things are, though the actual Events of 2x08 as translated into the au are sort of in the middle of an extended series of events that begin before it and end after it. so i'll talk through sorta the process of events that it's contained in.

basically, at the time it starts jamie is living with his dad most of the week in manchester but spending weekends staying with his friends in a rotation in richmond so he can work at nelson road on weekends. (yes, i'm aware of how far away those places are from each other. yes this is an insane commute. everybody is aware it's insane, everybody is sort of tactfully avoiding pointing it out to jamie. he does his homework on the bus, it's peaceful, he says.) he gets to richmond late fridays, goes to whichever friend whose house he's staying at that weekend, and then gets home sunday evenings.

at this point, ted is getting way more worried about jamie as time goes on, and others are too. he's been talking to his little like. war meeting of responsible adults he's consulting on whether he's right about what he's suspecting here, what to do about it, how, when, etc. and he's just recently gotten worried enough that he's given his phone number to jamie's friends at the park, shannon and company, and told them that if they're ever worried, if something ever Happens with jamie that sets off that 'i need to get an adult' instinct and they don't know who to call, they can call him. in fact, please call him. and so shannon calls him. because it's like, wednesday or thursday, jamie is not supposed to be in town this early, and he seems hurt. he seems hurt and it seems bad. by the time ted gets there, jamie has bolted and they don't know where he is. and there's just... nothing really to do. he's texting shannon saying he's fine and leave him alone.

and then there's the match at wembley. which is coming up Right Now so they have to deal with that, not like they can postpone it, so they get all the way to the match with this awareness in the back of their heads that like. jamie's out there somewhere having just had a really bad fight with his father, who very obviously based on context clues and what shannon said has beat the hell out of him, he's hurt, but they just have to sort of. keep going. for the moment.

and they lose the match obvs, and jamie went to it with his father - he and some friends are staying in town for a night or two for the event, he got jamie to arrange him tickets a bit back like in canon as well - and comes to see them after because he wants to be there when things are bad too, and that leads to a confrontation when his father comes to find him, and it gets. bad. jamie tries to defend himself but it gets violent, and by the time they're able to intervene he's been. knocked around a bit. (a bit more.)

at that point it's pretty clear that he needs a hospital. it's not life threatening, or anything like that, but it's obvious to ted and roy, who are primarily dealing with this situation (and yeah we get a version of the hug with roy - which scares the fuck out of roy when that's how it becomes clear to him that jamie is Seriously Hurt), that he's not just hurt he's injured and they cannot in good conscience not take him to a hospital. which means doctors and social workers and an overnight stay and a while where they're not allowed in the room with him while the people in charge figure out what's going on and what to do about it. jamie is released from hospital and allowed to go home with ted (and roy, who tags along for a bit, because someone needs to drive them and he can't stomach leaving just yet) late the next evening, but it's a deeply stressful and traumatic experience for all involved. jamie has a lot of healing to do, both physically and emotionally, but this is the big like. turning point towards things Being Okay in the end, finally getting him into a safe place where he'll be loved and cared for.

#gav gab #gav answers #fic: wriggle up on dry land #this is like. the whole 2x08 thing in a nutshell. #'a nutshell' lmao #it's a Lot #abuse cw

[runawaymun]

If no one else has asked yet - I need to know about "MGME except it’s my OC from my sci fi novel."

This is just a really intriguing concept!

AHHHHHH yes I was really hoping someone would ask about this. While I love all my OCs obvi this one is my big blorbo from this particular project.

Ask me about my not-yet-written-fics from this list

MGME except it's my OC from my sci fi novel

so, this OC is very much Elrian coded. Or rather, she's a very similar character, I guess? That was actually one of my concerns while writing Stars -- to make them two distinctly different characters.

she comes from a very similar background to Elrian actually, just in a sci fi context and from a very different cultural set.

The other important thing to note here is that my sci fi has fantasy elements, and the OC's main culture is polytheistic. Her specific house worships a deity that's meant to grant immortality and prophetic dreams -- at great cost.

This OC has a lot of prophetic dreams.

Unlike Elrian, she does not have an Elrond figure to help her get out of her shithole of a life. She has to do that all by herself.

But of course I got to thinking haha what if she had Elrond.

And then I was like--- hold on, wait a second.....wait.... what if...

The main isekai force here are her dreams. I'm thinking like, her actual physical self is retained in her world but she gets transported into Middle Earth

Language barrier obvs because I'm a sucker for language barriers.

Elladan and Elrohir find her and are like "???? random???? woman/young girl (I have not decided at what point in her life she gets transported. The book series follows her life from about the age of fourteen up until her late thirties. My one stipulation is that she probably needs to have zero of her kids that she has yet). Anyway Elladan and Elrohir don't speak her language obvs and she's just like "well this is a werd af dream what the fuck."

They figure if anyone will know what she's speaking or at least what language root it is, their dad will.

So off to Rivendell they go.

(There is an alternate version of this actually because I can't decide between the two of her getting transported to the second age and having a much younger Elrond -- and this being set in Lindon and Gil-Galad's court, which I think would play off of this OC's backstory in very interesting ways....)

let's go with that because it's more interesting. The only further fun part of the Rivendell branch is just more of SOL and the weird dream back-and-forth.

But there are several cultural misunderstandings that can actually come from her being in Lindon around Gil-Galad because she comes from a god-king culture (and is, in fact, a crucial member of her particular god-king's household who is, you guessed it, striving for immortality and has so far succeeded. This is like.... a numenor situation? basically? I think that's the closest comparable situation).

I do love the idea of younger Elrond trying so very hard to learn her language and connect with her and figure out where tf she belongs.

And basically, when she goes to sleep in her world she's transported to middle earth, and when she goes to sleep in middle earth she wakes up in her world

And there's just this awful back and forth and it's very jarring and hard on her because her life in her world fucking sucks

And honestly I would love for her to find a way to stay in Middle Earth.

But basically it's an excuse for some magic, and my good ol fav trope of 'healing from trauma and learning to trust' -- and also I feel like once she and Elrond get to a point where they're able to speak in a broken mish-mosh of each other's languages there's potential for her to absolutely spill her guts because she still thinks this is a dreamscape.

which is great for her because this character is INCREDIBLY angry and INCREDIBLY traumatized and she bottles up all of her emotions.

I have not worked out how I get her to stay in middle earth though. That's the problem. Unless she makes some kind of deal with the Valar or something idk?

I am probably not explaining this well this one is soooo vague. It mostly consists of conversations between this OC and Elrond and a heck of a lot of cultural miscommunication and assumptions about things.

but she would hate Gil-Galad she would hate him sooooo much haha

poor Elrond trying to explain that Gil-Galad is actually really cool and not a god-king wtf

also there's that fun aspect of like. The house she works for is attempting to achieve immortality at any cost (and murdering a fuck ton of people to do it) and THESE people are immortal???????? Who did YOU guys murder to do it?????? hello?????

I'm rambling.

Thank you for coming to my incredibly nebulous "there's no plot here" tedtalk.

In conclusion

#the sci fi project #you guys don't understand how much I love this character #I can't even articulate it well #she winds up killing a god

[demonsfate]

Thank you! ✌️😌

REALLY, I have the strongest feeling that the ONLY reason they went with the whole "two halves of one entity" thing is because in typical Tekken fashion, they weren't thinking ahead. Originally in the start of Tekken 2, I think only had plans of there being one devil in existence, not the whole devil gene. And this one devil worked more like generic Satan. (A millennia years old and capable of shapeshifting / possessing people. I'm still kinda confused if the "Kazuya made a deal with the Devil" was canon in the game or just an OVA thing.) but then y'know after Kazuya died, they had the idea that Devil would possess Jin because they had absolutely no plans for Kazuya in Tekken 3. After all, I believe the devs confirmed that Jun's files were in Tekken 3 because they actually planned on putting her in the game, but they also confirmed Kazuya's files are in there because they needed him to test out moves (specifically Jin's.) So yea, they def planned that Kazuya was Super Gone at this point.

But then when they brought Kazuya back in Tekken 4... they had to have an excuse as to why Kazuya still has the devil while Jin has it, too. So they came up with the idea that... Devil separated in half and went to Jin rather than the concept that more than one devil exists, which they obvs came up with later. But like! Yeah! It doesn't make much sense to me because why wouldn't ALL of Devil just stay with Kazuya??? I mean, if Kazuya was always alive to begin with, why... wouldn't it just stay? It's just a really weird explanation and it's one they instantly retconned as the start of Tekken 5 contradicts the rules Tekken 4 set. (Kazuya being able to go full devil form even though T4 showed that Kazuya couldn't without the other half) and plus Jinpachi was clearly meant to have a devil, too. But also retconned that LOL.

The wiki still states that Devil Jin is the other half of Devil Kazuya even tho... I think it's safe to say that's been thrown out. I mean Kazumi had a devil, Kazuya has a devil, Reina has a devil, I think it's clearer that everyone who has the devil gene has their own unique devil, therefore Jin would too. It also explains why DJ behaves so much different from DK.

Aaaaand... although there's nothing indicating that a character is 'aware' of their devil unless they're told about it, or they die... I just like the idea that Jin, in a way, has interacted with DJ since they were children just because it better clarifies that they have been together since birth. And their relationship is an important part of this blog and my depiction for them, so I feel that detail of them seeing each other in dreams when they were kids just strengthens that dynamic and what I'm trying to tell, y'know?

#abysmaleve #✏️ - ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴏsᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏsᴛ // (ooc)

[genshin-hater]

What are your favorite Genshin Friendship-Ships?

i feel like this fandom focuses heavy on romantic shipping, but there are so many good canon and fanon friendships!!! there are so many fun buddies and besties in this game!! I’ll go first:

Fischl & Bennet

Bennet mentions that they hang out/know each other during his hangout event and i find the concept of them being buddies (but fischl REFUSING to go adventuring with him) to be so fun and silly. Absolutely insane goth girl going through her Middle School phase. Absolute disaster boy who still manages to be a ray of sunshine. very black cat with golden retriever who will NOT go away and fischl pretends not to care but she really values his company and the fact that he doesn’t treat her like a weirdo for being herself, and HE appreciates that she doesn’t mind that its always raining when he’s around. also they are both trans and take hrt together TEEHEE

Hu Tao & Xin Yan & Xiangling

PYRO GIRL GANG. MENACES TO SOCIETY. THEY GO SHOPPING AND GET BRUNCH TOGETHER A LOT. They are a problem Always, but rotate out who is being the biggest nuisance on the reg. Xiangling is typically the most well behaved, but any time food gets involved all bets are off. Very powerpuff girls, these three. When xiangling and xin yan come to visit hu tao at work, zhongli clocks out early

Beidou & Kazuha

okay i low key also ship them romantically but the idea of their friendship is SO GOOD. “Hey bestie, im wanted for crimes and terrorism rn, can i crash on your couch?” “yeah sure no prob dude” I LOVE THEM LOL. Everyone on the crew thinks they’re sleeping together because kazuha bunks with her, NOPE. they are up late painting each others nails. She is complaining about ninguang and how she doesn’t know if she’s Actually 💅🏾🏳️‍🌈 and kazuha is like wow! lesbians really are useless at romance! cuz beidou are u like. blind. They have fun, she keeps him around cuz he’s funny and has a good heart and quite frankly sometimes she needs a Vibe Check and no one will call you out like a best friend. He loves traveling with her, obvs. Even when offered a job by the shogunate he chose to stay on the ship and i refuse to believe ‘i would miss gossiping with Beidou :(‘ wasn’t part of that decision.

anyway those are my bestie head canons, please share yours if you have any!!

#i love!! the power of friendship babey!!! #genshin impact #bennet #fischl #hu tao #xiangling #xin yan #beidou #kazuha

[tempest-in-ateapot]

i’m so so normal abt oct 3’s entries.

many people have already made some really in depth and beautiful posts abt it so i’m not contributing much but i need to rant bc Oh My God

-dracula quoting genesis???????? dracula quoting adam’s spontaneous poetry upon the sight of eve??? ‘flesh of my flesh; bone of my bone’????? the shit quoted in every christian love song, pulling on the original first husband and wife in christian theology??? all while assaulting mina in a not so subtle SA allusion???? holy shit

-i love repurposing that account and those quotes as much as the next ex christian, especially with queer love, so while i do not share the same exact feelings as a christian abt its usage here, it fucking horrified me. i know what you’re implying here dracula and you need to get staked fr.

-i’m still talking abt this point bc i Keep Thinking Abt It. his quoting of adam here is also not wrong? i mean it’s Wrong, and horrifying. but it’s not inaccurate to the situation bc adam, with ‘flesh of my flesh’ is in reference to eve being born of his own rib. literally born of his flesh. dracula is forcing mina to drink his blood, and he’s already drunk hers. screaming crying shaking etc

-jonathan hearing what happened and Immediately getting up to kill the count, despite probably still being Not Entirely There after being hypnotized and also. you know. retraumatized. and softening when mina begs for him to stay. the tenderness he has stroking her hair and holding her all the while fantasizing abt murder. obsessed. wtf

-just jonathan today tbh. everyone’s already cried over ‘the holiest love’ line obv. willing to damn himself for her so she won’t be alone as a monster. the kissing of the forehead scar. the violence he’s ready to commit for his wife.

-again ex christian. specifically a christian cult survivor with a Lot of personal feelings of vampirism as a concept, bc of how it parallels my own experience with deconversion and shunning by my family. i too was Once Like You, but now i am some monster in the form of your loved one you treat as dead, with the ability to prey on and turn my loved ones. i too want you corrupted, to join my side. i’d been warned of these monsters my whole life, the very ones my parents believe stole me from them. my cult is also obsessed with ‘the blood is life’ concept, to the point of worshipping it and all but turning it into an idol. i have Weird Feelings abt blood. anyways mina being like ‘we have to pity the count, even if he’s a monster, bc what if i turn into a monster? what then? will you not pity me?’ girl me too

-RENFIELD. YOU DESERVED BETTER. i’ve never been institutionalized so i can’t speak on that aspect but oh my god his trying to warn everyone abt the monster he once worshipped - absolutely gut wrenching as a cult survivor. i can totally see renfield, vulnerable as he was (not just mentally ill, but denied autonomy and abused by the asylum and its doctors) falling for dracula’s lines the way a new cult convert falls for a cult’s line - we promise you safety, and power, and love, which you have no or limited access as you are. we promise you change and happiness and belonging. but the deeper you sink the more you realize you’ve been manipulated, the great danger you are in, but it’s too late. you’ve cut people off. you’ve spent too much time. you can’t be wrong. oh god what have you done

#dracula daily #october 3 #dracula #invite me in #thinkin thoughts. #sa mention

[sweet-star-cookie]

gimme everything you got about the voidlands!! (without spoilers obv) what kinds of spirits are in the voidlands? how do you get there? what does scorpio do down there? etc. etc.

Ohohoho :D -rubs my hands together- The concept for the Voidlands was a relatively recent addition compared to some of the others for this project, but I'm quite proud of it already so I hope you enjoy :D

The first thing to note about the Voidlands, and how the spirit corruption/restoration cycle works in general, is that it's not always consistent. As in, the level of corruption or restoration can differ per spirit or per encounter, and there are several factors that can determine the outcome either way. Spirits who have been corrupted for longer can often be harder to heal and take on larger and more aggressive forms that are more difficult to fight or calm down. They are also much closer to burning out permanently or, even worse, going supernova and creating a black hole in their wake instead. Spirits who possess more Light magic overall are less prone to being corrupted through exposure to Void magic, or at the very least can fight it off or survive damage from it for longer than others if they end up in the Voidlands itself.

The one exception to this is Scorpio, as while he has a very limited amount of Light magic compared to the others, he uses what little he does have to defend himself from attacks down there. His inherent connection to Void magic makes him far more resistant to it overall. This did not come without significant amounts of training though, and entities within the Voidlands still pose a great threat to him, which is part of why he's armed with such a large amount of weaponry and why he needed a shield initially.

Not all spirits that are rescued are able to return to the Astral Plane right away, and may end up back in the Voidlands or fall down to Earth again. As mentioned before, the Voidlands exist between the Astral Plane and Earth's atmosphere, so rescued spirits still have to travel through it in some way to get back safely, and require a certain amount of Light magic to do that. It's essentially the reverse of the corruption cycle, where spirits are corrupted by enough Void magic to fall through to the Voidlands and down to Earth, though some don't have enough Light magic remaining to make it all the way and succumb to the corruption entirely, burning out as a result.

Even Cassie herself appears in the Voidlands pretty often when travelling between the worlds, especially at the beginning when her own Light magic and that of Flicker/the zodiac portal is still at a small power level. This is how she first meets Scorpio, actually, as the initial activation of the zodiac portal wasn't powerful enough to send her further up yet. Even when she is sufficiently powerful though, for some reason she seems to end up near Scorpio more often than not.

This discrepancy in power can place otherwise restored spirits right back into the Voidlands, and learning this is one of the reasons why Cassie trains so hard to hone her magic so that it doesn't keep happening. In other words, when she saves them she wants them to stay saved! When a spirit is successfully rescued, they return to whatever their home is or some other place that is of importance to them. Some are also drawn to whatever group of spirits they commonly associate with, if any. For example, if Pavo were corrupted and rescued, he would likely reappear near the spirits of the other members of his group, The Southern Birds (Tucana, Phoenix and Grus).

However, as the destruction of the Astral Plane continues, some of the spirits' homes do not survive, and the remnants of them will often fall into the Voidlands. If a particular spirit's home is destroyed and/or they don't have any remaining ties with other spirits, they can reappear in the Voidlands where their home used to be instead. Draco is one example of this, where he kept reappearing where his apple tree used to be, and he ended up corrupting and returning to Earth repeatedly as a result.

While any spirit can fall into the Voidlands or venture into it willingly, the astral seas pose an additional threat. Unlike the land-based paths or holes that lead into the Voidlands otherwise, the "safe zone" in water is not as clearly defined, so the dangers of the depths can be a lot closer to the surface than you think! Pisces and many of the other constellations based on sea life have experience with this, and this is primarily why Pisces shares her water magic with them. This allows them to "breathe" outside of water and generally live on land to lessen their risk compared to living only in the sea.

One entity that appears all across the Voidlands is, well, someone's hands! Several of them, in fact, appearing equally as wispy and shadowy as anything else down there, but no one can determine who they belong to or where exactly they're coming from.

The only hints seem to be that they are constantly and desperately reaching out for something, and are attracted to Light magic and the Starglass like the other corrupted spirits. Well, that and a voice that only Cassie (and Ophiuchus) can hear. It's one she has heard before, but doesn't recognize. Whatever sentences she can make out are always calling out for a "little star". The deeper into the Voidlands, the louder the voice seems to be. Curiously, this voice can also be heard coming from the inside of black holes. The bigger the black hole, the louder the voice.

When the hands do appear, they will grab onto anything possessing Light magic and pull them deeper in, which is part of why the Voidlands are so dangerous. The deeper in, the darker it is. Sometimes these hands, or more commonly the spirits that have been corrupted in general, crawl out of the various chasms and cracks that have formed over time. Corrupted beings of any kind will hunt after Light magic, and Cassie is targeted the most because of that and the Starglass itself, similar to how the spirits on Earth are naturally drawn to it. The more combat-oriented constellations (Cancer, Sagittarius, etc.) spend a lot of their time fending off these creatures from reaching the surface. It should be noted that even the Sun and Moon spirits themselves fear the Voidlands, though the extent of which is less clear.

Now you may be wondering, why don't they heal them instead of just fending them off? Well they certainly try like they would normally, and depending on the situation they can be successful if the spirit was just returned to the Astral Plane or otherwise isn't too far gone. Scorpio often encounters these during his excursions into the Voidlands, but isn't always able to save them. At first, he gives the impression that he doesn't care to save them, but in reality it's because of his limited Light magic that he'd otherwise need to survive himself. Though he'd be hard pressed to admit it, he feels guilt for those he cannot save. Once Cassie realizes this, she and him team up a lot more so she can help using her own Light magic, whether he wants her to or not. An additional problem comes from constellations of inanimate objects. Since they don't possess any kind of sapience/sentience, these tend to stay stuck in the Voidlands if they fall into it rather than falling to Earth. In addition to preserving the memories of past incarnations, one of the reasons that these kinds of objects on the Astral Plane are kept safe is so that they don't get corrupted or destroyed, or to stop anyone with malicious intent from trying to use/wield that object in its corrupted state. Sometimes objects that aren't officially parts of constellations but are still made of stardust and light energy like the rest (like, say, the weapons in Sagittarius's forge) can still succumb to this. Nothing's worse than encountering an already dangerous being in the Voidlands, only for it to pick up a sword on the ground and start slashing!

This idea escalates when Cassie and Scorpio encounter beings that were once inanimate objects, but seem to have been given artificial life as well somehow. One example of these is Horologium (the clock), and another being Fornax (the furnace), to name two. I currently only have a very rough design for the former at the moment though, sorry ^^'

Once the astral clock in the Solunar Spire, Horologium was destroyed during the rather explosive disappearance of Solaris, the Sun spirit. Without Solaris, the earth and fire signs don't have their elemental magic, and thus the earth signs can't use that magic to repair the damage to the Astral Plane's landscape and buildings.

Since the "life" it has is artificial, Horologium can't really be rescued like the others, and thus must be destroyed or at least kept at bay. This is a lot easier said than done though, as this and many of the other beings in the Voidlands are massive in size and a lot harder to kill as a result.

Though Scorpio does much to keep creatures like these at bay anyway, that's not actually his main "job" while down there. At least, not entirely. One thing he is tasked with doing is gathering Star Fragments, glass-like remnants of dead constellations. This serves the dual purpose of preserving what remains of the dead, but also confirms who actually is dead as opposed to merely lost. These fragments are taken to Aranea to turn them into stained glass portraits for the mausoleum. It is unclear if they can be corrupted as well, but they seem to react to Light magic and glow when near it. The fragments can also move on their own after lighting up. Cassie finds some of these on Earth as well, indicating that some of the corrupted spirits did not make the descent.

But as you might have guessed, the biggest confirmation that everyone is looking for is whether or not Ophiuchus is truly dead, which is why Libra and others insist on the urgency of these excursions. Scorpio has his own reasons for looking for his former mentor though, so doing this "job" is more of a means to an end. As mentioned above, his ability to withstand being in the Voidlands is what makes him one of the few to be able to do it at all, but it's also to make up for his connection to the Voidlands in the first place. Though he did not create it, his arrival was the catalyst for it opening up so much, and that has had quite the ripple effect. Everyone is still reeling from that effect over the course of the main story, but luckily some do eventually see that Scorpio was wrongly blamed for something that was largely out of his control.

#<3333 thank you!!! #asks #tabsters #my art #my OCs #Starglass Zodiac #SGZ #long post

[gloomy0x0phantom]

Hey Coco, hope you're doing great and staying hydrated and well fed (Sanji's orders) and well rested (Law's orders), I just arrived at your blog and I'm in love, also I love how you interpret X reader as an OC I do the same, for each character I have a different OC with her own personality experience and appearance, like obv. The kind of person who would love and be loved by Zoro isn't the same as Sanji/Law/Kid/Doflamingo/Mihawk/Crocodile/Ace, I love the OC thing and your way of writing and allowing things (I was giggling as I read everything and the angsty ones hurt), looking forward to reading more ♥ ♥ ♥

You are so sweet, thank you for this lovely message! I'm so sick right now, I wouldn't say no to Sanji's soup and Law's medicine :'D I have lots of fics planned (I'll have to update the list in my pin post), I just need to find the time to write them and manage my time better 💀

I have so much to say on this topic, I have to limit myself to avoid being annoying :'D I love the concept of the "reader OC" who adapts to the author and the love interest. Personally, it helps me a lot when I'm writing, otherwise I keep thinking "Oh but I wouldn't do that" aaaaah nobody cares! These aren't stories that are vital to the survival of humanity, they're fics that are written to please oneself and others.

I don't like the "No, this character would never be with a shy/bimbo/loud character" mentality. I have one thing to say… why not? Why shouldn't Doffy be with someone even more flamboyant than he is? Why couldn't Eustass be with someone very shy? These are fictional characters, you can bend them any way you want and it wouldn't change their essence.

And putting yourself in the position of an reader OC, it's much easier to read ALL the fics that are available :')))))

#『 phantom inbox answers 』

[blorbocedes]

any tips on BSing my way through an oral exam in my non-native language? i am in a higher class level than i should be so everyone’s like… fluent and i’m just there. i trust you with my life, do you have any tips for faking confidence + proficiency? 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

you shouldn't trust me at all. that being said I know a thing or two about faking things ^—^ and I used to be a language instructor so here's some tips:

if you have classes left, Speak in class. it's okay if you're wrong. if you're discussing a text in class, raise your hand and bring up a point. (if you're scared of looking dumb, look the text up online, use a scholar's point) as long as your professor Knows Your Face. this is important, esp in oral exams, you want your professor to remember you out of a class of 45. they're more likely to be lenient. in fact, if they have consultation hours, just show up with whatever you have a problem with. do not let shyness or fear of other people being better stop you from accessing all the help and resources you can get!

for the exam itself, get a friend who is fluent and talk to them! have them correct you. doesn't need to be exam material, just so you have the confidence of speaking it causally. if you can practice for the exam, that's even better! but try it make that language something you're engaging with in your free time, like watch a movie or read a book/articles, just so you're in a state of familiarity.

for language proficiency, it matters if you're confident even if you stumble grammatically, over someone who Knows how to say it but stutters/goes "uhh...umm." this is a protip, when you find yourself going "umm" just stay quiet. it's much better to take a pause "what Foucault meant in this text .... is," and gather your thoughts than use filler words like, like. instead of I guess/I think, try for "in my opinion" which is the same thing but it sounds more Assured.

now most importantly, for the exam itself.

WRITE A SCRIPT AND PRACTICE IT. it doesn't have to be the actual exam paper obv lol, but if you know what kind of questions are coming or what topic it might focus on, or even what previous seniors' questions were on, write a script and then practice it. time yourself. do the first couple of runs reading it, and then see if you can explain the concept without needing to look at it. do not memorize it! make it your own, just until you feel comfortable enough.

you don't need to be perfect, or fluent, you need to show you have a level of understanding. and you don't need to understand the entire intricacies of the language! only the syllabus that's focused for your class. what teachers are grading on is how much you've Understood, as opposed to reciting to perfection.

the more prepared you are, the more confident you will feel. finally, it does not matter if other people are less or more fluent than you. there will always be someone better. you are only in competition with yourself, can you be better than the level you are right now?

and this is just what I do, but I dress really slay during exams, so that way even if it goes badly I can't feel As Bad in a bombastic fit. get enough sleep, be hydrated, shower, wear an outfit you like, and know you have done all that you could.

best of luck!

#academic advice #which nobody should come to me for #however I am an expert at faking til you make it #tried to be very comprehensive #blorbocedes ask

[roobylavender]

i know you’ve talked a bit about your own version of events that diverge primarily concerning damian’s origin (if i recall correctly) but i’m interested in how you would handle tim? would he still be robin, what would his arc look like, do you think he should’ve been robin at all ? (just cause i know some people believe he shouldn’t in canon)

i actually really enjoy tim's introduction as robin bc (next to jason) it's the perfect example of how ludicrous robin is as an entity. with dick while there's a day-to-day life he lives that we get to see in parallel in earlier comics, a lot of it is taken in jest. bruce and dick's adventures in the golden age and even parts of the silver age are mostly comical and there's little continuity to speak of so there aren't really any consequences to speak of until dick goes to college. with jason's run we only really get to see hard-hitting consequences once he dies, and most of his run prior to that is plot driven with very few moments spared to showcase what his civilian life is like (most of which can be attributed to mike w. barr). what i appreciate about tim's robin run (and what i imagine other people comparatively find mind-numbing and boring) is that it delves into all of minutiae of being a teenager and a vigilante at the same time. the bizarre sudden absences, the sleeplessness, the school situation, the danger, the rift with your parents because they don't know where you are or what you're doing, the pressures of keeping your identity secret from your peers when you're only a kid and you want to have relationships but you don't know how to maintain them. tim being an outsider to bruce's family is precisely what makes his robin run so striking and revelatory. unless it runs in the family (and even then there are problems) it's hard to be a kid vigilante. delusional almost. and this status quo is even more exaggerated for tim bc he happens to become robin at one of the worst period's in bruce's (and consequently gotham's) life. a thirteen-going-on-fifteen-year-old is led to believe he is one of the only pieces of duct tape holding all of this shit together to the point his activities merit his father moving them to an entirely different city for a while. it's crazy! and eventually, it is going to get to him! it literally did! and personally i think it should have stayed that way

tim became robin not as part of a long-form response to trauma (albeit the trauma of what happened to his parents obv factored into some things) but bc of his own misconceptions as to what gotham needed to survive. he was a child, acting like a child, thinking like a child, etc. and albeit along different parameters the same would apply to jason as well. robin was more like a temporary phase for either of them than it was necessarily as a central identity around which to develop themselves entirely (a la dick). it should not have been permanently in the cards, and while the concept of legacy within dc is certainly interesting, this is one area where the compounded history, imo, should have espoused every reason why not to continue the robin identity's existence. every question and concern posed at the onset of tim's transition into robin should have been resoundingly answered rather than forgotten and left to the wayside as he was plunged deeper and deeper into the abyss of vigilante violence and death. he was a kid! he had a misconception about his own place in the world. and little by little he realized that while he would always have an inclination towards saving others he wasn't sure that this was the way he wanted to go about his life. i'm not opposed to tim staying connected to bruce and everyone else, but i don't think he has to remain a vigilante to do that. in fact, that to me is one of the greatest crimes of modern batman canon in general: the idea that every relevant connection bruce maintains has to be a masked villain or hero of some kind. bruce used to be friends with socialites! reporters! doctors! and it's not to say he isn't still but they're certainly more severely peripheral than they used to be. every other major dc hero has a significant civilian cast but for some reason bruce's own collective either steadily dwindled or was recharacterized and manipulated into playing a part in the grand game (think vicki finding out bruce was batman and the whole blackmail and death shtick that happened after)

so. to address your first question. i do want tim to be involved in that time period in everyone's life, but i want him to be involved as tim. not robin. as someone coming to terms with what he's been through and what he can do going forward. kind of like a singular greek chorus if you will. an observer to the party who occasionally interjects with striking gravitas. someone who enters and exits the story at leisure. that guy over at the manor on a saturday while all hell breaks loose in the parlor (they've found damian, they know he exists, what are they going to do, what do they even say). that guy committed to his new life as a boring and ordinary teenager with a video game addiction but also a perpetual itch to scratch who breaks his abstinence rule one night to stalk the red hood and ask what the hell, man? you know bruce still loves you more than anyone, right? while jason (bewildered, bereaved) tells him to buzz off before he puts a bullet through him (he never would). that guy who meets up with cissie the first friday of every month to talk about what it's like to live with this void where they feel like they're doing nothing even though they know the horrors of picking it all up again are worse. that guy who has to sit with this weird pit in his stomach while his girlfriend comes to terms with her own place in the world bc he knows now that he can't do it for her any more than bruce couldn't do it for him. that guy who still visits barbara in the watchtower and does homework while they trade jokes and jibes about whatever gotham's got going on and maybe sometimes he gives a stray opinion. that guy who has to convince his dad that there's nothing out of the ordinary happening to explain why suddenly he's always here, he's answering phone calls, he's showing up for dinner. that guy who finds his old corkboard with photographs and newspaper clippings and pushpins and red string and goes to the store the next day to buy a camera bc hey, maybe there's no reason to stalk batman anymore, but he still likes the feel of a camera in his hands and someone told him last week there's an internship for a junior photographer at the local newspaper with vicki vale. maybe this is how he helps. maybe this is how he feels useful without sacrificing so much of himself in the process

#outbox #in sum: more retired hero representation! more retired sidekick representation!

[langdhon]

*kicks open the door* i've said it before and i'll say it again: your michael is actually stinky and needs a bath in some holy water.

No but seriously, you've taken this rather static character ( i say static loosely simply because of the ahs writers inability to give depth ) and turned him into this dynamic thing that has these different facets in his life. he doesn't treat everyone the same. you highlight certain points of his character that are defining and core elements to his person and you stay consistent with those specific points while still showing his capacity for change ( to a point. he's the antichrist. his end goal doesnt change )

WHICH IS ANOTHER THING. the fact that you explain how that end goal remains his purpose rather than just slapping it down as "well.. he's the antichrist" no. you point out his beliefs and how they align with that goal while also making this conclusion separate from his father. he comes to that decision on his own and you don't shy away from that.

I love the work you've put into michael and how you've really claimed him as your own. <3 I could go on and on about all the things I love about your portrayal because there is SO MUCH but I gotta limit myself or else I'll be writing a ten page thesis on my love for Ava's Michael Langdon

||| beep beep, how's my portrayal?

ANDY PLS I'M GONNA SCREAM— you shower me with so much validation and now another whole wall of text I'm-! All the things you say there, I can't stop nodding while reading because it's all just what I want to put out there. Yes, he is what he is and always will be. No, he's not immutable because he lives and everything that lives, even hecking plants, changes throughout life. While I believe the core stays the same in most of us. Plus, in various scripts the antichrist as a concept has so much range; he's not the pure evil figure who goes around only doing the worst shit. Is why I hc he's on the chaotic neutral side with a chaotic evil tendency as he gets older. He's meant to be relatable to some degree, to lure certain people in on his side while still being an incarnation of chaos and destruction/new creation. The whole point of his existence is to get people to embrace their nature. What I love about the season's writing is how he cries a lot, but you can see that many times it's not genuine. But lots of fans obv. fell for the manipulation.

I want to shine a light on more sides of his person, but never let people forget that he is still That Bitch. Michael did horrible things and he is not sorry for 9/10 because it's his nature and he has the power to act beyond human standards, so he does. He's an asshole but he can be the a super fun guy too. Charming, mean, hilarious, scary, understanding, challenging. Chaos. It makes me so effing happy to read that you just... you GET how I want my portrayal to be perceived !!

And yes, it's important to me that he'll have his own reasoning while accepting his purpose— a first hand motivator behind the purpose which, broken record alert, he could've ditched with all the power at his disposal. But the world is fucked and he has the chance to get it fuckeder [ha, new word] in a way he likes and everything except the VIP lounge has to go. Renovation purposes. I do adhere to canon with his og timeline, yes, but as you said, the writing was lacking. I think it has to do with how they had to focus on Michael finding his path and getting to the whole apocalypse plan, because if they'd focused on his life beside that? It'd have gotten another season lol. Anyway, working with bare bones gives me all the freedom to do with him what I want, development wise. NOW I RAMBLED I'm sorry but everything you said there just hits home for me. I'm incredibly honored you think so. 😭

tl;dr you're correct, he's a stinky who needs to bathe in holy water while every now and then, he has a point

#SAVED. #now I sob myself to sleep bye #positivity #ravenskeeper

[sanstropfremir]

so!!! ten birthday. any thoughts?

very fine and normal thanks for asking!!!

no but for real though, i've been waiting for the full version of this song since APRIL; he used it as a special leader stage for gdc! that version is much shorter obvs and way more of an 'nct' song, plus i think bada may have made a new choreography for the full song. to be honest a lot of my thoughts are most just AAAAAAAAAA, which is fine bc there isn't much of a deep overarching theme and i don't think that there needs to be one either. obvs i'd love to see ten tackle something on the level of taemin or kai conceptually but i think there's a really special and underrated skill in fully embodying a performance regardless of its thematic depth, because it's hard. i talked about this with chaeyeon's solo but if you don't have something to ground your performance in it becomes very easy to be unmoored, and you can lose the thread of what you're trying to portray very quickly. something that i think ten does better than pretty much every other kpop dancer is that he is profoundly excellent at embodying feeling. you can give him a basic concept with a key visual and he makes you believe that he is that concept. and he does seem to base a lot of his creative decisions on embodying feelings, he's done several interviews recently and one that stuck out to me was that he said he's had birthday on the docket since pmn, but because he was feeling a specific way for pmn, he kept it on the backburner until his next cb. working down to your theme from such broad emotional strokes is a very difficult way of working, but it allows a lot of loose creative freedom that i think suits him very well.

obvs i gotta talk about the styling too. there's some really beautiful design choices happening here, most notably to me is the use of negative space and detailing! the main costume (the transparent shirt with the carpet pants) both draws attention to his torso and arms, while also provided fringe and loose dangling bits to accentuate the movement. most of the styling actually has these two elements, which gives a very strong unity of silhouette even though there are some pretty different types of clothing happening. one tiny weird detail that i don't know if anyone other than me noticed, but with the carpet pants and the patchwork ones from the vogue 8pm concert, because there's so many layers of fabric built up around the waist, you can see in specific moments what the pants actually stay still while his waist moves inside them. not an effect that i think was intentional by the designers, but a great effect nonetheless.

#SM DROP THE CHOREO VIDEO ALREADYYYYYYYYY #not to be a ten akgae but sm launch his solo career properly or i stg #sorry wayv i love you but if taemin can do solo and shinee ten can do solo and wayv i dont make the rules sm u can do it again #kpop questions #ten #ten w #nct w #also love love love love that we finally got something that's not a taemin clone!!! #ten really is starting to shape up his methodology with his solos and its so different from how taemin and kai approach their work #which makes perfect sense to me bc i know he consulted with both of them a lot and he's said that taemin told him to find something that's #'uniquely his' and that he's settled on this feeling thing is so interesting #like he's really embodying BEING a dancer in a way 99% of kpop idols cant do #very fascinating to me that there are so many taemin sons out there but the one who actually has taemin as a mentor has a unique style #anyways love ten love birthday sm give him proper solo promo NOW #anyone ever just remember that sm has four of the best dancers in the entire industry. bc that's still so insane to me #text #answers