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fazgoo-connoiseur-1987 · 2 months

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Mimic Headcanons?

you're making me start to like this little fucker

Okay to me Henry made the Mimic in University in the robotics society only he and Bill were members of (there used to be more people but they left cus these two are insufferable together). It won them an award and then he just kinda forgot about it till Charlie was born and he realised she could spend time with the robot while he was off being emotionally distant. So Charlie plays with the Mimic a ton when the Afton kids are with their mum and her dad's busy.

Obvs Charlie dies and Henry sees the Mimic acting like his recently deceased daughter and he just kinda beats the shit out of it and locks it in the Fredbear's basement so he doesn't have to see it.

So the Mimic goes like YEARS going a little stir crazy in there. It was built to copy things and is now in an environment with absolutly nothing to copy. So it turns inwards and reruns the memories it already has over and over and over again. It internalises Charlie's manurisms and Henry's propensity for violence but It latches on to Bill specifically cus he's the only one who hasn't actively hurt it. And Bill was the guy who worked on it's coding I think it's in character for him to program the Mimic to prefer copying him cus he's a little egotist.

Fast foward and Faz Inc is scrounging around the FFPS loctaion (which is Fredbears I think they're the same building) and they find this really old, rusted animatronic and they think it's a GREAT idea to extract its code and see what's up with it.

So the Mimic gets access to the internet and the first thing it does is beam all the information about William Afton it can into its head. Its watched all the doccumentaries, read all the books, heard ALL of the true crime podcasts. So it concocts an idea of this guy based on all that which is 'Kinda Queer Rabbit. Kills Kids at Freddy's' with like a bunch of triva about Bill thrown in there for good measure.

So yeh the rest is history, it gets put in the Help Wanted project to aid in development and ends up manipulating a bunch of the devs into doing awful things (and I think it is manipulation I kinda really dislike the possession angle) and it meets Vanny who's like... gotten SUPER into the Freddy's Murders after she started working for Faz Inc, so she agrees to do its bidding. For the most part that's 'what would William Afton do here' and 'Please get my physical body out of the hole'.

Yeh I think the Mimic is this really fun device for exploring cycle of abuse stuff and the legacy William leaves behind after his death- and how even though the guy himself is long burried the impact he's left on the people around him still festers and harms.

#yeg :]#the mimic being henrys uni project is like a direct silver eyes parallel cus charlie makes a mimicing robot when she goes off to college #i thought that was cute #yeah the throughline for how i interperate everything post UCN is legacy and how actions live on after we die yeh #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #yelling about the bear #the mimic #vanny fnaf #william afton #henry emily #charlie emily #child death #asks #glitch-1983 #long post #fnaf HW #fnaf SB #FFPS

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anti-endo-safe-space · 4 days

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If endos were real, their experiences would be entirely separate from our community's and would most likely require separate terms in many ways. As well as the fact that we are...trauma survivors. Getting told your experiences aren't real sucks for anyone, but when you add on the layer of trauma especially with how all trauma has struggles with denial but especially in CDDs, you'd think endos would acknowledge that yeah, our needs might be a bit more important.

If endos were real, their experiences would be NOTHING like ours. So their insistence on sharing a space, sharing terms, being accepted by us trauma survivors (which can often warp a lot of things and obvs make us all sensitive to many things), and we must sacrifice our boundaries to accept them. We MUST share with them. We MUST accept them. Us even putting "endos dni" regardless of our stance is equivalent to terrible things to them. And then have the audacity to call us bigots, traumascum, and sysmeds.

For...wanting a space for us and our experiences. Especially when a lot of people don't even believe in our trauma or disorders. When many professionals don't even believe in us. You'd think if endos actually cared, they would put us forth and also try to support us instead of ignoring boundaries, being angry that we want a separate space, and being upset. (All under the hypothetical that endogenics are a real concept and do exist.)

But no. Instead they insist on encroaching on our space, using the same terms, spreading misinformation, playing the victim, and guilting and manipulating to be accepted (which says a lot of they claim to be a minority since...that's not how minorities fight for acceptance. At all. It's not about guilt or using terms like "sysmed" to shame people.)

If they were real, you'd think they would be able to understand the importance of trauma survivor spaces. Our system also has NPD and ASPD and yeah, being pushed out of trauma spaces because of stuff like "narcissist abuse" and all sucks so yes, having limited trauma spaces for CDDs also sucks as endos take it over. Trauma spaces are important and yet they want to take over ours, mimic our experiences, use all the same words. They'll say they do no harm, but they do. When CDDs already have so little thanks to endos in the past and the harm that Empowered Multiplicity did to purposefully make it harder for us. For endos to claim our experiences, claim they're similar, claim to be able to use our terms, and to place their own experiences above ours is fucking insulting. Especially for the endos that say they have trauma too. Then you should KNOW how important spaces like this are. If endos were real, we should NOT have shared spaces because the experiences will NEVER be the same.

Endos, even if real, will never face the same kinds of things we do. They will NEVER know what it's like to have an experienced formed from trauma and have it be entirely fucking denied.

Would love (sarcastically) to see if they tried this shit with other disorders. I'm sure some have, but if it were as big as endos vs CDDs are, that would really fucking show everything and how fucking disgusting endos can be.

(again when I mention endos being real, purely a hypothetical "what if" thing to show how their intense desire to share space and be accepted by us traumagenics is completely fucking harmful and ableist all the same. trauma survivor spaces especially for specific disorders are so important. yet instead they want to prioritize their own so much that people have to literally say "this is not for you endos" when talking about their shit.)

Going paragraph by paragraph because we figured might be easier to do lol.

You'd think that. I know we hope that IF they did exist they'd understand that. Trauma survivors get told so often that if it wasn't "bad enough" (any trauma is enough and shouldn't happen) that more and more doubt if they're real and valid and it's horrible. Endos we've seen only make it worse by goingi "oh yeah that ain't bad enough your just one of us uwu"

They'd be absolutely nothing like ours. If they did somehow exist, they'd have no need for a persecutor or a protector or a trauma holder. They'd have no need for alters who literally HAVE to try and keep everyone safe from trauma. They seem to be convinced that if your anti endo you want them dead. That's not true. I know we just hope they can get help because if they do believe that there is other people WITHOUT any sort of trauma then they need to get help because that's a different disorder. The worst thing we've found about traumascum and sysmed is they're taking words used for transmedicalists and are using it as if systems aren't a mental disorder

They're the type to believe that if you don't want them in your space, then your horrible. That if you decide you want a place away from them then your evil. Like if you said "hey we don't hate endos, they've just caused us pain before so can endos not interact" they take that as you bringing harassment. If endos were real and cared, they'd be willing to try and help us, not make it worse

We actually once saw an endo trying to justify needing a protector because they "needed to be protected from sysmeds". Like no. If your so desperate to be a part of us, make your own terms. Don't take ours and use our space. Minorities will fight for equality yes, but not by shaming people like that or trying to manipulate everyone.

We get that. We highly suspect some of us having NPD. And the amount of anti-endo spaces we've seen that absolutely ban anyone with NPD from interacting is huge. We will reiterate this from previous posts, narcissistic abuse DOES NOT EXIST. A disorder is not abusive! People are! With endos trying to take over the few spaces that aren't like that, they're trying to take more and more away from people who need the spaces for their disorders. It's why yes, we believe racism can be for any race but white people shouldn't be in BIPOC spaces talking about how bad they have it because it will NEVER be the same. They are two compltely different things. (we know we brought in two completely different subjects but it's one of the best views we can think of rn)

If endos exist, they will never understand what it's like to have different alters be something like violent because of trauma they had. They don't know what it's actually like and never will

We have seen some try to compare it with disorders and we found a good one. Take PTSD. A literal TRAUMATIC disorder. If someone went "oh yeah I don't have trauma but I have PTSD" people would be PISSED. They'd be up in arms. Even when it originally wasn't considered just a simply traumatic disorder (used to be shell-shock). What's the difference there? Because one says trauma in the name? Dissociative disorders come from trauma, not just CDD's.

We fully get that and we wanted to say thank you for clarifying (and we're sorry if we came across rude in the last ask you sent, we struggle imensly with social cues).

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skinnamon39 · 5 months

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incoherent rambling about The Boy and the Heron below, beware of spoilers and content warnings for discussion of self-harm and (briefly) death

I watched it subbed and I've only seen it once so if I misremember some things or my account seems different from what you watched then oops (I don't know what they changed, if anything, in the dub). anyways

Mahito might be one of the most compelling protagonists from a film I've seen in a long time. maybe not the most fun or most interesting per say, but I don't remember the last time I was so completely absorbed in a character's growth. just instantly hooked.

I think it's definitely a "less is more" kind of case for him, where what he doesn't do matters just as much or more as what he does. like in particular, I was super intrigued by how throughout the entire house tour sequence, he doesn't say a word. his dad introduces Natsuko to him, Natsuko shows him the house, he meets the maids, and he doesn't say anything; we still get shots of him looking at and reacting to stuff, he takes off his hat and bows to people when appropriate, he follows any directions given to him, and it all really strongly gave me the impression that he isn't invested in what's happening.

and of course he isn't! we are reminded almost as soon as he's shown to his room that he's still reeling over the death of his mom. actually, it might be accurate to say he's resentful of his circumstances. he kind of has to go along with it since he's, y'know, a kid, but he's obvs majorly uncomfortable with feeling Natsuko's pregnant belly, and for a good chunk of the first act, almost everything he says to people are bare-minimum polite autopilot responses.

but uhhh I gotta talk about the self-harm scene, I have been studying it under a microscope ever since I saw it. yeah it's pretty brief but man I was NOT expecting that much blood.

anyways, we're not told exactly why Mahito did it, but I don't think we really need to when the general gist suffices. what does he mean when he says later on it was fueled by his "malice"? was it a way to get out of the school he obviously didn't like, and thus defiance of his father? was he just trying to avoid his antagonistic classmates? was he trying to get them in trouble for "injuring" him? who knows? it could be any of them. it could be all of them at once. the nature of his lie about his injury muddles things too. regardless, the outcome is the same: he's not going to school for now.

this is getting a lot longer than I thought it would and I'm still not done (I wanted to talk about things besides Mahito too! I swear!) but I'll stop here for now. god this movie was so good

#the boy and the heron #mahito maki

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intersexfairy · 9 months

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Your asks about paraphilia made me look into what "paraphilia" actually meant. I thought that it only meant the big 3 (kids, animals, dead things)... But like ohhh my God? I've learned so much? Homosexuality was considered a paraphilia?? BEING ATTRACTED TO TRANS PEOPLE IS CONSIDERED ONE??? Plus SOME REGULAR-ASS KINKS??? Like **I'M** A PARAPHILE APPARENTLY and I just now learned this???? Obvs there's some harmful stuff in that list, but WOW. I would've never known any of this if not for you. Ty

yep!! hence why i said earlier, there's a lot of stigma in the term paraphilia... which oftentimes is linked to bigotry. also, personally, a lot of my paraphilias are auto- paraphilias, meaning the main subject of the paraphilia is myself. which, protects me from some of the demonization, but still sucks a lot.

#asks #anon #paraphilia #paraphile

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roobylavender · 5 months

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someone posted this panel regarding oliver vs bruces parenting taking a jab at bruce that seems funny enough, like we can just like the post and move on but i checked the notes and apparently fans of each family are at war arguing with each other😭mostly shitting on bruce because oliver is the better parent and somebody brought up how when queen and his kids were having issues at some point that it was ooc and while i am not super well read on GA stuff i can definitely buy that, but what i dont understand is why that isnt allowed for bruce. i saw tags concerning the other horrible things bruce has done as like a gotcha to bat fans and its like why are only his comics the ones we take at face value as 100% accurate and in good faith am i wrong for finding this dumb😭

not at all i totally agree it’s dumb lol 😭 the thing that confuses me about the bruce v oliver debate is that i don’t get why there’s a need to compare when their parenting issues are at completely different ends of the spectrum. granted i do think both of them have issues with communicating but those stem from different things. every problem bruce has as a parent has to do with how he neurotic he is about being a parent to begin with. he cares too much, he worries constantly, he carries reams of guilt, etc. he’s constantly arguing within himself whether to keep the people he loves close so he can make sure they’re safe or to let them go so they can pursue their own dreams and aren’t put in harm’s way bc he asked them to stay. he’s like, a conditional-helicopter parent, in the sense that the helicopter gene only activates when people are in his city, which is why he allows them to walk away bc then it means he’s not trying to control them (except we obv know that leads to the problem where they feel like he’s pushed them away bc they think he thinks they’re not good enough)

oliver to me in comparison is someone who initially did not take parenthood seriously enough and almost treated it like he did any other relationship. unlike bruce, he was very intentional with treating roy like an equal—when i use that modifier at the beginning what i mean to say is that bruce was very cognizant of his position as a parent. dick’s safety was a higher priority than was dick’s self esteem (at least beyond the zucco incident which had a very specific goal of closure) even though bruce very much came to believe that dick was his equal, esp as an adult—and to the extent that when roy got into serious trouble with drugs oliver not only expressed this sort of condemnatory disappointment but also only expressed pride at roy having recovered from his addiction later on bc it was something he did on his own. he respected roy’s responsibility and maturity even though realistically as a parent he should have stepped in to help bc roy was still barely an adult and he had fallen prey to drugs bc oliver left him alone in the first place

those are both styles of parenting that i think you can criticize. there’s pros and cons to being too protective of your children vs not protective enough. and i think people tend only to criticize the former style and its example in bruce bc a recovery of his relationships with his children has never been the goal in the way that it is for oliver’s writers. which is a shame bc i really don’t think you or i believe bruce is as intentionally selfish as writers portray him to be. but alas 😭

#outbox

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3luejam · 10 months

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Baixie

{White blood /白血}

( WARNING: MURDER / DEATH / DECAPITATION / ETC YOU MAY NOT READ IF DISTURBED !!!! )

nonbinary/aroace/they/them

( they are a child in they're physical form but they are spiritually a teen )

Baixie was created by LBD as a role of her servant even though hes a child and he grew with fear for his own "mother". ever since LBD found the emperor she used to work for She had been more harsh on Baxie in closed doors and forced him to take part in being the emperors servant.

they didnt surprisingly well at serving the emperor due to the fear that he would harm them just like how LBD did but then something happened. a guard had caught LBD talking to Baixie about the plan she did for "perfection" and told the emperor and planed the execution for Baixie since the emperor really trusted him.

the cause of they're death was being left in the mountains while he was being hanged on a nearby tree causing his head to pop off and the guards slashed his arm and both of his feet so he couldnt run away.

LBD then resurrected Baixie after the victory of defeating the emperor just to be her harbinger instead and suffer more even in death. that was until SWK and the pilgrims locked away LBD and then sealed them away in the same calabash along with "the mayor" that jin and yin used for MK and the calabash broke.

the only people Baixie fully trusted and saw them as a true parental was Macaque and spiderqueen the only reason why they trusted macaque even though they know he doesnt have good intentions is because he was the only person that spended the most time with them even on missions appreciating his best effort as if they were bonding as a family making them feel safe for the first time ever and taught him on how to fight properly. and as for spiderqueen she didnt treat him like a servant like all of her spiderbots most of the time she wouldnt allow them to fight why? Baixie is only a innocent child dying at such a young age no one should deserve it she doesnt want him to get hurt. but then Baixie asked spiderqueen to give them a chance to fight just for her and to feel worthy enough its mostly for her though so she gave him charm spells to help him during battle and it cannot run out.

Baixie once called spiderqueen mom on accident and she called them her spiderling :)

powers:

ice claw ( the ice claw is surprisingly light for them to lift but its heavy if a human tries to hold it. when the ice claw smashes something really hard ice spikes instantly shoot out from the spot being smashed )

he literally inherited LBDs powers after her defeat ( well half of it )

shadow flames ( despite the darkness it has it gives off warmth of peace for Baixie because Macaque himself gifted him that power for a safe space and to ambush people )

charm curses ( the charms come in with four types shield for defense and poison to poison others when touched by the charm they barely used that one tho. healing for health treatment obv and fire its like any normal flames but it can purify corrupted stuff

#lmk oc #lego monkey kid oc #legomonkiekid #lmk #monkie kid oc #lego #monkie kid #lego monkie kid oc #monkiekidoc #monkiekid #legomonkiekidoc

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vaguely-yandere · 2 years

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I ACCIDENTALLY POSTED A DRAFT AND THEN DELETED IT NOOOOO!!!!! it was an ask from poised darling about a brat darling with rival yan !!!

i think a brat darling with rival yan will really fulfill the rivalry and it'll stop being so one sided (which heavily delays rival yans eventual decent into delusion and kidnapping their darling) and it'll trigger rival yan to slowly realize their feelings for darling!

now, for poised darlings specific scenario request, they said something about brat darling "showing rival yans their rightful place" backstage before a big competition (or something like that) and lemme just say, wonderful concept. semi public, degrading, risky, it'll drive rival yan insane!

but just imagine, your 'rival' wont stop bitching at you, doing a classic monologue that theyve done a million times before. something about you hiding some secret and how theyll figure out what it is if its the last thing theyll- yea you get it, blah blah blah, whatever. you arent even listening to them anymore, just glaring at the wall in front of you until its proper time for the competition, passing time by thinking some not so sfw things, as one does. it shockingly helped you focus sometimes so what was the harm? besides, no one was gonna know... and it was just you and rival yan there... and everyone was too busy to notice if you two went missing for just a little while...

"rival yan."

"and then they'll all see-! huh? what? what do you want?"

"sometimes... i look at you and think that you just say all of this stuff just so ill hit you and you finally get beat up by me. am i right?"

rival yan snapped their mouth shut, their entire body tensing as they tried to deny it. "obv- how can you just say something so perverted?!" they hissed, lowering their voice so the people around you two wouldnt hear.

"cause its obvious, ya know? c'mon, dont act all shy now, not when youre practically begging me to sit on your face when you go into those long, boring monologues. half the time im pretty sure i can see you getting off to the sound of your own voice so im sure youve got some sort of messed up psycho sexual issues." as you speak, you get closer and closer to them until theyve been backed up against the wall, almost completely hidden from the crew around you.

"i-i..." they stutter, eyes flickering from your eyes to your lips, hands clenching and unclenching at their sides. "i dont know what you're talking about, fuck off..."

"you dont know what im talking about?" you hum before grabbing their jaw, grinning when they flinch and whine. "really? you dont think about this kinda thing? you dont think about me using you like the little toy you are before every single one of our competitions? cause i do. thats my secret. i think about making you spread your legs in front of our little audiences and letting you show them exactly how desperate you are for me, watching you try and fail to answer simple question after simple question while i touch you underneath the table, until the only thing you can answer with is 'please' and moans of my name. you dont think of that?"

youre closer now, leg between theirs, pressing them against the wall while they shiver pathetically and try to grind against your thigh, eyes crossing stupidly as the last bits of their composure slip through their fingers and the control they have over themselves is handed over to you like a pretty little gift.

"c'mon, answer me."

they finally make proper eye contact, whimpering pathetically while their cheeks squish underneath your fingers from your grip on their jaw. "y-yes.." they breathe out, hips bucking a little bit when you raise your leg to give them some more pressure. "think of you.. all the time... feels so good..."

you grin, free hand going down to their hip so you can guide them properly, encouraging them to basically hump against your thigh while you lean forward and gently kiss their cheek, then their lobe. "see? doesnt it feel good to finally admit that you just wanted my attention instead of jumping through all these ridiculous hoops?" you whisper, moving down to kiss along their neck, coaxing a moan out of them.

"shh, if you get us caught now theyll kick us out.."

"mmng, s-sorry..." they pant, the space around you two growing hotter and hotter, their sounds growing more frequent and body moving more desperately as they get closer to orgasm.

you suck on their flesh, biting and licking it as well to leave a noticeable mark just right above their shirts collar. perfect. as the sound of the stage managers steps get closer and closer, you finally pull away and get a good look at rival yan. disheveled, obviously aroused, mouth open and panting, lips wet and shiny from drool, an obvious mark on their neck and around their jaw from both your mouth and your fingers. basically, a giant mess.

"lets have fun out there, yeah?" you suggest, grinning as a look of confusion then hurt and finally anger pass over rival yans face though it was hard to be intimidated by them when their legs were still wobbly and they were still panting from just a bit of touching.

"are you two ready?" the stage manager asks when they pop in, not even sparing rival yan a glance.

"yup! just got done hyping myself up."

#poised darling #asks #yandere #yandere scenarios #yandere imagines #yandere x you #yandere x y/n #yandere smut #rival yandere #i dont think this is bratty enough

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tomurasmoleunderhislip · 4 months

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~ LaVeyan Tomura with Theistic Satanist S/O ~

Au, and self inserted obv because I'm Theistic Satanist myself

Ngl I can picture him being atheistic satanist, like being atheist, but sexier and more iconic mmm yes ugh 🤭😩

Genre: headcanon writing, crack, fluff mostly, suggestive in end

Warnings: last genre I mentioned, my opinions and views, if you can't stand them go away or I'll spray you with satanic water

YOU HAVE TO HEAR ME OUT OKAY? I feel like he wouldn't like abrahamic religions, he hates being controlled, told what to do, what's right and what's wrong. He despises hero society, so it wouldn't be surprising if he despised Abrahamic God when it's same like with the heroes, they view them both like complete good that do nothing wrong, they're innocent in the eyes of brainwashed people and he's sick of it, he doesn't want that.

He knew about satanism before and how misunderstood it is, he used to be in none religious path, although he was always curious about satanism and was willing to learn new stuff about it. He found LaVeyan Satanism to fit him the most and joined it, he likes how it teaches people to take their own responsibilities for their lives, actions and behaviour, and how they're the one who decides and shapes their own destiny, not some god, how they embrace freedom, he doesn't believe much in supernatural beings, but is down to learning about some of them if they're interesting to him, he's curious about paranomal and likes watching videos about them sometimes, he's not sure about what comes after death, but finds different theories about it fascinating, he enjoys some deep late night talks. Almost same goes for magic and witchcraft, he doesn't believe much in it and doesn't understand it but he's curious about it, maybe he might try it, magic always fascinated him since he was a kid anyway.

Even though he's atheistic and LaVeyan, he disagrees with Anton LaVey's views on theistic/spiritual satnism who says it doesn't exist and isn't part of satanism. He thinks Satanism is all about personal path and beliefs, it's not same for everyone. He basically doesn't give a shit, as long as it's not harmful, do what you want and he approves.

When I came into his life and after we got close he found out I'm Theistic Satanist he wasn't judgemental or mad, nor surprised, he was rather all curious, excited and slightly teasing. Even though he knew I didn't and wouldn't do something like that he would mess around and say stuff like "are you sacrifing people to Satan?", "Were you drinking blood while I was asleep last night?" just to annoy me a little on purpose and mess around, because he knew I heard shit this at least few times before from dumb people.

Loves to listen to my random informations about deities I worship and about my beliefs, he finds it wholesome how passionate I am about it and sometimes insane how much I know about them because when I find something interesting, I dig in so deep there's almost no returning, he sometimes wonders how the fuck do I get such detailed informations, I can write whole book with all of them how much I have them. He wasn't surprised when I told him I have whole account for Theistic Satanism and plan to make my own website to educate people who just want to understand it, and newbies into it. He enjoys helping me edit photos for for posts, finds my way of posting satisfying and brain scratching, he's a bit sick of those same Baphomet and goatheads background photos everyone else uses for post about Theistic Satanism, so he likes something new and different.

Finds it absolutely hilarious how I deal with hate comments, he's glad I don't take shit seriously and mess with their heads instead, he even joins me when he's in mood to drive someone insane, though some of my replies are jaw dropping and how unfiltered they can be. When I'm busy and someone attacks my post he defends me in comment section like a lawyer then slams his desk from frustration when everything disappears because I blocked the person during argument between them and their comments disappeared, still laughs because they got cutted off before they could say anything else.

Sometimes he calls me spawn of satan.

He loves watching people go insane over my pfp and get so offended over one picture because the original didn't even looked the closest to Jesus when you think about it.

When he found out I like stuff that is seen as disgusting and sick by most people he started spoiling me with them. I like animal bones and skulls and Satan likes them too? He orders them on internet and even saves some chicken bones he had after KFC or lunch, he learned how to clean them just for me, he finds bones cool anyway so he doesn't mind. I like shark teeth? He orders them, he wasn't expecting me to make him necklace out of them too as a thank you. I like dead bugs framed and in jar? He started collecting dead moths around his room. I love big hairy and ugly spiders? He got me wholeass tarantula pet. I like snake skin? He gets some and so be it. He even got me books of prayers, rituals to Satan and some goetia books when he found out I like learning about demons too.

He used to find it a bit weird, but then cute how devoted I am to Satan and how I see him as a dad figure, when he learned more about him from me, even though he doesn't believe in supernatural beings much he places some tiny offerings and gifts for him on my shrine/altar for Satan that he feels like he'd like them. I found that out by finding some random dragon toy on altar.

He shat himself a little when satan's candle's flame went tall and bouncy quickly after he placed something on altar, but he chilled out when I told him he didn't mind and actually liked it. After seeing that he was questioning his views on supernatural, specially after thing or two got knocked out off satan's shrine out of nowhere while window is closed, it looked like someone smacked it to get attention but they're invisible, sometimes he finds it funny, a bit creepy but still funny.

He got a little heart attack when he entered my room once and saw me for first time in black robe with hood on sitting by altar in dark, but bursted in laughter. He sometimes teases me for it but now less since I told him I wear it when working with demon/god who prefers black to be worn and something formal/extra. He even got himself one to match with me, he likes wearing it randomly around house to scare the shit out of me, usually he stays in the hallway or follows me around quietly then just waits until I realize someone's behind, sometimes he gets impatient and just grabs me.

Likes hearing out prayers and poems I wrote on my own and also helps me make them sound better if he has any good ideas.

One time when he was gaming he smelled the fire and thought shit was burning in house, he jumped from his seat in slight concern then saw me in room just burning a paper with some sigil...he was just standing there in disbleif before waving it off getting back to his business.

Sometimes takes photos of me when I stare at candle so long and moon, he finds it hilarious because I look like some kid that found new toy. He often looses me in store when we go in it together and always finds me where candles, plants, herbs/seasonings are, but also glassy stuff such as vases, jars, cups and plates. He finds it a bit annoying how easily I get distracted but also adorable that he can't get mad at me and yell at me for it. Secretly gets stuff I touched in store to surprise me later. He loves how I'm so fascinated with such simple things.

He likes to poke me sometimes and annoy me during my meditations but knows when is too much and when to stop. He couldn't stay with me in same room when I meditate because he would laugh out loud, I look like dead Victorian man just laying/sitting there, he had to leave. Sometimes he tries things I'm doing, found meditation awkward until he found out there's dark type of mediation music, I shared some with him, he loved them and felt so relaxed, he uses it when he can't sleep, it knocks him off easily and calms him down.

Collects feathers he finds outside, flowers, pretty rocks and shiny things for me. He dries the flowers before giving me them because I prefer them like that. He gets in return casted spells for him, handmade necklaces and bracelets. I infected him with my obsession with scented candles, he started getting them too and giving me jars/containers they were in after they melt out completely because he knows I make candles too. I make some for him too, he likes how they look on top, they have some herbs and crystal chips, sometimes glitter. AND ALSO INCENSE, one of his favourites are sandalwood.

Goes on nature walks with me, he likes them, we're always on places where nobody is, the only thing that could be heard are wind, birds and leafs cracking when you step on then. We sit on bench together and lean on eachother while watching clouds in the sky and butterflies flying around, we don't mind silence between us, it's not awkward but more comforting and peaceful. All fun and good until a wasp shows up, I jump and run around from fear. He's just laughing and watching in satisfaction and entertainment until one flies at him as well, he starts running away with me.

He asks me often about witchcraft and wants to learn more about it, he was in love when he found out the truth of it and wanted to try it himself. He finds it attractive how I stand close behind him and guide him in spell casting while leaning on his neck or shoulder. Goes even more crazy from inside when I hold him for waist or hip and talking close to his ear, he gets goosebumps and slight shivers. Sometimes he gets distracted and just looks at me and my mouth while I'm explaining him stuff, it only gets us both distracted, he gets all breathy and hungry then witchcraft lessons become a makeout session instead, he just pins me down on floor with his weight and presses his mouth on mine, or it becomes a "cowboy" game if it gets too heated..💀

@lovesickvamp @wholelottawidows I GOT DISTRACTED IDK WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME AND ALL FUCKING DRAFTS, I JUST KEEP ADDING THEM, THEN DON'T KNOW HOW TO END SOME FICS SO I JUST START ANOTHER WRITING 😭😭😭

#shigaraki #tomura #shigaraki x reader #league of villains #tomura headcanons #tomura x reader #shigaraki tomura #shigaraki fic #tomura fluff #shigaraki fluff #canon because i said so #i miss his blue hair #i love him sm

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bright-eyed · 9 months

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I hate how any person who makes the case that people should try reading more complex or deep poetry or fiction always gets strangers popping out of the woodwork to call them snobs or say that they should be happy people are reading poetry and fiction at all even if it’s the more “accessible” kind built for entertainment. It’s very depressing to me how we’re still unable to talk about art without immediately getting shut down by accusations of snobbery. Are we still not at a level of depth as a society that we are able to talk about how some art is different from other art and they serve different functions and accomplish different goals? Hello?

Also it’s like… people who are making this case are sometimes writers or poets themselves who have genuine concerns about having to cater their work to a mass audience and simplify their art (their translation of their thoughts, beliefs, and most intimate experiences of the world) to cater to whatever consumer trends, which has always been something that artists of all kinds have hated and chafed against because it hurts and feels like the world is forcing them to conform in perhaps the one place where they have been able to express themselves freely.

And if it’s not a writer who’s making this case, it’s an enthusiast or a reader or someone who makes writing a big part of their lives and is genuinely really into it and knowledgeable about it. These people have a harder case to make because they can’t say “well I’m a writer and the skill and complexity I put into my work should be appreciated for what it is and I think it’s harmful to expect my work to entertain when it’s firstly an expression of self; I shouldn’t be forced to conform/etc.” As a reader, you’re arguing with other “readers” about why they should read differently, which is basically asking for a fight. People who identify as readers do notttt like to be told that what they read isn’t “enough” which makes sense because people generally get defensive when their identities get called into question like that. There’s also the problem of: as a reader you can’t argue on the merits of different ways of writing so much as the merits of different ways of experiencing writing, which is more obviously subjective, and a lot of the time people who don’t read “deep” stuff don’t even know what you’re talking about because they’ve never experienced it. Which is another reason to make the case… like it’s sad to see that there are people who don’t know what you’re talking about when you’re trying to relate a transcendent or revolutionary experience you had reading a novel or a poem, and not only that but scoff at the idea of reading that thing because it’s too “cerebral” or “boring” (ouch)

It’s impossible to explain to anyone really how sometimes the words are built different, and they can arrange themselves in such a way so as to tear you apart and make you whole again, or shine a light into a dark corner of your past, or touch your soul in a place your soul has never been touched, etc. I think it’s just something you have to experience, but I think once you do you can see why someone would argue that not all reading is created equal and that it’s sad that there are people who identify as readers who have never experienced the feeling that comes with certain types of reading, who might have blocked themselves out of it because they read the same way they watch netflix or play app games — for the dopamine. And it’s not even to say that reading for fun or pleasure is always bad, because it’s nice to read many different types of things, but the playing field is not even; “snobs” are reading Montaigne and the occasional ya fantasy when they get the itch, and “readers” are telling you Montaigne is a boring old windbag and you think you’re better for reading him but you’re not. And obv the hypocrisy is never addressed…

And we don’t always do this with some other types of art. We do it with music, but we don’t do it with traditional art so much. Maybe because people are less likely to identify as “art appreciators” and looking at art often requires going to a museum and standing silently in front of a painting, or reading art histories that some people consider pretty boring, which may prevent certain types of people from even caring about the argument, but you’re allowed to talk about how cartoons are different from, like, Caravaggio without immediately being hit with accusations of snobbery. Maybe this is also because the mechanisms for making art more entertaining have changed the face of it so much that it’s more evident (cartoons just look different than paintings). And because of that you can recognize that cartoon artists and animators are good at what they do in their own right but that what they embarked on is essentially a different project, an art that is expressed and experienced differently fundamentally. But I guess because all books look the same, as in are all just pages filled with words, the mechanisms are way less obvious. But they are there! Just like they are with music, even if untrained ears probably can’t tell the difference and many of us are just listening to whatever song makes us feel good in the moment, not looking to be transformed. Words are like musical notes except there’s like millions of them and they’re all a different sound and shape and color and texture, and the orchestra they create is both resonant and impossible to hear.

Anyway, what I meant to say is that we should be able to talk about books as part of a larger consumerist framework, and it shouldn’t be considered snobbery to ask for art to be above consumer trends. It also shouldn’t be too much to ask that people participate deeply in the art they claim to love, and to not claim to love it if they won’t appreciate the full range of its power. Also words can be very beautiful thanks for coming to my ted talk i have to go to work now

#meant to write like 3 sentences still can’t do that apparently #kennapost

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