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linagram · 7 months

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[ 𝚜𝚊𝚗𝚊𝚍𝚊 𝚔𝚎𝚒'𝚜 𝚝𝟸 𝚟𝚘𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚍𝚛𝚊𝚖𝚊 ] 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚘𝚗𝚎'𝚜 𝚏𝚊𝚟𝚘𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚝𝚘𝚘𝚕 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚝𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝

IT'S KEI'S VD. IT'S KEI TIME. ARE WE READY. ARE WE EXCITED. ARE WE SCARED. GOOD.

Warnings for Kei's VD: Mentions and descriptions of violence and Kei's.. interesting relationship with Ruka. Kei's scars also get mentioned.

Warnings for Kei's MV: There's.. a lot going on. You can interpret his MV as you wish until I confirm something, but just know that Kei is shown to be very uncomfortable in some scenes and there are heavy implications of him being tortured or abused in some way. Also, yeah, spiders.

(sounds of footsteps)

Miki: .. I-it's already his turn, huh..

Miki: Will you be okay, Eiji-san?

Eiji: I will. Don't worry about me.

Eiji: Also, he's too weak to do anything to me anyway.

Miki: Okay then..

(the door opens)

Kei: Ah, it's my adorable little brother and his adorable little..

Kei: .. Girlfriend? Friend? Little sister figure?

Kei: I still don't know anything about your relationship dynamic.

Eiji: .. You haven't changed at all.

Kei: Haha, well, I don't want to act all sad, you know?

Kei: I don't want to make you worry about me!

Eiji: Shut up. You know I don't care about-

Kei: Ow-

Kei: Ugh, my legs still kinda hurt..

Miki: I-is it hard for you to walk, Kei-san?

Miki: M-maybe we can get you something to make it at least a bit easier-

Kei: Thank you, dear, but I don't need anything like that.

Kei: .. I already look weak enough, I don't want to make my condition seem even worse, haha.

Eiji: .. L-let's just begin the interrogation.

Miki: W-wait!

Miki: Are you sure you're feeling okay, Kei-san?

Kei: I told you I'm fine~ Don't worry about me too much, okay?

Miki: But still.. D-do you need anything? Maybe some water? Also I'm not sure if I saw you eat anything today-

Kei: Hey, Miki.

Kei: Aren't you acting a bit too nice for someone who has also agreed to vote me guilty?

Miki: ...

Kei: Don't forget, this is kinda your fault too.

Kei: Ohhh, maybe you're just trying to make me trust you more? Maybe you want to make me beg for forgiveness? That's soooo smart!

Eiji: If you say anything like that to her again, I will make sure you get voted guilty again this time.

Eiji: And my second punishment for you will be even worse than the first one.

Kei: Haha, you are sure protective of her, Eiji~

Kei: Okay, ask me anything you want.

Eiji: .. I'm not even sure what I want to start with.

Eiji: You're one of those prisoners that we still know nothing about.

Kei: How can you say that about your own brother?? You're so cruel..

Miki: Um, may I ask a question first?

Kei: Sure, sure~

Miki: .. Eiji-san has told me that you actually have a lot of scars on your body. And you had them even before he did anything to you.

Kei: ...

Miki: S-so I wanted to ask..

Miki: .. W-why do you have them? What happened to you?

Eiji: Guard 002, things like that are not important to us-

Miki: But what if they have to do something with Kei-san's crime?

Miki: I have a feeling that these scars might be pretty recent, so..

Kei: .. Haha, Eiji, your girlfriend is smart.

Kei: But, uh..

Kei: Don't worry about me! These scars are nothing compared to what I did to my beloved~

Miki: But what about your scars-

Eiji: "Beloved"?

Eiji: Are you talking about that person from your video?

Kei: Yep! You are so smart too, Eiji!

Kei: I mean, of course you are, you're my brother after all.

Kei: Oh no, thinking about him brings me even more pain now..

Eiji: .. Him?

Miki: Ohh, so that person was a man?

Kei: Haha, did you expect them to be a poor and innocent woman who couldn't fight back?

Kei: Nope, it was a guy who I met at the club once.

Kei: I guess he really does look fragile, but trust me, he's stronger than he looks.

Kei: Still cute though!

Kei: .. Eiji, is everything okay? You look kinda confused.

Eiji: I-I'm fine. I'm just glad we got more information about that person from your video.

Miki: Wait, but Kei-san, why did you change the topic?

Miki: We were talking about your scars and then you suddenly mentioned.. uh..

Miki: I don't even know what to call him.. Like, is it okay for me to say that he was your partner?

Miki: Of course, your relationship with him might have something to do with your crime, but still..

Eiji: Seriously, why are you still refusing to talk to us about your murder?

Eiji: I doubt that it's worse than your job or whatever you did to that guy.

Eiji: Is he your victim or something-

Kei: N-NO!

Kei: Ouch-

Miki: Kei-san! Please be more careful!

Kei: Sorry, sorry..

Kei: A-anyway, I did kidnap him and I also did a lot of things to make him, uh..

Kei: You know, more "obedient".

Kei: But it was consensual! He was into that kind of thing.

Eiji: You're just lying again.

Kei: I remember him saying something like "If you ever decide to kill me, I would prefer you poisoning me, but I want that poison to be as painful as possible, so that I can feel something for the first time before I die".

Kei: I can't make this stuff up.

Eiji and Miki: ...

Eiji: .. Congratulations on finding your perfect match.

Miki: Wait, you're changing the topic again!

Miki: Uh.. right, about that hint you gave us last time!

Kei: .. Oh, you remember that?

Miki: You said "five".

Miki: I don't really have any other guesses, but..

Miki: Maybe that means you had five victims?

Kei: ...

Kei: You got it right, yay~

Kei: *starts coughing* H-hey, can we finish this interrogation already-

Eiji: Are you pretending to be in pain or something?

Miki: Five victims.. five victims..

Miki: Wait! Weren't there five women in the beginning of your video? Do you remember that, Eiji-san?

Eiji: Ah, right. We couldn't see their faces though.

Kei: .. Y-you saw them?

Eiji: I've literally just told you we couldn't see their faces.

Eiji: Does that mean that those women were your victims?

Eiji: God, you never change. You're still just as horrible.

Miki: But why, Kei-san? Why did you kill them?

Eiji: Do you even have to ask? It's obvious it was just him being his usual self-

Kei: .. *starts sobbing*

Kei: I just.. I wanna go home..

Eiji: .. Hey.

Kei: I want to see Mom again..

Miki: Eiji-san, what is going on-

Kei: Nii-chan, can we go home already?

Eiji: ...

Miki: .. "Nii-chan"?

Miki: Wait, so which one of you is actually the older one??

Eiji: Don't listen to him, it's obviously him.

Eiji: He just.. has this stupid habit of calling me the older brother when he's stressed. He always had it, even when I was twelve and he was eighteen.

Kei: Nii-chan, are you listening to me?

Kei: I said I wanna go home.

Eiji: You're not going home anytime soon!

Eiji: I doubt that you will be able to leave this place anyway.

Kei: B-but-

Kei: W-what about Mom? What about Dad?

Kei: A-and what about Ruka?

Kei: I want to see all of them!

Eiji: Ugh, why can't you just shut up already-

Kei: WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LOOK AT ME ALREADY?!

Kei: ...

Eiji: ...

Kei: .. Nii-chan, why didn't you tell me that I was allowed to touch you?

Miki: .. O-oh no.

Eiji: .. Kei, let me go. Right now.

Kei: ... *starts laughing*

Miki: Kei-san, please, let him go!

Kei: Looks like it's time for your punishment, Eiji~

Eiji: Kei, I'm serious, you have to stop this right now.

Eiji: You don't even have enough energy for this-

Eiji: !

(sounds of Eiji being in pain)

Miki: Kei-san, if you continue, both of you will get hurt!

Kei: It's okay~ Come on, what am I gonna do, break his arm?

Kei: Like, look at me! Do I look like I'm strong enough for that?

Eiji: Please.. P-please, just stop this already!..

Kei: What's this? Are you crying?

Kei: Haha, fine, maybe you really are the younger brother here.

(the bell rings, machinery sounds)

Kei: But I just started having fun! Can't we have one more minute, please? Or maybe two..

Miki: .. You're lucky you already have too many injuries.

Miki: Otherwise I wouldn't go easy on you.

Miki: Eiji-san, can you still do this whole.. thing?

Eiji: Y-yeah, I think I can.

Eiji: M-my arm..

Miki: We'll take care of it later, okay? At least it's not broken..

Kei: What, is it time for my second video to be extracted? Hehe, I hope my second song is just as good as the first one.

Kei: Can we do this quick though? I'm kinda tired..

Eiji: Yeah, still acting like this must be tiring.

Kei: .. What do you mean?

Eiji: You're obviously in pain, but you're still acting like everything is fine.

Eiji: No matter what I do to you, you will still act like your annoying self.

Kei: Hehe, well, isn't this something that we both do?

Kei: Both of us would rather die than admit that we're weaker than we seem to be.

Eiji: .. Please, just stop talking.

Eiji: Prisoner 005, Kei, sing your sins!

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[ MV Description ]

His video would have three main colors: hot pink and bright shades of purple and blue.

The video starts with Kei doing something in the room that was shown in his first video. The whole room has mostly pink colors and when we look closer, we can see Kei hanging more photographs on the wall. We can still see all the photos from the first MV: photos of flowers, animals, his friends, etc, but those are not important right now. Kei seems to be holding photographs of some women for some reason and he looks very focused.

"I think everything is going according to plan

I can't let you worry about anything

So just trust me, I'm gonna keep you safe, okay?"

We can also see his "muse" and the person he kidnapped, Ruka, lying on the bed, reading a book and having the same emotionless expression as always. There are some photographs lying on the bed next to Ruka too and he suddenly takes one of them and gives it to Kei, who looks surprised, but he appreciates Ruka's help and hangs it up as well.

"I think what I feel for you must be love,

What am I supposed to do now?

Am I supposed to just hurt you even more, just like I was taught?"

When Kei is finally done, he takes a step back and we can see all the photos together. The women look very.. familiar for some reason. Kei sees Ruka yawning and smiles. We can see him covering Ruka with a blanket and patting his head and Kei's face expression actually looks much softer than usual.

"Or should I be more kind, should I be more warm

Should I be the sun to your moon

I'm sorry, but I'm sure you will call me a disappointment sooner or later"

But then, Kei walks to the door and takes a deep breath and opens it.

The colors of the video change to bright purple and Kei's outfit changes as well. His outfit has noticeable spider motifs and everything around him has them as well. It should be mentioned that before this scene, Kei's outfit looked much softer and comfortable, even though it also looked more "plain". Kei smiles widely and greets the women that came to visit him. There's five of them.

The women that also were in those photographs.

And the women that were shown in the beginning of Kei's T1 MV.

And those women are his friends' girlfriends, who were shown in the T1 MV as well.

All of them look happy and excited and they run up to hug Kei.

"Congrats, you've fallen right into my trap

Make yourself comfortable, you're in for a long ride

Tying you up, choking and biting

Keep your eyes on me, take those rose-colored glasses off"

They go to a different room and it looks like they're all having fun even though everything around them slowly starts looking more surreal and distorted and more and more spider webs begin to appear. Kei looks happy too, but his face expression changes for a second to a scared one as he looks directly at us and goes back to a happy one.

"I won't let you see any of my weaknesses

Focus only on the good parts

I'll do anything to keep you entertained"

Some time passes and Kei can be seen sitting with some of the women on the couch, one of them is nowhere to be seen. One of the women leans closer to him and whispers something into his ear which makes the colors of the video change to bright shades of blue for a second before it goes back to purple.

Kei simply laughs it off and tries to ignore that woman, but she keeps looking at him and he starts getting more and more nervous. Kei tries to stand up, but as he does that, it turns out that one of the women has went to the other room, the one where Ruka was in, and she returns with some of the photographs she found and drops them on the floor.

"Okay, I should've known that I can't lie about this forever

But hey, you like bad guys, right?

I'm still "Innocent" in your eyes, right?

Why won't you answer me?"

Everything around Kei starts becoming more and more blue and as he finally stands up, he just falls on the floor. He looks down and sees that the floor now has a huge spider web drawn on it and it's the same color as Kei's image color. It lights up and Kei's outfit changes again. This time, if you look closer, you can see that it has butterfly motifs, but it looks more torn and messy than his other outfits. As the women start to get closer to him, they start looking more and more like real spiders. They're not like Kei, who just had an outfit with a theme like that, their bodies actually start to get more and more spider-like. The chorus plays again as all of this is happening.

Kei closes his eyes for a second and when he opens them, he sees that he's inside of a huge glass jar. He tries to get out, he punches the glass, he calls for help, but all of that is useless. He sees all those women walking up closer to him and one of them takes the jar and looks at Kei with interest in her eyes. Kei gets scared and starts begging her to let him go. But then, suddenly, the other woman, the one who went to that room, tells them something and all women lose their interest in Kei and carelessly throw the jar on the floor.

"Fine, just do it, say that I'm "Guilty"

But look at me, don't I look so pitiable?

Do I wanna be seen as strong? Do I wanna be seen as weak?

I don't know, but just hug me already!"

Kei lies on the floor, covered in bright blue liquid that is most likely supposed to be blood and we can see all the glass in his wounds, especially the ones on his back, where his "wings" are supposed to be. Kei looks shocked as he realizes something and he tries to leave the room.. but he can't. His injuries are too serious, he can't walk anymore. He has no choice but to crawl as he keeps leaving more of that blue liquid behind.

"I still want to protect you, I swear I will protect you

Maybe I really should take my jade-colored glasses on this time

Maybe I should accept that this world won't accept me"

When he finally reaches the door, everything becomes both pink and purple for a second until it goes back to blue and we can see Ruka opening the door. Ruka looks a bit confused and it looks like he's asking Kei what happened, but all Kei can do right now is cry. Ruka walks into the room and we can see many different things lying on the floor: a pillow, a rope, a knife, more glass and even some.. water spilled?

"I'm hopeless, I'm hopeless, I'm so totally hopeless

Even this time you're the one protecting me

I know I'm a failure, please don't be mad at me

I thought I was in control, but now look at my crying face"

Ruka just ignores all those things and even steps on them as he walks closer to Kei and pulls him in a hug. The older guy just keeps sobbing and Ruka keeps holding him until he notices something.

"Congrats, I've fallen right into your trap

I made myself comfortable, I know I'm in for a long ride

I'm drowning in this deep blue love

Keep your eyes on me until I gouge them out"

He looks directly at us and lets Kei go for a moment. He walks closer to us while looking at us with anger in his eyes and then kicks the camera with his foot, breaking it and making it fall on the floor. The video ends.

#WOW. WOW WHAT A VD! WHAT A MV!#*falls on the floor and starts crying loudly*#it's like. yeah we got more information about his crime/backstory. but at what cost #writing his song lyrics was very fun especially the last part!#i won't say much for now bc i want y'all to think about his mv and vd first before i confirm anything #🎤 voice dramas! 🎤#🍓prisoner 005: sanada kei 🍓#milgram #milgram oc #milgram project #ocgram

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toskarin · 1 year

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what do you think of the armored core vi gameplay trailer?

armored coooooooore

it looks extremely fucking cool! the actual gameplay looks like it might be a little weightier than my ideal (4A my beloved) but it also looks like it's gonna carry that weight a lot better than V/VD did (which was my main concern if they decided to go back to the more traditional movement style, so that's seemingly alleviated)

to be clear, that's also not necessarily a bad thing. 4/4A are outliers in the franchise with the speed they ask of you anyway

I'm also making a lot of assumptions based on a very small trailer, so there's no telling what I'm blindspotting. I do hope we get some missions with overblown palettes, and maybe something on a giant train (I really like fights on giant trains)

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vicctorree · 1 year

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An art trade I did with @kiedoqi

VDS my beloved!!!

#dualie squelchers #splatoon #inkling #art

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jocotheoddity · 1 year

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My favorite thing about [Untitled] SMP is the fact that Verde Drug legally has a map. There is a map of the place. I'm potentially going to update it once VD is done. But as of now, only Corroded Faction members have access to it, and it's kinda useless cause the place is a maze in every possible way.

Verde Drug my beloved <3

#untitled smp

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alice-angel12x · 2 years

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Twisted wonderland (Food fantasy Au) Headcannon

Jamil x Reader x Five Snake Soup

@hazy-exe: I think Jamil and Five snake soup would not get along well since there are two different faces of the same coin according to Five snake soup’s introduction he naturally Loves his master attendant and is protective/possessive over them while Jamil is the complete opposite.

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Hazy-exe, this is an interesting Idea. After doing some research on Five snake Soup. I can totally see the protective/possessive over master Attendant.

I’d imagine that Jamil is a bit of a tsundere when it comes to a person of interest in a romantic sense. He won’t be the extremely rude type, but he is a bit distant and reserved. So normal Jamil, but slightly softer.

Whenever he had the chance to make a move on Y/n, it would be settled when the two are alone. His advances would have been most successful if it weren’t for his worst nemesis, Five Snake Soup.

This boy would always mess up Jamil’s meticulous planning to court Y/n. Whenever Jamil thinks he finally has Y/n alone, without fail Snake Soup appears and latches onto Y/n demanding attention.

Every time without fail Snake soup would always come. When Jamil was wanted some alone time in the Kitchen with Y/n. Bam! Snake soup would barge in asking to eat something.

Jamil wants to have a one on one study session with Y/n. Suddenly Snake Soups wants to join in and wedges himself between Jamil and Y/n with a proud smile on his face.

One day, during the training months of VDS, within the ramshackle dorm, Jamil noticed Five Snake Soup heading upstairs to Y/n’s room. He was delivering snacks of sorts to their master’s room.

“Excuse me, Snake Soup correct?” Jamil asked.

“Yes, why do you ask?” Snake soup asked, not even bothering to turn to look at Jamil.

“Out of all Y/n’s Servents, you are the most… Attached. Why is that?” Jamil asked.

“Because they are my master attendant. All they need is me,” Snake smiled eerily as he turned to look down at Jamil from the stairs.

“Despite that Y/n has many servants like you,” Jamil smirked.

“And?” Snake soup asked. “ I will make this clear Jamil. I will not surrender my master’s heart to the likes of you.”

“You made that very clear every time you were third wheeling Y/n and I. Are all you food souls still hung up on what happened during winter break?” Jamil asked with his own glare.

“You purposefully put my beloved attendant in danger with your schemes, and tempted to steal them from me when you went crazy,” Snake Soup said as he slowly took a step on the stairs.

“I am aware, but I am doing my best to redeem myself. I am no longer held back by Kalim,” Jamil said as he took a step up.

“Well, that just means I have to keep a closer eye on you,” Snake Soup hissed as he quickly turned to go see His Master Attendant.

“Let this game of 3D chess begin,” Jamil smirked to himself.

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Feel free to leave some ideas for Food fantasy au in the comments. But please be clear on your ideas if you have specific things in mind.

Masterlist

#food fantasy x reader #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #Twisted wonderland x Food fantasy #twst yuu #Food Fantasy Yuu #jamil viper #jamil x reader

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shiro-hatzuki · 2 years

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hi i've looked at es's commemorative art like 2000 times by now i want to rant about my beloved prison guard. es discussion below the cut (will probably include minor spoilers)

i find the gloves interesting in this piece. one hand is gloved and is holding a book; from various vds such as muu's vd, we know that es is into reading books about japanese law, so we can probably safely guess that the book might be related to law.

to me, this hand is like a representation of es's "prison guard" side. the glove appears to be a part of the prison guard uniform (assuming the girl on the cover of the upcoming light novel is different than es, we can see that many aspects of the uniform, including the gloves, are shared between them, confirming that this is a constant in milgram's warden uniform.)

this hand - this side of es - treats their role as both the warden and the judge of the prisoners very seriously, studying law as well as the prisoners.

but their other hand is ungloved (actually, the glove sits off to the side on the armrest of the chair), and is petting a relaxed jackalope.

for one, I FUCKING LOVE THIS IT'S SO SOFT AND CUTE AND JACKALOPE IS SUCH A CUTE BUN LOOK AT HIS LIL RESTING FACE- ahem.

anyhow, i found it incredibly endearing that es would take off their glove just to pet jackalope. like they're petting jackalope's clothes instead of his soft fur or playing with his floppy ears or anything, and while the fabric may be soft, it doesn't compare to fur, which is literally right there, available to be pet. there is no reason for es not be wearing gloves if they're just petting jackalope's clothes, yet they bothered to take off their gloves anyway just to pet jackalope's clothed back. to me, this represents a different side of es. a softer side of them in which they are not the warden, but just es.

actually, this whole piece encapsulates that latter vibe for me. this is es off from work, an es that might have been had they not been milgram's warden.

their signature cape, hat and even one of their gloves hang of the side of the chair. and that chair looks so much more comfortable than any of the strange seats they have taken, such as this one from undercover

or this seat that's been featured all over the place and they are sat in for pieces like this (from milgram's official fanart project)

or this scale from the milgram website's homepage, which must feel precarious to sit on.

(okay i did add that last one in partly as a joke but partly fr)

in fact, the only other time we've seen them sat in a comfortable-looking seat was in the beginning of "this is the milgram," when they first wake up and don't even remember who they are and don't really know that they are the warden until jackalope tells them they are.

i think how comfortable the seat is could represent just how deep into their role they are. they sit in uncomfy seats when they are working and comfy seats when they are just being 'es.'

so many other details show just how "off work" es is in the commemorative art. their soft expression instead of a hard or serious one you'll see in many other arts of them. the book being held beside their face in such a way that they can't read it. PETTING JACKALOPE I CANNOT GET OVER HOW CUTE IT IS!!!

of course, es is not completely off work here. they still are wearing some of the clothes of the warden uniform, and they are still holding the book, ready to lower it back to a good reading level and continue from where they left off. we are merely seeing a break, not them after they finished their job.

however, even with this break, i think this might provide some insight into what es might have been like if we didn't meet them as a warden. they might have been softer (and not compelled to beat up people, tho that's not guaranteed lol), and they might pet animals with caring hands, and they might like reclining in comfortable chairs while reading a book that interests them. i really like to think about what they could be if allowed to be a normal 15 yr old, and this very well could be a glimpse into that alternative es.

#this rants is also to hold me over until we hear more about the ln and/or its contents #i just really like the wardens what can i say #as much as i threaten to cook jackalope i love him too #milgram #ミルグラム #es #milgram es #jackalope #my stuff

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infiniteiram · 2 years

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Little Taps.

a vds one shot. you can find more on my ao3.

( @ apolloswords )

feel free to comment/message me any suggestions for one shot ideas!

Actors Jens Stoffels and Lucas van der Heijden get interviewed for their upcoming movie. The most pressing question? Their relationship.

The bright studio lights blinded Lucas’ eyes, but since this was the fourth or fifth time around, he was able to tolerate them a little more. He hoped he didn’t look so nervous. While he had done a fair share of acting and such, interviews didn’t always come along with the job. But since he was starring in an upcoming film adaption on a popular queer romance story, fans all over the world were dying just to meet the two actors who were about to bring their beloved characters to life.

“Welcome to the show our guest stars, Lucas can see Heijden and Jens Stoffels. These two young men are portraying the leads in the upcoming move, Solar Eclipse of the Heart.” Their interviewer, Ariel announced to the audience. She turned her body towards the two boys. “Would you like the introduce yourselves and your roles?”

Out of habit, Lucas looked at Jens, who already knew what was coming. Smiling at him, he gave Lucas a small smirk, knowing what to do next. Out of the two of them, Jens was more of the outgoing one, often taking the lead and reassuring Lucas. Lucas couldn’t help but think someone like him was just made to be a star, and he had just gotten lucky.

“Well, the story revolves around a coming of age experience between two boys. The movie is set up in three acts, the first one being in my character’s perspective, the next one being in Lucas’ characters perspective and eventually, how the outside audience or ‘world’ supposedly views them.” Jens began to explain confidently. “The whole premise is to feel like you are going on this journey along with them and experiencing what they feel, only to get the external viewpoint at the end as though you are only a passerby.”

“I see,” Ariel nodded off to Lucas. “And how would you describe this sort of story telling?”

“Uhm,” Lucas thought about the question for a second before responding. “I think it dives a bit deeper on how queer people having this whole realization about who they are and who they are to the world. I think it’s able to show all the insights of how one may struggle with finding love and themselves, from internal and external factors.”

“That was what critics highly raved about when the book was first released.” She smiled at them, before prompting another question. “Now, when ur comes to the characters, how do you feel connected to them? Are there any similarities or did you feel like you had to be an entirely different person?”

“Well the beautiful thing with acting, is that you can be an entirely different person.” Jens joked, as Lucas tried to hide the smile on his face by slightly covering it with the microphone in his hand. He knew how the eventual recording of this interview would surface the internet, and even the slightest of reactions coming from either of them would send the fans into a frenzy.

“While I do think there are differences between me and my character, it’s all mostly due to the background. We see my character have more of a struggle with bisexuality because his parents don’t fully understand the other terms under the queer umbrella.” Jens continued to explain. “Eitan, my character, feels like a fraud because he doesn’t know if his sexuality is true or not. But many of his interests, like music and skateboarding are things I still do so it sort of feels like an extension of myself.”

“I think Theo, my character, is probably the most similar character that I’ve played.” Lucas responded honestly. “I looked at the script and pretty much went ‘Hey, isn’t this just my life?”

The audience laughed in response, which made his nerves calm down a bit. He felt Jens’ foot slightly tap on his, reaching over his chair as a little touch of affection. He hoped the camera angle wasn’t that low, or else the action might be read as more than he had intended.

“So was playing the role of Theo hard for you? I mean, Theo wasn’t easily accepted by his family and I understand that can hit close to home. Did it ever make you question why you considered this role?”

“Uhm.” He could feel his chest tighten a bit. It wasn’t that the question was hard to answer, but Lucas just never felt like he ever had the right words to say. Another tap on his foot seemed to send a sense of security over him, and he sat up straighter while clearing his throat.

“It was hard, to be honest. There were some scenes where I felt like I wasn’t even acting anymore because I knew everything Theo felt in that moment.” He tried to avoid the shaking his voice. “But at the same time, it’s unfortunately a story that happens way too often. I’m lucky that myself and Theo have a great support system in the end, which kind of shows hope for those in the same situation.”

Another tap on his foot. He pressed his lips into a thin smile, hoping his cheeks weren’t blushing outrageously. Maybe he could blame it on the lighting.

“Well I think that’s also what makes this film so special.” Ariel said. “Over the years there have been many criticisms over non-queer people taking the lead roles as queer characters and people feel that gives a sense of false representation. But here, we have both of you who identify within the LGBTQ+ community who are also playing the roles of like characters.”

“Same sexualities too.” Jens laughed, and Lucas let that specific noise wash over him, calming himself down a bit.

“Same sexualities too.” Ariel repeated, laughing alongside with him.

“So the both of you clearly have the fans’ stamp of approval after just seeing the teasers and trailers for the film. People truly think you embody these characters to their fullest and think your chemistry is off the charts. How did you hit it off the first time after you had both been casted?” She asked.

They both looked at each other quickly, trying to stifle a smile. But Lucas knew the look on Jens’ face. With the way his tongue was pressing against his cheek as he widened his eyes a bit, this was definitely a dead giveaway that their publicist would probably lecture them later for. But neither of them couldn’t help it. After spending so much time together, filming and on the road doing interviews, there were just some reactions that were pure instincts.

“Well, Luc is an amazing actor.” Jens began to say, looking back at Ariel and repositioning himself in the chair. “And on top of that, he’s a great guy so it wasn’t at hard at all to get that chemistry going.”

“I think we did like three screen tests or something and that was it.” Lucas added shyly.

Jens gave him a small smile, obviously proud that he was adding more to the conversation without being directly coaxed.

“Yeah, it was a very small amount of screen tests between us.” He agreed. “To be honest, it’s kind of weird how our paths didn’t cross sooner. I did start out more in the music industry before playing the acting field and Luc was always casted for music videos around that time.”

“Maybe because I was in the Netherlands and you were in Belgium.” Lucas teased.

Jens let out an airy laugh, tilting his head back a bit. “Oh right, that would be why, wouldn’t it?”

They gave each other a small smile, hoping their microphones covered their mouths at just the right angle. Lucas ducked his head a bit, trying to avoid Jens’ gaze.

“But you guys filmed the move in Amsterdam, which I heard is close to where you grew up Lucas. But Jens, Antwerp isn’t that far away from the Netherlands either, did you have a hard time adjusting?”

“There is a little bit of a culture shock because while it is very close, it’s still a different environment.” Jens explained. “But one day, when we had a day off from shooting, Lucas took me to Baarle-Nassau. It’s like this really small town that has the Belgium and Netherlands border running through it. I think we spent an hour just jumping over the little marks.”

Lucas felt his face grow warm as he recalled the memory. It was a few weeks into shooting and while he and Jens had gotten along fairly well, they hadn’t spent time off set together really building their relationship. But after he decided to invite Jens on a day out, things had changed. Lucas first noticed it in the train ride, where he and Jens talked the entire two and a half hours there. Usually Lucas wasn’t a very social person, which was a bit ironic as an actor. Whenever he could, he liked to keep to himself, listening to his music or doodling, or even just looking out the window and imagining stories in his head. Train rides were good for that. But when he realized how long he was able to talk to Jens for, to feel so in tune and invested in the conversation that he didn’t even realize time go by.

“Yeah, that was a fun time.” He added, though it sounded more like he was saying it to himself rather than the whole audience. “We kept jumping over the marks saying that we were in each other’s country and how we were closer than we thought.”

“Well you guys are obviously very close now.” Ariel said and Lucas swore she saw a glint or even a wink in her left eye. “I do have a pressing question from the fans however, and I think we’re just all dying to know the answer.”

He let out a nervous laugh as Jens raised a brow. There were a lot of pressing questions from fans recently, flooding the comment section on social media posts or direct messages. But there was a singular question that seemed to take the spotlight.

“How do you both feel about everyone conspiring that you’re both in a relationship together? Has it effected your friendship in any way?”

“Uhm.” They both said in unison, trying to stifle the pressing giggles.

He felt Jens’ foot tap against his again, this time in a continuous pattern, like he was finding amusement in the question. Ariel looked at them weirdly, wondering why their reactions were so bashful.

“Well,” Jens began to say, clearing his throat, while still eyeing Lucas. “It’s not something really bothers us. I get why some people might think it’s a little invasive but I’m comfortable with our relationship and showing what they say are affectionate gestures is just something I seem to do without thinking when it comes to Luc.”

“It’s cool with me too.” He replied, sitting up straight and giving a small smile. “I’m not overly bothered by it. I think it’s nice that Jens and I can have a rather affectionate friendship.”

“So none of you are bothered at all about the speculations?” She asked, rather surprised. “It doesn’t affect actual private relationships you may have?”

“Nope.” They said at the same time, and Lucas covered his laugh with his hand.

“And to put on record, it doesn’t affect actual private relationships because we don’t have any.” Jens winked.

Still trying to stifle his giggle, Lucas squirmed a bit and gently kicked the bottom of Jens’ foot. Jens’ shoulders reacted to the action, but he still had that look on his face. The smirk, halfway lifting the right side of his mouth while his eyes looked at Ariel, and the audience, with a sort of charm. Jens had charisma when it came to hiding his reactions while Lucas always felt like he was so awkward.

The interview seemed to go by smoothly, answering more general questions without completely tripping over his words. When Lucas wasn’t fully paying attention to the conversation, he found his focus being on Jens again. Either slightly angling his body to get more of his angle in his peripheral vision or feeling the way Jens’ foot tapped against his. He watched the way Jens’ tongue rolled around the inside of his cheek when he was amused at something or the way his shoulders flinched slightly when another question about their relationship was asked. Lucas wasn’t sure if anyone was paying attention to his actions as closely. If they were, they were probably a dead giveaway to the feelings he had to hide away from outside eyes.

Eventually the interview came to a close and Lucas breathed out a sigh of relief when he heard the camera stop rolling and the studio lights dim down a bit. He let out a few deep breaths, shutting his eyes tight before he felt calm enough to stand up. Before he did, he saw Jens already getting up as he tapped on his leg three times. Lucas gave him a shy smile and slightly nodded, while Ariel and the rest of the crew were finishing up.

This time, nobody’s eyes were on them.

Lucas headed backstage, to the small dressing room he was assigned to. Closing the door gently behind him, he sat on the small couch and continued to take a few deeps breaths. He always found it kind of funny that as an actor, he often felt most nervous when he had to play himself. It wasn’t like he had to do anything for the “role”, but it was harder to showcase who he was to an audience than showcase a character he was playing.

After a few minutes, he heard a knock on his door. Three gentle knocks. Little taps. Bouncing up on his feet, he practically skipped across the room to open it.

“Hey.” Jens said softly, after Lucas opened it.

“Hey.” He replied back, feeling his heart get caught up in his chest.

He opened the door wider, so Jens could come in. As he closed the door behind him, Jens made his way towards the couch, flopping down on it with his arms stretch out. He tilted his head back and closed his eyes, while Lucas made his way over.

“Tired?” He asked gently, as he sat down facing him. He felt Jens’ arm and hand against his body, the slight touch sending flutters through it.

“Mm hmm.” Jens hummed, still keeping his eyes closed.

Reaching out, Lucas gently brushed back a few strands that had fallen down his face. He saw Jens’ lips curl up into a smile as he hummed with relief, like it was only now he was able to relax.

“You’re really good at all of this.” Lucas said softly, still gently brushing the hair back. “It’s like you were made to be a star.”

Opening his eyes, Jens’ brows furrowed as he stood up a bit straighter. He let his fingers still brush around his dark hair, feeling how soft and plush they were against his fingertips.

“You’re just as good.” Jens said with a slight frown. Lucas knew he hated when he felt condescending about himself. “Just because you’re a bit shyer doesn’t mean you don’t have just as important things to say.”

“Yeah, but you’re so natural about it all. I feel like I’m acting when I do these interviews and I’m not. I don’t know, it just takes a bit getting used to.”

“Well, I’m with you through it all right? All our interviews so far have been together and even if they’re not, I’m not that far away.”

Jens snaked his arm around Lucas’ body, slightly pulling it closed. Lucas sighed and let himself fall into it, feeling his hand trail up and down his back in soft caressing strokes. He let his head rest on Jens’ shoulder, allowing himself to calm down after all the energy he had to give out today. He loved his job, acting was his dream. But some days, it was harder to keep up with all its expectations than others.

“I like when they ask us about our relationship.” Jens lightly chuckled, letting the vibrations pass through both of their bodies.

Lucas snorted, burying his face into his shoulder. “I don’t know why they keep asking.”

“It’s because you seriously have the hots for me.” Jens winked.

He shook his head, which only made Jens laugh again and their bodies vibrated even more.

“I don’t have the hots for you.” Lucas groaned, using his shoulder to bury his face even more to try and hide his smile.

“Yes you do.” He teased, pinching his cheek. “You don’t see all those videos or pictures that get tagged and titled on the way you look at me? You’re so obvious Luc.”

“Listen, you have just as much posts about the way you’re smirking at me and shit.” He lifted his head up and raised his brows. “People think you’re just as obvious as I am.”

“Guess we’re both pretty bad at hiding it, huh?”

They laughed, finally letting out the reactions and expressions they had been holding in all day. Lucas felt Jens pull him into his chest, positioning them so he was laying on top of him. Jens reached up to gently stroke Lucas’ cheek while gazing into his eyes.

“You know, you always have this sort of blush in your face.” He whispered quietly, continuing to stroke his cheek. “Even in the brightest of lights, there’s this beautiful pink glow. It’s like a part of you.”

“You just want me to admit your flirting works, don’t you?” Lucas teasingly rolled his eyes.

He pulled him in closer, and tighter, which made Lucas erupt in a giggle.

“Stop being so smart with me. I know those lips are good for something else.”

“Ew.” Lucas wrinkled his nose in disgust.

Jens pouted. “Not like that. Not that I don’t want that but also, not that.”

“I’m just teasing.” He brought his face down a bit, lowering it so his forehead was pressed against his and their noses were brushing against each other.

“Do you think they’ll ever find out?” He whispered. Lucas could feel his lips moving so slightly against his.

“God, I hope.” He snorted again. “It’s so hard having to control myself during interviews.”

“The fans are going to lose it when they find out. They’re going to have to cast us for another movie.”

“Hey.” Now it was Lucas’ turn to pout. “I don’t want to have to act just to kiss you.”

“Me neither.”

He pressed his lips against his, feeling his smile against his own. Jens’ hand snakes up Lucas’ back, playing with the back of his head and letting his fingers mess around with his curls. Lucas used his hand to tilt Jens’ chin up, to deepen the kiss just slightly.

When they pulled apart, the grins on their faces would be impossible to wipe off. Lucas already knew the blush was on his face but this time, there was no need to hide it.

“You know, I think the fans are definitely going to know sooner or later.” He whispered and Jens gave him a confused look.

“What makes you say that?”

“You called me Luc the entire interview.” He gave Jens a smirk, while he covered his eyes and groaned.

“Fuck.”

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