#WHY IS THIS SO MESSY HELP | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

strawberrykake · 2 years

Text

˚ ◌༘ ⋆｡˚ ⋆ -ˏˋ 𝐩𝐢𝐜𝐧𝐢𝐜 𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐤𝐞𝐭 ˊˎ˚ ◌༘ ⋆｡˚ ⋆

Refresh yourself ! small drabbles

🍓 you bump into them on the street - Hinata, Kageyama, Bokuto, Kenma, Sakusa

🍓 you bump into them on the street pt2 - Ushijima, Nishinoya, Oikawa, Aone

🍓 walk in the park - Middle blockers: Tsukishima, Suna, Tendou, Lev, Hirugami

🍓 mistletoe (Holiday post) - the captains: Daichi, Oikawa, Kuroo, Terushima, Bokuto, Ushijima, Kita

🍓 untied shoelaces - the setters: Shirabu, Kenma, Semi, Sugawara, Oikawa, Koganegawa, Atsumu, Kageyama, Akaashi

🍓 captains’ nicknames for their s/o - Daichi, Kuroo, Oikawa, Bokuto, Ushijima

🍓 gimme kith - Hoshiumi, Sugawara, Matsukawa, Yahaba, Kuroo

🍓 don’t be suspicious, don’t be suspicious - aone, iwaizumi+oikawa

🍓 shiratorizawa w/ an energetic s/o - Ushijima, Shirabu, Goshiki, Tendou

🍓 sleeping with your mouth open - tsukishima, akaashi, tanaka, sugawara

🍬 “wear anything you want, I can fight” - bf scenario

🍬 bf w/ brooding gaze - bf scenario

🍬 when u r struggling to grab something from the top shelf - bf scenarios

🍬 “your eyes are so pretty,, can I have them?” - bf scenario

🍬 playing with your hair mid-conversation - bf scenario

🍬 proposal prompts - scenarios

🍬 how he would respond to a simple request - bf scenario

🍬 “if my girl was cold…” - bf scenario

🍬 wins you a giant stuffed animal - bf scenario

🍬 wears your purse in public - bf scenario

🍒 ushijima “not a romantic guy” wakatoshi - drabble

🍒 your love makes me forget bad things exist - Hinata drabble

🥨 ariana grande lyrics as haikyuu prompts

🥨 taylor swift lyrics as haikyuu prompts

Some yummy foods (reader-inserts (longer readings)

🍙 captains taking you on the first date - Daichi, Kuroo, Oikawa, Bokuto, Ushijima

🍙 the ace’s misunderstanding - Iwaizumi, Asahi, Aran, Ushijima, Yamamoto, Futakuchi

🍙 bf opening glued jar prank - Bokuto, Kenma, Ushijima, Kyoutani, Kita

🍙 surprise kisses -Hinata, Tsukishima, Kenma, Osamu

🥪 glad we met - Sugawara, Hinata, Osamu, Oikawa (Latina!reader)

🥪 his s/o who’s always listening to music - Iwaizumi, Bokuto

🍙 not saying ‘ily’ back prank - Kageyama, Atsumu, Sakusa, Tendou

🍙 unexptected flirting - Tsukishima, Iwaizumi, Hyakuzawa, Nishinoya

🍙 teammates reacting to you dating - Kageyama, Kenma, Aone

🍙 gifting him flowers - vice captains: Kai, Sugawara, Akaashi (pt1) Iwaizumi, Reon, Kamasaki (pt2)

🍙 nasa (“when i miss you, it’ll change the way i kiss you”) - Ushijima, Osamu, Keishin, Oikawa

🍙 calling you ma'am - Yamaguchi, Ennoshita, Goshiki, Akaashi (fem!reader)

🍙 thigh flirting w/ ur crush - Iwaizumi, Kenma, Suna

🍙 awkward hq boys’ first time trying to cheer up their manager - Ushijima, Kageyama, Sakusa (manager!reader)

🥪 your other half - Kenma (male!reader)

🥪 his super reliable manager - Kuroo, Osamu, Oikawa, Bokuto (manager!reader)

🥪 being their best friend pt - iwaizumi-oikawa; matsukawa-hanamaki; sakusa-komori; ushijima-tendou; miya twins-suna

🍙 when he pulls the ‘not saying ily back’ prank (series) - (1) kageyama, Atsumu, (2) Nishinoya, Bokuto, Oikawa, (3) Iwaizumi, Kuroo

🥪 compassion never fails - Oikawa, Iwaizumi, Bokuto, Hinata

🍙 ‘ignoring your bf’ prank - Suna, Tsukishima, Semi

🥪 ladies and gentlemen…them✨ - Oikawa, Ushijima

🍙 father and son matching clothes - Ushijima, Bokuto, Iwaizumi, Kuroo, Daichi, Kita

🥪 You’re So Lovely - Semi

🍙 “if you could have dinner with anyone dead or alive…” - Akaashi, Sugawara, Atsumu

🥪 when you’re crying at your graduation - Tsukishima, Semi, Bokuto

🥪 haikyuu x extroverted!reader - Tsukishima, Bokuto, Kita

🥪 overworking yourself - Oikawa, Akaashi

🍕 deja vu - Ukai Keishin (COLLAB)

🥪 sunkissed - Oikawa, Kuroo, Akaashi, Daichi

🥪 take your time - atsumu, oikawa, akaashi

🥪 when you're crying at his graduation - tsukishima, semi, bokuto

A drink! smaus

🥤 Lev using Hinata as Kenma bait - smau headcanon

🥤 haikyuu boys reacting to your first good morning text - Ushijima, Tsukishima, Oikawa, Hinata || reader insert

🥤 haikyuu boys reacting to your first good morning text pt 2a - Kageyama, Kenma (2a), Sugawara, Nishinoya (pt2b)

🥤 when they want to see you — hcs

Want juice instead? headcanons(hcs), fake quotes(fq), haikyuu ships, etc. (non-reader inserts)

🧃 captains jamming to music in the car - fq

🧃 what is Tsukki listening to? - fq

🧃 haikyuu ships’ daughters - hq ships

🧃 haikyuu ships’ daughters pt2 - hq ships

🧃 my Kagehina headcanons- hq ships

🧃 types of “present unwrappers” - hcs

#🍽—masterlist #WHY IS THIS SO MESSY HELP

423 notes · View notes

f-loqweres · 3 months

Text

‎ （◞‸◟) 𝐼 𝓌ish 𝒻or 𝓌hat’s 𝒻orbidden ! ? ↺

‎ ೀ ‘ Le Sserafim ’ ♫

winter mb~

140 notes · View notes

rosiesriiveters · 26 days

Text

Keep thinking of Rosie allowing everyone else to experience the trauma of war around him in any way they need to. Whether it be after listening to his crew member choke through the Munster story, reaching a hand out to comfort him, making sure the replacements are all settled and feel comfortable with him - establishing that he's someone who can be trusted with any issues - and listening to Crosby tell him he's scared he's becoming a monster and reassuring him, and yet refuses to give himself the same grace.

Thinking about how he doesn't tell Crosby about what he saw after he was shot down, what he witnessed in that camp. He's never really the one telling any stories in the series. He listens and watches, lets others say whatever they need to, all the while keeping his cards close to his chest.

Thinking about Rosie smiling while watching his crew and the other airmen enjoying themselves at the flak house, and yet not allowing himself the same enjoyment. Thinking about how the doctor at the flak house got Rosie to look after himself only when he framed it that looking after himself is looking after his crew.

Thinking about Rosie re-upping, choking slightly on his words as he explains he can't bare the thought of sending some rookie in his place to only get himself and his crew killed.

He won't give himself the grace or patience he deserves, but by god he'll take care of everyone around him.

#rosie rosenthal #masters of the air #robert rosenthal #rosie's love language is acts of service but his 'acts of service' are like. 'i will destroy the fascist regime for you'#like he doesn't judge others when they are upset/crying and yet!! will not let himself do the same #it's why i loved the doctor at the flak house... just figuring rosie out so well and taking the pieces rosie gives him and working out #what will resonate with rosie the best. and it was framing it so that rosie needs to look after his crew #which he WILL DO come hell or high water #i have to find the quote from the masters of the air book but at the very end rosie says the war wasn't over for him until he'd helped #prosecute some of the nazi's. that he could only move on from the war when he could see it through to the very end. his war was finally ove #and that just fits him SO WELL.#the horrors of war run deep but rosie rosenthal's love for his friends will always run deeper #these tags are so messy lmao just a jumble of thoughts #ch: rosie #tv: masters of the air #rosie mota

131 notes · View notes

humijpg · 1 month

Text

I like to think Korvo needs something to listen to while he works, and so Terry's his replacement for a podcast (he could keep rambling on forever)

#this popped up in my head and i wanted to draw it...#he's surprisingly okay with terry not helping here #this is kinda messy uaa #solar opposites #solar opposites fanart #tervo #korvo #solar opposites terry #his little smirk #why is drawing their front view so goofy

121 notes · View notes

daisyhellion · 14 days

Text

Here I am 4AM making Jasper art… heh… I might have a small problem

38 notes · View notes

jula483 · 1 year

Photo

holy. shit.

#link neal #mythical society #rhett and link channel #DnD #link running fingers through his hair #link without glasses #messy hair #i'm acting so normal about this!!!!!#what we as a society need to do to help link understand how insanely good he looks with messy hair #why can't he have hair like this on gmm #or maybe it's for the better because i would not be able to focus like at all #i just noticed how the two pics on the right are like: before and after #lol #my post

221 notes · View notes

wistfulwatcher · 1 year

Text

YELLOWJACKETS | 2.04 “OLD WOUNDS”

#yellowjackets #yellowjacketsedit #natalie scatorccio #nataliescatorccioedit #MY LOVE #mine #edit #*#scene*#honestly this sums up why i love natalie so much??#i am always SO into fictional characters who do things the messy but comfortable way instead of the right way #even if (especially if) it doesn't always help like GIMME THAT DRAMA GIMME THAT MEAT

166 notes · View notes

tsuchinokoroyale · 11 months

Text

If he’s lookin for some thrills, ya hit him with the frills 🐠

#and now you say 🐠? that’s gills! you mean ❄️ and I say ❄️? that’s chills! you mean etc etc.#for the lore savvy I’m sorry to disappoint but this outfit was the questionably labeled women’s intimates my friend asked me to wear #they are perfect for me bc they are soft and vaguely audacious with the pattern and silly lil frills so he was right when he said as much 🥰#also for those wondering why the poppy background in some but not all I have a reason!#that side of the room was so disastrously messy I didn’t want to clean it so I put in more effort somewhere else to make up for it #this is what we in the business call procrastination babey!! hope this helps xoxo 💋#gpoy

127 notes · View notes

nonbinary-eddie-munson · 1 year

Text

I was thinking about how the run away with me au Robin and Steve "should we get divorced?" conversation comes about:

Theyre about 23 and Robin comes home in tears after another break up. The reason: Robin had asked her girlfriend of 8 months, Lorraine to move in with her and steve. Lorraine assumes this means steve is moving out and when Robin clarifys that no Steve is staying, he's an important part of her life theyre married for chists sake. Well Lorraine doesnt take that well, says she isnt going to spend her life playing second fiddle to Steve.

This isnt the first time a relationship had ended for either of them because a partner hadnt been able to accept that Steve and Robin were a package deal. Things had been especially rough for them romantically in the first couple years of their marriage. It wasnt until a particularly awful screaming match between Robin, Steve and Steves first real boyfriend, that they were able to admit their relationship was incredibly codependent and unhealthy. Steves boyfriend had been upset when Steve had cancelled on him for the 3rd time in a row because of a Robin Emergency™️ and decided to confront Robin about it while Steve was in class. Things escalated quickly when Steve came home early from class to find them arguing and immediately took Robins side. The argument and Steves relationship ended with a slammed door, a lot of tears and a new rift in Robin and Steves relationship.

It took a lot of long conversations with Carina and Marjorie, Steve working through his toxic masculinity enough to go see a therapist - He and Robin made a deal that theyd both go talk to someone about, you know almost dieing "do you think me being fucked up by what happened at starcourt makes me weak steve?" "No of course not!" "Well then why would it make you weak?" - and a summer spent apart (Robin taking an internship in rome to study latin) for them to sit down and have a long conversation about boundaries and ground rules for how they would navigate their relationship as well as dating in the future.

Steve and Robin agreed to both take a break from dating while they worked through their respective traumas, and figured out how to navigate their relationship in a healthy way. Things werent easy, the both of them occasionally backsliding into unhealthy behaviors, more than a few nights where one of them spent the night with Carina and Marjorie in order to have space from eachother. But eventually they get their shit figured out and decide to brave the world of dating again. Steve and Robin both have their share of flings and short lived relationships but nothing so far seemed to stick. That is until Robin met Lorraine.

Lorraine was funny, sweet and a little bitchy. They had immediately clicked after being introduced by some mutual friends from school. Robin really thought things with Lorraine were going to work out. Steve and Lorraine had gotten on like a house on fire, she had slipped into Robin and Steves dynamic easily, trading jokes and light hearted jabs, cooking breakfast together on days Lorraine would stay at their apartment. Robin had fallen hard and fast, she thought she had finally found someone who accepted that her and Steve were a package deal. So 8 months in when Lorraines lease was ending Robin (with agreement from steve) asked Lorraine to move in. Things don't go to plan. Robins dreams of a future with lorraine are shattered. She goes home broken hearted.

After Robin has cried herself out, her and steve cuddled together on the couch Steve is the one to broach the topic. Robin immediately bursts back into tears before he calms her back down again saying he doesnt want a divorce but he also doesnt want to hold Robin back, doesnt want to be the reason she cant find happiness. Robin replys by saying if anyone is holding the other back its obviously her, steve gave up everything to protect her afterall. Steve calls bullshit -years of therapy and he can finally say that word without cringing- says he would do it all again in a heartbeat, that she doesn't owe him anything. They stay up all night talking about it, about what the both of them want from their futures. Neither can see a future without the other. they're platonic life partners, one day they'll find their someones who can accept that and if not well, they'll always have eachother.

Of course they do find their someones in the form of a charming if infuriating metal head and a brilliant, sweet, and badass reporter. Through trial and error the four of them figure out how to navigate life together. They all live happy ever after.

Robin and Steve celebrate 30 years of marriage with divorce papers. They'll always love eachother but now they dont need a marriage to keep eachother safe. They dont need a marriage to stay as platonic life partners. They have eachother and they have Eddie and Nancy. They have everything they need.

-

Lmk what you think! I'd love to have someone to scream with about this AU and bounce ideas off of :D

Tagging by request <3 @ramyayaya

#i think steve and eddie find eachother infuriating in a good way and also a sexy way and i love that for them #i wrote this instead of sleeping #i'll actually turn this into a fleshed out fic i swear. i just happened to see a post talking about how a lot of fics make steve and robin #imcredibly codependent and started thinking about how i would handle that in my fic and decided to write out my ideas #i dont want it to come off as magically theyre perfect and okay. i think things would be messy in the beginning. and still a bit messy #even after bc theyre only human you know. i think having elder queers to talk to would be so important to them for helping them figure #things out you know #i think eddie and nancy wouldnt enter the picture until Steve and robin are 27/28 #im also still trying to figure out relationship dynamics bc the fruity 4 are in a polycule and how i think that would be for them #no matter which way you look at it the relationship between the 4 of them is inherently queer and thats beautiful #i hesitate to have eddie and nancy marry eachother in turn bc yknow heteronormativity #i think people assume theyre together and that eddie and nancy never confirm or deny why people make that assumption #but idk if they ever get married idk ill have to think about it #if you read this far in my tags feel free to hop in my dms and scream with me about this au #id love to have someone to bounce ideas off of #run away with me au #platonic stobbin #robin buckley #steve harrington #steddie #ronance #long post

271 notes · View notes

reynaruina · 19 days

Note

Love the ponytail au, but hypothetically, what if zim had a bad day? Would dib even care? Like if zim broke down, would he make it about himself, or genuinely try to help zim, cuz that has me thinking FR, is this a one sided care???

So far? Yeah, kinda. Of course Dib would care if Zim broke down, but it would take him so long to find out about it because Zim is already hiding all the pain trying to help Dib causes him, and even if he did it'll take him longer still to believe it's not some sort of trap. He's seemingly permanently stuck in this state where he's in love with the person he trusts the least, at least consciously (subconsciously he knows he can trust Zim, if he didn't he wouldn't be around anymore). And even still, once he figured everything out, he wouldn't know what to do or how to help Zim at all. It'd be very messy.

#ask #ponytail dib au #this relationship ain't meant to be a healthy one #it's beginnings at least #it has the potential to grow into something good #but they are both messy people stuck with each other #and poor Zim is left doing most of the work in this for the time being #shit's gonna swing the other way hard eventually #but for now this is what's cooking #again this AU was brought about as an exploration of my own personall issues so each of the bastards get a bit of me #Zim is stuck w my desire to help people even if they don't return the kindness rip #I've gotten better at not doing that in the last couple years which is why it's bit harder to write them nowadays #but the feeling is still very much there and I still relate

9 notes · View notes

f-loqweres · 2 months

Text

I'm Obsessed With You In A Way I Can't Believe

renjun mb~ | @p-oisn | event prize !

137 notes · View notes

automatonknight · 1 year

Text

lone star shine down on my hometown

id: a digital greyscale drawing of kurier-she’s white and has long, dark, graying hair as well as a beard. she’s visible from her head to her chest. she’s wearing a cowboy hat, a plaid, unbuttoned shirt over a white tank top and a simple, black eyepatch over her left eye. the background is solid black with a lone, white star shining right above kurier’s head, they’re looking up at it with a sad expression. end id

#art #fnv oc #BOO FALLOUT JUMPSCARE GRAAAAAAH #anyways this is boston kurier/kier and they're SAD!!!#i was thinking about them recently and well i think they'd feel a teeny tiny bit (crushingly) guilty about leaving the mojave because they #got overwhelmed by the possibility of having to fucking. supervise the whole place. even with yessie to help #so he ran away. to boston and got a boy best friend (nicky) and he kind of feels BAD but also not really beause this is much better for him #like. mentally #he's conflicted and he probably bawls his eyes out to nick at one point #i think she'd be also a little scared to tell him at first? y'know. worried he might judge #so she lets her feelings marinate for a few years (bad) and yeah!!!!#this one's kinda messy too but well erm ^__^ i didn't feel like spending three morbillion years on this+ it has it's charm like that #the song kindaaa fits but also kinda doesnt??#honestly i don't think she ever wants to go back to the mojave. why am i talking like i'm speculating this is my own character #but it gets sentimental sometimes.....mostly about arcade and yessie and ede probably #AND DELILAH....and delilah hi Peep if you're reading this #yeah but i don't think it would ever. go back even though it probably could #GABRIEL'S MEDIOCRE EXPLANATION OF HER OC'S BACKSTORY JUMPSCARE BOO!!!

73 notes · View notes

yukik4z · 9 months

Text

⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⤻ ⠀⠀⠀⠀♡⠀⠀ ⠀⠀🌸 ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀..

45 notes · View notes

sillybouquetoflillies · 2 months

Text

i keep thinking i rly didnt go thru that much growing up, but idk, everytime i tell someone abt my life, they say i did and kinda just like sit in shock abt it. am i just internet brained or smth, or am i just dramatic?? i rly dont think ive earned a lot of the symtoms of someone who was traumatized that i have. or maybe i havent been in a safe place for long enough to process things??? i dunno. maybe someday far away in the future ill figure things out

#i let myself sit n accept that i did go thru smth.. maybe that i didnt totally remember or that i blurred out the details of n idk #i keep feeling like an imposter n like i shouldnt be feeling it. i didnt rly like how ive been acting #but like also i let a lot of stuff out of the box in my brain doing that n idk how 2 put it back or deal with it #so now i just feel like a half untangled mess with 0 stability bc in that 'growth n discovery' period i realized almost everyone in my life #wasnt someone i wanted 2 keep around #so now its rly just me n my bestie that r close n i keep everyone else at arms length #how tf did i get on rambling abt this omggg #ugh i am srsly such a mess n i cant find the root n i think thats whats freaking me out the most #i hate not being able 2 explain why im feeling a certain type of way or justify it in anyway #i just wanna feel okay n stable n be a fun person 2 be around again!!!!#i wanna be completely independent but like.... everything is so expensive n i have no interest in anything that would pay well #i wish my sw stuff would take off but i think im too messy 4 ppl 2 wanna stick around n also i dont think im super attractive unfortunately #I DUNNO #i dont have any answers atm n its freaking me out #i either wanna figure out how to be okay with not having answers or to get the answers and solve my problems #n i also dont wanna depend on other ppl 2 solve them for me #i just wanna be a whole.. well rounded person who can take care of themselves n do what i want #while also being a cute puppy thats rly rly rly fun 2 play with n is super helpful n supportive 2 the ppl it cares abt 🥰#i am so sick of these silly dumb messy fears n emotions that keep me stuck in boring ruts #i wanna go out n have my own fun n be my own person n stop being so scared of everything!!!!!#its okay if things go bad!!!! its just more stories 2 tell ppl!!!! ppl love my stories!!!! ugh i just needa put myself out there #i just needa find smth fun 2 do that keeps me around fun ppl #i just dont know what yet #concerts r fun but idk no one super interesting is touring here rn n i need smth more frequent #ok i think this ramble is ovr #im rly sry if ur reading this!!!! i love u vry much n hope ur having a wonderful day!!!!!!!!!

7 notes · View notes

queen-scribbles · 1 year

Text

add this to the list of things that annoy me about Lana*

#queen in space #*i guess it's more how bioware *utilizes* lana than the character herself?#there are some things about her that annoy me #(not enough to outright dislike/hate her like liara and some others #just enough to stick her in the ambivalent camp with koth ''valkorion fanboy'' vortena)#but that they use her as the easy way out of ''why can't i X?'' or ''why would i do Y?'' situations with a handwavy ''lana said so''#like this is a good example #a perfect example really #rather than have lana turn away a (back-up) sis contact who's on slightly less shaky standing than theron #(who LEFT the sis during your carbonite nap)#which feels like an ooc move for your canonically pragmatic advisor #lean into the fact jonas mentions being on denon while the trooper's running sor #we know things got REAL messy there during arcann's reign #use that (i have plans for the conjunction of those two facts in a longfic :3)#he got tied up there in some sense #OR he was on a deep cover op since he clearly still feels the sis is where he can do the most good #given he stayed throug hall of saresh's fuckery #(and not wanting to lose his job puts limits on how much he #helps with tracking down the deadeyes on jorgan's questline so there's precedent for him putting high priority on his job)#idk i just think there are many better explanations for jonas not joining than ''lana wouldn't let him get in touch with you''??????#and there's other spots where they use lana as the handwave ''bc i said so'' character bc they wanna streamline the story #i understand wanting to streamline the story there's way too many variables to let us do *everything*#(I say as someone who desperately wished elara mentioned aleksei in that bonus 1-on-1 the trooper gets with her #TELL ME HOW YOUR BROTHER IS DOING)#but they put like 85=90% of the explanation for why/how they do that on lana #and just hope she's enough a loyal badass people don't question it #she basically has plot armor at this point since they put in the option to let theron die in nc :|#she's drifting dangerously close to ''bioware assigned bestie'' territory #and it has me very 'eh' about a character i would normally like a lot more #(i do wanna be clear about that.

29 notes · View notes

izzy-b-hands · 7 months

Text

im ngl i had a lil breakdown before my shower (which i took just before i went to bed to chill and watch the new eps) abt some thought-id-already-worked-all-thru-it irl stuff that resurfaced on me like trauma tends to and i just

it made everything in the show so. I don't know how to say it right. but i feel seen and understood and emotionally overwhelmed in a safe yet weird way, just like i did with a lot of s1 and I am Feeling So Much akdnfkgb (i cannot stress enough that this is a Good Thing and I'm absolutely thrilled and happy with the new eps and like. Going to be fine mentally I just gotta wrangle this like i have the times before.)

#text post #god i need a therapist that specialises in PTSD when i can afford therapy again #in the meantime recognition of the self thru the admired other while im in this state weirdly helps #makes me feel like im gonna burst out of my skin and I'm blasting metal in my ear buds to deal with that for now #gonna sleep eventually #i think lmao #im fine honestly bc like. this is not my first breakdown by any means but just. the fucking timing could not have been better #that said i both need a hug and absolutely could not handle being touched rn so that's something #no one's gonna read this far so im gonna just let myself have one little extra messy vent in that #my stupid fucking dad triggered part of this last one and I'm so mad abt it #he doesn't give two fucks abt me now (but he'd pretend to if he saw me in person bc jason LOVES keeping up appearances)#and he would just do a little nod and smile and talk over me telling him all that's happened this last year #i moved across the fucking country with help from friends so i wouldn't wind up dead in ND #and that's the thing i keep surviving and I dont understand why when I'm so often stressed and struggling to want to live #that and more has been sitting weighing and i just. want to tell him all of this and for him to be proud of me #he'll never be proud of me the way i want bc even my mum hasn't pulled that off #where they're proud of me as I am with no caveats or hiding parts of myself #if u think this is bad pls know i deleted a maximum tags tag essay/trauma dump just before this on this post lmao #i am In The Soup rn but it's gonna be fine #gonna rewatch s2 eps and be slightly but safely triggered by bits of ed and izzys stuff and get stoned and try to. process feelings #find some ptsd therapy worksheets online like dr. blohm suggested i try #forgive me the long tags and scroll by it fast if u want/need friends ill try to contain my current mess to this post & few others

7 notes · View notes