#again I don’t write my stories

[chrollohearttags]

we need to bring back muse diaries. I feel like I need to share a daily monologue of these lil bastards running around in my head and every terrible thought they’ve caused.

#again I don’t write my stories #these characters do dumb shit and I write the incident report #like all my AUs interacting all at once #and if you don’t know what a muse diary is #you too damn young to be on this blog #cherry chats 🍒 #it was cringe #but damnit were we free #simpler times

[otaku553]

Haha

#yanqing #honkai star rail #hsr yanqing #my immediate fixation on ice wielding child genius characters in every media I consume strikes again #idk I just think he’s neat!! and so is his gender #he’s definitely overdesigned but I do enjoy the general shape of his clothes #like wow… baggy outer layer AND baggy inner layer #how come you get to have two baggy layers #still don’t know that much about him even after reading his character stories on the wiki #so I’m hoping that his quest writes him well #I suppose there’s some degree of like interesting contrast in the fact that he’s very young on a ship full of people who live very long live #but I feel like regardless they really don’t give him much of a personality besides his hyperfixation on swords and the general naivety and #inexperience from youth yknow what I mean #I just think it would be cool to see like why he’s so ambitious! was he railroaded into being a knight because of his talents? did he try #to be accepted as a knight? what kinds of expectations is he facing and what expectations does he place on himself as a result #I really hope he isn’t just there to be a simpler minded child character for jingyuan to take care of

[pepperpixel]

“put me on a pedestal and i’ll only disappoint you

tell me i’m exceptional, and i promise to exploit you

gimme all your money, and i’ll make some origami honey!

i think you’re a joke!!! …but i don’t find you very

fuuuuuuu~nyyy”

More tagr art!!! Assorted stuff this time! Featuring some cute chibi stuff. Some solo gaz’s, a lil uhhh. Comic of an altercation.. and a very belated Halloween pic I started drawing last Halloween and didnt finish lol. Also featuring lyrics from pedestrian at best cuz that song rllly rlly fits my ver of tak lol.

#invader zim #gaz membrane #invader tak #tagr #iz tak #iz gaz #tak #doodles #there toxic yuri!!! they’re all over the place!!! tak is tsundere insane alien who fueled by revenge it’s gonna be rough! #I think. there relationship would slowly grow and develop as gaz is helping tak w all her injuries #but I think they’d end up having a true true falling out sometime after take fully healed and gets her ship back. #and they’d be split up for a few years maybe? idk how long I’d want it to be. but! yeah. #absence makes the heart grow fonder and makes u realize how fucking stupid u are #and eventually they’d reunite and shit would be better lol #I don’t want them to be at each others throats forever that’d suck lol #theyre just definitely are moments where there at each others throats in the beginning #but they r also moments.. where they both feel true belonging and acceptance. like they never have before… and it blows there lil minds… #I also dO want gaz to go into space at some point w tak cuz that’d be fucking awesome #after they reunite again they can go explore the universe a bit #these r all very half baked ideas btw and also my brains mush cuz ive been drawing all day #so please excuse if said ideas suck. also please excuse all the typos lol #I might change my mind on the them separating idk… or maybe make it a shorter amount of time… idk!! I havent thought thru all this shit lol #it’s not like I’m gonna write a story or actually make a comic I’m just drawing random fanart #I don’t need to have all these thoughts all solidified lol

[kirkscarr]

so my method for writing is: write ficlets until something feels right.

it can’t just be me. right? right????

this drives my creative writing teacher crazy pls tell me i’m not alone 💀

#writing #fanfic #writing advice #writing help #i’m so scared to tell him i’m changing my story AGAIN #like 6000 words is effortless if i care abt what i’m writing #but it’s like pulling teeth if i don’t

[sarumint]

pop!

#hunter x hunter #kurapika kurta #leorio paladiknight #leopika #hxh fanart #art #i was a hardcore leopika fan back in 2020 and now I’m back in the pit #1999 had me screaming and crying #and the drama cds⁉️ #even looking back at my leopika art from 3 years ago had me maniacally laughing in my room #I have so much old hxh art in my little shoe box it was mentally HEALING looking through them again #it was clear how much I loved hxh and honestly I’m so glad I got into it again #I was just 15 when I drew all those silly things but why does it feel like it was just yesterday #I started this acc when I was 16 so most of my oldest drawings on here was made when I was just 16 #and now I’m 18??this is so weird idk why I’m rambling about my age rn but life just flies too fast #I don’t like it #I just wanna be in my room drawing away my self indulgence #and daydream about stories I’ll write later #and decorate my silly room and dress myself up in the mirror #I am NOT built for society

[simgerale]

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake…. #I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour. #I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing? #y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day. #but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!! #I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

[loverscrossmp3]

LIKE A RABID DOG. coming soon to an ao3 near you.

#woah hi it’s me again twenty years later! #back with the gang living in a flat together after school! james is trying to adjust to this new world with his rocking girlfriend and #fantastically familiar friends all while the war is knocking on their door…. #this’ll be yours SO SOON i promise!! everyone ever was right when they said you have to adjust your story hundreds of times when writing in #james’ head. this boy will not shut up!!! #don’t have a set date yet but i am writing and it is COMING! could not choose a snippet bc my favs are far too long but here’s one i’m still #fond of <3 #lard #jily

[simcardiac-arrested]

no actually I’d like to hear your thoughts on the isat ending

Like i said it felt really tropey and by that i meant that it’s just Everything Good Happens forever and…..that’s it ? like idk we were building up to this huge catharsis sort of thing and then we got to it and it was so sudden and not a good payoff and just kind of nothingburger of an ending . the fact that everyone just forgives siffrin bothers me, or at least the fact that they don’t confront them about the shit they’ve said and done. call me a mental illness villainizer but i think if you’re a fucking asshole and doing the most insensitive things to the people you care about then hey, i think those ppl have a right to fucking tell you off for it. likeeee idk being at your lowest point …… not an excuse …. not feeling it chief ……. like sure the message is to move past your mistakes or whatever but ? that doesn’t mean just getting away with it ??? and i just really don’t understand Why everyone forgives him. honestly at the end of the day the ending is just one problem, the root of which are the characters. everyone feels like trope cardboard cutouts. oh, this is the smart one. this is the smol bean. this is the himbo. and they all care for each other btw. Did u hear that? they all care for each other. we’re not really going to explain to you why these people are so close or what they went through together but just trust me man they’re sooo found famy. like …. okay. i’ve played 30 hours of this game and not once did i buy that any of the characters really cared about each other. like??? why???? You’re telling me everyone super cares about siffrin even though they barely know them?? you’re telling me siffrin cares about everyone sooo much even though he never even bothered to find out their problems before ? Wat ? and this just breaks the ending more because literally whyyy do these people care about him so bad. and then it’s just whyyy does siffrin Have to tell them anything he doesn’t even seem to know them that well. everyone feels like colleagues and Just Friends at best. and so the ending just seems really forced. like it was written by that type of tumblr user who’s always talking about aww why does the found family have to break up after the end of the journey :( which is like fiiiiine. i guess. but u guys know that u have to build up to it right?? you can’t just tell me they’re Family Members(tm) 102829 times and that they super care about each other source: trust. you can’t just do that and then expect me to believe it ….. It feels unearned. the ending feels unearned and i don’ttttt understand what i’m supposed to take away from it . that it’s ok to fuck people up because you’re traumatized and insecure?? that you have to talk about your deepest problems with people you barely know??? i just dont know. Like i said if im being honest the problems with this game’s writing are more than just the ending, it just stands out so much because there’s a lot of build up and then just …… That

#honest to god if you want a Good Example of a story like this just look at dungeon meshi #we start the story from the end of the characters’ journey. they all don’t know each other very well and they’re just working together #hell they don’t even like each other that much. And then as the story develops and they go through their journey we get to see them bond and #get closer and fight and make up and admit they care about each other and still be mad at each other #nobody even gives a fuck about laios at the beginning of the story but by the end of it they’re all willing to die for him. THAT feels #earned. when marcille super fucks up and everyone tells her off for it but still wants to just make sure she’s ok That feels earned #like honest to god i’d take marcille’s arc any day than whatever’s siffrin going on #i just feel like this game suffers from a chronic Tell Dont Show syndrome. we get old over and over again that these characters are close #told* #and that they care about each other. And that’s just ….. not a way to write a story ……… #when all the characters exist just to comfort the Whump Main it’s like how am i supposed to get invested. in any of this #u know when the dev replied to someone who was asking them how to write a story and they just said ‘glue your fav tropes together until it #becomes a story’? Well i think that is isat’s main problem. it’s not really a story. it doesn’t really have characters #it’s just a bunch of tropes in a trench coat. And let me tell u that is notttt how you make a story. at all. at all #anyways this was supposed to be about the ending but this story just has so many inherent problems i could critique it forever🤷‍♂️ my badddd #it’s fun as a game and it’s Fine as a story but at the end of the day it just reads like fix-it fanfiction to me #which is not Bad on its own but i wish people would at least recognize how the story is kind of built on sticks #cramswering

[urlocaltransace]

hello sbrt nation I have awoken from hibernation and im back with new designs

I have a vanessa design

ANOTHER greg redesign (this is the last one i swear im just indecisive)

ANNNNND SPRING BONNIE!!!!!!!

chapter 6 is in the works and we will be getting screen time of these 3 together

ALSOSOO I uh I changed gregory’s last name because I ended up just not liking the other one lmao

i MIGHT color this in later??? I don’t know????

(ch. 6 snippets + announcement below)

here have some snippets of chapter 6 to prove im working!!!!! I’ve just been really tired!!!!!!!!!

ALSO FELLAS

1 (a small announcement): I’m planning to rewrite chapter 1 soon which means I’LL HAVE MORE TO WRITE ABOUT + I CAN SHOW OFF MAXIE AND MAYBE THE OTHER EMPLOYEES!!

2 (a bigger announcement)| I’ve been thinking of having my asks open for an sbrt qna kinda thingy!! sooo you guys can ask me ANYTHING revolving this au!!!! whether it’s about the characters or the story or the lore or whatever!!! I’m all happy and up for asks!!!!!

anyways that’s all I wanted to ramble about bye bye ily/p!! :333333

#fnaf #fnaf au #fnaf security breach #alternate universe #fnaf gregory #fnaf art #fnaf vanessa #art #au #artists on tumblr #this tag is so funny to me I don’t even know why #digital art #vanessa and greg duo frfr #basically the 3 star fam except instead of freddy it’s fuCKING SPRING BONNIE #unrelated note but I literally have so many plans for that plushie you don’t even know #‘kai its a plushie’ SHUT THE FUCK UP I DONT CARE ITS MY STORY!!!! I DECIDE WHAT HAPPENS!!!!!! #why have humans for friends when you have a talking plushie right there #it’s almost 1am #guys I think I got sick again as im writing this oh shit #the almighty kai rambles #sbrt #security breach retold #writing #ao3fic

[captain-lovelace]

Fellas is disliking what you’ve seen of the writing of a series indicative of your ability to handle less sanitized queer stories. We are heading back into “you can’t say you don’t like it, it’s gay!” territory at unprecedented speeds here

#I don’t want to read the locked tomb series. I’m sorry. Nothing I’ve seen about it #has compelled me at all #I think the writing seems bad. Both the dialogue and prose I’ve seen remind me a lot of some of the worse Homestuck fanfic I’ve read. #I don’t think this says anything about my ability to handle less sanitized queer stories #Not every queer person will like every queer story and this is a criticism TOTALLY UNRELATED to the point #I hope to never post about the locked tomb again but this part of this post frustrates the HELL out of me

[dollsuguru]

#applying to jobs that are way out of my league/paygrade/level but idgaf i need MONEY i wanna attain it #hopefully i can start doing that next week/mid next week #need to update my resume & apply 😭 #i’m also genuinely. so drained from these past few weeks i don’t even have the energy to write posts/read simple stories or read fics 😪 #hopefully EVENTUALLY i can do that #i don’t like being in this Slump it makes me MAD #grrrrrrr snarl hiss bark #so i fear i may not be on here as much until the Drainingness goes away </3 #BUT ALSO #tbh. may have to sign back into my armytwt acct again i haven’t been on since summer of 23 #but jin is coming back soon so :3 #AHHHHHHHH i hope things look up! i hope i get whatever i apply for and be blessed w lots of money & opportunities #we shall seeeeeeeee :3 hope everything is going amazingly for everyone! i hope everything works out in your favor @ anyone who sees this! #MWAH! :D #another also. enjoy the taechwita gif it’s one of my FAVS. #personal

[tennessoui]

Wait, there are people who LIKE WIPs? Mind officially blown. O_o

yeah idk maybe just consider that all your favorite fics were wips at one point and one writer liked it enough to spend hours turning that wip into a finished fic and I doubt they were writing just to write an ending

like that fic did not emerge fully formed as a multi chapter novel length anon divergent masterpiece on ao3 one day!!! even if a fic is all posted at once, ONE person knew it and loved it as a wip or it never would have been posted at all!!!

like come on!!! think about fic writers as people who are experiencing their wip more than you ever will no matter how many times you read it and I promise the concept of liking a wip will NOT blow your mind

#asks #I enjoy all of my wips #I enjoy writing them I enjoy when o choose to end a chapter #I especially enjoy posting and waiting for people to scream about it #to me or in the comments #I very very very much enjoy hearing people affirm that what I’m writing isn’t shit #and i very very much enjoy leaving comments on other peoples wips #encouraging them and telling them my favorite moments #so they don’t think no one’s reading #I love getting email notifications that’s story I like has updated #I love cleaning my room or putting away my laundry before I read the update so it feels like #double the treat #I love talking with friends about it #what happens when people don’t like wips is that fandoms die #because writers stop feeling encouraged to write #when the writing process takes weeks #the reading process can take hours #again: the writing process can take WEEKS. MONTHS. of free time #of effort!! of self doubt! of decisions and deliberating !!!! #literally read a goddamn wip and get invested in its creation #honestly you will have such a better fandom experience #you will feel like it’s a community!!!!

[warmsol]

i miss makoa and elia so much but my motivation to story tell is at zeroooooo

#what if i just. skipped to wedding and baby aha. HAHA. what if #what if i just… you know.. did that.. nvm #the temptation to drop the story and move to gen two is so high at the moment?? wow #i just get sad because i don’t have the time to make story posts as often anymore :( #which sucks because i write sooo much for them again but finding the time these days to translate to the sims is so hard lol #and so it takes me a year to move forward.. sigh #anyway. i'm missing 2019 isa when i posted twice a day sometimes #well. i guess the good thing is that at this rate my blog will die before i let them die heh #okay i’m gonna update my mods and such 😒maybe do something in game. or open bg3. we'll see. ily have a happy friday <3 bye

[itstimeforstarwars]

I've decided to switch my goals from being on the calendar to being in a notebook because what I was doing was giving myself a sticker for every day that I do my stuff but then I only get one sticker regardless of how much or little I do so now I give myself a sticker for a particular chunk so if I do three chunks on my day off I get three stickers and there has been an immediate increase in my desire to do stuff.

#chit chat #rn i have stickers for a half page of drawing and 20 min of cleaning/organizing/unpacking #because despite the fact that i have lived here for 4 years #my room is still 90% packed and im living on top of all the boxes #so I've been trying to work on unpacking my 900sqft apartment into this 100sqft spare bedroom #while also working full time and writing these long ass stories #and so far I've been managing about 30 min a month lmao #it's a lot of work trying to figure out what you don’t want in your life #when everything you got for your first apartment is sentimental #or practical stuff that you will need again when you move out

[sirenascelestiales]

Honestly, considering the show/writers never acknowledged Daphne’s marital rape of her husband, and they only had a slight acknowledgment of Edwina’s feelings on Kate x Anthony, like I don’t think there will be a satisfactory resolution to Pen’s betrayal of the Bridgertons (Marina/Colin and Eloise/Theo) or of Eloise’s “friendship” with Cressida (and anything else she might do as “revenge”).

I think they’ll blow over the latter “I said I’d rather die than be her friend and I still mean it” and hugs all around or some other scene like that (which I know is simple and that’s my point). And Pen will apologize and confess that cause she’s so in love with Colin and she wanted to be noticed and she’ll be forgiven without much else from Colin. And maybe a little more for Eloise, if that.

(Spoiler’s for the books in case people care about that).

They forgive her for Whistledown in the books, Colin is worried more about her being revealed as Whistledown than her writing shit about him (tho nothing she writes is like Marina/Colin is not in the books. Daphne basically forgives her for anything she wrote about that but tbh she doesn’t seem to mind anyway). And, they like sorta acknowledge it as “wtf” thing, but it’s blown over quickly imo. “Oh well that’s nice dear” sorta reaction. And Eloise does have even more of a backbone than in the books but idk I just don’t see why and what people seem to want out of Bridgerton.

Eloise is going to somehow befriend and fall in love with Crane! You’re telling me the girl running around with Theo and “radicals” will suddenly fall for the guy boring the fuck out of Marina?

Like, I’m sorry but Bridgerton is pretty people hooking up with a regency background. They will not “do right” by most people’s standards of how the characters should act and how to apologize (Daphne and Simon make up after professing deep love in the rain! Anthony is shocked into confessing for real cause Kate fell of a horse! It’s for DRAMA, and then it’s resolved kinda easily?)

I’ve seen some more of nuanced takes against Pen, at least these people aren’t reducing her to a fat villain (cause when they did that I could not take them seriously 😒). And honestly a lot of it is fair, that’s good! The writers don’t care.

But now I keep seeing people hating Eloise to the point that they want a comeuppance that is not proportional to her “revenge”…and like… it won’t be as serious as y’all are making it to be. This “revenge”. Like please, the writers aren’t going to suddenly take this world seriously. See above and those are just 1 example for each season!

If they wanted to acknowledge all the hurt Pen put people through and make her work to become a better person, they could! I just don’t think they will because it’s 8 episodes per season and in this season they’re trying to find a way to get Colin and Pen together and Eloise and Pen as friends again by end of season. I don’t think they’ll extend a conflict into Ben’s season (I actually hope they don’t, I like Ben and Sophie’s story for the most part and while I love Anthony and Kate they shouldn’t be the focus either).

Idk what people expect I guess. if you’re watching it for Pen to be taken down a notch… might not be the season for you. If you’re hate watching I guess tag it with “anti” whatever and not the regular tags?

I’m sorry if you think she does not deserve an happy ending, I don’t necessarily disagree that she’s undeserving of some crow eating for what she’s done. However, I don’t think the writers care to make her go through that. And I don’t watch Bridgerton for brilliant character development that I think some of y’all want.

That being said I’m curious about how they’ll manage LW post Colin x Penelope marriage. In the books it basically disappears, and maybe they can use that to have a build up to Pen! However that means to me making their relationship last longer than as season and I do not want that for any of the couples.

#illy talks #I need to not go into tags but fine I’ll tag it #Bridgerton #sa cw #marital rape mention #rape mention #idk if I have a tag for that but I think I have it covered #I don’t write any analysis or meta cause I tend to be a centrist about everything and let the story play out #but I really relate to Pen’s wallflower ways so sorta defending her #but like also again the whole marketing of “Colin and Penelope’s story” sorta spoils it yknow she’s gonna be “rewarded” #and maybe she’ll get to have to work through her issues! I just don’t think they’ll have her do that cause it’s BRIDGERTON #she’s gonna “win” idk how else to say it (whether you believe she “deserves it” or not) in 8 episodes #hopefully the writers come up with a compelling story for her and Eloise and their friendship along with Pen/Colin romance but like y’all 😐 #why are your expectations so high about a bodice ripper book turned tv show from the creator of Scandal and HTGAWM and Grey’s #like y’all know how it ends already… #again my fault for going in the tags #idk we’re getting four seasons minimum I just want to finish out with Ben and Sophie #if four is really all we get

[tricksterlatte]

There was this post I saw awhile back that asked what was the one thing you would get pretentious about since everyone has at least one. I didn’t reblog it at the time, but my god if I have to see any more bad faith or media illiterate surface level take about Chainsaw Man, I’m going to become the literacy devil

#Parker says things #I’m not going to get into spoilers especially from the manga but please 😭😭😭 #this is a story about fear and love and cyclic abuse and societal perception and just #relationships developing in the mundane moments and how those can also be twisted and so much more #I could write a whole academic thesis on Kick Back alone. or the other pop culture references and what they symbolize #or the psyche of any main character or even more #but too many people reduce the anime to ‘waifu bait’ or hating Denji or any other character for surface level reasons #anyways this is on my mind bc I was thinking about Makima again shfjfjfjfh #I don’t care if someone drops the series or doesn’t like it but don’t tell me it’s a cringe fanservice or whatever when it’s not 👍 #you can dislike it overall but I’m gonna be annoyed if you walk up to me in cosplay to tell me I’m a bad person for dressing up as an antag