#although i probably should have

[blonkk]

women confuse me so much because they’ll agree with you about all the reasons being straight and trying to find someone who’s not a piece of shit is a never ending quest/it’s a lot of energy in the streets to expend when people will lie, cheat, ghost etc/all the relationships i’ve witnessed leave a lot to be desired and i constantly see my female friends losing sleep and being treated like garbage and so on and so forth but then they’re soooo confused when you say you don’t date. like literally just had this convo with yet another friend, we were talking ab how we’ve had experiences of being taken advantage of by guys including friends we’d known for years, exchanging our own stories & those of girls we know. a girl she knew woke up to her guy friend jerking off on her and a girl i know woke up to a childhood friend putting his dick in her mouth and forcing her to blow him. anyways after ALL THIS plus previous convos she’s like..so you seeing anyone? and i was like no lol. and she was like are you trying…? i said no. and she was like …. really lost LOL. she asked me if i’m asexual and i just laughed, like haven’t heard that before! i’ve also been asked if i’m a lesbian.

like i don’t get it. i’ve had convos like this with all girls in my life. all my straight girl friends date and have relationships and casual sex etc and i NEVER question it even if it makes no sense, because they’re regularly getting abused/treated like shit yet they continue to do that shit. why does me trying to save myself a little bit of sanity and protect myself from this confuse y’all so much then??? you agree with my reasoning, you deeply identify with my experiences, and i’m generally pretty fucking lucky because i’ve never experienced a lot of the worse things and most girls i know have. more than once. but still they’re like “aw you’ll find someone” “well you can’t just give up!” “why not?? omg how can you be alone??” “are you…ya know..”

like i’ll always support my friends and i don’t disparage them for opting to be with men even though they’re rarely fucking fulfilled but don’t ask me if i’m touched in the head lol for trying to be happy and minimize pain in my life 😂 or gay. bro i don’t gotta be gay to resist male abuse what a weird thing to think

fr so many people are so scared to be alone. they look at older (25+) (😂😂😂) women and feel pity and fear that they can’t explain or understand. they really think we’re all completely miserable and would give everything up for a crumb of male love and acceptance. i’m not saying it’s not hard, like i’m an adult woman, of course it’s hard sometimes but imo it looks harder trying to constantly be loveable to a man. like these men don’t respect you, they knowingly hurt your feelings, if they do it unknowingly they rarely care or try to change, they rarely leave you sexually gratified and they don’t often care about anything other than busting their own nut, they don’t even pretend to be gentlemen anymore! they don’t even put up the pretence of asking for dates, buying flowers, picking you up, being nice….they literally say “we fucking or what” and if you don’t respond with that same energy they think you’re crazy/frigid/high maintenance. like girls are literally going crazy waiting for replies from dudes who saw the text, read it, didn’t care about responding, forgot about it, fucked another girl and then gets horny at 3am and says “wyd”. and y’all feel bad for ME?! please like i’m not trying to be mean but like honestly get up. if you’re gonna live like that i won’t judge you. i know why, i get it. but don’t come for me and pity me because i don’t do that shit because you will hear some truths you won’t like

#i’m rly tired #like men say this to me a lot and i just let it go because of they generally don’t see the problems with the way they treat women #they think any woman would be lucky to be mistreated by them #and because i choose not to be it’s actually because no one wants to fuck my bitchy/fat/ugly etc ass anyways #but the women who say this make my head spin #girl you know why. #why are you mad #genuinely my sister got MAD at me a few weeks ago to the point she was yelling at me in tears #because i calmly tried to explain that i’m not setting the goal of meeting someone getting married and having kids #she was so angry it was fucked up #she just said i’m scared/selfish/insecure #…um #why are you yelling. #i didn’t yell at you when you decided to get married to your piece of dogshit bf at age 24 #although i probably should have #it’s not just her. it’s all my female friends #acquaintances #they think i’m so sad and broken #it makes me so mad!!! leave me alone fr #why does it bother you? be with all the men you please #do what you want and i’ll do what i want!! #anyways #just girly things

[math-memes]

#alright tag readers #i'm gonna share some blog lore with you all #most of the memes i posted when i was active i stole from reddit #and my main way to use reddit was the apollo app for ios #which reddit broke with their insane api pricing #so when that happened i was like woah! i can finally touch grass #i did not #but i also did not immediately find any other meme pages #and i'm honestly not that confident to try making memes on my own (although i should probably try) #still #i will continue to pick memes from whatever sources i find AND SOURCE THEM APPROPRIATELY #anyways enjoy your year-end festivities and have a good one <3

[gutsfics]

so. i just watched most of the new quintonreviews Sam & Cat video and for Reasons i looked up both Goomer and Frankini on ao3 and theres only One Single Fic thats tagged with Goomer/Frankini. fucking criminal.

double criminal for it being tagged as "past Frankini/Goomer" bc the actual relationship focused in the fic is fuCKING GOOMER/DICE. BITING AND KILLING.

#i have seen neither sam & cat or henry danger i just really love Goomer my boy Goomer #although i probably am gonna watch the henry danger musical episode bc Quinton really seemed to enjoy it #and also i love a good musical episode #anyway if i do ever end up writing Victorious/HWU crossover i Will be mentioning Goomer and Frankini in it at some point #mmmmaaybe. depending on how old Frankini is supposed to be. and when i decide to set it. ill have Frankini and Hunt be bitter exes #(bc giving Hunt the most batshit crossover ships is really fun to me) #he & Frankini would have been some super toxic whirlwind romance that ended So horribly and they hate each other #anyway i should go to bed now its past midnight lol

[gummybearstastelikesadness]

Vlads secretary recently quit in the middle of Vladco having a minor business expansion into Gotham and now he needs to hire a new one.

The bats are currently investigating one Vladimir Masters after he started to bring his business into Gotham. They’re very interested in the suspicious nature he acquired his wealth. Maybe it’s time to forge some resumes and bust out some old identities, Tim still has that blonde wig after all.

#dp x dc #dp x dc prompt #tim drake #vlad plasmius #Tim would immediately be judging all of Vlads poor business decisions #Vlad when hiring a new PA: I will have to make sure Daniel doesn’t bring up plasmus around them #Vlad: hires new PA. New PA: immediately tells Vlad off for making bad decisions with the company and about not properly scheduling #fights with his nemesis (Phantom) on the calendar. honestly even Lex Luther makes sure his board knows he’s unavailable before gallivanting #after Superman again #Tim who’s had the job for a week and knows too much: I should not be relating to the super villain through failure with clone making #Vlad and Tim: I’m totally normal about cloning this one black haired blue eyed teenager… (Kon and Danny) #I’m referencing Tim because I’m more familiar with his cover identity’s then most of the other bats although Lego Batman could probably #pull off a disguise that would work based off the time he dressed as the mayor of Gotham

[puppyeared]

is this your card? ♦️♣️♥️♠️ it isnt but you dont wanna hurt his feelings

#this was supposed to be a warmup but i got carried away.... i havent drawn in so long that its been hard to focus orz #im testing a new brush for fun. again.. i think i can use this for clean lineart..?? im surprised i went as long as i did with the #narinder brush honestly... but i wanna try something new so here we are again #if i could get my shit together id love to draw a model of his van because i have smth really cool in mind..i was looking at pictures #of old wooden caravans like the horse drawn ones and i wonder if i could combine that with the shape of an RV #i like the ones with a door at the rear bc it kinda lookslike a train caboose.. maybe he'd get someone to weld him a custom ride!! #idk how intricate and detailed i can design it without making it a pain in the ass to draw every time BUT i have a general idea #it would probably have a door on the side but idk if itd flip down to make a stage or upwards to make a roof?? and then theres a #curtain behind it where he would come out and do his show methinks.. ive been looking at pictures of camping vans on pinterest for ideas #i dont think he LIVES in the van since i mentioned his home is an old run down theatre when he isnt on the road. i wanna draw that too #but the RV should have enough for long travels like a bed and cabinets..? maybe a net hanging on the ceiling where all his props go #id like to think of ideas for a hometown.. toronto has a huge entertainment district so it would make sense for him to live there #although id also love to base parts of it from vancouver since id love to go back and visit </3 #..would there be furth names for those places?? nyancouver... clawronto... whinnypeg (like a horse whinny)... #pawson creek.... purrlington... otterwa.. i love coming up with names lol #my art #myart #my oc #oc #sleight #laikas comet oc #fan character #fur #furry art

[egophiliac]

so have you heard about the ride kamens app game? seems like it's gonna be a twisted wonderland like game with all the riders being hot anime guys now, and it's also gonna be written by yuya takahashi and produced by naomi takebe (apparently it was in development before geats), with designs by the person who did sk8 the infinity, so take that for what you will

have you ever gotten the feeling that a piece of media came into existence just to appeal to you specifically, or

(brb preregistering immediately)

(as far as I can tell you play as an agent who maintains a secret superhero base for riders in the basement of the rider-themed cafe that you run with your butler, and there's some other plot stuff going on but honestly I'm way past sold at this point, this sounds amazing)

#ride kamens #joseimuke games are serious business #show us the henshin forms!!!! #time to overanalyze those silhouettes in the teaser and embarrass myself by not being able to figure out who anyone is #there is 100% a gaim at least #there's one i've convinced myself is w based on almost nothing #and this is assuming they're all main riders too which is probably not true #god i SHOULD recognize more but my mind is blanking super hard and i keep second-guessing myself #(i-is that kiva maybe? den-o? I CAN'T TELL) #i don't think there's a fourze though. the cowardice. #man this is officially a Thing™ now huh #like how in the 2010s monster high kicked off a trend of 'characters' high-school age kids wearing fabulous shoes' #now we have 'ensemble cast of glossy-haired anime boys loosely based on your favorite characters' #this is absolutely not a complaint. i want more and i want them to get even SILLIER. #(i enjoy the sanrio one as well although it seems to be more of a music video thing? i am. a little unclear on it) #god i'm just so pleased that this exists

[sleepy-stitches]

google search how to safely have my friends from other groups smell each other through the door like cats so they can be introduced

#thinking about birthday plans and it is scary #i have to work out something to actually Do other than just throw a bunch of people in a call and be like we are hanging out now ^-^ #because i feel like there are some flaws with that #although...... almost all of my friends own tabletop sim. which is awesome and has a lot of potential #ouuuugh i also have to think about peoples schedules. which is so fucked up and evil #i should be able to just psychically know if everyone is free on like the fifth of april rather than having to ask #sighs. this is probably more than my brain can handle rn but also if i dont do anything for my birthday ill die. whatever whatever whatever #i stay certifiably silly #original post placeholder tag

[disniq]

A collection of the Joker's weirdly cute nicknames for Jason in The Joker: The Man Who Stopped Laughing;

#jason todd #the joker #(Jokers'? Jokers's?? i honestly have no idea if these are all from the same one or not lmao) #the joker: the man who stopped laughing #me 🤝 the joker: ''jason is just such a sweet smart boy i miss him where is he?'' #(although that should probably just be me🤝 Matthew Rosenberg lol)

[loopyarts]

Me and a few of my art mutuals found what seems to appears to be a ‘draw this in your style’ between Japanese artists.

So for a little bit of fun, we all decided have a little go ourselves and make an art train around it. We all used the same Ichiji drawing done by this artist and https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/2911160 as the ref and is the one used by the other Japanese artists in the ‘draw it in your style’.

Here is my drawing/sketch take on it and it was so much fun to do and great practice. :3c

#one piece #vinsmoke ichiji #doodle #Quick sketch #my art #art train #fanart #Ichiji #Man I really should just stick to one artstyle but where’s the fun that. Playing around and trying out different artstyle is so much fun. #Doing art with art pals and art mutuals #Honestly one of my better drawings of Ichiji although having a ref probably helped ha ha OvO’)

[thosewildcharms]

Well i was talking about towl fav ep and fav richonne moment but i want your thought on twd too now :)

thank you so much clarifying anon, and for the question! i think the easiest way to do this is to break it up by show.

towl

favorite episodes: I think it goes without saying that just like everyone else episode 4 is my favorite. it's a stand out not just for towl but for twd as a whole and is magnificent from start to finish. as for the rest? i have a lot of trouble ranking them actually because i love all of them for different reasons, but I guess my other favorites in no particular order are:

6 because it was just SO satisfying. that reunion seriously healed something in me. I love the flashbacks and how their pillow talk was incorporated throughout.

3 because it had me literally screaming at my tv and i love angst <3

1 because i didn't realize how much i missed rick grimes until i got him back, and i'm still so impressed by how much they accomplished in that one episode. also i think andrew lincoln was phenomenal and the ending was perfect. it gave me that WE'RE SO FUCKING BACK!! feeling that set the tone for the whole series.

favorite richonne moments:

the family reunion in episode 6 goes without saying right? it's all i wanted from the series and they gave it to me and it was everything

like, all of episode 4 lol but the standouts for me are "you don't have to thank me ever" (like, that whole sequence of him saving her) "the only time I feel safe is when I'm with you" (because i'm STILL reeling from that) the without you I die monologue obviously and i also really love the specific way rick's voice cracks when he says "you think I didn't want to be with you? I tried everything" and the way michonne's lip trembles in response. i talked about how rick is suppressing his emotions throughout that entire episode and that's one of the few moments he loses his composure - it's SO effective

the full reunion in episode 2!

rick putting the ring on michonne's finger MID THRUST. hello?

the proposal! his nervousness! her obvious joy and delight! i actually really love how light and funny they were all throughout episode 5. i re-watch all of those scenes a LOT

rick pulling his gun on thorne when she put her hand on her knife while interrogating michonne/rick stepping in front of thorne's gun when she had it pointed at michonne.

MICHONNE THROWING THEM OUT OF THE HELICOPTER

an underrated moment from the finale i really love is when rick grab's michonne's fingers when thorne orders them to walk with their hands up. i love that he needed that contact!

in the finale when rick says he just wants to go home. he wouldn't have, and they both know it, but i love that he was allowed to express that. AND i love michonne's reaction to it.

michonne dropping her sword (again!) when she thinks rick is dead

i really really REALLY love the dream sequences from episode one. it definitely felt like a huge fuck you to everyone who said they never would have ended up together if the apocalypse hadn't happened. like! sorry but no! michonne is rick's soulmate! die mad about it!

twd

favorite episodes: 6x10 the next world, 7x12 say yes, and 3x12 clear for obvious reasons. I also really love 6x09 no way out for having one of my favorite richonne scenes ever, 4x09 after, 4x11 claimed, 5x11 the distance for the amazing richonne build-up, 9x01 a new beginning (richonne just feel VERY married), 9x05 what comes after because i was tense and distraught the whole time even though i was spoiled for the ending, and 9x06 who are you now: michonne's grief is so palpable even years later, danai was incredible and that scene with judith at the end wrecks me. plus the RJ reveal!

favorite richonne moments:

"i've never seen your face like that before." listen. LISTEN. years ago i saw a gifset of this exact scene right here on tumblr dot com and it was so cute that i decided i would watch the zombie show if those two get together. and now HERE I AM. it's the scene that started it all for me, and it's still one of my favorites because it's so cute.

FIRST KISS ON THE COUCH. arguably the best first kiss of all time

all of say yes but SPECIFICALLY when michonne drops her sword, and how she jumps into his arms when it turns out he's alive, the panicked way she says "no no no" when rick tells her she could lose him. but also, how goofy and silly they were the rest of the time. they have fun together! they don't just love each other, they like each other!

THE END OF 6x09 WHEN RICK WALKS OUT INTO THE HERD. michonne loses her shit completely in a way we didn't see again until the bridge. nothing is more terrifying to her than rick (or her kids) dying, and that will always get to me. the way she was the FIRST one out the door once denise gave the go ahead? the fact that the ONLY thing that kept her from running after him sooner was the fact that carl still needed her? GIRL???

rick smiling at michonne and carl on the train tracks AND the "i'm okay/I know/how?/because I'm okay too" exchange also on the train tracks. i'm a 'rick fell in love with her on the train tracks' truther forever and ever amen.

that hug at the end of 7x10 and the little kiss on her forehead :)

"I'm still with you." everything about that scene is just the two of them saying "i love you" without actually saying it.

"we should go to washington" oh my god the look on her FACE

in 4x09 that whole sequence where michonne sees herself in the walkers, kills them all, makes the deliberate choice to follow the tracks and they lead her directly to rick and carl???? the way she LOOKS TO THE HEAVENS AND CRIES??? rick's incredulous laughter and "it's for you"? what kind of invisible string tying you to me-soulmate bullshit?

the 9x05 "do you know why i fell in love with you?" dream sequence

9x01 "how'd I get so lucky finding you?" the domesticity of that entire scene.

first meeting at the prison. it's SO charged and it's so amazing to re-watch that scene and be like rick!!! that's your wife!!! and again. towl just confirms it really WAS soulmates meeting for the first time. incredible!

#richonne #the ones who live #to reiterate. i loved *every* episode of towl. there is not a single bad episode. i even loved the jadis stuff in episode 5 #although i will admit they should have probably condensed the 3 jadis/gabriel flashbacks into one to help with pacing #also i'm sure there are a ton of eps/moments i'm missing from the mothership but these are the ones that stick out for me the most #answered

[harukapologist]

Lately I was thinking about 0108 parallels since they're both so associated with water and I had a thought.

Haruka and Amane are both shown drowning in their MVs

Amane tries to swim back up; she believes she can still get what she reaches out for,

she believes she can still truly be a “good girl” despite how much it is destroying her and how terrified she is of the very people who enforce the cult ideals on her, to the point that their faces never appear in her MVs (in Magic, there weren't even any humans beside her to begin with, only the mascots and animals)

Haruka, on the other hand, just lets himself fall into the water; he does try to reach out for what he wants—his mother’s love—later on in the MV

but she promptly disappears, i.e he already knows it’s no use doing that. He’s accepted that he cannot become what is expected of him, he believes that he’s inherently at fault and has already accepted that (thus the inno verdict in T1 ignited a lot of inner conflict and self loathing, even though he tries to appear confident and happy and Okay)

#probably delete later 👍 i just. there is SOMETHING going on with these two and the associations with water #amane appears to have been waterboarded then WHAT ABOUT HARUKA. like i want to understand not what it means #but WHY the drowning theme is SO heavy in his stuff #drowning in water in weakness #drowning in water AND formaldehyde/whatever u interpret rhe orange substance as #its so hmmmfbhdhdh #haruka my dear your subconscious is a mess #milgram #haruka sakurai #amane momose #tw child abuse #tw cults #tw waterboarding #its just a mention of it but idk tell me if i should add/remove any tws #theres also something going on with 010809 generally as being the clearly severely abused children (although mkt isnt a child anymore the #effects of the abuse are Very much there) #save my children uuuuauaua

[starsundertheceiling]

I’m probably a little late to the party (heh) but there’s something I’ve noticed concerning color theory and Max, and Max in general

When she is introduced to us as MADMAX, her situation with Billy makes her feel lonely and angry. She’s wearing red clothes (with a white stripe!) and her hair is down (letting her rage roam free).

In here, she’s clearly annoyed. She’s just left Billy’s car, Mr. Clarke made her stand before the class and named her Maxine when she just wanted to melt into the background and get over her first day at an unfamiliar school, still not thrilled about having to move from California.

Still, she’s zipped down, since those people didn’t do anything especially hurtful towards her and maybe she’s a little hopeful about them. 

When she’s mad after an interaction with Billy she’s wearing red:

Darker red! She’s at school where she won’t have to deal with Billy for a while. She’s cooling like lava but there’s still one streak of the anger in the back of her head.

When the boys approach her, her zip-up sweatshirt is unzipped to show some of the color underneath. She’s happy! She will not let her guard down completely but she won’t hiss at them immediately! Still, she’s ready for disappointment and snapping right back to being fully red.

Yellow is not a lighter shade of red, but it’s definitely close on the color wheel. Closer to white, too! She is showing she’s not only mad, there also is softness inside her! It’s still a shade connected to red (anger) but yellow by itself is more of a happiness color. She wants to make friends but is still scared because of the new environment and Billy.

In the car with Billy (the scene where he wants to run over the party), the entire scene is shot in a way that’s barely letting us see her clothes. It’s mostly covered by hair, too, but we can see it’s still at least a little unzipped as there’s a bit of the yellow collar visible.

In the scene, she’s defending Hawkins saying, that it’s not that bad and that she can’t see any cows (yellow). She’s scared of Billy, so she’s trying to cover up her sympathy towards Hawkins and towards the boys (with red and her hair, Billy saw her get out of the car with the sweatshirt zipped up and hair down, now she’s covering her softness with what is familiar to Billy, so that he doesn’t see anything has changed, notice that softness and hurt her. That’s exactly what she does when she says she doesn’t know the boys trying to protect them from getting ran over).

Yellow! Fully yellow :) She’s happy to be shown weird pollywog-like creatures with the rest of the Party!

Right after Will gets possessed, her question as to what “true sight” means gets brushed off by all of the boys. She’s hurt and feels excluded, but her hurt makes her angry again. Next time we see her, she’s all red again.

“Party members only! This is non-negotiable.”

“I thought you guys wanted me in your Party!”

At the arcade! She’s already acclimated to Hawkins, and the arcade is her favorite place. 

Alright, I’m getting tired and my third eye is slowly closing, so I’m going to wrap this up quickly, since I think I presented what the gist of the idea is.

In season 3, yellow, patterns, colors! She is now fully a member of the party! She has friends, she knows the secrets, El is back. This is the happiest she’s been.

Clothes are important in both of the girl’s characters! (El changes from murky colors to vivid patterns when she finds herself and there’s a post about El shedding layers of blue in season 4. I’d link it but can’t find it, I’m sorry!) There being a scene like this, with them fooling around with their clothes is basically the peak of happiness :)

Here Max gets really worried because of Billy. She’s feeling a bit guilty ‘cause that’s her step-brother that’s sowing chaos and hurting her friends. El is straining herself. The situation is looking BAD. Blue!

Beginning of season 4

Blue - she’s grieving and feeling guilty, Black coat - she’s hiding herself in a shell. She’s not particularly hiding her grief but she can close off at any moment.

(Btw Lucas is also wearing a blue shirt with some coats. I’d say he is sad because Max dumped him and doesn’t want to tell him things but the coats have a couple of colors because he’s hiding away his nerdiness in order to be cool :) 

Now, the overcoat is blue with yellow elements - Max is being honest about her grief. She’s targeted by Vecna, the Hawkins gang knows she is SAD. It’s her last day, she can unfurl. The sweatshirt is unzipped and showing red and white underneath, the same colors we’ve seen her wear when we first met her. The girl that slammed the door of Billy’s car. The one that was scared of him. That girl is still inside Max. 

Sometimes, she’s wearing this. Grief covered up with brownish-reddish... Red. She’s going back to her previous self, she is talking to Lucas again and he SEES her... But to get that shade of red you go more towards black on the color wheel. She’s not that vivid, fiery red anymore. There are bits of that girl deep inside her, but she’s too tired to make it her entire self. She’s tired. 

#idk if this makes sense #i did not do research befor this i literally got this idea while changing clothes #and it works for the most part #maybe a bit delusional here and there #but i choose to choose being chill and just in awe of the costume department #i am also pretty sure you beautiful people have decoded this long ago #since the color theory makes a big part of the show #either way i love max #if she doesn't wear the prettiest colors in s5 then why should i live to see it #i hope SHE will be able to see it though #although blind max is beautiful; she doesn't deserve it :( #max mayfield #stranger things #lumax #elumax #elmax #not really color theory because i don't know the color theory :) literally just vibes #aaand i'm not gonna reread what i've written cuz i'm tired. hope it makes any sense. #but you're smart too so you can probably get the gist of what i was trying to say

[possumsarenice]

I’ve seen some people make some “What if the 2012 and 2018 turtles switched and grew up in the others’ world” AUs, but imagine if you will “2012 or 2018 Splinter has eight sons instead of four” aka, Splinter bought the 2012 AND 2018 turtles in the pet store or in 2018 Barron Draxum added 4 more turtles to his roster. In either universe the eight grow up as siblings. That is some chaos I’d love to see

#rise of the tmnt #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt 2018 #tmnt 2012 #teenage mutant ninja turtles 2012 #tmnt crossover #the 2012 boys obviously get their own mystic powers and I think should also be different turtles species #and each universe would have DRASTIC changes with all the extra turtles #The rise boys would probably have their alt weapons as the default in 2012 #also #names #I don’t think either Splinter would basically just the same names twice #maybe the alt names could be based off of a work the IRL artist did? #Although whoever’s in their home universe keeps their name #common courtesy ig

[iris-drawing-stuff]

Just Shidou

#milgram #milgram fanart #shidou kirisaki #doki doki literature club au #i'm back at this silly au again #i didn't want to put in the effort of making him blend in with the background because i'm really busy this week #also special apology to all shidou fans for forgetting his beauty marks in the first drawing #it probably will happen again #iris draws #I've been thinking about this AU a bit more (even though i should be focusing on upcoming exams i have) #haruka definitely wouldn't like the super dense wordy books like yuri so what would he like? (maybe children's books?) #mikoto reads mystery or horror novels because there is no way he doesn't watch horror movies in canon with an MV like that #although he did say he doesn't like violence so who knows #fuuta reads manga like natsuki but the genre is maybe isekai #he'd love the fantasy setting and wish fulfillment #although admittedly i'm not very familiar with manga as a whole so maybe there are more appropriate choices for him #i'm not sure what shidou would read though

[sukifoof-art]

hi just remembered i should post this here please forgive me for my horrible choices

#i am NOT tagging this if u see this u just have to live with it. #although i feel like i should have a tag for my stuff that barely counts as art... #tag later #ill figure it out probably

[puppyeared]

i feel like. theres designing a character with certain themes and motifs in mind, and then theres making a gijinka for the water bottle on my nightstand

#me when im the only person on the bus wearing a mask: i should make a furry plaguesona #its hard to explain bc. most of the time i try NOT to give my characters a 'strong' theme like making their whole design around #one thing like apples or even broad stuff like baking or cottagecore.. idk if its partly for flexibility or because i cant imagine them #making it their whole personality. not bc i find it cringe or overblown but more like ive learned to associate design with character depth #i had a cutesy uwu persona for most of highschool because i thought it would make me more. likeable? easy to remember? since #memorable character designs are easy to recognize. and one way of doing that is simplifying it with a theme or symbol so you form an #association. but since im a real person its exhausting keeping up that appearance all the time and denying myself things when they dont #fit my 'aesthetic' or 'theme.' i think ive grown past that bc i just collect stuff because i think it looks cool and dont let myself dwell #on how it might 'fit' with my image. but i cant help feeling bad doing it to my own characters bc it feels like im making them too one #dimensional. despite knowing that theyre not real and design alone doesnt reflect depth i cant help feeling like its wrong #despite that i love seeing motifs because it feels like it reflects the characters soul and paradoxically gives them depth. it makes them #interesting to look at too and honestly its pretty fun combining things that fall under a similar category when designing #i struggle find a balance between those two things #actually this reminds me of noelles christmas theme.. i dont remember her saying anything abt liking christmas despite a lot of #her design and character tying back to it. it makes me wonder if she would have feelings about that or doesnt think abt it too hard #or if its like a matching family shirts situation and shes just going along with it?? #maybe i should just do whatever i want with my character designs since theyre not real and im thinking abt it too hard #although. this probably has something to do with deep seated identity issues huh #yapping #oc talk #oc