#am i allowed to use those tags?

[glazedyeastring]

These were originally gonna be private but I like the outfits so much I'm posting them here.

Since the Likes Espio gang is going to Chun-nan in the fic I decided to give them some new good ol' fashioned cultural fits.

By the way, get ready for a history tangent :)

So this is a shenyi, a type of moderately formal Hanfu robe popular during the Warring States period. It is known as 'deep garment' in English, which translates to 'wrapping the body deep in cloth'. Up until the Han Dynasty, the shenyi would be form by royal families, aristocrats, etc. Although more common among women who wanted to hide their bodies while they walked. It lost it's popularity throughout history but reappeared in 2003 when a man wore a raojinshenyi in the streets.

Then ruqun, or more broadly, the yichang, is a set of Hanfu attire consisting of an upper garment(usually a short jacket) and a lower garment(a long skirt). It is the most common of Hanfu, worn mostly by women but also by men as well. The ruqun, along with it's varieties, have been and established part of Chinese culture for thousands of years as the two-piece garments symbolized the greater order of Heaven and Earth.

The cheongsam is a more modern form of Chinese attire, also know as a qipao dress. It was developed in the 1920s and overlapped with the Republican Era, popularized by the socialites and high society women of Shanghai(fitting for someone like Dinah). It's a form-fitting dress that was originally inspired by Manchu traditional clothing called the qizhuang.

Another piece of modern Chinese clothing, the male counterpart of the cheongsam. The zhongshan suit, also know as the Mao suit, is a tunic suit introduced shortly after the founding of the Republic of China in 1912. It typically has four pockets and five buttons(I didn't actually draw five buttons, sorry!), the pockets representing the Four Virtues of proprierty, justice, honesty, and shame; the five buttons symbolizing the five branches of China's former government, those being Executive, Legislative, Judicial, Examination, and Control. It's typically worn by men or government leaders as a symbol of national sovereignty.

The aoqun is a variety of the ruqun, a specific way of wearing the ao(short jacket) over the qun(skirt). While the classic ruqun has it's jacket tucked into the skirt(ru is often used as synonymous to ao), the aoqun has it's jacket worn over the skirt. Although since the ao is defined by the Xinhua Dictionary as 'an upper garment with multiple layers', it is often worn during the cold seasons.

And that's all! I'm sure you know who all these ocs belong to, so just enjoy them being stylish :>

#sonic the hedgehog #sonic #sonic oc #sonic fc #sonic original character #glazed ocs #other people's ocs #art roll #the likes espio gang #chamomile the lizard #katana the iguana #dinah the spaniel #slushie the arctic fox #muffin the wolf #chinese clothing #chinese culture #am i allowed to use those tags? #i probably got something inaccurate tbh #at least drawing the clothes was fun #i could've added accessories too but that would've been too much(for me) #glazed art #2023 art

[inkskinned]

you wanted to be a good friend, because you loved your friends, but the truth was that everyone else somehow had a pamphlet on being normal that you never received. most of the time you learn by trial-and-error. you are terrified of the next big mistake you make, because it seems like the rules are completely arbitrary.

you've learned to keep the prickly parts of your personality in a stormcloud under your bed - as if they're a second version of you; one that will make your friends hate you. it feels feral, burning, ugly.

instead, you have assembled habits based on the statistical likelihood of pleasing others. you're a good listener, which is to say - if you do speak up, you might end up saying the wrong thing and scaring off someone, but people tend to like someone-who-listens. or you've got no true desires or goals, because people like it when you're passive, mutable. you're "not easy to fluster" which is to say - your emotions are fundamentally uninteresting to others around you; so you've learned to control them to a degree that you can no longer really feel them happening.

you have long suspected something is wrong with you, but most of the time, googling doesn't help. you are so-used to helping-yourself, alone and with no handbook. the reek of your real self feels more like a horrible joke - you wake up, and, despite all your preparations, suddenly the whole house is full of smoke. the real you is someone waiting to ruin your other-life, the one where you're normal and happy. the real-self is unpredictable, angry.

your real self snarls when people infantilize the whole situation. because if you were really suffering, everyone seems to think you'd be completely unable to cope. but you already learned the rules, so you do know how to cope, and you have fucking been coping. it's not black-and-white. it's not that you are healed during the other times - it's just that you're able to fucking try. and honestly, whenever you show symptoms, it's a really fucking bad sign.

because the symptoms you have are ugly and unmanageable for others. your symptoms aren't waifish white girl things. they're annoying and complicated. they will be the subject of so many pretentious instagram reels. if they cared about you, they'd just show up on time. you care, a lot, so deeply it burns you. you like to picture a world where the comments read if they loved you, they'd never need glasses to see. but since that's a rule you've seen repeated - "one must never be late or you are a bad friend" - you constantly worry about being late and leave agonizingly early. there are no words for how you feel when you're still late; no matter how hard you were trying.

so you have to make up for it. you have to make up for that little horrible real you that you keep locked in a cabinet. you are bad at answering emails so every project you make has to be perfect. you are weird and sensitive so you have to learn to be funny and interesting. you are an inconvenience to others, so you become as smooth as possible, buffing out all the rough parts.

all this. all this. so people can pass their hands over you and just tell you just the once -how good you are. you're a good friend. you're loveable.

#spilled ink #woke up at 530 to write this lmafo #me in a cold sweat: #how do i be normal #edit in the tags: #hey so i've seen y'all talk about like ... wondering if ur ''allowed'' to relate #like if this is about X specific diagnosis #and when i first posted it i really almost labelled it ''please don't assume this is about a specific condition'' #because as an artist i am often walking this line of discussing a symptom or discussing my conditions etc #and sometimes yes ! i do want to talk about an experience that is specific to who i am and my condition #but sometimes the effort of the post is about the EXPERIENCE rather than the diagnosis #because yes i am not neurotypical and as a result that influences my work but it is ALSO true that there are many reasons #why someone might experience this particular vague horrible feeling that you are... almost being CHASED by what you ''really'' are. #that you're outrunning your symptoms... that you're not really normal you're just sort of a mockery of a person #.... that's a really isolating and horrible way to feel no matter why you are feeling it. and the nature of this PARTICULAR post is that #it is inherently talking ABOUT that sense of isolation & of feeling not-deserving & of minimizing your own experiences to make urself #palatable for society in a way that others find easy-to-deal-with.... #this post is about a certain experience such that my impression is there's a higher likelihood that those who relate #would have more difficulty thinking they ''deserve'' to relate - that it doesn't REALLY belong to them #bc often we are the kind of people who are SO used to being alienated and set aside and ''different'' that we AUTOMATICALLY assume #that things are not ''for'' us... they never have been why would it start now #we are the kinds of people to be ... ''too normal for X diagnosis but too symptomatic to be normal'' #[or as this post points out... so good at ''coping''/masking/hiding it that we essentially conform to whatever shape we're poured into] #but i have witnessed others already say in the tags ''thought this was about me but it's about X so it can't be'' #and im like ... of course it was about you. #art is not a resource that is diminished by greater appreciation . #you reflect in whatever mirror fits your frame. not just the ones in your bedroom. not just the ones i specifically give you. #there will be - and often are - times that i will talk about my specific conditions... but if you're reading this #regardless of why you're here... we are here together. holding hands through space and time. and i love you for carrying it #and i know you're exhausted. i am too. but i understand. and i see you.

[358-2-genders]

It hurts seeing adults care about their kids in the ways you wanted as a child! In fiction and in real life. Especially when inside your head you're still the SAME kid you used to be, even though you've grown now. It hurts but it's nice to think that like. I could be there for myself at least. I shouldn't of had to! But I was able to be there for myself. The rest of me was there for me and that's something that can't be taken away from me! I'll always be there for me and I'm here for me now!

#i mean. alot of ones that where there for me are dormant or VASTLY different now. but those parts of me still exist in other ways. so #dissociative identity disorder #actually did #idk what other tags to use but i think i want the DIDers to see this post idk! #heart.ash #also before the piss on the poor website says ANYTHING i am not glorifying DID. DID is more than this type of alter #im allowed to be happy i have THIS TYPE OF ALTER

[ethannku]

i think my main issue with tsats is that it doesn’t exist in a vacuum.

we know nico. he has a backstory that we have seen and character growth that has been fought for over 15 books, give or take. we’ve seen him interact with so many different characters and react to so many different situations, so we have a pretty good idea about who he is as a character.

we (kinda) know will. he wasn’t given too much screen time until toa, but from what we’ve seen, he’s a nice kid with a sassy streak and a desire to help people. literally the first substantial scene we get is him coming straight from delivering a child to running out on the battlefield. he not only stood by while octavian was blasted away, he also acknowledged that sometimes, death is necessary.

so my issues with tsats come from them warping these established traits to manufacture plot and character conflict. the “he would not fucking do that” meme has never applied to something more than tsats. sure, nico and will are kids, sure, they can make mistakes... but they are also characters in a book series, characters who have faced similar situations in the past and reacted completely differently, or characters who have shown us no reason to act the way they act in tsats.

i really didn’t want to make a tsats critical post but i felt i had to because the reason i don’t like tsats has nothing to do with the representation or ships or characters used or whatever else. it is simply because this is a bad book in a well-established series that i care about, and it disappointed me deeply because i loved nico and will and wanted their book to be amazing. 

#ethan talks #ok to rb #tsats #nico di angelo #will solace #< using those tags for my own personal organization system #if you don't like this post simply dni #also i'm not saying you aren't allowed to like tsats #if you liked it more power to you! i'm glad people like it! #its a great step for representation #i am just clarifying why i myself do not like it #once again: IF YOU LIKED TSATS CONTINUE TO EXIST AND LOVE THE BOOK

[viablemess]

I was silly goofy and didn't prep my CODAY post so I panic posted some little haiku. I know nothing about haiku, or poetry. So here is my little attempt because I had to have SOMETHING dated with 2-2-24 and I'll add something else later 🧡☀️✨️📙

#clone commander cody #coday #omg its here #yayyyy #star wars fanfic #fanfiction #clone wars #star wars #star wars the clone wars #cody deserves the world #and a hug #and a long-ass nap #obi wan kenobi #212th battalion #212th attack battalion #clones #bad poetry #haiku poetry #haiku poem #am i even allowed to use those tags if i dont know what im doing #i say yes #yes I am

[pyriteplates]

an important fact to acknowledge

#orikero #nururu #gijinka #sgt frog #keroro gunso #man am i even allowed to use those tags at this point i draw him human so often #whatever

[lolothesilly]

honestly i'd sort of like to make a concept album (or more than one!) revolving around my fantasy world.... i think itd be neat!!! i have such a weird relationship with like, Making Music though?? music theory does not vibe with my brain at all its like another form of math to me (<-dyscalculic) so i always feel so ill-prepared for it.

like. i dont know what im doing i dont know the language i dont know the syntax or the formulas. i know what sounds good to ME but i dont know Why a given group of notes sounds good together.

maybe what i need to do is like. fart around a bit while also taking notes. figure out exactly which progressions make my brain do a happy dance and then see if i can find a pattern. even if i Cant at least ill have a list of like? Things That Work For Me? thats something even if i cant explain why they work or how they work, itd give me a springboard

beyond that itd just be a matter of writing lyrics and singing them and recording myself singing and playing instruments and then piecing it all together. and like. to be real im Not good at any of those things but on the other hand i dont think i Have to be? i think its ok to create things even if theyre not Technically Skilled.

bad art is good art because you made art!!!!

#musicians on tumblr #am i allowed to use that tag LOL #im kind of intrigued by chord progressions and keys and such bc it feels almost like algebra to me #which is one of the few kinds of math i can get behind #like its still hard to process but its at least kinda fun #idk #any musicians with dyscalculia out there who have advice?? #dyscalculia #actually dyscalculic #those tags might not work since theyre so late in the post #oh well

[ghostiezone]

hmmmmm. there was an 💡Attempt💡

#i think maybe ill like him better if i paint his eyes. im already thinkin abt making the little lure glow in the dark #thoughts????? #his fins may have to be changed/come off completely tho bc. one already broke lmao #im also gonna try to clean him to get the fingerprints off but i need 2 wait for the glue to dry #so this is kind of a #wip #i still think hes cute tho :] #sculpture #anglerfish #anglerfish lamp #polymer clay #3d artwork #<< am i allowed to use that tag. nobodys corrected me yet. idk what else to call these last couple posts #ghostiezone #stuck-in-the-ghost-zone #fish #@ those of u that are going 2 peek at my book... yes i am rereading murderbot

[elenadoeslife]

your first love hits different

#another day another vent-in-the-tags post #i came across a picture of me and my fiest boyfriend of five years today. picture must've been 10 years old at this point #found many more pictures of him and us on my dad's old pc #i can just feel my body pull and heart ache when i look at him in the pictures #wondering what my life would've looked like if i hadn't broken things off between us #we tried to stay friends and a couple of months later we went for a drink. when daying goodbye he moved in to kiss me #i was hesitant and stepped away. he couldn't bare having me in his life while not being together so he cut off all contact #don't get me wrong in any of my thoughts- i love babe whole heartedly and he's the only man for me now and in my future #it's just that nagging feeling burried deep. the 'what if's. what if i felt more confident about my body back then? #what if i hadn't moved on so quickly? what if i had let him kiss me? #i tried texting him telling him i was approved for gbp surgery (i broke things off because i was very insecure about my body) #he congratulated me and sincerely wished me all the happiness in the world but also asked me not to contact him again after this #it's been 7-ish years but every now and then i wonder how he's doing and what he's up to #he doesn't really have social media apart from facebook (and that page is private) and i only stayed in touch with his former best friend #but i'm not gonna ask him because i know they haven't spoken in years either #i've had plenty more relationships after him but i rarely ever think about those guys #am i okay? is this normal? lol #i should get my head out of this rabbit hole asap #add: the picture is almost 15 years old lol. my math ain't mathing. we met in 2009. not that it's important #i think i just moved on too quickly and didn't allow myself time & space to grieve. that's why he keeps popping up in my thoughts now & then

[neverendingford]

.

#tag talk #anytime my friends point out that something I say is good advice or express that they see me as aspirational I'm always just like.... #wtf how am I am example to look up to I'm just an idiot bumbling his way through life trying to avoid hitting her head on cabinet corners #honestly it's mostly just seeing mistakes others have made and going “I will not make those mistakes. I will make weirder mistakes than that #like. it feels a little like the “I'm eighty years old I'm done with putting up with everyone's bullshit” except it's #it's “I didn't kill myself so I'm not gonna put up with bullshit anymore” #like. I chose life. I'm not about to half-ass that decision. I'm not gonna walk back that decision. I'm not going to flinch away from it. #that fuckin... “what do we have to fear but fear itself” quote or whatever. like.. I died. you think anything else is gonna scare me? #if I'm going to be stuck here on this planet you bet your ass I'm gonna make the most of it. I'm not gonna be embarrassed. no shame. #we're all living here until we die and the things that matter are your own life and then the people around you. #I'm not going to miss out on a chance to find community and connection just because I'm afraid. I'm done being afraid. #though... I have been feeling shrimp emotions for the past two weeks and my stomach has tied itself up in knots over it. #I'm so detached because I'm afraid of feeling my emotions too strongly. so letting go and experiencing emotions is a lot for me. #and agghfffgghh I'm going to make it through this I'm going to make it through this but damn it's really rough #allowing yourself to get close to someone again after solidifying your position as unassailable is so hard. #especially because I've gotten so used to shielding the emotions of other people. hard to be honest when your honesty will hurt them #it's wild being around someone who's not wildly insecure because I can be genuine and honest and not worry about what I say hurting her. #I could say “I'm leaving in a year do you still want to date?” and trust that she would actually think it through and give a reliable answer #like. I can handle just my emotions because she's able to handle hers. #being in mental health spaces for so long I'm not used to interacting with emotionally stable people lmaooo #do you think I'm emotionally stable? I don't think I am. but then I meet other people who are wildly more unstable than I am and hmmm #like. sui wasn't an emotional choice it was a cost benefit analysis. I get emotionally unstable sure. but I contain myself until it's over. #I know enough to not be impulsive because I recognize impulsive behavior in others and thus in myself as well. #so like. I'm unstable but I'm not externally unstable. I know how to isolate when I'm in a wounded lashing out state. #anyway I've been processing so many emotions this past week because I'm wildly out of practice with allowing myself emotional honesty #instead of just bricking myself up behind my defensive apathy. I want to hold onto this. I want to continue to channel these emotions. #I want to be unafraid to tell people when I love them #though with her it's more of a Nerevarine situation. you are not someone I love but rather someone who might become that. #like. I haven't known her long enough to really say I love. but I very much think if things continue how they are I will be confident in it #and not even romantic love per se. I have some old friends who I genuinely love. several siblings who I love. most people I know I do not.

[shmorp-mcdurgen]

Thinking about Mandela Prophet au.

But brain isn’t coming up with new ideas- 

#Ramblings :) #LIKE. Au's rotate in my mind but most of the time #new ideas just. don't. show up- /lh #Though I did think about some things for Adam's overall anatomy like. #The parasite's origin point or heart is where his stomach used to be. #And. He no longer has the bottom half of his sternum allowing his lower ribs to move out of the way easier when the parasite wants out #especially helpful for the parasite when its coming through the chest specifically- #So I guess I have some new ideas though. I did share those on discord already- #Wow I really am rambling anyway i'm insane /lhj #mandela prophet #guess I should tag this as au for the ramble in the tags

[joswriting]

The first thing Aanya of Faino noticed was that she was staring. She was staring, but not at anything in particular. She was staring, but she wasn't seeing anything. She concluded that this was a silly, ineffective thing to do, so she decided she should actively see whatever it was she was aiming her eyes at. Her eyes were aimed at a marble statue of an old man with only one eye, but three legs, as if to make up for it. The statue was painted in a warm red. Out of his eye the man was crying pure water, which gathered in a pool below. Over the water hovered a long insect with thin wings, which Aanya instinctively grabbed and shoved into her mouth. It didn't taste like anything and didn't fill her stomach one bit. "What a waste of time" she thought. Once she had started to become annoyed, she realized she had a much better reason to be annoyed. Such as not knowing where she was or how she had gotten there. Aanya of Faino frowned. "Aanya", someone called. "Aanya, where are you now?" "I don't know", said Aanya, more to herself than anyone.

Fiiinally after about 1.5 years I've published the next part of my short story anthology on Cosmic.Voyage. I really like how this one turned out, I have a really hard time with the "transmission"-like formatting so I am cheating and writing regular old third person for this one (it will all make in-universe sense, don't you worry)

You can read the full chapter (3k words, I try to keep them small) here: The Fountain of Youth (cw: space racism, eugenics, blood)

To read the whole log, you can go to the ship's page: Lovelace

#i will make aanya eat insects forever. eat those bugs girl. sustenance #writeblr #short story #original fiction #scifi writing #am writing #writeblrcafe #I loove the lovelace crew its my fav project tbh dont tell all my doomed On the end characters that #wip: lovelace #i hope im allowed to use those discord community tags lol if not tell me to f off #oc: aanya of faino

[sleepybug05]

self sabotaging like that feels horrid

YEAH it feels good to eat for about an hour or two, but what about after that? arent you forgetting YEARS of mental torture that was looking in the mirror? looking like a child, with all that baby fat?

doesnt it feel great to see the outline of your cheekbones starting to show? being able to take selfies freely? not escaping group photos? strangers beibg nicer to you? actually enjoying your walks? noticing those glances of your friends ta your waistline?

sigh

im gonna forgive myself for today and go with the flow. okay. whatever. but rules after that are gonna be stern.

#SELF fucking REMINDER!!!!!!!!!!! #tw ana diary #tw @na diary #@n0r3xia #@na trigger #am i even allowed to use those tags after that hahahaha????????? #tw ana vent #@na vent #buzz ꮼ

[stitchwraith-stingers]

pain and suffering and pain and suffering

#calico.exe #i am so used to sony vegas and you being allowed to put multiple images into one collum #after effects is kicking my ass #its one of those danganronpa comedian sprite videos #ill never share it but im putting so much time into this i swear if it doesnt get atleast 1k views #I LEARNT HOW TO KEYFRAME JUST FOR THIS #sorry for anyone who does know how to use after effects who happened to find this while looking at the tag and its a mess #next thing i know i could put these things in a collum and i never knew #also by never share it i mean never post it onto here directly

[moonbittern]

in network effect murderbot is starting to get the hang of talking about its feelings for mensah (with mensah herself but also with amena!! love that) but not in a human ritualized way, just like. using its own words to describe its own feelings instead of using someone else’s words to approximate them. it’s good

#i just really like you not in a weird way #thiago thinks you love my second mom/not the way he thinks #i don't want to not see you again #AUGH #as an aro autistic person all i want is relationships where i am allowed to just. use the words that seem appropriate to me #and those words being taken at face value instead of as part of the weird talking-around-things that allistic people are so into #(which is not to say that asking for clarification is inappropriate - actually the opposite. ASK if you're not sure. don't assume) #(not the way he thinks. exactly) #but also murderbot having room to not know exactly how to describe its feelings and that being okay #i love that farai's response to murderbot saying it doesn't really know what to call its relationship with mensah is 'thank you' #instead of getting frustrated - she understands that murderbot is being honest and is grateful for that!!! #i want farai and murderbot to be friends #murderbot diaries tag #mensah and murderbot

[jackredfieldwasmyjacob]

@motsimages tagged me in for 10 songs 10 people, mil gracias :)

these are random songs from my most played playlist, hope you like them!

i'll also add some lyrics just for fun lol

te quiero porque te quiero (fandangos) by rozalén ft. rodrigo cuevas

te quiero porque te quiero / cuando paso por tu puerta / cuando paso por tu puerta / cojo pan y voy comiendo

6 AM by ginebras

¿cómo olvidarme de los días / en un bar de la latina / y del latero que hace música al pasar? ¿de influencias modernistas y mareas / feministas / si en el fondo no lo he pasado tan mal?

el cielo son los otros by confeti de odio

solo estoy contento cuando algo a mi alrededor / me distrae del hecho de que sigo siendo yo

la posada by sebastián cortés ft. alba reche

me enseña to' lo que hay por descubrir / no' miramos de cerquita pa' sentir / to' lo que nos queda, to' lo que nos queda / por vivir

tanguillo de la guapa de cádiz by lola flores

¡y desí que yo tengo postiso! / comprobadlo, tenéis mi permiso, / pasarme la mano, / vamo a vé si encontráis miraguano, / serrín o viruta; / que me toque una mano inocente.

que pasa nen by alizz

però em sento la chanel, català de segona / burguesia intel·lectual podeu menjar-me la poll-

a ver qué pasa by rigoberta bandini

y a ver qué pasa / porque algo pasa / creo que algo pasa / cuando me pasa

desastre de persona by ginebras ft. dani martín

dices que quieres ir al cine / por parecer que eres intelectual / y ya te has puesto quince alarmas / porque mañana tienes que trabajar

adiós by zahara

dedícame mi canción de despedida / y dedícame tu canción de despedida / ¿cómo has tenido valor de hacer una canción de amor?

esa también fui yo (quiero acordarme) by alba reche

me forzaron a querer dentro de una habitación / aún me culpo al dedicarte toda una puta canción

and i tag @naguaraquerandom @alicechesire @sarcasmisalifechoice @eskamtrash @skamesp @rosalia-de-castro @glittertrail @claimedbytheearth @looselysealedkrypton @andalusi

#tag game #i didn't realise i had so many spanish songs in there lol #anyways i'll use the tags for english translations <3 #1. i love you because i love you (fandangos) #i love you because i love you / when i walk by your door / when i walk by your door / i take some bread and eat it #2. 6 am #how could i forget those days / in a bar in la latina / and the tinsmith that makes music as he walks by? #modernist influences and feminist marches / in the end it wasn't that bad? #3. heaven is the others #i'm only happy when something around me / distracts me from the fact i'm still me #4. the inn #(they) teach me everything that has yet to be discovered / we don't look (at each other) closer to feel / everything that's left for us #everything that's left for us / to live #5. tanguillo of the beauty of cádiz #and you say they (my tits) are not real! / check them i'll allow it / rub the hand (on them) / let's see if you find a palm tree #sawdust or chips; / let an innocent hand touch me #6. what's up dude (i don't speak catalan so this translation might not be 100% accurate) #but i feel like chanel a second-class catalan / intellectual bourgeoisie you can suck my d- #7. let's see what happens #and let's see what happens / cause something is happening / i think something is happening / when it happens to me #8. human disaster #you say you want to go to the cinema / trying to look intelligent / but you have already set fifteen alarms up #cause you have work tomorrow #9. goodbye #dedicate my farewell song to me / dedicate your farewell song to me / how dare you write me a love song? #10. i am also her (i want to remember) #i was forced to love inside a room / i still blame myself for dedicating you a whole fucking song