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cinamun · 2 months

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My favorite BHM looks from this months CAS Challenge!

1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8

#ts4 #sim self #sims 4 cas #simblr #black simblr #ts4 lookbook #y'all really got the sim self over 1k on day one #and I've been crying ever since #i love y'all

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captainrufflebanger · 2 months

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Hi! I'm from twitter (simple follower) but i wanted to say anonymously that i love your art <3

Your Alcina depiction will forever be one of my favourite ones. She's so HERSELF & recognisable and i love that you give her a soft stomach and realistic bodytype in general.

It's such a treat among certain male gaze-y depictions (where all her weight centers at two places haha)

Your art is soo impactful and important!! It feels as you draw her while genuinely liking this character (sorry for being an extremely cheesy weirdo); as I've said, certain art feels soulless and objectified way too much

Thank you for being cool and drawing older women the way they deserve to be portrayed

Anon I need you to know I read this at 7am, cried into my tea, went to work, came home, read it again, cried aGAIN, and dug this sketch out of the WIP void just for you. You've left me speechless and I can't even begin to thank you enough for your kind words right now. May The Big Woman™ bring you happiness.

#FUCK I AM CRYING AGAIN WHILE TYPING THIS I'VE BEEN ABSOLUTELY OBLITERATED EMOTIONALLY (POSITIVE)#lady dimitrescu #alcina dimitrescu #re8 #resident evil village #resident evil alcina #little peeky of cheeky there sssh don't tell the mods #I like to think she's got a cadou scar on her upper back since that's where her dress has that little opening under the capelet #Sighs... Big Lady brought me so much joy the past 3 years... and now I need her help again more than ever #captain's art log

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deweyduck · 11 months

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@pscentral event 15: favourite relationships

↳ ANNE BOONCHUY, SASHA WAYBRIGHT, & MARCY WU

Change can be difficult, but it's how we grow. It can be the hardest thing to realise you can't hold on to something forever. Sometimes... you have to let it go. But of the things you let go... you'd be surprised... what makes its way back to you.

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carlyraejepsans · 3 months

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i don't think I've ever enjoyed a birthday party with friends as much as today i am genuinely getting a bit teary eyed

#initially i wasn't planning to do anything but then i thought what the hell what if we go out to drink something #except it was all very up in the air so a good deal of folks couldn't come (which is fine that one's on me)#but the two who COULD make it are genuinely some of the funniest motherfuckers I've ever met and one of them brought his gf along #and we hit it off IMMEDIATELY and THEN we ran into another pal I hadn't seen in a while and hadn't had the chance to invite in person #who also joined in after he finished hanging out with other people and they got me a present????? 😭#i haven't had a birthday with friends in fucking . 3 years between covid and everyone i knew moving away #I'm so happy i think my heart is going to explode #which ik. hey isn't that a very boring and simple hangout YES but also not to me baby i have been in a depression isolation all my teens #i started to genuinely enjoy my day to day life like. 4 months ago ever since starting uni #it feels like turning a new leaf yknow? like. i made it. i made it out. god i could cry #sorry I'm a little drunk

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andy-clutterbuck · 1 year

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Rick Grimes - The Walking Dead | Joel Miller - The Last Of Us

#Rick Grimes #Joel Miller #The Last Of Us #The Last of Us HBO #guess who's back back again #not shady but me with the apocalypse dilfs #*#rg #i've been thinking about this since the first episode #and i kept telling myself not to make it #but now i've had too man margs so i'm gonna make it #also that rick and joel outfit gifset got me the most notes i have ever had so lmfao #i love apocalypse dilfs #when apocalypse dads threaten bodily harm it can be so personal #if you see this and say 'lacey yes' you're a real one 😘😘#*me crying at the quality difference while giffing* yeah aesthetic and film n' whatever idc

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paiirupie · 5 months

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i forgot to post this here

#💌 paii's art #final fantasy 7 #final fantasy vii #ff7 #ffvii #cloud strife #ever since square dropped news on ff7r i've been feeling like the biggest killjoy in existence #this doesn't even have anything to do w the drawing itself. i just need to let out the anger in some way. i'm sorry -crying emoji-#i have to continue ignoring it and pretend only the og exists so i can live in peace

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quarks-pussy · 7 months

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So I know we here at Startrekfandom love that "came back wrong but from the pov of the wrong" thing and apply it to many different characters and canon situations and I am far from trying to complain about it (I'm "came out wrong" trope myself so I was always gonna obsess over it) but having recently watched a very important episode (you'll know which one) for the first time I think there's a character who hits both tropes mentioned but llike, intertwined, opposite and subverted, and whom I wanna talk about.

Julian Bashir.

From his parents' pov he's "came out wrong but we got him help and he came back better" while from his own pov it's "came out 'insufficient', was destroyed for it, came back wrong and only later slowly came to terms with his new self tho never the process (justifiably so)" and it's heartbreaking because in a way, he's right! Jules Bashir died! His parents had an intellectually disabled child and decided to eugenics him! Julian is not the person he used to be and while I do love the person he is now, that doesn't bring back who he was! Part of me wishes we could've gotten to see Jules at least once and part of me hopes we never do because my heart would shatter.

This isn't a good comparison but nonetheless one I can't help drawing: it's giving similar vibes to anti-vaxxers. "I'd rather risk having a child who is dead than one who's autistic". Obviously this doesn't map over since Julian is still autistic and the procedure his parents subjected him to specifically targeted his intellectual disability and if any folks with id wanna comment on this I definitely recommend you listen to them over me, but it's a similarity I, as an autistic who has encountered anti-vaxxers again and again, can't help but point out. "Give me a normal child or give them death."

This may have been written about already but there needs to be stories about teenage Julian (after finding out and rediscovering who he was) practicing some good ol' recognition of the self through media. I need to hear about how he would encounter a story about someone who came back wrong (I'm gonna assume there's plenty of "wrong" pov stories floating around by the 24th century) and absolutely weep. I need to see Julian mourning Jules, taking years and years to process his feelings, experiencing guilt about how he, the imposter, didn't deserve to live Jules' life.

Came back wrong from the returned's pov but it wasn't an accident. It was done to you deliberately by the people who claim to love you. And now you are here, piloting the corpse of your predecessor.

Jules Bashir is dead. Long live Julian Bashir.

#i've called julian jules before simply as a normal nickname but i don't think i ever will again. not after this #and knowing that if it had been possible i would have probably gone the way jules did. knowing that at his age i would have gone willingly.#fuck dude i am literally actually crying literal tears irl right now this is not a joke #fuck!!!!!#julian bashir #jules bashir #doctor bashir i presume #came back wrong #star trek deep space nine #HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD!! HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD AND THEY KILLED HIM!!!!#i cannot stop crying i am literally crying and like not even just a little #i cannot... poor julian how the FUCK do you ever come to terms with something like that #and like... julian remembers. he has most if not all of jules' memories and also knows he was murdered simply for not being julian #like how did he cope #(im about to go off on a tangent that will contain censored names for the sake of not clogging those tags if you dont know who i mean hmu)#like this is literally the thing that fucked up j*ran so bad he went on a murder spree isn't it #he remembers the one who came before who was killed. very different circumstances of course esp since tr*ll are expected to replace one ano #another but he remembers this person he remembers BEING this person who was young and simply enjoying life and who died a sudden death and #he remembers the experience of that death as well and how it lead to his own creation. it's not remotely similar ofc but considering that #the only time we see t*rias in alpha canon is in julian's body... i need to lie down for a moment.#and jor*n couldn't cope! he couldn't! it was far too much and the weird thing is right now in this moment i GET it y'know?? like that's #so horrific. and i haven't watched any jo*an episode besides facets yet but do you think. do you think j*dzia told julian about all this an #he nodded along and kept composure and then when he was alone he broke down crying? like julian you're doing SO well ily you're coping and #you shouldn't have to obviously but you do nonetheless!! do you think julian still has something from jules? like i've heard there's a tedd #but i mean jules prolly didn't keep a diary he was a six year old with an intellectual disability it's pretty unlikely he could write but #does julian have drawings made by jules? i'd like to think so but honestly his parents probably threw them out. like they also moved so #sorry i'm just. many thoughts head full. ive stopped crying now but who knows for how long. also i'll have to tag this with my original tag #maybe i should've picked something less silly for when i make serious posts but like what am i gonna change my url as well? don't think so #original posts fresh from quark's pussy #and thats the tag limit folks it's been fun. i had to delete two other tags but my god. anyway. thinking about jules bashir forever & cryin

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frenchtantan · 7 months

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I can't stop thinking about q!Baghera's lore. Or, I guess it's not much lore and more of a big character arc.

I foolishly thought she would be angry, but overall okay. She wasn't.

I went in thinking in a cold, calculated manner, and thought she'd do the same. She didn't.

Because of course she didn't. It's not that simple.

She has no real parents, she was created in a lab.

She was never here to be loved, only to be experimented on.

She was never really cared for, she was brutally tortured for science.

She was never safe, they found a way to bring her back.

Her origins, where she came from, it's not just a tragedy. Her past on the island is a childhood-long horror movie.

Of course she's broken. Of course memories of it send her in shock.

Of course she'd want to burn them.

I went in thinking we'd get more answers about the Federation and their experiments. In a way, we did.

But that's not important.

SHE is the most important part of her story. This is what we need to pay attention to. Her. How she will deal with her trauma, how far down it will make her fall.

And hopefully, with a little luck, how high up she'll rise again.

#also I've been shaking and crying #ever since she ended her live today #I am not okat lmao #this is a game of cubes #why am I taking it so seriously????#qsmp #qsmp baghera #qsmp lore #qsmp federation

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dragons-and-dwarves-are-nice · 8 months

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I’m back and I made more!!

I’ve experimented with designing more ‘limited edition’ back designs and I’m kinda impressed with myself lol

The rest are all card shaped I just haven’t done the backs yet cuz I’m moving out in 4 days and I’m yet to finish packing

I’ve had a few people asking me if I would sell these and honestly I would, but, my printer isn’t amazing quality and my uni work is gonna be taking over my free time soon.

I might in the future if enough people ask but for the time being I can post a tutorial or some printable back designs? Idk I’ve never done this before lol.

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#pls send help i know i'm procastinating #i've also binge watched both seasons of good omens #i've been weeping ever since #the hobbit #kili #fili #photocard #kili x reader #fili x reader #hobbit x reader #big soup #the hobbit x reader #to the shadows that cry witch #kili durin #fili durin #legolas #bilbo #bilbo baggins #bofur

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thebirdandhersong · 7 months

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I think the problem. the problem is that I have always been afraid of not being invited into the inner circle. and am always wanting to be part of the inner circle. inner circle being the circle of love and companionship and communion. of course being a TCK and a bit of a sheltered homeschooled oddball child has nudged this further along over the years. but I didn't realise how STRONG that desire still burned. to actually be wanted.

#in other words today has been an oddly sad day! discovering that the friends you've made have their own group chats #that are separate from the general group chat (that no one ever talks on) that you aren't a part of is......... i don't know #i KNOW i'm liked by them and i KNOW they love me but do they WANT me around?#like. i know i'm not UNpleasant to have around. i am a good listener and a good conversationalist.#i work very hard at it because it doesn't come naturally to me.#but clearly that's not enough to be added to exclusive group chats! clearly that's not enough to be part of inner core circles #i don't know this just came out of nowhere and i feel as if i've been slapped in the face #sitting at a table where people are talking about the thing someone sent to the group chat #or the photo or quote or reel someone sent to someone else is....... bizarre.#i am trying not to be so hurt by it! i am trying not to take it so personally #it happens. i know it happens. i know it will keep happening. it is just that i thought this was a place where i wouldn't be lonely #and this is the dorm community i've invested so much of my time and energy and love into since last year.#so i think i'm justified in being a little upset!#i'm not crying about it but that's because i'm not about to cry with other people sitting here in the study lounge!#the math is probably really wrong here but i thought that if i poured love in for the sake of pouring love in #somehow somewhere along the line i would also receive love. that i would actually be a part of this community.#anyway that's not going to change how i live here! i committed myself to doing my best this last year #because i don't want anyone to feel left out or unwanted or lonely. i already made the decision #to do everything i can to love the people here.#i'm not trying to toot my horn this is just what i actually want to and have decided to do!#i have birthday cards planned! i have midterm snacks planned!#i've just worked out how i can print christmas and easter cards and stickers!#i'm GOING to love darn it all i'm GOING to pour love in #i think it hurts especially because there's the boy problem going on too #of not being wanted in an area that i DIDN'T expect to be wanted in #and then learning that there is a collective not being wanted in this whole community #it is a Lot and it is very hard and i don't know what to do with it!#i have had this lie (that i'm inherently unloveable and undesirable) in my head since childhood #and i've worked SO HARD to shut that voice up. and it is so so hard to not believe it right now

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troublebrew666 · 7 months

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Old Witches

i got inspo for eva from the outfit she has in that one good-future manga panel, tried to combine it with something more beato-ish... her jewelry is from an anime formalwear outfit auau was embarrassingly hard for me and i prob still drew stuff wrong, im out of practice lol

#umineko #umineko no naku koro ni #ikuko hachijo #eva ushiromiya #ikueva #when they cry #yuri #ruxy art #several months ago i got it in my head that ikuko and eva belong together and i've been like this ever since #look up my ikueva fics on ao3 if you want

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yahargulian · 8 months

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Nightow naming the chapter 'Wolfwood' has always stuck with me, specifically because of the way it makes the chapter end:

We spend a short amount of time at the end of this chapter with the brief belief that Wolfwood might actually be fine. Us, the readers, alongside Vash, are temporarily allowed a moment of denial before reality comes crashing down again.

And then this. Something as simple as the chapter's end notice, here to inform you that no, this is the end. The end of Wolfwood - the chapter and character, both.